Our sweet Audrey girl

Here is the girl behind the prayers!!! This is several weeks 
old, but such a great shot of our little bunny.  
We wanted you to meet her:)
I am sorry it has taken me this long to post.  I have spent a better part of the past two days trying to figure out the best way to write this.  We had a really hard appointment on Wednesday (I noticed that my blog said Wednesday the last time I posted, but it was actually after midnight Tuesday night, and my appt. was the next day).  We met with Angie, who was incredibly knowledgeable and great at her job.  It turned out to be a day filled with information that is really difficult to digest and I am not sure that I have really gotten to a point where I know how to ask for prayer.
Here are the major points, although I want to warn you that I am going to include a few more details than I have before, and you may need to use your good judgment about sharing (I know a few younger kiddos have been reading this:) ).  
As far as Audrey herself is concerned, these are the obstacles that we are facing.  It looks like both of her kidneys may actually be polycystic.  It was really hard to tell from the angles etc., but it appeared that this was the case.  Secondly, her heart is still incredibly enlarged…to the naked eye it appears to be about 70-80% of her chest (but beating strongly!!!).  She also has a large tumor on her lung that also appears to be polycystic.  This is something that Patti thought she saw at an earlier appointment, but Angie confirmed it.  One of the things that I have hesitated to mention because it is really difficult to talk about (and we just keep praying for a miracle!), is that she is in a very awkward position, and it is not likely that she will move because of the lack of fluid.  She is what they call a “footling breech,” with one leg down and the other up by her head.  This is really hard to process, mostly because as a parent you can’t help but worry about her hurting (we have been assured that this is not the case, but nevertheless, it is a concern for us).  We cannot see her lungs because of the lack of fluid, but the medical assumption is that they are non-functioning because they did not have time to form.  As you can imagine, childbirth is likely to be difficult based on this position.  In fact, our doctor told us that it is most likely that she will not survive the birthing process.  Dr.  Trabue is a very strong believer, and I know he doesn’t doubt that God can heal her. He said so sweetly to me, “She has something I can’t fix.  That’s God’s business.”  I cried in his office and was just really grateful for who he is and Who he serves.
I felt like my appointment this week was going to be jarring.  I really dreaded it and felt like God had told me I would be deeply affected by what we discovered.  The truth is that I haven’t felt like there was any place to go but up based on what they had been telling us.  And I thought maybe this week I might hear them say, “You know what? It isn’t as bad as we thought!”  I don’t want to give up on that possibility, but I do want you all to know that barring a miracle from the Lord Himself, this child cannot medically survive. 
It is a strange world to try and prepare yourself and your children for the worst, while keeping your heart focused on what God is able to do.  I know that this email is fact upon fact.  It isn’t pretty or well-though out.  It is just hurt spelled out in a few paragraphs.  My tears have flooded my bed, and I must admit that this is the darkest part of the journey so far.  Sometimes I just cry out to Him like a beggar. 
I want you to know that I am in the eye of the storm, and as much as it hurts to cry out to Him, the beauty is that I can, and that I do. If I didn’t have Him, I would not have the strength to write these words, or to live through my days. The only peace I can grab ahold of is that I am not alone, and that none of this chaos is anything but a beautiful symphony in the eyes of the composer.
I have been praying for you as well, and God has brought something to my mind that I pray a few of you will take me up on.  I have been so comforted by scripture in these hours, and have clung to the promises He has made to me like they are my only lifeline.  God has prompted me to make this offer to you kind, dear people who are walking with me in the valley.   I would love for you to write me personally  if you do not own a Bible  (angelac519@gmail.com).  If you would allow me, it would be my great pleasure to send you one.  If there are specific things you are dealing with, and you want me to pass along meaningful scriptures as well, I would be happy to do so.  I can think of no greater blessing for this time than to feel like I was able to introduce someone to the stories, the beauty, the poetry, the peace, the Baby…just let me know where it should go and consider it done:)  Don’t be shy about asking…I’m so excited to be a part of YOUR story.  I thank my God in advance for His plans, far exceeding ours.  
I feel transparent and scared and everything in between, but I trust that all of these words will find their way into your hearts tonight, and that you will, as you have before, pray for our sweet girl.  For tonight, I am praying for good sleep and patience with my children when day begins again.
Another prayer request is that we are leaving on Sunday for a 7 day Caribbean Cruise (Todd is singing).  So there is the combination of flying and being out in the middle of nowhere with a somewhat unpredictable pregnancy…I feel a little unsettled about it. 
I want you all to know that you were with me in the ultrasound room.  You were with me on the airplane.  You were with me when I needed someone to speak wisdom into my life. I hope you will be with me when we see the fingerprints of God on Audrey’s life and I don’t doubt for a second that we will. 
I am forever grateful that our paths have crossed.  
Angie

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  • Kim & John

    Dear Angie,
    The sheer power of His presence in your life astounds me each time I read what you so graciously share about this time in your life; your family, your feelings, Audrey’s impact on this world through your eyes and heart. A quote I have posted on my wall makes me think of you – “Circumstances do not make the person, they reveal her.” You, Angie, are openly and awesomely revealed as a woman of God and seeking after His own heart. He always answers when His children call – you know this. You also know that as in any relationship, the answer is not always easy to accept, but with God we must trust that it is the right answer for His glory.
    With the multitudes I lift you, Audrey, Todd, Ellie, Abby & Kate to our Father. You are all so loved!

  • Kim & John

    Dear Angie,
    The sheer power of His presence in your life astounds me each time I read what you so graciously share about this time in your life; your family, your feelings, Audrey’s impact on this world through your eyes and heart. A quote I have posted on my wall makes me think of you – “Circumstances do not make the person, they reveal her.” You, Angie, are openly and awesomely revealed as a woman of God and seeking after His own heart. He always answers when His children call – you know this. You also know that as in any relationship, the answer is not always easy to accept, but with God we must trust that it is the right answer for His glory.
    With the multitudes I lift you, Audrey, Todd, Ellie, Abby & Kate to our Father. You are all so loved!

  • Kim & John

    Dear Angie,
    The sheer power of His presence in your life astounds me each time I read what you so graciously share about this time in your life; your family, your feelings, Audrey’s impact on this world through your eyes and heart. A quote I have posted on my wall makes me think of you – “Circumstances do not make the person, they reveal her.” You, Angie, are openly and awesomely revealed as a woman of God and seeking after His own heart. He always answers when His children call – you know this. You also know that as in any relationship, the answer is not always easy to accept, but with God we must trust that it is the right answer for His glory.
    With the multitudes I lift you, Audrey, Todd, Ellie, Abby & Kate to our Father. You are all so loved!

  • Kim & John

    Dear Angie,
    The sheer power of His presence in your life astounds me each time I read what you so graciously share about this time in your life; your family, your feelings, Audrey’s impact on this world through your eyes and heart. A quote I have posted on my wall makes me think of you – “Circumstances do not make the person, they reveal her.” You, Angie, are openly and awesomely revealed as a woman of God and seeking after His own heart. He always answers when His children call – you know this. You also know that as in any relationship, the answer is not always easy to accept, but with God we must trust that it is the right answer for His glory.
    With the multitudes I lift you, Audrey, Todd, Ellie, Abby & Kate to our Father. You are all so loved!

