I want to know you…

In the past few days, I have come to find out that some of my correspondences (more than one situation) were based on fictitious people.  I was hurt to know this, but more than that, I want to know the real people and love them for who they are, not who they felt like they had to pretend to be.  I prayed earnestly during my conversations with these individuals (over the course of weeks, months of writing them), and I know that God will use those prayers to reach them and bring them closer to Him.  That is more than I can ask for, and I am grateful to have had that chance, even if it didn’t look the way I thought it did. If you are one of those people, I am not angry, and I would love the chance to get to know (the real) you.  I know God will bless your decisions to be honest with me and I respect you tremendously.  He is a God of grace and of forgiveness…I am honored to have the opportunity to extend that same forgiveness.
As a result of this “I want to know you too!”  feeling, a dear friend suggested I change my settings, so you may notice that you can no longer post as “anonymous.”  It is certainly NOT to discourage anyone from writing….I love to read what you share, and look forward to it everyday.  It is because I really want to know you, to see your faces and your names….please don’t stop sharing your hearts with me! 
Thanks for understanding,
Angie
p.s. Can you believe Coco sold for $560?!?!?!?! I am so excited!!!!!! Now it’s and even better Mother’s Day present! I bet the other people selling similar purses on Ebay are really confused….
***Update*** Susan, who commented at 11:47 on the the”vous et nul autre” post included a beautiful quote from Melody Beattie on gratitude.  I think God is so great when He shows up unexpectedly….a few people have written and asked what book I was reading when I saw the story of the wedding bands….it was “The Lessons of Love” by, you guessed it, Melody Beattie.
Thank you, Susan.  And so nice to meet you:)



Related Posts Plugin for WordPress, Blogger...
  • The Schauble Journey

    Angie, I have enjoyed reading your blog, it is one that I visit on a daily basis to see if you have posted. I have to admit your story has given me a desire to have a more personal relationship with God. That amazing how much CoCo went for. Keep writing. Thank you. In HIS blessing, Barbara

  • Misi

    Hi there!
    I have read thru your Father’s Day tribute sooo many times this am. It was beautiful
    I am also(sheepishly) the one who told the ANON. commenter she should be ashamed of herself.
    I felt convicted later about that. I should have let you do it.
    Like you did but much more eloquently that I did…
    Anyway love your heart,please keep sharing!!!
    P.S. I don’t allow anon. comments on my blog either.

  • RDC CCC Mom

    Thank you for allowing us to share in your journey! Your words and faith are such a blessing to so many…even those ficticious folks! I pray the words He speaks through you and your writing would touch their hearts and penetrate their minds!

  • Krystal

    Way to go, CoCo! That is so aweseome :)

  • Me

    Hi Angie,
    I have been following your story since right before Audrey was born but I have never posted a comment until now. I believe I first heard about you from nilmdts.org, but I could be mistaken. I have been praying for you guys through everything you and your family have been through and I thought in light of your message today that I would “de-lurk” and say hello.

    *HUGS*
    Amy

  • Lauren

    In the spirit of your post I guess I should introduce myself because I read your blog and am inspired by your writings/reflections/lessons from the Lord everyday.

    My name is Lauren… if you want to know about me or my life you can check out my blog linked to this comment. I am currently pregnant with a little one who was originally given a sketchy diagnosis… but I am faithful that the Lord has and will sustain her. Your blog increases that faith and makes the inbetween so much more bearable! Thanks.

  • Stephanie

    Your blog is one of my favorites. You really do have to be careful with the comments though. It is so easy to get an account that it should not be a big deal about leaving out anonymous’s. Thank you for always sharing your heart and staying vulnerable even though there are mean people out there.
    Have you read the book Mistaken Identity? I think it would bless your soul.
    Come visit us anytime at http://www.livininaboysworld.blogspot.com

  • Lauren

    Hello hello!

    I started reading your blog a few months ago. I followed your story about your sweet baby girl, Audrey and I mourned for you/with you. I felt drawn to your pain and wanted to share in it and pray for you and your family.

    For some reason, the link I had to your blog kept popping up an old page and I didn’t think you had posted in over a month! I just realized today that you had and I “caught up” on what was going on.

    I wanted to say hi and let you know that I read along and pray along with you.

  • Alicia

    Hi Angie,
    I am fairly new to reading your blog…first comment. I so enjoy your blog. You have brought me so much closer to the Lord. Thank you.

    I look foward to every morning seeing if you have updated your blog. I loved your Father’s Day tribute. Please keep posting. You have moved many people! And the sale of Coco was amazing!

    Thank you for sharig your story.
    Alicia

  • KELLY

    Angie,

    A friend forwarded me your blog last week. Since then, I have spent countless hours pouring over your words as you give us a glimps of your heart, soul, love for God, loss, and zest for life.

    Thank you for sharing your sweet family with the world.

    Kelly Rotter
    Ellensburg, WA

  • Melissa

    It’s sad to know that people feel the need to be someone they think we might want to know, but I guess the world’s full of people who think that. It saddens me more that you have invested emotional energy and time in order to extend yourself to them in hopes of helping. Of course, you’ve even used this to model God’s grace and love. I know it’s been said many time, but you really are amazing in the picture you are continually able to show us of that Grace.

    I hope you continue to feel comfortable sharng your heart (and God’s Heart) with us, because you really are touching lives.

  • Katy Lin :)

    i just found you last week, but i love reading about how the Lord is using you and your family in the midst of your pain. thank you so much for being willing to share this with us all :)

    praising the Lord for such a great turnout on the purse auction!

    *hugs*

  • applesofgold

    Amazed at how God can even use an ordinary (yet well loved!) purse, to touch the lives of others. What a great lesson!

    Thinking about your anonymous friends….none of us will be strangers in Heaven, we might as well start getting to know each other and love one another now!

    Sending you a big hug today!

  • Suzanne

    angie–i’m so sorry people were taking advantage of your precious sweet spirit! i know the feeling of corresponding with other “mothers of quadruplets” for months, then finding out that they, in fact, did NOT have quads. it is very disheartening…but i like your view of it–that God would bless our interactions and their lives anyway!

  • Lee

    Unreal. For someone as honest as rain to have ANYONE decieve them is more than I can wrap my brain around. You are so forgiving, loving, and sweet. Not sure I could those things.
    Thank you for sharing your life when you don’t have to. Thank you for being honest and transparent, even when it may not reveal the best part of you. Thank you for inspiring me to be a better Mommy, wife, and child of God. Thank you for just being “Angie”.
    A reader in Illinois,
    Lee

  • amy

    Angie,
    I have left comments before as “anonymous” because I never get the google thing to work. I always sign my name and put my email on the bottom. I went back and changed my password so that I can post as me now! :) You can go to our family website philippians121.com and see us…even though our pics seriously need updating!!! You can see my very non-identical twin girls as well as my sweet boy. We have a new little guy, Luke who isn’t on there yet! See, we need to update, but I promise it’s our family! :) We are the Buntings…Brad, Amy, Haston, Hannah, Lily and Luke. I’ve been reading your blog since shortly before you lost your sweet girl. I have prayed for you daily since then…sometimes many times a day. I talk about different things you have posted and how you’ve challenged me. I always sign my name and put my email address…amy@philippians121.com. I had no idea that people lie about who they are. That’s bizarre! If I’d known that, I’d have made sure to fix my google id before now! Anyway…check out our website if you ever get a minute. You can even see my husband use our dog, Daisy to share the gospel! HA! :P

    lots of love,
    Amy

  • Kristen

    Angie,
    I love reading your blog, and I am sorry that people decieved you that way. I look forward to each post and the honesty in it and the way that it glorifies God, thru your blog, I am being more honest with myself over my feelings of loss since our miscarriage…I thank God for leading me to this blog….I continue to pray for you and your family!

  • Stephanie

    Angie,

    Thanks so much for sharing part of your lives with us. The opportunites and desire to pray for your family have brought me closer to God. I would love, if you feel so lead, to hear more of the stories behind your first two miracles, the twins, and of course the one of a kind Kate. I know that the wonderful outcomes of those trying times and the healthy girls you have today could give hope to others.

  • Jeff, Abbey, and Reed Land

    Thanks for your honesty and willingness to share how you are feeling. I continue to see Audrey’s story as one of hope and can provide guidance for many people experiencing situations similar to Audrey’s.

  • Jill Garcia (Smith)

    Angie, I stumbled upon your blog from Booth Farley, an old kamper friend of mine from Kanakuk, and have been hooked ever since! Your writing style is unique and so encouraging to my heart! Thank you for letting me have a glimpse into your world. Your faithfulness and trust in the Lord is inspiring! I am pregnant with my first, 10 weeks along, and know that the Lord has HIS hand in everything, even if I don’t understand. I’m trusting Him, and in part, have been encouraged to do just that through you and your writing. God bless you always!!

    Jill Garcia

  • Hollie

    Wow, I am kind of blown away at such a thing happening…and to you…who opens your heart and soul to share your lives with us. You are a blessing to many! Keep posting because you always inspire me!!

  • Theresa

    That is great about the purse!

  • Annie

    Know me:

    My name is Annie. I am a wife to a Pastor, who is also a missionaries kid. (Raised in the Philippines) I am a mother of 2, Abigail and Isaac. I am a surviver of infertility. I have 11 precious children in heaven from miscarriages. My latest little one was due July 4th, and died in December, and called Sparkler. It has been a privilege to meet you. Ever want to read any more about me…please visit my blog. Your openness has meant the world to me, and I want to be the same.

    Love—Annie

  • Erin

    Your loving, forgiving heart is one that is of such beauty. Thank you for sharing your life and thoughts with us. :)

  • PletcherFamily

    I also wanted to “de-lurk” and say hello. Thank you for allowing us to share your story and your unbelieveable faith in God. Thank you and God Bless you and your family.
    http://www.pletcher5journey.blogspot.com

  • kim

    It’s interesting that you posted this….I wanted so badly to write last night when I posted that I wish we lived closer so I could be your friend but felt so silly writing that to you. Now I feel free to say it and let you know that even though we don’t know each other in person I feel like I know you in spirit. I feel honored to be able to read your gifted writings and pray with you and be a part of your life from a far. My name is Kim, by the way. I live in Florida with my wonderful husband Pete and our amazing 3 year old Hannah Joy. We adopted her from China 2 years ago and she is…simply the best. I invite you to get to know us better on our site: http://www.journeytohannah.com My husband just started a blog as well: http://hannahsdaddy-petey.blogspot.com/

    Thanks again for being real and for being someone I greatly admire. I hope that someday we will meet…Florida has DISNEY ya know….hee hee

    Love, Kim P.

  • Jen

    Hi Angie! I’m Jennifer and I’ve been so touched by your story. I cannot imagine what your heart feels, but please know that I have prayed for you and I hope to learn from you and your love of God. I hope that today blesses you more than yesterday, but not as much at tomorrow!

    ~Jennifer

  • Sumer

    Hi Angie,
    I have also been following your story since a few months before Audrey was born.(And so has my husband!) This is the first time I have posted but I thoiught I would officially say hello. http://www.tegangregory.blogpot.com
    Sumer Schantz

  • Kim H.

    Hi Angie~

    My name is Kim and I’m a Catholic Mom of four and wife to love of my life for 19 years.

    I found your post thru Mrs. Fussypants – I started reading when you had the post about the pitcher. From that post, I read ALL the way back and was so moved by your story. I have been praying for your family and in that, I hope you find even the smallest bit of HIS peace and comfort.

    Kim H.
    Columbus, OH

  • Becky

    I think those blog settings are a good idea. I have been reading you for sometime now. Another way to get to know people is by reading *their* blog – but not everyone has one! God Bless your family!!

    beckyperry.us

  • Ali & Dave

    Hi Angie. This is my first time posting to you….but I’ve read your blog from the beginning and read every day. You are an inspiration. I’m not an overly religious person….I pray…but I don’t go to church….you’ve inspired me and I’m going to try to go from now on…thank you. :)
    Ali

  • Ali & Dave

    Hi Angie. This is my first time posting to you….but I’ve read your blog from the beginning and read every day. You are an inspiration. I’m not an overly religious person….I pray…but I don’t go to church….you’ve inspired me and I’m going to try to go from now on…thank you. :)
    Ali

  • Ali & Dave

    Hi Angie. This is my first time posting to you….but I’ve read your blog from the beginning and read every day. You are an inspiration. I’m not an overly religious person….I pray…but I don’t go to church….you’ve inspired me and I’m going to try to go from now on…thank you. :)
    Ali

  • Ali & Dave

    Hi Angie. This is my first time posting to you….but I’ve read your blog from the beginning and read every day. You are an inspiration. I’m not an overly religious person….I pray…but I don’t go to church….you’ve inspired me and I’m going to try to go from now on…thank you. :)
    Ali

  • Ali & Dave

    Hi Angie. This is my first time posting to you….but I’ve read your blog from the beginning and read every day. You are an inspiration. I’m not an overly religious person….I pray…but I don’t go to church….you’ve inspired me and I’m going to try to go from now on…thank you. :)
    Ali

  • Ali & Dave

    Hi Angie. This is my first time posting to you….but I’ve read your blog from the beginning and read every day. You are an inspiration. I’m not an overly religious person….I pray…but I don’t go to church….you’ve inspired me and I’m going to try to go from now on…thank you. :)
    Ali

  • Ali & Dave

    Hi Angie. This is my first time posting to you….but I’ve read your blog from the beginning and read every day. You are an inspiration. I’m not an overly religious person….I pray…but I don’t go to church….you’ve inspired me and I’m going to try to go from now on…thank you. :)
    Ali

  • Ali & Dave

    Hi Angie. This is my first time posting to you….but I’ve read your blog from the beginning and read every day. You are an inspiration. I’m not an overly religious person….I pray…but I don’t go to church….you’ve inspired me and I’m going to try to go from now on…thank you. :)
    Ali

  • Ali & Dave

    Hi Angie. This is my first time posting to you….but I’ve read your blog from the beginning and read every day. You are an inspiration. I’m not an overly religious person….I pray…but I don’t go to church….you’ve inspired me and I’m going to try to go from now on…thank you. :)
    Ali

  • Ali & Dave

    Hi Angie. This is my first time posting to you….but I’ve read your blog from the beginning and read every day. You are an inspiration. I’m not an overly religious person….I pray…but I don’t go to church….you’ve inspired me and I’m going to try to go from now on…thank you. :)
    Ali

  • Ali & Dave

    Hi Angie. This is my first time posting to you….but I’ve read your blog from the beginning and read every day. You are an inspiration. I’m not an overly religious person….I pray…but I don’t go to church….you’ve inspired me and I’m going to try to go from now on…thank you. :)
    Ali

  • Ali & Dave

    Hi Angie. This is my first time posting to you….but I’ve read your blog from the beginning and read every day. You are an inspiration. I’m not an overly religious person….I pray…but I don’t go to church….you’ve inspired me and I’m going to try to go from now on…thank you. :)
    Ali

  • Ali & Dave

    Hi Angie. This is my first time posting to you….but I’ve read your blog from the beginning and read every day. You are an inspiration. I’m not an overly religious person….I pray…but I don’t go to church….you’ve inspired me and I’m going to try to go from now on…thank you. :)
    Ali

  • Ali & Dave

    Hi Angie. This is my first time posting to you….but I’ve read your blog from the beginning and read every day. You are an inspiration. I’m not an overly religious person….I pray…but I don’t go to church….you’ve inspired me and I’m going to try to go from now on…thank you. :)
    Ali

  • Ali & Dave

    Hi Angie. This is my first time posting to you….but I’ve read your blog from the beginning and read every day. You are an inspiration. I’m not an overly religious person….I pray…but I don’t go to church….you’ve inspired me and I’m going to try to go from now on…thank you. :)
    Ali

  • Ali & Dave

    Hi Angie. This is my first time posting to you….but I’ve read your blog from the beginning and read every day. You are an inspiration. I’m not an overly religious person….I pray…but I don’t go to church….you’ve inspired me and I’m going to try to go from now on…thank you. :)
    Ali

  • David, Ashley and Noah

    Angie,
    I’m so sorry you had to go through even more hurt than you already had. I will pray that the people that did this will feel “enough” to be friends with others without the thought that they have to make themselves up. As a woman who just moved 2,000 miles away from everything they’ve know, I know what it means to me lonely and want a friend, but thats what the local church is for. I’m inspired by your writings and your story, and I think everyone that reads your blog would love to have you as a close and personal friend. You’re an amazing woman, and I only hope that I can be as close to God as you are. God bless.
    Ashley

  • Kim

    Angie,
    I have left a few comments from time to time as “anonymous” but only because I couldn’t remember my password! LOL
    Congrats on CoCo….that is SO awesome!
    Please just continue to be your sweet self – you are an inspiration to all of us “real” people here!
    Kim
    Grand Rapids, MI

  • Eric and Michelle

    I would love for you to get to know me. Please see my comment on the Fathers day post from this morning.

    Blessings!
    Michelle
    http://www.journeytomercy.blogspot.com

  • Sara

    This was a good post; I know I’m naive because I tend to take people at face value, but it’s a trait I’d rather have than assuming the worst all the time. You’re right to forgive and move forward; I admire that ease in you greatly.

    I feel like I know you so well, and often pray for your happiness and lightness of spirit. If you want to know me, here I am: http://www.gitzengirl.blogspot.com … you’re welcome any time!

  • Christy Sanford

    Angie, I also wanted to say thank you for your blog!! I like so many have been following it for some time and have passed it on to some of my family members and friends.

    I am a mother to 4 and married to my best friend! I also have one precious angel whom we named Caroline. A little background on her. I have a special sister, who is 7 years older. (my mom was exposed to the German measles when she was pregnant, resulting in a hole in the baby’s heart)

    We have always laughed that she has a direct line to God. Well, when I had a miscarriage we were waiting to tell my sister since she takes things hard and has such a tender heart.
    Well, when I shared it with her she informed me she already knew because “her” name was Caroline and grandma was rocking her in heaven. So, of course we named her Caroline since my sister usually knows.

    Anyway, I just wanted to say thanks again for sharing your heart with us! Looking at all the comments each day, it is so evident that God is using you and your words to touch each of us in our own way!

  • Chele

    Angie~
    I loved your Father’s Day tribute to Todd. I am very blessed to have an amazing husband as well, and probably need to let him know more often how wonderful he is.

    I am praying daily for your family!
    Chele
    PS I love how much CoCo went for! Such an amazing lesson for your girls!

  • Jack Miller

    Angie,

    This is my first comment, but I have been reading the blog for quite a while. It has spoken to me in soooo many ways. I miscarried in March, so your song was so healing. And my husband and I lead a Sunday School class and I love the vase idea. Your faith is amazing and true and authentic. And your ability to write and express yourself is definitely a gift from God. I feel led to share with you that my dear friend that shared your blog with me and that had been reading your blog daily completely lost her house in a fire on Friday in Thompson Station. God was so amazing through it all because she has 10 children and they were all in the house at the time of the fire and all made it out safely. I tell you all this just so you could please say a prayer for them. I know she would appreciate it and I know she has prayed so often for your family. I have thought of your Empty Pages entry often since Friday, but it touched me in a different way. My friend, Valerie, is a mom who loves to journal and with 10 little ones there is much to write about. All of those special pages have been lost, but she has slowly began receiving journals with lots of empty pages to fill in the coming days. Thank you so much for being vulnerable and sharing your heart with so many. I am still praying for you and your family. Just know that He is using your life to touch so many.

    Thanks, Mandy

  • Beckycain6

    We sure get tricked sometimes, don’t we? That stinks.

    I’ve tried to make myself known…but in case there is anything mysterious…

    1) My name is Becky (No one calls me Rebecca except my OB/GYN…go figure?)
    2) I really do have a whole litter of children…they rock!
    3)I have two dogs, and I told Danielle this…one is a Great Dane named Lucy who I LOVE!! One is an old golden retriever named Sandy who is rude and NEVER listens to me.
    4) We live in Virginia and have put you on our prayer list over a dozen times….Sara and Nicol too.
    5) I really bought the cleaner…
    6) I don’t LOVE chocolate like all other women on this planet…I ‘d rather eat beef jerky or dorritos.
    7) I really, honestly love the Lord and need Him more than I could ever begin to find words to describe.
    8) I have cried for you on many different occasions. Your wanting Audrey so much breaks my heart for you.
    9) I have a little man waiting for me in Heaven….till that day……

    AND

    10) I’m on my own life’s trail trying hard to make it “Home,” but would do anything for any one of you reading this if you needed it.

    All my sincere heart,
    Becky Cain! :)

  • PiesBonitos

    Angie,
    It’s a really sad realization when you realize that internet trolls scour the internet, preying on people’s emotions, sympathy, and grief. I belong to a miscarriage grief website and there have been more than few trolls found out over the years I’ve been a member there. Some make up super elaborate stories, complete with photos and everything. It’s really unfortunate, especially after you’ve dealt with enough and you start to wonder if a new member is real or not. :( Anyway, I’m sorry you’ve been introduced to a few. :(

    Hugs
    Carrie

  • Kara Lyn

    Hi! I started reading your blog a few months ago after my sister delivered her 4th baby stillbirth at 20 weeks. She found your blog and shared it with me. You are a strong woman who is a great example of how God can heal when we are faithful to Him and really trust in Him to guide us daily! Thank you for sharing!

  • Audre

    Angie
    I am so sorry that you had to go through that. I really enjoy reading your blog and am amazed at how honest you are and how much you put yourself out there. Please know that I pray for you daily.

    Audre

  • Elizabeth S

    I am so sorry that people feel the need to be hurtful. You have been through so much, and show such strength and grace, which we know can only come from the Father. Thank you for continuing to share your heart here. You have blessed me tremendously. Blessings!

  • Just a simple gal

    Hey Angie – I haven’t posted much since Audrey’s birth – but rest assured [as with all who have posted here] that you and Todd’s whole family have been in my prayers these few months. I’ve been reading and sharing how you allow the Lord to use you – I really do look forward to the book you’ll be writing one day. Your insight into God’s mercy and grace and your writing style is a true gift and you’ve allowed Him to use you to bless ME through your blog. My ninja kitty is my photo here, but you can go to my blog and see me and my sweet family and how we KNOW our Lord is with us through the ups and the downs of life. – Judy in Huntsville

  • Jen

    It has been such an honor to read your heart spilled out on my computer screen. To have such intimate emotions shared has made me feel linked to you. If only all of us could be as honest and open about what hurts we have.

    I am losing my grandmother today. She is slowly slipping away and even though she has had such a full and rich life, it is still so hard. She is more dear to me than some of my closest friends and I will miss her.

    It’s been helpful to read your blog and to cry and grieve with you. I am praying, hoping, and believing healing for you and I. He is my comforter today and I pray He would be yours as well. Thank you!

    Your sister in Christ,
    Jen

  • AuntieB

    Angie,
    I found your blog thru the “testimony video” you did. It was beautiful.

    It’s hard not to totally bawl your eyes out while sitting at your desk in your office (it’s harder when you’re the receptionist).

    Thank you for sharing your beautiful heart. May God continue to bless you as you & Todd continue to minister to all of us. =)

  • A&Z's Mom

    Hi Angie,
    I love reading your blog. It is amazing to read about your faith, your life, and how God is working in you. I have been a Christian for as long as I can remember, and therefore, I sometimes take it all for granted. It is SO GOOD to read and be a part of your life. I share your sorrows, but also know that God is still one and the same even in the worst sufferings.

    As for the Coach bag, I think the ‘controversy’ over the bag is an example of God’s grace. That it isn’t black and white, (that a purse isn’t to be bought over a certain $ amount.) And each of us have a different calling to a different ‘purse.’

  • A&Z's Mom

    Hi Angie,
    I love reading your blog. It is amazing to read about your faith, your life, and how God is working in you. I have been a Christian for as long as I can remember, and therefore, I sometimes take it all for granted. It is SO GOOD to read and be a part of your life. I share your sorrows, but also know that God is still one and the same even in the worst sufferings.

    As for the Coach bag, I think the ‘controversy’ over the bag is an example of God’s grace. That it isn’t black and white, (that a purse isn’t to be bought over a certain $ amount.) And each of us have a different calling to a different ‘purse.’

  • A&Z's Mom

    Hi Angie,
    I love reading your blog. It is amazing to read about your faith, your life, and how God is working in you. I have been a Christian for as long as I can remember, and therefore, I sometimes take it all for granted. It is SO GOOD to read and be a part of your life. I share your sorrows, but also know that God is still one and the same even in the worst sufferings.

    As for the Coach bag, I think the ‘controversy’ over the bag is an example of God’s grace. That it isn’t black and white, (that a purse isn’t to be bought over a certain $ amount.) And each of us have a different calling to a different ‘purse.’

  • A&Z's Mom

    Hi Angie,
    I love reading your blog. It is amazing to read about your faith, your life, and how God is working in you. I have been a Christian for as long as I can remember, and therefore, I sometimes take it all for granted. It is SO GOOD to read and be a part of your life. I share your sorrows, but also know that God is still one and the same even in the worst sufferings.

    As for the Coach bag, I think the ‘controversy’ over the bag is an example of God’s grace. That it isn’t black and white, (that a purse isn’t to be bought over a certain $ amount.) And each of us have a different calling to a different ‘purse.’

  • A&Z's Mom

    Hi Angie,
    I love reading your blog. It is amazing to read about your faith, your life, and how God is working in you. I have been a Christian for as long as I can remember, and therefore, I sometimes take it all for granted. It is SO GOOD to read and be a part of your life. I share your sorrows, but also know that God is still one and the same even in the worst sufferings.

    As for the Coach bag, I think the ‘controversy’ over the bag is an example of God’s grace. That it isn’t black and white, (that a purse isn’t to be bought over a certain $ amount.) And each of us have a different calling to a different ‘purse.’

  • A&Z's Mom

    Hi Angie,
    I love reading your blog. It is amazing to read about your faith, your life, and how God is working in you. I have been a Christian for as long as I can remember, and therefore, I sometimes take it all for granted. It is SO GOOD to read and be a part of your life. I share your sorrows, but also know that God is still one and the same even in the worst sufferings.

    As for the Coach bag, I think the ‘controversy’ over the bag is an example of God’s grace. That it isn’t black and white, (that a purse isn’t to be bought over a certain $ amount.) And each of us have a different calling to a different ‘purse.’

  • A&Z's Mom

    Hi Angie,
    I love reading your blog. It is amazing to read about your faith, your life, and how God is working in you. I have been a Christian for as long as I can remember, and therefore, I sometimes take it all for granted. It is SO GOOD to read and be a part of your life. I share your sorrows, but also know that God is still one and the same even in the worst sufferings.

    As for the Coach bag, I think the ‘controversy’ over the bag is an example of God’s grace. That it isn’t black and white, (that a purse isn’t to be bought over a certain $ amount.) And each of us have a different calling to a different ‘purse.’

  • A&Z's Mom

    Hi Angie,
    I love reading your blog. It is amazing to read about your faith, your life, and how God is working in you. I have been a Christian for as long as I can remember, and therefore, I sometimes take it all for granted. It is SO GOOD to read and be a part of your life. I share your sorrows, but also know that God is still one and the same even in the worst sufferings.

    As for the Coach bag, I think the ‘controversy’ over the bag is an example of God’s grace. That it isn’t black and white, (that a purse isn’t to be bought over a certain $ amount.) And each of us have a different calling to a different ‘purse.’

  • A&Z's Mom

    Hi Angie,
    I love reading your blog. It is amazing to read about your faith, your life, and how God is working in you. I have been a Christian for as long as I can remember, and therefore, I sometimes take it all for granted. It is SO GOOD to read and be a part of your life. I share your sorrows, but also know that God is still one and the same even in the worst sufferings.

    As for the Coach bag, I think the ‘controversy’ over the bag is an example of God’s grace. That it isn’t black and white, (that a purse isn’t to be bought over a certain $ amount.) And each of us have a different calling to a different ‘purse.’

  • A&Z's Mom

    Hi Angie,
    I love reading your blog. It is amazing to read about your faith, your life, and how God is working in you. I have been a Christian for as long as I can remember, and therefore, I sometimes take it all for granted. It is SO GOOD to read and be a part of your life. I share your sorrows, but also know that God is still one and the same even in the worst sufferings.

    As for the Coach bag, I think the ‘controversy’ over the bag is an example of God’s grace. That it isn’t black and white, (that a purse isn’t to be bought over a certain $ amount.) And each of us have a different calling to a different ‘purse.’

  • A&Z's Mom

    Hi Angie,
    I love reading your blog. It is amazing to read about your faith, your life, and how God is working in you. I have been a Christian for as long as I can remember, and therefore, I sometimes take it all for granted. It is SO GOOD to read and be a part of your life. I share your sorrows, but also know that God is still one and the same even in the worst sufferings.

    As for the Coach bag, I think the ‘controversy’ over the bag is an example of God’s grace. That it isn’t black and white, (that a purse isn’t to be bought over a certain $ amount.) And each of us have a different calling to a different ‘purse.’

  • A&Z's Mom

    Hi Angie,
    I love reading your blog. It is amazing to read about your faith, your life, and how God is working in you. I have been a Christian for as long as I can remember, and therefore, I sometimes take it all for granted. It is SO GOOD to read and be a part of your life. I share your sorrows, but also know that God is still one and the same even in the worst sufferings.

    As for the Coach bag, I think the ‘controversy’ over the bag is an example of God’s grace. That it isn’t black and white, (that a purse isn’t to be bought over a certain $ amount.) And each of us have a different calling to a different ‘purse.’

