Audrey, pregnancy, Travel

Home Again

We are home from our adventure on the big boat! Honestly, it was one of the best experiences of my life, and the timing could not have been better.  I have been dreading it for months, because I felt like I would be so exposed…a boat full of people who know my husband and therefore know me.  A bathing suit that shows off what is now undoubtedly the mark of impending motherhood.  I didn’t want to be stared at, picked over, evaluated, discussed.  I just knew it was going to be a disaster.  Well, I am happy to say that I was completely wrong.

The first night that Todd sang, he explained what was going on with Audrey.  I have never been present at a concert when he has made this announcement, and I was wiggling around, waiting for the eyes to seek me out.  As he eloquently shared our hurt, a holy hush came and settled in the room.  There was no staring.  No chit-chatting.  The presence of the Lord Himself redirected their eyes far from me, and I soaked in their worship on my behalf.  Todd finished singing “It Is Well” as the audience sang along, loudly, deeply, from the soul.  I saw, in that moment, what it is that you all have done on my behalf, and I want you to know that I was profoundly affected.  Kathy Triccoli came to the stage shortly after and asked for the crowd to pray for me.  She had them lift their hands to me in the balcony and then she said the sweetest, most heartfelt prayer you can imagine.  It drifted around me like a lullaby, and I just rested there, motionless and stilled.  If you happen to read these words, Kathy, I want you to know that the Lord used you to push our flickering flame a bit deeper into the shadows of our great Christ, and we beheld Him in wonder and praise.  Thank you for allowing us to be a part of your ministry this past week…we are so grateful. 
I wanted to let you all know that we are home and happy…today held a few profound moments that I would love to share with you.  I never cease to be amazed at the way the Lord chooses to reveal Himself.  I can hardly hold my eyes open, so I will pause for now and try to post more tomorrow.  In the meantime, enjoy the sunshine with us for a few minutes!
Much love,

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  • Reply LInda March 5, 2008 at 3:52 am

    One thing I have learned in my own journey is that He always surrounds us with people that remind of us His very real presence in our lives. In the lowest moments of my life, He has brought people to me that shine His light in the darknesss – that show me how much I am loved. What a wonderful gift He has given you. Thank you for sharing it with the rest of us. Know that you & your family continue to be in our prayers. Peace & Grace – Linda

  • Reply Peas on Earth March 5, 2008 at 4:14 am

    I am so very happy for you that the week went well. I just found your blog while you were gone and have invested in your story with prayers and tears. I thank the Lord with you that he wrapped you in his loving arms through the praises and intercessions of the people in that audience. If the prayers of a righteous man avail much, imagine the prayers of the multitudes. May God continue to hold you securely in the palm of his loving hand. In Jesus’s love, Sharon

  • Reply courtney walsh March 5, 2008 at 5:02 am

    awesome, awesome! So glad you had such a good time and how amazing, yet not surprising that God showed up. Praying for you still… always. :)(and those sweet baby girls! All four of them!)

  • Reply Jessica March 5, 2008 at 11:53 am

    Glad you are home (and that you updated the blog). I love the pics you posted. 🙂 I can’t wait to hear more details about the trip – I am delighted that God used it to positively impact your story, dear. I knew He would. I love you and hope we can connect soon. xoxo

  • Reply Kathy March 5, 2008 at 12:55 pm

    I was on the cruise with you guys and just wanted you to know that I will continue to pray for all of you. Thanks for sharing your family and your ministry with all of the KT & Friends group! We were blessed by your testimony of God’s goodness and I know that He will continue to use you and Audrey in amazing ways.

  • Reply Darlene R. March 5, 2008 at 1:19 pm

    Ah, the memories of sunshine! We just got about 5 inches of snow here last night. Cute pictures.

    I know what you are talking about when you described the room that night on the cruise. I will never forget the view from the balcony as all of those people lifted a hand in your direction. It was a beautiful sight.

    I am so glad that you were able to relax and have fun with your family. 🙂

  • Reply Anonymous March 5, 2008 at 2:50 pm

    You’ve sooooo been on my heart the last two days. Know that many prayers have gone up for you, and Audrey, Todd and your girls. I’m praying for peace, rest, safety and understanding. I’m still hopeful that God will choose to allow Audrey to come into this world whole. But whatever He chooses, I know that He will be with you in power and strength.
    -karen l.

  • Reply Adrienne and Jim March 5, 2008 at 7:57 pm

    I always find myself teary-eyed as I read your posts. I am so happy you had such a good week. Your description of the concert, Kathy’s prayer, and your presence among all of these people praying for you gave me chills. Isn’t it beautiful how God surrounds us with the people we need just when we need them most?

    I LOVED the pictures! The girls are so adorable and such little hams for the camera! I love it! Makes me look forward to our upcoming Disney vacation in May!

