A Letter to My Daughter



Sweet Audrey,

There are no words I could say in this letter that would be able to express what you are to us, but I feel compelled to write them anyway.  

Do you know you changed the world?
From the day we found out we were expecting you, we knew that God had chosen you for our family.  When we started feeling you move around, we invented stories about who you would be. We took bets on whether you were a boy or a girl (daddy was wrong!).  Abby and Ellie set aside toys that they wanted to give to you.  Your daddy let me buy books at the bookstore about being pregnant, even though we already have a million.  He knows I love the smell of books, and he just watched with a smile while I gathered them all together.  We talked about you all the time.  Our house was filled with love for you long before we ever knew who you would be to us.  We let Kate help us set up a crib in her room while we told her that she was going to have a baby brother or sister sleeping next to her someday.  We introduced her little toddler bed and taught her all about being a big sister.  She loved her freedom…we found her in the pantry eating chocolate at 3 a.m. one night!  And so for weeks, we planned.  We talked about names, about paint, about schools, about everything but the one thing we didn’t know.
God had something much bigger planned for your life than we could ever have imagined.
On January 7th, we heard the beginning of the story.  You kicked while I listened to them tell me that I should let you go.  You, unable to say a word, spoke volumes as we considered what had been laid before us.  Audrey, there really was never a choice.  You were ours from the moment God ordained it so. There were moments in the darkness during that time when I worried that maybe we should give you to God.  We didn’t want you to suffer, and we knew that as soon as you were with Him, you would be at peace.  Were we selfish for trying to keep you here?  We knew before we let ourselves travel into those thoughts that they were lies.  That decision was not for us to make. We settled into the reality of “our new life,” and the stacks of books on pregnancy gave way to scripture.   
Did you know that while you were in my tummy, you went to the beach, to Disney World, to the ballet, to the zoo, to the symphony, to pick out our puppy, to the children’s theatre, to listen to daddy sing, to church, to Poppy’s house…and so many more places.  I talked to you about how the laundry machine worked, told you about all our neighbors, and taught you how to choose a ripe pineapple at the grocery store.  I never stopped talking to you. You were my daughter, and I loved you like I love your sisters.  We prayed for you all the time.  Our prayers changed with the days.  We never, ever doubted that God could heal you.  I know you know that.  I know you felt that.  But I still feel compelled to tell you that we believed, Audrey.  And the fact that you are with Him as I type these words does not change that belief.  There is not a single moment that passes when I question His will for your life.  
I will never, never forget the day you were born.  Nobody who was a part of it will, either. April 7th was one of the best days of my life.  You made me brave, Audrey-girl.  Your mommy used to be afraid of the hospital, afraid of the noises and the smell of medicine.  My whole life, I have been afraid.  I wasn’t afraid that day.  I was peaceful.  I was calm.  I was in the presence of the Lord Himself more than any other time in my life.  I listened as they told me about what would be happening that day, and I nodded.  I surrendered.  I stopped worrying about me and I just fell into the arms of the Lord.  He carried us all that day, didn’t He?
At 4:31, I heard a nurse say, “She’s out.”  Daddy said, “She’s out?” and he peeked around to see them carrying you to a table nearby.  I thought I heard you squeaking and I asked if you were alive.  Daddy looked at me and he nodded.  ”She’s alive.”  I couldn’t believe it.  The doctors looked you over and they listened to your heart.  They cleaned you off a little bit and then daddy laid you right beside my head.  You had one little eye opened and you were trying to take it all in.  I was too.  I put my hands on your head and just started crying because you were so beautiful.  I fell completely, head-over-heels in love with you the instant I met you.  That’s who you are, Audrey.  
When we got back to the room, your Uncle Tom was already taking pictures. Do you know that he took about 1600 that day?  We rejoiced in telling everyone that you were alive.  Your heart was moving slowly, and we knew that it was a matter of time before we would have to release you, but no one would have known that.  For the rest of the day, people held you, touched you, talked to you, and prayed for you.  And everybody smiled when they saw you.  There weren’t many tears, because in a way, we weren’t sad.  We were just too busy praising God for you to be sad.  
Your daddy gave you a bath while I watched.  He got all of your little tootsies clean, and I watched the water run down the back of your neck as he held you up.  Her first bath…

One of my favorite moments was when they put you on the scale.  You were much bigger than they thought you were ever going to be, and it felt like victory.  ”3 pounds, 2 ounces!” As soon as the announcement was made, the room broke out into cheers.  Did you know that your daddy’s birthday is 3/2? Those are beautiful numbers to us, sweet girl, because they tell us that you were here.  You had weight in this life.  
Your sisters were a little nervous when they came, but as they looked you over, God showed them who you were.  The peace that had filled the room for the entire day rested on them, and they began to laugh and to talk to you as they would any other new baby.  They each held you carefully, and kissed your sweet, clean skin.  While they were all gathered around me on the bed, your nurse Candace came to listen to your heart.  I asked her to be sensitive because of the girls, and after listening for a few minutes, she told me quietly that you were gone.  The girls never knew that they had been present for that moment, and I thank God that He took you that way.  There was never anything but peace.  We sang over you as God welcomed you into heaven.  
I cry for you often.  I miss the smell of your skin and your perfect little nose. My arms ache from emptiness.  I tell your daddy all the time that I just want to hold you again.  I cannot see to write these words because my eyes overflow with the tears of a mother who has been asked to give her daughter away.  I knew I would love you when I met you.  I knew you would become a part of me. What I didn’t know was that instead of feeling like it was a brief encounter, I feel like the world stood still. He somehow gave us an entire lifetime of memories in such a short time.  I didn’t feel like I lost a baby, I felt like I said goodbye to someone I had always known, who had been my daughter for years and years.  Even now, as I write, it seems impossible that you were only with us for 2 1/2 hours.  Thank you Lord, for giving us all the time we could have asked for with her.  The clock was insignificant… we knew her deeply, a lifetime’s worth.
Audrey, you have no idea how you have impacted those around you.  Did you see all of the nurses who cried when they came to see me? Did you hear the nurse manager tell me that since you had been born, the name of the Lord had been spoken repeatedly at their station in a way it never had? That you, my love, had brought them together?  Did you know that the people who came to your birth who knew nothing of your story talked about the “amazing peace” that filled the room inexplicably?  Do you know that there were radio stations all over the country announcing that your mommy was going into surgery while people drove home to their familes? Do you know they asked for prayer as you entered the world; that strangers dropped to their knees on your behalf? Do you know how many people have met Jesus because of you? There is more than I can fit here, Audrey.  More than I can fit anywhere.  You are the greatest miracle that I have ever been a part of, and I want you to know how incredibly proud I am to have been chosen to be your mommy.  I promise you that I will never stop being your voice here on earth. I will tell everyone about the little girl who came in a 3 pound body to change hearts.  I will always miss you, Audrey; there will never be a day where you are not a part of us.  I want you to know that you changed me, honey.  You made mommy so brave because of how much I loved you.  I am so proud to have a scar to remember where you once were.
Thank you, my sweet, sweet girl.
Today we are going to sit as a family and we are going to take the band-aids off the bunny that we have carried for months.  We are going to tell your sisters about the way that Jesus has healed you…that you don’t need those anymore because you are well.  You are perfect.  Thank you Lord.
As I have been writing, the rain is pounding on my window.  It is what many would call a very dark and ugly day, with no sign of sunshine. Because of you, Audrey, it is not that way to me any more.
It is an answer to prayer.
Jesus, you have brought us the rain and we praise You for it.  We lift up the God that made us strong enough to love our little girl the way she deserved to be loved.  And we trust that You will continue to use her as a vessel of your goodness, of your faithfulness.  Lord, you have shown me that when this life is empty, you will fill.  You have walked with us in a way we could never have imagined.  What seemed like a cross to bear has now taken the shape of a great blessing which we are honored to have been a part of. Thank you, Lord.  You are the light of our lives, now and forever.
Audrey, there is much more to say.  I rest in knowing that you already know it before it has left our lips.  We love you.  
Sweetest baby girl.  

Do you know you changed the world?
Mommy
For my blog family,
I cannot wait to show you more pictures of Audrey.  You all are a part of this story, and we want you to be able to see who you have been praying for.  We are working on sorting through them, and will give you a link shortly so that you can see our favorites.  She is amazing.  I hope that you can glimpse into the ways of God as you look through them.  For now, here are a few so that you can at least have a face to put with the name.  
Tom, I am speechless at what you have done for our family.  You have given us the most beautiful present that anyone could.  You are so incredibly gifted, and only your heart and your dedication surpass your talent.  We thank God for the many years we have been blessed with your friendship (have I known you 8? 9? We are getting old!), and for the selfless way you captured our child on film. This is my feeble attempt to express what is impossible to say, and it hardly seems enough.  You have given us a way to see our Audrey for the rest of our lives…thank you.  May God continue to bless you as you do the work of the Gospel from behind your lens. We love you (and Debbie and Sam!).
I received many emails during this time regarding the organization “Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep.”  What they do is amazing…I cannot think of anything more meaningful.  Our friend Tom Uchida, who took these beautiful photos of our daughter, has joined the organization because of Audrey, and will be part of their sacred ministry. I pray that you never have to use their services, but know that if you do, they will bless you immensely.  
Here is the little girl we have been loving for months…rejoice with us on this day.  She is healed, and she has filled our lives with joy.
Thank you for walking with us, and for continuing to pray.  
Angie

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  • grace

    I had a hard time reading through the tears and the smiles. You have a beautiful family, with FOUR precious daughters. Still in prayer for the moments ahead, and thankful for the ones behind

    Your sister in Christ

    grace

  • MandieGirl

    PRECIOUS!!!

  • Anonymous

    That is one of the most beautiful letters that I have ever read. You are an amazing woman and have a remarkable family. You are truly blessed. Thank you for sharing your beautiful and heartbreaking story.

  • Rog & Aimee

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Rog & Aimee

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Rog & Aimee

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Rog & Aimee

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Rog & Aimee

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Rog & Aimee

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Rog & Aimee

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Rog & Aimee

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Rog & Aimee

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Rog & Aimee

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Rog & Aimee

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Rog & Aimee

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Rog & Aimee

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Rog & Aimee

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Rog & Aimee

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Rog & Aimee

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Rog & Aimee

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Rog & Aimee

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Rog & Aimee

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Rog & Aimee

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Rog & Aimee

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Rog & Aimee

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Rog & Aimee

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Rog & Aimee

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Rog & Aimee

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Rog & Aimee

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Rog & Aimee

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Rog & Aimee

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Rog & Aimee

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Rog & Aimee

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Rog & Aimee

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Rog & Aimee

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Rog & Aimee

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Rog & Aimee

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Rog & Aimee

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Rog & Aimee

    Oh just too precious! I can’t explain how much of a blessing you have been! You as a mother are just so brave in everything that you have gone through! I know that I don’t know you or your family at all but reading your blog I don’t think I would have ever of guessed you were a worrier of everything! Maybe this was God showing you that you can trust him with every situation? Thanks again for being such a testimony!

  • Anonymous

    Angie,

    I haven’t even read the blog yet & the tears are flowing…..she is BEAUTIFUL & I knew she would be. The pictures are breathtaking….now I must read. Thank you for sharing her. What a beautiful family picture. Love & prayers continuing, Rose in Nashville.

  • Kim

    First of all, your family-your 4 girls-couldn’t be more beautiful. And Audrey is one of the most beautiful newborns I’ve ever seen.
    I don’t know you, yet I cry as I read your words to your Audrey.
    Thank you for opening your heart and sharing God’s love. And giving all of us a glimpse into your life and the precious time with your Audrey.
    Praying for all of you-
    Kim, NC
    Your sister in Christ

  • Jennisa

    That was beautiful…..

  • Anonymous

    What a sweet, beautiful letter. Thank you for sharing your story with us. Your 4 daughters are all so precious, and what wonderful amazing pictures you have. God Bless Angie and the entire Smith family!

  • andrew,betsy,& noura

    she’s beautiful. God is being glorified through and through. How blessed she is to be chosen to be with Him right away- even more proof she is so special He couldnt wait to be with her!!

  • andrew,betsy,& noura

    she’s beautiful. God is being glorified through and through. How blessed she is to be chosen to be with Him right away- even more proof she is so special He couldnt wait to be with her!!

  • andrew,betsy,& noura

    she’s beautiful. God is being glorified through and through. How blessed she is to be chosen to be with Him right away- even more proof she is so special He couldnt wait to be with her!!

  • andrew,betsy,& noura

    she’s beautiful. God is being glorified through and through. How blessed she is to be chosen to be with Him right away- even more proof she is so special He couldnt wait to be with her!!

  • andrew,betsy,& noura

    she’s beautiful. God is being glorified through and through. How blessed she is to be chosen to be with Him right away- even more proof she is so special He couldnt wait to be with her!!

  • andrew,betsy,& noura

    she’s beautiful. God is being glorified through and through. How blessed she is to be chosen to be with Him right away- even more proof she is so special He couldnt wait to be with her!!

  • andrew,betsy,& noura

    she’s beautiful. God is being glorified through and through. How blessed she is to be chosen to be with Him right away- even more proof she is so special He couldnt wait to be with her!!

  • andrew,betsy,& noura

    she’s beautiful. God is being glorified through and through. How blessed she is to be chosen to be with Him right away- even more proof she is so special He couldnt wait to be with her!!

  • andrew,betsy,& noura

    she’s beautiful. God is being glorified through and through. How blessed she is to be chosen to be with Him right away- even more proof she is so special He couldnt wait to be with her!!

  • andrew,betsy,& noura

    she’s beautiful. God is being glorified through and through. How blessed she is to be chosen to be with Him right away- even more proof she is so special He couldnt wait to be with her!!

  • andrew,betsy,& noura

    she’s beautiful. God is being glorified through and through. How blessed she is to be chosen to be with Him right away- even more proof she is so special He couldnt wait to be with her!!

  • andrew,betsy,& noura

    she’s beautiful. God is being glorified through and through. How blessed she is to be chosen to be with Him right away- even more proof she is so special He couldnt wait to be with her!!

  • andrew,betsy,& noura

    she’s beautiful. God is being glorified through and through. How blessed she is to be chosen to be with Him right away- even more proof she is so special He couldnt wait to be with her!!

  • andrew,betsy,& noura

    she’s beautiful. God is being glorified through and through. How blessed she is to be chosen to be with Him right away- even more proof she is so special He couldnt wait to be with her!!

  • andrew,betsy,& noura

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  • Jennifer L. Griffith

    Thank you for sharing your miraculous journey with the world. Thank you for sharing your beautiful family and Audrey!

    May you always feel the peace that surpasses all understanding as your continue to walk the journey He has blessed you to walk. All glory be unto God, Jesus Christ, our Lord and King.

  • Tiff

    Sweet Smith Family,

    I am praying for you guys. The letter to your precious daughter is perfect. She is beautiful. Thank you for sharing your story.

  • Katie Ford

    Oh Angie she is beautiful, she is perfect…she is you. Thank you for sharing her with us. All my love to you all.

    Katie

  • Anonymous

    Angie,
    AS I read the letter and saw the pictures I couldn’t help but see how peaceful you all looked. What a cutie cutie pie Audrey. What a beautiful experience this has been.
    You are awesome! Been parying for you .
    God Bless,
    Tara Adams, Nashville

  • Court

    Audrey is perfectly beautiful!!! Thank you for sharing your heart, especially your incredibly tender letter to Audrey with all of us. We continue to pray for you and Todd and the girls, as you grieve and rejoice all the same. May the Lord continue to grant you peace and comfort in the days to come. ~ Courtney (Houston, TX)

  • karen44

    She’s beautiful. She totally looks like a Smith!
    Angie, your empty arms will only be lonely for a short time. One day you will get to hold her for as long as you want in heaven.

    “All the angels were standing around the throne…they fell down on their faces…and worshiped God, saying:
    “Amen!
    Praise and glory
    and wisdom and thanks and honor
    and power and strength
    be to our God for ever and ever.
    Amen!” Revelation 7:11-12

    karen l.

  • Jessica

    I look forward to the many hours we will spend together in the future talking about Audrey and seeing her story change the world. I love you. I am blessed to call you my friend.

  • Jill

    Thank-you for sharing your letter to your beautiful daughter. The pictures are absolutely precious and I know you will cherish them. Thank-you for sharing them with us.

  • angi

    You are AMAZING, and Audrey is so BEAUTIFUL…

  • Anonymous

    You and your family are amazing people. I just came across this site last week and I can say truly that it has changed me in so many ways. Thank you for that! Also thanks for being brave enough to share the story with the world, it will truly make it a better place having people like your family in it.

  • The Wade’s

    I could hardly read this for the tears pouring down my cheeks. What an amazing letter to your precious child. Please know that you have my deepest sympathy in the loss of your sweet Audrey. I’ll be praying for you…

  • CrownLaidDown

    Tears falling…heart stirred with something I cannot even describe. Love. Joy. Hope. Desire. Longing. Depth. Jesus.

    She is simply lovely! Your Audrey awaits in the arms of Jesus.

    Praying for you all daily.
    Love,
    holly smith

  • Anonymous

    it’s hard to see through the tears to even type.

    audrey is a world-changer.

    thank you for sharing her with us.

    your story has touched me in ways that make it impossible to ever be the same.

    blessings to you and your family for sharing your journey with the world.

  • Nykki Griffin

    Angie,

    Your letter was beautiful, your Audrey IS beautiful. I am constantly in prayer for you and your family, you have all touched my life and I sit here and weep joyously for you today. I am so proud of you, I hope to one day be 1/2 the mother that you are. Audrey will forever touch me and I will think of her daily. I cannot wait to see more pictures of your sweet beautiful angel. You are blessed.

    In Christ,

    Nykki Griffin
    Birmingham, Al

  • Shannon

    Wow-that was amazing! And Audrey is beautiful! Thank you for sharing those pictures with us-I know you will treasure them forever.

  • Jamie

    I found out about your story last week. I immediately read all of your journal entries since the beginning. At that time, knowing that your little girl would be born in just 2 days I immediately started lifting you, Audrey Caroline, and your family up during this special time. Please know that you have been on my heart, in my mind, and in my prayers so much these past 10 days or so.

    You also have inspired me to be a better mom and I just went and hugged/cried/prayed over my little girl who just turned 2 months old yesterday.

    Thank you for sharing your story and the precious life of your little girl!

    Jamie ~ Madison, Alabama
    http://www.JoshJamie.com

  • Sara

    What a gorgeous little girl… she looks so much like her sisters. I can’t tell you how much responsibility I feel to you and Audrey; I can only say that I will speak her name every day in prayer as she continues to put that peace in your hearts. She filled such a great space for someone so little.

    May God bless you always and in all ways…

  • Angela

    Thank you for sharing. I’m having a hard time reading and now typing. Your family is beautiful. Audrey’s life is truly amazing.
    I am pregnant with a girl now and our lives have been changed forever.
    Thank you for this blessing. We look forward to meeting Audrey and the rest of her family.

  • Jenn

    Crying-tears of joy because Audrey totally fulfilled her destiny. God is faithful-He gave you memories and moments with her that will comfort you until you hold her in your arms again!! Still lifting you up to the Father!

    Jenn

  • The Morris Family

    What a beautiful gift the Lord has given to your family. Praise the Lord for the grace that comes through your words from the Lord that you are bearing this cross with his mighty hand. I pray the Lord will fill your empty arms of Audrey with a heart full of praise for the joy of knowing and being Audrey’s mommy.God is so faithful as we walk down paths of sorrow, He has been there for us a we miss our little Joel. Your family is beautiful, may he heal your body and continue to give you a fruitful womb. Mommy to 13 wonderful blessings!! http://www.weloveyoujoel.blogspot.com

  • Two blessings from above

    What a beautiful and heart felt letter. The pictures are beautiful too.
    Thank you for sharing your story with us.
    your family is in my prayers.
    God Bless

  • Erica

    Audrey’s story speaks so clearly that, in the face of what we all fear most, GOD IS FAITHFUL. What a testimony, what a legacy! Praying for you and your family during this time of joy and loss.

    What a beautiful child! So precious.

  • Sarah Bessey

    I just…I have no words, Angie. It’s just beautiful. I am weeping and rejoicing. This is truly one of those moments that I feel like I am witness to a miracle.

  • Erica

    I just found your blog yesterday and I want to say how moved I am from your story–you and Audrey and your family. I sat here wiping away tears and looking at your beautiful daughter. I’m praying for you and your family. I’m happy you got so many beatiful photos and time with her before she left.

    Erica
    http://www.home4haven.blogspot.com/
    http://erica-mayling.blogspot.com/

  • Nicole

    Sniff, sniff….what a beautiful glimpse into such an amazing bond. Audrey is beautiful!

  • Mary Tyler S.

    I have to tell you that i have been following your journey since the very beginning. I can’t even recall how I drifted to your story, but I can honestly say that my life has been turned upside down. Your strength and unwaivering faith has allowed me to rediscover my faith and understanding of our lord and his love. Thank you from the botton of my heart for sharing this great journey. I hope you know just how many lives your beautiful angel has touched.

    Your sister in Christ,
    Mary Tyler Spivey
    Montgomery, AL

  • Peas on Earth

    All beautiful … the love letter to Audrey, your heart for the passions of our King, the God-supplied grace in the face of adversity, your precious baby girl. I venture to guess that there have been moments that don’t seem as beautiful, but in His redemptive power, God has made this experience truly an act of supreme beauty. Thank you for allowing us to share in it.

  • Anonymous

    Words fail my emotions and thoughts of your family. Amazingly beautiful. Healed and whole! God, Thank you for these lives! Cindy – Phoenix

  • Jenn @ Munchkin Land

    I can barely write through the tears that are streaming down my face. What a beautifully written letter.

    I will be praying for you, your family, and friends during the days, weeks, and months ahead. And I will be praying that all who hear Audrey’s story will be touched and turn to our Lord and Savior.

    You have a beautiful family and I thank you for your vulnerability and transparency.

  • The Russell’s

    Oh my word! Your story has touched me hundreds of times over the past few days, but today, today God has used you to teach me to understand why He puts storms in our lives and why the rain comes down. I truely thank you for your strength you have shown so many and your willing to give God your baby girl and let Him be in complete control. Thank you, thank you!

    Nikki

  • Kristy

    Angie –

    Audrey is breathtaking – absolutly took my breath away, litterally. Is it possible to feel God’s presence fall without ever having been there to see her face to face?
    I think so – she’s a diamond, an absolute treasure. Praying for you all, rejoicing that she’s healed.

  • katiejo11

    She is beautiful! What a great addition to heaven’s angels! So sorry about your loss, God bless you and your family during this difficult time. My heart aches with you. I bet my little boy is showing your Audrey all the best places in heaven. Take care
    Katie

  • Lindsay Spencer

    Your messages have touched my life in a way I’ve never felt, ever. Thank you for choosing to share your story. You are definitely a messenger of God.

  • Lori

    I’ve cried many tears and prayed many prayers for you and your family!! You are all truly amazing!!

    Such beautiful, precious photos!!

    Your letter is beautiful!! May GOD continue to bless you and hold you in his care!!

  • Anonymous

    “I stand amazed in the garden,
    Of Jesus the Nazarene…..
    How marvelous, how wonderful,
    And my soul shall always be.
    How marvelous, how wonderful,
    Is my Saviour’s love for me!” That is the song that was running through my mind as I finished reading “A Letter to My Daughter”. Wow, how powerful & amazing. I am so very proud of you & your family. Through all these trials & temptations to end her imperfect life….you chose the right way. She was NOT imperfect…..she was beautiful….the outside is a shell, she was loving & precious & giving on the inside of her little precious heart. God doesn’t make mistakes! I’m sure that Centennial will never be the same after Audrey’s birth. Isn’t it amazing & wonderful how a little 3lb. 2oz. sack of sugar could change so many people’s lives. The impact of radio stations broadcasting her birth is almmost here. I’m so very, very thankful that God gave you peace for her birthday day. When you posted that her birthday day was moved up, I was so concerned about you & I started praying that God would just scoop you & Audrey up in HIS arms & carry you through those next several days. HE did not because I prayed for that, but just because HE IS! I know that HE shed many tears for Audrey also. He welcomed such a precious little red-headed angel into Heaven. The first picture I saw of her….the first thing I noticed was her little “Mommy” chin……she is just gorgeous (as are her 3 big sisters). I’m so proud of the nurses for allowing your family to be a part of Audrey’s short little life. That was such an important time for all of you, including Audrey. She was probably thinking, “Oh, I remember you Kate, you are the one that talks on & on & on. Oh, Hi yes, it’s my twin sisters….I don’t think I can tell you apart.” I cannot imagine what you are going through,but please rest assured that I do care. My prayers will continue for your healing. Baby Audrey, thank you for be so wonderful & enriching our lives with your story. See you in Heaven Little Angel Audrey. Love & Prayers, Rose in Nashville
    (Jer. 29:11)

  • Tabitha

    I have been following your blog for only a short time, but I sat with tears running down my face while I read your beautiful letter to your precious daughter.
    My thoughts and prayers have been with you all week. Thank you for sharing your journey and your beautiful baby girl.
    Warm wishes,
    Tabitha

  • Tasha

    Dear Smiths,
    I just wanted to let you know what your family has come to mean to me.Through your posts Angie,I have felt as close to you as a sister.I feel like I have known you my whole life.There has not been a day that goes by since first hearing of Audrey that I have not thought of her and prayed for her.On her birthday,I prayed for a peace that would pass your understanding.And that God’s will would be done.I rejoice with you now knowing that Audrey is whole,perfect and healed.I will be giving birth to our second daughter on May 27th via a scheduled c-section.Her name is Avery Grace and I want you to know that her middle name is in honor of your Audrey.Because through God’s grace,we can get through anything.I will never forget you guys,and I love you.Tasha,Indiana

  • mel

    I have been following your story through Jody Ferlaak’s blog and this is my first comment.

    Thank you for sharing your journey. Your letter to your precious baby girl is so beautiful! Thank you for sharing that very personal letter. She is very beautiful. I think it is so precious that her sisters were there for her passing, though they do not know it yet. I cannot put into words how precious it was to read that and to know that they were present when God’s hand ushered her to Heaven. That is what Audrey did for all of us who know you through this blog or in person, she ushered us on a closer walk with Jesus! God Bless your family and you will be in my prayers.

  • Anonymous

    Just when I thought the tears for you had stopped . . . . Thank you, Angie (and Todd), for allowing us a glimpse of your heart and faith. I can only imagine how the angels danced when Audrey joined them–such a HUGE earthly impact for such a wee girl. Isn’t our Lord amazing?

  • Tara

    What a beautiful letter, what a beautiful tribute to Audrey! Even more, she is a miracle, she is absolutely gorgeous! Her face brings a smile to my face and peace in my heart, which has been breaking for you!
    I am thinking of you all and praying for you as you remember this sweet little girl.
    God bless you all!
    Tara

  • Anonymous

    I can’t stop crying…I have never been so joyful and heartbroken. I feel so much love for a person I never met…as if she were one of mine. Thanks so much for her and sharing her with us. She is a miracle as sure as I am typing this.
    Angie, I am a nurse who worked in an emergency room for several years and my eyes have seen things a person never should. I have been witness to many devastating and many beautiful events (sadly, more devastating ones than beautiful ones). This is one beautiful (and profoundly sad as a mom myself)event I will hold in my heart as long as I walk this earth. My heart aches for you and your family in a way that is so new to me in that I do not know your fine family but I wish I could take this pain away. I have prayed for your family the last few days …my last thoughts at night and I woke thinking of you in the morning. Please know that I do believe that you Angie are without a doubt the bravest person I know and have ever known.
    Peace to you and your family at this unbearable time.
    Love with all my heart, Gina

  • ErinA

    Your letter made me cry and smile and truly feel the love you have for you daughter. The pictures are amazingly beautiful. I can feel the peace you write about even though Im just seeing a moment captured. May God continue to fill you with peace and always remember what he allowed you to experience. Im honored to have been a witness to His miracle and your bravery.

  • Anonymous

    Thanks for sharing your Audrey with us all! You are an amazing example and you all have touched more people than you will ever know.

    Prayers of love and strength,
    Stephanie – Arkansas

  • Melanie

    There are no words, Angie. Thank you for sharing your journey and your daughter’s life story with all of us. Audrey will always be known.

  • GuessChoir

    I am speechless.

    Thank you so much for sharing.

    God Bless.

  • Christi

    Angie,
    Thank you so much for sharing your life with all of us. Your Audrey girl is beautiful! I have cried with you, laughed with you, prayed with you and my heart has literally ached for you and your family, and we have never met. Your faith is amazing and an inspiration.

  • Stephanie

    What a beautifully written letter to your precious daughter, Audrey, and what a beautiful offering you have laid before Jesus’ feet. I am honored to have prayed for you and with you over these last few months…Audrey has changed hearts and her sweet Mom has reflected the beauty of the Lord time and time again. I love you and I don’t even know you. I’m still praying for the peace of Christ to rule in your hearts, for your girls to trust Jesus with this loss, and for your testimony to continue pouring forth truth to those who find this story and this blog. Thank you for sharing so honestly and so sweetly. May the Lord bless your family immensely in the coming days.

    With much love,
    Stephanie

  • Liz

    Rejoicing with you over Audrey’s life, and how she has already impacted the world! I could not contain my tears as I read your precious letter. I am touched by your vulnerability and the love that you poured out with your words. Audrey is so beautiful!!! The pictures are breathtaking! Thank you for sharing her with us.

    I will continue to lift your family up in prayer.

    Love in Christ,
    Elizabeth

  • Anonymous

    i am so sorry that audrey had to go. will you be finding out if sweet audrey had trisomy 18..or is the cause behind her health problems already known?? im sorry if that is too personal a question,no answer is needed if it is. again,i am truly sorry for your loss (its a pain i know all too well myself….) ~m

  • Mama C

    Your words are beautiful. I was so blessed reading your blog. Praise the Lord for His goodness. Your daughter and daughters are beautiful, blessed, gifted, called, remarkable, precious, and will move mountains, bring people to the saving power of Jesus Christ, be mighty women of God, and they are and shall always be greatly loved by the Most High.

  • Mandy

    While I don’t know you and you don’t know me, I want you to know what an inspiration you have been to me! I have been following your blog for a few weeks now and I am so incredibly amazed by your beauty, both inside and out. You are such a strong Christian woman and I look up to you for that!! I am so sorry about your loss, and your family’s, loss. Audrey is such a precious, beautiful gift from God. I will continue to pray for you and your family during this difficult time!

  • Beth

    Angie, there are no words, she is ….. again there is not a word right enough….
    that even now you share her with us……
    the picture of your hands holding her so reminds me of the way she was held in prayer and continues to be.
    I can feel the Lord even as i look at her tiny head craddled there.

  • Emily

    I praise the Lord that you, too, know the sacred truth that He will fill a lifetime into a matter of hours when He sends a miracle bound for Heaven. I will be praying for you as you learn to walk this road.

  • Melody

    Angie,
    Thank you for sharing this special glimpse of your soul, and the love and tenderness you have for your daughter. I’m thankful for God’s peace for you and your family, and I pray you will continue to cling to Him these next few weeks and months to come.

    The pictures are beautiful- what a beautiful family you have!

    Melody
    (Houston, TX)

  • Anonymous

    Thank you for sharing your family with the world. All of you are in my thoughts and prayers. Angie, through your words and your open heart, Audrey’s story has touched the world. I’m sure the Lord is opening new doors for your story to minister to others. Keep writing – it is a gift! Blessings to you and all praise to Jesus. Anita

  • 3QTGUYS

    What a precious letter, and such beautiful pictures.

    I am so thankful that you have those to cherish for the years to come.

    As I read your letter, I could feel you pain, I could feel your joy, I could feel God’s Mercy. I have been there, and your thoughts are so well put.

    May God continue to provide strength in these days ahead.

  • Laura

    She is so beautiful, Angie. And what a touching letter. Thank you for sharing it with all of us. It was so amazing to read of how this little girl touched the workers at the hospital and of course now around the world.
    You and your family are continually in my thoughts and prayers.

  • Anonymous

    God is amazing. You are gifted by Him to be able to express the things so many of us would love to be able to say. Your family is amazing because of Him. Thank you for sharing. Thank you to Audrey for being a light that will shine on and testify to the love of the Father because of you and this blog.

    Renee

  • Cynthia

    Too Too Precious!!!
    My prayers are with you. What a beautiful letter. You are truly blessed. Thank you for sharing little Audrey’s story.

  • Bridget =)

    I too had a hard time reading through your letter and looking at your beautiful beautiful family. So perfect, so amazing. Thank you… for everything.

    God bless!
    Bridget =)

  • Anonymous

    I can hardly see to type…my tears are running down my cheeks. What a beautiful letter…and what a beautiful gift from God. Your faith is inspiring…and I will keep you and your family in my prayers! You are an amazing woman/mother. I feel honered to have read your story!
    Wendy from Canada

  • Doktor Živago

    I’ve reading your blog since two days ago (yes, owing to CBB). Your story is amazing storyline about pregnancy, love and family and life circle. God bless you and little Audrey – she’s such a cutie. She’ll always alive in your hearts.

  • Kathy

    Dear Angie,

    Thank you for everything you have shared about your sweet baby girl Audrey and your experience carrying her, delivering her and giving her back to God.

    On Thursday of this week, if not sooner, I will be giving birth via c-section to my Molly-girl (this is a private nickname I have had for my baby girl since we found out we were having a girl and was touched/noticed that you referred to Audrey as Audrey-girl at one point in your letter). I am 29 weeks now and we have known since she was about 14 weeks that she would likely not survive to her birth or much past it, if she does. She has a very rare combination of severe congenital heart defects that are fatal.

    Anyway, following Audrey and your family’s story has helped me in many ways to prepare for meeting our daughter and giving her to God. The peace you have found through your journey with her is inspiring. So thank you again for being so open with your experience and your faith. Take care and may God continue to bless you and your family always.

    Love,
    Kathy

  • Anonymous

    Angie, God bless you and your beautiful family. Your gift of strength is the perfect example of the power of our Lord. Audrey lives on in our hearts forever. The pictures are just beautiful, thank you for sharing Audrey with the world. She is an angel watching over us…
    Eileen

  • Astraea

    Wow…she is beautiful. Perfect. I’m am without words right now. Thank you for sharing your precious angel with us.

  • Ami

    Bless your family. What a beautiful family you have. That baby has so much hair!
    I am a L&D nurse and have been with families when they have delivered children that they could not keep with them. Please know that you have touched those nurses in ways that they will never forget. I have families that I can remember vividly in my mind.
    Bless you. I pray for peace and strength for all of you.

  • Leslie

    beautiful, the letter, your heart, and your beautiful beautiful daughter. My little family all the way across the country was praying for you feverently that day.
    Thank you for your open heart and willingness to share with us, you are witnessing to more people than you will ever ever fully realize.
    Praying for you also throughout the coming weeks

  • Anonymous

    A letter from a mommy to her daughter, that only she will ever truly understand. Thank you for letting me – for all of us – to be a part of something so personal and so very, very private. You have made me feel emotions I haven’t allowed to surface in a very long time. Thank you, Angie. Thank you, Audrey. You are loved so very much.

    God bless!
    Sara from Maryland

  • Heather

    She’s beautiful!

  • Marilyn

    Dear Smith Family:
    Thank you so much for sharing your tender story. I have been following you for a month or so. I pray you will be comforted during your difficult time of missing beautiful Audrey. “Blessed are they that mourn for they shall be comforted.” Because of Jesus, I know that is why you felt such peace during this difficult time and because of Jesus I know you will see Audrey Caroline again someday…. God Bless You.

  • weavermom

    Beautiful.

  • Brittany

    Angie, You and Audrey have have helped me find God. I don’t know what else to say other than I am a changed person.

    Thank you so much, Audrey.

    Brittany

  • Anonymous

    You are such a beautiful family! What amazing strenght you have! Thank you for sharing your story. Audrey will live as long as we never forget. May God be with you through this difficult time. And I thank God for giving you the courage to share.

    God Bless,

    Haley

  • april

    Angie-
    you and your family are amazing.

    what beautiful girls you have.

    may the Peace of Christ continue to bless your spirit and in turn spirits of all those that you touch.

    thank you so much for what you have done for me in sharing Audrey’s story.

    rejoicing, crying and praying with you daily.

  • UKNat

    I couldn’t help but notice today, regardless of how dark the sky was, how incredibly green the grass looked. Thank you for reminding me of that. And, thank you, Lord, for the rain. Natalie

  • Anonymous

    I don’t know if I have ever read a more touching and beautiful letter to a child than this. Your heart and your love for your beautiful daughter both amaze and bless me. Thank you for that, and thank you for sharing your beautiful family. You and yours have made such an impact in the short time I’ve known of you. . . thank you for that. – Jenn in Texas

  • Kelly

    Angie – this was beautiful.
    I don’t think I’ve ever seen a more beautiful, more radiant family than that last picture. I just see Jesus in your smile.
    Thank you for sharing with us such a private, personal, painful part of your life. You have touched me in a way I could never explain.

  • Sarah

    What beauty, both in words and pictures. The tears were flowing like rain, but joy bubbled underneath as I realized what a wide-reaching impact her little life has had and will continue to have and as I see the way God is being glorified through your story. Still praying!
    Love, Sarah

  • The Evans Family

    Thank you so much for sharing not only one of the most beautiful letters but your wonderful daughter. She has touched our life in way that no one else has. The ancient chinese belief that a red thread connects those that are destined to meet, it may become tangled but will never break, is shining through!

  • Our Family of Four

    I don’t know what to say except that you are AMAZING, she is PERFECT (of course) and the photos WOW!!!! Your story has touched my heart… Audrey is truely a blessing and your family an inspiration. Praise God for your tiny miracle and your unwavering faith and strength.

  • Anonymous

    I am currently going through a Bible Study on DVD by Beth Moore. The Study is called “Measureless Love.” Beth speaks about Acts 17: in her words: God has positioned you here at this time and this place for a purpose. I believe with all my heart and soul that God placed Precious Audrey Caroline with a very special family at a very special time. God plans nothing in error – He already knew the impact this little one would have on the world. It is only we that are on the earth that are amazed at how far her story has reached around the world. God must be smiling at our amazement. Little Audrey Caroline was chosen by God for a very important mission – as was your family. Angie – your letter to Audrey was so beautiful. Thank you for sharing such an intimate and loving letter. The Smith family was chosen for Baby Audrey and you have definitely ministered to the world with your total trust in God.

    Audrey Caroline is beautiful as are all of your girls.

    God Bless,
    Julie Price and family

  • J&M

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  • traci

    There is nothing more perfect than a Godly family who trust God even in the storm!! Your letter was beyond words…it took me several tries due to the flood of tears but how thankful I am that I found your blog and met your precious family!!! What amazing pictures and what a gift to have those forever of your sweet, gorgeous baby daughter. You inspire!!

  • Kristi

    My heart aches and soars… all because of a little beauty named Audrey Caroline.

  • Anonymous

    God bless your sweet sweet family! I have followed your blog for some time now and I know it is crazy but it feels like I know you. Thanks for letting us pray for you and your family. It is a priveldge.

    That was the most beautiful letters I have read. She is just beautiful! Audrey is so blessed to have you for her Mommy!
    I thank and praise the Lord for the precious time he gave ya’ll with her. We serve an awesome God. Please know that you will be in our prayers!
    Blessings ~ Christi in TX

  • Tiffany

    Tears have been streaming down my face the entire time I read your sweet letter to your precious daughter. Words cannot express how I felt as I read this, but as a mommy I felt your love towards her. God is so good and Audrey is beautiful. What a beautiful gift your friend gave you by capturing such beautiful pictures of Audrey. You are so blessed.

    We will continue to pray for your family. May God’s glory continue to be shown through Audrey’s story.