  • A&Z's Mom

    Hi Angie,
    I love reading your blog. It is amazing to read about your faith, your life, and how God is working in you. I have been a Christian for as long as I can remember, and therefore, I sometimes take it all for granted. It is SO GOOD to read and be a part of your life. I share your sorrows, but also know that God is still one and the same even in the worst sufferings.

    As for the Coach bag, I think the ‘controversy’ over the bag is an example of God’s grace. That it isn’t black and white, (that a purse isn’t to be bought over a certain $ amount.) And each of us have a different calling to a different ‘purse.’

  • A&Z's Mom

    Hi Angie,
    I love reading your blog. It is amazing to read about your faith, your life, and how God is working in you. I have been a Christian for as long as I can remember, and therefore, I sometimes take it all for granted. It is SO GOOD to read and be a part of your life. I share your sorrows, but also know that God is still one and the same even in the worst sufferings.

    As for the Coach bag, I think the ‘controversy’ over the bag is an example of God’s grace. That it isn’t black and white, (that a purse isn’t to be bought over a certain $ amount.) And each of us have a different calling to a different ‘purse.’

  • A&Z's Mom

    Hi Angie,
    I love reading your blog. It is amazing to read about your faith, your life, and how God is working in you. I have been a Christian for as long as I can remember, and therefore, I sometimes take it all for granted. It is SO GOOD to read and be a part of your life. I share your sorrows, but also know that God is still one and the same even in the worst sufferings.

    As for the Coach bag, I think the ‘controversy’ over the bag is an example of God’s grace. That it isn’t black and white, (that a purse isn’t to be bought over a certain $ amount.) And each of us have a different calling to a different ‘purse.’

  • A&Z's Mom

    Hi Angie,
    I love reading your blog. It is amazing to read about your faith, your life, and how God is working in you. I have been a Christian for as long as I can remember, and therefore, I sometimes take it all for granted. It is SO GOOD to read and be a part of your life. I share your sorrows, but also know that God is still one and the same even in the worst sufferings.

    As for the Coach bag, I think the ‘controversy’ over the bag is an example of God’s grace. That it isn’t black and white, (that a purse isn’t to be bought over a certain $ amount.) And each of us have a different calling to a different ‘purse.’

  • Carrie

    Your blog blesses not only me, but my family, every time you post!

    I would LOVE for you (or anyone else who reads this comment) to get to know our family a little.

    Comment and let me know you visited!

    Praying for you always!

    http://www.alwaysfriday-carrie.blogspot.com

  • amydc

    Hooray for Coco!!!!!!
    God is so good!

  • Seabolt

    Angie,
    I am so glad that I found your blog – I don’t like the circumstances but I am glad I found you. You are an amazing woman with a tremindous testimony…

    I pray for your family often. I thought of Todd yesterday & hoped he had a wonderful Father’s Day. Your tribute to him was perfect!!

    Take care,
    Jennifer S.
    Atlanta, GA

  • The 5 Bickies

    I always find you so inspirational. Thank you for your genuine posts and how much of yourself you share with us.

    You are welcome at my blog any time. I am not at all inspiring, just documenting the antics of our family.

  • Jeff and Amy

    Started following your story a few months back, and please know I have prayed and cried often. I am humbled by your honesty and your faithfulness to God during such an unthinkable time. I think it’s wonderful that your “favorite” purse was able to help others!!!! Know that your sharing is touching lives:)

  • Elizabeth

    I’ll delurk and introduce myself as well :)
    My friend http://drewandliv.blogspot.com/ introduced me to your journal; she’s an ultrasound technition and sometimes scans little ones like your Audry. I’ve been reading since right after Audry’s death and your blog has been a real ministry to me. Even though my little ones are all healthy and strong, your testimony reminds me that they truly are not my own, but belong to God. It’s encouraging to see that one can stay strong in the Lord even through the valley of the shadow of death. You have a beautiful way with words, and the Lord is using them for his glory. I’m praying for you!

    Elizabeth
    http://wake-elizabeth.blogspot.com/

  • windyllama

    Angie, Thank you for your honest and personal journey through the life and loss of your precious baby Audrey. Your journey has caused me to revisit my own loss. I never connected the dots and completed the journey my heart was just too broken. Through you I am a stronger Christian woman and Mother. I still my not understand why my baby died but now I hear God’s calling………

    Bless you!

  • Beckycain6

    Okay,

    Let’s all come forth. WHO BOUGHT THE PURSE?

    Out with it, who was it? I say, re-list and let’s get the price jacked up even higher!!! Its for a cause…let’s do it! Tawanda!

    :)

  • Marcie

    Hi Angie-

    I have commented one other time, but wanted to introduce myself!

    I am Marcie and have been reading your blog for about a month. I can’t even begin to tell you what an inspiration it is to me. I am a wife to an amazing man and we have been struggling through infertility for the last four years. We are now in the adoption process!

    Your faith and your pure, sweet heart have given me so much encouragement.

    Thank you for sharing your life with us!

    Than

  • Brian & Amy

    Dear Angie,
    Thank you for your courage – I would like to share 2 ways that your honesty has helped me with other people in my life experencing a pain that I do not know.
    First, I met a woman in my company via e-mail – she mentioned that she had been out of the office for a month and was catching up – I asked her if she got married and she proceeded to tell me the story of her little girl that was born at 22 weeks and lived only 1 hour. Amazingly (not really – since I trust that God brought me to your sight for such a time as this) I was able to ask her questions that I would have AVOIDED had you not been honest on your blog. I even asked her if she had pictures of her sweet Anna Sara. I NEVER would have thought of that if you had not shared your heart. She e-mailed me that NO ONE (not even her closest friends) had asked to see pictures – she felt that they were acting as if nothing ever happened. I also felt that I could send her a baby gift (I really do not know her at all but prayed that the gift – just a little wooden block with Anna Sara’s birth stats) would be received with the love and the grace that it was given… ultimately, it was and I have been able to share with her the love of God – all because of your being honest on your blog and helping me with what to ask and say!
    The second way that your blog has spoken to me is with my dear friend whose little one had a cardiac arrest on April 1st – went through a TON of hospital stuff and then passed on June 8th. In the beginning she was thinking that she could not question God – that she was being tested, etc… and because of your honesty I had real words to say to her about shouting matches with the Big guy – and just the courage to say that it is ok to be angry with God – she still loves and honors Him – just like her kids are mad when she won’t let them have 5 cookies before dinner – they still love her even if they are angry – that is a parent’s love – that is God’s love. I am not sure that you wrote about that but I had courage to speak to her and offer my love and just listen to tell her that I was sorry and to NOT say that her baby was in a better place – let her cry and let her grieve. If you can take a minute (I know that you are super busy) I would love to hear what things people have done to help you along this awful journey that you are walking… besides the constant prayers what tangible ways can I be there for her?

    Anyway – THANK YOU for your honesty and integrity through your writing – thank you for showing that it is OK to have bad days. And that you for looking to Jesus through your unspeakable pain. You have touched so many lives.

  • Brian & Amy

    Dear Angie,
    Thank you for your courage – I would like to share 2 ways that your honesty has helped me with other people in my life experencing a pain that I do not know.
    First, I met a woman in my company via e-mail – she mentioned that she had been out of the office for a month and was catching up – I asked her if she got married and she proceeded to tell me the story of her little girl that was born at 22 weeks and lived only 1 hour. Amazingly (not really – since I trust that God brought me to your sight for such a time as this) I was able to ask her questions that I would have AVOIDED had you not been honest on your blog. I even asked her if she had pictures of her sweet Anna Sara. I NEVER would have thought of that if you had not shared your heart. She e-mailed me that NO ONE (not even her closest friends) had asked to see pictures – she felt that they were acting as if nothing ever happened. I also felt that I could send her a baby gift (I really do not know her at all but prayed that the gift – just a little wooden block with Anna Sara’s birth stats) would be received with the love and the grace that it was given… ultimately, it was and I have been able to share with her the love of God – all because of your being honest on your blog and helping me with what to ask and say!
    The second way that your blog has spoken to me is with my dear friend whose little one had a cardiac arrest on April 1st – went through a TON of hospital stuff and then passed on June 8th. In the beginning she was thinking that she could not question God – that she was being tested, etc… and because of your honesty I had real words to say to her about shouting matches with the Big guy – and just the courage to say that it is ok to be angry with God – she still loves and honors Him – just like her kids are mad when she won’t let them have 5 cookies before dinner – they still love her even if they are angry – that is a parent’s love – that is God’s love. I am not sure that you wrote about that but I had courage to speak to her and offer my love and just listen to tell her that I was sorry and to NOT say that her baby was in a better place – let her cry and let her grieve. If you can take a minute (I know that you are super busy) I would love to hear what things people have done to help you along this awful journey that you are walking… besides the constant prayers what tangible ways can I be there for her?

    Anyway – THANK YOU for your honesty and integrity through your writing – thank you for showing that it is OK to have bad days. And that you for looking to Jesus through your unspeakable pain. You have touched so many lives.

  • Brian & Amy

    Dear Angie,
    Thank you for your courage – I would like to share 2 ways that your honesty has helped me with other people in my life experencing a pain that I do not know.
    First, I met a woman in my company via e-mail – she mentioned that she had been out of the office for a month and was catching up – I asked her if she got married and she proceeded to tell me the story of her little girl that was born at 22 weeks and lived only 1 hour. Amazingly (not really – since I trust that God brought me to your sight for such a time as this) I was able to ask her questions that I would have AVOIDED had you not been honest on your blog. I even asked her if she had pictures of her sweet Anna Sara. I NEVER would have thought of that if you had not shared your heart. She e-mailed me that NO ONE (not even her closest friends) had asked to see pictures – she felt that they were acting as if nothing ever happened. I also felt that I could send her a baby gift (I really do not know her at all but prayed that the gift – just a little wooden block with Anna Sara’s birth stats) would be received with the love and the grace that it was given… ultimately, it was and I have been able to share with her the love of God – all because of your being honest on your blog and helping me with what to ask and say!
    The second way that your blog has spoken to me is with my dear friend whose little one had a cardiac arrest on April 1st – went through a TON of hospital stuff and then passed on June 8th. In the beginning she was thinking that she could not question God – that she was being tested, etc… and because of your honesty I had real words to say to her about shouting matches with the Big guy – and just the courage to say that it is ok to be angry with God – she still loves and honors Him – just like her kids are mad when she won’t let them have 5 cookies before dinner – they still love her even if they are angry – that is a parent’s love – that is God’s love. I am not sure that you wrote about that but I had courage to speak to her and offer my love and just listen to tell her that I was sorry and to NOT say that her baby was in a better place – let her cry and let her grieve. If you can take a minute (I know that you are super busy) I would love to hear what things people have done to help you along this awful journey that you are walking… besides the constant prayers what tangible ways can I be there for her?

    Anyway – THANK YOU for your honesty and integrity through your writing – thank you for showing that it is OK to have bad days. And that you for looking to Jesus through your unspeakable pain. You have touched so many lives.

  • Brian & Amy

    Dear Angie,
    Thank you for your courage – I would like to share 2 ways that your honesty has helped me with other people in my life experencing a pain that I do not know.
    First, I met a woman in my company via e-mail – she mentioned that she had been out of the office for a month and was catching up – I asked her if she got married and she proceeded to tell me the story of her little girl that was born at 22 weeks and lived only 1 hour. Amazingly (not really – since I trust that God brought me to your sight for such a time as this) I was able to ask her questions that I would have AVOIDED had you not been honest on your blog. I even asked her if she had pictures of her sweet Anna Sara. I NEVER would have thought of that if you had not shared your heart. She e-mailed me that NO ONE (not even her closest friends) had asked to see pictures – she felt that they were acting as if nothing ever happened. I also felt that I could send her a baby gift (I really do not know her at all but prayed that the gift – just a little wooden block with Anna Sara’s birth stats) would be received with the love and the grace that it was given… ultimately, it was and I have been able to share with her the love of God – all because of your being honest on your blog and helping me with what to ask and say!
    The second way that your blog has spoken to me is with my dear friend whose little one had a cardiac arrest on April 1st – went through a TON of hospital stuff and then passed on June 8th. In the beginning she was thinking that she could not question God – that she was being tested, etc… and because of your honesty I had real words to say to her about shouting matches with the Big guy – and just the courage to say that it is ok to be angry with God – she still loves and honors Him – just like her kids are mad when she won’t let them have 5 cookies before dinner – they still love her even if they are angry – that is a parent’s love – that is God’s love. I am not sure that you wrote about that but I had courage to speak to her and offer my love and just listen to tell her that I was sorry and to NOT say that her baby was in a better place – let her cry and let her grieve. If you can take a minute (I know that you are super busy) I would love to hear what things people have done to help you along this awful journey that you are walking… besides the constant prayers what tangible ways can I be there for her?

    Anyway – THANK YOU for your honesty and integrity through your writing – thank you for showing that it is OK to have bad days. And that you for looking to Jesus through your unspeakable pain. You have touched so many lives.

  • Brian & Amy

    Dear Angie,
    Thank you for your courage – I would like to share 2 ways that your honesty has helped me with other people in my life experencing a pain that I do not know.
    First, I met a woman in my company via e-mail – she mentioned that she had been out of the office for a month and was catching up – I asked her if she got married and she proceeded to tell me the story of her little girl that was born at 22 weeks and lived only 1 hour. Amazingly (not really – since I trust that God brought me to your sight for such a time as this) I was able to ask her questions that I would have AVOIDED had you not been honest on your blog. I even asked her if she had pictures of her sweet Anna Sara. I NEVER would have thought of that if you had not shared your heart. She e-mailed me that NO ONE (not even her closest friends) had asked to see pictures – she felt that they were acting as if nothing ever happened. I also felt that I could send her a baby gift (I really do not know her at all but prayed that the gift – just a little wooden block with Anna Sara’s birth stats) would be received with the love and the grace that it was given… ultimately, it was and I have been able to share with her the love of God – all because of your being honest on your blog and helping me with what to ask and say!
    The second way that your blog has spoken to me is with my dear friend whose little one had a cardiac arrest on April 1st – went through a TON of hospital stuff and then passed on June 8th. In the beginning she was thinking that she could not question God – that she was being tested, etc… and because of your honesty I had real words to say to her about shouting matches with the Big guy – and just the courage to say that it is ok to be angry with God – she still loves and honors Him – just like her kids are mad when she won’t let them have 5 cookies before dinner – they still love her even if they are angry – that is a parent’s love – that is God’s love. I am not sure that you wrote about that but I had courage to speak to her and offer my love and just listen to tell her that I was sorry and to NOT say that her baby was in a better place – let her cry and let her grieve. If you can take a minute (I know that you are super busy) I would love to hear what things people have done to help you along this awful journey that you are walking… besides the constant prayers what tangible ways can I be there for her?

    Anyway – THANK YOU for your honesty and integrity through your writing – thank you for showing that it is OK to have bad days. And that you for looking to Jesus through your unspeakable pain. You have touched so many lives.

  • Brian & Amy

    Dear Angie,
    Thank you for your courage – I would like to share 2 ways that your honesty has helped me with other people in my life experencing a pain that I do not know.
    First, I met a woman in my company via e-mail – she mentioned that she had been out of the office for a month and was catching up – I asked her if she got married and she proceeded to tell me the story of her little girl that was born at 22 weeks and lived only 1 hour. Amazingly (not really – since I trust that God brought me to your sight for such a time as this) I was able to ask her questions that I would have AVOIDED had you not been honest on your blog. I even asked her if she had pictures of her sweet Anna Sara. I NEVER would have thought of that if you had not shared your heart. She e-mailed me that NO ONE (not even her closest friends) had asked to see pictures – she felt that they were acting as if nothing ever happened. I also felt that I could send her a baby gift (I really do not know her at all but prayed that the gift – just a little wooden block with Anna Sara’s birth stats) would be received with the love and the grace that it was given… ultimately, it was and I have been able to share with her the love of God – all because of your being honest on your blog and helping me with what to ask and say!
    The second way that your blog has spoken to me is with my dear friend whose little one had a cardiac arrest on April 1st – went through a TON of hospital stuff and then passed on June 8th. In the beginning she was thinking that she could not question God – that she was being tested, etc… and because of your honesty I had real words to say to her about shouting matches with the Big guy – and just the courage to say that it is ok to be angry with God – she still loves and honors Him – just like her kids are mad when she won’t let them have 5 cookies before dinner – they still love her even if they are angry – that is a parent’s love – that is God’s love. I am not sure that you wrote about that but I had courage to speak to her and offer my love and just listen to tell her that I was sorry and to NOT say that her baby was in a better place – let her cry and let her grieve. If you can take a minute (I know that you are super busy) I would love to hear what things people have done to help you along this awful journey that you are walking… besides the constant prayers what tangible ways can I be there for her?

    Anyway – THANK YOU for your honesty and integrity through your writing – thank you for showing that it is OK to have bad days. And that you for looking to Jesus through your unspeakable pain. You have touched so many lives.

  • Brian & Amy

    Dear Angie,
    Thank you for your courage – I would like to share 2 ways that your honesty has helped me with other people in my life experencing a pain that I do not know.
    First, I met a woman in my company via e-mail – she mentioned that she had been out of the office for a month and was catching up – I asked her if she got married and she proceeded to tell me the story of her little girl that was born at 22 weeks and lived only 1 hour. Amazingly (not really – since I trust that God brought me to your sight for such a time as this) I was able to ask her questions that I would have AVOIDED had you not been honest on your blog. I even asked her if she had pictures of her sweet Anna Sara. I NEVER would have thought of that if you had not shared your heart. She e-mailed me that NO ONE (not even her closest friends) had asked to see pictures – she felt that they were acting as if nothing ever happened. I also felt that I could send her a baby gift (I really do not know her at all but prayed that the gift – just a little wooden block with Anna Sara’s birth stats) would be received with the love and the grace that it was given… ultimately, it was and I have been able to share with her the love of God – all because of your being honest on your blog and helping me with what to ask and say!
    The second way that your blog has spoken to me is with my dear friend whose little one had a cardiac arrest on April 1st – went through a TON of hospital stuff and then passed on June 8th. In the beginning she was thinking that she could not question God – that she was being tested, etc… and because of your honesty I had real words to say to her about shouting matches with the Big guy – and just the courage to say that it is ok to be angry with God – she still loves and honors Him – just like her kids are mad when she won’t let them have 5 cookies before dinner – they still love her even if they are angry – that is a parent’s love – that is God’s love. I am not sure that you wrote about that but I had courage to speak to her and offer my love and just listen to tell her that I was sorry and to NOT say that her baby was in a better place – let her cry and let her grieve. If you can take a minute (I know that you are super busy) I would love to hear what things people have done to help you along this awful journey that you are walking… besides the constant prayers what tangible ways can I be there for her?

    Anyway – THANK YOU for your honesty and integrity through your writing – thank you for showing that it is OK to have bad days. And that you for looking to Jesus through your unspeakable pain. You have touched so many lives.

  • Brian & Amy

    Dear Angie,
    Thank you for your courage – I would like to share 2 ways that your honesty has helped me with other people in my life experencing a pain that I do not know.
    First, I met a woman in my company via e-mail – she mentioned that she had been out of the office for a month and was catching up – I asked her if she got married and she proceeded to tell me the story of her little girl that was born at 22 weeks and lived only 1 hour. Amazingly (not really – since I trust that God brought me to your sight for such a time as this) I was able to ask her questions that I would have AVOIDED had you not been honest on your blog. I even asked her if she had pictures of her sweet Anna Sara. I NEVER would have thought of that if you had not shared your heart. She e-mailed me that NO ONE (not even her closest friends) had asked to see pictures – she felt that they were acting as if nothing ever happened. I also felt that I could send her a baby gift (I really do not know her at all but prayed that the gift – just a little wooden block with Anna Sara’s birth stats) would be received with the love and the grace that it was given… ultimately, it was and I have been able to share with her the love of God – all because of your being honest on your blog and helping me with what to ask and say!
    The second way that your blog has spoken to me is with my dear friend whose little one had a cardiac arrest on April 1st – went through a TON of hospital stuff and then passed on June 8th. In the beginning she was thinking that she could not question God – that she was being tested, etc… and because of your honesty I had real words to say to her about shouting matches with the Big guy – and just the courage to say that it is ok to be angry with God – she still loves and honors Him – just like her kids are mad when she won’t let them have 5 cookies before dinner – they still love her even if they are angry – that is a parent’s love – that is God’s love. I am not sure that you wrote about that but I had courage to speak to her and offer my love and just listen to tell her that I was sorry and to NOT say that her baby was in a better place – let her cry and let her grieve. If you can take a minute (I know that you are super busy) I would love to hear what things people have done to help you along this awful journey that you are walking… besides the constant prayers what tangible ways can I be there for her?

    Anyway – THANK YOU for your honesty and integrity through your writing – thank you for showing that it is OK to have bad days. And that you for looking to Jesus through your unspeakable pain. You have touched so many lives.

  • Brian & Amy

    Dear Angie,
    Thank you for your courage – I would like to share 2 ways that your honesty has helped me with other people in my life experencing a pain that I do not know.
    First, I met a woman in my company via e-mail – she mentioned that she had been out of the office for a month and was catching up – I asked her if she got married and she proceeded to tell me the story of her little girl that was born at 22 weeks and lived only 1 hour. Amazingly (not really – since I trust that God brought me to your sight for such a time as this) I was able to ask her questions that I would have AVOIDED had you not been honest on your blog. I even asked her if she had pictures of her sweet Anna Sara. I NEVER would have thought of that if you had not shared your heart. She e-mailed me that NO ONE (not even her closest friends) had asked to see pictures – she felt that they were acting as if nothing ever happened. I also felt that I could send her a baby gift (I really do not know her at all but prayed that the gift – just a little wooden block with Anna Sara’s birth stats) would be received with the love and the grace that it was given… ultimately, it was and I have been able to share with her the love of God – all because of your being honest on your blog and helping me with what to ask and say!
    The second way that your blog has spoken to me is with my dear friend whose little one had a cardiac arrest on April 1st – went through a TON of hospital stuff and then passed on June 8th. In the beginning she was thinking that she could not question God – that she was being tested, etc… and because of your honesty I had real words to say to her about shouting matches with the Big guy – and just the courage to say that it is ok to be angry with God – she still loves and honors Him – just like her kids are mad when she won’t let them have 5 cookies before dinner – they still love her even if they are angry – that is a parent’s love – that is God’s love. I am not sure that you wrote about that but I had courage to speak to her and offer my love and just listen to tell her that I was sorry and to NOT say that her baby was in a better place – let her cry and let her grieve. If you can take a minute (I know that you are super busy) I would love to hear what things people have done to help you along this awful journey that you are walking… besides the constant prayers what tangible ways can I be there for her?

    Anyway – THANK YOU for your honesty and integrity through your writing – thank you for showing that it is OK to have bad days. And that you for looking to Jesus through your unspeakable pain. You have touched so many lives.

  • Brian & Amy

    Dear Angie,
    Thank you for your courage – I would like to share 2 ways that your honesty has helped me with other people in my life experencing a pain that I do not know.
    First, I met a woman in my company via e-mail – she mentioned that she had been out of the office for a month and was catching up – I asked her if she got married and she proceeded to tell me the story of her little girl that was born at 22 weeks and lived only 1 hour. Amazingly (not really – since I trust that God brought me to your sight for such a time as this) I was able to ask her questions that I would have AVOIDED had you not been honest on your blog. I even asked her if she had pictures of her sweet Anna Sara. I NEVER would have thought of that if you had not shared your heart. She e-mailed me that NO ONE (not even her closest friends) had asked to see pictures – she felt that they were acting as if nothing ever happened. I also felt that I could send her a baby gift (I really do not know her at all but prayed that the gift – just a little wooden block with Anna Sara’s birth stats) would be received with the love and the grace that it was given… ultimately, it was and I have been able to share with her the love of God – all because of your being honest on your blog and helping me with what to ask and say!
    The second way that your blog has spoken to me is with my dear friend whose little one had a cardiac arrest on April 1st – went through a TON of hospital stuff and then passed on June 8th. In the beginning she was thinking that she could not question God – that she was being tested, etc… and because of your honesty I had real words to say to her about shouting matches with the Big guy – and just the courage to say that it is ok to be angry with God – she still loves and honors Him – just like her kids are mad when she won’t let them have 5 cookies before dinner – they still love her even if they are angry – that is a parent’s love – that is God’s love. I am not sure that you wrote about that but I had courage to speak to her and offer my love and just listen to tell her that I was sorry and to NOT say that her baby was in a better place – let her cry and let her grieve. If you can take a minute (I know that you are super busy) I would love to hear what things people have done to help you along this awful journey that you are walking… besides the constant prayers what tangible ways can I be there for her?

    Anyway – THANK YOU for your honesty and integrity through your writing – thank you for showing that it is OK to have bad days. And that you for looking to Jesus through your unspeakable pain. You have touched so many lives.

  • Brian & Amy

    Dear Angie,
    Thank you for your courage – I would like to share 2 ways that your honesty has helped me with other people in my life experencing a pain that I do not know.
    First, I met a woman in my company via e-mail – she mentioned that she had been out of the office for a month and was catching up – I asked her if she got married and she proceeded to tell me the story of her little girl that was born at 22 weeks and lived only 1 hour. Amazingly (not really – since I trust that God brought me to your sight for such a time as this) I was able to ask her questions that I would have AVOIDED had you not been honest on your blog. I even asked her if she had pictures of her sweet Anna Sara. I NEVER would have thought of that if you had not shared your heart. She e-mailed me that NO ONE (not even her closest friends) had asked to see pictures – she felt that they were acting as if nothing ever happened. I also felt that I could send her a baby gift (I really do not know her at all but prayed that the gift – just a little wooden block with Anna Sara’s birth stats) would be received with the love and the grace that it was given… ultimately, it was and I have been able to share with her the love of God – all because of your being honest on your blog and helping me with what to ask and say!
    The second way that your blog has spoken to me is with my dear friend whose little one had a cardiac arrest on April 1st – went through a TON of hospital stuff and then passed on June 8th. In the beginning she was thinking that she could not question God – that she was being tested, etc… and because of your honesty I had real words to say to her about shouting matches with the Big guy – and just the courage to say that it is ok to be angry with God – she still loves and honors Him – just like her kids are mad when she won’t let them have 5 cookies before dinner – they still love her even if they are angry – that is a parent’s love – that is God’s love. I am not sure that you wrote about that but I had courage to speak to her and offer my love and just listen to tell her that I was sorry and to NOT say that her baby was in a better place – let her cry and let her grieve. If you can take a minute (I know that you are super busy) I would love to hear what things people have done to help you along this awful journey that you are walking… besides the constant prayers what tangible ways can I be there for her?

    Anyway – THANK YOU for your honesty and integrity through your writing – thank you for showing that it is OK to have bad days. And that you for looking to Jesus through your unspeakable pain. You have touched so many lives.

  • Brian & Amy

    Dear Angie,
    Thank you for your courage – I would like to share 2 ways that your honesty has helped me with other people in my life experencing a pain that I do not know.
    First, I met a woman in my company via e-mail – she mentioned that she had been out of the office for a month and was catching up – I asked her if she got married and she proceeded to tell me the story of her little girl that was born at 22 weeks and lived only 1 hour. Amazingly (not really – since I trust that God brought me to your sight for such a time as this) I was able to ask her questions that I would have AVOIDED had you not been honest on your blog. I even asked her if she had pictures of her sweet Anna Sara. I NEVER would have thought of that if you had not shared your heart. She e-mailed me that NO ONE (not even her closest friends) had asked to see pictures – she felt that they were acting as if nothing ever happened. I also felt that I could send her a baby gift (I really do not know her at all but prayed that the gift – just a little wooden block with Anna Sara’s birth stats) would be received with the love and the grace that it was given… ultimately, it was and I have been able to share with her the love of God – all because of your being honest on your blog and helping me with what to ask and say!
    The second way that your blog has spoken to me is with my dear friend whose little one had a cardiac arrest on April 1st – went through a TON of hospital stuff and then passed on June 8th. In the beginning she was thinking that she could not question God – that she was being tested, etc… and because of your honesty I had real words to say to her about shouting matches with the Big guy – and just the courage to say that it is ok to be angry with God – she still loves and honors Him – just like her kids are mad when she won’t let them have 5 cookies before dinner – they still love her even if they are angry – that is a parent’s love – that is God’s love. I am not sure that you wrote about that but I had courage to speak to her and offer my love and just listen to tell her that I was sorry and to NOT say that her baby was in a better place – let her cry and let her grieve. If you can take a minute (I know that you are super busy) I would love to hear what things people have done to help you along this awful journey that you are walking… besides the constant prayers what tangible ways can I be there for her?

    Anyway – THANK YOU for your honesty and integrity through your writing – thank you for showing that it is OK to have bad days. And that you for looking to Jesus through your unspeakable pain. You have touched so many lives.

