Memorial Service

Hello all.
Just wanted to keep you informed on Luke’s memorial service.  Visitation will be held tomorrow (6/2) from 2- 3 pm with memorial service following. Visitors are welcome and encouraged at both. The address is:
Grove Level Baptist Church
2802 Cleveland Hwy
Dalton, GA 30720
In lieu of flowers, please make donations to:
The Luke Sponberg Foundation
1209 Cleveland Rd. #198
Dalton, GA 30721
*Nicol and Greg are in the process of setting up Luke’s foundation…until further notice, please make checks out to Greg personally, as we are not sure when paperwork will be completed.  I will follow-up with details when they become available.
Also, I cannot tell you how much it meant to us to receive cards and words of love from you all. I would love for Greg, Nicol and Summer to have the same experience, so if you feel led, please send anything you would like to the above address.  We have saved all of ours, and treasure them so much…
I am so sorry about the impersonal nature of this post…I wanted to pass along this information, but don’t have time right now to say more.  I will try to post again later.  In the meantime, please keep praying…the last 2 days have been really difficult for Greg and Nicol.
You are more than welcome to join us tomorrow to celebrate Luke’s life andhelp us show our support for the Sponbergs.
With much love and many thanks,
Angie

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  • Stephanie Spence

    I hope that the coming days will bring your family continued peace. I’m still praying for you.

  • Mattam

    I will be praying for all of you tomorrow :-) God be with you.

  • Anonymous

    When I came for an update, I noticed that there was an “error” on the first few songs…and the first song to play was “Glory Baby” by Watermark. How sweetly appropriate, and it gave my goosebumps to hear the words “Let Jesus hold you, until mommy and daddy can hold you…” My heart is breaking for all of you and I can’t imagine the pain you are feeling, because I can’t even think about Luke and Audrey without crying, and I am a stranger! If only we had an indide scoop on God’s plan…. You are constantly in my prayers!
    Love, YSiC,
    Carrie in Elkhart, IN

  • Anonymous

    I will fevently be praying in the next few days for Nicol and Greg as well as for you and Todd and your extended families.

  • krista

    With my Auntie Vicki and Uncle Deryle being so busy with everything-I have been keeping your blog as my lifeline to the goings on-thank you Angie, it truly means so much to me and my family. Your words are so special and meaningful-please hug everyone for me.

  • valerie

    I will not be able to be there since I live in Oklahoma, but will be praying and will be with you all in spirit.
    I can’t even imagine how difficult this is for you & your family.
    I just keep praying that God will bathe you all with a peace that passeth all understanding & that you will feel His presence & his loving arms wrapped around you.
    Love & God bless,
    Valerie

  • Jess :)

    Oh how I wish I could be there with everyone. Please know that my prayers will continue to be with you and the rest of the family. I’m sending lots of love and hugs!

    Until the day we meet ~

    Love always,
    Jess :)

  • Faith

    I’m continuing to lift your entire family up in prayer. I wanted to share something I read this morning in my Beth Moore devotional…This reminded me of you and some of the things you have been talking about recently…”God hears the words and communications of our minds as clearly as human ears hear our spoken words. – Help me trust in You at all times; help me to pour out my heart to You, God, for You are my refuge. (Ps. 62:8) O Lord, help me not be afraid to speak to You what’s on my heart. Your Word says You know my thoughts and my actions, and You know what I’m going to say before a word forms on my tongue (Ps. 139:1-4) You will never be offended when I pour out the earnest despair and bitterness that wells in my heart. You desire for me to cry out in my agony, and You can take my feelings of anger, dismay, and confusion. In pouring my heart out to You, I rid myself of soul-cancerous bitterness. I also make room for You to pour in Your healing.”

    I pray that you all would experience God’s healing as He pours it out in your lives. Praying for you all tomorrow. Love in Jesus, Faith

  • Connie@Little Red Hearts From God

    I live very close to Dalton…My thoughts and prayers are with you all..You are teaching me so much..

    when you get to a point that you can talk… I would like to talk to you..

    I work with Hospice and we are about to start working with families such as your self…taking on children.. and newborns…as mentioned before.. I have been a contributor to NILMDTS but it’s interesting to see how God is laying down the path in such a way as this…

    I would love for you to share with me how as a nurse… we could help bring healing, help and hope to families…

    God bless you

    fishnparrots@comcast.net

    Connie

  • touchofglory

    I have a son named Lucas, but we call him Lukie all the time. He just turned 4. When I read your words, I can’t help but think about how it would have felt to have had to let go of my little Lukie after such a short time. My heart aches for Greg and Nicol and your whole family.

    As a nurse, I recently helped to care for a two month old little boy who died with SIDS. I tried to comfort his parents through my own tears, knowing that I would have crumbled had I been in their shoes.