  • Kim & John

    Dear Angie,
    The sheer power of His presence in your life astounds me each time I read what you so graciously share about this time in your life; your family, your feelings, Audrey’s impact on this world through your eyes and heart. A quote I have posted on my wall makes me think of you – “Circumstances do not make the person, they reveal her.” You, Angie, are openly and awesomely revealed as a woman of God and seeking after His own heart. He always answers when His children call – you know this. You also know that as in any relationship, the answer is not always easy to accept, but with God we must trust that it is the right answer for His glory.
    With the multitudes I lift you, Audrey, Todd, Ellie, Abby & Kate to our Father. You are all so loved!

  • Kim & John

    Dear Angie,
    The sheer power of His presence in your life astounds me each time I read what you so graciously share about this time in your life; your family, your feelings, Audrey’s impact on this world through your eyes and heart. A quote I have posted on my wall makes me think of you – “Circumstances do not make the person, they reveal her.” You, Angie, are openly and awesomely revealed as a woman of God and seeking after His own heart. He always answers when His children call – you know this. You also know that as in any relationship, the answer is not always easy to accept, but with God we must trust that it is the right answer for His glory.
    With the multitudes I lift you, Audrey, Todd, Ellie, Abby & Kate to our Father. You are all so loved!

  • Kim & John

    Dear Angie,
    The sheer power of His presence in your life astounds me each time I read what you so graciously share about this time in your life; your family, your feelings, Audrey’s impact on this world through your eyes and heart. A quote I have posted on my wall makes me think of you – “Circumstances do not make the person, they reveal her.” You, Angie, are openly and awesomely revealed as a woman of God and seeking after His own heart. He always answers when His children call – you know this. You also know that as in any relationship, the answer is not always easy to accept, but with God we must trust that it is the right answer for His glory.
    With the multitudes I lift you, Audrey, Todd, Ellie, Abby & Kate to our Father. You are all so loved!

  • Kim & John

    Dear Angie,
    The sheer power of His presence in your life astounds me each time I read what you so graciously share about this time in your life; your family, your feelings, Audrey’s impact on this world through your eyes and heart. A quote I have posted on my wall makes me think of you – “Circumstances do not make the person, they reveal her.” You, Angie, are openly and awesomely revealed as a woman of God and seeking after His own heart. He always answers when His children call – you know this. You also know that as in any relationship, the answer is not always easy to accept, but with God we must trust that it is the right answer for His glory.
    With the multitudes I lift you, Audrey, Todd, Ellie, Abby & Kate to our Father. You are all so loved!

  • Kim & John

    Dear Angie,
    The sheer power of His presence in your life astounds me each time I read what you so graciously share about this time in your life; your family, your feelings, Audrey’s impact on this world through your eyes and heart. A quote I have posted on my wall makes me think of you – “Circumstances do not make the person, they reveal her.” You, Angie, are openly and awesomely revealed as a woman of God and seeking after His own heart. He always answers when His children call – you know this. You also know that as in any relationship, the answer is not always easy to accept, but with God we must trust that it is the right answer for His glory.
    With the multitudes I lift you, Audrey, Todd, Ellie, Abby & Kate to our Father. You are all so loved!

  • Kim & John

    Dear Angie,
    The sheer power of His presence in your life astounds me each time I read what you so graciously share about this time in your life; your family, your feelings, Audrey’s impact on this world through your eyes and heart. A quote I have posted on my wall makes me think of you – “Circumstances do not make the person, they reveal her.” You, Angie, are openly and awesomely revealed as a woman of God and seeking after His own heart. He always answers when His children call – you know this. You also know that as in any relationship, the answer is not always easy to accept, but with God we must trust that it is the right answer for His glory.
    With the multitudes I lift you, Audrey, Todd, Ellie, Abby & Kate to our Father. You are all so loved!

  • Kim & John

    Dear Angie,
    The sheer power of His presence in your life astounds me each time I read what you so graciously share about this time in your life; your family, your feelings, Audrey’s impact on this world through your eyes and heart. A quote I have posted on my wall makes me think of you – “Circumstances do not make the person, they reveal her.” You, Angie, are openly and awesomely revealed as a woman of God and seeking after His own heart. He always answers when His children call – you know this. You also know that as in any relationship, the answer is not always easy to accept, but with God we must trust that it is the right answer for His glory.
    With the multitudes I lift you, Audrey, Todd, Ellie, Abby & Kate to our Father. You are all so loved!

  • Kim & John

    Dear Angie,
    The sheer power of His presence in your life astounds me each time I read what you so graciously share about this time in your life; your family, your feelings, Audrey’s impact on this world through your eyes and heart. A quote I have posted on my wall makes me think of you – “Circumstances do not make the person, they reveal her.” You, Angie, are openly and awesomely revealed as a woman of God and seeking after His own heart. He always answers when His children call – you know this. You also know that as in any relationship, the answer is not always easy to accept, but with God we must trust that it is the right answer for His glory.
    With the multitudes I lift you, Audrey, Todd, Ellie, Abby & Kate to our Father. You are all so loved!

  • Kim & John

    Dear Angie,
    The sheer power of His presence in your life astounds me each time I read what you so graciously share about this time in your life; your family, your feelings, Audrey’s impact on this world through your eyes and heart. A quote I have posted on my wall makes me think of you – “Circumstances do not make the person, they reveal her.” You, Angie, are openly and awesomely revealed as a woman of God and seeking after His own heart. He always answers when His children call – you know this. You also know that as in any relationship, the answer is not always easy to accept, but with God we must trust that it is the right answer for His glory.
    With the multitudes I lift you, Audrey, Todd, Ellie, Abby & Kate to our Father. You are all so loved!

  • Kim & John

    Dear Angie,
    The sheer power of His presence in your life astounds me each time I read what you so graciously share about this time in your life; your family, your feelings, Audrey’s impact on this world through your eyes and heart. A quote I have posted on my wall makes me think of you – “Circumstances do not make the person, they reveal her.” You, Angie, are openly and awesomely revealed as a woman of God and seeking after His own heart. He always answers when His children call – you know this. You also know that as in any relationship, the answer is not always easy to accept, but with God we must trust that it is the right answer for His glory.
    With the multitudes I lift you, Audrey, Todd, Ellie, Abby & Kate to our Father. You are all so loved!

  • Kim & John

    Dear Angie,
    The sheer power of His presence in your life astounds me each time I read what you so graciously share about this time in your life; your family, your feelings, Audrey’s impact on this world through your eyes and heart. A quote I have posted on my wall makes me think of you – “Circumstances do not make the person, they reveal her.” You, Angie, are openly and awesomely revealed as a woman of God and seeking after His own heart. He always answers when His children call – you know this. You also know that as in any relationship, the answer is not always easy to accept, but with God we must trust that it is the right answer for His glory.
    With the multitudes I lift you, Audrey, Todd, Ellie, Abby & Kate to our Father. You are all so loved!