  • Anonymous

    She is amazingly beautiful!!!!How blessed she is to have you for a mother.Your letter to her is profound and so touching.There are so many who care for you and pray for you even though we have never met.Thank you for sharing precious Audrey with us.May God continue to hold you close and carry you through the coming days.Susan from Ca

  • Anonymous

    I have to say that I have never commented on anyone’s blog before, but I felt lead to leave one here. Audrey’s story is so beautiful, and I am still mopping up my tears. I have never been strong in my faith in God, but in reading your story, I feel my faith budding, and growing stronger. Thank you for sharing her story with us, and my prayers are with you.

    Melissa from Mt. Juliet

  • Adrienne

    Wow! Angie, I’m trying to hold it together in an airport while reading your words to sweet Audrey! She was so precious! Yes, I have a firm grasp on the obvious, just thought I’d state it…I praise God that the months that preceded her royal arrival and the priceless 2.5 hours you all had with her were just as He had designed. Beautiful. Breath taking. Forever seared into your hearts. I think and pray for you guys often and will definitely continue to do so as your life has changed forever. I praise God for His goodness in delivering you from fear, and so much more, because of Audrey’s willingness to be used from day one. I, too, was delivered from a lot of things through our journey with our son, Noah. Thank you for allowing ‘us’ to love your daughter and your family through your journey. God is an amazingly wonderful God. That He would graciously use His very smallest vessels, well, that’s just AWESOME! Love as always,
    Adrienne in CO
    xoxox

  • Alison

    I wept as I read the beautiful letter you wrote to your daughter. I was remembering a time in my life not too long ago where I wrote a letter to our child that I miscarried a few days before.

    Angie, your faith is stunning and amazing. I have been a Christian for a long time, but I long to have a faith like yours. Jesus Christ truly shines through your life and His life will truly be what Audrey’s legacy stands for.

    Your daughter is beautiful and precious. Thank you for sharing these personal photos.

    I’ll continue to be in prayer for your family. Hang in there, I wish I could hug you in person.

  • Jan

    You are such an amazing woman (I know I’ve said this more than once, but you are). As I sit here waiting on the arrival of our first daughter, Adyson, I am inspired by your strength, courage, and commitment to our God. He is an amazing God, one in which I feel closer to now more than ever!! Thank you…Thank you…Thank you for allowing us all into your life and the life of Audrey! Audrey’s life has enriched my life in ways that I can not begin to express. The photos are beautiful, and it is so wonderful to see the face of the angel we have all been praying for.

    Much love, Jan

  • Julie

    The letter and the pictures are equally breathtaking. I know you will treasure your photos documenting those 2 1/2 hours as much as we will forever treasure ours. NILMDTS is a blessing indeed.

    Thank you for sharing!

  • Caryn

    God has given you such a talent woth words to touch every ones hearts!! Tears and giggles came to me while reading your blog!
    My prayers continue to you and your family!! God has given both of you the gift to touch some one and show them the way to God!

  • Destini

    What amazing pictures…such a beautiful way to capture the memories.

    I am so thankful that you have the Lord in your lives, that despite the tears, you can see the joy and the blessing.

    I continue to pray that God’s peace surround you and your family

  • Lindsey

    Beautiful, just beautiful! I want to give you a hug and tell you how much your story has impacted me. I am amazed by your strength, courage, and your grace.

    The pictures are prized possessions. I’m thankful for the time you had with your sweet Audrey and for the fact that you WILL hold her again in heaven!

  • Cassie

    You have touched so many with your words…This letter was written with such love, I cried the whole way through…God has recieved so much glory during these past few days…Your family is in my prayers…God is Good..All the time….

  • Darlene R.

    Dear Todd and Angie,
    You will never know the blessing that you have been to me since meeting you on the cruise. You have a precious family with 4 beautiful girls. What an awesome thing that you were given time with Audrey! I was so happy to read that. He is good.
    Todd – I just wanted to hug your neck when we saw you in Elkhart on Good Friday. I probably would have asked if I hadn’t been feeling a little under the weather!
    I will continue to pray for you all and this letter to your Audrey was absolutly beautiful. I cried when I saw the pictures. Audrey is such a pretty little baby.
    Our babies are sitting at the feet of Jesus, I will praise him for that.
    Much love and hugs, hugs,hugs~
    Darlene- Indiana

  • Julie

    Audrey is beautiful and I praise the Lord for giving you time with her. What a testimony to God you are and I thank you for allowing me to read along and grow in him through you.

  • Becoming Me

    That was so beautiful. Thank you for sharing your heart. Thank you for sharing your daughter. She is a lovely girl. How wonderful that she got to meet and love you before being with Jesus. Your stories have so touched my heart and your little girl Audrey has made an impact on this world for sure. In Christ, Angela

  • Laura

    Breathtaking….beautiful, amazing, graceful, perfect!

  • Bttrfly1976

    I don’t know how to say what the ache in my chest seems to want to speak to you.

    I’m so very sorry and yet so happy for you at the same time. I am touched and moved to a deeper faith at the same time that my heart is broken and my tears flowing in reading the story of your precious baby girl.

    Your faith is beautiful.

    Your love for your children is beautiful.

    Your love for our Father is beautiful.

    Audrey is beautiful.

    I’m praying for your sweet family.

  • Anonymous

    Angie,

    Thank you for sharing that beautiful, beautiful letter with us. Audrey is just perfect. You are so wonderful and brave and a true inspiration to others.

    Dori

  • Tamara

    I don’t know if I have any words at all…but wanted to let you know your family has touched me in a way I cannot even express. Thank you.

  • Jennifer

    I don’t really know what to write. There is so much I want to say, I am filled with emotion. By the time I reached the point where you said you could barely see the words you were writing through your tears, I could barely read the beautiful words you had written through my tears. I posted on your friend Jessica’s blog, that you have been a blessing beyond measure you to me. I have not lost a child after birth, but I have had 2 miscarriages, 1 in August last year and an ectopic pregnancy diagnosed 2 weeks before Christmas last year. Tomorrow is my due date for our first baby and I am struggling. You have such peace… You are an inspiration to me and I so admire your love for the Lord!

    Audrey is a beautiful angel, and she has touched my life. MAybe she’s making friends with my babies. I smile at the thought =)

    God bless you and I will be praying for your family.

  • Anonymous

    Thank you for sharing your story and your pictures of your beautiful daughter and family. I am so thankful you got to spend time with her. I lost a baby boy at 4 1/2 months and will never have that time with him or those memories or photos, and what you have is truly a miracle….you are so blessed.

    J.

  • Alex & Jill

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Alex & Jill

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Alex & Jill

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Alex & Jill

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Alex & Jill

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Alex & Jill

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Alex & Jill

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Alex & Jill

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Alex & Jill

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Alex & Jill

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Alex & Jill

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Alex & Jill

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Alex & Jill

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Alex & Jill

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Alex & Jill

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Alex & Jill

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Alex & Jill

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Alex & Jill

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Alex & Jill

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Alex & Jill

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Alex & Jill

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Alex & Jill

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Alex & Jill

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Alex & Jill

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Alex & Jill

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Alex & Jill

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Alex & Jill

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Alex & Jill

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Alex & Jill

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Alex & Jill

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Alex & Jill

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Alex & Jill

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Alex & Jill

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Alex & Jill

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Alex & Jill

    I read this with tears running down my cheeks. You are dealing with the loss of your sweet baby girl with such grace and are an inspiration to so many. The fact that you can praise Him through something like this speaks volumes. You and your family are in my prayers…God bless.

  • Anonymous

    A heartwrenching and moving letter. I have sad and happy tears! Thank you for sharing it with us. You pictures are beautiful,just so beautiful.
    Thank you for sharing your story and Gods amazing promises.
    I am touched.

  • capitoldiver

    What an eloquent tribute to such a precious angel! I don’t know how you managed to write such a beautiful letter, but you’re touching all of your blog readers in ways you’ll never know. I was thinking, “who could possibly understand how this feels… obediently giving their child to God?” Then it suddenly dawned on me. The One who is bringing you (and all of us!) through this, is the One who went through this Himself when He sent His own son to the cross… so that we can have Heaven to look forward to!

    Because of His son’s death (and new life) all of us have Heaven to look forward to, which means (for believers) this is only goodbye for now. One day we will ALL gather together to greet loved ones we’ve lost. And at that time, none of us will ever have to say goodbye again!

    Still praying for all of you!

    Another sister in Christ

  • Heather

    Thank you for sharing this precious letter to your sweet daughter. The tears have literally been streaming down my face and onto my hands while I have read and pondered how the Lord has worked in your lives over the past months. Audrey Caroline is beauiful. Thanks for sharing the pictures too. xoxo

  • Vicky

    Angie,
    Your letter to Audrey was beautiful. Thank you for sharing it with all of us. You are such a gifted writer– not only in this post, but in your previous posts.
    Also, the pictures are amazing… what a beautiful little girl! (and sooooo big!). I LOVE the family picture at the end. Perfect.
    I am praising God for how he has used a tiny little girl’s “short” life to change so many many many lives. Her story will continue to change lives! Thank you for telling it, and for continuing to share your faith.
    Praying for you, Todd, and Audrey’s big sisters :)
    Vicky

  • Michelle from Massachusetts

    Thank you SO much for sharing your story with us and letting us feel as if we met Audrey even though we are thousands of miles away. You are such an inspiration of strength it is amazing, Audrey and the girls are so lucky to have you as their mom. Sweet Audrey will now watch over you and your family and protect you with the Lord. God bless and may god continue to give you strength for the days ahead. Thank you again for sharing Audrey’s legacy with us.

  • Holly

    Thank you so much for sharing your story and life with us these last few months. You have touched my life in many ways and have helped me to bring my focus back on God where it belongs. You are amazing and Audrey is beautiful, truly a precious gift from God. I will continue to pray for you and your family. Thank you again,

    Holly

  • Anonymous

    I can barely see through my tears. I have seen an angel.

    Angie, your letter was so heartfelt and meaningful that I felt I needed total quiet to give respect to what was, clearly, drawn right out of your heart. The spirit burned in testimony as I read it, and I have no words at all to tell you how incredibly special it was for you to have shared it with each of us.

    I tried to picture what my words would be, as a mom, if I were writing to one of my own little ones. I can’t begin to imagine the depths from which my words would flow. It pierces my soul.

    It is incredibly brave and honorable to put that sweet letter there……for the whole world to see…..and for the whole world to use as an avenue of change. If only everyone got to see a glimpse of heaven as you have…..if they had the foresight to put the rest of their chaotic lives into eternal perspective—-oh, how they would live different.

    Thank you, sweet, little Audrey. You beautiful, perfect baby. You came into this world and did it so amazingly that people could see you and want to be better. It takes someone great to make people want to be better. You single-handedly changed your whole family and extended family….and you are so special that you didn’t stop there. You have begun to change the world.

    If you are sitting at the feet of our Father….hug him for the rest of us and tell Him much we love and adore him.

    I can’t wait to meet you in heaven, sweet little girl. I have some red-heads too….and I am fond of it. I bet your Mommy loved to put her cheek on your soft, fuzzy little head. I know she must love you higher than the sky.

    You are an angel, little one.

    With all my honor and respect,

    Becky Cain

  • Kristi C.

    Angie,

    I cannot imagine what you have gone through and to be as strong as you are-YOU ARE AMAZING. You are a wonderful mother, wife, friend and a great writer as all the posts that I have read from you makes me feel like I have known you all my life. You inspire me to be a better person, to not take life for granted and to become closer with God. Because of this I will be forever grateful to you and your precious family. You, your husband and four lovely daughters will always be in my prayers. Stay strong as you have many, many people who love you.

    Audrey, you are one special, beautiful little girl, and one day you will be reunited with you mommy and everything will be right again.

    Peace

    Kristi C.

  • The Arrington Family

    She is just beautiful! I have been blessed by traveling on your journey with you. Thank you for sharing your story & being so transparent. What a story!

  • Anonymous

    That is the most beautiful letter I have ever read. Thank you for sharing your story and your sweet precious girls. Audrey’s legacy will indeed live on…you are amazing!

  • Anonymous

    Your daughter is amazing and beautiful as are you…

  • Honea Household

    My eyes brimmed with tears reading your sweet letter to a beautiful little girl. Angie, you have such a way with words, it’s amazing. Audrey is precious. I am so thankful to our Father for peace and the special time that you had with her. And for Tom who captured it all for you to remember. I am still praying for you and your family. You are precious and I love you dear sister in Christ.

    Ashley

  • Suzanne W.

    What a beautiful baby! The pictures of her and the family are wonderful and such a blessing. Angie your letter was so moving-as I read it I became quite peaceful about this whole process. I realized how blessed I am and how blessed we are to get to know about Audrey and her very special family. You have renewed my strength. Thank you.

  • Anonymous

    Thanks for sharing with us on the blog your journey: even when it hurt and was/is hard. I cannot even imagine.

    Although no mom should ever have to write a letter like this, you did it elequently dear sister. If I could take all of this pain and hurt away I would, but I can’t. I will ask God to give you everything you need to get through each and every day that is to come.

    Thank-you for giving us a face to match with Audrey. She is beautiful.

    You are in my thoughts and prayers.
    Michigan

  • The Princess

    You and your family have been on my hearts all day today. As I put my little ones to sleep tonight, I thought of you, Todd, the girls and sweet baby Audrey and lifted you up in prayer. I just found your site early this morning after feeding my little one, a bit frustrated I admit for her not sleeping through the night. But, after reading your story, I held my girls a little closer, hugged them a little tighter and thank God a little more often for each of their lives. Audrey touched more lives than your family will ever know.

  • Hilary

    She is absolutely beautiful…a beautiful miracle. Thank you so much for sharing her with the world and letting her life affect so many. God is truly amazing!
    Your family has been on my mind and prayers so much. I will continue to pray for peace and strength.

    Yours in Christ,
    Hilary

  • Jodi

    Angie,

    The tears are falling…for your precious precious words to dear, sweet Audrey. What a touching and beautiful letter. I can not even begin to tell you all of the ways that Audrey has touched my heart, and my life. She is a special little girl.

    You and your family continue to be in my thoughts and prayers. Much love,

    Jodi

  • Anonymous

    I have read your blog several times over with tears streaming down my face, and each time God speaks to my heart in a different way.

    You have allowed the Creator to weave such a beautiful Creation through your lives and Audrey’s life and share it with us. For that, I thank you and your family.

    I can’t imagine the pain that your are experiencing, but I have cried to God for you and your family many times over since reading this blog.

    Your family is absolutely beautiful and God chosen your family & Audrey to bring glory to His name. Audrey has touched countless in her short time that many would never encounter in a lifetime. Praise His name!

    Our prayers are with you and we appreciate you sharing and blessing everyone with Audrey!

    I have always loved Selah, but I must say…so many of the songs now have a new meaning in my heart.

    May you feel God’s love and arms around you as He holds little Audrey.

    Melissa

  • Terry

    Thank you so much for sharing your daughter with all of us. I am very sorry for you loss, but look forward to meeting Audrey in person someday. Your family is in my prayers and I cannot express how much awe and respect I have for what God has done for your family. I pray that He continues to comfort you in ways only our Abba Father can. God bless you and your precious family.

  • Marla Taviano

    Praise you, Jesus!
    Praise you, Jesus!

  • AmyD

    What a beautiful letter and beautiful daughter. Thank you for sharing such intimate details of your life and letting the Lord work in your lives so that others may know Him. We continue to lift you all up in prayer.

  • Annie

    I can’t begin to tell you how you have touched my heart. My tears flowed freely as I read your letter to Audrey. She is BEAUTIFUL!!! What a wonderful, precious family you have. Thank you for sharing what God has done in and for you.

  • Kathy

    wow, that is such a beautiful tribute to your precious daughter. Thank you for sharing with us. Our prayers, tears and also rejoicing are with you.
    In His love, Kathy

  • Anonymous

    Beautiful beyond words…all of it, your post, your family picture, and sweet Audrey.

    May God bless all of you and bring you even more peace.

    Maddy

  • Adrienne and Jim

    Angie,
    I can hardly see to type for the tears that fill my eyes. I thank you for sharing this personal letter with us. What an incredibly beautiful baby girl Audrey is. I love how sweet and peaceful, so tender, she looks in each picture. I am thankful Tom was there to capture these precious moments with her. The pictures along with Audrey’s story will live forever and ever. I can’t wait to see more! Your description of your time, as if the world stood still, brought me to tears (again)–this was exactly what I hoped it would seem to you so that you could cherish every moment with Audrey as long as God allowed. You are touching so many people by sharing Audrey with us. I will continue to praise God for the time you held Audrey in your arms and to ask him to keep holding you in His arms, giving you comfort and peace as you celebrate Audrey’s life and healing.

  • Q’s NEWS

    WOW – what an awesome letter you wrote to Audrey. I could barely read it through the tears. The pictures are wonderful, and I am so glad you have them.

    Continuing to pray for you and your family. Please let us (your blog family) know if there is anything we can do for you.

    Love from WV,
    Susan

  • Kelli

    I have been reading along for weeks now, but never commented. Your family has been in my prayers and will continue to be. Audrey’s story has touched me in ways I can’t even begin to put into words. Your letter was beautiful and amazing. Thank you for sharing. Audrey is absolutey precious- a precious blessing from God. She will continue to touch lives for a long, long time.

  • boltefamily

    What a beautiful letter! We are praying for you and your family! Your pictures are amazing! Thank you for sharing. Your story truly helps me feel less alone on my own journey.

  • Elizabeth S

    I just found your blog last week. I have been blessed. Thank you for sharing your story, Audrey’s story, and for your amazing strength and faith in God.

  • Jody

    That God has poured out goodness and beauty and joy through Audrey’s life and death is testament to ALL that He IS Lord! Thank you, Angie…thank you Todd and family, for sharing her. For sharing your hearts. For sharing your faith. For sharing this journey with all who are willing to read and listen. Audrey is perfect in everyway. Your family together looks amazingly happy and complete. I know your heart must ache and grieve- how could it not after months of hopes and dreams and then having felt her warm, tiny body in your arms and against your cheeks…I know there is hurt. But you transcend that here with your words and pictures. I see nothing but Joy and gratitude for God. I praise Him for this beautiful storm He brought into your life and is seeing you through. I have been blessed and continue to pray. And to praise. I know sometimes God calls us to travel paths we would not choose to take. But praise Him, for all He has done and continues to do. All my love. May you continue to be showered from above with comfort and peace. I look forward to meeting Audrey in Heaven. Someday.

  • karin

    I will echo those that have said getting through your letter was at best, challenging. my tears were in the way, for sure. you are gifted in so many ways – on so many levels. your family, and your Audrey, are beautiful, and your story is amazing. my thoughts are with you today and through the days ahead for you.

    thank you for sharing, and allowing me the opportunity to be a part of this.

  • kristy mae

    She really was beautiful. Thank you for sharing her life and the love of Jesus Christ with the world.

  • Anonymous

    I just heard about your blog on Monday. I read through all of the postings and was changed. You have a gift of words that Audrey has brought out. She is so Beautiful. It’s amazing the impact that one little angel can have on the world. I’m praying for you and your family. May God wrap His arms around you just as He is your Audrey. God Bless your family.

    Jenny

    Isaiah 40:31
    Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

  • Anonymous

    Little Audrey already had her wings even before she came into your lives..and through you, Angie, our lives too. If the peace you shared is what heaven feels like, then we should all praise the Lord because he gave us a glimpse of God’s kingdom that life sometimes makes us forget. I pray for you and your family, for strength, peace and healing.
    Love, Maria

  • Anonymous

    If I have ever met a woman stronger, braver then my own mother it would be your Angie

    My mother has lost several of her babies and I have witnessed her lose one and I can feel your pain

    I have lost one myself, for reasons much different from yours but I feel your pain and share different faith from you but the same beleif in God.

    I hope that God brings you a fast recovery, spiritually, physically, emotionally

    – Love Farzana

  • dreamingBIGdreams

    Thank you for sharing your heart and opening up to us like this.

    I have loved following this journey and am so thankful that you allowed us all in.

    The pictures are beautiful and I know you are so blessed to have them for a lifetime.

    :) jamie

  • Ashley

    Angie,
    My tears fall for your hurting heart, but how I rejoice that Audrey is dancing with her King. Your unwavering faith has been a testament far greater than you will ever know. Yes, Audrey has left a legacy that will last for a lifetime. Please know that we are praying you and your family through this time. Thank you for sharing the photographs of the precious baby girl we have prayed for over the months. She is beautiful!

    Prayers for you,
    Ashley

  • The Dukes Family

    What a beautiful and heartbreaking letter. I love that you know what a testimony Audrey has had here on earth despite her short life … that can only be accomplished through God. I grieve for you over the loss of your beautiful baby and I pray that you will find comfort in knowing what her life has meant and how many people have been touched by that small child.

  • KrisinVT

    Simply beautiful words. I am so thankful for the work God has done-and will continue to do through Audrey’s short life. What an amazing blessing to have had that time of peace and beauty. My prayers for your family continue.

    Kris

  • KrisinVT

    Simply beautiful words. I am so thankful for the work God has done-and will continue to do through Audrey’s short life. What an amazing blessing to have had that time of peace and beauty. My prayers for your family continue.

    Kris

  • The Bayham Family

    Dearest Angie,

    Thank you for your courage, your strength, your grace and your unwavering faith. Our loving God is holding precious Audrey Caroline, and she will be waiting on you. She knows you, and she loves you so much! Your Audrey-girl is beautiful, a sweet angel. Pictures speak a thousand words, and I can’t express to you how my heart overflows as the images of you and Audrey and your family fill my mind. What love, what joy. Praise Jesus for the sweet time you had with her!

    “The Lord your God is with you, he is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you, he will quiet you with his love, he will rejoice over you with singing.” ~Zephaniah 3:17

    I doubt a day will ever go by that I do not think of Audrey Caroline. The Lord led me to her story because He knew I was struggling and needed encouragement as a mommy. He continues to use her to change my life.

    Although you have no idea who I am, I feel like I’ve known you forever, and I call you friend. Thank you for sharing your heart, your soul, your emotion. Thank you.

    Blessings and Love,
    Julie

  • Melandie Ogletree

    Wow…what beautiful sentiments to a beautiful daughter. Your story has SO touched my heart. I can’t tell you how much my faith has been strengthened through reading your blogs. I believe the peace and calmness that you speak of was captured in the beautiful photos of your family. I know that you guys were clothed in God’s purest love throughout this time. It is truly, truly beautiful. God richly bless you all..

    Much love in Christ,
    Melandie

  • Jessica mommy to Alex/ RTS

    So beautiful. What an inspiration, what a big life!

  • lollipops

    I cried when I read this. I don’t know you all but you are a blessing. I lost a baby too–but I never wrote him a letter. May God richly bless you.

  • JanaBanana

    You are truely truely an amazing person. You have filled me with so much, thank you. Thank you for “You”
    May GOD continue to shine his light on you.. you have lit up the world with your story and I will never forget. Opened my eyes to things I was too blind to see before. Your strength awe’s me.
    GOD BLESS YOU
    She is BEAUTIFUL!

  • DeAnne

    Oh my goodness, I have read your letter several times and just stared at your pictures. Angie you embraced this moment and accepted it with such grace and comfort knowing that your Audrey will be with the Lord. I just loved how you made Audrey’s birth a beautiful experience even though you knew the outcome and I still congratulate you on the birth of your beautiful daughter. Being a mother you have made me a better person by watching (reading) you and you have brought peace to me. I have told everyone that I know about you and have asked them to pray for you. I still am praying for you to heal from your surgery and to bring peace and comfort to your family while you continue to heal.

    God Bless,
    De Anne

  • the rye family

    thank you for sharing audrey with us! :)

  • butterflyaway81

    Angie, my heart breaks for you every time I read one of your posts. I know I would never be strong enough to get through what you have the past few months. Audrey is beautiful. I am glad that she is not sick anymore, and I am glad that you will see her in heaven. But I am so sad for everything you and your family have had to endure. Thank you for sharing with us. I will keep praying for you.

    Love,
    Amanda

  • Michelle

    “Bring the Rain” was playing as I read that the rain thundred against your window today. I am one of those strangers who Audrey brought closer…I will never forget her. You are so strong, and I am so inspired by ALL of you.

  • Anonymous

    Wiping away tears, finally finishing the letter written to your daughter, I realize how much strength you have in God to let him be in control of everything. I have been through the similar situation, but have never let go, always questioned God why? But, after reading your letter about Sweet Precious Audrey. I will cherish the months of carrying my babies. You are a strong, compassionate child of God. This story has made me realize how much I need God back in my life to raise my healthy baby. I pray for you and your family everyday. Your baby, Audrey Caroline is a true inspiration for all of us.
    Much Prayers,
    Ashley

  • Sandra

    What a beautiful testimony to God’s love and grace at work in your lives through this little Miracle. Continuing prayers for you in the days ahead.

    S-

  • Anonymous

    She’s so TINY!!! And just PERFECT!! Congrats on your gorgeous little girl… She truly is a blessing and touched many lives in her short little life.

  • Julie

    Thank you for sharing your beautiful letter. I have checked the blog more often than normal, wondering if you were alright and if your poignant words would ever grace these pages again. I cannot imagine I could write after this. Thank you for sharing and I will continue to pray for your sweet family. I do not suppose we will meet on this side of heaven, but when I get there, in the midst of our praise for the One who gives and takes away, I will look for a the beautiful woman who gave us this story, the one holding her daughter Audrey!

    JH

  • Kimberly

    You have given Audrey the most wonderful, priceless gift- a lifetime in heaven with God the Father without living a wordly life of sin.

    Your story touches my heart and changes my life.

    All my prayers for a beautiful forever,

  • The Baby Makes 4

    Praise Him! He did work a miracle in your presence! He used Audrey in a might way! Thank you for sharing her testimony to us so that we can be encouraged and come to know our God even more! Audrey showed me God’s power in a way I have never experienced before. Amazing.

  • jhauser

    Thank you for sharing your beautiful letter. I have checked the blog more often than normal, wondering if you were alright and if your poignant words would ever grace these pages again. I cannot imagine I could write after this. Thank you for sharing and I will continue to pray for your sweet family. I do not suppose we will meet on this side of heaven, but when I get there, in the midst of our praise for the One who gives and takes away, I will look for a the beautiful woman who gave us this story, the one holding her daughter Audrey!

    JH

  • Amber Benge

    Angie, I have listened to Selah’s music since Audrey’s birthday. It reminds me to pray for you and to praise the Lord through our family’s current storms. My 2 year old daughter now sings Selah songs as we ride in the car. I want to thank you for your authentic faith and for your transparency. Your story has been the perspective I needed during this season in my life. Knowing Audrey and her story has impacted me deeply. It has drawn me closer to my husband as we’ve prayed together and it has made me a better mother. Thank you for opening your heart to us. And please keep writing. God has given you a gift…

  • Paula’s Pad

    Angie:
    How blessed you are to have been chosen to be mother to such a beautiful little angel. Your story has touced my soul and I will continue to keep your family in our prayers. May God continue to bless you.

  • Anonymous

    what a beautiful baby girl. what a precious gift. I thank God for the time you were able to spend with her. and the peace that you have felt through this time. I pray that you will continue to feel God’s love and peace surround you today and the days to come.
    Your words to Audrey are beautiful, and I thank you for sharing them. Thank you for letting me be a part of this miracle through your story. May you rest in the arms of our loving Father.
    Blessings

    Rachel

  • Jamie

    Angie,

    A friend of mine told me to read your blog. My heart aches for you and your family for your loss.

    I have some friends who had their son at 26 weeks. He was still born and not as big as Audrey, but I had the privelage to taking pictures for them, as I am a photographer. It was so hard to do…but the one of the best things I have ever done.

    My prayers are with you and your family as you grieve your loss of your sweet little one.

    In Him-
    Jamie Nygaard

  • Jamie

    Angie,

    A friend of mine told me to read your blog. My heart aches for you and your family for your loss.

    I have some friends who had their son at 26 weeks. He was still born and not as big as Audrey, but I had the privelage to taking pictures for them, as I am a photographer. It was so hard to do…but the one of the best things I have ever done.

    My prayers are with you and your family as you grieve your loss of your sweet little one.

    In Him-
    Jamie Nygaard

  • Anonymous

    Beautiful photos. I absolutely love the one of you, Todd & Audrey. I just look at your face & you look so proud & peaceful.

    I wanted to share a story with you. Around the time Audrey was born on Monday, was a special, quiet time for me. My husband had all 3 kids on an errand (rare!) & I set out into our garden. We just moved into this house in August & the daffodils growing up from the earth were such wonderful surprises these past couple of weeks. I am a big fan of symmetry, however, and wanted to try and bring some order to the garden. Without knowing what I was doing (I’m not really a ‘Green Thumb’), I dug up the bulbs & transplanted them to where I was hoping would be a more suitable place. I had been keeping up with your blog & knew Monday was to be Audrey’s Birthday. As I transplanted these beautiful daffodils, it hit me what a metaphor this was for you & Audrey. As I replanted the bulbs I hoped & prayed they were undisturbed, not stressed & that they would continue to live & grow. I knew hundreds of miles away, but at that same hour, you were with your little girl. I prayed for you, Audrey & the rest of your family. Over the next couple of days they flowers looked weak, limp & distressed. I prayed for you all. It rained & I prayed for you all. Yesterday I went out to see the daffodils & was surprised to see their condition had improved. They have gotten stronger & it appears that they will live. I will never forget Monday afternoon & the quiet time I spent with the daffodils praying for you & Audrey. Many consider the daffodils a sign of HOPE & now I can see why. I don’t think I could ever look at the daffodils again without thinking of your little Audrey.

    Praying for you still.

    - Rachel in Kansas City

  • sarahdv17

    What a beautiful little girl. Thank you for sharing a piece of your heart.

  • Jennifer

    This was a huge blessing to me tonight. I have cried tears of joy and of sorrow for you all. I am thankful that God lead me here. Jen

  • Beverley Warwick

    I’m sorry I have no words of my own but I’m on my knees before my Creator.

    BEAUTIFUL SAVIOR

    All my days I will sing the song of gladness
    Give my praise to the fountain of delights
    For in my helplessness, you heard my cry
    And waves of mercy poured down on my life

    Beautiful Savior, wonderful counselor
    Clothed in majesty, Lord of history
    You’re the way, the truth and the life
    Star of the mornin, glorious in holiness
    You’re the risen one, heaven’s champion
    And you reign, you reign over all

    I will trust in the cross of my Redeemer
    I will sing of the lamb that never fails
    Of sins forgiven, of conscience cleared
    Of death defeated and life without end

    Beautiful, beautiful Savior
    Wonderful counselor, beautiful risen one

    I long to be where the praise is never ending
    Yearn to DWELL where the glory never fades
    WITH countless worshippers SING one song
    And the voices of the nations
    Sing worthy, worthy, worthy
    Worthy beautiful, beautiful one
    Jesus you are worthy, beautiful, beautiful one
    Jesus you’re worthy, beautiful, beautiful one
    You are worthy, beautiful, risen one

  • Jen

    When you wrote that you felt that you were not so much a mother who lost her daughter, but rather one giving your daughter away, in my heart I exclaimed “YES!! And how awesome to know it was to the PREFECT Groom!”

    Angie, that was without a doubt the moste beautiful letter I have ever read.

    Thank you.

  • Amy

    Thank you for sharing that precious and lovely letter with the world. It really shows your deep love for your daughter and even more so, your deep love for your heavenly Father.

    To God be the glory,
    Amy

    P.S. Those pictures are amazing!

  • Kelley at Aroma of Joy

    I just wanted you to know how deeply your words and your faith have touched me! You have a beautiful family that radiates the love of Jesus! You are all in my prayers as you walk this road. God bless you!

  • The Urbans

    What a homecoming it must have been…..

  • The Redder Family

    Angie,
    Audrey’s story is truly amazing. Albeit heartbreaking, it is amazing. I was brought to tears Wednesday as I read the blog and as I drove to work. But you have shown us all through your pain that there is a God and He is always working in our lives even when we may not think so. Thank you so much for sharing your lives with us. I am enjoying the pictures and I will check back often to see how your family is doing. You are all great people!

  • Susie Harris

    My sweet sister…. Please know how loved you are.I have tucked you so deep in my heart I feel as though I have known you all my life. What a blessing it is to share with you and your sweet Audrey. After reading your post I know that Audrey was placed here on this earth for a reason. Reading about your courage and faith has brought me closer to the Lord. Thank you and thank you sweet little Audrey. Susie H.

  • amydc

    Please know Angie, that your family is lifted up in the prayers of many, many people. I pray for your physical healing as well as your hurt during this time. As Christians we know that the only possible way you have gotten through this is from the Lord & we know he will give you the guidance & peace you will need in the furure. You are a true testament to the Lord’s work & plans. May God bless you all, just as you have been a blessing to countless people.
    Love in Christ, ~Amy

  • Anonymous

    Angie: Thank you, you have taken us all on your journey and by sharing yourself and you family with us, you have, and this is because I feel in my case it is so, shown us God and His glory …your not so simple act of valor and strength your fight as a woman as a wife as a mother and last but not by any means list, as a Christian has made me better. better not on my own no! but in Christ …in His presence I have been so many times pleading for you and your child, with Alex my daughter, who at 9 yrs old has a grasp of your story that even her will never be the same, for this, even though you don’t know us personally, I thank you …through you story of love against all odds Jesus has been magnified not only in my house but to many many people …
    Note from Alex …Angie I can wait to go to heaven and meet Jesus, I will have a little brother there we did not get to hold, I can’t wait to meet him either …my sister and I were talking and we have to get together there your family and ours with Jesus and Audrie and our baby brother so you see we have a date OK? please don’t be sad and cry (my mom is doing that right now, she said are tears of happiness I’m not fooled by that just please don’t cry) we looked in the bible for a passage to put here I wanted not this one but my sister did so here it goes …Psalm 23:6 Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life; And I will dwell in the house of the Lord Forever ….My little sister says that for ever is a long long time and that we would have that much time to play and have fun with all your girls .. I think so too so maybe this is a good thing …God bless you …Alex and Sammy
    Not much I could add after that, Alex really has wanted to do this for a while now .. As always our prayers are with you the girls and Todd as well as your extended family …
    Your sister in Christ
    Damarys

  • Tina

    Your letter to Audrey is the most beautiful letter I have ever read. I sat with tears just pouring down my face. Your faith is the Lord amazes me. I have learned so much from your family. And you are so right about Audrey changing the world. How amazing. What gorgeous pictures of your family. God Bless you!

  • Quinn

    Oh, she is SO beautiful. Thank goodness Tom was there to document her short, but meaningful life. I am so happy you had the time you did with her.
    Quinn in Oklahoma

  • Samantha

    Todd and Angie,
    We are overwhelmed by the offering, that is your story…your beloved daughter, Audrey. As tears streamed down our cheeks, we imagined your family together with light in your eyes and joy in your heart as you held your love.
    We grieve a deep soul grief with you. We hold your pain and tears up to the One who bottles your tears for all of eternity, they are so precious to Him. And we wait with eager expectation for the day when he will wipe every tear from our eyes and make all things new.
    Your love, your Audrey, will never be forgotten. Her story is written on the hearts of so many, and will forever compel us toward Jesus.
    We whisper hope,
    Samantha and Mike Jay

  • Julia

    Angie, your ability to tell this story is a beautiful thing. Thank you for sharing such a painful and personal time with all of us.

    Continuing to pray for your family, Julia

  • Brian

    I have no words, simply tears. Audrey’s life has touched me in such an immensely deep way. I am going to go love on my three beautiful, sleeping children – I’ll watch them, I’ll thank our Lord for them, and I’ll thank Him for Audrey Caroline.

  • karamy3sons

    I have been praying since the day that I found out about your blog! Your family is precious! Your 4 girls are so beautiful!! I will continue to pray for your family.

    Kara-North Texas
    Prov. 3:5-6, I Cor. 13
    karamy3sons.blogspot.com

  • Valarie

    I dont even know what to say. I am trying to get myself together as I try to type. The way God works, is so amazing. Oh I praise him now for all that he does. God is good all the time and all the time God is good. She is absolutely precious. Please know that our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

  • Anonymous

    I have been hesitant to send a message, not certain of what to say. My heart aches for you. Thank you for sharing your story, it has touched me in so many ways. I will never forget this sweet baby girl and her strong but humble mommy. Many prayers for your family,for the days ahead.

  • Anonymous

    Thank you so much for sharing the pictures of Audrey and your family with us. She is beautiful! I have been praying for you and reading your blog since the Selah concert near Buffalo Ny. I have been sooooo touched by your honesty and extreme willingness to share so much of yourself and your family with us “strangers”. Sometimes as Christians we hide our emotions so that we will not be perceived as weak. You have shown us your tears, frustrations and now your joy. You have reminded us that Christ is the one who makes us strong and is the only One who can bring peace. THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU for sharing with all of us. We will continue to pray for all of you and remember to get down on our knees and THANK GOD for Audrey’s life and the impact that it will continue to have!

  • Christina

    What beautiful pictures – what a beautiful baby girl. And a beautiful tribute you have written – over and over God uses the most unexpected vessels to reveal himself to us. Thank you for sharing the miracle of Audrey with us.

  • Anonymous

    Thank you, thank you, thank you…
    for sharing your beautiful letter and the amazing images of your daughter.
    She has changed the world.
    Peace
    JoAnn – Wisconsin

  • MyCRenee

    My prayers are with you at this time. God is good! Thank you for sharing with me and letting me be part of Audrey!

  • Miss Jen

    This is just unbelievable. I wish I had time to sit and read thru your whole story. I know I will be up late reading as much as I can tonight.

    I don’t know you and to be honest I’m not sure how I got to your site, it was a link thru from somewhere but it was meant to be. I have been thru a very difficult pregnancy and birth this year too and have had some similar feelings. You’ve put into words many feelings that I’ve had over the last year. Your faith is contagious and I feel better just reading what you wrote.

    I also have 4 daughters, they are amazing and there is just no way to explain the depth of my love and admiration for them.

    I’m not sure what I’m trying to say other than that I have been changed by your story and the letter you wrote to Audrey. I have tried many times to write letters to my girls that express even a fraction of what you have conveyed in yours. Thank you so much for sharing and for letting your sweet little one change hearts and make the world a better place. The world needs more people like you. I hope I can become one of them.

  • John and Brandy

    I was smiling, yet holding back tears. While dealing with my husband’s cancer recently, everyone commented on how much faith we had and how strong we are, but we are NOTHING compared to you! I want to thank you so much for sharing the story and being honest about how much your daughter has changed the world! She is so beautiful and will forever be in my heart, as will you and the rest of your family. Thank you so much and know that we are praying for your comfort and continued understanding! God has given you an amazing blessing and it is one that will last a LIFETIME!!! Thank you again!

    Love and Blessings
    ~brandy

  • Anonymous

    sometimes we get a glimpse of heaven Know your family is in my prayers

  • Liz

    Angie,
    Reading your blog all throughout this journey and today’s entry in your letter to Audrey reminds me of this song by Nichole Nordeman. I’m certain that you’ve heard it a million times, but it was my anthem during a very tragic & difficult part of my own testimony when we had to let go of two children. Isn’t it amazing how these kiddos can make us choose to be brave & courageous? She wrote the song about her son. Enjoy the song: http://youtube.com/watch?v=ecB4i1XcqN8

  • Shelly

    What a beautiful letter to your daughter. What a blessing you are and your family. I will never forget your story nor the beautiful baby you were given for a short time. Besides the Bible, I have never read anything so touching in my life. I pray that the Lord continues to lift you and Todd up and your girls. What a beautiful family you have. The pictures are also beautiful. The photographer does a wonderful job. God Bless all of you.

  • Kathryn

    thank you.

  • Anonymous

    God Bless you and your family. Your daughter is so beautiful. Thank you for sharing with us.

  • crystal

    Audrey is beautiful! Your family is so precious. I came across your story a few days ago and have been praying for you since. I am so glad that Audrey was able to fulfill her part of Gods perfect plan and that her family got to see and love her.