    Although I’ve followed your blog for some time now, I was sharing your story with my husband today. I appreciate so much the way you have shared your life so openly with us all. You are helping so many people in ways that you may never know. I feel like I know you, and as your sister in Christ, I love you! Your family remains in my thoughts and prayers daily. If I never meet you this side of heaven, I can’t wait to see you there and give you a great big hug!
    Melissa H.

  • Anonymous

    Oh geez….this is just so awful. I state that followed by my true and unwavering belief that “God is good-all the time.” We don’t have to understand things–we just have to know that He is there. Sometimes, not forcing ourselves to find a reason in grief–helps us to heal.

    I have map-quested this. 9 hours from where I live in Richmond to Dalton. I am praying over coming. I want to so badly. To sit in the background and pray and pray that I can somehow carry a portion of the grief. I am sure that the cross was heavy for Christ. And, I am equally as sure that He gladly accepted the help in carrying it.

    I want to live my life helping to “carry the cross.”

    I have 6 kids…..getting away will be tough, but if it pleases the Lord–i will go. I’m so sad for them. Not because I doubt where little Luke is (I am sure it is grand that he and little Audrey are holding hands and talking)….I’m just sad because I know how MUCH your arms hurt when there is no warm baby to fill them. It is dark and heavy like the night…….something you just cannot describe unless you have felt it. I wish it on no one. I wish it on no one.

    Angie, you have no idea how much Nicol will need you…even if she doesn’t know it right now. Yes, I said it….even though you still carry your own grief–the Lord expects you to carry someone else. It is just the way it is. Pray for strength and hold on. The Lord has lots in store for you…..

    Your sister in Christ, and with total compassion and sympathy,
    Becky Cain

    beckycain6@comcast.net

  • Jen

    This, along with when dear Audrey had her service, is whe n I wish I had the kind of money that meant I could just jump on an international flight without thinking twice about it.

    You are in my prayers today as always, Angie.

  • Anonymous

    Praying for you all…..

  • Kelly

    Wish I could be there. I’m with ya’ll in spirit – praying for you as often as I think of you – which is a lot!

  • Dani

    Angie,
    Please know that I am praying for you!! I have recently written a post saying how I felt God was calling me to help the hurting. I want you to know that I will never forget you and your story. I will always remember the times we all cried together and the days that we laughed together. The days that we all realized we were broken in some way but watched as God put us back together again. We have all been here for all these moments and it’s only because you let us. Because you have been so open and sharing us what is on your heart so for that Thank you. I have been praying since I came upon you story. I think it was a week before she was born. I can’t help but think that this must be really hard on you yet you are so selfless in urging us more to pray for Nicol and Greg. You are such a sweet person and I am praying for you both! Please know that I am here if you ever need anything!
    I love you sister,
    Dani

  • Ani

    Oh Angie, I was just catching up on your blog and I just learned these devastating news. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. May God’s love shine on you all.

  • lizwiththree

    may you all find the strength from God to find joy in each moment even through the sorrow that this brings. My family will be praying for you all . May God bless you all in this time of need.

  • Lauren

    I wish I could come personally to the memorial service, but I will certainly be there in spirit.

    I continue to pray for the Sponbergs and for your family as well. May God bring peace to you all in these difficult times.

    With Love,
    Lauren

  • Jenny

    I can’t imagine how difficult the past few days have been.
    You’re all in my prayers.
    Big hugs!

  • The Roost’er

    Your voice sings poignant truths, like David in his Psalms.
    God has asked you to be Job. You choose to continue to sing His praise, even in the midst of your absolute storms.
    Please remain convinced in your faith. You have been a servant to us with your writing and we lift you up. May blessings follow that only He can fathom.
    ~Karin from Missouri

  • kelly w

    I am so sorry for all of you. I lost a baby girl almost 6 years ago and oh how I miss her. I tell my self its not good-bye just til we meet again. Everything happens for a reason and although it was very hard losing my baby girl Angel God aloud her to save me from dieing and my fatherinlaw got saved during her funeral. He is now pasted away 1 year on June2 08. But we know he is in Heaven with her. Praise God He is our comforter and He is going through with you. He said He would never leave us nor forsake us. Your family is iny prayers and I know God will give yall peace beyond anything we can ever imagine.

  • Angie Plude

    Love and prayers to all of your family at this incredibly difficult time. Thank you for keeping us all updated.
    Ang

  • Anonymous

    Oh Angie. We just got back from vacation last night, and I’ve just read about your nephew, Luke. Our baby (of 5) is a “Lukie” too, and I’ve just sat here and wept for your family. I will definitely be praying for Nicol and Greg and your whole family.

    My folks live in Atlanta (we’re in AThens). If I had someone to watch my kiddos, I’d try to come to Dalton. I’d love to meet you and hug your neck.

    With prayers from Athens, Erika and the Whites.

