Little Miracles…

If you would have asked me a few years ago if I would have considered today’s events to be miraculous, I probably would have said no.  I feel differently now, and for that I am grateful. We had our first ultrasound since I have started writing this blog, so this was the first time we have seen Audrey in 2 1/2 weeks.  It appears that God has been busy….

Our technician’s name is Patti.  I say “is” because we have pretty much given her no choice but to stay with us during the coming weeks. We know that she was handpicked by the Lord to walk with us, and we have no intention of letting her off the hook:) We just adore her. Patti works with Dr. Fortunato, and was with us the day that we had the confirmation ultrasound at Centennial Hospital.  Today, she spent two hours with us.  She would not give up until she had seen everything she thought she could see.  In any situation, this would have been considered amazing, but even more so considering the circumstances.  The fact of the matter is that she sees our baby as a child worthy of the time.  As a mother, I could not ask for more.  Patti told me not to write about her, and said that she was “just doing her job.”  It appears that we disagree about exactly what qualifications are required to make a difference in someone’s life.  She may have been doing a job, but it wasn’t one that you get by earning a degree.  It was one of compassion and of dedication, and we are forever grateful for 12o minutes of looking at our sweet baby with a near stranger who loved her with us.  Thank you, Patti, may God return this blessing  to you tenfold during your days…
Because of her relentless work, we were able to see glimpses of our Father’s Hands at work. Dr. Fortunato will be reviewing my pictures in the morning, so I will wait to comment on details…when we have a better handle on what to ask for in prayer, I will update the blog again. For today, we rejoice in what we feel are miracles.  Although we have no reason to believe that the outcome of her life will be different at this point, she is already defying what we have seen as reality.  Here are the highlights…
Firstly, we have never seen a bladder.  It was our assumption that she did not have one. 
She does.
We had never seen her stomach.  
We did today.
We had never really been sure if she had four chambers in her heart. 
She does.
And remember those “non-functioning, polycystic kidneys?” 
Well, it looks like our God decided to heal one of them.  
Medically possibly? I’m not sure.  And that in itself is enough to leave us speechless.
There were also some things that we hadn’t seen before today that brought up more questions, but they are small questions compared to big answers.
Todd said tonight that he had never seen me so happy.  I tend to agree.  I can’t remember ever looking at an ultrasound and thanking God for a stomach or a bladder.  I don’t particularly remember even seeing the six healthy kidneys that I have created before today.  The truth is that I have taken a lot for granted.  I’m not going to say that I won’t ever do that again, but it certainly won’t come as naturally.  If you had been a fly on the wall in our car on the way home, you would not have thought we were carrying a tragedy.  You would have laughed with us in joyful awe, as I hope you are now.  As far as how God decides to paint the rest of her life?  We don’t know that yet.  What we do know is that He is in our midst, and the glory of this moment belongs to Him.  We are not afraid to pray the unimaginable and I beg you to join us.
I hope to know (and write) more very soon.  I could not stand to go to bed tonight without sharing this with you all.  Know that we are peaceful and resting where we are, holding onto hope.  
We are not praying because we believe that God will heal our Audrey.  We don’t know that He will.
We are praising Him because He can.  

We celebrated my nephew’s 11th birthday tonight and we laughed and cried over burgers and miracles.  All the kids took home balloons from the restaurant, and Kate became particularly connected to hers.  When I say “connected,” what I mean is “screaming bloody murder when anyone touched, approached, or looked at her balloon.”
After all the candles were blown out and the house was quiet, Todd called me into Kate’s room, where she was (finally) sleeping.  She was clearly in dreamland, but in her left hand, she was gripping the balloon string as the object of her affection floated unassumingly over her head.  That is so Kate, I thought.  After I laughed for a minute, it occurred to me that she was doing exactly what we are.