  • Kim & John

    Dear Angie,
    The sheer power of His presence in your life astounds me each time I read what you so graciously share about this time in your life; your family, your feelings, Audrey’s impact on this world through your eyes and heart. A quote I have posted on my wall makes me think of you – “Circumstances do not make the person, they reveal her.” You, Angie, are openly and awesomely revealed as a woman of God and seeking after His own heart. He always answers when His children call – you know this. You also know that as in any relationship, the answer is not always easy to accept, but with God we must trust that it is the right answer for His glory.
    With the multitudes I lift you, Audrey, Todd, Ellie, Abby & Kate to our Father. You are all so loved!

  • Kim & John

    Dear Angie,
    The sheer power of His presence in your life astounds me each time I read what you so graciously share about this time in your life; your family, your feelings, Audrey’s impact on this world through your eyes and heart. A quote I have posted on my wall makes me think of you – “Circumstances do not make the person, they reveal her.” You, Angie, are openly and awesomely revealed as a woman of God and seeking after His own heart. He always answers when His children call – you know this. You also know that as in any relationship, the answer is not always easy to accept, but with God we must trust that it is the right answer for His glory.
    With the multitudes I lift you, Audrey, Todd, Ellie, Abby & Kate to our Father. You are all so loved!

  • Kim & John

    Dear Angie,
    The sheer power of His presence in your life astounds me each time I read what you so graciously share about this time in your life; your family, your feelings, Audrey’s impact on this world through your eyes and heart. A quote I have posted on my wall makes me think of you – “Circumstances do not make the person, they reveal her.” You, Angie, are openly and awesomely revealed as a woman of God and seeking after His own heart. He always answers when His children call – you know this. You also know that as in any relationship, the answer is not always easy to accept, but with God we must trust that it is the right answer for His glory.
    With the multitudes I lift you, Audrey, Todd, Ellie, Abby & Kate to our Father. You are all so loved!

  • Kim & John

    Dear Angie,
    The sheer power of His presence in your life astounds me each time I read what you so graciously share about this time in your life; your family, your feelings, Audrey’s impact on this world through your eyes and heart. A quote I have posted on my wall makes me think of you – “Circumstances do not make the person, they reveal her.” You, Angie, are openly and awesomely revealed as a woman of God and seeking after His own heart. He always answers when His children call – you know this. You also know that as in any relationship, the answer is not always easy to accept, but with God we must trust that it is the right answer for His glory.
    With the multitudes I lift you, Audrey, Todd, Ellie, Abby & Kate to our Father. You are all so loved!

  • Kim & John

    Dear Angie,
    The sheer power of His presence in your life astounds me each time I read what you so graciously share about this time in your life; your family, your feelings, Audrey’s impact on this world through your eyes and heart. A quote I have posted on my wall makes me think of you – “Circumstances do not make the person, they reveal her.” You, Angie, are openly and awesomely revealed as a woman of God and seeking after His own heart. He always answers when His children call – you know this. You also know that as in any relationship, the answer is not always easy to accept, but with God we must trust that it is the right answer for His glory.
    With the multitudes I lift you, Audrey, Todd, Ellie, Abby & Kate to our Father. You are all so loved!

  • Kim & John

    Dear Angie,
    The sheer power of His presence in your life astounds me each time I read what you so graciously share about this time in your life; your family, your feelings, Audrey’s impact on this world through your eyes and heart. A quote I have posted on my wall makes me think of you – “Circumstances do not make the person, they reveal her.” You, Angie, are openly and awesomely revealed as a woman of God and seeking after His own heart. He always answers when His children call – you know this. You also know that as in any relationship, the answer is not always easy to accept, but with God we must trust that it is the right answer for His glory.
    With the multitudes I lift you, Audrey, Todd, Ellie, Abby & Kate to our Father. You are all so loved!

  • Kim & John

    Dear Angie,
    The sheer power of His presence in your life astounds me each time I read what you so graciously share about this time in your life; your family, your feelings, Audrey’s impact on this world through your eyes and heart. A quote I have posted on my wall makes me think of you – “Circumstances do not make the person, they reveal her.” You, Angie, are openly and awesomely revealed as a woman of God and seeking after His own heart. He always answers when His children call – you know this. You also know that as in any relationship, the answer is not always easy to accept, but with God we must trust that it is the right answer for His glory.
    With the multitudes I lift you, Audrey, Todd, Ellie, Abby & Kate to our Father. You are all so loved!

  • Kim & John

    Dear Angie,
    The sheer power of His presence in your life astounds me each time I read what you so graciously share about this time in your life; your family, your feelings, Audrey’s impact on this world through your eyes and heart. A quote I have posted on my wall makes me think of you – “Circumstances do not make the person, they reveal her.” You, Angie, are openly and awesomely revealed as a woman of God and seeking after His own heart. He always answers when His children call – you know this. You also know that as in any relationship, the answer is not always easy to accept, but with God we must trust that it is the right answer for His glory.
    With the multitudes I lift you, Audrey, Todd, Ellie, Abby & Kate to our Father. You are all so loved!

  • Kim & John

    Dear Angie,
    The sheer power of His presence in your life astounds me each time I read what you so graciously share about this time in your life; your family, your feelings, Audrey’s impact on this world through your eyes and heart. A quote I have posted on my wall makes me think of you – “Circumstances do not make the person, they reveal her.” You, Angie, are openly and awesomely revealed as a woman of God and seeking after His own heart. He always answers when His children call – you know this. You also know that as in any relationship, the answer is not always easy to accept, but with God we must trust that it is the right answer for His glory.
    With the multitudes I lift you, Audrey, Todd, Ellie, Abby & Kate to our Father. You are all so loved!

  • Kim & John

    Dear Angie,
    The sheer power of His presence in your life astounds me each time I read what you so graciously share about this time in your life; your family, your feelings, Audrey’s impact on this world through your eyes and heart. A quote I have posted on my wall makes me think of you – “Circumstances do not make the person, they reveal her.” You, Angie, are openly and awesomely revealed as a woman of God and seeking after His own heart. He always answers when His children call – you know this. You also know that as in any relationship, the answer is not always easy to accept, but with God we must trust that it is the right answer for His glory.
    With the multitudes I lift you, Audrey, Todd, Ellie, Abby & Kate to our Father. You are all so loved!

  • Kim & John

    Dear Angie,
    The sheer power of His presence in your life astounds me each time I read what you so graciously share about this time in your life; your family, your feelings, Audrey’s impact on this world through your eyes and heart. A quote I have posted on my wall makes me think of you – “Circumstances do not make the person, they reveal her.” You, Angie, are openly and awesomely revealed as a woman of God and seeking after His own heart. He always answers when His children call – you know this. You also know that as in any relationship, the answer is not always easy to accept, but with God we must trust that it is the right answer for His glory.
    With the multitudes I lift you, Audrey, Todd, Ellie, Abby & Kate to our Father. You are all so loved!

