Cross Point Video

Today has been a day of loss and hurt. I have spent most of the day in tears, for many different reasons. I am still processing what God has brought to me, and the way that I will carry it. I am so, so tired, but I will try to post tomorrow, because I really feel like I need prayer. For now I wanted to pass this along. Allan (from Selah) goes to a great church here, and his pastor made a video of our story that they showed yesterday in church. I think they did a great job, and was honored to be a part of what turned out to be a beautiful day of celebrating God’s goodness and faithfulness.

Here is the link to Pete’s blog-he’s the pastor, and just an all-around great guy. If the poor boy just wasn’t so homely-looking…:)

You may have to scroll a little bit to get to us, but it’s called “Rocked To My Core.” It’s about 22 minutes long, so get comfy!

http://withoutwax.tv/

To Pete and everyone else at Cross Point who was involved in this, thank you, and may God continue to bless your ministry greatly.

Angie


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  • Sara

    I’m going to go watch the video, but wanted you to know that whatever you write to us tomorrow and ask for in prayer… I’m praying for you and your needs tonight. I hope that you can feel it and find some peace in the midst of all of the loss and hurt. You are being held tenderly by God and by all of us who care for you…

  • Leanne

    Praying for you and thank you for sharing Pete’s blog and video.

  • Jenn

    I just came upon your blog tonight–and read all the way through it. I have cried and laughed and cried some more. Sending you a hug and lifting you up in prayer! Jesus loves you oh-so-much….rest in Him.

    Blessings,
    Jenn

  • Anonymous

    While it is good to know specifically how we can pray for you when you are able to let us know, rest assured that prayers for you and Todd and the girls have never stopped. It has been I don’t know how many weeks now that you have been a part of all of my prayers. You probably will be for a long time to come. So just rest, and know that our prayers will continue.

  • Tracy Ziemer

    You don’t know me (though my husband, Trevor, and I were friends of Todd’s at Belmont), but I have been weeping with you tonight. As a mother of two little ones…being new to your story and walking with you through your words on the screen leave me speechless with anything meaningful to say that could, in any way, appropriately honor your experience, your grief, the days, minutes, moments that you’re living in even as I write. The strength and weakness that you display with such candor are strength to me in my own comparatively miniscule struggles with a broken heart and shattered dreams. God bless you, Todd and the girls as you move ahead together.

  • DIXIE

    Thank you for sharing Audrey with all of us. It’s so amazing to see how one little girl has touched so many lives and changed the way people think. When my sweet little nephew passed, I held onto God because He’s all I had and He brought me through, just like He will bring you and your precious family through. If anything I have learned the true faithfulness of God. It is your willingness to be so transparent when you didn’t have to be that people gravitate towards. It’s truly God’s grace and you can see it in those beautiful pictures and that amazing video!

    God Bless You,
    Jenny

  • Anonymous

    Angie, Todd and your little ones, I hold you all in my heart and lift you up in my prayers to a merciful God that had such big plans for your tiny little Audrey. I pray that His gentle strength will make you stronger and stronger. The video was incredibly moving as is your blog and your song for Audrey.

    With continued prayers in Christian love,
    Dee Rasmussen (Wake Forest, NC)

  • Anonymous

    Thank you so much for sharing this wonderful video. Keep telling Audrey’s beautiful story, it matters! Who knew that God would use a 3 lb 2 oz baby to show His love! I know Audrey is looking down on us from heaven, very pleased. Praise God, she is healed now!!! Angie, you are amazing…
    Praying for the whole family!
    Kris

  • The Bayham Family

    What a beautiful testimony of how big our God is . . . I know that Audrey’s story will not stop. Her beautiful mommy continues to tell her story.

  • Laura Smith

    I cannot believe the strength God has given you…to be able to honor Audrey and help her begin her Earthly mission is such a profound way. The video was wonderful. I am praying for you tonight.

  • Switch2Hisplan

    I am inspired by your words… as usual. Especially your thoughts on “Plan B”. Your are in my prayers. -Julie

  • Jane-Jane

    I remember where I was when God showed me His plan A, my plan B…. five years this June. I was in a special community church service and we were singing It Is Well….and truly my anthem is and always will be, no matter what my lot in life, it is well. Yes, there are days when I still get disappointed to say the least….but it IS well with my soul, and for that I am ever so thankful to Jesus.
    Thanks for sharing the video.

  • kristy mae

    I haven’t watched yet, I wanted to say first that I continue to pray for you. The Lord knows your need tonight and I will lift you up to Him.
    Kristy
    in Arkansas

  • Anonymous

    I am going to watch the video tonight after I can finally “get comfy”… :)

    Angie, I’m praying for you. I’ve been thinking of you constantly. You are walking through so much pain yet you are such a blessing to me! How amazing is that?!?! I find such inspiration from your strength. I’ve been challenged by your faith. I’m a worrier too!!! I totally did the same thing with stuffed animals…worrying the ones that I didn’t pick would feel left out. I also remembering worrying that the covers would smother them when I slept with them so, I’d make sure they’re faces weren’t covered! :P

    I pray you’ll have sweet sweet dreams tonight and wake up rested. I pray it’ll be the kind of sleep where you just KNOW the Lord was holding you while you slept. ;)

    God bless you friend!
    Amy
    amy@philippians121.com

  • Emily

    There are no words to tell you how this blessed my heart or how many times I thought this story could have been my own. Substitute a few names and a few details and your story is ours. It is a humbling thing to see the Lord carry yet another sweet family down this sacred path. Today marks 10 months since our Miller Grace went home to Jesus and we are nowhere near finished talking about her. :) Like Audrey, she has impacted more people in her brief life (5 days, 8 hours, 48 minutes) than we could ever hope to, for her Lord. I am honored to pray for you specifically in the days and months to come, as you fight to keep your eyes on your Lord. He will not leave you. When you feel so alone and wonder how this could be your life, He will be the breath in your lungs. When you wonder how you have survived this and when you feel cheated, one remembrance of a girl so sacred will take your breath away and send you praising your Father for this unspeakable gift again. He is good, all the time. I hope you do not mind, but I linked to this video from my blog, too. The ripples from Audrey Caroline Smith’s life are spreading far and wide and her Maker is being glorified. Well done, good and faithful servants. May your rest and find peace tonight. Just an hour north of you, this mother with an understanding heart is blessed to “know your girl” and is honored to lift you up to the one who holds her now.