    So happy to hear you are having a good day. Always thinking of you,

  • Reply karen44 March 5, 2008 at 10:15 pm

    I was thinking — for a little bit of a thing who hasn’t even been born yet, Audrey has had a huge impact on a lot of people! She’s a great case for the fact that unborn babies are people, too.

    Many people would have “done something” about such a difficult pregnancy by now, but God has used you so powerfully to speak women’s (and men’s) hearts. To show us that even if Audrey never enters this world, but goes strait into Jesus’ arms, she’s been used powerfully.

    Praise God for “small” testimonies!
    -karen l.

  • Reply Anonymous March 5, 2008 at 11:23 pm

    I was watching the news this morning and an organization called “Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep” was featured. You may want to take a look at this website, it has brought a lot of peace to many families.

  • Reply Jody March 6, 2008 at 2:15 am

    I have been in continual thought and prayer for you and your family. My own pregnancy was causing some concerns the past week, and each time I felt ‘worried’ I prayed for you too. I just know that the God we love and serve is the same- yesterday, today and tomorrow. He will never fail us- and your post is such a powerful, yet gentle, reminder of that truth. I have been so moved that the times when I give God my ‘worst’…my questions, concerns, heartache and worry…He has a way of taking those things and showing me that He is in control. I love that you and Todd and your girls are feeling and ‘seeing’ evidence of His unending grace and mercy. May you continue to be surrounded by His love and peace in the coming weeks. I just listened to my Selah cd as I picked up my son from school today. God IS good and His ways are not ours- therefore we simply trust and rely on His promises and it is truly something to be able to say confidently, “It is well with my soul.”
    More love and prayers being said on your behalf…sweetly~ Jody

    P.S. I love those matching bathing suits and the girls holding hands up on the guys shoulders. How wonderful that they’re so close!

  • Reply J.C. and Barbara Haynes March 8, 2008 at 4:33 pm

    Todd & Angie, I was so blessed to see the beautiful photo/ultrasound image of Audrey inside you. She is fearfully and wonderfully made. Where would we be without the inifinite weight of God’s glory and the fact that He has beautiful plans for Audrey, even as He does Ellie, Abbey, and Kate. You are blowing me away that you can write what you’re writing during this time. It’s good. It makes me lean into God all the more. Love from your church family and prayers, as always! Barbara (along with J.C., Ian & June) Haynes

  • Reply Carrie Oliver March 10, 2008 at 5:06 am

    Hi Angie!

    I was praying for you guys again today and finally had a chance to check out your blog that Todd had encouraged us to read while we were on the cruise last week. I was glad to read that you were secure in knowing that you were not being “evaluated” during that week, because you were certainly surrounded by the right kind of people…people to pray for you. I, too, felt that powerful presence when we were all praying over you that one evening. I counted it as a privilege to do so. Thank you for allowing us and for allowing the Lord to use us in that way on your behalf.
    Know that you are still covered in prayer…by many, I’m sure…but definitely from this part of the country (West Virginia.) 🙂
    Hang in there and take care.
    Love and prayers,
    Carrie Oliver (from Weirton, WV.)

    By the way, my friend Bridget is still wondering whether you ever got that jewelry you were hoping for….:)

  • Reply Waddell March 11, 2008 at 8:15 pm

    Wow! We are speechless. That was the best rendition of that song we have ever heard. And we’re not just saying that because we love you!!!!!We miss you all terribly!!!! we are praying and hope to see you soon. Love, Sandy John Amber and Ashley

  • Reply Anonymous March 12, 2008 at 3:14 am

    You are a treasure…praying for sweet time this week.

  • Reply Andrea March 12, 2008 at 3:30 pm

    What a truly amazing song! Your blog is a huge blessing…thank you 🙂

  • Reply Anonymous March 12, 2008 at 4:05 pm

    I just happened to come across your blog by way of Jody Ferlaak’s blog. I just had the pleasure of listening to I Surrender All. That is definitely a timely classic, and it still continues to bring tears to my eyes. What an amazing song, and an amazing arrangment!

    God Bless you and your family!

    Kim in Texas

  • Reply Jessatsea June 22, 2008 at 3:31 pm

    I happened to come across your blog today and have been reading. I cannot imagine the pain you have gone through and will pray for you and your family.

    Your faith is astounding and so so inspiring!

    I am reminded what a small small world it is and God works his ways that we know each other and remind each other that we are in fact a family.

    The ship that you went on, I worked on. I was a Cruise Director in a past life and had the opportunity to organize one of the cruises that you must have been on. Not the EXACT one, but one before you. I wish that I had had the opportunity to be there for you… now, I am… just through this crazy thing called the World Wide Web.

    I wish peace for you and your family! I will continue to pray for you and follow your story.

    Jessica In Texas

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