  • Kim & John

    Dear Angie,
    The sheer power of His presence in your life astounds me each time I read what you so graciously share about this time in your life; your family, your feelings, Audrey’s impact on this world through your eyes and heart. A quote I have posted on my wall makes me think of you – “Circumstances do not make the person, they reveal her.” You, Angie, are openly and awesomely revealed as a woman of God and seeking after His own heart. He always answers when His children call – you know this. You also know that as in any relationship, the answer is not always easy to accept, but with God we must trust that it is the right answer for His glory.
    With the multitudes I lift you, Audrey, Todd, Ellie, Abby & Kate to our Father. You are all so loved!

  • Kim & John

    Dear Angie,
    The sheer power of His presence in your life astounds me each time I read what you so graciously share about this time in your life; your family, your feelings, Audrey’s impact on this world through your eyes and heart. A quote I have posted on my wall makes me think of you – “Circumstances do not make the person, they reveal her.” You, Angie, are openly and awesomely revealed as a woman of God and seeking after His own heart. He always answers when His children call – you know this. You also know that as in any relationship, the answer is not always easy to accept, but with God we must trust that it is the right answer for His glory.
    With the multitudes I lift you, Audrey, Todd, Ellie, Abby & Kate to our Father. You are all so loved!

  • Kim & John

    Dear Angie,
    The sheer power of His presence in your life astounds me each time I read what you so graciously share about this time in your life; your family, your feelings, Audrey’s impact on this world through your eyes and heart. A quote I have posted on my wall makes me think of you – “Circumstances do not make the person, they reveal her.” You, Angie, are openly and awesomely revealed as a woman of God and seeking after His own heart. He always answers when His children call – you know this. You also know that as in any relationship, the answer is not always easy to accept, but with God we must trust that it is the right answer for His glory.
    With the multitudes I lift you, Audrey, Todd, Ellie, Abby & Kate to our Father. You are all so loved!

  • Kim & John

    Dear Angie,
    The sheer power of His presence in your life astounds me each time I read what you so graciously share about this time in your life; your family, your feelings, Audrey’s impact on this world through your eyes and heart. A quote I have posted on my wall makes me think of you – “Circumstances do not make the person, they reveal her.” You, Angie, are openly and awesomely revealed as a woman of God and seeking after His own heart. He always answers when His children call – you know this. You also know that as in any relationship, the answer is not always easy to accept, but with God we must trust that it is the right answer for His glory.
    With the multitudes I lift you, Audrey, Todd, Ellie, Abby & Kate to our Father. You are all so loved!

  • Kim & John

    Dear Angie,
    The sheer power of His presence in your life astounds me each time I read what you so graciously share about this time in your life; your family, your feelings, Audrey’s impact on this world through your eyes and heart. A quote I have posted on my wall makes me think of you – “Circumstances do not make the person, they reveal her.” You, Angie, are openly and awesomely revealed as a woman of God and seeking after His own heart. He always answers when His children call – you know this. You also know that as in any relationship, the answer is not always easy to accept, but with God we must trust that it is the right answer for His glory.
    With the multitudes I lift you, Audrey, Todd, Ellie, Abby & Kate to our Father. You are all so loved!

  • Kim & John

    Dear Angie,
    The sheer power of His presence in your life astounds me each time I read what you so graciously share about this time in your life; your family, your feelings, Audrey’s impact on this world through your eyes and heart. A quote I have posted on my wall makes me think of you – “Circumstances do not make the person, they reveal her.” You, Angie, are openly and awesomely revealed as a woman of God and seeking after His own heart. He always answers when His children call – you know this. You also know that as in any relationship, the answer is not always easy to accept, but with God we must trust that it is the right answer for His glory.
    With the multitudes I lift you, Audrey, Todd, Ellie, Abby & Kate to our Father. You are all so loved!

  • Kim & John

    Dear Angie,
    The sheer power of His presence in your life astounds me each time I read what you so graciously share about this time in your life; your family, your feelings, Audrey’s impact on this world through your eyes and heart. A quote I have posted on my wall makes me think of you – “Circumstances do not make the person, they reveal her.” You, Angie, are openly and awesomely revealed as a woman of God and seeking after His own heart. He always answers when His children call – you know this. You also know that as in any relationship, the answer is not always easy to accept, but with God we must trust that it is the right answer for His glory.
    With the multitudes I lift you, Audrey, Todd, Ellie, Abby & Kate to our Father. You are all so loved!

  • Kim & John

    Dear Angie,
    The sheer power of His presence in your life astounds me each time I read what you so graciously share about this time in your life; your family, your feelings, Audrey’s impact on this world through your eyes and heart. A quote I have posted on my wall makes me think of you – “Circumstances do not make the person, they reveal her.” You, Angie, are openly and awesomely revealed as a woman of God and seeking after His own heart. He always answers when His children call – you know this. You also know that as in any relationship, the answer is not always easy to accept, but with God we must trust that it is the right answer for His glory.
    With the multitudes I lift you, Audrey, Todd, Ellie, Abby & Kate to our Father. You are all so loved!

  • Kim & John

    Dear Angie,
    The sheer power of His presence in your life astounds me each time I read what you so graciously share about this time in your life; your family, your feelings, Audrey’s impact on this world through your eyes and heart. A quote I have posted on my wall makes me think of you – “Circumstances do not make the person, they reveal her.” You, Angie, are openly and awesomely revealed as a woman of God and seeking after His own heart. He always answers when His children call – you know this. You also know that as in any relationship, the answer is not always easy to accept, but with God we must trust that it is the right answer for His glory.
    With the multitudes I lift you, Audrey, Todd, Ellie, Abby & Kate to our Father. You are all so loved!

  • Kim & John

    Dear Angie,
    The sheer power of His presence in your life astounds me each time I read what you so graciously share about this time in your life; your family, your feelings, Audrey’s impact on this world through your eyes and heart. A quote I have posted on my wall makes me think of you – “Circumstances do not make the person, they reveal her.” You, Angie, are openly and awesomely revealed as a woman of God and seeking after His own heart. He always answers when His children call – you know this. You also know that as in any relationship, the answer is not always easy to accept, but with God we must trust that it is the right answer for His glory.
    With the multitudes I lift you, Audrey, Todd, Ellie, Abby & Kate to our Father. You are all so loved!

  • Kim & John

    Dear Angie,
    The sheer power of His presence in your life astounds me each time I read what you so graciously share about this time in your life; your family, your feelings, Audrey’s impact on this world through your eyes and heart. A quote I have posted on my wall makes me think of you – “Circumstances do not make the person, they reveal her.” You, Angie, are openly and awesomely revealed as a woman of God and seeking after His own heart. He always answers when His children call – you know this. You also know that as in any relationship, the answer is not always easy to accept, but with God we must trust that it is the right answer for His glory.
    With the multitudes I lift you, Audrey, Todd, Ellie, Abby & Kate to our Father. You are all so loved!

  • Kim & John

    Dear Angie,
    The sheer power of His presence in your life astounds me each time I read what you so graciously share about this time in your life; your family, your feelings, Audrey’s impact on this world through your eyes and heart. A quote I have posted on my wall makes me think of you – “Circumstances do not make the person, they reveal her.” You, Angie, are openly and awesomely revealed as a woman of God and seeking after His own heart. He always answers when His children call – you know this. You also know that as in any relationship, the answer is not always easy to accept, but with God we must trust that it is the right answer for His glory.
    With the multitudes I lift you, Audrey, Todd, Ellie, Abby & Kate to our Father. You are all so loved!

