Emmaus

So many of you have asked about how I came to be so close to God.  I want to talk a little about that here, and I hope that it speaks to you and encourages you to seek His face.  Before I start, I want to say that if you are not a “believer,” you are welcome here.  I hope you read these words and feel blessed, even if you and I do not share the same Lord.  Your letters and emails have spoken volumes to me about the legacy of my sweet daughter, and I hope you will continue to spend time here with me.  My deepest prayer is that you will feel safe here, and that if you do have questions about the Lord, you will email me and allow me the great honor of trying to fill in some of the blanks with you.  With that said…


Where do I start?
I always loved the idea of God, but He just didn’t seem practical, and for most of my life, “not practical” meant “not necessary.”  I put my full weight into what I could see and touch, and I found out the hard way that this life let me down (several times).  I tried to read the Bible, but it just seemed huge and totally foreign to me. I felt like it had nothing to do with my life.  I decided to read it the whole way through before I made up my mind, but I only got a few chapters into Genesis and I decided it was less fun than trigonometry (I did eventually make it the whole way through and it was incredible).  I hosted “Young Life” in my basement in high school, but truth be told, it was because there were some really cute Christian boys who I wanted to notice me (it didn’t work…turns out they were really coming over for Jesus).  I used to sit on my bed and say “Show me you’re real!” to God and then let my Bible fall open, pointing my finger randomly at the page, positive He was going to give me a scripture that would answer all of my nagging questions (come on, you know you’ve done this too….). He taught me 2 great lessons in my “Bible-pointing” days.
1.  I can’t put God in a box, and I cannot expect Him to show up on my timetable.
2.  I pretty much always end up somewhere in 1st or 2nd Chronicles, wondering why God loves the word “begat” so much. 
Years ago, I sat down with my Bible and I asked the Lord to speak.  Unlike the other times, I wasn’t “testing” Him, I was just wanting to feel His presence with me.  I didn’t do it because I wanted Him to prove anything, but rather because I was hungry for Him.  He led me to two stories within a matter of days, the first being the story of the Lord calling Samuel (1 Samuel 3:1-21).  It is still one of my favorites, and includes what was, for me, the key that begins to turn the door of faith.  “Speak, Lord.  Your servant is listening.”  It has become a mantra of sorts to me and I repeat it over and over as I go about my daily life.  I realized that God had created me to be in communication with Him, He wanted me to invite Him into to corners of my life that seemed too small for Him to fit into.  I began to listen, and I invited him to speak.  
The other story is in the Gospel of Luke, where two people are traveling the road to Emmaus.  I decided I was going to read it over and over again, slowly digesting the words and asking God to reveal Himself to me. I did a little word study and found that the word Emmaus means “warm springs,” and that these springs were frequently used for healing purposes. So I began to picture two people walking toward “healing” instead of a place I had never heard of.  If you have a Bible, it is found in Luke 24:13-32.  If you don’t have a Bible, and would like to, please email me and I will send you one.  Here is the gist of the story…
Three days after Christ was crucified, two of His disciples are walking to Emmaus, and they are saddened because they don’t feel convinced that He is risen, nor that He was really the Christ at all.  They are discussing this when a man (Christ) “catches up” to them.  The word used is the Greek word “eggizo” which means “to draw near, approach.”  One commentary I read explained that they must have been walking slowly enough for Him to catch up.  I like that.
They didn’t know who He was.  They told Him all about their disappointment, sharing that they had believed that Jesus was the promised One, but now they doubted. There was no evidence.
There they are, walking with the living Christ, and they have no idea who He is. They are looking past His face and into the abyss that demands proof.  They see his sandals, his hair, his eyes, his robe, but they do not see Him. They continue to walk side by side for miles as He speaks to them, reminding them of everything from Moses to the Prophets, but they do not know their Shepherd.
Finally, they reach their destination.  Jesus acts as if He is going to continue on, and they beg Him to stay for supper.  They long to be in His company so they invite Him to be their guest.
As they sit around the table, the Lord takes the bread and says a prayer. Scripture then says:
“…he took bread, gave thanks, broke it and began to give it to them.  Then their eyes were opened and they recognized him…”
He disappears from their sight immediately and they ask each other, “were not our hearts burning within us while he talked with us on the road and opened the Scriptures to us?” It all made sense now…He was the great Rescuer.
As soon as they recognize this, they travel to Jerusalem to share their news.  We have seen Him!!! He is risen!!!
I realized that in this beautiful story, God had posed a very important question to me, and He may be asking you the same.

Where are you on the road to Emmaus?

I thought about the way that I had finally slowed down enough to let Him catch up to me, the way I walked for years beside Him and never really knew who He was.  Then I thought about the way I was drawn to Him, and invited Him to stay with me.  And then, the bread was broken, and I saw Him for who He was.
And just as the disciples said, I remembered the way my heart had burned for Him, even before my eyes were opened.  I love the Greek word in this scripture. It is “kaio,” and it means, “to set on fire, to be consumed
It all became really simple to me, and it helped me understand the walk of the believer in a tangible way.  As you travel,
1.  walk slowly, deliberately with thoughts of Him on your mind (He will catch up).
2.  listen when He speaks (you will want to be with Him longer).
3.  invite Him to stay (He will accept).
4.  acknowledge who He is when He reveals Himself to you (You are Jesus Christ, the son of God.  You were crucified, and paid the full penalty of my sin. You died on the cross and were resurrected on the third day.  You are now in heaven, where I will spend eternity with you). For those of you who are looking for the fancy Christian words, this step is what we call “being saved.”
5.  allow yourself to be consumed with love for Him (you will want to go and tell the others).  
I hope this encourages you to open your Bible and ask the Lord to reveal Himself in His words. To make it come alive for you as you read.  Before you begin, say a prayer asking Him to “slow you down, ” and help you focus on the words. Sometimes I just read the same sentence over and over until I feel like I am ready to move on to the next.  I had to get past my “speed-reader” tendencies and see Scripture for what it was…God’s letter of love to us, His workmanship.
I realize that this does not answer all of the questions you have asked about how I came to be where I am with the Lord, but it is a first step.  It is my prayer that before I continue, you will open His word and be blessed by the God who loves you enough to walk alongside you and cause your heart to burn within you.
Have a blessed Sunday.  If you have never believed in Him before, I am praying that today is the day of broken bread.
Speak, Lord.  Your servants are listening…
Angie
p.s…..here we are at the Hope Clinic on Friday with Renee and Lauren, giving them the check!!!! Thank you Tippa!!!! May God do amazing things with your faith:)
pps. Okay, i know this is completely random, but I have gotten a couple e-mails about my last post…for clarification, if you are doing the math on when we got married and when we conceived our first baby, I will save you the mental energy.  We did not have sex until we were married.  Sorry to be so blunt, and I’m sure this is more information than you need, but you know me-I say it like it is:)


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  • Sara

    Thank you for sharing. I have always been a believer in God – I prayed, I went to church. I believed. But when Samuel passed away, I went through feelings I had never experienced before. It is nice to read your journey, and I hope I continue to draw strength from your words.
    Happy Sunday! :)

  • KELLY

    What a beautiful way to describe coming to love Him.

    Thank you for all you have done, and continue to do, for so many of us.

    I am a “new” follower of your site, but I just can’t seem to get enough of you, your sweet family, and your beautiful, heart warming and heart breaking story.

    I, too, love God, but in reading your words I often find myself wondering…could I be as graceful as you? Could I totally trust on God in times of desperate sorrow such as the loss of a child?

    Four years ago, shortly after the birth of my first daughter, my relationship with Christ changed. My prayers went from “God please don’t let anything happen to my loved ones” to “God, grant me the peace to know that you are the ultimate Father and healer. Help me to trust you in times of sorrow and joy. Help me to handle situations correctly as they arrise.”

    Anyways, now I’m rambling. More than anything, thank you Angie.

    Have a blessed Sunday with your beautiful family.

  • Paul & Angela Jenkins

    Wow I have heard many people present the gospel but none using this passage. What a great and gentle way to present the gospel. My prayer is that many come to know the Lord through this one post if none others at least this one.

  • Paul & Angela Jenkins

    Wow I have heard many people present the gospel but none using this passage. What a great and gentle way to present the gospel. My prayer is that many come to know the Lord through this one post if none others at least this one.

  • Paul & Angela Jenkins

    Wow I have heard many people present the gospel but none using this passage. What a great and gentle way to present the gospel. My prayer is that many come to know the Lord through this one post if none others at least this one.

  • Paul & Angela Jenkins

    Wow I have heard many people present the gospel but none using this passage. What a great and gentle way to present the gospel. My prayer is that many come to know the Lord through this one post if none others at least this one.

  • Paul & Angela Jenkins

    Wow I have heard many people present the gospel but none using this passage. What a great and gentle way to present the gospel. My prayer is that many come to know the Lord through this one post if none others at least this one.

  • Paul & Angela Jenkins

    Wow I have heard many people present the gospel but none using this passage. What a great and gentle way to present the gospel. My prayer is that many come to know the Lord through this one post if none others at least this one.

  • Paul & Angela Jenkins

    Wow I have heard many people present the gospel but none using this passage. What a great and gentle way to present the gospel. My prayer is that many come to know the Lord through this one post if none others at least this one.

  • Paul & Angela Jenkins

    Wow I have heard many people present the gospel but none using this passage. What a great and gentle way to present the gospel. My prayer is that many come to know the Lord through this one post if none others at least this one.

  • Paul & Angela Jenkins

    Wow I have heard many people present the gospel but none using this passage. What a great and gentle way to present the gospel. My prayer is that many come to know the Lord through this one post if none others at least this one.

  • Paul & Angela Jenkins

    Wow I have heard many people present the gospel but none using this passage. What a great and gentle way to present the gospel. My prayer is that many come to know the Lord through this one post if none others at least this one.

  • Paul & Angela Jenkins

    Wow I have heard many people present the gospel but none using this passage. What a great and gentle way to present the gospel. My prayer is that many come to know the Lord through this one post if none others at least this one.

  • Paul & Angela Jenkins

    Wow I have heard many people present the gospel but none using this passage. What a great and gentle way to present the gospel. My prayer is that many come to know the Lord through this one post if none others at least this one.

  • Paul & Angela Jenkins

    Wow I have heard many people present the gospel but none using this passage. What a great and gentle way to present the gospel. My prayer is that many come to know the Lord through this one post if none others at least this one.

  • Paul & Angela Jenkins

    Wow I have heard many people present the gospel but none using this passage. What a great and gentle way to present the gospel. My prayer is that many come to know the Lord through this one post if none others at least this one.

  • Paul & Angela Jenkins

    Wow I have heard many people present the gospel but none using this passage. What a great and gentle way to present the gospel. My prayer is that many come to know the Lord through this one post if none others at least this one.

  • Paul & Angela Jenkins

    Wow I have heard many people present the gospel but none using this passage. What a great and gentle way to present the gospel. My prayer is that many come to know the Lord through this one post if none others at least this one.

  • Aimee

    Angie, This was absolutely beautiful. Perfect for this Sunday. Thank you. Your words have once again touched me in ways that I cannot even begin to explain here. Thank you!

  • Lisa

    The phrase, “Here am I, Lord,” has been on my heart and mind all morning. All week, really. And then, this morning, our sermon was about Jeremiah being commissioned to be a prophet. And then, one of my favorite hymns, “The Summons”, ended our service.

    Angie, I know God is making His voice heard in mighty ways in our particular generation, and even at this particular season in our lives, and I thank you for allowing Him to use you to carry His voice. I know someone who lost two babies and I pray she visits your blog.

    We’re all on the road to Emmaus at one time or another, and I pray right along with you that much bread is broken today in the lives of my friend, and so many others that Christ is following behind, just waiting for them to stop on the road and let Him catch up.

    God bless you.
    Lisa

  • Melissa Irwin

    what a perfect sunday morning message….i haven’t even been to church yet today…but feel so ministered to.

  • Elaine

    I just want to say I have been following your blog for some time now, and I feel truly blessed to be reading your words. You are a true gift from God and he is using you in a glorious way. You message today hit home for me, thank you. I admire your courage.

    Have a blessed day. You are doing amazing things.

  • Creekermom

    Angie,
    Thank you for sharing as I met a young unwed mother yesterday who has not had a good life in her young 20 years… I don’t think she is a believer but I KNOW she is hungry for knowledge and I think I am going to eventually share with her your post on Emmaus.

    You are treasure friend thank you for allowing God to use you to bless all of us.

    Valerie~

  • The Johnson 5

    That was one of the best descriptions of allowing the Lord to come into our lives…it really is that easy. I’m trying, I believe and love everything about my religion but I think, I look at the bible the same way you said you did before. Just know that your openness and honesty is truly welcomed!
    This is my first time leaving you a comment, but I have been reading and praying for you and your family since almost the beginning of your blog posting. I think I almost felt intimidated…I don’t know why. But todays posting made me see that at sometime in our lives most of us are confused and at the same time longing for a the feeling that HE is with us.
    I don’t know if it is making sense as I’m writing it but it is making sense to me….Thank You Angie!!!
    I hope you and your family have a Blessed Sunday!!

  • Laura

    Thank you, Angie, for that. I love the way that you said it. I, too, am about to go to church, and I now feel so much more prepared to worship Him. I am praying for you and your family.

    Thanks for encouraging me to draw closer to Jesus with your blog!

  • scrap&cruznaholic

    I love you, my Sister in Christ, Angie. I know I’ve said it before, but you have such a beautiful, wonderful way with words. I know that God is speaking through you. Welcoming our Lord into ones’ heart is so easy & he doesn’t require a deposit or a lengthy application…..he’s there, always, waiting to welcome another child of his into his flock. I love the way you said, slowing down so HE could catch up with us. I’m so guilty of not doing that. Thank you for reminding me that I need to open up to HIM and let HIM lead me.

    It’s seems my life these past almost 18 weeks has been consumed by wanting to walk again. I’m taking therapy now & I just keep reminding HIM that “I want to walk”…..maybe I should be listening instead of talking.

    It was so good to see you writing today. I was concerned about not hearing from you for a few days. But, I just pray that God will continue to watch over you & your family. How is Nicol & Greg? They are still in my prayers also.

    It was good to see a picture of you & Todd both smiling. I know that many days you don’t feel like smiling, but we love you those days also.

    Thank you for a much needed reading today. Love & Prayers from Rose in Nashville

  • scrap&cruznaholic

    I love you, my Sister in Christ, Angie. I know I’ve said it before, but you have such a beautiful, wonderful way with words. I know that God is speaking through you. Welcoming our Lord into ones’ heart is so easy & he doesn’t require a deposit or a lengthy application…..he’s there, always, waiting to welcome another child of his into his flock. I love the way you said, slowing down so HE could catch up with us. I’m so guilty of not doing that. Thank you for reminding me that I need to open up to HIM and let HIM lead me.