Against all odds, she was refusing to let go.
Thank you for reading, for loving us, and for praying.  
With much gratitude and joy,
Angie

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  • Megan

    AMEN

  • todsandberg

    I love seeing God work! Especially miracles like these! I wouldn’t call them little miracles myself… seems more on the BIG side to me… sorry. :)

    I have faith in Him, not only that He can overcome all of these obstacles (as we’re just starting to see), but that He will CHOOSE to do it for you and Todd.

    He loves you deeply!

    Lord, thank you for your protection thus far and please continue to work miracles in her. Cover little Audrey and protect her… by the blood of Jesus Christ!

  • THE BOONE’S

    Hello, my name is Robin, I am 36, married ( still in love with my beloved of 12 yrs.) we have four children, many pets and we love the Lord. I am nearing the end of a 21 day fast and this morning I got up with the alarm to get the oldest children off to school, went to the family stereo system pushed power, “shuffle” (my three Selah cd’s were in there) and cranked it up! It’s hard to have “moutain top” time with God while running a household and today I needed encouraged. After the morning routine I sat at my computer to check for an email message from my oldest child, but there was none and with the music still cranked I typed in Selah, came accross the Selahonline site, saw the headline there that said pray for Todd and Angie , clicked it and when the page popped up I started to cry instantly. My last child, Nathanael Theodore, was the answer to a prayer that lasted two LONG years (waited on God’s timing) many women may know what I mean when I say that my arms ached to hold him and my heart cried out to the lord everyday– I could compare my condition in those days, to Hannah in the bible and one night, The Lord woke me up in the early hours of the morning and directed me to that portion of scripture,(1 Samuel 1:12-20) I can’t tell you the peace and joy that swept over me when my eyes fell on the part that said ” Go in peace: and the God of Isreal grant thee thy petition that thou hast asked of him.”
    I said all that, to say this–
    “Angie, Todd (and family) Go in peace: and The God of Isreal grant thee thy petition that thou hast asked of him.”
    (listening to Selah as I do several times in a day)
    I prayed this morning with “worship” tears running down my hot cheeks, what could I send the people that have given me so very much… to let them know how they help me reach your presence with household chaos all around me and… The Lord has laid it upon my heart to dedicate a full fast and pray for you and I will
    1-26,1-27,1-28 (May you be encouraged at the knowing of this)
    NOT THAT MY FLESH WOULD GLORY BUT THAT HE ALONE WOULD RECEIVE ALL THE PRAISE, HONOR AND GLORY.

    DARE TO TRUST, HOPE AND BELIEVE IN HIS POWER..IN HIS WILL.
    I’m not sure if you can feel my arms wrapped around you right now but they are there holding you up and comforting you until you don’t need them so much again, because we are all one body in christ and whether one member suffer, all the members suffer with it; or one member be honoured, all the members rejoice with it.
    Our family will be praying with you and just now I’m reminded of what happened in the book of acts when they were in one accord :)
    Once the wretch the song refers to Robin B. now greatfully saved

  • Melissa P.

    YAY!!! I continue to pray and am checking back often! :)

  • Marin

    That’s awesome you guys!!! God is sooo good. This reminds me of Jacob refusing to let go until God blessed him. He loves you guys and is with all 6 of you. Praying for you all!

  • Jill

    Angie and Todd – Praising God with both of you for all the miracles He is blessing you with each day! His love and grace is sufficient. He is our all in all! You are not in this alone – He is right there with you and so is every family touched by this story and the LIFE growing inside of you. Hold tight to His promises – you need not make any to Him. You can give Him nothing and He will always give You everything!

    In His grace,
    Jill in PA

  • The Mieles: Jerry, Julie & Caleb

    Ang- We are rejoicing in the little miracles that God has shown you. What a great reminder that He is still God and that He can do and will do what He says He will do. We’re praying for miracles!

  • The Mieles: Jerry, Julie & Caleb

    Ang- We are rejoicing in the little miracles that God has shown you. What a great reminder that He is still God and that He can do and will do what He says He will do. We’re praying for miracles!

  • The Mieles: Jerry, Julie & Caleb

    Ang- We are rejoicing in the little miracles that God has shown you. What a great reminder that He is still God and that He can do and will do what He says He will do. We’re praying for miracles!

