A Different Miracle

Let me start by saying thank you. I am (are you getting sick of hearing this?!?!?!) totally overwhelmed by the way people are loving us through life right now. It was not an easy day, but it was filled with the glory of God.

The ultrasound began with Angie (Patti had been called to another office) looking things over. Nothing really looked remarkably different, other than that she is facing up, so we got another look at that beautiful profile. We don’t think she is transverse…it looks like she is still in the “one leg down and one up” position. She looked cute as pie to me. In my head, as the list of visible problems grew longer, I kept thinking, “Now, Lord. It’s not too late. Do it now. Let everyone here see the miracle.”

Dr. Fortunato came in midway through and took over. He and Angie discussed things in scientific terms that I don’t understand, but after every string of words, he would look at me and translate. While the prognosis remains the same, I want to share a few details so that you can pray specifically for her. The first thing is that her kidneys (diagnosed as “polycystic” from the first appointment…remember the Belgian man?) don’t really fit the diagnosis anymore. They are not at all enlarged, which is part of what you would see with polycystic kidneys. This was really puzzling to him. At one point I asked what that meant, and he said, “When doctors give your child absolutely no chance of survival, we expect the development to continue to stay true to that prognosis. This doesn’t.”

Again, this does not “fix” the problem. Audrey’s kidneys are non-functioning, and the lack of fluid has prevented (from what we can tell) her lungs from developing. While her head, arms, legs etc. appear to be on track as far as growth, her little abdomen has started to fall behind; an indication that the lack of fluid is catching up with her. It is also an indication that her lungs are not developing, because while we can see lung tissue, there is not room for them to be a sufficient size. Dr. Fortunato also said that the heart was not the problem, but rather what it indicated about the lungs. This was new to us.

I cannot express to you how much we consider him a blessing to us. If you are ever in a position where you need someone to fight for your baby, you need to come to Nashville and see him and his partners. It is routine for them to treat a woman who was told to “go home and wait to lose the baby” when her water broke at 16 weeks, only to deliver a healthy baby close to full-term. If anyone knows how to rebel against logic, it is this man. And so, based on what they are seeing, we are faced with the same ultimate outcome. This is not a baby God intended for us to keep.

I feel like I need to address that last sentence. You may remember that I asked for you to pray for a miracle today, and you might feel like He failed me. He didn’t.

I want you all to hear me on this, especially those of you who are in a place of questioning as far as God is concerned. As much as I want to have my Audrey, I am (truthfully) completely at peace allowing Him to have the final say. It isn’t because I’m so super-spiritual or because I have a more direct line to God than anyone else. It is because He tells us we can trust Him with our lives, and I simply choose to believe Him.

I told Todd I was scared to write this post tonight, because the truth is that I really wanted to be writing something else. I wanted to be the leper who ran away with clear skin, praising God. I wanted to be the blind man.

Most of all, I wanted to be the one who watched Jesus resurrect his little girl.

What He chose to give me was a different miracle.

I prayed and prayed after my appointment about the words I would post, and I kept asking God for wisdom. As my parents and my grandmother left my house late this afternoon, I went to sit on our front porch with Kate. It was a spectacular day here today, well above 70 degrees and as clear as glass. But as we sat in the shadow of our house, it got cold. The wind whipped through and made us shiver. I was tempted to go inside, as neither of us were dressed for what was turning out to be a pretty cold evening. It was just so beautiful, though, and I felt my mind start to rest. It felt so good to just sit in the silence for a minute and gather my thoughts. I looked at Kate, thumb in her mouth, her other arm wrapped around her shoulder.

“Honey, do you want to go inside?”

She knew that the implication was that I was going to stay outside. She shook her head.

“No, I wanna stay with you.” She continued to stare straight ahead although her body gave a quick shudder, as if to acknowledge that she agreed that it was uncomfortable.

Against my better parenting instincts, I let her sit, and as I watched her bare feet resting on the cold brick, it occurred to me that regardless of the cost, she wanted to stay with me. She would rather shiver and suffer than be on the other side of the door.