  • Brian & Amy

    Dear Angie,
    Thank you for your courage – I would like to share 2 ways that your honesty has helped me with other people in my life experencing a pain that I do not know.
    First, I met a woman in my company via e-mail – she mentioned that she had been out of the office for a month and was catching up – I asked her if she got married and she proceeded to tell me the story of her little girl that was born at 22 weeks and lived only 1 hour. Amazingly (not really – since I trust that God brought me to your sight for such a time as this) I was able to ask her questions that I would have AVOIDED had you not been honest on your blog. I even asked her if she had pictures of her sweet Anna Sara. I NEVER would have thought of that if you had not shared your heart. She e-mailed me that NO ONE (not even her closest friends) had asked to see pictures – she felt that they were acting as if nothing ever happened. I also felt that I could send her a baby gift (I really do not know her at all but prayed that the gift – just a little wooden block with Anna Sara’s birth stats) would be received with the love and the grace that it was given… ultimately, it was and I have been able to share with her the love of God – all because of your being honest on your blog and helping me with what to ask and say!
    The second way that your blog has spoken to me is with my dear friend whose little one had a cardiac arrest on April 1st – went through a TON of hospital stuff and then passed on June 8th. In the beginning she was thinking that she could not question God – that she was being tested, etc… and because of your honesty I had real words to say to her about shouting matches with the Big guy – and just the courage to say that it is ok to be angry with God – she still loves and honors Him – just like her kids are mad when she won’t let them have 5 cookies before dinner – they still love her even if they are angry – that is a parent’s love – that is God’s love. I am not sure that you wrote about that but I had courage to speak to her and offer my love and just listen to tell her that I was sorry and to NOT say that her baby was in a better place – let her cry and let her grieve. If you can take a minute (I know that you are super busy) I would love to hear what things people have done to help you along this awful journey that you are walking… besides the constant prayers what tangible ways can I be there for her?

    Anyway – THANK YOU for your honesty and integrity through your writing – thank you for showing that it is OK to have bad days. And that you for looking to Jesus through your unspeakable pain. You have touched so many lives.

  • Brian & Amy

    Dear Angie,
    Thank you for your courage – I would like to share 2 ways that your honesty has helped me with other people in my life experencing a pain that I do not know.
    First, I met a woman in my company via e-mail – she mentioned that she had been out of the office for a month and was catching up – I asked her if she got married and she proceeded to tell me the story of her little girl that was born at 22 weeks and lived only 1 hour. Amazingly (not really – since I trust that God brought me to your sight for such a time as this) I was able to ask her questions that I would have AVOIDED had you not been honest on your blog. I even asked her if she had pictures of her sweet Anna Sara. I NEVER would have thought of that if you had not shared your heart. She e-mailed me that NO ONE (not even her closest friends) had asked to see pictures – she felt that they were acting as if nothing ever happened. I also felt that I could send her a baby gift (I really do not know her at all but prayed that the gift – just a little wooden block with Anna Sara’s birth stats) would be received with the love and the grace that it was given… ultimately, it was and I have been able to share with her the love of God – all because of your being honest on your blog and helping me with what to ask and say!
    The second way that your blog has spoken to me is with my dear friend whose little one had a cardiac arrest on April 1st – went through a TON of hospital stuff and then passed on June 8th. In the beginning she was thinking that she could not question God – that she was being tested, etc… and because of your honesty I had real words to say to her about shouting matches with the Big guy – and just the courage to say that it is ok to be angry with God – she still loves and honors Him – just like her kids are mad when she won’t let them have 5 cookies before dinner – they still love her even if they are angry – that is a parent’s love – that is God’s love. I am not sure that you wrote about that but I had courage to speak to her and offer my love and just listen to tell her that I was sorry and to NOT say that her baby was in a better place – let her cry and let her grieve. If you can take a minute (I know that you are super busy) I would love to hear what things people have done to help you along this awful journey that you are walking… besides the constant prayers what tangible ways can I be there for her?

    Anyway – THANK YOU for your honesty and integrity through your writing – thank you for showing that it is OK to have bad days. And that you for looking to Jesus through your unspeakable pain. You have touched so many lives.

  • Brian & Amy

    Dear Angie,
    Thank you for your courage – I would like to share 2 ways that your honesty has helped me with other people in my life experencing a pain that I do not know.
    First, I met a woman in my company via e-mail – she mentioned that she had been out of the office for a month and was catching up – I asked her if she got married and she proceeded to tell me the story of her little girl that was born at 22 weeks and lived only 1 hour. Amazingly (not really – since I trust that God brought me to your sight for such a time as this) I was able to ask her questions that I would have AVOIDED had you not been honest on your blog. I even asked her if she had pictures of her sweet Anna Sara. I NEVER would have thought of that if you had not shared your heart. She e-mailed me that NO ONE (not even her closest friends) had asked to see pictures – she felt that they were acting as if nothing ever happened. I also felt that I could send her a baby gift (I really do not know her at all but prayed that the gift – just a little wooden block with Anna Sara’s birth stats) would be received with the love and the grace that it was given… ultimately, it was and I have been able to share with her the love of God – all because of your being honest on your blog and helping me with what to ask and say!
    The second way that your blog has spoken to me is with my dear friend whose little one had a cardiac arrest on April 1st – went through a TON of hospital stuff and then passed on June 8th. In the beginning she was thinking that she could not question God – that she was being tested, etc… and because of your honesty I had real words to say to her about shouting matches with the Big guy – and just the courage to say that it is ok to be angry with God – she still loves and honors Him – just like her kids are mad when she won’t let them have 5 cookies before dinner – they still love her even if they are angry – that is a parent’s love – that is God’s love. I am not sure that you wrote about that but I had courage to speak to her and offer my love and just listen to tell her that I was sorry and to NOT say that her baby was in a better place – let her cry and let her grieve. If you can take a minute (I know that you are super busy) I would love to hear what things people have done to help you along this awful journey that you are walking… besides the constant prayers what tangible ways can I be there for her?

    Anyway – THANK YOU for your honesty and integrity through your writing – thank you for showing that it is OK to have bad days. And that you for looking to Jesus through your unspeakable pain. You have touched so many lives.

  • Brian & Amy

    Dear Angie,
    Thank you for your courage – I would like to share 2 ways that your honesty has helped me with other people in my life experencing a pain that I do not know.
    First, I met a woman in my company via e-mail – she mentioned that she had been out of the office for a month and was catching up – I asked her if she got married and she proceeded to tell me the story of her little girl that was born at 22 weeks and lived only 1 hour. Amazingly (not really – since I trust that God brought me to your sight for such a time as this) I was able to ask her questions that I would have AVOIDED had you not been honest on your blog. I even asked her if she had pictures of her sweet Anna Sara. I NEVER would have thought of that if you had not shared your heart. She e-mailed me that NO ONE (not even her closest friends) had asked to see pictures – she felt that they were acting as if nothing ever happened. I also felt that I could send her a baby gift (I really do not know her at all but prayed that the gift – just a little wooden block with Anna Sara’s birth stats) would be received with the love and the grace that it was given… ultimately, it was and I have been able to share with her the love of God – all because of your being honest on your blog and helping me with what to ask and say!
    The second way that your blog has spoken to me is with my dear friend whose little one had a cardiac arrest on April 1st – went through a TON of hospital stuff and then passed on June 8th. In the beginning she was thinking that she could not question God – that she was being tested, etc… and because of your honesty I had real words to say to her about shouting matches with the Big guy – and just the courage to say that it is ok to be angry with God – she still loves and honors Him – just like her kids are mad when she won’t let them have 5 cookies before dinner – they still love her even if they are angry – that is a parent’s love – that is God’s love. I am not sure that you wrote about that but I had courage to speak to her and offer my love and just listen to tell her that I was sorry and to NOT say that her baby was in a better place – let her cry and let her grieve. If you can take a minute (I know that you are super busy) I would love to hear what things people have done to help you along this awful journey that you are walking… besides the constant prayers what tangible ways can I be there for her?

    Anyway – THANK YOU for your honesty and integrity through your writing – thank you for showing that it is OK to have bad days. And that you for looking to Jesus through your unspeakable pain. You have touched so many lives.

  • Linds

    Hi there, I think I have commented before, but I can’t remember! I am Linds, and I live in England. I discovered your blog when Boothe told us about your little Audrey, months ago. I think. But I have been reading for a long while now. I am a widow, and have 3 grown children, and am fumbling my way along the path God is leading me. Pop over and visit sometime!

  • laurieboozer

    Angie –

    I was introduced to your blog over a month ago and now visit almost on a daily basis. (This is my first post.) The way you write is so honest and real… an authentic faith. I am truly thankful for you and am so sorry for the pain that you and your family (and extended family) have had to go through, but I really believe God has been so glorified. My best friend’s baby girl died almost of 15 years ago of the same situation with Audrey, however, she had no clue it was going to happen. I was pregnant at the same time as she it was devastating to all of us.

    I want you to know that you have inspired me to want to know Christ on a much deeper level. I’m still planning on breaking my pitcher and putting it all together again. That was a cool story. I am so thankful that God so totally accepts me, broken, wounded and weary, but realizing that He’s the only one who can truly heal and satisfy.

  • Lynsey

    wow that’s great! If I had a purse that would sell for that, I’d certainly auction it off. However, most of mine are Target specials, don’t think anyone wants those! :-)
    Glad you’re having a good day.
    Lynsey

  • Lynsey

    PS- I’ve never been fond of anonymous commenters on my blog, I just feel as though since I’M sharing a piece of me, I should be able to see what they have to offer the world….just my opinion. Good idea to change the settings.

  • Sioux

    It saddens me deeply that some people will take advantage of others in their time of sorrow or need to ruin the experience we may get from sharing with one another our deepest hurts and joys. I have never responded with a comment to your blog, but have been touched by the content of it. I would hope that you would allow those of us who are praying with you and for others to share in your blog. It is beautifully written, and so heart-rending. If you decide to go private please check my blog out and grant me permission to still enjoy yours. Thanks, Sue

  • Kelly

    Hi Angie ~ I read your blog daily and thank you for all you’ve shared. Feel free to visit my blog (it’s very new and thus short) and get to know me too. I look forward to meeting you – if not in this life, in Heaven!
    Love, Kelly Anderson, your stranger-friend

  • Bills Family

    Hi Angie, I like this I want to know who you are post. I can’t believe someone(s) would make up a story to make a connection with you. I have read your blog since early April, right before Audrey’s birth. I feel like we are old friends, but you haven’t been formally introduced to me. I’m Chrissy and I’m an Air Force wife living in the UK. I have two little girls and a wonderful husband (who is currently deployed).
    Thank you for sharing your life with me and making me a better person!!

  • screamofcontinuousness

    Angie,
    I have posted and written to you privately, but just to make it clear that I’m real, you can find me at http://www.screamofcontinuousness.wordpress.com

    I’m so sorry that people have hurt you. that’s hideous. but you handled is by applying God’s grace.

  • asplashofsunshine

    I wanted to comment quickly on how GORGEOUS your blog is and how eloquent your entries are. I will never know what it is like to walk in your shoes, although I want you to know how much I have learned from your family, most notably sweet Audrey and of course, handsome Luke too. Thanks for all you have brought via this blog and will continue to bring to this world.

  • Kori

    Angie the way you write and just put your oput there for all to see is amazing to me. Your words are more powerful than I think you realize. Your strength is still just absolutely amazing to me. I try so hard to not be angry with God for all that he has put upon my family over the last year. I have tried not to be burdened or to let my heart harden. And I think by reading your blog somehow it has taught me not to do these things. Thank you Angie for sharing your story, pain and heartache with us. It is truly a pleasure to know you.

    Congratulations on the final bod for Coco. That is excellent.

  • Jill B

    Hi! My name is Jill Buhay from Philly,PA. I sent a homemade card a while back. Anyway, I just wanted to simply say you are in my prayers and your blog has been such a blessing to me and my husband. I am hoping to get pregnant after couple of years of trying. I would ask that you pray that my heart would be Christ center and that me and my Husband would embrace what God has for us ” for HE has a plan for us to prosper” and “all things work together for the good of those that love God and our called to HIS purpose”

  • Maria

    Angie, I’m sorry these people have hurt you. That really saddens me. I just wanted to let you know that I read your blog daily and some entries two and three times a day. You make me want to be a better Christian woman. Thank you for sharing your heart with us.

    Maria

  • Gayle

    It’s amazing that a much loved gift (the purse) has open so many doors of conversation. More than just the incredible amount of money it raised and the good it is doing, you have used this tool to get a lot of people talking/thinking about their own lives. I bet you never dreamed you have this kind of impact! I hope you keep sharing your healing process. It is quite an inspiration.

  • mom2cjm

    Angie-

    I am a NICU nurse who up until now always felt I was in the know of the many families I meet. Thank you so much for sharing your story and giving me a whole new perspective on high risk pregnancies and premature births. The family pictures are so moving. You have changed my life: personally and professionally.

    You are a huge inspiration to me. I am going through what I consider to be a rough time in my life, but daily you are able to remind me how much I have to be grateful. Thank you so much for sharing your story, sadness, hope, and strength. You have a beautiful family inside and out! I hope to be able to create the same environment for me and my family.

  • Tiffany

    I missed all those posts due to being on vacation! So glad to still be reading about your journey…and your blog looks great!

    And that is great about COCO! Woo Hoo!!!

  • Crystal

    Congrats on Coco getting such a high bid Angie!

    I’m mostly posting though to introduce myself. I am Crystal and I am 23 years old. I live with my boyfriend, brother, and my dog Valentino in LaGrange, Ga. I just moved here for work and was previously living near Atlanta in Gwinnett County. I am working for an electrical contractor who is building the Kia car plant in West Point,Ga. Since moving here I have had a lot of time to unwind and think as there isnt much to do around here. I started reading your blog after seeing a post about you on Celebrity Baby Blog. I was at work but my heart went out to you and I felt Audrey’s story drawing me in. I started at the beginning and cried at EVERY entry. My heart goes out to you and Todd and even Abby, Ellie, and Kate. I have never sent a stranger a card or donated to an organization (NILMDTS)in memory of someone before but I wanted to to that for you and for your sweet Audrey. You (and Audrey) have opened my eyes to God and who he really is and for that I will forver be grateful. I wasnt rasied with much religion in my life but I have always believed in God, I just believe in him now more than ever. Thank you, Angie for having the strength to write these words that have helped me with my relationship with God. I will continue praying for all of you.

    P.S. Audrey was a beautiful and I do mean beautiful baby. May she be playing in the rain in heaven.

    Love,Crystal
    crystal0911@gmail.com

  • MiChele Stewart

    I feel for your pain and situation. I can not believe someone would actually not be the REAL self when posting something but remember what this is doing. Because of your daughter- sweet precious Audrey- people are being reached, beoing loved and finding out who God is. Satan does not want this to happen- so there will be attacks. GOD IS BIGGER THAN THE BOOGEYMAN!!!
    Hang in there Angie. I can assure you that this is the real Michele- I have 4 kids, 2 dogs and a husband to prove it. :)
    I love you even though I have never met you. I have emailed you several times praying that God can use me and what I have gone through for HIS GLORY! I would LOVE to talk to you sometime. I am the one with a testimonty that would knock your socks off.God is so good. ALL the Time!!!I love your spirit even in the midst of pain and hurt you still love others before yourself. I admire you for that.
    I bidded on Coco but she got too high and I could not afford it. But I am so glad to see it went for so high. A God thing if you ask me. Congratulations to the person who bid for it and won. Hopefullt this person will remember you each and everytime she looks at it.:)
    God Bless
    Michele

  • Andrea Nielsen

    I have followed your story and fallen in love with your Audrey. I so appreciate your honesty and willingness to share even the difficult thoughts. I just didn’t want to feel like a “lurker” and let you know I too appreciate your honesty.
    God Bless

  • Michele Stewart

    Michele Stewart
    Mstewart222@yahoo.com
    I forgot to give it to you Angie. I would again love to tell you my story. Kisses and hugs.
    xoxoxoxoxoxox

  • Winona

    WOW! I just discovered your blog and “met” your family today. Our God is awesome, and you are a beautiful vessel of His love and spirit. As a lay minister of music, I was a fan of Selah and recently saw Nicol in my local paper. I was amazed that she lived so close. My daughter asked if we could go see her! That was just before the loss of Luke. I know none of you personally, but I know the One who made us all. We were made to show His beauty and give Him praise. You are doing that magnificently! Feel His blessings. Even in the midst of sorrow, we are blessed.

  • The Morris Family

    Hi Angie, We do want them back don;t we…my Joel and your Audrey. I n the feebleness of our thoughts and feelings it just seems right if they were here and our lives were back to normal, if we could snuggle and smell and touch their little bodies, oh the longings…I read a scripture today and had to ask myself, “do I really want them to come back from…(Heb.12:22)But ye are come unto Mount Sion, and unto the city of the living God, the heavenly Jerusalem, and to an innumerable company of angels, and then in verses 23 and 24 it continues about where they are and who is there with them…may the Lord give us grace as our hearts cry within…You can read about Joel at http://www.weloveyoujoel.blogspot.com
    Cindy Morris

  • Christinahh

    Hi Angie,
    Yesterday, on Father’s Day, we sang, “Wonderful, Merciful Savior” in church and prayed for your family and for those in our church who had lost children too. I cried for you, as I often do, and tried again to explain to my husband why I cry, though I have never met you. All I can guess is that the Lord is allowing me to carry a small part of your burden for you. I’m grateful for the honor, and I hope it’s just the slightest bit lighter.
    Christina

  • Mrs. Wilson

    Hi! I’ve been lurking for a couple weeks, but now I’m saying “hi!” I found a link to your blog on OMSH’s blog and now I’m hooked. I admire your heart and your faith and trust you put in God. I’ve never heard of your husband’s band, but I’ve been listening to it a bit lately and have been enjoying it.

    Thanks for sharing your life with us!

  • B

    Hi Angie-
    I the spirit of your post, I am introducing myself. I am the mother of three girls, Hannah who is with our Lord (she was stillborn at 38 1/2 weeks unexpectedly), Madalyn who is almost 5 and Amelia who is 2. I did e-mail you too, just the other day for the first time, but wanted all to hear my words of thanks and gratitude for sharing your words on faith and greving that I was never able to express. I look forward to sharing your journey of life and greiving and pray that God will allow the pain to move you in ways to Him as it has for me! Thank you Angie!!

  • Lauren

    I just wanted to say thank you, thank you for your faith and thank you for your wonderful writings. I take your blog with me to my womens group at church and we all draw faith from you!
    So thank you so very much!

  • Jenna

    I just love that quote on gratitude…and that God of ours is just so creative with the ways He comes up with to let us know He is here, listening and caring. LOVE it!

    Thank you for sharing, and YAY Coco!

    Praying for y’all today. :)

  • whitennerdy

    I will never understand why people feel compelled to lie over the internet. It happens a lot, especially on pregnancy communities. They pretend to be pregnant and steal pictures of other people’s babies and ultrasounds. I think it must be a deep emptiness that they feel they need to fill and I pray, as you do, that God will right their hearts and help them to see that they are worth getting know, the way they are. I am sorry that you were deceived and I think it is so big of you to be forgiving. Nothing reflects God more.

    -Sarah Jones

  • auntmommie

    Angie,
    I just thought I’d go public – I’ve probably posted as Emma & Ana’s Nana, Nana Sandi, or Sandi Faulk, and maybe as all! My heart is still trying to help carry your family’s burden. You and your family are loved! Thanks for your transparency.
    Sandi Faulk, Mom of Wes, M-I-L of Jennifer, Nana to Emma and Ana, Husband to Jim, Fellowship of Christian Athletes Coaches’ Wives Ministry…

  • auntmommie

    Sorry, posted too soon – I blog at xanga.com/swbtsmom
    :)

  • Angie Vinez

    Angie, I’ve been reading your blog for several weeks now. Every time I stop by, I sometimes leave with tears, sometimes with a smile, but I never leave without saying a prayer for you and your family. Your tribute to your husband was beautiful. I, too, have been blessed with a husband like that. One that I can count on through thick and thin, and will point me to my Heavenly Father when I need it.
    Thank you for sharing your story and your family with us. I feel blessed to know you… even though I don’t really know you.

  • Kristy Tootle

    Okay! I am new to the blogger world and can not even remember how I came across your blog….I have to say you remind me of myself and I am sure many that read your blog would say the same. Truely, you are the girl next door. I tried to comment the very first night I came to your blog, but for some reason could not do it. I do not know you, but feel compelled to tell you:

    I delight in you because,

    1. You admit your play room is not up to par:)~ you too make two trash bags as I do ~ and you make it hurt for the second bag….
    2. You like a Coach purse and that makes me feel less “guilty”
    3. You’re a hip, cool, young mother
    4. You live in Nashville which just sounds cool:)
    5. You’re honest and to the point (i.e. the story about how and why you came to Christ)
    6. You have sold me on “Method”
    7. You are a phenominal writer and really should write a book
    8. Your married to a rock star for Christ ~
    I read all of your comments and am blown away with how many women hang onto your every word. I am blown away by how much you have impacted these women. God has used you for a greater good. You inspire people that have NEVER lost a child (as myself)….

    I am not sure my comment has a point or even warrants one…..

    Know this~ you are the sole reason I blog now. I would have never considered putting myself out there like you have without reading your blog. Thank you for taking up a cause (helping others heal through Christ)….Thank you for just being you “sweet Angie”…..
    Okay enough of the sappy talk:)
    You stranger friend,
    Kristy Tootle
    kristytootle@gmail.com

  • Joy

    I am so sorry people were deceiving you and quite honestly, I don’t understand why someone would WANT to do that. Be yourself, be happy, and be true!

    My name is Joy and I have two daughters and a wonderful husband Daniel. He’s a worship leader and just became a licensed pastor two weeks ago! We’re trying to have a third baby while getting through a recent diagnosis of PCOS. I have added your blog and your familys’ names to our prayer chain.

    Joy

  • The Harper Family

    How sad that someone would pretend to be someone they are not. I love your blog, read it several times a week and enjoy getting to know you and your family. I have said this before, but you have such a ministry, Angie. Please don’t stop blogging. I truly believe that you will meet people in heaven who were changed by your words.
    Love and prayers from Arkansas,
    Lori

  • Kee

    Hi Angie, I have been following your blog since right before Audrey was born. This is the first time I have commented.

    I can’t put into words what reading your blog has done in my life. I am inspired daily by your strength, compassion, and willingness to forgive so easily.

    The way you lean so completely on God and trust in Him has reminded me and helped me to do the same. If you can do it after everything that has happened with Audrey and Luke then I know that I can trust Him and lean on Him no matter what happens in my life.

  • Mattam

    Angie, Thank you so much for your constant honesty and vulnerability. I read your blog daily (sometimes checking it more than once) and have been overly blessed by your writing and life. Please know that not only do I pray for you, Todd and the girls but also for Luke’s mommy and daddy! Happy late Father’s Day, Todd!
    Tamara

  • nataliemyrwold

    I have been so moved by your blog, even though I can’t imagine the pain you are going through…your writing is like listening to a dear friend…so calming and relaxing and filled with hope and love and faith. I am comforted in ways by reading your entires than I am most grateful for. Thank you.

  • Baby be Blessed

    May God Bless you and your family today Angie! Thank you for your open heart!

  • sumi

    Changing your blog settings is perfectly understandable, and I am wondering if I should change mine too. :o )

    Have you checked out my blog before? I know there is just so many hours in a day but I would love for you to pop over if you have the time. I feel such a kindred spirit with you, and I am walking through grief too. (Bummer)

    Thanks for being so real and honest in your writing, but more than that, thanks for keeping your heart so sweet before the Lord.

    Many blessings,
    Sumi

    http://www.sumijoti.wordpress.com

  • Landreneau Family

    Angie~

    I read your blog the other day and was moved to tears. I am asking for your prayers and the prayers of your readers for Baby Cate (www.catecantrell.blogspot.com). She is in CVICU at Texas Children’s, on life support after open heart surgery. Her parents appreciate all the prayers they can get.

    Blessings, Aimee

  • Marta

    I want to thank you for your transparency, for your faith and for this blog. It’s been such an encouragement to me. I’ve just lost both of my maternal grandparents within 12 days of each other. And while you grow up with some sort of head-knowledge that your grandparents will die before you, this has been so very, very hard. They were my mom’s parents… I lost my mom 10 years ago, when I was just 16, to brain cancer. And so, in a way I’ve said goodbye to Mom again. When I found your blog 2 days ago I was hurting and struggling just to get the thru the day with my 2 precious kiddos until my husband was off of work. Your words have given me hope, they’ve given me strength. Thank you so very much. Please know that your sweet family is in my prayers. God bless.

  • Misty

    I came home from a wonderful weekend at Women of Faith, odd as it may sound since I have never met you never laid eyes on you, I thought of you all weekend. They talked about the Infinite Grace of God, and I prayed for you frequently through out the weekend. I even filled out a card and turned it in telling them that they HAD to read your blog, so they to could witness the power of God working in your life and the AMAZING witness that you are with your AMAZING, UNDYING FAITH for our Father!

    I hope you felt my prayers this weekend and that you were able to have a smile on your face knowing there are so many of us thinking and praying for you and your family!

  • Dre

    Hi Angie.

    I’m Dre. :o ) I’m 20 years old, and moving to Africa soon! :o ) Only for a little while though. I’ll be working with YWAM-youth with a mission. I’m really excited about this next step in my life.

    I enjoy reading your blog. Thank you for sharing the deep things that are within your heart and soul. My whole thing in life is I want to be real. I want people to see the real me and the real things that I struggle with and not be the “perfect Christian”. Thank you for also being real and showing yourself as the raw Angie. It really is beautiful. :o ) Thank you for opening up despite what people have done and made up on here. Thank you for letting that not keep you from writing.

    I feel like because of your realness, I know a little bit more of you than normally. And i want you to know that I love you. I feel like I may know you enough to be able to say that even if it sounds weird. I’m just another “stranger-friend”. :o ) I hope you have a fabulous day Ang!

  • Stephanie

    I have commented a time or 2 before, but just wanted to say hello again! Your blog is so inspiring and beautiful. I love the new design! Thanks for opening your life to all of us!

  • Janera

    Angie, like others who have written to you here, I have read your blog daily and prayed for your family because of the openness you share, which has caused so many to love you.

    Today, after reading your post mentioning false identities, I began to wonder why someone would do that. I just can’t come up with anything, except that somewhere inside them there is a vast hole that they hope you can fill. But, of course, it’s not you they are seeking; it is the Lord. Maybe they just don’t know that.

    Nevertheless, I’m so sad that you have been affected by dishonesty and insincerity in this way.

    Like other readers, I also had the thought, “Ok, surely she’s not talking about me. I hope.” Because I have posted here and emailed you as well. But you have not “communicated” with me, so surely it’s not me. And, I have a blog and I am who I say I am. Who could make up all that? ;-)

    Can you say “paranoid”? lol

    Be blessed, and please don’t let this negative incident make you less authentic. More careful, perhaps, but just as real and open. It seems to be the core of your ministry here.

    btw, Go God! with the purse!

    Janera

  • The Armstrong Family

    Angie, How incredible it has been to read your story. I have only been married for 1 1/2 years and do not have children yet, so I cannot fathom what you must have gone through. Thank you for being bold enough to honestly share your thoughts and feelings. We all learn from you and are inspired daily. I am an identical twin, so love to see the pictures of your girls (Kate, too!). I will send an invitation to read my blog (it is private), just in case you’re interested. We are not exciting, so don’t get your hopes up :) I will be praying for you and thanking the Lord for your story!

  • Meg

    Angie,
    Blogging is definitely a way to connect and get to know people. I mostly started mine just as a way to release stress from my daily life, but now it has turned into so much more. I’ve connected or reconnected with some amazing people through Blogland, and it really is nice to get to “know who they are”. :)
    I love reading your blog!
    And I bet you’re right… the other people selling purses like Coco probably are scratching their heads trying to figure out what was going on. Ha!
    Meg

  • Amber

    Hi there Angie! I have been reading your blog since Audrey’s birth. I myself lost my son at 18 weeks 9 months ago. I also have a 2year old little boy. I am a Christian woman, with much faith in the Lord. We are hoping he blesses us again one day. Your story gives me hope that the Good Lord will provide, on his terms. Thank you for sharing your hardest moments, and your brightest. You truly are remarkable and your faith gives me hope. I have never posted a comment but felt compelled today….Here’s wishing you an amazing day!

  • georgia tarheel

    OK-
    Officially-this is me…

    Paige
    Live in Dalton, GA
    Married to Mark, two kids-Will is 5 and Caroline is 2
    Teacher-teach for 4th grade (go ahead…pray for me!)

    Feel blessed to have met you and your family (love Kate and that deep, deep voice) LOL!

    Pray for you all the time–”randomly” you come to mind and my heart hurts for you as I pray. But I am blessed by being able to pray for you and hope that some of the pain that I feel means you feel it a little less.

    Happy to introduce myself to you.
    Can we hear the story about the twins…since it seems to be such an amazing one?

    Truly am blessed by you!

    Paige

  • Sara

    Angie:
    I would love to say that I came across your blog today by accident but I know that there are no accidents in Him and that this is perfect timing for where I’m at in my journey right now. I shouldn’t have read some of your words while at work, though, as you really touched my heart and I sat here at my desk and bawled like a baby. I’m so terribly sorry for the reasons that you had to start a blog but I see Christ so clearly in your words. You have a gift and I’m so glad that I have been blessed by you. Your Father’s Day tribute to Todd touched me beyond words; I recognized a lot of similar elements to the love that my husband and I have despite the pain of infertility we share. I plan to continue coming back to read more of your story. Thank you and God bless.

  • AZmomto7

    Your blog is so beautiful, as is your heart. I have been reading for a long while, never posted until today.

    Thank you for having the courage to share your poignant journey with so many. God bless you and your family.

  • Sawatzky Kids

    Hello! :)

    I was tuned into your blog through a friend who is a faithful reader…not sure how she found it but you have truely been an inspiration to me and my daily walk with Our Lord. I can only pray that I would be so blessed to handle a tragic loss in our family as faithfully as you have handled yours. Our children are our greatest blessings and reading your blog has opened my eyes to how truely cherished mine are to me. Thank you and continued blessings
    Shelly and gang

  • Stef

    This is so sad… and a little weird. Why do people do this? I’ve enjoyed your blog for who YOU are and God has taught me a lot just through reading this. I pass your URL on to all my girl friends. :)

  • Sara

    P.S.: I am a real, live woman living in Montana with my husband and three Siberian Husky furbabies. I ride my own Harley. My husband and I are dealing with the pain of infertility while just now starting the joy of the adoption process. With all that said, Hello Angie! It’s so nice to meet you!

