On the Road

I am writing from Lexington, KY, where Selah had a concert tonight. Since we only live a few hours away, we came up with Todd. I am so glad we did. We are staying in a very fancy hotel (thank you Ashland Baptist!) that is not helping me to empathize with Todd’s road life. Sometimes when he is touring and I have been at home with the girls for a few days, I start to feel sorry for myself and tell him that he is lucky to have a break. He then tries to convince me that it is not easy to be on the road, he is tired from his 6 a.m. flight, his throat is sore, they didn’t have time to eat dinner blah blah blah….

Usually I wait until the middle of a 3-child meltdown and call him to tell him to buy some hot tea and get over it.

Last night, as we got to our room (or rather, the “front” room of our suite) there was a plate full of fresh fruit, cheese, and chocolate-covered strawberries waiting for us, along with a bathroom full of spa soap and a view of a lake from the “back room.” As soon as we walked in, I told him I totally understood how hard life on the road was. Suffering for Jesus, that’s my baby.

For the record, if you have ever seen Selah in concert, you will know that what they do is NOT easy. They give more of themselves in a show than anyone I have ever seen, and will sit at a venue until they have talked to every single person who wants to talk to them. It isn’t part of “the show,” it’s part of who they are. But still. Seven months pregnant with 3 kids 5 and under. You pick a side. :)

We went to Joseph-Beth Bookstore this afternoon (my favorite!) and we had a great day reading and playing. I ended up in the baby book section and chose a photo album that I really loved and wanted to buy for Audrey. I held onto it and let my eyes (and heart) drift into the shelves of newborn baby books as I stood alongside a woman who looked about as far along as me. I could feel myself starting to crumble a little, but I couldn’t help but stare at all of the book spines and dream about how great it would be to worry about whether to put Audrey on organic food, or how to get her to sleep through the night. After a few minutes, I started to walk back to Todd and I took a last glance at the sweet photo album. That is when I realized that it wasn’t a photo album, but rather a baby book, designed to mark the milestones of your child’s first year. I threw it down on the bench. I felt like I couldn’t breathe, and I barely held it together until I could find Todd. There are dozens of these moments every week. Hurtful, longing, broken moments. I am at a point where I just let them come. I sit with my sorrow for as long as it feels like I need to, and then I pray for the strength to carry it a little longer. I have the propensity to obsess over things, and it takes a deliberate, conscious shift in thinking so that the pain doesn’t consume me. Lord, you gave me this heart, and you know just how to love me despite it…

He made Himself known in little ways throughout the rest of the day. I’m always glad He chooses the little things, because that’s where I often look for Him. It isn’t always in the ways we expect, though, and we have to be ready for that possibility. Along those lines…

I have to share this story with you all, because it was just one of those “kid moments.”

I often pray for God to reveal Himself in ways that give meaning to what I am going through, and help me to share those feelings with others. He has always been faithful to that, and tonight was no exception.

I stayed in the church with the girls for the first half of the concert, and then decided to take them back to the (amazing!) nursery to play for the second half. I didn’t want to push my luck, and I think that Kate singing (loudly and about 2 words behind whatever Selah was singing) was starting to be “not cute” to the people who paid good money to hear the original version. While we were playing with play-doh, Abby started to talk about Audrey. She opens up more when her hands are busy and her mind is distracted, so I listened intently, waiting for glory to drop in my lap.

“Mommy, I love Audrey more and more and more.”

“Honey, I know you do. So do I.” I watched her hands form a little heart with what was now a multi-colored heap of goo (don’t judge me for looking away for 20 seconds. You know you can’t keep that stuff separated either).

“But do you know who I love even more, mama?” I love her sweet, high little reflective voice.

“Who, Abby?”

“Jesus. I love Him even more and more and more. And do you know what else?” Her voice hushed to a whisper. I met her eyes and waited. She was clearly about to share something big. I leaned in closer, ready.

“What, sweetie?”

“I just tooted.”

She leaned back into her chair, satisfied that she had shared her heart.

I, in turn, had to leave the room because I was laughing so hard I thought she might think I was making fun of her. Sometimes, when you are looking for the deep, meaningful moment that will carry you through until the next day, God just gives you a chance to laugh at the world despite the fact that you don’t feel like laughing. I am so grateful to serve a God who knows our needs more than we know how to lay them before His feet.