  • The Mieles: Jerry, Julie & Caleb

    Ang- We are rejoicing in the little miracles that God has shown you. What a great reminder that He is still God and that He can do and will do what He says He will do. We’re praying for miracles!

  • The Mieles: Jerry, Julie & Caleb

    Ang- We are rejoicing in the little miracles that God has shown you. What a great reminder that He is still God and that He can do and will do what He says He will do. We’re praying for miracles!

  • The Mieles: Jerry, Julie & Caleb

    Ang- We are rejoicing in the little miracles that God has shown you. What a great reminder that He is still God and that He can do and will do what He says He will do. We’re praying for miracles!

  • The Mieles: Jerry, Julie & Caleb

    Ang- We are rejoicing in the little miracles that God has shown you. What a great reminder that He is still God and that He can do and will do what He says He will do. We’re praying for miracles!

  • The Mieles: Jerry, Julie & Caleb

    Ang- We are rejoicing in the little miracles that God has shown you. What a great reminder that He is still God and that He can do and will do what He says He will do. We’re praying for miracles!

  • The Mieles: Jerry, Julie & Caleb

    Ang- We are rejoicing in the little miracles that God has shown you. What a great reminder that He is still God and that He can do and will do what He says He will do. We’re praying for miracles!

  • The Mieles: Jerry, Julie & Caleb

    Ang- We are rejoicing in the little miracles that God has shown you. What a great reminder that He is still God and that He can do and will do what He says He will do. We’re praying for miracles!

  • The Mieles: Jerry, Julie & Caleb

    Ang- We are rejoicing in the little miracles that God has shown you. What a great reminder that He is still God and that He can do and will do what He says He will do. We’re praying for miracles!

  • The Mieles: Jerry, Julie & Caleb

    Ang- We are rejoicing in the little miracles that God has shown you. What a great reminder that He is still God and that He can do and will do what He says He will do. We’re praying for miracles!

  • The Mieles: Jerry, Julie & Caleb

    Ang- We are rejoicing in the little miracles that God has shown you. What a great reminder that He is still God and that He can do and will do what He says He will do. We’re praying for miracles!

  • The Mieles: Jerry, Julie & Caleb

    Ang- We are rejoicing in the little miracles that God has shown you. What a great reminder that He is still God and that He can do and will do what He says He will do. We’re praying for miracles!

  • The Mieles: Jerry, Julie & Caleb

    Ang- We are rejoicing in the little miracles that God has shown you. What a great reminder that He is still God and that He can do and will do what He says He will do. We’re praying for miracles!

  • The Mieles: Jerry, Julie & Caleb

    Ang- We are rejoicing in the little miracles that God has shown you. What a great reminder that He is still God and that He can do and will do what He says He will do. We’re praying for miracles!

  • The Mieles: Jerry, Julie & Caleb

    Ang- We are rejoicing in the little miracles that God has shown you. What a great reminder that He is still God and that He can do and will do what He says He will do. We’re praying for miracles!

  • The Mieles: Jerry, Julie & Caleb

    Ang- We are rejoicing in the little miracles that God has shown you. What a great reminder that He is still God and that He can do and will do what He says He will do. We’re praying for miracles!

  • The Mieles: Jerry, Julie & Caleb

    Ang- We are rejoicing in the little miracles that God has shown you. What a great reminder that He is still God and that He can do and will do what He says He will do. We’re praying for miracles!

  • The Mieles: Jerry, Julie & Caleb

    Ang- We are rejoicing in the little miracles that God has shown you. What a great reminder that He is still God and that He can do and will do what He says He will do. We’re praying for miracles!

  • The Mieles: Jerry, Julie & Caleb

    Ang- We are rejoicing in the little miracles that God has shown you. What a great reminder that He is still God and that He can do and will do what He says He will do. We’re praying for miracles!