    I admire your faith and your strength. I will keep your family in my prayers. Your story has made me want to strive to be a better mother and Christian. I now want to go to my sleeping babies, gather them up in my arms and just love them with all that I have.

    Your Audrey is perfect. Thank you for sharing.

    Prayers and Love
    Crystal

  • Jillian

    beautiful.

  • Alycia

    Audreay is truly a beauitful child of God and has touched the world with her story. My deepest prayers continue to be lifted up to our Lord for you and your precious family. The Lord brings you to mind throughout the day and I stop to pray at those times for your peace and comfort. Truly, you are touching the lives of so many and giving hope to a world who desparetly needs to know Jesus. I am so sorry that you have had to experience this but may God pour His blessings upon your family for being such a faithful witness of His deep love. Audrey will be remembered always.

    Prayers from Okinawa, Japan…

    Your sister in Christ,
    Alycia

  • The Powell Family

    I have never been touched the way your words just touched my spirit. Audrey has touched me the same way. I have been a Christ follower for years-my husband is a pastor!-but still, little Audrey has changed me. God is so amazing-the way he can use babies to spiriually affect the way we live. I always stay so worried about the way I affect people for Christ-Audrey used no words, no fancy church programming, no expensive flyers…just a beautiful heart. Thanks for sharing your journey, because I am changed for it.

  • Dixie Vandersluys

    Thank you for sharing these moments with us. On a day when I needed perspective as a mother, my tiredness and bitterness has been taken away reading words of pure love. Thank you!

  • Marc and Charity

    Beautiful letter Angie, thank you for sharing it with us. The pictures are just precious and I could hardly see for the tears in my eyes. Bless you Angie, bless your husband and your girls! Thank you Jesus. Be near them right now.

  • Anonymous

    Beautiful!! I am so glad you were able to take pictures. You will cherish them all your life. We too had a similar situation and our lives had been changed forever, but in a good way.(18 years ago) May God continue to bless your wonderful family, Peace and Love to you all.

  • Heather

    She is so beautiful. Your letter brought tears to my eyes and was beautiful!

  • FlipFlop Mom

    This is an amazing letter and testimony of her amazing life…Thank you for sharing this with all of us.. what a blessing you are…

    Tom has WONDERFUL photos!!! He captured her life perfectly!!

    My prayers are with your for peace and comfort….

  • Anonymous

    Thank you for sharing your peace and faith in Christ. When your story could have been so sadly different it is instead redeemed and precious.

    Audrey is beautiful. Bless you.

    Here from the Nester’s blog, Deb Meyers

  • ajc4ever

    I found your blog on Audrey’s birthday, before she was born. I started praying right away and am still praying. Audrey has really touched me. Your letter to her was exquisite. Still praying,

    Angela in Ohio

  • ajc4ever

    Oh goodness, how could I forget to add that she is just beautiful. All of your girls are.

  • K :) Family Historian

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • K :) Family Historian

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • K :) Family Historian

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • K :) Family Historian

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • K :) Family Historian

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • K :) Family Historian

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • K :) Family Historian

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • K :) Family Historian

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • K :) Family Historian

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • K :) Family Historian

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • K :) Family Historian

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • K :) Family Historian

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • K :) Family Historian

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • K :) Family Historian

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • K :) Family Historian

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • K :) Family Historian

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • K :) Family Historian

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • K :) Family Historian

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • K :) Family Historian

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • K :) Family Historian

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • K :) Family Historian

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • K :) Family Historian

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • K :) Family Historian

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • K :) Family Historian

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • K :) Family Historian

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • K :) Family Historian

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • K :) Family Historian

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • K :) Family Historian

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • K :) Family Historian

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • K :) Family Historian

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • K :) Family Historian

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • K :) Family Historian

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • K :) Family Historian

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • K :) Family Historian

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • K :) Family Historian

    Beautifully written. God bless all of you. Simply a precious family.

  • Hollie

    She sure did change the world! What an impact Audrey and the entire Smith family has made in my life.

    Praying with ceasing….and continue to praise Him for His continued love and the unbelievable time you had with Audrey!

  • Anonymous

    She is perfect! God Bless!

    Jessica

  • Jessica

    Beautiful! Just beautiful.

    Beautiful baby, Beautiful God who works wonders! Beautiful mother’s heart – I loved reading your faith journey and seeing God change you through this. Thank you!

  • Broughton Clan

    As I read your blog I just weaped. I am filled with such saddness and joy and respect and grief. I am so sorry about your loss but I too serve a risen Lord who has made her a new creature. I have 2 children of my own and cannot imagine what you have been through. I am praying for you and your family. I know that God allows ALL THINGS to work together for good so I know that this is going to change lives. Who would of thought that God would of used Audrey as such a light and beacon to complete strangers. I will continue to pray for you daily as God renews your mind and body to continue to deal with the loss. I AM CONFIDENT that God is near and watching how you respond to all of this and he is so proud. I brings to mind the story of job and your faithfulness is remarkable. Just remember on days where it seems impossible to get out of bed that “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me” Phil 4:13
    So much love to you and I will constantly have you in my thought and prayers. THanks for sharing your story with me I am truely blessed.

  • Anonymous

    I’ve been following your story and am forever touched. Angie, you are truly amazing. I know Audrey has changed the lives of so many, mine being one, but you girl, have left me awestruck. You are my hero, and wanted to let you know that. Love and prayers to all of you.

  • Tonya

    Angie,

    I’m new to your blog… actually, I just found you through another one. I’m SO SORRY for your loss… my prayers will be with you.

    I’m a mother who’s recently lost a child as well. Our son battled cancer for almost 2 years before going home to be with JESUS. Yes, he was a Christian. He accepted Christ when he was 8 years old on Easter Sunday. God allowed us to witness literal conversations that Brent had with HIM just a couple of weeks before he would go. One of the last of those conversations that I remember hearing was my son asking, “It won’t be long now, will it, LORD?……….. (Then there was a pause, he was listening for his answer)……… then he said, “I knew it. It won’t be long now.” See, we never told our little man he was dying. He’d been really sick before and got better before. Death was never mentioned. We simply told him the truth…. that GOD WOULD HEAL HIM. We knew that GOD could heal his body instantly… and HE did… he was healed COMPLETELY in HEAVEN on January 2, 2007… he was 11 years old) If you’d like to read about his miraculous talks with JESUS you can read them here… (They start around December 16, 2006) http://caringbridge.org/ms/brentnason/history2.htm

    Brent was witnessing to his friends at the age of 4…. his life was a reflection of one “sold out” to GOD. (He was an amazing kid, and I’m NOT just saying that because I’m his Mom) ;-)

    I remember those dreaded talks, the HOPE of CHRIST, and just trying to enjoy every moment we had with Brent. We have 2 other boys (and another child already in HEAVEN – we lost it by miscarriage). Zach & Gabe were able to be with us in our son’s room just moments after he passed. As much as it hurt to let him go, we at peace because we knew he was with his LORD.

    Yes, we are at peace with GOD taking him HOME. We KNOW that we’ll see him again… PRAISE GOD! We’re hoping to use our journey to tell others about GOD’S LOVE for us and how JESUS brings the only TRUE JOY that one will ever experience.

    I’m sure you have oodles of people that want to help. I want you to know that I’m one of them. If you ever want to feel free to email me. My address is nason5@aol.com

    THANKS SO MUCH for allowing the greatest hurt of your lives bring HONOR & GLORY to GOD! You guys are AMAZING!

    Love You, my Sister!

  • Pam

    Your family’s strength and faith in God is truly an inspiration to those of us going through our own difficult days. May God’s peace continue to comfort, may His arms wrap you in His loving embrace. He is so merciful, and I’m so thankful that you had such precious time with her to say goodbye. I was so glad to hear that! I’m sure the days ahead will continue to be a struggle, and we will all continue to pray for you. Have you heard of Hannah’s Prayer Ministries? It is a community of christian woman suffering the grief of infertility, loss of pregnancy or loss of a child. I have found great comfort there for our infertility. I know you would be welcomed.
    In Christ,
    Pam

  • Mandy

    What a beautiful letter to Audrey. (I love her name!) I could not read it through the tears. You have inspired me to write one to my Madeline. Thank you for sharing your heart. I am thinking of you and praying for you and your family.

    God Bless,
    Mandy
    GA
    http://www.madelinegracehopkins.blogspot.com

  • Anonymous

    beautiful…

  • Tracey

    My eyes sting with tears of joy for the blessing God gave you in sweet baby Audrey.

    Thank you for sharing your story. We can’t wait to meet Audrey in heaven along with our baby A.J. and all the saints that went after them because of knowing them.

    Many blessings,
    Tracey

  • Anonymous

    As I read this amazing tribute to your daughter I was completely undone. I hope that someday when I grow up in Christ, I can be just like you:) What a mighty women of God you are!

  • Alice

    No words…other than how beautiful Audrey is and how good God is…

  • Robyn

    Praying for you and your family!!

    Robyn

  • Anonymous

    Ang-
    What an amazing, wonderful, beautiful letter! I am forever touched by your strength, and courage. We need more women in this world like you. Love you girl!
    Your Sister in Christ
    Deb-

  • Anonymous

    There are no words that can describe how absolutely beautiful your whole family is in our eyes. Audrey was precious. Thank you for sharing your most intimate moments with us, mere strangers. You have brought so many closer to Jesus. I’m sure God is smiling down upon you holding Audrey in His arms.

    I will be praying for you and your family as you forge ahead through this difficult time.

  • Anonymous

    I was almost done in by the first picture. That perfect little nose.

    Thank you for sharing you story, the precious gift of you daughter and the lessons she taught all of us.

  • Anonymous

    Dear Angie and Todd,

    Your daughter is so beautiful, just absolutely perfect. I pray for you daily. Thank you for touching my life with your story. Audrey will live on through your words. There is such peace in your faces in the photographs you have posted; I continue to pray that this peace stays with you through the pain.

    Aimee
    Rochester, NY

  • Michele- Mstewart222@yahoo.com

    I cried through the entire letting thinking and feeling your pain as I read it. I can not even begin to imagine how it must have been. I have been praying for you ever since I heard the sad news on Wednesday. I awoke today at 6:10 EST and was told by God to pray for you and I did. The nights are the hardest and longest hours.I wish you peace, comfort and strength as you walk this journey. You are not alone. God is with you, carrying you. I emailed you a story yesterday 4-11-2008.
    In Him,
    Michele

  • MT

    God Bless your little baby…she is beautiful, like an Angel..now in God’s hands.
    I can’t thank for sharing this journey with us…Myh husband and I are going through our own issues with having a baby and there are days I feel sorry for myself…then I read your story and your faith, hope and strength..lifted me to God and made me realize I can walk through whatever God has planned for my family withe peace. I believe God led me to your story to help me and also pray for your family. You are an amazing woman and have a lovely family..I am sorry for you pain but, you are amazing in how you are coping. God is always with us and never lets us down even in our pain.

  • Erika

    Amazing. Beautiful. Incredible. Precious.
    Those are just a couple of words that come to mind after reading your post, Angie. Thank you for sharing your life with all of us. Little Audrey truly has changed the world.
    With many hugs & prayers,
    love in Christ,
    Erika

  • Joni H

    April 11 was my son’s 20th birthday even though he only spent 12 days here on earth with me. This year was the first year I did not cry and it concerned me. And then I heard about your daughter on the radio and curiously sought this out this morning. I haven’t stopped crying since and it feels SO GOOD! So hard to explain but I know you understand what I mean. No matter how many years pass, the love of a lost child does not lessen and therefore the tears still come. But its good. God led me to your page this morning because I know I needed these tears. I feel incredibly lucky to have been chosen to be Daniel’s mother. And I feel just as lucky to have been chosen again four more times since his death and have children here on earth to love as well. Just writing all this out now allows me to move forward with my day. Just live moment by moment for now and ask nothing more of yourself.

  • paige

    oh sweet angie
    what a beautiful priceless letter to amazing audrey.
    thank you for sharing your journey with us. i know that sounds sort of strange, but thank you for letting us witness the power of the lord in you, in your faith, in your sweet mommy’s heart, in your braveness & in the beauty i see as i look at these gorgeous images.
    may you continue to feel his presence with you & your precious family.
    praying continually.
    xo

  • Anonymous

    All I can say is thank you for sharing those life changing moments with the world. Through tears, and feeling your strength, all I can say, she is beautifully and wonderfully made. Her life left a mark, and told such a story, that would take most authors years to write.

    Renee, in Kingston Springs, TN

  • Laurie

    I just heard of your story today from another mommy’s blog I frequent. Your faith and grace during this journey you are on are amazing and a true inspiration. Thank you so much for sharing it. Please know that your family is in our prayers as you navigate the days and weeks ahead. Your letter to your daughter is so amazing and such a blessing to have read. What a lucky little girl Audrey is to have you for a mommy (and a sweet and wonderful daddy too!). Again, thank you for sharing.

    Blessings,
    Laurie

  • Anonymous

    This takes my breath away. Your four beautiful daughters are so lucky to have you as their mother. May God bless your entire family. We are all praying for you.

  • Kimberly ‘Butterfly Wings’

    I’m deeply moved by the faith and courage of your family during this difficult time. Your four little girls are precious blessings from God. Audrey Caroline is such a sweet beautiful angel and has touched my heart and so many others in a profound way.What amazing grace and peace captured in those images… thank you for sharing your faith, courage and your vulnerability. May God continue to shower his grace and blessing upon you. My prayers continue for your family…

    “As a mother comforts her child, so will I comfort you” (Isaiah 66:13)

    “I will not forget you. I have carved you on the palm of my hand. (Isaiah 49:16)

    Peaceful blessings,
    Kimberly

  • Laura B.

    Amazing. God is truly a wonderful God. I will continue to pray for you and your family and that Audrey’s story will continue to change lives – she has certainly changed mine.

    Consider yourselves hugged,
    Laura

  • Kristi

    My heart goes out to you. This was so incredibly sad but also incredibly beautiful. You must be an amazingly strong woman…its great your faith will help you through this. Prayers for you and your family :)

  • Natalie C.

    I don’t know what to say. I wish I had your strength. You are truley a woman of God. I am so sorry for your loss but celebrating that Audrey is with our Father. You and your family are an inspiration to all of us. I myself have 6 children with our Lord, one here with us that we adopted from Guatemala, and one still in Guatemala that may never come home. I will continue to pray for you and know Audrey is with you everyday.

  • Anonymous

    i have no words. how beautiful you are. and your whole family. peace be with you all. and know that the Lord will love little audrey until she is in your arms again. isn’t she a wonderful reminder of just how important we all are to our God. love to the smiths!

  • petrii

    Angie,
    How incredibly beautiful. Thank you again for sharing your heart. God has blessed your readers through you and your family. Continued blessings and peace.

    Love you girl,
    Dawn

  • Nicki

    Dearest Angie…….your words have touched my soul in such a powerful way. As I was reading this…here in Charlotte,NC…..the rain began to fall outside. It’s been cloudy all day, but it’s raining now. I got chills as I read that part of this letter!

    My heart rejoices with you over what this little life accomplished and is accomplishing in the days, weeks, months and years to come. Audrey has left a legacy for all of us!!

    Those pictures were so touching, and thank you for allowing us to be apart of these steps with you. I have been praying and praying for you all, you come on my mind often!!

    Praising God with you for bringing the rain, and praying for the warmth of sunshine to continue to surround you today!!

  • Anonymous

    I don’t even know you I came across your blog just days ago and have fell in love with you and your story. you are an amazing woman. I hve been touched by your story of your sweet little audrey. What a BEAUTIFUL little girl she is!!

    our prayers will be with you and your family as you greive the loss of this PERFECT angel who came into your lives and is now in heaven.

  • Catherine

    What a beautiful letter, Angie. You are truly gifted as a writer, and your heart for God and for your family spills over into your writing that you share with us.

    Thank you for sharing your beautiful daughter with us, all these months, and for the photos.. She is beautiful, we loved her too.

    xoxox,
    Catherine

  • Dobbie and Papa

    There are no words in our language to express what is on my heart today…yes, the closest word is …changed…we are changed forever because you were able to share this journey with us Angie….I ask the sweet Holy Spirit to send His love from me to you and your family today…Gods’ language to the heart…..perfectly spoken and given….

  • Nicole

    I haven’t stopped crying since I found your journal. I just pray that God gives you and your family the strength that you need to keep on. God bless~ Audrey is in heaven. <3

  • Anonymous

    It is so hard to type this because the “ugly” tears are flowing. I mean the ones where it makes your nose flow and you feel like you can’t breathe. I felt as if I was reading a letter from God to his son Jesus Christ. What a testimony Audrey has sent. May the peace that passes all understanding guard you all through the coming days.

  • Megan

    amazingly beautiful. your love, your family, your faith. thank you for sharing this difficult journey so transparently.

  • Kori

    Audrey’s story has touched my life. I have cried and smiled through many of your posts over the last few weeks. You have such courage, love, and faith. Your willingness to be so completely authentic and vulnerable has blessed me and countless others. What you experienced with Audrey in her short time with you reminded me to soak up all I can with my girls – to remember that each moment is a blessing. We are praying for all of you that God would be near.

    With hope,
    Kori

  • Michelle

    Angie-I have an angel baby myself and I have the same peace you have found I don’t know how we do it but we do, I thank God everyday for Baby James and the lessons he taught me in 52 minutes…sending you much love!

  • BoomBotsmom

    You write the way all mothers feel and wish they could express themselves the way you do.

    Many prayers for you and your family. The world is a better place because of Audrey.

  • surfmomma4

    Angie, you never cease to amaze me with your generosity of spirit. Who would think to include all of us in the beautiful letter to your “Angel Audrey”. The pictures are so beautiful and your and Todd and the girls beautiful souls shine through the lens of the generous Uncle who took these picture. Audrey looks so peaceful that I know she is with Her Father in Heaven and in the arms of Jesus. I invite anyone reading this post to go to Audreys daddy’s site, listed on the left of the blog, and listen to his beautiful CD ‘Alive”, and if you feel as moved as I did to purchase it. I don’t know this family personally, so they didn’t ask me to say this, but I know you will enjoy it and want it. God Bless this family with abundance of grace and health and happiness, Dear Lord we pray..Amen
    Susan

  • Anonymous

    What an amazing letter and family. I cried the whole way through and feel blessed to even read your story. Audrey is beyond words beautiful. lots of love to you. Kathy

  • Becca

    Beautiful

  • Anonymous

    Audrey is beautiful, just beautiful. Thank-you for shring these pictures with us “strangers”.
    Your letter is amazing. Thanks for showing us the range of emotions in hard times.

    I read many have come to faith because of your realiness. Christians are not perfect or always happy, we have pain and sorrow too. Praying for you through yours.

  • Kenzie

    What beautiful words to your precious Audrey. Thank you for sharing such intimate thoughts of the time that you spent with her here… all those wonderful months of getting to know her inside you and then finally meeting her face to face. Praise the Lord for His grace, mercy, peace and unconditional love.

    Praying for you family!
    In Christ’s love,
    Kenzie (Maddox’s mommy)

  • melkg

    As a mother who has lost an infant son shortly after birth, my heart hurts and rejoices with you. I also thank you for putting into such beautiful words the feelings an emotions wrapped into such a peaceful and painful moment. We also know the never ending love of our Father as He comforts those in the midst of grief. We pray that He continues to give you comfort in the days to come. Audrey is such a beautiful blessing!

  • Martha

    Precious Family, the photos are gorgeous and I am so thankful for your friend who has blessed you so greatly with 1600 photos. My prayers have been with you everyday, several times a day. I will never forget your precious words and the grace with which you all have handled the homegoing of Angel Audrey. My prayers will continue to be that God will give you precious memories of Audrey’s time with you, a ministry to honor her life, and sweet times with your girls and husband. You are a joy to “know” through the wonders of technology. God bless you now and in the days ahead. Martha

  • Julie

    Thank you so much to your beautiful family for sharing your precious Audrey with us. She is truly exquisite. Thank you for sharing the miracle of Christ in your lives….. You have inspired me to be such a better mother and stronger follower of Jesus. There are no other words, just thank you and we will continue to pray for your family.

    Blessings,
    Julie

  • Dena

    Dear Audrey

    You HAVE changed the world – you have made an incredible impact on people
    you have made me turn off the tv when my 4 year old talks because you have reminded me what a blessing and a gift she is – you have done and seen more than most people ever will

    thank you so much

    Angie

    I had to stop reading several times
    I am not sure I have ever seen a more beautiful family – reading this shows me how awesome God is and how he can work miracles through the smallest people – she is just perfect – i have honestly never seen a baby so beautiful with such perfect features! The family picture is gorgeous! My heart soars and breaks for you all in one moment! God bless your sweet family

  • Samantha Seholm

    What a beautiful letter, I also had a hard time reading it through my tears. Audrey is beautiful thank you for sharing these amazing pictures with us.

    God Bless

    Samantha

  • Salzwedel Family

    Your Audrey is beautiful. I am so thankful you got to hold her & experience her brief, but beautiful life. She has done amazing things for so many people – we praise God for that. We pray also for your loss & hope time & prayer will heal your hearts.

  • The Kahler Family

    It is an honor that you shared your precious photos of such an intimate time with us. Thank you for sharing your life, love and faith with us strangers. Please know that I continue to pray for you and that you are very special to me, a complete stranger.
    Your family is gorgeous. The pictures are too beautiful to describe.
    Angie

  • Anonymous

    I don’t know your family, but I have tears streaming down my cheeks from reading your letter. That was so precious. The pictures are amazing, and your daughters, all 4 of them are beautiful. Your testimony amazes me, may the Lord bless you and your family beyond measure.
    Your sister in Christ,
    Lisa

  • Caleb’s Family

    What a beautiful family. Today is the first time I have read your story. Thank you for reminding me how special it is to be a mommy. You have blessed me and touched me more so than I can ever say. May God be praised and glorified again and again ! Katie

  • Carrie

    How amazing that our great Father can turn such sorrow into such endless joy. What a gift Audrey has been and will continue to be. Your story resonates so closely to my heart after losing a daughter of our own. Incredible how God works in the midst of the storm and provides peace and calm as our eyes are fixated upon Him. God has spoken volumes to me through your daughter. What a joy to be used for God’s kingdom!

  • collybird

    Your beautiful words moved me more than I have ever been moved before and I just want to thank you for what you and your family have done for me; you have reaffirmed my faith entirely.

    There is so much more I would like to say to you but I shan’t bore you but thank you from the bottom of my heart.

    Audrey will always be with you, I am sure of that – an angel who shall never fall.

  • Christine

    She’s perfect…

  • Mrs. Mark Arni

    She is truly BEAUTIFUL! What an incredible family you are through His grace!!! Thank you so much for sharing yourselves with us for His glory.

  • Kim

    Thank you so much for sharing the pictures of your beautiful Audrey Caroline and for opening your heart to us. I feel sad but yet happy for the memories that you have to carry through this life. The testamony that you can share with others in their time of need. Your words are so strong and gives strength to the weary. God truely has a plan for you and Audrey. I can’t wait to see what it is! You have a very beautiful family and God will bless you all for your trust in Him to carry you through this. I look forward to seeing more precious pictures of Audrey Caroline with her family.
    Continually praying,
    Kim Medlin

  • Anonymous

    I don’t even know you but I know you are such an amazing woman!
    I managed to read through your blog through many tears. Thank you for sharing your story! Very inspiring!
    Michelene in Montana

  • Susan

    The sweetest thing I think I have ever had the privledge to read. May God hold you all in the palm of His hand!

  • KELLY

    What a beautiful, full-of-Jesus testimony of his love for all of you and Audrey, how he knew she would change the world, how she would change all of you and everyone you had the “chance” to run across this blog or to know your family. I continue to pray for God’s peace to rain upon you and your family. God bless you all, and thank you for sharing sweet Audrey with us.

  • kjoy

    What a beautiful letter, an amazing testament that Audrey has been to your family and to the world. I just discovered your blog 4 days ago and feel like I’ve known you for years. I am not a mother, but I can’t help crying for the love and faith and grace that pours through your writing. I am so happy for the time you were given with Audrey, and I hold you all in prayer for the days and weeks to come. Thank you so much for sharing your words and pictures.

    Krista Joy
    Missouri

  • MBKimmy

    I don’t know how you will ever read all of your comments, but I do know that you will FEEL the prayers and the LOVE that we all have for you and your family! Thank you so much for sharing and bringing me closer to God!

  • Anonymous

    Tonight as I walked through the electronics department of the retailer for whom I work, one of the guys was playing a Selah CD and ‘It is Well With My Soul’ was on. I stopped, even though being paged, pondered and prayed for you. When I had the chance, I came back to the department and shared with him about Audrey Caroline – he had heard of her impending birth when you were in Elkhart, IN. Trust His heart – Becky

  • Fran

    I sit here with tears. But, I’m praising Jesus for the beautiful work He is doing in your life. Oh, He is simply beautiful.

    Thank you for sharing with us.
    Thank you for the beautiful pictures of Audrey and your entire family!

    In Christ,
    Fran

  • Angie Wyatt

    Audrey is beautiful! Thanks for sharing the pictures. I pray for you and your family and I know God will give you the strength to get through each day. You are truly an amazing women. You talked about how may lives Audrey has touched well the same can be said for you.

    Love in Christ

  • Anonymous

    What a beautiful incredible journey God is taking you guys on!

    The tears have been flowing with the bittersweet -ness of trusting our God but walking thru the valley of the shadows.

    Thank you for sharing this beautiful precious season, I have been greatly blessed by your words and your courage.

    Our God works in ways that are too intricate to understand.

    Those pictures are too precious for words.

    May He bless you and hold you!
    Love Donna

  • Tina

    Words are escaping me as I sit here in tears for you, wishing you could hold your sweet Audrey, yet knowing God is incredibly good.

    You look so radiant and beautiful in those photos Angie. And your sweet baby is beautiful. I can’t wait to see more.

    Continued prayers….

  • Mocha with Linda

    I absolutely LOVE Selah. I had posted on my blog today about how much I love their arrangement of Be Still My Soul and one of the commenters told me about your site and sweet Audrey.

    I just read many of your posts beginning with January. My heart breaks for the heartache you are experiencing.

    Yet I rejoice for the peace that passes ALL understanding that only He can provide. What an incredible blessing you are already in the midst of this.

    I pray God will continue to hold you close in the days and nights ahead.

  • Anonymous

    I am very sorry for the loss of your daughter. I know that you will take comfort in God at this time.

  • Anonymous

    God Bless you and your family. You and Audrey and your family have changed my life instantly. When I read your blog and especially your beautiful tribute, peace and tranquility enter my home. Thoughts of anxiety and stress leave me and right now as I write this I am overwhelmed with the beautiful scent of heavy rainfall coming through my screened back door.
    You are a beacon of light and hope through the power of Jesus Christ.

    Whitney Lloyd

  • Hillary

    Your letter is so touching and these pictures are breathtaking and beautiful. My eyes flood with tears everytime I look at them. I am so glad you were able to have those cherished moments photographed! Praying for you every day!

  • Patty

    Such a beautiful family, and a beautiful post. Praying for you all.

  • Rachel

    what an amazing letter to your angel. you are an amazing woman angie. thank you for sharing your story…

    in our prayers forever,

    Rachel

  • Leigh Ann

    You don’t know me, but I have prayed for you, Angie. Those pictures are just absolutely beautiful. I am so thankful to God that you and your family had that precious time with your Audrey. Such beautiful daughters you have! Audrey has touched my heart and I’ll never forget.
    Leigh Ann, Arkansas

  • Pamela

    The tears flow as I read your beautiful letter. God has granted you such wisdom and insight. Thank you for sharing Audrey with us.

  • MOBACH’S

    I don’t know you but as I read your words the tears are falling. Thankyou for your beautiful story. God is using you and your family. Audrey was and is beautiful. I can’t wait to one day meet your beautiful daughter in heaven!

  • diane

    Audrey, I didn’t get a chance to meet you when you were on this earth. But, you’re an inspiration to me also. So is your mommy. I am a young mother (22) of a little boy. My husband and I got pregnant with him before we were married, and we debated our decision on what to do. God decided he should be apart of our family and I’m glad he did. I empathize with the joy you brought your mother, and I cannot wait until I get to meet you in Heaven. Your family has been such an inspiration, and I continue praying for them. Thanks for all you’ve done and how you’ve changed me. :)

  • Sarah

    The wonder and awe of our God. Your baby Audrey was beautiful and what an awesome gift you were given to spend those few hours with her. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
    Sarah, TX

  • Jen and My Little Family

    I am speechless…

    Prayers continue for the rough and joyous days ahead. Keep telling her story.

  • Judd & Keiauni

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Judd & Keiauni

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Judd & Keiauni

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Judd & Keiauni

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Judd & Keiauni

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Judd & Keiauni

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Judd & Keiauni

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Judd & Keiauni

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Judd & Keiauni

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Judd & Keiauni

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Judd & Keiauni

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Judd & Keiauni

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Judd & Keiauni

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Judd & Keiauni

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Judd & Keiauni

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Judd & Keiauni

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Judd & Keiauni

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Judd & Keiauni

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Judd & Keiauni

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Judd & Keiauni

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Judd & Keiauni

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Judd & Keiauni

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Judd & Keiauni

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Judd & Keiauni

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Judd & Keiauni

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Judd & Keiauni

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Judd & Keiauni

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Judd & Keiauni

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Judd & Keiauni

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Judd & Keiauni

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Judd & Keiauni

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Judd & Keiauni

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Judd & Keiauni

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Judd & Keiauni

    You are a poet of the spirit, and I felt your daughter’s precious soul touch my heart, when I read your words. I want to pour out every ounce of love in my heart to your family at this time.

    Bless all of you.

    He loves and blesses us all.

  • Kalyn

    Thank you. Thank you for opening your heart to us. Audrey will never be forgotten!!!

  • Kristi

    Absolutely beautiful. Thank you so much for sharing your story, and your precious girl with us. Your family is beautiful, and you are blessed. May God bring your family peace and healing.

  • laura

    audrey is so beautiful.

    thank you for sharing your amazing story and your daughter with the world.

    *tears*

  • mimisherry

    I am truly amazed by your gift of writing….I have been following your story, praying for you on this journey so unexpected. But far more than your truly awesome gift of words is your truly amazing strength of character, your passion and FAITH in the midst of something that most of us could never handle, let alone do so with the great grace as YOU have done. Your whole family has done….
    Angie, your posts throughout this journey have been resoundingly beautiful, eloquant and deeply personal and touching even when the pain had to be more than you could ever bear!
    You are a perfect example of living out God’s amazing love and grace and I for one am finding your example incredibly inspiring and moving. Thank you for sharing your story, and for sharing your precious little Audrey…….I will never forget her!!!!
    ~Sherry

  • Pam

    That was the most beautiful letter I have ever read. Your family is precious. Thanks for sharing Audrey with us.

  • Debbie

    I came across your story on CBB a few nights ago and it profoundly touched my heart. I immediately read it from beginning to end. I can’t even begin to imagine the pain and anguish that you have suffered. I lost a child when I was ten weeks pregnant. That loss devastated me so I can only imagine what you have had to endure. I know that God has a reason for everything he does yet I didn’t know what that reason was until I became pregnant with my daughter one year to the exact day that I lost my first child. After all the pain I endured, God gifted me with my daughter. We never knew the sex of the baby we lost but my husband and I both felt it was a girl so we have called her Hailey for nine years. I take comfort in knowing that one day I will see and hold my daughter in heaven.
    I am so happy that you got to spend those precious hours with Audrey. Those moments will be forever treasured by you.
    I know that you will overcome this because your faith in God is unwaivering. You are an inspiration to christian women everywhere. I commend the strength and faith that you have in God.
    Thank you for allowing me to be a part of your precious daughters brief but meaningful life. I will never forget you or your family. You have forever touched me, I will never be the same person I was before I read your blog. May God be with you Angie and also with Todd and your three beautiful little girls. He is the strength that will hold you up during this time but I don’t need to tell you that because reading your blog taught me so much about relying on God and showed me the true meaning of faith. God bless you Angie!

  • bobbie

    The stupidity of some people just absolutely amazes me!!!

  • Kathy

    Oh, she’s so beautiful! She fits right in with your precious little girls. You are a beautiful family…I see so much of the peace of God upon each of you in the pictures.

    Thank you for all you do, Angie…and thank You, Jesus, for all You are.

    Much love and prayers…

    Kathy~

  • Heather

    Sweet Audrey Caroline, you have changed my life. Your story has touched me deeper than I could have ever imagined, and I am beyond blessed to have been a part of it in any way.

    Dear Angie, Todd and girls – you are continually in my thoughts and prayers. We love you.

  • Ani

    Beautiful letter to your daughter Audrey. Thank you for sharing her with the rest of us. God bless.

  • Three Fold Cord

    OH MY!!!!!! How beautiful those pictures are and your letter…amazing! My prayers were with you while I was out of town and it was precious to see your blog when i got back. Continuing to pray for you and your sweet family.

    Charlotte

  • Anonymous

    So much love. Beautiful.

    Love

    Jane from Australia

  • Anonymous

    So so beautiful….thank you for sharing that letter and your heart.

    Much love & prayers,
    Krista

  • Tylertopia

    Thank you so very much for sharing your heart. This is the most beautiful post I have ever read. The letter to Audrey and her precious photos are truly an amazing gift you have shared with all of us. We will continue to lift up your family in prayer and praise God that you were all able to meet her and love on her while she was here on Earth. And praise God she is now with Him in Heaven and healed! Indeed, your precious little one has changed the world.

    ~Tyler Family

  • Michelle

    I wish the world could see you as I see you
    Wish they knew the joys you’ve brought to me
    So many people quick to judge us
    and see you as someone who shouldnt be

    They tell me that your life is not worth living
    if they were I, they would have never let you live
    They cannot know the thing it is that we know
    They will never know how much you have to give

    They talk a lot of sacrifice and burden
    They imagine that your being is our loss
    How can they know you saved me when you found me
    when I never even knew that I was lost.

    True enough, my world has changed forever
    nothing in it is as it was so long ago
    Your entry in our world has changed so many things
    but none so much as they have changed my soul.

    Why do we live our lives at all then
    if there is some race that we must finish first
    Why do we deny ourselves it all then
    we drown so that we may quench our thirst

    You taught me to stop and smell the tulips
    they are different than the roses, this is true
    their scent is in my every pore now
    I never would have known them without you

    To all the many people who would not choose you
    who think your life is somehow tragedy
    I say you have outlived them and outloved them
    I am grateful God chose you just for me

    You love your life and everyone thats in it
    you shine your light without knowing that you do
    Illuminate the darkness with your sparkle
    my child, my love, my life, thank God for you. ~Michelle Harmon

  • Michelle

    the first part of that message got cut off…I wrote this for MY daughter a few years ago. She has Down syndrome. The referance to tulips is a DS thing. I thought maybe it fits for Audrey, too.

  • Adriann

    A beautiful love letter from mother to a daughter. Thank you so much for sharing your testimony. Will be praying for God’s continued favor in your lives.

    Blessings!!!

  • Nicole A.

    My tears are flowing like a river after reading this particular post and seeing the pictures of your precious little girl. What a beautiful family God has blessed you with!

    I have been reading your blog from time to time, but haven’t commented until now. Please know that you & your family are in my thoughts & prayers. I believe there is a song by Michael W. Smith called “Healing Rain.” I’ve heard it once before and it is oh so powerful. Be sure to check it out if you haven’t already.

    Take care & God Bless,
    Nicole from PA

  • Danielsmommy

    Your story is amazing. I’ve read through some of the comments and am in awe of how many lives your story has touched.
    Gods blessings to you and your family!

  • Anonymous

    What a beautiful family you have!!! Four GORGEOUS girls! I wonder what little Audrey is doing today in Heaven? What a thought…that she is with Jesus!!!! Can’t you just imagine?!?!

    Praying for you today!
    Amy in Texas

  • Anonymous

    I went to church today and was struck by the second reading from the First Book of St. Peter.
    “Indeed this is part of your calling. For Christ suffered for you and left you a personal example, and wants you to follow in his steps. ‘Who committed no sin, nor was guile found in his mouth’. Yet when he was insulted he offered no insult in return. When he suffered he made no threats of revenge. He simply committed his cause to the one who judges fairly. And he personally bore our sins in his own body on the cross, so that we might be dead to sin and be alive to all that is good. It was the suffering that he bore which has healed you. You had wandered away like so many sheep, but now you have returned to the shepherd and guardian of your souls…And if it should happen that you suffer “for righteousness’ sake”, that is a privilege.” First Letter of St. Peter, 2:21-25, 3:15

  • Barbara

    A precious day with a precious child results in precious memories.
    Love the ones you are with.
    -Houston TX

  • Anonymous

    Angie & Todd, I’m not sure how I stumbled on your story but it is indeed amazing and bears witness to the miracles of a loving God. The photos of Audrey and your family are beautiful. Thanks for sharing your faith and may God continue to sustain you and allow you to be witnesses for others.

    With good thoughts and prayers for your family.

    Ciao,
    Dee Rasmussen

  • ADB

    Your faith is AMAZING to me! As I read your story I was crying out to God for you and your family! I long to have this same kind of faith in the Lord! God is being glorified! You and your family will be in my prayers!!!

  • LeslieW.

    What beautiful pictures and sentiments. Your words are so moving and beautiful. God is going to do great things with your story. Praise Him for his mercy and loving kindness. I pray that He envelops you are you family in his healing arms.

  • Anonymous

    Thank you for sharing your story with us, for bearing your heart and soul and letting Audrey show how great the Lord is. She is a beautiful gift and I am so happy  you were able to spend time with her. You and your family continue to be in my thoughts and prayers. May God’s peace be with you during this time.

    Tara Lea

  • Erica

    What an amazing letter, thanks for sharing. I had goose bumps the entire time! She is beautiful, and I still pray for your family. *hugs and loves*

  • Anonymous

    Just wanted you to know I am thinking of you all and your daughters story have reach all the way to sweden.Audrey looks so so precious ,so sweet,so perfect!
    //Johanna

  • Anonymous

    Words are hard to say how I feel for the pain that you all are going through. Been praying for your family ever since I heard Selah at the Midland concert here in Michigan, when they were sponsering the New Hope girls home. When Todd said what you all were going through, my heart was touch. I too lost a little girl when I was 9 weeks along. Got hold that little fetus in my hands. But I have not went through the pain that you have Angie. You will all still be in my thoughts and prayers through the coming day. God Bless you all!

  • Anonymous

    If we could choose our lives, we would probably never choose as much suffering as your family went through. Yet God used it to accomplish more than anyone ever could imagine. Your story inspires me to be courageous.

    Romans 5:3-5 Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; [4] perseverance, character; and character, hope. [5] And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us. NIV

    EPH 3:20 Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, [21] to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen. NIV

  • nancy in ky

    I just found your blog through another link today and have literally spent hours today reading through your story. Thank you for sharing what the Lord has been showing you through all of this. It meant so much to me when you reminded me of how even Jesus had scars after the resurrection.

    Thank you for sharing the little ways that God has ministered to you through all of this. He does the same thing with me as well and it touched my heart how the bunny had a mark on it and the picture of the baby as an angel. And the rain/rainbow in Ireland.

    And how you fit in a lifetime with a little one that you only got to hold in your arms for a few hours. I just walk away reminded of just how gracious and gentle the Lord is.

    My prayers go out to your family. May God continue to strengthen and comfort you as only He can.

  • Anonymous

    I only learned of your story last week-but you have been on my heart,on my mind, and in my prayers so much.