I pray that this Palm Sunday finds you peaceful, reflective, and joyful. I pray that if you are taking painful steps today, you are reminded that the Lord has walked them ahead of you, knowing what waited for Him up ahead. Take courage and know that He walks as closely to you as He did to the crowds, 2000 years ago. Thank you for your wounds, Lord. I rest there tonight.

I am planning to update tomorrow night when we get home…we are taking a detour to pick up a little surprise that I can’t wait to share with you all.

See you then!
Angie


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  • A is for Angela

    I can’t believe I have the privilege of being one of the first (if not THE first) commenter!

    Your strength is contagious and your faith is inspiring. Thank you for sharing your journey with us.

    P.S. I always laugh when my little one delights in her “toots” as well.

    Angela
    Waco, TX

  • Jessica

    Love you and your family Angie. I look forward to seeing you tonight and giving you a big hug. xoxo

  • karen44

    Angie, you just make me laugh!
    Still praying for everyone.
    -karen l.

  • Diane

    Thanks for sharing your story…very precious! Still lifting you in prayer.

  • Tim

    I enjoyed the concert very much in Lexington at Ashland Ave Baptist Ch. last night , Todd was an inspiration to me when he told about Audrey Caroline , hug those three precious little girls close during the hard times , because they are a special gift from God , I will be praying for both you and Todd .

    Tim
    Bowling Green KY

  • Alice

    Little girls are such a joy (usually), aren’t they?! As I drove to work this morning and to drop my 2-year-old daughter at daycare (it’s quite a long drive), we were listening to the “Timeless” collection. We got to the live version of Todd singing “Were You There?” As soon as it finished, my little girl said “Do dat one again, Mom!” so I played it again. (And again. And again. And again. She really likes it!) While we listened to the song, I prayed for you guys.

    Thanks for sharing your heart and also all the “little moments” as well!

  • Brandon & April

    I loved this line…Suffering for Jesus, that’s my baby. ha! Made me bust out laughing! Glad you were able to get away for a time! I love it too when God shows up in little ways all throughout a day…especially when I need him most! I agree with Angela…your strength is contagious and faith inspiring!

  • Brandon & April

    I loved this line…Suffering for Jesus, that’s my baby. ha! Made me bust out laughing! Glad you were able to get away for a time! I love it too when God shows up in little ways all throughout a day…especially when I need him most! I agree with Angela…your strength is contagious and faith inspiring!

  • Brandon & April

    I loved this line…Suffering for Jesus, that’s my baby. ha! Made me bust out laughing! Glad you were able to get away for a time! I love it too when God shows up in little ways all throughout a day…especially when I need him most! I agree with Angela…your strength is contagious and faith inspiring!

  • Brandon & April

    I loved this line…Suffering for Jesus, that’s my baby. ha! Made me bust out laughing! Glad you were able to get away for a time! I love it too when God shows up in little ways all throughout a day…especially when I need him most! I agree with Angela…your strength is contagious and faith inspiring!

  • Brandon & April

    I loved this line…Suffering for Jesus, that’s my baby. ha! Made me bust out laughing! Glad you were able to get away for a time! I love it too when God shows up in little ways all throughout a day…especially when I need him most! I agree with Angela…your strength is contagious and faith inspiring!

  • Brandon & April

    I loved this line…Suffering for Jesus, that’s my baby. ha! Made me bust out laughing! Glad you were able to get away for a time! I love it too when God shows up in little ways all throughout a day…especially when I need him most! I agree with Angela…your strength is contagious and faith inspiring!

  • Brandon & April

    I loved this line…Suffering for Jesus, that’s my baby. ha! Made me bust out laughing! Glad you were able to get away for a time! I love it too when God shows up in little ways all throughout a day…especially when I need him most! I agree with Angela…your strength is contagious and faith inspiring!

  • Brandon & April

    I loved this line…Suffering for Jesus, that’s my baby. ha! Made me bust out laughing! Glad you were able to get away for a time! I love it too when God shows up in little ways all throughout a day…especially when I need him most! I agree with Angela…your strength is contagious and faith inspiring!

  • Brandon & April

    I loved this line…Suffering for Jesus, that’s my baby. ha! Made me bust out laughing! Glad you were able to get away for a time! I love it too when God shows up in little ways all throughout a day…especially when I need him most! I agree with Angela…your strength is contagious and faith inspiring!