  • The Harper Family

    I wish I lived closer, honestly I really do. I want to do so much to help. I know that God is hearing my prayers, I feel him answering them as I pray. I will continue to lift your family up to the throne of God.
    Love from Arkansas,
    Lori

  • Carolyn

    Angie,

    Wanting you to know all of you are in my prayers. I have especially been lifting up all the little ones involved – Summer, Ellie, Abby, Kate,and any other cousins or special friends. Death of a precious little one doesn’t make any sense to us as adults and I can’t help but feel for all the children who are also experiencing another loss. May God give you wisdom as you comfort them even while you struggle with your own grief.

    I am praying that God pours out peace and surrounds all of you with His presence in a most amazing way during the service tomorrow.

    And remember – God is certainly big enough to take your questions, doubts, anger, and your pain. Pour it all out before Him!

    Love and prayers,
    Carolyn Brednich
    Mexico City, Mexico

  • MommyKelly

    “because He lives, I can face tomorrow…” the words of an old church song keep going through my mind and I want to pass them to you…for tomorrow.
    God bless,
    Kelly in Ohio, mom to 3 in heaven and 3 here in my home, all in my heart
    kfought1996@yahoo.com

  • Amy

    Thank you for keeping us updated so we can continue to know what to pray for for your family.

    Thank you also for being an encouragement to so many in your faith in a time that must surely be what often seem like the darkest days in your lives. I just pray that God shine down HIS light in these days ahead of you so only light prevails.

    Peace to you,
    Amy

  • Mocha with Linda

    Wish I were there to support all of you. I know you don’t know me (yet! as you tell us to say!) but I love you and ache for what you are experiencing. I posted Press On on my blog Friday that Nicol & Todd sang several years ago. Such sweet comments and love from folks you have all impacted. . . .

  • Susie Harris

    My prayers are with you all. Susie H

  • Fran

    Oh Angie…
    Thank you for keeping us updated.
    You are heavy on my heart and will pray for you all. May He continue to be your source of love and faith right now.

    Much love,
    Fran
    TN

  • sumichls

    Angie, I appreciate you keeping us updated. Your family has been constantly in my thoughts and prayers and my heart has just been so heavy, first for you and now for both you and your sister in law. If I could, I would come tomorrow, but circumstances are such that I won’t be able to…Your entire family is in my thoughts and prayers and will be even more so tomorrow. I pray that God allows me to carry some of the pain and sorrow for your family tomorrow. I’ll be thinking of you all and praying for God’s comfort and peace.

    (((Big Hugs)))

    Sue

  • Misty

    I agree with another poster, I feel like I know you and that I could just come over and give you a hug and let you cry until there were no more tears. I know you have people you can do that with though and I’m so thankful that God has given you good family and friends that can help you all through this.

    I will continue to pray for all of you in this time of grief!!

    Thank you for your beautiful writting. I love to read your posts, for totally completely selfish reasons I hope you never stop writting! Thank you!

    Misty

  • FrankNApril

    Hi Angie,
    I dont know you but got your blog off my friend Claire’s blog. I have read your blog a few weeks ago. I just want you to know when I read what you write I ffel this strong spirit. God loves you and you will, have and do touch the lives of many. You are amazing! April

  • debwwjd

    Dear Angie and Todd,

    We parents that experience this pain know this is the worse. Afterall, my life insurance was purchased to bury me, right–not to bury my son. We never know how long God lets us borrow our prescious loved ones.

    Last night, I was listening to Salem Radio and something I saw on the screen made me click onto your site–I don’t know much about computers. Anyway, as I was reading and listening to “Bring On The Rain”–it was mixing with the radio because I did not know how to stop the radio, etc. and the song playing was “If You Only Knew” by The Inspirations! You see, my son was 29 and had fought a battle with drugs and I had just lead him to the Lord weeks before the Lord called him Home.

    I have one other son, 38, and I emailed him your blog to show him how, through anything, one HOLDS onto GOD. Today, when I went to put the email in his folder, Salem Radio started playing “If You Only Knew.”

    I emailed my son and told him that God sends us hugs even when we haven’t asked. My prayers are with y’all. Please keep singing that beautiful music.

  • debwwjd

    P.S. Please hug the little ones and the “bunny” for me!

  • Darlene R.

    Wish I could be there tomorrow. I will be praying for everyone.
    Love you,
    Darlene

  • Tracey

    Please know that all of you will be in my prayers. I emailed these verses to Greg and Nicol, but thought I would share them as an encouragement here. They have helped me hang on many times. ;)

    “And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast. To him be the power for ever and ever. Amen.” – I Pet. 5:10-11

    God HIMSELF will restore us. Not his angels, but He Himself. I love that. I cling to that. He knows our hearts, every one of our hurts, and He does not forget us. He will come to us, to each and every one of us, and restore us to be strong, firm, and steadfast.