This is how I feel about my Jesus.

It is cold. It is uncomfortable. It is not the perfect situation in my eyes. I am barefoot and unprepared for what happens when a summer day turns unexpectedly to a winter chill, but He sits beside me. I guess I always have the option to run and get warm, but like my Kate, I would rather see what He shows me from this perspective. If you live in Nashville, you probably know what is coming next.

Tonight, God gave us one of the most beautiful sunsets you have ever seen.

As I watched it, I couldn’t help but think about the fact that I only got to experience it because I didn’t do the comfortable, easy thing.

And as the sun pierced the sky, the only thing I could hear was a still small reminder.

It was worth every second.

“…in all these things we are more conquerors through Him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.” Romans 8:37-39

Love (and more love),
Angie


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  • Renee Johnson

    Angie and Todd,
    I have been reading your blog since learning of Audrey at Selah’s Canandaigua, NY concert. We are praying for ALL of you during this difficult chapter. I can’t even imagine the heartbreak this must be but also am believing and trusting our Father’s heart of love and care for each of you.
    Thanks for your honesty and transparency you show in your blog. I’m sure only heaven will tell the lives God has touched through Audrey, you and the rest of your family.
    Know we are lifing you up to our Father tonight.
    Love,
    Renee Johnson
    ps—silly sidenote. Susan Canady (friend of your friend Jessica Turner) was my college roommate. Small world! :)

  • The Kahler Family

    A fellow scrapbooker posted a request for prayer on her blog with a link to your site. Being able to pray for you, a complete stranger, is a blessing to me. I have been praying for your family for days now.
    Your unwavering faith is an amazing testament to the love and promise of our amazing God!
    Angie

  • Tina Vega

    I am so deeply touched by your faith; your total and complete reliance on Him is beautiful to behold.

    It is that beauty that brings tears to my eyes more than anything else. Blessings to you and your family – you will remain covered in my prayers.

  • Peas on Earth

    Praise God. That’s really all I can find words to express right now. He is so very worthy.

    God bless you all!

  • Lynn

    I saw a prayer request from a co-worker’s blog, and since then we have been reading your blog, thinking and praying for you and your family, in our NICU in Indiana. You and your family are great role models, in your faith!

  • Jill

    Angie and Todd,

    For weeks now I have been reading your blog, praying for you both and thanking God for using people to touch the lives of His children.

    I explain to others that don’t understand why God allows the things He does – like Audrey’s prognosis, that He and only He knows the whole situation. He is the giver and taker of life. Through His amazing love for us, He gave His Son’s life so we could all live. Through Audrey’s life, He is giving others hope and even more amazing LIFE! Your faith in Him, the heart He has transformed in you both is touching lives that could NEVER be touched without this trial before you both. Would you have raised your hand and said, “Yes, Lord we will be the carrier of a child we might never get to watch grow up”? NO! He knows that and thus only shows us as far as a lamp can lighten to keep us coming back to Him for guidance, His sustaining grace and His strength to get through what He knows is up ahead. Thank you for trusting in Him! Thank you for being honest about the hurt that is real and doesn’t go away just because you love Him so! God doesn’t call you to be heartless or unemotional – He says believe in me with all of your heart, soul and mind, I AM good! You bet when we all get to heaven, people will be looking both of you up to hug you and thank you for saving their life! It is a privilege to pray for your family. It is a privilege and honor to stand behind the cross watching Him work miracles out that none of us knew to ask. You are right, He didn’t fail you today – He NEVER will! He will continue to reveal to you both the beauty in everything – a spring sunset, the smile of your daughter just being next to Mom, the heart of 100′s of people you might never meet this side of heaven and a love so big it is hard to even comprehend. Your family is testimony of that love!
    If you have a moment today go onto godtube.com and watch Inheritance. http://www.godtube.com/view_video.php?viewkey=5e887e9e72bfe5dabca1&ref=sv

    Let His love sustain you as you continue to walk by faith!
    Sending many hugs and lifting you up each day!
    Jill