  • Brandon & April

    I loved this line…Suffering for Jesus, that’s my baby. ha! Made me bust out laughing! Glad you were able to get away for a time! I love it too when God shows up in little ways all throughout a day…especially when I need him most! I agree with Angela…your strength is contagious and faith inspiring!

  • Brandon & April

    I loved this line…Suffering for Jesus, that’s my baby. ha! Made me bust out laughing! Glad you were able to get away for a time! I love it too when God shows up in little ways all throughout a day…especially when I need him most! I agree with Angela…your strength is contagious and faith inspiring!

  • Brandon & April

    I loved this line…Suffering for Jesus, that’s my baby. ha! Made me bust out laughing! Glad you were able to get away for a time! I love it too when God shows up in little ways all throughout a day…especially when I need him most! I agree with Angela…your strength is contagious and faith inspiring!

  • Brandon & April

    I loved this line…Suffering for Jesus, that’s my baby. ha! Made me bust out laughing! Glad you were able to get away for a time! I love it too when God shows up in little ways all throughout a day…especially when I need him most! I agree with Angela…your strength is contagious and faith inspiring!

  • Brandon & April

    I loved this line…Suffering for Jesus, that’s my baby. ha! Made me bust out laughing! Glad you were able to get away for a time! I love it too when God shows up in little ways all throughout a day…especially when I need him most! I agree with Angela…your strength is contagious and faith inspiring!

  • Brandon & April

    I loved this line…Suffering for Jesus, that’s my baby. ha! Made me bust out laughing! Glad you were able to get away for a time! I love it too when God shows up in little ways all throughout a day…especially when I need him most! I agree with Angela…your strength is contagious and faith inspiring!

  • Brandon & April

    I loved this line…Suffering for Jesus, that’s my baby. ha! Made me bust out laughing! Glad you were able to get away for a time! I love it too when God shows up in little ways all throughout a day…especially when I need him most! I agree with Angela…your strength is contagious and faith inspiring!

  • Brandon & April

    I loved this line…Suffering for Jesus, that’s my baby. ha! Made me bust out laughing! Glad you were able to get away for a time! I love it too when God shows up in little ways all throughout a day…especially when I need him most! I agree with Angela…your strength is contagious and faith inspiring!

  • Brandon & April

    I loved this line…Suffering for Jesus, that’s my baby. ha! Made me bust out laughing! Glad you were able to get away for a time! I love it too when God shows up in little ways all throughout a day…especially when I need him most! I agree with Angela…your strength is contagious and faith inspiring!

  • Brandon & April

    I loved this line…Suffering for Jesus, that’s my baby. ha! Made me bust out laughing! Glad you were able to get away for a time! I love it too when God shows up in little ways all throughout a day…especially when I need him most! I agree with Angela…your strength is contagious and faith inspiring!

  • Brandon & April

    I loved this line…Suffering for Jesus, that’s my baby. ha! Made me bust out laughing! Glad you were able to get away for a time! I love it too when God shows up in little ways all throughout a day…especially when I need him most! I agree with Angela…your strength is contagious and faith inspiring!

  • Brandon & April

    I loved this line…Suffering for Jesus, that’s my baby. ha! Made me bust out laughing! Glad you were able to get away for a time! I love it too when God shows up in little ways all throughout a day…especially when I need him most! I agree with Angela…your strength is contagious and faith inspiring!

  • Brandon & April

    I loved this line…Suffering for Jesus, that’s my baby. ha! Made me bust out laughing! Glad you were able to get away for a time! I love it too when God shows up in little ways all throughout a day…especially when I need him most! I agree with Angela…your strength is contagious and faith inspiring!

  • Brandon & April

    I loved this line…Suffering for Jesus, that’s my baby. ha! Made me bust out laughing! Glad you were able to get away for a time! I love it too when God shows up in little ways all throughout a day…especially when I need him most! I agree with Angela…your strength is contagious and faith inspiring!

  • Brandon & April

    I loved this line…Suffering for Jesus, that’s my baby. ha! Made me bust out laughing! Glad you were able to get away for a time! I love it too when God shows up in little ways all throughout a day…especially when I need him most! I agree with Angela…your strength is contagious and faith inspiring!

  • Brandon & April

    I loved this line…Suffering for Jesus, that’s my baby. ha! Made me bust out laughing! Glad you were able to get away for a time! I love it too when God shows up in little ways all throughout a day…especially when I need him most! I agree with Angela…your strength is contagious and faith inspiring!