    Much love to each of you.
    ~Tracey

  • Laurie and the rest of ‘em

    Angie,

    You and your entire family are in my thoughts and prayers. I have been a blog “stalker” for some time now…and have almost commented a number of times…Your strength in Christ is amazing and often times, it is because of your story that I bite my tongue or praise the Lord when I want to murmur or gripe! Thank you for posting, thank you for putting yourself “out here” to us in blog world!
    You are a beautiful woman! loved your slideshow, showed it to my sister and we sat and bawled for you guys!
    I will be thinking of you and your in laws in the coming days! Prayers and love coming from some brothers and sisters in Christ in Indiana!
    Laurie Young

  • Holly

    “When everything falls apart, praise His name. When you have a broken heart, raise your hands and say.. GREATER IS HE THAT IS IN ME.. you can praise the hurt away. You can overcome by the blood of the Lamb and by the words of your testimony. You’ll see the darkness go as your faith begins to grow, you’re not alone so how can you be lonely?”
    These are the words I sang with our choir at church on Mother’s Day. God healed my lonely heart as I longed for a child. Now these verses echo in my mind. When I don’t understand, I praise Him even more.
    I have been so drawn to your blog and my heart has broken as I have read the entries about Luke. I, too, have a 6 month old nephew named Luke. I held him today with tears in my eyes and thoughts in my heart for your family. Believe me, the grief is being distributed. We will continue to pray for healing for all of you. I long for the day to meet you all.
    Holly
    Gadsden, AL

  • Anonymous

    Please know that you are in my thoughts and many prayers these last few days since I heard of sweet Baby Luke’s passing. I wish I had the beautiful words that Angie writes in her blog, but the eloquence is not there…I have nothing but raw passion for my child because I too, have empty arms.

    I too, lost a sweet baby…twelve years ago…at 41 weeks of a very healthy pregnancy. My sweet Lauren Marie (named after both grandparents, Lawrence and Maria) was my only child, as I have not been able to concieve again.
    I lost sight of my God for many years due to the anger, the questions, the total frustration of not knowing why my God had forsaken/punished me.
    Please know that our God has a reason for knowing why our children were needed by HIM before we were ready to let them go…. I have become such a better person since HE took my one and only baby. I don’t understand…I don’t need to. I just know that he loves us so much to know that I can make it through – it’s not easy Nicol… I wish it I could say it becomes easier 12 years later…. but it doesn’t. Today could very well be the I wake up sobbing and know that it’s because today could be the day she would be attending her first dance,or meeting the boy that would rock her world, or be graduating from middle school, or just missing her mommmy. Who knows….I dont. She’s the first thing I think of in the morning and the last thing I think of at night. Not a day goes by that I don’t think, what would my life if God had saved my Baby Lauren and resurrected as I pleaded those 10 hours that I didn’t feel her heartbeat.
    Take the time to cherish the time you had with baby Lukie – what a gift you had with that sweet soul. How he rocked your world!! His few short months made you who you are- an amazing Mom – an extraordinary messenger for our Christ, and the love of your Lord’s life.
    May God bless you and your husband, and please know that many prayers are being lifted in your names – Our babies, Luke, Audrey, Lauren, and Samantha , (a child I miscarried 4 months after losing Lauren) are waiting for us with loving arms until we meet in God’s glory once again. I look forward to meeting you that day, Nicol… Until then, God bless, stay strong, and know that your God loves you and cherishes every second you devote to HIM. With an aching heart, Love, Karen from Texas

  • Anonymous

    Angie, Todd, Greg, Nicol, Grandmas, Grandpas, Summer, Abbie, Ellie, Kate….
    My heart and prayers are with you, each of you. May you move through the healing stages of grief without becoming “stuck” in a spirit of sorrow that is not of the Lord’s design. Hopelessness and despair are traps of our vile, lying enemy. Angie, thank you for your testimony that the Spirit of Truth is teaching you hour by hour and equipping you to encourage others. We will continue to heal.

    Jesus fulfilled the prophecies of Isaiah in LUKE 4: 18-19. “The Spirit of the Lord is upon me; he has appointed me to preach Good News to the poor; he has sent me to heal the brokenhearted and to announce that captives shall be released and the blind shall see, that the downtrodden shall be freed from their oppressors and that God is ready to give blessings to all who come to him.” May tomorrow’s services be as God-breathed as the ones that honored Audrey Caroline, Elliot and Maria Sue Chapman. (I cannot imagine more wonderful “pro-life” statements than these!)

    May many sisters and brothers surprise you with their presence as you did with Sara! LUKE 7:12 “A funeral procession was coming out as Jesus approached the village gate. The boy who had died was the only son…and many mourners from the village were with her. When the Lord saw her, his heart overflowed with sympathy.” Our little ones ARE raised to life with Jesus. As David knew, they shall not come back to us here on earth but we shall go to them.

    I will pray especially for Todd and Nicol’s parents who have lost two grandbabies this spring. I was deeply touched by the tender look on the face of Grandpa holding baby Audrey. The grandmothers, the little girls….

    LUKE 18: 15-17 TLB “One day some mothers brought their babies to him to touch and bless. But the disciples told them to go away. The Jesus called the children over to him and said to the disciples, “Let the little children come to me! Never send them away! For the Kingdom of God belongs to men who have hearts as trusting as these little children.”