  • Kim & John

    Dear Angie,
    The sheer power of His presence in your life astounds me each time I read what you so graciously share about this time in your life; your family, your feelings, Audrey’s impact on this world through your eyes and heart. A quote I have posted on my wall makes me think of you – “Circumstances do not make the person, they reveal her.” You, Angie, are openly and awesomely revealed as a woman of God and seeking after His own heart. He always answers when His children call – you know this. You also know that as in any relationship, the answer is not always easy to accept, but with God we must trust that it is the right answer for His glory.
    With the multitudes I lift you, Audrey, Todd, Ellie, Abby & Kate to our Father. You are all so loved!

  • Kim & John

    Dear Angie,
    The sheer power of His presence in your life astounds me each time I read what you so graciously share about this time in your life; your family, your feelings, Audrey’s impact on this world through your eyes and heart. A quote I have posted on my wall makes me think of you – “Circumstances do not make the person, they reveal her.” You, Angie, are openly and awesomely revealed as a woman of God and seeking after His own heart. He always answers when His children call – you know this. You also know that as in any relationship, the answer is not always easy to accept, but with God we must trust that it is the right answer for His glory.
    With the multitudes I lift you, Audrey, Todd, Ellie, Abby & Kate to our Father. You are all so loved!

  • Beckycain6

    Hi Angie,

    I’ve had all my fingers crossed for you and a few others on our church’s prayer list this week. I admit I felt a big sting of disappointment reading this last post. I cannot imagine how your heart must ache.

    As I promise you will remain on the prayer list at church here in Va., I also promise that I’ll offer the Lord to redirect some of the blessings he pours on me towards you instead. One of my young children taught me that in a simple prayer around the kitchen table. She prayed that her brother could have all her blessings so that he could feel better. The Lord encourages us to be innocent like children….and if you look at it from a child’s perspective………..it makes total sense. (Don’t think she’s anything like “Bell Boy.” She most likely hit him after the prayer or pulled his hair. Har har)

    I don’t know what to say to encourage you–except to share this amazing scripture that I love so much. It is as follows:

    Isaiah 40: 27-31 (ish)

    “…O, how can you say the Lord does not see your troubles?….the Lord is the everlasting God, the creator of all the earth. He never grows weak or weary. No one can measure the depths of His understanding. He gives power to the weak and strength to the powerless. But those who trust in the Lord WILL find new strength. They will soar high on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not faint…..”

    I still stand behind the truth that this is His story. As you wade through the pages….you’ll have all my prayers. Never forget that we are ALL entitled to the Lord’s grace………….

    Becky

  • Catherine

    Thank you for letting us know how the appt went.. I’ve been waiting and praying for the update…

    You are on my mind daily and in my prayers..

    I am going to see Todd tonight in concert and feel so close to you already I am anticipating feeling God’s strength and power through the words of these amazing songs..

    Love you, Angie, and I’m praying for you always,
    Catherine

  • Jody

    I have been praying often for you and your family this week. I wake in the night due to my own early pregnancy, and I find myself lifting you and Audrey up to God in the dark of the night. I have lived life in the midst of raging storms and tragedy and through the death of my own little girl. The amazing thing to me is just how NEAR God was and is in those moments!
    I know that His healing power can happen- it just might not look the way you want it too in your life or in Audrey’s life. But I know without a doubt that God is powerful and yet He cares so much He even sees the sparrow when it falls. He has ways of bringing great Joy out of deep sorrow…of bringing Peace out of pain. I am humbled to know that He loves us so much that He allows great storms at times in order to draw us and/or others to Him. I will pray that He will continue to use your story and Audrey’s life to do mighty things for His Kingdom. Maybe Audrey truly is an angel in your life…and she is touching others even though she may never walk this earth. Some have ‘entertained angels unaware’…
    May God bless you in ways you don’t even know you need it, and through your faith and transparency at this time, bring others into this same Hope to which you hold so strongly.
    My love and prayers from Michigan.

  • Anonymous

    Father, God, thank you for the vision You have given Angie on how she can serve others in this difficult time. You, Lord, know Your purpose in this. You know who You plan to touch and change and heal through Angie’s obedience to send Bibles. Thank you, Lord, for all You’ve done for this family.
    -karen l.

    And Lord, please be with Angie as she prepares to go on this cruise. Her fears are understandable, but her faith is with You. I pray that You will calm her fears, hush her worries, allow her to enjoy this time of warm sunshine with her girls and husband. Protect her, protect Audrey, give them confidence that You are in control. Amen and amen.

  • Anonymous

    Angie – my heart aches to hear of Audrey’s condition. However, your faith is an example to all of us to allow God to use us for all things to HIS glory. Remembering you & your family in prayer. May God bless your time on the cruise with your family.
    In Christian Love, Ross, Cathy, Alex, Stephanie, & Kaitlin

  • Laura Smith

    Hello Angie- Just this week I have learned of your story and began to read Bring the Rain. I am so convinced that God brings no circumstance without purpose. This is evident in your writing. It is such a blessing and honor to be able to pray for one another, sisters in christ who have never met in this life. I have found great joy thorough this opportunity to pray for you and your baby. Thank you for being so brave! Love, Laura Smith

  • Susan Isaacs

    Angie, I found your blog through Matthew Paul turner’s blog. Oh may God bless you. I watched a news story about couples who were bringing their terminal babies to term, and loving them through the process, as they are indeed God’s children. I have an older sister who died in childbirth, unnecessarily. I can’t wait to see her when I am finally with God and the veil is gone. I pray God heals your precious daughter. And if not, you are digging a hole in your heart to plant love and sorrow and patience until that day you’ll know her without spot or blemish. God bless you!

  • Alice

    I’ve heard “Rescue Me” quite a few times this week and have prayed for you each time I listened to it. Thank you so much for sharing that beautiful picture of Audrey! I’ll continue to pray for you…

  • Anonymous

    My dear Sister in Christ:
    I hardly know what to say–anything that can be said is going to sound trite and, in a way, insincere. I have followed your journey over the last couple weeks as I became aware of it and am freshly touched by the power of God after each post–whether you are “dealing” or not. My spirit is with you and you and Audrey are in my prayers at every thought. We’ve never met–I’ve never written before–but I love you; with the fullness of God’s love my heart is with you and your family.
    Carolyn

  • the bell Family

    Todd & Angie, I JUST saw your concert in N. Tonawanda and ran home to read your blog. I’m so releaved that you are standing in the gap believe for the life of your daughter. I wanted to scream from the balcony “She’s still kicking, don’t give up faith”.

    We were told to go home and wait for our miracle to fall out, as there was a large crack in the egg sack. There was NO WAY things would happen to lead to birth. But our God is faithful, above and beyond all that we can see or comprehend. That miracle is now 3 years old.

    Even if she goes home earlier than we all hope for, God has a purpose and a plan for her life, and it WILL be fulfilled. Amazing to know that by simply being, she is fulfilling whatever the plan is. He requires no more from us than to be all he created us to be.