  • Stacey

    I thought I’d introduce myself. I have been reading your blog for about a month and you have touched my heart in many ways. You inspire me in many ways. Thank you for sharing you heart!

  • Michelle Cearley

    Hi Angie,
    I’m glad you changed your blog settings. I thought about suggesting that, but I didn’t feel it was any of business. It seemed that most of the hurtful, judgmental, or just mean posts you got (though there weren’t many) were always by “anonymous.” I think that will help that issue too. You encourage me all the time with your honesty, and I wish I could move to the Nashville area to really get to meet you!

  • 3QTGUYS

    Angie, how exciting to see your Coco go so high! What a blessing!!

    Thanks for always sharing, and being so open and honest with your thoughts, and experiences.

  • Deidre

    I am enjoying reading about your journey and lessons from our Father! I love to visit here.

  • kendra

    Dearest Angie,
    Wow. I am both stunned and in awe…stunned that people would mislead you, and in awe of God’s grace shown through you, yet again.
    I know that must have really hurt you to find out, but I think your attitude is one Christ would be most proud of. You are such a tender soul!
    May God lovingly convict the hearts of those people, and may they draw closer to Him through this experience- and To God be the Glory!!!
    Hugs,
    kendra

  • carriex3

    Angie,
    Yucky…………… People can be very strange, sometimes wanting to hide for unknown reasons to us, or “pretend” to become close to situation. Please know I continue to pray for peace, and mercy each day for you and your sister in-law.
    blessings,
    Carrie

  • Gin

    Angie – I am not a Selah fan, nor did I know anything about your story until I heard about the story of Luke (and family) on my local radio station. Since then, I have taken the journey from your first post and like many other readers wait for your next post, checking the blog daily. I have not been through the same type of tragedy and cannot relate to many of the specific issues but I can relate to the way that God can use us if we just allow Him to. Your journey, as you have so honestly chronicled it, has been a shining example of just that. Your words and transparency have touched my life like nothing I can explain and I know that God allowed me to “come across” your blog for a very specific reason. This is just a heartfelt thank you for being you, willing to share your heart and willing to allow a part of yourself to touch others. (I Thess 4:13) “The truth of God’s love is not that He allows bad things to happen; it’s His promise He’ll be there with us when they do.” – Janet Oke. I feel like I know you, can laugh with you and can cry with you, can relate with you without having ever laid eyes on you. Please know that there are many out there like myself who appreciate you so much and know that God is using your words and faith in Him in a might way. Go, GOD, Go! In Him, Gin

  • mygirlz10

    Angie it has been so amazing how you have just opened up with ALL of us who come and read. I thank you for that, for being so transparent! God likes that!

    That is awesome about Coco!!

    Jill

  • Olivia

    angie…day by day you encourage me with your strenght and faith. Today you have encouraged me in the forgivness aspect. I ask myself if someone would have done that to me…i am not so sure i could have been so nice on my blog post.
    thank you for being light and an example to many of love and forgivness.
    xoxo
    your friend. olivia

  • Tabitha

    Hi Angie ~ I have been following and commenting on your blog, since before you had Audrey and you are always so honest and open about your feelings. I check in most days to read what you have written and follow your story.
    Please feel free to pop over to my blog and meet me and my children ~ we would love to see you there!!
    love ~ Tabitha XXX

  • Heidi

    Angie,
    I also have posted public once and written privately once the other day. Just want you to know that I am 100% real. Sometimes not looking for a response but the idea of saying the words to someone so many people admire and look up to makes one feel better maybe. Your words in this post once again amaze me. To be that forgiving in humbeling. I have so much to learn.
    I check your blog each day just searching for another tidbit. You have such a way with words.
    My husband is the cynic for us both and tells me that I leave my rose colored glasses on all the time. So, I would have probably fallen for the untrue stories as well. Those people took advantage of your tender heart and I am sorry for that.
    Heidi

  • qUeEn oF tHe cAstLe

    Hey Angie…Long story short…married to my best friend…we have 4 daughters and we’re anxiously awaiting to bring a baby boy in to our family through adoption. We are foster parents to a sweet 7 month old baby GIRL. Sweet Audrey’s story touched me on SO many levels…We were fostering a baby boy we had brought home from the hospital at the time you lost Audrey and had to let him go. The loss was indescribable. I felt so confused by my emotions…like I didn’t
    have the ‘right’ to feel the pain becasue he was never ‘ours’ in the first place. Now we have this sweet little one to love on…I don’t know what her future holds…but I know WHO holds her future. I’m learning to trust a little more everyday. Thank you for being so REAL as you share your life with us. God Bless…

  • Amy

    Angie, you continue to amaze me with your graciousness. It is beyond lovely. Thank you for sharing it with us.

  • OCD-ism/Obsessive Christian Disorder

    Hey Angie,

    I LOVE reading your blog (and sometimes posting) but I was sad to read this one, that people are actually fake out there? I had no idea people would even go through the trouble of doing that! You’re post always gives me a new perspective on life, every single day! I, too, will pray for these peeps who do this…

  • candesintx

    Just stopping by to say “hi.” I think my blog is linked. I’m on live journal the “other” blog.

  • Kristen

    Simply bizarre that people would pretend to be somebody different, I will join you in praying for them. Thank you for your story, for allowing it to be used for His Kingdom….I check your life out every day and pray for you often…always during my morning walk! Thanks for the challenge to us to be real, to step out from behind the screen and meet you…can’t wait to see you face to face someday!
    ~Kristen

  • simon0554

    Hi Angie,
    I don’t post often, but I read faithfully (I mean that both figuratively, and literally!) I’m thrilled to hear the Coco seems to have been infused with the same spirit of goodness that you seem to radiate!

    In light of what you’ve learned about the “ghost-posters,” I just want to be one of the many to thank you for your willingness to share your journey and spirit with us. I am a God-loving woman, but in the past I squandered many opportinities to get to know Him better. I find now that I am hungry for such opportunities, even if I don’t quite know much about how to make them happen. Your blog is one of those ways. I can read, reflect, and find a sometimes very simple way to think about, praise, question, and love Him. They’re baby steps, for sure. But from someone who used to spend confirmation class writing “I love New Kids on the Block” in her study bible, I thank you.
    Simone

  • Courtney Beddingfield

    I am so sorry that you have had to deal with this deception on top of everything else. I think that you have handled it very gracefully. I am trying to understand why someone would do that to such a sweet person. Maybe, in some weird way they just did it to get closer to you. I have to admit that God has given you a spirit that draws people to you and consequently, HIM. Keep on writing, girl. You are such a blessing. P.S. Some girls in my Sunday school class (young parents) and I keep up with your blog. We always pray for your family in Sunday School. Love ya.

  • Karen

    I want to know you too!!! (But I feel like I kind of already do!)There is a really great song that I heard over the weekend and it made me think of you and your earnest prayers to God. It’s called Father by Jadon Lavik. Check it out, let me know what you think!

  • Stacey

    I can’t remember if I have ever commented before, but I thought I would today just to let you know who I am and that I read your blog almost daily.

    I am a pastor’s wife and stay-at-home mom. I have a beautiful 13 yr old daughter, Allie. My daughter, Emma, went home to Heaven when she was nine years old. We are just about ready to go to pick up our third daughter from Vietnam.

    I enjoy reading your words of honesty and truth. Losing a child puts you in a club that you didn’t choose and wouldn’t choose, but I have found that no one else can possibly understand what you are going through.

    I have always believed that part of being Emma’s mother is sharing her story with others. She didn’t have a voice here on earth but her life counted and I find it such an honor to be her voice and make her memory count. She changed my life and I am just now able to view my life as going forward toward her, not away from her. That has been the biggest blessing for me. I feel as if I am on a journey and she is in front of me, cheering me on, waiting for me to catch up. She was the one who was behind on this earth but now she is running ahead!

    I can’t wait to join her!

  • Jaci

    Hi Angie I will introduce myself since I feel like i know your family from reading your blog all the time. My name is Jaci and I am married and have 3 kids. I live in Arizona you can check out my blog linked to this post anytime to find out more. I still don’t know how you go on everyday but I admire you for that. Have a great day! I dont know why people would pretend to be someone there not!

  • Leslie Barton

    Hi, I wanted to “de-lurk” as well. I am Leslie, and I am a 29 yrs old. I have been married for 7 years to my wonderful husband Ike and we have a beautiful almost 5 year old daughter named Emma. We have been trying for a year to have another baby. On April 18th, we found out that we were pregnant, only to find out 2 days later that it was ectopic, and that I would lose the baby. So, these past weeks have been pretty difficult as I waited for my pregnancy hormones to clear out. We are finally back to trying again as of about 2 weeks ago, and I have started a blog that I hope to be able to keep up. I think it will help me to be able to share my feelings.

    The whole point of this comment is just to tell you how much reading your blogs has meant to me. I started reading your blog only about a month ago, but I went back and read every one from the beginning, and almost everyone had me in tears. Your are so genuine in your feelings, that it’s really hard not to feel like you are a friend that I have known all my life. I also can’t tell you how many times I have went back and listened to “I Will Carry You” I heard that song at a time when I needed to hear the words most. I know that our situations are in no way the same, but to me, the loss of a child is still painful, no matter when it happens.

    Thanks for taking the time to read all of the comments. Feel free to check out my blog sometime if you have time.

    http://lesliegbarton.blogspot.com/
    lesliegbarton@hotmail.com

  • Laura

    I check your blog daily and I find it so refreshing your openess about your journey. I was talking to my aunt today about being real and authentic before God and each other.
    Have a wonderful day~

    Laura

  • Becky

    I am part of a forum for families of triplets and it is amazing how many ‘fakers’ surface! They even steal ‘belly’ pictures! As my dear pastor would say, ‘Get a life!’
    Yesterday my youngest daughter came over – I shared with you via email about her loss – and I told her about your blog and the pitcher.
    Your Todd sounds like a great guy. I have one too. What a blessing a Godly husband and father is.

  • Leah

    Hi Angie! I wanted to thank you as well, for allowing us to share in your journey. A few years ago my sister gave birth to her daughter, Sydney, who was still born. Because of that, she became very angry and has turned her back on the Lord. It’s a hurt she can’t even deal with (years later). I know God is using you to minister to others who have lost a child. I hope you will one day write a book about your sweet Audrey. I know God is using you greatly to be that voice for others who have gone through similar experiences. Thank you again for being so open, honest and real. You and your entire family are in our prayers.
    Leah
    Issaquah, Wa
    leah-dailylife.blogspot.com

  • Anne

    Angie, I hope you know how blessed we have each been by your honesty, your faith and your allowing us to share in your journey. I emailed you this week but I wanted to “delurk” here and introduce myself.

    I’m Anne from South Carolina, about to celebrate my first anniversary with an amazing husband and more blessings than we can count. God has been so good to us through every up and down – we’ve been praying for your family and thinking of you constantly.

    God put you on my heart at church on Sunday and I hope you felt yourself being lifted up; I asked God for even more strength for your family and praised Him for the many lives Audrey Caroline has touched.

    Your blog is an inspiration and a treasured part of my day. Thank you for being your sweet self!

  • The Van Fam

    Just wanted to say what an inspiration you are to soo many women. It’s so amazing how God uses this wide world of blogland to reach out to soo many. I pray God’s richest blessings on your life.

    Oh, and I love the new look. It’s so beautifully done!

    Blessings,
    Stephanie

  • Sunny

    Well, I have already re-written this several times, so this should be good. I haven’t posted as anonymous. I usually don’t comment. Not that I don’t want to, I am just lousy with words. About me, my name is Sunny. I am a Christian (about 5 years now), a wife (over 4 years now), a mother of 2 little boys (Oliver 2, Liam 11 months) and I do other things when I have time. I can say that living through your journey has brought me to snot-running sobbing sessions on many occasions. I am friends with Annie (on here some where) and have several friends (Destiny Peters, I sent her to your blog also.) that have suffered loss. Your story has helped me in many ways. I try to enjoy the hair yanking moments in my day with my children now. I try not to lose my cool so often. I praise God for the amazing life He has blessed me with. Your story has also helped me to be the friend that I need to be to my friends that have suffered in ways that I can’t fathom. You and your family are most definitely a huge pounding force for the Lord. I thank you for posting when you probably didn’t feel like it. I thank you for your transparency. I thank God for your gift as a writer. Yours Truly, Sunny
    ps feel free to see what my family is up to on my blog as well…

  • shaninvb

    Hi Angie, My name is Shanin and my husband and I pastor a church in Idaho. Please know that I have cried and prayed for you while reading your blog. May Jesus touch your hearts and bring laughter back into your lives more and more each day. Still praying for you.

  • shaninvb

    Hi Angie, My name is Shanin and my husband and I pastor a church in Idaho. Please know that I have cried and prayed for you while reading your blog. May Jesus touch your hearts and bring laughter back into your lives more and more each day. Still praying for you.

  • kelly

    I have been reaading your story since about 2 months before your angel arrived. thank you for sharing your story. It has helped me tremendously on the days when I am missing my angel Kenley.

    Good to meet you too.

    Kelly

  • Shirley

    I started reading your blog today because of the title. I love that song and find comfort in it when life just hurts. You write beautifully and honestly – it’s amazing to see your faith in our God through your journey. You continually point people to the One who is “I Am” through all of your hearts and very obviously want Him to be glorified through it all (even when the all includes painful circumstances).
    Keep looking to Him!
    Shirley
    ps – loved your post about the missionary struggles. My hubby is serving as an assistant chaplain in prison and we feel that same pressure.
    Blessings!
    Shirley

  • LadyBug

    Hi Angie,

    I only just clicked about the quote translating to ‘you and no other’ – that is so beautiful!

    Thank you

  • Michael and Shelly Ryan

    Angie, I visit you blog daily and enjoy the stories you share. I can tell that everything you say is right from your heart. It is truly a blessing to find people like you in this world. Thanks for sharing your life. Shelly

  • natalie eve

    Angie, I sent you an email last week but have never left a comment on your blog. I tear up that people have not been honest with you. I hope that you received my email – it was about losing my son Allen Michael. I want you to know that it is 100% true. I cannot imagine sharing my heart & story with someone to find out that they were trying to be someone they are not. It’s confusing to me. I feel like God has brought you into my life to be my sister-friend so that we could go through this horrible loss together – even if it’s just through this modern day technology of blogs and email. I love you. In Christ Alone – Natalie Eve Lepien

  • Buffy

    Hi Angie!

    You continue to amaze. All women want to be graceful…few succeed the way you have. It hurts to be taken advantage of, but you have shown so much love and compassion. I am humbled, and I am honored to have your example to reflect on. How awesome it would be to bear witness to the effect your grace will have on those who have received it! God is so good!

    Buffy

  • The Rooneys

    Angie,

    I too have been following your blog since nearly the beginning and have been praying for you and your family and have shed so many tears at your beautiful words. You, your story and your blog have been an inspiration to me. I related so much to your post titled “He”. I too battled overwhelming anxiety (and OCD) as a child and I have a 7 year-old daughter who has suffered from it as well, although these past 7 months have been great for her. I have seen God answer my prayers for her and bring her so much peace, peace that I know only He can give. Thanks for encouraging me to be stronger and do everything better in my life.

    Ann

  • Hope

    You have shown such grace in your reaction. Maybe through your grace response, they will see Him. I just recently added a new blog dedicated to my testimony and shared some of my journal entries during my grief process. I think I’m going to have to change the settings on my blog too now. Thanks for your honesty in sharing this.

  • jennyplatt

    I discovered your blog through my sister in law. You have helped me through a horrible situation in my own life. Something totally different than what you have been through but your words lead my way. Thank you for your honesty, wisdom, love, and Godliness. You are an amazing woman of God.

  • Buffy

    Oh…I left this part out! :)

    Though I have already e-mailed you and told you some of this, thought I would introduce myself! My name is Buffy, and I live in Edmond, Oklahoma. I have 5 beautiful little people who are forced to take care of me all day long while I stay at home. :) I occasionally get out to photograph other little people in my “spare time”. There is much more to me, but my family is my focus, so I will end it there! It is nice to meet you!

    Buffy

  • Marilena

    Hi Angie,

    That is so cool about your purse!! What a great example you are to your girls. I pray for you and Nicol daily. Thank your for continuing your posts and for being so transparent and honest. You are an inspiration. After reading your posts I often wish I could just stop by for a coffee and give you a hug.
    Your Father’s Day tribute was beautiful and made me cry. I too am blessed with a wonderful, godly man.
    Feel free to stop by my blog anytime. It’s not as eloquent as yours, just fun stuff about my family.
    love ya,
    marilena

    Love ya,
    Marilena

  • beccad

    Angie, I just wanted to say “thank you”. You don’t even realize how God is using you and this blog to minister to others. I think selling “Coco” was a wonderful way to show your girls sacrifice. They will remember that for years to come. I enjoy coming to your blog everyday it is quite refreshing. We will be in Nashville for the next 2 weeks for my daughter’s Craniosynostosis surgery. Check out my blog and I have a link to Julianna’s page that you can read her story too. Thank you again for allowing God to use you.

  • Gina

    I don’t know why I’m surprised that people were making up personas to talk with you, but I found that shocking and sad. I was happy to see your loving response though. You’re right, God will make good of it. Thank you for not letting it dampen your spirit. Your blog has been such an inspiration! Thank you for continuing to share and reach out!

  • Stephanie

    Hi Angie…this is really disappointing to hear. I have never posted a comment on this blog before, but I did have the pleasure of corresponding with you through email once. It was a time when your email was acting a little funny and I’m not sure if you ever even got my response back to you.

    Anyway, congrats on selling your beloved Coco!! ; )

    You are inspiring in so many ways….I always look forward to your new posts!! Please don’t let these few discouraging incidences stop you from sharing with the rest of us!!

  • Heather

    I read daily through bloglines though I don’t always comment. Your family have been in our prayers and continue to be.

    So cool about coco! I’m sure the hope house (is that the name of it) will be so excited to get the donation!

  • Matthew & Jayme Cox

    It is a sad thing when we feel the need to hide behind walls and live in fear that we will not be accepted for who we are based on just that who we are. God has created us each as individuals, he loves us as individuals but we first have to love ourselves before we can be loved by others. And I think when we can truly love ourselves and then be loved we can be who we are. We can be who God has created and intended us to be. We sometimes loose sight of what God wants for our lives. I pray that you will continue to be bold and to be courageous in being a disciple of God- A woman after God’s own heart!

  • Matthew & Jayme Cox

    It is a sad thing when we feel the need to hide behind walls and live in fear that we will not be accepted for who we are based on just that who we are. God has created us each as individuals, he loves us as individuals but we first have to love ourselves before we can be loved by others. And I think when we can truly love ourselves and then be loved we can be who we are. We can be who God has created and intended us to be. We sometimes loose sight of what God wants for our lives. I pray that you will continue to be bold and to be courageous in being a disciple of God- A woman after God’s own heart!

  • Matthew & Jayme Cox

    It is a sad thing when we feel the need to hide behind walls and live in fear that we will not be accepted for who we are based on just that who we are. God has created us each as individuals, he loves us as individuals but we first have to love ourselves before we can be loved by others. And I think when we can truly love ourselves and then be loved we can be who we are. We can be who God has created and intended us to be. We sometimes loose sight of what God wants for our lives. I pray that you will continue to be bold and to be courageous in being a disciple of God- A woman after God’s own heart!

  • Matthew & Jayme Cox

    It is a sad thing when we feel the need to hide behind walls and live in fear that we will not be accepted for who we are based on just that who we are. God has created us each as individuals, he loves us as individuals but we first have to love ourselves before we can be loved by others. And I think when we can truly love ourselves and then be loved we can be who we are. We can be who God has created and intended us to be. We sometimes loose sight of what God wants for our lives. I pray that you will continue to be bold and to be courageous in being a disciple of God- A woman after God’s own heart!

  • Matthew & Jayme Cox

    It is a sad thing when we feel the need to hide behind walls and live in fear that we will not be accepted for who we are based on just that who we are. God has created us each as individuals, he loves us as individuals but we first have to love ourselves before we can be loved by others. And I think when we can truly love ourselves and then be loved we can be who we are. We can be who God has created and intended us to be. We sometimes loose sight of what God wants for our lives. I pray that you will continue to be bold and to be courageous in being a disciple of God- A woman after God’s own heart!

  • Matthew & Jayme Cox

    It is a sad thing when we feel the need to hide behind walls and live in fear that we will not be accepted for who we are based on just that who we are. God has created us each as individuals, he loves us as individuals but we first have to love ourselves before we can be loved by others. And I think when we can truly love ourselves and then be loved we can be who we are. We can be who God has created and intended us to be. We sometimes loose sight of what God wants for our lives. I pray that you will continue to be bold and to be courageous in being a disciple of God- A woman after God’s own heart!

  • Matthew & Jayme Cox

    It is a sad thing when we feel the need to hide behind walls and live in fear that we will not be accepted for who we are based on just that who we are. God has created us each as individuals, he loves us as individuals but we first have to love ourselves before we can be loved by others. And I think when we can truly love ourselves and then be loved we can be who we are. We can be who God has created and intended us to be. We sometimes loose sight of what God wants for our lives. I pray that you will continue to be bold and to be courageous in being a disciple of God- A woman after God’s own heart!

  • Matthew & Jayme Cox

    It is a sad thing when we feel the need to hide behind walls and live in fear that we will not be accepted for who we are based on just that who we are. God has created us each as individuals, he loves us as individuals but we first have to love ourselves before we can be loved by others. And I think when we can truly love ourselves and then be loved we can be who we are. We can be who God has created and intended us to be. We sometimes loose sight of what God wants for our lives. I pray that you will continue to be bold and to be courageous in being a disciple of God- A woman after God’s own heart!

  • Matthew & Jayme Cox

    It is a sad thing when we feel the need to hide behind walls and live in fear that we will not be accepted for who we are based on just that who we are. God has created us each as individuals, he loves us as individuals but we first have to love ourselves before we can be loved by others. And I think when we can truly love ourselves and then be loved we can be who we are. We can be who God has created and intended us to be. We sometimes loose sight of what God wants for our lives. I pray that you will continue to be bold and to be courageous in being a disciple of God- A woman after God’s own heart!

  • Matthew & Jayme Cox

    It is a sad thing when we feel the need to hide behind walls and live in fear that we will not be accepted for who we are based on just that who we are. God has created us each as individuals, he loves us as individuals but we first have to love ourselves before we can be loved by others. And I think when we can truly love ourselves and then be loved we can be who we are. We can be who God has created and intended us to be. We sometimes loose sight of what God wants for our lives. I pray that you will continue to be bold and to be courageous in being a disciple of God- A woman after God’s own heart!

  • Matthew & Jayme Cox

    It is a sad thing when we feel the need to hide behind walls and live in fear that we will not be accepted for who we are based on just that who we are. God has created us each as individuals, he loves us as individuals but we first have to love ourselves before we can be loved by others. And I think when we can truly love ourselves and then be loved we can be who we are. We can be who God has created and intended us to be. We sometimes loose sight of what God wants for our lives. I pray that you will continue to be bold and to be courageous in being a disciple of God- A woman after God’s own heart!

  • Matthew & Jayme Cox

    It is a sad thing when we feel the need to hide behind walls and live in fear that we will not be accepted for who we are based on just that who we are. God has created us each as individuals, he loves us as individuals but we first have to love ourselves before we can be loved by others. And I think when we can truly love ourselves and then be loved we can be who we are. We can be who God has created and intended us to be. We sometimes loose sight of what God wants for our lives. I pray that you will continue to be bold and to be courageous in being a disciple of God- A woman after God’s own heart!

  • Matthew & Jayme Cox

    It is a sad thing when we feel the need to hide behind walls and live in fear that we will not be accepted for who we are based on just that who we are. God has created us each as individuals, he loves us as individuals but we first have to love ourselves before we can be loved by others. And I think when we can truly love ourselves and then be loved we can be who we are. We can be who God has created and intended us to be. We sometimes loose sight of what God wants for our lives. I pray that you will continue to be bold and to be courageous in being a disciple of God- A woman after God’s own heart!

  • Matthew & Jayme Cox

    It is a sad thing when we feel the need to hide behind walls and live in fear that we will not be accepted for who we are based on just that who we are. God has created us each as individuals, he loves us as individuals but we first have to love ourselves before we can be loved by others. And I think when we can truly love ourselves and then be loved we can be who we are. We can be who God has created and intended us to be. We sometimes loose sight of what God wants for our lives. I pray that you will continue to be bold and to be courageous in being a disciple of God- A woman after God’s own heart!

  • Matthew & Jayme Cox

    It is a sad thing when we feel the need to hide behind walls and live in fear that we will not be accepted for who we are based on just that who we are. God has created us each as individuals, he loves us as individuals but we first have to love ourselves before we can be loved by others. And I think when we can truly love ourselves and then be loved we can be who we are. We can be who God has created and intended us to be. We sometimes loose sight of what God wants for our lives. I pray that you will continue to be bold and to be courageous in being a disciple of God- A woman after God’s own heart!

  • Matthew & Jayme Cox

    It is a sad thing when we feel the need to hide behind walls and live in fear that we will not be accepted for who we are based on just that who we are. God has created us each as individuals, he loves us as individuals but we first have to love ourselves before we can be loved by others. And I think when we can truly love ourselves and then be loved we can be who we are. We can be who God has created and intended us to be. We sometimes loose sight of what God wants for our lives. I pray that you will continue to be bold and to be courageous in being a disciple of God- A woman after God’s own heart!

  • Mab

    Hi Angie,
    I am so sorry for the people who pretended to be someone they were not. How very hurtful. I just can not imagine that people would want to do that….I like to think the best about people too. What a wonderful, forgiving, Christlike atttitude you have for them….that blessed me so much. I so love your blog. I’ve posted a couple of times—and I just cannot tell you enough how much your words mean to me. I want to tell everyone I know to read your blog (and I have told many).
    My name is Arlene and I live in Louisiana with my hubby Steven and 2 sweet gals Ebeth and Emily. The whole family knows about your family too. :)
    Please continue to write….you are encouraging so many people in so many ways. Thank you. I pray for you and your family daily.
    Thanks for being so real.
    Love,
    Arlene

  • connorcolesmom

    Well hi Angie!!
    I am a Georgia mom of 2 boys (8yr and 4yrs old)
    I have been commenting for awhile now and pray for you and your family daily
    I guess I am like you and believe people for who they say they are – almost naively trusting in some ways
    The blog world is so different than any communication I have ever used before that it has caused me to reevaluate what I share and who I trust
    Your heart is so sincere and kind that everytime I visit here I am blessed, inspired, and encouraged!
    May God continue to wrap you in His loving embrace
    Blessings
    Kim

  • GaGa

    I am blessed by having found your blog and I know hundreds of others are too. Thank you for sharing your family.

  • Jennifer L. Griffith

    Angie,

    You have been an inspiration to me as I’ve journey through my own pain the past 10 months…though MUCH different than yours. Your faith has helped to build my faith. Your trust in Jesus has helped me to trust even deeper in the ONE who cares more than I ever could. Your hope has helped to anchor my own in the only ONE worthy of my expectations.

    Though some came as fake people, they could not have left this site untouched. IMPOSSIBLE. God uses it ALL to glorify Him…even those who hide behind their lies and games. He desires their hearts and souls to live for Him as well. You are a tool and you are allowing yourself to be used for the Greater Glory of God…it’s ALL good. Blessings,

  • Jillian

    Angie, I cannot begin to express how encouraged my family and I have been by reading your blog. I began reading about your family in March. I also began to pray to the Lord on Audrey’s behalf. I’m grateful that a friend told me about your blog. I have been blessed by reading your words. I thank the Lord for the work He’s doing in your heart and life. I thank Him for the work He’s doing in mine as well. We are so much alike! Thank you for allowing God, our Father, to use you to minister to others(including myself) by your words. You’re a blessing.

  • kimmie

    hello! I believe I have posted once(?) here a month ago, just a poem that brings me comfort in the worst times. But I have read every blog you have written and I have celebrated with you and my heart has hurt with yours… I think of your family often and though I am not particularly religious (despite a lifetime of trying to get in touch with that) I have found myself praying for you and your baby and family on several occasions! my name is Kimberly and I live in NC. My husband and I are expecting our first child in January, but I seem to feel less and less pregnant each week and am terrified something has gone wrong (to the point where yesterday I was so depressed I could not get out of bed)… I am pretty high strung so I always knew this would be a struggle for me to not worry and assume things are okay and be able to accept if they are not. we have a doctor’s appt. on Wednesday so say a prayer for us and our baby. I have a job that I love but it is very draining and demanding and I feel like I devote 80% of my life to being at work, thinking about work, and even most nights have dreams about work. It will be nice when I have a baby to help me leave work at work each day! I am 27 years old. I know you receive up to 200 blog comments a day but it is nice to “meet you” and there is a little about me, one of your constant blog readers. I really love the way you write and so admire the faith and relationship that you have in God. I just have never been able to get past skeptical but not for lack of trying! My email address is dreaminofsummer@hotmail.com… I have myspace and facebook and if you use those sites, I would be happy to have a new “friend” and stay in touch. Either way I will keep up with how you are on your blog because I just love reading it and getting to “know” you. I am happy to see pictures of little Audrey up on the blog layout now! whew okay that was long-winded. have a great week! ~Kimberly

  • Sunny

    Hi Angie,
    I found your blog through a friend’s blog. I have been a faithful reader since. You are inspiring to say the least. Your patients and family values set a great example of how a family should love and cherish each other. Thank you for sharing your family’s joy and grief.