    May the undefiled faith of the little ones continue to draw people to share the Lord’s presence where the babies bask in the light of the Sun of Righteousness who rises with healing in His wings! Malachi 4:2

    In the amazing love of our tender Lord. Grace! Grace! and peace to all. Michal Ann ~ Lake Forest Park, WA

  • kristy mae

    I am sending a card and with it all of my prayers. May you have moments of peace and may the Lord be with you each moment as you walk this road.
    kristy in Ar

  • Cami

    I will be praying for you all tomorrow. Thinking of you & your family often…
    Please God wrap your arms around this precious family.
    God Bless

  • Tippa

    Hi Angie. Your family is in my continued thoughts and prayers. In the meantime, I thought I would share a poem I read at the funeral of my best friend’s baby girl who we lost at birth.

    Little Angels

    When God calls little children
    To dwell with Him above,
    We mortals sometimes question
    The wisdom of His love.
    For no heartache compares
    With the death of one small child
    Who does so much to make our world
    Seem wonderful and mild.
    Perhaps God tires of calling
    The aged to His fold.
    So He picks a rosebud
    Before it can grow old.
    God knows how much we need them
    And so He takes but few
    To make the land of heaven
    More beautiful to view.
    Believing this is difficult,
    Still somehow we must try.
    The saddest word that mankind knows
    Will always be ‘goodbye’.
    So when a little child departs,
    We who are left behind
    Must realize God loves children
    Angels are hard to find.

  • Laurie

    Hi Angie,

    I am stopping by this Monday morning to let you know that all of you are in my thoughts and prayers today and I am asking God to cover everyone of you with His peace. My heart breaks for you and all your family is going through. Jesus holds you and He will carry you. Asking for joy in the midst of deep sorrow today. He is with you.

    Love, Laurie in Ca.

  • Anonymous

    Praying for you today, Angie and the Sponberg family. I am praying for peace that passes all understanding that only our great God can bring. Please also tell Sara that I am praying for her too. I know she misses her precious little Elliot and she and her family are still on my heart.

    Lots of love to all of you!
    Amy

  • Vanessa and John

    My heart hurts with you and Luke’s parents. I will pray for you daily. God bless you.

  • Kari Dawson

    I can’t even fathom the level of pain you all must be enduring. My prayers are with you. I want to wrap a giant wrap of love and hugs around you all. Let the Lord be the lifter of your heads.

  • Anonymous

    Psalm 23
    A psalm of David.
    1 The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.

    2 He makes me lie down in green pastures,
    he leads me beside quiet waters,

    3 he restores my soul.
    He guides me in paths of righteousness
    for his name’s sake.

    4 Even though I walk
    through the valley of the shadow of death, [a]
    I will fear no evil,
    for you are with me;
    your rod and your staff,
    they comfort me.

    5 You prepare a table before me
    in the presence of my enemies.
    You anoint my head with oil;
    my cup overflows.

    6 Surely goodness and love will follow me
    all the days of my life,
    and I will dwell in the house of the LORD
    forever.

  • Angie Plude

    My prayers and thoughts are with you and your family today.
    Ang

  • Tish

    I pray for wisdom for you as you explain & discuss yet another loss to your girls. And I pray for God to give them understanding in a way that only He can do.

  • Marci@Finding Joy in the Journey

    Although I physically cannot be there, my prayers will be encircling all of you as you are carried through today’s events. I pray, Angie, that you find the strength to make it through today. God’s hands are holding all of you. I pray that you find rest in them.

  • Lara

    My prayers are with your family and with Nicol and Greg. May God heal your hearts and bring peace to your families.

  • Ladonna

    The memorial for Luke will begin in a little over an hour. Though I’m not terribly near, I’m in Georgia; and I am thinking and praying for your entire family. God bless you all as you enter into his sovereignity, and into his arms, where he hates suffering, and sees every tear we cry. God is glorious, and He will see you through all of the recent loss of these short, sweet lives. Thank you so much for sharing such intimate details of your life with so many people!

  • Buffy

    Any words I write here seem so empty. I can’t even pretend to know what you or your family are going through. I am sad and angry for you all at once. This is what makes us ask our Lord the hard questions…why? why a precious baby?

    Praying for your family today.

    Your sister in Christ,
    Buffy

  • Anonymous

    As I am reading the comments for the June 1 entry, I am praying for peace that passes all understanding as you are talking to Luke and hugging family members and sharing those special moments.
    Today will not be any easier than the yesterdays since May 27,, but you have the presence of so many to surround you with their love and understanding.
    Most of all, you are being embraced by the ONE WHO gave His only begotten SON, and He understands your sorrow beyond any
    human comprehension.