  • Adrienne

    Thank you for your testimony to God’s love and your loving lesson of trust. Your heart and words rang deja vu in my head as I bawled watching the video. “Even now, Lord, it’s not too late!” It’s never been an issue of faith…you had it even as big as a mustard seed. You are right, there was never a plan B…she came to make your lives richer. I know your hearts ache. April 7th wasn’t the last day you had to talk of her…it was the beginning, as ironic as it sounds. I am praying for you guys a lot! I know it is a long road, like, the rest of your lives…I know this. I’m not going to blow sunshine at you and tell you it gets easier, but a promise God gave me as He delivered me instantly from my fear of death when my Noah went to be with Jesus is that each day that grows in distance from the day I said goodbye is one day closer to the day I get to say HELLO, son! I pray for you guys that each day God provides for you exactly that for which your hearts yearn. Praying in CO. Adrienne xoxox

  • kristy mae

    What an impactful video.
    Todd was so right when he said that there will be so many who will meet Audrey in heaven someday and say “because of you…”
    Thank you again for sharing her story and life with the world.
    With continued prayers for you, Todd and the girls,
    Kristy in AR

  • Anonymous

    Thank you so much for sharing this video with us. I know God knits our hearts together with fellow believers, when we pray for them. Watching the video, I felt like I did when I saw Adrienne on a video that she’d posted. . .That it was sweet to see you in motion. It’s like seeing a friend, who I already knew. The peace of God absolutely shines through your face, Angie. And it was precious to hear Todd talk about his baby girl too. With Continued Prayers, Erika and the White family

  • Christy O

    The video was wonderful, and you both expressed yourself so eloquently. Thank you so much for sharing. Each step and each day cannot be easy, but you are in many, many people’s prayers. Don’t stop talking about Audrey. Keep talking.
    Christy in WI

  • Kate

    Continued prayers for you and your family. I pray God gives you the strength to get stronger every day. Thanks so much for sharing the video. I’ve posted it on my blog to share with the Vietnam adoption community–who is hurting right now.

  • Jeremey and Jessica

    The video was so incredible. Your love for Audrey continues to shine. You are in my prayers. Rest well, and may you continue to feel the love that God has for you, Todd, the girls and Audrey.
    Love and Prayers,
    Jessica

  • Bethany

    I just watched the video…wow. You both continue to amaze me. Audrey has blessed more people than you will ever imagine. As I go up to bed, I will talk to the Lord, and I will ask for strength for you, Angie. He is holding you.

  • Darlene R.

    Okay, if that’s what homely looks like… then my definition has been a little off over the years;)

    Seeing your faces (again) and hearing you talk about what has come from Audrey’s life and death left me with tears flowing down. What Todd said at the end about how you are leaving such an amazing legacy for your girls… I literally sobbed.
    In fact, I was thinking just that last night after I watched the slideshow. It seems as though your girls have a beautiful example to follow in their mother.
    You and your family have become so precious to me. I can only imagine how strange that must seem, to have people you hardly know tell you that, but knowing you through this blog has changed me.
    I will forever be thankful for that day in the airport when I finally got up the nerve to approch you. (I didn’t want to bother you :) ) My purpose that day was to talk to you about the blogging world and just chat. Todd had mentioned your blog address during the concert that week, but the airport is where I commited it to memory, and a Chili’s receipt!You made the comment that day that you weren’t sure you were doing this blogging thing right– Let me assure you, you are.

    Audrey Caroline will never be forgotten. Her life on this earth won’t allow it.

    Thank you for sharing it with us. Still praying.

    Love,
    Darlene~IN

  • KELLY

    Angie, Todd and the girls, That video was beautiful to watch and so comforting to see God’s peace resting all over you. God is sovereign in our victories and in our despair and Audrey’s life goes on and on in her witness for Christ. What an awesome time that will be in heaven when we all hear her impact for God’s kingdom. It doesn’t take the hurt away of not having her here, but her legacy will continue. God bless all of you!

  • Anonymous

    Dear Todd & Angie:
    We keep praying for your family, I know that now is more painful than ever, so we ask the Lord to be by your side always. Know that there are lots of people praying for you.
    What a beautiful legacy you are leaving behind. She will always have a special place in our hearts. I’m glad you received our card, I saw it in the video. There is so much we would like to do, but know that the best thing is just to pray for you, and the Lord will do the rest.
    From the bottom of our hearts, thank you for sharing your life with us, your family will always have a special place in our hearts.
    Hang in there…… HE will not leave you alone!
    Judy

  • Jody

    I found your blog tonight & read it all the way through in one sitting, except the several trips to the bathroom for tissue. I haven’t wept like this since the last time I let the tears flow for the memories of my little angel, Shaina. My heart breaks for you & your family. I want you to know I am praying for you all & will continue to do so. I know the pain you’re feeling deep in your heart & reading Audrey’s story brings bittersweet memories back from when I was at the point you are right now. Lifting up prayer for you with love & deepest understanding of your grief~

    Jody Garber
    Mom to angels: Shaina born sleeping 1/1/99- 1 lb. 1 1/2 oz, Nathan miscarried 5/16/99 and to 5 earth angels: Koby (8), Brayden (6), Dayne (almost 4), Syndelle (2) & Taivyn (7 mons)

  • Christy

    The video was simply beautiful. Something that you said, in the video, tugged at my heartstrings and it’s something that I can relate to. When you mentioned having sweet Audrey and still thinking “Okay God, there is still time to show the world that you can perform miracles” and then later talking about plan B. I have uttered that same plea more times than I can remember in times of desperation and in loss. Exactly in that way. And in the end I’ve realized, like you, that there is no plan B. There is only the will of the Lord…and it’s just perfect that way. Praising God for that sweet little package slap full of blessings in the form of your precious baby girl who has touched my heart. Thank you for sharing your story.

  • Jeremy and Cheryl Ann Tooley

    My husband keeps calling me to bed. After all, it is almost four o’clock in the morning. But once I began reading your story, I could not stop. Thank you SO much for sharing.

    You have reminded me that He will carry me. Your strength and obedience will reach many. God knew you would follow through and use your baby angel to bring Glory to Him. I can’t wait to read your book. Stay strong.

    Under Grace,
    Cheryl

  • Bridget =)

    Beautiful, magnificent video – thank you for sharing her with us. Gentle hugs for your whole family, please allow us, your spiritual family, to carry you, and your joy and your grief, even if it’s just for a moment.

    In peace…

  • Erica

    Praying that God would meet you where you are and carry you sweetly through it. So sorry for your pain, dear one. I wish I could carry just a bit of it for you…since I cannot I will carry you to the Lord in prayer.

  • Katie

    The video is beautiful, I watched it on Jessica’s blog and I feel a new understanding of crushed and shattered dreams. Audrey’s legacy began the day she was born and it will continue much longer thn you could ever imagine. In my life it will continue for all of eternity as I owe her story my new found life.

  • Destini

    I am so thankful that God’s people have completely surrounded your family in prayer.
    I, too, have prayed for your family. May the Lord continue to bless and keep you

  • andrew,betsy,& noura

    the video is beautiful. It really challenges how and when I choose to trust Him. And it is amazing how He is already using your little one for His greatness.

  • Anonymous

    You and your family are so kind to share the intimate details of how God has been and will be working in your lives through the precious life of your Audrey Caroline. The video touched me so much. I am going through a time now that I consider a Plan B moment, but as you state in the video, to God there is no Plan B. It’s always been His plan…Plan A. And He’s going to work it to our good because we love Him. I have not responded well at times through this bump in the road. I want to leave a legacy from this day forward that shows my husband and my children that I am trusting God and living by His grace…not my plans.

    Thank you again, Angie and Todd, for sharing…especially for sharing it with me.
    Renee

  • andrew,betsy,& noura

    the video is beautiful. It really challenges how and when I choose to trust Him. And it is amazing how He is already using your little one for His greatness.

  • andrew,betsy,& noura

    the video is beautiful. It really challenges how and when I choose to trust Him. And it is amazing how He is already using your little one for His greatness.