  • Brandon & April

    I loved this line…Suffering for Jesus, that’s my baby. ha! Made me bust out laughing! Glad you were able to get away for a time! I love it too when God shows up in little ways all throughout a day…especially when I need him most! I agree with Angela…your strength is contagious and faith inspiring!

  • Brandon & April

    I loved this line…Suffering for Jesus, that’s my baby. ha! Made me bust out laughing! Glad you were able to get away for a time! I love it too when God shows up in little ways all throughout a day…especially when I need him most! I agree with Angela…your strength is contagious and faith inspiring!

  • Brandon & April

    I loved this line…Suffering for Jesus, that’s my baby. ha! Made me bust out laughing! Glad you were able to get away for a time! I love it too when God shows up in little ways all throughout a day…especially when I need him most! I agree with Angela…your strength is contagious and faith inspiring!

  • Brandon & April

    I loved this line…Suffering for Jesus, that’s my baby. ha! Made me bust out laughing! Glad you were able to get away for a time! I love it too when God shows up in little ways all throughout a day…especially when I need him most! I agree with Angela…your strength is contagious and faith inspiring!

  • Brandon & April

    I loved this line…Suffering for Jesus, that’s my baby. ha! Made me bust out laughing! Glad you were able to get away for a time! I love it too when God shows up in little ways all throughout a day…especially when I need him most! I agree with Angela…your strength is contagious and faith inspiring!

  • Brandon & April

    I loved this line…Suffering for Jesus, that’s my baby. ha! Made me bust out laughing! Glad you were able to get away for a time! I love it too when God shows up in little ways all throughout a day…especially when I need him most! I agree with Angela…your strength is contagious and faith inspiring!

  • Brandon & April

    I loved this line…Suffering for Jesus, that’s my baby. ha! Made me bust out laughing! Glad you were able to get away for a time! I love it too when God shows up in little ways all throughout a day…especially when I need him most! I agree with Angela…your strength is contagious and faith inspiring!

  • Brandon & April

    I loved this line…Suffering for Jesus, that’s my baby. ha! Made me bust out laughing! Glad you were able to get away for a time! I love it too when God shows up in little ways all throughout a day…especially when I need him most! I agree with Angela…your strength is contagious and faith inspiring!

  • Brandon & April

    I loved this line…Suffering for Jesus, that’s my baby. ha! Made me bust out laughing! Glad you were able to get away for a time! I love it too when God shows up in little ways all throughout a day…especially when I need him most! I agree with Angela…your strength is contagious and faith inspiring!

  • Brandon & April

    I loved this line…Suffering for Jesus, that’s my baby. ha! Made me bust out laughing! Glad you were able to get away for a time! I love it too when God shows up in little ways all throughout a day…especially when I need him most! I agree with Angela…your strength is contagious and faith inspiring!

  • Brandon & April

    I loved this line…Suffering for Jesus, that’s my baby. ha! Made me bust out laughing! Glad you were able to get away for a time! I love it too when God shows up in little ways all throughout a day…especially when I need him most! I agree with Angela…your strength is contagious and faith inspiring!

  • Brandon & April

    I loved this line…Suffering for Jesus, that’s my baby. ha! Made me bust out laughing! Glad you were able to get away for a time! I love it too when God shows up in little ways all throughout a day…especially when I need him most! I agree with Angela…your strength is contagious and faith inspiring!

  • Brandon & April

    I loved this line…Suffering for Jesus, that’s my baby. ha! Made me bust out laughing! Glad you were able to get away for a time! I love it too when God shows up in little ways all throughout a day…especially when I need him most! I agree with Angela…your strength is contagious and faith inspiring!

  • Brandon & April

    I loved this line…Suffering for Jesus, that’s my baby. ha! Made me bust out laughing! Glad you were able to get away for a time! I love it too when God shows up in little ways all throughout a day…especially when I need him most! I agree with Angela…your strength is contagious and faith inspiring!

  • Brandon & April

    I loved this line…Suffering for Jesus, that’s my baby. ha! Made me bust out laughing! Glad you were able to get away for a time! I love it too when God shows up in little ways all throughout a day…especially when I need him most! I agree with Angela…your strength is contagious and faith inspiring!