  • Anonymous

    Oh Angie……. You are right…. Praise the Lord for all he does…. My heart ache so much for you and your family…. I have not been able to stop crying for a while…. You are so sweet and unselfish… thank you for sharing those beautiful picturesof Audry… she is so beautiful, perfectly formed, and I’m glad that she’s not suffering, but she is in HIS arms, HE will watch and protect her and soon, VERY SOON you will all be together with her in heaven… what a glorious day that will be when she ran to your arms and say here I am, a perfect little girl, no pain, and no more separation.
    My prayer now is that you continue to grow in the Lord so that day when HE comes to get us we are ready.
    God Bless you and your family, and our prayers will continue for the Lord to keep bringing you peace and comfort.
    Todd, the Lord Blessed you first of all with an incredible woman, always rejoice in HIM for his valuable gift to you. Take care of her and protect her always.
    May the Lord be with you and keep you in his wings.
    Judy

  • Tara

    I feel blessed to have been able to read you story. I have not gone through what you have but I feel closer to God somehow through it all. Audrey was a beautiful baby and the strenght that you and your family has is a blessing in itself. Your letter to her is just amazing.The pictures that were taken capture it all! I hope that your are all doing well. I am sure that you are feeling the lose but family and friends and God will bring you comfort. I feel I might have been out of touch with my faith until I read your story. It is renewed and I thank you for it. I hope that peace is among you and your family right now. My prayers go up for you.
    With love
    Tara

  • Major Mom

    Words fail me. You are a true testament to the Christian faith. Beautiful family, beautiful faith.

  • PetiteCheri

    Oh my! Angie you and your family are such an inspiration. Your writing is so eloquent and real. Thank you for sharing Audrey with us and the miracle of her life. She really has changed lives!

  • Anonymous

    Angie- words can not describe the deep sadness I feel for you and your family right now, yet the joy I feel knowing your precious little girl is in Heaven walking anf talking with God. You all will be in my prayers in the days, weeks, and months ahead!

  • Tina

    Audrey is beautiful!
    I was crying and smiling with you as I read the letter to your sweet baby girl.
    THANK YOU for sharing your story!

  • Francine

    I can’t hardly write the comment for crying. What a amazing story to share and oh how MY life has forever been changed by a little girl and a mommy with amazing faith in God. Thank you for being willing to share on this blog your story . I will continue to lift you and your family in prayer and will rejoice as you asked for Audrey’s healing! Praise the Lord. For the 2 hours you had her Praise the Lord and for God carrying you through it all Praise the Lord. You are truly a amazing woman and family. May God bless you and continue to heal you in the days to come. I will never forget this precious little girl and her story.
    In christ,
    Francine Howell

  • Jodie Adams

    I know that we don’t know each other but for some reason God brought me here today to read your story. You see it was like reading my own story. I too lost a child (Conner Jeremy) with similar problems on November 20, 2005. At 17 weeks, I got the news that he had no fluid and wouldn’t live. I had the choice of either carrying him or aborting him. I too couldn’t abort my living little miracle inside me. He stayed with me for 33 weeks and changed my life forever. Audrey and Conner were put here for a greater purpose than we can even imagine. Isn’t it wonderful knowing that they changed people’s lives and are sitting with Jesus now? I know you understand my pain like no other. I unfortunately didn’t get to have any time with Conner, but I am happy that you got 2 1/2 hours with your daughter. That is such a blessing that I know you hold dear. If I could give you a huge hug, I would today. I have a few poems I want to share with you. I am going to post them to my blog today so if you get the chance read them, they are very special and touching. I will keep you and your family in my prayers. Conner was my first child and I will always keep him close to my heart as I know you do your little Audrey. After 2 1/2 years I am expecting a new miracle. She is due on May 4th. I was feeling a little down and out this morning because I am so anxious to see her and then I read your blog. Thank you for lifting me up and helping me remember that all things are in God’s time and for his purpose. May God bless you and yours. Take care. Love accross the miles, Jodie Adams

  • Kathi

    Angie, Thank you for posting about Audrey. I just came across your blog today. It has been very healing for me. We’ve experienced 4 deaths since the end of February including a very good friend of ours (who was a 39 year old father of 6) and was killed in a car crash. Last week a good friend of our 14 year old daughter was also killed in a car crash. It’s been an exhausting and emotionally draining period of time for us. Although I don’t understand God’s plans, I know that He is good and He is loving. Thank you for sharing your beautiful story. I am praying for you.

  • Tina Vega

    So beautiful, the words – the pictures… the legacy.

  • Sarah

    May God’s peace, comfort, and grace blanket your family tonight.

  • Em

    She is beautiful. You have a beautiful family and I am so glad that you will forever have these precious moments captured on film.

    You are still in my prayers
    Em
    Australia

  • winecat

    Dear Todd and Angie,
    I’m one of the people who came because of celebritybabyblog.

    You are a beautiful family. Your four daughters have been truly blessed to have the gift of you as their parents.

    peace and blessing to you and yours.

  • Angie

    Thank you for sharing the wonderful pictures. How awesome to have those to cherish. God is truly awesome to have given you that time with sweet little Audrey. We continue to pray for you and your family. What a precious family you have. And your ablitly to write is beautiful. God Bless you through this difficult time. And thank you for sharing this story with us. Tears roll out of my eyes for you. Praying for you Angie in Adrian, MN

  • strawberry rose

    I’m so thankful that the Lord blessed you with such a sweet time with your little girl. May God continue to hold you and your family in His arms during this time.

  • Sears Kids

    Dear precious family in Christ,
    I don’t know you (but hope to someday when we are all in the presence of our Great God!). A friend sent me the link to your blog. My prayer for you is that God will comfort you beyond anything you could ever imagine. Thank you for your story and sharing your sweet daughter, you have encouraged me to love my children even more.
    Lovingly,
    Jennifer

  • emilybudogs

    I have just spent the last hour and a half reading your story from the beginning. I came from another blog where your page was linked. I have shed many tears, lifted up many prayers, and rejoiced with you for the blessings that Audrey brought your family and the world! No words I can say can express my gratitude for sharing your story and allowing God to touch so many through your journey. May He continue to wrap you in His arms of love and bring you peace.

    Emily (Ohio)

  • Tiffany

    Even though I have a loss for words, my heart is heavy with many thoughts and prayers for you. This letter to Audrey has filled me with so many emotions.

    I think and pray for you and your family EVERY day.

    Bless you Angie and your husband and daughters, too.

  • Lisa

    What a beautiful letter you’ve written to your daughter. It brought tears to my eyes. The pictures are so beautiful! My thoughts and prayers are with your entire family.

  • Mocha with Linda

    I know I’m one of so so many that you don’t even know (and I’ve already commented once!) but I just have to tell you how much this has been on my heart since I heard about it and read your blog last night.

    I mentioned that I had posted Be Still My Soul on Saturday just because I love the group Selah. Well, your story is now posted and linked on my blog, and I know Audrey will continue to impact lives as others continue to visit.

    What a precious family you are. I know there are many long days ahead, and I know God will continue to be faithful to walk through every one of them with you.

  • velma96

    I am amazed as I read your story. Amazed at how the Lord has worked through little Audrey to touch the lives of so many people. Amazed at how peaceful your family has been through the process. Amazed at how the story of someone I’ve never met has brought me to tears on more than one occasion. Your family is beautiful, and you are all in my prayers. Thank you for sharing your story with us.

    In His Grip…
    Kristal

  • SommerNyte

    She is an absolutely gorgeous and your letter to her is beautiful. My heart goes out to you and your family.

  • Chrissy

    What a beautiful letter to your baby girl. All of my feelings and then some…I too have a baby girl in Heaven as of Easter Sunday of this year. She too has impacted the world and I am honored to be her mommy. Thinking of you tonight…

  • Heather in Nashville

    Thank you again for opening up and sharing your heart, Angie. Audrey is a world-changer! I praise the Lord for her and her precious story. :)

  • Anonymous

    Angie,
    I have been following your story closely and had not had a chance to read for a week. I felt led to read your blog tonight as my daughter anna is having life threatening brain surgery tommorrow. I cried and cried reading about Audrey’s homecoming. She has no pain and suffering and is in the arms of her savior.
    I pray for your family as you watch the miracle the Lord is creating with Audrey’s short life.
    Thank you for touching my life today at a moment when I needed it most.
    Mariquita- mom to Anna age 12

  • Kel

    She is beautiful.You are very brave.
    Thank you for sharing her with us.
    Thinking of you.
    Kelly in Switzerland.
    ox

  • Anonymous

    thank you to share with us this precious little girl and your wonderful family! You are a wonderful mother

    doris
    germany

  • Jenty

    What a beautiful tribute to your beautiful daughter.
    (((HUGS))) and prayers to your whole family.

  • Anna

    What a beautiful tribute to a beautiful little girl! Thank you for sharing your story, your strength, and your faith. May God bless you always!

  • Clairbear101

    That was a lovely letter and you are a very special woman to open your heart soo bravely.
    I am thinking of you and your family.
    You have a beautiful family and with a mother like you they will grow to be even more beautiful. xx

  • Marcy

    Your story reminds me of the story in Samuel about David and Bathsheba’s son. He weaped and pleaded for his life, but once it was taken he rejoiced that his son with with the Lord. You have such a gift for writing and your letter is so beautiful. Thank you for sharing your story with us so we can all be blessed by Audrey’s life! Your family is still in my prayers!

  • Colleen & Bill

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Colleen & Bill

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Colleen & Bill

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Colleen & Bill

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Colleen & Bill

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Colleen & Bill

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Colleen & Bill

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Colleen & Bill

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Colleen & Bill

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Colleen & Bill

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Colleen & Bill

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Colleen & Bill

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Colleen & Bill

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Colleen & Bill

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Colleen & Bill

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Colleen & Bill

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Colleen & Bill

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Colleen & Bill

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Colleen & Bill

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Colleen & Bill

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Colleen & Bill

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Colleen & Bill

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Colleen & Bill

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Colleen & Bill

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Colleen & Bill

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Colleen & Bill

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Colleen & Bill

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Colleen & Bill

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Colleen & Bill

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Colleen & Bill

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Colleen & Bill

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Colleen & Bill

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Colleen & Bill

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Colleen & Bill

    Dear Smith’s,
    Your letter to Sweet Audrey was beautiful! And so very touching. Thank you for sharing this journey so us. THinking and praying for you all!
    ~Colleen

  • Anonymous

    i am sorry
    be strong

  • Kimberly

    She is beautiful..thanks for sharing. Still in my thoughts and prayers!

  • Adventures In Babywearing

    Your photos are breathtaking. I am so very sorry for your loss.

  • Lori

    wow…i have tears and goosebumps as i read your letter. God is amazing…and has given you a strength that amazes and encourages me! i’m still praying for you and your family…and know that God will continue to use Audrey’s life to show the world His grace and love!!

  • kim

    That is a amazing testamint to the strength of you and your family. How our Father must love you and know that you all were strong enough to provide Audrey with enough love and happiness for her time here. Also I believe that you are right there are so many people (r maybe just one) who NEEDED to hear your story. Also What beautiful pictures, to look at them you feel the spirit beaming from your countinice. So much love and prayers.

  • Anonymous

    A girl in my office told me about your blog and your story. This post was so beautiful! You and your family are inspirations and the love of God is reflected in you and Todd, as well as all four of those precious girls!

  • Aimee

    Dear precious Smith family~
    I am overwhelmed at your generosity of sharing your precious daughter with us. The pictures are very sweet and I am sure will be a beautiful capture of such a short, but meaningful life. Audrey Caroline has been heavy on my heart for weeks and as this week approached I prayed more than I ever have. The miracle that she did live, that you had time with her, its awesome to see the power of God and know that He IS in control. Your faith has been an inspiration to me and I hope that I can be a beacon to others as you all have done.
    Know that your family will be in my prayers for many days and weeks to come and I will faithfully check your blog for any updates. The Selah group has long been a favorite of mine and I have been listening to all of their CDs religiously lately.
    To God be the glory!
    Aimee ~ Minnesota

  • Mandy

    I first found your blog on Friday and have been continuously thinking about your family and praying for Audrey ever since. As I lifted your family in prayer yesterday during church and cried for your daughters, I felt a certain peace. My prayer now is that you and Todd feel the same peace. You are truly an inspiration. Audrey is not the only one changing the world, my friend.

    Mandy
    http://www.3kids2jobs1dog.com

  • Anonymous

    I’ve caught up with your blogs over recent days through a family member of mine’s page, http://vietnambabygirlsmith.blogspot.com/.

    Oh the tears that have fallen. Thank God for people like you that bring inspiration and strength to this world. No words can say how much you have touched me this past week. God is amazing, his works are amazing!

    Carrie
    Jacksonville, FL

  • Marla Taviano

    I just spoke to a group of 16 ladies yesterday on motherhood.

    I read Audrey’s letter. Not a dry eye in the room.

    Praying for you as you miss her!

  • Suzanne

    Beautiful!!! Your family has really touched me as I newly found your blog this week. You are all in my thoughts.

  • The Harper Family

    What a beautiful family of five! God has truly blessed you with four precious daughters. My heart rejoices with you over sweet baby Audrey! I have prayed so often for her over the last weeks, I feel like I know her personally. I will continue to lift you and your family up to the throne of God. You have been an amazing testimony to me and so many others. May God bless your family!
    Lots of love and prayers,
    Lori
    Southwest Arkansas

  • Brooklyn

    Angie,
    I know I am a complete stranger to you and also that there have been 381 comments prior to mine but I jsutwant to let you kow that you ahve touched my heart today in a way that I can’t even explain. You see, I have been pretty angry at God over the past few months as my daughter Brooklyn was diagnosed with Rett Syndrome. We have watched her lose her ability to crawl, speak, fed herself, and use her hands. It has been an agonizing year to say the least. I am a Christian and have not lost faith through it all but I just feel “different” towards Him. A friend of mine sent me the link to your blog and I am so glad she did. Your faith is amazing and your words of love and praise touched my heart today. Thank you. God is good and I know that….I just have not felt that for awhile. Reading your words and listening to the music has softened my heart – opened my eyes – and touched me. Thank you. From the bottom of my heart.
    Kelly
    Mom to Brooklyn (almost 3)
    http://www.brooklynbutler.blogspot.com

  • =^..^=

    PRAISE GOD ! Praise God Audrey is healed ! Thank you Angie, for this beautiful testimony. Audrey is certain to bring throngs of new believers to Christ through her life. You too, are quite a miracle. To handle such personal aching with such public grace – God has worked a miracle through you….through your mind and through your body. ALL HAIL THE POWER OF JESUS’ NAME !

  • ashlee

    It is through tears I write this, not tears of sadness, but tears of knowledge in the One who sees all and knows all and had a PERFECT plan for your sweet Audrey. Your words have touched me in a way I cannot explain. I have been through something similar in my life and my heart was so settled by your thoughts and prayers to our awesome Father. Angie, your family has become a constant part of my prayer life, connecting me to God in a way I haven’t been for sometime. And for that alone I thank you. May He continue to use this beautiful story to bring Him glory in the lifetime ahead:)

  • Mamita J

    Thank you for sharing your heart in such a beautiful way. I’ll be praying for your family as you walk through this valley.

    In the darkest place, He is there.

    In Christ,
    Julie

  • Pipsylou

    I don’t have anything to say that hasn’t already been said.

    You are, quite obviously, being carried.

  • Sarah Ski

    How fortunate your daughters are, to have such a loving and faithful mother! My prayers are with you and your family, that in the next weeks and months will bring you healing. I read through your blog for the first time today – I’m in awe of your faith and strength. May God continue to bless you.

  • Anonymous

    I am so very sorry for your loss. I lift you up in prayer,
    Blessings from England

  • Jenny

    God bless you and your beautiful family. You are all in my hearts and prayers. Your Audrey is beautiful.

    God Bless.
    Jen

  • Andrea

    Your letter is beautiful and is very touching to read (through the tears). God bless your family and your beautiful Audrey! Your faith is amazing and a powerful testimony of God’s great love! I will keep your family in my prayers as the days progress for you. I love Mercy Me’s “Bring the Rain” as well…and have my own testimony about the song, but hearing yours is sooo amazing! It’s so amazing how God chose to to use your situation to draw people closer to Him – that’s no coincidence, GOD is the coincidence! Blessings and Prayers!

  • Kevin, Kari and kids…

    Yesterday our pastor was in the middle of a series called Heaven. I thought about your little Audrey for a good part of it. One thing that hit me was when he said that husbands that lose their wives are called widowers, wives that lose their husbands are called widows and children that lose their parents are called orphans. Incidentally, there is no term to describe the pain of a parent that has lost a child! We’re praying for your entire family as you begin this new chapter in your lives. Thanks for allowing us to peer into your lives and see the joy and the pain. I’ve been encouraged to see the strength Christ has given you in the midst of it all and catch a glimpse of Heaven and all that’s to come!

  • The Girl in the Office

    Beautiful. I hope that everyone that reads this sits back and thanks God for all the gifts they’ve been given in their life, just as you have.

  • Anonymous

    Your letter to Audrey is the most beautiful letter I have ever read in my entire life…..I am blown away and deeply touched. Audrey has the face of an angel……Your strength is truly an inspiration to me and my family…. All of our thoughts, Barbara, Michael and baby “Grace”

  • Anonymous

    As I watched our church dance team prsent the Selah song “Wonderful, Merciful Savior” yesterday in service, I could not help but think of your family, and be thankful for the truth of the line that says, “You bring the healing and grace our hearts always hunger for…” Your family, your story, your precious children, are tools in the hands of Jesus. May His comfort, peace, healing and grace continue to cover your lives.

  • Sara

    I am 39 weeks pregnant and just read your post… beautiful. Even in the midst of sadness God is there and God is good! Thank you for sharing your journey.

  • Anonymous

    You and your family are really amazing,you taught me a really big and important lesson!My hearts is right next to you in this difficult time!She’s preciuos…a true angel of God!God bless you and your family!

    Chiara

  • Erica

    wow, 400 posts…how many have been touched and not commented. What an amazing little girl with an amwazing testimony!

  • Anonymous

    Thank you so much for sharing your story… it truly has touched so many lives and brought God the utmost glory!

  • Corrine

    As the mother of an Angel daughter your letter touched my heart in so many ways. May you find peace knowing that your daughter is amongst the Angels now.

  • Megan L Hutchings

    Everytime I read your blog my eyes overflow with tears. Praying always for your days ahead, but your four daughters are beautiful!

  • Anonymous

    I read your story through another blogger, just when I thought I cannot be moved any more…BAM
    First you are a beautiful family and that alone tells me why God chose you for this precious baby. No one could be more blessed than to be sent home to Jesus the way Audrey was sent home , with her proud sisters and adoring parents with her as she quietly passed.
    Tahnk You for sharing your Happiness and Tears.

    Maria

  • maryanne420

    can i just tell you how your letter truly touched my heart. i don’t know you personally but the love you shared through your letter brought me to tears. my heart was aching for you and your family but as i continued to read and you talked about the peace you all experienced and how your 3 pounds 2 ounces sweet baby girl touched people, did the work of God in just 2 1/2 hours, what a mighty God we serve. thank you for sharing your letter with us. your daughter will touch so many people in this world and bring them the opportunity to get to know Jesus through you and your family. her story, though short, is so full of God’s miraculous love.

    may the Lord, Jesus, continue to bestow blessings upon you and your family.

    your friend in Christ,

    the Clark family

  • Carrie

    Just stopping by to let you know I’m praying for you all.

  • maryanne420

    can i just tell you how your letter truly touched my heart. i don’t know you personally but the love you shared through your letter brought me to tears. my heart was aching for you and your family but as i continued to read and you talked about the peace you all experienced and how your 3 pounds 2 ounces sweet baby girl touched people, did the work of God in just 2 1/2 hours, what a mighty God we serve. thank you for sharing your letter with us. your daughter will touch so many people in this world and bring them the opportunity to get to know Jesus through you and your family. her story, though short, is so full of God’s miraculous love.

    may the Lord, Jesus, continue to bless you and your family

    with love,
    the Clark family

  • La Familia Garcia

    What a beautiful letter. May God continue to bring you peace as a family as you seek Him.

  • Anonymous

    What a doll baby. She is precious as are your other 3 girls. I continue to pray for your family. Thank you so much for sharing your journey with us. Your faith is awe inspiring. May God hold you all in his arms.
    Jenny F.

  • jaQ

    such a perfect little angel.
    i’ll be hand-making a card just for her.

  • Kimmer

    I am sure you know this song well but felt I needed to share as it fits your situation.

    I still believe- Jeremy Camp
    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TNqw2ssYXC8

    Scattered words and empty thoughts
    Seem to pour from my heart
    I’ve never felt so torn before
    Seems I don’t know where to start
    But its now that I feel your grace fall like rain
    From every fingertip washing away my pain

    I still believe in your faithfulness
    I still believe in your truth
    I still believe in your holy word
    Even when I don’t see, I still believe

    Though the questions still fog up my mind
    With promises I still seem to bear
    Even when answers slowly unwind
    It’s my heart I see you prepare
    But its now, that I feel, your grace fall like rain
    From every fingertip washing away my pain

    I still believe in your faithfulness
    I still believe in your truth
    I still believe in your holy word
    Even when I don’t see, I still believe

    Well the only place I can go is into your arms
    Where I throw to you my feeble prayers well in brokenness
    I can see that this was your will for me
    Help me to know that you are near

    I still believe in your faithfulness
    I still believe in your truth
    I still believe in your holy word
    Even when I don’t see, I still believe

    I still believe (repeat 8 X’s)

    Ohhh, I still believe, I still believe

  • Ellen Sutton

    You are an amazing family and I rejoice in the fact that I found your website and have followed your blog! May God continue to bless you and your family. He is a mighty God!
    We will continue to pray for you and your family!

  • kris

    I am reminded of the solitude that I have known in in my own suffering, a solitude that is filled with peace and wonder, pain and acceptance- thank you for reminding me of the incredible power of God’s love, who for a moment made his face known through Audrey.

    I will never forget her story. I will sit with this and thank God for what she just gave me. Something that requires no words, and has no name, but goes by the way of Love.

  • Liza’s Eyeview

    I just found out about this form a link that Boomama posted in her blog. Oh I can’t breathe … my heart ache, from sadness and yet a peace and joys also flows within as I am inspired by how you are all handling this so well and how your beautiful daughter and your family is touching our hearts .. I am on my way to work and should not even be blogging at this time. I will be back. Thank you for sharing your story with us… I pray blessings upon all of you.

  • The Flick Family

    you continue to be in our prayers. your story and testimony is truly amazing. God has certainly used little Audrey in a mighty way in your hearts and the many hearts who this story has touched.

  • Anonymous

    Your daughters are all adorable…but I guess what touched me in your pictures was the peace of your faces, Angie and Todd – the peace that passes understanding. Thank you for sharing your beautiful letter with us, as well as Audrey’s short life on earth. I would doubt that many babies are greeted on earth with so many prayers ascending at the same time – no wonder the medical staff could feel the peace in your room.

    Love from your sister in Christ,
    Trudi
    FLN

  • Stacie Anderson

    Your letter to your precious baby girl was so special. What a blessing she was and is for all that have yet to hear her story. Thank you for sharing with us.

  • Anonymous

    I am touched by reading your letter to little Audrey…we have an Audrey also…she will be 1 in May. She is also our 4th daughter…Thank you for sharing your story. We will pray for your family. Stephanie

  • Anonymous

    Thank you for making your blog readers a part of your life. You are such a blessing to so many! Your family is amazing! Your letter made me chersih how precious life is! Your family is beautiful and I have been blessed by your blog in so many ways. I will continue to pray for your family! Audrey is beautiful! Thank you for sharing those precious pictures!

  • A

    This post had me weeping in tears – I have never read anything so heart wrenchingly beautiful and honest. The openness and grace that you have shared your story with has touched me more than you could possibly imagine.

    Peace be with you, and yours.

  • DEBRA FROM TEXAS

    ANGIE, THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR SHARING AUDREY’S STORY. I HAVE LAUGHED AND CRIED WITH YOU. SHE IS ABSOLUTELY BEAUTIFUL! I CAN’T WAIT TO SEE THE OTHER PICTURES. YOU ARE A BLESSING ANGIE. YOUR FAITH AND TRUST IN GOD IS REMARKABLE! I CONTINUE TO PRAY FOR YOUR FAMILY. GOD HAS BLESSED YOU AND YOU HAVE BLESSED ME WITH YOUR STORY. I LOVE YOU GUYS!

  • Anonymous

    Thank you for the encouragement of faith! Your beautiful family is in my prayers.

  • Anonymous

    She is a beautiful little girl. I am sure my niece Emma will watch over your precious baby girl, and help show her around Heaven (as well as all the other Angel Babies).

    I am so sorry Audrey isn’t here with you like she should be.

    Wishing you gentle days ahead,
    JLH

  • Anonymous

    Thank you for sharing, Little Audrey has honestly changed the world! Thank you for sharing your love for Jesus, you have touched more people than you will ever know!!

    Love and Peace,
    Sarah

  • Club Sammich Cafe -Art,Angels and Miracles.

    I am delurking today. I had a hard time reading through but i did with tears and happiness to. You have a beautiful family. The pictures are beautiful of all of you as a family as it should be!
    Audrey is beautiful as I felt she would be. Such a precious little one to touch so many.
    Your post brought me to tears. I remember my parents when my older brother passed away. Simply not talking to us about him.I was only four and half and my sister 6 and my brother was 7.
    I remember the day and much about it. I am so glad your talking to your Girls about whats going on for the age they are. Its so vitally important.
    Till day one thing I cherish the most are the few photographs I have of my Brother. To me he will always be part of my family..Always.
    Angie, I will be praying for you , Todd and your Girls as well.
    A sister in Christ

  • Anonymous

    God’s new little angel is perfect…perfect in every way. What a wonderful family picture. Thank you for your encouraging words. Audrey’s story is touching people’s lives and leading them to Christ all over this world. I am continuing to share it with friends and family. Angie, your writing is amazing. I am blessed by your words. Thank you for sharing your joys and pains. God Bless you and your family!

  • Courtney

    I came into your story late, after sweet Audrey had already been born, but I feel as if I have known your famly for years. You are a blessing to many and a strength to all. God bless you and all four of your precious girls.

  • Leigh Ann

    Just beautiful! Thank you for your testimony of grace. The peace shows on the faces of your family.
    The Lord bless and keep you all.

  • Anonymous

    I heard on our Christian radio station about your story a few hours before you gave birth to Audrey. As a mother to two beautiful girls, my heart cried out for you. I prayed for healing for Audrey, but also God’s will. As I just now read your letter to her, I thank the Lord for your family’s faithfullness in choosing to let God’s will play out, and not giving in to a lie about giving her up early. What a testimony to life. I cry with you and rejoice with you. May the Lord’s hand be upon you always…someday you will see her again in heaven!

  • Anonymous

    Thank you, thank you, thank you for sharing this very personal and beautiful letter to your precious baby daughter. The pictures of Audrey are beautiful as she is and always will be. God bless you and your remarkable family. I am in tears and holding my children so close right now. Thank you.

  • singingcindy

    Wow that was the most touching, heart wrenching, and amazing thing I have ever read!! You certainly have a way with words. I pray for Audrey and your family every day. Your little girl touched so many lives – family, friends, and strangers alike. Thank you for sharing her story with us!

  • alex

    What an absolutely beautiful letter. I just spent hours reading Audrey’s story from the beginning, and I very much admire the strength of you and your family. I will definitely be keeping you all in my prayers… She’s a beautiful little girl.

  • singingcindy

    Wow that was the most touching, heart wrenching, and amazing thing I have ever read!! You certainly have a way with words.

    I pray for Audrey and your family every day. Your little girl touched so many lives – family, friends, and strangers alike. Thank you for sharing her story with us!

    This entry reminded me of Selah’s version of “You Raise Me Up”… couldn’t think of more meaningful lyrics at this moment!

    Much Love,
    Cindy

  • Suzanne

    What a beautiful tribute to your sweet little Audrey. I have tears in my eyes and no words, so instead I’ll just hug my own little Audrey and send more send prayers your way. Thank you for opening your heart.

  • Mark and Rebekah

    What a beautiful letter! Angie, you are such a talented writer, and God has been usuing you so much through this blog. God has given you such a gift; thank you for sharing it with us!

  • Anonymous

    God bless you and your family.
    I would have made the same choice if I were in your shoes, because God makes all things happen for a reason. Audrey is now your guardian angel, and we should all be so lucky to have one. The Lord works in mysterious ways, and I believe you will be with Audrey one day. God bless.

    Torri

  • Anonymous

    We are praying for your family and rejoice with you that your beautiful daughter has now been healed and is in the presence of Christ. You are such an inspiration and have done such a wonderful job sharing your story. Thank you!

  • Astraea

    I just keep coming back to gaze at your beautiful baby girl. She is an angel. She glows. I can’t thank you enough for sharing her. I pray the days have been peaceful. You’re in my constant prayers.

  • Anonymous

    Thank you for sharing your journey with us. You and your family are incredibly courageous and inspiring people. God bless and deep peace to you all!

    Kristina

  • The Shulls

    I loved the pictures!!! What a precious and sweet little girl. Audrey, you are already in our hearts even without being part of your direct family, but know that you are very loved and sweetly remembered in our family.

    Angie, may the Lord keep comforting you and your family in a very sweet way.

    Please receive our love from Birmingham, AL.

    The Shulls

  • Nicki W.

    thank you so much for being so so so open and honest and vulnerable. your little audrey has touched many and who knows the numbers of people who will be touched by the Lord just by knowing her. you are an amazing family. thank you for your story.

  • Julie

    i too sit here and struggle through the tears to read your letter to Audrey. I am amazed at your faith, and wish I had managed to have faith of my own when our son Caleb was stillborn in 2003. I am so sorry you are a part of this “new life” and that Audrey is not here with you. I keep you and your family in my prayers.

  • Anonymous

    Thank you for sharing your story. It’s amazing how God can make us see the beauty and miraculous things even in the saddest times of our lives. I know there will be many sad days ahead of you. However, I want you to personally know you have the mighty power of prayer on your side. We will all be praying for your family. We will pray for God to heal your pain, and keep you focused on the fact that little Audrey is in God’s house now. God Bless!

    Leah Miller

  • Kelsey

    This is one of the most beautiful things I have ever read.

    I am sorry that I am jumping into this journey with you so late. I just read all of your blogs over the past months and cried “with” you. It broke my heart that I wasn’t aware of your heartache sooner, as I wished I could’ve been praying. But I know this process continues…the hurt, the pain, but also the beauty that will continue to pour from it. And from this day I will pray for you. Thank you for sharing your beautiful story. You are one beautiful woman of God. No doubt about it. He did use the right woman for the trial, and the joy.

    Your family is beautiful, and I feel so incredibly impacted by your story, by Audrey’s story.

    Praying for you.

    In His Precious Grip,

    Kelsey Shaw

  • Stilla Momma

    Rain never felt so good. Wow…Lord, reign in our hearts, and when he sends the rain, it cleanses and heals.

    I have never heard a more beautiful story. What hope you give to women and families that there is a balm in Gilead…and right here for all of us to take advantage of.

    Lots of love and prayers to your family. I am just amazed at your maturity and how can transform a life and a perspective from mourning to dancing. Keep healing, sis. *hugs from Philly*

  • Heinzfeet

    I have no idea what to write, but I want to thank you for sharing your story and so greatly reflecting a heart of trust in the Only One worth trusting. Thank you!

  • Chatty

    Oh Angie, I am so very sorry for the loss of Audrey. She was beautiful. I am so very happy that you all were given such precious time with your Sweet Baby Girl.

    I continue to pray for you all, and of course for little Audrey, although she is surely safe, happy and at peace in Heaven.

  • TBG Happenings

    A blessing to so many….

    Thank you

  • Courtney

    I’ve read this entry twice and the rest of them since Adrienne has started blogging about sweet Audrey and your family. Your story is an incredible Christ-filled one that has changed my life forever… thank you for that, sweet Audrey. Peace.

  • Anonymous

    Life is such a precious gift from God. What a blessing to have held in your arms, if only for a short time, such a miracle of God’s love. He promises eternal life to those who believe in him.
    One day soon, you will all be together loving that sweet, precious Audrey. Though her life here on earth was all too short, she lives on in all our hearts and touched countless lives in ways that can never be measured. My heart aches for you Angie as my arms surround you with love unending. Thank you for sharing the love story of your beautiful, precious little girl. I look forward to seeing you soon.

    blessings and love to you all,
    vicki

  • Corie O’Brien

    How beautiful. You are right! She is amazing! Thank you for sharing your heart and your story of Audrey and the rest of your family for all to see and hear. Many have seen Jesus through a perfect little 3 lb. baby girl. God has been glorified through your brave walk on this hard journey.

  • Anonymous

    What an emotional read for me, yet your words were such a beautiful song! THANK YOU for sharing; your family will be in my thoughts and daily prayers. May GOD wrap his healing arms around your family and his Grace be plentiful in all the ways that it can be. In God’s Grace- Jill in MN

  • Charin

    Thank you so much for sharing the beautiful story of your sweet babies life, and God bless you!!
    Charin

  • Barbie

    I just found your blog and your story has touched me in such a special way. How special it must be to see the legacy that your little girl is leaving. She is a testimony to God’s faith, hope and love. Thank you for sharing her story. I will be praying for you as God continues to heal your hearts.

  • Jodie R.

    What a tremendous testimony of God’s grace you continue to be! I am so humbled by the faith that He’s given you to make it through what He’s planned for you. I will continue to pray for you, and thank God that He is comforting you and enabling you to praise Him. Thank you for sharing this with all of us – what an impact you are all having for the Lord and His glory!

    Hurting for you,
    A sister in Christ.

  • jen

    God Bless you and your family. Audrey is such a beautiful angel. As the mother of a stillborn I know how precious those moments are after birth. Your story just broke my heart but your strength is truly inspiring. Audrey is looking down on all of you and sending you sweet angel kisses from above.

    Jennifer

  • Jessie

    I have been absolutely moved by your story… prayed for your family while you were in surgery, and rejoice at the legacy your daughter is already leaving behind. Thank you for your willingness to share her amazing story with the world. And she is so beautiful and perfect. I love all her photos.

  • Annalien

    The pictures are truly gorgeous! You are a beautiful family.

    Thank you so much for your testimony throughout this ordeal. God truly works in wondrous ways. He will continue to be your strength in the days to come.

  • Anonymous

    Dear Audrey and Audrey’s Mommy,

    I am not sure how I even came to this post at 3 am. My 7 month old has been fussy all day, my 2 year old tires me out and I am exhausted. I finally left the 7 month old in her swing to cry a bit because nothing else was working and Mommy needed a five minute break.

    I found this and cried with you. Audrey has changed my life. I go back to my fussy baby grateful, shamed of my behavior and a changed Women.

    Thank you, I am humbled by your Motherhood and the Warrior you gave birth to.

    Many Blessings :)
    Carrie

  • Samantha

    That was the most beautiful letter i have ever read, heartwarming and so full of love, Angie you are an inspiration to us all.
    Praying for your beautiful family,
    Samantha

  • Sun

    wow – I found this blog through another blog – I just want you to know my family will be in prayer for yours! I cannot tell you how much this post touched my heart…the letter was so beautifully written. Thank you for so willingly sharing it. Sunshine

  • kuwitzky

    We are praying so much for you. Thankyou for sharing your heart during this time, we can’t imagine the sadness, but praise God for holding you right now. We will keep praying for Him to rain down his blessing in this time of pain.
    Ben and Renee Kuwitzky (doing in Bible Translation in Sudan)

  • Tricia

    She’s perfect and your letter to her is beautiful.

    From a mother that knows what saying goodbye to a child means.

  • Donna

    I have been to your blog now several days in a row and just keep basking in God’s love and glory that is pouring out here.
    What an incredible blessing to the world. You have shared so much and so openly about your journey, your little Angel’s life has accomplished so much.
    I will continue to send everyone I know to your blog and I will continue to pray for your family.

  • Bethany Spencer

    Dear Angie and Todd,
    On April 7th, it was my 1st Anniversary with my husband and we went away (escaped really! We have 7 children together…one of those blended families!) and I prayed for you a lot that day. At one point that day, we were on the beach (Lake Michigan) and I prayed again for you ALL…we are so small, aren’t we? God is SO great!
    Wow…look at all the wonderful gifts that Audrey has given! God surely does use ALL of us….and such a sweet little child. I am full of tears now–some sadness, some joy! I have three boys and I give them to the Lord each day…they are not my own (especially now that one of them is 17!). But to give them completely (physically) to Him would be oh so difficult. And you all did it with such bravery!
    Audrey has touched so many with her life…and will continue to do so. Thank you again for sharing with us!
    Bethany in Michigan

  • Johnson Party of seven!

    You will never understand what a blessing you have been to me. We are in the storm right now with our fifth child (fourth girl like you). I have no idea of how our baby Hutton’s story will end but I praise God for the trails and for putting your sweet Audrey in my path to learn from. God Bless! Jill Johnson
    http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/huttonjohnson

  • Susan

    Thank you for sharing your amazing family. You have strengthened my faith through your own. My thoughts and prayers are with your family. Audrey really is a beautiful baby, as pretty as her big sisters!

  • Anonymous

    I was thinking about your sweet Audrey this morning while I was talking to the Lord and how it’s been a week now that she’s been with Him in heaven. The words “Better is one day in your courts than ten thousand elsewhere” came to mind. I know you must miss her terribly, but can you imagine what her days are like?!?! WOW! :)

    I’m praying for you that each day you find joy and comfort in knowing that the Lord is using you and the story of your precious girl to point hearts and lives to Jesus. I’ve never understood things like why the Lord would give a baby only to take it away. I’ve wrestled with that for a long time after we lost our first baby (we now have 4 including twin girls like you! ). Through Audrey’s story, I’ve seen God’s sovereign hand in a way that I have never seen before! His ways truly are higher than our ways and he is making the soil rich! Your Audrey is miraculous and such a tiny little angel brought so much glory to the Lord! I know she changed me and I will forever be grateful for that. :)

    Love to all of you!
    Amy in Texas

  • babyglory

    Praise the name of the Lord. God have mercy on you. “Those who sow in tears will reap with shouts of joy. ” Psalms 126

  • Dobbie and Papa

    We have written before, but you were on my heart this morning, I have my youngest grandy with me, Cora, and she sat beside me and sucked her thumb while I read part of your Audrey letter again, (she is almost 2). Tears are spilling as we say a prayer for you this Tuesday morning…we think of you everyday…Precious are the saints of God…..

  • Barry, Megan, Jonathan, Joshua & Zachary Welch

    May God continue to bless you and your family through this time. May He give you all the comfort, understanding and grace.

    My heart breaks for you right now, and I wish that there was something I could do. Know that my thoughts and prayers are with you through this very hard time! You have a very beautiful family, thanks for sharing them with us.

    Megan Welch & Family

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    My heart breaks for you right now, and I wish that there was something I could do. Know that my thoughts and prayers are with you through this very hard time! You have a very beautiful family, thanks for sharing them with us.

    Megan Welch & Family

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    My heart breaks for you right now, and I wish that there was something I could do. Know that my thoughts and prayers are with you through this very hard time! You have a very beautiful family, thanks for sharing them with us.

    Megan Welch & Family

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    My heart breaks for you right now, and I wish that there was something I could do. Know that my thoughts and prayers are with you through this very hard time! You have a very beautiful family, thanks for sharing them with us.

    Megan Welch & Family

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    My heart breaks for you right now, and I wish that there was something I could do. Know that my thoughts and prayers are with you through this very hard time! You have a very beautiful family, thanks for sharing them with us.

    Megan Welch & Family

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    My heart breaks for you right now, and I wish that there was something I could do. Know that my thoughts and prayers are with you through this very hard time! You have a very beautiful family, thanks for sharing them with us.

    Megan Welch & Family

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    My heart breaks for you right now, and I wish that there was something I could do. Know that my thoughts and prayers are with you through this very hard time! You have a very beautiful family, thanks for sharing them with us.

    Megan Welch & Family

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    My heart breaks for you right now, and I wish that there was something I could do. Know that my thoughts and prayers are with you through this very hard time! You have a very beautiful family, thanks for sharing them with us.

    Megan Welch & Family

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    My heart breaks for you right now, and I wish that there was something I could do. Know that my thoughts and prayers are with you through this very hard time! You have a very beautiful family, thanks for sharing them with us.