    I know I don’t know you, but I wanted to thank you for sharing your heart and your life so openly. Can’t wait to hear the testimony.

    You will be in our prayers,
    Romans 8.
    Jennifer B.

  • Pam

    Angie,

    You don’t know me. I found your blog through another blog, and spent time this week going back to the beginning and reading all of your journey that you have shared here thus far. I have been blessed and humbled by your words, and the way they have pointed me once again to the Jesus that I love. I *loved* your Bring the Rain post. Thank you for being so transparent and sharing all that is in your heart, the joy and the pain.

    I also just wanted to mention that my cousin carried a very sick little baby girl to term and delivered via c/section because it was doubtful their little girl would have survived a natural birth. I’m sure you have considered this option (c/s). My cousin and her husband (and both sets of grandparents) spent a beautiful hour with their little girl before she went to be with the Lord. It was truly a holy time. It was the desire of their hearts to see their daughter alive, and God graciously answered that prayer.

    I will join you in praying for complete healing. I know that is a prayer He will answer, either with a new body here or a new body in heaven. And I’m also praying for wisdom and unity as you approach the time of delivery.

    Praying with you,
    Pam

  • THE BOONE’S

    Angie and family
    still praying……..with lots of love and hugs to hold you up. I did not share your blog with the children this time, but let them know that you had a hard visit at the doc’s.
    (short story)
    My husband and the children were going to a time of prayer in the living room and I was at the washer machine, I yelled out to them not to forget baby Audrey and the youngest boy in the family yelled back
    “and don’t forget the Mommy too”:) we are ALL holding you guys up in prayer!!
    love hugs and lots of prayer,
    The Boone’s

  • Dianna, Mom of 10

    Dear Angie,

    In April of 2001, My husband Stu and I were told our baby that was due on September 1 would not live. Her ribs were formed in such a way that her lungs would not be able to form. She would probably abort early and that was it. We were anointed-prayed like crazy….She was actually late-born on Sept. 2. Mercy lived almost 40 hours before she gave up her last breath in my arms. It was the longest pregnancy of all-I have 10 children alive on earth here-Mercy is in Heaven. Though I miss her still I would not trade this time where God’s love was able to finally break through.. Yes, I was a Christian-people used to talk about God’s love and I believed it, I just never really felt I knew it. I do now. How I would love to hold you and say it’s going to be fine, it will, but unless God heals her, it will be hard. A friend called me today to tell me about your beautiful daughter-she heard my story at a Mother-daughter banquet. She said you will be in Midland. I would love to meet with you-We, my husband and I would love to if you have time and wish to do that. It is not a subject many understand. We love children-you are in our prayers. Dianna Roy

  • lkneefel

    Dearest Angie and Todd,

    Can you feel it? We are all breathing for you.

    With love and hugs,
    Linda Kneefel

  • Anonymous

    Hi Angie,
    My name is Winnie from Kenya in East Africa. I was going through the Selah website this afternoon. Their music is such a blessing to me especially at this time when I am going through a rough patch in a relationship and also our country is in political turmoil. It is through the website that I saw the link to your blog…read your entries and was so touched, you have no idea how far your blog is touching and changing lives, I read through all your entries and I felt so uplifted. Just know that your labour of love is not in vain, you are loved, you are precious and God knows why this is happening at this time. am praying for you and your family. God bless you, Todd, Audrey, and the three beautiful girls.

    Winnie

  • Anonymous

    She is beautiful!
    Thank you for showing us her lovely face!

    My sister Debra is the travel agent who arranged your Disney World trip and she sent me the link to your blog. I think of the friends of Moses, who held his arms up for him when he couldn’t do it any more. I hope that we can do this for you. While we can’t physically share this burden with you, I hope there is some comfort for you knowing how many people are “sitting on the ground with you, saying nothing, because we see how great your suffering is”.

    Love,
    Colleen

  • Anonymous

    Angie-

    I feel so blessed to share in this blog. You are amazing to share such a personal and difficult time with strangers. The strength you have (whether you think you are strong or not!) is amazing. Thank you for letting us all in to your life.

    My prayers are with you and your family.

  • annaelyse

    the true mark of a Disciple. Through the midst of all your pain and sorrow and even the hours you are on you knees before the throne, you still offer to pray for us. humbled…(i’m not certain how i found your blog but know that i’m battling for you and audrey and your family!!)

  • Anonymous

    What can I say that hasn’t been said…? I have enjoyed many Selah concerts but the one I just attended in Canandaigua was especially sweet – I knew what Todd would share, and the way he did it was gracious…and from there, what an incredible time of worship, as we praised God through the storm (yes, we – western New Yorkers know how to sing!) I loved that they sang “Through it All” – I knew every word – told my friend “I remember that cassette!” No, I didn’t have an 8-track, we skipped that bit of bizarre behavior. I had read your blog before I went, I knew that whatever had transpired, Todd knew that, so this posting wasn’t totally unexpected. I was thinking as I read…THIS is the impact of one tiny life – people sharing, praying, coming together in unity – and isn’t that why we’re here on earth – to glorify God?! You can keep going, Todd and Angie – we’re lifting you up in prayer…there’s a great song that tells about that!

  • Anonymous

    Dear Angie,
    Thank you, for sharing.My heart and prayers are with you, and family.You are so strong..It is the true strength of the Lord.I loved the scripture from Isaiah 66:13 As a mother comforts her child, so will I comfort you;and you will be comforted over Jerusalem.After seeing the concert, Sunday.my heart went out to Todd.We are praying for you, in Clarence NY.
    Love you all!! Judy

  • Anonymous

    You are an amazing mother to all your girls, but especially your little Audrey. I, like many, found your blog through another blog. I found it last night & read post after post. Today I thought of you, said a prayer, and thought I needed to come back to your blog to tell you what an incredible person I think you are.

    The way you find joy & deeper meanings in simple pleasures around you is awe-some. I love the photo & story behind your little girl grasping the balloon. I love the teacups story, and I love the albums that you grabbed quickly without looking. I loved your story of the stuffed bunny… I love YOUR FAITH.

    I love that you are giving Audrey a L*I*F*E. It is really beautiful. You took her to Disney, you bought her some Mickey ears, you show off her photo on the blog, you gave her a name. You are giving her a life & I cry happy tears just thinking about how lucky little Audrey is to have a mother like you to give her life, love & shelter.

    Almost 12 years ago [when I was 19 years old], I lost my boyfriend in a tragic accident. I went through every emotion possible… but I remember taking comfort with this perspective: I remember feeling sorry for myself & asking ‘Why me?’ But when I did that, I thought “What if it WASN’T me? What if I wasn’t Mike’s girlfriend? What if I could trade in the year & a half that we were together, so that I didn’t have to be experiencing this now? Would I?” And a calm, warm feeling always came over me as I embraced the role I was in. The fact is I would never trade places with anyone. I was happy to be the one God chose to be there for him in the end.

    I hope you are able to feel the same comfort in those thoughts that I did in my times of need. Audrey is the luckiest girl in the world to have YOU.

