Audrey, letter

A Letter to My Daughter



Sweet Audrey,

There are no words I could say in this letter that would be able to express what you are to us, but I feel compelled to write them anyway.  

Do you know you changed the world?
From the day we found out we were expecting you, we knew that God had chosen you for our family.  When we started feeling you move around, we invented stories about who you would be. We took bets on whether you were a boy or a girl (daddy was wrong!).  Abby and Ellie set aside toys that they wanted to give to you.  Your daddy let me buy books at the bookstore about being pregnant, even though we already have a million.  He knows I love the smell of books, and he just watched with a smile while I gathered them all together.  We talked about you all the time.  Our house was filled with love for you long before we ever knew who you would be to us.  We let Kate help us set up a crib in her room while we told her that she was going to have a baby brother or sister sleeping next to her someday.  We introduced her little toddler bed and taught her all about being a big sister.  She loved her freedom…we found her in the pantry eating chocolate at 3 a.m. one night!  And so for weeks, we planned.  We talked about names, about paint, about schools, about everything but the one thing we didn’t know.
God had something much bigger planned for your life than we could ever have imagined.
On January 7th, we heard the beginning of the story.  You kicked while I listened to them tell me that I should let you go.  You, unable to say a word, spoke volumes as we considered what had been laid before us.  Audrey, there really was never a choice.  You were ours from the moment God ordained it so. There were moments in the darkness during that time when I worried that maybe we should give you to God.  We didn’t want you to suffer, and we knew that as soon as you were with Him, you would be at peace.  Were we selfish for trying to keep you here?  We knew before we let ourselves travel into those thoughts that they were lies.  That decision was not for us to make. We settled into the reality of “our new life,” and the stacks of books on pregnancy gave way to scripture.   
Did you know that while you were in my tummy, you went to the beach, to Disney World, to the ballet, to the zoo, to the symphony, to pick out our puppy, to the children’s theatre, to listen to daddy sing, to church, to Poppy’s house…and so many more places.  I talked to you about how the laundry machine worked, told you about all our neighbors, and taught you how to choose a ripe pineapple at the grocery store.  I never stopped talking to you. You were my daughter, and I loved you like I love your sisters.  We prayed for you all the time.  Our prayers changed with the days.  We never, ever doubted that God could heal you.  I know you know that.  I know you felt that.  But I still feel compelled to tell you that we believed, Audrey.  And the fact that you are with Him as I type these words does not change that belief.  There is not a single moment that passes when I question His will for your life.  
I will never, never forget the day you were born.  Nobody who was a part of it will, either. April 7th was one of the best days of my life.  You made me brave, Audrey-girl.  Your mommy used to be afraid of the hospital, afraid of the noises and the smell of medicine.  My whole life, I have been afraid.  I wasn’t afraid that day.  I was peaceful.  I was calm.  I was in the presence of the Lord Himself more than any other time in my life.  I listened as they told me about what would be happening that day, and I nodded.  I surrendered.  I stopped worrying about me and I just fell into the arms of the Lord.  He carried us all that day, didn’t He?
At 4:31, I heard a nurse say, “She’s out.”  Daddy said, “She’s out?” and he peeked around to see them carrying you to a table nearby.  I thought I heard you squeaking and I asked if you were alive.  Daddy looked at me and he nodded.  “She’s alive.”  I couldn’t believe it.  The doctors looked you over and they listened to your heart.  They cleaned you off a little bit and then daddy laid you right beside my head.  You had one little eye opened and you were trying to take it all in.  I was too.  I put my hands on your head and just started crying because you were so beautiful.  I fell completely, head-over-heels in love with you the instant I met you.  That’s who you are, Audrey.  
When we got back to the room, your Uncle Tom was already taking pictures. Do you know that he took about 1600 that day?  We rejoiced in telling everyone that you were alive.  Your heart was moving slowly, and we knew that it was a matter of time before we would have to release you, but no one would have known that.  For the rest of the day, people held you, touched you, talked to you, and prayed for you.  And everybody smiled when they saw you.  There weren’t many tears, because in a way, we weren’t sad.  We were just too busy praising God for you to be sad.  
Your daddy gave you a bath while I watched.  He got all of your little tootsies clean, and I watched the water run down the back of your neck as he held you up.  Her first bath…

One of my favorite moments was when they put you on the scale.  You were much bigger than they thought you were ever going to be, and it felt like victory.  “3 pounds, 2 ounces!” As soon as the announcement was made, the room broke out into cheers.  Did you know that your daddy’s birthday is 3/2? Those are beautiful numbers to us, sweet girl, because they tell us that you were here.  You had weight in this life.  
Your sisters were a little nervous when they came, but as they looked you over, God showed them who you were.  The peace that had filled the room for the entire day rested on them, and they began to laugh and to talk to you as they would any other new baby.  They each held you carefully, and kissed your sweet, clean skin.  While they were all gathered around me on the bed, your nurse Candace came to listen to your heart.  I asked her to be sensitive because of the girls, and after listening for a few minutes, she told me quietly that you were gone.  The girls never knew that they had been present for that moment, and I thank God that He took you that way.  There was never anything but peace.  We sang over you as God welcomed you into heaven.  
I cry for you often.  I miss the smell of your skin and your perfect little nose. My arms ache from emptiness.  I tell your daddy all the time that I just want to hold you again.  I cannot see to write these words because my eyes overflow with the tears of a mother who has been asked to give her daughter away.  I knew I would love you when I met you.  I knew you would become a part of me. What I didn’t know was that instead of feeling like it was a brief encounter, I feel like the world stood still. He somehow gave us an entire lifetime of memories in such a short time.  I didn’t feel like I lost a baby, I felt like I said goodbye to someone I had always known, who had been my daughter for years and years.  Even now, as I write, it seems impossible that you were only with us for 2 1/2 hours.  Thank you Lord, for giving us all the time we could have asked for with her.  The clock was insignificant… we knew her deeply, a lifetime’s worth.
Audrey, you have no idea how you have impacted those around you.  Did you see all of the nurses who cried when they came to see me? Did you hear the nurse manager tell me that since you had been born, the name of the Lord had been spoken repeatedly at their station in a way it never had? That you, my love, had brought them together?  Did you know that the people who came to your birth who knew nothing of your story talked about the “amazing peace” that filled the room inexplicably?  Do you know that there were radio stations all over the country announcing that your mommy was going into surgery while people drove home to their familes? Do you know they asked for prayer as you entered the world; that strangers dropped to their knees on your behalf? Do you know how many people have met Jesus because of you? There is more than I can fit here, Audrey.  More than I can fit anywhere.  You are the greatest miracle that I have ever been a part of, and I want you to know how incredibly proud I am to have been chosen to be your mommy.  I promise you that I will never stop being your voice here on earth. I will tell everyone about the little girl who came in a 3 pound body to change hearts.  I will always miss you, Audrey; there will never be a day where you are not a part of us.  I want you to know that you changed me, honey.  You made mommy so brave because of how much I loved you.  I am so proud to have a scar to remember where you once were.
Thank you, my sweet, sweet girl.
Today we are going to sit as a family and we are going to take the band-aids off the bunny that we have carried for months.  We are going to tell your sisters about the way that Jesus has healed you…that you don’t need those anymore because you are well.  You are perfect.  Thank you Lord.
As I have been writing, the rain is pounding on my window.  It is what many would call a very dark and ugly day, with no sign of sunshine. Because of you, Audrey, it is not that way to me any more.
It is an answer to prayer.
Jesus, you have brought us the rain and we praise You for it.  We lift up the God that made us strong enough to love our little girl the way she deserved to be loved.  And we trust that You will continue to use her as a vessel of your goodness, of your faithfulness.  Lord, you have shown me that when this life is empty, you will fill.  You have walked with us in a way we could never have imagined.  What seemed like a cross to bear has now taken the shape of a great blessing which we are honored to have been a part of. Thank you, Lord.  You are the light of our lives, now and forever.
Audrey, there is much more to say.  I rest in knowing that you already know it before it has left our lips.  We love you.  
Sweetest baby girl.  

Do you know you changed the world?
Mommy
For my blog family,
I cannot wait to show you more pictures of Audrey.  You all are a part of this story, and we want you to be able to see who you have been praying for.  We are working on sorting through them, and will give you a link shortly so that you can see our favorites.  She is amazing.  I hope that you can glimpse into the ways of God as you look through them.  For now, here are a few so that you can at least have a face to put with the name.  
Tom, I am speechless at what you have done for our family.  You have given us the most beautiful present that anyone could.  You are so incredibly gifted, and only your heart and your dedication surpass your talent.  We thank God for the many years we have been blessed with your friendship (have I known you 8? 9? We are getting old!), and for the selfless way you captured our child on film. This is my feeble attempt to express what is impossible to say, and it hardly seems enough.  You have given us a way to see our Audrey for the rest of our lives…thank you.  May God continue to bless you as you do the work of the Gospel from behind your lens. We love you (and Debbie and Sam!).
I received many emails during this time regarding the organization “Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep.”  What they do is amazing…I cannot think of anything more meaningful.  Our friend Tom Uchida, who took these beautiful photos of our daughter, has joined the organization because of Audrey, and will be part of their sacred ministry. I pray that you never have to use their services, but know that if you do, they will bless you immensely.  
Here is the little girl we have been loving for months…rejoice with us on this day.  She is healed, and she has filled our lives with joy.
Thank you for walking with us, and for continuing to pray.  
Angie
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1,187 Comments

  • Reply grace April 11, 2008 at 8:25 pm

    I had a hard time reading through the tears and the smiles. You have a beautiful family, with FOUR precious daughters. Still in prayer for the moments ahead, and thankful for the ones behind

    Your sister in Christ

    grace

  • Reply MandieGirl April 11, 2008 at 8:29 pm

    PRECIOUS!!!

  • Reply Anonymous April 11, 2008 at 8:31 pm

    That is one of the most beautiful letters that I have ever read. You are an amazing woman and have a remarkable family. You are truly blessed. Thank you for sharing your beautiful and heartbreaking story.

  • Reply Rog & Aimee April 11, 2008 at 8:32 pm

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Reply Rog & Aimee April 11, 2008 at 8:32 pm

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Reply Rog & Aimee April 11, 2008 at 8:32 pm

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Reply Rog & Aimee April 11, 2008 at 8:32 pm

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Reply Rog & Aimee April 11, 2008 at 8:32 pm

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Reply Rog & Aimee April 11, 2008 at 8:32 pm

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Reply Rog & Aimee April 11, 2008 at 8:32 pm

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Reply Rog & Aimee April 11, 2008 at 8:32 pm

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Reply Rog & Aimee April 11, 2008 at 8:32 pm

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Reply Rog & Aimee April 11, 2008 at 8:32 pm

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Reply Rog & Aimee April 11, 2008 at 8:32 pm

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Reply Rog & Aimee April 11, 2008 at 8:32 pm

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Reply Rog & Aimee April 11, 2008 at 8:32 pm

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Reply Rog & Aimee April 11, 2008 at 8:32 pm

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Reply Rog & Aimee April 11, 2008 at 8:32 pm

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Reply Rog & Aimee April 11, 2008 at 8:32 pm

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Reply Rog & Aimee April 11, 2008 at 8:32 pm

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Reply Rog & Aimee April 11, 2008 at 8:32 pm

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Reply Rog & Aimee April 11, 2008 at 8:32 pm

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Reply Rog & Aimee April 11, 2008 at 8:32 pm

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Reply Rog & Aimee April 11, 2008 at 8:32 pm

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Reply Rog & Aimee April 11, 2008 at 8:32 pm

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Reply Rog & Aimee April 11, 2008 at 8:32 pm

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Reply Rog & Aimee April 11, 2008 at 8:32 pm

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Reply Rog & Aimee April 11, 2008 at 8:32 pm

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Reply Rog & Aimee April 11, 2008 at 8:32 pm

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Reply Rog & Aimee April 11, 2008 at 8:32 pm

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Reply Rog & Aimee April 11, 2008 at 8:32 pm

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Reply Rog & Aimee April 11, 2008 at 8:32 pm

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Reply Rog & Aimee April 11, 2008 at 8:32 pm

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Reply Rog & Aimee April 11, 2008 at 8:32 pm

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Reply Rog & Aimee April 11, 2008 at 8:32 pm

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Reply Rog & Aimee April 11, 2008 at 8:32 pm

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Reply Rog & Aimee April 11, 2008 at 8:32 pm

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Reply Rog & Aimee April 11, 2008 at 8:32 pm

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Reply Rog & Aimee April 11, 2008 at 8:32 pm

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Reply Anonymous April 11, 2008 at 8:35 pm

    Angie,

    I haven’t even read the blog yet & the tears are flowing…..she is BEAUTIFUL & I knew she would be. The pictures are breathtaking….now I must read. Thank you for sharing her. What a beautiful family picture. Love & prayers continuing, Rose in Nashville.

  • Reply Kim April 11, 2008 at 8:36 pm

    First of all, your family-your 4 girls-couldn’t be more beautiful. And Audrey is one of the most beautiful newborns I’ve ever seen.
    I don’t know you, yet I cry as I read your words to your Audrey.
    Thank you for opening your heart and sharing God’s love. And giving all of us a glimpse into your life and the precious time with your Audrey.
    Praying for all of you-
    Kim, NC
    Your sister in Christ

  • Reply Jennisa April 11, 2008 at 8:39 pm

    That was beautiful…..

  • Reply Anonymous April 11, 2008 at 8:40 pm

    What a sweet, beautiful letter. Thank you for sharing your story with us. Your 4 daughters are all so precious, and what wonderful amazing pictures you have. God Bless Angie and the entire Smith family!

  • Reply andrew,betsy,& noura April 11, 2008 at 8:40 pm

    she’s beautiful. God is being glorified through and through. How blessed she is to be chosen to be with Him right away- even more proof she is so special He couldnt wait to be with her!!

  • Reply andrew,betsy,& noura April 11, 2008 at 8:40 pm

    she’s beautiful. God is being glorified through and through. How blessed she is to be chosen to be with Him right away- even more proof she is so special He couldnt wait to be with her!!

  • Reply andrew,betsy,& noura April 11, 2008 at 8:40 pm

    she’s beautiful. God is being glorified through and through. How blessed she is to be chosen to be with Him right away- even more proof she is so special He couldnt wait to be with her!!

  • Reply andrew,betsy,& noura April 11, 2008 at 8:40 pm

    she’s beautiful. God is being glorified through and through. How blessed she is to be chosen to be with Him right away- even more proof she is so special He couldnt wait to be with her!!

  • Reply andrew,betsy,& noura April 11, 2008 at 8:40 pm

    she’s beautiful. God is being glorified through and through. How blessed she is to be chosen to be with Him right away- even more proof she is so special He couldnt wait to be with her!!

  • Reply andrew,betsy,& noura April 11, 2008 at 8:40 pm

    she’s beautiful. God is being glorified through and through. How blessed she is to be chosen to be with Him right away- even more proof she is so special He couldnt wait to be with her!!

  • Reply andrew,betsy,& noura April 11, 2008 at 8:40 pm

    she’s beautiful. God is being glorified through and through. How blessed she is to be chosen to be with Him right away- even more proof she is so special He couldnt wait to be with her!!

  • Reply andrew,betsy,& noura April 11, 2008 at 8:40 pm

    she’s beautiful. God is being glorified through and through. How blessed she is to be chosen to be with Him right away- even more proof she is so special He couldnt wait to be with her!!

  • Reply andrew,betsy,& noura April 11, 2008 at 8:40 pm

    she’s beautiful. God is being glorified through and through. How blessed she is to be chosen to be with Him right away- even more proof she is so special He couldnt wait to be with her!!

  • Reply andrew,betsy,& noura April 11, 2008 at 8:40 pm

    she’s beautiful. God is being glorified through and through. How blessed she is to be chosen to be with Him right away- even more proof she is so special He couldnt wait to be with her!!

  • Reply andrew,betsy,& noura April 11, 2008 at 8:40 pm

    she’s beautiful. God is being glorified through and through. How blessed she is to be chosen to be with Him right away- even more proof she is so special He couldnt wait to be with her!!

  • Reply andrew,betsy,& noura April 11, 2008 at 8:40 pm

    she’s beautiful. God is being glorified through and through. How blessed she is to be chosen to be with Him right away- even more proof she is so special He couldnt wait to be with her!!

  • Reply andrew,betsy,& noura April 11, 2008 at 8:40 pm

    she’s beautiful. God is being glorified through and through. How blessed she is to be chosen to be with Him right away- even more proof she is so special He couldnt wait to be with her!!

  • Reply andrew,betsy,& noura April 11, 2008 at 8:40 pm

    she’s beautiful. God is being glorified through and through. How blessed she is to be chosen to be with Him right away- even more proof she is so special He couldnt wait to be with her!!

  • Reply andrew,betsy,& noura April 11, 2008 at 8:40 pm

    she’s beautiful. God is being glorified through and through. How blessed she is to be chosen to be with Him right away- even more proof she is so special He couldnt wait to be with her!!

  • Reply andrew,betsy,& noura April 11, 2008 at 8:40 pm

    she’s beautiful. God is being glorified through and through. How blessed she is to be chosen to be with Him right away- even more proof she is so special He couldnt wait to be with her!!

  • Reply andrew,betsy,& noura April 11, 2008 at 8:40 pm

    she’s beautiful. God is being glorified through and through. How blessed she is to be chosen to be with Him right away- even more proof she is so special He couldnt wait to be with her!!

  • Reply andrew,betsy,& noura April 11, 2008 at 8:40 pm

    she’s beautiful. God is being glorified through and through. How blessed she is to be chosen to be with Him right away- even more proof she is so special He couldnt wait to be with her!!

  • Reply andrew,betsy,& noura April 11, 2008 at 8:40 pm

    she’s beautiful. God is being glorified through and through. How blessed she is to be chosen to be with Him right away- even more proof she is so special He couldnt wait to be with her!!

  • Reply andrew,betsy,& noura April 11, 2008 at 8:40 pm

    she’s beautiful. God is being glorified through and through. How blessed she is to be chosen to be with Him right away- even more proof she is so special He couldnt wait to be with her!!

  • Reply andrew,betsy,& noura April 11, 2008 at 8:40 pm

    she’s beautiful. God is being glorified through and through. How blessed she is to be chosen to be with Him right away- even more proof she is so special He couldnt wait to be with her!!

  • Reply andrew,betsy,& noura April 11, 2008 at 8:40 pm

    she’s beautiful. God is being glorified through and through. How blessed she is to be chosen to be with Him right away- even more proof she is so special He couldnt wait to be with her!!

  • Reply andrew,betsy,& noura April 11, 2008 at 8:40 pm

    she’s beautiful. God is being glorified through and through. How blessed she is to be chosen to be with Him right away- even more proof she is so special He couldnt wait to be with her!!

  • Reply andrew,betsy,& noura April 11, 2008 at 8:40 pm

    she’s beautiful. God is being glorified through and through. How blessed she is to be chosen to be with Him right away- even more proof she is so special He couldnt wait to be with her!!

  • Reply andrew,betsy,& noura April 11, 2008 at 8:40 pm

    she’s beautiful. God is being glorified through and through. How blessed she is to be chosen to be with Him right away- even more proof she is so special He couldnt wait to be with her!!

  • Reply andrew,betsy,& noura April 11, 2008 at 8:40 pm

    she’s beautiful. God is being glorified through and through. How blessed she is to be chosen to be with Him right away- even more proof she is so special He couldnt wait to be with her!!

  • Reply andrew,betsy,& noura April 11, 2008 at 8:40 pm

    she’s beautiful. God is being glorified through and through. How blessed she is to be chosen to be with Him right away- even more proof she is so special He couldnt wait to be with her!!

  • Reply andrew,betsy,& noura April 11, 2008 at 8:40 pm

    she’s beautiful. God is being glorified through and through. How blessed she is to be chosen to be with Him right away- even more proof she is so special He couldnt wait to be with her!!

  • Reply andrew,betsy,& noura April 11, 2008 at 8:40 pm

    she’s beautiful. God is being glorified through and through. How blessed she is to be chosen to be with Him right away- even more proof she is so special He couldnt wait to be with her!!

  • Reply andrew,betsy,& noura April 11, 2008 at 8:40 pm

    she’s beautiful. God is being glorified through and through. How blessed she is to be chosen to be with Him right away- even more proof she is so special He couldnt wait to be with her!!

  • Reply andrew,betsy,& noura April 11, 2008 at 8:40 pm

    she’s beautiful. God is being glorified through and through. How blessed she is to be chosen to be with Him right away- even more proof she is so special He couldnt wait to be with her!!

  • Reply andrew,betsy,& noura April 11, 2008 at 8:40 pm

    she’s beautiful. God is being glorified through and through. How blessed she is to be chosen to be with Him right away- even more proof she is so special He couldnt wait to be with her!!

  • Reply andrew,betsy,& noura April 11, 2008 at 8:40 pm

    she’s beautiful. God is being glorified through and through. How blessed she is to be chosen to be with Him right away- even more proof she is so special He couldnt wait to be with her!!

  • Reply andrew,betsy,& noura April 11, 2008 at 8:40 pm

    she’s beautiful. God is being glorified through and through. How blessed she is to be chosen to be with Him right away- even more proof she is so special He couldnt wait to be with her!!

  • Reply andrew,betsy,& noura April 11, 2008 at 8:40 pm

    she’s beautiful. God is being glorified through and through. How blessed she is to be chosen to be with Him right away- even more proof she is so special He couldnt wait to be with her!!

  • Reply andrew,betsy,& noura April 11, 2008 at 8:40 pm

    she’s beautiful. God is being glorified through and through. How blessed she is to be chosen to be with Him right away- even more proof she is so special He couldnt wait to be with her!!

  • Reply Jennifer L. Griffith April 11, 2008 at 8:42 pm

    Thank you for sharing your miraculous journey with the world. Thank you for sharing your beautiful family and Audrey!

    May you always feel the peace that surpasses all understanding as your continue to walk the journey He has blessed you to walk. All glory be unto God, Jesus Christ, our Lord and King.

  • Reply Tiff April 11, 2008 at 8:42 pm

    Sweet Smith Family,

    I am praying for you guys. The letter to your precious daughter is perfect. She is beautiful. Thank you for sharing your story.

  • Reply Katie Ford April 11, 2008 at 8:42 pm

    Oh Angie she is beautiful, she is perfect…she is you. Thank you for sharing her with us. All my love to you all.

    Katie

  • Reply Anonymous April 11, 2008 at 8:43 pm

    Angie,
    AS I read the letter and saw the pictures I couldn’t help but see how peaceful you all looked. What a cutie cutie pie Audrey. What a beautiful experience this has been.
    You are awesome! Been parying for you .
    God Bless,
    Tara Adams, Nashville

  • Reply Court April 11, 2008 at 8:43 pm

    Audrey is perfectly beautiful!!! Thank you for sharing your heart, especially your incredibly tender letter to Audrey with all of us. We continue to pray for you and Todd and the girls, as you grieve and rejoice all the same. May the Lord continue to grant you peace and comfort in the days to come. ~ Courtney (Houston, TX)

  • Reply karen44 April 11, 2008 at 8:44 pm

    She’s beautiful. She totally looks like a Smith!
    Angie, your empty arms will only be lonely for a short time. One day you will get to hold her for as long as you want in heaven.

    “All the angels were standing around the throne…they fell down on their faces…and worshiped God, saying:
    “Amen!
    Praise and glory
    and wisdom and thanks and honor
    and power and strength
    be to our God for ever and ever.
    Amen!” Revelation 7:11-12

    karen l.

  • Reply Jessica April 11, 2008 at 8:45 pm

    I look forward to the many hours we will spend together in the future talking about Audrey and seeing her story change the world. I love you. I am blessed to call you my friend.

  • Reply Jill April 11, 2008 at 8:46 pm

    Thank-you for sharing your letter to your beautiful daughter. The pictures are absolutely precious and I know you will cherish them. Thank-you for sharing them with us.

  • Reply angi April 11, 2008 at 8:46 pm

    You are AMAZING, and Audrey is so BEAUTIFUL…

  • Reply Anonymous April 11, 2008 at 8:46 pm

    You and your family are amazing people. I just came across this site last week and I can say truly that it has changed me in so many ways. Thank you for that! Also thanks for being brave enough to share the story with the world, it will truly make it a better place having people like your family in it.

  • Reply The Wade's April 11, 2008 at 8:47 pm

    I could hardly read this for the tears pouring down my cheeks. What an amazing letter to your precious child. Please know that you have my deepest sympathy in the loss of your sweet Audrey. I’ll be praying for you…

  • Reply CrownLaidDown April 11, 2008 at 8:48 pm

    Tears falling…heart stirred with something I cannot even describe. Love. Joy. Hope. Desire. Longing. Depth. Jesus.

    She is simply lovely! Your Audrey awaits in the arms of Jesus.

    Praying for you all daily.
    Love,
    holly smith

  • Reply Anonymous April 11, 2008 at 8:49 pm

    it’s hard to see through the tears to even type.

    audrey is a world-changer.

    thank you for sharing her with us.

    your story has touched me in ways that make it impossible to ever be the same.

    blessings to you and your family for sharing your journey with the world.

  • Reply Nykki Griffin April 11, 2008 at 8:50 pm

    Angie,

    Your letter was beautiful, your Audrey IS beautiful. I am constantly in prayer for you and your family, you have all touched my life and I sit here and weep joyously for you today. I am so proud of you, I hope to one day be 1/2 the mother that you are. Audrey will forever touch me and I will think of her daily. I cannot wait to see more pictures of your sweet beautiful angel. You are blessed.

    In Christ,

    Nykki Griffin
    Birmingham, Al

  • Reply Shannon April 11, 2008 at 8:52 pm

    Wow-that was amazing! And Audrey is beautiful! Thank you for sharing those pictures with us-I know you will treasure them forever.

  • Reply Jamie April 11, 2008 at 8:53 pm

    I found out about your story last week. I immediately read all of your journal entries since the beginning. At that time, knowing that your little girl would be born in just 2 days I immediately started lifting you, Audrey Caroline, and your family up during this special time. Please know that you have been on my heart, in my mind, and in my prayers so much these past 10 days or so.

    You also have inspired me to be a better mom and I just went and hugged/cried/prayed over my little girl who just turned 2 months old yesterday.

    Thank you for sharing your story and the precious life of your little girl!

    Jamie ~ Madison, Alabama
    http://www.JoshJamie.com

  • Reply Sara April 11, 2008 at 8:57 pm

    What a gorgeous little girl… she looks so much like her sisters. I can’t tell you how much responsibility I feel to you and Audrey; I can only say that I will speak her name every day in prayer as she continues to put that peace in your hearts. She filled such a great space for someone so little.

    May God bless you always and in all ways…

  • Reply Angela April 11, 2008 at 8:57 pm

    Thank you for sharing. I’m having a hard time reading and now typing. Your family is beautiful. Audrey’s life is truly amazing.
    I am pregnant with a girl now and our lives have been changed forever.
    Thank you for this blessing. We look forward to meeting Audrey and the rest of her family.

  • Reply Jenn April 11, 2008 at 9:00 pm

    Crying-tears of joy because Audrey totally fulfilled her destiny. God is faithful-He gave you memories and moments with her that will comfort you until you hold her in your arms again!! Still lifting you up to the Father!

    Jenn

  • Reply The Morris Family April 11, 2008 at 9:01 pm

    What a beautiful gift the Lord has given to your family. Praise the Lord for the grace that comes through your words from the Lord that you are bearing this cross with his mighty hand. I pray the Lord will fill your empty arms of Audrey with a heart full of praise for the joy of knowing and being Audrey’s mommy.God is so faithful as we walk down paths of sorrow, He has been there for us a we miss our little Joel. Your family is beautiful, may he heal your body and continue to give you a fruitful womb. Mommy to 13 wonderful blessings!! http://www.weloveyoujoel.blogspot.com

  • Reply Two blessings from above April 11, 2008 at 9:01 pm

    What a beautiful and heart felt letter. The pictures are beautiful too.
    Thank you for sharing your story with us.
    your family is in my prayers.
    God Bless

  • Reply Erica April 11, 2008 at 9:02 pm

    Audrey’s story speaks so clearly that, in the face of what we all fear most, GOD IS FAITHFUL. What a testimony, what a legacy! Praying for you and your family during this time of joy and loss.

    What a beautiful child! So precious.

  • Reply Sarah Bessey April 11, 2008 at 9:03 pm

    I just…I have no words, Angie. It’s just beautiful. I am weeping and rejoicing. This is truly one of those moments that I feel like I am witness to a miracle.

  • Reply Erica April 11, 2008 at 9:06 pm

    I just found your blog yesterday and I want to say how moved I am from your story–you and Audrey and your family. I sat here wiping away tears and looking at your beautiful daughter. I’m praying for you and your family. I’m happy you got so many beatiful photos and time with her before she left.

    Erica
    http://www.home4haven.blogspot.com/
    http://erica-mayling.blogspot.com/

  • Reply Nicole April 11, 2008 at 9:07 pm

    Sniff, sniff….what a beautiful glimpse into such an amazing bond. Audrey is beautiful!

  • Reply Mary Tyler S. April 11, 2008 at 9:12 pm

    I have to tell you that i have been following your journey since the very beginning. I can’t even recall how I drifted to your story, but I can honestly say that my life has been turned upside down. Your strength and unwaivering faith has allowed me to rediscover my faith and understanding of our lord and his love. Thank you from the botton of my heart for sharing this great journey. I hope you know just how many lives your beautiful angel has touched.