    We love you and are praying fervently for peace, strength, courage that pass all understanding.
    Love,
    Aunt Sharon and Uncle Harry

  • dena

    Angie…..just want you to know I am praying for you all right now as I know you are preparing at this moment to remember sweet Luke. I pray the peace of the Lord be with you all on this day. Thank you for witnessing and loving your family in the midst of your own loss……..it cannot be easy. God Bless you Angie. Dena

  • Amy

    How I wish I could be there today with you all. Reliving the moment at Audrey’s burial when Nicol sang Be Still My Soul while holding baby Luke, it seems surreal now. I remember standing in your kitchen that afternoon watching you hold Luke in your arms, Angie, caressing his soft brown hair, and I thought, “How is she able to do that after what just happened?” And I think the thing I remembered most was the look of absolute love on your face. Not sorrow, not jealousy, not anger, but true adoration and love for that tiny boy. You are a courageous woman, which the dictionary describes as being able to face or deal with danger or fear without flinching. You have looked death in the face and while your greatest fear has come to pass you have faced it unflinching, giving honor to God and blessing His name even though sometimes you probably didn’t want to. I pray that this courage be transferred to Nicol. And that as she grieves and you grieve with her, your courage would be an encouragement to her. Thank you for your faith, and your insight into this terrible situation. Knowing you has truly enriched and blessed my life. I love you dearly friend, love, Amy

  • Anonymous

    Angie,
    I grieve with you and your family over the tragedy that
    has fallen on your family. I have been reading your post for some time but it just occurred to me today that there is something very profound about your last post before Luke”s death and the connection to these last few days. God is weaving such wisdom thru you and your own loss while preparing you to love and support your family. What a blessing you are….I give thanks to God for the many ways he is using you in his
    Kingdom. Unceasing Prayers for you all…….
    In HIM
    Carol

  • Rebecca

    oh my…we are praying!

  • Anonymous

    Your family will continue to be in my thoughts and prayers, especially during today’s service. May God be with you all.

  • Nicole

    “Glory Baby” is a special song to me, as it was one of the first I heard after losing my baby in Jan of 06. “You Raise Me Up” was the first once I heard after waking up from surgery after my second miscarriage. I hope you and the rest of your family find peace.

    I’d give anything to be there, however, circumstances of my own disallow this. I’m there in spirit however.

  • elaina

    Just wanted you all to know that so many people are thinking about you today. I will continue to keep you all in my prayers.

    In His precious name,
    Elaina

  • Laurie

    Angie-
    You are an amazing person. You are my hero in the faith! I am so sad for your family and I pray for you all several times a day. The Lord shines through you!

  • lauren

    Praying for your family and the memorial service. It should be finishing up now, and I’m sure it was beautiful, just like baby Luke.

  • Holly

    Although we are unable to be there to grieve with your family at this time. Our hearts are with yours.. we are praying for you all and loving you.

  • Amanda

    praying….

    your blog is such an inspiration to me, i find so much strength here.

    thank you more than words could ever express.

  • Becoming Me

    My heart aches for you and your family. You are in my prayers. Much love. Angela

  • Anne

    When he cometh when he cometh to take up his jewels
    All his jewels precious jewels his loved and his own
    Like the stars of the morning his bright crown adorning
    They will shine in their beauty bright jems for his crown.

    He will gather he will gather the jems for his kingdom
    All the pure ones all the bright ones his loved and his own.
    Like the stars of the morning his bright crown adorning
    They will shine in their beauty bright jems for his crown.

    Little children little children oh love their redeemer
    All the jewels precious jewels his loved and his own
    Like the stars of the morning his bright crown adorning
    They will shine in their beauty bright jems for his crown.

    Like the stars of the morning his bright crown adorning
    They will shine in their beauty bright jems for his crown…

    old hymn
    May God be with you all .

  • Meridith

    So many prayers for all of your family. In the midst of such grief it is only possible, through God’s grace, to embrace our sufferings. Angie, your commitment brings so much glory to The Father. Thank you so much!

  • Anonymous

    Angie, I am soo sorry that you and your family are being asked to go through so much. As everyone says, God knows what He is doing, He knows His plan, but it doesn’t make it any easier for us down here struggling on without our children. I found comfort (as terrible as it seems) in knowing that I was not alone, that other moms were out there aching for their babies too. Nichol and you will be such an incredible source of strength for each other. You will be able to lean on each other as only mommies whose arms are empty for their beautiful babies can. In coming weeks, months and years, it will mean so much to have each other. I (and my best friend Emma, who is one of us) will continue to pray for you and Nichol and your families. We think of you often and check in daily.

    I found a song today on Jodie Ferlaak’s blog by Amy Grant – “Held”. I had never heard it and it took my breath away. It seems like it was written for all of us, but especially for Lukie and his mommy and daddy. I’m not sure if you’ve heard it, if not, please take a listen. It is incredibly appropriate and says what we all are feeling.

    My heart and prayers are with you. Mary

  • marymstraits

    I’ve always said I don’t know how people go on after losing a baby. And I still don’t. I don’t think I could bear the pain, the hole. That being said, I admire your raw honesty and commitment to Christ in spite of everything. I am truly in awe. “Mighty is the power of the cross” . . .