    Hope you feel our prayers & hugs! – Rachel in Kansas City :)

  • Anonymous

    Dear Angie,
    I, like many, found your blog after checking out the Selah website. I have been blessed by your desire to glorify God through this trial and to keep God foremost in your thoughts as you walk through this hard time. I love your stories you’ve shared and your vulnerability. Please know you are in my prayers.
    Blessings,
    Jackie

  • Anonymous

    dearest angie & audrey,
    i so much want to comfort you, and tell you both you have forever touched my heart and life. i have been relaying your prayer requests to Selah’s Guestbook, Angie, many people are praying for you from over there as well.

    audrey – what a beautiful girl you are, straight from God and such a precious gift. you are greatly loved, and you will be greatly rewarded for your job well done. i believe, audrey, you were gifted to Todd & Angie – and to us, to show us how much God does love us. And, that there is healing, in many different forms, we just need to be open to receive it. Thank you Audrey for teaching me & reminding me of the love & healing i am finding through my own losses.

    Angie – thank you for taking the time to share, cry, pray, and heal so opening. if you can, please keep doing so. Despite the difficulties now, i believe you will come through this all, with a renewed sense of God’s love, gifts & mercy. God bless you Angie, and remember, you are not alone!
    Grace & Peace to you,
    carrie lynne – from Selah’s Guestbook

  • Anonymous

    Hi Angie!
    i just wanted you to know that i requested a community prayer for you. it is posted over at Selah’s Guestbook. As i said, we in the Selah Guestbook family love you & Audrey & Todd – and we are lifting you up!

    Blessings to you, Angie!
    carrie lynne – Selah’s Guestbook

  • Heather

    My mom and I had the pleasure of attending Selah’s amazing concert in Springfield a couple of weeks ago. Strangely, all day that Saturday, I felt like there was something else in store for me that evening, and then I found out why. Unfortunately, my husband, Matt and I have been through a similar situation as the one your family is facing. Hopefully, you won’t think of this note as being from a stranger, because when I heard about your story, you were no longer a stranger to me.

    Our first baby, Madison, was born full-term after a long, slow labor, then a c-section, but she was missing some very important little parts. Her kidneys and lungs had not developed and she lived for only 3 short days, the machines just couldn’t keep her going, and we had to unhook her. . . it was simply devastating. Even though we had several ultra-sounds that could have shown the abnormalities, we were told that everything was fine. Her room was all ready to go, with the new crib, everything from the baby showers, a stock-pile of diapers, (you already know how much stuff babies need) . . . but it just wasn’t God’s plan for us to have a baby yet. Walking past that room several times each day cut like a knife.

    It was a dark time for us, but it was also such a bright time for us, because God’s light was shining so strongly at the end of that dark tunnel. We felt like we were inside God’s protective “bubble,” because there were so many details that could have made things even more difficult for us. His grace was so tangible, we felt it everyday. We have now been blessed with two stinkin’ cute little ones, Luke is 6 and Meg is 2, (named after little Maddie, whose initials spelled MEG).

    Please know we are praying for your family to have peace with whatever the next day holds, the courage to face it and the strength to keep walking down the path that God chose for you. Then, on those days, when you you’ve lost all three, just let Him carry you in His arms for a while until you’re ready to walk on your own two feet again . . . even if it takes a long time. May God bless your family’s journey.

  • Kenzie Stanfield

    Angie-

    Oh, your story is overwhelming… it is heartbreaking and yet beautiful… it sounds unbelieveably similar to our story. We just lost our sweet boy Maddox Donald 5 weeks ago today. His original due date was tomorrow and yet the Lord had other plans. At 18 weeks gestation we sat in a room very similar to what you describe in your first post and heard words that didn’t register very well either… spina bifida, 2 vessel cord, probably chromosome abnormalities… as we did the amnio and listen to the geneticist talk about what was probable I couldn’t believe it was us. Two quick days later we found out he had full Trisomy 18 and that over 50% of babies don’t make it to term, and of those that do, they usually only live hours or days…. 95% don’t make it to their first birthday. Well… our story is told on my blog so I won’t go into the detail, but the Lord did chose to bring Maddox in His own time and although this isn’t a path I would ever chose for us, our story radiates God’s abundant love and faithfulness in a time that should be filled with grief and heartache.

    I am so thankful that you chose life, as so many in our situations don’t. We too felt that the Lord has created each child and brought them to us for a purpose… Maddox fulfilled his in the instant he was born as he opened his eyes to see his earthly father, and then again instantly to see his Heavenly One.

    I will be praying for your family in the weeks and months ahead. I will pray for the Lord’s overwhelming peace in whatever might come that you can rest in His love and His plan.

    Love and praying,
    Kenzie

    ~”Bring the Rain” has been my prayer for many months now… Love it!

  • Kenzie Stanfield

    Angie-

    If you don’t mind, I would love to post a link to your blog under my section of families to pray for! Our blog is http://thestanfieldjourney.blogspot.com

    Prayers,
    Kenzie

  • Anonymous

    Angie,

    I’ve started several comments, but can never figure out what to say. The depth of your pain and struggle is beyond my comprehension, and I’m not very good with words.

    But I want you to know that despite the seriousness and sadness of your situation (and the fact that I cry every time I read your posts), your posts inspire me to praise God. I praise God for his comfort and his direction in your life. I praise God for how you are glorifying him during this trial. I praise God for Audrey’s life and the amazing affect she is having, through you and your family, on so many – directing them to Christ, confirming his faithfulness and love. I deeply admire you for doing “all to the glory of God” when it is so difficult. He is truly doing an amazing work in you.

    With the many others, I will continue praying for you and Audrey. May He continue to comfort you with His sweet presence and assurance that all is in His hands.
    ~Chelsea

  • Marin

    Hi…

    You guys don’t know me, I’ve heard Todd with my mom and the music has just blessed us. She pointed me to your blog and I’ve posted now and then as I read this amazing story.

    Angie: You are an amazing mother. I don’t know how else that can be said besides the way that those reading this continue to say it. The eye of the storm is the hardest place to be and we lift you all up in our prayers during this time. You are an inspiration. I’m praying for a miracle of healing as you are. Whatever the Lord decides, someday you’ll be able to run TO her and HUG her and that is a whole other miracle in itself.

    Audrey: You truly are a miracle and I want to thank you for being such a blessing. You’re doing a great job and I know that your parents and your Heavenly Father are very proud of you. Oh! I want to tell you that you are a very beautiful, photogenic, little girl! :)

    Todd: I want to thank you for all of the wonderful music you continue to give when you long to just be at home with your family. You have such a strong heart. And the story when Angie told us that you said they were going to get the bunny…it made me cry :) As I told Angie, we’re all praying for God to heal your precious little girl. And one day, whatever day that may be, Audrey will hear her daddy sing AND be able to look at him while he does.

    Tell Ellie, Abbey, and Kate (I’m sure you have) that they are very good sisters taking care of that little bunny like they did (I never mentioned that earlier). Have a wonderful time on your cruise together. God Bless!