  • sarah

    Angie,
    I have been reading your blog ever since my mother-in-law went to your husband’s concert and told me about it. I love the fact that I can connect and pray for people I don’t even know. To God be the glory! Thank you for sharing your heart – God is using you in a mighty way. I have been going through a Beth Moor study and several things have jumped out at me regarding your situation. I will look them up and write them another time. I am praying for you and your family.
    God is sovereign.
    Sarah in PA

  • Jessica

    praying for you – as always. xoxo

  • Alice

    I prayed for you yesterday and again this morning on my way to work early, as I watched the sun rise. I prayed for a miracle. I also prayed for God’s glory, regardless of the outcome, because that is the real miracle–that any of us here on Earth, in any way, including a tiny, not-yet-fully-formed baby, can somehow bring the God of the universe glory. Your precious little Audrey is already doing what she was created to do–bring Him honor and glory. Her life has such meaning and purpose! Continuing to pray for you…

  • Anonymous

    Big Sigh!!! While finishing reading the words “trust and obey” came into my mind. They are part of an old hymn and I don’t remember the rest of the words.
    Trusting Spirit God is so hard for our finite minds….we want a God with skin on. A tangible God!
    I continue to pray for you and your family!!!!
    Hugs! From Wisconsin…..

  • Anonymous

    It is easy to trust God when things are going great, but during the trials is where we learn to really trust. You are an amazing women. I still believe God is able to give you this miracle of little Audrey.

  • Michelle

    when my daughter was born, someone shared with me the Bible passage John 9:3

    John 9

    1 As He passed by, He saw a man blind from birth. 2 And His disciples asked Him, “Rabbi, who sinned, this man or his parents, that he would be born blind?” 3 Jesus answered, “It was neither that this man sinned, nor his parents; but it was so that the works of God might be displayed in him. 4 “We must work the works of Him who sent Me as long as it is day; night is coming when no one can work. 5 “While I am in the world, I am the Light of the world.”

    the works of God are being displayed, through you, through Audrey. God bless you all. (PS I am still believing in miracles, I have seen so many children born who had dire predictions made about them. I just believe, will always believe, that until the very last second, there is room for a miracle. Benotafraid.net)

  • Kristen

    that sunset was incredible last night. we will have to get together so i can share with you my mom’s story. actually, i was sharing about you and my mom with a lady on the plane yesterday. she mentioned that she always felt judged by christians. so i very subtly told her about you and about my mom and your amazing responses to God’s hand in your life that most would not see as God’s hand. love you, angie!

  • Anonymous

    Thank you for reminding me of the gifts God has given me and the peace that passes all understanding. We are praying for you in Indiana.

  • Jessica

    Angie,
    I do not know you and this is only the first post that I have read from your blog, but thank you for posting it. I know that it must have been so hard for you(as you said in the post). You have shown so much courage and I know that it is God who is using you even through this blog. I will be praying for you and your family. Thank you also for sharing that verse. I have never (truthfully) had scripture feel so real and relevant in my life as that scripture is in your situation. Thank you again. I pray for even more peace in your heart and mind. Also that you continue to feel the love not only from your family and friends, but from your Father.

  • Amy

    Praying for you…

  • amy

    This post reminds me of this verse in Isaiah:

    Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, “This is the way; walk in it.

    Still praying for you and your family…

  • Mauimom1

    Angie-

    Praying for you, baby Audrey, and your family. He will get you through this, of that, sweet sister, I am sure.

    Love,
    Melissa

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  • Francine

    Hi Angie,
    I sit her in my office tears streaming down my face as I just read your latest blog. I am in awe of your strength and will now be in prayer for you and your little one. Your love for God is abundant and he will be there for you. I face a different type of situation with pregnancy. Mine is I have to loose a certain amount of weight in order to get pregnant and be safe so here I sit struggling with not eating things I shouldnt and that I realize my situation is nothing and I should rejoice God in all things just as I have seen you do. Thank you for being so willing to share your heart. God bless you and your family.
    Hugs,
    Francine Howell