    Your sister in Christ,
    Mary Tyler Spivey
    Montgomery, AL

  • Reply Peas on Earth April 11, 2008 at 9:12 pm

    All beautiful … the love letter to Audrey, your heart for the passions of our King, the God-supplied grace in the face of adversity, your precious baby girl. I venture to guess that there have been moments that don’t seem as beautiful, but in His redemptive power, God has made this experience truly an act of supreme beauty. Thank you for allowing us to share in it.

  • Reply Anonymous April 11, 2008 at 9:12 pm

    Words fail my emotions and thoughts of your family. Amazingly beautiful. Healed and whole! God, Thank you for these lives! Cindy – Phoenix

  • Reply Jenn @ Munchkin Land April 11, 2008 at 9:13 pm

    I can barely write through the tears that are streaming down my face. What a beautifully written letter.

    I will be praying for you, your family, and friends during the days, weeks, and months ahead. And I will be praying that all who hear Audrey’s story will be touched and turn to our Lord and Savior.

    You have a beautiful family and I thank you for your vulnerability and transparency.

  • Reply The Russell's April 11, 2008 at 9:13 pm

    Oh my word! Your story has touched me hundreds of times over the past few days, but today, today God has used you to teach me to understand why He puts storms in our lives and why the rain comes down. I truely thank you for your strength you have shown so many and your willing to give God your baby girl and let Him be in complete control. Thank you, thank you!

    Nikki

  • Reply Kristy April 11, 2008 at 9:14 pm

    Angie –

    Audrey is breathtaking – absolutly took my breath away, litterally. Is it possible to feel God’s presence fall without ever having been there to see her face to face?
    I think so – she’s a diamond, an absolute treasure. Praying for you all, rejoicing that she’s healed.

  • Reply katiejo11 April 11, 2008 at 9:16 pm

    She is beautiful! What a great addition to heaven’s angels! So sorry about your loss, God bless you and your family during this difficult time. My heart aches with you. I bet my little boy is showing your Audrey all the best places in heaven. Take care
    Katie

  • Reply Lindsay Spencer April 11, 2008 at 9:18 pm

    Your messages have touched my life in a way I’ve never felt, ever. Thank you for choosing to share your story. You are definitely a messenger of God.

  • Reply Lori April 11, 2008 at 9:21 pm

    I’ve cried many tears and prayed many prayers for you and your family!! You are all truly amazing!!

    Such beautiful, precious photos!!

    Your letter is beautiful!! May GOD continue to bless you and hold you in his care!!

  • Reply Anonymous April 11, 2008 at 9:22 pm

    “I stand amazed in the garden,
    Of Jesus the Nazarene…..
    How marvelous, how wonderful,
    And my soul shall always be.
    How marvelous, how wonderful,
    Is my Saviour’s love for me!” That is the song that was running through my mind as I finished reading “A Letter to My Daughter”. Wow, how powerful & amazing. I am so very proud of you & your family. Through all these trials & temptations to end her imperfect life….you chose the right way. She was NOT imperfect…..she was beautiful….the outside is a shell, she was loving & precious & giving on the inside of her little precious heart. God doesn’t make mistakes! I’m sure that Centennial will never be the same after Audrey’s birth. Isn’t it amazing & wonderful how a little 3lb. 2oz. sack of sugar could change so many people’s lives. The impact of radio stations broadcasting her birth is almmost here. I’m so very, very thankful that God gave you peace for her birthday day. When you posted that her birthday day was moved up, I was so concerned about you & I started praying that God would just scoop you & Audrey up in HIS arms & carry you through those next several days. HE did not because I prayed for that, but just because HE IS! I know that HE shed many tears for Audrey also. He welcomed such a precious little red-headed angel into Heaven. The first picture I saw of her….the first thing I noticed was her little “Mommy” chin……she is just gorgeous (as are her 3 big sisters). I’m so proud of the nurses for allowing your family to be a part of Audrey’s short little life. That was such an important time for all of you, including Audrey. She was probably thinking, “Oh, I remember you Kate, you are the one that talks on & on & on. Oh, Hi yes, it’s my twin sisters….I don’t think I can tell you apart.” I cannot imagine what you are going through,but please rest assured that I do care. My prayers will continue for your healing. Baby Audrey, thank you for be so wonderful & enriching our lives with your story. See you in Heaven Little Angel Audrey. Love & Prayers, Rose in Nashville
    (Jer. 29:11)

  • Reply Tabitha April 11, 2008 at 9:23 pm

    I have been following your blog for only a short time, but I sat with tears running down my face while I read your beautiful letter to your precious daughter.
    My thoughts and prayers have been with you all week. Thank you for sharing your journey and your beautiful baby girl.
    Warm wishes,
    Tabitha

  • Reply Tasha April 11, 2008 at 9:24 pm

    Dear Smiths,
    I just wanted to let you know what your family has come to mean to me.Through your posts Angie,I have felt as close to you as a sister.I feel like I have known you my whole life.There has not been a day that goes by since first hearing of Audrey that I have not thought of her and prayed for her.On her birthday,I prayed for a peace that would pass your understanding.And that God’s will would be done.I rejoice with you now knowing that Audrey is whole,perfect and healed.I will be giving birth to our second daughter on May 27th via a scheduled c-section.Her name is Avery Grace and I want you to know that her middle name is in honor of your Audrey.Because through God’s grace,we can get through anything.I will never forget you guys,and I love you.Tasha,Indiana

  • Reply mel April 11, 2008 at 9:24 pm

    I have been following your story through Jody Ferlaak’s blog and this is my first comment.

    Thank you for sharing your journey. Your letter to your precious baby girl is so beautiful! Thank you for sharing that very personal letter. She is very beautiful. I think it is so precious that her sisters were there for her passing, though they do not know it yet. I cannot put into words how precious it was to read that and to know that they were present when God’s hand ushered her to Heaven. That is what Audrey did for all of us who know you through this blog or in person, she ushered us on a closer walk with Jesus! God Bless your family and you will be in my prayers.

  • Reply Anonymous April 11, 2008 at 9:28 pm

    Just when I thought the tears for you had stopped . . . . Thank you, Angie (and Todd), for allowing us a glimpse of your heart and faith. I can only imagine how the angels danced when Audrey joined them–such a HUGE earthly impact for such a wee girl. Isn’t our Lord amazing?

  • Reply Tara April 11, 2008 at 9:29 pm

    What a beautiful letter, what a beautiful tribute to Audrey! Even more, she is a miracle, she is absolutely gorgeous! Her face brings a smile to my face and peace in my heart, which has been breaking for you!
    I am thinking of you all and praying for you as you remember this sweet little girl.
    God bless you all!
    Tara

  • Reply Anonymous April 11, 2008 at 9:29 pm

    I can’t stop crying…I have never been so joyful and heartbroken. I feel so much love for a person I never met…as if she were one of mine. Thanks so much for her and sharing her with us. She is a miracle as sure as I am typing this.
    Angie, I am a nurse who worked in an emergency room for several years and my eyes have seen things a person never should. I have been witness to many devastating and many beautiful events (sadly, more devastating ones than beautiful ones). This is one beautiful (and profoundly sad as a mom myself)event I will hold in my heart as long as I walk this earth. My heart aches for you and your family in a way that is so new to me in that I do not know your fine family but I wish I could take this pain away. I have prayed for your family the last few days …my last thoughts at night and I woke thinking of you in the morning. Please know that I do believe that you Angie are without a doubt the bravest person I know and have ever known.
    Peace to you and your family at this unbearable time.
    Love with all my heart, Gina

  • Reply ErinA April 11, 2008 at 9:30 pm

    Your letter made me cry and smile and truly feel the love you have for you daughter. The pictures are amazingly beautiful. I can feel the peace you write about even though Im just seeing a moment captured. May God continue to fill you with peace and always remember what he allowed you to experience. Im honored to have been a witness to His miracle and your bravery.

  • Reply Anonymous April 11, 2008 at 9:30 pm

    Thanks for sharing your Audrey with us all! You are an amazing example and you all have touched more people than you will ever know.

    Prayers of love and strength,
    Stephanie – Arkansas

  • Reply Melanie April 11, 2008 at 9:30 pm

    There are no words, Angie. Thank you for sharing your journey and your daughter’s life story with all of us. Audrey will always be known.

  • Reply GuessChoir April 11, 2008 at 9:30 pm

    I am speechless.

    Thank you so much for sharing.

    God Bless.

  • Reply Christi April 11, 2008 at 9:31 pm

    Angie,
    Thank you so much for sharing your life with all of us. Your Audrey girl is beautiful! I have cried with you, laughed with you, prayed with you and my heart has literally ached for you and your family, and we have never met. Your faith is amazing and an inspiration.

  • Reply Stephanie April 11, 2008 at 9:33 pm

    What a beautifully written letter to your precious daughter, Audrey, and what a beautiful offering you have laid before Jesus’ feet. I am honored to have prayed for you and with you over these last few months…Audrey has changed hearts and her sweet Mom has reflected the beauty of the Lord time and time again. I love you and I don’t even know you. I’m still praying for the peace of Christ to rule in your hearts, for your girls to trust Jesus with this loss, and for your testimony to continue pouring forth truth to those who find this story and this blog. Thank you for sharing so honestly and so sweetly. May the Lord bless your family immensely in the coming days.

    With much love,
    Stephanie

  • Reply Liz April 11, 2008 at 9:33 pm

    Rejoicing with you over Audrey’s life, and how she has already impacted the world! I could not contain my tears as I read your precious letter. I am touched by your vulnerability and the love that you poured out with your words. Audrey is so beautiful!!! The pictures are breathtaking! Thank you for sharing her with us.

    I will continue to lift your family up in prayer.

    Love in Christ,
    Elizabeth

  • Reply Anonymous April 11, 2008 at 9:33 pm

    i am so sorry that audrey had to go. will you be finding out if sweet audrey had trisomy 18..or is the cause behind her health problems already known?? im sorry if that is too personal a question,no answer is needed if it is. again,i am truly sorry for your loss (its a pain i know all too well myself….) ~m

  • Reply Mama C April 11, 2008 at 9:36 pm

    Your words are beautiful. I was so blessed reading your blog. Praise the Lord for His goodness. Your daughter and daughters are beautiful, blessed, gifted, called, remarkable, precious, and will move mountains, bring people to the saving power of Jesus Christ, be mighty women of God, and they are and shall always be greatly loved by the Most High.

  • Reply Mandy April 11, 2008 at 9:37 pm

    While I don’t know you and you don’t know me, I want you to know what an inspiration you have been to me! I have been following your blog for a few weeks now and I am so incredibly amazed by your beauty, both inside and out. You are such a strong Christian woman and I look up to you for that!! I am so sorry about your loss, and your family’s, loss. Audrey is such a precious, beautiful gift from God. I will continue to pray for you and your family during this difficult time!

  • Reply Beth April 11, 2008 at 9:39 pm

    Angie, there are no words, she is ….. again there is not a word right enough….
    that even now you share her with us……
    the picture of your hands holding her so reminds me of the way she was held in prayer and continues to be.
    I can feel the Lord even as i look at her tiny head craddled there.

  • Reply Emily April 11, 2008 at 9:40 pm

    I praise the Lord that you, too, know the sacred truth that He will fill a lifetime into a matter of hours when He sends a miracle bound for Heaven. I will be praying for you as you learn to walk this road.

  • Reply Melody April 11, 2008 at 9:42 pm

    Angie,
    Thank you for sharing this special glimpse of your soul, and the love and tenderness you have for your daughter. I’m thankful for God’s peace for you and your family, and I pray you will continue to cling to Him these next few weeks and months to come.

    The pictures are beautiful- what a beautiful family you have!

    Melody
    (Houston, TX)

  • Reply Anonymous April 11, 2008 at 9:43 pm

    Thank you for sharing your family with the world. All of you are in my thoughts and prayers. Angie, through your words and your open heart, Audrey’s story has touched the world. I’m sure the Lord is opening new doors for your story to minister to others. Keep writing – it is a gift! Blessings to you and all praise to Jesus. Anita

  • Reply 3QTGUYS April 11, 2008 at 9:47 pm

    What a precious letter, and such beautiful pictures.

    I am so thankful that you have those to cherish for the years to come.

    As I read your letter, I could feel you pain, I could feel your joy, I could feel God’s Mercy. I have been there, and your thoughts are so well put.

    May God continue to provide strength in these days ahead.

  • Reply Laura April 11, 2008 at 9:49 pm

    She is so beautiful, Angie. And what a touching letter. Thank you for sharing it with all of us. It was so amazing to read of how this little girl touched the workers at the hospital and of course now around the world.
    You and your family are continually in my thoughts and prayers.

  • Reply Anonymous April 11, 2008 at 9:49 pm

    God is amazing. You are gifted by Him to be able to express the things so many of us would love to be able to say. Your family is amazing because of Him. Thank you for sharing. Thank you to Audrey for being a light that will shine on and testify to the love of the Father because of you and this blog.

    Renee

  • Reply Cynthia April 11, 2008 at 9:50 pm

    Too Too Precious!!!
    My prayers are with you. What a beautiful letter. You are truly blessed. Thank you for sharing little Audrey’s story.

  • Reply Bridget =) April 11, 2008 at 9:50 pm

    I too had a hard time reading through your letter and looking at your beautiful beautiful family. So perfect, so amazing. Thank you… for everything.

    God bless!
    Bridget =)

  • Reply Anonymous April 11, 2008 at 9:51 pm

    I can hardly see to type…my tears are running down my cheeks. What a beautiful letter…and what a beautiful gift from God. Your faith is inspiring…and I will keep you and your family in my prayers! You are an amazing woman/mother. I feel honered to have read your story!
    Wendy from Canada

  • Reply Doktor ลฝivago April 11, 2008 at 9:52 pm

    I’ve reading your blog since two days ago (yes, owing to CBB). Your story is amazing storyline about pregnancy, love and family and life circle. God bless you and little Audrey – she’s such a cutie. She’ll always alive in your hearts.

  • Reply Kathy April 11, 2008 at 9:54 pm

    Dear Angie,

    Thank you for everything you have shared about your sweet baby girl Audrey and your experience carrying her, delivering her and giving her back to God.

    On Thursday of this week, if not sooner, I will be giving birth via c-section to my Molly-girl (this is a private nickname I have had for my baby girl since we found out we were having a girl and was touched/noticed that you referred to Audrey as Audrey-girl at one point in your letter). I am 29 weeks now and we have known since she was about 14 weeks that she would likely not survive to her birth or much past it, if she does. She has a very rare combination of severe congenital heart defects that are fatal.

    Anyway, following Audrey and your family’s story has helped me in many ways to prepare for meeting our daughter and giving her to God. The peace you have found through your journey with her is inspiring. So thank you again for being so open with your experience and your faith. Take care and may God continue to bless you and your family always.

    Love,
    Kathy

  • Reply Anonymous April 11, 2008 at 9:56 pm

    Angie, God bless you and your beautiful family. Your gift of strength is the perfect example of the power of our Lord. Audrey lives on in our hearts forever. The pictures are just beautiful, thank you for sharing Audrey with the world. She is an angel watching over us…
    Eileen

  • Reply Astraea April 11, 2008 at 9:58 pm

    Wow…she is beautiful. Perfect. I’m am without words right now. Thank you for sharing your precious angel with us.

  • Reply Ami April 11, 2008 at 9:58 pm

    Bless your family. What a beautiful family you have. That baby has so much hair!
    I am a L&D nurse and have been with families when they have delivered children that they could not keep with them. Please know that you have touched those nurses in ways that they will never forget. I have families that I can remember vividly in my mind.
    Bless you. I pray for peace and strength for all of you.

  • Reply Leslie April 11, 2008 at 9:59 pm

    beautiful, the letter, your heart, and your beautiful beautiful daughter. My little family all the way across the country was praying for you feverently that day.
    Thank you for your open heart and willingness to share with us, you are witnessing to more people than you will ever ever fully realize.
    Praying for you also throughout the coming weeks

  • Reply Anonymous April 11, 2008 at 10:00 pm

    A letter from a mommy to her daughter, that only she will ever truly understand. Thank you for letting me – for all of us – to be a part of something so personal and so very, very private. You have made me feel emotions I haven’t allowed to surface in a very long time. Thank you, Angie. Thank you, Audrey. You are loved so very much.

    God bless!
    Sara from Maryland

  • Reply Heather April 11, 2008 at 10:02 pm

    She’s beautiful!

  • Reply Marilyn April 11, 2008 at 10:06 pm

    Dear Smith Family:
    Thank you so much for sharing your tender story. I have been following you for a month or so. I pray you will be comforted during your difficult time of missing beautiful Audrey. “Blessed are they that mourn for they shall be comforted.” Because of Jesus, I know that is why you felt such peace during this difficult time and because of Jesus I know you will see Audrey Caroline again someday…. God Bless You.

  • Reply weavermom April 11, 2008 at 10:07 pm

    Beautiful.

  • Reply Brittany April 11, 2008 at 10:10 pm

    Angie, You and Audrey have have helped me find God. I don’t know what else to say other than I am a changed person.

    Thank you so much, Audrey.

    Brittany

  • Reply Anonymous April 11, 2008 at 10:13 pm

    You are such a beautiful family! What amazing strenght you have! Thank you for sharing your story. Audrey will live as long as we never forget. May God be with you through this difficult time. And I thank God for giving you the courage to share.

    God Bless,

    Haley

  • Reply april April 11, 2008 at 10:13 pm

    Angie-
    you and your family are amazing.

    what beautiful girls you have.

    may the Peace of Christ continue to bless your spirit and in turn spirits of all those that you touch.

    thank you so much for what you have done for me in sharing Audrey’s story.

    rejoicing, crying and praying with you daily.

  • Reply UKNat April 11, 2008 at 10:18 pm

    I couldn’t help but notice today, regardless of how dark the sky was, how incredibly green the grass looked. Thank you for reminding me of that. And, thank you, Lord, for the rain. Natalie

  • Reply Anonymous April 11, 2008 at 10:19 pm

    I don’t know if I have ever read a more touching and beautiful letter to a child than this. Your heart and your love for your beautiful daughter both amaze and bless me. Thank you for that, and thank you for sharing your beautiful family. You and yours have made such an impact in the short time I’ve known of you. . . thank you for that. – Jenn in Texas

  • Reply Kelly April 11, 2008 at 10:25 pm

    Angie – this was beautiful.
    I don’t think I’ve ever seen a more beautiful, more radiant family than that last picture. I just see Jesus in your smile.
    Thank you for sharing with us such a private, personal, painful part of your life. You have touched me in a way I could never explain.

  • Reply Sarah April 11, 2008 at 10:34 pm

    What beauty, both in words and pictures. The tears were flowing like rain, but joy bubbled underneath as I realized what a wide-reaching impact her little life has had and will continue to have and as I see the way God is being glorified through your story. Still praying!
    Love, Sarah

  • Reply The Evans Family April 11, 2008 at 10:34 pm

    Thank you so much for sharing not only one of the most beautiful letters but your wonderful daughter. She has touched our life in way that no one else has. The ancient chinese belief that a red thread connects those that are destined to meet, it may become tangled but will never break, is shining through!

  • Reply Our Family of Four April 11, 2008 at 10:41 pm

    I don’t know what to say except that you are AMAZING, she is PERFECT (of course) and the photos WOW!!!! Your story has touched my heart… Audrey is truely a blessing and your family an inspiration. Praise God for your tiny miracle and your unwavering faith and strength.

  • Reply Anonymous April 11, 2008 at 10:53 pm

    I am currently going through a Bible Study on DVD by Beth Moore. The Study is called “Measureless Love.” Beth speaks about Acts 17: in her words: God has positioned you here at this time and this place for a purpose. I believe with all my heart and soul that God placed Precious Audrey Caroline with a very special family at a very special time. God plans nothing in error – He already knew the impact this little one would have on the world. It is only we that are on the earth that are amazed at how far her story has reached around the world. God must be smiling at our amazement. Little Audrey Caroline was chosen by God for a very important mission – as was your family. Angie – your letter to Audrey was so beautiful. Thank you for sharing such an intimate and loving letter. The Smith family was chosen for Baby Audrey and you have definitely ministered to the world with your total trust in God.

    Audrey Caroline is beautiful as are all of your girls.

    God Bless,
    Julie Price and family

  • Reply J&M April 11, 2008 at 10:54 pm

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  • Reply traci April 11, 2008 at 10:55 pm

    There is nothing more perfect than a Godly family who trust God even in the storm!! Your letter was beyond words…it took me several tries due to the flood of tears but how thankful I am that I found your blog and met your precious family!!! What amazing pictures and what a gift to have those forever of your sweet, gorgeous baby daughter. You inspire!!

  • Reply Kristi April 11, 2008 at 10:59 pm

    My heart aches and soars… all because of a little beauty named Audrey Caroline.

  • Reply Anonymous April 11, 2008 at 11:06 pm

    God bless your sweet sweet family! I have followed your blog for some time now and I know it is crazy but it feels like I know you. Thanks for letting us pray for you and your family. It is a priveldge.

    That was the most beautiful letters I have read. She is just beautiful! Audrey is so blessed to have you for her Mommy!
    I thank and praise the Lord for the precious time he gave ya’ll with her. We serve an awesome God. Please know that you will be in our prayers!
    Blessings ~ Christi in TX

  • Reply Tiffany April 11, 2008 at 11:07 pm

    Tears have been streaming down my face the entire time I read your sweet letter to your precious daughter. Words cannot express how I felt as I read this, but as a mommy I felt your love towards her. God is so good and Audrey is beautiful. What a beautiful gift your friend gave you by capturing such beautiful pictures of Audrey. You are so blessed.

    We will continue to pray for your family. May God’s glory continue to be shown through Audrey’s story.

  • Reply Anonymous April 11, 2008 at 11:12 pm

    She is amazingly beautiful!!!!How blessed she is to have you for a mother.Your letter to her is profound and so touching.There are so many who care for you and pray for you even though we have never met.Thank you for sharing precious Audrey with us.May God continue to hold you close and carry you through the coming days.Susan from Ca

  • Reply Anonymous April 11, 2008 at 11:20 pm

    I have to say that I have never commented on anyone’s blog before, but I felt lead to leave one here. Audrey’s story is so beautiful, and I am still mopping up my tears. I have never been strong in my faith in God, but in reading your story, I feel my faith budding, and growing stronger. Thank you for sharing her story with us, and my prayers are with you.

    Melissa from Mt. Juliet

  • Reply Adrienne April 11, 2008 at 11:23 pm

    Wow! Angie, I’m trying to hold it together in an airport while reading your words to sweet Audrey! She was so precious! Yes, I have a firm grasp on the obvious, just thought I’d state it…I praise God that the months that preceded her royal arrival and the priceless 2.5 hours you all had with her were just as He had designed. Beautiful. Breath taking. Forever seared into your hearts. I think and pray for you guys often and will definitely continue to do so as your life has changed forever. I praise God for His goodness in delivering you from fear, and so much more, because of Audrey’s willingness to be used from day one. I, too, was delivered from a lot of things through our journey with our son, Noah. Thank you for allowing ‘us’ to love your daughter and your family through your journey. God is an amazingly wonderful God. That He would graciously use His very smallest vessels, well, that’s just AWESOME! Love as always,
    Adrienne in CO
    xoxox

  • Reply Alison April 11, 2008 at 11:23 pm

    I wept as I read the beautiful letter you wrote to your daughter. I was remembering a time in my life not too long ago where I wrote a letter to our child that I miscarried a few days before.

    Angie, your faith is stunning and amazing. I have been a Christian for a long time, but I long to have a faith like yours. Jesus Christ truly shines through your life and His life will truly be what Audrey’s legacy stands for.

    Your daughter is beautiful and precious. Thank you for sharing these personal photos.

    I’ll continue to be in prayer for your family. Hang in there, I wish I could hug you in person.

  • Reply Jan April 11, 2008 at 11:30 pm

    You are such an amazing woman (I know I’ve said this more than once, but you are). As I sit here waiting on the arrival of our first daughter, Adyson, I am inspired by your strength, courage, and commitment to our God. He is an amazing God, one in which I feel closer to now more than ever!! Thank you…Thank you…Thank you for allowing us all into your life and the life of Audrey! Audrey’s life has enriched my life in ways that I can not begin to express. The photos are beautiful, and it is so wonderful to see the face of the angel we have all been praying for.

    Much love, Jan

  • Reply Julie April 11, 2008 at 11:31 pm

    The letter and the pictures are equally breathtaking. I know you will treasure your photos documenting those 2 1/2 hours as much as we will forever treasure ours. NILMDTS is a blessing indeed.

    Thank you for sharing!

  • Reply Caryn April 11, 2008 at 11:34 pm

    God has given you such a talent woth words to touch every ones hearts!! Tears and giggles came to me while reading your blog!
    My prayers continue to you and your family!! God has given both of you the gift to touch some one and show them the way to God!

  • Reply Destini April 11, 2008 at 11:38 pm

    What amazing pictures…such a beautiful way to capture the memories.

    I am so thankful that you have the Lord in your lives, that despite the tears, you can see the joy and the blessing.

    I continue to pray that God’s peace surround you and your family

  • Reply Lindsey April 11, 2008 at 11:41 pm

    Beautiful, just beautiful! I want to give you a hug and tell you how much your story has impacted me. I am amazed by your strength, courage, and your grace.

    The pictures are prized possessions. I’m thankful for the time you had with your sweet Audrey and for the fact that you WILL hold her again in heaven!

  • Reply Cassie April 11, 2008 at 11:51 pm

    You have touched so many with your words…This letter was written with such love, I cried the whole way through…God has recieved so much glory during these past few days…Your family is in my prayers…God is Good..All the time….

  • Reply Darlene R. April 11, 2008 at 11:53 pm

    Dear Todd and Angie,
    You will never know the blessing that you have been to me since meeting you on the cruise. You have a precious family with 4 beautiful girls. What an awesome thing that you were given time with Audrey! I was so happy to read that. He is good.
    Todd – I just wanted to hug your neck when we saw you in Elkhart on Good Friday. I probably would have asked if I hadn’t been feeling a little under the weather!
    I will continue to pray for you all and this letter to your Audrey was absolutly beautiful. I cried when I saw the pictures. Audrey is such a pretty little baby.
    Our babies are sitting at the feet of Jesus, I will praise him for that.
    Much love and hugs, hugs,hugs~
    Darlene- Indiana

  • Reply Julie April 12, 2008 at 12:02 am

    Audrey is beautiful and I praise the Lord for giving you time with her. What a testimony to God you are and I thank you for allowing me to read along and grow in him through you.

  • Reply Becoming Me April 12, 2008 at 12:08 am

    That was so beautiful. Thank you for sharing your heart. Thank you for sharing your daughter. She is a lovely girl. How wonderful that she got to meet and love you before being with Jesus. Your stories have so touched my heart and your little girl Audrey has made an impact on this world for sure. In Christ, Angela

  • Reply Laura April 12, 2008 at 12:13 am

    Breathtaking….beautiful, amazing, graceful, perfect!

  • Reply Bttrfly1976 April 12, 2008 at 12:15 am

    I don’t know how to say what the ache in my chest seems to want to speak to you.

    I’m so very sorry and yet so happy for you at the same time. I am touched and moved to a deeper faith at the same time that my heart is broken and my tears flowing in reading the story of your precious baby girl.

    Your faith is beautiful.

    Your love for your children is beautiful.

    Your love for our Father is beautiful.

    Audrey is beautiful.

    I’m praying for your sweet family.

  • Reply Anonymous April 12, 2008 at 12:23 am

    Angie,

    Thank you for sharing that beautiful, beautiful letter with us. Audrey is just perfect. You are so wonderful and brave and a true inspiration to others.

    Dori

  • Reply Tamara April 12, 2008 at 12:29 am

    I don’t know if I have any words at all…but wanted to let you know your family has touched me in a way I cannot even express. Thank you.

  • Reply Jennifer April 12, 2008 at 12:38 am

    I don’t really know what to write. There is so much I want to say, I am filled with emotion. By the time I reached the point where you said you could barely see the words you were writing through your tears, I could barely read the beautiful words you had written through my tears. I posted on your friend Jessica’s blog, that you have been a blessing beyond measure you to me. I have not lost a child after birth, but I have had 2 miscarriages, 1 in August last year and an ectopic pregnancy diagnosed 2 weeks before Christmas last year. Tomorrow is my due date for our first baby and I am struggling. You have such peace… You are an inspiration to me and I so admire your love for the Lord!

    Audrey is a beautiful angel, and she has touched my life. MAybe she’s making friends with my babies. I smile at the thought =)

    God bless you and I will be praying for your family.

  • Reply Anonymous April 12, 2008 at 12:39 am

    Thank you for sharing your story and your pictures of your beautiful daughter and family. I am so thankful you got to spend time with her. I lost a baby boy at 4 1/2 months and will never have that time with him or those memories or photos, and what you have is truly a miracle….you are so blessed.

    J.