    It’s seems my life these past almost 18 weeks has been consumed by wanting to walk again. I’m taking therapy now & I just keep reminding HIM that “I want to walk”…..maybe I should be listening instead of talking.

    It was so good to see you writing today. I was concerned about not hearing from you for a few days. But, I just pray that God will continue to watch over you & your family. How is Nicol & Greg? They are still in my prayers also.

    It was good to see a picture of you & Todd both smiling. I know that many days you don’t feel like smiling, but we love you those days also.

    Thank you for a much needed reading today. Love & Prayers from Rose in Nashville

  • scrap&cruznaholic

    I love you, my Sister in Christ, Angie. I know I’ve said it before, but you have such a beautiful, wonderful way with words. I know that God is speaking through you. Welcoming our Lord into ones’ heart is so easy & he doesn’t require a deposit or a lengthy application…..he’s there, always, waiting to welcome another child of his into his flock. I love the way you said, slowing down so HE could catch up with us. I’m so guilty of not doing that. Thank you for reminding me that I need to open up to HIM and let HIM lead me.

    It’s seems my life these past almost 18 weeks has been consumed by wanting to walk again. I’m taking therapy now & I just keep reminding HIM that “I want to walk”…..maybe I should be listening instead of talking.

    It was so good to see you writing today. I was concerned about not hearing from you for a few days. But, I just pray that God will continue to watch over you & your family. How is Nicol & Greg? They are still in my prayers also.

    It was good to see a picture of you & Todd both smiling. I know that many days you don’t feel like smiling, but we love you those days also.

    Thank you for a much needed reading today. Love & Prayers from Rose in Nashville

  • scrap&cruznaholic

    I love you, my Sister in Christ, Angie. I know I’ve said it before, but you have such a beautiful, wonderful way with words. I know that God is speaking through you. Welcoming our Lord into ones’ heart is so easy & he doesn’t require a deposit or a lengthy application…..he’s there, always, waiting to welcome another child of his into his flock. I love the way you said, slowing down so HE could catch up with us. I’m so guilty of not doing that. Thank you for reminding me that I need to open up to HIM and let HIM lead me.

    It’s seems my life these past almost 18 weeks has been consumed by wanting to walk again. I’m taking therapy now & I just keep reminding HIM that “I want to walk”…..maybe I should be listening instead of talking.

    It was so good to see you writing today. I was concerned about not hearing from you for a few days. But, I just pray that God will continue to watch over you & your family. How is Nicol & Greg? They are still in my prayers also.

    It was good to see a picture of you & Todd both smiling. I know that many days you don’t feel like smiling, but we love you those days also.

    Thank you for a much needed reading today. Love & Prayers from Rose in Nashville

  • scrap&cruznaholic

    I love you, my Sister in Christ, Angie. I know I’ve said it before, but you have such a beautiful, wonderful way with words. I know that God is speaking through you. Welcoming our Lord into ones’ heart is so easy & he doesn’t require a deposit or a lengthy application…..he’s there, always, waiting to welcome another child of his into his flock. I love the way you said, slowing down so HE could catch up with us. I’m so guilty of not doing that. Thank you for reminding me that I need to open up to HIM and let HIM lead me.

    It’s seems my life these past almost 18 weeks has been consumed by wanting to walk again. I’m taking therapy now & I just keep reminding HIM that “I want to walk”…..maybe I should be listening instead of talking.

    It was so good to see you writing today. I was concerned about not hearing from you for a few days. But, I just pray that God will continue to watch over you & your family. How is Nicol & Greg? They are still in my prayers also.

    It was good to see a picture of you & Todd both smiling. I know that many days you don’t feel like smiling, but we love you those days also.

    Thank you for a much needed reading today. Love & Prayers from Rose in Nashville

  • scrap&cruznaholic

    I love you, my Sister in Christ, Angie. I know I’ve said it before, but you have such a beautiful, wonderful way with words. I know that God is speaking through you. Welcoming our Lord into ones’ heart is so easy & he doesn’t require a deposit or a lengthy application…..he’s there, always, waiting to welcome another child of his into his flock. I love the way you said, slowing down so HE could catch up with us. I’m so guilty of not doing that. Thank you for reminding me that I need to open up to HIM and let HIM lead me.

    It’s seems my life these past almost 18 weeks has been consumed by wanting to walk again. I’m taking therapy now & I just keep reminding HIM that “I want to walk”…..maybe I should be listening instead of talking.

    It was so good to see you writing today. I was concerned about not hearing from you for a few days. But, I just pray that God will continue to watch over you & your family. How is Nicol & Greg? They are still in my prayers also.

    It was good to see a picture of you & Todd both smiling. I know that many days you don’t feel like smiling, but we love you those days also.

    Thank you for a much needed reading today. Love & Prayers from Rose in Nashville

  • scrap&cruznaholic

    I love you, my Sister in Christ, Angie. I know I’ve said it before, but you have such a beautiful, wonderful way with words. I know that God is speaking through you. Welcoming our Lord into ones’ heart is so easy & he doesn’t require a deposit or a lengthy application…..he’s there, always, waiting to welcome another child of his into his flock. I love the way you said, slowing down so HE could catch up with us. I’m so guilty of not doing that. Thank you for reminding me that I need to open up to HIM and let HIM lead me.

    It’s seems my life these past almost 18 weeks has been consumed by wanting to walk again. I’m taking therapy now & I just keep reminding HIM that “I want to walk”…..maybe I should be listening instead of talking.

    It was so good to see you writing today. I was concerned about not hearing from you for a few days. But, I just pray that God will continue to watch over you & your family. How is Nicol & Greg? They are still in my prayers also.

    It was good to see a picture of you & Todd both smiling. I know that many days you don’t feel like smiling, but we love you those days also.

    Thank you for a much needed reading today. Love & Prayers from Rose in Nashville

  • scrap&cruznaholic

    I love you, my Sister in Christ, Angie. I know I’ve said it before, but you have such a beautiful, wonderful way with words. I know that God is speaking through you. Welcoming our Lord into ones’ heart is so easy & he doesn’t require a deposit or a lengthy application…..he’s there, always, waiting to welcome another child of his into his flock. I love the way you said, slowing down so HE could catch up with us. I’m so guilty of not doing that. Thank you for reminding me that I need to open up to HIM and let HIM lead me.

    It’s seems my life these past almost 18 weeks has been consumed by wanting to walk again. I’m taking therapy now & I just keep reminding HIM that “I want to walk”…..maybe I should be listening instead of talking.

    It was so good to see you writing today. I was concerned about not hearing from you for a few days. But, I just pray that God will continue to watch over you & your family. How is Nicol & Greg? They are still in my prayers also.

    It was good to see a picture of you & Todd both smiling. I know that many days you don’t feel like smiling, but we love you those days also.

    Thank you for a much needed reading today. Love & Prayers from Rose in Nashville

  • scrap&cruznaholic

    I love you, my Sister in Christ, Angie. I know I’ve said it before, but you have such a beautiful, wonderful way with words. I know that God is speaking through you. Welcoming our Lord into ones’ heart is so easy & he doesn’t require a deposit or a lengthy application…..he’s there, always, waiting to welcome another child of his into his flock. I love the way you said, slowing down so HE could catch up with us. I’m so guilty of not doing that. Thank you for reminding me that I need to open up to HIM and let HIM lead me.

    It’s seems my life these past almost 18 weeks has been consumed by wanting to walk again. I’m taking therapy now & I just keep reminding HIM that “I want to walk”…..maybe I should be listening instead of talking.

    It was so good to see you writing today. I was concerned about not hearing from you for a few days. But, I just pray that God will continue to watch over you & your family. How is Nicol & Greg? They are still in my prayers also.

    It was good to see a picture of you & Todd both smiling. I know that many days you don’t feel like smiling, but we love you those days also.

    Thank you for a much needed reading today. Love & Prayers from Rose in Nashville

  • scrap&cruznaholic

    I love you, my Sister in Christ, Angie. I know I’ve said it before, but you have such a beautiful, wonderful way with words. I know that God is speaking through you. Welcoming our Lord into ones’ heart is so easy & he doesn’t require a deposit or a lengthy application…..he’s there, always, waiting to welcome another child of his into his flock. I love the way you said, slowing down so HE could catch up with us. I’m so guilty of not doing that. Thank you for reminding me that I need to open up to HIM and let HIM lead me.

    It’s seems my life these past almost 18 weeks has been consumed by wanting to walk again. I’m taking therapy now & I just keep reminding HIM that “I want to walk”…..maybe I should be listening instead of talking.

    It was so good to see you writing today. I was concerned about not hearing from you for a few days. But, I just pray that God will continue to watch over you & your family. How is Nicol & Greg? They are still in my prayers also.

    It was good to see a picture of you & Todd both smiling. I know that many days you don’t feel like smiling, but we love you those days also.

    Thank you for a much needed reading today. Love & Prayers from Rose in Nashville

  • scrap&cruznaholic

    I love you, my Sister in Christ, Angie. I know I’ve said it before, but you have such a beautiful, wonderful way with words. I know that God is speaking through you. Welcoming our Lord into ones’ heart is so easy & he doesn’t require a deposit or a lengthy application…..he’s there, always, waiting to welcome another child of his into his flock. I love the way you said, slowing down so HE could catch up with us. I’m so guilty of not doing that. Thank you for reminding me that I need to open up to HIM and let HIM lead me.

    It’s seems my life these past almost 18 weeks has been consumed by wanting to walk again. I’m taking therapy now & I just keep reminding HIM that “I want to walk”…..maybe I should be listening instead of talking.

    It was so good to see you writing today. I was concerned about not hearing from you for a few days. But, I just pray that God will continue to watch over you & your family. How is Nicol & Greg? They are still in my prayers also.

    It was good to see a picture of you & Todd both smiling. I know that many days you don’t feel like smiling, but we love you those days also.

    Thank you for a much needed reading today. Love & Prayers from Rose in Nashville

  • scrap&cruznaholic

    I love you, my Sister in Christ, Angie. I know I’ve said it before, but you have such a beautiful, wonderful way with words. I know that God is speaking through you. Welcoming our Lord into ones’ heart is so easy & he doesn’t require a deposit or a lengthy application…..he’s there, always, waiting to welcome another child of his into his flock. I love the way you said, slowing down so HE could catch up with us. I’m so guilty of not doing that. Thank you for reminding me that I need to open up to HIM and let HIM lead me.

    It’s seems my life these past almost 18 weeks has been consumed by wanting to walk again. I’m taking therapy now & I just keep reminding HIM that “I want to walk”…..maybe I should be listening instead of talking.

    It was so good to see you writing today. I was concerned about not hearing from you for a few days. But, I just pray that God will continue to watch over you & your family. How is Nicol & Greg? They are still in my prayers also.

    It was good to see a picture of you & Todd both smiling. I know that many days you don’t feel like smiling, but we love you those days also.

    Thank you for a much needed reading today. Love & Prayers from Rose in Nashville

  • scrap&cruznaholic

    I love you, my Sister in Christ, Angie. I know I’ve said it before, but you have such a beautiful, wonderful way with words. I know that God is speaking through you. Welcoming our Lord into ones’ heart is so easy & he doesn’t require a deposit or a lengthy application…..he’s there, always, waiting to welcome another child of his into his flock. I love the way you said, slowing down so HE could catch up with us. I’m so guilty of not doing that. Thank you for reminding me that I need to open up to HIM and let HIM lead me.

    It’s seems my life these past almost 18 weeks has been consumed by wanting to walk again. I’m taking therapy now & I just keep reminding HIM that “I want to walk”…..maybe I should be listening instead of talking.

    It was so good to see you writing today. I was concerned about not hearing from you for a few days. But, I just pray that God will continue to watch over you & your family. How is Nicol & Greg? They are still in my prayers also.

    It was good to see a picture of you & Todd both smiling. I know that many days you don’t feel like smiling, but we love you those days also.

    Thank you for a much needed reading today. Love & Prayers from Rose in Nashville

  • scrap&cruznaholic

    I love you, my Sister in Christ, Angie. I know I’ve said it before, but you have such a beautiful, wonderful way with words. I know that God is speaking through you. Welcoming our Lord into ones’ heart is so easy & he doesn’t require a deposit or a lengthy application…..he’s there, always, waiting to welcome another child of his into his flock. I love the way you said, slowing down so HE could catch up with us. I’m so guilty of not doing that. Thank you for reminding me that I need to open up to HIM and let HIM lead me.

    It’s seems my life these past almost 18 weeks has been consumed by wanting to walk again. I’m taking therapy now & I just keep reminding HIM that “I want to walk”…..maybe I should be listening instead of talking.

    It was so good to see you writing today. I was concerned about not hearing from you for a few days. But, I just pray that God will continue to watch over you & your family. How is Nicol & Greg? They are still in my prayers also.

    It was good to see a picture of you & Todd both smiling. I know that many days you don’t feel like smiling, but we love you those days also.

    Thank you for a much needed reading today. Love & Prayers from Rose in Nashville

  • scrap&cruznaholic

    I love you, my Sister in Christ, Angie. I know I’ve said it before, but you have such a beautiful, wonderful way with words. I know that God is speaking through you. Welcoming our Lord into ones’ heart is so easy & he doesn’t require a deposit or a lengthy application…..he’s there, always, waiting to welcome another child of his into his flock. I love the way you said, slowing down so HE could catch up with us. I’m so guilty of not doing that. Thank you for reminding me that I need to open up to HIM and let HIM lead me.

    It’s seems my life these past almost 18 weeks has been consumed by wanting to walk again. I’m taking therapy now & I just keep reminding HIM that “I want to walk”…..maybe I should be listening instead of talking.

    It was so good to see you writing today. I was concerned about not hearing from you for a few days. But, I just pray that God will continue to watch over you & your family. How is Nicol & Greg? They are still in my prayers also.

    It was good to see a picture of you & Todd both smiling. I know that many days you don’t feel like smiling, but we love you those days also.

    Thank you for a much needed reading today. Love & Prayers from Rose in Nashville

  • scrap&cruznaholic

    I love you, my Sister in Christ, Angie. I know I’ve said it before, but you have such a beautiful, wonderful way with words. I know that God is speaking through you. Welcoming our Lord into ones’ heart is so easy & he doesn’t require a deposit or a lengthy application…..he’s there, always, waiting to welcome another child of his into his flock. I love the way you said, slowing down so HE could catch up with us. I’m so guilty of not doing that. Thank you for reminding me that I need to open up to HIM and let HIM lead me.