    Megan Welch & Family

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    My heart breaks for you right now, and I wish that there was something I could do. Know that my thoughts and prayers are with you through this very hard time! You have a very beautiful family, thanks for sharing them with us.

    Megan Welch & Family

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    My heart breaks for you right now, and I wish that there was something I could do. Know that my thoughts and prayers are with you through this very hard time! You have a very beautiful family, thanks for sharing them with us.

    Megan Welch & Family

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    My heart breaks for you right now, and I wish that there was something I could do. Know that my thoughts and prayers are with you through this very hard time! You have a very beautiful family, thanks for sharing them with us.

    Megan Welch & Family

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    My heart breaks for you right now, and I wish that there was something I could do. Know that my thoughts and prayers are with you through this very hard time! You have a very beautiful family, thanks for sharing them with us.

    Megan Welch & Family

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    My heart breaks for you right now, and I wish that there was something I could do. Know that my thoughts and prayers are with you through this very hard time! You have a very beautiful family, thanks for sharing them with us.

    Megan Welch & Family

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    Megan Welch & Family

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    Megan Welch & Family

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    Megan Welch & Family

  • Barry, Megan, Jonathan, Joshua & Zachary Welch

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    My heart breaks for you right now, and I wish that there was something I could do. Know that my thoughts and prayers are with you through this very hard time! You have a very beautiful family, thanks for sharing them with us.

    Megan Welch & Family

  • Barry, Megan, Jonathan, Joshua & Zachary Welch

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    Megan Welch & Family

  • Barry, Megan, Jonathan, Joshua & Zachary Welch

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    Megan Welch & Family

  • Barry, Megan, Jonathan, Joshua & Zachary Welch

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    My heart breaks for you right now, and I wish that there was something I could do. Know that my thoughts and prayers are with you through this very hard time! You have a very beautiful family, thanks for sharing them with us.

    Megan Welch & Family

  • Barry, Megan, Jonathan, Joshua & Zachary Welch

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    Megan Welch & Family

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    Megan Welch & Family

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    Megan Welch & Family

  • Barry, Megan, Jonathan, Joshua & Zachary Welch

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    Megan Welch & Family

  • Barry, Megan, Jonathan, Joshua & Zachary Welch

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    Megan Welch & Family

  • Barry, Megan, Jonathan, Joshua & Zachary Welch

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    Megan Welch & Family

  • Barry, Megan, Jonathan, Joshua & Zachary Welch

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    My heart breaks for you right now, and I wish that there was something I could do. Know that my thoughts and prayers are with you through this very hard time! You have a very beautiful family, thanks for sharing them with us.

    Megan Welch & Family

  • Barry, Megan, Jonathan, Joshua & Zachary Welch

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    My heart breaks for you right now, and I wish that there was something I could do. Know that my thoughts and prayers are with you through this very hard time! You have a very beautiful family, thanks for sharing them with us.

    Megan Welch & Family

  • Barry, Megan, Jonathan, Joshua & Zachary Welch

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    My heart breaks for you right now, and I wish that there was something I could do. Know that my thoughts and prayers are with you through this very hard time! You have a very beautiful family, thanks for sharing them with us.

    Megan Welch & Family

  • Barry, Megan, Jonathan, Joshua & Zachary Welch

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    My heart breaks for you right now, and I wish that there was something I could do. Know that my thoughts and prayers are with you through this very hard time! You have a very beautiful family, thanks for sharing them with us.

    Megan Welch & Family

  • Barry, Megan, Jonathan, Joshua & Zachary Welch

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    Megan Welch & Family

  • Barry, Megan, Jonathan, Joshua & Zachary Welch

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    Megan Welch & Family

  • Barry, Megan, Jonathan, Joshua & Zachary Welch

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    My heart breaks for you right now, and I wish that there was something I could do. Know that my thoughts and prayers are with you through this very hard time! You have a very beautiful family, thanks for sharing them with us.

    Megan Welch & Family

  • Anonymous

    I cried the whole time reading your touching blog. I admire the strength you have as both woman and mother. The photos of your family are beautiful, and it’s truly great the wonderful smiles you all have for what had to have been such a difficult time.

    God Bless,

    Stephanie

  • Rachel

    I’m not even sure how to put into words what strength I drew from just reading this post alone. You and your family continue to be in my prayers as you work thru this. What a true testimony to the Lord’s strength you are!

  • Jill

    your letter was absoutely beautiful!!! I am truly amazed at how the Lord is using your precious baby girl’s life to touch so many!! I am drawn to reading your blog~ it has touched my own life so deeply, and I want to thank you for sharing all of this with us~ you and your family are such blessings to everyone who comes to your blog, every eye that reads it and ears who hear~
    you are all in my hearts and prayers each and every day.

  • Anonymous

    The following is from a childrens book I came across a couple of months after my Nana passed away. . .

    The next place I go will be as peaceful and familiar as a sleepy summer Sunday and a sweet, untroubled mind.

    And yet… it won’t be anything like any place I’ve ever been… or seen… or even dreamed of in the place I leave behind.

    I won’t know where I’m going, and I won’t know where I’ve been as I tumble though the always and look back toward the when.

    I’ll glide beyond the rainbows. I’ll drift about the sky. I’ll fly into the wonder, without ever wondering why.

    I won’t remember getting there. Somehow I’ll just arrive. But I’ll know that I belong there and will feel much more alive… than I have ever felt before. I will be absolutely free of the things that I geld onto that were holding onto me.

    The next place that I go will be so quiet and so still, that the whispered song of sweet belonging will rise up to fill… the listening sky with joyful silence, and with unheard harmonies of music made by no one playing, like a hush upon a breeze.

    There will be no room for darkness in that place of living light, where an ever-dawning morning pushes back the dying night.

    The very air will fill with brilliance, as the brightly shining sun and the moon and a half a million stars are married into one.

    The next place that I go won’t really be a place at all. There won’t be any seasons- winter, summer, spring or fall.

    Nor a Monday, nor a Friday, Nor December, Nor July. And the seconds will be standing still… while the hours hurry by.

    I will not be a boy or girl, a woman or man. I’ll simply be just, simply me. No worse or better than.

    My skin will not be dark or light. I won’t be fat or tall. The body I once lived in won’t be a part of me at all.

    I will finally be perfect. I will be without a flaw. I will never make one more mistake, or break the smallest law.

    And the me that was impatient, or was angry or unkind,

    will simply be a memory. The me I left behind.

    I will travel empty-handed. There is not a single thing I have collected in my life that I would ever want to bring… except… the love of those who loved me, and the warmth of those who cared. The happiness and memories and the magic that we shared.

    Though I will know the joy of solitude… I’ll never be alone. I’ll be embraced by all the family and friends I’ve ever known. Although I might not see their faces, all our hearts will beat as one, and the circle of our spirits will shine brighter than the sun.

    I will cherish all the friendship I was fortunate to find, all the love and all the laughter in the place I leave behind.

    All these good things will go with me. The will make my spirit glow. And the light will shine forever in the next place that I go.

  • Anonymous

    She is so precious! We are still praying for your family!

  • Melanie

    Angie-
    What a beautiful, faithful, Christlike woman you are. You are an inspiration to thousands. Your sweet, kind, tender and caring words are amazing. You have shown what it is really about through your blessings, trials and sorrows. You write so eloquently and beautifully. You should take all these things from the blog and any other feelings you haven’t shared and put them all into a book. How you could help so many other thousands of people. I have never lost a child, but have felt the heartache of never being able to have one. Your unwavering faith and love is truly aweinspiring. May the Lord continue to bless you and your sweet family. You will feel his comforting arms around you as he loves you and wipes your tears. What a beautiful family you have and they are blessed to have you as their mother and wife. God Bless you all.

  • The Morris Family

    Out of the mouth of babes and sucklings thou hast ordained strength…..Look what strength is coming from one so tiny and for God’s kingdom. We too are are the journey of grieving/healing of our 3yr,twin Joel into the arms of Jesus 1/23/07. It is long painful, but the Lord is faithful. May the Lord continue to use your Audrey and our Joel and all the other little ones that have gone before as a testimony that of such is the kingdom of God. Praying……
    Mommy of 13 blessings!!
    http://www.weloveyoujoel.blogspot.com

  • ~j~

    The voice of the Lord is revealed in every word of this letter. His Holy Spirt evident both on that day and on this blog.
    Bless your sweet hearts for your sorrow, your courage, your blessing others with your story and the witness of your faith during this journey.
    God is faithful to heal the broken hearted.
    j

  • dr_bristow

    Audrey is so beautiful, so perfect…thank you for sharing these pictures and your letter to Audrey. Reading it truly spoke to my heart. I am praying for your family!

  • BethGo

    I am inspired by your amazing outlook. Audrey is a very special little girl who has touched the hearts of so many.
    Your outlook on this entire pregnancy has been just incredible. I was telling my husband last night about your story and his eyes welled up with tears. The fact that you have been able to find light in the darkness and strength through your little girl is just wonderful and amazing and awesome.

    You are in my thoughts but more importantly, you are in my heart.

    Much love to you and your family.

  • Anonymous

    Thank you for sharing Audrey with us. What a blessing your story is to everyone who hears it. May God continue to bless your family.

  • Anonymous

    I can’t stop coming by your blog. I am drawn to it. Even if there isn’t anything new posted, I read the same posts over and over. The Lord shows me something different every time I read. I have never been so touched by a complete stranger. You truly have a talent for writing and expressing your feelings in such a way that I feel I am there with you. Thank you for sharing such an intimate part of your life with us.

  • monkeylinny

    She’s a beautiful angel! You’re in our thoughts & prayers.

    Linda, Dan, James, & Henry

  • Viv

    I will keep your family in my prayers. That letter was the beautiful.

  • Anonymous

    It is hard for me to type through my tears. Your story, strength and faith in Jesus has changed my life. I have a renewed faith in our Heavenly Father. What a precious gift we have all received.
    Lord, thank you so much for allowing all of us to be apart of Audrey’s life. Wrap your loving arms around the Smith family. embracing them with your unconditional love and comfort at this time.

    My love and continued prayers,
    Marylea

  • Suzanne

    This is the most touching letter I have ever read. Thank you for blessing us all in this way. Even before I read it, I knew that in her short time, sweet baby Audrey had a lifetime worth of love and prayers. And may that Love and those prayers continue to fill your hearts to overflowing by the grace of our Lord Jesus Christ. Amen!

  • Laura

    What a blessing!

  • KatieM11

    Angie, you have been such an inspiration to me these past couple of weeks. Audrey’s story has touched me in ways I never imagined possible. It has also brought me out of the darkness and closer to God again and I can’t thank you enough for that. I will continue to keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers this week.

  • Lynn

    My heart and prayers are with you. I am so very sorry that precious little Audrey could not stay. :’( May the Lord comfort your hearts and wrap you in His love. A quote that has been special for me in dealing with the losses in my life – “If the Lord is with us, and our loved one is with the Lord, then we are never far apart.” May God haste the day when Rev 21:3-5 is fulfilled.
    Loving you all in Jesus,
    Lynn Campbell

  • Lori, Landon and Logan

    Wow! That is amazing! Thanks for sharing all of God’s goodness with everyone. God is good! She’s beautiful. I bet she’s even more beautiful with Jesus!

  • Emily

    Praying for you tonight, precious mother of four beautiful girls!

  • Becky

    Your girls are all so gorgeous and amazing. I just found your blog and wanted to say that I’m holding you all in my heart tonight and always.

  • Maxine

    Weeping and rejoicing with you.

  • Holly

    It was a hard night getting the kids to bed. I was angry and frustrated and mad at my husband for having a cold. I decided to check my e-mail. From there I somehow ended up on your blog about Audrey. I just spent the last hour reading it from the beginning. I have been duly chastised for being a very forgetful person.

    Thank you for opening your hearts to all that God had for you to experience. And thank you for opening your hearts to us. We all have a lot to learn.

    I can’t wait to meet Audrey some day in eternity.

  • Anonymous

    Angie, Thank you so much for sharing this journey. I just “happened” upon your blog this evening, but I know God led me here and I couldn’t stop reading. I knew a little of your story as I went to a Point of Grace concert that Selah was scheduled to be at just a few days before Audrey was born and they told your family’s story. I have wondered since what happened and I know the story is not over even though Audrey is in the arms of Jesus. I am praying for you, Todd, Abby, Ellie, and Kate. God bless you!

    Rachel
    Willmar, MN

  • Kristen

    Beautiful! Your words, the pictures, just beautiful!

  • Brandy

    I wanted to thank you so much for sharing your story. As a mother of a beautiful daughter and heavily pregnant with my son I cannot for one minute pretend that I would have shown the strength and courage that you have shared with the world. You have truely been able to put into words what every mother feels, their hopes and their fears for their children.
    I am not a devout christian, God and I have had our issues in the past, but through the presence of my daughter I am closer than I ever was to being a beliver again. Your unending faith has really inspired me.
    I pray that your family will continue to come together and that you will come out of this stronger and closer than you could have ever been without Audrey. I pray that you will recover physically quickly and with no complications. But I know that your faith will see you through.
    You are in my prayers, all of you
    Brandy

  • Astraea

    500 comments for your sweet baby! WOW! She has touched so many.

  • A Stone Gatherer

    She is beautiful! A wonderful gift! My heart breaks for your family, but also rejoices in the Peace He has given you! My nephew and his wife lost their little boy last year! My niece gave her testimony about it on “Sanctity of Life” Sunday. She calls it “crazy peace”! Thank you for sharing your letter!

  • Anonymous

    Thank you for sharing! Your daughter has done so much for so many in such a short time. She has touched more lives in a few months than many do in 85 years.

    God bless
    Jess

  • Adinda

    Angie, I was brought to your blog a few days ago by another blogger. I read your entire story within a few hours. You and your family are a true example of faith. You are a blessing to many. May God give you and your family continued peace and understanding of His great love. Thank you for sharing your story. May God truely bless you and your family.

    Your Sister in Christ,
    Adinda, IN

  • Rachel’s Story

    Your story has touched my soul and I am so grateful you were able to share it with the world. I am so blessed to have somehow been able part of your life and how God chose to use you. I remember how far God has brought me with my baby girl Rachel and my heart aches for you. I will continue to pray for you and your family and may God bless you abundantly.

  • Anonymous

    A friend led me to your blog today. As I sat here and read every story, I couldn’t contain the tears or the smiles. You have beautiful girls!!!

  • Natalie

    What an absolutely BEAUTIFUL family you have and what a blessing you are to complete strangers. Your faith is amazing and you are such an amazing woman of God ~ I agree with you ~ your daughter is leaving a legacy and how AWESOME is THE LORD MOST HIGH that people will accept Jesus Christ as their Lord and Savior JUST BY READING THIS SITE!!

    God Bless You all ~ you are in our prayers down here in TAMPA!

  • Laura E

    Thank you for sharing this amazing story of your life. Although I cannot imagine the pain you’re feeling from losing your little girl, I also can’t imagine the joy in your heart from being able to hold her, kiss her, and love her. May God bless you and your family.

  • Stephanie

    She is so beautiful, and so are you and your family. I could only pray to be as strong of a mommy as you are. I have prayed for your family as if you were part of my family. God has given you a very special gift, your very own Angel. Thank you for sharing your life with us, and I will continue to pray.

  • Anonymous

    Thank you for sharing your story. I heard about your blog just this week and read your story from the beginning, tears streaming down my face for much of it. You have a beautiful way of telling your story. I am blessed to be a mother of two wonderful, rambunctious boys and had a miscarriage in December with our third child after three years of trying to get pregnant again. The child that I knew for 12 short weeks taught me many lessons. I wish I could say that I have your strength, but I don’t think that I could have survived what you and your family went through with Audrey. I love hearing about the discussions that you had with your girls, trying to help them process what was going to happen to their sister.

    Thanks again for sharing what must be the most difficult time in your life. You are right, what a legacy Audrey Caroline has. How many countless ways has God used her in her short time on Earth?

    My prayers are with you,
    kris

  • The 311 Boys Mom

    you have a beautiful family. I linked you through anothers site. you are an amazing family. you Angie, are an amazing mom. Audrey is a gift.

    you will be in my prayers……you also have insired me to go back to church. I didn’t grow up going & only went when my son was diagnosed wuth leukemia. I was looking for answers. Answers I never found. so i stopped going.

    My son is fine, almost 5 years off treatment…..its time I go back, time I understand.

    thank you fo reminding me.

  • La Jibara

    I was led to your blog through a discussion board…someone there had been following your story. I have been crying and smiling all through it…what a beautiful story of courage, love and faith! I had my children later in life. People kept asking me if I was going to do all kinds of genetic testing because of the “risks” involved with “advanced” maternal age. And I always said “no, it would not change anything anyway…”. God bless you and your family. What an inspiration you are!

  • Lucy A. Cain, All Glory Is His Writing Ministry

    I was at the Ashland Ave Baptist Church concert in Lexington in March I believe it was…where I saw all of you and heard your testimony that night. I thought then, that’s GOD’s strength shining through this mom and dad.
    I would be honored to include “mommy’s letter” in my upcoming book, “Hope from Heaven (When Earth Loses A Child).” It is in memory of my cousin’s two young daughters (and his wife) who were killed in their home in 1999. The girls were 7 and 4 at the time. The book is full of the poetry and hope found in Christ that I wrote and shared with my cousin in the ensuing year. I am also including testimonies from other Christian families who have come out victorious over the loss of a child – and will also address many of the questions parents ask after a loss. The entire proceeds from the book will go to sponsoring Make A Wish Foundation Children as this is an annual tradition started by my cousin in his girls’ memory. What a testimony and encouragement your letter is! I praise God for what He can do in the valleys…please contact me through my writing ministry website, http://www.allgloryishis.com.
    Lucy Cain

  • CrownLaidDown

    Praying for you Smith family–asking the LORD to wrap you in his arms today.
    Love,
    holly smith

  • Bethan Louise

    Thank you so much for sharing your story. Thank you x x x

    I pray that you will each be blessed by the peace of our Faithful and Precious Lord and Savuiour Jesus Christ.

  • Sara

    Precious beyond words. Thank YOU for sharing her story….she will forever touch lives and be remembered.

  • Sara

    As a mom who has been in pleading for my son’s life at one time, I can relate to much of your story. My heart breaks for your loss; and yet, Audrey short, extraordinary life will live on in so many hearts and lives. She is truly beautiful and perfect.

  • Carey

    My husband shared your story with me tonight. He handed me the computer and went to give our boys a bath while a cried in awe and amazement at your story – your strength, courage, and faith. I have to tell you that my husband said while he’s always loved Selah, he has more of a heart for them now because he cannot imagine having the God-loving strength your husband has to be able to go on. He said that he now feels he has someone whose life he would like to model his after.

    Your family is an amazing witness and tells the true tale of God’s love. I hope and pray that you continue to find peace and joy in how sweet Audrey touches the world.

    God bless,
    Carey

  • Anonymous

    I just finished drying my eyes. Your daughter is beautiful and now is more perfect than ever. What you have written over the last months is nothing shy of miraculous in itself. You are amazing. Please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers as the days and weeks go by. Your family has meant so much to me over the years. Hugs to all.

    Holly in Remington VA

  • goodtwin

    Angie and family, What can I say that has not already been said? You really should be a writer. God has given you a great gift in your writing talent. Please know that you and your family continue to be in my thoughts and prayers. And also know that the prayer request I sent in a email (before I read the complete story)is so lame now, and I am truely ashamed for asking for it now that I have read the whole story. I am not worthy of your time. May God bless you all.

  • Anonymous

    I was blessed by your story. I am attending a concert on May 2nd where your husband will be singing. I’m praying for you all.
    Blessings,
    Rachel

  • Cathy

    A friend sent me your link and I have just briefly read this post. I am in tears at the beauty of Audrey’s story. God has truly blessed your family and I will pray daily that he will fill your arm with comfort and peace.
    Cathy (Annabel’s mom T18)

  • Anonymous

    This is, without a doubt, the most beautiful letter I have ever read. I had tears and smiles through the whole thing. You are such a beautiful person Angie…and Audrey, she is just like her mom. I know how proud you are.
    Continuing to pray for your family,
    Jen

  • raising2sons

    What a beautiful and heartfelt letter! I will continue praying for you and your family. I’m so sorry for the pain you are enduring, all of you. The pictures are stunning….Hugs from Ohio

  • Anonymous

    Smith family,
    Thank you for the amazing GIFT. Your testimony as a family serving the KING of KINGS is such a gift to all of your family reading your letters.
    Your Audrey is so beautiful. The love, mercy, grace, peace of the Lord is evident.
    Praise HIM.

    Your sister,
    Maria

  • Anonymous

    She is so beautiful. She looks so fresh from Heaven, like a little angel. Thank you so much for letting us all share in your life. What a beautiful family…inside and out! My faith has increased because of you. May the God of all peace and grace continue to uphold you…now and always. Until the Shout, Danielle Christianson…Washington State

  • Nev

    I am speechless. I just finished reading your whole story. The tears were streaming as I read and gasped at the glory of God displayed through your testimony. Thank you.

    God led me to stumble upon your blog through a friend’s website. My wife and I just celebrated our first year as parents of our daughter we adopted. We had tried to have children for 8 years before God opened our eyes to his precious gift to us, our Tasha.

    Your story has helped me heal a little bit more from the years of pain and heartache we’ve endured.

    You’ve encouraged me to thank God for the rain he’s been pouring on my head over this past year.

  • Sal Gal

    Hi Angie, your faith is inspiring! I am always overjoyed to meet another person of faith! Thank you, thank you for sharing! I know you will be with your precious little girl again, and get to raise her.

  • Lisa & Gerald

    Hi!
    I just found your blog today and your letter to your little girl It was so sad reading it through tears after tears. You have a beautiful family, love the pic of you holding her in your arms with your family
    God Bless you and your family
    lots of hugs & kisses to you and your family
    THE DEMARS FAMILY

  • Lisa & Gerald

    Hi!
    I just found your blog today and your letter to your little girl It was so sad reading it through tears after tears. You have a beautiful family, love the pic of you holding her in your arms with your family
    God Bless you and your family
    lots of hugs & kisses to you and your family
    THE DEMARS FAMILY

  • Lisa & Gerald

    Hi!
    I just found your blog today and your letter to your little girl It was so sad reading it through tears after tears. You have a beautiful family, love the pic of you holding her in your arms with your family
    God Bless you and your family
    lots of hugs & kisses to you and your family
    THE DEMARS FAMILY

  • Lisa & Gerald

    Hi!
    I just found your blog today and your letter to your little girl It was so sad reading it through tears after tears. You have a beautiful family, love the pic of you holding her in your arms with your family
    God Bless you and your family
    lots of hugs & kisses to you and your family
    THE DEMARS FAMILY

  • Lisa & Gerald

    Hi!
    I just found your blog today and your letter to your little girl It was so sad reading it through tears after tears. You have a beautiful family, love the pic of you holding her in your arms with your family
    God Bless you and your family
    lots of hugs & kisses to you and your family
    THE DEMARS FAMILY

  • Lisa & Gerald

    Hi!
    I just found your blog today and your letter to your little girl It was so sad reading it through tears after tears. You have a beautiful family, love the pic of you holding her in your arms with your family
    God Bless you and your family
    lots of hugs & kisses to you and your family
    THE DEMARS FAMILY

  • Lisa & Gerald

    Hi!
    I just found your blog today and your letter to your little girl It was so sad reading it through tears after tears. You have a beautiful family, love the pic of you holding her in your arms with your family
    God Bless you and your family
    lots of hugs & kisses to you and your family
    THE DEMARS FAMILY

  • Lisa & Gerald

    Hi!
    I just found your blog today and your letter to your little girl It was so sad reading it through tears after tears. You have a beautiful family, love the pic of you holding her in your arms with your family
    God Bless you and your family
    lots of hugs & kisses to you and your family
    THE DEMARS FAMILY

  • Lisa & Gerald

    Hi!
    I just found your blog today and your letter to your little girl It was so sad reading it through tears after tears. You have a beautiful family, love the pic of you holding her in your arms with your family
    God Bless you and your family
    lots of hugs & kisses to you and your family
    THE DEMARS FAMILY

  • Lisa & Gerald

    Hi!
    I just found your blog today and your letter to your little girl It was so sad reading it through tears after tears. You have a beautiful family, love the pic of you holding her in your arms with your family
    God Bless you and your family
    lots of hugs & kisses to you and your family
    THE DEMARS FAMILY

  • Lisa & Gerald

    Hi!
    I just found your blog today and your letter to your little girl It was so sad reading it through tears after tears. You have a beautiful family, love the pic of you holding her in your arms with your family
    God Bless you and your family
    lots of hugs & kisses to you and your family
    THE DEMARS FAMILY

  • Lisa & Gerald

    Hi!
    I just found your blog today and your letter to your little girl It was so sad reading it through tears after tears. You have a beautiful family, love the pic of you holding her in your arms with your family
    God Bless you and your family
    lots of hugs & kisses to you and your family
    THE DEMARS FAMILY

  • Lisa & Gerald

    Hi!
    I just found your blog today and your letter to your little girl It was so sad reading it through tears after tears. You have a beautiful family, love the pic of you holding her in your arms with your family
    God Bless you and your family
    lots of hugs & kisses to you and your family
    THE DEMARS FAMILY

  • Lisa & Gerald

    Hi!
    I just found your blog today and your letter to your little girl It was so sad reading it through tears after tears. You have a beautiful family, love the pic of you holding her in your arms with your family
    God Bless you and your family
    lots of hugs & kisses to you and your family
    THE DEMARS FAMILY

  • Lisa & Gerald

    Hi!
    I just found your blog today and your letter to your little girl It was so sad reading it through tears after tears. You have a beautiful family, love the pic of you holding her in your arms with your family
    God Bless you and your family
    lots of hugs & kisses to you and your family
    THE DEMARS FAMILY

  • Lisa & Gerald

    Hi!
    I just found your blog today and your letter to your little girl It was so sad reading it through tears after tears. You have a beautiful family, love the pic of you holding her in your arms with your family
    God Bless you and your family
    lots of hugs & kisses to you and your family
    THE DEMARS FAMILY

  • Lisa & Gerald

    Hi!
    I just found your blog today and your letter to your little girl It was so sad reading it through tears after tears. You have a beautiful family, love the pic of you holding her in your arms with your family
    God Bless you and your family
    lots of hugs & kisses to you and your family
    THE DEMARS FAMILY

  • Lisa & Gerald

    Hi!
    I just found your blog today and your letter to your little girl It was so sad reading it through tears after tears. You have a beautiful family, love the pic of you holding her in your arms with your family
    God Bless you and your family
    lots of hugs & kisses to you and your family
    THE DEMARS FAMILY

  • Lisa & Gerald

    Hi!
    I just found your blog today and your letter to your little girl It was so sad reading it through tears after tears. You have a beautiful family, love the pic of you holding her in your arms with your family
    God Bless you and your family
    lots of hugs & kisses to you and your family
    THE DEMARS FAMILY

  • Lisa & Gerald

    Hi!
    I just found your blog today and your letter to your little girl It was so sad reading it through tears after tears. You have a beautiful family, love the pic of you holding her in your arms with your family
    God Bless you and your family
    lots of hugs & kisses to you and your family
    THE DEMARS FAMILY

  • Lisa & Gerald

    Hi!
    I just found your blog today and your letter to your little girl It was so sad reading it through tears after tears. You have a beautiful family, love the pic of you holding her in your arms with your family
    God Bless you and your family
    lots of hugs & kisses to you and your family
    THE DEMARS FAMILY

  • Lisa & Gerald

    Hi!
    I just found your blog today and your letter to your little girl It was so sad reading it through tears after tears. You have a beautiful family, love the pic of you holding her in your arms with your family
    God Bless you and your family
    lots of hugs & kisses to you and your family
    THE DEMARS FAMILY

  • Lisa & Gerald

    Hi!
    I just found your blog today and your letter to your little girl It was so sad reading it through tears after tears. You have a beautiful family, love the pic of you holding her in your arms with your family
    God Bless you and your family
    lots of hugs & kisses to you and your family
    THE DEMARS FAMILY

  • Lisa & Gerald

    Hi!
    I just found your blog today and your letter to your little girl It was so sad reading it through tears after tears. You have a beautiful family, love the pic of you holding her in your arms with your family
    God Bless you and your family
    lots of hugs & kisses to you and your family
    THE DEMARS FAMILY

  • Lisa & Gerald

    Hi!
    I just found your blog today and your letter to your little girl It was so sad reading it through tears after tears. You have a beautiful family, love the pic of you holding her in your arms with your family
    God Bless you and your family
    lots of hugs & kisses to you and your family
    THE DEMARS FAMILY

  • Lisa & Gerald

    Hi!
    I just found your blog today and your letter to your little girl It was so sad reading it through tears after tears. You have a beautiful family, love the pic of you holding her in your arms with your family
    God Bless you and your family
    lots of hugs & kisses to you and your family
    THE DEMARS FAMILY

  • Lisa & Gerald

    Hi!
    I just found your blog today and your letter to your little girl It was so sad reading it through tears after tears. You have a beautiful family, love the pic of you holding her in your arms with your family
    God Bless you and your family
    lots of hugs & kisses to you and your family
    THE DEMARS FAMILY

  • Lisa & Gerald

    Hi!
    I just found your blog today and your letter to your little girl It was so sad reading it through tears after tears. You have a beautiful family, love the pic of you holding her in your arms with your family
    God Bless you and your family
    lots of hugs & kisses to you and your family
    THE DEMARS FAMILY

  • Lisa & Gerald

    Hi!
    I just found your blog today and your letter to your little girl It was so sad reading it through tears after tears. You have a beautiful family, love the pic of you holding her in your arms with your family
    God Bless you and your family
    lots of hugs & kisses to you and your family
    THE DEMARS FAMILY

  • Lisa & Gerald

    Hi!
    I just found your blog today and your letter to your little girl It was so sad reading it through tears after tears. You have a beautiful family, love the pic of you holding her in your arms with your family
    God Bless you and your family
    lots of hugs & kisses to you and your family
    THE DEMARS FAMILY

  • Lisa & Gerald

    Hi!
    I just found your blog today and your letter to your little girl It was so sad reading it through tears after tears. You have a beautiful family, love the pic of you holding her in your arms with your family
    God Bless you and your family
    lots of hugs & kisses to you and your family
    THE DEMARS FAMILY

  • Lisa & Gerald

    Hi!
    I just found your blog today and your letter to your little girl It was so sad reading it through tears after tears. You have a beautiful family, love the pic of you holding her in your arms with your family
    God Bless you and your family
    lots of hugs & kisses to you and your family
    THE DEMARS FAMILY

  • Lisa & Gerald

    Hi!
    I just found your blog today and your letter to your little girl It was so sad reading it through tears after tears. You have a beautiful family, love the pic of you holding her in your arms with your family
    God Bless you and your family
    lots of hugs & kisses to you and your family
    THE DEMARS FAMILY

  • Lisa & Gerald

    Hi!
    I just found your blog today and your letter to your little girl It was so sad reading it through tears after tears. You have a beautiful family, love the pic of you holding her in your arms with your family
    God Bless you and your family
    lots of hugs & kisses to you and your family
    THE DEMARS FAMILY

  • erin

    i cannot find the words to say anything more than thank you for loving the Lord the way that you do because it is an inspiration and a challenge to me to rediscover how great He truly is, and how He is the only One that can sustain even through life’s crushing trials.

    thank you for sharing your heart, Audrey was never unloved, you are amazing.

  • Amblin

    I just found your blog today from a link at a blog I read often. I have sat here crying and reading for the last hour. Having just been released from the hospital myself with some uncertainty ahead of me and with 4 young children, I found such peace in your writing. Such pain and yet such peace…Peace that comes from walking through the pain with Jesus holding you up. My prayers are with you and your precious family. Thank you for sharing the blessing of your daughter with us.

  • Kathy

    I’ve prayed for you and your family. I know you’ve needed this time but I miss your messages. I am amazed at what Audrey’s story has done. I have talked with people about her, and obviously others have, too. :) God certainly had special plans for her life, didn’t he? Jeremiah 29:11! It seems like He would be holding her in His arms while pointing down from Heaven saying, “Look, Audrey! See how I used you to bring others to Me? See what’s happening because you were with My children for even such a short time? Yes…I have very special plans for you. And I’m not done yet!”

    Please know that your family is loved…we have not forgotten. :)

  • Debbie

    What an awesome story of Faith and God’s healing. I am praying for your family!

    God bless and be with you!
    Debbie

  • megan allen

    I know I don’t know you but you have changed my life for the better! What a beautiful story. Thank you so much for sharing it with me. What an example you are to all mothers out there! You are truly amazing! Thank you so much!

  • Kris

    I am so sorry for your loss. Unfortunately, we are also in the club that no one wants membership to: parents who must say goodbye to their child far too soon. Our son, Ian Patrick, went to heaven after 7 short days with us. In fact, four years ago today we said goodbye to him, until we meet in Heaven.

    God has been faithful to us, and I know he will be faithful to you. I am so grateful for the photos we have of our precious son, we have nowhere near as many as we wish we did, but we are grateful for every one we do.

  • SlushTurtle

    You have a beautiful family. Thank you for having such a sweet heart for the Lord. May he continue to bless you and fill you with joy.

  • Tami

    What a journey of love, joy, hope and sadness. I am so thankful that you have a strong relationship with God. Jesus has so clearly made a way for you to get through this when there was no way. God Bless you and your entire family.

  • Ryan & Robyn

    Wow, is all I have to say. I am at work and I just spent the last hour and a half reading your blog and crying. (I’m not being too productive today) I want to thank you. You are such an inspirational woman. The courage and strength that you possess is amazing. I have never met you but you have no idea what you mean to me. I’m at a point in my life where I sometimes wonder if HE is really there. My problems are not bigger than yours, and to see the faith that you still have puts things into perpective a little better. Thank you so much and I wish you all the best of luck in your life. you have a beautiful family. Thanks again.

  • Ryan & Robyn

    Wow, is all I have to say. I am at work and I just spent the last hour and a half reading your blog and crying. (I’m not being too productive today) I want to thank you. You are such an inspirational woman. The courage and strength that you possess is amazing. I have never met you but you have no idea what you mean to me. I’m at a point in my life where I sometimes wonder if HE is really there. My problems are not bigger than yours, and to see the faith that you still have puts things into perpective a little better. Thank you so much and I wish you all the best of luck in your life. you have a beautiful family. Thanks again.

  • Ryan & Robyn

    Wow, is all I have to say. I am at work and I just spent the last hour and a half reading your blog and crying. (I’m not being too productive today) I want to thank you. You are such an inspirational woman. The courage and strength that you possess is amazing. I have never met you but you have no idea what you mean to me. I’m at a point in my life where I sometimes wonder if HE is really there. My problems are not bigger than yours, and to see the faith that you still have puts things into perpective a little better. Thank you so much and I wish you all the best of luck in your life. you have a beautiful family. Thanks again.

  • Ryan & Robyn

    Wow, is all I have to say. I am at work and I just spent the last hour and a half reading your blog and crying. (I’m not being too productive today) I want to thank you. You are such an inspirational woman. The courage and strength that you possess is amazing. I have never met you but you have no idea what you mean to me. I’m at a point in my life where I sometimes wonder if HE is really there. My problems are not bigger than yours, and to see the faith that you still have puts things into perpective a little better. Thank you so much and I wish you all the best of luck in your life. you have a beautiful family. Thanks again.

  • Ryan & Robyn

    Wow, is all I have to say. I am at work and I just spent the last hour and a half reading your blog and crying. (I’m not being too productive today) I want to thank you. You are such an inspirational woman. The courage and strength that you possess is amazing. I have never met you but you have no idea what you mean to me. I’m at a point in my life where I sometimes wonder if HE is really there. My problems are not bigger than yours, and to see the faith that you still have puts things into perpective a little better. Thank you so much and I wish you all the best of luck in your life. you have a beautiful family. Thanks again.

  • Ryan & Robyn

    Wow, is all I have to say. I am at work and I just spent the last hour and a half reading your blog and crying. (I’m not being too productive today) I want to thank you. You are such an inspirational woman. The courage and strength that you possess is amazing. I have never met you but you have no idea what you mean to me. I’m at a point in my life where I sometimes wonder if HE is really there. My problems are not bigger than yours, and to see the faith that you still have puts things into perpective a little better. Thank you so much and I wish you all the best of luck in your life. you have a beautiful family. Thanks again.

  • Ryan & Robyn

    Wow, is all I have to say. I am at work and I just spent the last hour and a half reading your blog and crying. (I’m not being too productive today) I want to thank you. You are such an inspirational woman. The courage and strength that you possess is amazing. I have never met you but you have no idea what you mean to me. I’m at a point in my life where I sometimes wonder if HE is really there. My problems are not bigger than yours, and to see the faith that you still have puts things into perpective a little better. Thank you so much and I wish you all the best of luck in your life. you have a beautiful family. Thanks again.

  • Ryan & Robyn

    Wow, is all I have to say. I am at work and I just spent the last hour and a half reading your blog and crying. (I’m not being too productive today) I want to thank you. You are such an inspirational woman. The courage and strength that you possess is amazing. I have never met you but you have no idea what you mean to me. I’m at a point in my life where I sometimes wonder if HE is really there. My problems are not bigger than yours, and to see the faith that you still have puts things into perpective a little better. Thank you so much and I wish you all the best of luck in your life. you have a beautiful family. Thanks again.

  • Ryan & Robyn

    Wow, is all I have to say. I am at work and I just spent the last hour and a half reading your blog and crying. (I’m not being too productive today) I want to thank you. You are such an inspirational woman. The courage and strength that you possess is amazing. I have never met you but you have no idea what you mean to me. I’m at a point in my life where I sometimes wonder if HE is really there. My problems are not bigger than yours, and to see the faith that you still have puts things into perpective a little better. Thank you so much and I wish you all the best of luck in your life. you have a beautiful family. Thanks again.

  • Ryan & Robyn

    Wow, is all I have to say. I am at work and I just spent the last hour and a half reading your blog and crying. (I’m not being too productive today) I want to thank you. You are such an inspirational woman. The courage and strength that you possess is amazing. I have never met you but you have no idea what you mean to me. I’m at a point in my life where I sometimes wonder if HE is really there. My problems are not bigger than yours, and to see the faith that you still have puts things into perpective a little better. Thank you so much and I wish you all the best of luck in your life. you have a beautiful family. Thanks again.

  • Ryan & Robyn

    Wow, is all I have to say. I am at work and I just spent the last hour and a half reading your blog and crying. (I’m not being too productive today) I want to thank you. You are such an inspirational woman. The courage and strength that you possess is amazing. I have never met you but you have no idea what you mean to me. I’m at a point in my life where I sometimes wonder if HE is really there. My problems are not bigger than yours, and to see the faith that you still have puts things into perpective a little better. Thank you so much and I wish you all the best of luck in your life. you have a beautiful family. Thanks again.

  • Ryan & Robyn

    Wow, is all I have to say. I am at work and I just spent the last hour and a half reading your blog and crying. (I’m not being too productive today) I want to thank you. You are such an inspirational woman. The courage and strength that you possess is amazing. I have never met you but you have no idea what you mean to me. I’m at a point in my life where I sometimes wonder if HE is really there. My problems are not bigger than yours, and to see the faith that you still have puts things into perpective a little better. Thank you so much and I wish you all the best of luck in your life. you have a beautiful family. Thanks again.

  • Ryan & Robyn

    Wow, is all I have to say. I am at work and I just spent the last hour and a half reading your blog and crying. (I’m not being too productive today) I want to thank you. You are such an inspirational woman. The courage and strength that you possess is amazing. I have never met you but you have no idea what you mean to me. I’m at a point in my life where I sometimes wonder if HE is really there. My problems are not bigger than yours, and to see the faith that you still have puts things into perpective a little better. Thank you so much and I wish you all the best of luck in your life. you have a beautiful family. Thanks again.