    Sunny

  • Mommy

    Hi angie just wanted to say thank you so much for sharing your story with us all, know that i check ur blog dailey and im so inspired by you, whether be it be your good days or your bad, onthe bad days i cry with you and on the good days i rejoice with you as well , as a family we have prayed for you and your family, thank you again for sharin with us your story, and being such an inspiration!
    Tiffany, Nashville :)

  • Candi

    Hi Angie, I’m a new reader to your blog. A lady in our online Mom’s group gave us the link last week and I’ve been reading ever since. I must say that the first couple of days of reading when I was catching up with your story I was in tears almost the entire time. I can’t believe what you and your family have endured. You are such an inspiration to me. You make me want to be a better person. You make me want to be a better mother and wife. You make me want to become closer to God. Your faith amazes me and you are such a great example for others. And your writings are absolutely beautiful. I look forward to hearing more from you and your family. Thank you for sharing your lives with us. God Bless!
    Candi
    Lexington, KY

  • Whitney

    Angie,
    this reply is a long time coming, I am a family friend of Sara’s, her aunt is my very best friend. It saddens me to tell why I found you, yet on the other hand am so eternally grateful! I check your blog daily, you inspire us all to be better women of faith.
    Thank you again for all the blessings we receive when we read your words.
    until we meet,
    Whitney

  • Lora

    Hi Angie, thank you so much for posting this blog and for sharing your family’s story with the world. I consider myself spiritual, but not really religious, but your words have helped me look at God in an entirely new light. I am so inspired by the rain and what it may nourish. Thank you so much for giving me that. Thank you so much for giving the world your sweet Audrey.

  • Hopesrising

    Hey Angie.
    I completely understand you making a stand on those who are simply not honest here.
    I had a Spaces Live account that I decided to use a pen name. I finally closed it cause the comments on a blog about cancer and my journey got so bad. I opened a new one giving myself a pen name a different one. I have given info to msn as well on things that I find are not true or honest.The ones I hate the most is the ones that are going to give me a cure. Its sick. But then we even get fakes on the cancer chat I work in daily. Go figure. We just dispose of them as they come through. Its disheartening when your dealing with such trials to have people kinda take advantage of you. Sad really.

    My name is Kerry. I go by the Pen name of Hope at:
    http://www.clubsammichcafe.spaces.live.com/

    I am a wife (married just about thirty years to Roy. I have three awesome Kids. Two Boys and Girl in the middle. I am blessed with a Son In Law and a little Grand Daughter.

    We reside in Michigan.The Great Lakes State. I could never live where there is no water:)

    I am an artist and photographer. I love softball and hockey.

    I am happy to meet you to Angie…

    Also thanks for your Blog. I have been really struggling lately with some issues and I realize I a really growing spiritual as well.
    When I come here it makes me really realize how important my relationship is with God.

    Visit any time…seems I have three blogs going at this point.

    Blessings and Prayers Kerry

  • KELLY

    Angie, I so appreciate your heart and how you are allowing God to use you as you continue this journey forward. Yippee on the purse…I kept checking eBay and was thrilled to see the bidding get so high (even if I wasn’t one of the bidders!). I have followed your blog for many months and am always blessed by what I read. Thank you for being open and honest and being a picture of Jesus to those who may not know him yet.

  • Devan

    Although I have posted rarely, I am a lurker. My name is Devan – a 34 year-old single mom to 3 beautiful children in the Bluegrass state. Your story has touched my heart in so many ways – your family is always in my prayers and thoughts! God bless!

  • Ginger

    I find it sad that people feel that they have to be someone else with you. I think we ladies tend to have that issue more then the gentlemen do…. I have felt compelled to study on friendship. God says a lot, I guess He knew we humans needed alot of guidance in that area… I am dealing with a hurt as well, pray that I find the healing and the forgiveness… I am praying for you as well

  • Southern Gal

    I love reading everything you read. You know how to communicate through the written word better than anyone else. I’m so sorry for your recent losses, but know you’re trusting God with your today and tomorrrows. I usually post as anonymous and sign my name because I don’t have a blog. I hope that was OK. I don’t really understand how the ‘pretend people’ thing works, but I wouldn’t like it much either.

    Hi Angie, I’m Renee.

  • Southern Gal

    I meant to say “I love to read everything you WRITE.”

    Sorry.

  • Emily

    Angie-
    I’ve commented so many times on your blog and I say the same thing…you are the most amzing person I’ve not yet met.
    I look every day to see what’s been going on in your home. Thanks for sharing.
    I look forward to meeting you one day.

  • Cerulean Blue

    I am still touched by your grace and the truth in compassion that you continue to write with on a daily basis.

    Still praying
    ~Christy~

  • mat2820b

    Angie, I’m so sorry you had to endure that. I’ve had that happen, and you feel like such a dummy. And for someone to use you, of all people, in that way, is just cruel. I hope you remember that the majority of us really are real, and we love you oh, so very much.

    I’ve been thinking of starting a blog (I already have a xanga) so this is just the motivation I need. I hope you come visit some time, when I get it up and running. I don’t drink coffee, but I make a mean cup *grin*

    I love your heart, Angie. That you can be happy that your long-’coveted’ bag was sold so you could be a shining example to your girls.

    Can I be one of your girls? *wink*

    Jen in Australia
    http://www.xanga.com/Abbas_princess

  • Holly

    CoCo… wow! That’s awesome!
    I love your father’s day blog.. very sweet. You have a special man, you know that! I am so enjoying your blog, you have reached so many. Girls at church all speak of you as we know you (we do know you- just have never met you)… we all say ‘Angie this.. and Angie that…’ you aren’t just the blog we read last night but a real person, with real issues, you are authentic and I thank you for that!

  • melissac

    Hi Angie!! I just wanted you to know that your blog has touched my life in many ways. Your faith is a tremendous inspiration!! Thank you for sharing yourself and faith with me!!

  • Jen

    Angie,

    You and your family have now inhabited a large part of my heart and mind. My friend Amber told me about your blog a couple weeks ago. I read your poetic words and wept with you. I chuckled at the photos of you and your hott Coco! I am now so connected to this blog. I have been so encouraged and comforted by your words of faith. How great is our God! I look forward to the privelage of sharing your journey with you.

    with love,
    Jennifer Beasley

  • Melissa Irwin

    Hi Angie. I am sorry that someone, or multiple someones, have misled you. That’s pretty crummy….but hopefully something good has or will come out of that. I am amazed (again) at how you chose to handle it. Keep sharing. Your faith, love, forgiveness, grace, and transparency are all such beautiful testimonies to Christ. I love following along with you! Please stop by my blog anytime to visit my family. I’m still hoping to run into you at The Monkey’s Treehouse!

  • mom of many

    Angie
    Thanks for writing! I don’t blog but I so enjoy reading your post. I love to see how God is using you in HIS kingdom and how you are using your spiritual gift of writing so profoundly.
    I am blessed to be the mother of four beautiful children…three boys and one girl… and married to the love of my life (16 yrs). I am touched by your words and spiritual maturity. Keep on inspiring!!!!
    Sister’s In Christ
    Carol
    Jackson, Tn

  • RyanAndrew2007

    I like the new look.

    I really enjoy visiting your site. Sometimes I laugh, many times I cry. God has used you in many ways to touch my life, bringing healing in ways I wasn’t expecting.

    Thanks,
    Julie

  • Lisa

    Your new look is beautiful…very well done. I continue to pray for your family and to learn from the words God gives you.

  • Lisa

    Hi Angie, I’m Lisa. I have been reading your blog since before Audrey was born and commented a couple of times. Just wanted you to know that two of my bathrooms smell HEAVENLY right now, after being scrubbed with the Method cucumber cleaner!! I had been wanting to try the Methods and you gave me the extra push I needed. I think I am addicted to it! The bathroom soapscum mint stuff is great too! :-)

    I am so proud of you for selling CoCo. You should be so proud of all that money you raised for the Hope Clinic. That is amazing.

    I LOVE your new page, the colors, the pictures, everything.

    Just wanted to remind you that you and your family are still in my prayers. You continue to amaze me with your writing talents and your relationship with our Lord. Thank you for sharing so much of yourself, the good, the bad, and the parts that hurt. You are an amazing person. Can’t wait to meet you someday!

  • blessedwith5

    Dear Angie, I am amazed at the wild and strange ways people deceive! I am sorry people have hurt you. I really don’t understand why they would choose to hurt such a beautiful person! Through your example we are learning many things – one of which is to turn the other cheek and pour out love. Thank you Angie for your example!

    Hugs

  • Elizabeth

    I want you to know that I never planned to do this. I intended to be the silent, praying-but-never-speaking reader who stayed on the fringes – now I can’t do that any more. So let me introduce myself – I’m Elizabeth. I go by Eli. (That’s EEE-lie, not Ellie, like your daughter.) It’s nice to be known by you. =)

  • MaryBeth

    Hi Angie,
    I just wanted to de-lurk to say thank you for taking the time to blog about your journey. I have been reading for several months now, and I’m always so blessed by what I find here. Just wanted to say thanks!

  • kv

    I am another lurker that would like to say hello. I heard about your blog right after Audrey was born. The first night I visited, I stayed up half the night and read your entire story and shed many tears. You are truly an inspiration. I am going through the most difficult season of my life that I have had so far, and you bring such a wonderful perspective to the challenges that life brings. Thank you for being you and for letting so many people know you. I have offered many prayers for your family.

    Kelly

  • SARAH

    My name is Sarah, I am an addict! (this is where everyone says in unison HI SARAH) I am totally addicted to your blog and your words. I find myself at peace when I “hear” you read your story to us all. I’ve posted a few times, the real me, and I can’t Thank you enough for allowing me to share in your life, joy and pain. How about that Coco! You go girl!! I’m so proud of you all!

  • Gayle Smith

    Hi Ange,
    I was directed to your blog after my neice passed away at 7 weeks old on the 25th of April. I have been so blessed by your heart-felt writing. If you would like to know us better you can visit our blog “Journey of Faith”.
    Gayle

  • Dana

    You are a most amazing, inspirational and godly woman (and family). Thank you so much for sharing your heart, your faith, and your family.

  • The Shulls

    Hi Angie,

    It’s been such a long time since my last post in your blog. We’ve been kind of crazy around my family :)

    What a beautiful post about Todd… I feel like every time I get to know you better and better, without even met each other in person. While I was reading, I saw so much love and beauty in you all story… and I laughed really hard when I got to the part of Todd’s sisters!

    I feel like I owe you so many posts, so I’ll try not to write a whole book in here! I love the new make over to the blog..it’s so nice!! Your friend is very gifted!

    I am so excited about the Ebay’s news. God definitely knows things better than we think he does! I am so excited for you!!!

    Well, I better stop know, or I won’t have room for the rest of your friends. We keep praying for your family and Luke’s. Every night before the boys go to bed, we pray and ask God to continue to comfort and heal your families.

    Love,
    Mohana, for The Shulls

    By the way, we go to Nashville quite often to visit my husband’s family. I would love to have a chance to introduce you all to my little boys, so they know who they are praying for… just a thought!

  • Kristi O

    My turn- I am Kristi I came to your blog and ultimately your church pastor’s (Pete’s) blog in one of those 6 degree ways and I have since told all my “girls” about you and shared your video in my scrapbook store with tissues provided, in fact its been such an amazing discussion sharing your story with those as we scrapbook. God has truly been lifted up across the US from what you have typed/shared. You are on our prayer list and our hearts. I am very thankful that you took a risk and shared your story. I have a “COACH” collection, and am willing to loan one out to replace COCO on a moment’s notice. It would be like sending her to visit. HA! Anyway, thank you to you and your family for sharing your heart, for being real and for allowing the Father to speak thru this medium. GOD is so faithful and so BIG I am trusting to sort out anything that may have happened w/some annon posts, thankfully His word doesn’t go out void. I just know Angie that by sharing your heart people in my store were changed. They met Jesus. They understand his character now. Hear my heart when I say Thank you to you and your fam. -Kristi @ http://www.kristi-papertherapy.blogspot.com

  • Jody

    Hi Angie,

    I’ve been reading your blog since just before Audrey’s birth. I have only posted once or twice, but in the spirit of this post I thought I would just let you know I am still here. I check your blog daily and am always thrilled when I see there is a new post. I am continuing to pray for you often. I was sorry to hear about the deceitful person/people you had to deal with. I love that with all the posts you receive and all the people who follow your blog, you really want to know us. Thank you for allowing God to use you. And finally, yeah for Coco!!

  • RB

    Hi Angie,

    I am a lurker and I figured I’d de-lurk with your post today. I absolutely love your blog; you are a phenomenal writer. I grieved with you when Audry Caroline was born and prayed for your family.

    I know you have no shortage of traffic, but I wanted to leave a note, anyway! Blessings to you and your family –

    Rachel

  • Laura

    You are so precious….

  • Mom2anAngel&amiracle

    LOL, this is a test! I JUST learned how to make my profile on here…See Angie, we are all learning new stuff from that ANNONYMOUS character! Now I think I will start a blog, never done this before. Thanks!
    Sarah

  • Mom2anAngel&amiracle

    LOL, this is a test! I JUST learned how to make my profile on here…See Angie, we are all learning new stuff from that ANNONYMOUS character! Now I think I will start a blog, never done this before. Thanks!
    Sarah

  • Mom2anAngel&amiracle

    LOL, this is a test! I JUST learned how to make my profile on here…See Angie, we are all learning new stuff from that ANNONYMOUS character! Now I think I will start a blog, never done this before. Thanks!
    Sarah

  • Mom2anAngel&amiracle

    LOL, this is a test! I JUST learned how to make my profile on here…See Angie, we are all learning new stuff from that ANNONYMOUS character! Now I think I will start a blog, never done this before. Thanks!
    Sarah

  • Mom2anAngel&amiracle

    LOL, this is a test! I JUST learned how to make my profile on here…See Angie, we are all learning new stuff from that ANNONYMOUS character! Now I think I will start a blog, never done this before. Thanks!
    Sarah

  • Mom2anAngel&amiracle

    LOL, this is a test! I JUST learned how to make my profile on here…See Angie, we are all learning new stuff from that ANNONYMOUS character! Now I think I will start a blog, never done this before. Thanks!
    Sarah

  • Mom2anAngel&amiracle

    LOL, this is a test! I JUST learned how to make my profile on here…See Angie, we are all learning new stuff from that ANNONYMOUS character! Now I think I will start a blog, never done this before. Thanks!
    Sarah

  • Mom2anAngel&amiracle

    LOL, this is a test! I JUST learned how to make my profile on here…See Angie, we are all learning new stuff from that ANNONYMOUS character! Now I think I will start a blog, never done this before. Thanks!
    Sarah

  • Mom2anAngel&amiracle

    LOL, this is a test! I JUST learned how to make my profile on here…See Angie, we are all learning new stuff from that ANNONYMOUS character! Now I think I will start a blog, never done this before. Thanks!
    Sarah

  • Mom2anAngel&amiracle

    LOL, this is a test! I JUST learned how to make my profile on here…See Angie, we are all learning new stuff from that ANNONYMOUS character! Now I think I will start a blog, never done this before. Thanks!
    Sarah

  • Mom2anAngel&amiracle

    LOL, this is a test! I JUST learned how to make my profile on here…See Angie, we are all learning new stuff from that ANNONYMOUS character! Now I think I will start a blog, never done this before. Thanks!
    Sarah

  • Mom2anAngel&amiracle

    LOL, this is a test! I JUST learned how to make my profile on here…See Angie, we are all learning new stuff from that ANNONYMOUS character! Now I think I will start a blog, never done this before. Thanks!
    Sarah

  • Mom2anAngel&amiracle

    LOL, this is a test! I JUST learned how to make my profile on here…See Angie, we are all learning new stuff from that ANNONYMOUS character! Now I think I will start a blog, never done this before. Thanks!
    Sarah

  • Mom2anAngel&amiracle

    LOL, this is a test! I JUST learned how to make my profile on here…See Angie, we are all learning new stuff from that ANNONYMOUS character! Now I think I will start a blog, never done this before. Thanks!
    Sarah

  • Mom2anAngel&amiracle

    LOL, this is a test! I JUST learned how to make my profile on here…See Angie, we are all learning new stuff from that ANNONYMOUS character! Now I think I will start a blog, never done this before. Thanks!
    Sarah

  • Mom2anAngel&amiracle

    LOL, this is a test! I JUST learned how to make my profile on here…See Angie, we are all learning new stuff from that ANNONYMOUS character! Now I think I will start a blog, never done this before. Thanks!
    Sarah

  • Becoming Me

    Angie, I do visit your blog whenever my blog lines informs me that you have a new post available to read. I don’t always comments because some times, I am crying to hard to know how to properly respond and other times I am afraid that more comments may overwhelm you. But, all your posts have touched my heart. I often post them to my facebook pages.

    I am so sorry that you have experienced some additional hurt. I actually wrote a blog post “Waking up in someone else’s dream” about a time in my life when I use to pretend I was something and someone that I was not…it is a very lonely place to be so I will join you in praying for those folks who betrayed your trust.

    Congrats on CoCo going for such a high price…yea God!

  • Jenni

    Thanks for all you do… I find so much strength by reading your posts… navigating this daily challenge of grieving my loss and trying to find who I am now… It means a lot.

  • Daniel & Heidi Schatz

    Hi Angie, I left a comment earlier today but then I thought that I should have left our web-site address so you can “know me.” It is: http://www.babyhomepages.net/carterandevan I actually wrote about you on my page today….I’ve still been thinking about your story..I have a lot of family members that don’t believe in God and so I had to share some of your story with them and invite them to come to your blog. Also, I have a friend, more like a mentor, who is a pastor’s wife who also lost a little girl several years ago to s.i.d.s. I thought you may like to read her blog..she is also an amazing inspiration to me, her’s is http://www.highnotes.blotspot.com I look forward to reading you future posts! God bless!

  • Daniel & Heidi Schatz

    Hi Angie, I left a comment earlier today but then I thought that I should have left our web-site address so you can “know me.” It is: http://www.babyhomepages.net/carterandevan I actually wrote about you on my page today….I’ve still been thinking about your story..I have a lot of family members that don’t believe in God and so I had to share some of your story with them and invite them to come to your blog. Also, I have a friend, more like a mentor, who is a pastor’s wife who also lost a little girl several years ago to s.i.d.s. I thought you may like to read her blog..she is also an amazing inspiration to me, her’s is http://www.highnotes.blotspot.com I look forward to reading you future posts! God bless!

  • Daniel & Heidi Schatz

    Hi Angie, I left a comment earlier today but then I thought that I should have left our web-site address so you can “know me.” It is: http://www.babyhomepages.net/carterandevan I actually wrote about you on my page today….I’ve still been thinking about your story..I have a lot of family members that don’t believe in God and so I had to share some of your story with them and invite them to come to your blog. Also, I have a friend, more like a mentor, who is a pastor’s wife who also lost a little girl several years ago to s.i.d.s. I thought you may like to read her blog..she is also an amazing inspiration to me, her’s is http://www.highnotes.blotspot.com I look forward to reading you future posts! God bless!

  • Daniel & Heidi Schatz

    Hi Angie, I left a comment earlier today but then I thought that I should have left our web-site address so you can “know me.” It is: http://www.babyhomepages.net/carterandevan I actually wrote about you on my page today….I’ve still been thinking about your story..I have a lot of family members that don’t believe in God and so I had to share some of your story with them and invite them to come to your blog. Also, I have a friend, more like a mentor, who is a pastor’s wife who also lost a little girl several years ago to s.i.d.s. I thought you may like to read her blog..she is also an amazing inspiration to me, her’s is http://www.highnotes.blotspot.com I look forward to reading you future posts! God bless!

  • Daniel & Heidi Schatz

    Hi Angie, I left a comment earlier today but then I thought that I should have left our web-site address so you can “know me.” It is: http://www.babyhomepages.net/carterandevan I actually wrote about you on my page today….I’ve still been thinking about your story..I have a lot of family members that don’t believe in God and so I had to share some of your story with them and invite them to come to your blog. Also, I have a friend, more like a mentor, who is a pastor’s wife who also lost a little girl several years ago to s.i.d.s. I thought you may like to read her blog..she is also an amazing inspiration to me, her’s is http://www.highnotes.blotspot.com I look forward to reading you future posts! God bless!

  • Daniel & Heidi Schatz

    Hi Angie, I left a comment earlier today but then I thought that I should have left our web-site address so you can “know me.” It is: http://www.babyhomepages.net/carterandevan I actually wrote about you on my page today….I’ve still been thinking about your story..I have a lot of family members that don’t believe in God and so I had to share some of your story with them and invite them to come to your blog. Also, I have a friend, more like a mentor, who is a pastor’s wife who also lost a little girl several years ago to s.i.d.s. I thought you may like to read her blog..she is also an amazing inspiration to me, her’s is http://www.highnotes.blotspot.com I look forward to reading you future posts! God bless!

  • Daniel & Heidi Schatz

    Hi Angie, I left a comment earlier today but then I thought that I should have left our web-site address so you can “know me.” It is: http://www.babyhomepages.net/carterandevan I actually wrote about you on my page today….I’ve still been thinking about your story..I have a lot of family members that don’t believe in God and so I had to share some of your story with them and invite them to come to your blog. Also, I have a friend, more like a mentor, who is a pastor’s wife who also lost a little girl several years ago to s.i.d.s. I thought you may like to read her blog..she is also an amazing inspiration to me, her’s is http://www.highnotes.blotspot.com I look forward to reading you future posts! God bless!

  • Daniel & Heidi Schatz

    Hi Angie, I left a comment earlier today but then I thought that I should have left our web-site address so you can “know me.” It is: http://www.babyhomepages.net/carterandevan I actually wrote about you on my page today….I’ve still been thinking about your story..I have a lot of family members that don’t believe in God and so I had to share some of your story with them and invite them to come to your blog. Also, I have a friend, more like a mentor, who is a pastor’s wife who also lost a little girl several years ago to s.i.d.s. I thought you may like to read her blog..she is also an amazing inspiration to me, her’s is http://www.highnotes.blotspot.com I look forward to reading you future posts! God bless!

  • Daniel & Heidi Schatz

    Hi Angie, I left a comment earlier today but then I thought that I should have left our web-site address so you can “know me.” It is: http://www.babyhomepages.net/carterandevan I actually wrote about you on my page today….I’ve still been thinking about your story..I have a lot of family members that don’t believe in God and so I had to share some of your story with them and invite them to come to your blog. Also, I have a friend, more like a mentor, who is a pastor’s wife who also lost a little girl several years ago to s.i.d.s. I thought you may like to read her blog..she is also an amazing inspiration to me, her’s is http://www.highnotes.blotspot.com I look forward to reading you future posts! God bless!

  • Daniel & Heidi Schatz

    Hi Angie, I left a comment earlier today but then I thought that I should have left our web-site address so you can “know me.” It is: http://www.babyhomepages.net/carterandevan I actually wrote about you on my page today….I’ve still been thinking about your story..I have a lot of family members that don’t believe in God and so I had to share some of your story with them and invite them to come to your blog. Also, I have a friend, more like a mentor, who is a pastor’s wife who also lost a little girl several years ago to s.i.d.s. I thought you may like to read her blog..she is also an amazing inspiration to me, her’s is http://www.highnotes.blotspot.com I look forward to reading you future posts! God bless!

  • Daniel & Heidi Schatz

    Hi Angie, I left a comment earlier today but then I thought that I should have left our web-site address so you can “know me.” It is: http://www.babyhomepages.net/carterandevan I actually wrote about you on my page today….I’ve still been thinking about your story..I have a lot of family members that don’t believe in God and so I had to share some of your story with them and invite them to come to your blog. Also, I have a friend, more like a mentor, who is a pastor’s wife who also lost a little girl several years ago to s.i.d.s. I thought you may like to read her blog..she is also an amazing inspiration to me, her’s is http://www.highnotes.blotspot.com I look forward to reading you future posts! God bless!

  • Daniel & Heidi Schatz

    Hi Angie, I left a comment earlier today but then I thought that I should have left our web-site address so you can “know me.” It is: http://www.babyhomepages.net/carterandevan I actually wrote about you on my page today….I’ve still been thinking about your story..I have a lot of family members that don’t believe in God and so I had to share some of your story with them and invite them to come to your blog. Also, I have a friend, more like a mentor, who is a pastor’s wife who also lost a little girl several years ago to s.i.d.s. I thought you may like to read her blog..she is also an amazing inspiration to me, her’s is http://www.highnotes.blotspot.com I look forward to reading you future posts! God bless!

  • Daniel & Heidi Schatz

    Hi Angie, I left a comment earlier today but then I thought that I should have left our web-site address so you can “know me.” It is: http://www.babyhomepages.net/carterandevan I actually wrote about you on my page today….I’ve still been thinking about your story..I have a lot of family members that don’t believe in God and so I had to share some of your story with them and invite them to come to your blog. Also, I have a friend, more like a mentor, who is a pastor’s wife who also lost a little girl several years ago to s.i.d.s. I thought you may like to read her blog..she is also an amazing inspiration to me, her’s is http://www.highnotes.blotspot.com I look forward to reading you future posts! God bless!

  • Daniel & Heidi Schatz

    Hi Angie, I left a comment earlier today but then I thought that I should have left our web-site address so you can “know me.” It is: http://www.babyhomepages.net/carterandevan I actually wrote about you on my page today….I’ve still been thinking about your story..I have a lot of family members that don’t believe in God and so I had to share some of your story with them and invite them to come to your blog. Also, I have a friend, more like a mentor, who is a pastor’s wife who also lost a little girl several years ago to s.i.d.s. I thought you may like to read her blog..she is also an amazing inspiration to me, her’s is http://www.highnotes.blotspot.com I look forward to reading you future posts! God bless!

  • Daniel & Heidi Schatz

    Hi Angie, I left a comment earlier today but then I thought that I should have left our web-site address so you can “know me.” It is: http://www.babyhomepages.net/carterandevan I actually wrote about you on my page today….I’ve still been thinking about your story..I have a lot of family members that don’t believe in God and so I had to share some of your story with them and invite them to come to your blog. Also, I have a friend, more like a mentor, who is a pastor’s wife who also lost a little girl several years ago to s.i.d.s. I thought you may like to read her blog..she is also an amazing inspiration to me, her’s is http://www.highnotes.blotspot.com I look forward to reading you future posts! God bless!

  • Daniel & Heidi Schatz

    Hi Angie, I left a comment earlier today but then I thought that I should have left our web-site address so you can “know me.” It is: http://www.babyhomepages.net/carterandevan I actually wrote about you on my page today….I’ve still been thinking about your story..I have a lot of family members that don’t believe in God and so I had to share some of your story with them and invite them to come to your blog. Also, I have a friend, more like a mentor, who is a pastor’s wife who also lost a little girl several years ago to s.i.d.s. I thought you may like to read her blog..she is also an amazing inspiration to me, her’s is http://www.highnotes.blotspot.com I look forward to reading you future posts! God bless!

  • Jenni

    Oh, and I’m sorry that you’ve had to change your site… it’s a shame people couldn’t be themselves.

  • Darlee

    Sweet Angie,

    I’m sorry you have to experience something like this. I hope that you don’t get frustrated and start to pull away from us because you truly are a treasure.

    I’ll pray that people will stop being boneheads…

    Darlee

  • Carrie

    Angie, Thank you for keeping this blog going despite what ever challenge arise–from comments that catch you by surprise to fictious people. God is using you in HUGE ways to minister to so many people that may otherwise never know God. Thank you for your openness and sharing your feelings truthfully with all the followers. Your site has helped me find healing. It has helped lead me to a greater peace with a God that I had run from after the death of my daughter. Thank you for each word that touches my heart and that of so many! May God pour out his blessings upon you and your family!

  • the parental unit

    Hey Angie :)
    I’ve posted a few times, but thought I would introduce myself, my name is Lyne, my husband Tom and I have been married for 20 years and we have 6 children.
    I have been blessed by you! I pray that you keep using ‘us, your followers’ as a way to vent and most of all to spread His word! You’re truly a blessing!
    **HUGS**

  • MandieGirl

    Angie-

    I’ve emailed a few times, and just want you to know that I’ve been so blessed by getting to know you. Because of Audrey’s story, I feel that I am able to really live, feel, and love deeper than before, and I want to thank you for being so vulnerable and transparent so that we can all really live.

    I really *LOVE* you so much!

  • Julie

    Praise the Lord that Coco went for so much, what a blessing it will be to the ministry you give it to.

    I am praying that God will use the prayers for those you communicated with to bless them and grow them in him. Sometimes a person’s life is so in turmoil they think they have to lie to get people to like them.

    I really wish I could just be pretending about things in my life, I wish it all weren’t real. I just want to be normal and know it’s all not true. But I rest in the hands of the Father and his will for us.

  • Allison

    I’m Allison from South Carolina:) I am inspired by your faith and love of our Lord. Your Audrey Caroline has touched my heart and made me yearn a little more for Home;)

    Way to Go CoCo:)

  • Melissa

    Angie,
    You make me want to return to a relationship with the Lord and stop trying to just “look the part”. I am in process…I am trying to learn how to really KNOW Him, and I’m so grateful for the inspiration I find here. Thank you.

  • cadra74

    How nasty and evil that someone would be sinister and take advantage of your spirit! I have discovered that happens alot to me and I used to be upset by that. Eventually the Lord showed me that in order to be like Him, we have to be willing to seem “naive” and “too trusting”. After that, I haven’t been so sheepish about being sheepish!