    It’s seems my life these past almost 18 weeks has been consumed by wanting to walk again. I’m taking therapy now & I just keep reminding HIM that “I want to walk”…..maybe I should be listening instead of talking.

    It was so good to see you writing today. I was concerned about not hearing from you for a few days. But, I just pray that God will continue to watch over you & your family. How is Nicol & Greg? They are still in my prayers also.

    It was good to see a picture of you & Todd both smiling. I know that many days you don’t feel like smiling, but we love you those days also.

    Thank you for a much needed reading today. Love & Prayers from Rose in Nashville

  • Cindy

    Angie,
    Thank you for sharing that part of your story. Beautiful!
    …And the best is yet to come…
    Cindy ~ Phoenix

  • Jen

    That’s beautiful, Angie… as always. I like how Emmaus means what it does… thank you for opening my eyes to that side of it, I agree, it makes the passage so much more meaningful!

  • AnnaB

    I have been a believer for a long time. In fact, I believe I was blessed with the gift of a testimony of our Savior, Jesus Christ. But to read it explained like this has made my heart soar. It is truth and I am so grateful for it.

    With love and thanks,
    Anna in Boise, ID

  • Camie

    I’m sorry, but the recent comment by modern contemporary furniture blogs has left me feeling as if this beautiful, sacred space has been used for advertising purposes. Given the nature of the wounds that many of us have experienced (i.e. loss of children we love), I would respectfully request that the commentor consider removing the comment. I wish for this to continue to be a safe, restorative place for us all.

  • Jen

    Angie, I tried to send a polite message to the furniture people, to let them know that they sent something inaproriate (unintentionally… they didn’t check) but they don’t allow comments, and there is no email address. I’m praying for you, I’m sure that it hurts very much and I’m sorry you have to deal with that.

  • Mark and Niki

    Angie,

    I’m so amazed at the way God is using you. Every post you make has hundreds of people who comment (even if some are spam!- That’s a rant I’ll save for another day) and you can rest assured that for every one that comments, there are probably many more who don’t comment, but are just as touched. Thank you for being open to be used by him! I know He is using you in my life.
    I pray your Sunday is blessed!

  • Sara

    Thanks so much for sharing that post, Angie. I am fortunate in that I grew up much as your girls must be… immersed in knowledge and love of God. We prayed every day, I went to a Catholic school, and decisions were always met with the question, “Have you prayed about that?” I know how fortunate I have been and so admire how God reaches out and finds a way into hearts that haven’t been taught. And He is doing that through you. Be proud.

    I am young (35) and homebound due to a chronic illness and I find myself missing the community aspect of church and worshipping together. I guess, if I could encourage those reading the comments, while you are on your journey don’t be afraid to reach out into communities of faith as well. Learning on your own is essential, but He also says when two or more are gathered in my name, there am I in their midst. It’s wonderful to experience that joy from others as well. Just my two cents from my experience. :)

  • Linda

    Thank you for sharing your heart Angie. I often wonder, had I now been brought up in a Christian home and come to know Him as a little child, would I have come as an adult. I am sure the answer is yes because He says in His word that we are chosen, but I love to read the stories of those who came to Him at a little older age. It blesses me to hear how He draws us and reveals Himself to us if we are just willing to draw closer and listen. There is no arguing with the evidence of a changed life.
    So beautifully and clearly written – as always – Angie.

  • collybird

    Everyday, without fail, I check your blog for a new post with a deep sense of anticipation and today I was breath taken when I saw today’s theme…

    I attended mass every week until I was 17 but I don’t think I was ever really there and I feel terrible for that. In the 7 years since I lasted stood in a church I’ve rarely prayed, when I’ve desperately wanted something I have, when I am moved by a story in the news, I have but usually only for selfish reasons and again I feel terrible. Learning that for many years you were not as close to our Lord as you are now has helped me greatly, I know now that I’ll be forgiven for all those empty years. I can start afresh and that thought fills me with excitement.

    I don’t exaggerate in the slightest when I say it is only down to Audrey that my faith has been reawakened; when I saw the strength that your faith has brought you and your reward – those precious hours with your beautiful baby girl, I craved a stronger connection with Him.

    Now I’m working on it and was struggling to know where to start and here you are telling us how it all began for you. He is answering my questions without me even having to ask, today Angie the Lord is using you to communicate with me and I’m in awe.

    It made me laugh that all those years ago you decided to tackle the whole Bible – I’ve recently decided I was going to do exactly the same thing. In so many ways you and I are so different; I am just a young woman whose life is full of frivolous concerns, but still I can connect with you. As always Angie, thank you for your words – today more than ever.

  • Julie

    Angie,

    Thank you so much for continuing to share what God has laid on your heart. I know for me, I look forward to your blogs because they are so full of truth from the Lord. You have truly touched my life in so many ways. Thank you, thank you!

    Julie G.
    Illinois
    georgeparyoffive.blogspot.com

  • Camie

    Thank you… however the crib advertisement got removed! I’ve been praying prayers of protection for all involved… Thank you, Lord!

  • vaneblu

    Angie thank you so much for this blog, is doing amazing things with me, as usual I leave with tears on my eyes!

  • Lauren

    Thank you…. thank you so much Angie.

  • Kari

    Hey sister,
    Even for a believer it is so good to walk through those steps, not because of “lost salvation”, because that is impossible, but as a reminder :)
    It brings me to my knees to say that “Jesus, You paid the debt for my sin,” out loud every time! Whew! He is Good!!!

    I enjoy the way you write, very down to earth. because I who am very down to earth, appreciate straight talk!

    I had a kid tell my daughter that he likes to talk to her mom “because she is straight up. You can trust that, they don’t hide things.”

    Keep being straight!

    Be blessed!
    kari

  • Steph

    Thank you for this. I went to church as a child and was raised my a believer, but never had my “broken bread” moment until my divorce years later. Now, Im learning that it is a daily challenge to truly seek His face.

  • Gail Lynn

    Dearest Angie: (I can say that because 1)I feel I know you and 2) I’m sure you are the appropriate age to be able to be my daughter!) Thank you for the post on Emmaus; I didn’t know the word meant “healing spings”. It gives the story an entirely knew prospect for me, now. I have been to Israel and walked some of the places our Saviour walked. I am SO walking on that Emmaus Road right now – so much healing to be done. Thank you for sharing your heart so openly. Happy Sunday!

  • Susan

    I mean seriously, Angie…now I just come to your latest post, copy it and print it out and then read it online. Because I know, without a doubt, that the next morning I will be using your post as part of, if not all of, my devotion time.

    You totally bless me.

    And, for the record, the thought of counting on your last post never crossed my mind.

    Hugs, Susan

  • Jamie

    You are a gifted writer! I just can’t get enough if your inspiring posts. Thanks for sharing your story! I am a busy homeschool mom of three, in leadership in several areas, and trying to give my kids opportunities to be involved in clubs, sports, choir, etc. I TOTALLY need to SLOW down and let Him “catch up to me!!!” I have a tendency to read Scripture for what the words on the paper say, and not letting Him speak to my spirit!!

    I pray that God uses this blog to draw people to Himself!! What a great ministry you have here!! Thanks again!

  • crabapple

    I was directed to your blog a few days ago. I read it from the beginning last night into this morning.

    You are a lovely beacon for God’s glory!

    I thought of you and your walk with Him frequently this morning while I was in church. I felt like I was being tapped on the shoulder all morning. When I got home and saw your blog this morning, it was a bit closer to a shove on the back.

    Our preacher spoke of Judgment and how we are not to judge for we will be judged as well. He spoke of Sam, a 13 year old boy who died in the Iowa Tornado and how he wanted to be a preacher. He preached about his namesake, Samuel. Then he spoke about the church in KS that pickets funerals of fallen soldiers. Our preacher had found the blog of this young man’s youth minister and found that this church planned on picketing at his funeral.

    When I read your blog after church and you mentioned a story about Samuel, I found great irony that this has been mentioned to me two times today.

    I felt as if He is not talking to me, He is YELLING at me. I need to put myself aside and pay attention. It will certainly make me a better person, mother, daughter, and wife.

    God bless you and your family and may you continue to be a soldier for God’s army.

  • Jacquie

    Angie, what a beautiful way to share the gospel. Our sermon this morning was on the wide and narrow road and your testimony tells how sweet and blessed the narrow road is. I had a good friend tell me once that we can’t wait until we’re perfect to seek God, He’ll meet us right where we are! That’s always meant a lot to me. You have a way with words that is very comforting and thought-provoking. God is using you to minister in something as simple as a blog! Amazing!

  • SG

    Thank you so much for this post Angie! I love what you said here! It is a beautiful testimony because it is real and simple. It speaks to me, as I know it will speak to others, because your words have captured the naked intent of your heart. Sweet sister your road has been so hard lately… It overwhelms me to see the way God has molded your heart in these hard times AND how HE now uses that heart to pour out love and grace to “the blogger nation.” I love the heart and faith God has given you! Keep sharing!

  • rusty’swife

    Angie,

    What a beautiful, post and picture it paints. I have done the 3 day walk to Emmaus which is patterned after these scriptures, and God will and does bring you to the “breaking of the bread” during the weekend. He then restores and revives you to go out and minister to others.

    Oh, thanks for the pss, you are just to funny..I hope your face wasn’t to red.

    Love ya,
    Sallye

  • Jungheims

    Angie, sometimes I am discouraged at how harsh people have been to you. You have been so transparent and loving and then for people to wonder about such personal things or to not be authentic to you must be very painful. It reminds me of how God must feel when I question Him and His motives. Thank you for answering as He always does, with love, patience and more grace than is deserved. You are a blessing and God is using you for His purposes. There’s no higher calling than to be His vessel and you are a lovely one at that!

    Blessings,
    Lisa
    Grace’s Mom

  • Sara

    Ok, I just saw the pps. on this post and hurt myself laughing! I love your bluntness even more than I love your life decisions.

    You are a riot! Keep being spunky…

  • Amy

    Angie,

    I am amazed by your gift of sharing the gospel. Your life is a beautiful testament of the “REALNESS” of Christ. I know He is SO proud you!

    Matthew 25:23…Well done, good and faithful servant!

    Blessings!
    Amy

  • Stacy D

    This post, like always, is beauftiful. Thank you for sharing.

  • Michelle

    anyone “counting” probably ought to find a better hobby, donchathink? That kind of info is for you and Todd (and God) not anyone else. Do people really have the gall to grill you on that or ask such rude questions? woza. You are a bigger person than me (figuratively speaking, cause I am WAY bigger physically)…tell em to pound sand. ;)

  • Jen McD

    We covered this EXACT scripture in service this morning. (is that a God thing, or what?!) I love the way you’ve worded it – invite him in, he will accept. Our Pastor highlighted how they were so caught up in their pain, their experience, their grief they didn’t even see him standing there. We should pray in full belief that He will always be standing there. Thank you for sharing what God has pointed out twice to me today. I guess He’s driving the point home.

  • Liz @ My Full Cup

    I love coming here and getting glimpses into your heart. I always walk away encouraged.

    A quote from one of my favorite books (stepping Heavenward) says something like, “A few verses carefully read and pondered instead of a a chapter or two read just for mere forms sake.” I love the reminder to slow down, dive into God’s Word expecting to meet Him there. I shouldn’t read God’s Word just to read it. I need to come with an open heart ready to receive what He has to say.

    You have a beautiful heart Angie. Thank you for allowing the Lord to use you.

    A sister in Christ,
    Elizabeth

    P.S. Have you ever read the book, “The Stranger on the road to Emmaus” by John Cross? This study is actually how my husband got saved 10 years ago. The book starts off with the story of the two men on the road to Emmaus. I love LOVE this story. Anyway, I highly recommend the book to anyone and everyone! :)

  • KK

    Oh, what a ‘walk’ and thanks for blessing so very many people by sharing ‘your story’.
    If you decide to read the Bible once again, I encourage you to read Max Lucado’s, Grace for the Moment Daily Bible. I share it with so many people, knowing we are reading the Bible ‘together’ on a daily basis. Each day includes a devotional, various Scripture, then a Psalm and a Proverb for the day. It is incredible to read and also to share with others on our ‘daily walk’ with HIM.
    Thank you for continuing to pour out your ‘heart and soul’ to everyone. The ‘realness’ is so meaningful and for that, thank you.
    Congratulations on your purse/sale/contribution and I will be sending my contribution as well very soon!
    Have a wonderfully blessed Sunday and many thanks again for being ‘you’.
    Psalm 46:10
    Numbers 6:24-26

  • Ginger

    This is such perfect timing… I have been in a discussion about how God talks to us with a couple of friends of mine, to the point I was questioning does He really speak to us… when I know that He does. Thank you for sharing. On time…

  • Holly

    What a terrific post! I am a fairly new reader and can already see that God is using the giftings He has placed within you to bring glory to His name and draw others closer to Him! His love for us is so amazing!
    I just wanted to say that I so identify with much of what you wrote today- and have grown closer to the Lord in relationship, not in religion since I turned 30, however, I sometimes go through phases when I get ahead of him and just keep thinking I’ll slow down for him later and one day turns into two, into three, into… well you get the picture. Then I long for the closeness with Him but feel like I am so far ahead that I can’t find my way back! I have done the Bible speed reading too and then wonder in frustration why I didn’t get anything out of it.
    You speak with much wisdom. Perhaps your wisdom has been gained through painful trials, but it is worth more than gold.
    Thank you for sharing it with others.
    Your 4 girls are absolutely beautiful. I so look forward to the day when we are all together in Heaven and have eternity to worship God there and share stories of His fingerprints on our lives. I will look for you and Miss Audrey Caroline with joy.
    Blessings,
    Holly M. in North Carolina

  • kendra

    Hi Angie,
    Thank you for being so blunt, and telling it like it is, in all aspects…Whether it be about your coming to be closer to Jesus, or about your and Todd’s not having sex before marriage.
    I love that about you!!!
    Blessings,
    kendra (Portland Or)

  • Precious Blessings

    What a way to start my Sunday!! :) Thanks for sharing your story. I love to hear how friens have come to know Christ and it just amazes me to see just how God works in the lives of his people. I pray the Lord will use your words to touch the life of another.

    Have a blessed day,
    Jennifer from TX

  • handbags*n*pigtails

    Just wanted to let you know I appreciate your sweet and quiet spirit, Angie.
    Ive read through as you’ve tackled many different things: from your deep loss to dishonest people to nosy people:),etc…
    You address everything very calmly and I wanted to let you know its been blessing me as well as convicting me that I need to do the same in my own life.
    Happy Sunday and may the Lord richly bless you even today.
    ~Sarah in NY

  • Winona

    Do you teach a class or anything? Have you written a book? You should! And what better topic than drawing near unto God! This post could be your first chapter. You are anointed, and I am blessed to have “met” you here!
    In Him

  • Sue

    Angie,

    It is great to hear from you again. I have been praying.