  • Ryan & Robyn

    Wow, is all I have to say. I am at work and I just spent the last hour and a half reading your blog and crying. (I’m not being too productive today) I want to thank you. You are such an inspirational woman. The courage and strength that you possess is amazing. I have never met you but you have no idea what you mean to me. I’m at a point in my life where I sometimes wonder if HE is really there. My problems are not bigger than yours, and to see the faith that you still have puts things into perpective a little better. Thank you so much and I wish you all the best of luck in your life. you have a beautiful family. Thanks again.

  • Ryan & Robyn

    Wow, is all I have to say. I am at work and I just spent the last hour and a half reading your blog and crying. (I’m not being too productive today) I want to thank you. You are such an inspirational woman. The courage and strength that you possess is amazing. I have never met you but you have no idea what you mean to me. I’m at a point in my life where I sometimes wonder if HE is really there. My problems are not bigger than yours, and to see the faith that you still have puts things into perpective a little better. Thank you so much and I wish you all the best of luck in your life. you have a beautiful family. Thanks again.

  • Ryan & Robyn

    Wow, is all I have to say. I am at work and I just spent the last hour and a half reading your blog and crying. (I’m not being too productive today) I want to thank you. You are such an inspirational woman. The courage and strength that you possess is amazing. I have never met you but you have no idea what you mean to me. I’m at a point in my life where I sometimes wonder if HE is really there. My problems are not bigger than yours, and to see the faith that you still have puts things into perpective a little better. Thank you so much and I wish you all the best of luck in your life. you have a beautiful family. Thanks again.

  • Ryan & Robyn

    Wow, is all I have to say. I am at work and I just spent the last hour and a half reading your blog and crying. (I’m not being too productive today) I want to thank you. You are such an inspirational woman. The courage and strength that you possess is amazing. I have never met you but you have no idea what you mean to me. I’m at a point in my life where I sometimes wonder if HE is really there. My problems are not bigger than yours, and to see the faith that you still have puts things into perpective a little better. Thank you so much and I wish you all the best of luck in your life. you have a beautiful family. Thanks again.

  • Ryan & Robyn

    Wow, is all I have to say. I am at work and I just spent the last hour and a half reading your blog and crying. (I’m not being too productive today) I want to thank you. You are such an inspirational woman. The courage and strength that you possess is amazing. I have never met you but you have no idea what you mean to me. I’m at a point in my life where I sometimes wonder if HE is really there. My problems are not bigger than yours, and to see the faith that you still have puts things into perpective a little better. Thank you so much and I wish you all the best of luck in your life. you have a beautiful family. Thanks again.

  • Ryan & Robyn

    Wow, is all I have to say. I am at work and I just spent the last hour and a half reading your blog and crying. (I’m not being too productive today) I want to thank you. You are such an inspirational woman. The courage and strength that you possess is amazing. I have never met you but you have no idea what you mean to me. I’m at a point in my life where I sometimes wonder if HE is really there. My problems are not bigger than yours, and to see the faith that you still have puts things into perpective a little better. Thank you so much and I wish you all the best of luck in your life. you have a beautiful family. Thanks again.

  • Ryan & Robyn

    Wow, is all I have to say. I am at work and I just spent the last hour and a half reading your blog and crying. (I’m not being too productive today) I want to thank you. You are such an inspirational woman. The courage and strength that you possess is amazing. I have never met you but you have no idea what you mean to me. I’m at a point in my life where I sometimes wonder if HE is really there. My problems are not bigger than yours, and to see the faith that you still have puts things into perpective a little better. Thank you so much and I wish you all the best of luck in your life. you have a beautiful family. Thanks again.

  • Ryan & Robyn

    Wow, is all I have to say. I am at work and I just spent the last hour and a half reading your blog and crying. (I’m not being too productive today) I want to thank you. You are such an inspirational woman. The courage and strength that you possess is amazing. I have never met you but you have no idea what you mean to me. I’m at a point in my life where I sometimes wonder if HE is really there. My problems are not bigger than yours, and to see the faith that you still have puts things into perpective a little better. Thank you so much and I wish you all the best of luck in your life. you have a beautiful family. Thanks again.

  • Ryan & Robyn

    Wow, is all I have to say. I am at work and I just spent the last hour and a half reading your blog and crying. (I’m not being too productive today) I want to thank you. You are such an inspirational woman. The courage and strength that you possess is amazing. I have never met you but you have no idea what you mean to me. I’m at a point in my life where I sometimes wonder if HE is really there. My problems are not bigger than yours, and to see the faith that you still have puts things into perpective a little better. Thank you so much and I wish you all the best of luck in your life. you have a beautiful family. Thanks again.

  • Ryan & Robyn

    Wow, is all I have to say. I am at work and I just spent the last hour and a half reading your blog and crying. (I’m not being too productive today) I want to thank you. You are such an inspirational woman. The courage and strength that you possess is amazing. I have never met you but you have no idea what you mean to me. I’m at a point in my life where I sometimes wonder if HE is really there. My problems are not bigger than yours, and to see the faith that you still have puts things into perpective a little better. Thank you so much and I wish you all the best of luck in your life. you have a beautiful family. Thanks again.

  • Ryan & Robyn

    Wow, is all I have to say. I am at work and I just spent the last hour and a half reading your blog and crying. (I’m not being too productive today) I want to thank you. You are such an inspirational woman. The courage and strength that you possess is amazing. I have never met you but you have no idea what you mean to me. I’m at a point in my life where I sometimes wonder if HE is really there. My problems are not bigger than yours, and to see the faith that you still have puts things into perpective a little better. Thank you so much and I wish you all the best of luck in your life. you have a beautiful family. Thanks again.

  • Ryan & Robyn

    Wow, is all I have to say. I am at work and I just spent the last hour and a half reading your blog and crying. (I’m not being too productive today) I want to thank you. You are such an inspirational woman. The courage and strength that you possess is amazing. I have never met you but you have no idea what you mean to me. I’m at a point in my life where I sometimes wonder if HE is really there. My problems are not bigger than yours, and to see the faith that you still have puts things into perpective a little better. Thank you so much and I wish you all the best of luck in your life. you have a beautiful family. Thanks again.

  • Ryan & Robyn

    Wow, is all I have to say. I am at work and I just spent the last hour and a half reading your blog and crying. (I’m not being too productive today) I want to thank you. You are such an inspirational woman. The courage and strength that you possess is amazing. I have never met you but you have no idea what you mean to me. I’m at a point in my life where I sometimes wonder if HE is really there. My problems are not bigger than yours, and to see the faith that you still have puts things into perpective a little better. Thank you so much and I wish you all the best of luck in your life. you have a beautiful family. Thanks again.

  • Ryan & Robyn

    Wow, is all I have to say. I am at work and I just spent the last hour and a half reading your blog and crying. (I’m not being too productive today) I want to thank you. You are such an inspirational woman. The courage and strength that you possess is amazing. I have never met you but you have no idea what you mean to me. I’m at a point in my life where I sometimes wonder if HE is really there. My problems are not bigger than yours, and to see the faith that you still have puts things into perpective a little better. Thank you so much and I wish you all the best of luck in your life. you have a beautiful family. Thanks again.

  • Ryan & Robyn

    Wow, is all I have to say. I am at work and I just spent the last hour and a half reading your blog and crying. (I’m not being too productive today) I want to thank you. You are such an inspirational woman. The courage and strength that you possess is amazing. I have never met you but you have no idea what you mean to me. I’m at a point in my life where I sometimes wonder if HE is really there. My problems are not bigger than yours, and to see the faith that you still have puts things into perpective a little better. Thank you so much and I wish you all the best of luck in your life. you have a beautiful family. Thanks again.

  • Ryan & Robyn

    Wow, is all I have to say. I am at work and I just spent the last hour and a half reading your blog and crying. (I’m not being too productive today) I want to thank you. You are such an inspirational woman. The courage and strength that you possess is amazing. I have never met you but you have no idea what you mean to me. I’m at a point in my life where I sometimes wonder if HE is really there. My problems are not bigger than yours, and to see the faith that you still have puts things into perpective a little better. Thank you so much and I wish you all the best of luck in your life. you have a beautiful family. Thanks again.

  • Ryan & Robyn

    Wow, is all I have to say. I am at work and I just spent the last hour and a half reading your blog and crying. (I’m not being too productive today) I want to thank you. You are such an inspirational woman. The courage and strength that you possess is amazing. I have never met you but you have no idea what you mean to me. I’m at a point in my life where I sometimes wonder if HE is really there. My problems are not bigger than yours, and to see the faith that you still have puts things into perpective a little better. Thank you so much and I wish you all the best of luck in your life. you have a beautiful family. Thanks again.

  • Ryan & Robyn

    Wow, is all I have to say. I am at work and I just spent the last hour and a half reading your blog and crying. (I’m not being too productive today) I want to thank you. You are such an inspirational woman. The courage and strength that you possess is amazing. I have never met you but you have no idea what you mean to me. I’m at a point in my life where I sometimes wonder if HE is really there. My problems are not bigger than yours, and to see the faith that you still have puts things into perpective a little better. Thank you so much and I wish you all the best of luck in your life. you have a beautiful family. Thanks again.

  • Ryan & Robyn

    Wow, is all I have to say. I am at work and I just spent the last hour and a half reading your blog and crying. (I’m not being too productive today) I want to thank you. You are such an inspirational woman. The courage and strength that you possess is amazing. I have never met you but you have no idea what you mean to me. I’m at a point in my life where I sometimes wonder if HE is really there. My problems are not bigger than yours, and to see the faith that you still have puts things into perpective a little better. Thank you so much and I wish you all the best of luck in your life. you have a beautiful family. Thanks again.

  • Ryan & Robyn

    Wow, is all I have to say. I am at work and I just spent the last hour and a half reading your blog and crying. (I’m not being too productive today) I want to thank you. You are such an inspirational woman. The courage and strength that you possess is amazing. I have never met you but you have no idea what you mean to me. I’m at a point in my life where I sometimes wonder if HE is really there. My problems are not bigger than yours, and to see the faith that you still have puts things into perpective a little better. Thank you so much and I wish you all the best of luck in your life. you have a beautiful family. Thanks again.

  • Ryan & Robyn

    Wow, is all I have to say. I am at work and I just spent the last hour and a half reading your blog and crying. (I’m not being too productive today) I want to thank you. You are such an inspirational woman. The courage and strength that you possess is amazing. I have never met you but you have no idea what you mean to me. I’m at a point in my life where I sometimes wonder if HE is really there. My problems are not bigger than yours, and to see the faith that you still have puts things into perpective a little better. Thank you so much and I wish you all the best of luck in your life. you have a beautiful family. Thanks again.

  • Jen

    I’ve been reading your story and never know what to say. But I will always remember Audrey.

    Many prayers of thanksgiving for her life are offered up with you, as well as prayers for comfort for you as you celebrate her life and mourn your loss of her here with you.

  • Audrey

    Thank you for sharing such a beautiful little girl with us. I know you miss her terribly….she is one blessed angel to have such a wonderful mommy and daddy!

    With Love
    Audrey

  • Jenn

    Praise God for such a beautiful testimony, Angie. I love you guys and have never met you. I praise God for the way that He walked with you and aided you all in this time, and for the way He used darling Audrey as a vessel for His work and glory. Hallelujah to the King of Kings and Lord of Lords!!! We, your brothers and sisters in Christ, love you guys, and know and be encouraged by the love and prayers that are here and there on you guys’ behalf.

    Grace and peace,
    Jenn

  • Anonymous

    I have checked your blog every day at least twice since you started it. I cry each time I read this letter. I just said a prayer of healing for your heart. I cannot imagine your pain. Stay strong in Christ and know that you have touched so many….

  • julie_blauwkamp

    what a beautiful and precious child Audrey is!

    your story brought tears to my heart- tears of sadness that audrey’s sisters will have to wait again to heaven to play with her again. tears of a mother who knows what it’s like to smell, kiss and taste a precious child and wonder about the ache of doing that for the last time. tears of joy at the deep faith and joy on you and your dear husband’s face as you held and cherished your time together on earth with sweet audrey.

    your faith is a living day example of the faith Jairus and his wife must have had when Jesus told them, “don’t be afraid, just believe.” A faith so genuine and true that it could propel you into a time of joy as you faced the unknowns of audrey’s life and going into the arms of Jesus- leaving behind a parable giving testimony to the wonder and awe of your faith in a MAN whose voice the wind and sea obey!

  • Harris Family

    I am so touched by your strength. Thank you for sharing your beautiful words. My heart has been touched through you and because of sweet Audrey. She really has changed the world. What an honor to be her mommy. Thank you for opening up and for being so transparent. You and your family are still in my thougths and prayers.

  • Anonymous

    Dear Angie, I was directed to your blog by another blog I read. Gosh, you are a beautiful servant of Christ. Your husband is as well. I read this most recent entry first, and then read your entire blog, and finished by reading this entry again. It was then that I realized I actually was listening to the radio of April 7 when your daughter Audrey Caroline was born. The radio station announced it and asked for prayers for Audrey and you and your husband. I remember praying right then. And I live in Illinois. Yes, your daughter’s legacy lives on, as her spirit does in your hearts. Go bless, Ellen

  • Shannon

    I have been struggling to find my way back to God since 2003… your story has really touched me heart. Thank you for sharing.

  • Anonymous

    What a peaceful, prayerful letter to your beautiful daughter. She is blessed to have a mom, dad and sisters as wonderful as you. I know that my son, Simon, and your Audrey are gathered tightly in the arms of Jesus.
    Always for Him
    Amy

  • Laura

    Thank you for sharing Audrey’s story. Thank you for sharing the rawness of your emotions. Thank you for sharing your faith throughout this journey. It’s taken me a few days to read through the blogs through my own tears and questioning where I stand with God and how to make it better. I assure you that my life is forever changed by reading Audrey’s story. Thank you.

  • Steve and Paula

    She is precious in His sight.

    I had two early miscarriages last year. Praise God you had the time to hold her for a bit.
    I look forward to the day that I will be able to see and hold my two little ones.
    God bless all of you.
    Looking for His shout,
    Paula

  • Kristy

    An angel sent to earth for just a glimpse of what is in store. You and your family are such an inspiration. The beauty of the Lord definitely shines through you all. I stumbled across your blog not by accident but by appointment 1 week before the beautiful Audrey entered this world and I was instantly glued by the heart strings to it. My thoughts and prayers were with you and your family through that week and even now. May God’s love just embrace you all as he already has and bring you all through this even more victorious than you all are now. God is Good!! Thank you for sharing your story Angie and don’t every doubt the bravery that you have because you are so special and the strength that you have is admirable. All I can say is WoW what a testimony. God Bless!!

  • Kristy

    An angel sent to earth for just a glimpse of what is in store. You and your family are such an inspiration. The beauty of the Lord definitely shines through you all. I stumbled across your blog not by accident but by appointment 1 week before the beautiful Audrey entered this world and I was instantly glued to it. My thoughts and prayers were with you and your family through that week and even now. May God’s love just embrace you all as he already has and bring you all through this even more victorious than you all are now. God is Good!! Thank you for sharing your story Angie and don’t every doubt the bravery that you have because you are so special and the strength that you have is admirable. All I can say is WoW what a testimony. God Bless!!

  • Lucy A. Cain, All Glory Is His Writing Ministry

    PS This is Lucy Cain one more time. I think I forgot to give you the upcoming book’s current website, http://www.hopefromheaven.com. There is one particular poem in there that I would like to share with you…click poetry, then click “Heaven’s Children.” May it bless you in some small way…
    Lucy

  • Anonymous

    Thank-you for sharing the joy of little Audrey’s life..CTG

  • Monica

    May God continue to bless. Thank you so much for sharing your story. You and your beautiful family have filled my heart to overflowing.

  • Susan

    Thank you for sharing this beautiful story with so many. I know that God is using it in ways that are seen here admist commenters as well as ways unseen.

    Blessings,

    Susan

  • Anonymous

    Precious Audrey! I cannot begin to tell you how reading about this most precious little life, and your beautiful family, has touched my life, my heart, and something so deep within my spirit … thank you for allowing us to lift you up in prayer … to share in your joys, your sorrows, and your love for our Father. I will be praying His continued comfort and peace for all of you, Angie.

    Blessings ~
    Another Smith Family

  • Anonymous

    I am in complete amazement with your ability to so gracefully write about this journey. How beautiful she is.
    You are a family that can move through the toughest of times and can somehow find a way to lighten the world with your message.
    We love you guys and are praying for you each and every day.
    Joseph, Theresa and Emma

  • Courtney

    Wow. With what grace have you written your heart on a screen for the whole world to see…my tears and my heartache don’t hold a candle to yours I know. We have just experienced a similar story in our circle of friends here and it doesn’t get easier, but I am so glad that at the center of these stories lies our Creator, our Lord, or Healer, or Redeemer…I can’t imagine what days lie ahead for you, but I pray that the grace and peace and comfort of Christ will carry you. God bless you. Thank you for your transparency and honesty…I can’t wait to meet sweet (and beautiful) Audrey in heaven one day!

  • Anonymous

    Hi The Smith Family. My name is Melissa and I live in Chattanooga, not far from you all. Your story has touched me, I once have felt the pain you feel. I lost my husband, 5 yrs ago May 8th, and I was 7 months pregnant with our 2nd child. It was unexpected, he was only 26!! But I have my 2 beautiful children thanks to him and the Lord. I grew closer to the Lord after it happened. And even though it was a shock, I am at peace with it. We don’t understand these things, we aren’t meant to, but just keep trusting in Him, and you will see her beautiful face again one day. Maybe Paul is helping to care for her. He loved babies. I will keep you all in my thoughts and prayers. I know it hurts, but you seem to be so strong. The Lord will continue to bless you. Much love, Melissa

  • Anonymous

    Thank you so much for sharing your story with me and my children, Jada-7, and Parrish-4. And most importantly, thank you for sharing the pictures of your family. You all are amazing.

  • Hiatt Family

    I really appreciate the letter you wrote to your little girl. I had a baby boy who was stillborn at 37 weeks, and as I was reading that letter so many of your feelings hit so close to home for me. Our son’s birth has been the best experience that my husband & I have had. We saw so many tender mercies & I wish others could feel the love & spirit that we felt & continue to feel. I love the picture of your family…you have a beautiful one! My bishop asked me to write my story down, but I keep getting stuck. I think telling the story in the form of a letter to my boy would work much better. I write to him in my journal, but I never thought of writing his story like that. Thanks again for sharing.

  • MCMFamily

    Thank you so much for your blog. You have helped me so much right now. We lost our baby Abigail at 19 weeks. We were completley shocked. I gave birth to her on Feb. 22nd. I have been dealing with my greif and trying to also find a way to bring God glory through the pain. He has also blessed us in so many ways, even in the delivery room. Hes been there. Thank you for sharing your story. I dont know how to thank you but to tell you that God has used your blog to help me heal. God bless you so much,
    Mary

  • Kathy

    Audrey is beautiful, as is her whole family. She was and will always be a blessing. Thank you and BLESS YOU for sharing your story. We are all crying with you, but lifting her up as well. My heart goes out to your family for the days ahead and I pray that you all feel the comforting hand of God resting on you at all times.

  • Erica

    This past weekend when they opened the altar, I went forward with the express purpose of praising God for Audrey. The tears just flowed as I praised Him for all He has done and is continuing to do in this valley. I praised Him for her legacy, yes, but also just that He chose to grace us with her presence. Her very existence is such a gift. I never beheld her in person, but after praying so hard for her, I feel immensely blessed that God chose to create her and that you guys chose to let God use her story in any way He chose…and oh, my, is He at work!

    Thank you for sharing. Thanks for letting us pray for and love Audrey and your entire family in this way. I am forever changed. As, obviously are hundreds (even thousands) of others.

  • Jennifer

    Angie~

    There are so many comments on this post, and I’ve actually commented once before, so this one may get lost in the shuffle, but I just wanted to say I heard “Bring the Rain” for the first time on the radio this morning on my way to work and thought of you. I prayed for you. I hope you are feeling lifted up this morning =)

    Jenn

  • Anonymous

    I found your blog through a friends, and have been following your story, and praying for you all.
    Looking forward to worshipping w/ Selah at 2nd Baptist in May! I know it will be a great evening.

  • nakia dodd

    Dear Angela,
    I’m sorry for the lost of your baby girl. She was very beautiful. I couldn’t help myself from reading and crying.Reading brought back memories of my little girl that i lost from a stillbirth almost 5 yrs. ago now. I know God will contine to be with you and your family as he has helped me many of times. Trust In The Lord. God Bless. Nakia

  • Anonymous

    Hi Angie,
    i know your story from my sister in law. Your story encourage me. I lost my first baby at March,31 when i was pregnant 2 months. It was our first appointment to see our baby by ultrasound and doctor told me that they could’nt find the baby’s heartbeart. Our baby gone.
    I had to go to surgery after that and it was a very difficult time for me.I blamed myself for what happened. Maybe i did something wrong. Some of people blamed me and ask me question why that thing happen. i felt frustrated. I keep searching the reason, until i read your story. I realize that God has reason for everything and it is not happened to punish me. Me and my husband fight a lot during our first 8 months marriage. But because of this we depend on each other and loving each other more. Our baby is blessing for us. I love my baby, i dont know if it’s boy or girl. Thank you for sharing your story. It heal me. God Bless you.

    Anis, Anchorage, AK
    live_2pray@yahoo.com

  • Anonymous

    Thank you for sharing your story. We had our own loss on March 16 when my mother greeted the Lord. She was 69 and had endured lung cancer for 2 1/2 years. She patiently and joyfully anticipated her eternal home. The music of Selah was one of her favorites to listen to. I would like to leave you with a scripture that I clung to during her entire illness. Psalm 66:10-11. I keyed on “you laid burdens on our back” and “you brought us to place of abundance”. I pray you will continue to find the abundance in the midst of your burden, as it appears you already have. God Bless. Debbie, Midland, Michigan

  • Anonymous

    What words of grace you’ve spoken…what glory to God you’ve given. The letter is absolutely touching. Over the last week, I have prayed for you and the family. I pray you still feel the blanket of prayers on your life. This Sunday, I will be in fervent prayer for the service. May you fill the strong presence of the Lord and know His great comfort and words which will speak to your heart through His Holy Spirit. Romans says when we don’t know what to pray, the Holy Spirit intercedes on our behalf with groanings before the Father. God bless you.

    Amber

  • whetzel momma

    I don’t know you, and I love you… may God continue to bless you as you continue to allow him to use your life and Audrey’s as a witness for Him…

  • Anonymous

    Thank you so much for sharing your story.

  • Emily

    Praying for you today.

  • Anonymous

    Our love and prayers are with you and your beautiful family-
    Please update us soon as to how you’re all doing. We have come to love you and know you like our own family.

    hugs-
    Jennifer

  • Anonymous

    Thank you so much for sharing your story. I thought I was having a rough week, but you have been stronger than I have while going through so much more.

    I pray that God continues to bless you and your family.

  • amanda

    I, too, had to read through tears. Thank you for sharing this precious letter and the beautiful photos from that day…before I even read your letter to Audrey, I looked at those pictures and just thought “Peace”…God’s gifts are amazing.

  • Steve and Alicia

    Thank you so much for your letter. My son died in sept of 2001 and the sweet peaceful feeling of your letter is conveyed. The feelings were the same for me too. Your baby is beautiful!! Thank you for sharing your story. It took me much longer to write it all down (until this last year in fact).

    There will be good days and bad days, but it does get better in time but you never forget.

    My thoughts and prayers are with your family.

    alicia

  • Jungheims

    A friend just shared your blog address and I decided to look it up. Thank you for allowing me to join you in praising God for your becautiful baby Audrey.

    I had a daughter unexpectedly stillborn at 35 weeks gestation on April 8, 2004. I understand your descriptions of the unexplainable peace and presence of God that is like no other and how a child who never drew a breath (or very few) is a miracle beyond words. What a blessing to know your baby was created perfectly, no errors were made; her days, hours and minutes were ordained before the world began, and her purpose was clearly defined. Audrey completed the “race” set before her and ran it well! You are blessed to be chosen to be a part of her life.

    It’s been four years since my daughter, Grace, went home to our Heavenly Father and I can tell you that the joy of Audrey’s life will not diminish in time, the grace that God extends will continue to be enough (even if you secretly fear it might not at times), and the great Hope that we have in Christ seems even sweeter knowing who will greet you at those pearly gates one day.

    I do not know you, but we are family, and I will be thinking of you and praying for you in the days to come.

    In Christ,
    Lisa
    nicklisa28@att.net

  • Anonymous

    thank you for sharing your story. This baby has indeed touched lives through just being here for 2 1/2 hours.
    I admire your joy. The joy of the LORD (and it only comes from HIM!) He is your stronghold. Your hope. Your love. He will always be there for you, your husband, and 3 little precious girls. I amazed (through tears) of your faith.

    Remember; when you are going through hard times, that God IS holding Audrey Caroline in His hands in heaven right now. He has such a love for His childen, and a plan for us all.
    Praying for you,

    Adrienne
    (bradys.beads@yahoo.com)

  • felicitas

    My hard is with you and your family. I always feel with you when I read this blog and tears well in my eyes.
    I pray for you.

  • Nikki

    Just to let you know that your family and Audrey have touched me even though I don’t know you. Your letter to her is one of the most beautiful things I’ve ever read and I’m crying as I type this to you. Your pictures are absolutely beautiful and I know they will be impressed in my memory for a long, long time. How wonderful that you and your family were so at peace on that day and now. My thoughts and prayers are with you all.

  • Michelle McGee

    God bless you

  • Two blessings from above

    My thoughts and prayers are with you this weekend!

  • lindsay

    Angie,

    I have cried so many tears for you, your family, and your sweet baby girl. I have never lost a baby myself, but as a mama of three little ones, I feel your pain like it is my own. I wish with all my heart that things had turned out differently, that Audrey was here on Earth for you to snuggle and dance with and sing to. I know she is in the loving arms of God tonight, but how I wish she could be in yours instead.

    As it is, though, I am so glad that God chose you to be Audrey’s mama. All she’s ever known is love–first the love that only a mother can feel for her unborn child, then the love that surrounded her on her birth day, and now nothing but pure love all around her in Heaven. She went straight from her mama’s arms to God’s.

    You are right. Audrey changed the world. I know she changed me. I will never forget her story.

    Lindsay

  • Babydoll

    You are very strong to write this. I’m positive that you and your little one have touched many lives and brought many into God’s arms. Thanks for sharing this. Continued blessings for you and your family.

  • Gene McIntyre

    Dear Angie,

    I waited for a few days before I reacted to your letter to Audrey in writing. I have been extremely emotional about your test of faith. But I marveled at God’s faithfulness and his work in your life and your family. God has restored Audrey to health and life abundant. She might not be present with us and yet, she is very much present with the Lord, in perfect peace and awaiting for an eternity surrounded by her mommy, daddy and sisters that are still here on earth. You will not yearn forever. Your arms will not remain empty. God loves you deeply and entrusted Todd and you with a precious miracle. A miracle that is a testament to the sanctity of life, the power of obedience and the ability of an incredible God to bring forth the best in us, even when we don’t believe there’s anything left in us to withstand. Please know that you are loved. Every time I hug my 3-month old baby, I think of Audrey and you and I pray earnestly. You are ever present now in my life. I will not cease to bless you and pray for you and believe God for your complete comfort and healing. Please know that you are loved by churches in Florida here in the US, Panama and a few other countries. We all stand by you and for you before the Lord. And we praise Him for Audrey’s life. Blessings. The McIntyres

  • Joy

    Be in peace knowing that Jesus is holding your baby girl for you until you are called by God to join her again. Who better to watch over her than our Lord and Savior?

    I wanted to gently remind you of that and please know we are all eagerly awaiting more pictures of that special day when she went back to Jesus.

    Take your time and know we’ll be here waiting.

  • Angela

    Any words I could say are so inadequate. I was bawling as I read your precious Audrey’s story. I don’t know that I could be as peaceful as you seem to be. Thank you for sharing her with us.

    I believe whole heartedly that you will see your beautiful angel again and have the opportunity to raise her. Our Heavenly Father is a loving God and he makes families for eternity. Again, thank you for sharing such an intensely personal and private thing with hundreds, thousands, of people.

  • Cindy-Still His Girl

    Praying for you again today.

    Your letter was incredible. I love that she made you brave. What beautiful words.

    The photos are stunning. It’s my dream to one day learn photography, and to be able to bless families like yours.

    Praying for your entire family.

  • Natalie

    Beautiful photos, beautiful. Your little girls are gorgeous. I am so very sorry for your loss… my heart aches with you, as I lost my son 6 weeks ago.

  • Lonnie and Melissa Haber

    I was saddened to hear that they have frozen your blog. Hopefully they will realize it is not spam soon and un-freeze it, as it it touching so many people. I spoke to a woman from Church last Sunday who went through a similar situation-her daughter lived for 31 minutes. She seemed to really appreciate your blog. A neighbor told me the other day how it made her appreciate her daughter that much more and was grateful to have read your blog. It continues to touch so many lives. Just wanted you to know that you and your family are still in our prayers-daily.

  • MyCRenee

    Angie and Family!
    I continue to pray for you daily and wanted to thank you for sharing Audrey with us. Your love for your daughter is so evident! What an amazing family you are! Much love, peace and prayers to you!

  • Lil Tinker

    She is beautiful and I wish your family continued peace and healing.

    Hugs to the ‘big sisters’ too!

    Liz

  • Anonymous

    Maybe as they check your blog they’ll read it and be touched by little Audrey’s story as well! Maybe they’ll be pointed to Christ! Maybe, just maybe this is just another part of God’s plan to use your sweet girl’s story for HIS glory! You never know!!! :)

    I keep thinking of you and praying for you. I am so thankful for you and feel like I know you, even though we’re strangers. You’ve blessed my heart! Thankyou, Angie.

    your sister in Christ,
    Amy in Texas
    amy@philippians121.com

  • Anonymous

    Prayers for you & your family, you are an inspiration to many! Thank you for sharing your story … to God be the glory!

  • Anonymous

    Of course, I am still praying for you– we all are, and I anxiously await another post from you. I feel like I need to know how you are doing, need to know better how to pray for you. I can’t wait until your blog is fixed! You have been a close friend these last few months, and I’m sure everyone would agree that we need you as much as you need us. Praying that God is helping you through your greiving, healing process and that He not leave your side for a second. I’ll keep checking back, Angie.

  • Club Sammich Cafe -Art,Angels and Miracles.

    You and your family are still covered in prayer.

  • Adrienne and Jim

    Angie,

    Thank you for letting us know about the “spam” issue. I don’t really understand it either. I hope Blogger will work this out for you quickly! I will continue checking daily for any updates. We’re still praying and thinking about you constantly. Sending you a hug!

    With much love,
    Adrienne

  • Aimee Wade

    So thankful you were able to update us. I pray for you every day, Angie, and hope the blog issue can be fixed soon.The fact that so many are reading is a testament to the strength of Audrey’s story and your words. Thank you for letting us into your life through your words.

    Aimee Wade
    Avon, NY

  • Pipsylou

    You are not far from my thoughts, ever.

    I am the 600th comment. Wow, little Audrey, you have certainly made an impact!!!

  • Anonymous

    Angie and family, Oh, how sad to have this spam blog stuff happen just now when you need prayer. Oh how the enemy tries to work, but we all remember that our Precious Lord is more powerful than any foe in the air. I am continuing to pray for all of you. I open your blog and just listen to the music and pray. You are a precious family and I thank you for sharing your hearts throughout this journey. It helps as I travel my own tragic journey to watch and know that God is able to do immeasurably more than we could ever hope or dream. You are a blessing. Thank you and God Bless You All. Cindy – Phoenix

  • Anonymous

    Angie & Todd,

    They can stop you from posting, but they CAN’T KEEP US FROM PRAYING!!! Isn’t our God powerful…HE doesn’t need a blog to reach us or us to reach HIM! That’s the devil working, trying to keep us, your friends, from doing our best to comfort you. We love you guys & our prayers have continued. You have been on my mind each & everyday. God sends you my way, I just pray again & again & again. I cannot imagine how hard this week has been for your family. I’ve kept you close to my heart dear ones. Tomorrow will be a rejoicing day, but I can’t even imagine how hard it will be. God will carry you through the Memorial Service & continue through the coming times. We are planning to come to Audrey’s Memorial Service tomorrow. I’m still in the wheel chair with my foot, I only hope it’s not a distraction. I wouldn’t do anything to interfere with the service for God’s little red-headed ANGEL, AUDREY CAROLINE. Rest my precious friend & we will see you tomorrow. Now Devil, get away, you are NOT welcome even near this blog! Love you…Rose in Nashville.

  • Laurie

    I have been praying for you all along Angie and I will continue to ask the Lord to meet each and every need you have until you can post again. Your letter to Audrey was so beautiful, straight from the broken yet grateful heart of yours. Praying Gods peace and blessings on you through this tough journey. So many are lifting you up to the One who holds your heart. I am so sorry for the huge loss Angie, but so grateful for her life that lives on here through your words. You have been such a blessing of faith and hope to me.

    Love, Laurie in Ca.

  • Anonymous

    Audrey has truly touched many, many lives in her short time on earth. May God bring you comfort in the knowlegde that she will live on in the hearts of many. Audrey felt true love here on earth and is living in the presence of the true and pure love of God in heaven. Peace be with your family as you travel this journey.

  • Anonymous

    I couldn’t help but notice how dressed up your three older girls are to meet their sweet sister for this one time. It broke my heart and made me smile all at once. Thanks for sharing your story and pictures, how very brave of you. My prayers are with your family.

    Sheri from Green Bay, WI

  • Ruthanne

    I just found your blog yesterday through a friend. I read the whole thing last night and this morning. Thank you so much for sharing Audrey’s life with us. I sat here crying, smiling, laughing and crying again. Audrey has certainly blessed your life and so many more. I am especially touched by your faith and your openness and honesty when faith was difficult.
    I wish I had found you earlier to have been able to help pray you through the difficult times. Selah’s song “God Blessed the Broken Road” has been a blessing to me for a while and feels as if it were written just for me. It helped me through difficult days during the adoption of my son.
    I will pray for your family as you continue to heal and I look forward to hearing Audrey’s song on the upcoming CD.

  • Jody

    Angie,

    I came across your blog the week before you gave birth. You have daily been in my prayers and I will continue to lift you and your family up, blog or no blog. When I read about the “spam stuff” my thought was that Audrey’s story and the love of God will be shared with the people at blogger who review your site.

  • Anonymous

    It is utterly amazing what God can do through one so tiny.

    Thank you for sharing your story. I cherished my daughter before… but somehow now I think I love her even more.

    Praise God for His blessings.
    Renee

  • Anonymous

    Dearest Angie,
    Please know that even in this “unintended” time of silence from your blog.. that you are still being lifted up and loved. I am so sorry that it is during this time, you are unable to post. I do hope it is fixed in a timely manner so that you can again start reaching out to all who love you, and are praying with/for you. Pretty impressive that so many people have checked out your site that it has to be looked in to. Just maybe the “blog maintenance” people need Jesus..and they surely will get to know him from “inspecting” your blog.
    You have amazing strength. Holding tight to Jesus for you in the days ahead.
    Blessings,
    Nichole

  • Alisha

    I am just so sad. So deeply sad and heartsick for you and your family. But, also deeply sad with myself to have allowed my walk with Christ to be so routine. You have sparked a newness and desire once again within me. Thank you for sharing your life with us. After reading your blog I immediately prayed – Come quickly Lord Jesus, Come quickly! God bless you and your sweet baby girl. Alisha

  • Peas on Earth

    Thanks for letting us know about the “spam” situation. I’d wondered why you had not posted. I think this is definitely part of a Heavenly agenda, and I am going to pray that the person who “checks out your blog” gets captivated by the God portrayed within its pages. I pray that person will point others at Blogger to your site and many will come to know as Lord the One who created Audrey’s precious life and who loved her through you.
    Blessings,
    sharon

  • Sarah

    Angie,

    There is no doubt in my mind that God has ordained this “check” on your blog. I pray that the people who are looking over it are acutely aware that the God you talk about is real and alive. Your family continues to be in my prayers and thoughts throughout the day.

    Thank you again for sharing this precious story.

  • Deborah

    What beautiful pictures, and an amazing story of grace in the face of a heart wrenching trial

  • Anonymous

    IF you are a blog maintainer and you need Jesus.. You choose the right blog to look at. Please contact anyone.. We would love to introduce you.
    Angie Satan cannot stop the work that God is doing. We will contue to pass this around anyway. I will continue to pary for you and your family as so will the thousnads of other posters as they have said themselves. Our God is powerful; his power cannot be contained. May God show you that his love is new each day, may Jesus hold you in His everlasting and loving arms, and may the holy spirit quiet your fear, sadness and your heart.
    you can sense the spiritual warfare that is going on when people visit your site here on the blog. God id at work and He will continue to work until the day Christ returns and you and all of us will see Audrey again.
    She is soooooooo beautiful as are all of your little girls.
    Know that qwe have you covered in prayer for the days ahead until you can post again. God is able to use even this bleep in the blog to bring others to himself. Praying that as the sun comes out tomorrow it will shine brighly during the service for your angel, just as she has lit the way for others to Heaven.

  • Jennifer Powers

    Thank you for sharing Audrey with all of us. She is so beautiful and she is definitely changing the world. I am so blessed to have stumbled upon your blog. My prayers are with you an your beautiful family.

    Jennifer in OK

  • Anonymous

    Angie and family~praying God’s blessing on you tomorrow for Audrey’s service…there are so many people praying and I know that our saviour is being and will continue to be glorified, even thru your pain…thank you for sharing your family with us. God bless!

  • Jenn

    Angie, So sorry you’re not able to post!! Please know that we are praying! Hugs, Jenn

  • Meghan

    Know that you are still being prayed for Angie… no spam work of Satan can prevent that from happening!! Those of us who have been down similar roads know that these days become increasingly difficult as you long to hold and kiss Audrey even just one more time.

    Lord give her peace… and calm your child.

    Love, Meghan
    http://www.littlemanricky.com

  • Anonymous

    I cannot leave this time without letting you know that I have shared your powerful story with so many and they feel the same as I, Audrey was a miracle to behold. I too have been wondering why you have not posted, but also have been holding you and your family up in my prayers. May tomorrow be a celebration of Audrey and of your never ending faith in your God and my God. Bless you and your sweet family.

    Love,
    Lisa in Wisconsin

  • Katie Sievert

    Thank you for sharing your story. It is a beautiful story of God’s healing and the power of the peace of the Holy Spirit. I understand your pain as I lost had a miscarriage less than a week ago. Thanks for your encouraging words, Audrey’s story has helped to start healing my broken heart also. I pray your hearts will also begin to heal.

  • Anonymous

    Hang in there angie, our family still has your family in our thoughts and prayers everyday. you are an amazing woman and mother. may God continue to use Audrey’s life and story to further his kingdom. i wish i could reach out and give you a hand, a shoulder, a hug.
    tara from maryland

  • Anonymous

    Angie,

    Just wanted to let you know that I’m praying for you tonight, I can’t imagine the emotional strain of this week. I look forward to seeing your beautiful family at the memorial service on Sunday. Thanks for letting us know about the spam situation, we’ve been thinking of you. Sincerely, Ashley Ethridge

  • Laura

    Angie,
    I’m so sorry you can’t post. Rest assured, you’re still being prayed for.

  • Anonymous

    Thank you for sharing your family with all of us. I have read your letter to precious Audrey over and over. You have given me strength in my life. I lost a pregancy, a little girl, yet was not able to see her or hold her. I have dreamed of what she may have looked like, what she would have felt like in my arms. Through your story I can now imagine her. Your beautiful daughter gave me a vision and some peace. She is already leaving a bigger impact on the world than most of us can ever dream of. She is now in Gods arms~

    I will have you all in my prayers and thank you for sharing something so personal. Audrey is a blessing to those that never even met her.

    In His love,
    E.