  • Reply Alex & Jill April 12, 2008 at 12:44 am

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Reply Alex & Jill April 12, 2008 at 12:44 am

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Reply Alex & Jill April 12, 2008 at 12:44 am

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Reply Alex & Jill April 12, 2008 at 12:44 am

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Reply Alex & Jill April 12, 2008 at 12:44 am

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Reply Alex & Jill April 12, 2008 at 12:44 am

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Reply Alex & Jill April 12, 2008 at 12:44 am

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Reply Alex & Jill April 12, 2008 at 12:44 am

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Reply Alex & Jill April 12, 2008 at 12:44 am

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Reply Alex & Jill April 12, 2008 at 12:44 am

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Reply Alex & Jill April 12, 2008 at 12:44 am

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Reply Alex & Jill April 12, 2008 at 12:44 am

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Reply Alex & Jill April 12, 2008 at 12:44 am

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Reply Alex & Jill April 12, 2008 at 12:44 am

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Reply Alex & Jill April 12, 2008 at 12:44 am

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Reply Alex & Jill April 12, 2008 at 12:44 am

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Reply Alex & Jill April 12, 2008 at 12:44 am

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Reply Alex & Jill April 12, 2008 at 12:44 am

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Reply Alex & Jill April 12, 2008 at 12:44 am

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Reply Alex & Jill April 12, 2008 at 12:44 am

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Reply Alex & Jill April 12, 2008 at 12:44 am

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Reply Alex & Jill April 12, 2008 at 12:44 am

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Reply Alex & Jill April 12, 2008 at 12:44 am

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Reply Alex & Jill April 12, 2008 at 12:44 am

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Reply Alex & Jill April 12, 2008 at 12:44 am

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Reply Alex & Jill April 12, 2008 at 12:44 am

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Reply Alex & Jill April 12, 2008 at 12:44 am

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Reply Alex & Jill April 12, 2008 at 12:44 am

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Reply Alex & Jill April 12, 2008 at 12:44 am

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Reply Alex & Jill April 12, 2008 at 12:44 am

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Reply Alex & Jill April 12, 2008 at 12:44 am

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Reply Alex & Jill April 12, 2008 at 12:44 am

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Reply Alex & Jill April 12, 2008 at 12:44 am

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Reply Alex & Jill April 12, 2008 at 12:44 am

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Reply Alex & Jill April 12, 2008 at 12:44 am

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Reply Anonymous April 12, 2008 at 12:47 am

    A heartwrenching and moving letter. I have sad and happy tears! Thank you for sharing it with us. You pictures are beautiful,just so beautiful.
    Thank you for sharing your story and Gods amazing promises.
    I am touched.

  • Reply capitoldiver April 12, 2008 at 12:50 am

    What an eloquent tribute to such a precious angel! I don’t know how you managed to write such a beautiful letter, but you’re touching all of your blog readers in ways you’ll never know. I was thinking, “who could possibly understand how this feels… obediently giving their child to God?” Then it suddenly dawned on me. The One who is bringing you (and all of us!) through this, is the One who went through this Himself when He sent His own son to the cross… so that we can have Heaven to look forward to!

    Because of His son’s death (and new life) all of us have Heaven to look forward to, which means (for believers) this is only goodbye for now. One day we will ALL gather together to greet loved ones we’ve lost. And at that time, none of us will ever have to say goodbye again!

    Still praying for all of you!

    Another sister in Christ

  • Reply Heather April 12, 2008 at 12:54 am

    Thank you for sharing this precious letter to your sweet daughter. The tears have literally been streaming down my face and onto my hands while I have read and pondered how the Lord has worked in your lives over the past months. Audrey Caroline is beauiful. Thanks for sharing the pictures too. xoxo

  • Reply Vicky April 12, 2008 at 1:00 am

    Angie,
    Your letter to Audrey was beautiful. Thank you for sharing it with all of us. You are such a gifted writer– not only in this post, but in your previous posts.
    Also, the pictures are amazing… what a beautiful little girl! (and sooooo big!). I LOVE the family picture at the end. Perfect.
    I am praising God for how he has used a tiny little girl’s “short” life to change so many many many lives. Her story will continue to change lives! Thank you for telling it, and for continuing to share your faith.
    Praying for you, Todd, and Audrey’s big sisters ๐Ÿ™‚
    Vicky

  • Reply Michelle from Massachusetts April 12, 2008 at 1:04 am

    Thank you SO much for sharing your story with us and letting us feel as if we met Audrey even though we are thousands of miles away. You are such an inspiration of strength it is amazing, Audrey and the girls are so lucky to have you as their mom. Sweet Audrey will now watch over you and your family and protect you with the Lord. God bless and may god continue to give you strength for the days ahead. Thank you again for sharing Audrey’s legacy with us.

  • Reply Holly April 12, 2008 at 1:05 am

    Thank you so much for sharing your story and life with us these last few months. You have touched my life in many ways and have helped me to bring my focus back on God where it belongs. You are amazing and Audrey is beautiful, truly a precious gift from God. I will continue to pray for you and your family. Thank you again,

    Holly

  • Reply Anonymous April 12, 2008 at 1:07 am

    I can barely see through my tears. I have seen an angel.

    Angie, your letter was so heartfelt and meaningful that I felt I needed total quiet to give respect to what was, clearly, drawn right out of your heart. The spirit burned in testimony as I read it, and I have no words at all to tell you how incredibly special it was for you to have shared it with each of us.

    I tried to picture what my words would be, as a mom, if I were writing to one of my own little ones. I can’t begin to imagine the depths from which my words would flow. It pierces my soul.

    It is incredibly brave and honorable to put that sweet letter there……for the whole world to see…..and for the whole world to use as an avenue of change. If only everyone got to see a glimpse of heaven as you have…..if they had the foresight to put the rest of their chaotic lives into eternal perspective—-oh, how they would live different.

    Thank you, sweet, little Audrey. You beautiful, perfect baby. You came into this world and did it so amazingly that people could see you and want to be better. It takes someone great to make people want to be better. You single-handedly changed your whole family and extended family….and you are so special that you didn’t stop there. You have begun to change the world.

    If you are sitting at the feet of our Father….hug him for the rest of us and tell Him much we love and adore him.

    I can’t wait to meet you in heaven, sweet little girl. I have some red-heads too….and I am fond of it. I bet your Mommy loved to put her cheek on your soft, fuzzy little head. I know she must love you higher than the sky.

    You are an angel, little one.

    With all my honor and respect,

    Becky Cain

  • Reply Kristi C. April 12, 2008 at 1:08 am

    Angie,

    I cannot imagine what you have gone through and to be as strong as you are-YOU ARE AMAZING. You are a wonderful mother, wife, friend and a great writer as all the posts that I have read from you makes me feel like I have known you all my life. You inspire me to be a better person, to not take life for granted and to become closer with God. Because of this I will be forever grateful to you and your precious family. You, your husband and four lovely daughters will always be in my prayers. Stay strong as you have many, many people who love you.

    Audrey, you are one special, beautiful little girl, and one day you will be reunited with you mommy and everything will be right again.

    Peace

    Kristi C.

  • Reply The Arrington Family April 12, 2008 at 1:14 am

    She is just beautiful! I have been blessed by traveling on your journey with you. Thank you for sharing your story & being so transparent. What a story!

  • Reply Anonymous April 12, 2008 at 1:16 am

    That is the most beautiful letter I have ever read. Thank you for sharing your story and your sweet precious girls. Audrey’s legacy will indeed live on…you are amazing!

  • Reply Anonymous April 12, 2008 at 1:18 am

    Your daughter is amazing and beautiful as are you…

  • Reply Honea Household April 12, 2008 at 1:19 am

    My eyes brimmed with tears reading your sweet letter to a beautiful little girl. Angie, you have such a way with words, it’s amazing. Audrey is precious. I am so thankful to our Father for peace and the special time that you had with her. And for Tom who captured it all for you to remember. I am still praying for you and your family. You are precious and I love you dear sister in Christ.

    Ashley

  • Reply Suzanne W. April 12, 2008 at 1:20 am

    What a beautiful baby! The pictures of her and the family are wonderful and such a blessing. Angie your letter was so moving-as I read it I became quite peaceful about this whole process. I realized how blessed I am and how blessed we are to get to know about Audrey and her very special family. You have renewed my strength. Thank you.

  • Reply Anonymous April 12, 2008 at 1:21 am

    Thanks for sharing with us on the blog your journey: even when it hurt and was/is hard. I cannot even imagine.

    Although no mom should ever have to write a letter like this, you did it elequently dear sister. If I could take all of this pain and hurt away I would, but I can’t. I will ask God to give you everything you need to get through each and every day that is to come.

    Thank-you for giving us a face to match with Audrey. She is beautiful.

    You are in my thoughts and prayers.
    Michigan

  • Reply The Princess April 12, 2008 at 1:22 am

    You and your family have been on my hearts all day today. As I put my little ones to sleep tonight, I thought of you, Todd, the girls and sweet baby Audrey and lifted you up in prayer. I just found your site early this morning after feeding my little one, a bit frustrated I admit for her not sleeping through the night. But, after reading your story, I held my girls a little closer, hugged them a little tighter and thank God a little more often for each of their lives. Audrey touched more lives than your family will ever know.

  • Reply Hilary April 12, 2008 at 1:23 am

    She is absolutely beautiful…a beautiful miracle. Thank you so much for sharing her with the world and letting her life affect so many. God is truly amazing!
    Your family has been on my mind and prayers so much. I will continue to pray for peace and strength.

    Yours in Christ,
    Hilary

  • Reply Jodi April 12, 2008 at 1:27 am

    Angie,

    The tears are falling…for your precious precious words to dear, sweet Audrey. What a touching and beautiful letter. I can not even begin to tell you all of the ways that Audrey has touched my heart, and my life. She is a special little girl.

    You and your family continue to be in my thoughts and prayers. Much love,

    Jodi

  • Reply Anonymous April 12, 2008 at 1:28 am

    I have read your blog several times over with tears streaming down my face, and each time God speaks to my heart in a different way.

    You have allowed the Creator to weave such a beautiful Creation through your lives and Audrey’s life and share it with us. For that, I thank you and your family.

    I can’t imagine the pain that your are experiencing, but I have cried to God for you and your family many times over since reading this blog.

    Your family is absolutely beautiful and God chosen your family & Audrey to bring glory to His name. Audrey has touched countless in her short time that many would never encounter in a lifetime. Praise His name!

    Our prayers are with you and we appreciate you sharing and blessing everyone with Audrey!

    I have always loved Selah, but I must say…so many of the songs now have a new meaning in my heart.

    May you feel God’s love and arms around you as He holds little Audrey.

    Melissa

  • Reply Terry April 12, 2008 at 1:29 am

    Thank you so much for sharing your daughter with all of us. I am very sorry for you loss, but look forward to meeting Audrey in person someday. Your family is in my prayers and I cannot express how much awe and respect I have for what God has done for your family. I pray that He continues to comfort you in ways only our Abba Father can. God bless you and your precious family.

  • Reply Marla Taviano April 12, 2008 at 1:33 am

    Praise you, Jesus!
    Praise you, Jesus!

  • Reply AmyD April 12, 2008 at 1:34 am

    What a beautiful letter and beautiful daughter. Thank you for sharing such intimate details of your life and letting the Lord work in your lives so that others may know Him. We continue to lift you all up in prayer.

  • Reply Annie April 12, 2008 at 1:35 am

    I can’t begin to tell you how you have touched my heart. My tears flowed freely as I read your letter to Audrey. She is BEAUTIFUL!!! What a wonderful, precious family you have. Thank you for sharing what God has done in and for you.

  • Reply Kathy April 12, 2008 at 1:37 am

    wow, that is such a beautiful tribute to your precious daughter. Thank you for sharing with us. Our prayers, tears and also rejoicing are with you.
    In His love, Kathy

  • Reply Anonymous April 12, 2008 at 1:38 am

    Beautiful beyond words…all of it, your post, your family picture, and sweet Audrey.

    May God bless all of you and bring you even more peace.

    Maddy

  • Reply Adrienne and Jim April 12, 2008 at 1:47 am

    Angie,
    I can hardly see to type for the tears that fill my eyes. I thank you for sharing this personal letter with us. What an incredibly beautiful baby girl Audrey is. I love how sweet and peaceful, so tender, she looks in each picture. I am thankful Tom was there to capture these precious moments with her. The pictures along with Audrey’s story will live forever and ever. I can’t wait to see more! Your description of your time, as if the world stood still, brought me to tears (again)–this was exactly what I hoped it would seem to you so that you could cherish every moment with Audrey as long as God allowed. You are touching so many people by sharing Audrey with us. I will continue to praise God for the time you held Audrey in your arms and to ask him to keep holding you in His arms, giving you comfort and peace as you celebrate Audrey’s life and healing.

  • Reply Q's NEWS April 12, 2008 at 1:48 am

    WOW – what an awesome letter you wrote to Audrey. I could barely read it through the tears. The pictures are wonderful, and I am so glad you have them.

    Continuing to pray for you and your family. Please let us (your blog family) know if there is anything we can do for you.

    Love from WV,
    Susan

  • Reply Kelli April 12, 2008 at 1:51 am

    I have been reading along for weeks now, but never commented. Your family has been in my prayers and will continue to be. Audrey’s story has touched me in ways I can’t even begin to put into words. Your letter was beautiful and amazing. Thank you for sharing. Audrey is absolutey precious- a precious blessing from God. She will continue to touch lives for a long, long time.

  • Reply boltefamily April 12, 2008 at 1:52 am

    What a beautiful letter! We are praying for you and your family! Your pictures are amazing! Thank you for sharing. Your story truly helps me feel less alone on my own journey.

  • Reply Elizabeth S April 12, 2008 at 1:58 am

    I just found your blog last week. I have been blessed. Thank you for sharing your story, Audrey’s story, and for your amazing strength and faith in God.

  • Reply Jody April 12, 2008 at 2:04 am

    That God has poured out goodness and beauty and joy through Audrey’s life and death is testament to ALL that He IS Lord! Thank you, Angie…thank you Todd and family, for sharing her. For sharing your hearts. For sharing your faith. For sharing this journey with all who are willing to read and listen. Audrey is perfect in everyway. Your family together looks amazingly happy and complete. I know your heart must ache and grieve- how could it not after months of hopes and dreams and then having felt her warm, tiny body in your arms and against your cheeks…I know there is hurt. But you transcend that here with your words and pictures. I see nothing but Joy and gratitude for God. I praise Him for this beautiful storm He brought into your life and is seeing you through. I have been blessed and continue to pray. And to praise. I know sometimes God calls us to travel paths we would not choose to take. But praise Him, for all He has done and continues to do. All my love. May you continue to be showered from above with comfort and peace. I look forward to meeting Audrey in Heaven. Someday.

  • Reply karin April 12, 2008 at 2:05 am

    I will echo those that have said getting through your letter was at best, challenging. my tears were in the way, for sure. you are gifted in so many ways – on so many levels. your family, and your Audrey, are beautiful, and your story is amazing. my thoughts are with you today and through the days ahead for you.

    thank you for sharing, and allowing me the opportunity to be a part of this.

  • Reply kristy mae April 12, 2008 at 2:08 am

    She really was beautiful. Thank you for sharing her life and the love of Jesus Christ with the world.

  • Reply Anonymous April 12, 2008 at 2:13 am

    I just heard about your blog on Monday. I read through all of the postings and was changed. You have a gift of words that Audrey has brought out. She is so Beautiful. It’s amazing the impact that one little angel can have on the world. I’m praying for you and your family. May God wrap His arms around you just as He is your Audrey. God Bless your family.

    Jenny

    Isaiah 40:31
    Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

  • Reply Anonymous April 12, 2008 at 2:14 am

    Little Audrey already had her wings even before she came into your lives..and through you, Angie, our lives too. If the peace you shared is what heaven feels like, then we should all praise the Lord because he gave us a glimpse of God’s kingdom that life sometimes makes us forget. I pray for you and your family, for strength, peace and healing.
    Love, Maria

  • Reply Anonymous April 12, 2008 at 2:17 am

    If I have ever met a woman stronger, braver then my own mother it would be your Angie

    My mother has lost several of her babies and I have witnessed her lose one and I can feel your pain

    I have lost one myself, for reasons much different from yours but I feel your pain and share different faith from you but the same beleif in God.

    I hope that God brings you a fast recovery, spiritually, physically, emotionally

    — Love Farzana

  • Reply dreamingBIGdreams April 12, 2008 at 2:17 am

    Thank you for sharing your heart and opening up to us like this.

    I have loved following this journey and am so thankful that you allowed us all in.

    The pictures are beautiful and I know you are so blessed to have them for a lifetime.

    :)jamie

  • Reply Ashley April 12, 2008 at 2:18 am

    Angie,
    My tears fall for your hurting heart, but how I rejoice that Audrey is dancing with her King. Your unwavering faith has been a testament far greater than you will ever know. Yes, Audrey has left a legacy that will last for a lifetime. Please know that we are praying you and your family through this time. Thank you for sharing the photographs of the precious baby girl we have prayed for over the months. She is beautiful!

    Prayers for you,
    Ashley

  • Reply The Dukes Family April 12, 2008 at 2:18 am

    What a beautiful and heartbreaking letter. I love that you know what a testimony Audrey has had here on earth despite her short life … that can only be accomplished through God. I grieve for you over the loss of your beautiful baby and I pray that you will find comfort in knowing what her life has meant and how many people have been touched by that small child.

  • Reply KrisinVT April 12, 2008 at 2:23 am

    Simply beautiful words. I am so thankful for the work God has done-and will continue to do through Audrey’s short life. What an amazing blessing to have had that time of peace and beauty. My prayers for your family continue.

    Kris

  • Reply KrisinVT April 12, 2008 at 2:24 am

    Simply beautiful words. I am so thankful for the work God has done-and will continue to do through Audrey’s short life. What an amazing blessing to have had that time of peace and beauty. My prayers for your family continue.

    Kris

  • Reply The Bayham Family April 12, 2008 at 2:26 am

    Dearest Angie,

    Thank you for your courage, your strength, your grace and your unwavering faith. Our loving God is holding precious Audrey Caroline, and she will be waiting on you. She knows you, and she loves you so much! Your Audrey-girl is beautiful, a sweet angel. Pictures speak a thousand words, and I can’t express to you how my heart overflows as the images of you and Audrey and your family fill my mind. What love, what joy. Praise Jesus for the sweet time you had with her!

    “The Lord your God is with you, he is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you, he will quiet you with his love, he will rejoice over you with singing.” ~Zephaniah 3:17

    I doubt a day will ever go by that I do not think of Audrey Caroline. The Lord led me to her story because He knew I was struggling and needed encouragement as a mommy. He continues to use her to change my life.

    Although you have no idea who I am, I feel like I’ve known you forever, and I call you friend. Thank you for sharing your heart, your soul, your emotion. Thank you.

    Blessings and Love,
    Julie

  • Reply Melandie Ogletree April 12, 2008 at 2:27 am

    Wow…what beautiful sentiments to a beautiful daughter. Your story has SO touched my heart. I can’t tell you how much my faith has been strengthened through reading your blogs. I believe the peace and calmness that you speak of was captured in the beautiful photos of your family. I know that you guys were clothed in God’s purest love throughout this time. It is truly, truly beautiful. God richly bless you all..

    Much love in Christ,
    Melandie

  • Reply Jessica mommy to Alex/ RTS April 12, 2008 at 2:28 am

    So beautiful. What an inspiration, what a big life!

  • Reply lollipops April 12, 2008 at 2:30 am

    I cried when I read this. I don’t know you all but you are a blessing. I lost a baby too–but I never wrote him a letter. May God richly bless you.

  • Reply JanaBanana April 12, 2008 at 2:34 am

    You are truely truely an amazing person. You have filled me with so much, thank you. Thank you for “You”
    May GOD continue to shine his light on you.. you have lit up the world with your story and I will never forget. Opened my eyes to things I was too blind to see before. Your strength awe’s me.
    GOD BLESS YOU
    She is BEAUTIFUL!

  • Reply DeAnne April 12, 2008 at 2:36 am

    Oh my goodness, I have read your letter several times and just stared at your pictures. Angie you embraced this moment and accepted it with such grace and comfort knowing that your Audrey will be with the Lord. I just loved how you made Audrey’s birth a beautiful experience even though you knew the outcome and I still congratulate you on the birth of your beautiful daughter. Being a mother you have made me a better person by watching (reading) you and you have brought peace to me. I have told everyone that I know about you and have asked them to pray for you. I still am praying for you to heal from your surgery and to bring peace and comfort to your family while you continue to heal.

    God Bless,
    De Anne

  • Reply the rye family April 12, 2008 at 2:44 am

    thank you for sharing audrey with us! ๐Ÿ™‚

  • Reply butterflyaway81 April 12, 2008 at 2:47 am

    Angie, my heart breaks for you every time I read one of your posts. I know I would never be strong enough to get through what you have the past few months. Audrey is beautiful. I am glad that she is not sick anymore, and I am glad that you will see her in heaven. But I am so sad for everything you and your family have had to endure. Thank you for sharing with us. I will keep praying for you.

    Love,
    Amanda

  • Reply Michelle April 12, 2008 at 2:49 am

    “Bring the Rain” was playing as I read that the rain thundred against your window today. I am one of those strangers who Audrey brought closer…I will never forget her. You are so strong, and I am so inspired by ALL of you.

  • Reply Anonymous April 12, 2008 at 2:54 am

    Wiping away tears, finally finishing the letter written to your daughter, I realize how much strength you have in God to let him be in control of everything. I have been through the similar situation, but have never let go, always questioned God why? But, after reading your letter about Sweet Precious Audrey. I will cherish the months of carrying my babies. You are a strong, compassionate child of God. This story has made me realize how much I need God back in my life to raise my healthy baby. I pray for you and your family everyday. Your baby, Audrey Caroline is a true inspiration for all of us.
    Much Prayers,
    Ashley

  • Reply Sandra April 12, 2008 at 2:54 am

    What a beautiful testimony to God’s love and grace at work in your lives through this little Miracle. Continuing prayers for you in the days ahead.

    S-

  • Reply Anonymous April 12, 2008 at 2:55 am

    She’s so TINY!!! And just PERFECT!! Congrats on your gorgeous little girl… She truly is a blessing and touched many lives in her short little life.

  • Reply Julie April 12, 2008 at 3:08 am

    Thank you for sharing your beautiful letter. I have checked the blog more often than normal, wondering if you were alright and if your poignant words would ever grace these pages again. I cannot imagine I could write after this. Thank you for sharing and I will continue to pray for your sweet family. I do not suppose we will meet on this side of heaven, but when I get there, in the midst of our praise for the One who gives and takes away, I will look for a the beautiful woman who gave us this story, the one holding her daughter Audrey!

    JH

  • Reply Kimberly April 12, 2008 at 3:10 am

    You have given Audrey the most wonderful, priceless gift- a lifetime in heaven with God the Father without living a wordly life of sin.

    Your story touches my heart and changes my life.

    All my prayers for a beautiful forever,

  • Reply The Baby Makes 4 April 12, 2008 at 3:11 am

    Praise Him! He did work a miracle in your presence! He used Audrey in a might way! Thank you for sharing her testimony to us so that we can be encouraged and come to know our God even more! Audrey showed me God’s power in a way I have never experienced before. Amazing.

  • Reply jhauser April 12, 2008 at 3:12 am

    Thank you for sharing your beautiful letter. I have checked the blog more often than normal, wondering if you were alright and if your poignant words would ever grace these pages again. I cannot imagine I could write after this. Thank you for sharing and I will continue to pray for your sweet family. I do not suppose we will meet on this side of heaven, but when I get there, in the midst of our praise for the One who gives and takes away, I will look for a the beautiful woman who gave us this story, the one holding her daughter Audrey!

    JH

  • Reply Amber Benge April 12, 2008 at 3:17 am

    Angie, I have listened to Selah’s music since Audrey’s birthday. It reminds me to pray for you and to praise the Lord through our family’s current storms. My 2 year old daughter now sings Selah songs as we ride in the car. I want to thank you for your authentic faith and for your transparency. Your story has been the perspective I needed during this season in my life. Knowing Audrey and her story has impacted me deeply. It has drawn me closer to my husband as we’ve prayed together and it has made me a better mother. Thank you for opening your heart to us. And please keep writing. God has given you a gift…

  • Reply Paula's Pad April 12, 2008 at 3:24 am

    Angie:
    How blessed you are to have been chosen to be mother to such a beautiful little angel. Your story has touced my soul and I will continue to keep your family in our prayers. May God continue to bless you.

  • Reply Anonymous April 12, 2008 at 3:25 am

    what a beautiful baby girl. what a precious gift. I thank God for the time you were able to spend with her. and the peace that you have felt through this time. I pray that you will continue to feel God’s love and peace surround you today and the days to come.
    Your words to Audrey are beautiful, and I thank you for sharing them. Thank you for letting me be a part of this miracle through your story. May you rest in the arms of our loving Father.
    Blessings

    Rachel

  • Reply Jamie April 12, 2008 at 3:25 am

    Angie,

    A friend of mine told me to read your blog. My heart aches for you and your family for your loss.

    I have some friends who had their son at 26 weeks. He was still born and not as big as Audrey, but I had the privelage to taking pictures for them, as I am a photographer. It was so hard to do…but the one of the best things I have ever done.

    My prayers are with you and your family as you grieve your loss of your sweet little one.

    In Him-
    Jamie Nygaard

  • Reply Jamie April 12, 2008 at 3:30 am

    Angie,

    A friend of mine told me to read your blog. My heart aches for you and your family for your loss.

    I have some friends who had their son at 26 weeks. He was still born and not as big as Audrey, but I had the privelage to taking pictures for them, as I am a photographer. It was so hard to do…but the one of the best things I have ever done.

    My prayers are with you and your family as you grieve your loss of your sweet little one.

    In Him-
    Jamie Nygaard

  • Reply Anonymous April 12, 2008 at 3:40 am

    Beautiful photos. I absolutely love the one of you, Todd & Audrey. I just look at your face & you look so proud & peaceful.

    I wanted to share a story with you. Around the time Audrey was born on Monday, was a special, quiet time for me. My husband had all 3 kids on an errand (rare!) & I set out into our garden. We just moved into this house in August & the daffodils growing up from the earth were such wonderful surprises these past couple of weeks. I am a big fan of symmetry, however, and wanted to try and bring some order to the garden. Without knowing what I was doing (I’m not really a ‘Green Thumb’), I dug up the bulbs & transplanted them to where I was hoping would be a more suitable place. I had been keeping up with your blog & knew Monday was to be Audrey’s Birthday. As I transplanted these beautiful daffodils, it hit me what a metaphor this was for you & Audrey. As I replanted the bulbs I hoped & prayed they were undisturbed, not stressed & that they would continue to live & grow. I knew hundreds of miles away, but at that same hour, you were with your little girl. I prayed for you, Audrey & the rest of your family. Over the next couple of days they flowers looked weak, limp & distressed. I prayed for you all. It rained & I prayed for you all. Yesterday I went out to see the daffodils & was surprised to see their condition had improved. They have gotten stronger & it appears that they will live. I will never forget Monday afternoon & the quiet time I spent with the daffodils praying for you & Audrey. Many consider the daffodils a sign of HOPE & now I can see why. I don’t think I could ever look at the daffodils again without thinking of your little Audrey.

    Praying for you still.

    – Rachel in Kansas City

  • Reply sarahdv17 April 12, 2008 at 3:42 am

    What a beautiful little girl. Thank you for sharing a piece of your heart.

  • Reply Jennifer April 12, 2008 at 3:42 am

    This was a huge blessing to me tonight. I have cried tears of joy and of sorrow for you all. I am thankful that God lead me here. Jen

  • Reply Beverley Warwick April 12, 2008 at 3:52 am

    I’m sorry I have no words of my own but I’m on my knees before my Creator.

    BEAUTIFUL SAVIOR

    All my days I will sing the song of gladness
    Give my praise to the fountain of delights
    For in my helplessness, you heard my cry
    And waves of mercy poured down on my life

    Beautiful Savior, wonderful counselor
    Clothed in majesty, Lord of history
    You’re the way, the truth and the life
    Star of the mornin, glorious in holiness
    You’re the risen one, heaven’s champion
    And you reign, you reign over all

    I will trust in the cross of my Redeemer
    I will sing of the lamb that never fails
    Of sins forgiven, of conscience cleared
    Of death defeated and life without end

    Beautiful, beautiful Savior
    Wonderful counselor, beautiful risen one

    I long to be where the praise is never ending
    Yearn to DWELL where the glory never fades
    WITH countless worshippers SING one song
    And the voices of the nations
    Sing worthy, worthy, worthy
    Worthy beautiful, beautiful one
    Jesus you are worthy, beautiful, beautiful one
    Jesus you’re worthy, beautiful, beautiful one
    You are worthy, beautiful, risen one

  • Reply Jen April 12, 2008 at 3:59 am

    When you wrote that you felt that you were not so much a mother who lost her daughter, but rather one giving your daughter away, in my heart I exclaimed “YES!! And how awesome to know it was to the PREFECT Groom!”

    Angie, that was without a doubt the moste beautiful letter I have ever read.

    Thank you.

  • Reply Amy April 12, 2008 at 4:00 am

    Thank you for sharing that precious and lovely letter with the world. It really shows your deep love for your daughter and even more so, your deep love for your heavenly Father.

    To God be the glory,
    Amy

    P.S. Those pictures are amazing!