  • Kate

    Hi Angie,

    I just stumbled (yeah right) across your blog and spent the last hour catching up on your trial. i will add you and your sweet family to my prayer list. i am a fellow nashvillian and the sunset last night was amazing. also, i don’t know if you have seen this site conorbootheandgirls.blogspot.com boothe and conor lost their second daughter to trisomy-18 after 8 days in this world. they also live in nashville, and are believers. i don’t know if their journey would help or jurt you but it’s there if you feel led. in my thoughts, kate

  • Carrie Oliver

    This song came to my mind as I was reading your blog today…
    Blessed be Your name when the sun’s shining
    down on me
    When the world’s all as it should be
    Blessed be Your name
    And blessed be Your name on the road marked
    with suffering
    Though there’s pain in the offering
    Blessed be Your name

    Every blessing You pour out I’ll turn back
    to praise
    And when the darkness closes in Lord
    Still I will say
    Blessed be the name of the Lord

    You give and take away
    My heart will choose to say
    Lord, blessed be Your name

    God bless you guys.

    Love,
    Carrie Oliver

  • Tasha

    Your faith and God’s grace absolutly amaze me.I love you dear sister.

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  • Michelle

    Angie (I feel like a bit of a stalker, knowing you but not known TO you.) I was driving home from picking up takeout (shhh!) tonight, and guess what? The radio came on with a commercial advertising a special visitor to a town near here in may! (Bangor Maine!) I am so going!! I didnt even know about Selah till I read this blog. My new favorite song…sorry Todd…is Bring the Rain, it is so beautiful. I LOVE some of Selah’s stuff, too. I am not usually a Christian music kinda girl. Reading your blog has been kinda…enlightening. I want that kind of faith in my life. Anyway…Im going to a Selah concert! I hafta admit, there was a little sadness in that, wondering where you all would be in life come May…IM still praying for miracles. Maybe Todd can sing a song about miracles for us? Whatever he sings about…Im sure it will be God’s will…and beautiful. Anyway…thanks for opening my eyes to so much. Michelle

  • Portia

    Angie–

    I’ve never posted here either. I came to your blog through a link on Jody Ferlaak’s (I probably just spelled that wrong) blog. I have admired her strength for so long and now I am admiring yours. All I can seem to say is, “Wow. I couldn’t do that.” You make it seem so simple.

    Though I’m not a “real” Christian (raised in a non-Christian religion) I find my self seeking Him more and more and know that in my heart I am a Christian. I don’t know where to seek but you give me strength and hope.

    Thank you. Today and every day.

  • amy weier

    Dear Angie,
    I just learned of your blog from a friend & have sat here this evening reading your beautiful journey with Audrey, laughing & crying. I am compelled to tell you of a book I read several years ago “Waiting for Gabriel” by Amy Keubelbeck (I think that’s how to spell it) It popped into my head while reading your journal, so I knew I had to share it with you. You have such an amazing, beautiful faith – thank you for sharing your life & love of the Lord with all of us. You & your beautiful family will be in my prayers.

  • Fran

    Angie…
    My heart is so tendered to you and your family right now. Please know that fellow sister in Christ, who is so near to you, is praying for y’all every day.

    May He continue to hold you so close and your faith and trust be strengthened with each day.

    Much love to you all!
    Fran
    Jackson TN

  • Emily

    I just stumbled across your blog and I am speechless. My baby girl was born at Vanderbilt last June and she spent five days there before she went home with Jesus. We have spent too much time in Nashville with our girls! I am praying for your heart, as only a mother to a little miracle girl in surprise package can pray. Thanks for giving me the honor.

  • Kara

    angie-
    i am continually praying for you guys. you faith is amazing, and our God works in many ways.
    as a mother its so hard to think of these sort of things, and you are doing so good. laying your faith in our Lord, which is where it should be.
    thank-you for being such an amazing example for all. to step back, and remember that our Lord has a hand in everything that we do.