  • andrew,betsy,& noura

    the video is beautiful. It really challenges how and when I choose to trust Him. And it is amazing how He is already using your little one for His greatness.

  • andrew,betsy,& noura

    the video is beautiful. It really challenges how and when I choose to trust Him. And it is amazing how He is already using your little one for His greatness.

  • andrew,betsy,& noura

    the video is beautiful. It really challenges how and when I choose to trust Him. And it is amazing how He is already using your little one for His greatness.

  • andrew,betsy,& noura

    the video is beautiful. It really challenges how and when I choose to trust Him. And it is amazing how He is already using your little one for His greatness.

  • andrew,betsy,& noura

    the video is beautiful. It really challenges how and when I choose to trust Him. And it is amazing how He is already using your little one for His greatness.

  • andrew,betsy,& noura

    the video is beautiful. It really challenges how and when I choose to trust Him. And it is amazing how He is already using your little one for His greatness.

  • andrew,betsy,& noura

    the video is beautiful. It really challenges how and when I choose to trust Him. And it is amazing how He is already using your little one for His greatness.

  • andrew,betsy,& noura

    the video is beautiful. It really challenges how and when I choose to trust Him. And it is amazing how He is already using your little one for His greatness.

  • andrew,betsy,& noura

    the video is beautiful. It really challenges how and when I choose to trust Him. And it is amazing how He is already using your little one for His greatness.

  • andrew,betsy,& noura

    the video is beautiful. It really challenges how and when I choose to trust Him. And it is amazing how He is already using your little one for His greatness.

  • andrew,betsy,& noura

    the video is beautiful. It really challenges how and when I choose to trust Him. And it is amazing how He is already using your little one for His greatness.

  • andrew,betsy,& noura

    the video is beautiful. It really challenges how and when I choose to trust Him. And it is amazing how He is already using your little one for His greatness.

  • andrew,betsy,& noura

    the video is beautiful. It really challenges how and when I choose to trust Him. And it is amazing how He is already using your little one for His greatness.

  • andrew,betsy,& noura

    the video is beautiful. It really challenges how and when I choose to trust Him. And it is amazing how He is already using your little one for His greatness.

  • andrew,betsy,& noura

    the video is beautiful. It really challenges how and when I choose to trust Him. And it is amazing how He is already using your little one for His greatness.

  • andrew,betsy,& noura

    the video is beautiful. It really challenges how and when I choose to trust Him. And it is amazing how He is already using your little one for His greatness.

  • andrew,betsy,& noura

    the video is beautiful. It really challenges how and when I choose to trust Him. And it is amazing how He is already using your little one for His greatness.

  • andrew,betsy,& noura

    the video is beautiful. It really challenges how and when I choose to trust Him. And it is amazing how He is already using your little one for His greatness.

  • andrew,betsy,& noura

    the video is beautiful. It really challenges how and when I choose to trust Him. And it is amazing how He is already using your little one for His greatness.

  • andrew,betsy,& noura

    the video is beautiful. It really challenges how and when I choose to trust Him. And it is amazing how He is already using your little one for His greatness.

  • andrew,betsy,& noura

    the video is beautiful. It really challenges how and when I choose to trust Him. And it is amazing how He is already using your little one for His greatness.

  • andrew,betsy,& noura

    the video is beautiful. It really challenges how and when I choose to trust Him. And it is amazing how He is already using your little one for His greatness.

  • andrew,betsy,& noura

    the video is beautiful. It really challenges how and when I choose to trust Him. And it is amazing how He is already using your little one for His greatness.

  • andrew,betsy,& noura

    the video is beautiful. It really challenges how and when I choose to trust Him. And it is amazing how He is already using your little one for His greatness.

  • andrew,betsy,& noura

    the video is beautiful. It really challenges how and when I choose to trust Him. And it is amazing how He is already using your little one for His greatness.

  • andrew,betsy,& noura

    the video is beautiful. It really challenges how and when I choose to trust Him. And it is amazing how He is already using your little one for His greatness.

  • andrew,betsy,& noura

    the video is beautiful. It really challenges how and when I choose to trust Him. And it is amazing how He is already using your little one for His greatness.

  • andrew,betsy,& noura

    the video is beautiful. It really challenges how and when I choose to trust Him. And it is amazing how He is already using your little one for His greatness.

  • Colleen

    Hi Angie.

    I sooo needed to watch your video this morning. I’ve been following Audrey’s story since March. Last week, my husband confessed that he has been having an affair. I am devastated. I am trying to Praise Him in the storm.
    I sooo needed to be reminded that God’s Plan A is that I hold tightly to him.
    Audrey’s life continues to touch, in ways you may not have ever imagined.
    In Christ,
    Colleen

  • Hollie

    WOW…you guys are truly amazing! You said it best…little Audrey has touched many! How awesome to know that you were a part of that…and that you have allowed me and thousands of others to pray and be a witness to God’s love!

    I will not stop praying for you all. I hope you smile the biggest smile when you think of ALL the people your little Angel has touched!! Hugs and prayers!!

  • Heather

    Thanks for sharing that video. I just watched it and I wanted you to know that as I have followed your journey Audrey Caroline will forever be in my heart because her life has changed mine. Thank you so much all that you have allowed us to shar with you!

    Blessings!
    ~Heather

  • Mandy

    Wow! What a beautiful tribute to God and your sweet Audrey. I could so relate to your words and felt many of the same things when I was pregnant with Madeline and learned of her fatal diagnosis. It has been a life-changing journey that I am better for having lived. I thank God for choosing me to be her mother and for the 12 hours we had with her. Madeline was a miracle, just as Audrey was. May you continue to inspire others and feel God’s grace each day.

    Mandy
    GA
    http://www.madelinegracehopkins.blogspot.com

  • Hope

    Praying for you today, even though you don’t know me. As a “veteran mom” of C/S, I can tell you that a C/S alone is major surgery and it takes lots of time to recover from . . . not even factoring in all the grief, which is draining in and of itself. Please be patient and gentle with yourself and allow your body time to heal . . .
    I care.

  • Anonymous

    praying for you right now and will continue to lift you up at Bible Study at Forest Hills-

    much love and many prayers!

  • Laurie

    I just watched the video and it is just beautiful. What a testimony to the Love of the Lord in your lives. I can only imagine how hard these days are for you two, and am amazed that you give God the glory. Praying for you daily as you walk this road, that He continues to give you His peace that passes all human understanding, and heals your broken hearts. Audrey has left those precious hand and footprints on my heart for sure. She will not be forgotten in my home. Love you guys and praying for the grandparents too. I am a grandmother and my heart breaks for them having to watch you go through this, while at the same time losing a grandchild too. All of you will remain in my prayers daily.

    Love, Laurie in Ca.

  • blue-eyedchick

    I am new to your blog. Your story touched me deeply and I am so sorry for your loss. I have been thinking about you a lot the past few days, and I will continue to pray for you. My heart goes out to you!

  • Aimee

    I too am new to your blog, and your story has touched me tremendously. I watched Pete’s video, and I can honestly say that you have changed my definition of trusting God. The way that you worded it, I’ve never really thought if it that way before. Know that I am praying for you and your family. God Bless You!