  • Reply Kelley at Aroma of Joy April 12, 2008 at 4:06 am

    I just wanted you to know how deeply your words and your faith have touched me! You have a beautiful family that radiates the love of Jesus! You are all in my prayers as you walk this road. God bless you!

  • Reply The Urbans April 12, 2008 at 4:13 am

    What a homecoming it must have been…..

  • Reply The Redder Family April 12, 2008 at 4:15 am

    Angie,
    Audrey’s story is truly amazing. Albeit heartbreaking, it is amazing. I was brought to tears Wednesday as I read the blog and as I drove to work. But you have shown us all through your pain that there is a God and He is always working in our lives even when we may not think so. Thank you so much for sharing your lives with us. I am enjoying the pictures and I will check back often to see how your family is doing. You are all great people!

  • Reply Susie Harris April 12, 2008 at 4:16 am

    My sweet sister…. Please know how loved you are.I have tucked you so deep in my heart I feel as though I have known you all my life. What a blessing it is to share with you and your sweet Audrey. After reading your post I know that Audrey was placed here on this earth for a reason. Reading about your courage and faith has brought me closer to the Lord. Thank you and thank you sweet little Audrey. Susie H.

  • Reply amydc April 12, 2008 at 4:20 am

    Please know Angie, that your family is lifted up in the prayers of many, many people. I pray for your physical healing as well as your hurt during this time. As Christians we know that the only possible way you have gotten through this is from the Lord & we know he will give you the guidance & peace you will need in the furure. You are a true testament to the Lord’s work & plans. May God bless you all, just as you have been a blessing to countless people.
    Love in Christ, ~Amy

  • Reply Anonymous April 12, 2008 at 4:20 am

    Angie: Thank you, you have taken us all on your journey and by sharing yourself and you family with us, you have, and this is because I feel in my case it is so, shown us God and His glory …your not so simple act of valor and strength your fight as a woman as a wife as a mother and last but not by any means list, as a Christian has made me better. better not on my own no! but in Christ …in His presence I have been so many times pleading for you and your child, with Alex my daughter, who at 9 yrs old has a grasp of your story that even her will never be the same, for this, even though you don’t know us personally, I thank you …through you story of love against all odds Jesus has been magnified not only in my house but to many many people …
    Note from Alex …Angie I can wait to go to heaven and meet Jesus, I will have a little brother there we did not get to hold, I can’t wait to meet him either …my sister and I were talking and we have to get together there your family and ours with Jesus and Audrie and our baby brother so you see we have a date OK? please don’t be sad and cry (my mom is doing that right now, she said are tears of happiness I’m not fooled by that just please don’t cry) we looked in the bible for a passage to put here I wanted not this one but my sister did so here it goes …Psalm 23:6 Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life; And I will dwell in the house of the Lord Forever ….My little sister says that for ever is a long long time and that we would have that much time to play and have fun with all your girls .. I think so too so maybe this is a good thing …God bless you …Alex and Sammy
    Not much I could add after that, Alex really has wanted to do this for a while now .. As always our prayers are with you the girls and Todd as well as your extended family …
    Your sister in Christ
    Damarys

  • Reply Tina April 12, 2008 at 4:21 am

    Your letter to Audrey is the most beautiful letter I have ever read. I sat with tears just pouring down my face. Your faith is the Lord amazes me. I have learned so much from your family. And you are so right about Audrey changing the world. How amazing. What gorgeous pictures of your family. God Bless you!

  • Reply Quinn April 12, 2008 at 4:25 am

    Oh, she is SO beautiful. Thank goodness Tom was there to document her short, but meaningful life. I am so happy you had the time you did with her.
    Quinn in Oklahoma

  • Reply Samantha April 12, 2008 at 4:27 am

    Todd and Angie,
    We are overwhelmed by the offering, that is your story…your beloved daughter, Audrey. As tears streamed down our cheeks, we imagined your family together with light in your eyes and joy in your heart as you held your love.
    We grieve a deep soul grief with you. We hold your pain and tears up to the One who bottles your tears for all of eternity, they are so precious to Him. And we wait with eager expectation for the day when he will wipe every tear from our eyes and make all things new.
    Your love, your Audrey, will never be forgotten. Her story is written on the hearts of so many, and will forever compel us toward Jesus.
    We whisper hope,
    Samantha and Mike Jay

  • Reply Julia April 12, 2008 at 4:28 am

    Angie, your ability to tell this story is a beautiful thing. Thank you for sharing such a painful and personal time with all of us.

    Continuing to pray for your family, Julia

  • Reply Brian April 12, 2008 at 4:28 am

    I have no words, simply tears. Audrey’s life has touched me in such an immensely deep way. I am going to go love on my three beautiful, sleeping children – I’ll watch them, I’ll thank our Lord for them, and I’ll thank Him for Audrey Caroline.

  • Reply karamy3sons April 12, 2008 at 4:30 am

    I have been praying since the day that I found out about your blog! Your family is precious! Your 4 girls are so beautiful!! I will continue to pray for your family.

    Kara-North Texas
    Prov. 3:5-6, I Cor. 13
    karamy3sons.blogspot.com

  • Reply Valarie April 12, 2008 at 4:40 am

    I dont even know what to say. I am trying to get myself together as I try to type. The way God works, is so amazing. Oh I praise him now for all that he does. God is good all the time and all the time God is good. She is absolutely precious. Please know that our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

  • Reply Anonymous April 12, 2008 at 4:42 am

    I have been hesitant to send a message, not certain of what to say. My heart aches for you. Thank you for sharing your story, it has touched me in so many ways. I will never forget this sweet baby girl and her strong but humble mommy. Many prayers for your family,for the days ahead.

  • Reply Anonymous April 12, 2008 at 4:43 am

    Thank you so much for sharing the pictures of Audrey and your family with us. She is beautiful! I have been praying for you and reading your blog since the Selah concert near Buffalo Ny. I have been sooooo touched by your honesty and extreme willingness to share so much of yourself and your family with us “strangers”. Sometimes as Christians we hide our emotions so that we will not be perceived as weak. You have shown us your tears, frustrations and now your joy. You have reminded us that Christ is the one who makes us strong and is the only One who can bring peace. THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU for sharing with all of us. We will continue to pray for all of you and remember to get down on our knees and THANK GOD for Audrey’s life and the impact that it will continue to have!

  • Reply Christina April 12, 2008 at 4:43 am

    What beautiful pictures – what a beautiful baby girl. And a beautiful tribute you have written – over and over God uses the most unexpected vessels to reveal himself to us. Thank you for sharing the miracle of Audrey with us.

  • Reply Anonymous April 12, 2008 at 4:54 am

    Thank you, thank you, thank you…
    for sharing your beautiful letter and the amazing images of your daughter.
    She has changed the world.
    Peace
    JoAnn – Wisconsin

  • Reply MyCRenee April 12, 2008 at 5:00 am

    My prayers are with you at this time. God is good! Thank you for sharing with me and letting me be part of Audrey!

  • Reply Miss Jen April 12, 2008 at 5:03 am

    This is just unbelievable. I wish I had time to sit and read thru your whole story. I know I will be up late reading as much as I can tonight.

    I don’t know you and to be honest I’m not sure how I got to your site, it was a link thru from somewhere but it was meant to be. I have been thru a very difficult pregnancy and birth this year too and have had some similar feelings. You’ve put into words many feelings that I’ve had over the last year. Your faith is contagious and I feel better just reading what you wrote.

    I also have 4 daughters, they are amazing and there is just no way to explain the depth of my love and admiration for them.

    I’m not sure what I’m trying to say other than that I have been changed by your story and the letter you wrote to Audrey. I have tried many times to write letters to my girls that express even a fraction of what you have conveyed in yours. Thank you so much for sharing and for letting your sweet little one change hearts and make the world a better place. The world needs more people like you. I hope I can become one of them.

  • Reply John and Brandy April 12, 2008 at 5:07 am

    I was smiling, yet holding back tears. While dealing with my husband’s cancer recently, everyone commented on how much faith we had and how strong we are, but we are NOTHING compared to you! I want to thank you so much for sharing the story and being honest about how much your daughter has changed the world! She is so beautiful and will forever be in my heart, as will you and the rest of your family. Thank you so much and know that we are praying for your comfort and continued understanding! God has given you an amazing blessing and it is one that will last a LIFETIME!!! Thank you again!

    Love and Blessings
    ~brandy

  • Reply Anonymous April 12, 2008 at 5:12 am

    sometimes we get a glimpse of heaven Know your family is in my prayers

  • Reply Liz April 12, 2008 at 5:13 am

    Angie,
    Reading your blog all throughout this journey and today’s entry in your letter to Audrey reminds me of this song by Nichole Nordeman. I’m certain that you’ve heard it a million times, but it was my anthem during a very tragic & difficult part of my own testimony when we had to let go of two children. Isn’t it amazing how these kiddos can make us choose to be brave & courageous? She wrote the song about her son. Enjoy the song: http://youtube.com/watch?v=ecB4i1XcqN8

  • Reply Shelly April 12, 2008 at 5:16 am

    What a beautiful letter to your daughter. What a blessing you are and your family. I will never forget your story nor the beautiful baby you were given for a short time. Besides the Bible, I have never read anything so touching in my life. I pray that the Lord continues to lift you and Todd up and your girls. What a beautiful family you have. The pictures are also beautiful. The photographer does a wonderful job. God Bless all of you.

  • Reply Kathryn April 12, 2008 at 5:19 am

    thank you.

  • Reply Anonymous April 12, 2008 at 5:23 am

    God Bless you and your family. Your daughter is so beautiful. Thank you for sharing with us.

  • Reply crystal April 12, 2008 at 5:26 am

    Audrey is beautiful! Your family is so precious. I came across your story a few days ago and have been praying for you since. I am so glad that Audrey was able to fulfill her part of Gods perfect plan and that her family got to see and love her.

    I admire your faith and your strength. I will keep your family in my prayers. Your story has made me want to strive to be a better mother and Christian. I now want to go to my sleeping babies, gather them up in my arms and just love them with all that I have.

    Your Audrey is perfect. Thank you for sharing.

    Prayers and Love
    Crystal

  • Reply Jillian April 12, 2008 at 6:02 am

    beautiful.

  • Reply Alycia April 12, 2008 at 6:09 am

    Audreay is truly a beauitful child of God and has touched the world with her story. My deepest prayers continue to be lifted up to our Lord for you and your precious family. The Lord brings you to mind throughout the day and I stop to pray at those times for your peace and comfort. Truly, you are touching the lives of so many and giving hope to a world who desparetly needs to know Jesus. I am so sorry that you have had to experience this but may God pour His blessings upon your family for being such a faithful witness of His deep love. Audrey will be remembered always.

    Prayers from Okinawa, Japan…

    Your sister in Christ,
    Alycia

  • Reply The Powell Family April 12, 2008 at 6:43 am

    I have never been touched the way your words just touched my spirit. Audrey has touched me the same way. I have been a Christ follower for years-my husband is a pastor!-but still, little Audrey has changed me. God is so amazing-the way he can use babies to spiriually affect the way we live. I always stay so worried about the way I affect people for Christ-Audrey used no words, no fancy church programming, no expensive flyers…just a beautiful heart. Thanks for sharing your journey, because I am changed for it.

  • Reply Dixie Vandersluys April 12, 2008 at 7:27 am

    Thank you for sharing these moments with us. On a day when I needed perspective as a mother, my tiredness and bitterness has been taken away reading words of pure love. Thank you!

  • Reply Marc and Charity April 12, 2008 at 10:40 am

    Beautiful letter Angie, thank you for sharing it with us. The pictures are just precious and I could hardly see for the tears in my eyes. Bless you Angie, bless your husband and your girls! Thank you Jesus. Be near them right now.

  • Reply Anonymous April 12, 2008 at 11:05 am

    Beautiful!! I am so glad you were able to take pictures. You will cherish them all your life. We too had a similar situation and our lives had been changed forever, but in a good way.(18 years ago) May God continue to bless your wonderful family, Peace and Love to you all.

  • Reply Heather April 12, 2008 at 11:15 am

    She is so beautiful. Your letter brought tears to my eyes and was beautiful!

  • Reply FlipFlop Mom April 12, 2008 at 11:36 am

    This is an amazing letter and testimony of her amazing life…Thank you for sharing this with all of us.. what a blessing you are…

    Tom has WONDERFUL photos!!! He captured her life perfectly!!

    My prayers are with your for peace and comfort….

  • Reply Anonymous April 12, 2008 at 12:02 pm

    Thank you for sharing your peace and faith in Christ. When your story could have been so sadly different it is instead redeemed and precious.

    Audrey is beautiful. Bless you.

    Here from the Nester’s blog, Deb Meyers

  • Reply ajc4ever April 12, 2008 at 12:05 pm

    I found your blog on Audrey’s birthday, before she was born. I started praying right away and am still praying. Audrey has really touched me. Your letter to her was exquisite. Still praying,

    Angela in Ohio

  • Reply ajc4ever April 12, 2008 at 12:06 pm

    Oh goodness, how could I forget to add that she is just beautiful. All of your girls are.

  • Reply K :) Family Historian April 12, 2008 at 12:08 pm

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • Reply K :) Family Historian April 12, 2008 at 12:08 pm

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • Reply K :) Family Historian April 12, 2008 at 12:08 pm

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • Reply K :) Family Historian April 12, 2008 at 12:08 pm

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • Reply K :) Family Historian April 12, 2008 at 12:08 pm

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • Reply K :) Family Historian April 12, 2008 at 12:08 pm

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • Reply K :) Family Historian April 12, 2008 at 12:08 pm

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • Reply K :) Family Historian April 12, 2008 at 12:08 pm

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • Reply K :) Family Historian April 12, 2008 at 12:08 pm

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • Reply K :) Family Historian April 12, 2008 at 12:08 pm

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • Reply K :) Family Historian April 12, 2008 at 12:08 pm

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • Reply K :) Family Historian April 12, 2008 at 12:08 pm

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • Reply K :) Family Historian April 12, 2008 at 12:08 pm

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • Reply K :) Family Historian April 12, 2008 at 12:08 pm

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • Reply K :) Family Historian April 12, 2008 at 12:08 pm

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • Reply K :) Family Historian April 12, 2008 at 12:08 pm

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • Reply K :) Family Historian April 12, 2008 at 12:08 pm

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • Reply K :) Family Historian April 12, 2008 at 12:08 pm

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • Reply K :) Family Historian April 12, 2008 at 12:08 pm

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • Reply K :) Family Historian April 12, 2008 at 12:08 pm

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • Reply K :) Family Historian April 12, 2008 at 12:08 pm

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • Reply K :) Family Historian April 12, 2008 at 12:08 pm

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • Reply K :) Family Historian April 12, 2008 at 12:08 pm

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • Reply K :) Family Historian April 12, 2008 at 12:08 pm

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • Reply K :) Family Historian April 12, 2008 at 12:08 pm

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • Reply K :) Family Historian April 12, 2008 at 12:08 pm

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • Reply K :) Family Historian April 12, 2008 at 12:08 pm

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • Reply K :) Family Historian April 12, 2008 at 12:08 pm

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • Reply K :) Family Historian April 12, 2008 at 12:08 pm

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • Reply K :) Family Historian April 12, 2008 at 12:08 pm

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • Reply K :) Family Historian April 12, 2008 at 12:08 pm

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • Reply K :) Family Historian April 12, 2008 at 12:08 pm

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • Reply K :) Family Historian April 12, 2008 at 12:08 pm

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • Reply K :) Family Historian April 12, 2008 at 12:08 pm

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • Reply K :) Family Historian April 12, 2008 at 12:08 pm

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • Reply Hollie April 12, 2008 at 12:22 pm

    She sure did change the world! What an impact Audrey and the entire Smith family has made in my life.

    Praying with ceasing….and continue to praise Him for His continued love and the unbelievable time you had with Audrey!

  • Reply Anonymous April 12, 2008 at 12:27 pm

    She is perfect! God Bless!

    Jessica

  • Reply Jessica April 12, 2008 at 12:33 pm

    Beautiful! Just beautiful.

    Beautiful baby, Beautiful God who works wonders! Beautiful mother’s heart – I loved reading your faith journey and seeing God change you through this. Thank you!

  • Reply Broughton Clan April 12, 2008 at 12:43 pm

    As I read your blog I just weaped. I am filled with such saddness and joy and respect and grief. I am so sorry about your loss but I too serve a risen Lord who has made her a new creature. I have 2 children of my own and cannot imagine what you have been through. I am praying for you and your family. I know that God allows ALL THINGS to work together for good so I know that this is going to change lives. Who would of thought that God would of used Audrey as such a light and beacon to complete strangers. I will continue to pray for you daily as God renews your mind and body to continue to deal with the loss. I AM CONFIDENT that God is near and watching how you respond to all of this and he is so proud. I brings to mind the story of job and your faithfulness is remarkable. Just remember on days where it seems impossible to get out of bed that “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me” Phil 4:13
    So much love to you and I will constantly have you in my thought and prayers. THanks for sharing your story with me I am truely blessed.

  • Reply Anonymous April 12, 2008 at 12:53 pm

    I’ve been following your story and am forever touched. Angie, you are truly amazing. I know Audrey has changed the lives of so many, mine being one, but you girl, have left me awestruck. You are my hero, and wanted to let you know that. Love and prayers to all of you.

  • Reply Tonya April 12, 2008 at 1:01 pm

    Angie,

    I’m new to your blog… actually, I just found you through another one. I’m SO SORRY for your loss… my prayers will be with you.

    I’m a mother who’s recently lost a child as well. Our son battled cancer for almost 2 years before going home to be with JESUS. Yes, he was a Christian. He accepted Christ when he was 8 years old on Easter Sunday. God allowed us to witness literal conversations that Brent had with HIM just a couple of weeks before he would go. One of the last of those conversations that I remember hearing was my son asking, “It won’t be long now, will it, LORD?……….. (Then there was a pause, he was listening for his answer)……… then he said, “I knew it. It won’t be long now.” See, we never told our little man he was dying. He’d been really sick before and got better before. Death was never mentioned. We simply told him the truth…. that GOD WOULD HEAL HIM. We knew that GOD could heal his body instantly… and HE did… he was healed COMPLETELY in HEAVEN on January 2, 2007… he was 11 years old) If you’d like to read about his miraculous talks with JESUS you can read them here… (They start around December 16, 2006) http://caringbridge.org/ms/brentnason/history2.htm

    Brent was witnessing to his friends at the age of 4…. his life was a reflection of one “sold out” to GOD. (He was an amazing kid, and I’m NOT just saying that because I’m his Mom) ๐Ÿ˜‰

    I remember those dreaded talks, the HOPE of CHRIST, and just trying to enjoy every moment we had with Brent. We have 2 other boys (and another child already in HEAVEN – we lost it by miscarriage). Zach & Gabe were able to be with us in our son’s room just moments after he passed. As much as it hurt to let him go, we at peace because we knew he was with his LORD.

    Yes, we are at peace with GOD taking him HOME. We KNOW that we’ll see him again… PRAISE GOD! We’re hoping to use our journey to tell others about GOD’S LOVE for us and how JESUS brings the only TRUE JOY that one will ever experience.

    I’m sure you have oodles of people that want to help. I want you to know that I’m one of them. If you ever want to feel free to email me. My address is nason5@aol.com

    THANKS SO MUCH for allowing the greatest hurt of your lives bring HONOR & GLORY to GOD! You guys are AMAZING!

    Love You, my Sister!

  • Reply Pam April 12, 2008 at 1:10 pm

    Your family’s strength and faith in God is truly an inspiration to those of us going through our own difficult days. May God’s peace continue to comfort, may His arms wrap you in His loving embrace. He is so merciful, and I’m so thankful that you had such precious time with her to say goodbye. I was so glad to hear that! I’m sure the days ahead will continue to be a struggle, and we will all continue to pray for you. Have you heard of Hannah’s Prayer Ministries? It is a community of christian woman suffering the grief of infertility, loss of pregnancy or loss of a child. I have found great comfort there for our infertility. I know you would be welcomed.
    In Christ,
    Pam

  • Reply Mandy April 12, 2008 at 1:12 pm

    What a beautiful letter to Audrey. (I love her name!) I could not read it through the tears. You have inspired me to write one to my Madeline. Thank you for sharing your heart. I am thinking of you and praying for you and your family.

    God Bless,
    Mandy
    GA
    http://www.madelinegracehopkins.blogspot.com

  • Reply Anonymous April 12, 2008 at 1:24 pm

    beautiful…

  • Reply Tracey April 12, 2008 at 1:24 pm

    My eyes sting with tears of joy for the blessing God gave you in sweet baby Audrey.

    Thank you for sharing your story. We can’t wait to meet Audrey in heaven along with our baby A.J. and all the saints that went after them because of knowing them.

    Many blessings,
    Tracey

  • Reply Anonymous April 12, 2008 at 1:36 pm

    As I read this amazing tribute to your daughter I was completely undone. I hope that someday when I grow up in Christ, I can be just like you:) What a mighty women of God you are!

  • Reply Alice April 12, 2008 at 1:37 pm

    No words…other than how beautiful Audrey is and how good God is…

  • Reply Robyn April 12, 2008 at 1:44 pm

    Praying for you and your family!!

    Robyn

  • Reply Anonymous April 12, 2008 at 1:49 pm

    Ang-
    What an amazing, wonderful, beautiful letter! I am forever touched by your strength, and courage. We need more women in this world like you. Love you girl!
    Your Sister in Christ
    Deb-

  • Reply Anonymous April 12, 2008 at 1:58 pm

    There are no words that can describe how absolutely beautiful your whole family is in our eyes. Audrey was precious. Thank you for sharing your most intimate moments with us, mere strangers. You have brought so many closer to Jesus. I’m sure God is smiling down upon you holding Audrey in His arms.

    I will be praying for you and your family as you forge ahead through this difficult time.

  • Reply Anonymous April 12, 2008 at 2:27 pm

    I was almost done in by the first picture. That perfect little nose.

    Thank you for sharing you story, the precious gift of you daughter and the lessons she taught all of us.

  • Reply Anonymous April 12, 2008 at 2:38 pm

    Dear Angie and Todd,

    Your daughter is so beautiful, just absolutely perfect. I pray for you daily. Thank you for touching my life with your story. Audrey will live on through your words. There is such peace in your faces in the photographs you have posted; I continue to pray that this peace stays with you through the pain.

    Aimee
    Rochester, NY

  • Reply Michele- Mstewart222@yahoo.com April 12, 2008 at 2:39 pm

    I cried through the entire letting thinking and feeling your pain as I read it. I can not even begin to imagine how it must have been. I have been praying for you ever since I heard the sad news on Wednesday. I awoke today at 6:10 EST and was told by God to pray for you and I did. The nights are the hardest and longest hours.I wish you peace, comfort and strength as you walk this journey. You are not alone. God is with you, carrying you. I emailed you a story yesterday 4-11-2008.
    In Him,
    Michele

  • Reply MT April 12, 2008 at 2:43 pm

    God Bless your little baby…she is beautiful, like an Angel..now in God’s hands.
    I can’t thank for sharing this journey with us…Myh husband and I are going through our own issues with having a baby and there are days I feel sorry for myself…then I read your story and your faith, hope and strength..lifted me to God and made me realize I can walk through whatever God has planned for my family withe peace. I believe God led me to your story to help me and also pray for your family. You are an amazing woman and have a lovely family..I am sorry for you pain but, you are amazing in how you are coping. God is always with us and never lets us down even in our pain.

  • Reply Erika April 12, 2008 at 2:54 pm

    Amazing. Beautiful. Incredible. Precious.
    Those are just a couple of words that come to mind after reading your post, Angie. Thank you for sharing your life with all of us. Little Audrey truly has changed the world.
    With many hugs & prayers,
    love in Christ,
    Erika

  • Reply Joni H April 12, 2008 at 3:02 pm

    April 11 was my son’s 20th birthday even though he only spent 12 days here on earth with me. This year was the first year I did not cry and it concerned me. And then I heard about your daughter on the radio and curiously sought this out this morning. I haven’t stopped crying since and it feels SO GOOD! So hard to explain but I know you understand what I mean. No matter how many years pass, the love of a lost child does not lessen and therefore the tears still come. But its good. God led me to your page this morning because I know I needed these tears. I feel incredibly lucky to have been chosen to be Daniel’s mother. And I feel just as lucky to have been chosen again four more times since his death and have children here on earth to love as well. Just writing all this out now allows me to move forward with my day. Just live moment by moment for now and ask nothing more of yourself.

  • Reply paige April 12, 2008 at 3:12 pm

    oh sweet angie
    what a beautiful priceless letter to amazing audrey.
    thank you for sharing your journey with us. i know that sounds sort of strange, but thank you for letting us witness the power of the lord in you, in your faith, in your sweet mommy’s heart, in your braveness & in the beauty i see as i look at these gorgeous images.
    may you continue to feel his presence with you & your precious family.
    praying continually.
    xo

  • Reply Anonymous April 12, 2008 at 3:23 pm

    All I can say is thank you for sharing those life changing moments with the world. Through tears, and feeling your strength, all I can say, she is beautifully and wonderfully made. Her life left a mark, and told such a story, that would take most authors years to write.

    Renee, in Kingston Springs, TN

  • Reply Laurie April 12, 2008 at 3:29 pm

    I just heard of your story today from another mommy’s blog I frequent. Your faith and grace during this journey you are on are amazing and a true inspiration. Thank you so much for sharing it. Please know that your family is in our prayers as you navigate the days and weeks ahead. Your letter to your daughter is so amazing and such a blessing to have read. What a lucky little girl Audrey is to have you for a mommy (and a sweet and wonderful daddy too!). Again, thank you for sharing.

    Blessings,
    Laurie

  • Reply Anonymous April 12, 2008 at 3:38 pm

    This takes my breath away. Your four beautiful daughters are so lucky to have you as their mother. May God bless your entire family. We are all praying for you.

  • Reply Kimberly 'Butterfly Wings' April 12, 2008 at 3:45 pm

    I’m deeply moved by the faith and courage of your family during this difficult time. Your four little girls are precious blessings from God. Audrey Caroline is such a sweet beautiful angel and has touched my heart and so many others in a profound way.What amazing grace and peace captured in those images… thank you for sharing your faith, courage and your vulnerability. May God continue to shower his grace and blessing upon you. My prayers continue for your family…

    “As a mother comforts her child, so will I comfort you” (Isaiah 66:13)

    “I will not forget you. I have carved you on the palm of my hand. (Isaiah 49:16)

    Peaceful blessings,
    Kimberly

  • Reply Laura B. April 12, 2008 at 3:46 pm

    Amazing. God is truly a wonderful God. I will continue to pray for you and your family and that Audrey’s story will continue to change lives – she has certainly changed mine.

    Consider yourselves hugged,
    Laura

  • Reply Kristi April 12, 2008 at 4:16 pm

    My heart goes out to you. This was so incredibly sad but also incredibly beautiful. You must be an amazingly strong woman…its great your faith will help you through this. Prayers for you and your family ๐Ÿ™‚

  • Reply Natalie C. April 12, 2008 at 4:22 pm

    I don’t know what to say. I wish I had your strength. You are truley a woman of God. I am so sorry for your loss but celebrating that Audrey is with our Father. You and your family are an inspiration to all of us. I myself have 6 children with our Lord, one here with us that we adopted from Guatemala, and one still in Guatemala that may never come home. I will continue to pray for you and know Audrey is with you everyday.

  • Reply Anonymous April 12, 2008 at 4:36 pm

    i have no words. how beautiful you are. and your whole family. peace be with you all. and know that the Lord will love little audrey until she is in your arms again. isn’t she a wonderful reminder of just how important we all are to our God. love to the smiths!

  • Reply petrii April 12, 2008 at 4:37 pm

    Angie,
    How incredibly beautiful. Thank you again for sharing your heart. God has blessed your readers through you and your family. Continued blessings and peace.

    Love you girl,
    Dawn

  • Reply Nicki April 12, 2008 at 4:38 pm

    Dearest Angie…….your words have touched my soul in such a powerful way. As I was reading this…here in Charlotte,NC…..the rain began to fall outside. It’s been cloudy all day, but it’s raining now. I got chills as I read that part of this letter!

    My heart rejoices with you over what this little life accomplished and is accomplishing in the days, weeks, months and years to come. Audrey has left a legacy for all of us!!

    Those pictures were so touching, and thank you for allowing us to be apart of these steps with you. I have been praying and praying for you all, you come on my mind often!!

    Praising God with you for bringing the rain, and praying for the warmth of sunshine to continue to surround you today!!

  • Reply Anonymous April 12, 2008 at 4:38 pm

    I don’t even know you I came across your blog just days ago and have fell in love with you and your story. you are an amazing woman. I hve been touched by your story of your sweet little audrey. What a BEAUTIFUL little girl she is!!

    our prayers will be with you and your family as you greive the loss of this PERFECT angel who came into your lives and is now in heaven.

  • Reply Catherine April 12, 2008 at 4:40 pm

    What a beautiful letter, Angie. You are truly gifted as a writer, and your heart for God and for your family spills over into your writing that you share with us.

    Thank you for sharing your beautiful daughter with us, all these months, and for the photos.. She is beautiful, we loved her too.

    xoxox,
    Catherine

  • Reply Dobbie and Papa April 12, 2008 at 4:47 pm

    There are no words in our language to express what is on my heart today…yes, the closest word is …changed…we are changed forever because you were able to share this journey with us Angie….I ask the sweet Holy Spirit to send His love from me to you and your family today…Gods’ language to the heart…..perfectly spoken and given….