  • Anonymous

    I’ve been thinking about your family all day…I am praying that the peace that passes understanding will find its way to you and Nicol and your whole family tonight.

    Melissa

  • kim

    What a beautiful blessing you are for Nicol and Greg. I know how inspirational the thoughts you have shared have been to me-a stranger on the other side of the country. The strength of your words must be magnified for your close family members.
    Thinking of you and hope to cross paths one day,
    kim

  • Missy B

    Praying extra hard for you all today.

  • Misty

    I’ve already commented in this post, but came back to let you know I thought of all of you today and prayed that God would pour his love on all of you.

    I have read and re-read your blog tonight and cried more tears. I have two dear friends that have lost children within 2 weeks of their birth, both little girls baby Elyse and Baby Abigail.. their moms were blessed with those two precious weeks with their little girls. Before I read your Blog, I have always been mad that God took their babys from them and how could a GOOD and LOVING God do this, but now I look at it and think he BLESSED them with 2 weeks, it was a MIRACLE that they lived that long with how early they were born and how little they were. Both of these friends were unable to carry children after they lost these little girls. Their lives devistated by loosing their daughters and then their fertility. But being the GOOD and GRACIOUS God that he is, brought us together and I have carried for both of them. I gave birth to Elyse’s little sister in Nov of 05 and to Abigail’s little brothers Feb of this year.

    After reading your blog, I have realized what they really went through during pregnancy and the birth and then loosing their baby girls. I really saw the raw heart of a greiving mother. I am so thankful for your writting and what it has been to me as I have read it.

    Thank you so much for the insight and the raw feelings that you write about.

    I pray for you daily and as you say when we meet one day I can’t wait to give you a big hug!

    May God Bless,
    Misty

  • Oly girl

    Praying for you and your family. Your writing has really touched my life. I appreciate your honesty and your wisdom.

  • Jen

    I thought of you all day, beloved Angie, and sent up prayers for you and your family.

    I hope that the day was all Nicol and Greg could have wanted the service to be… despite wishing that they didn’t have to have it.

    Be cradled and rocked by Jesus, dearest.

  • Michelle Bentham

    I am so sorry for your loss of baby Audrey and Luke. God bless you and keep you all. I will send something along later.

    I suffered the death of my older son, (17 yrs.) in the fall of 2005. I am praying for God’s peace, comfort and mercy to fall upon you all in this time of pain and grief. God knows your need even before you express it and I pray you are able to count the blessings among the tears. God’s love and mercy to you and your family. You may visit my blogs, one is specifically for grieving moms, if you wish.

    Blessings.

  • boltefamily

    I will continue to pray for all of you in the coming days! God is faithful. He has not changed though circumstances are tough and sometimes get tougher. He has a mighty arm and will hold you. Please know we are loving you and praying for you from a distance!

    The Bolte Family in PA

  • Anonymous

    This web site has been so helpful and healing as I read all the comments. Thank you for keeping us updated.
    Thank you that you are taking such good care of Greg & Nicol, Summer, Uncle Deryle, Auntie Vicki, and Angela and her family.
    I will continue to pray for you all.

    Wendy

  • Anonymous

    Angie,
    I have prayed for Luke and all of his family, including you. This is such a tragic experience and I am going to ask God to also allow me to carry some the pain for Luke’s parents as well as you and Todd for Audrey’s loss. I hope the coming days, weeks, and months bring peace into all of your hearts. You have given me a new outlook on God by telling Audrey’s story so I am forever grateful to you and Audrey. I will continue praying for ALL of you. I hope Luke and Audrey are dancing in Heaven too!

    Love,Crystal F.

  • walkingbyfaith

    Still praying for peace.

    Love to you!

  • Aunt Rhody

    Dear Angie and family, Your words are so precious to me right now, reminding me of David’s Psalms, crying out to God in anger, then blessing Him. At the other end of your spectrum I am waiting as my 88 year old godly father crosses over into our Lord’s loving arms, where your precious Luke and Audrey are celebrating. I am writing to say that Selah’s music is a great blessing and comfort to me. I love to listen to the hymns that my Daddy so loves, to Hiding Place (He is all that!), to Faithful One, to Bless His Name (sometimes the physical body is a prison of its own), to By and By (I can’t wait to hear all the music of heaven and know it’s power), to Raise Me Up (not only descriptive of God, but also of the precious aides at the nursing home where my Daddy lies). I could go on and on. But thank you, thank you, to your family and for your faithfulness, and for singing the words that may be empty for you right now but will be power and truth to you in days to come.

    O the deep, deep love of Jesus…leading onward and upward to our rest above.

    I play the violin in orchestras and other venues. I know that when we tune to a 440 A, and every instrument in the orchestra plays that note perfectly in tune, then all the A’s on all the strings, on every instrument ring and vibrate in sympathetic vibrations to one another. When we perform and that one note “happens” perfectly, it is glorious and mighty. On the stage, I can feel the resonance in the hall, off the stage floor and walls. There is an excitement that communicates to the audience. This is the picture I get when I pray and know the power of believers who are raising their voices, not with their own pitches, but with the sound commanded to us by our Head.
    May the Head of the Church, Christ Jesus, through the power of His Spirit, give your family songs in the night, come and sing over you, and fill every empty place.
    In Jesus’ love.