  • Honea Household

    It was hard to watch that video through my tears but it was beautiful! Your testimony is amazing. Still praying for you. I also posted a link to the video on my blog because I truly believe that your story and Audrey Caroline’s story can change so many lives. Much love to you and many, many prayers.

  • Lauren

    Angie,

    My prayers continue for you and your beautiful family every day. Reading your blog has helped me in more ways than I can ever begin to number and I thank you and God for that. My heart breaks for your loss. Audrey was, and still is, beautifully and wonderfully made and her purpose on this earth is still being shown. Thank you for sharing your story with us. It has helped me through the loss of my pregnancy and helped me to realize that God has always been here, even if I haven’t always been looking for Him.

    We are here with you, praying continuously.

    Blessings to you and your family.
    Lauren (Hilliard, FL)

  • Tina Vega

    Again I am amazed at what the Lord is doing through your lives. I’ll continue to cover you in prayer… blessings to you and Todd for sharing your journey in such a beautiful way.

  • Jill

    Dear Angie,

    Oh, how the Lord knew that your family was perfect for the calling He had put on Audrey Caroline’s life!

    You are both so beautiful – yes from the inside out. The love that you share will touch lives in more ways then you might know this side of heaven.

    Your family’s faith is touching thousands as Todd said he could never do by your willingness to share so transparently with all of us “strangers”. We are all ONE in CHRIST JESUS! So really we are NOT strangers at all. We are your family forever and want to support you in any way that we can.

    Our family loves praying for you and with you. I look forward to sharing the beautiful video with our 13 yr old daughter. What a great example of marriage and faith you both are! Thank you just doesn’t seem to touch how much my heart cries out to let you know what your story has done for me personally!

    In complete awe of Him and how every little detail in our lives is fully scripted out!

    Love in Him alone!
    Jill in PA

  • Nicole D

    Thank you for sharing with us. Our church family have been following your families story for awhile and please know that you are being covered by lots of prayer there.

    I continue to think of you daily and pray for you as much. I cannot begin to fathom. I hope that you see this as a safe place to open your heart to your sisters (and brothers) in Christ. No condemnation, just prayer covering, love, and support.

  • His_Princess2008

    Hey Angie,
    I really really wish I could be there right now to help you and to let ya’ll have some rest. My heart feels soo burdened for ya’ll right now. I am praying for ya’ll every chance I get. I love you bunches and feel as if I am apart of your family!
    ~Dani

  • Kim

    What an amazing documentation you have-what a platform to share your baby Audrey’s story and turn people’s hearts and minds to God. I would get tears in my eyes just hearing you and Todd get chocked up about her. The thing that made me want to crawl through the screen and hug you was when you said you were still waiting on God to perform his miracle saying “it’s not too late”. Mother to mother my heart broke for you.
    God had bigger plans, huh?
    This is such an amazing and inspiring story and I just want to thank you for opening your heart to share it with all of us bloggers. I hope that you and your family to continue to feel the prayers on you behalf. I pray for God’s blessings to flood your family. What a beautiful thought that if she cannot be with you that she is where we all are striving to be.
    Kim

  • Cakabaker

    Todd and Angie, that was a very touching video. Thank you for making it for all of us .

    In Peace,

    Nancy

  • TressaMOMof3

    God Bless you sweetie!! I have been praying for you and your family.

    Tressa

  • Leslie

    Praying for you. Just heard about your story from a fellow adoptive family in Virginia and we are here in Franklin. Wish I had known sooner. I don’t know what to say really but I am proud to call you a sister in Christ as you are running the race God has set before you in this life with such humility and grace: “Do you not know that the runners in a stadium all race, but only one receives the prize? Run in such a way that you may win.” 1 Corinthians 9:24 What a testimony you are to so many who need to hear Audrey’s story.

  • Janice

    my daughter came upon your blog and passed it along. Angie, you are beautiful, inside and out! Your strength and testimony and trust and faith are inspirational and so very spiritually uplifting! Thank you for sharing such a personal story with the rest of us and allowing us to follow you through your grief and pain and your joy and praise. I truly believe that you should have these entries put into a book and published. Your writing is beautiful and has such a huge impact on your readers. It’s just a thought:) May God continue to bless your beautiful little family!

  • Joy

    Pete did an awesome job with the video and really made me think about my faith and life. I want my daughters to be proud of me like yours are of you. “Her children rise up and call her blessed.”

    Audrey’s story has impacted my life and challenged my faith. But Angie, you also have a major part in this. Todd, too. Your ENTIRE family has moved me.

    Screaming, getting angry, breaking down in uncontrollable tears—it’s human. God created us to be emotional and relational beings. When I miscarried I would scream and rant and throw things. But in the end my faith was stronger because God still IS.

    So glad to know you’re grieving and allowing yourself to feel ALL of the emotions. “Blessed are they who mourn, for they shall be comforted.” *HUGS*

  • Jaime C

    Amazing, your family, your faith, your trust. Since I began reading your blog last week, I haven’t been able to stop thinking about your family. I am keeping you all in prayer. Thanks for sharing your story and your faith.

  • Sheila

    I found out about your video on Chrissy blog… Eva Janette. I immediately watched the Smith Family Story. What a POWERFUL presentation of accepting God’s Plan for us. Watching has helped me to realize once again that I am in control of nothing… but God is! Thank you for your example of strength and courage.
    toodles, Sheila, NV

  • Lindsay Spencer

    Thank you for another beautiful upliftment. Please don’t quit talking about Audrey. We aren’t ready for you to quit talking about her either.

  • traci

    Thank you for being vulnerable to share your story and not “hide”. I think I would be so tempted to hide out and just mourn my loss but that of course is not what God wants from us. I love that you said you have been in the car screaming at God..WHY? You show you are real but yet you will not leave your God. I have run a copy of your fam. picture, put it on the fridge and we pray for you guys DAILY!!! We feel like we know you and I know if I met you I would love you to pieces. Again, thank you for sharing!!!!

  • Carrie

    Angie, Todd & Family,

    Just finished watching the video. How powerful your spirit is, how strong your faith. You are an inspiration to everyone who has had the honor of coming to know you – either through you blog or personally. Prayers will be with you to get through this time.

  • Sun

    I am in prayer for you! Sunshine

  • Candes

    My heart aches with you. Thank you for sharing your heart and bearing your soul.

    I continue to pray for you and the family.

    God is good.

  • Anonymous

    I just watched this video and it blessed my heart so much! Please know that I will be lifting up you and your family today and in the days to come.

    Blessings and Prayers ~ Christi

  • Stacy

    Angie~ Just when I think your family’s story couldn’t touch me any deeper……The video was amazing, both of your words were amazing & God is touching people through Audrey’s story every day!

    Continued prayers for you all & thank you for opening your hearts to us.

  • Peas on Earth

    You are absolutely right … there is no such thing as “Plan B.” Thank you for challenging us all to see our circumstances through the lens of God rather than seeing God through the lenses of our circumstances. He is good, all the time, and the same yesterday, today, and forever. Blessings to you all ~

  • Anonymous

    Angie, what a beautiful testament once again. God surely is setting pillars of stone in Audrey’s memory,all over His creation. We will continue to be praying daily.