  • Ivy Vega from www.ivysmind.com

    Reading your story has moved me to tears. Your child was a token of God’s love for you. Thanking you for allowing us to intrude and read your heart.
    Praying for you and your family

  • Anonymous

    You can tell that’s a dead baby in the last picture. Why put the older children through that? It’s going to scar them in ways that are unpredictable.

  • Tasha

    Okay,this is to the person who left the annonymous comment on April 19th at 10:53 pm.The purpose of leaving a comment on this blog is to uplift and comfort this dear family.Your comment was really not appreciated and who are you to judge how they spent the last moments with their sweet baby on this earth.I am sure that I can speak for everyone else when I say that you were very wrong in saying what you did.I can only pray that God would soften your heart.When I look at those pictures,I see nothing but love and peace.I really hope the family does not see your cruel comment!

  • Lindsay Spencer

    I miss you. I don’t even know you, but I miss you. I hope you’re doing okay. I will continue to pray for you.

  • Anonymous

    I have just read your story in its entirety. It has taken me late into the night and I am now sitting with the whole world dark around me and tears that won’t stop falling. Thank you is so insignificant…but thank you. I don’t know you and you have profoundly changed my life. I want to know Jesus the way you do…your face radiates his love and peace. I am embarassed to say have taken days with my daughter for granted, never again. You and your family are an inspiration…thank you.

  • Aimee Wade

    Angie,

    I am so sorry you will have to read the hateful comment by anonymous. It is so evident how at peace you all are in the picture mentioned. It is a peace that I can only pray that person will know someday. Your daughter is so beautiful, it takes my breath away and I cannot ever thank you enough for sharing her with the world. I will be praying for you today on the day of Audrey’s memorial service, and wishing New York was just a bit closer to be there in person.

    Aimee Wade
    Avon, NY

  • Paige S

    Angie, I am so sorry to hear about your blog being blocked. Please know that no matter what happens to this space there will always be people praying for your beautiful Audrey Caroline and her amazing family. You remain in my thoughts and prayers. Good luck with this difficult time in your life, and trust that no matter what lies ahead Audrey will always be by your side. I praise God for healing Audrey and pray that he will heal your heart of this immeasurable pain. God bless, Paige

  • Paul & Angela Jenkins

    I’m new to your blog but have prayed for you everyday especially the day you were burying your daughter. You have a wonderful way with words. I don’t understand why you can’t blog but wish you would continue – maybe under a new page?

  • Paul & Angela Jenkins

    I’m new to your blog but have prayed for you everyday especially the day you were burying your daughter. You have a wonderful way with words. I don’t understand why you can’t blog but wish you would continue – maybe under a new page?

  • Paul & Angela Jenkins

    I’m new to your blog but have prayed for you everyday especially the day you were burying your daughter. You have a wonderful way with words. I don’t understand why you can’t blog but wish you would continue – maybe under a new page?

  • Paul & Angela Jenkins

    I’m new to your blog but have prayed for you everyday especially the day you were burying your daughter. You have a wonderful way with words. I don’t understand why you can’t blog but wish you would continue – maybe under a new page?

  • Paul & Angela Jenkins

    I’m new to your blog but have prayed for you everyday especially the day you were burying your daughter. You have a wonderful way with words. I don’t understand why you can’t blog but wish you would continue – maybe under a new page?

  • Paul & Angela Jenkins

    I’m new to your blog but have prayed for you everyday especially the day you were burying your daughter. You have a wonderful way with words. I don’t understand why you can’t blog but wish you would continue – maybe under a new page?

  • Paul & Angela Jenkins

    I’m new to your blog but have prayed for you everyday especially the day you were burying your daughter. You have a wonderful way with words. I don’t understand why you can’t blog but wish you would continue – maybe under a new page?

  • Paul & Angela Jenkins

    I’m new to your blog but have prayed for you everyday especially the day you were burying your daughter. You have a wonderful way with words. I don’t understand why you can’t blog but wish you would continue – maybe under a new page?

  • Paul & Angela Jenkins

    I’m new to your blog but have prayed for you everyday especially the day you were burying your daughter. You have a wonderful way with words. I don’t understand why you can’t blog but wish you would continue – maybe under a new page?

  • Paul & Angela Jenkins

    I’m new to your blog but have prayed for you everyday especially the day you were burying your daughter. You have a wonderful way with words. I don’t understand why you can’t blog but wish you would continue – maybe under a new page?

  • Paul & Angela Jenkins

    I’m new to your blog but have prayed for you everyday especially the day you were burying your daughter. You have a wonderful way with words. I don’t understand why you can’t blog but wish you would continue – maybe under a new page?

  • Paul & Angela Jenkins

    I’m new to your blog but have prayed for you everyday especially the day you were burying your daughter. You have a wonderful way with words. I don’t understand why you can’t blog but wish you would continue – maybe under a new page?

  • Paul & Angela Jenkins

    I’m new to your blog but have prayed for you everyday especially the day you were burying your daughter. You have a wonderful way with words. I don’t understand why you can’t blog but wish you would continue – maybe under a new page?

  • Paul & Angela Jenkins

    I’m new to your blog but have prayed for you everyday especially the day you were burying your daughter. You have a wonderful way with words. I don’t understand why you can’t blog but wish you would continue – maybe under a new page?

  • Paul & Angela Jenkins

    I’m new to your blog but have prayed for you everyday especially the day you were burying your daughter. You have a wonderful way with words. I don’t understand why you can’t blog but wish you would continue – maybe under a new page?

  • Paul & Angela Jenkins

    I’m new to your blog but have prayed for you everyday especially the day you were burying your daughter. You have a wonderful way with words. I don’t understand why you can’t blog but wish you would continue – maybe under a new page?

  • Paul & Angela Jenkins

    I’m new to your blog but have prayed for you everyday especially the day you were burying your daughter. You have a wonderful way with words. I don’t understand why you can’t blog but wish you would continue – maybe under a new page?

  • Paul & Angela Jenkins

    I’m new to your blog but have prayed for you everyday especially the day you were burying your daughter. You have a wonderful way with words. I don’t understand why you can’t blog but wish you would continue – maybe under a new page?

  • Paul & Angela Jenkins

    I’m new to your blog but have prayed for you everyday especially the day you were burying your daughter. You have a wonderful way with words. I don’t understand why you can’t blog but wish you would continue – maybe under a new page?

  • Paul & Angela Jenkins

    I’m new to your blog but have prayed for you everyday especially the day you were burying your daughter. You have a wonderful way with words. I don’t understand why you can’t blog but wish you would continue – maybe under a new page?

  • Paul & Angela Jenkins

    I’m new to your blog but have prayed for you everyday especially the day you were burying your daughter. You have a wonderful way with words. I don’t understand why you can’t blog but wish you would continue – maybe under a new page?

  • Paul & Angela Jenkins

    I’m new to your blog but have prayed for you everyday especially the day you were burying your daughter. You have a wonderful way with words. I don’t understand why you can’t blog but wish you would continue – maybe under a new page?

  • Paul & Angela Jenkins

    I’m new to your blog but have prayed for you everyday especially the day you were burying your daughter. You have a wonderful way with words. I don’t understand why you can’t blog but wish you would continue – maybe under a new page?

  • Paul & Angela Jenkins

    I’m new to your blog but have prayed for you everyday especially the day you were burying your daughter. You have a wonderful way with words. I don’t understand why you can’t blog but wish you would continue – maybe under a new page?

  • Paul & Angela Jenkins

    I’m new to your blog but have prayed for you everyday especially the day you were burying your daughter. You have a wonderful way with words. I don’t understand why you can’t blog but wish you would continue – maybe under a new page?

  • Paul & Angela Jenkins

    I’m new to your blog but have prayed for you everyday especially the day you were burying your daughter. You have a wonderful way with words. I don’t understand why you can’t blog but wish you would continue – maybe under a new page?

  • Paul & Angela Jenkins

    I’m new to your blog but have prayed for you everyday especially the day you were burying your daughter. You have a wonderful way with words. I don’t understand why you can’t blog but wish you would continue – maybe under a new page?

  • Paul & Angela Jenkins

    I’m new to your blog but have prayed for you everyday especially the day you were burying your daughter. You have a wonderful way with words. I don’t understand why you can’t blog but wish you would continue – maybe under a new page?

  • Paul & Angela Jenkins

    I’m new to your blog but have prayed for you everyday especially the day you were burying your daughter. You have a wonderful way with words. I don’t understand why you can’t blog but wish you would continue – maybe under a new page?

  • Paul & Angela Jenkins

    I’m new to your blog but have prayed for you everyday especially the day you were burying your daughter. You have a wonderful way with words. I don’t understand why you can’t blog but wish you would continue – maybe under a new page?

  • Paul & Angela Jenkins

    I’m new to your blog but have prayed for you everyday especially the day you were burying your daughter. You have a wonderful way with words. I don’t understand why you can’t blog but wish you would continue – maybe under a new page?

  • Paul & Angela Jenkins

    I’m new to your blog but have prayed for you everyday especially the day you were burying your daughter. You have a wonderful way with words. I don’t understand why you can’t blog but wish you would continue – maybe under a new page?

  • Paul & Angela Jenkins

    I’m new to your blog but have prayed for you everyday especially the day you were burying your daughter. You have a wonderful way with words. I don’t understand why you can’t blog but wish you would continue – maybe under a new page?

  • Paul & Angela Jenkins

    I’m new to your blog but have prayed for you everyday especially the day you were burying your daughter. You have a wonderful way with words. I don’t understand why you can’t blog but wish you would continue – maybe under a new page?

  • Rebecca CA

    Praying for you< Please know we have not forgotten, satan is unhappy that the Lords name is going out and being heard KEEP it up!!!!!

    May you feel our heavenly Fathers arms around you as you face your days

  • Laura Smith

    Angie- I am so sad that the blog is blocked! I have checked everyday because I miss hearing updates. I feel that you are part of my family now and we have prayed so often for you! We promise to continue and look forward to hearing from you soon!

  • Marin

    The devil focuses on those who are is greatest threat so rest in the truth that God continues to have a greater plan for Audrey and her life here. Otherwise, the enemy wouldn’t be so eager to place roadblocks such as this.

    Still praying, always!

    God Bless and love in Christ, Smith Family!

  • Tracey

    Don’t worry sweet mama! Your prayer warriors are in full force even when you can’t post. Satan cannot keep us from lifting your precious family up to the throne of grace!

  • Jess

    Angie,
    Please know that I am continuing to pray for you, Todd, Abby, Ellie, Kate and sweet baby Audrey. I know that so many others are, as well. No one can stop us from doing that! You truly have become like family to me, yet I have never once met you. I open this site up so many times a day, just to see if you have written or simply to just re-read entries, look at pictures and hear the amazing words of the songs on your playlist. You have brought such an amazing sense of joy and renewed the fact that amazing things are happening all in the name of our Lord and Savior. How AWESOME is He! Thank you again for sharing. Your story is such a blessing and my prayers will never cease!
    Love,
    Jess

  • Anonymous

    Your blog has touched me deeply- I’ve read it from start to finish and alternate between crying and smiling. You are remarkable- thank you for sharing this and I pray to lift you up for the times ahead.

  • Cibele

    I sit here with my daughter on my harms and I cry that you are not able to do the same… I praise God for the life of your little one and for the powerful testimony of faith that God worked through your lives. I pray for healing and strength.
    Those pictures are just so precious and I can feel and see the peace on your eyes.

    May God keep blessing you and holding you close to his heart

  • Anonymous

    I continue to prayer for you!
    Em
    Australia

  • So Blessed

    I am praying for you and your family…know that many continue to lift you up, even if you are not able to post on your blog. Your precious Audrey was a good and perfect gift straight from the hand of the One who gives us all things. Her sweet little life has touched so many and your family’s testimony is powerful. May God continue to uphold and bless you in these days that are so difficult.

    “Sometimes the smallest things take up the most room in your heart.”

  • The Lenda’s

    Angie-
    I just came across your blog from Miller Grace’s Blog. I have been keeping up with the T-18 babies. I was surprised to see on your Blog that I recognized Todd I used to live in Nashville and we had some mutual friends many years ago I can’t even remember if he went to their church (Strong Tower)or if he was in a band with my friend Tiffany Arbuckle Lee. Anyway it is such a small world and now I am praying for you as well as I passed your blog along to my friends that had known Todd and they are also in prayer for your precious family. May God continue to strengthen you both and hold you up during this time. Praying that Audrey’s service was a wonderful celebration of her life. May you rest easy knowing that she is celebrating her healing as her Heavenly Father holds her in His arms. Oh if we could only imagine the life she has now. I am sure she is up there singing and rejoicing and dancing and my six sweet babies that I never met (lost through miscarriage) are dancing right along side. What a joyful reunion it will be one day when we not only meet our precious Savior that carried us through the pain but we also get reunited with our little ones that we did not have enough time with. Praying for you and hoping your blog is unlocked soon. Until then may you feel the prayers and support from many of us around the world.
    Praying in Pa
    Rachel deJongh Lenda
    friend of
    Tammy Lenox
    Cathy Sauders Cooke
    Bethany Bergey Lampton
    Dawn Bergey Lamm
    Karin Bronlewee

  • ajc4ever

    I thought of you all a lot today and prayed for a beautiful memorial service. God Bless, Angela

  • Anonymous

    I pray that God brings you peace everyday as he walks you through this challenging time. Your baby girl is beautiful. Please understand that people who say the most hurtful things possible aren’t trying to be cruel, they feel the need to say something and don’t understand. You will be in my prayers.

    Jessica
    Mother to 4, 3 in the arms of God.

  • Vicky

    Just read your “Please Read” on the sidebar…

    I am continuing to keep you and your family in my prayers. Also, praying that Blogger moves at lightening speed :)

  • Beth

    Having read and weeped through your blog the other night, worship meant something new this morning. I thought of your family as we sang, “when the darkness closes in Lord, still I will say, blessed be the Name of the Lord… on the road marked with suffering, though there’s pain in the offering… you give and take away, my heart will choose to say, blessed be the name of the Lord”. Thank you for sharing your honest hurt and authentic faith with all of us. I am praying for you both and each of your little ones.

  • Kristi

    I check your blog everyday hoping for new updates and noticed your note (I can be slow at times, lol), God is in all of this and you are still being lifted up everyday by people all over the world. Fear not, we are all in this fight together. May God richly rain down his peace and healing upon you and your family right now, in Jesus name. Someday He will wipe every tear from our eyes, we are all looking forward to that day. Know that you are being lifted up. I will continue praying and checking in, daily.

  • Anonymous

    Angie, Thanks so much for sharing your precious baby girl with us! I look forward to your future posts and ongoing testimony of how God carries your sweet family (when they unfreeze your account). In the meantime, I’m praying for you. Erika and the Whites :)

  • Lisa

    I rejoice that your family contains so much love, and I pray for your strength as you miss your beautiful daughter.

  • Kelly

    A friend of mine shared your blog with me a week or so ago and I stayed up until 3am reading the entire thing (some posts several times!) and sobbed holding my sweet 5 yr old while he slept and I read. As a mommy and lover of Christ, it touched my heart on so many levels. Reading it was such a blessing to me. You guys are such an amazing family with such an amazing and powerful testimony. You are such a gifted writer. Your children are absolutely gorgeous, inside and out. I am putting a link to your blog in my sidebar so as many people as possible can know Audrey Caroline and the wonderful God that sent her on a mission for Him. (Oh and PS the pictures are BEAUTIFUL!!! Of course the beautiful subjects make it easier for Tom. :) We live in East Tennessee and I asked my husband if we could take a little road trip to Nashville to have our family portraits done by Tom!)

  • Mellissa

    You are an amazing woman of God, with four gorgeous daughters! Know that even though you are not able to post, that we are all still here and praying for you and your entire family. We are holding you up to our Lord giving Him all the glory. Peace to you.

  • Anonymous

    Your story has touched my heart so profoundly. Thank you for sharing. Your faith is truly an inspiration. Peace and love to you and your family.

  • Marcie

    You have countless warriors who continue to advocate for you in prayer. Thank you for sharing your heart and for allowing Him to move through your life to further His kingdom in this remarkable way. I will continue to lift you up to Him in prayer.
    Marcie

  • Anonymous

    We will just need to pray a little more. Your story has been so inspriational, you have no idea how deeply it has effected me. Maybe God needed to reach the people that have to review your blog. I hope they let you post soon.

  • Anonymous

    your beautiful daughter and amazing story are changing lives!!!still praying each day for you and your precious family.
    julie
    brentwood, tn

  • Anonymous

    your beautiful daughter and amazing story are changing lives!!!still praying each day for you and your precious family.
    julie
    brentwood, tn

  • Anonymous

    Thank you Angie for helping me to see the bigger picture. You are a gift from God to all who have read your blog, and continue to read. I saw you in the picture of Jessica’s at the retreat and I just felt so happy. I’m not sure how to explain why, but I did! This past weekend my husband and I went (for the second year in a row) to the Family Life Weekend to Remember Marriage conference. I just kept thinking…”He is still the same, my God hasn’t changed, it’s me that needs to”.
    You continue to be in my thoughts and prayers. Thank you again for being such an earthly angel.
    Erin

  • Anonymous

    Please know that even when you can not post we are still praying for you, Todd, Abby,Ellie and Kate. You and your family have touched us deeply and we will continue to lift you up to the Lord. Thanks again for you honesty and for sharing.

  • Gene McIntyre

    Dear Angie,

    We have not stopped thinking and praying for you and your family throughout the weekend. We would love to hear from you but even if you don’t, please know that we are here for you. We love you and hope you know that your family in the Lord and the Lord himself, will not leave you or forsake you. Be encouraged today.

  • Gene McIntyre

    My heart too, was terribly broken when I saw this harsh comment. I immediately started praying for this person. But the beauty of Audrey Caroline’s story is that it has attracted people of different backgrounds and faith. We all grieve in different manners and we absolutely must respect the Smith’s way of celebrating Audrey’s life. But I submit that this person, this soul who wrote the critical comment needs too a special touch from God. A touch of compassion, kindness and love and I pray that through these pages, she or he will get to know the God that is able to do give us just that. Angie and her family have shown great strength in the midst of unimaginable adversity and although I regret they have to read the comment referenced to, I’m sure their hearts of compassion will intercede for this person. Let’s all pray that through our love and witness to God’s mercy in this beautiful story, this individual too will be reached by the God of Audrey Caroline. Amen.

  • Anonymous

    You and your family are in our thoughts and prayers. Post updates or not, you are a part of our family now and we pray and praise with you.

  • Anonymous

    Tasha, I was wondering about the older children, that’s all. The ones who have a full life ahead of them. God cares about them & their feelings towards and surrounding this as well. I would have wanted to protect my older children from this more. Life & death events such as this can have serious and lasting effects on children who don’t yet have the capacity to process these things.

  • Leslie

    I am constantly coming to check on you and see something new, I don’t what I expect lately, but something.

    I read your note on the sidebar, silly blogger.

    I don’t what it is exactly you need prayer for, but I am praying regardless and hope that the next few days the Lord can wrap some peace around your family. Still thinking of you.

  • boltefamily

    I know personally how vital prayers are at this time. I will continue praying! So sorry you cannot post!

    Kristy

  • Catherine

    Angie, I just read your update on the side.. I am praying hard for you.

    So many hugs,
    Cath

  • Rae

    God bless you and your family. I can hardly see the screen through the tears. I hope the coming days are filled with peace and comfort that only HE can provide.

    Your sister in Christ,
    Rae

  • Anonymous

    We are still praying for you during this grieving and healing process. Draw on Him and He will draw near to you. Sent with love and prayers.
    Shannon

  • Anonymous

    Thank you for ‘sharing’ her with us. She is beautiful! I can never express how much healing has taken place in my heart by reading your blog. I know it sounds crazy!..and I do not have time to explain, just know that God is using your little sweetie’s life and your willingness to share w/the world. It’s pretty amazing how someone so small can be such a world changer!! I pray for your family and the days ahead. God bless you all!! oh..btw, I am a mother of 4 and my 2 yr. old daughter’s name is Selah!!

  • Mark and Rebekah

    Angie,

    I am praying for you right now, praying that you will feel God’s peace and presence like never before. I have never been in a position even remotely like your’s, but that isn’t stopping me from praying.

    God is good, all the time. All the time, God is good!

    Rebekah

  • Kristen

    To “negative” anonymous,
    Please note the 665 comments supporting and loving this family. Their girls are VERY bright. And have been well informed that baby Audrey was sick, while in the womb. What would be worse, is for these sweet girls to have known they were going to have a sister (no hiding that) and then for them to never experience her. Speaking as an pediatric ICU nurse, a childs imagination is far worse than the reality. Leaving them out in the “cold” would be of more harm. Children need closure also. They now know that their sweet sister is healed and in heaven. And will forever in life be grateful that they were a part of their sisters life to the end.
    So this is to anyone and everyone reading this blog. If you can’t leave a supportive, loving comment..please obstain from leaving one at all. There is no need for judgement in the comments. And I pray that all those who come close to the writings of Angie, will experience the loving Jesus that we have.
    And to the “negative” anonymous,there is no need to respond!! WE are all praying for you!!
    Kristen

  • Annie

    Angie,

    I wanted to let you know that even though you haven’t been able to post we are still thinking about you, praying for you, and checking back waiting for your next post. I am a loyal reader and I really appreciate your openness and sharing about what God has done in your life. Audrey was beautiful! I am so sorry you lost her.

    Your sister in Christ,

    Annie in CA

  • Anonymous

    I read your blog and am thankful for your wonderful testimony. Your family is beautiful both on the inside and outside. I will continue to pray for you and your family, but want to thank you for creating your blog. God has blessed you and will continue to be by your side. You are an extremely strong and faithful servant. May God continue to bless you and keep you in his arms.

  • connorcolesmom

    Thank you for sharing your precious Audrey with us!
    You have an amazing testimony and I know that God is using Audrey in Big ways to touch so many people.
    May God continue to comfort you during this difficult time and may He continue to show you ways to glorify Him through your little Audrey :)
    Praying for you and your family!
    Kim

  • Teach Me to Be Still

    Dear Angie and family-

    I have been so blessed by your blog. I confess I had become rather lazy in my walk with the Lord–reading about the birth of your little one, sharing your tears, pain and joy has encourage me to return my heart fully to the Lord, every day, every moment. Thank you!

    I have been checking your blog everyday and when I saw it was the same, I figured you just needed some time and space so I would pray for you. Not posting actually led me to pray for you even more! I love how the Lord can speak to our hearts despite the enemy’s attempt to squash His voice. :-)

    Your sister in Him-
    Laurie

  • Leslie

    We lift your family up in prayers. We pray for peace and comfort for you all. The Lord will see you through!!

  • Gene McIntyre

    Dear Angie, I had sent you this email on Saturday and just bounced back, so I’ll post it…loving you and praying for you all day long!

    This is Gene. I have a bunch of prayer partners praying for you and while they resolve the blog issue, we are still praying for you. Please don’t be discouraged. Whether you send us specifics or not or whether you post or not, there is an army of believers talking about Audrey, praying for you and witnessing to the love and power of God revealed through your ordeal. Please know that we are carrying you through in prayer. Today I turn 40 years old. I count it as a priviledge to have met you, your family and Audrey. It’s almost a birthday present to me. I am fully committed to support you in prayer now and for time to come. And one day, we will see each other in the presence of the Lord and I will get to celebrate Audrey’s life as you hold her in your arms before our father. Please be encouraged. The McIntyres love you. The Lord loves you. A bunch of your family throughout the world are loving you intensely. You are a special, unbelievable woman. The Lord is with you. Love, GeneMc

  • Anonymous

    A friend from work told me about your blog. I am not a Christian – not by a longshot – but I am inspired and touched by your words. My wife and I experienced a similar situation with our third child, a daughter named Nora. She was born at 35 weeks gestation and died two days later due to complications from Trisomy 18.

    Be strong for each-other and for your kids in the days ahead. Our surviving children (a four year-old daughter and three year-old son) got to meet their baby sister before she died, and I believe they will thank us for the opportunity later in life.

    My heart goes out to you all, and I can tell you that day-to-day life gets easier as time goes by as you continue to find strength and inspiration in your baby daughter’s memory.

  • Kristin

    Your faith and your joy through this time is amazing. May He continue to bring you peace that passes all understanding~
    How beautiful your reunion with your daughter will be as you stand before the King of all kings.
    May His Name be praised.

  • Michelle

    hope you can post soon, I keep coming by and checking on you, sending you a huge hug-I remember those first few weeks I scrapbooked my feelings because I didn’t have a blog back then, keep talking and posting I think the more you share the better you feel..I am praying for you daily

  • The Kahler Family

    I have not stopped praying for you since the day I was led to your blog… nothing will stop me from praying for you, even Blogger!
    This must have been such a difficult week for you, but I trust that the Lord knows your needs and fulfills them, even when we don’t know specifically what you need prayer for. He knows you better than any.
    Blessings and prayer… always.
    Angie in AZ

  • julied

    Todd, Angie and family,

    I am so moved by your story. I only read your blog for the first time tonight. I understand the pain of losing a child, only not quite the same as you. My 2 were much younger than Audrey when they went to be with Jesus.

    Please know that you are in my prayers.

    Julie D

  • Mocha with Linda

    Wow! As bummed as I am for you that you can’t post, think about the buzz in the Blogger “office” when they start reading your story! Audrey’s impact is continuing to widen!

    With today being the 2-week mark of Audrey’s birth, just want to let you know you are still being much thought about and prayed for.

  • Amy

    Thinking of you and your family today and keeping you all close in our prayers.
    Amy from Maryland

  • Lori

    Angie –

    I have been following your story, but haven’t commented until now. I suppose I felt like you might need a little “extra” help right now with all you’re going through. Your story touches close to home for me, but in no way is the same, or would I ever try to imagine what you are going through. I lost a little one, too. He was 9 months and it has been just over a year ago.

    I am so thankful that you have such faith. I didn’t find mine until after my baby was gone, but I felt it silently speaking to me the entire time he was in the hospital. It is truly the strongest thing you can hold on to. And I fully believe there is a reason for everything we go through in our lives. And these little lives were meant to touch ours for a very specific reason. I am constantly thinking and praying for your family.

    With much love and compassion –

    Lori

  • Ida

    I read this and I cried and I smiled at your strength. I can relate to your story. I too had a daughter who went to be with God. She was born 3 1/2 months too early only weighing 1 pound 2 ounces. She LIVED for 34 days but got a very aggresive infection in her body and she went to be with the Lord on August 2nd, 2004. I have to commend your strength..it has taken me a long time to get where I am. But I know it is because of your relationship and faith in the Lord. I did not have that when I lost my daughter, but I’ve been following God for 1 year and 1 week and I’ve never felt closer to my daughter. I still have my moments, in fact I had one today. But I do things in her memory to remember her life. She is, like your Aubrey, a part of my life everyday. In fact this Sunday my family & some friends will be walking in her honor at the March of Dimes: March for Babies Walk. If you’d like to read more about her story the link is http://www.marchforbabies.org/jocelynsmommy
    Thank you so much for sharing Aubrey’s story. Like her story, I hope my Jocelyn’s story touches many people.

    In Christ,
    Ida

  • Cory

    Dear Todd and Angie,
    Just as I have been for the last 6 weeks or so, I am still praying for you and your family, that God will give you the strength that you need to get through this time, and the peace that comes with knowing that He is still in control and everything will work out according to His will!

    In Christ,
    Cory

  • Anonymous

    I am still thinking of you and your family often. God is going to continue to use this whole story for the good of His Kingdom. Take comfort in that. Today you understand in part but one day it will ALL be clear.
    Blessings to you,
    Kris

  • Gene McIntyre

    Angie,

    The McIntyres continue to pray for you and your family and so are the rest of our prayer partners. We believe that through this period of trial, the Lord is going to raise you up into a new level of relationship with him. We believe that the words of first Corinthians, are being made a reality in your life. That the Lord of all comfort is comforting you in this season, so that you may comfort others with the same love and compassion you have received from your Father. Be of good share. The Lord is the lifter of your head and your spirit. He is able to do increasingly more than you can ask or think. He loves you. He is faithful. He will come and save you. He is your God, who upholds you, who strenghtens you, who will always be there for you. Be encouraged. We love you. And we praise God’s name for your life and your beautiful testimony. You will prevail. Amen. The Mcs

  • StressedBlessed Mom in GA

    Yet another challenge, but you are loved and prayers are coming your way!
    Leslie in GA

  • Tabitha Hart

    She is absolutely gorgeous! Your whole family is beautiful and I am so blessed to have met Todd through Suntrust. My thoughts and prayers are with you everyday and will continue to be. Your family has touched my heart in ways I could never fully explain.

    My thoughts and love in the days ahead….

  • Q’s NEWS

    I can’t believe anyone “in charge” couldn’t read your blog for a split second and fix it immediately. Please know that whether you post or not, your warriors are still praying for you and waiting til the time you can post again. I hope that physically you are doing well and I hope the girls are understanding (to the best of their ability) everything that has gone on.

    The only good thing about your blog being “stuck” is that I see that breathtaking picture of you holding Audrey’s head and then the beautiful pictures of your family.

    I want to drive down to Tennessee and hug you all!!!

    Love from WV,
    Susan

  • Anonymous

    The curse and the blessing of spam alerts. Ahhh, well, the most important thing to know, Angie, is that you could have been silent for the rest of time, and it would only encourage everyone to pray more.

    You need time, lots of time….to grieve and long for your baby to be in your arms. If you don’t have the energy or strength to post–aside from the people who are keeping you from it right now whilst they “investigate”…..don’t worry. You have a right to wallow right now and let God shower you with all these mighty prayers being cried out on your behalf. You have gotten right into the hearts of many. And, it is okay to not lift other people up–for once in your life. Let us all lift you up—let us all be strong for you. Let your family be strong for you. Let your little girls who are still on earth be strong for you. You just sit back and take it all in.

    It’s hard, as moms, to not be the rock….and to not keep a stiff upper lip. But, Heavenly Father feels every tear you cry. He knows your heart, your worries, your fears….and even your dismay. Don’t think you have to be ultra tough. Be weak in the moment and strong in Christ. He’ll heal you and your family. And, he is blessing those of us who pray and ache for you.

    You are in all our thoughts and prayers….AND, I am so sorry I could not make it for the Memorial Service on Sunday. I so wanted to…..but had sick kiddos here at home. :(

    In faith,
    Becky Cain

    beckycain6@comcast.net

  • Two blessings from above

    Still praying for you and your family.
    I hope they will have your blog up and running soon.
    know that you are in our thoughts and prayers.
    Take care and God Bless.

  • Anonymous

    We are still praying for you even though you haven’t been able to update. Even if satan is trying to prevent you from getting in touch with the ‘blog world’, he can’t stop the prayers of your family in Christ. The Lord has His reasons for your not being able to update us. We’ll wait patiently and pray either way.
    Renee

  • paige

    spam blog…oh please–just what you need.
    i have thought & prayed for you daily.
    keep us posted
    much love & hugs to you angie
    xo

  • LeslieW.

    I am so sorry that they cut you off! I hope you are back soon. You are in our prayers and thoughts. I hope peace and healing are with you.

    I left your blog up yesterday, I just love the music while I work. I later found my hubby glued to your story. I wanted to let you know that even the manliest of men are moved by your story too.

  • Laurie

    Angie,

    Stopping by to see if anything has been fixed for you yet. I am still praying for you and your family during this time and asking God to meet your every need. I am so sorry that you cannot post on your own blog right now and hope it changes soon for you.

    Laurie in Ca.

  • Ashley

    Still praying for you and your family.

    What wonderful pictures!

    Ashley

  • Gene McIntyre

    Darling Angie,

    I hope you are reading all the encouragement from those that have learned to love you and stand for you before the Lord. I, for one, think of you and your family all day long and make time to pray for you and talk to others about you and recommend your site as a source of inspiration and strength or anyone that may be going through a difficult situation. As I do that, I keep in mind that what Satan might have meant to wrong you, God has turned into a forum to glorify his name and to draw others to Him. I read in these pages how people that are not Christians have shown interest, parents that were taking their kids for granted are not anymore, people that had weakened in their spiritual walk, now drawn to their knees because of a little baby called Audrey. In this material world, Audrey existed for a short period of time, but in the spiritual realm, not only is she alive and well, but she is producing fruit to the glory of her heavenly Father. I thought I would share these thoughts with you. Not sure what you are going through or how you are feeling today, but I hope our thoughts and words of encouragement; and most importantly, our prayers, are lifting you up. Hug the rest of the family on behalf of the McIntyres in Bradenton, Florida. Your friend and sister, GeneMc

  • Hannah

    Your story has really touched me. I am a stay at home mom with two little girls and I just can’t imagine what you have been through and how you do it so gracefully. I know they say God doesn’t give you the strength you need to get through it until it happens and you are proof of that. I just wanted to let you know that you have blessed me. Also, it is kind of neat that they are reviewing your blog. It shows how many people you have been able to witness to with your life story! God is amazing!

  • Bobbi

    What a beautiful baby girl. May your angel be with you in your hearts every day.

    God Bless

  • Anonymous

    Just wanted to post to let you know that even though you can’t post you have not been forgotten. I am sure there are many of us checking on you guys several times everyday.

    Admiring your strength,

    Angelic

  • Hillary

    I just wanted you to know that I’m still thinking about your family and praying for you all. My bible study has also been praying for you.

    Hillary.

  • Karen

    She is truely a precious treasure… on earth or in heaven! All your girls are so precious! I’m amazed at the comment you made about “knowing” since she was conceived! It too had a “feeling” with my first child. I could never find someone else who understood what I meant and didn’t think I was crazy or uncaring! Although I never got to hold that one…BUT ONE DAY I WILL! I don’t even know what gender it was! (I’m holding on to it having been a girl since all I have is boys.. I STILL have my girl!)Maybe they are playing together now!

  • Mom Of 3

    I just found your blog today and sit with tears as I read. Your faith is amazing. Your family is beautiful. I know your beautiful daughter is looking down form Heaven smiling on the great family she has. You will be in my thoughts and prayers.

  • pregowindowlicker

    OMG! I cried for u! Ur letter touches me and I pray for u. All of your daughters are beautiful! God Bless You!

  • Jill W

    Thank you for sharing with us. You are truly an inspiration. Our prayers are with you and your family.

  • Gene McIntyre

    Dear Angie,

    This is GeneMc writing from Bradenton, Florida and this is your daily post to remind you that I am praying for you. That I am thinking of you. That you are very dear to my heart and the heart of many that are also praying for you and your family. And Angie, we are just an extension of God’s love for you. A reminder that He cares. That He truly loves you, and that He mourns with you and that He is close to you in this time of need. He will see you through. He is holding you close. Just let go in His arms. It is the safest place to be. You will hear his heartbeat and you will be blessed to know He loves you so. May you be encouraged today knowing that Audrey Caroline is able to see Him face to face and behold His beauty and majesty. Her joy is indescribable. Be encouraged today, dear Angie.

  • Stella

    I just found your blog and I just have to tell you how absolutely beautiful your daughter is in these photographs. Just completely angelic and perfect!

    God Bless!

  • Heather

    I just started reading your brave and beautiful blog. Your daughters are all beautiful. While I am profoundly sorry for your loss, I’m so happy that you had some time with Audrey — that in itself seems like a miracle. I have two daughters with congenital heart defects and have also learned that life is a fragile blessing.

  • Gene McIntyre

    Dear Angie,

    How are you? This is Gene McIntyre again to say God bless you. You are precious in His sight. The Lord holds you right now. He encourages your heart through the beautiful presence of His Holy Spirit. He knows your heart. He sees your tears, your tossing and your turning. And he cares. He knows that his girl Angie is able to trust Him and obey Him even when she does not understand, even when she hurts. And he loves her. And He will see her through this season. And in so doing, He will work an ever greater miracle that we’ve seen yet. Your affliction will and has already given birth to the encouragement of many, to the strenghtening of the walk of many with the Lord, it has captured the attention of those that may not believe and now must be astonished at this kind of faith and this God of yours. It seems to me little Audrey Caroline and mama Angie are a great team and together they have brought much glory to the God they love. And I know beyond a shadow of doubt that Audrey is right now, able to behold His amazing glory and bask in the joy of His presence. Be reassured, my dear Angie. Be reassured. Your God is good. He loves you. He cares. Rejoice in His promise. we love you and are praying for you. Hugs, The Mcs from Bradenton

  • Milk Mama

    It was very hard to read your letter. I just cried and cried. My daughter is nursing at my breast and probably wondering what is wrong with mommy? That letter was so beautiful and wonderful! Your daughter impacted so many lives in such a short amount of time!

  • Anonymous

    You don’t have a clue who I am nor I do I know you. But I have followed your story all the way through. In Feb, I had a friend lose her baby at birth, everything had been close to perfect up to the point. Following your story made me cope with that in a way I didn’t think imaginable. I want to thank you for being so strong, so caring, so dedicated to what you do. You are an amazing person and your story has changed my life! Thank you.

    You and your family are in my prayers!

  • Anonymous

    My mom had twins in 1981–when I was 17–two months early. Elizabeth never made it home and died 3 months later. I grieve for the sister I never met.

    I wish I had your faith–many blessings to your family.

  • Shelly

    You have such a way with words. I am sorry for you loss. Your story brings tears to my eyes and that there was such a comfort. God was definately present and people felt it. That is a miracle. You have four beautiful daughters, you and your husband are very lucky. Beautiful family. God bless you in your journey.

  • Sarah

    WOW~ Praise be to God! What an amazing story of faith, love and hope! Your story of little Audrey has touched me deeply! You and your husband have an amazing faith! Thank you for sharing this with all of us!

  • Anonymous

    to God all the glory and honor… more blessings to your family =) keep up spreading the word audrey-girl, thru your family…

  • Patricia

    Love works in amazing ways! Your family have been truly blessed. I have read your messages with tears and smiles. Thank you

  • Patricia

    I left this out from above and thought of sharing:
    “Love is patient; love is kind
    and envies no one.
    Love is never boastful, nor conceited, nor rude;
    never selfish, not quick to take offense.
    There is nothing love cannot face;
    there is no limit to its faith,
    its hope, and endurance.
    In a word, there are three things
    that last forever: faith, hope, and love;
    but the greatest of them all is love.”

  • Steffie B.

    so many familiar memories for me….I know that one day I will see my siblings….your strength as a family is remarkable….I really am speehless..

  • Lon

    wow… I just watched the crosspoint video and read your letter. thank you for sharing your story and touching souls like mine. grace & peace.

  • tonia

    Audrey is stunning. How wonderful that you were able to spend such peaceful and blessed time with her!! May her memory be eternal!

  • Cyndi Evans

    I accidently came across your story. Not that I as a Christian woman believe in accidents. God bless you as you travel this hard road. What a great testimony you have about this dear dear little one, Audrey! God is good all the time. I will be praying for your family in the coming weeks and months. God bless you!
    Your sister in Christ,
    Cyndi Evans
    ps I wept as I read your story. I am a mother of two, 23 and 20 years old.

  • Anonymous

    I stumbled upon your blog by accident but I don’t believe it was an accident. I believe God had me find this today. I pray for you and your beautiful family that God would continue to reveal Himself to you, comfort you and use you to be a source of encouragement to others. Your story is one of courage and completely trusting God. Thank you for sharing such an intimate part of your lives so freely. I have to say that is one of the most heartfelt letters that I have ever read. Bless you and your family,
    Angela in CA

  • Katie

    I couldn’t read and not comment, though I don’t know what to say. Your daughter is beautiful (and so are her 3 big sisters!) I love the joy I see in the pictures.

    Praise God for blessing you so greatly!

    You and your family are in my prayers.

  • Marie

    I had a hard time reading that considering the tears streaming down my face. When I think about what you have gone through, it reminds me how much more so our God who is SO huge loves us…so much so…that he SENT His Son to die for us so that we may be saved. The depth of your pain reminds me that our Father in Heaven loves us so much, I can’t even begin to fathom His love for me. Praise God for you sharing your faith and obedience to God in the midst of this storm and may the peace of God surpass all understanding because we’ll never understand it all, but there is ONE who does!
    Many blessings and prayers from the Villa Family in Houston, TX!