  • Kelly

    I am reading this crying like a baby because I am so sorry you for you and because you are describing my feelings so perfectly. We are trying to have a baby and have been unsuccessful and I don’t understand but all I know is God wants me to trust Him. It is SO painful but all I can do is trust that God knows better than I do. People ask me how I can keep trusting Him and I don’t have answers except over and over in His word He asks us to.
    I’m so thankful for your faith and I will pray for a miracle but at the same time for your peace.

  • JonathanEnix

    I’m so moved by what God is doing through you. Thank you for trusting God enough to be faithful to Him during this trying time. Satan is the cause of death, but through the love and sacrifice of Christ we all, even an unborn child, can “have life and have it more abundantly.”

    Thank you so much. I’ll be praying.

  • Annie

    I found your blog through a post on another blog and I just wanted to let you know that I am praying for you, Audrey, and your family. God can work miracles (I know first hand) but if he chooses not to, he is doing a different kind of work (in you and in your family). No matter what happens he will always be right there with you. It is so special to be able to see your faith shining through this blog. Thank you for sharing and allowing us to pray with you.

    Love and prayers,
    Annie ~ lovejoelr.blogspot.com

  • Big Mama

    I just found your blog through another blog and your post has touched me so deeply. The road we walk isn’t always the easiest road, but it’s comforting knowing it’s the best road when our eyes are fixed on Christ. I’m in awe of your ability to completely trust Him.

    I’m praying for you and your sweet family.

  • Adrienne

    I remember reminding God that in His healing our dying son, Noah, that He would get all the glory. I remember how well I had it all planned out in my head…He heals Noah, all medical staff get saved, people around the world who followed his story give their lives to the Lord, we spend the rest of our lives declaring how big God is. I never imagined that in Noah’s death that God could get the glory…that’s because I used to fear death. It’s because I hadn’t truly laid my ear against His chest and felt the peace of resting in the center of His will. I praise God that you both have that peace. Obviously it still hurts. Even tonight, over a year after Noah’s first birthday in heaven, the emotions and scenarios are raw. But the peace of God, when it comes, is undeniable, and the most beautiful glimpse of Heaven we have. We continue to pray for your journey with all four of your beautiful girls.
    Jason, Adrienne and Emily Graves, CO

  • Christal Miles

    Todd and Angie…
    I am at a loss for words. Your strength amazes me. Just as your love of God. It is so easy at times to quesition God and get angery when children suffer when they are ill or that parents such as yourselves have to go through things like this. Your faith is a wonderful thing! Thanks for reminding me of God’s undying love for us all and that our stregth comes from him. I will continue to pray for you all.
    Christal
    Oh BTW… Bought my first Selah CD. LOVE IT!

  • Marc and Charity

    Hello, I found your blog through another one and I just wanted to say that we are praying for you. I did some reading around on you blog and your post about why you named the blog “Bring The Rain” really spoke to me…we moved to Wales (UK) and much like Ireland, it rains…and on the dark, dark days- physically and spiritually- God reminds me that this place would not as green without all the rain! Someone told me “May the rain that falls all around you remind you of HIS presence!”

    Praying for you and your precious family.

  • Ashlie

    I just discovered your blog through Kelly’s and I am so touched. I can’t begin to imagine what you’re going through right now. Praise God for your intentional trust in Him! I also am thinking that God ordered the way in which I checked blogs today. I don’t believe in “coincidences” (rather, it’s God’s hand) and this is a perfect example…a woman in my church is a professional photographer and volunteers for the Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep Foundation. I don’t know if you’ve heard of them, but they are a non-profit organization who help families capture the last precious moments they are able to spend with children whose lives end shortly after birth or are still-born. Their services are completely free and they give you several beautiful photographs to cherish forever. If you’d like to look into them, the website is:
    http://www.nowilaymedowntosleep.org/

    I don’t know if that is something you and your family would be comfortable with but I felt led to share the information. I will stop right now and pray for God’s hand to be upon you and His peace to sustain you. Many blessings…

  • Q’s NEWS

    I saw the Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep Foundation on the Today show a week or so ago. It looked like a wonderful, beautiful idea. The people they interviewed were sooo glad they had decided to use this foundation and were overjoyed with the results.