    I have been a christian for well over 30 years but I still struggle with reading the Bible SLOWLY (I too, tend to speed read everything). Thank you for your reminder to read very slowly and take it all in. Instead of trying to get a certain amount in I am going to remember to slow down and make more of an effort to let God speak to me.

    And about your pss.. It never even crossed my mind that your and Todd’s relationship was nothing but pure before you were married but thanks for your honesty.

    Whenever I read your posts I feel that God is speaking through your words. Thank you for always giving Him the Glory.

    Untill next time…

    Sue

  • mandy_moo

    Hehe, I had to giggle a bit at your PPS. Nevertheless, I admire you and Todd for waiting until you were married; my husband and I waited as well.

  • A is for Angela

    Seriously…..have you (or will you) consider exploring the realm of teaching/writing a Bible study? I’ve been a Beth Moore “groupie” for years, and your writing style is every bit as personal and motivating as hers! (Not trying to dis Beth or anything….just wanted you to know that you are gifted with the pen (or I guess I should say “keyboard”). Please consider this!

    And thank you for today’s entry. I’ve never heard the road to Emaus explained so clearly.

  • mandy_moo

    er, I guess to clarify, I mean I giggled at your bluntness. goodness, open mouth,insert foot. It’s been a long and tiresome day for me. I was asked to speak in front of the whole congregation today and was up until 12:30 this morning writing my speech, and after speaking, I was physically exhausted (that’s what happens when your whole body shakes for ten minutes straight) so I think my brain is gone. I don’t know how you manage to always come up with such inspired things to say, because it was a challenge for me :)

  • Angie

    Thank you Angie for that beautiful post. Thank you for all that you have done for so many of us. God is so awesome that he gives you these awesome words to share with us. I am dedicated to sit down and get all the way through my bible. I have tries many times and am “one fire” for Gods words and strength.
    Angie
    adrian MN

  • davidcatherinewilson

    Hi Angie,
    I love how God calls us all in different ways according to our personalities and what we need. I enjoy hearing people’s testimonies and how God uniquely spoke to them in such a special way. I love your story! Thanks for sharing it and being so open. I have no doubt that there will be people who come to know Christ through your blog. How exciting!

    p.s. I love your last post about how you had your girls.

  • Jill

    Sweet Angie, Your words are a perfect picture of what I wrote about today on my blog. His love no matter what we have done is so great for us. His desire is for us to come, believe and receive all that He has done for us through the life and death of His Son – Jesus Christ our Lord. You continue to be such a blessing and I trust that God will continue to protect you from those whose heart is hurting so much they choose to live out their sin in hurtful ways. Trust that God is working in them as you continue to shine His light so brightly.

    Sending you hugs and love! Can’t wait to meet you in person – I like 100′s on here pray to be given that opportunity this side of heaven – what a praise fest that would be!

    Love and blessings sweet Sister!
    Jill
    http://www.forevernevernalways1.blogspot.com

  • Jess

    Ang,

    Wow!! Thank you for another beautiful and very touching post. I can’t even put into words how amazing you are. :)
    You are a light to all of us and I pray that you will continue to be blessed. :)
    Please give hugs to all of your family for me!

    Love you lots,
    Jess :)

  • Kristi

    This is beautiful. I am just in awe, that with all the recent pain you’ve been through, your heart is so clearly geared towards helping others. You are truly an inspiration.

  • amy

    Oh Angie, I just love your heart! Thankyou! Audrey’s sweet little life is still impacting all of us. He is using this blog which you started because of her to reach so many for Christ and to draw those of us who already know Him to go deeper in our relationship with Him. That’s who your Audrey is, Angie. She’s really something. :) God had a perfect plan for her life and He is still using her life for His glory through you being a voice for her. Thankyou for being faithful because it is truly blessing all of us!

    Want to hear something funny??? My husband is now pastoring our church and I keep asking him what’s he’s preaching on…and giving him ideas from your blog!!! HA! I probably talk about something I’ve learned from you a million times a day!!! So….on behalf of all of us at Midway Baptist Church in Jena, La, THANKYOU!!!!!! :P

    lots of love to you!!!!
    Amy

  • Fran

    Just beautiful Angie. I don’t comment often but each time I read your posts, I am completely encouraged and blessed beyond measure.

    Bless you and your precious family.
    May God continue to pour into you so you can pour out to us.

    Blessings,
    Fran

  • Felton/Casey

    Angie- you are so funny! That pps was seriously blunt. But you know what, I thought that your previous post was pretty clear, so I hope that people were nice when asking for clarification. Honestly, I was not married with my first child, and I was led by God to a church that accepted me and my child with open arms. Nine years later I am still at that church and my walk with God has grown in an amazing way. With God’s help, my three children are being raised the right way by my husband and I, contrary to the way that I was raised as a child. It is just so important that people not judge. If my church would have turned me away the outcome of my life and my children’s lives may have been much different. I am thankful that the Lord brought me to where I am.

  • Meredith

    I am SO loving reading your blog…can’t remember how I ran across it but very thankful that I did. Praying for you and your sweet family.

    “Lord, You have assigned me my portion and my cup, You have made my lot secure. The boundary lines have fallen in pleasant places; surely I have a delightful inheritance.” Psalm 16:5-6

    Meredith – Gainesville, GA

  • Stef

    the drama that sometimes comes along with blogging makes me laugh. :)

    Thank you for this post. I emailed it to a friend of mine, who is struggling and I know it will bless her.

  • RZ

    Where’s a good place to start for someone who is searching, but feels the Bible is much too daunting to start at the beginning?

  • valerie

    I love this post. You have such a gift for writing.
    Just yesterday I was driving by myself and was going to be on the road for about 25 minutes. I almost always have the radio on or a cd playing and I just felt God speaking to me to turn everything off and just listen. It was a neat time with Him.
    I think the more time we spend with Him, the more He will reveal His Word to us in a special way.
    Thanks again for sharing these two passages and what you learned from them.
    God bless you & your family.
    Love,
    Valerie

  • Julie

    After your last post, I sat down with my bible and read, The Lord put it on my heart to read Isaiah 30 and it had some wonderful words to me from the Lord.

    Verse 18 it hit me, these are the words the Lord has been saying to me for months:
    18 Yet the LORD longs to be gracious to you; he rises to show you compassion. For the LORD is a God of justice.Blessed are all who wait for him! 19 O people of Zion, who live in Jerusalem, you will weep no more. How gracious he will be when you cry for help! As soon as he hears, he will answer you. 20 Although the Lord gives you the bread of adversity and the water of affliction, your teachers will be hidden no more; with your own eyes you will see them. 21 Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, “This is the way; walk in it.”

    I am walking in the way and along the way hearing the truth. Thanks for listening to the Lord, he is using you.

  • Darlee

    Oh my gosh Angie,

    That was so beautiful! God is truly using you to help me slow down and listen to Him. I’m waking up to Him with your help. Thank you so much.

    Darlee

  • Simplifying me

    I sit in amazement of your strength, tears, and I praise God for each one of us.

    The ability to minister through our stories are priceless.

    Each one of us challenging the other to look, love and give grace like no other.

    Can’t wait to dance in heaven.

  • raising2sons

    Hi Angie,

    You know, there have been many recent times that I’ve *almost* left you a comment, but then I think, you already have so many to read through! LOL.

    Anyhow, this post was such a great way to reach out to others, and a true example of how Christianity should be. In the past, I’ve taken Bible studies through my church, but honestly, I’ve been feeling more connected to Jesus through you…and your very real and raw honesty.

    Lastly, I would love for my husband and I to be on the same page with our faith. He is very much like how you described yourself to be so long ago. If I can, I’m going to try to get him to read your blog. That’s a longshot, but you never know.

    Many blessings.
    Stacy

  • petrii

    Thank you for your boldness. It is the very thing God is speaking to me about right now. I wasn’t going to come over here right now (I need to get supper going), but thought I’d just drop by and see if you’d posted anything new, and here it is; boldness in living color on my computer. I wish I could tell you what confirmation this is for me right now. I love Jesus and have been saved for many years, but God is so doing a work right now, and He is calling me to be bold in my walk with Him, and that is what I see in this post; boldness. Thank you for your honesty. Sorry this comment is so long ~~ Dawn

  • Nancy

    This is very powerful and it is my prayer that others will let Christ enter their hearts through reading this. Your words are so inspirational for others and God has given you the beautiful gift of “words”.

    I have been on a 72 hour retreat called “The Walk to Emmaus”. It is interdenominationl but under the United Methodist Church “umbrella” through the Upper Room. When I first read your title I thought that was where you were headed but you actually had your on “WALK”. The retreat is for Christians and is designed to help the Christian to have a closer relationship with God. It is a remarkable mountain top experience! I was spiritually thirsty before my walk and it changed my walk with God.

    Bless you dear Angie for sharing from your heart the words that God has given you. You are a great “listener” to God’s call and you are a blessing to all of us!

  • The Smith’s

    Thanks so much for sharing what a wonderful story and testimony!!! I love to read your post it is so inspiring to me.

  • Erin

    You are an amazing woman! :) Thanks again for sharing!

  • Alyssa K. Krebs

    You are amazing. I am a Christian and I have emailed you before because I go to Grace. You are so amazing! Thank you so much for sharing your story and your faith!
    Alyssa

  • lori

    Thanks for sharing

  • Hope Wilson

    Angie…love the pic! You are absolutely beautiful & the way you write shows the “true” beauty that lies within your heart as well. Thank you for following God’s prompting & witnessing through this post…God has blessed you with the gift of writing. Again, thanks for being “real” & for your openness!

  • Nancy

    Thanks for sharing. It is great to see photos.

    I am really going through so difficult trials and I am really seeking the Lord, but as a new Christian I am still learning so much. I feel like when I am doing a Bible study with Beth Moore that everything just makes sense, but when I try to relate I am totally lost. How do you know where the Lord is directing you to go in scripture and how does he speak to you? I have had moments where I have felt him working through my every action, but I never feel like I can hear him.

  • lissilulu

    My chest has had a feeling of anxiety lately, but it isnt an anxious feeling…its more of a yearning. I want to know *who* Jesus is not *how* His scriptures pertain to my life.

    I have had a simple but live-changing prayer lately….Lord become so real to me, *YOU* not what you can do for me.

    I have known the Lord for the past 16 years and He has been an amazing live-changing presence in my life, since I walked back into His arms at that time.

    I would not be who I am or make the choices that I do in strength without Him. It’s all for Him.

  • Jennifer

    My heart aches to know God’s word everyday and to be in it, but I am so lazy and get caught up in the daily routine. I have known the LORD as my Savior for a long time, but I need to KNOW him more. Thank you for fueling my desire even more.

  • jill

    Angie,

    I found your blog sometime in March, I think, and love reading your posts! I also have a friend who had a similar experience with her baby. You have an amazing story…thanks for blessing all of us.

    I loved reading your story of finding Christ. I grew up in a Christian home and accepted Christ as a child, but at fourteen I was asking God to reveal Himself to me(just like you). Through the study of His Word in Bible Study Fellowship(BSF), I have grown closer to Him in a way I would never have imagined. I love to tell everyone about the study because it is world-wide and interdenominational so it is very unifying among the churches and has been life-changing for me. The website is http://www.bsfinternational.org.

    ~jill
    http://www.xanga.com/unseenthings

    ps. by the way, how do you ever have time to read all of your comments? :)

  • Jenny

    What a beautiful post…with your permission I’d love to share it with my cell group. I think it will be greatly received!!
    Big hugs,

  • Amber

    I needed to be reminded.
    Prayer- check
    Living intentionally- check
    Loving God with all my heart- check
    Spending time in His word- much needed

    Thank you for the post!

  • Tylertopia

    You are so wonderful! Thank you for sharing so much here…I absolutley love coming to your blog and reading what you have to say. Encouraging, real and such an amazing example of God’s love…no doubt, His light shines through you. Hope you and your family are having a blessed day! :o )

  • megaleemoo

    Thank you for being YOU!!! You are inspiring and make me want to be a better person in both my everyday life and my faith. I have thoroughly enjoyed getting to know you through your blog and I feel blessed to have the opportunity. I just felt like saying that to you!! Thank you so much. You have also inspired me to get my bible out and not “just” go to church on Sunday but to actually live in more of a Christian way. Thank you thank you thank you!!

  • Joy

    I laughed so hard at the “two things Bible-pointing” taught you. Especially #2!!! I am so guilty of doing that sometimes.

    Anyway, thanks for being so candid, as always. And I love how blunt you were at the end about your sex life. I conceived my first before we were married and I got a lot of heat for it from the church sadly. Some people still have attitude. But I’ve moved on and thank You, God, for Your grace is enough.

  • maggieallen123

    Thank you once again for speaking the truth. I know my sweet God is so real when I read the things you write. There is no way a human being can get through the things of life like you and your husband without the love of God. Being able to hear Him when we slow down. I would like to suggest the book “The Shack.” It is a tough book to get through…but it gets God, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit out of the box we put them in and gives a different perspective. It is also a book of healing. Just a suggestion. Thank you for church today. : )

  • Kylie

    Hi Angie,
    I heard about your blog through a friend on another site and have been reading it since a little before Audrey was born. I have never commented as I don’t like to leave comments as annonymous. Now that I’ve gotten around to creating my own Blogspot account, I thought I would make myself known. I really just wanted to let you know how much I admire your strength, courage and faith. Especially through such trying times. I know we’ve never met but my heart goes out to you and your beautiful family.

  • Elizabeth Behan

    Angie- That is one of my favorite scriptures. I painted in on my wall (‘cuz I’m too cheap to pay for the sticky letters ) anyway it took me 10 hours to put that verse on my dinning room wall and I spent that time with Him remembering the days when He was walking next to me yet I didnt know Him and the wonderful day that He broke the bread, began to give it to me and then I was able to recognize Him. He loves to spend the days walking with us and talking with us. I thank Him that He showed himself to you b4 and during this time because the journey would have been so much worse without Him.

  • RSR2003

    And praise God for that Angie!! Could you write sometime about your wait to be with Todd until you got married? I KNOW women everywhere (especially young women) would be SO encouraged. The way you write and the way God is blessing us through your life is just amazing. Thank you for your post today…I am so encouraged!! :)

    Your sister in Christ,
    Rosie………:)

  • Darlene

    Angie! I just want to encourage you… if you ever doubt your “pen” on this “paper” called blogging, DON’T. Praise be to God that you are in this for HIM! Thank you for sharing your story, so that others may be lead to His Word. Thank you for being a worker in the Harvest. Your transparency will become God’s blessing in another’s life!