  • The Mieles: Jerry, Julie & Caleb

    Ang- We are rejoicing in the little miracles that God has shown you. What a great reminder that He is still God and that He can do and will do what He says He will do. We’re praying for miracles!

  • The Mieles: Jerry, Julie & Caleb

    Ang- We are rejoicing in the little miracles that God has shown you. What a great reminder that He is still God and that He can do and will do what He says He will do. We’re praying for miracles!

  • The Mieles: Jerry, Julie & Caleb

    Ang- We are rejoicing in the little miracles that God has shown you. What a great reminder that He is still God and that He can do and will do what He says He will do. We’re praying for miracles!

  • The Mieles: Jerry, Julie & Caleb

    Ang- We are rejoicing in the little miracles that God has shown you. What a great reminder that He is still God and that He can do and will do what He says He will do. We’re praying for miracles!

  • The Mieles: Jerry, Julie & Caleb

    Ang- We are rejoicing in the little miracles that God has shown you. What a great reminder that He is still God and that He can do and will do what He says He will do. We’re praying for miracles!

  • The Mieles: Jerry, Julie & Caleb

    Ang- We are rejoicing in the little miracles that God has shown you. What a great reminder that He is still God and that He can do and will do what He says He will do. We’re praying for miracles!

  • The Mieles: Jerry, Julie & Caleb

    Ang- We are rejoicing in the little miracles that God has shown you. What a great reminder that He is still God and that He can do and will do what He says He will do. We’re praying for miracles!

  • The Mieles: Jerry, Julie & Caleb

    Ang- We are rejoicing in the little miracles that God has shown you. What a great reminder that He is still God and that He can do and will do what He says He will do. We’re praying for miracles!

  • The Mieles: Jerry, Julie & Caleb

    Ang- We are rejoicing in the little miracles that God has shown you. What a great reminder that He is still God and that He can do and will do what He says He will do. We’re praying for miracles!

  • The Mieles: Jerry, Julie & Caleb

    Ang- We are rejoicing in the little miracles that God has shown you. What a great reminder that He is still God and that He can do and will do what He says He will do. We’re praying for miracles!

  • The Mieles: Jerry, Julie & Caleb

    Ang- We are rejoicing in the little miracles that God has shown you. What a great reminder that He is still God and that He can do and will do what He says He will do. We’re praying for miracles!

  • The Mieles: Jerry, Julie & Caleb

    Ang- We are rejoicing in the little miracles that God has shown you. What a great reminder that He is still God and that He can do and will do what He says He will do. We’re praying for miracles!

  • The Mieles: Jerry, Julie & Caleb

    Ang- We are rejoicing in the little miracles that God has shown you. What a great reminder that He is still God and that He can do and will do what He says He will do. We’re praying for miracles!

  • The Mieles: Jerry, Julie & Caleb

    Ang- We are rejoicing in the little miracles that God has shown you. What a great reminder that He is still God and that He can do and will do what He says He will do. We’re praying for miracles!

  • The Mieles: Jerry, Julie & Caleb

    Ang- We are rejoicing in the little miracles that God has shown you. What a great reminder that He is still God and that He can do and will do what He says He will do. We’re praying for miracles!

  • The Mieles: Jerry, Julie & Caleb

    Ang- We are rejoicing in the little miracles that God has shown you. What a great reminder that He is still God and that He can do and will do what He says He will do. We’re praying for miracles!

  • The Mieles: Jerry, Julie & Caleb

    Ang- We are rejoicing in the little miracles that God has shown you. What a great reminder that He is still God and that He can do and will do what He says He will do. We’re praying for miracles!

  • The Mieles: Jerry, Julie & Caleb

    Ang- We are rejoicing in the little miracles that God has shown you. What a great reminder that He is still God and that He can do and will do what He says He will do. We’re praying for miracles!

  • The Mieles: Jerry, Julie & Caleb

    Ang- We are rejoicing in the little miracles that God has shown you. What a great reminder that He is still God and that He can do and will do what He says He will do. We’re praying for miracles!