    Still so glad you keep the blog going; I look forward to finding out what you’ve had to say.

    Speaking of which… I could never condone spending such money on a purse for myself – probably not for anyone else either – but I love how God used Coco to do something really BIG! I imagine that Coach will have never imagined such a thing for their designer bags! Just part of the pruning in life. (In the interests of full disclosure, I was given a Coach bag, and I’m still not sure what to do with it except use it when I go on job interviews!)

    I saw another poster mention this, so I thought I would too. My own faith has been very shaky and I’ve been going through an angry, rebellious stage with God. Your story and journey has helped me put my life back in perspective and helping me slink back to God.

    My website is http://hodge-podge.info. I don’t’ get to update as much as I used to, but its still active!

  • cadra74

    How nasty and evil that someone would be sinister and take advantage of your spirit! I have discovered that happens alot to me and I used to be upset by that. Eventually the Lord showed me that in order to be like Him, we have to be willing to seem “naive” and “too trusting”. After that, I haven’t been so sheepish about being sheepish!

    Still so glad you keep the blog going; I look forward to finding out what you’ve had to say.

    Speaking of which… I could never condone spending such money on a purse for myself – probably not for anyone else either – but I love how God used Coco to do something really BIG! I imagine that Coach will have never imagined such a thing for their designer bags! Just part of the pruning in life. (In the interests of full disclosure, I was given a Coach bag, and I’m still not sure what to do with it except use it when I go on job interviews!)

    I saw another poster mention this, so I thought I would too. My own faith has been very shaky and I’ve been going through an angry, rebellious stage with God. Your story and journey has helped me put my life back in perspective and helping me slink back to God.

    My website is http://hodge-podge.info. I don’t’ get to update as much as I used to, but its still active!

    ~Stephanie, Maine

  • Barr Family

    Angie: I have been following your blog for quite some time now but have never commented. I can’t even remember now how I came across your blog, but I am so glad I did! What a blessing it has been to me! Thank you for always being real on your hard days and good. You have been an inspiration to me. Your family has been lifted in prayer many times in this house! My little 3 year old likes to look on here with me and point out the “pretty baby.” Come by and meet us out there in blog-land! :) Amanda

  • Beth

    I really admire your relationship with G-d and your strength.

  • Angie

    Angie, (love the name btw;)…I just found your blog a few weeks ago as well, when a good friend of mine posted about your story on her blog. And, like so many others, I have not commented because I truly didn’t know what to say. I have 3 kids of my own (a boy and 2 girls…our baby is named Cait too) and truly couldn’t fathom what you have been going through. You write so beautifully and allow God’s light to shine so bright through your life, even during such a dark, tragic time. You are an inspiration and your faith has challenged me immensely. I will keep praying for you, your husband, and your sweet girls.
    Angie S.

  • becka

    Hi Angie!

    I thought I would introduce myself as well. I am fairly new to this blogging thing, but am enjoying meeting new “friends”!
    I am married to a wonderful man of God and we have a three year old son and a ten month old daughter.
    In 2006 my sister-in-law gave birth to a stillborn baby girl at approximately 8 months along. I have struggled with the “why” factor for so long.
    You have been such a blessing to me and a comfort as well. I might not have ever had a chance to know little Hannah Grace here on earth, but I know that she is waiting to meet us in Heaven!
    Thank you for all your honesty. You and your family are continuously in my prayers. God Bless!

  • Marla Taviano

    Hi, Angie. I’m Marla. I’ve commented several times before and prayed for you lots and lots.

    I just love your blog–so real, so uplifting and encouraging. It’s hard to put a finger on what makes it such a compelling read–even beyond Audrey’s precious story.

    Thank you for listening to God’s call to write for all of us.

    I had a girl lie to me when I was in high school. She told me a friend had committed suicide. I comforted her for days, weeks. She finally confessed to my mom that she’d lied. And then I saw her “dead” friend at a basketball game. I couldn’t forgive her. I was mean to her. And a few weeks later, she killed herself. You’ll never regret forgiving these people who’ve deceived you.

    Last thing–ran into old friends at the zoo today. They lost a baby boy in 2000. God gave them quadruplets in 2004 (no medical intervention). Not saying He’ll do the same for you (eek!), just marveling at the way He works.

    I blogged about the story tonight.
    http://www.xanga.com/mtaviano

    Blessings to you, sweet Angie!

  • Salzwedel Family

    I don’t know why anyone would misrepresent themselves in this situation, but I have to believe the Lord used your communications to influence their lives for His good.

    I’ve cried & prayed along with you as you’ve suffered these losses. I’m an open book. If you want to learn more check us out at http://salzwedeladventures.blogspot.com

    We are currently adopting a little girl from Haiti & it has been quite an adventure so far. I’m thankful for the way my faith has grown in the process.

    Many blessings to your family…
    Stephanie Salzwedel

  • Raelyn

    I am not sure if you have checked my blog yet. I am pretty sure I have commented before. I have lost 3 babies. I find comfort that I will be with them one day. The last miscarriage led to a molar pregnancy which turned into trphoblastic disease. I just finished chemo and am hopefully on the road to a full recovery. I would love for you to check out my blog.

  • Michelle

    Hi Angie – I too visit every day, and look forward to your posts :o ) I had an email swirling around in my head for months now, and just sent it off last week to you. I’m hoping it didn’t get lost out in the internet somewhere, and that it got to you okay. Our email can be testy at times, and decides not to go through on the send part – grrr! Anyway, please count on me to be honest and always myself! Once again, your deep and abiding faith is amazing and inspiring, as evident in today’s post.

    Hugs,
    Michelle in Cincinnati

  • findingourdaughter

    I’m another mom who loves your blog and was led here through an adoption (from Russia) blog as we are also adopting from Russia. I love the music and I am diving in head first to live my life the way God wants me to; it has lessened such a burden and weight off of me and I am more at peace. I have always believed, was raised and baptized a Christian, but in the last 10 years I had come to a point of only an occasional aquaintance with God. I went to the Women of Faith conference and I have not been the same since. Your blog had a part in that as I started listening to Christian radio wanting to hear some of the songs from here and then I heard the numerous commercials for the WOF conference and just *had* to attend. Thank you for sharing your life, heart and words! I cried the first time I came to your blog and started reading; I don’t even begin to phathom the grief and trials you and your family have endured, but I am praying for you all! Our blog can be reached by clicking on my user name, my real name is ironically, Angie too–but I live in Florida!
    I have not gotten as brave as you with writing freely about my life/feelings/family, etc. on my blog…I guess I am afraid to share it.
    Many hugs and Blessings to you!

  • Angie

    Checking in from Adrian MN. my blog is http://themurphygang.blogspot.com

    You father’s day post was beautiful. Just want you to know that we continue to share your story and amazing faith with friends and family. My husband and I talk about it all the time. We pray for you daily. God Bless you. Angie

  • da momma

    i love reading your stories, your encouraging words and I have your family on my heart!

  • Cindy

    Hi Angie,
    It’s Cindy ~ Phoenix. Always sign my comments the same. Written a letter and sent pics. I am who I say I am.
    So sorry that there are people who have not been able to be real. It’s painful enough to share your heart then to have others pretentd to be someone they are not just to get attention, it breaks my heart.
    I will continue to read, pray, pray, pray, and comment.
    Way to go Coco!!!!!
    You are a blessing to so many.
    Lovingly,
    Cindy ~ Phoenix

  • Vera

    Angie, I just wanted to invite you to check out my blog (I wrote about you and Audrey last week actually) and to let you know that you have remained in my daily prayers. You have been such an amazing blessing to me!

  • Savannah

    hi! i feel as if i could call you friend. i’m the random girl who emailed you a week ago after i spent my saturday night reading your blog.

    thanks for letting Jesus write your story and letting others learn from you. i am encouraged and challenged to love Jesus more and trust Him more.

    so thank you.
    savannah

  • Carrie

    Angie,

    The other night, my husband and I were talking and he volunteered to stand beside me and break my vase … together. I wasn’t quite ready to break it yet. Well, I was ready to break it – just not ready to rebuild it … but your precious writings and openness have caused me to wrestle with things that I have stuffed down for many years.

    I have two wonderful boys and a baby girl, Gracie Anne who is in heaven … I love decorating … my husband works in full-time ministry with the Fellowship of Christian Athletes … he’s in Nashville for the Nationwide Tournament today :) I’ll have him shout a hello to your family as he flies overhead!

    Thanks for your honesty and when the time is right … I’ll be sending you a picture of my broken .. but rebuilt vase.

    Carrie

  • ahartsfield

    Angie,

    I’m truly touched by your entire story and tell everyone I know about your blog. You are a great Christian inspiration, and I love to read your posts. You have an unbelievable way with words, and I am moved each time that I visit the site. (I’ve watched the video from Audrey’s memorial service and listened to the song “I Will Carry You” more times than I could possibly count…my 6 year old knows the song by heart! BEAUTIFUL!!) Anyway…I, like others, would love to know the rest of the Smith story. If you feel led, please tell us the story of Abby and Ellie. I know that you refer to the complications with them often, and I’d love to hear it from the beginning.

    Last September I delivered a baby girl, Lydia, at only 31 weeks due to my development of severe preeclampsia. Lydia weighed only 2 pounds, 15 ounces and was in the NICU for four weeks. She went home weighing in at only 4lb. God chose to perform a miracle in her life, and today Lydia is a happy and healthy 9 month old. I am humbled by your story when I realize that ours could have so easily ended the same.

    Oh yeah…I also have a fantastic husband, Walt, with whom I have been married 8 years TOMORROW (Oh no…I forgot a gift!) and a beautiful 6 year old son, Hunter.

    That’s just the facts about me…someone who reads your blog faithfully and looks forward to each post. You truly inspire me.

    Sincere thanks,
    Amy – Calhoun, Georgia

  • Simplyliz

    Angie,
    You would have no idea how I have prayed for a idea of how a grounded followed of Christ deals with real life.

    I love reading your blog because, although you are in such a difficult season, the love of God shines through you so transparently.

    Thank you.

  • Robin

    Angie~

    I am a new visitor and friend to your journey. Your vulnerability is truly courageous!!!! I thank you for sharing your life so openly and transparently!!! I wish we all could be so brave : ) I just wanted to let you know that you inspire me, through your honest walk with Christ. Because of your relationship in Christ you emmulate what I inspire to be as a mom. Thank you!!!!! I hope to see you soon.

    With love and gratitude, Robin

  • Francine

    Hi Angie,
    Guess I will introduce myself again as well. My name is Francine and I live in the cartersville,ga area. I do not have children of my own yet however I am the children’s ministry leader and full-time nanny so I have kiddies. (if you know what I meant :0) I am also a aunt to three handsome nephews with one in heaven and one beautiful niece. I am so thrilled you share with us all you experience. I am touched so many times by your honesty and love. Please never change that. God bless you sweetie.
    francine

  • Kelly

    Hi Angie,
    I found your blog on a message board shortly after the miscarriage of my second baby in May (the first baby is a healthy 15 month old, though:). I also live in the Nashville area and have found your writing to be such an inspiration to my own personal faith. Thank you for being so open and honest in these tough times. I think all of these comments are a testament to the lives you are touching!
    Love,
    Kelly

  • M and H

    I sent an email to introduce myself, but I will do so as well here. Thank you for sharing your life and your lessons with all of us. We are better because of it.

  • Vanessa De La Maza G.

    Angie I love your blog, is one of my daily things to do.
    I am constanly praying for you and your family.
    Glad to see CoCo found a reason to be :D

  • Jenn

    Angie, I’m sorry people weren’t themselves with you…that’s gotta be really hard when you lay it all out on the table!

    Well, I’m real, you met me, no hiding it now! Hugs! Jenn

  • Jessica

    A book that I am reading that has been of some comfort as well is “A Grace Diguised” it is a wonderful help to me in the past few weeks, especially when I saw Zach’s grave for the first time today

  • Kim

    Angie,
    I love the new look on your blog. I mostly love that you have pictures of Audrey on there now. The family picture is my favorite. I do pray for you and your sister-in-law. I hope Todd had a good Father’s Day and your brother. I know that it had to be hard. Not forgetting the Chapman’s too. I wish a lot of times that I could see God’s plans ahead of time.
    But anyhow, I hope that each day God gives you the strength to enjoy it a little more.
    Congrats on the sale of your purse. WOW! =)
    Kim

  • Sue

    Angie,

    I was saddened to hear that people have taken advantage of such a transparent and loving person such as you. I have always posted as anonymous because to be honest this is the first blog I had ever read much less posted on. I am Sue and as you see I am extremely technically challenged. I have to admit that after a few negative comments that were left under the name anonymous I was reluctant to even post for fear that you might think that I was that anonymous.

    I first started reading your blog when I went online to get tickets for the Selah concert in Tonawanda New York back in January. Ever since then I have checked your blog daily and have posted a few times to let you know that I have been and still are praying for all of you.

    I very rarely have anything close to profound to say. I have not experienced anything close to the loss you have. I simply leave comments that I hope might in some small way encourage you and mostly to let you know that not a day has gone by that I do not remember to pray for you.

    I really admire your honesty and I am sorry that you have not always had that honesty returned.

    Please continue to post. I am encouraged daily to by your blog as I know many others are also.

    Well this is my first attempt at posting this way so I hope it works. Until next time…

    Sue

  • Samantha

    Thank you so much for sharing your story. As my babies sleep in their beds & yours in theirs.I look to the stars & pray to OUR GOD. In some strange way those stars connect me to you. I pray for your peace of mind & a calm heart. God bless you & your family. -Samantha

  • Sara

    Angie,

    Greetings from Maryland! I’ve written before but didn’t have an account, so now it’s official!! I found your site when I was on Selah’s web page in February. When I saw the prayer request, I immediately logged into your blog and read all about sweet little Audrey.

    Your honesty and willingness to be so open has truly inspired me. As a result, I’ve decided to go back to church and am currently looking into ways to “plug” into a local body. It’s been more than a year since I’ve been a part of a church family and I’m excited to get involved again. I certainly have missed the relationships and look forward to meeting new people and joining a small group.

    Thank you for all the intimate stories you’ve shared with your online family. I think I speak for everyone when I say we are all blessed to have a friend and encourager like you! You are in my prayers!

    A new friend from Maryland…
    Sara

  • Cheryl

    Angie,

    I found your blog last week, referenced on another blog, and cried as I read your letter to Audrey, and then went back and read the entire history, weeping as I did. As a Christian in a job where that isn’t always a positive thing, I’ve always been somewhat quiet about my faith, preferring that people simply see Jesus through the way I live rather than through what I say. Your willingness to be so open about your faith has both inspired me and convicted me.

    Your posts have made me cry, and they have made me laugh, and most of all, they have humbled me. May God bless you and your family in all that you do.

    Cheryl in Texas

  • Colbert Family

    Hi Angie,
    I just wanted to tell you that I will be praying for you and your family. You are so amazing and God is using you more than you could ever imagine. I just found your blog tonight for the first time and spent several hours reading it and reading all about little Audrey and your journey with her. I don’t even know what to say except thank you for sharing your heart and being a beautiful light for Christ. I was so encouraged to read of your love for the Lord and your faithfulness even through such hard times. You made God more real to me tonight as I saw and continue to see how God is carrying you through this. I promise to be praying for you and your beautiful family.
    Shelley :)

  • Andrea

    Angie – I just finished a Beth Moore bible study tonight (Stepping Up), and she had an amazing quote in the lesson I thought you would enjoy (if you haven’t heard it yet). To paraphrase, it was that – your tears will reap a harvest. Something is going to happen with all those tears you’ve shed and the harvest will come – you will see it happen and your pain will bring fruits for the Lord.

    I love reading your updates and do pray for you constantly! Blessings :-)

  • LoriWyldTownsell

    dear, sweet stranger: I first found your blog through Celebrity Baby Blog the day Audrey was born. for some reason, something pulled me to check out the “bring the rain” website. the first thing that touched me was the song(it was the first “christian” music i ever downloaded on my ipod)my relationship with God has been a spotty, sometimes doubting, many times questioning hodgepodge through the years. as i kept paging through the old blogs, the tears began flowing. what touched me so deeply was your faith. i mean, you had every right to give up, to abandon Him. who could blame you? but here you were, writing with such strong, undeniable faith. the doubting disappeared for me. i can’t say the questioning, because i will always have questions but your faith after everything made me know without a doubt that He is always there for us. i also felt the need to share your story. i have a friend who is pregnant and was having a very hard first few weeks. she was having a “normal” pregnancy but was very sick and losing strength and pounds by the day. she was digging a hole for herself in her current mental state. she has been waiting to be blessed with a baby for years. i went to her home to “force” some food and water into her dragging body. she told me she couldn’t and she couldn’t take this anymore. i pulled up your blog and began to read. i read as the tears flowed again with the soft music in the backround. i told her to just listen. listen to the words listen to the faith. listen to how this whole family lived everyday and believed everyday. listen to the love. well, she picked up a bowl of soup, picked up the huge cup of water i poured her and took her first step to “being on the mend” she is now thriving, gaining weight, and believing she can endure these “little” hardships. thank you for your words, your honest feelings and for making a difference in the lives of us “strangers”

  • sara

    Congrats on selling Coco!!

    I want you to know how much I love reading your words & hearing your precious heart for Jesus. You are a blessing to so many; I continue to pray for you & that your heart would be protected…..

  • Bridget

    I am so surprised and saddened that someone would make up a fictional life and pretend to be someone they are not. Sigh.
    And I am amazed at your attitude! It’s awesome!
    I’m Bridget. There’s another Bridget who posts on here, so I tend to post as Bridget Joy. I live with my family in Portland.
    I have learned so much from you, Angie, and from your blog.
    -Bridget
    http://petsaretalking.typepad.com

  • mollyfrog

    Hi, I’m Molly. I found your blog through a friend online. I became a believer after losing our first son at 29 weeks. That was about 2.5 years ago. Your blog is how I’ve felt over the past 2.5 years, only you say it so much better! People have told me to forget about Eric, but I don’t want to because I’ve never been so happy. That sounds strange, but I was such a mess, and I still have a ways to go, but I’m getting so much better. If I hadn’t had Eric, I wouldn’t have a relationship with God at all. I want to tell the world about what a miracle Eric was. I love him so much, and I miss him every day. Knowing other people are dealing with the same thing gives me strength. I wouldn’t wish it on anyone, but I wouldn’t trade Eric for the world.

    I’m going to break my jar soon. Thank you so much for sharing Audrey with us.

  • Oly girl

    Hey Angie -
    I am Tina, I live in Olympia Washington. I have been reading your blog since I heard about it on our local chistian radio station web site. One of the DJ’s there was writing on her blog asking us to pray for you. I went to your blog and read your story and was in tears. I have been checking in for several months now, your writing is amazing, God truly gave you a gift. I would cry and pray, and I have to say I have drawn much closer to the Lord. My own twin daughters just graduated from high school. So I know what it is like to have twins and a high risk pregnancy and all you have is Jesus. I used to be so afraid that something would happen to one or both of them, and had to finally come to the realization that they belonged to God, and he loves them even more than I do, and he gave them to me to raise, but I had to leave them in his hands. I wanted to let you know who I am. I don’t have a web site or a blog, it was about all I could do to figure out this google user thing. :-) I enjoy your honesty and your love for the Lord. Thank you for sharing. You and your family are in my prayers. Congratulations on Coco! I too am married to a very “good” man.

    Tina (mrsthunell@comcast.net)

  • Amanda

    I hate that people would take advantage of your willingness to share the story of your loss. You have blessed so many people, myself included. I just can’t imagine why anyone would read your story and want to turn around and lie to you. I would say that is part of the dark side of the internet…but of course, it happens in real life too. I hope that people’s selfishness didn’t cause you anymore pain than you have already endured. A million hugs. I wish I knew you IRL!

  • ilovepink

    I found your blog tonight and could not quit reading…..what a beautiful story. You are to be admired for your strength and faith. You are an inspiration to all. I love listening to Selah. I had no idea one of it’s members had been through so much this year. I will keep you and your family in my prayers always. Thanks for sharing your story and the beutiful pictures of your daughters and husband. I will kiss my princess one more time before turning in tonight.

  • carolyn

    Hi Angie- I’ve been lurking since shortly before Audrey was born. Today seemed like the right time to introduce myself.

    Your writing is so beautiful, and so full of your faith- I am inspired in some way each time I visit (which is, well- every day)!

    I have laughed and cried and lifted you and your family in prayer as I read your entries. Thank you for sharing your life, and a piece of yourself with all of us. I know that I am stronger in my faith because of your example.

    I’m happy to share my blog- please free to drop by!

    Carolyn

  • Becky

    You are so real and beautiful! I hope I can be just like you one day! I’m working on it. Especially with giving up my purse that I love. Thank you so much for your teaching!

  • Mary

    Hi Angie, I’ve never actually commented on your blog before, but I’m e-mailed you. I feel so bad about what happened with those people. I don’t get how they can feel right with doing that. Anyway, you are such a wonderful inspiring person, and you’ve truly influenced my life.

    Mary

  • Christy

    I have been reading your blog since before you dear Audrey was born, but have only commented once before. I check in daily and am so blessed by your openness and honesty. You are often on my mind and in my prayers. I am so glad that Coco was able to be such a learning experience for you and your girls. Praying you have a blessed day today.

    I hope to one day meet you and give you “big hugs” in person!

    Christy

  • The Kast Fam!

    God Bless you and your courage. Your life story is a true walk in faith with our Lord. I cannot imagine your pain and you cannot imagine what a blessing you are to all of us. Keep moving forward knowing every single day that you are the most giving, selfless, wonderful person. You to me are the true definition of Mother. God Bless you and your family.

  • Beth Brown

    You are an amazingly forgiving person. I have not opened my blog for fear of what people will say or do…or pretend. I hope that you believe my story…it certainly was in the news…and certainly is true. I cannot believe anyone would pretend a tragedy…when losing a child is so difficult to bear. I am linking one of the articles for you to see.

    http://www.azfamily.com/news/local/stories/KTVKLNews20070628_baby.24e28f9f.html

    My prayers continue to be with you.

  • Jeremey and Jessica

    Angie, What a blessing that so many came “out of the woodwork” Be encouraged that so many love you and want to know Audrey and all of your family. I heard for the first time Todd sing. It was “I Surrender All” on Jessica’s website. You should post it on your blog. He has an awesome voice. Please let him know, I am sure he has been told that a time or two.
    Love and Prayers,
    Jessica

  • Beth Brown

    OK, this is just funny. I was checking back to see if my comment posted…and the word verification for this post is Riess…that is just too crazy!

    I don’t know how you keep up with all these comments and I am sure e-mails.. You’re amazing.

  • Fr. Peter Doodes

    Angie,

    The only way not to be taken in by people is to be an untrusting cynic and as Christians that is a path none of us can let ourselves take.

    There are some very sad afflicted individuals out there in the world and it was those that Jesus came to heal. I do not doubt that that you, as a part of the body of Christ, are instrumental in the plans of His healing process.

    Many abused His trust when he graced this planet with His footsteps… little has changed.

    Blessings,

    Peter.

  • Kristin

    Dear Angie
    Thank you for wanting to know the “real” us….we appreciate your transparency and we should only be as willing to be transparent with you.
    My name is Kristin Smith (great last name ) :) :) and we live in Beresford, South Dakota
    We have two amazing boys – Isaac who is almost 12 and Gabriel who is almost 5. We also have one in heaven lost in a miscarriage this past February.
    We have a dog and 2 cats – oh and several fish!! :)
    My husband represents people with disabilities and I work at a bank.
    We go to an awesome church in Parker SD – Fist Baptist – and to anyone who is reading this that lives nearby…come check us out sometime!
    We have a small garden out behind our house and we love to make homemade salsa every fall.
    I have learned so much about myself from reading your blogs – and I am so grateful to have been allowed the opportunity to do so.
    So now that you “know” me a little better can I ask for a prayer request??
    I found out yesterday that my sister’s old college roommate and good friend Steph lost her husband to suicide on Saturday night. He had been struggling with depression for the past 6-7 months and was on different depression and bi-polar meds. He was only in his late 20′s – a very sad situation.
    Please pray for Steph and my sister Beth. That Steph may know that she didn’t do anything to “cause” this and that my sister could be there supporting her through all of the difficult stuff ahead.
    I told my sister that Steph is going to need people that are willing to listen to the “ugly” stuff and not just want to hear that she is fine. I learned that from you. You have shown us that it is ok to be angry – for a time, that it is ok to question – as long as we trust in His word, that it is ok to be honest with people, even when it makes us more “human”. But it is in doing that that we lean on those who care for us, and especially onto the Savior who can bring us ultimate peace.
    Thank you for ministering to us – so that we in turn can minister to others.
    Hugs from South Dakota
    Kristin

  • Nichole

    Angie,
    I wonder what motivates people to be something they are not… and to create something that isn’t. You are what is honest, and true! You have reached more people through this blog, than some will reach in a liftime. Thank you for your tenderness. You continue to be such a GODLY example to all those who have been blessed enough to read your writings.
    Thank you,
    Nichole

  • Wendi

    Angie,
    This made me sad. There have been times I’ve been a little bit edgy as I ‘put myself out there’ on my blog. I am very honest and open as well, and some times I’m afraid that could come back to bite me…
    God has given you the gift of tactfulness. :) You put things very well. Being firm, but very loving at the same time.
    Praying for you and your family! So grateful for your beautiful heart.
    ~Wendi (Mother of five little ones. Two in heaven, privleged to hold three in my arms)

  • Jane-Jane

    I’m me… the real deal that God made. Imperfect in every way. A Jesus nut that LOVES to pray for and encourage others. I thank God for blogworld so that my prayers go out for so many more than my tiny little circle of family and friends. If you have any question as to who I am, surf around past post over at my site….you will see me, who God has made and called me to be.

    YEAH GOD….CoCo is a good purse! I do like the idea of her being gently used and re-sold every couple of months…I think she would be a blessing to many that way. Keep us posted if this should happen. P.S. – My personal prayer is that the purchaser would re-gift it to you, her first mommy.

  • debrakopecky

    Angie-

    You and your family are so sweet! I look forward to your blog every day. I love the way that you and Todd love each other! I love your love story! It reminds me a lot of my own! Although we have not had to go through the things that you both have gone through, I feel like we went through it with you. Thank you so much for sharing your story with us! You are in our thoughts and prayers!

    Debra

  • petrii

    Angie,
    Thank you for sharing your life so openly and honestly. It has touched my life in so many ways. I’ve shared your story with many. You have been in my prayers and on my heart. Please keep writing, you are such an inspiration to so many of us.
    Love and Blessings to you sis,
    Dawn

  • Jen

    Angie: I am so glad I have found your blog. Your words touch me deeply. Your are a talented writer, and your relationship with God leaves me in awe. Your writing has encouraged me to strengthen my own relationship with God.

  • Kristi

    I came to your page from “Rocks in My Dryer” and read your letter to Audrey Caroline. I traced back a while and read some of your prior entries.

    Because my past was not perfect and my husband and I are currently going through some struggles as a result of it, your journals have really been speaking to my heart. The story and picture of the smashed pitcher had me in tears.

    I am thankful that God led me to your site, and my prayer is that He will bless you greatly for your faithfulness to Him.

    Thank you for your willingness to pour out your story in such an honest, real way.

  • Northern’s

    Today has been a rough day so far (its still so early!) So I came by to re-read some of your old blogs because I find strength when I come here to read your blogs. It helped!

    I am just really getting depressed over the fact that I am a mother of a preemie and he keeps having ups and downs (more downs than what we would like.) It’s almost like I am running out of faith here.

    Anyways, I just wanted to say hi and thank you for being a source of strength for me, even if we don’t know each other.

    - Denise
    http://web.mac.com/parker.northern

    P.S. Could you say a little prayer for my son, they think he is getting an infection and I am scared and really depressed and not in a good frame of mind.

  • stephanie garcia

    Hello from Chile, South America … My husband and I are newly-arrived missionaries in this beautiful country where I also had the privilege of growing up as an MK (so I love when you write stories about your husband’s MK experiences!)

    We have three precious children through adoption and we are in the process of adopting two beautiful boys from Haiti. Your posts often speak to my heart, because although we have never experienced a loss such as yours we did lose a baby to miscarriage and walked through the valley of three failed adoptions along the journey to our children.

    Thank you for your honesty, transparency, and faith. You have been given a special ministry through this unique medium of blogging, and God is obviously using it for His glory!

    -Stephanie Garcia
    http://garcias2chile.blogspot.com
    http://iansadoption.blogspot.com

  • Timeless and Treasured, Photography by Heather

    Hi Angie – You continue to amaze me more and more everyday. When I grow up I want to be just like you!!! I check your blog daily and it is always such a source of inspiration for me. I am a child photographer and have enjoyed chatting with your friend from Uchida Photography, he has given me a few pointers. And by the way – your girls are BEAUTIFUL!!! I have three girls myself, and they are such a joy. I have also just slightly felt the pains of losing babies, although I never got to see their faces. Thank you for allowing us to see so clearly your heart and your soul, and for sharing so honestly and for being REAL. Don’t let the crazy people out there in cyberspace get you down – you are doing a wonderful God-filled thing here and we all love you and support you. Still praying for you everyday.

    http://www.timelessandtreasured.com

    Love, Heather

  • paperglueetc

    Angie you never cease to humble me, would love for you to see the Father’s Day Gift I had made for DH
    http://paperglueetc.wordpress.com/
    when it was given to me at church on Sunday I sit thru the service and remembered James” Memorial Service and was at peace, I know I have a little boy in heaven that knows I remember him, share him, love him and cherish that God knew I could be his mom and make his life matter, I hate that you are a member of the same club but I’m sure thankful God brought you into my life! YOU ARE A BLESSING!