  • McCray’s

    Angie,

    You are annointed.

    The Lord truly used this post to speak directly to me…you have no clue how encouraged my heart feels right now. So much so, that if I didn’t have my children to care for right now, I would probably go lock myself up in my bedroom with my Bible…just my Lord and me. I truly believe that He is using the words of this post to begin much needed (and desired) “renewal” in my life. My 4 yr. old daughter has a malignant brain tumor and the road we have traveled these past 3 yrs. has been so painful that, at times, my heart hurt so bad I honestly thought it would stop beating. Needless to say, God is definitley in the process of transforming me into the person He knows will ultimately give Him the most glory…and it has been painful…but it is through this “refining” process that I have grown to truly know who He is. Thank you so much for being sensative enough to Him that He could speak directly to my heart with your (or His!) words that He knew I needed to hear.

    With a very grateful heart and faithful reader,
    Sarah

    PS When I have time, I will have to e-mail you an interesting/ironic story about how meaningful Selah’s song, “Wonderful, Merciful Savior” has been to me over the past 3 years…and now this blog…God is THAT big! :)

  • tiredone2008

    Angie – I read cbb.com quite a bit and that’s how I came to know of your blog. I’ve never commented on a before but for some reason I am tonight.

    Please know that your words alone give ME strength. Unfortunatley, I’ve fallen deeper into the depths of addiction and am scared . I do know that He is here with me. For reasons only He knows, he loves me and keeps me here in spite of myself.

    Above all of this though, I still serve an awesome God. Of this I am sure.

    I guess the one thing that prompted me to write was this: As a 20-year old-single mother (at the time, Im 31 now) I moved 600 miles away w/ my baby , an aunt, & no family support .My aunt took me to a christian counselor for PPD and he gave me a framed scripture –It was Jeremiah 29.11

    I continue to see that same scripture /reference at certain points in my life, & the other day while checking this blog , I clicked on your husbands myspace; the 1st thing I saw was (you guessed it), Jeremiah 29:11.

    I wanted you to know that your words have given me great comfort.

    May you be as blessed as fully as you’ve blessed others.

    K

  • sara

    Beautiful. Strong. Deep. Amazing. I love how God has called you closer to Him. it is hard not to covet what you have gained through your pain; I love your transparency & pray that people are reached through your love for Him.

  • Barb B

    Thank you. I needed to hear/read that. I now have a new mantra for those times when I feel overwhelmed.

  • Lou Girl

    Angie ~ God has granted you the wonderful gift of writing. You have a wonderful way of making words turn into 1000 pictures in our minds. Thank you for sharing (the beginning) of your testimony with us. Obviously I wasn’t the only one awaiting this wonderful entry, but I do want to say thank you because it feels like you were talking to just me, as if we were having a sleep over in a tent, looking out at the beautiful night stars. Thank you for your awesome word pictures Angie.

  • Bonnie

    Angie, I have been following your journey for serveral months now. This is my first post and I would like to say that you are truly a beautiful picture of Christ. He has given you such wisdom and such compassion for people. I have never lost a child, I can’t imagine. I did have postpartum depression with both my children the second time around was worse. It was like a death, almost, I had to receive counseling for 6 months. I’m a Pastor’s wife, and I’m sorry to say that I don’t have the spiritual strength that you have. I wish I did. I’ve a burden on my heart: my dad is unsaved and I know you will pray for him, I’m asking as many people to pray for my dad that will, he truly needs the Lord,he is an alcoholic. Thank-you so much for your words of strength and encouragement. I pray God would continue to annoint your days ahead as you and your family serves Him.

  • Marla Taviano

    Praising God for the glory you bring Him on your blog! He is shining so brightly through you!!

  • Jenileigh

    Thank-you for sharing this. It was beautiful!

    (I am copying and pasting the comment below….I commented your new look below and wanted to make sure you got to read this.)

    I love the new look! When I first began reading your blog (it was the same style I had began with) I thought to myself, Bring the Rain what a beautiful name this blog would look gorgeous with a make- over. And here I am weeks later and its made over! I love it when things like that happen.

    I have been reading since the Pitcher post and I have read everything posted before then. My heart goes out to. Your photos before and after dear Audrey are the most beautiful pictures I have ever seen in my.

    You also introduced me to Selah. I had heard of them but never really listened to them. Now I hear them singing such sweet praises to our King on my blog and my myspace. I have cried through your post, prayed through your post and even laughed out loud. You have a wonderous way of sharing Angie! I haven’t posted before (that I can remember, ha! I visit so many blogs) and I didn’t because you have sooo many comments. I didn’t want to burden you, but after reading your desires to know who’s reading I thought it only right to let you know, I’m a reader and I love you and your family and you all are in my prayers. I have shared you and your story with my husband and my children and each family member that comes into my home. I have sat them down at this computer to read your post about the pitcher. The Lord has used you my dear friend to IMPACT me.

    BIG HUGS,
    Jenileigh

    (I may comment this again uptop….just in case you miss it!)

  • lovethatcaptivates

    I slowed down and He met me here tonight. Your words have spoken volumes into my heart. I’m so thankful that Jesus is using you in this amazing way. You truly are a light to so many.

  • Beauty From Ashes

    Angie,
    Again, your words are beautiful and timely. I love reading your blog..I can’t wait to see what you’ll say next. Also, thanks for sharing about Todd and you deciding to wait until marriage..that gives us “singletons” so much hope!
    Love,
    ashley

  • Rhea

    Thank you for sharing your journey. Everyday I read “Bring The Rain” as my daily devotional. It encourages me to be happy in all circumstances. I am a mother of SIX beautiful children – Emily, Aaron, Eli, Owen and Olivia(twins) and sweet baby Anna. Owen and Olivia were born at 31 weeks. Olivia was stricken with Necrotizing Entercolitis at nine days old and lost 2/3 of her small intestine, 1/3 of her large colon and her ICV. The doctors were discouraging us to be hopeful that she would live. Well she is 2 1/2 and is doing AMAZING!!! Praise God! I tell her doctors all the time that she is my miracle baby. Then, the plot thickens and baby Anna gets viral encephalitis in April. She is doing OK, but the recovery is long. Thank you for encouraging me to be joyful.
    I wanted to ask you where you got your beautiful tile with your family’s name and verse from Joshua from? My husband and I were admiring it when we watched the video.
    Thank you for reading my story. Please pray for us as we struggle with health concerns in our family. Your family is in our prayers everyday.
    Hugs!

  • Diana and James

    Angie,
    I have told so many friends about your site, and make a special effort to tell people who don’t know God about it. I know they are reading your comments and I am so happy that you share everything that you do. I know that I may not be the one who brings my friends to know the Lord, but I believe that with diciples like you, it will happen. Thanks for your knowledge and just for being so real. You truly are an amazing person, and I am blessed to know about your life…..

    Thank you for everything….

    Diana

  • Skerry

    Angie, Your words continue to touch my heart and my heart continues to pray for you and your family. Thank you…Kerry

  • CG, E3 & Sons

    Thanks so much for this encouragement to seek our Lord. I feel inspired, and I’m grateful for your words, and your willingness to share your story with us.

    - CG

  • CG, E3 & Sons

    Thanks so much for this encouragement to seek our Lord. I feel inspired, and I’m grateful for your words, and your willingness to share your story with us.

    - CG

  • CG, E3 & Sons

    Thanks so much for this encouragement to seek our Lord. I feel inspired, and I’m grateful for your words, and your willingness to share your story with us.

    - CG

  • CG, E3 & Sons

    Thanks so much for this encouragement to seek our Lord. I feel inspired, and I’m grateful for your words, and your willingness to share your story with us.

    - CG

  • CG, E3 & Sons

    Thanks so much for this encouragement to seek our Lord. I feel inspired, and I’m grateful for your words, and your willingness to share your story with us.

    - CG

  • CG, E3 & Sons

    Thanks so much for this encouragement to seek our Lord. I feel inspired, and I’m grateful for your words, and your willingness to share your story with us.

    - CG

  • CG, E3 & Sons

    Thanks so much for this encouragement to seek our Lord. I feel inspired, and I’m grateful for your words, and your willingness to share your story with us.

    - CG

  • CG, E3 & Sons

    Thanks so much for this encouragement to seek our Lord. I feel inspired, and I’m grateful for your words, and your willingness to share your story with us.

    - CG

  • CG, E3 & Sons

    Thanks so much for this encouragement to seek our Lord. I feel inspired, and I’m grateful for your words, and your willingness to share your story with us.

    - CG

  • CG, E3 & Sons

    Thanks so much for this encouragement to seek our Lord. I feel inspired, and I’m grateful for your words, and your willingness to share your story with us.

    - CG

  • CG, E3 & Sons

    Thanks so much for this encouragement to seek our Lord. I feel inspired, and I’m grateful for your words, and your willingness to share your story with us.

    - CG

  • CG, E3 & Sons

    Thanks so much for this encouragement to seek our Lord. I feel inspired, and I’m grateful for your words, and your willingness to share your story with us.

    - CG

  • CG, E3 & Sons

    Thanks so much for this encouragement to seek our Lord. I feel inspired, and I’m grateful for your words, and your willingness to share your story with us.

    - CG

  • CG, E3 & Sons

    Thanks so much for this encouragement to seek our Lord. I feel inspired, and I’m grateful for your words, and your willingness to share your story with us.

    - CG

  • CG, E3 & Sons

    Thanks so much for this encouragement to seek our Lord. I feel inspired, and I’m grateful for your words, and your willingness to share your story with us.

    - CG

  • CG, E3 & Sons

    Thanks so much for this encouragement to seek our Lord. I feel inspired, and I’m grateful for your words, and your willingness to share your story with us.

    - CG

  • Tiffany

    I love how the Lord reaches each one of us differently. He is too amazing to contemplate! Your story is beautiful ~ thanks for sharing it.

  • Eric and Michelle

    Very beautiful Angie,

    Michelle
    http://www.journeytomercy.blogspot.com

  • The Yartym’s

    Wonderful post, sweet friend. While I was reading it, it reminded of a spiritual walk to Emmaus retreat I went on. I don’t know if you have ever been on one before or heard of them. It was an incredible weekend and such a faithbuilding one as well. Here is the link if you are intersted in checking one out. They have womens weekends and mens weekend retreats as well. You and Todd would both be blessed by attending a walk, if you haven’t already. http://www.upperroom.org/emmaus/

  • Kristina

    Thank you, Angie. That was beautiful, and exactly what I needed to hear today. I will email you.
    Kristina

  • Rebekah :)

    I read your blog and it has been a real inspiration! I’ve never commented before, but I want you to know I was laughing when I read the end of this entry!!! When my hubby and I “got pregnant” (we were VERY young), people were counting back in their heads and trying to not let it be obvious- but it was! Ooooh, that used to really bug me, but now I think it is just funny.

    I love you how you just said it out and told everybody! Not that it is anyone’s business, and not that it was the point you were trying to make!

    Thanks for being so open to all of us who don’t know you yet and for sharing your life, your walk, your struggles! I can’t wait to meet you in heaven someday!!!

  • Emily

    Angie,
    i have never posted before, but have followed your story for a few months. Thank you for sharing how God showed up in your life. Your story is my story and so many others. thank you for giving a voice to your uncertainty and to your amazing love. be blessed today. And hear Him speak!

  • Lis

    I have been reading your blog for a few months now and thought I would share with you how much I admire the way you immediately turned to the Lord in your pain and sorrow. My husband, a Marine, was killed in Iraq over three years ago and for over a year I just closed my heart, it hurt to much to feel. Though I went to church weekly I opened my Bible only a handful of times that first year. I couldn’t feel the Lord I just felt alone. I remember the first scripture that pierced my soul: Psalms 139:1-12, especially the last verse, “I will say, “Let the darkness cover me, and the night wrap itself around me,” even darkness to you is not dark, and night is as clear as the day.” The Lord saw me even when I wrapped myself in the night, when all around me was darkness, He saw and loved me clear as the day. Anyhow thank you for sharing your heart.

  • TressaMOMof3

    You are a beautiful woman, with a beautiful heart. Thank you for bringing so many people to the Lord. I know you will be blessed greatly!

    Tressa

  • Beckycain6

    Hey Angie,

    I tried a million a times to post a comment yesterday from my Black-Jack phone. Blah-technology. My family and I are in Florida getting our buns tan.

    Great, awesome post. I have to tell you something amazing. Can you call or email when you get the chance? 804.938.5539 or beckycain6@comcast.net.

    By the way, hilarious on the p.s.s. I can’t believe some of the retarded questions that drift around. Hate to sound like my own echo, but you know that this world is a great big place–full of a wide plethora of people. Grin and bear it. And…..keep on being blunt. People need that sometimes…. Ar, har, har, har, har…..

    Blessings and prayers to you,
    Becky

  • Brittany Wertz

    This is exactly what I needed to hear today Angie. Thanks so much! Your words never cease to inspire me.
    I’m in the situation right now you were in a few years ago, I believe in Christ, but I find it a chore to do quiet time and pray. I’m really working on that, and this really inspired me today! Keep up the good work! Be blessed!

  • screamofcontinuousness

    Angie,
    I love you! I love your bluntness and I adore the fact that you have the same “speed reading” problem that I do.

    Deliberately slowing down to just BE WITH God is one of my biggest challenges.

    God Bless you,
    Deirdre

  • Mami Sue

    Angie, thank you for your testimony. God has gifted you in having a way with words. Keep using that for His kingdom!
    Thank you for the reminder that we are all on the Road to Emmaus!
    Love, Sue

  • Jaysi

    I love when God makes things so amazingly clear to you. Your post has spoken to me in so many ways. I just had a conversation this week about just being a “blessing to God”. Just taking time to be present with him, and be there for him, rather than asking for something from him. The verse, “Speak Lord. Your servant is listening,” has just quenched my soul. I will be using this to get me through my week. Thank you for continuing to be a blessing in my life.

  • twondra

    Once again, you’re amazing! Thanks for sharing so much. You give me hope. My husband and I have been trying to have a baby for 5 years and it’s been so hard…harder than I ever thought it could be. We’ve had to do inseminations with a doctor and we are on our 12th insemination (the average is about 3 cycles for my age). It’s devastating and hard to handle sometimes. But you give me so much strength and hope. I know you get e-mails from a lot of people who have lost children and are inspired by you, but I just wanted to let you know that as someone who is struggling to have a child, you inspire me also and give me strength. I want to thank you for that with all my heart.