  • Anonymous

    Dear Angie,
    I have been reading your words and prayers for some time now, and I have shared your site with many praying people. Until now, I’ve been too afraid to leave a message for you- what could I possibly share that might help or comfort you when your faith is already so deep and strong, and when you receive such beautiful words from your brothers and sisters in Christ on these posts? But more and more I find your family on my mind…in my heart. I cannot offer any words about how you are hurting…I have, as yet, not experienced this kind of difficult pregnancy in my own life. But I can offer a little bit of what it is like to be the person there with you in that dark ultrasound room…the one sitting at your bedside and holding the transducer over your belly and studying that screen so intently. This is the profession I share with your friend Patti, and I cannot form words deep enough to explain how it feels in that moment of realization, that something is just not as it ought to be. A dawning of the knowledge that this is a case of special circumstances, and special care to be certain as much information as possible can be offered to a doctor so no one underestimates that little baby or his or her chances…all the while praying in my heart and drawing back on eveything I’ve ever seen or been taught-both in my training and in my heart. Before any teaching from any text book, I have to cling to the text in God’s book. As I sit next to that bedside, I know God picked that belly for that particular baby. And I know He knew that baby long before that mommy even dreamed of this day…I have to know His plan works together for the good. How precious would it be in these moments if that scripture would read all things would BE good? But then, that’s the plan according to me, and don’t we all know the mess I would make of things if the plan was left up to me! We will in all reality probably never meet. But know this. I am praying for you the peace you will need for whatever God plans for you and little Audrey. Jesus told his disciples they would be recognized by their love for one another. Many years have come and gone since he spoke those words, but still we can know one another by our love. I love all those little babies I look at everyday on that little black and white screen. I hope and pray they go to a home where they are loved and valued. I have come to love your little Audrey as if she were one of the babies I have the honor of introducing to their own little families. I have loved the stories of your other sweet girls and I will continue to pray for you and love you, too, my sweet sister in Christ. I am deeply moved at the strength you find in our God even now. His grace is amazing.

  • Darlene R.

    Hey Angie,

    I am looking forward to going back and reading over your posts. It was so good to meet you last week on the cruise and talk with you at the airport. I hope your flight turned out to be okay for you!

    I will be keeping the whole family in my prayers. Audrey’s picture is just beautiful! God bless you for your willingness to share her story.

    I think that you can get to my blog by clicking on my name, but here is my address anyway.

    kachoo5.blogspot.com

    I’m looking forward to staying in touch through the wonderful world of blogging!

    Darlene
    PS – I’m pretty sure that my house is not on a ship, but I’m still rocking like it is! How about you?

  • Mauimom1

    Dear Angie-
    Your entries, so beautifully and incredibly written, have flooded back the memories of my ultrasound with my very first pregnancy. I remember trying to act coherant and intelligent as the huge medical words flew out of the doctor’s mouths. The bottom line was that my precious angel would not survive in this world. That pregnancy changed me in many ways. God is so good and amazing. I am so very sorry you are going through this. May He Bless and Keep You as we will all continue to pray for a miracle.
    God Bless You Precious Sister.
    Melissa

  • Tasha

    Dear Angie~I just heard about your story from my best friend Darlene.She met you on the cruise last week.The cruise that I would love to have been on!I am sure you have heard this a million times but my life has been so blessed by Selah’s music.I met your sweet husband,Nicole and Alan about 5 years ago at a concert that they did in our town.My husband,who also sings was having some problems with his throat at that time and after the concert when we met,Todd laid hands on him and prayed.So now I want to pray for you and your family.I have to tell you that I just can not imagine what you are going through right now.You see,I too am pregnant.I think I am about a week behind you.My due date is June 7th but I am having a pre-scheduled c-section on May 27th.Her name is Avery Grace and after hearing about your sweet Audrey the name Grace has even more meaning to me now.I am making this commitment to you.I will be praying for nothing short of a miracle for Audrey every day.My email address is sthalterman@verizon.net if you want to write me back.Love,Tasha

  • Peas on Earth

    Dear Angie,
    I linked to your blog through another and am awed at how God is using you. Thank you for your transparency and your willingness to love and minister through your pain. I have read your entire story and will continue to follow you. (God is writing a great work through you – it would make a fabulous book someday.) Sometimes I wish God always answered our prayers the way that we wanted him to, but it is so true that his ways are infinitely higher than our own. A friend told me recently about how Beth Moore (I think) explains God & miracles: in a nutshell, sometimes God chooses to perform the miracle to display his Supremacy and other times he chooses not to in order to demonstrate his Sufficiency in our lives. I could never have explained it better, and I am eternally grateful for his Sufficiency in my own life. Keep on shining your Light in this dark world, my friend, and I pray that Audrey will make an eternal impact on those privileged to “know” her through your words. In the hope of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, Sharon

  • Merita1011

    Dear Angie,
    I by chance stumbled upon your blog today. I was listening to one of my favorite songs by Selah and decided to go on the website. The song that I love so much is PRESS ON. It gives me courage and uplifts me in my times of struggle, which lately are many. I do not know how it must feel to carry a baby to term and then have her to go on to be with Jesus, but I too have lost a baby (early in pregnancy). It is a difficult time but with your faith and understanding you WILL make it. Just PRESS ON. I as well as my church here in Ms. will be praying for you and your precious little angel Audrey. You are such an inspiration and so eloquent with your words. Your blog can be such a help to others in your situation who do not know Christ.

    Psalms 55:22
    With many thoughts and prayers
    Merita

  • joyboytinkertoy

    You and your words and kindness, your hurt your joy everything has touched me so much. god is definetly working in you. I have never been so moved by words in my life. you r just a beatiful soul..

  • heather

    Dear Angie,
    I know that this comes so much after the fact. I came across your website somehow. I read your most recent post about Luke, and then I backed up and started reading your story as well.
    I am praying for your whole family as you grieve the loss of both beautiful babies.

    God is bringing the rain, may the grass grow greener in your life and the lives of all you touch through your writing.

    I am praying for God to bless you and bring peace to you and your whole family.
    Love in Him,
    Heather

  • Wayne Images

    You are so kind to offer to send Bibles to people during your darkest hour. I know this post is old but I’ve just found you fairly recently and am slow in reading it. Your words are very touching and uplifting. Believe it or not, you’ve helped me, through your blog and your love of Christ and your strength, to deal with my 17-year-old step-son who is being rather difficult right now. God bless you and your family. Thank you so much!

  • LeAnna & Mark

    I am beyond touched by your story and by your spirit. Thank you so much for sharing. That sounds so lame…it doesn’t begin to describe what you do…it’s so much more than sharing.

  • LeAnna & Mark

    I am beyond touched by your story and by your spirit. Thank you so much for sharing. That sounds so lame…it doesn’t begin to describe what you do…it’s so much more than sharing.

  • LeAnna & Mark

    I am beyond touched by your story and by your spirit. Thank you so much for sharing. That sounds so lame…it doesn’t begin to describe what you do…it’s so much more than sharing.

  • LeAnna & Mark

    I am beyond touched by your story and by your spirit. Thank you so much for sharing. That sounds so lame…it doesn’t begin to describe what you do…it’s so much more than sharing.

  • LeAnna & Mark

    I am beyond touched by your story and by your spirit. Thank you so much for sharing. That sounds so lame…it doesn’t begin to describe what you do…it’s so much more than sharing.