  • Reply Nicole April 12, 2008 at 5:08 pm

    I haven’t stopped crying since I found your journal. I just pray that God gives you and your family the strength that you need to keep on. God bless~ Audrey is in heaven. <3

  • Reply Anonymous April 12, 2008 at 5:32 pm

    It is so hard to type this because the “ugly” tears are flowing. I mean the ones where it makes your nose flow and you feel like you can’t breathe. I felt as if I was reading a letter from God to his son Jesus Christ. What a testimony Audrey has sent. May the peace that passes all understanding guard you all through the coming days.

  • Reply Megan April 12, 2008 at 5:33 pm

    amazingly beautiful. your love, your family, your faith. thank you for sharing this difficult journey so transparently.

  • Reply Kori April 12, 2008 at 5:58 pm

    Audrey’s story has touched my life. I have cried and smiled through many of your posts over the last few weeks. You have such courage, love, and faith. Your willingness to be so completely authentic and vulnerable has blessed me and countless others. What you experienced with Audrey in her short time with you reminded me to soak up all I can with my girls – to remember that each moment is a blessing. We are praying for all of you that God would be near.

    With hope,
    Kori

  • Reply Michelle April 12, 2008 at 6:05 pm

    Angie-I have an angel baby myself and I have the same peace you have found I don’t know how we do it but we do, I thank God everyday for Baby James and the lessons he taught me in 52 minutes…sending you much love!

  • Reply BoomBotsmom April 12, 2008 at 6:09 pm

    You write the way all mothers feel and wish they could express themselves the way you do.

    Many prayers for you and your family. The world is a better place because of Audrey.

  • Reply surfmomma4 April 12, 2008 at 6:12 pm

    Angie, you never cease to amaze me with your generosity of spirit. Who would think to include all of us in the beautiful letter to your “Angel Audrey”. The pictures are so beautiful and your and Todd and the girls beautiful souls shine through the lens of the generous Uncle who took these picture. Audrey looks so peaceful that I know she is with Her Father in Heaven and in the arms of Jesus. I invite anyone reading this post to go to Audreys daddy’s site, listed on the left of the blog, and listen to his beautiful CD ‘Alive”, and if you feel as moved as I did to purchase it. I don’t know this family personally, so they didn’t ask me to say this, but I know you will enjoy it and want it. God Bless this family with abundance of grace and health and happiness, Dear Lord we pray..Amen
    Susan

  • Reply Anonymous April 12, 2008 at 6:27 pm

    What an amazing letter and family. I cried the whole way through and feel blessed to even read your story. Audrey is beyond words beautiful. lots of love to you. Kathy

  • Reply Becca April 12, 2008 at 6:31 pm

    Beautiful

  • Reply Anonymous April 12, 2008 at 7:15 pm

    Audrey is beautiful, just beautiful. Thank-you for shring these pictures with us “strangers”.
    Your letter is amazing. Thanks for showing us the range of emotions in hard times.

    I read many have come to faith because of your realiness. Christians are not perfect or always happy, we have pain and sorrow too. Praying for you through yours.

  • Reply Kenzie April 12, 2008 at 7:16 pm

    What beautiful words to your precious Audrey. Thank you for sharing such intimate thoughts of the time that you spent with her here… all those wonderful months of getting to know her inside you and then finally meeting her face to face. Praise the Lord for His grace, mercy, peace and unconditional love.

    Praying for you family!
    In Christ’s love,
    Kenzie (Maddox’s mommy)

  • Reply melkg April 12, 2008 at 7:36 pm

    As a mother who has lost an infant son shortly after birth, my heart hurts and rejoices with you. I also thank you for putting into such beautiful words the feelings an emotions wrapped into such a peaceful and painful moment. We also know the never ending love of our Father as He comforts those in the midst of grief. We pray that He continues to give you comfort in the days to come. Audrey is such a beautiful blessing!

  • Reply Martha April 12, 2008 at 8:14 pm

    Precious Family, the photos are gorgeous and I am so thankful for your friend who has blessed you so greatly with 1600 photos. My prayers have been with you everyday, several times a day. I will never forget your precious words and the grace with which you all have handled the homegoing of Angel Audrey. My prayers will continue to be that God will give you precious memories of Audrey’s time with you, a ministry to honor her life, and sweet times with your girls and husband. You are a joy to “know” through the wonders of technology. God bless you now and in the days ahead. Martha

  • Reply Julie April 12, 2008 at 8:18 pm

    Thank you so much to your beautiful family for sharing your precious Audrey with us. She is truly exquisite. Thank you for sharing the miracle of Christ in your lives….. You have inspired me to be such a better mother and stronger follower of Jesus. There are no other words, just thank you and we will continue to pray for your family.

    Blessings,
    Julie

  • Reply Dena April 12, 2008 at 8:21 pm

    Dear Audrey

    You HAVE changed the world – you have made an incredible impact on people
    you have made me turn off the tv when my 4 year old talks because you have reminded me what a blessing and a gift she is – you have done and seen more than most people ever will

    thank you so much

    Angie

    I had to stop reading several times
    I am not sure I have ever seen a more beautiful family – reading this shows me how awesome God is and how he can work miracles through the smallest people – she is just perfect – i have honestly never seen a baby so beautiful with such perfect features! The family picture is gorgeous! My heart soars and breaks for you all in one moment! God bless your sweet family

  • Reply Samantha Seholm April 12, 2008 at 8:36 pm

    What a beautiful letter, I also had a hard time reading it through my tears. Audrey is beautiful thank you for sharing these amazing pictures with us.

    God Bless

    Samantha

  • Reply Salzwedel Family April 12, 2008 at 8:38 pm

    Your Audrey is beautiful. I am so thankful you got to hold her & experience her brief, but beautiful life. She has done amazing things for so many people – we praise God for that. We pray also for your loss & hope time & prayer will heal your hearts.

  • Reply The Kahler Family April 12, 2008 at 8:45 pm

    It is an honor that you shared your precious photos of such an intimate time with us. Thank you for sharing your life, love and faith with us strangers. Please know that I continue to pray for you and that you are very special to me, a complete stranger.
    Your family is gorgeous. The pictures are too beautiful to describe.
    Angie

  • Reply Anonymous April 12, 2008 at 9:19 pm

    I don’t know your family, but I have tears streaming down my cheeks from reading your letter. That was so precious. The pictures are amazing, and your daughters, all 4 of them are beautiful. Your testimony amazes me, may the Lord bless you and your family beyond measure.
    Your sister in Christ,
    Lisa

  • Reply Caleb's Family April 12, 2008 at 9:33 pm

    What a beautiful family. Today is the first time I have read your story. Thank you for reminding me how special it is to be a mommy. You have blessed me and touched me more so than I can ever say. May God be praised and glorified again and again ! Katie

  • Reply Carrie April 12, 2008 at 9:50 pm

    How amazing that our great Father can turn such sorrow into such endless joy. What a gift Audrey has been and will continue to be. Your story resonates so closely to my heart after losing a daughter of our own. Incredible how God works in the midst of the storm and provides peace and calm as our eyes are fixated upon Him. God has spoken volumes to me through your daughter. What a joy to be used for God’s kingdom!

  • Reply collybird April 12, 2008 at 11:03 pm

    Your beautiful words moved me more than I have ever been moved before and I just want to thank you for what you and your family have done for me; you have reaffirmed my faith entirely.

    There is so much more I would like to say to you but I shanโ€™t bore you but thank you from the bottom of my heart.

    Audrey will always be with you, I am sure of that โ€“ an angel who shall never fall.

  • Reply Christine April 12, 2008 at 11:03 pm

    She’s perfect…

  • Reply Mrs. Mark Arni April 12, 2008 at 11:05 pm

    She is truly BEAUTIFUL! What an incredible family you are through His grace!!! Thank you so much for sharing yourselves with us for His glory.

  • Reply Kim April 12, 2008 at 11:21 pm

    Thank you so much for sharing the pictures of your beautiful Audrey Caroline and for opening your heart to us. I feel sad but yet happy for the memories that you have to carry through this life. The testamony that you can share with others in their time of need. Your words are so strong and gives strength to the weary. God truely has a plan for you and Audrey. I can’t wait to see what it is! You have a very beautiful family and God will bless you all for your trust in Him to carry you through this. I look forward to seeing more precious pictures of Audrey Caroline with her family.
    Continually praying,
    Kim Medlin

  • Reply Anonymous April 12, 2008 at 11:47 pm

    I don’t even know you but I know you are such an amazing woman!
    I managed to read through your blog through many tears. Thank you for sharing your story! Very inspiring!
    Michelene in Montana

  • Reply Susan April 12, 2008 at 11:53 pm

    The sweetest thing I think I have ever had the privledge to read. May God hold you all in the palm of His hand!

  • Reply KELLY April 13, 2008 at 12:25 am

    What a beautiful, full-of-Jesus testimony of his love for all of you and Audrey, how he knew she would change the world, how she would change all of you and everyone you had the “chance” to run across this blog or to know your family. I continue to pray for God’s peace to rain upon you and your family. God bless you all, and thank you for sharing sweet Audrey with us.

  • Reply kjoy April 13, 2008 at 12:38 am

    What a beautiful letter, an amazing testament that Audrey has been to your family and to the world. I just discovered your blog 4 days ago and feel like I’ve known you for years. I am not a mother, but I can’t help crying for the love and faith and grace that pours through your writing. I am so happy for the time you were given with Audrey, and I hold you all in prayer for the days and weeks to come. Thank you so much for sharing your words and pictures.

    Krista Joy
    Missouri

  • Reply MBKimmy April 13, 2008 at 12:52 am

    I don’t know how you will ever read all of your comments, but I do know that you will FEEL the prayers and the LOVE that we all have for you and your family! Thank you so much for sharing and bringing me closer to God!

  • Reply Anonymous April 13, 2008 at 1:31 am

    Tonight as I walked through the electronics department of the retailer for whom I work, one of the guys was playing a Selah CD and ‘It is Well With My Soul’ was on. I stopped, even though being paged, pondered and prayed for you. When I had the chance, I came back to the department and shared with him about Audrey Caroline – he had heard of her impending birth when you were in Elkhart, IN. Trust His heart – Becky

  • Reply Fran April 13, 2008 at 1:42 am

    I sit here with tears. But, I’m praising Jesus for the beautiful work He is doing in your life. Oh, He is simply beautiful.

    Thank you for sharing with us.
    Thank you for the beautiful pictures of Audrey and your entire family!

    In Christ,
    Fran

  • Reply Angie Wyatt April 13, 2008 at 1:43 am

    Audrey is beautiful! Thanks for sharing the pictures. I pray for you and your family and I know God will give you the strength to get through each day. You are truly an amazing women. You talked about how may lives Audrey has touched well the same can be said for you.

    Love in Christ

  • Reply Anonymous April 13, 2008 at 2:01 am

    What a beautiful incredible journey God is taking you guys on!

    The tears have been flowing with the bittersweet -ness of trusting our God but walking thru the valley of the shadows.

    Thank you for sharing this beautiful precious season, I have been greatly blessed by your words and your courage.

    Our God works in ways that are too intricate to understand.

    Those pictures are too precious for words.

    May He bless you and hold you!
    Love Donna

  • Reply Tina April 13, 2008 at 2:09 am

    Words are escaping me as I sit here in tears for you, wishing you could hold your sweet Audrey, yet knowing God is incredibly good.

    You look so radiant and beautiful in those photos Angie. And your sweet baby is beautiful. I can’t wait to see more.

    Continued prayers….

  • Reply Mocha with Linda April 13, 2008 at 2:09 am

    I absolutely LOVE Selah. I had posted on my blog today about how much I love their arrangement of Be Still My Soul and one of the commenters told me about your site and sweet Audrey.

    I just read many of your posts beginning with January. My heart breaks for the heartache you are experiencing.

    Yet I rejoice for the peace that passes ALL understanding that only He can provide. What an incredible blessing you are already in the midst of this.

    I pray God will continue to hold you close in the days and nights ahead.

  • Reply Anonymous April 13, 2008 at 2:20 am

    I am very sorry for the loss of your daughter. I know that you will take comfort in God at this time.

  • Reply Anonymous April 13, 2008 at 2:32 am

    God Bless you and your family. You and Audrey and your family have changed my life instantly. When I read your blog and especially your beautiful tribute, peace and tranquility enter my home. Thoughts of anxiety and stress leave me and right now as I write this I am overwhelmed with the beautiful scent of heavy rainfall coming through my screened back door.
    You are a beacon of light and hope through the power of Jesus Christ.

    Whitney Lloyd

  • Reply Hillary April 13, 2008 at 2:59 am

    Your letter is so touching and these pictures are breathtaking and beautiful. My eyes flood with tears everytime I look at them. I am so glad you were able to have those cherished moments photographed! Praying for you every day!

  • Reply Patty April 13, 2008 at 3:19 am

    Such a beautiful family, and a beautiful post. Praying for you all.

  • Reply Rachel April 13, 2008 at 3:31 am

    what an amazing letter to your angel. you are an amazing woman angie. thank you for sharing your story…

    in our prayers forever,

    Rachel

  • Reply Leigh Ann April 13, 2008 at 3:37 am

    You don’t know me, but I have prayed for you, Angie. Those pictures are just absolutely beautiful. I am so thankful to God that you and your family had that precious time with your Audrey. Such beautiful daughters you have! Audrey has touched my heart and I’ll never forget.
    Leigh Ann, Arkansas

  • Reply Pamela April 13, 2008 at 4:04 am

    The tears flow as I read your beautiful letter. God has granted you such wisdom and insight. Thank you for sharing Audrey with us.

  • Reply MOBACH'S April 13, 2008 at 4:06 am

    I don’t know you but as I read your words the tears are falling. Thankyou for your beautiful story. God is using you and your family. Audrey was and is beautiful. I can’t wait to one day meet your beautiful daughter in heaven!

  • Reply diane April 13, 2008 at 4:09 am

    Audrey, I didn’t get a chance to meet you when you were on this earth. But, you’re an inspiration to me also. So is your mommy. I am a young mother (22) of a little boy. My husband and I got pregnant with him before we were married, and we debated our decision on what to do. God decided he should be apart of our family and I’m glad he did. I empathize with the joy you brought your mother, and I cannot wait until I get to meet you in Heaven. Your family has been such an inspiration, and I continue praying for them. Thanks for all you’ve done and how you’ve changed me. ๐Ÿ™‚

  • Reply Sarah April 13, 2008 at 4:11 am

    The wonder and awe of our God. Your baby Audrey was beautiful and what an awesome gift you were given to spend those few hours with her. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
    Sarah, TX

  • Reply Jen and My Little Family April 13, 2008 at 4:18 am

    I am speechless…

    Prayers continue for the rough and joyous days ahead. Keep telling her story.

  • Reply Judd & Keiauni April 13, 2008 at 4:37 am

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Reply Judd & Keiauni April 13, 2008 at 4:37 am

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Reply Judd & Keiauni April 13, 2008 at 4:37 am

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Reply Judd & Keiauni April 13, 2008 at 4:37 am

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Reply Judd & Keiauni April 13, 2008 at 4:37 am

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Reply Judd & Keiauni April 13, 2008 at 4:37 am

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Reply Judd & Keiauni April 13, 2008 at 4:37 am

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Reply Judd & Keiauni April 13, 2008 at 4:37 am

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Reply Judd & Keiauni April 13, 2008 at 4:37 am

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Reply Judd & Keiauni April 13, 2008 at 4:37 am

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Reply Judd & Keiauni April 13, 2008 at 4:37 am

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Reply Judd & Keiauni April 13, 2008 at 4:37 am

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Reply Judd & Keiauni April 13, 2008 at 4:37 am

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Reply Judd & Keiauni April 13, 2008 at 4:37 am

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Reply Judd & Keiauni April 13, 2008 at 4:37 am

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Reply Judd & Keiauni April 13, 2008 at 4:37 am

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Reply Judd & Keiauni April 13, 2008 at 4:37 am

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Reply Judd & Keiauni April 13, 2008 at 4:37 am

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Reply Judd & Keiauni April 13, 2008 at 4:37 am

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Reply Judd & Keiauni April 13, 2008 at 4:37 am

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Reply Judd & Keiauni April 13, 2008 at 4:37 am

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Reply Judd & Keiauni April 13, 2008 at 4:37 am

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Reply Judd & Keiauni April 13, 2008 at 4:37 am

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Reply Judd & Keiauni April 13, 2008 at 4:37 am

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Reply Judd & Keiauni April 13, 2008 at 4:37 am

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Reply Judd & Keiauni April 13, 2008 at 4:37 am

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Reply Judd & Keiauni April 13, 2008 at 4:37 am

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Reply Judd & Keiauni April 13, 2008 at 4:37 am

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Reply Judd & Keiauni April 13, 2008 at 4:37 am

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Reply Judd & Keiauni April 13, 2008 at 4:37 am

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Reply Judd & Keiauni April 13, 2008 at 4:37 am

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Reply Judd & Keiauni April 13, 2008 at 4:37 am

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Reply Judd & Keiauni April 13, 2008 at 4:37 am

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Reply Judd & Keiauni April 13, 2008 at 4:37 am

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Reply Kalyn April 13, 2008 at 4:46 am

    Thank you. Thank you for opening your heart to us. Audrey will never be forgotten!!!

  • Reply Kristi April 13, 2008 at 5:02 am

    Absolutely beautiful. Thank you so much for sharing your story, and your precious girl with us. Your family is beautiful, and you are blessed. May God bring your family peace and healing.

  • Reply laura April 13, 2008 at 5:22 am

    audrey is so beautiful.

    thank you for sharing your amazing story and your daughter with the world.

    *tears*

  • Reply mimisherry April 13, 2008 at 5:45 am

    I am truly amazed by your gift of writing….I have been following your story, praying for you on this journey so unexpected. But far more than your truly awesome gift of words is your truly amazing strength of character, your passion and FAITH in the midst of something that most of us could never handle, let alone do so with the great grace as YOU have done. Your whole family has done….
    Angie, your posts throughout this journey have been resoundingly beautiful, eloquant and deeply personal and touching even when the pain had to be more than you could ever bear!
    You are a perfect example of living out God’s amazing love and grace and I for one am finding your example incredibly inspiring and moving. Thank you for sharing your story, and for sharing your precious little Audrey…….I will never forget her!!!!
    ~Sherry

  • Reply Pam April 13, 2008 at 5:47 am

    That was the most beautiful letter I have ever read. Your family is precious. Thanks for sharing Audrey with us.

  • Reply Debbie April 13, 2008 at 7:11 am

    I came across your story on CBB a few nights ago and it profoundly touched my heart. I immediately read it from beginning to end. I can’t even begin to imagine the pain and anguish that you have suffered. I lost a child when I was ten weeks pregnant. That loss devastated me so I can only imagine what you have had to endure. I know that God has a reason for everything he does yet I didn’t know what that reason was until I became pregnant with my daughter one year to the exact day that I lost my first child. After all the pain I endured, God gifted me with my daughter. We never knew the sex of the baby we lost but my husband and I both felt it was a girl so we have called her Hailey for nine years. I take comfort in knowing that one day I will see and hold my daughter in heaven.
    I am so happy that you got to spend those precious hours with Audrey. Those moments will be forever treasured by you.
    I know that you will overcome this because your faith in God is unwaivering. You are an inspiration to christian women everywhere. I commend the strength and faith that you have in God.
    Thank you for allowing me to be a part of your precious daughters brief but meaningful life. I will never forget you or your family. You have forever touched me, I will never be the same person I was before I read your blog. May God be with you Angie and also with Todd and your three beautiful little girls. He is the strength that will hold you up during this time but I don’t need to tell you that because reading your blog taught me so much about relying on God and showed me the true meaning of faith. God bless you Angie!

  • Reply bobbie April 13, 2008 at 7:14 am

    The stupidity of some people just absolutely amazes me!!!

  • Reply Kathy April 13, 2008 at 7:14 am

    Oh, she’s so beautiful! She fits right in with your precious little girls. You are a beautiful family…I see so much of the peace of God upon each of you in the pictures.

    Thank you for all you do, Angie…and thank You, Jesus, for all You are.

    Much love and prayers…

    Kathy~

  • Reply Heather April 13, 2008 at 7:21 am

    Sweet Audrey Caroline, you have changed my life. Your story has touched me deeper than I could have ever imagined, and I am beyond blessed to have been a part of it in any way.

    Dear Angie, Todd and girls – you are continually in my thoughts and prayers. We love you.

  • Reply Ani April 13, 2008 at 12:03 pm

    Beautiful letter to your daughter Audrey. Thank you for sharing her with the rest of us. God bless.

  • Reply Three Fold Cord April 13, 2008 at 1:19 pm

    OH MY!!!!!! How beautiful those pictures are and your letter…amazing! My prayers were with you while I was out of town and it was precious to see your blog when i got back. Continuing to pray for you and your sweet family.

    Charlotte

  • Reply Anonymous April 13, 2008 at 1:31 pm

    So much love. Beautiful.

    Love

    Jane from Australia

  • Reply Anonymous April 13, 2008 at 2:41 pm

    So so beautiful….thank you for sharing that letter and your heart.

    Much love & prayers,
    Krista

  • Reply Tylertopia April 13, 2008 at 3:09 pm

    Thank you so very much for sharing your heart. This is the most beautiful post I have ever read. The letter to Audrey and her precious photos are truly an amazing gift you have shared with all of us. We will continue to lift up your family in prayer and praise God that you were all able to meet her and love on her while she was here on Earth. And praise God she is now with Him in Heaven and healed! Indeed, your precious little one has changed the world.

    ~Tyler Family

  • Reply Michelle April 13, 2008 at 3:22 pm

    I wish the world could see you as I see you
    Wish they knew the joys you’ve brought to me
    So many people quick to judge us
    and see you as someone who shouldnt be

    They tell me that your life is not worth living
    if they were I, they would have never let you live
    They cannot know the thing it is that we know
    They will never know how much you have to give

    They talk a lot of sacrifice and burden
    They imagine that your being is our loss
    How can they know you saved me when you found me
    when I never even knew that I was lost.

    True enough, my world has changed forever
    nothing in it is as it was so long ago
    Your entry in our world has changed so many things
    but none so much as they have changed my soul.

    Why do we live our lives at all then
    if there is some race that we must finish first
    Why do we deny ourselves it all then
    we drown so that we may quench our thirst

    You taught me to stop and smell the tulips
    they are different than the roses, this is true
    their scent is in my every pore now
    I never would have known them without you

    To all the many people who would not choose you
    who think your life is somehow tragedy
    I say you have outlived them and outloved them
    I am grateful God chose you just for me

    You love your life and everyone thats in it
    you shine your light without knowing that you do
    Illuminate the darkness with your sparkle
    my child, my love, my life, thank God for you. ~Michelle Harmon

  • Reply Michelle April 13, 2008 at 3:24 pm

    the first part of that message got cut off…I wrote this for MY daughter a few years ago. She has Down syndrome. The referance to tulips is a DS thing. I thought maybe it fits for Audrey, too.

  • Reply Adriann April 13, 2008 at 3:28 pm

    A beautiful love letter from mother to a daughter. Thank you so much for sharing your testimony. Will be praying for God’s continued favor in your lives.

    Blessings!!!

  • Reply Nicole A. April 13, 2008 at 3:52 pm

    My tears are flowing like a river after reading this particular post and seeing the pictures of your precious little girl. What a beautiful family God has blessed you with!

    I have been reading your blog from time to time, but haven’t commented until now. Please know that you & your family are in my thoughts & prayers. I believe there is a song by Michael W. Smith called “Healing Rain.” I’ve heard it once before and it is oh so powerful. Be sure to check it out if you haven’t already.

    Take care & God Bless,
    Nicole from PA

  • Reply Danielsmommy April 13, 2008 at 4:12 pm

    Your story is amazing. I’ve read through some of the comments and am in awe of how many lives your story has touched.
    Gods blessings to you and your family!

  • Reply Anonymous April 13, 2008 at 4:27 pm

    What a beautiful family you have!!! Four GORGEOUS girls! I wonder what little Audrey is doing today in Heaven? What a thought…that she is with Jesus!!!! Can’t you just imagine?!?!

    Praying for you today!
    Amy in Texas

  • Reply Anonymous April 13, 2008 at 5:03 pm

    I went to church today and was struck by the second reading from the First Book of St. Peter.
    “Indeed this is part of your calling. For Christ suffered for you and left you a personal example, and wants you to follow in his steps. ‘Who committed no sin, nor was guile found in his mouth’. Yet when he was insulted he offered no insult in return. When he suffered he made no threats of revenge. He simply committed his cause to the one who judges fairly. And he personally bore our sins in his own body on the cross, so that we might be dead to sin and be alive to all that is good. It was the suffering that he bore which has healed you. You had wandered away like so many sheep, but now you have returned to the shepherd and guardian of your souls…And if it should happen that you suffer “for righteousness’ sake”, that is a privilege.” First Letter of St. Peter, 2:21-25, 3:15

  • Reply Barbara April 13, 2008 at 5:41 pm

    A precious day with a precious child results in precious memories.
    Love the ones you are with.
    -Houston TX

  • Reply Anonymous April 13, 2008 at 6:33 pm

    Angie & Todd, I’m not sure how I stumbled on your story but it is indeed amazing and bears witness to the miracles of a loving God. The photos of Audrey and your family are beautiful. Thanks for sharing your faith and may God continue to sustain you and allow you to be witnesses for others.

    With good thoughts and prayers for your family.

    Ciao,
    Dee Rasmussen

  • Reply ADB April 13, 2008 at 6:37 pm

    Your faith is AMAZING to me! As I read your story I was crying out to God for you and your family! I long to have this same kind of faith in the Lord! God is being glorified! You and your family will be in my prayers!!!

  • Reply LeslieW. April 13, 2008 at 6:58 pm

    What beautiful pictures and sentiments. Your words are so moving and beautiful. God is going to do great things with your story. Praise Him for his mercy and loving kindness. I pray that He envelops you are you family in his healing arms.

  • Reply Anonymous April 13, 2008 at 6:58 pm

    Thank you for sharing your story with us, for bearing your heart and soul and letting Audrey show how great the Lord is. She is a beautiful gift and I am so happyย  you were able to spend time with her. You and your family continue to be in my thoughts and prayers. May God’s peace be with you during this time.

    Tara Lea

  • Reply Erica April 13, 2008 at 7:27 pm

    What an amazing letter, thanks for sharing. I had goose bumps the entire time! She is beautiful, and I still pray for your family. *hugs and loves*

  • Reply Anonymous April 13, 2008 at 7:29 pm

    Just wanted you to know I am thinking of you all and your daughters story have reach all the way to sweden.Audrey looks so so precious ,so sweet,so perfect!
    //Johanna

  • Reply Anonymous April 13, 2008 at 7:35 pm

    Words are hard to say how I feel for the pain that you all are going through. Been praying for your family ever since I heard Selah at the Midland concert here in Michigan, when they were sponsering the New Hope girls home. When Todd said what you all were going through, my heart was touch. I too lost a little girl when I was 9 weeks along. Got hold that little fetus in my hands. But I have not went through the pain that you have Angie. You will all still be in my thoughts and prayers through the coming day. God Bless you all!

  • Reply Anonymous April 13, 2008 at 7:52 pm

    If we could choose our lives, we would probably never choose as much suffering as your family went through. Yet God used it to accomplish more than anyone ever could imagine. Your story inspires me to be courageous.

    Romans 5:3-5 Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; [4] perseverance, character; and character, hope. [5] And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us. NIV

    EPH 3:20 Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, [21] to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen. NIV

  • Reply nancy in ky April 13, 2008 at 8:03 pm

    I just found your blog through another link today and have literally spent hours today reading through your story. Thank you for sharing what the Lord has been showing you through all of this. It meant so much to me when you reminded me of how even Jesus had scars after the resurrection.

    Thank you for sharing the little ways that God has ministered to you through all of this. He does the same thing with me as well and it touched my heart how the bunny had a mark on it and the picture of the baby as an angel. And the rain/rainbow in Ireland.

    And how you fit in a lifetime with a little one that you only got to hold in your arms for a few hours. I just walk away reminded of just how gracious and gentle the Lord is.

    My prayers go out to your family. May God continue to strengthen and comfort you as only He can.

  • Reply Anonymous April 13, 2008 at 8:31 pm

    I only learned of your story last week-but you have been on my heart,on my mind, and in my prayers so much.