  • The Mieles: Jerry, Julie & Caleb

    Ang- We are rejoicing in the little miracles that God has shown you. What a great reminder that He is still God and that He can do and will do what He says He will do. We’re praying for miracles!

  • S Mosley

    Praising God for these miracles!!! Can’t wait to read more!

    Much love,
    Jamie, Suzanne, John Martin & William Mosley :)

  • jess

    What a great day!! We missed ya’ll at community group Wed. night, and prayed for you. We asked for a miracle, and didn’t realize He had already answered!
    By the way, Rob loved the picture of Katie & the balloon… he says it’s been a long time since he saw her. You should let us babysit! =)

  • karen44

    Angie, you’re blessed to be able to find laughter in spite of your tears! Praise God for big and little blessings. May we all hold onto His balloon string, and may we never let go!

  • Anonymous

    May the Lord bless you and keep you. May the Lord make His face to shine upon you and be gracious unto you. May the Lord lift up His Countenance upon and give you His peace.

  • Meg

    This is my first time visiting your blog and tears were streaming down my face as I read your incredible story. Please know that your family is in my prayers! We serve a God that is capable of great miracles; my prayer is that He will continue to reveal Himself in all things big and small!

  • Briget Addison

    Hi. I just heard about your blog on Air1. I’m in awe of the grace & faith you & your family have shown through this trial. It is truly ONLY the kind of strength that comes from our Father. My husband & I have five beauiful, healthy children. I thank the Lord every day (I really do) for the health of my babies. I mean, with five children, the odds of them all being healthy and having no major injuries have pretty much been against us (especially since we have four vivacious boys). We know that anything can happen, and we’re so thankful that God has chosen to keep them safe & sound thus far.

    I just wanted to tell you that it’s such a encouragement to see the kind of faith you demonstrate. I like to think that I would gladly accept anything the Lord set on my plate and still continue to thank him for choosing ME to suffer for His sake. Because I’ve been through some pretty tough trials, I feel like I could handle anything, but I’ve never had to suffer the loss of a child. I can only pray that I would handle it with the same grace you have.

    Thank you for sharing Audrey’s story and recognizing how you can honor Christ through this. I pray that you will continue to heal and praise God through this chapter in your life. I’ve just started reading your blog, and one of my favorite things you’ve said (so far) was that you don’t praise God because you believe He will heal Audrey, but that you praise Him because He CAN. What a beautiful heart you have!

    I look forward to catching up on your posts and reading future ones.

    Love,
    Briget~your sister in Christ

  • Nancy Hood

    I love the idea you attached with Kate and her balloon~may we never, ever give up and let go. Your life is such an inspiration, Angie~

  • jubilee :)

    hi. im julianna. im 17 and im addicited to your blog and to your story. i really really really liked this post. there is so much truth in it. i love the faith that you all have. and i love that you are trusting and believing in Him. im praying for you and for you family!

  • Chel – An Abiding Branch

    Girl, I am loving reading your words here! I truly see your heart and soul and how much all of you (your whole self) loves our God! Our Faithful Father!
    Chel

  • Becky

    Angie,

    You probably have not gotten a comment from these far back posts in a while.

    I found you not long ago and have your button on my blog and visit you daily. My time on your blog is my time to reflect on my own life, marvel in all you have faced with grace and it’s a reminder of all things good and to not take anything in life for granted.

    In Sept 2007, I lost my baby at 12 wks pregnant. I never realized how connected you are already in such a short time to this miracle that God has given.

    Your words about your ultrasound tech struck me. When I went for my ultrasound and realized that our baby was gone, I also realized what an impact these people are on the situation. Unfortunately, I found that I came across more of those that found this all to be so clinical and not a human loss. I found that the human side of it all was lost in the day to day motions of what they find to be “just a job”. I am so happy that your “just a job” was so much more. The actions and words of others impact so much more than they will ever realize – unless they find themselves here.

    I have to say this in very post I leave for you, but you truly are an amazing inspiration and I know God brought me here for a reason.