  • scrap&cruznaholic

    Some people are so GULLABLE. I never gave the “timing” a thought. I’m so ashamed of the comments that some people write. Do some people think with their bottoms or what?

    I don’t take the time to read all the blogs, sometimes I skim, sometimes I don’t. When I read, there always seems to be another blessing for me…..one recent post about a lady who was saying that you Angie & Audrey’s Story have brought her back to the Lord………that’s what God has intended (or so it seems) for you to be a vessel to reach others. When I read those posts it makes me very happy, and I say “There you go again, God. Angie you & Audrey have reached another lost soul.”

    Thank you from the bottom of my heart for caring & sharing. Forget those people who have no common sense or who don’t have a heart, there are sooooooooooo many who need you Angie & Audrey’s Story to draw them closer to the Lord & to cope with daily life in this ugly old world.

    “Thank you Heavenly Father for sending Angie my way. She is truly a blessing to me.”

    Love from Rose in Nashville

  • scrap&cruznaholic

    Some people are so GULLABLE. I never gave the “timing” a thought. I’m so ashamed of the comments that some people write. Do some people think with their bottoms or what?

    I don’t take the time to read all the blogs, sometimes I skim, sometimes I don’t. When I read, there always seems to be another blessing for me…..one recent post about a lady who was saying that you Angie & Audrey’s Story have brought her back to the Lord………that’s what God has intended (or so it seems) for you to be a vessel to reach others. When I read those posts it makes me very happy, and I say “There you go again, God. Angie you & Audrey have reached another lost soul.”

    Thank you from the bottom of my heart for caring & sharing. Forget those people who have no common sense or who don’t have a heart, there are sooooooooooo many who need you Angie & Audrey’s Story to draw them closer to the Lord & to cope with daily life in this ugly old world.

    “Thank you Heavenly Father for sending Angie my way. She is truly a blessing to me.”

    Love from Rose in Nashville

  • scrap&cruznaholic

    Some people are so GULLABLE. I never gave the “timing” a thought. I’m so ashamed of the comments that some people write. Do some people think with their bottoms or what?

    I don’t take the time to read all the blogs, sometimes I skim, sometimes I don’t. When I read, there always seems to be another blessing for me…..one recent post about a lady who was saying that you Angie & Audrey’s Story have brought her back to the Lord………that’s what God has intended (or so it seems) for you to be a vessel to reach others. When I read those posts it makes me very happy, and I say “There you go again, God. Angie you & Audrey have reached another lost soul.”

    Thank you from the bottom of my heart for caring & sharing. Forget those people who have no common sense or who don’t have a heart, there are sooooooooooo many who need you Angie & Audrey’s Story to draw them closer to the Lord & to cope with daily life in this ugly old world.

    “Thank you Heavenly Father for sending Angie my way. She is truly a blessing to me.”

    Love from Rose in Nashville

  • scrap&cruznaholic

    Some people are so GULLABLE. I never gave the “timing” a thought. I’m so ashamed of the comments that some people write. Do some people think with their bottoms or what?

    I don’t take the time to read all the blogs, sometimes I skim, sometimes I don’t. When I read, there always seems to be another blessing for me…..one recent post about a lady who was saying that you Angie & Audrey’s Story have brought her back to the Lord………that’s what God has intended (or so it seems) for you to be a vessel to reach others. When I read those posts it makes me very happy, and I say “There you go again, God. Angie you & Audrey have reached another lost soul.”

    Thank you from the bottom of my heart for caring & sharing. Forget those people who have no common sense or who don’t have a heart, there are sooooooooooo many who need you Angie & Audrey’s Story to draw them closer to the Lord & to cope with daily life in this ugly old world.

    “Thank you Heavenly Father for sending Angie my way. She is truly a blessing to me.”

    Love from Rose in Nashville

  • scrap&cruznaholic

    Some people are so GULLABLE. I never gave the “timing” a thought. I’m so ashamed of the comments that some people write. Do some people think with their bottoms or what?

    I don’t take the time to read all the blogs, sometimes I skim, sometimes I don’t. When I read, there always seems to be another blessing for me…..one recent post about a lady who was saying that you Angie & Audrey’s Story have brought her back to the Lord………that’s what God has intended (or so it seems) for you to be a vessel to reach others. When I read those posts it makes me very happy, and I say “There you go again, God. Angie you & Audrey have reached another lost soul.”

    Thank you from the bottom of my heart for caring & sharing. Forget those people who have no common sense or who don’t have a heart, there are sooooooooooo many who need you Angie & Audrey’s Story to draw them closer to the Lord & to cope with daily life in this ugly old world.

    “Thank you Heavenly Father for sending Angie my way. She is truly a blessing to me.”

    Love from Rose in Nashville

  • scrap&cruznaholic

    Some people are so GULLABLE. I never gave the “timing” a thought. I’m so ashamed of the comments that some people write. Do some people think with their bottoms or what?

    I don’t take the time to read all the blogs, sometimes I skim, sometimes I don’t. When I read, there always seems to be another blessing for me…..one recent post about a lady who was saying that you Angie & Audrey’s Story have brought her back to the Lord………that’s what God has intended (or so it seems) for you to be a vessel to reach others. When I read those posts it makes me very happy, and I say “There you go again, God. Angie you & Audrey have reached another lost soul.”

    Thank you from the bottom of my heart for caring & sharing. Forget those people who have no common sense or who don’t have a heart, there are sooooooooooo many who need you Angie & Audrey’s Story to draw them closer to the Lord & to cope with daily life in this ugly old world.

    “Thank you Heavenly Father for sending Angie my way. She is truly a blessing to me.”

    Love from Rose in Nashville

  • scrap&cruznaholic

    Some people are so GULLABLE. I never gave the “timing” a thought. I’m so ashamed of the comments that some people write. Do some people think with their bottoms or what?

    I don’t take the time to read all the blogs, sometimes I skim, sometimes I don’t. When I read, there always seems to be another blessing for me…..one recent post about a lady who was saying that you Angie & Audrey’s Story have brought her back to the Lord………that’s what God has intended (or so it seems) for you to be a vessel to reach others. When I read those posts it makes me very happy, and I say “There you go again, God. Angie you & Audrey have reached another lost soul.”

    Thank you from the bottom of my heart for caring & sharing. Forget those people who have no common sense or who don’t have a heart, there are sooooooooooo many who need you Angie & Audrey’s Story to draw them closer to the Lord & to cope with daily life in this ugly old world.

    “Thank you Heavenly Father for sending Angie my way. She is truly a blessing to me.”

    Love from Rose in Nashville

  • scrap&cruznaholic

    Some people are so GULLABLE. I never gave the “timing” a thought. I’m so ashamed of the comments that some people write. Do some people think with their bottoms or what?

    I don’t take the time to read all the blogs, sometimes I skim, sometimes I don’t. When I read, there always seems to be another blessing for me…..one recent post about a lady who was saying that you Angie & Audrey’s Story have brought her back to the Lord………that’s what God has intended (or so it seems) for you to be a vessel to reach others. When I read those posts it makes me very happy, and I say “There you go again, God. Angie you & Audrey have reached another lost soul.”

    Thank you from the bottom of my heart for caring & sharing. Forget those people who have no common sense or who don’t have a heart, there are sooooooooooo many who need you Angie & Audrey’s Story to draw them closer to the Lord & to cope with daily life in this ugly old world.

    “Thank you Heavenly Father for sending Angie my way. She is truly a blessing to me.”

    Love from Rose in Nashville

  • scrap&cruznaholic

    Some people are so GULLABLE. I never gave the “timing” a thought. I’m so ashamed of the comments that some people write. Do some people think with their bottoms or what?

    I don’t take the time to read all the blogs, sometimes I skim, sometimes I don’t. When I read, there always seems to be another blessing for me…..one recent post about a lady who was saying that you Angie & Audrey’s Story have brought her back to the Lord………that’s what God has intended (or so it seems) for you to be a vessel to reach others. When I read those posts it makes me very happy, and I say “There you go again, God. Angie you & Audrey have reached another lost soul.”

    Thank you from the bottom of my heart for caring & sharing. Forget those people who have no common sense or who don’t have a heart, there are sooooooooooo many who need you Angie & Audrey’s Story to draw them closer to the Lord & to cope with daily life in this ugly old world.

    “Thank you Heavenly Father for sending Angie my way. She is truly a blessing to me.”

    Love from Rose in Nashville

  • scrap&cruznaholic

    Some people are so GULLABLE. I never gave the “timing” a thought. I’m so ashamed of the comments that some people write. Do some people think with their bottoms or what?

    I don’t take the time to read all the blogs, sometimes I skim, sometimes I don’t. When I read, there always seems to be another blessing for me…..one recent post about a lady who was saying that you Angie & Audrey’s Story have brought her back to the Lord………that’s what God has intended (or so it seems) for you to be a vessel to reach others. When I read those posts it makes me very happy, and I say “There you go again, God. Angie you & Audrey have reached another lost soul.”

    Thank you from the bottom of my heart for caring & sharing. Forget those people who have no common sense or who don’t have a heart, there are sooooooooooo many who need you Angie & Audrey’s Story to draw them closer to the Lord & to cope with daily life in this ugly old world.

    “Thank you Heavenly Father for sending Angie my way. She is truly a blessing to me.”

    Love from Rose in Nashville

  • scrap&cruznaholic

    Some people are so GULLABLE. I never gave the “timing” a thought. I’m so ashamed of the comments that some people write. Do some people think with their bottoms or what?

    I don’t take the time to read all the blogs, sometimes I skim, sometimes I don’t. When I read, there always seems to be another blessing for me…..one recent post about a lady who was saying that you Angie & Audrey’s Story have brought her back to the Lord………that’s what God has intended (or so it seems) for you to be a vessel to reach others. When I read those posts it makes me very happy, and I say “There you go again, God. Angie you & Audrey have reached another lost soul.”

    Thank you from the bottom of my heart for caring & sharing. Forget those people who have no common sense or who don’t have a heart, there are sooooooooooo many who need you Angie & Audrey’s Story to draw them closer to the Lord & to cope with daily life in this ugly old world.

    “Thank you Heavenly Father for sending Angie my way. She is truly a blessing to me.”

    Love from Rose in Nashville

  • scrap&cruznaholic

    Some people are so GULLABLE. I never gave the “timing” a thought. I’m so ashamed of the comments that some people write. Do some people think with their bottoms or what?

    I don’t take the time to read all the blogs, sometimes I skim, sometimes I don’t. When I read, there always seems to be another blessing for me…..one recent post about a lady who was saying that you Angie & Audrey’s Story have brought her back to the Lord………that’s what God has intended (or so it seems) for you to be a vessel to reach others. When I read those posts it makes me very happy, and I say “There you go again, God. Angie you & Audrey have reached another lost soul.”

    Thank you from the bottom of my heart for caring & sharing. Forget those people who have no common sense or who don’t have a heart, there are sooooooooooo many who need you Angie & Audrey’s Story to draw them closer to the Lord & to cope with daily life in this ugly old world.

    “Thank you Heavenly Father for sending Angie my way. She is truly a blessing to me.”

    Love from Rose in Nashville

  • scrap&cruznaholic

    Some people are so GULLABLE. I never gave the “timing” a thought. I’m so ashamed of the comments that some people write. Do some people think with their bottoms or what?

    I don’t take the time to read all the blogs, sometimes I skim, sometimes I don’t. When I read, there always seems to be another blessing for me…..one recent post about a lady who was saying that you Angie & Audrey’s Story have brought her back to the Lord………that’s what God has intended (or so it seems) for you to be a vessel to reach others. When I read those posts it makes me very happy, and I say “There you go again, God. Angie you & Audrey have reached another lost soul.”

    Thank you from the bottom of my heart for caring & sharing. Forget those people who have no common sense or who don’t have a heart, there are sooooooooooo many who need you Angie & Audrey’s Story to draw them closer to the Lord & to cope with daily life in this ugly old world.

    “Thank you Heavenly Father for sending Angie my way. She is truly a blessing to me.”

    Love from Rose in Nashville

  • scrap&cruznaholic

    Some people are so GULLABLE. I never gave the “timing” a thought. I’m so ashamed of the comments that some people write. Do some people think with their bottoms or what?

    I don’t take the time to read all the blogs, sometimes I skim, sometimes I don’t. When I read, there always seems to be another blessing for me…..one recent post about a lady who was saying that you Angie & Audrey’s Story have brought her back to the Lord………that’s what God has intended (or so it seems) for you to be a vessel to reach others. When I read those posts it makes me very happy, and I say “There you go again, God. Angie you & Audrey have reached another lost soul.”

    Thank you from the bottom of my heart for caring & sharing. Forget those people who have no common sense or who don’t have a heart, there are sooooooooooo many who need you Angie & Audrey’s Story to draw them closer to the Lord & to cope with daily life in this ugly old world.

    “Thank you Heavenly Father for sending Angie my way. She is truly a blessing to me.”

    Love from Rose in Nashville

  • scrap&cruznaholic

    Some people are so GULLABLE. I never gave the “timing” a thought. I’m so ashamed of the comments that some people write. Do some people think with their bottoms or what?

    I don’t take the time to read all the blogs, sometimes I skim, sometimes I don’t. When I read, there always seems to be another blessing for me…..one recent post about a lady who was saying that you Angie & Audrey’s Story have brought her back to the Lord………that’s what God has intended (or so it seems) for you to be a vessel to reach others. When I read those posts it makes me very happy, and I say “There you go again, God. Angie you & Audrey have reached another lost soul.”

    Thank you from the bottom of my heart for caring & sharing. Forget those people who have no common sense or who don’t have a heart, there are sooooooooooo many who need you Angie & Audrey’s Story to draw them closer to the Lord & to cope with daily life in this ugly old world.

    “Thank you Heavenly Father for sending Angie my way. She is truly a blessing to me.”

    Love from Rose in Nashville

  • scrap&cruznaholic

    Some people are so GULLABLE. I never gave the “timing” a thought. I’m so ashamed of the comments that some people write. Do some people think with their bottoms or what?

    I don’t take the time to read all the blogs, sometimes I skim, sometimes I don’t. When I read, there always seems to be another blessing for me…..one recent post about a lady who was saying that you Angie & Audrey’s Story have brought her back to the Lord………that’s what God has intended (or so it seems) for you to be a vessel to reach others. When I read those posts it makes me very happy, and I say “There you go again, God. Angie you & Audrey have reached another lost soul.”

    Thank you from the bottom of my heart for caring & sharing. Forget those people who have no common sense or who don’t have a heart, there are sooooooooooo many who need you Angie & Audrey’s Story to draw them closer to the Lord & to cope with daily life in this ugly old world.