  • Reply Anonymous April 13, 2008 at 8:37 pm

    Oh Angie……. You are right…. Praise the Lord for all he does…. My heart ache so much for you and your family…. I have not been able to stop crying for a while…. You are so sweet and unselfish… thank you for sharing those beautiful picturesof Audry… she is so beautiful, perfectly formed, and I’m glad that she’s not suffering, but she is in HIS arms, HE will watch and protect her and soon, VERY SOON you will all be together with her in heaven… what a glorious day that will be when she ran to your arms and say here I am, a perfect little girl, no pain, and no more separation.
    My prayer now is that you continue to grow in the Lord so that day when HE comes to get us we are ready.
    God Bless you and your family, and our prayers will continue for the Lord to keep bringing you peace and comfort.
    Todd, the Lord Blessed you first of all with an incredible woman, always rejoice in HIM for his valuable gift to you. Take care of her and protect her always.
    May the Lord be with you and keep you in his wings.
    Judy

  • Reply Tara April 13, 2008 at 8:51 pm

    I feel blessed to have been able to read you story. I have not gone through what you have but I feel closer to God somehow through it all. Audrey was a beautiful baby and the strenght that you and your family has is a blessing in itself. Your letter to her is just amazing.The pictures that were taken capture it all! I hope that your are all doing well. I am sure that you are feeling the lose but family and friends and God will bring you comfort. I feel I might have been out of touch with my faith until I read your story. It is renewed and I thank you for it. I hope that peace is among you and your family right now. My prayers go up for you.
    With love
    Tara

  • Reply Major Mom April 13, 2008 at 9:41 pm

    Words fail me. You are a true testament to the Christian faith. Beautiful family, beautiful faith.

  • Reply PetiteCheri April 13, 2008 at 9:46 pm

    Oh my! Angie you and your family are such an inspiration. Your writing is so eloquent and real. Thank you for sharing Audrey with us and the miracle of her life. She really has changed lives!

  • Reply Anonymous April 13, 2008 at 9:54 pm

    Angie- words can not describe the deep sadness I feel for you and your family right now, yet the joy I feel knowing your precious little girl is in Heaven walking anf talking with God. You all will be in my prayers in the days, weeks, and months ahead!

  • Reply Tina April 13, 2008 at 11:46 pm

    Audrey is beautiful!
    I was crying and smiling with you as I read the letter to your sweet baby girl.
    THANK YOU for sharing your story!

  • Reply Francine April 13, 2008 at 11:53 pm

    I can’t hardly write the comment for crying. What a amazing story to share and oh how MY life has forever been changed by a little girl and a mommy with amazing faith in God. Thank you for being willing to share on this blog your story . I will continue to lift you and your family in prayer and will rejoice as you asked for Audrey’s healing! Praise the Lord. For the 2 hours you had her Praise the Lord and for God carrying you through it all Praise the Lord. You are truly a amazing woman and family. May God bless you and continue to heal you in the days to come. I will never forget this precious little girl and her story.
    In christ,
    Francine Howell

  • Reply Jodie Adams April 14, 2008 at 12:08 am

    I know that we don’t know each other but for some reason God brought me here today to read your story. You see it was like reading my own story. I too lost a child (Conner Jeremy) with similar problems on November 20, 2005. At 17 weeks, I got the news that he had no fluid and wouldn’t live. I had the choice of either carrying him or aborting him. I too couldn’t abort my living little miracle inside me. He stayed with me for 33 weeks and changed my life forever. Audrey and Conner were put here for a greater purpose than we can even imagine. Isn’t it wonderful knowing that they changed people’s lives and are sitting with Jesus now? I know you understand my pain like no other. I unfortunately didn’t get to have any time with Conner, but I am happy that you got 2 1/2 hours with your daughter. That is such a blessing that I know you hold dear. If I could give you a huge hug, I would today. I have a few poems I want to share with you. I am going to post them to my blog today so if you get the chance read them, they are very special and touching. I will keep you and your family in my prayers. Conner was my first child and I will always keep him close to my heart as I know you do your little Audrey. After 2 1/2 years I am expecting a new miracle. She is due on May 4th. I was feeling a little down and out this morning because I am so anxious to see her and then I read your blog. Thank you for lifting me up and helping me remember that all things are in God’s time and for his purpose. May God bless you and yours. Take care. Love accross the miles, Jodie Adams

  • Reply Kathi April 14, 2008 at 12:23 am

    Angie, Thank you for posting about Audrey. I just came across your blog today. It has been very healing for me. We’ve experienced 4 deaths since the end of February including a very good friend of ours (who was a 39 year old father of 6) and was killed in a car crash. Last week a good friend of our 14 year old daughter was also killed in a car crash. It’s been an exhausting and emotionally draining period of time for us. Although I don’t understand God’s plans, I know that He is good and He is loving. Thank you for sharing your beautiful story. I am praying for you.

  • Reply Tina Vega April 14, 2008 at 12:42 am

    So beautiful, the words – the pictures… the legacy.

  • Reply Sarah April 14, 2008 at 12:47 am

    May God’s peace, comfort, and grace blanket your family tonight.

  • Reply Em April 14, 2008 at 1:01 am

    She is beautiful. You have a beautiful family and I am so glad that you will forever have these precious moments captured on film.

    You are still in my prayers
    Em
    Australia

  • Reply winecat April 14, 2008 at 1:25 am

    Dear Todd and Angie,
    I’m one of the people who came because of celebritybabyblog.

    You are a beautiful family. Your four daughters have been truly blessed to have the gift of you as their parents.

    peace and blessing to you and yours.

  • Reply Angie April 14, 2008 at 1:29 am

    Thank you for sharing the wonderful pictures. How awesome to have those to cherish. God is truly awesome to have given you that time with sweet little Audrey. We continue to pray for you and your family. What a precious family you have. And your ablitly to write is beautiful. God Bless you through this difficult time. And thank you for sharing this story with us. Tears roll out of my eyes for you. Praying for you Angie in Adrian, MN

  • Reply strawberry rose April 14, 2008 at 1:56 am

    I’m so thankful that the Lord blessed you with such a sweet time with your little girl. May God continue to hold you and your family in His arms during this time.

  • Reply Sears Kids April 14, 2008 at 2:19 am

    Dear precious family in Christ,
    I don’t know you (but hope to someday when we are all in the presence of our Great God!). A friend sent me the link to your blog. My prayer for you is that God will comfort you beyond anything you could ever imagine. Thank you for your story and sharing your sweet daughter, you have encouraged me to love my children even more.
    Lovingly,
    Jennifer

  • Reply emilybudogs April 14, 2008 at 2:28 am

    I have just spent the last hour and a half reading your story from the beginning. I came from another blog where your page was linked. I have shed many tears, lifted up many prayers, and rejoiced with you for the blessings that Audrey brought your family and the world! No words I can say can express my gratitude for sharing your story and allowing God to touch so many through your journey. May He continue to wrap you in His arms of love and bring you peace.

    Emily (Ohio)

  • Reply Tiffany April 14, 2008 at 2:37 am

    Even though I have a loss for words, my heart is heavy with many thoughts and prayers for you. This letter to Audrey has filled me with so many emotions.

    I think and pray for you and your family EVERY day.

    Bless you Angie and your husband and daughters, too.

  • Reply Lisa April 14, 2008 at 2:44 am

    What a beautiful letter you’ve written to your daughter. It brought tears to my eyes. The pictures are so beautiful! My thoughts and prayers are with your entire family.

  • Reply Mocha with Linda April 14, 2008 at 3:07 am

    I know I’m one of so so many that you don’t even know (and I’ve already commented once!) but I just have to tell you how much this has been on my heart since I heard about it and read your blog last night.

    I mentioned that I had posted Be Still My Soul on Saturday just because I love the group Selah. Well, your story is now posted and linked on my blog, and I know Audrey will continue to impact lives as others continue to visit.

    What a precious family you are. I know there are many long days ahead, and I know God will continue to be faithful to walk through every one of them with you.

  • Reply velma96 April 14, 2008 at 3:36 am

    I am amazed as I read your story. Amazed at how the Lord has worked through little Audrey to touch the lives of so many people. Amazed at how peaceful your family has been through the process. Amazed at how the story of someone I’ve never met has brought me to tears on more than one occasion. Your family is beautiful, and you are all in my prayers. Thank you for sharing your story with us.

    In His Grip…
    Kristal

  • Reply SommerNyte April 14, 2008 at 4:14 am

    She is an absolutely gorgeous and your letter to her is beautiful. My heart goes out to you and your family.

  • Reply Chrissy April 14, 2008 at 4:23 am

    What a beautiful letter to your baby girl. All of my feelings and then some…I too have a baby girl in Heaven as of Easter Sunday of this year. She too has impacted the world and I am honored to be her mommy. Thinking of you tonight…

  • Reply Heather in Nashville April 14, 2008 at 4:37 am

    Thank you again for opening up and sharing your heart, Angie. Audrey is a world-changer! I praise the Lord for her and her precious story. ๐Ÿ™‚

  • Reply Anonymous April 14, 2008 at 8:02 am

    Angie,
    I have been following your story closely and had not had a chance to read for a week. I felt led to read your blog tonight as my daughter anna is having life threatening brain surgery tommorrow. I cried and cried reading about Audrey’s homecoming. She has no pain and suffering and is in the arms of her savior.
    I pray for your family as you watch the miracle the Lord is creating with Audrey’s short life.
    Thank you for touching my life today at a moment when I needed it most.
    Mariquita- mom to Anna age 12

  • Reply Kel April 14, 2008 at 10:32 am

    She is beautiful.You are very brave.
    Thank you for sharing her with us.
    Thinking of you.
    Kelly in Switzerland.
    ox

  • Reply Anonymous April 14, 2008 at 10:45 am

    thank you to share with us this precious little girl and your wonderful family! You are a wonderful mother

    doris
    germany

  • Reply Jenty April 14, 2008 at 10:47 am

    What a beautiful tribute to your beautiful daughter.
    (((HUGS))) and prayers to your whole family.

  • Reply Anna April 14, 2008 at 11:01 am

    What a beautiful tribute to a beautiful little girl! Thank you for sharing your story, your strength, and your faith. May God bless you always!

  • Reply Clairbear101 April 14, 2008 at 11:40 am

    That was a lovely letter and you are a very special woman to open your heart soo bravely.
    I am thinking of you and your family.
    You have a beautiful family and with a mother like you they will grow to be even more beautiful. xx

  • Reply Marcy April 14, 2008 at 11:46 am

    Your story reminds me of the story in Samuel about David and Bathsheba’s son. He weaped and pleaded for his life, but once it was taken he rejoiced that his son with with the Lord. You have such a gift for writing and your letter is so beautiful. Thank you for sharing your story with us so we can all be blessed by Audrey’s life! Your family is still in my prayers!

  • Reply Colleen & Bill April 14, 2008 at 12:16 pm

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Reply Colleen & Bill April 14, 2008 at 12:16 pm

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Reply Colleen & Bill April 14, 2008 at 12:16 pm

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Reply Colleen & Bill April 14, 2008 at 12:16 pm

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Reply Colleen & Bill April 14, 2008 at 12:16 pm

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Reply Colleen & Bill April 14, 2008 at 12:16 pm

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Reply Colleen & Bill April 14, 2008 at 12:16 pm

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Reply Colleen & Bill April 14, 2008 at 12:16 pm

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Reply Colleen & Bill April 14, 2008 at 12:16 pm

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Reply Colleen & Bill April 14, 2008 at 12:16 pm

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Reply Colleen & Bill April 14, 2008 at 12:16 pm

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Reply Colleen & Bill April 14, 2008 at 12:16 pm

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Reply Colleen & Bill April 14, 2008 at 12:16 pm

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Reply Colleen & Bill April 14, 2008 at 12:16 pm

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Reply Colleen & Bill April 14, 2008 at 12:16 pm

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Reply Colleen & Bill April 14, 2008 at 12:16 pm

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Reply Colleen & Bill April 14, 2008 at 12:16 pm

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Reply Colleen & Bill April 14, 2008 at 12:16 pm

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Reply Colleen & Bill April 14, 2008 at 12:16 pm

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Reply Colleen & Bill April 14, 2008 at 12:16 pm

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Reply Colleen & Bill April 14, 2008 at 12:16 pm

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Reply Colleen & Bill April 14, 2008 at 12:16 pm

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Reply Colleen & Bill April 14, 2008 at 12:16 pm

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Reply Colleen & Bill April 14, 2008 at 12:16 pm

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Reply Colleen & Bill April 14, 2008 at 12:16 pm

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Reply Colleen & Bill April 14, 2008 at 12:16 pm

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Reply Colleen & Bill April 14, 2008 at 12:16 pm

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Reply Colleen & Bill April 14, 2008 at 12:16 pm

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Reply Colleen & Bill April 14, 2008 at 12:16 pm

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Reply Colleen & Bill April 14, 2008 at 12:16 pm

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Reply Colleen & Bill April 14, 2008 at 12:16 pm

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Reply Colleen & Bill April 14, 2008 at 12:16 pm

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Reply Colleen & Bill April 14, 2008 at 12:16 pm

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Reply Colleen & Bill April 14, 2008 at 12:16 pm

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Reply Anonymous April 14, 2008 at 12:33 pm

    i am sorry
    be strong

  • Reply Kimberly April 14, 2008 at 12:37 pm

    She is beautiful..thanks for sharing. Still in my thoughts and prayers!

  • Reply Adventures In Babywearing April 14, 2008 at 12:38 pm

    Your photos are breathtaking. I am so very sorry for your loss.

  • Reply Lori April 14, 2008 at 12:38 pm

    wow…i have tears and goosebumps as i read your letter. God is amazing…and has given you a strength that amazes and encourages me! i’m still praying for you and your family…and know that God will continue to use Audrey’s life to show the world His grace and love!!

  • Reply kim April 14, 2008 at 1:02 pm

    That is a amazing testamint to the strength of you and your family. How our Father must love you and know that you all were strong enough to provide Audrey with enough love and happiness for her time here. Also I believe that you are right there are so many people (r maybe just one) who NEEDED to hear your story. Also What beautiful pictures, to look at them you feel the spirit beaming from your countinice. So much love and prayers.

  • Reply Anonymous April 14, 2008 at 1:11 pm

    A girl in my office told me about your blog and your story. This post was so beautiful! You and your family are inspirations and the love of God is reflected in you and Todd, as well as all four of those precious girls!

  • Reply Aimee April 14, 2008 at 1:14 pm

    Dear precious Smith family~
    I am overwhelmed at your generosity of sharing your precious daughter with us. The pictures are very sweet and I am sure will be a beautiful capture of such a short, but meaningful life. Audrey Caroline has been heavy on my heart for weeks and as this week approached I prayed more than I ever have. The miracle that she did live, that you had time with her, its awesome to see the power of God and know that He IS in control. Your faith has been an inspiration to me and I hope that I can be a beacon to others as you all have done.
    Know that your family will be in my prayers for many days and weeks to come and I will faithfully check your blog for any updates. The Selah group has long been a favorite of mine and I have been listening to all of their CDs religiously lately.
    To God be the glory!
    Aimee ~ Minnesota

  • Reply Mandy April 14, 2008 at 1:15 pm

    I first found your blog on Friday and have been continuously thinking about your family and praying for Audrey ever since. As I lifted your family in prayer yesterday during church and cried for your daughters, I felt a certain peace. My prayer now is that you and Todd feel the same peace. You are truly an inspiration. Audrey is not the only one changing the world, my friend.

    Mandy
    http://www.3kids2jobs1dog.com

  • Reply Anonymous April 14, 2008 at 1:16 pm

    I’ve caught up with your blogs over recent days through a family member of mine’s page, http://vietnambabygirlsmith.blogspot.com/.

    Oh the tears that have fallen. Thank God for people like you that bring inspiration and strength to this world. No words can say how much you have touched me this past week. God is amazing, his works are amazing!

    Carrie
    Jacksonville, FL

  • Reply Marla Taviano April 14, 2008 at 1:24 pm

    I just spoke to a group of 16 ladies yesterday on motherhood.

    I read Audrey’s letter. Not a dry eye in the room.

    Praying for you as you miss her!

  • Reply Suzanne April 14, 2008 at 1:29 pm

    Beautiful!!! Your family has really touched me as I newly found your blog this week. You are all in my thoughts.

  • Reply The Harper Family April 14, 2008 at 1:31 pm

    What a beautiful family of five! God has truly blessed you with four precious daughters. My heart rejoices with you over sweet baby Audrey! I have prayed so often for her over the last weeks, I feel like I know her personally. I will continue to lift you and your family up to the throne of God. You have been an amazing testimony to me and so many others. May God bless your family!
    Lots of love and prayers,
    Lori
    Southwest Arkansas

  • Reply Brooklyn April 14, 2008 at 1:36 pm

    Angie,
    I know I am a complete stranger to you and also that there have been 381 comments prior to mine but I jsutwant to let you kow that you ahve touched my heart today in a way that I can’t even explain. You see, I have been pretty angry at God over the past few months as my daughter Brooklyn was diagnosed with Rett Syndrome. We have watched her lose her ability to crawl, speak, fed herself, and use her hands. It has been an agonizing year to say the least. I am a Christian and have not lost faith through it all but I just feel “different” towards Him. A friend of mine sent me the link to your blog and I am so glad she did. Your faith is amazing and your words of love and praise touched my heart today. Thank you. God is good and I know that….I just have not felt that for awhile. Reading your words and listening to the music has softened my heart – opened my eyes – and touched me. Thank you. From the bottom of my heart.
    Kelly
    Mom to Brooklyn (almost 3)
    http://www.brooklynbutler.blogspot.com

  • Reply =^..^= April 14, 2008 at 1:38 pm

    PRAISE GOD ! Praise God Audrey is healed ! Thank you Angie, for this beautiful testimony. Audrey is certain to bring throngs of new believers to Christ through her life. You too, are quite a miracle. To handle such personal aching with such public grace – God has worked a miracle through you….through your mind and through your body. ALL HAIL THE POWER OF JESUS’ NAME !

  • Reply ashlee April 14, 2008 at 1:52 pm

    It is through tears I write this, not tears of sadness, but tears of knowledge in the One who sees all and knows all and had a PERFECT plan for your sweet Audrey. Your words have touched me in a way I cannot explain. I have been through something similar in my life and my heart was so settled by your thoughts and prayers to our awesome Father. Angie, your family has become a constant part of my prayer life, connecting me to God in a way I haven’t been for sometime. And for that alone I thank you. May He continue to use this beautiful story to bring Him glory in the lifetime ahead:)

  • Reply Mamita J April 14, 2008 at 2:09 pm

    Thank you for sharing your heart in such a beautiful way. I’ll be praying for your family as you walk through this valley.

    In the darkest place, He is there.

    In Christ,
    Julie

  • Reply Pipsylou April 14, 2008 at 2:15 pm

    I don’t have anything to say that hasn’t already been said.

    You are, quite obviously, being carried.

  • Reply Sarah Ski April 14, 2008 at 2:29 pm

    How fortunate your daughters are, to have such a loving and faithful mother! My prayers are with you and your family, that in the next weeks and months will bring you healing. I read through your blog for the first time today – I’m in awe of your faith and strength. May God continue to bless you.

  • Reply Anonymous April 14, 2008 at 2:34 pm

    I am so very sorry for your loss. I lift you up in prayer,
    Blessings from England

  • Reply Jenny April 14, 2008 at 3:00 pm

    God bless you and your beautiful family. You are all in my hearts and prayers. Your Audrey is beautiful.

    God Bless.
    Jen

  • Reply Andrea April 14, 2008 at 3:01 pm

    Your letter is beautiful and is very touching to read (through the tears). God bless your family and your beautiful Audrey! Your faith is amazing and a powerful testimony of God’s great love! I will keep your family in my prayers as the days progress for you. I love Mercy Me’s “Bring the Rain” as well…and have my own testimony about the song, but hearing yours is sooo amazing! It’s so amazing how God chose to to use your situation to draw people closer to Him – that’s no coincidence, GOD is the coincidence! Blessings and Prayers!

  • Reply Kevin, Kari and kids... April 14, 2008 at 3:02 pm

    Yesterday our pastor was in the middle of a series called Heaven. I thought about your little Audrey for a good part of it. One thing that hit me was when he said that husbands that lose their wives are called widowers, wives that lose their husbands are called widows and children that lose their parents are called orphans. Incidentally, there is no term to describe the pain of a parent that has lost a child! We’re praying for your entire family as you begin this new chapter in your lives. Thanks for allowing us to peer into your lives and see the joy and the pain. I’ve been encouraged to see the strength Christ has given you in the midst of it all and catch a glimpse of Heaven and all that’s to come!

  • Reply The Girl in the Office April 14, 2008 at 3:05 pm

    Beautiful. I hope that everyone that reads this sits back and thanks God for all the gifts they’ve been given in their life, just as you have.

  • Reply Anonymous April 14, 2008 at 3:27 pm

    Your letter to Audrey is the most beautiful letter I have ever read in my entire life…..I am blown away and deeply touched. Audrey has the face of an angel……Your strength is truly an inspiration to me and my family…. All of our thoughts, Barbara, Michael and baby “Grace”

  • Reply Anonymous April 14, 2008 at 3:35 pm

    As I watched our church dance team prsent the Selah song “Wonderful, Merciful Savior” yesterday in service, I could not help but think of your family, and be thankful for the truth of the line that says, “You bring the healing and grace our hearts always hunger for…” Your family, your story, your precious children, are tools in the hands of Jesus. May His comfort, peace, healing and grace continue to cover your lives.

  • Reply Sara April 14, 2008 at 3:38 pm

    I am 39 weeks pregnant and just read your post… beautiful. Even in the midst of sadness God is there and God is good! Thank you for sharing your journey.

  • Reply Anonymous April 14, 2008 at 3:49 pm

    You and your family are really amazing,you taught me a really big and important lesson!My hearts is right next to you in this difficult time!She’s preciuos…a true angel of God!God bless you and your family!

    Chiara

  • Reply Erica April 14, 2008 at 3:57 pm

    wow, 400 posts…how many have been touched and not commented. What an amazing little girl with an amwazing testimony!

  • Reply Anonymous April 14, 2008 at 4:02 pm

    Thank you so much for sharing your story… it truly has touched so many lives and brought God the utmost glory!

  • Reply Corrine April 14, 2008 at 4:05 pm

    As the mother of an Angel daughter your letter touched my heart in so many ways. May you find peace knowing that your daughter is amongst the Angels now.

  • Reply Megan L Hutchings April 14, 2008 at 4:05 pm

    Everytime I read your blog my eyes overflow with tears. Praying always for your days ahead, but your four daughters are beautiful!

  • Reply Anonymous April 14, 2008 at 4:23 pm

    I read your story through another blogger, just when I thought I cannot be moved any more…BAM
    First you are a beautiful family and that alone tells me why God chose you for this precious baby. No one could be more blessed than to be sent home to Jesus the way Audrey was sent home , with her proud sisters and adoring parents with her as she quietly passed.
    Tahnk You for sharing your Happiness and Tears.

    Maria

  • Reply maryanne420 April 14, 2008 at 4:51 pm

    can i just tell you how your letter truly touched my heart. i don’t know you personally but the love you shared through your letter brought me to tears. my heart was aching for you and your family but as i continued to read and you talked about the peace you all experienced and how your 3 pounds 2 ounces sweet baby girl touched people, did the work of God in just 2 1/2 hours, what a mighty God we serve. thank you for sharing your letter with us. your daughter will touch so many people in this world and bring them the opportunity to get to know Jesus through you and your family. her story, though short, is so full of God’s miraculous love.

    may the Lord, Jesus, continue to bestow blessings upon you and your family.

    your friend in Christ,

    the Clark family

  • Reply Carrie April 14, 2008 at 4:52 pm

    Just stopping by to let you know I’m praying for you all.

  • Reply maryanne420 April 14, 2008 at 4:56 pm

    can i just tell you how your letter truly touched my heart. i don’t know you personally but the love you shared through your letter brought me to tears. my heart was aching for you and your family but as i continued to read and you talked about the peace you all experienced and how your 3 pounds 2 ounces sweet baby girl touched people, did the work of God in just 2 1/2 hours, what a mighty God we serve. thank you for sharing your letter with us. your daughter will touch so many people in this world and bring them the opportunity to get to know Jesus through you and your family. her story, though short, is so full of God’s miraculous love.

    may the Lord, Jesus, continue to bless you and your family

    with love,
    the Clark family

  • Reply La Familia Garcia April 14, 2008 at 5:07 pm

    What a beautiful letter. May God continue to bring you peace as a family as you seek Him.

  • Reply Anonymous April 14, 2008 at 5:30 pm

    What a doll baby. She is precious as are your other 3 girls. I continue to pray for your family. Thank you so much for sharing your journey with us. Your faith is awe inspiring. May God hold you all in his arms.
    Jenny F.

  • Reply jaQ April 14, 2008 at 5:37 pm

    such a perfect little angel.
    i’ll be hand-making a card just for her.

  • Reply Kimmer April 14, 2008 at 5:44 pm

    I am sure you know this song well but felt I needed to share as it fits your situation.

    I still believe- Jeremy Camp
    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TNqw2ssYXC8

    Scattered words and empty thoughts
    Seem to pour from my heart
    I’ve never felt so torn before
    Seems I don’t know where to start
    But its now that I feel your grace fall like rain
    From every fingertip washing away my pain

    I still believe in your faithfulness
    I still believe in your truth
    I still believe in your holy word
    Even when I don’t see, I still believe

    Though the questions still fog up my mind
    With promises I still seem to bear
    Even when answers slowly unwind
    It’s my heart I see you prepare
    But its now, that I feel, your grace fall like rain
    From every fingertip washing away my pain

    I still believe in your faithfulness
    I still believe in your truth
    I still believe in your holy word
    Even when I don’t see, I still believe

    Well the only place I can go is into your arms
    Where I throw to you my feeble prayers well in brokenness
    I can see that this was your will for me
    Help me to know that you are near

    I still believe in your faithfulness
    I still believe in your truth
    I still believe in your holy word
    Even when I don’t see, I still believe

    I still believe (repeat 8 X’s)

    Ohhh, I still believe, I still believe

  • Reply Ellen Sutton April 14, 2008 at 5:51 pm

    You are an amazing family and I rejoice in the fact that I found your website and have followed your blog! May God continue to bless you and your family. He is a mighty God!
    We will continue to pray for you and your family!

  • Reply kris April 14, 2008 at 6:21 pm

    I am reminded of the solitude that I have known in in my own suffering, a solitude that is filled with peace and wonder, pain and acceptance- thank you for reminding me of the incredible power of God’s love, who for a moment made his face known through Audrey.

    I will never forget her story. I will sit with this and thank God for what she just gave me. Something that requires no words, and has no name, but goes by the way of Love.

  • Reply Liza's Eyeview April 14, 2008 at 6:25 pm

    I just found out about this form a link that Boomama posted in her blog. Oh I can’t breathe … my heart ache, from sadness and yet a peace and joys also flows within as I am inspired by how you are all handling this so well and how your beautiful daughter and your family is touching our hearts .. I am on my way to work and should not even be blogging at this time. I will be back. Thank you for sharing your story with us… I pray blessings upon all of you.

  • Reply The Flick Family April 14, 2008 at 6:27 pm

    you continue to be in our prayers. your story and testimony is truly amazing. God has certainly used little Audrey in a mighty way in your hearts and the many hearts who this story has touched.

  • Reply Anonymous April 14, 2008 at 6:43 pm

    Your daughters are all adorable…but I guess what touched me in your pictures was the peace of your faces, Angie and Todd – the peace that passes understanding. Thank you for sharing your beautiful letter with us, as well as Audrey’s short life on earth. I would doubt that many babies are greeted on earth with so many prayers ascending at the same time – no wonder the medical staff could feel the peace in your room.

    Love from your sister in Christ,
    Trudi
    FLN

  • Reply Stacie Anderson April 14, 2008 at 7:31 pm

    Your letter to your precious baby girl was so special. What a blessing she was and is for all that have yet to hear her story. Thank you for sharing with us.

  • Reply Anonymous April 14, 2008 at 7:34 pm

    I am touched by reading your letter to little Audrey…we have an Audrey also…she will be 1 in May. She is also our 4th daughter…Thank you for sharing your story. We will pray for your family. Stephanie

  • Reply Anonymous April 14, 2008 at 7:36 pm

    Thank you for making your blog readers a part of your life. You are such a blessing to so many! Your family is amazing! Your letter made me chersih how precious life is! Your family is beautiful and I have been blessed by your blog in so many ways. I will continue to pray for your family! Audrey is beautiful! Thank you for sharing those precious pictures!

  • Reply A April 14, 2008 at 7:44 pm

    This post had me weeping in tears – I have never read anything so heart wrenchingly beautiful and honest. The openness and grace that you have shared your story with has touched me more than you could possibly imagine.

    Peace be with you, and yours.

  • Reply DEBRA FROM TEXAS April 14, 2008 at 7:48 pm

    ANGIE, THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR SHARING AUDREY’S STORY. I HAVE LAUGHED AND CRIED WITH YOU. SHE IS ABSOLUTELY BEAUTIFUL! I CAN’T WAIT TO SEE THE OTHER PICTURES. YOU ARE A BLESSING ANGIE. YOUR FAITH AND TRUST IN GOD IS REMARKABLE! I CONTINUE TO PRAY FOR YOUR FAMILY. GOD HAS BLESSED YOU AND YOU HAVE BLESSED ME WITH YOUR STORY. I LOVE YOU GUYS!

  • Reply Anonymous April 14, 2008 at 7:52 pm

    Thank you for the encouragement of faith! Your beautiful family is in my prayers.

  • Reply Anonymous April 14, 2008 at 8:05 pm

    She is a beautiful little girl. I am sure my niece Emma will watch over your precious baby girl, and help show her around Heaven (as well as all the other Angel Babies).

    I am so sorry Audrey isn’t here with you like she should be.