  • Anonymous

    Hey,
    I was just looking around and felt a tug on my heart to look at this blog. I have not read everything on it because I felt an urgent need to start to pray. I know that your daughter will live and not die to declare the works of the Lord. This is one of the hardest things that your family has gone through. Keep standing. Speak life from our mouth. In Him we live and move and have our being. In Him there is Victory, Light and Life. Because you are in Him there is Life. Shalom nothing broken or missing. I see your precious little one healthy and whole. God has given her to you and the enemy has no right to steal her from you. Continue speaking the word DO NOT GIVE UP! There is Victory in your house. The enemy is defeated. No weapon formed against you will prosper!! What was meant for evil God WILL turn around for the good. Do NOT be moved by what you see. Speak to the anointing that is within you Angie and command it to rise in the name of Jesus! Know that you Know that you have the VICTORY! See her well. See her whole. We are fully equipped to battle and win. Chosen for this time. So continue to stand. All of heaven will back up what you say. The Lord just really impressed on my to write this.

  • Marc and Charity

    You are a blessing to me, thanks for sharing so honestly!

  • Tina Vega

    Hi Angie – If you would like a special album for your daughter, I would be honored to provide one for you. I’ve created dozens of albums for families in unique situations – it is something I do as part of my ministry (Stones of Remembrance)to sow seeds of blessing during difficult times. It would be a gift – a pre-decorated scrapbook album with fill-in-the-blank journaling segments tailored to your situation. (You’d simply add your photos and writing; I would also offer a variety of ideas of things to include in your album.) Aurey’s name would also be embossed on the front cover. If you are interested, let me know by email at http://www.acvega@frontiernet.net.

  • Anonymous

    Angie,
    I am so sorry about the bookstore. This all seems so unfair. God is working through you, touching more lives than you will ever realize .

    Your gift for words and writing is amazing ! I encourage you to write a book , to help so many other women out there to stay strong in their faith. Praying for you and yours always!

  • Megan L Hutchings

    Angie ~ I found your blog through Kelly’s Korner, and I just want to surroun you with love and prayers. I actually live in Murfreesboro, so not too far at all from you. Your family is precious and I loved your post. Always praying for you!

  • Anonymous

    I can’t even being to explain to you how encouraging this is. God is sooo good. So good. Thank you for your willingness to share this extremely difficult time in your life. I am so grateful for your words.

  • Honea Household

    I just found your blog and have gone back to the beginning and read all your posts. Your strength and faith in Christ is so contagious and encouraging.

    I already love you and am lifting you up in prayer as you go through all this. I do not know why our Father allows us to grow through these things, but someday, you might share this story with someone and God will use it to glorify Himself.

    4 girls? I grew up in a family of 4 girls. I have three younger sisters. We grew up on the mission field. Is your husband one of the Selah MKs?

    Praying for you,
    Ashley

  • Anonymous

    As Always we still praying for you and all your family …
    I often say that I know God must have a great sence of humor , He gave us our children to remind us of that fact….
    Your sister in Christ ..
    Damarys

  • Shane and Kathy Gebhardt

    The story that you shared is priceless! I don’t know that I could have held my laughter in!

    Seriously, though….You have such precious girls. I’m sure that the Lord is working through them as well to help you through the rough times.

    God’s Blessings Always!

  • Stephanie

    Angie,
    Thank you for your sweet heart and your courage to share what you are walking through right now. I discovered your blog through another and have been encouraged and blessed by your testimony. I have prayed for you and will continue to. Ironically, Selah is one of my favorite groups and I had no idea your blog was going to put a face to your husband’s beautiful voice and his stunning wife. Now whenever I hear a Selah song on the radio, I pray for you guys.

    I am walking my own painful road right now, although I would never compare my pain to yours. Thank you for pointing me to Jesus and for sharing how He is speaking to you in the midst of pain. Our God is good and very capable of holding our broken hearts. I have no words of advice, only truth. He loves you and He loves Audrey. He crafted her tiny little body and He made it fearfully and wonderfully. He knows and He sees…Blessings to you and your family Angie. Thank you for blessing me.

  • Darlene R.

    That was a funny story! I’m sure you’ll be glad that you recorded that, especially around graduation time! She will be thrilled.

  • Jody

    I’m so glad that you had a nice time together in Lexington. Such a nice place…sounds like your accomodations were just right for all of you! Love that kids help us keep life in perspective- while still offering a good mix of depth and fun at times. And you’re not getting a puppy…are you?? =) I’ll be back to check on your surprise!