  • Polka Dot

    I’ve posted before, not as anon though as I have a blog of my own. But, like the others, I thought I’d go with the spirit and formally introduce myself.

    37 (gah), struggling with infertility, and trying to just get by most days. I’ve been reading for a couple of months and your experiences and heart have shown me more than I ever expected.

  • Tami

    Hi Angie,

    I love the fact that even though pretty much ALL of your posts have no less than 150 comments… you WANT to know us! So neat… with that, here’s who I am…

    I am Tami. A wife for almost 16 years (we got married when we were 20 and 21), we have two precious boys in heaven (Konner Thomas and Kyle Joshua) and three beautiful boys with us here on earth (Lucas, Colby and Caleb). We homeschool our boys out here in California, where we live in the gorgeous wood filled sierras. God has blessed us richly throughout our lives… even through loss. I have had so many opportunities to share my love of Jesus, as well as my trust of Him. It is so clear to me that He is using you in some of the same ways… and He will continue to do so.
    Thank you for sharing life with all of us in such an intimate way. I understand first hand how difficult it is to make yourself so vulnerable… I am grateful for you!

    Tami
    zoointhehills.blogspot.com

  • Princess Motormouth

    Hi Angie.

    I found your blog yesterday and have thought of you, your family, and your journey through this short existance we have here on earth almost non-stop. To say that I have been moved, touched, & blessed, would be a huge understatement. You are God sent to so many (me for sure), and your words are so eloquently spoken. It’s no doubt that He is speaking through you.

    Please know that I,too, am praying for you, Todd, and your beautiful girls.

    Thank you for being so open, raw, and willing to let me and thousands of others into your life.

    “Trust in the Lord with all you heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight.” Prov. 3:5-7

    Sincerely,
    Emily (aka: Princess Motormouth)

  • Francine

    Hi angie I posted but don’t see my information so just in case I will post again. My name is Francine Howell and I live in the Cartersville,GA area. I will be celebrating my one year anniversary on october13th of this year. We do not have kids yet because my doctor says(and I agree) I must loose weight first. So for now I am loving on my babies that I am a nanny for and all my kiddies in the children’s ministry. I am the director of children’s ministry. I am also a very proud aunt of 3beautiful nephews (one is in heaven) and 1 beautiful niece. I am so thrilled to read about all your adventures thank you for kindly sharing with all of us. You are such a inspiration and I feel so much like you are a friend if I saw you I would probably run up and hug you.
    God bless you and thank you for allowing us in your life.
    Franicne

  • Jaime

    I just recently found your blog and couldn’t stop reading past posts. I have cried with you and have prayed for you. I love your writing style and the way you so beautifully put into words your daily life. Thank you for your honesty and transparency as you and your family walk through this difficult chapter.

    My husband and I have never experienced the kind of sorrow and grief that so many families face, whether through death, financial disaster, marriage stress, etc. Sometimes I wonder when it’s going to hit, but I have to trust that God has a reason for everything and I should praise Him that we have not experienced that pain, just as I hope I would praise Him if we did experience the pain (and as you have so beautifully lived out praising Him in the pain).

    Thank you for sharing so openly.

  • Lizette

    I haven’t been to see any updates for a little while. To be honest I have to prepare myself to come to this blog. I am a very emotional person and I cry like no other :) So I try to come to this blog when the kids are in school and my hubby is at work. I like to be able to sit here and take it in. Your writing is wonderful, so full. Thank you for that.
    Love the new look of your blog. I really like the picture at the top. Very special. Thank you for being a voice for someone who we can’t hear right now. Someday.
    Good idea with the ANON comments (not allowing them).
    The Father’s Day post was so touching. Your family is so lucky to have you, and you to have them.
    I’m glad you keep this blog updated. Must be so hard some days.

  • valerie

    Angie,
    I’ve been out of pocket for a week or so. I’ve been to church camp! :) I was away from all technology, except an occasional cell phone, for a week.
    I have been reading your blog for a while now, but after a week am way behind & need to go back and read some past posts to see exactly what comments you’re talking about.
    I guess I just can’t imagine anyone saying anything cruel or judgmental to you…especially at a time like this in your life.
    “Lord, help us to be encouragers and not judgmental people. Help us to show love in our words and deeds and leave everything in your hands. May the words of my mouth and the meditations of my heart be acceptable in Your sight, oh Lord.”
    I continually keep you and your family in my prayers and have nothing but absolute respect for you and your husband’s family. After all these years of service to the Lord you all & they deserve favor upon favor from our sweet Lord.
    I serve a God who loves to bless and loves to delight in showing mercy. (Micah 7:18)
    God bless you and keep you today, my sweet sister in Christ!
    Love,
    Valerie

  • Mathew Meanderings

    So glad the purse was able to go for so much!
    I recently found your blog and quickly added it to my favorites. Thank you for sharing what our Lord is doing in your life.

  • MandyJo013078

    Dear Angie – I wanted you to know that I found your blog through Adrienne’s Blog (Owen) – I’m a single gal looking to adopt; actually better to put it this way – I’m a single gal who’s still hoping to get married and then adopt! I’ve posted a few comments here and there of encouragement and love. I said prayers for you, Audrey, your husband, your girls, and the rest of your family. I check your blog every few days in hopes of seeing how you are doing be it bad or good. I’m sorry to hear that someone would have mis-represented themselves to you and that is why I wanted to post a comment today so I didn’t seem like blog stalker, who never posts a comment and never lets you know I’m around checking, praying, and hoping things will go better for you and your entire family. I’m here to say that (from knowledge that I’ve gained in the past year) in my own personal experiences sometimes people take out their hurt on others. I’m not sure why this is or why they feel compelled to do these things? I know that my situation is not anywhere near yours … (I’m sure you haven’t had time to check out my blog) but it seems like when things go well in my life others sometimes feel compelled to tear me down. It’s up to me what I do with my hurt and disappointment though -and I choose everyday to keep evolving and changing and working to be the best person I can be – the gal that God meant for me to be. All that being said doesn’t take away the hurt that is sometimes caused and it’s not meant to really just that on a daily basis we all have to choose how to react to everything around us. I want you to know that as much as I don’t know you very well and have only read your blog – I enjoy who you are and how you share and that you are honest and caring. I aspire to be more like that as I evolve into the gal that the Lord meant me to be. Maybe that is the reason I happened in on your blog about Audrey so that I would see some of the things that are admirable in others. One never knows why certain people touch our hearts, but I tend to believe it’s the Lord’s way of sending us in the right direction.
    MandyJo

  • Rachel

    Hi there. Wow–that is a lot of comments in one day! You are touching so many lives. Anyway I have emailed you a couple of times and told you about my experience which was similar to yours—only it happened to me twice. I am sorry about the fake characters and don’t really understand why someone would do that. I am still reading and love all your posts and am healing a little each day right along with you.

  • shan

    Thank you… Whenever I visit here I find strength. You always leave me thinking, and I appriciate that. Even on the worst of days here your blog often leads me to find things to be thankful for, either by what you write or where my mind ends up after reading what you’ve written. :)

  • Kristy

    Along with several others I have been reading your blog since just before Audrey was born and have not shared a comment. I have been praying for you and your family and extended family for what you have all been going through. You are a ray of sunshine through the dark times even if you sometimes feel swallowed up by it. GOD is shining through you. Thank you for sharing your heart with all of us.

  • The

    I suppose I should take this opportunity to de-lurk. :)

    I’ve been reading for a few weeks and I’m inspired by your strength. Five years ago, we lost our youngest daughter to an accidental bathtub drowning at 9 months old. Initially, I felt strong – I had other children to care for – and my faith in God never waivered. It’s odd but 5 years later, I’m struggling.

    It’s inspiring to read your blog and be reminded of where I once was – strong and staring in the face of death.

    Thank you for sharing your journey with us.

  • Wendy

    Hi Angie,

    I have been touched by your blogs. I had never thought about the threshing floor. It touched my heart that something seemingly so small had such significance.

    I am Greg’s cousin, Wendy. My journey has been different than yours, but the same God is helping me through the challenges I face in my life. Your blogs have helped me.

    I pray that you and your family are finding moments everyday that their is some peace. I also pray for Greg, Nicol and Summer. Thank you for the blog on Lukie. It meant so much, because it was the only connection we had at times.

    May God bless you.

    Wendy

  • Three Fold Cord

    Hey girl,
    I commented in the beginning of Audrey’s blog about being pregnant and scared. As of today we have had our ultrasound and as i was crying throughout the visit I saw God’s hands in our little one’s life and he is perfect. Fear was trying to rob me of the joy the my God is faithful and true, no matter what the circumstance and I have been so touched by your honesty with us and Him throughout your journey. Though my baby is still developing fine inside my womb your words have caused me to press in to the Lord to see what HE is still developing inside of me-Jesus Christ!

  • Sallie

    Thanks for all your words of wisdom and guidence. You will never know the impact you have put in peoples lives.

  • Kylea

    Angie,
    So many things to say…
    As a Woman- I relate.
    As a Mother- I relate.
    As a Wife- I relate.
    As someone who has lost- I relate.

    You are an inspiration to so many. Your dignity, honesty, trust, & faith in God are amazing. You are a leader & You are real. Thank you for all that you have given me through your writing. You have no idea how much it has changed my life.- Kylea

  • Denise

    You are a very talented writer. I do hope that you are able to find peace and clarity in your writing as I did. My warm thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

  • Carolyn

    Angie,

    I have read your blog faithfully since I heard about you on a local Christian radio station. Several times, I have sat down to respond to one of your posts, but I never did. I don’t know what it is like to lose a child. God never chose to bless me with my own child, but he has brought five neices, four nephews, and three step-children into my life whom I love as if they were my own.
    I do want you to know that I pray for you and your family.
    My first husband, James, died in 2003 from a congenital disese that affects the connective tissues. He was a wonderful, wonderful man. He brought such joy and peace to my life. If it had not been for my faith in Jesus during those days after his loss, I would not have made it. It was the most difficult and painful time that I have ever had to endure, but I was not alone, Jesus always walked with me.
    James loved children and we kept the nursery in our home church as often as we could. So now, when I read your blog, I can see him in Heaven with a child sitting on each leg giving comfort and love.

    My Mother always told me that God never closes one door without opening another. She was right. It was hard to continue with my everyday life after James was gone, But I did, one day at a time. After a few years, our Heavenly Father graced my life with the presence of a good friend. After much prayer, we married. By the grace of God, I have learned to love again.

    I will always love James. He holds a place in my heart that can never be replaced nor do I wish to replace him, but thanks to our saviour, we have the capacity to love and make a difference in the lives of others.

    May God continue to guide you.

    Carolyn

  • wanita

    hi! believe it or not~~i was intro’d to your blog thru our mops group. =) been a reader since almost the beginning. i’ve enjoyed your sincerety and your heart! prayed for your family often and shared your story a few times. =) i identify w/ the ‘mommy’ part and enjoy listening to some great music!!~blessings*

  • Pam

    Angie,
    I have left a few posts and sent you a few emails. I find it so amazing that your hubby bought that purse for you to cheer you up. I know what it’s like to hate the thought of Mother’s Day coming. As an infertile woman, it was an altogether too familiar feeling. I have now celebrated two much happier Mother’s Day with my son Micah, adopted from India.
    I’m sorry that people have lied in order to get close to you. Makes you wonder doesn’t it?? I’m sorry for the additional hurt that has caused you. I pray God heals that as well. I enjoy your honesty and your openess here. I really enjoyed the post about the broken pitcher. Made me want to break something too. I think about that often. Also the post about the threshing floor. I had NO CLUE the temple was built there. I can see how God has built my motherhood on the ashes of my broken dreams to make something for His glory. Truly a blessing. Please keep posting. I check your site everyday. I hope those you misled you have the courage to come clean.
    In Him,
    Pam

  • Julie

    I enjoy reading your blog, thank you for sharing it.

    But can I ask how you changed the layout recently? It’s so beautiful! I really want mine to be something nice but I have no idea how to do it!!!

  • Twy

    Angie,
    It hurts my heart to know that someone would be misleading or disrespectful towards you. You are nothing but giving and open with your feelings and heartaches. To know someone used lies to penetrate that further makes me sad, not sad for you, but sad for them. These are clearly people who need the Lord and need you and your words. What a better way to touch their hearts than to be so forgiving and open about getting to know their true self. Thank you for letting me have a piece of your life everyday and giving me faith that anyone in any situation can be touched. It just takes someone like you to do it. Big hugs, Twyla

  • Ashley Turner

    Angie,

    I thought I should introduce myself as well. My name is Ashley. I live in a small town in Virginia with my husband and our cat. We don’t have any children of our own just yet but hope to start a family soon. I don’t remember how I found your blog but when I started reading it I read the whole thing through. Then I read several entries to my husband. Then told all of my family. Your story and your faith are so inspiring to me. I talk to my husband about this blog and the things that you write like you are a personal friend and he thinks it is so funny. I just wanted to introduce myself so that you could know me.

  • Jodi

    *waves hello* Just wanted to formally introduce myself, even though I’ve commented and emailed you a couple of times. I’ve been following your blog since before sweet Audrey was born, and your story – your faith – have inspired me, and continue to do so every day. Sometimes I’ll be in the middle of dealing with something, and I’ll think “How would Angie handle that?” lol I want to be more like you, in the person you are, and in the person you desire to be for God. You truly are an inspiration for many people.

    Click on my name, and you’ll be taken to my blog. It’s newer, but it will give you a small glimpse into my life.

    *hugs and love*

    Jodi

  • Court

    Hi Angie, my name is Courtney, but everyone calls me Court. I’ve been following your blog since you started it. I think you had only or two postings when I began to read about your journey. I can’t honestly remember how I found you, but I sure have been blessed because of it. I’ve shared your blog and Audrey’s story with just about everyone I know :)

    Your heart and life has touched me and ministered to me in so many ways. It has been an honor to walk with you on your journey.

    My husband and I live in Houston, TX and are in the final stages of adoption. We’ve had our journey to building our family. God is good! He is faithful! He has carried us through. I am always encouraged when I read your blog. Thank you for sharing your heart, your life and your family with us.

    We continue to pray for you and your sweet family.

    http://www.thompsonsjourney.blogspot.com

  • Overwhelmed!

    I never post as anonymous. I see no need for it.

    That is so amazing that CoCo sold for so much!

    I need to go read your Father’s Day tribute now.

    By the way, love the new blog design. It’s beautiful!

  • Cheryl Landes

    I have been reading your blog for a few months now and have been praying for you and yours ever since. I so appreciate your sincerity. I have your blog linked off my own under the title “For God’s Glory”. Your words truly bring glory to God, no matter what situation you are faced with. Thank you for being so willing to be open and honest with the world around you. Thank you for living your life before us all so that we could all be drawn closer and closer to Him.

  • abnacy

    Angie, I love reading your blog everyday, but just found it a couple weeks ago. I’ve been praying for your family and hope that God continues to comfort you the way only He can. I’ve passed the blog on to my friend who recently lost their baby son as well. Much love!

  • Kathy

    I started reading your blog a couple weeks ago after someone recommended it to my daughter who had just had her baby at 15 weeks gestation. So small, so precious, so early. I’ve gone back to the very beginning and read your whole blog. You are a great writer and you have many important things to say. May God continue to heal your heart and bless your family.

    From BC Canada

  • Andrea T

    Hi Angie…
    Don’t give up on ur writing, you can not let such a wonderful use of words you have go unspoken! I have been following along with your blogs since the first day I read one and even that day I had to go back to the beginning and read them all! Such appreciation you show for god and what he was given us all along our journey in life. I have always left my name with my comments even my last name being that I know I have no enemies and I have nothing bad to say… I created a blog that I introduces me and my family and hoping to get the hang of it to express my feelings and help me get over some of those rough patches I have endured along my life path. Something I really have never been able to talk about expect to my new love, my husband who i can actually put all my trust in and talk to… I love him for that and he makes it so easy because he tells me things I know he can hardly tell anyone about. I have shared some of these blog stories with him and just drawn us both closer to god and jesus together, and realized how we can make changes in life to better each others life and you have been such a supporter in these changes we have made, even though you don’t know it!

    I have come to love ur family and your motivation you give, check out my blog to meet my family and learn about us as I become more comfortable with blogging. I think you need to click on my name because I have no clue what my blog website address would be.

    Hope you can know us and know that I am real and have such great love for what you have done… I love the Bless This Broken Road song ur hubby’s band has… it is my myspace page song. You can see me at my myspace.com/ann1469 also to see more of the “Taylor Team”.

    Andrea Taylor

  • Bittersweet

    Like many others here, this blog has made me cry, made me laugh, but most importantly, you have taught me what it means to trust God even when it feels like the world is caving in. Thank you for allowing God to use you in such an amazing way.

    Love and blessings,

    Kim

  • Holly

    Yay for the purse and the money raised. You prompted a gift that I gave last night. Did you know that your words might affect a stranger that way? Funny how God works!

    I wrote a post yesterday about some feelings I had on giving a gift (it’s called Unnoticed if you’d like to read it). Then I gave a gift that was costly to me (and yet didn’t cost money that we don’t have). I gave a 90 year old piece of carnival-ware china from my Grandmother to my cousin’s daughter for her wedding shower. I thought of your purse and thought–a gift should cost me something and come from an earnest heart.

    Love your heart!
    holly

  • christi28

    angie,

    i am so sorry to hear about this. it really saddens me to think that someone would do such a thing.

    you truly have a beautiful family that i pray for daily!
    i love to read your posts. i feel that i have just done a devotional after i have read one. i feel closer to God each time and i feel so uplifted. thanks for sharing your heart. it has blessed me.

    one of my dear friends called me a couple of weeks ago in tears saying that she had just spent the day reading your blog which she found a link to on by blog. she was wondering how i knew you. i told her that personaly i didn’t know you but i felt like we have been friends for some time because of your blog. i got to your blog somehow as a prayer request before sweet audrey was born and i have been reading and praying ever since. to make a long story short, her husband went to school with brandon skaggs! small world huh! i am not sure if they new about baby elliot or not but she was happy that she could join in on praying for your family and for the skaggs family. isn’t Jesus just awesome like that?

    i just want you to know what a blessing it is for me to read your words and to be able to pray for someone i have never physically meet. you touch my heart with every word. so thank you sweet friend.

    blessings to you ~

  • JuJu’s Place

    My dear friend just gave me a link to your blog, and I’ve been reading when I could the last few days– thank you for sharing your life- it puts so many things into perspective– may the good Lord continue to be with you– his love shows abundantly through you. God Bless!!

  • Julie

    Dearest Angie,

    My name is Julie Morris, and I, too, have been reading for quite some time but have never introduced myself, nor commented.

    Your story has had such an impact on me in ways that I don’t have words for quite yet.

    I visit your site quite often because I feel welcomed and invited. Thank you for your willingness to be open and honest.

    Blessed by His grace,
    Julie

  • txmomx6

    Hi Angie,
    I’m Janine. A friend shared your blog with me because she thought it might help me in my grief. My wonderful husband died very suddenly 6 months ago. We have 6 amazing children and it’s been so hard to get through the days.
    I can’t imagine the depth of your pain, but I do recognize and identify with the grief you carry.
    I have been blogging about our family since shortly before he died (3 months). It seems to help.
    God is good, even on the days we can’t feel Him.
    Your family is in my prayers,
    Janine

  • Out on a Limb

    Hi Angie,

    I’ve been reading your blog for awhile now. I have often refrained from commenting because I feel like anything I could say would be patronizing. But I want you to know how much of a blessing your writing is to me. I have five children and have suffered four miscarriages. If anything, you helped me to see that it was ok to acknowledge my losses as real and tangible.

    My youngest child is 10 months old now. But her birth was what I refer to as my “healing birth”. With the child before her (#4), I had a traumatic experience which ended in an emergency c-section. God taught me a lot through that experience. All through my pregnancy with #5, I had extreme anxiety about her impending birth. Eventually (and I promise I am getting to the point here..lol), labor did arrive. I have very vivid memories of lying in my bathtub, hands on my belly in prayer, feeling the waves of contractions overcome me. I kept repeating Selah’s version of “It is Well” over and over again. I just remember lying there, listening to Todd’s voice belt out that tune with such conviction and grace…and the tears were rolling down my cheeks. It was an amazing comfort to me. Soon enough we made our way to the hospital where our #5 was ushered into the world. But every time I listen to that song, I am reminded of how God used it to calm the anxiety and fear I had.

    Anyway, I just wanted to share that. As usual, I am impressed with the grace in which you have handled this situation with “anonymous” commenters. You are a true testament to Christ’s love!

    Thanks for your candidness in your writing!

  • Tabaitha Kaye

    Angie, I visit you page daily to see if you posted anything new. I admire your true honesty about everything and your outlook. People need to be real and it’s hard to do that in todays society. Thank you for showing us how to take a negative and still find compassion and love in the midst or hurt.

  • The Lighthouse

    You said you read the book about the wedding rings in college and you kept it all of these years. WOW, I just looked it up and is that not God looking over you even back then he was with you knowing what was in your future. He is really an awsome GOD!! I love your blog and I’m glad I found it. It’s nice to see how God works for good for everyone. God Bless!!!

  • Beth

    I didn’t want to admit this, but I will because I saw someone else do it. I have posted as anonymous several times because I had no idea what my password is. (And in fact, I have tried to post THIS message – unsuccessfully – for the same reason, so if you actually SEE this, you will know that I finally figured it out.)

  • Amanda

    I admit that I’ve followed your blog for a while now and have been amazed at how you have seemed privilaged to avoid ill-intended comments. To be as transparent as you are online, it puts you at risk. Thank you for taking the risk. Thank you for sharing. I cherish every post and I always gain something when I read them. God’s spirit lives in your words and it is not in vain!

  • Rog & Aimee

    Amazing to see just how God is working daily in your life! You and your family are such a blessing! Crazy that you can not know someone but feel like you do! Thanks for being so honest and sharing your heart to those you will never know and some you will one day see.

  • Rog & Aimee

    Amazing to see just how God is working daily in your life! You and your family are such a blessing! Crazy that you can not know someone but feel like you do! Thanks for being so honest and sharing your heart to those you will never know and some you will one day see.

  • Rog & Aimee

    Amazing to see just how God is working daily in your life! You and your family are such a blessing! Crazy that you can not know someone but feel like you do! Thanks for being so honest and sharing your heart to those you will never know and some you will one day see.

  • Rog & Aimee

    Amazing to see just how God is working daily in your life! You and your family are such a blessing! Crazy that you can not know someone but feel like you do! Thanks for being so honest and sharing your heart to those you will never know and some you will one day see.

  • Rog & Aimee

    Amazing to see just how God is working daily in your life! You and your family are such a blessing! Crazy that you can not know someone but feel like you do! Thanks for being so honest and sharing your heart to those you will never know and some you will one day see.

  • Rog & Aimee

    Amazing to see just how God is working daily in your life! You and your family are such a blessing! Crazy that you can not know someone but feel like you do! Thanks for being so honest and sharing your heart to those you will never know and some you will one day see.

  • Rog & Aimee

    Amazing to see just how God is working daily in your life! You and your family are such a blessing! Crazy that you can not know someone but feel like you do! Thanks for being so honest and sharing your heart to those you will never know and some you will one day see.

  • Rog & Aimee

    Amazing to see just how God is working daily in your life! You and your family are such a blessing! Crazy that you can not know someone but feel like you do! Thanks for being so honest and sharing your heart to those you will never know and some you will one day see.

  • Rog & Aimee

    Amazing to see just how God is working daily in your life! You and your family are such a blessing! Crazy that you can not know someone but feel like you do! Thanks for being so honest and sharing your heart to those you will never know and some you will one day see.

  • Rog & Aimee

    Amazing to see just how God is working daily in your life! You and your family are such a blessing! Crazy that you can not know someone but feel like you do! Thanks for being so honest and sharing your heart to those you will never know and some you will one day see.

  • Rog & Aimee

    Amazing to see just how God is working daily in your life! You and your family are such a blessing! Crazy that you can not know someone but feel like you do! Thanks for being so honest and sharing your heart to those you will never know and some you will one day see.

  • Rog & Aimee

    Amazing to see just how God is working daily in your life! You and your family are such a blessing! Crazy that you can not know someone but feel like you do! Thanks for being so honest and sharing your heart to those you will never know and some you will one day see.

  • Rog & Aimee

    Amazing to see just how God is working daily in your life! You and your family are such a blessing! Crazy that you can not know someone but feel like you do! Thanks for being so honest and sharing your heart to those you will never know and some you will one day see.

  • Rog & Aimee

    Amazing to see just how God is working daily in your life! You and your family are such a blessing! Crazy that you can not know someone but feel like you do! Thanks for being so honest and sharing your heart to those you will never know and some you will one day see.

  • Rog & Aimee

    Amazing to see just how God is working daily in your life! You and your family are such a blessing! Crazy that you can not know someone but feel like you do! Thanks for being so honest and sharing your heart to those you will never know and some you will one day see.

  • Rog & Aimee

    Amazing to see just how God is working daily in your life! You and your family are such a blessing! Crazy that you can not know someone but feel like you do! Thanks for being so honest and sharing your heart to those you will never know and some you will one day see.

  • Jessica and Eddie

    I’ve been following your blog now for a while now. This is my fist comment but I do want you to know that I’ve been praying for your family. Your story has touched the lives of so many people. You have inspired me and I will continue to pray for your family.

  • The Browns

    Angie – I have been checking your blog religiously for months now, just before Audrey’s birth. You and your family have been in my prayers since, as well I have told so many of my friends and family about what an awesome mother and woman you are. You are such an inspiration and I look forward to every post! Please know that you are inspiring so many moms to be better Christians, and in hand, better mothers!! – Rachel

  • Ashley

    How amazing that CoCo sold for over $560!!! Praise the Lord.

  • Kelly

    WOW! I can’t imagine completely making up a story especially one so emotional to make an internet connection. Like many others, I have been reading for quite some time and I don’t remember how I found this blog. I do know I have a link to it on my blog and have told many people about your remarkable faith in such a trying time. I have cried many times in my litle cube world in Corporate America for you and your family.

    I’m Kelly, married to Brandon, we have two amazing children-1 girl and 1 boy. Best wishes and may all 319 comments be genuine.

  • McMurrays

    I love your honesty and authenticity and your heart is so refreshing. . . I have been touched by your blog. Thanks for writing it is a blessing in my day.
    Darcy

  • Becca

    Once again your grace and commitment to spreading His love shines through. Thank you for keeping your eyes, thoughts and purpose on Him rather being sidetracked by worldly “happenings” – can’t find the right words, so I hope you understand what I mean. Simply put, you’re a good example of the kind of Christian woman I want to be.

    Peace and Hugs,
    Becca

  • Lindsey

    angie,
    i feel so blessed to have come across your blog from a friend of a friend. you are such an inspiration and an wonderful example of a woman of God! thank you for sharing each day you write soooo beautifully! have you thought of writing a book?! if not, you should! i think God has brought your blog to me for some reason……only He will tell me in His time! God bless you and your family….you are in my prayers! Love!

  • The Epps Family

    Angie, I read but have yet to comment. You know, there are a lot of people out there reaching for something they can’t quite grasp, and even through their dishonesty, YOU reached them! Hang in there– you are special!

  • The Dixie Six

    Angie,
    I have been following your blog for the last two months. you are such a strong and amazing person. I read your last post and I can’t believe that people can take advantage of others that way. You handled the situation with the utmost dignity. You are such an awesome example of faith and love that anyone would want to look up to. Best wishes to you and your family.
    Robyne

  • Nicki

    I am so sorry this happend to you. I’m very surprised…….well, maybe not. I know there are some crazy people out there but I’m sad that you started to bond and grow and pray for lies. I think it must happen a lot in this little world of blogging. I didn’t allow any anon comments for a long time due to a very rude one I got at first, but I have recently allowed it again, but you do have to be careful!

    ps- That’s AWESOME about Co co!! How cool but you’re right the other sellers must be like HUH??? I wonder how many people saw how high your bid got and put their poor purses up there in hopes for a bid like you got!!! =)

  • MAC5

    Okay I am not so computer savy. I hope that the anonymous posts were not mine, because I do care and I do pray for you and I am just not technologically up to date, but I think I created a blog??? I hope so. I have prayed for you since we cruised together with Kathy T back in Feb. God brings you to mind often and in what seem like random ways, I know better though. I hope this works.
    Dee

  • Aimee

    Angie, you made me into a blogger! I just had to set up an account because I faithfully read your blog and I do like to comment. I have wanted to set one up for a while, but I was convinced that it would be difficult to set up, post pics, post videos, etc. Well, I’ve got the first part done. Now I just have to post! Anyway, I wanted to say that your blog is a blessing in my life. I know that it often must be difficult to write, and I thank you for sharing your heart and your writing with everyone. OK, time to figure out how to post!

  • Jantiva

    ok Angie, you’ve inspired me to become a “blogger”. :) I left one comment for you awhile back under “Anonymous” so if I ever want to leave you another comment I decided I would have to set up an account and who knows? I may actually enjoy blogging. Thanks for yours! I check it daily and you inspire me greatly!

  • Rissa Mendes

    Angie.. Thanks for stopping by my blog… There’s not much on there yet.. but its a work in progress..Still trying to figure out that HTML edit stuff LOL… But praying you & your family had a wonderful Day today.. Praying Blessings to be rained down on all of you..
    Love,
    Rissa

  • IamDerby

    Angie… I enjoy your blog so much. i am in awe of your faith everyday because I am so often without mine. I wish you peace.