  • Kerry

    All i can say is the ripples of Audrey Caroline and your Family will reach far and wide.
    Many will be forever changed. I know my heart will never be the same again.
    Thanks Angie and Todd

  • Michelle

    you have been on my mind, I posted pages today on my blog of my own heartache it’s been three years and you gave me the strength to share these pages, God is going to use you to touch other broken hearted moms and families, I will keep praying that you will find peace I promise

  • Anonymous

    Hi Angie,

    Blessings to you. I can tell by your words that you are in some serious need of comfort. I stopped typing and said a prayer for you. (Cause none of us know what else to do.)

    What can I say to bring you some peace or relief?

    I guess nothing.

    Our Lord is the only one who can hold you now and take the edge off your pain. I know it won’t go away, because it would mean you would have to stop being a mother, stop going from day to day, stop living.

    Since our Father has chosen to keep you here and take Audrey with Him, it must be awful sorting out where you fit into that. How your heart is supposed to keep going and make it–while it is broken into so many pieces…. I know what I felt, and it was torture.

    Just……..turn to Him. Totally lose yourself in Him—especially while you are weak. He’ll help you find your new self…..the “self” that can exist without your little baby. He’ll teach you how to tell your arms that they will only ache on earth–and that in heaven, they will be full. He will teach you how to laugh and smile and be happy as a mom and a wife. He’ll teach you how to stay sane.

    I pray for you, girl. I felt (during my own grief) like my tears would melt my face away; they were so constant. But, somehow–it gets manageable. With God, NOTHING is impossible.

    Stay busy–it will help. Cry–it will help. Laugh, if you can–it will help. Pray—it will SAVE you.

    Kind love to you,
    Becky Cain

    beckycain6@comcast.net

  • Lara

    Angie,
    We met just over 5 years ago when you were in the hospital with the twins. I was one of your night shift nurses and I loved coming into your room. You blessed me then and you and your family continue to bless me now. Thank you for sharing Audrey with all of us. I can not imagine how difficult it is at times to put all of you feelings out there. I am praying for you and Todd and the girls and I have asked the prayer warriors in my life to do the same. God is using you and your family. Audrey is changing the world.
    In Christ,
    Lara Fowler

  • The Duráns

    Thank you for sharing the video with all of us. It was absolutely incredible.
    A few things struck me and I wanted to share them…
    “Trust is not waiting for things to happen the way you anticipate it happening.” Sometimes the most obvious things are the most profound. Thanks for putting this thought into these words.
    “Plan B is not a plan B to God.” Again, obvious and yet extremely profound. This is helping me deal with three baby losses even today.
    “He is going to do what brings Him the most glory even if it hurts us.” Jeremiah 29:11 — It was so easy for me to think during our struggles with losing the babies, “God, if you let this baby live and you do a miracle here think about all the glory you will receive.” Apparently He knew differently. He does EVERYTHING for his glory and for our good and we can trust that time and time again, no matter how badly it hurts it is for our good.
    Still praying for you all the time!

  • Laura

    I found your blog through a friend, and just wanted to tell you how beautiful your story is. As a young mommy myself with one daughter, I am greatly inspired by the way you love all four of your girls. Thank you for being brave enough to share.

  • Lisa

    For over a month now, my heart has just ached for you and your sweet family. I have many times wanted to leave a message for you, wanted to send a card, and fear has stopped me. Fear of what to say or how to say it. But I won’t let that stop me. I am so filled with a Holy Boldness to tell you that Audrey will not be forgotten. Her legacy will live on. You have taught me so much as a Mom, as a Christian, in trying to learn who God is and how I make that fit into my planned out life. I have found so much understanding in who you are because it echoed similar things in my life. Thank you for showing me and speaking through Audrey and being her voice. I will rest in knowing that it’s not a surprise to God and I will learn to trust in Him and praise Him in my storm. I am learning to pray so fervently for you each day – for God’s love to wrap you up and hold you. Your family has made an imprint on mine and my family’s heart and there are so many times my spirit is prompted for you. Please let us all know how to help you, how to be that prayer warrior for you, what we can intercede on your behalf. That is my heart’s desire. I will not forget your sweet Audrey and will be eternally grateful for you sharing her with all of us and for opening up your heart and being a God’s vessel.

    Your Sister in Christ,
    Lisa

  • jess

    You and your family continue to be in our prayers!! Thanks for sharing your story and faith in the Lord! You are an amazing woman of Christ. Stay strong, he will guide you through! God Bless You Angie!

    Jessica Flowers

  • Jill

    Angie -

    I watched the video on your friend Jessica’s blog and I must tell you that I was truly impacted by it. You are definitely a shining light of how God can work in and through His children during even the most difficult of times. Thanks again for sharing your story with all of us. I know that HE will use your openness and willingness to share Audrey’s story for HIS glory. Continuing to pray for you.

  • Anonymous

    Once again, I am truly moved not just by your story, but by the approach you’ve taken to God’s plan for you. Angie, the Lord has made a wonderful example of you and how each of us should approach any trial in our life. I want to seek God in everything I do so that when the big trials come I will glorify Him and exhibit the grace you have shown in all of this.
    As a mommy, my heart has ached with yours. You mentioned in the video that you aren’t ready to stop talking about Audrey. Please keep talking about her because we’re listening and praying, and your testimony continues to reach so many.

  • Laura

    Wow…still praying. Praying for His gentle hands to hold you and Todd and the girls.

  • applesofgold

    I just came upon your blog yesterday for the first time and am in awe of your faithfulness and trust of our awesome God.

    God sometimes gives us our children to hold in our arms for 2 minutes, or to some 2 1/2 hours, and to others for 20 years. But the love that we feel for them is all the same. That same great unconditional love that God feels for us.

    Thank you for allowing all of us to love Audrey unconditionally with you. I’m praying for you.

    Jenny

  • Overwhelmed!

    I’m at work at the moment so I won’t be able to watch the video now, but I will tonight after the kids are in bed.

    Please know that you and your family remain in my prayers.

  • Anonymous

    praying you will feel God’s embrace and the thousands of prayers being uplifted for your family. you are never forgotten in our home. angie, i really wish i could share how much your honesty and pure spirit has touched my life. i want to be a better christian mother each day because of you. you never know how God uses people. thank-you, tara

  • Mama Bear

    Truely Amazing!!!

  • Kate

    Oh Angie
    That video was amazing. I sure hope it reaches those who really need to see it. I am again amazed at your ability to praise God through this and maintain your composure. You are a beautiful child of Christ and he is smiling on you from above for the amazing thing you’ve made of Audrey’s life. She and you have touched so many!
    Continued prayers and Hugs!
    ~Kate

  • toni

    thank you for sharing your heart. today and for all of your moments, i hope that you can feel God’s embrace. i will continue to pray for you and your family. God bless! i understand…

  • The Russell’s

    Alyssa from another blog page posted the link on her blog page. She lost her little girl back in Nov. Any ways, she posted the link on her blog and I checked it out. It is AMAZING!!!! I then forwarded it to everyone I knew. Your story, Audrey’s story, is so touching and completely in God’s hands. And it’s so awesome how you and Todd have not lost your focus on God’s plan thru this whole journey. Your journey is leading people to the Lord everywhere. Thank you for sharing with us. And I’m still praying for you. Though today I will pray for you to get the much needed rest you need.