    “Thank you Heavenly Father for sending Angie my way. She is truly a blessing to me.”

    Love from Rose in Nashville

  • Holly

    Awesome blog. I enjoyed reading it. I hope it reaches out to many, I am sure it already has.

  • Elissa Joy

    I just wanted to say that I also learned a lot from the story of the road to Emmaus. I don’t know if you listen to Jason Upton’s music or not, but his lyrics and music literally changed my prayer life and my perspective on many areas of life. He has a great song, The Road To Emmaus and from reading this post, I think you would enjoy it.

  • Marci@Finding Joy in the Journey

    Once again, I am simply in awe of how your heart is open to let His words pour through. Once again I have this urge to link my own blog to your words because I want more people to read them (even if my blog only brings 5 readers! =) Once again I find conncetion, which I think is one reason people seem drawn to your writing. You connect us all to each other, to Him.

    I went on a “Walk to Emmaus” when I was 21. I’m not sure if you know there is a program, a weekend retreat called just that. I was a bit young and think I would have gotten more understanding now, but even then there were those moments. The ones where all of the sudden you see Him and realize he’s been there all the time.

    Thank you for sharing your gift. I know sometimes sitting down to write must feel a little like drudgery until his words start flowing and you know you’re right where you should be!

    ps I love how the ps makes you human. All of the suden we stop the deep thoughts and just chuckle! Never did math even cross my mind, and if it did others, shame on them!

  • The 311 Boys Mom

    thank you for sharing that.

    I had to laugh when you said to ask God to help me slow down to read…..I actually only do that when i read you……I get lost in the bible, I’m good listening to it explained, but I feel like I’m reading a law book, or Spanish for that matter when I’ve attempted to read the bible on my own.

    I will be making the extra effort.

    I do have another question; I know they say you only have to ask for forgiveness to be forgiven; but what if you’ve done bad things??? How do i know that my son didn’t have cancer because of all the things I had done??? how do I know I’ll be forgiven???

    If you say ‘faith’, I’m gonna have to ask you to elaborate, as how are you sure???? can you feel it?? I used to be so brave, no doubts, minimal fears; then my son had cancer & now I’m afraid of everything. Afraid with every breathe I take that I’m doing it wrong….’it’ being life, parenting, just being…….

    How do I know I’m worthy of forgiveness, cause really, not everyone is……

  • The 311 Boys Mom

    I forgot, you did an excellent job with this post & explaining….

    thank you

  • georgia tarheel

    Thanks Angie. That was great. On the road to healing…I like that!

    Paige

  • Kathleen

    Here I am, stopping by your blog for the second time and finding myself (again) blessed. I have to say that, for some reason, I had forgotten about the significance in Samuel’s prayer. Yet I wonder why, when learning to hear and recognize God’s voice has become one of the most deepest longings of my heart!

    So thank you.

    PS. – My anniversary is Sept 26th, too! :-)

    PPS. – I honor your for saying it like it is, and for holding true to your convictions. I believe that those of us have waited for marriage need to be more outspoken about that fact that it IS possible, and even more outspoken about the blessings that come because of obedience!

    -Katie <><
    http://www.HopeIsCalling.com

  • Kiki@Seagulls in the Parking Lot

    Thanks for sharing. I so need to slow down and listen. And I’m a believer. Thanks again. I am off to listen and read!

  • Tabatha

    It always amazes me to read how God draws men (and women and children…) to Him! I loved reading your testimony. Emmaus, wow! I’d never done a study on it. Thank you for that glimpse of the road to healing. (And thank you for providing my “fix” for the day with your post! LOL!)

  • RR Mama

    How do I begin to thank you for sharing your story? You are such an amazing person. Your words are so beautiful spoken. Your heart is so true. I have been lingering for a while reading and praying. I keep coming back to your story about the past and the pitcher. Everyday this story finds its way into my thoughts. I feel as if God is telling me to do exactly as you did. Smash the pitcher and let his hands work with mine to heal my past, my present and my future. So Thank you Angie for sharing this story and as soon as I smash my pottery I will send you a picture.

  • Crystal

    Angie,
    Thank you for the post. You make coming to know God and Jesus seem so seamlessly easy. I sometimes to feel as though I dont understanfd the bible as you did in the beginning but I think I will try again very soon. Thank you.

    Crystal
    Lagrange,Ga

  • andyeve1

    I stumbled across your blog as I have been on many blog sites updating on the Chapman’s progress. I am a fan of his music and was fascinated to see how a family would handle such tragic loss. I had a similar feeling reading your blog – I guess in a way we are fascinated with our fears. As a mother of 2 and one more on the way, I don’t know how I would go on after losing a child, yet your life is an example of how it is done. Not by your own stregnth, but by relying on Christ and being totally honest with Him. You have ministered to so many people through this, I know it’s a life journey you are on, but at least we know where we will end up.

    One other thing I wanted to say, I started reading your blog from the beginning and when I got to your blog about your sister-in-law losing her son, my mouth just dropped. It seems like too much pain at once for a family, but you are right, our God is not surprised by any of this. He is the same yesterday, today and always, and He is the ONLY way through this. We will keep praying for you and your family.

  • candesintx

    Glad I stopped by today. I really need to slow down. Running on my own energy is getting me nowhere fast.

  • Misty

    Once again a beautiful post and blessed again by your words! Thank you!

    I agree with the others who the heck would take time out of their day to email you and ask if you had sex with before you got married. The dates aren’t even close. You miscarried at 8 weeks in december? That would put conception in October. Not even close!! I swear some people!! :-)

  • Bttrfly1976

    It is beautiful, how Jesus drew you in.

    And on a lighter note, your last p.s. was hilarious.

    I like your bluntness!

  • Lisa-Cinti,Ohio

    Angie, you sound like me. I decided I had to tackle the entire Bible to try to understand better before immersing myself back into church. It didnt work for me either. I too have done the open the Bible and point to a scripture, to no avail. I found my way back to church after 20 years of being out. Now 3 years after being in my church which I absolutely love and my children love, I am getting it! I have a friend in our choir that I reached out to help me sort out some issues in my life. She is definitely doing some of God’s work! I keep telling her of coincidences that are happening in my life every day- they are not coincidentally happening- it is most definitely God doing his work in me to help guide me back to Him. I have been directed to stories in the Bible that I would not even know to look for, but I have found them at the exact time I needed them. I have been learning so much, soaking it all in every morsel I can get my hands on. Reading your blog has helped me to realize that its okay for me to have human feelings, God still love me and always has. I am considering getting baptized again. I was baptized at 12 yrs old, but now, now I understand so much more, it means so much more than it did at 12- I strayed so far away that I feel like I am brand new to Him, like HE is brand new to ME and it is an incredibly awesome feeling I am having. Thank you for your hand in helping me see Christ in a better light.

    Lisa

  • a woman found

    I just wanted to let you know that reading this post yesterday spurred me to get off the computer and go pick up my Bible and start just reading through where I had left off of my “REad through the Bible” attempt this year. I’m in 2 Kings and it was getting pretty dry for me and so I had set it aside for the Psalms for awhile, but reading this it just hit me, “Here’s a novel idea Sheila… JUST KEEP READING!!!”

    So I went and picked up where I left off in 2 Kings and was so touched by several unlikely passages.

    Thank you for just encouraging people to “slow down” and let God speak to you!

    He does!
    Sheila

  • judith

    Angie,
    My daughter introduced me to your blog several weeks ago and I can’t get enough of your writing. You are gifted. God is using you to touch many of us. I just stop by sometimes to keep up and always leave spiritually lifted closer to my Lord. Thank you for sharing your heart and letting the Lord use you. Keep it up.

  • Amanda

    Thanks for sharing that beautiful message. I need daily reminders to slow down and let Him catch up to me.

  • HeartofWisdom

    Angie,

    What a beautiful post. Thank you. I love the question “Where are you on the road to Emmaus?”

    I found you from a link at Meditations and Confessions. I’m so glad she shared her find. Blessings.
    Robin
    http://heartofwisdom.com/blog

  • Darlene R.

    This was a great post, Angie.
    Yes, I have totally done the finger pointing thing!
    I can relate to not slowing down enough to drink in the Word. I will stare at a verse and read it over and over and not get it because my mind is going over everything else for that day. It can be so frustrating. I struggle with the focusing thing, for sure.
    I want that closer relationship.

    Thank you for your opening yourself up. Your testimony is awesome.

    By the way, we got married in August of 96 and our first baby was born in June of 97. It was only six weeks after we got married that I was pregnant, so I know how it is to have people question you.

    Love ya~
    Darlene – IN
    ps~ Did you get my e-mail last week? :)

  • JDWS

    Angie –
    I’m a newcomer to your blog and I just want to thank you for being so transparent with all of us who have come to love and pray for your sweet family. I have read and reread your story many, many times these past few weeks . . . usually while my kids are taking naps. Because of your story and your faith, I have to say that I am walking closer to my Lord and Savior. You, and your family, are remarkable to me because you are just like me . . . an everyday woman, mother, and wife, and family.
    I know I’m rambling, but just know that there’s a mom in a small KY town on summer break with her kids, who prays for you.

  • shan

    Thank you so much for this post, your honesty about your difficulty reading the Word (something I struggle with as well, why is it so hard to simply slow down?). Every time I read here I find I leave with such fulfilling thoughts and faith renewed. It was truely a beautiful Sunday.

    Thank you for the reminder that I am blessed to walk the road, honored to eat the bread, and humbled by His love for me.

    To read through these posts and know that I am not alone in the struggle of loosing/loss of a child is something I needed today. Though I know that my Lord is always with me it is comforting to know there are other mothers who know my pain.

    Thank you!

  • Stanphill Family

    Angie,

    I have been following your blog since right after Audrey was born. A good friend of mine sent the link through an email, and like hundreds of other mother hearts, have been following your story and soaking in your words ever since. Thank you for your honesty, courage, humor and letting us glimpse into your heart and home. I have been so blessed. On a personal note, I had a little heart check when I read your posting today entitled Emmaus, as that is the very name of the church we attend!!! My cousin Nathan is the pastor and we a are a very young church plant in Lincoln, CA. (Lincoln is in Northern CA between Sacramento and Lake Tahoe). Please check out our church site as well as Nathan’s blog regarding his son Isaiah and his courageous battle with Leukemia. Your story has touched my spiritual life so much, and I know if you met Nathan and his family, their story would touch you as well. They have also known the loss of a baby as their firstborn son passed away right after being born. They are truly a beautiful family and touch people with their story and with the church we are a part of. I just had to pass these links on to you! http://www.emmauscommunity.org, http://www.isaiahnathan.blogspot.com.

  • Carla Burlando

    I wanted to write and thank you for sharing your pain , your loss and your faith with everyone blessed enough to come accross your blog. You have a gift for putting into words what resonates in so many of our spirits. Last month was the 8 year anniversary of the day that I said goodbye to my little guy. He was diagnosed with Trisomy 18 about half way through my pregnancy. My husband and I were young and it was our first baby. I felt like I was in totally unchartered territory and since we didn’t have all the internet information and sites we do now ,I felt like I was the only one to ever carry a baby considered “not compatable with life” to term and deliver him knowing he would not live. I still vividly remember so many of those emotions that you have gone through and are still experiencing. Time does help but the loss never really goes away…it just gets stored away like his “memory box” and revisited once in a while. That dark time in my life was such a refining time in my faith and looking back I now thank God for allowing me to not only have the privaledge of carrying him but to have gone through that experience. So often God uses the rain to bring out the greener grass! There has been so much growth in my faith since that time but I see that year as sort of a spritual “pile of stones” like in the Old Testament when they would leave a monument in the place where they met with God.
    God is using you and your experience in a mighty way…and will continue to use your willing and open heart in the future! Audrey Caroline’s life may have been short but it definately had a purpose and had much value. God Bless you as you heal and touch others.

  • kathy

    So true and so beautiful…

    When God first sought me out, all I had was a version of the King James Bible. I pictured God as a larger than life Hamlet. He still gently loved me.

    As far as the pps goes, people have some major huevos….

    You are a blessing

  • Courtney

    Are you as good at speaking as you are at writing? This looks like an outline to a great sermon :) Thank you for sharing and giving some wonderful insights. Much love.

  • Julie

    Angie, your words have blessed me beyond imagination. If you are ever in doubt of the legacy of precious Audrey, scroll down through the hundreds of comments. Your blog is truly a ministry. I benefit from every word you write. Thank you, I only pray for friends like you right here where I live. Thank you dear sister. Thank you for sharing your heart.. you are loved by many.

  • Linds

    Like Fran, I don’t comment often, but read every time you post, Angie, and I am in awe of your gift for communicating God’s love and purpose. You are a real blessing to us all, and please know how thankful we are.

    I am old enough to be your mother, and yet so much of what you say makes me stop, go back and re-examine what I do or think. Thank you.

  • mechell

    I have been following your blog for a few weeks now. I have never, ever commente on one before, but I had to after reading Emmaus.

    I just had to say – isn’t our God amazing? Isn’t He amazing how He can take something so painful, so awful and use it to heal and draw others closer to Himself? Thank you for sharing the Truth. Thank you for clinging to the Hope. Thank you for allowing God to use you to minister to other in the midst of such personal agony and suffering. Is there any greater privilege, any greater joy? And without the willingness to surrender…we miss it. You have found a way to rejoice in your suffering – which Romans tells us will produce perserverance, then character, then hope, which will not disappoint us. Thank you for leading so many on that hard journey. What a beautiful legacy for your daughter.

  • Amy

    I was raised in a Christian home, but I rebelled in my teenage years and went to church to hang out with my friends and meet people. I have been longing for a relationship with the Lord desperately since my son was born. Cavan, my little boy, has shown me a whole new world. Since finding you, though, I finally pulled out my Bible and most nights I read the Bible with God. I have a journal of that time with Him. Anyway the point is Cavan peeked my interest and you showed Him to me and inspired me. Thank you. And I am still praying for you and your family.

  • Rachel

    Thank you for your posts, Angie. Your posts on this blog are not only beautiful, but they force me to face my own life, areas that I find myself trying to hide from. You’re strength and your faith in Jesus bring me such a sense of strength. Thank you for doing that!

    Also, there is a family I go to church with who lost a baby in February, just days after he was born. They too have a blog, and I wanted to pass it on to you.
    http://moonriverbh.blogspot.com/

    I see many similarities between you and her. Just wanted to share, since your stories seem so similar.

    Thank you again for your blog posts and your honesty.

  • gdsgrl611

    This is an amazing blog and loved this food for thought. I’m continually amazed at God’s faithfulness in your life Angie when reading this. Thanks for letting us in :) Be blessed!