  • Jess

    Angie,
    I have been visiting your blog for about 2 months or more now and all I can say is: Girl, you have got the most genuine sweet gentle heart-string tugging honest girls I have had the honor of getting to know. I just want to thank you for being so transparent and ‘raw’ (at times) with us, your readers. I, along with all the others, have been so touched by your spirit and your words.
    Thank you and may God’s blessings spill out onto you and your family after all you’ve endured this year.

    ~Jessica S.

  • Mark and Niki

    Hi Angie,
    My name is Niki. I have visited your blog a number of times, but have never left a comment. However God has used you tonight in a way I may never be able to explain. I found your blog through Hannah’s Prayer Ministries (http://www.hannah.org)a forum for christian women experiencing infertility and/or pregnancy and infant loss. My husband and I have been trying to conceive for 5 years. 15 months ago we got news that we were pregnant, only to miscarry just 2 weeks later. We also lost more precious children we received through embryo adoption, in a failed fertlity treatment earlier this year. Our situations are very different, and my heart breaks for what you have gone through in this season. I’m so very sorry for your losses. Thank you for sharing your heart so openly. You have shown HIS light.

  • utahsweeney

    Dear Angie,
    I have followed your blog for a couple of months and have read the majority of your journey. What touched me most recently (aside from Luke) is when you smashed the pitcher and God told you to put it back together again. Oh, how sweet is God? I have never been through such pain in my life, but feeling a touch of yours makes me pray more, yell less and hug tighter. Thank you for sharing your life with us.
    Nice to meet you.
    Laurie

  • Eva Foster

    Angie, I am addicted to your blog and your story. I share it all the time and have a link to you on my blog. You have such a beautiful family. My heart goes out to you for all you have had to endure. You are always in my prayers. I am disturbed though about those that were “fake.” Many Blessings, Eva

  • goldengirls

    My name is Barb and I recently found your post. I enjoy your writing and appreciate your honesty and insightful writing. The pictures of your family are beautiful. Your husband looked familiar to me and when you mentioned Selah at one point I remembered that he is the group we had been listening to for a while. We have really enjoyed his music, especially the African song on one of the albums. My kids loved to sing to it and felt so proud that they knew Swahili! (I think that is the language!) Anyway, I really enjoy your blog and will continue to pray for you and your family and your testimony to shine through at this time.

  • Kelly

    Hi there, I guess I will come out of hiding too! First off, a quick intro. My name is Kelly and I too recently lost a daughter. Most of the story is on my blog, fivezikes.blogspot.com. Beware, I was not blessed with the awesome writing skills that you obviously were. My heart has ached with and for both your family and baby Luke’s. Thank you for being such an inspiration to so many of us each and every day. You are an amazing woman. (CoCo is proof of that)
    Wishing you peace and light, Kelly

  • Sue

    Hi Angie,

    I posted last night but I just wanted to say hello again. When I came to your blog and saw that you had not posted I became a little concerned that the unkind and unhonest comments might make you less likely to want to post.. Please do not stop sharing with all of us.

    I agree with the person who commented and said that if you put these posts in a book, I would buy them and hand them out to everyone I know…What great presents they would make for my friends.

    I am Sue. My husband, Pete and I have been married for 26 years. We have 4 children ranging in ages from 24 to 10. We live in a suburb of Buffalo NY. I really enjoy Selah’s Music and even have their songs as my ringtones and wake up call on my cell phone! And I have been praying for you Todd, Ellie, Abby and Kate everyday since first reading your blog in January.

    Thanks for caring to know who I am.

    Hope to hear from you again soon.

    Sue

  • HeatherSpratt

    Hi Angie!

    I’ve emailed you privately but just now figured out that I could leave a comment…hmmm…better late than never I suppose. :)

    Anyway, I just wanted to say hi and let you know that I’m still praying. I also wanted to share one of my favorite quotes with you. I’m a collector of quotes and I just love this one! I think it really applies…you are letting your light shine and in doing so inspiring all of us to do the same! Thank you for being authentic.

    “Our deepest fear is NOT that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn’t serve the world. There’s nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We are born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us, it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
    -Marianne Williamson

    Hugs to you,
    Heather

  • HeatherSpratt

    Hi Angie,

    I’ve emailed you a few times but never left a comment before. I just wanted to let you know that I’m still praying for you and your family.

    I also wanted to share one of my favorite quotes. I’m a collector of quotes and I just LOVE this one! It reminds me of you and your blog…you are letting your light shine through your grief and in doing so, you inspire all of us to do the same. Thank you for sharing.

    “Our deepest fear is NOT that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn’t serve the world. There’s nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We are born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us, it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
    -Marianne Williamson

    Hugs to you,
    Heather Spratt

  • stacey

    Hi Angie, I am Stacey from Colorado. I too have an Ellie, but also a Clay and Drew. I check your blog daily, you are a constant source of inspiration for me. Thank You!

  • dr. Bray

    I guess I missed what happened, but I can’t believe people would pretend to be someone else. I guess I could…it happens daily unfortunately, but why on here? You and your family seem so sweet and there is no reason for that. I have written once or twice and I have my Dr. appt. tomorrow, I am almost 17 weeks now and I have to start getting weekly shots of progesterine(?). I am not feeling so well and I read your words as inspiration because that 18 week mark from last year when I lost my son is very close now. I laughed at your other post that talked about walking on eggshells because that is the theme of my blog. Take care and please keep writing.

  • SG

    I have been reading for awhile and never commented. I want to add my voice to the chorus of those telling you that your walk and your writing about it here have touched me and inspired me in my walk. I too have treated God like a jilted bride. So afraid to trust him for fear he would let me down. Just reading that someone else has felt that way and come through it to love and trust even in the “worse” part is so inspirational. Thanks for sharing Angie!

  • Erin

    Angie,
    I am a frequent lurker of your blog. I am so touched by your story. You have a very sweet spirit, and I appreciate the freshness with which you write.

    I sent you an e-mail today asking you to join me in prayer for a friend of mine fighting to keep her unborn baby alive. I just wanted you to know it came from me.

    Peace and joy to you this day!
    Erin

  • Wade’s World

    I’ve posted comments before, but we’ve never been formally introduced :)

    I am Amy, Jeremy’s wife, Jackson’s mother, and one of your loyal readers. Thanks so much for allowing us a glimpse into your life, and for letting us walk through your journey with you.

    You have been a blessing to me and my family!

  • Jenny

    Hi Angie, Your blog has been such a blessing to me. You are open and honest, and you have such a beautiful spirit about you. You are definitely someone I would seek out as a friend. I don’t post to my blog very often because I find it hard to get my thoughts out cohesively. :) But, feel free to stop by anytime. I promise to be real and not pretend to be something I am not. I just want you to know that I think of you guys and pray for you often. Thank you for sharing your life with us!

  • Stephanie

    Hi!~ my name is Stephanie and I read your blog. I’ve never commented before.
    I too am a loss mom.
    Our daughter Amanda Joy was stillbornat 31 weeks on March 2. 2000. She should be 8 now.
    Anyway, I just wanted to reach out and let you know that I’m reading and I’m here for you.
    My blog is private (the one I actually blog on, is on Live Journal) or else I’d invite you over! haha, you probably have a million blogs to read already.
    I found you thru another of my lossmom friends on LJ, she posted the link to your blog, and now you are on my google reader, to read!!
    God bless you!!!
    Stephanie

  • kris

    Thank you for continuing to share your story and heart with all of us.

    You are amazing- I am constantly in awe of how God continues to mold you, and reach all of us through you.

  • Laura

    Hi!

    Just to let you know, I am one of the “anonymous” posters to your blog. I did so at the time because I couldn’t figure out how to do otherwise-I am way low on the literacy with computers scale. So now I will try to end with my name.

    I assure you, my post was “real”- no way I could have imagined my life since July 3, 2001. I have had five miscarriages-the last being back in December 2007, and two living children.

    My due date was early August, though because of my history of C-sections, the baby would have been born in July of this year. I have had to watch several women in our church be pregnant with and deliver their children this spring. It stings, because at 41 I see that I may never have that privilege again.

    So, hoping I can post this tonight, I am

    Laura

  • smileysk8

    Hi Angie,
    My name is Holly (from TX) and I have read your blog for months now. I have shed many tears while reading your blog updates and prayed for your family. I feel like I know you as a dear friend. God bless!
    ~Holly <><

    p.s. My blog is also linked to this message.

  • Tara Smith

    Just found your blog today. Lots of catch-up reading to do!

  • scrap&cruznaholic

    Angie,

    What is our world coming to? It makes me feel very disappointed that people would take advantage of you & your sweet spirit! You are a vessel sent from God & you are helping others through HIM. Some people just need to grow up & think about others & what they are saying & doing!

    So, that is why the anonymous is gone from the post site!

    I’m here, this is all there is, just me….no one fancy, just me! I am a God-loving, people caring, baby loving, scrapbooking, cruzin’ loving, loving people, person. I’m not special, but I’m here. I have narrow shoulders, but they are here for anyone at anytime that needs to talk. I don’t have the answers, only God does, but I have two ears & I have one heart that loves to help others.

    I feel sorry for people who don’t know how to love others. My hope is that they will remember your words of hope and honesty as they go about their day.

    I’m 54 years worth of real, Angie. I will not try to make you think I am someone that I am not.

    Your secret-saintly-sister, Rose in Nashville

  • scrap&cruznaholic

    Angie,

    What is our world coming to? It makes me feel very disappointed that people would take advantage of you & your sweet spirit! You are a vessel sent from God & you are helping others through HIM. Some people just need to grow up & think about others & what they are saying & doing!

    So, that is why the anonymous is gone from the post site!

    I’m here, this is all there is, just me….no one fancy, just me! I am a God-loving, people caring, baby loving, scrapbooking, cruzin’ loving, loving people, person. I’m not special, but I’m here. I have narrow shoulders, but they are here for anyone at anytime that needs to talk. I don’t have the answers, only God does, but I have two ears & I have one heart that loves to help others.

    I feel sorry for people who don’t know how to love others. My hope is that they will remember your words of hope and honesty as they go about their day.

    I’m 54 years worth of real, Angie. I will not try to make you think I am someone that I am not.

    Your secret-saintly-sister, Rose in Nashville

  • scrap&cruznaholic

    Angie,

    What is our world coming to? It makes me feel very disappointed that people would take advantage of you & your sweet spirit! You are a vessel sent from God & you are helping others through HIM. Some people just need to grow up & think about others & what they are saying & doing!

    So, that is why the anonymous is gone from the post site!

    I’m here, this is all there is, just me….no one fancy, just me! I am a God-loving, people caring, baby loving, scrapbooking, cruzin’ loving, loving people, person. I’m not special, but I’m here. I have narrow shoulders, but they are here for anyone at anytime that needs to talk. I don’t have the answers, only God does, but I have two ears & I have one heart that loves to help others.

    I feel sorry for people who don’t know how to love others. My hope is that they will remember your words of hope and honesty as they go about their day.

    I’m 54 years worth of real, Angie. I will not try to make you think I am someone that I am not.

    Your secret-saintly-sister, Rose in Nashville

  • scrap&cruznaholic

    Angie,

    What is our world coming to? It makes me feel very disappointed that people would take advantage of you & your sweet spirit! You are a vessel sent from God & you are helping others through HIM. Some people just need to grow up & think about others & what they are saying & doing!

    So, that is why the anonymous is gone from the post site!

    I’m here, this is all there is, just me….no one fancy, just me! I am a God-loving, people caring, baby loving, scrapbooking, cruzin’ loving, loving people, person. I’m not special, but I’m here. I have narrow shoulders, but they are here for anyone at anytime that needs to talk. I don’t have the answers, only God does, but I have two ears & I have one heart that loves to help others.

    I feel sorry for people who don’t know how to love others. My hope is that they will remember your words of hope and honesty as they go about their day.

    I’m 54 years worth of real, Angie. I will not try to make you think I am someone that I am not.

    Your secret-saintly-sister, Rose in Nashville

  • scrap&cruznaholic

    Angie,

    What is our world coming to? It makes me feel very disappointed that people would take advantage of you & your sweet spirit! You are a vessel sent from God & you are helping others through HIM. Some people just need to grow up & think about others & what they are saying & doing!

    So, that is why the anonymous is gone from the post site!

    I’m here, this is all there is, just me….no one fancy, just me! I am a God-loving, people caring, baby loving, scrapbooking, cruzin’ loving, loving people, person. I’m not special, but I’m here. I have narrow shoulders, but they are here for anyone at anytime that needs to talk. I don’t have the answers, only God does, but I have two ears & I have one heart that loves to help others.

    I feel sorry for people who don’t know how to love others. My hope is that they will remember your words of hope and honesty as they go about their day.

    I’m 54 years worth of real, Angie. I will not try to make you think I am someone that I am not.

    Your secret-saintly-sister, Rose in Nashville

  • scrap&cruznaholic

    Angie,

    What is our world coming to? It makes me feel very disappointed that people would take advantage of you & your sweet spirit! You are a vessel sent from God & you are helping others through HIM. Some people just need to grow up & think about others & what they are saying & doing!

    So, that is why the anonymous is gone from the post site!

    I’m here, this is all there is, just me….no one fancy, just me! I am a God-loving, people caring, baby loving, scrapbooking, cruzin’ loving, loving people, person. I’m not special, but I’m here. I have narrow shoulders, but they are here for anyone at anytime that needs to talk. I don’t have the answers, only God does, but I have two ears & I have one heart that loves to help others.

    I feel sorry for people who don’t know how to love others. My hope is that they will remember your words of hope and honesty as they go about their day.

    I’m 54 years worth of real, Angie. I will not try to make you think I am someone that I am not.

    Your secret-saintly-sister, Rose in Nashville

  • scrap&cruznaholic

    Angie,

    What is our world coming to? It makes me feel very disappointed that people would take advantage of you & your sweet spirit! You are a vessel sent from God & you are helping others through HIM. Some people just need to grow up & think about others & what they are saying & doing!

    So, that is why the anonymous is gone from the post site!

    I’m here, this is all there is, just me….no one fancy, just me! I am a God-loving, people caring, baby loving, scrapbooking, cruzin’ loving, loving people, person. I’m not special, but I’m here. I have narrow shoulders, but they are here for anyone at anytime that needs to talk. I don’t have the answers, only God does, but I have two ears & I have one heart that loves to help others.

    I feel sorry for people who don’t know how to love others. My hope is that they will remember your words of hope and honesty as they go about their day.

    I’m 54 years worth of real, Angie. I will not try to make you think I am someone that I am not.

    Your secret-saintly-sister, Rose in Nashville

  • scrap&cruznaholic

    Angie,

    What is our world coming to? It makes me feel very disappointed that people would take advantage of you & your sweet spirit! You are a vessel sent from God & you are helping others through HIM. Some people just need to grow up & think about others & what they are saying & doing!

    So, that is why the anonymous is gone from the post site!

    I’m here, this is all there is, just me….no one fancy, just me! I am a God-loving, people caring, baby loving, scrapbooking, cruzin’ loving, loving people, person. I’m not special, but I’m here. I have narrow shoulders, but they are here for anyone at anytime that needs to talk. I don’t have the answers, only God does, but I have two ears & I have one heart that loves to help others.

    I feel sorry for people who don’t know how to love others. My hope is that they will remember your words of hope and honesty as they go about their day.

    I’m 54 years worth of real, Angie. I will not try to make you think I am someone that I am not.

    Your secret-saintly-sister, Rose in Nashville

  • scrap&cruznaholic

    Angie,

    What is our world coming to? It makes me feel very disappointed that people would take advantage of you & your sweet spirit! You are a vessel sent from God & you are helping others through HIM. Some people just need to grow up & think about others & what they are saying & doing!

    So, that is why the anonymous is gone from the post site!

    I’m here, this is all there is, just me….no one fancy, just me! I am a God-loving, people caring, baby loving, scrapbooking, cruzin’ loving, loving people, person. I’m not special, but I’m here. I have narrow shoulders, but they are here for anyone at anytime that needs to talk. I don’t have the answers, only God does, but I have two ears & I have one heart that loves to help others.

    I feel sorry for people who don’t know how to love others. My hope is that they will remember your words of hope and honesty as they go about their day.

    I’m 54 years worth of real, Angie. I will not try to make you think I am someone that I am not.

    Your secret-saintly-sister, Rose in Nashville

  • scrap&cruznaholic

    Angie,

    What is our world coming to? It makes me feel very disappointed that people would take advantage of you & your sweet spirit! You are a vessel sent from God & you are helping others through HIM. Some people just need to grow up & think about others & what they are saying & doing!

    So, that is why the anonymous is gone from the post site!

    I’m here, this is all there is, just me….no one fancy, just me! I am a God-loving, people caring, baby loving, scrapbooking, cruzin’ loving, loving people, person. I’m not special, but I’m here. I have narrow shoulders, but they are here for anyone at anytime that needs to talk. I don’t have the answers, only God does, but I have two ears & I have one heart that loves to help others.

    I feel sorry for people who don’t know how to love others. My hope is that they will remember your words of hope and honesty as they go about their day.

    I’m 54 years worth of real, Angie. I will not try to make you think I am someone that I am not.

    Your secret-saintly-sister, Rose in Nashville

  • scrap&cruznaholic

    Angie,

    What is our world coming to? It makes me feel very disappointed that people would take advantage of you & your sweet spirit! You are a vessel sent from God & you are helping others through HIM. Some people just need to grow up & think about others & what they are saying & doing!

    So, that is why the anonymous is gone from the post site!

    I’m here, this is all there is, just me….no one fancy, just me! I am a God-loving, people caring, baby loving, scrapbooking, cruzin’ loving, loving people, person. I’m not special, but I’m here. I have narrow shoulders, but they are here for anyone at anytime that needs to talk. I don’t have the answers, only God does, but I have two ears & I have one heart that loves to help others.

    I feel sorry for people who don’t know how to love others. My hope is that they will remember your words of hope and honesty as they go about their day.

    I’m 54 years worth of real, Angie. I will not try to make you think I am someone that I am not.

    Your secret-saintly-sister, Rose in Nashville

  • scrap&cruznaholic

    Angie,

    What is our world coming to? It makes me feel very disappointed that people would take advantage of you & your sweet spirit! You are a vessel sent from God & you are helping others through HIM. Some people just need to grow up & think about others & what they are saying & doing!

    So, that is why the anonymous is gone from the post site!

    I’m here, this is all there is, just me….no one fancy, just me! I am a God-loving, people caring, baby loving, scrapbooking, cruzin’ loving, loving people, person. I’m not special, but I’m here. I have narrow shoulders, but they are here for anyone at anytime that needs to talk. I don’t have the answers, only God does, but I have two ears & I have one heart that loves to help others.

    I feel sorry for people who don’t know how to love others. My hope is that they will remember your words of hope and honesty as they go about their day.

    I’m 54 years worth of real, Angie. I will not try to make you think I am someone that I am not.

    Your secret-saintly-sister, Rose in Nashville

  • scrap&cruznaholic

    Angie,

    What is our world coming to? It makes me feel very disappointed that people would take advantage of you & your sweet spirit! You are a vessel sent from God & you are helping others through HIM. Some people just need to grow up & think about others & what they are saying & doing!

    So, that is why the anonymous is gone from the post site!

    I’m here, this is all there is, just me….no one fancy, just me! I am a God-loving, people caring, baby loving, scrapbooking, cruzin’ loving, loving people, person. I’m not special, but I’m here. I have narrow shoulders, but they are here for anyone at anytime that needs to talk. I don’t have the answers, only God does, but I have two ears & I have one heart that loves to help others.

    I feel sorry for people who don’t know how to love others. My hope is that they will remember your words of hope and honesty as they go about their day.

    I’m 54 years worth of real, Angie. I will not try to make you think I am someone that I am not.

    Your secret-saintly-sister, Rose in Nashville

  • scrap&cruznaholic

    Angie,

    What is our world coming to? It makes me feel very disappointed that people would take advantage of you & your sweet spirit! You are a vessel sent from God & you are helping others through HIM. Some people just need to grow up & think about others & what they are saying & doing!

    So, that is why the anonymous is gone from the post site!

    I’m here, this is all there is, just me….no one fancy, just me! I am a God-loving, people caring, baby loving, scrapbooking, cruzin’ loving, loving people, person. I’m not special, but I’m here. I have narrow shoulders, but they are here for anyone at anytime that needs to talk. I don’t have the answers, only God does, but I have two ears & I have one heart that loves to help others.

    I feel sorry for people who don’t know how to love others. My hope is that they will remember your words of hope and honesty as they go about their day.

    I’m 54 years worth of real, Angie. I will not try to make you think I am someone that I am not.

    Your secret-saintly-sister, Rose in Nashville

  • scrap&cruznaholic

    Angie,

    What is our world coming to? It makes me feel very disappointed that people would take advantage of you & your sweet spirit! You are a vessel sent from God & you are helping others through HIM. Some people just need to grow up & think about others & what they are saying & doing!

    So, that is why the anonymous is gone from the post site!

    I’m here, this is all there is, just me….no one fancy, just me! I am a God-loving, people caring, baby loving, scrapbooking, cruzin’ loving, loving people, person. I’m not special, but I’m here. I have narrow shoulders, but they are here for anyone at anytime that needs to talk. I don’t have the answers, only God does, but I have two ears & I have one heart that loves to help others.

    I feel sorry for people who don’t know how to love others. My hope is that they will remember your words of hope and honesty as they go about their day.

    I’m 54 years worth of real, Angie. I will not try to make you think I am someone that I am not.

    Your secret-saintly-sister, Rose in Nashville

  • scrap&cruznaholic

    Angie,

    What is our world coming to? It makes me feel very disappointed that people would take advantage of you & your sweet spirit! You are a vessel sent from God & you are helping others through HIM. Some people just need to grow up & think about others & what they are saying & doing!

    So, that is why the anonymous is gone from the post site!

    I’m here, this is all there is, just me….no one fancy, just me! I am a God-loving, people caring, baby loving, scrapbooking, cruzin’ loving, loving people, person. I’m not special, but I’m here. I have narrow shoulders, but they are here for anyone at anytime that needs to talk. I don’t have the answers, only God does, but I have two ears & I have one heart that loves to help others.

    I feel sorry for people who don’t know how to love others. My hope is that they will remember your words of hope and honesty as they go about their day.

    I’m 54 years worth of real, Angie. I will not try to make you think I am someone that I am not.

    Your secret-saintly-sister, Rose in Nashville

  • Daniyel

    Hi Angie – your blog is so inspiring and I do feel like we are friends even though we’ve never met. Todd and I attended High School together and his family has always been a blessing as missionaries on our mission board at our church. I am a new mom with an 11 month old baby boy and I pray for you all the time and am touched by your testimony and strength. When I first read your blog, it inspired me to start my own http://www.greysonreed.blogspot.com because I love him with a love I’ve never known. Reading your thoughts and words, I think have made me cherish every single moment with him and not take a second for granted and I thank you for that.

    God bless you and your family!
    Daniyel Clark (formerly Marine)

  • rrturner4

    I have been reading your blog for some time now but have not posted. I feel your pain. I lost my son Kirk 11 years ago. I still wonder would he look like my girls? Would he love golf and football like his daddy? The pain has changed but it will always remain. I pray for you and with you. God will see you through!

  • lori

    And look I am comment 350 something. of people who are glad to get to know you!!

    Congrats on the purse, and I bet you are right about others selling the same purse, how funny

  • mom 2 many

    Hi Angie~
    If you get to this comment, you are even more amazing than I though! That is a lot of comments to get through ;-) Thought I’d say Hi. I read your blog, but rarely comment. It is touching that you open up here and are willing to share with the world. I am sorry that some took advantage. Please keep posting. You are worth reading daily!! I have emailed you personally, too!
    Blessings…

  • The 311 Boys Mom

    I love to read you; I’m very sorry that people lied to you about who they were or their situations……its’ so crazy that they’d even consider that…..

  • Jamita

    So, you want to get to know your readers? Ok, I read your blog daily and am certainly inspired by your words and faith. Here’s my blog, it’s not as good as yours, but will let you see who this reader is. Thanks for sharing your life.

    http://www.cowartfam.blogspot.com

    Jami in Knoxville, TN.

  • Aunt Rhody

    Angie, thanks for the “backstory” on the twins. I love that your family names are also in our family–Ellie, Anna, Gracie. I don’t read your blog daily, but think of you daily and ask God to continue His healing in you and your family. I want to thank Selah for the gift of their music. It has been such a blessing to me over the past year, and I have given credit often in my posts. If I need to do so differently, please tell me how to better credit the music and lyrics. Thank you, as wife and mother, for allowing your husband to travel in ministry. I know that you pay a price to do so. Love and blessings of favor to you.

  • Leilanni

    De-lurking here :-) Many tears have been shed and many prayers offered on your behalf over here. God is up to something big with you – thanks for sharing it with us.

  • Mindy

    My name is Mindy. I have been reading your blog for a few months now. I am a fellow sister in Christ and am encouraged and blessed by your faith. I feel like I know you and love you! Thank you for your transparency! You are being used by the Lord in a mighty way!
    Ecclesiastes 7:2-4

  • Brittany

    I’ve been following your blog for quite a while now, but like many others, I haven’t a comment until now. Thank you for being so open with your journey and for letting us share in this journey with you! Praying for you!

    Brittany

  • Kimber

    Angie,

    I found your blog the week that you had Audrey Caroline (not sure how) and I have been touched and inspired by your always unwavering faith. I think you have certainly helped me along in my faith journey. I love how human you are yet how faithful you are.

    I have a blog too and I have actually experienced what you refer to here as well. People have pretended to e someone or something to forge a relationship or they have left comments under other identities. Someone actually impersonated someone I knew. I handled it with what I thought was grace and forgiveness but I did not invite them back into my life and reading this. They were “strangers” and I was afraid to give them a chance again. Your post made me humbly realize that forgiveness wasn’t really enough. I never even thought to give them another chance —to invite them to show me who they REALLY were. Thank you for showing me another more Christian way.

    I am inspired by your ways and I pray for your family.

    Blessings,

    Kim

  • MEGAN

    Thanks for sharing your story! I am blessed by it.

  • Chris

    Angie,
    I stumbled onto your blog a couple of months ago and I just want you to know that the Lord has used your words to bless and work on this stubborn daughter! ;)
    Thank you so much for sharing your heart with us.
    Sincerely,
    Jamie

  • 3 Kids and Us

    It has taken me quite some time to find the words to post a comment on your blog. I still probably don’t have them but feel like I should. I’ve been reading your blog for a few months now.

    When I first stumbled upon it, I sobbed for hours, my poor husband couldn’t for the life of him figure out what was wrong with me, he probably thought I was pregnant again..ha…that came later.

    But the truth is, reading your blog brought up so many memories for me that are too painful to think about most days. I lost my son at 26 weeks before I even got to meet him. This was 7 years ago and I wish it didn’t but it hurts as much today as it did then.

    I’ve never truly admitted to anyone what I’m going to tell you…but I need you to know how you’ve touched me. When I was in the hospital waiting to hear the fait of my son, I prayed so many times that the doctor was just inexperienced, that my baby was just hiding his little heartbeat from us….I prayed for everything to be okay, not perfect…just okay. When the doctor told me my son was dead I felt such hatred and resent towards God. I felt like he stole my son from me. I lost my faith and have turned my back on it to this day.

    Reading your words, your love for God even though you’ve lost your daughter, amazes me. I think to myself, how can she be thankful to a God that allowed her daughter to die? But in my heart, I know it was God’s fault, or yours…it was life. With life comes death, giving it true meaning. Today I prayed for the first time in almost 8 years…not for myself…or my baby I lost, or even the little person I have growing inside me now…but for you and your family. I just wanted you to know that your words have brought back a little piece of God to my heart, not fully, but it’s a start.

  • Jamie

    Thanks for sharing your heart with us. I am sorry that I do not comment more often than I do.

    Praying that you have a beautiful Friday afternoon!

  • notevenatshirt vb

    Hi Angie! :) My name is Veronica and I am coming out of lurking mode in order to let you get to know me better. I have lived in northern Ohio all of my life and am getting ready to relocate to Dayton, Oh in a week–it’s very stressful and scary to do that! My friends are all down there so it will make it a little easier. I am married to Scott and I have four children ages 7-16. I’m a registered nurse, Christian and blogger. :) I have been praying for your family since I learned about your situation. You’re a beautiful person and also writer–thank you for sharing your life with us. I’ve done the same through some pretty horrible tragedies and it has been the best therapy ever. Not to mention the women that just come out of the walls to support other women! That’s what the world is all about–women taking care of women…they are the salt of the earth.

  • annonymous

    Are you need help to solve your infertility problem or to get pregnant? contact Priest Hallifat shrine on this email (lifecentre@live.com) I am Clinton Martha from london, I have been trying for eyears to get pregnant and needed help! i have Been going to the doctors but still nothing. The doctor said that me and my husband are fine and I don’t know where else to turn. Until one day my friend introduce me to this Africa voodoo specialist who helped her to get back her lost husband back with love spell and also made her pregnant, So I decided to contact this spell caster Priest Hallifat on his email (lifecentre@live.com) after interaction with him he instructed me on what to do, after then i should have sex with the my husband or any man I love in this world, And i did so, within the next one months i went for a check up and my doctor confirmed that i am 2weeks pregnant of two babies. I am so happy!! if you also need help to get pregnant or need your ex back please contact his email address: lifecentre@live.com , I am now a mother of twins.

    He will also do it for you. THANKS.