    Matthew 11:28
    28″Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.”

  • Anonymous

    You are a wonderful family and your story and willingness to share the blessing of Audrey with the world is so amazing. I know that you will see her again and will be able to have your family in the life hereafter. Your family will be in our prayers.

  • Anonymous

    Thanks for posting the link. Please…know that Audrey will not be forgotten. Don’t stop speaking about her.

    Many prayers for peace and strength for you and your entire family.

    Thanks for your message. It was a reminder I needed today.

    God Bless,
    Maddy

  • Anonymous

    Oh Angie. (((hugs))) I watched the whole thing. What a message. God bless you.

    Krista

  • hsumama

    I have always been one of God’s more silent soldiers. Because of your blog, because of Audrey’s ministry, I am vocal for God through my son’s blog.

    All this comes at a time when my young son is just learning to reach out to me when I reach out to him.

    Thank you for so candidly sharing your story, your pain…and for giving me courage to pass it on.

    You and your family continue to be in my prayers.

  • paige

    angie, i am just blown away. i feel like we have all had the priveledge to just watch you , to watch the Lord hold you closely as you navigate through this bittersweet, painful journey.
    your faith, your sweet spirit truly inspires me….i can’t wait to meet your baby girl in heaven one day & tell her how amazing i thought her little life was
    (
    xo

  • Molly

    as I looked and saw all the comments that were already left, I almost didn’t leave one. i thought how insignificant my comment may be but i wanted to extend my prayers to you. that you may find comfort and peace and love in such a dark time. it is truly a blessing to know that you will once again be reunited with your sweet little angel.

    xo.
    molly

  • Lainey-Paney

    I’ll keep you in my prayers.
    I’m a mom to an angel as well.
    Another blogger, alice, pointed me to your blog on a day…well, on a day that was particularly rough for me.

    Here is something that someone sent to me shortly after we lost Masyn. I don’t know if you’ve read it or not, so I’m putting it in this post….

    My shoes

    I am wearing a pair of shoes.
    They are ugly shoes.
    Uncomfortable shoes.
    I hate my shoes.
    Each day I wear them, and each day I wish I had another pair.
    Some days my shoes hurt so bad that I do not think I can take another step.
    Yet, I continue to wear them.
    I get funny looks wearing these shoes.
    They are looks of sympathy.
    I can tell in others eyes that they are glad they are my shoes and not theirs.
    They never talk about my shoes.
    To learn how awful my shoes are might make them uncomfortable.
    To truly understand these shoes you must walk in them.
    But, once you put them on, you can never take them off.
    I now realize that I am not the only one who wears these shoes.
    There are many pairs in this world.
    Some woman are like me and ache daily as they try and walk in them.
    Some have learned how to walk in them so they don’t hurt quite as much.
    Some have worn the shoes so long that days will go by before they think
    about how much they hurt.
    No woman deserves to wear these shoes.
    Yet, because of these shoes I am a stronger woman.
    These shoes have given me the strength to face anything.
    They have made me who I am.
    I will forever walk in the shoes of a woman who has lost a child.

  • Suzanne

    May God give you Peace, Comfort and more Love than you ever have felt in the days to come. You are a strong person, you are a strong family. You have been such in example of joy and triumph in something that you could have made so “tragic”. Praise God for your example. You are a great MOM, you are a great WIFE, you are a great FRIEND. I pray STRENGTH for you. I have truly been blessed and changed by what I read today.
    God Bless you.

  • Lori

    Angie- You can be assured that your little miracle, Audrey, will never be forgotten. Her story has forever changed me. I thank you for sharing it with us.

    -Lori

  • Anonymous

    Angie and todd,
    Take a deep breath in and out and just keep doing it. Keep putting one foot in front of the other.

    Look at the footprints. He is carrying you.

    God understand our tantrums too. Give it to him. We know that this part of God’s plan for you stinks here on Earth but the impact of eternity is yet to be seen. I also know that this doesn’t help much, but Jesus loves you He does have your best interest at heart. And know He loves you,

  • Tiffany

    I saw this on Jessica’s blog and I was in tears..even though I have been following your story since the beginning. And I was at work! Wanted to let you know I am still praying for you.

  • Bttrfly1976

    I can’t fathom how you had the strength to do that video, but I’m proud of you just the same.

    Just keep clinging and remember that when the pain is too strong for your hand to maintain it’s grasp on His hand…He will still be carrying you.

    I am praying, for each of you.

  • queenie76

    Angie,
    Thanks so much for the video. I know that this is going to be a minstry for you guys. Hope you are having a good week. Get out and enjoy the sunshine!

    Tara

  • Sheryl

    WOW! Thank you for sharing that video. That was for me today as I am walking in my “plan B”.

    Praying for you and trusting God,
    Sheryl

  • tRACEE

    I am very sorry for your loss. I was not able to watch the whole video so I don’t know what was said in the end. But I wanted you to know that I believe that your daughter was had a great spirit and that God needed her in heaven. She is healthy and happy and waiting for you in heaven with our Heavenly Father.

  • Anonymous

    What a powerful video. Just as much as Audrey’s blog has changed my life, so has the video. I feel so blessed to have the opportunity to know your family through this site. My life and renewed love for God has forever been changed.
    I pray that you find comfort in Christ and know that so many people have been brought to Christ throught Audrey. It is clear that God still has great plans as to how many more people Audrey and your family will witness to. Rest in Christ arms.
    Love and Prayers,
    Marylea

  • Tricia

    I watched the video and just learned about your story and I am bawling my eyes out.

    Sobbing

    Hoping

    Questioning

    Praying

    and praying some more…

  • Heidi

    I find it impossible to type what is in my heart. You and your family and your connection with Christ, to me is amazing… Your story has changed me in a way I’m not sure anything else could. I will be anxious to me sweet Audrey in heaven.
    Angie, thank you from the bottom of my heart for having the courage to share your thoughts and feelings with me. I know the Lord will bless you with peace.
    I too have a story to tell, but my courage is not quite strong enough. But I know at the right time and in the right place, He will graciously place enough in my heart to share.
    eternally
    Heidi, UT

  • Dawn

    Angie, I have been reading your blog for awhile now and never posted. I wanted to thank you and your family for allow me into such a personal time in your lives. Your strength and faith amaze me! The video was such a wonderful gift to be given today; thank you.

  • Patricia

    As a mother who just lost her 24 year old son 7 months ago, a son who left behind a 5 week old baby girl and another little girl who was just 4 days away from her first birthday, I share in your pain and I THANK you with all of my heart for sharing this blog with me. A good friend of mine just sent it to me, so I have not been able to watch the video yet, but just reading all the blogs have me in tears as the pain is still so fresh and the “shoes” are still so tight. I too will be lifting you and your family up in prayer now each night as I go to sleep and ask God to provide my husband and I with comfort and mercy. Even though my son, Aaron, was my step-son for the passed 6 years, he was my son by heart (even if not of my flesh…) and he is still touching the lives of so many just like your little angel. Your faith brings me strength and comfort. My heart joins with yours. May the love of Christ shine through you always. God bless.