    Wishing you gentle days ahead,
    JLH

  • Reply Anonymous April 14, 2008 at 8:11 pm

    Thank you for sharing, Little Audrey has honestly changed the world! Thank you for sharing your love for Jesus, you have touched more people than you will ever know!!

    Love and Peace,
    Sarah

  • Reply Club Sammich Cafe -Art,Angels and Miracles. April 14, 2008 at 8:11 pm

    I am delurking today. I had a hard time reading through but i did with tears and happiness to. You have a beautiful family. The pictures are beautiful of all of you as a family as it should be!
    Audrey is beautiful as I felt she would be. Such a precious little one to touch so many.
    Your post brought me to tears. I remember my parents when my older brother passed away. Simply not talking to us about him.I was only four and half and my sister 6 and my brother was 7.
    I remember the day and much about it. I am so glad your talking to your Girls about whats going on for the age they are. Its so vitally important.
    Till day one thing I cherish the most are the few photographs I have of my Brother. To me he will always be part of my family..Always.
    Angie, I will be praying for you , Todd and your Girls as well.
    A sister in Christ

  • Reply Anonymous April 14, 2008 at 8:12 pm

    God’s new little angel is perfect…perfect in every way. What a wonderful family picture. Thank you for your encouraging words. Audrey’s story is touching people’s lives and leading them to Christ all over this world. I am continuing to share it with friends and family. Angie, your writing is amazing. I am blessed by your words. Thank you for sharing your joys and pains. God Bless you and your family!

  • Reply Courtney April 14, 2008 at 8:13 pm

    I came into your story late, after sweet Audrey had already been born, but I feel as if I have known your famly for years. You are a blessing to many and a strength to all. God bless you and all four of your precious girls.

  • Reply Leigh Ann April 14, 2008 at 8:15 pm

    Just beautiful! Thank you for your testimony of grace. The peace shows on the faces of your family.
    The Lord bless and keep you all.

  • Reply Anonymous April 14, 2008 at 8:17 pm

    I heard on our Christian radio station about your story a few hours before you gave birth to Audrey. As a mother to two beautiful girls, my heart cried out for you. I prayed for healing for Audrey, but also God’s will. As I just now read your letter to her, I thank the Lord for your family’s faithfullness in choosing to let God’s will play out, and not giving in to a lie about giving her up early. What a testimony to life. I cry with you and rejoice with you. May the Lord’s hand be upon you always…someday you will see her again in heaven!

  • Reply Anonymous April 14, 2008 at 8:32 pm

    Thank you, thank you, thank you for sharing this very personal and beautiful letter to your precious baby daughter. The pictures of Audrey are beautiful as she is and always will be. God bless you and your remarkable family. I am in tears and holding my children so close right now. Thank you.

  • Reply singingcindy April 14, 2008 at 9:31 pm

    Wow that was the most touching, heart wrenching, and amazing thing I have ever read!! You certainly have a way with words. I pray for Audrey and your family every day. Your little girl touched so many lives – family, friends, and strangers alike. Thank you for sharing her story with us!

  • Reply alex April 14, 2008 at 9:34 pm

    What an absolutely beautiful letter. I just spent hours reading Audrey’s story from the beginning, and I very much admire the strength of you and your family. I will definitely be keeping you all in my prayers… She’s a beautiful little girl.

  • Reply singingcindy April 14, 2008 at 9:35 pm

    Wow that was the most touching, heart wrenching, and amazing thing I have ever read!! You certainly have a way with words.

    I pray for Audrey and your family every day. Your little girl touched so many lives – family, friends, and strangers alike. Thank you for sharing her story with us!

    This entry reminded me of Selah’s version of “You Raise Me Up”… couldn’t think of more meaningful lyrics at this moment!

    Much Love,
    Cindy

  • Reply Suzanne April 14, 2008 at 9:37 pm

    What a beautiful tribute to your sweet little Audrey. I have tears in my eyes and no words, so instead I’ll just hug my own little Audrey and send more send prayers your way. Thank you for opening your heart.

  • Reply Mark and Rebekah April 14, 2008 at 9:42 pm

    What a beautiful letter! Angie, you are such a talented writer, and God has been usuing you so much through this blog. God has given you such a gift; thank you for sharing it with us!

  • Reply Anonymous April 14, 2008 at 9:44 pm

    God bless you and your family.
    I would have made the same choice if I were in your shoes, because God makes all things happen for a reason. Audrey is now your guardian angel, and we should all be so lucky to have one. The Lord works in mysterious ways, and I believe you will be with Audrey one day. God bless.

    Torri

  • Reply Anonymous April 14, 2008 at 10:09 pm

    We are praying for your family and rejoice with you that your beautiful daughter has now been healed and is in the presence of Christ. You are such an inspiration and have done such a wonderful job sharing your story. Thank you!

  • Reply Astraea April 14, 2008 at 10:32 pm

    I just keep coming back to gaze at your beautiful baby girl. She is an angel. She glows. I can’t thank you enough for sharing her. I pray the days have been peaceful. You’re in my constant prayers.

  • Reply Anonymous April 14, 2008 at 10:45 pm

    Thank you for sharing your journey with us. You and your family are incredibly courageous and inspiring people. God bless and deep peace to you all!

    Kristina

  • Reply The Shulls April 14, 2008 at 10:50 pm

    I loved the pictures!!! What a precious and sweet little girl. Audrey, you are already in our hearts even without being part of your direct family, but know that you are very loved and sweetly remembered in our family.

    Angie, may the Lord keep comforting you and your family in a very sweet way.

    Please receive our love from Birmingham, AL.

    The Shulls

  • Reply Nicki W. April 14, 2008 at 10:52 pm

    thank you so much for being so so so open and honest and vulnerable. your little audrey has touched many and who knows the numbers of people who will be touched by the Lord just by knowing her. you are an amazing family. thank you for your story.

  • Reply Julie April 14, 2008 at 11:43 pm

    i too sit here and struggle through the tears to read your letter to Audrey. I am amazed at your faith, and wish I had managed to have faith of my own when our son Caleb was stillborn in 2003. I am so sorry you are a part of this “new life” and that Audrey is not here with you. I keep you and your family in my prayers.

  • Reply Anonymous April 15, 2008 at 12:13 am

    Thank you for sharing your story. It’s amazing how God can make us see the beauty and miraculous things even in the saddest times of our lives. I know there will be many sad days ahead of you. However, I want you to personally know you have the mighty power of prayer on your side. We will all be praying for your family. We will pray for God to heal your pain, and keep you focused on the fact that little Audrey is in God’s house now. God Bless!

    Leah Miller

  • Reply Kelsey April 15, 2008 at 12:56 am

    This is one of the most beautiful things I have ever read.

    I am sorry that I am jumping into this journey with you so late. I just read all of your blogs over the past months and cried “with” you. It broke my heart that I wasn’t aware of your heartache sooner, as I wished I could’ve been praying. But I know this process continues…the hurt, the pain, but also the beauty that will continue to pour from it. And from this day I will pray for you. Thank you for sharing your beautiful story. You are one beautiful woman of God. No doubt about it. He did use the right woman for the trial, and the joy.

    Your family is beautiful, and I feel so incredibly impacted by your story, by Audrey’s story.

    Praying for you.

    In His Precious Grip,

    Kelsey Shaw

  • Reply Stilla Momma April 15, 2008 at 1:07 am

    Rain never felt so good. Wow…Lord, reign in our hearts, and when he sends the rain, it cleanses and heals.

    I have never heard a more beautiful story. What hope you give to women and families that there is a balm in Gilead…and right here for all of us to take advantage of.

    Lots of love and prayers to your family. I am just amazed at your maturity and how can transform a life and a perspective from mourning to dancing. Keep healing, sis. *hugs from Philly*

  • Reply Heinzfeet April 15, 2008 at 1:19 am

    I have no idea what to write, but I want to thank you for sharing your story and so greatly reflecting a heart of trust in the Only One worth trusting. Thank you!

  • Reply Chatty April 15, 2008 at 1:24 am

    Oh Angie, I am so very sorry for the loss of Audrey. She was beautiful. I am so very happy that you all were given such precious time with your Sweet Baby Girl.

    I continue to pray for you all, and of course for little Audrey, although she is surely safe, happy and at peace in Heaven.

  • Reply TBG Happenings April 15, 2008 at 1:43 am

    A blessing to so many….

    Thank you

  • Reply Courtney April 15, 2008 at 1:57 am

    I’ve read this entry twice and the rest of them since Adrienne has started blogging about sweet Audrey and your family. Your story is an incredible Christ-filled one that has changed my life forever… thank you for that, sweet Audrey. Peace.

  • Reply Anonymous April 15, 2008 at 3:14 am

    Life is such a precious gift from God. What a blessing to have held in your arms, if only for a short time, such a miracle of God’s love. He promises eternal life to those who believe in him.
    One day soon, you will all be together loving that sweet, precious Audrey. Though her life here on earth was all too short, she lives on in all our hearts and touched countless lives in ways that can never be measured. My heart aches for you Angie as my arms surround you with love unending. Thank you for sharing the love story of your beautiful, precious little girl. I look forward to seeing you soon.

    blessings and love to you all,
    vicki

  • Reply Corie O'Brien April 15, 2008 at 3:43 am

    How beautiful. You are right! She is amazing! Thank you for sharing your heart and your story of Audrey and the rest of your family for all to see and hear. Many have seen Jesus through a perfect little 3 lb. baby girl. God has been glorified through your brave walk on this hard journey.

  • Reply Anonymous April 15, 2008 at 4:01 am

    What an emotional read for me, yet your words were such a beautiful song! THANK YOU for sharing; your family will be in my thoughts and daily prayers. May GOD wrap his healing arms around your family and his Grace be plentiful in all the ways that it can be. In God’s Grace- Jill in MN

  • Reply Charin April 15, 2008 at 4:03 am

    Thank you so much for sharing the beautiful story of your sweet babies life, and God bless you!!
    Charin

  • Reply Barbie April 15, 2008 at 4:14 am

    I just found your blog and your story has touched me in such a special way. How special it must be to see the legacy that your little girl is leaving. She is a testimony to God’s faith, hope and love. Thank you for sharing her story. I will be praying for you as God continues to heal your hearts.

  • Reply Jodie R. April 15, 2008 at 4:41 am

    What a tremendous testimony of God’s grace you continue to be! I am so humbled by the faith that He’s given you to make it through what He’s planned for you. I will continue to pray for you, and thank God that He is comforting you and enabling you to praise Him. Thank you for sharing this with all of us – what an impact you are all having for the Lord and His glory!

    Hurting for you,
    A sister in Christ.

  • Reply jen April 15, 2008 at 5:18 am

    God Bless you and your family. Audrey is such a beautiful angel. As the mother of a stillborn I know how precious those moments are after birth. Your story just broke my heart but your strength is truly inspiring. Audrey is looking down on all of you and sending you sweet angel kisses from above.

    Jennifer

  • Reply Jessie April 15, 2008 at 6:43 am

    I have been absolutely moved by your story… prayed for your family while you were in surgery, and rejoice at the legacy your daughter is already leaving behind. Thank you for your willingness to share her amazing story with the world. And she is so beautiful and perfect. I love all her photos.

  • Reply Annalien April 15, 2008 at 7:04 am

    The pictures are truly gorgeous! You are a beautiful family.

    Thank you so much for your testimony throughout this ordeal. God truly works in wondrous ways. He will continue to be your strength in the days to come.

  • Reply Anonymous April 15, 2008 at 7:04 am

    Dear Audrey and Audrey’s Mommy,

    I am not sure how I even came to this post at 3 am. My 7 month old has been fussy all day, my 2 year old tires me out and I am exhausted. I finally left the 7 month old in her swing to cry a bit because nothing else was working and Mommy needed a five minute break.

    I found this and cried with you. Audrey has changed my life. I go back to my fussy baby grateful, shamed of my behavior and a changed Women.

    Thank you, I am humbled by your Motherhood and the Warrior you gave birth to.

    Many Blessings ๐Ÿ™‚
    Carrie

  • Reply Samantha April 15, 2008 at 8:55 am

    That was the most beautiful letter i have ever read, heartwarming and so full of love, Angie you are an inspiration to us all.
    Praying for your beautiful family,
    Samantha

  • Reply Sun April 15, 2008 at 12:14 pm

    wow – I found this blog through another blog – I just want you to know my family will be in prayer for yours! I cannot tell you how much this post touched my heart…the letter was so beautifully written. Thank you for so willingly sharing it. Sunshine

  • Reply kuwitzky April 15, 2008 at 12:42 pm

    We are praying so much for you. Thankyou for sharing your heart during this time, we can’t imagine the sadness, but praise God for holding you right now. We will keep praying for Him to rain down his blessing in this time of pain.
    Ben and Renee Kuwitzky (doing in Bible Translation in Sudan)

  • Reply Tricia April 15, 2008 at 1:06 pm

    She’s perfect and your letter to her is beautiful.

    From a mother that knows what saying goodbye to a child means.

  • Reply Donna April 15, 2008 at 1:15 pm

    I have been to your blog now several days in a row and just keep basking in God’s love and glory that is pouring out here.
    What an incredible blessing to the world. You have shared so much and so openly about your journey, your little Angel’s life has accomplished so much.
    I will continue to send everyone I know to your blog and I will continue to pray for your family.

  • Reply Bethany Spencer April 15, 2008 at 1:23 pm

    Dear Angie and Todd,
    On April 7th, it was my 1st Anniversary with my husband and we went away (escaped really! We have 7 children together…one of those blended families!) and I prayed for you a lot that day. At one point that day, we were on the beach (Lake Michigan) and I prayed again for you ALL…we are so small, aren’t we? God is SO great!
    Wow…look at all the wonderful gifts that Audrey has given! God surely does use ALL of us….and such a sweet little child. I am full of tears now–some sadness, some joy! I have three boys and I give them to the Lord each day…they are not my own (especially now that one of them is 17!). But to give them completely (physically) to Him would be oh so difficult. And you all did it with such bravery!
    Audrey has touched so many with her life…and will continue to do so. Thank you again for sharing with us!
    Bethany in Michigan

  • Reply Johnson Party of seven! April 15, 2008 at 2:21 pm

    You will never understand what a blessing you have been to me. We are in the storm right now with our fifth child (fourth girl like you). I have no idea of how our baby Hutton’s story will end but I praise God for the trails and for putting your sweet Audrey in my path to learn from. God Bless! Jill Johnson
    http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/huttonjohnson

  • Reply Susan April 15, 2008 at 2:25 pm

    Thank you for sharing your amazing family. You have strengthened my faith through your own. My thoughts and prayers are with your family. Audrey really is a beautiful baby, as pretty as her big sisters!

  • Reply Anonymous April 15, 2008 at 2:37 pm

    I was thinking about your sweet Audrey this morning while I was talking to the Lord and how it’s been a week now that she’s been with Him in heaven. The words “Better is one day in your courts than ten thousand elsewhere” came to mind. I know you must miss her terribly, but can you imagine what her days are like?!?! WOW! ๐Ÿ™‚

    I’m praying for you that each day you find joy and comfort in knowing that the Lord is using you and the story of your precious girl to point hearts and lives to Jesus. I’ve never understood things like why the Lord would give a baby only to take it away. I’ve wrestled with that for a long time after we lost our first baby (we now have 4 including twin girls like you! ). Through Audrey’s story, I’ve seen God’s sovereign hand in a way that I have never seen before! His ways truly are higher than our ways and he is making the soil rich! Your Audrey is miraculous and such a tiny little angel brought so much glory to the Lord! I know she changed me and I will forever be grateful for that. ๐Ÿ™‚

    Love to all of you!
    Amy in Texas

  • Reply babyglory April 15, 2008 at 2:47 pm

    Praise the name of the Lord. God have mercy on you. “Those who sow in tears will reap with shouts of joy. ” Psalms 126

  • Reply Dobbie and Papa April 15, 2008 at 2:49 pm

    We have written before, but you were on my heart this morning, I have my youngest grandy with me, Cora, and she sat beside me and sucked her thumb while I read part of your Audrey letter again, (she is almost 2). Tears are spilling as we say a prayer for you this Tuesday morning…we think of you everyday…Precious are the saints of God…..

  • Reply Barry, Megan, Jonathan, Joshua & Zachary Welch April 15, 2008 at 2:53 pm

    May God continue to bless you and your family through this time. May He give you all the comfort, understanding and grace.

    My heart breaks for you right now, and I wish that there was something I could do. Know that my thoughts and prayers are with you through this very hard time! You have a very beautiful family, thanks for sharing them with us.

    Megan Welch & Family

  • Reply Barry, Megan, Jonathan, Joshua & Zachary Welch April 15, 2008 at 2:53 pm

    May God continue to bless you and your family through this time. May He give you all the comfort, understanding and grace.

    My heart breaks for you right now, and I wish that there was something I could do. Know that my thoughts and prayers are with you through this very hard time! You have a very beautiful family, thanks for sharing them with us.

    Megan Welch & Family

  • Reply Barry, Megan, Jonathan, Joshua & Zachary Welch April 15, 2008 at 2:53 pm

    May God continue to bless you and your family through this time. May He give you all the comfort, understanding and grace.

    My heart breaks for you right now, and I wish that there was something I could do. Know that my thoughts and prayers are with you through this very hard time! You have a very beautiful family, thanks for sharing them with us.

    Megan Welch & Family

  • Reply Barry, Megan, Jonathan, Joshua & Zachary Welch April 15, 2008 at 2:53 pm

    May God continue to bless you and your family through this time. May He give you all the comfort, understanding and grace.

    My heart breaks for you right now, and I wish that there was something I could do. Know that my thoughts and prayers are with you through this very hard time! You have a very beautiful family, thanks for sharing them with us.

    Megan Welch & Family

  • Reply Barry, Megan, Jonathan, Joshua & Zachary Welch April 15, 2008 at 2:53 pm

    May God continue to bless you and your family through this time. May He give you all the comfort, understanding and grace.

    My heart breaks for you right now, and I wish that there was something I could do. Know that my thoughts and prayers are with you through this very hard time! You have a very beautiful family, thanks for sharing them with us.

    Megan Welch & Family

  • Reply Barry, Megan, Jonathan, Joshua & Zachary Welch April 15, 2008 at 2:53 pm

    May God continue to bless you and your family through this time. May He give you all the comfort, understanding and grace.

    My heart breaks for you right now, and I wish that there was something I could do. Know that my thoughts and prayers are with you through this very hard time! You have a very beautiful family, thanks for sharing them with us.

    Megan Welch & Family

  • Reply Barry, Megan, Jonathan, Joshua & Zachary Welch April 15, 2008 at 2:53 pm

    May God continue to bless you and your family through this time. May He give you all the comfort, understanding and grace.

    My heart breaks for you right now, and I wish that there was something I could do. Know that my thoughts and prayers are with you through this very hard time! You have a very beautiful family, thanks for sharing them with us.

    Megan Welch & Family

  • Reply Barry, Megan, Jonathan, Joshua & Zachary Welch April 15, 2008 at 2:53 pm

    May God continue to bless you and your family through this time. May He give you all the comfort, understanding and grace.

    My heart breaks for you right now, and I wish that there was something I could do. Know that my thoughts and prayers are with you through this very hard time! You have a very beautiful family, thanks for sharing them with us.

    Megan Welch & Family

  • Reply Barry, Megan, Jonathan, Joshua & Zachary Welch April 15, 2008 at 2:53 pm

    May God continue to bless you and your family through this time. May He give you all the comfort, understanding and grace.

    My heart breaks for you right now, and I wish that there was something I could do. Know that my thoughts and prayers are with you through this very hard time! You have a very beautiful family, thanks for sharing them with us.

    Megan Welch & Family

  • Reply Barry, Megan, Jonathan, Joshua & Zachary Welch April 15, 2008 at 2:53 pm

    May God continue to bless you and your family through this time. May He give you all the comfort, understanding and grace.

    My heart breaks for you right now, and I wish that there was something I could do. Know that my thoughts and prayers are with you through this very hard time! You have a very beautiful family, thanks for sharing them with us.

    Megan Welch & Family

  • Reply Barry, Megan, Jonathan, Joshua & Zachary Welch April 15, 2008 at 2:53 pm

    May God continue to bless you and your family through this time. May He give you all the comfort, understanding and grace.

    My heart breaks for you right now, and I wish that there was something I could do. Know that my thoughts and prayers are with you through this very hard time! You have a very beautiful family, thanks for sharing them with us.

    Megan Welch & Family

  • Reply Barry, Megan, Jonathan, Joshua & Zachary Welch April 15, 2008 at 2:53 pm

    May God continue to bless you and your family through this time. May He give you all the comfort, understanding and grace.

    My heart breaks for you right now, and I wish that there was something I could do. Know that my thoughts and prayers are with you through this very hard time! You have a very beautiful family, thanks for sharing them with us.

    Megan Welch & Family

  • Reply Barry, Megan, Jonathan, Joshua & Zachary Welch April 15, 2008 at 2:53 pm

    May God continue to bless you and your family through this time. May He give you all the comfort, understanding and grace.

    My heart breaks for you right now, and I wish that there was something I could do. Know that my thoughts and prayers are with you through this very hard time! You have a very beautiful family, thanks for sharing them with us.

    Megan Welch & Family

  • Reply Barry, Megan, Jonathan, Joshua & Zachary Welch April 15, 2008 at 2:53 pm

    May God continue to bless you and your family through this time. May He give you all the comfort, understanding and grace.

    My heart breaks for you right now, and I wish that there was something I could do. Know that my thoughts and prayers are with you through this very hard time! You have a very beautiful family, thanks for sharing them with us.

    Megan Welch & Family

  • Reply Barry, Megan, Jonathan, Joshua & Zachary Welch April 15, 2008 at 2:53 pm

    May God continue to bless you and your family through this time. May He give you all the comfort, understanding and grace.

    My heart breaks for you right now, and I wish that there was something I could do. Know that my thoughts and prayers are with you through this very hard time! You have a very beautiful family, thanks for sharing them with us.

    Megan Welch & Family

  • Reply Barry, Megan, Jonathan, Joshua & Zachary Welch April 15, 2008 at 2:53 pm

    May God continue to bless you and your family through this time. May He give you all the comfort, understanding and grace.

    My heart breaks for you right now, and I wish that there was something I could do. Know that my thoughts and prayers are with you through this very hard time! You have a very beautiful family, thanks for sharing them with us.

    Megan Welch & Family

  • Reply Barry, Megan, Jonathan, Joshua & Zachary Welch April 15, 2008 at 2:53 pm

    May God continue to bless you and your family through this time. May He give you all the comfort, understanding and grace.

    My heart breaks for you right now, and I wish that there was something I could do. Know that my thoughts and prayers are with you through this very hard time! You have a very beautiful family, thanks for sharing them with us.

    Megan Welch & Family

  • Reply Barry, Megan, Jonathan, Joshua & Zachary Welch April 15, 2008 at 2:53 pm

    May God continue to bless you and your family through this time. May He give you all the comfort, understanding and grace.

    My heart breaks for you right now, and I wish that there was something I could do. Know that my thoughts and prayers are with you through this very hard time! You have a very beautiful family, thanks for sharing them with us.

    Megan Welch & Family

  • Reply Barry, Megan, Jonathan, Joshua & Zachary Welch April 15, 2008 at 2:53 pm

    May God continue to bless you and your family through this time. May He give you all the comfort, understanding and grace.

    My heart breaks for you right now, and I wish that there was something I could do. Know that my thoughts and prayers are with you through this very hard time! You have a very beautiful family, thanks for sharing them with us.

    Megan Welch & Family

  • Reply Barry, Megan, Jonathan, Joshua & Zachary Welch April 15, 2008 at 2:53 pm

    May God continue to bless you and your family through this time. May He give you all the comfort, understanding and grace.

    My heart breaks for you right now, and I wish that there was something I could do. Know that my thoughts and prayers are with you through this very hard time! You have a very beautiful family, thanks for sharing them with us.

    Megan Welch & Family

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    May God continue to bless you and your family through this time. May He give you all the comfort, understanding and grace.

    My heart breaks for you right now, and I wish that there was something I could do. Know that my thoughts and prayers are with you through this very hard time! You have a very beautiful family, thanks for sharing them with us.

    Megan Welch & Family

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    May God continue to bless you and your family through this time. May He give you all the comfort, understanding and grace.

    My heart breaks for you right now, and I wish that there was something I could do. Know that my thoughts and prayers are with you through this very hard time! You have a very beautiful family, thanks for sharing them with us.

    Megan Welch & Family

  • Reply Barry, Megan, Jonathan, Joshua & Zachary Welch April 15, 2008 at 2:53 pm

    May God continue to bless you and your family through this time. May He give you all the comfort, understanding and grace.

    My heart breaks for you right now, and I wish that there was something I could do. Know that my thoughts and prayers are with you through this very hard time! You have a very beautiful family, thanks for sharing them with us.

    Megan Welch & Family

  • Reply Barry, Megan, Jonathan, Joshua & Zachary Welch April 15, 2008 at 2:53 pm

    May God continue to bless you and your family through this time. May He give you all the comfort, understanding and grace.

    My heart breaks for you right now, and I wish that there was something I could do. Know that my thoughts and prayers are with you through this very hard time! You have a very beautiful family, thanks for sharing them with us.

    Megan Welch & Family

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    May God continue to bless you and your family through this time. May He give you all the comfort, understanding and grace.

    My heart breaks for you right now, and I wish that there was something I could do. Know that my thoughts and prayers are with you through this very hard time! You have a very beautiful family, thanks for sharing them with us.

    Megan Welch & Family

  • Reply Barry, Megan, Jonathan, Joshua & Zachary Welch April 15, 2008 at 2:53 pm

    May God continue to bless you and your family through this time. May He give you all the comfort, understanding and grace.

    My heart breaks for you right now, and I wish that there was something I could do. Know that my thoughts and prayers are with you through this very hard time! You have a very beautiful family, thanks for sharing them with us.

    Megan Welch & Family

  • Reply Barry, Megan, Jonathan, Joshua & Zachary Welch April 15, 2008 at 2:53 pm

    May God continue to bless you and your family through this time. May He give you all the comfort, understanding and grace.

    My heart breaks for you right now, and I wish that there was something I could do. Know that my thoughts and prayers are with you through this very hard time! You have a very beautiful family, thanks for sharing them with us.

    Megan Welch & Family

  • Reply Barry, Megan, Jonathan, Joshua & Zachary Welch April 15, 2008 at 2:53 pm

    May God continue to bless you and your family through this time. May He give you all the comfort, understanding and grace.

    My heart breaks for you right now, and I wish that there was something I could do. Know that my thoughts and prayers are with you through this very hard time! You have a very beautiful family, thanks for sharing them with us.

    Megan Welch & Family

  • Reply Barry, Megan, Jonathan, Joshua & Zachary Welch April 15, 2008 at 2:53 pm

    May God continue to bless you and your family through this time. May He give you all the comfort, understanding and grace.

    My heart breaks for you right now, and I wish that there was something I could do. Know that my thoughts and prayers are with you through this very hard time! You have a very beautiful family, thanks for sharing them with us.

    Megan Welch & Family

  • Reply Barry, Megan, Jonathan, Joshua & Zachary Welch April 15, 2008 at 2:53 pm

    May God continue to bless you and your family through this time. May He give you all the comfort, understanding and grace.

    My heart breaks for you right now, and I wish that there was something I could do. Know that my thoughts and prayers are with you through this very hard time! You have a very beautiful family, thanks for sharing them with us.

    Megan Welch & Family

  • Reply Barry, Megan, Jonathan, Joshua & Zachary Welch April 15, 2008 at 2:53 pm

    May God continue to bless you and your family through this time. May He give you all the comfort, understanding and grace.

    My heart breaks for you right now, and I wish that there was something I could do. Know that my thoughts and prayers are with you through this very hard time! You have a very beautiful family, thanks for sharing them with us.

    Megan Welch & Family

  • Reply Barry, Megan, Jonathan, Joshua & Zachary Welch April 15, 2008 at 2:53 pm

    May God continue to bless you and your family through this time. May He give you all the comfort, understanding and grace.

    My heart breaks for you right now, and I wish that there was something I could do. Know that my thoughts and prayers are with you through this very hard time! You have a very beautiful family, thanks for sharing them with us.

    Megan Welch & Family

  • Reply Barry, Megan, Jonathan, Joshua & Zachary Welch April 15, 2008 at 2:53 pm

    May God continue to bless you and your family through this time. May He give you all the comfort, understanding and grace.

    My heart breaks for you right now, and I wish that there was something I could do. Know that my thoughts and prayers are with you through this very hard time! You have a very beautiful family, thanks for sharing them with us.

    Megan Welch & Family

  • Reply Barry, Megan, Jonathan, Joshua & Zachary Welch April 15, 2008 at 2:53 pm

    May God continue to bless you and your family through this time. May He give you all the comfort, understanding and grace.

    My heart breaks for you right now, and I wish that there was something I could do. Know that my thoughts and prayers are with you through this very hard time! You have a very beautiful family, thanks for sharing them with us.

    Megan Welch & Family

  • Reply Anonymous April 15, 2008 at 3:32 pm

    I cried the whole time reading your touching blog. I admire the strength you have as both woman and mother. The photos of your family are beautiful, and it’s truly great the wonderful smiles you all have for what had to have been such a difficult time.