  • Anonymous

    Hi Angie, My husband and i were at Ashland Ave. Church last night to here Selah sing and it was just awesome! all the songs they sung were such an inspiration to me and really touched my heart, As Todd was telling us about Audrey and all that you are going through Please know that My husband and I will be praying for you and have your family in our prayers. God Bless ” The Clifton’s — Lexington, Kentucky

  • Peas on Earth

    After I got done laughing at the toot story, I began to think. I wonder if God gave you guys that hotel room as a special little blessing? A haven of beauty and peace that Motel 6 would not have provided.

    Still praying for you,
    Sharon

  • Emily

    As the mother to a four year old girl, a three year old girl, and a baby girl in Heaven, I am laughing right along with you at the ways God works and blesses our hearts. All the time, He is good.

  • Molly

    I was referred to your blog by a friend. When I was reading about the resting gown, I remembered something that you may want to look into. Its an organization called “Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep.” Photographers donate their time and talent to those in your situation. Here is a quote from their site “At a family’s request, a NILMDTS Affiliated Photographer will come to your hospital or hospice location and conduct a sensitive and private portrait session. The portraits are then professionally retouched and presented to the families on an archival DVD or CD that can be used to print portraits of their cherished baby.”
    The website is http://www.nowilaymedowntosleep.org
    I did a quick look and there are at least 2 photographers volunteering in Nashville.
    I’m praying for you and your family.

  • Laura

    I heard “Sweet Jesus” at a church we were visiting Sunday and just had to know more about it! I love the song.

    Anyway, that led me to Selah’s site and then the request for prayer for your family and then to your blog.

    I will be praying.

    In Him,
    Laura

  • Leslie

    on the edge of my seat waiting for her words…

    and then that..

    tears with my laughter too. Amazingness.

  • Bobky

    Angie & Todd,

    I have been a great fan of Selah for a couple years, and had the opportunity to see them last year at a river front concert in Louisville Ky. (yes Todd, I felt the comment about Louisville) – I was so excited to be finally getting to see and hear them live!!! And then — I happened to see they would be in Lexington. The Church (Ashland Baptist were very inviting) Truly the best concert that I have been to. Every moment was God gifted. Even before the concert. I did not know that you were Todd’s wife Angie, when you walked out, but I turned to my wife and said that those beautiful little girls walking out from the stage area had to be the singing stars that I heard on one of the CD’s (They were featured on the beginning of a song weren’t they?)
    Angie, we were sitting a few rows behind you in Lexington a when Amy gave her testimony about your faithfulness in Trusting our Holy God thru this massive trial
    (Binding as you call it), I was wanting to lay hands on you and pray. But know that as she sang her next piece, I closed my eyes and laid my heart out for you that our Holy God would be compassionate and give you strength while you wait upon Him. That your desires will be His desires.
    I will be following your blog and continuing to pray for you, Todd and your family, also Selah whom have blessed me and have lifted me up often as I praise God the Father.

    Psalm 46
    God is our refuge and strength,
    a very present help in trouble.
    Therefore we will not fear, though the earth should change,
    though the mountains shake in the heart of the sea;
    though its waters roar and foam,
    though the mountains tremble with its tumult.
    Selah

    Peace : Bob

  • Athena

    I can totally relate. When we found out about what was going on with our Angel Alex, we were devastated. But our faith and strength in the lord grew stronger with every passing day.
    I know the Lord will strengthen you as well. It’s been a year and a half since Alex went to rest in the arms of Jesus, its still hard for me to look at babies in general. My bff and I were pregnant at the same time, our boys were born EXACTLY 2 months apart. sometimes i look at her little boy, Luke, and wonder what Alex wold be doing right now. they could’ve been best little buddies too. Its a hard road to walk, but I commend you for your choice to go on. God is still in the miracle business, no, He may not have gave us the miracle we wanted, it was a miracle we have made it through this dark tunnel. I though I was going to lose my mind. I miss Alex, and know Jesus is taking care of him, but its still hard. I believe soon God will give us another chance to have a child, a sibling for our daughter. We will just have to wait and see.

  • Jaci

    Hi Angie! I came upon your blog through my friend, MiMi’s, blog and have spent the last three hours reading about you and your family. You are an amazing writer, not to mention an amazing mother and Christian. You have had me crying an you have had me laughing out loud. I especially loved this particular blog and the “toot” story. I held my breath in anticipation at what she was going to say!
    I will never forget your family and your story. You have truly touched my life.
    Jaci Daguanno, Philadelphia