  • Jana

    Todd and Angie,
    I found your blog 2 weeks ago and have been praying daily for you ever since. What a testimony and ministry Audrey’s life has had. Thank you for sharing your story so openly with all of us. Angie-you said how you weren’t ready to stop talking about Audrey yet. I don’t think you will have to worry about that. God gave her to you for a reason and her life’s story will probably outlive us all!

  • Tiffany Atwood

    Angie~
    Your story has moved me profoundly. Thank you so much for sharing Audrey with us. God has used her (and continues to do so!)mightily. I pray for you and your family.

  • Story of our Life

    ((((HUGS))) Thank you for sharing this video. I know it spoke volumes to my heart tonight.

  • Susan

    Thanks for sharing the link…amazing and touching and made me run to my children and embrace them deeply!
    SS

  • Mocha with Linda

    Words are absolutely inadequate to share how this video touched my heart. After reading so much of your blog these past weeks, what a treat to see you and Todd in “living color” (as they used to say on TV!) proclaiming God’s faithfulness even in the midst of your pain. It is evident that He has given you a peace beyond understanding.

    And you are just 3 weeks post C-section. You’ve been doing a lot, even without the physical and emotional toll of grief. I pray that your body will have the rest it needs to heal. I know you have many hard days and nights, and I hurt for you.

    Thanks for letting us follow you on this road. You are such a blessing and an inspiration. What a legacy for your sweet girls.

    Hugs and prayers to you and your family.

  • 1AllergyMom

    Thank you for sharing your story and beautiful family. You’re an inspiration in belief in faith. My efforts for my daughter with severe food allergies could be so much stronger (and me too) with a life of faith. I know a higher power is leading me in my mission to educate others and it is not in vain. God bless.

    Maria (Virginia)
    http://www.allergylifeinloudoun.blogspot.com

  • Mellissa

    Angie, that interview is beautiful. I am certain that the Lord has a plan for you and you are so right, it was never, ever Plan B. Audrey will live on for many more years. You will be talking about her to so many willing ears and willing hearts. Still holding you and your family up in prayer…Blessings and peace.

  • Anonymous

    Hey! I’ve been looking for your email, because I know I read it on here one day, but I can’t find it, and Id love to email you! So hopefully I will find it soon!

  • amanda

    The video is amazing…absolutely wonderful and honest…thank you for sharing your story again in such a public way.
    I put a link to your blog on mine yesterday and have already heard from several women what a blessing it was to their hearts. Audrey’s life has had and continues to have an amazing impact all over the world…how proud you must be of your precious little one!
    Praying for you tonight in Michigan…

  • Jenn

    Pete did an wonderful job with your amazing story. Please know that Audrey Caroline and her legacy will NEVER be forgotten! She is going to touch lives for years to come!

    Jenn

  • Jessica

    Blessed to have watched this.
    Thank you for sharing your story.

  • Heather Anderson

    You inspire me to be the best mother I can be to my child and my unborn child on her way. You have touched so many lives through your sharing. Your spiritual gift is the power to write beautifully and share your innermost thoughts. We will pray for your family and continue to praise God for Audrey’s time she shared with you.

  • Mi Piace

    OMG… I think that it is not by chance that my friend mentioned your blog. My husband and I are were you were in January.
    We Just found out at 21 weeks pregnant that my baby has many problems (fluid everywhere in the baby and none in the uterus) and won’t survive.
    It was so comforting to read your letter to your daughter and know that everything i’m dealing with is normal! This is something I never knew would be this difficult. I just pray to God that i get the oppurtunity, as you did, to be able to hold my child before it passes!
    Thanks sooo much for sharing your story. I’m so grateful to have stumbled upon it!

    Brynn

  • Ronna

    Angie & Todd–
    Audrey lived to point many to Christ. Tonight I forwarded the link to the video to a couple that needs hope, my ex-husband recovering from traumatic brain injury and his wife diagnosed on Thursday with terminal pancreatic cancer. They are not believers. I prayed as I hit SEND that Audrey’s life and the testimony of her parents and Pete’s probing questions will show them there is hope. Thank you for being faithful and being bold. Your unwritten needs, Angie, are being lifted to God.

  • Sarah

    Sounds like a good video! In return, here is one for you. I have seen this guy speak and he is as amazing as he sounds in the video. It was posted on my friends blog. Enjoy! You and your family are in my prayers.
    http://www.juliejeandesigns.com/juliejean_designs/2008/04/laminin.html

  • Vera

    I spent the better part of Sunday afternoon reading your whole story and looking at all the beautiful pictures of your precious, precious Audrey. I have been praying for you and your family ever since, but wanted to add a note to say that you have touched my heart so very much, and you will remain in my prayers.

  • Andrea

    I know you’ve been unindated with comments and letters and emails, and I just wanted to add mine to the pile. Audrey’s story has changed my life, and I know I’m not alone when I say that hearing her story and seeing your strength has brought me closer to God. Thank you so much for being so brave and for sharing this intimate part of your lives with us – I will be praying for you, Angie, and for your family every single day. God bless you always.

  • Shenna

    I just stumbled across your blog through a friend, and wanted you to know that it was what I needed to see right now. First of all, I’m so sorry that your little angel could only be here for a short while. I can’t even imagine the pain you must be feeling. But even though her life on earth was short, God is touching lives through your baby girl!

    Your story encouraged me when I was feeling discouraged about petty things in life. It pushed me to count my blessings, and live each day that the Lord has given me to his glory and honor.

    You have a beautiful family! I am blessed to have stopped by today. Lifting you and your family in prayer right now.

  • Anonymous

    I may never be able to meet you to give you a hug and look into your eyes to express the imprint that Audrey and your lives have just made in mine. I sit here alone in my living room, asking God all day “Why”. Questioning his plan, angry for feeling as if he had left me and my family to walk once again alone. I stumbled on Cross Point’s website, through another old friend’s website, and saw the video there. Thank you, for allowing your pain to touch us that are hopeless. The joy that you have in Audrey’s life, is the same that I am sure that God experience with yours. You are allowing us to see Him even in your pain. Thank you for being real and sharing. I will think of you often, and forever will be greatful!

  • boltefamily

    What a beautiful video tribute to the amazing gift you were given. I can so relate to much of what you spoke of as I have lost not one but two sons. One in 2005 and one on February 22 of this year. Some days seem to be almost unbearable and others I am beginning to feel joy again. God has truly been faithful through it all and I am inspired to know he is doing the same for you!

    Much Love,
    Kristy
    http://www.babybolte.blogspot.com

  • His_Princess2008

    Thank you for sharing your story! I am weeping for you tonight. Once again your testimony is amazing and has brought me closer to God and made me realize what trust really means. To fully surrender to that meaning that God is COMPLETELY in control. That is a big one. You know what better way to have it. What better person to have in control. Something else that this journey has taught me was that it’s okay to voice to God that you are not feeling close to him or that you are angry with him. He’s a big God and already knows that anyway. That is the point of brokeness that he restores. That is the point where he says come to me all who are weary and I will give thee rest. That’s the point where we fall to our knees in tiredness and rest in knowing that He is with us and will never leave us. He will guide and most of all He has the master plan. I love what you said about the “plan B” that was like wow. I have never thought of that before. There is but one plan the plan of our Father it will never change nothing will ever catch him by surprise and he has EVERY detail of my life planned out for me. How amazing!
    Thank you again, I’m Praying for you tonight and always!!
    ~Dani

  • Sun

    Wow – sorry to leave another comment – but after the hundredth try today I finally got the time to watch the video – and WOW! It was SO beautiful! I am praying for you guys. Thank you for sharing what God is doing in and through you all. Sunshine

  • Amy

    Just as Audrey is a legacy to God’s infinite love, so are you and your husband! I can just imagine the Lord looking upon you all and saying, “Well done, good and faithful one.” Thank you for sharing your light into our world. Covering you and your family with prayers, for our Father to provide for your every need.