    God Bless,

    Stephanie

  • Reply Rachel April 15, 2008 at 4:13 pm

    I’m not even sure how to put into words what strength I drew from just reading this post alone. You and your family continue to be in my prayers as you work thru this. What a true testimony to the Lord’s strength you are!

  • Reply Jill April 15, 2008 at 4:36 pm

    your letter was absoutely beautiful!!! I am truly amazed at how the Lord is using your precious baby girl’s life to touch so many!! I am drawn to reading your blog~ it has touched my own life so deeply, and I want to thank you for sharing all of this with us~ you and your family are such blessings to everyone who comes to your blog, every eye that reads it and ears who hear~
    you are all in my hearts and prayers each and every day.

  • Reply Anonymous April 15, 2008 at 5:07 pm

    The following is from a childrens book I came across a couple of months after my Nana passed away. . .

    The next place I go will be as peaceful and familiar as a sleepy summer Sunday and a sweet, untroubled mind.

    And yet… it won’t be anything like any place I’ve ever been… or seen… or even dreamed of in the place I leave behind.

    I won’t know where I’m going, and I won’t know where I’ve been as I tumble though the always and look back toward the when.

    I’ll glide beyond the rainbows. I’ll drift about the sky. I’ll fly into the wonder, without ever wondering why.

    I won’t remember getting there. Somehow I’ll just arrive. But I’ll know that I belong there and will feel much more alive… than I have ever felt before. I will be absolutely free of the things that I geld onto that were holding onto me.

    The next place that I go will be so quiet and so still, that the whispered song of sweet belonging will rise up to fill… the listening sky with joyful silence, and with unheard harmonies of music made by no one playing, like a hush upon a breeze.

    There will be no room for darkness in that place of living light, where an ever-dawning morning pushes back the dying night.

    The very air will fill with brilliance, as the brightly shining sun and the moon and a half a million stars are married into one.

    The next place that I go won’t really be a place at all. There won’t be any seasons- winter, summer, spring or fall.

    Nor a Monday, nor a Friday, Nor December, Nor July. And the seconds will be standing still… while the hours hurry by.

    I will not be a boy or girl, a woman or man. I’ll simply be just, simply me. No worse or better than.

    My skin will not be dark or light. I won’t be fat or tall. The body I once lived in won’t be a part of me at all.

    I will finally be perfect. I will be without a flaw. I will never make one more mistake, or break the smallest law.

    And the me that was impatient, or was angry or unkind,

    will simply be a memory. The me I left behind.

    I will travel empty-handed. There is not a single thing I have collected in my life that I would ever want to bring… except… the love of those who loved me, and the warmth of those who cared. The happiness and memories and the magic that we shared.

    Though I will know the joy of solitude… I’ll never be alone. I’ll be embraced by all the family and friends I’ve ever known. Although I might not see their faces, all our hearts will beat as one, and the circle of our spirits will shine brighter than the sun.

    I will cherish all the friendship I was fortunate to find, all the love and all the laughter in the place I leave behind.

    All these good things will go with me. The will make my spirit glow. And the light will shine forever in the next place that I go.

  • Reply Anonymous April 15, 2008 at 5:30 pm

    She is so precious! We are still praying for your family!

  • Reply Melanie April 15, 2008 at 6:35 pm

    Angie-
    What a beautiful, faithful, Christlike woman you are. You are an inspiration to thousands. Your sweet, kind, tender and caring words are amazing. You have shown what it is really about through your blessings, trials and sorrows. You write so eloquently and beautifully. You should take all these things from the blog and any other feelings you haven’t shared and put them all into a book. How you could help so many other thousands of people. I have never lost a child, but have felt the heartache of never being able to have one. Your unwavering faith and love is truly aweinspiring. May the Lord continue to bless you and your sweet family. You will feel his comforting arms around you as he loves you and wipes your tears. What a beautiful family you have and they are blessed to have you as their mother and wife. God Bless you all.

  • Reply The Morris Family April 15, 2008 at 6:42 pm

    Out of the mouth of babes and sucklings thou hast ordained strength…..Look what strength is coming from one so tiny and for God’s kingdom. We too are are the journey of grieving/healing of our 3yr,twin Joel into the arms of Jesus 1/23/07. It is long painful, but the Lord is faithful. May the Lord continue to use your Audrey and our Joel and all the other little ones that have gone before as a testimony that of such is the kingdom of God. Praying……
    Mommy of 13 blessings!!
    http://www.weloveyoujoel.blogspot.com

  • Reply ~j~ April 15, 2008 at 7:55 pm

    The voice of the Lord is revealed in every word of this letter. His Holy Spirt evident both on that day and on this blog.
    Bless your sweet hearts for your sorrow, your courage, your blessing others with your story and the witness of your faith during this journey.
    God is faithful to heal the broken hearted.
    j

  • Reply dr_bristow April 15, 2008 at 7:56 pm

    Audrey is so beautiful, so perfect…thank you for sharing these pictures and your letter to Audrey. Reading it truly spoke to my heart. I am praying for your family!

  • Reply BethGo April 15, 2008 at 8:03 pm

    I am inspired by your amazing outlook. Audrey is a very special little girl who has touched the hearts of so many.
    Your outlook on this entire pregnancy has been just incredible. I was telling my husband last night about your story and his eyes welled up with tears. The fact that you have been able to find light in the darkness and strength through your little girl is just wonderful and amazing and awesome.

    You are in my thoughts but more importantly, you are in my heart.

    Much love to you and your family.

  • Reply Anonymous April 15, 2008 at 8:44 pm

    Thank you for sharing Audrey with us. What a blessing your story is to everyone who hears it. May God continue to bless your family.

  • Reply Anonymous April 15, 2008 at 8:47 pm

    I can’t stop coming by your blog. I am drawn to it. Even if there isn’t anything new posted, I read the same posts over and over. The Lord shows me something different every time I read. I have never been so touched by a complete stranger. You truly have a talent for writing and expressing your feelings in such a way that I feel I am there with you. Thank you for sharing such an intimate part of your life with us.

  • Reply monkeylinny April 15, 2008 at 8:58 pm

    She’s a beautiful angel! You’re in our thoughts & prayers.

    Linda, Dan, James, & Henry

  • Reply Viv April 15, 2008 at 9:15 pm

    I will keep your family in my prayers. That letter was the beautiful.

  • Reply Anonymous April 15, 2008 at 9:33 pm

    It is hard for me to type through my tears. Your story, strength and faith in Jesus has changed my life. I have a renewed faith in our Heavenly Father. What a precious gift we have all received.
    Lord, thank you so much for allowing all of us to be apart of Audrey’s life. Wrap your loving arms around the Smith family. embracing them with your unconditional love and comfort at this time.

    My love and continued prayers,
    Marylea

  • Reply Suzanne April 15, 2008 at 10:34 pm

    This is the most touching letter I have ever read. Thank you for blessing us all in this way. Even before I read it, I knew that in her short time, sweet baby Audrey had a lifetime worth of love and prayers. And may that Love and those prayers continue to fill your hearts to overflowing by the grace of our Lord Jesus Christ. Amen!

  • Reply Laura April 16, 2008 at 1:11 am

    What a blessing!

  • Reply KatieM11 April 16, 2008 at 2:24 am

    Angie, you have been such an inspiration to me these past couple of weeks. Audrey’s story has touched me in ways I never imagined possible. It has also brought me out of the darkness and closer to God again and I can’t thank you enough for that. I will continue to keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers this week.

  • Reply Lynn April 16, 2008 at 2:41 am

    My heart and prayers are with you. I am so very sorry that precious little Audrey could not stay. :'( May the Lord comfort your hearts and wrap you in His love. A quote that has been special for me in dealing with the losses in my life – “If the Lord is with us, and our loved one is with the Lord, then we are never far apart.” May God haste the day when Rev 21:3-5 is fulfilled.
    Loving you all in Jesus,
    Lynn Campbell

  • Reply Lori, Landon and Logan April 16, 2008 at 2:50 am

    Wow! That is amazing! Thanks for sharing all of God’s goodness with everyone. God is good! She’s beautiful. I bet she’s even more beautiful with Jesus!

  • Reply Emily April 16, 2008 at 3:20 am

    Praying for you tonight, precious mother of four beautiful girls!

  • Reply Becky April 16, 2008 at 3:25 am

    Your girls are all so gorgeous and amazing. I just found your blog and wanted to say that I’m holding you all in my heart tonight and always.

  • Reply Maxine April 16, 2008 at 3:32 am

    Weeping and rejoicing with you.

  • Reply Holly April 16, 2008 at 4:29 am

    It was a hard night getting the kids to bed. I was angry and frustrated and mad at my husband for having a cold. I decided to check my e-mail. From there I somehow ended up on your blog about Audrey. I just spent the last hour reading it from the beginning. I have been duly chastised for being a very forgetful person.

    Thank you for opening your hearts to all that God had for you to experience. And thank you for opening your hearts to us. We all have a lot to learn.

    I can’t wait to meet Audrey some day in eternity.

  • Reply Anonymous April 16, 2008 at 4:30 am

    Angie, Thank you so much for sharing this journey. I just “happened” upon your blog this evening, but I know God led me here and I couldn’t stop reading. I knew a little of your story as I went to a Point of Grace concert that Selah was scheduled to be at just a few days before Audrey was born and they told your family’s story. I have wondered since what happened and I know the story is not over even though Audrey is in the arms of Jesus. I am praying for you, Todd, Abby, Ellie, and Kate. God bless you!

    Rachel
    Willmar, MN

  • Reply Kristen April 16, 2008 at 4:32 am

    Beautiful! Your words, the pictures, just beautiful!

  • Reply Brandy April 16, 2008 at 6:54 am

    I wanted to thank you so much for sharing your story. As a mother of a beautiful daughter and heavily pregnant with my son I cannot for one minute pretend that I would have shown the strength and courage that you have shared with the world. You have truely been able to put into words what every mother feels, their hopes and their fears for their children.
    I am not a devout christian, God and I have had our issues in the past, but through the presence of my daughter I am closer than I ever was to being a beliver again. Your unending faith has really inspired me.
    I pray that your family will continue to come together and that you will come out of this stronger and closer than you could have ever been without Audrey. I pray that you will recover physically quickly and with no complications. But I know that your faith will see you through.
    You are in my prayers, all of you
    Brandy

  • Reply Astraea April 16, 2008 at 7:05 am

    500 comments for your sweet baby! WOW! She has touched so many.

  • Reply A Stone Gatherer April 16, 2008 at 10:13 am

    She is beautiful! A wonderful gift! My heart breaks for your family, but also rejoices in the Peace He has given you! My nephew and his wife lost their little boy last year! My niece gave her testimony about it on “Sanctity of Life” Sunday. She calls it “crazy peace”! Thank you for sharing your letter!

  • Reply Anonymous April 16, 2008 at 1:13 pm

    Thank you for sharing! Your daughter has done so much for so many in such a short time. She has touched more lives in a few months than many do in 85 years.

    God bless
    Jess

  • Reply Adinda April 16, 2008 at 2:53 pm

    Angie, I was brought to your blog a few days ago by another blogger. I read your entire story within a few hours. You and your family are a true example of faith. You are a blessing to many. May God give you and your family continued peace and understanding of His great love. Thank you for sharing your story. May God truely bless you and your family.

    Your Sister in Christ,
    Adinda, IN

  • Reply Rachel's Story April 16, 2008 at 3:44 pm

    Your story has touched my soul and I am so grateful you were able to share it with the world. I am so blessed to have somehow been able part of your life and how God chose to use you. I remember how far God has brought me with my baby girl Rachel and my heart aches for you. I will continue to pray for you and your family and may God bless you abundantly.

  • Reply Anonymous April 16, 2008 at 4:14 pm

    A friend led me to your blog today. As I sat here and read every story, I couldn’t contain the tears or the smiles. You have beautiful girls!!!

  • Reply Natalie April 16, 2008 at 7:11 pm

    What an absolutely BEAUTIFUL family you have and what a blessing you are to complete strangers. Your faith is amazing and you are such an amazing woman of God ~ I agree with you ~ your daughter is leaving a legacy and how AWESOME is THE LORD MOST HIGH that people will accept Jesus Christ as their Lord and Savior JUST BY READING THIS SITE!!

    God Bless You all ~ you are in our prayers down here in TAMPA!

  • Reply Laura E April 16, 2008 at 7:31 pm

    Thank you for sharing this amazing story of your life. Although I cannot imagine the pain you’re feeling from losing your little girl, I also can’t imagine the joy in your heart from being able to hold her, kiss her, and love her. May God bless you and your family.

  • Reply Stephanie April 16, 2008 at 7:53 pm

    She is so beautiful, and so are you and your family. I could only pray to be as strong of a mommy as you are. I have prayed for your family as if you were part of my family. God has given you a very special gift, your very own Angel. Thank you for sharing your life with us, and I will continue to pray.

  • Reply Anonymous April 16, 2008 at 8:01 pm

    Thank you for sharing your story. I heard about your blog just this week and read your story from the beginning, tears streaming down my face for much of it. You have a beautiful way of telling your story. I am blessed to be a mother of two wonderful, rambunctious boys and had a miscarriage in December with our third child after three years of trying to get pregnant again. The child that I knew for 12 short weeks taught me many lessons. I wish I could say that I have your strength, but I don’t think that I could have survived what you and your family went through with Audrey. I love hearing about the discussions that you had with your girls, trying to help them process what was going to happen to their sister.

    Thanks again for sharing what must be the most difficult time in your life. You are right, what a legacy Audrey Caroline has. How many countless ways has God used her in her short time on Earth?

    My prayers are with you,
    kris

  • Reply The 311 Boys Mom April 16, 2008 at 8:09 pm

    you have a beautiful family. I linked you through anothers site. you are an amazing family. you Angie, are an amazing mom. Audrey is a gift.

    you will be in my prayers……you also have insired me to go back to church. I didn’t grow up going & only went when my son was diagnosed wuth leukemia. I was looking for answers. Answers I never found. so i stopped going.

    My son is fine, almost 5 years off treatment…..its time I go back, time I understand.

    thank you fo reminding me.

  • Reply La Jibara April 16, 2008 at 8:47 pm

    I was led to your blog through a discussion board…someone there had been following your story. I have been crying and smiling all through it…what a beautiful story of courage, love and faith! I had my children later in life. People kept asking me if I was going to do all kinds of genetic testing because of the “risks” involved with “advanced” maternal age. And I always said “no, it would not change anything anyway…”. God bless you and your family. What an inspiration you are!

  • Reply Lucy A. Cain, All Glory Is His Writing Ministry April 16, 2008 at 9:04 pm

    I was at the Ashland Ave Baptist Church concert in Lexington in March I believe it was…where I saw all of you and heard your testimony that night. I thought then, that’s GOD’s strength shining through this mom and dad.
    I would be honored to include “mommy’s letter” in my upcoming book, “Hope from Heaven (When Earth Loses A Child).” It is in memory of my cousin’s two young daughters (and his wife) who were killed in their home in 1999. The girls were 7 and 4 at the time. The book is full of the poetry and hope found in Christ that I wrote and shared with my cousin in the ensuing year. I am also including testimonies from other Christian families who have come out victorious over the loss of a child – and will also address many of the questions parents ask after a loss. The entire proceeds from the book will go to sponsoring Make A Wish Foundation Children as this is an annual tradition started by my cousin in his girls’ memory. What a testimony and encouragement your letter is! I praise God for what He can do in the valleys…please contact me through my writing ministry website, http://www.allgloryishis.com.
    Lucy Cain

  • Reply CrownLaidDown April 16, 2008 at 9:09 pm

    Praying for you Smith family–asking the LORD to wrap you in his arms today.
    Love,
    holly smith

  • Reply Bethan Louise April 16, 2008 at 9:18 pm

    Thank you so much for sharing your story. Thank you x x x

    I pray that you will each be blessed by the peace of our Faithful and Precious Lord and Savuiour Jesus Christ.

  • Reply Sara April 17, 2008 at 12:53 am

    Precious beyond words. Thank YOU for sharing her story….she will forever touch lives and be remembered.

  • Reply Sara April 17, 2008 at 12:59 am

    As a mom who has been in pleading for my son’s life at one time, I can relate to much of your story. My heart breaks for your loss; and yet, Audrey short, extraordinary life will live on in so many hearts and lives. She is truly beautiful and perfect.

  • Reply Carey April 17, 2008 at 1:54 am

    My husband shared your story with me tonight. He handed me the computer and went to give our boys a bath while a cried in awe and amazement at your story – your strength, courage, and faith. I have to tell you that my husband said while he’s always loved Selah, he has more of a heart for them now because he cannot imagine having the God-loving strength your husband has to be able to go on. He said that he now feels he has someone whose life he would like to model his after.

    Your family is an amazing witness and tells the true tale of God’s love. I hope and pray that you continue to find peace and joy in how sweet Audrey touches the world.

    God bless,
    Carey

  • Reply Anonymous April 17, 2008 at 1:59 am

    I just finished drying my eyes. Your daughter is beautiful and now is more perfect than ever. What you have written over the last months is nothing shy of miraculous in itself. You are amazing. Please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers as the days and weeks go by. Your family has meant so much to me over the years. Hugs to all.

    Holly in Remington VA

  • Reply goodtwin April 17, 2008 at 2:16 am

    Angie and family, What can I say that has not already been said? You really should be a writer. God has given you a great gift in your writing talent. Please know that you and your family continue to be in my thoughts and prayers. And also know that the prayer request I sent in a email (before I read the complete story)is so lame now, and I am truely ashamed for asking for it now that I have read the whole story. I am not worthy of your time. May God bless you all.

  • Reply Anonymous April 17, 2008 at 2:53 am

    I was blessed by your story. I am attending a concert on May 2nd where your husband will be singing. I’m praying for you all.
    Blessings,
    Rachel

  • Reply Cathy April 17, 2008 at 3:12 am

    A friend sent me your link and I have just briefly read this post. I am in tears at the beauty of Audrey’s story. God has truly blessed your family and I will pray daily that he will fill your arm with comfort and peace.
    Cathy (Annabel’s mom T18)

  • Reply Anonymous April 17, 2008 at 4:08 am

    This is, without a doubt, the most beautiful letter I have ever read. I had tears and smiles through the whole thing. You are such a beautiful person Angie…and Audrey, she is just like her mom. I know how proud you are.
    Continuing to pray for your family,
    Jen

  • Reply raising2sons April 17, 2008 at 4:40 am

    What a beautiful and heartfelt letter! I will continue praying for you and your family. I’m so sorry for the pain you are enduring, all of you. The pictures are stunning….Hugs from Ohio

  • Reply Anonymous April 17, 2008 at 4:42 am

    Smith family,
    Thank you for the amazing GIFT. Your testimony as a family serving the KING of KINGS is such a gift to all of your family reading your letters.
    Your Audrey is so beautiful. The love, mercy, grace, peace of the Lord is evident.
    Praise HIM.

    Your sister,
    Maria

  • Reply Anonymous April 17, 2008 at 5:56 am

    She is so beautiful. She looks so fresh from Heaven, like a little angel. Thank you so much for letting us all share in your life. What a beautiful family…inside and out! My faith has increased because of you. May the God of all peace and grace continue to uphold you…now and always. Until the Shout, Danielle Christianson…Washington State

  • Reply Nev April 17, 2008 at 6:13 am

    I am speechless. I just finished reading your whole story. The tears were streaming as I read and gasped at the glory of God displayed through your testimony. Thank you.

    God led me to stumble upon your blog through a friend’s website. My wife and I just celebrated our first year as parents of our daughter we adopted. We had tried to have children for 8 years before God opened our eyes to his precious gift to us, our Tasha.

    Your story has helped me heal a little bit more from the years of pain and heartache we’ve endured.

    You’ve encouraged me to thank God for the rain he’s been pouring on my head over this past year.

  • Reply Sal Gal April 17, 2008 at 7:47 am

    Hi Angie, your faith is inspiring! I am always overjoyed to meet another person of faith! Thank you, thank you for sharing! I know you will be with your precious little girl again, and get to raise her.

  • Reply Lisa & Gerald April 17, 2008 at 9:43 am

    Hi!
    I just found your blog today and your letter to your little girl It was so sad reading it through tears after tears. You have a beautiful family, love the pic of you holding her in your arms with your family
    God Bless you and your family
    lots of hugs & kisses to you and your family
    THE DEMARS FAMILY

  • Reply Lisa & Gerald April 17, 2008 at 9:43 am

    Hi!
    I just found your blog today and your letter to your little girl It was so sad reading it through tears after tears. You have a beautiful family, love the pic of you holding her in your arms with your family
    God Bless you and your family
    lots of hugs & kisses to you and your family
    THE DEMARS FAMILY

  • Reply Lisa & Gerald April 17, 2008 at 9:43 am

    Hi!
    I just found your blog today and your letter to your little girl It was so sad reading it through tears after tears. You have a beautiful family, love the pic of you holding her in your arms with your family
    God Bless you and your family
    lots of hugs & kisses to you and your family
    THE DEMARS FAMILY

  • Reply Lisa & Gerald April 17, 2008 at 9:43 am

    Hi!
    I just found your blog today and your letter to your little girl It was so sad reading it through tears after tears. You have a beautiful family, love the pic of you holding her in your arms with your family
    God Bless you and your family
    lots of hugs & kisses to you and your family
    THE DEMARS FAMILY

  • Reply Lisa & Gerald April 17, 2008 at 9:43 am

    Hi!
    I just found your blog today and your letter to your little girl It was so sad reading it through tears after tears. You have a beautiful family, love the pic of you holding her in your arms with your family
    God Bless you and your family
    lots of hugs & kisses to you and your family
    THE DEMARS FAMILY

  • Reply Lisa & Gerald April 17, 2008 at 9:43 am

    Hi!
    I just found your blog today and your letter to your little girl It was so sad reading it through tears after tears. You have a beautiful family, love the pic of you holding her in your arms with your family
    God Bless you and your family
    lots of hugs & kisses to you and your family
    THE DEMARS FAMILY

  • Reply Lisa & Gerald April 17, 2008 at 9:43 am

    Hi!
    I just found your blog today and your letter to your little girl It was so sad reading it through tears after tears. You have a beautiful family, love the pic of you holding her in your arms with your family
    God Bless you and your family
    lots of hugs & kisses to you and your family
    THE DEMARS FAMILY

  • Reply Lisa & Gerald April 17, 2008 at 9:43 am

    Hi!
    I just found your blog today and your letter to your little girl It was so sad reading it through tears after tears. You have a beautiful family, love the pic of you holding her in your arms with your family
    God Bless you and your family
    lots of hugs & kisses to you and your family
    THE DEMARS FAMILY

  • Reply Lisa & Gerald April 17, 2008 at 9:43 am

    Hi!
    I just found your blog today and your letter to your little girl It was so sad reading it through tears after tears. You have a beautiful family, love the pic of you holding her in your arms with your family
    God Bless you and your family
    lots of hugs & kisses to you and your family
    THE DEMARS FAMILY

  • Reply Lisa & Gerald April 17, 2008 at 9:43 am

    Hi!
    I just found your blog today and your letter to your little girl It was so sad reading it through tears after tears. You have a beautiful family, love the pic of you holding her in your arms with your family
    God Bless you and your family
    lots of hugs & kisses to you and your family
    THE DEMARS FAMILY

  • Reply Lisa & Gerald April 17, 2008 at 9:43 am

    Hi!
    I just found your blog today and your letter to your little girl It was so sad reading it through tears after tears. You have a beautiful family, love the pic of you holding her in your arms with your family
    God Bless you and your family
    lots of hugs & kisses to you and your family
    THE DEMARS FAMILY

  • Reply Lisa & Gerald April 17, 2008 at 9:43 am

    Hi!
    I just found your blog today and your letter to your little girl It was so sad reading it through tears after tears. You have a beautiful family, love the pic of you holding her in your arms with your family
    God Bless you and your family
    lots of hugs & kisses to you and your family
    THE DEMARS FAMILY

  • Reply Lisa & Gerald April 17, 2008 at 9:43 am

    Hi!
    I just found your blog today and your letter to your little girl It was so sad reading it through tears after tears. You have a beautiful family, love the pic of you holding her in your arms with your family
    God Bless you and your family
    lots of hugs & kisses to you and your family
    THE DEMARS FAMILY

  • Reply Lisa & Gerald April 17, 2008 at 9:43 am

    Hi!
    I just found your blog today and your letter to your little girl It was so sad reading it through tears after tears. You have a beautiful family, love the pic of you holding her in your arms with your family
    God Bless you and your family
    lots of hugs & kisses to you and your family
    THE DEMARS FAMILY

  • Reply Lisa & Gerald April 17, 2008 at 9:43 am

    Hi!
    I just found your blog today and your letter to your little girl It was so sad reading it through tears after tears. You have a beautiful family, love the pic of you holding her in your arms with your family
    God Bless you and your family
    lots of hugs & kisses to you and your family
    THE DEMARS FAMILY

  • Reply Lisa & Gerald April 17, 2008 at 9:43 am

    Hi!
    I just found your blog today and your letter to your little girl It was so sad reading it through tears after tears. You have a beautiful family, love the pic of you holding her in your arms with your family
    God Bless you and your family
    lots of hugs & kisses to you and your family
    THE DEMARS FAMILY

  • Reply Lisa & Gerald April 17, 2008 at 9:43 am

    Hi!
    I just found your blog today and your letter to your little girl It was so sad reading it through tears after tears. You have a beautiful family, love the pic of you holding her in your arms with your family
    God Bless you and your family
    lots of hugs & kisses to you and your family
    THE DEMARS FAMILY

  • Reply Lisa & Gerald April 17, 2008 at 9:43 am

    Hi!
    I just found your blog today and your letter to your little girl It was so sad reading it through tears after tears. You have a beautiful family, love the pic of you holding her in your arms with your family
    God Bless you and your family
    lots of hugs & kisses to you and your family
    THE DEMARS FAMILY

  • Reply Lisa & Gerald April 17, 2008 at 9:43 am

    Hi!
    I just found your blog today and your letter to your little girl It was so sad reading it through tears after tears. You have a beautiful family, love the pic of you holding her in your arms with your family
    God Bless you and your family
    lots of hugs & kisses to you and your family
    THE DEMARS FAMILY

  • Reply Lisa & Gerald April 17, 2008 at 9:43 am

    Hi!
    I just found your blog today and your letter to your little girl It was so sad reading it through tears after tears. You have a beautiful family, love the pic of you holding her in your arms with your family
    God Bless you and your family
    lots of hugs & kisses to you and your family
    THE DEMARS FAMILY

  • Reply Lisa & Gerald April 17, 2008 at 9:43 am

    Hi!
    I just found your blog today and your letter to your little girl It was so sad reading it through tears after tears. You have a beautiful family, love the pic of you holding her in your arms with your family
    God Bless you and your family
    lots of hugs & kisses to you and your family
    THE DEMARS FAMILY

  • Reply Lisa & Gerald April 17, 2008 at 9:43 am

    Hi!
    I just found your blog today and your letter to your little girl It was so sad reading it through tears after tears. You have a beautiful family, love the pic of you holding her in your arms with your family
    God Bless you and your family
    lots of hugs & kisses to you and your family
    THE DEMARS FAMILY

  • Reply Lisa & Gerald April 17, 2008 at 9:43 am

    Hi!
    I just found your blog today and your letter to your little girl It was so sad reading it through tears after tears. You have a beautiful family, love the pic of you holding her in your arms with your family
    God Bless you and your family
    lots of hugs & kisses to you and your family
    THE DEMARS FAMILY

  • Reply Lisa & Gerald April 17, 2008 at 9:43 am

    Hi!
    I just found your blog today and your letter to your little girl It was so sad reading it through tears after tears. You have a beautiful family, love the pic of you holding her in your arms with your family
    God Bless you and your family
    lots of hugs & kisses to you and your family
    THE DEMARS FAMILY

  • Reply Lisa & Gerald April 17, 2008 at 9:43 am

    Hi!
    I just found your blog today and your letter to your little girl It was so sad reading it through tears after tears. You have a beautiful family, love the pic of you holding her in your arms with your family
    God Bless you and your family
    lots of hugs & kisses to you and your family
    THE DEMARS FAMILY

  • Reply Lisa & Gerald April 17, 2008 at 9:43 am

    Hi!
    I just found your blog today and your letter to your little girl It was so sad reading it through tears after tears. You have a beautiful family, love the pic of you holding her in your arms with your family
    God Bless you and your family
    lots of hugs & kisses to you and your family
    THE DEMARS FAMILY

  • Reply Lisa & Gerald April 17, 2008 at 9:43 am

    Hi!
    I just found your blog today and your letter to your little girl It was so sad reading it through tears after tears. You have a beautiful family, love the pic of you holding her in your arms with your family
    God Bless you and your family
    lots of hugs & kisses to you and your family
    THE DEMARS FAMILY

  • Reply Lisa & Gerald April 17, 2008 at 9:43 am

    Hi!
    I just found your blog today and your letter to your little girl It was so sad reading it through tears after tears. You have a beautiful family, love the pic of you holding her in your arms with your family
    God Bless you and your family
    lots of hugs & kisses to you and your family
    THE DEMARS FAMILY

  • Reply Lisa & Gerald April 17, 2008 at 9:43 am

    Hi!
    I just found your blog today and your letter to your little girl It was so sad reading it through tears after tears. You have a beautiful family, love the pi