  • Kim

    I know you’ve read this 727 times now, but I’d like to repeat it. What a beautiful letter. Thank you for choosing life for this child and for telling the world that life matters.

  • Stuarts

    Thank you so much for sharing your journey and the miracle of your daughter with us all. I have listened to your husband’s music for many years now, and have always felt that the group was anointed with a special gift from God. I now see that God is anointing you in more ways than one. He is using you mightily in so many ways and I am grateful that you are willing to be transparent and open to Him. God Bless you and your precious family. May you continue to experience the grace and peace of God like never before.

  • Wenchy

    I’m sitting at my desk at work, writing from sunny South Africa… crying…. the picture of all of you as a family felt like it has punched me in the stomach.

    I don’t know what to say. I just don’t know the words for this.

  • Mr. Burns

    Thank you for being so brave, and for seeing God in all of it. He has a plan, a purpose, and a love for us even greater than your love for your baby girl- it is hard to comprehend that complete and perfect love for some, but you, my dear are blessed. Blessed to have a glimpse into the kind of love and sorrow our Lord experienced at the death of his son- and how sad it makes Him when people refuse to accept that sacrifice in their lives and use it as an invitaion to turn their pain over to God and to let the Atonement HEAL THEM!!! That is the only way it is possible to keep moving forward. I love you without knowing you. Your story is so touching. I want to help you if I can. Please know there are more prayers for you, and respect and love for your family. I pray that you might feel peace again, and feel whole. With Love Brooke Hunt

  • Esperanza

    I can not imagine the pain you have been through… I have cried so much… I am also a young mother and I feel your pain… I went through a lot during my pregnancy too… but I thanks God everyday because I have my angel with me now…at the end of the day he is with me… I can not live without him so I can not stop crying imagining what would have happened if Liam wouldn’t be with me now… I could not possible have survived that. I admire you with all my heart and I’ll pray for your healing although I now it would never heal completely. Hope God gives you more straigh to help you carry on with your life with your other children that need you so much… I hope you continue having the patience and love and the courage to continue living…
    I sent you prayers and lots of hugs, eventhough you don’t know me…
    Esperanza Penaloza

  • Kristen

    Audrey’s story is touching, your letter to her is touching, the number of people that have read and commented is touching! You have a gift of writing. I couldn’t read your letter to your daughter without going through a half of box of tissues. Her pictures are gorgeous. It’s always so hard on us left here when God chooses to heal them in Heaven and not here on earth. Your heart is so soft and tender. It’s refreshing to read your words. It seems strange to me that I can refer to your story that is full of pain your family has gone through but come away feeling refreshed. I guess that’s part of the big plans God has for Audrey. And I say “has” and not “had” because that little girl is still being used for Him even though she’s passed from here. Lots of blessings I pray for you and your family. And thank you for choosing to share Audrey with the world. You do a perfect job through your blog on letting us all in on her beautiful story.

  • Kyle & Beth Brown

    Wow! Your song speaks directly to my heart, and expresses my exact feelings over the loss of my daughter. The picture at disneyland is just like a picture we took at Chrismas with a teddy bear and our 4 girls at that time. You see we have 6 beautiful girls now. Our angel, her name is Amberlee passed away June 29th 2007. On April 8th, 2008 we had another baby girl, but she can never replace Amberlee, she is just another blessing in our lives. I found your site, looking for ways to deal with our loss as the anniversary is coming up. I would be so appreciative to be able to get a copy of the song you wrote. I feel it would be an amazing way to honor Amberlee on the anniversary of our loss. If you ever need a shoulder to cry on, or someone to express you feelings to, I am here. I feel the same pain in a very real way. Know that you are not alone, and your feelings are normal, and that you are loved by a father that aches because of your sadness.

    Beth
    elifoo@hotmail.com

  • Kyle & Beth Brown

    Wow! Your song speaks directly to my heart, and expresses my exact feelings over the loss of my daughter. The picture at disneyland is just like a picture we took at Chrismas with a teddy bear and our 4 girls at that time. You see we have 6 beautiful girls now. Our angel, her name is Amberlee passed away June 29th 2007. On April 8th, 2008 we had another baby girl, but she can never replace Amberlee, she is just another blessing in our lives. I found your site, looking for ways to deal with our loss as the anniversary is coming up. I would be so appreciative to be able to get a copy of the song you wrote. I feel it would be an amazing way to honor Amberlee on the anniversary of our loss. If you ever need a shoulder to cry on, or someone to express you feelings to, I am here. I feel the same pain in a very real way. Know that you are not alone, and your feelings are normal, and that you are loved by a father that aches because of your sadness.

    Beth
    elifoo@hotmail.com

  • Kyle & Beth Brown

    Wow! Your song speaks directly to my heart, and expresses my exact feelings over the loss of my daughter. The picture at disneyland is just like a picture we took at Chrismas with a teddy bear and our 4 girls at that time. You see we have 6 beautiful girls now. Our angel, her name is Amberlee passed away June 29th 2007. On April 8th, 2008 we had another baby girl, but she can never replace Amberlee, she is just another blessing in our lives. I found your site, looking for ways to deal with our loss as the anniversary is coming up. I would be so appreciative to be able to get a copy of the song you wrote. I feel it would be an amazing way to honor Amberlee on the anniversary of our loss. If you ever need a shoulder to cry on, or someone to express you feelings to, I am here. I feel the same pain in a very real way. Know that you are not alone, and your feelings are normal, and that you are loved by a father that aches because of your sadness.

    Beth
    elifoo@hotmail.com

  • Kyle & Beth Brown

    Wow! Your song speaks directly to my heart, and expresses my exact feelings over the loss of my daughter. The picture at disneyland is just like a picture we took at Chrismas with a teddy bear and our 4 girls at that time. You see we have 6 beautiful girls now. Our angel, her name is Amberlee passed away June 29th 2007. On April 8th, 2008 we had another baby girl, but she can never replace Amberlee, she is just another blessing in our lives. I found your site, looking for ways to deal with our loss as the anniversary is coming up. I would be so appreciative to be able to get a copy of the song you wrote. I feel it would be an amazing way to honor Amberlee on the anniversary of our loss. If you ever need a shoulder to cry on, or someone to express you feelings to, I am here. I feel the same pain in a very real way. Know that you are not alone, and your feelings are normal, and that you are loved by a father that aches because of your sadness.

    Beth
    elifoo@hotmail.com

  • Kyle & Beth Brown

    Wow! Your song speaks directly to my heart, and expresses my exact feelings over the loss of my daughter. The picture at disneyland is just like a picture we took at Chrismas with a teddy bear and our 4 girls at that time. You see we have 6 beautiful girls now. Our angel, her name is Amberlee passed away June 29th 2007. On April 8th, 2008 we had another baby girl, but she can never replace Amberlee, she is just another blessing in our lives. I found your site, looking for ways to deal with our loss as the anniversary is coming up. I would be so appreciative to be able to get a copy of the song you wrote. I feel it would be an amazing way to honor Amberlee on the anniversary of our loss. If you ever need a shoulder to cry on, or someone to express you feelings to, I am here. I feel the same pain in a very real way. Know that you are not alone, and your feelings are normal, and that you are loved by a father that aches because of your sadness.

    Beth
    elifoo@hotmail.com

  • Kyle & Beth Brown

    Wow! Your song speaks directly to my heart, and expresses my exact feelings over the loss of my daughter. The picture at disneyland is just like a picture we took at Chrismas with a teddy bear and our 4 girls at that time. You see we have 6 beautiful girls now. Our angel, her name is Amberlee passed away June 29th 2007. On April 8th, 2008 we had another baby girl, but she can never replace Amberlee, she is just another blessing in our lives. I found your site, looking for ways to deal with our loss as the anniversary is coming up. I would be so appreciative to be able to get a copy of the song you wrote. I feel it would be an amazing way to honor Amberlee on the anniversary of our loss. If you ever need a shoulder to cry on, or someone to express you feelings to, I am here. I feel the same pain in a very real way. Know that you are not alone, and your feelings are normal, and that you are loved by a father that aches because of your sadness.

    Beth
    elifoo@hotmail.com

  • Kyle & Beth Brown

    Wow! Your song speaks directly to my heart, and expresses my exact feelings over the loss of my daughter. The picture at disneyland is just like a picture we took at Chrismas with a teddy bear and our 4 girls at that time. You see we have 6 beautiful girls now. Our angel, her name is Amberlee passed away June 29th 2007. On April 8th, 2008 we had another baby girl, but she can never replace Amberlee, she is just another blessing in our lives. I found your site, looking for ways to deal with our loss as the anniversary is coming up. I would be so appreciative to be able to get a copy of the song you wrote. I feel it would be an amazing way to honor Amberlee on the anniversary of our loss. If you ever need a shoulder to cry on, or someone to express you feelings to, I am here. I feel the same pain in a very real way. Know that you are not alone, and your feelings are normal, and that you are loved by a father that aches because of your sadness.

    Beth
    elifoo@hotmail.com

  • Kyle & Beth Brown

    Wow! Your song speaks directly to my heart, and expresses my exact feelings over the loss of my daughter. The picture at disneyland is just like a picture we took at Chrismas with a teddy bear and our 4 girls at that time. You see we have 6 beautiful girls now. Our angel, her name is Amberlee passed away June 29th 2007. On April 8th, 2008 we had another baby girl, but she can never replace Amberlee, she is just another blessing in our lives. I found your site, looking for ways to deal with our loss as the anniversary is coming up. I would be so appreciative to be able to get a copy of the song you wrote. I feel it would be an amazing way to honor Amberlee on the anniversary of our loss. If you ever need a shoulder to cry on, or someone to express you feelings to, I am here. I feel the same pain in a very real way. Know that you are not alone, and your feelings are normal, and that you are loved by a father that aches because of your sadness.

    Beth
    elifoo@hotmail.com

  • Kyle & Beth Brown

    Wow! Your song speaks directly to my heart, and expresses my exact feelings over the loss of my daughter. The picture at disneyland is just like a picture we took at Chrismas with a teddy bear and our 4 girls at that time. You see we have 6 beautiful girls now. Our angel, her name is Amberlee passed away June 29th 2007. On April 8th, 2008 we had another baby girl, but she can never replace Amberlee, she is just another blessing in our lives. I found your site, looking for ways to deal with our loss as the anniversary is coming up. I would be so appreciative to be able to get a copy of the song you wrote. I feel it would be an amazing way to honor Amberlee on the anniversary of our loss. If you ever need a shoulder to cry on, or someone to express you feelings to, I am here. I feel the same pain in a very real way. Know that you are not alone, and your feelings are normal, and that you are loved by a father that aches because of your sadness.

    Beth
    elifoo@hotmail.com

  • Kyle & Beth Brown

    Wow! Your song speaks directly to my heart, and expresses my exact feelings over the loss of my daughter. The picture at disneyland is just like a picture we took at Chrismas with a teddy bear and our 4 girls at that time. You see we have 6 beautiful girls now. Our angel, her name is Amberlee passed away June 29th 2007. On April 8th, 2008 we had another baby girl, but she can never replace Amberlee, she is just another blessing in our lives. I found your site, looking for ways to deal with our loss as the anniversary is coming up. I would be so appreciative to be able to get a copy of the song you wrote. I feel it would be an amazing way to honor Amberlee on the anniversary of our loss. If you ever need a shoulder to cry on, or someone to express you feelings to, I am here. I feel the same pain in a very real way. Know that you are not alone, and your feelings are normal, and that you are loved by a father that aches because of your sadness.

    Beth
    elifoo@hotmail.com

  • Kyle & Beth Brown

    Wow! Your song speaks directly to my heart, and expresses my exact feelings over the loss of my daughter. The picture at disneyland is just like a picture we took at Chrismas with a teddy bear and our 4 girls at that time. You see we have 6 beautiful girls now. Our angel, her name is Amberlee passed away June 29th 2007. On April 8th, 2008 we had another baby girl, but she can never replace Amberlee, she is just another blessing in our lives. I found your site, looking for ways to deal with our loss as the anniversary is coming up. I would be so appreciative to be able to get a copy of the song you wrote. I feel it would be an amazing way to honor Amberlee on the anniversary of our loss. If you ever need a shoulder to cry on, or someone to express you feelings to, I am here. I feel the same pain in a very real way. Know that you are not alone, and your feelings are normal, and that you are loved by a father that aches because of your sadness.

    Beth
    elifoo@hotmail.com

  • Kyle & Beth Brown

    Wow! Your song speaks directly to my heart, and expresses my exact feelings over the loss of my daughter. The picture at disneyland is just like a picture we took at Chrismas with a teddy bear and our 4 girls at that time. You see we have 6 beautiful girls now. Our angel, her name is Amberlee passed away June 29th 2007. On April 8th, 2008 we had another baby girl, but she can never replace Amberlee, she is just another blessing in our lives. I found your site, looking for ways to deal with our loss as the anniversary is coming up. I would be so appreciative to be able to get a copy of the song you wrote. I feel it would be an amazing way to honor Amberlee on the anniversary of our loss. If you ever need a shoulder to cry on, or someone to express you feelings to, I am here. I feel the same pain in a very real way. Know that you are not alone, and your feelings are normal, and that you are loved by a father that aches because of your sadness.

    Beth
    elifoo@hotmail.com

  • Kyle & Beth Brown

    Wow! Your song speaks directly to my heart, and expresses my exact feelings over the loss of my daughter. The picture at disneyland is just like a picture we took at Chrismas with a teddy bear and our 4 girls at that time. You see we have 6 beautiful girls now. Our angel, her name is Amberlee passed away June 29th 2007. On April 8th, 2008 we had another baby girl, but she can never replace Amberlee, she is just another blessing in our lives. I found your site, looking for ways to deal with our loss as the anniversary is coming up. I would be so appreciative to be able to get a copy of the song you wrote. I feel it would be an amazing way to honor Amberlee on the anniversary of our loss. If you ever need a shoulder to cry on, or someone to express you feelings to, I am here. I feel the same pain in a very real way. Know that you are not alone, and your feelings are normal, and that you are loved by a father that aches because of your sadness.

    Beth
    elifoo@hotmail.com

  • Kyle & Beth Brown

    Wow! Your song speaks directly to my heart, and expresses my exact feelings over the loss of my daughter. The picture at disneyland is just like a picture we took at Chrismas with a teddy bear and our 4 girls at that time. You see we have 6 beautiful girls now. Our angel, her name is Amberlee passed away June 29th 2007. On April 8th, 2008 we had another baby girl, but she can never replace Amberlee, she is just another blessing in our lives. I found your site, looking for ways to deal with our loss as the anniversary is coming up. I would be so appreciative to be able to get a copy of the song you wrote. I feel it would be an amazing way to honor Amberlee on the anniversary of our loss. If you ever need a shoulder to cry on, or someone to express you feelings to, I am here. I feel the same pain in a very real way. Know that you are not alone, and your feelings are normal, and that you are loved by a father that aches because of your sadness.

    Beth
    elifoo@hotmail.com

  • Kyle & Beth Brown

    Wow! Your song speaks directly to my heart, and expresses my exact feelings over the loss of my daughter. The picture at disneyland is just like a picture we took at Chrismas with a teddy bear and our 4 girls at that time. You see we have 6 beautiful girls now. Our angel, her name is Amberlee passed away June 29th 2007. On April 8th, 2008 we had another baby girl, but she can never replace Amberlee, she is just another blessing in our lives. I found your site, looking for ways to deal with our loss as the anniversary is coming up. I would be so appreciative to be able to get a copy of the song you wrote. I feel it would be an amazing way to honor Amberlee on the anniversary of our loss. If you ever need a shoulder to cry on, or someone to express you feelings to, I am here. I feel the same pain in a very real way. Know that you are not alone, and your feelings are normal, and that you are loved by a father that aches because of your sadness.

    Beth
    elifoo@hotmail.com

  • Kyle & Beth Brown

    Wow! Your song speaks directly to my heart, and expresses my exact feelings over the loss of my daughter. The picture at disneyland is just like a picture we took at Chrismas with a teddy bear and our 4 girls at that time. You see we have 6 beautiful girls now. Our angel, her name is Amberlee passed away June 29th 2007. On April 8th, 2008 we had another baby girl, but she can never replace Amberlee, she is just another blessing in our lives. I found your site, looking for ways to deal with our loss as the anniversary is coming up. I would be so appreciative to be able to get a copy of the song you wrote. I feel it would be an amazing way to honor Amberlee on the anniversary of our loss. If you ever need a shoulder to cry on, or someone to express you feelings to, I am here. I feel the same pain in a very real way. Know that you are not alone, and your feelings are normal, and that you are loved by a father that aches because of your sadness.

    Beth
    elifoo@hotmail.com

  • Kyle & Beth Brown

    Wow! Your song speaks directly to my heart, and expresses my exact feelings over the loss of my daughter. The picture at disneyland is just like a picture we took at Chrismas with a teddy bear and our 4 girls at that time. You see we have 6 beautiful girls now. Our angel, her name is Amberlee passed away June 29th 2007. On April 8th, 2008 we had another baby girl, but she can never replace Amberlee, she is just another blessing in our lives. I found your site, looking for ways to deal with our loss as the anniversary is coming up. I would be so appreciative to be able to get a copy of the song you wrote. I feel it would be an amazing way to honor Amberlee on the anniversary of our loss. If you ever need a shoulder to cry on, or someone to express you feelings to, I am here. I feel the same pain in a very real way. Know that you are not alone, and your feelings are normal, and that you are loved by a father that aches because of your sadness.

    Beth
    elifoo@hotmail.com

  • Kyle & Beth Brown

    Wow! Your song speaks directly to my heart, and expresses my exact feelings over the loss of my daughter. The picture at disneyland is just like a picture we took at Chrismas with a teddy bear and our 4 girls at that time. You see we have 6 beautiful girls now. Our angel, her name is Amberlee passed away June 29th 2007. On April 8th, 2008 we had another baby girl, but she can never replace Amberlee, she is just another blessing in our lives. I found your site, looking for ways to deal with our loss as the anniversary is coming up. I would be so appreciative to be able to get a copy of the song you wrote. I feel it would be an amazing way to honor Amberlee on the anniversary of our loss. If you ever need a shoulder to cry on, or someone to express you feelings to, I am here. I feel the same pain in a very real way. Know that you are not alone, and your feelings are normal, and that you are loved by a father that aches because of your sadness.

    Beth
    elifoo@hotmail.com

  • Kyle & Beth Brown

    Wow! Your song speaks directly to my heart, and expresses my exact feelings over the loss of my daughter. The picture at disneyland is just like a picture we took at Chrismas with a teddy bear and our 4 girls at that time. You see we have 6 beautiful girls now. Our angel, her name is Amberlee passed away June 29th 2007. On April 8th, 2008 we had another baby girl, but she can never replace Amberlee, she is just another blessing in our lives. I found your site, looking for ways to deal with our loss as the anniversary is coming up. I would be so appreciative to be able to get a copy of the song you wrote. I feel it would be an amazing way to honor Amberlee on the anniversary of our loss. If you ever need a shoulder to cry on, or someone to express you feelings to, I am here. I feel the same pain in a very real way. Know that you are not alone, and your feelings are normal, and that you are loved by a father that aches because of your sadness.

    Beth
    elifoo@hotmail.com

  • Kyle & Beth Brown

    Wow! Your song speaks directly to my heart, and expresses my exact feelings over the loss of my daughter. The picture at disneyland is just like a picture we took at Chrismas with a teddy bear and our 4 girls at that time. You see we have 6 beautiful girls now. Our angel, her name is Amberlee passed away June 29th 2007. On April 8th, 2008 we had another baby girl, but she can never replace Amberlee, she is just another blessing in our lives. I found your site, looking for ways to deal with our loss as the anniversary is coming up. I would be so appreciative to be able to get a copy of the song you wrote. I feel it would be an amazing way to honor Amberlee on the anniversary of our loss. If you ever need a shoulder to cry on, or someone to express you feelings to, I am here. I feel the same pain in a very real way. Know that you are not alone, and your feelings are normal, and that you are loved by a father that aches because of your sadness.

    Beth
    elifoo@hotmail.com

  • Kyle & Beth Brown

    Wow! Your song speaks directly to my heart, and expresses my exact feelings over the loss of my daughter. The picture at disneyland is just like a picture we took at Chrismas with a teddy bear and our 4 girls at that time. You see we have 6 beautiful girls now. Our angel, her name is Amberlee passed away June 29th 2007. On April 8th, 2008 we had another baby girl, but she can never replace Amberlee, she is just another blessing in our lives. I found your site, looking for ways to deal with our loss as the anniversary is coming up. I would be so appreciative to be able to get a copy of the song you wrote. I feel it would be an amazing way to honor Amberlee on the anniversary of our loss. If you ever need a shoulder to cry on, or someone to express you feelings to, I am here. I feel the same pain in a very real way. Know that you are not alone, and your feelings are normal, and that you are loved by a father that aches because of your sadness.

    Beth
    elifoo@hotmail.com

  • Kyle & Beth Brown

    Wow! Your song speaks directly to my heart, and expresses my exact feelings over the loss of my daughter. The picture at disneyland is just like a picture we took at Chrismas with a teddy bear and our 4 girls at that time. You see we have 6 beautiful girls now. Our angel, her name is Amberlee passed away June 29th 2007. On April 8th, 2008 we had another baby girl, but she can never replace Amberlee, she is just another blessing in our lives. I found your site, looking for ways to deal with our loss as the anniversary is coming up. I would be so appreciative to be able to get a copy of the song you wrote. I feel it would be an amazing way to honor Amberlee on the anniversary of our loss. If you ever need a shoulder to cry on, or someone to express you feelings to, I am here. I feel the same pain in a very real way. Know that you are not alone, and your feelings are normal, and that you are loved by a father that aches because of your sadness.

    Beth
    elifoo@hotmail.com

  • Kyle & Beth Brown

    Wow! Your song speaks directly to my heart, and expresses my exact feelings over the loss of my daughter. The picture at disneyland is just like a picture we took at Chrismas with a teddy bear and our 4 girls at that time. You see we have 6 beautiful girls now. Our angel, her name is Amberlee passed away June 29th 2007. On April 8th, 2008 we had another baby girl, but she can never replace Amberlee, she is just another blessing in our lives. I found your site, looking for ways to deal with our loss as the anniversary is coming up. I would be so appreciative to be able to get a copy of the song you wrote. I feel it would be an amazing way to honor Amberlee on the anniversary of our loss. If you ever need a shoulder to cry on, or someone to express you feelings to, I am here. I feel the same pain in a very real way. Know that you are not alone, and your feelings are normal, and that you are loved by a father that aches because of your sadness.

    Beth
    elifoo@hotmail.com

  • Kyle & Beth Brown

    Wow! Your song speaks directly to my heart, and expresses my exact feelings over the loss of my daughter. The picture at disneyland is just like a picture we took at Chrismas with a teddy bear and our 4 girls at that time. You see we have 6 beautiful girls now. Our angel, her name is Amberlee passed away June 29th 2007. On April 8th, 2008 we had another baby girl, but she can never replace Amberlee, she is just another blessing in our lives. I found your site, looking for ways to deal with our loss as the anniversary is coming up. I would be so appreciative to be able to get a copy of the song you wrote. I feel it would be an amazing way to honor Amberlee on the anniversary of our loss. If you ever need a shoulder to cry on, or someone to express you feelings to, I am here. I feel the same pain in a very real way. Know that you are not alone, and your feelings are normal, and that you are loved by a father that aches because of your sadness.

    Beth
    elifoo@hotmail.com

  • Kyle & Beth Brown

    Wow! Your song speaks directly to my heart, and expresses my exact feelings over the loss of my daughter. The picture at disneyland is just like a picture we took at Chrismas with a teddy bear and our 4 girls at that time. You see we have 6 beautiful girls now. Our angel, her name is Amberlee passed away June 29th 2007. On April 8th, 2008 we had another baby girl, but she can never replace Amberlee, she is just another blessing in our lives. I found your site, looking for ways to deal with our loss as the anniversary is coming up. I would be so appreciative to be able to get a copy of the song you wrote. I feel it would be an amazing way to honor Amberlee on the anniversary of our loss. If you ever need a shoulder to cry on, or someone to express you feelings to, I am here. I feel the same pain in a very real way. Know that you are not alone, and your feelings are normal, and that you are loved by a father that aches because of your sadness.

    Beth
    elifoo@hotmail.com

  • Kyle & Beth Brown

    Wow! Your song speaks directly to my heart, and expresses my exact feelings over the loss of my daughter. The picture at disneyland is just like a picture we took at Chrismas with a teddy bear and our 4 girls at that time. You see we have 6 beautiful girls now. Our angel, her name is Amberlee passed away June 29th 2007. On April 8th, 2008 we had another baby girl, but she can never replace Amberlee, she is just another blessing in our lives. I found your site, looking for ways to deal with our loss as the anniversary is coming up. I would be so appreciative to be able to get a copy of the song you wrote. I feel it would be an amazing way to honor Amberlee on the anniversary of our loss. If you ever need a shoulder to cry on, or someone to express you feelings to, I am here. I feel the same pain in a very real way. Know that you are not alone, and your feelings are normal, and that you are loved by a father that aches because of your sadness.

    Beth
    elifoo@hotmail.com

  • Kyle & Beth Brown

    Wow! Your song speaks directly to my heart, and expresses my exact feelings over the loss of my daughter. The picture at disneyland is just like a picture we took at Chrismas with a teddy bear and our 4 girls at that time. You see we have 6 beautiful girls now. Our angel, her name is Amberlee passed away June 29th 2007. On April 8th, 2008 we had another baby girl, but she can never replace Amberlee, she is just another blessing in our lives. I found your site, looking for ways to deal with our loss as the anniversary is coming up. I would be so appreciative to be able to get a copy of the song you wrote. I feel it would be an amazing way to honor Amberlee on the anniversary of our loss. If you ever need a shoulder to cry on, or someone to express you feelings to, I am here. I feel the same pain in a very real way. Know that you are not alone, and your feelings are normal, and that you are loved by a father that aches because of your sadness.

    Beth
    elifoo@hotmail.com

  • Kyle & Beth Brown

    Wow! Your song speaks directly to my heart, and expresses my exact feelings over the loss of my daughter. The picture at disneyland is just like a picture we took at Chrismas with a teddy bear and our 4 girls at that time. You see we have 6 beautiful girls now. Our angel, her name is Amberlee passed away June 29th 2007. On April 8th, 2008 we had another baby girl, but she can never replace Amberlee, she is just another blessing in our lives. I found your site, looking for ways to deal with our loss as the anniversary is coming up. I would be so appreciative to be able to get a copy of the song you wrote. I feel it would be an amazing way to honor Amberlee on the anniversary of our loss. If you ever need a shoulder to cry on, or someone to express you feelings to, I am here. I feel the same pain in a very real way. Know that you are not alone, and your feelings are normal, and that you are loved by a father that aches because of your sadness.

    Beth
    elifoo@hotmail.com

  • Kyle & Beth Brown

    Wow! Your song speaks directly to my heart, and expresses my exact feelings over the loss of my daughter. The picture at disneyland is just like a picture we took at Chrismas with a teddy bear and our 4 girls at that time. You see we have 6 beautiful girls now. Our angel, her name is Amberlee passed away June 29th 2007. On April 8th, 2008 we had another baby girl, but she can never replace Amberlee, she is just another blessing in our lives. I found your site, looking for ways to deal with our loss as the anniversary is coming up. I would be so appreciative to be able to get a copy of the song you wrote. I feel it would be an amazing way to honor Amberlee on the anniversary of our loss. If you ever need a shoulder to cry on, or someone to express you feelings to, I am here. I feel the same pain in a very real way. Know that you are not alone, and your feelings are normal, and that you are loved by a father that aches because of your sadness.

    Beth
    elifoo@hotmail.com

  • The Haggard Family

    I wanted to write to you and tell you thank you. Thank you for your beautiful daughter, thank you for the words that you write, and thank you for your faith. You are an incredible woman.

    Cheryl Haggard

  • Lizette

    Those pictures are the most beautiful I have ever seen !
    Your letter is perfect, beautifully written.

  • Marissa

    Amazing. Looking at your pictures makes me regret not taking a picture of my daughter’s face. But how was I supposed to know that I could have done that? My first time going through this. I just had a stillborn on March 13th. The worst week of my life. How are you coping with this?

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  • Judy

    Thank you for sharing your loss; I know only too well what it is like to lose a baby. I lost my first baby to SIDS (Sudden Infant Death Syndrome) when she was only 22-days-old. I thought she was the most beautiful, perfectly formed baby I had ever seen. The Lord blessed us with three more beautiful children, two more girls and a little boy. All three are blond and the oldest has blue eyes while the younger two have hazel eyes. All three accepted Christ at an early age and are living Christ-filled lives. They have given me four beautiful grandchildren, three boys and a girl ages 1-5. The oldest three grand babies are red-headed and blue-eyed, the youngest is blond and blue-eyed. He looks just like his Daddy did when he was a baby. It’s always hard to lose a child but we rest in the knowledge that one day we will be with them again and they are no longer suffering. My baby lived in intensive care for eight hours while they ran all sorts of tests on her. I regret that she had to go through all that pain before she died. They couldn’t find anything wrong with her until the autopsy showed Crib Death. Two years ago my friends, my son’s in-laws, lost their only grandson to Crib Death at two months of age. His parents found him dead in bed. I can’t imagine having to discover my child dead. It was hard enough letting go when I knew nothing could be done. Keep your faith strong and keep relying on the Lord. My husband didn’t do that and the problems he had eventually forced us to divorce. I ended up a single Mom with three kids to raise without any help from their father. He refused to help in any way. Christ is my strength!

  • Anonymous

    You’re amazing, Angie. Thank you for your courage and faith. We love you, your precious Audrey, and little Luke. First found your blog just yesterday, but you and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers, and I will check back often. Please, please God, bless this family and give them comfort. Ryan, Kansas City

  • Shawnda

    I barely got through this. But I’m so glad I did. Thank you for sharing with such depth and openness. Thank you for sharing the pics – Audrey is BEAUTIFUL! Your whole family is beautiful!!

    We are praying for you as you grieve your baby girl and your baby nephew.

  • The 4 Sullivans

    WOW! What a story, what a testimony and what a family! Isn’t it amazing how you could feel so close to a family you have never even met. Blessing to you on your journey…I look forward to reading about it!
    Love, Kristie

  • Lori Ann

    God is so good! Thank you for sharing your faith in Christ!

  • km

    All of your daughters are beautiful. Through tears I can hardly type more. Hugs and Prayers from a Sister in Christ.

  • MikeandCharlsie

    What a beautiful letter! You have me in tears. A week from Monday we will be remembering the 2 year anniversary of our own sweet girl. We will make cupcakes and go where she rests to have a picnic with her. Thank you again for sharing your story!!!

  • Tracey

    Absolutely beautiful… I am so sorry for your loss, but so happy for your peace.

    Your daughter is positively beautiful…

  • World’s Greatest Mommy

    Beautiful words. Amazing strength. True knowledge of God.

  • Miranda (Houston, tx)

    I know you dont know who i am, but i have been reading your blog for the past few weeks. I am truly sorry for all that you have had to go thru and are still going through. Audrey is absolutly beautiful. Stay strong, and never forget that GOD has a plan for each and everyone of of us. Even though we may not know what that is. GOD BLESS you and your family.

  • queenoftheclick

    Angie, thank you for sharing your story and the pictures of your angel with us.

    Your family is beautiful and will always by blessed by God because he chose you and your family.

  • Katie Booker

    What an amazing letter to write to your daughter. I found this blog today and it touched me alot!
    You have been blessed with 4 BEAUTIFUL little girls.
    I pray God will give you peace through this hard time.
    Thank you for letting all of us “bloggers” read your letter.

  • Gemma

    Thankyou for sharing… god bless Audrey and your family.
    A church in Gippsland, Australia will be praying for you all tonight

  • chanelireli

    Thank you for sharing. That was beautiful! May God bless your family.

  • sHaWna in Costa Rica baby!

    Thank you! Thank you! Thank you for sharing the blessing that Audrey is in your life. You Father in Heaven must be so proud that you realized the tender mercy in having her here on this earth, if only for a quite moment. Thank you for sharing such a private moment. My life has been changed today.
    I will pray for you and your family that the days and years ahead may bring comfort.

    (I am a photographer and with families that have lost a member, I have them bring something of that member that has left; baby booties, a necklace. Then we sneak that into the portraits taking turns with who gets to hold it or wear it. That way as your portrait is hanging on the wall of your home, it is almost complete with a token of your sweet one.)
    Just a sweet suggestion.

  • Jodi

    beautiful – thank you!

  • moma lee

    Thank you for sharing this beautiful story. You are so brave. I went to school to become a Geneticist to be a part of these kind of life-defining circumstances. Although I’ve put that dream on the shelf to be a mom, your story reminds me that you never know how one life can change the world!

  • vanessa22

    angie,

    your story is one of the best story i’ve ever read. i also have a daughter she’s 6 months old right now… and having her has brought me nothing but the purest joy ever since… i was really crying while reading your blog. because what you have wrote was the exact feeling i had felt when i first saw my daughter…
    audrey is really beautiful. she would be the sweetest angel heaven would have.

    my prayers for your family…

    Vanessa

  • Just call me G

    I am so glad I passed this way. the tears I have shed were tears of sadness that your beautiful Audrey could not stay longer… and tears of happiness that she was able to stay for a short time. You and your family are awesome

    Gina xxx

  • In Christ’s Arms

    I found your letter through a friends blog…and oh my!! I want to share a scripture with you that spoke to me the summer after I lost my daughter, Evelyn Virgina. Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you, and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” This scripture spoke to my spirit, the Lord never want to see you hurting. He never wants to harm you. He allows us to go through trials to do a couple of things…one…to strengthen our faith and see if we will rely on him…two…to bring glory to His kingdom!! And believe me when I tell you, by sharing your story and giving praise to the Lord all through it…you are bringing glory to His kingdom!!! Evelyn’s little life brought others to the Lord and brought me closer to Him as well. Audry’s little life is doing the same thing. Through your pain others are finding Christ and others are coming closer to Him. I will lift you and your beautiful family up in prayers. Continue glorifing the Lord and he will bless you in ways that you can not even imagine!!

    In Christ’s Arms,
    Shelly

  • Kristi

    What a beautiful family. Thank you for sharing your sweet story and allowing God to work through you.

    Your Sister in Christ,
    Kristi from NC

  • Amy in Ohio

    Dearest Angie,

    I have just been introduced to your story and I’ve spent the last day or so catching up on your beautiful tale.

    There are no words for what my heart is feeling right now for you.

    All my love,
    Amy in Ohio

  • Mom

    Angie,
    Just watched your video montage and read a tiny bit of your blog. My heart and prayers go out to you. We are sisters in Messiah and both were blessed with beautiful little daughters. My Raquel Elise was diagnosed with infantile PKD also. She was born at 34 weeks and lived for ten days. Audrey died on my birthday. Coincidence? Hardly. Someday I will return and read more of your blog but for now, I pray your heart mends and God’s love pours out on you in fresh and unexpected ways. May His supernatural peace comfort you. In Him, Terry p.s. Feel free to send me a private message if you wish to connect (creationsbest@yahoo.com). I’ll be glad to share her blog with you. Most of the writing was done by my husband and I began adding to it later on in the journey. What I did read on your site was inspiring. May God bless your willingness to be vulnerable and honest.

  • Chellykin’s

    This was a beautiful letter full of love and faith.

  • edel

    I have only just found your blog. I spent hours reading through your posts it is now 3am in Ireland! It is clear that Audrey was truely loved I have no words to describe how moving your blog is. I will keep you, your beautiful family and Audrey in my prayers and ask my aunt Eileen (who passed recently from breast cancer) to watch over her. Audrey is gone to the angels. RIP.

    Do not stand at my grave and weep
    I am not there; I do not sleep.
    I am a thousand winds that blow,
    I am the diamond glints on snow,
    I am the sun on ripened grain,
    I am the gentle autumn rain.
    When you awaken in the morning’s hush
    I am the swift uplifting rush
    Of quiet birds in circled flight.
    I am the soft stars that shine at night.
    Do not stand at my grave and cry,
    I am not there; I did not die.

  • blessedmom

    My grandson died suddenly of meningitis at 5 months l0 days. Each day is worth mentioning. I was so blessed to read your story of faith. The song I can only imagine has brought me such comfort to know Nicholas is doing just fine in Heaven and I will see him again. Our time on earth was determined before we got here and I treasure the time we had with our little one.
    debra

  • Carolyn

    what a beautiful love letter to your precious daughter! thank you for sharing your story with us.

    Blessings to you and your family.

  • Alli

    There are no words…

    You are an incredible encouragement to so many people. Thank you for sharing your story (your heart) with the world.

    Audrey Caroline was a perfectly beautiful baby girl.

  • Laura

    Audrey is so beautiful as is your family and your heart. I have shed many tears for Audrey and for your loss of her. You are amazing people and I wanted to thank you for sharing yourselves and your journey.

  • Emily

    Your story is one that has left an impression on me that I will never ever forget.
    Your faith, your love of God, your sweet little angel Audrey.
    You are an amazing family, the love, the heartache, the beauty, it literally comes out of the screen.
    She is the most beautiful angel that there has even been.
    I am a mother of three young children and I am on my way to go up to them and kiss them and smell them.
    I have sat and read almost your entire blog for the last five hours.
    You are quite simply amazing and have left an impression deep on my heart to love more, be better, try harder and never EVER take a single breath for granted.
    God BLess you all. Bless you, Bless you, Bless you.
    Emily

  • TuTu’s Bliss

    Thank you. I can not and probably never will be able to tell you why your story has touched me. Why I have spent the last several hours reading your story back to front despite the late time here. I do not possess your gift for raw honest truth. Some stories I will always keep to myself. But thank you 1000x. Love, prayers, hugs and extreme gratitude

  • http://thefertileinfertile.blogspot.com Kristin

    I found this letter through @FireMom:twitter’s post today http://www.blogher.com/your-baby-had-weight-world-pregnancy-and-infant-loss-remembrance-day

    What an incredibly beautiful letter. Thank you for sharing.

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  • Jannetty021

    Your story is amazing. You are so strong. I’m sitting here crying my eyes out next to my daughter while she sleeps. I don’t know what I’d do. I don’t think I’ll ever forget about you and your story and your beautiful daughter Audrey.
    -Janet

  • Me

    I found your story by accident while surfing the net. I am so touched by your letter. Your words are beautiful and full of grace. What an awesome God we serve! I am always amazed that he gives us the peace we need in times such as this. While your Angel served her purpose on Earth, God had greater plans. I am in awe of you and your beautiful family. Thank you for sharing this story!

  • Krisdee Davey

    I truly believe God lead me to your blog today. I am approaching what would have been my due date for my second loss. The first pregnancy loss was so much easier. I had already miscarried before ever taking the test. I was then pregnant about 8 weeks later. So, I never knew the actual due date and was well on my way to meeting my daughter before that time came to pass.

    This time has been so much harder. Nothing has been the same physically since losing baby. The birthday that would have been is right around the corner, only a few days after my son’s 4th birthday will be celebrated. I have felt alone in this. My husband barely acknowledges the baby’s existence and seems not to notice that I’m not pregnant anymore, like I do. He will be working a long stretch during this time as well. So, I will be alone to deal with this. I know God is and will be with me. That’s the only grace I see in some of these days leading up to this. I am very thankful that this is true. Because, where would I be if He wasn’t always with me; truly alone. And I can’t imagine facing this time like that.

    So, through my daily readings of blogs I ran across your post on A Holy Experience today. I became curious as to the story behind your post there. Here I am. So, your and your daughter’s story is STILL reaching people in need. God’s amazing hands at work. Thank you for being a vessel of honor.