    Love,
    Lauren

  • amanda

    Hi Angie,

    Thank for this…because I tend to walk and think way too fast! :-)

    1. walk slowly, deliberately with thoughts of Him on your mind (He will catch up).

    I came upon your site the other day when I was looking for the lyrics to There is Power in the Blood. My AWAGOH (A Woman After God’s Own Heart) Bible Study is going to sing in front of our church. Tell Todd and the rest of Selah, thank you for the great upbeat version of the song!

    Your story is amazing and encourages my walk with the Lord.

  • Rebecca

    This is so me in so many ways!! Thank you so much for sharing heart, and speaking to so many of us out here!

  • DidiLyn

    I have just spent my morning reading a few months’ worth of your posts.
    In some ways, I don’t even deserve to leave you a comment, but I want you to know that your words, your story and your heart have so touched me and moved me.
    I do know I am forgiven, loved and yes, even rejoiced over by my Father. But sometimes…well, sometimes I have no words.
    Your baby was so blessed to have been so loved and so wanted.
    I love how God is using you. Bless you, sister.

  • redpolkadotsgirl

    Hi Angie, From another Angie. I’ve been reading your blog for a couple of weeks now and I pray for you and your family every day. Your strength amazes me.

    Besides both being Angie’s, my husband and I were married August 18, 2001 and also found out we were expecting that December. I was already 3 months along, though. I went into pre-term labor at 24 weeks & spent the rest of the pregnancy on bed-rest.

    Thank you for sharing your stories. I’ve told everyone I know about your blog and hope many more are touched by you.

    God Bless,
    Angie P

  • Tina

    Angie, I love your blog and your honesty!!

  • traveling betty

    Thank you.

  • Sweet Baby Whispers

    I can’t tell you how much I love your blog. I just started mine recently after finding out I’m pregnant after loosing my daughter at 22 weeks. You give me inspiration. I’ve also added you to my blog roll!

  • Sweet Baby Whispers

    I can’t tell you how much I love your blog. I just started mine recently after finding out I’m pregnant after loosing my daughter at 22 weeks. You give me inspiration. I’ve also added you to my blog roll!

  • TNRobinson4

    Angie…I just love you and your ability to express yourself and God so well….it speaks volumes to me and re-inspires me. Your Grace, your Honesty, your Openess, your Willingness is an example of Gods love flowing through you. Just thank you, thank you…
    C. Robinson
    P.S. we miss you and the kiddos!!!

  • Julee

    Angie, I so enjoy reading your posts. What a sweetheart you are! Aubrey was beautiful as all your girls are. We lost or youngest age 2 1/2 in April after he had a bone marrow transplant. The transplant was working, but he got a virusm then pnemonia and wound up on a vent…twe lost him 10 days later. His life is an incredible story of God’s love for us and unboundless grace. I wil have to share it with you someday. We are as you know in the thick of this horrific hard and bloody work called grief. I also lost a 6 mos daughter 18 years ago to SIDS and so know tha time helps very much. Jesus shining light is never brighter than through tear filled eyes. Thank you for sharing your pain, joy, and faith with all of us!
    Julee
    mommy to many (22 now expecting two more next year)
    http://groups.yahoo.com/group/feserfamilyfriends/

  • Julie

    Dearest Audrey,

    I remember you today, sweet girl. Because of you and your life, I am forever changed.

    Lovingly Yours,
    Julie

    PS: Newbie here! Sorry for all the deleted comments. (Seriously, they are multiplying by the minute!) I am learning the ways of the blogging world :)

  • Katie

    Hi my name is Katie and I am a 23 year old from Austin, Tx. A friend showed me your blog and I read it all in two days! The way you cling to God (and even how you admit when it’s hard to) is so motivating and inspirational. Thank you for pouring your heart out to all of us. It has completely changed my outlook on my relationship with God. I have been walking with the Lord for about 7 years now but like any relationship it gets hard to not just go through the motions. I don’t have a blog but I have a xanga with spoken word. It is my alias xanga and strangely I used to call myself “Selah” before I ever heard of your husbands band…it’s at http://www.xanga.com/undercovasista

  • Lora

    Thanks for your insight and your words of comfort to those of us who still straddle the line between believing and simply wanting to. My journey changes every day and reading your words has just really inspired me in ways I can’t name. I just know this is what I’m supposed to read today and its time for me to slow down as well, I think. Thank you so much for that :)

  • Stacy

    I have not commented on your site before just wanted to say that I was told to visit here awhile back and read the story of Audrey from the beginning all the way through (then instantly bought All That I Can Say and Bring the Rain). Shortly afterwards, my youngest was diagnosed with a kidney disease. Your words in a recent post of yours – “I hardly ever opened my Bible.

    I believed in Him. The whole story. I loved Him fully, but I learned to keep Him at arm’s length in the event that He let me down. I hate that part of the story, and if I could do it over…well, I can’t. I just have to know that He pursued me even when I acted like a jilted bride. He wanted me when I didn’t want Him. He taught me about Himself, even as I resisted loving Him back. I am forever grateful for the tenderness He showed me during that time, and the grace He showed me when I came running back with remorse in my heart.” – really express how I’ve been feeling lately. I don’t want to feel that way but it’s honest and I do talk to Him about it nightly. Throughout his hospital stay and diagnosis, I thought of your family often and it helped me. I can’t explain how but it did and I just wanted to tell you I pray for your family often and for Todd’s sister, husband, and daughter also. Here’s a link to his blog if you are interested
    http://kid-neydisease.blogspot.com/

    You don’t know me but thanks for sharing your heart and your faith…

    Stacy

  • sarah

    Thank you for your encouraging words. You are truly being used by our Lord in so many ways and touching so many lives. Thank you for being willing.

  • Jessica

    THis was the video of our son that we did and one from the local paper here in Athens, GA. It just shows how many something so small can touch.

    http://multimedia.onlineathens.com/flash/2008/050408_Zach-Kirk/

    and

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iPAOgxqIYPg

  • Just Me

    Thank you for continuing to teach and inspire all of your “readers”.

    I may need to email you some questions about the information in your PPS some day…if I ever get a date (or a SECOND date…”one date wonder” is my current title–ha ha!).

    Continued prayers to you and your family.
    Take care.

  • Raechel

    Hi Angie.
    I appreciated your post today – I love the picture you painted of the road to Emmaus being like our Christian walk.

    I am actually posting for another reason though. I have a (rather personal) question and wonder if you have any insight for me.

    I have posted a few times before and emailed you directly as well. Our 32-week baby girls both went to be with Jesus on the same afternoon in April this year. It has been a real blessing to follow your story and to walk together with you through such similar circumstances.

    On to my personal question:

    We have four children: one on earth and three in heaven. After learning that Evie was sick in January and carrying her for 11 weeks not knowing what plans God had for her and for us, we learned many truths about his sovereignty. One of those truths is that God is both the giver and the taker of life. We gave Evie’s life to Him, and believe that His timing was and is perfect.

    It’s now been eleven weeks since our baby girl went to heaven. And as we face life without her, we also face some difficult decisions. One such decision is how to proceed with further pregnancies. There are many sides to this:
    1. We are still grieving deeply the loss of our baby girl.
    2. We are afraid of how subsequent pregnancies will go.
    3. We tasted all too briefly the sweetness of having a daughter and, though Evie could never be replaced, we do very much want to have more children, maybe someday another daughter. We are anxious for our family to continue to grow.
    4. If we believe what we have said about God being the sovereign giver and taker of life, and if we really do trust Him the way we say we do – should we act accordingly and ask Him to plan our family and take the control out of our hands?

    I guess what I’m asking is, what are your and Todd’s thoughts in this area? We’re a bit scared of what it would be like to be pregnant right now. But, we feel like we’ve released many things (including the shape of our family) to our Lord in the past months, are we not being fully trusting to withhold this area of our relationship?

    I hope this makes sense. And again, forgive me if this is too personal. I would just love to bounce these thoughts off of another sister who is coming from a similar situation and may have a perspective to share.

    Blessings,
    Raechel
    Franklin, TN

  • Lu and Missy

    Angie – I wanted to share another blog with you because I think you could be a light in her world right now. It’s http://www.whenhellomeansgoodbye.blogspot.com

  • Laura

    Thank you, Angie. You’ve brought those two passsages I’ve read and heard preached on many times alive to me in a new way.

  • meredith

    angie,
    thank you for continuing to share so much of yourself. i have been a believer for as long as i can remember…but i find that reading your blog stirs something within my soul…that makes me want to “dig deeper” – grow closer to the God i love so much.
    thank you for being so transparent. for showing the strength that only He could give you in such trying times. i hope you feel the prayers being lifted up in your & your family’s name as your heart heals.
    someone who thinks of you as a “friend” –
    meredith

  • meredith

    angie,
    thank you for continuing to share so much of yourself. i have been a believer for as long as i can remember…but i find that reading your blog stirs something within my soul…that makes me want to “dig deeper” – grow closer to the God i love so much.
    thank you for being so transparent. for showing the strength that only He could give you in such trying times. i hope you feel the prayers being lifted up in your & your family’s name as your heart heals.
    someone who thinks of you as a “friend” –
    meredith

  • meredith

    angie,
    thank you for continuing to share so much of yourself. i have been a believer for as long as i can remember…but i find that reading your blog stirs something within my soul…that makes me want to “dig deeper” – grow closer to the God i love so much.
    thank you for being so transparent. for showing the strength that only He could give you in such trying times. i hope you feel the prayers being lifted up in your & your family’s name as your heart heals.
    someone who thinks of you as a “friend” –
    meredith

  • meredith

    angie,
    thank you for continuing to share so much of yourself. i have been a believer for as long as i can remember…but i find that reading your blog stirs something within my soul…that makes me want to “dig deeper” – grow closer to the God i love so much.
    thank you for being so transparent. for showing the strength that only He could give you in such trying times. i hope you feel the prayers being lifted up in your & your family’s name as your heart heals.
    someone who thinks of you as a “friend” –
    meredith

  • Holly Mabry

    I just stumbled upon this blog when looking to see if Selah had any new music. I am excited about their upcoming new album. Their music is incredible and so God filled!

    My heart goes out to your family and I lift my prayers up to you. When I started reading your posts about Audrey I immediately started listening to “It is Well With My Soul” I sincerely hope that God will continue to work through you as you tell Audrey and Luke’s story to the world. :-)

  • Allmykids123

    Dear Angie:
    Thank you for your words today. I devoured them with my soul. I read, re-read, printed them out and hung them on my bulletin board. You have a way of putting things in terms that we can all understand. I always learn something when I read your words and hope you write them for a long, long time. We’re hungry for them and are listening!

  • Hope

    There is not way to describe the depth that you have been ministering to me over these past few months. Thank you!

  • JG2611

    Just stopping by because this is what I do nearly everyday now .. I love reading your posts & I love the new look to your blog .. beautiful! :) You are a huge blessing to m! I’m continuing to pray for you and your family~

  • Susie Harris

    Angie, Just wanted you to have a link back to me. I left you a prayer request in your email. smiles, Susie H~

  • kaynskymom

    hi,
    I am a longtime lurker, but have only now gotten up the nerve to post a comment. I have written a few, only to quickly delete them. Reading your story has really opened up my eyes. You and your family are still able to rejoice and praise GOD even with all you have went through. I have to say, I want what you have. I have a feeling that GOD is getting tired of my lukewarm playing. I don’t know how many more chances I have. What do I do? I want a more secure relationship, and I want to be secure in the knowledge that HE is with me. Can you help me? I don’t want to live this way anymore.

  • Andrea

    What an amazing insight into this Scripture that God has given you, Angie – I don’t think I’ve ever heard it interpreted in this way and it is beautiful! Praise God!

    I thank God for leading me to your site and sharing in the story He has written for you.

    Praying the hearts of those who do not know Him at all or well will be stirred to desire intimacy with Him above all else.

    Andrea

  • Kate

    Appreciate your heart and thoughts so much….please visit my blog link here:http://enjoytheride4.blogspot.com/2008/06/aw-shucks.html

    I hope it doesn’t seem trivial in light of all you’ve been through….but I hope you see why I nominated you. God bless.

  • Kate

    Appreciate your heart and thoughts so much….please visit my blog link here:http://enjoytheride4.blogspot.com/2008/06/aw-shucks.html

    I hope it doesn’t seem trivial in light of all you’ve been through….but I hope you see why I nominated you. God bless.

  • Raechel

    Hey Angie,
    It’s Raechel from Franklin again. I realized that I didn’t leave you any way to respond to me if you wanted to (and please know that I expect nothing – you are clearly swamped!) I think I’ve set up a bit of a profile now so that when you click on my name you can see my email address… I think… :-)

    Raechel
    Franklin, TN

  • Scott and Lisa

    I just wanted to thank you for your incredible blog. It is incredibly uplifting. I have struggled with the concept of a “religion” for a long time and finally feeling on the right road. Your blog has helped me in so many ways. Thank you again for all your time.
    -Lisa
    Chicago,IL

  • Scott and Lisa

    I just wanted to thank you for your incredible blog. It is incredibly uplifting. I have struggled with the concept of a “religion” for a long time and finally feeling on the right road. Your blog has helped me in so many ways. Thank you again for all your time.
    -Lisa
    Chicago,IL

  • Leah

    I’ve been reading your blog for a while now, and I LOVE it. (This is my first comment!) I remember sitting down one night when my now 8 month old daughter was probably about 3-4 months old, and reading from start to finish with tears stinging my eyes. I thought about how much, even in her short life so far, I’d taken so much for granted!!!

    I love this part of your testimony. I love that you can reach people that I will never be able to reach because of how you came to know the Lord. I often get in the mind set that people don’t “buy me” because I’ve grown up in church and was saved at a young age. (Not that I didn’t rebel during a period of my life. Everyone does.) I also think I use that as an excuse as why I don’t share Him with others. Thanks for sharing. I look forward to hearing more of the story.

    You are a very gifted writer. If you do write a book someday, I will totally buy it! :)

  • Emily

    Your pps made me LOL. You’re so cute! :-)

  • Rachel

    Angie,
    Your blog is such an encouragement! Thanks for sharing your life with us.

  • neverforsaked

    Angie,
    Your blog is such a blessing and encouragement to me. Thanks for sharing with us.

  • Michele Annibal

    Hi Angie!  Just revisited this post from nearly 4 years ago (yikes time – how it flies!) since my church’s Bible reading today was Luke 24:13-35 and I remembered reading something impactful on your blog about the walk to Emmaus – thanks so much for sharing and helping me on my continual walk.  Blessings to you & your sweet family!