    I just had to put my 2 cents in after reading the comment before mine. I have been keeping up with your blog for the past several weeks, and praying for you and your family ever since. I haven’t commented before because I don’t know what to say. Just just know this….that our God is bigger than any of our situations and he has His hand on you and Audrey at all times.

    I also think you are a very talented writer. Every entry I read takes me to what you are describing and makes me feel like I am there with you guys – even if just for a few minutes. I love you and your family although I have never met you. Thank you for being such an inspiration to so many people.

    I will be praying and reading………

    Love from WV,
    Susan

  • He Won My Heart

    Angie,

    Thank you! Your words…the words I know God gave you are so true! How marvelous is our Lord beyond our comprehension! We might never know the hearts and lives we touch through our suffering, but all will be revealed on that glorious day! Although I may never meet you in this life…on this earth…gaurantee I’ll be looking you up when we reach the pearly gates. I’m gonna say…”God where is Angie…you know…the one who wrote that beautiful post that night…I read it and it touched me…it made me know everything would be alright.” I know He will take me to you and we will embrace! Thank you…thank you ….thank you!

    Love,
    Your Sister in Christ,
    Shannon “J”
    http://www.hewonmyheart.blogspot.com

  • Sunny

    “It was worth every second” Beautiful and so encouraging!

  • Fun With Five

    Just came across you blog recently… What a beautiful post about a very difficult reality. Thank you for sharing your heart-your faith inspires and challenges me. Praying for you and your sweet family.

  • Harris Family

    What beautiful words! A friend of mine recently told me of your story and I haven’t been able to quit reading about it since. How amazing to see our Heavenly Father use one of His precious children to touch so many. Although my heart aches for you and what your family is going through, your unshattered faith is so encouraging to me. I can’t even begin to imagine what you are experiencing, but to see your trust in your Savior just lifts me up. My husband and I have been going through some difficult times as well, yet so minor in comparison. Thankfully we serve a God who is bigger than any of our problems and bigger than life itself. Thankfully HE has the perfect plan and there is no better place to be than in His embrace.

    I am adding your sweet family to my prayer list!

    God Bless you,
    Rebekah
    Waco, Texas

  • Bevy

    I’m sorry to hear about your baby. Such a sorrow and sadness.
    God bless you for your strength and courage in this most difficult situation! Bevinne

  • onehm

    I keep reading on…and I feel so very blessed to have found your blog.
    You are inspiring and sweet and kind and I appreciate you sharing your deepest feelings.

  • Mags

    I know this feeling – the feeling like you want to scream at God to work His miracles and HEAL for all to see… to use you as the example of His great power… and then you find that He IS using you as an example… just not in the way you had originally hoped or expected… but still it is good.

    I wrote about your blog on my blog tonight. I am only at this post in my reading – but already I know your words will be healing to many. Thanks for your courage to chronicle this journey.
    :) Mags
    everydayplaces.blogspot.com

  • Beth

    my cousin just told me about your story and sent me the blog link.

    i love how God shows up in every aspect of our lives. He writes beautifully through you! this was POWERFUL.

  • Beth

    my cousin just told me about your story and sent me the blog link.

    i love how God shows up in every aspect of our lives. He writes beautifully through you!

  • Alet

    I fell pregnant at the very young age of 19. For the past 4 years (baby is 3yrs now and living with me) my heart has been broken with stories of couples not being able to have kids or struggling during their pregnancies. Especially considering the fact that I was reckless during mine.

    I have sat weeping at their stories, angry with God for allowing a couple wanting and able to look after a child to struggle. I have been angry with God for allowing my baby to be born so young (don’t get me wrong, he motivates me more than anything or anyone and I love him to bits). But truth be told, it has been difficult!

    For so long I have had the question unanswered, “Why does God allow these things to happen?” My answer was always, the practical approach, that it is just part of the bigger picture, the puzzle in progress.

    Your answer makes sense! It humbles you and it makes you appreciate God so much more.

    Thank you for sharing your story and thank you for sharing so much of yourself and your family, especially in this difficult time.

    I know I am very late, but I will be praying for you and your family!