  • Carrie

    Angie,

    Ahh … I truly remember the days after we lost Gracie. My mom and I made a quilt – made of different fabrics that had meaning to me and represented part of Gracie. About three weeks after she died, I went to the box where I kept the quilt and just wept. Really, Lord? This is all I have to remember her by? People moved on with their lives and I still lived with tremendous pain. But I love what you said in the video … there is no plan B. There are MANY plan B’s for us (I LOVE CONTROL!!) but for God, there is no such thing as a Plan B. There is so much in the future that God has planned for Audrey just as God has used little Gracie’s life in the lives of so many others. I will continue to pray for you and your family … for your girls … for strength …

  • Liz

    Absolutely beautiful! I loved what you said about this not being Plan B .. that God always knew this ws the plan for Audrey’s life. Having lived a “plan b” sort of circumstance myself, I can agree wholeheartedly. It’s been my great privelege & great joy to walk this road with you & share in the journey of Audrey’s life. What a precious journey to be a part of.

  • Mark and Rebekah

    Thank you for continuing to share your story. So often we forget that the story continues and just go about our daily lives.

    You and your family have been an inspiration to so many. It was so good to hear you talk about “Plan B.” From my point of view, almost all my life has been a Plan B, but I know that it is the life God planned for me.

    If I everything had gone my way, I would not be blessed with my baby boy–God chose me to be his mom even though i did not conceive him, carry him, or deliver him. Instead, I have been blessed by what his birthmother probably would describe as her Plan B.

    God is good, all the time.
    All the time, God is good.

  • Anonymous

    Thank you Angie for the video. You two are beautiful people. I just sat and cried as I watched you speak of Audrey. I think of you often and will be praying for you tonight as always.

  • Anonymous

    Praying for you sweet Angie and your family. May God meet you where you are.

  • tammyand03

    You are in our thoughts and prayers. Thank you so very much for shaaring the video and for sharing Audreys journey with all of us. Tammy and John

  • Debbie

    Thank you for the insipiration and sharing your family with us so early. After 10 months since our family’s loss, I am still struggling through this path/trial. We all need to rely on God and help each other to stay on the pathway to God. All the Audreys and Walkers have been sent to help us remember the way to God on our journey during our earthly life. You and your family will be in my prayers.

    Love, Debbie

  • Anonymous

    Strong, Faithful Angie,

    I watched the Cross Point Video & cried my way through. I just wanted to reach out & give you a big hug…I just wanted to pat your hand….I just wanted to tell you how proud of you both I am…how courageous to make the video….how I can only imagine just how hard it was at times to talk about what you’ve been through & are going through. The video was wonderful. Pete was so gentle & assuring. You can tell that he is being led by our Father & he’s doing God’s work.

    Please continue to tell us how you are feeling so we can pray harder, & do anything possible to help you through your healing process.

    Thank you for sharing the video with us. We all love you….Rose in Nashville.

  • Marin

    Angie, Todd, Pete…Audrey… That video…that message, I needed to hear it that more than you could know. If I could tell you how or why or what or anything about how relevant that was to my life at this very moment, if I could put that emotion on this screen… If only I could sit down to have a cup of coffee with you :) and talk it out, explain to you what I was going through yesterday and all the years that bundled up into a tangled mess that I now wrestle with. And how angry I’ve been about fighting against my plan B without feeling the comfort in God’s plan A, that new idea of trust and those words about such plan B’s helped me more than I can explain.

    I love you Smith Family- the kind of love that when I meet you (every single one of you) in eternity, I have no doubt I’ll cry tears of joy.

    Todd- I thought of you singing Be Still my Soul at the moment I cried during that wonderful message. Thank you for that.
    Angie- whether you feel it or not, your strength in all this amazes me. And though it may not be constant, I think that’s what makes it real.

    Thank you.

  • Anonymous

    The video is amazing. I showed it to some co-workers today at work. I am thankful for your willingness to share your story. Praying for you today and everyday…

  • Andrea

    This was amazing! I am so glad that you shared this with everyone. I am going to send it to my non-believing friends in hopes that the’ll see the “big picture” and maybe be a win in the namesake of Audrey!! God is good all the time, all the time, God is good! I find myself changing that when it’s just too hard to manage sometimes. Blessings!! :-) )

  • Candes

    Ok, I’m thinking it’s NOT a good idea to read your blog here at work where I have a glass window for a wall and no door.

    It’s torturous to walk here with you only because there is nothing I can do to take away the crushing pain of your loss. But this is what makes us who we become, how we handle this now.

    His love is great. Greater than our deepest sorrow and greatest joy.

    I lost a daughter. My first pregnancy. I wasn’t fortunate enough to carry her to term or even in to the second trimester. Gracie would have been 4 yrs old last month.

    I have 2 wonderful boys now.

  • The Hull Munchkins

    Wow. I just finished watching the video of your family’s story and am incredibly touched by the love of Christ through you. I’m amazed at the amazing grace and peace God gave you for this special task of sharing Audrey’s story.

    Thank you for sharing your pain so openly. I needed to “meet” you today as our family struggles to find God’s will in the life and challenges of our daughter with special needs.

    You are right, God is in control and there is no plan B for Him! We live to glorify Him in Every circumstance… the painful ones most of all.

    Thank you. I’ll be praying for your family. Beautiful girls, by the way.

    -Patty

  • Laura

    What a wonderful witness of God’s faithfulness. I’m so glad he did the video-what a tool it will be for God. And it allowed me to feel a little bit more connected to you/your family. I loved what you said, Angie-there is no plan B. Everything works out exactly as He intends.

  • Tiffany

    Thank you Angie and Todd for being Audrey’s voice. My heart is touched each time I read of your journey sharing Audrey’s story. Please never stop.

  • Kathleen

    I just found your blog, and want to thank you for sharing your heart through this story. More of the world needs to see how God carries His own through difficult times.

    His love is amazing…

    -Katie
    http://www.HopeIsCalling.com

  • Terry

    The youtube video is so precious. I love the song. I will be praying for you as you go through this difficult time…your whole family. The pictures of little Audrey are precious. She truly is a gift from God.

  • Brandy

    A friend just recently told me about your blog. And little by little I’ve been reading Audrey’s story. I just finished watching the slideshow and listening to your beautiful song–for the 2nd and probably not last time. Absolutely beautiful. This isn’t the type of music I typically listen to, but it (along w/you, Audrey, and the rest of your family) has truly touched me.

    As a mother, reading all of this has literally made my heart hurt for you. It is just unimaginable. At the same time, I am so impressed w/your view on it all, and the way your family has been dealing with everything. I know it cannot be easy.

    Thank you for sharing Audrey’s story with everyone–including complete strangers. You are all in my thoughts.