  • madelynmarie

    I just wanted to let you know I am thinking of your family. I stumbled across your blog last night and spent several hours reading your story and crying for you and your family. I’ve pretty much read every post. You have a wonderful way with words and I love the way you find the meaning in every situation.

    I find myself feeling guilty that I didn’t hear your story earlier to pray with you. I will remember your family in prayer tonight. I’m so very, very sorry for your losses.

    Melanie

  • Mark and Rebekah

    continuing to pray.

  • Anonymous

    Angie,
    I was just introduced to you and your story about 2 weeks ago. I have been reading all your posts from the beginning on and your perseverance in your faith, your love for God, your being so human with your feelings in your posts have touched me deeply. I am so incredibly sorry for your loss and your sister in law. I have been struggling trying to learn to trust God, give up control over my life to God and I have found help with this through a friend at my church that only God could have placed before me. She has been able to open my mind and my heart to see the true love of Jesus, and help me to understand His word. then I began reading your posts and some of the things you have written have truly helped me understand better by seeing your honest emotions and prayers. I thank you for sharing your story with me and I have thought about when and where we could ever run into each other over coffee, or at a park with our children and I think it would feel like old friends reuniting after reading your story. I have been praying for you and Nicol and your entire families. I believe that God does have reasons for doing what He does even though we can not understand why. Thank you for showing me more about God love through yourself.

    Lisa H. Cincinnati, Ohio

  • Anonymous

    I first read your blog while sitting in the Ronald McDonald House in Joplin, MO praying for my son who was across the street fighting to live. My son was born on March 19, at 25 weeks 5 days gestation because he developed hydrops from severe anemia and would not have survived if left in my body. I had contracted fifths disease from my five year old son and passed it onto our baby. I pray he never finds out that the virus he brought into our home is what caused his brother to become ill and 9 weeks, 2 days, 8 hours later to be received by God in heaven. I understand that there is a bigger plan for our sweet Declan and for my life and that God had been preparing me for this moment over the past 18 months. I wrote a blog on caringbridge documenting our son’s life and I am happy that his life did not go unnoticed. He was such a fighter and his death was a shock to us and the staff in the NICU. He had been doing so well and we were making plans to bring him home to his beautiful nursery and our loving family. My faith in God makes it possible for me to get out of bed every day. I read your story sobbing not knowing that in less than two months I too would be at the funeral home making arrangements to bury my precious son. Your story and faith in God throughout your experience has been so encouraging. Your words from the day of your ultrasound, “I think that my Jesus is the same as He was before I walked into this room” has haunted me. I chanted these words on May 23, when I was told that my baby would die, the doctors could not save him and it was up to me to decide the moment he would pass onto heaven. I spent 9 weeks at my son’s bedside in the NICU helping the nurses care for him, holding him, loving him. I am so grateful to God for giving me 9 weeks with him. We had such a special bond that was witnessed by the nurses and doctors. My heart ached from all the love I had for him. My husband cared for our two older sons at home while I devoted my time to loving Declan. I don’t have to tell you what the loss of a child does to a mother’s spirit. I too have had such a great outpouring of support from family, friends, and those once called strangers. Our memorial service was on the 27th and burial the following day. Reading about Luke took my breath away. Audrey was there to welcome Declan and both waiting for Luke. I don’t fear death not because our babies are waiting for us, but because I need to feel what my child felt when it was time to be welcomed by God. It breaks my heart that you are reliving this pain through Luke and when you so graciously went to Sara’s side. Know that you have been a comfort to so many people. You are a remarkable woman and am honored to have met you through your blog.

    Hugs,
    Linda in Bella Vista, AR

  • Darlene

    We are praying for Luke’s family in Pennsylvania. And I weep with his family.
    May Jesus hold you all so tightly.
    Darlene

  • Stephanie D.

    Angie, I am praying so very much for you and your family. I want to let you know, that we in no way can begin to feel the pain that you and your sister-in-law feel. But we are all praying with you, and crying with you at our computers. We are smiling with you at times, and are up in the middle of the night, not sleeping praying with you. I hope we give you back near what you have giving us. Thank you for sharing your stories with us.

  • Spiess

    Angie
    My prayers are with you and the family. My husband and I had 4 deaths within a 5 month period and couldn’t understand what was happening. His grandma, then 2 months later his dad, then 3 weeks later our son whom I was carrying at 7 months and then 2 months later his aunt. God’s ways are not our ways and there are lots we don’t understand but be assured the little ones are in heaven rejoicing today with one another and as God is not bound by time we will see them in the twinkling of an eye.

    Blessings
    Marie

  • Katie F.

    Praying and sending love

  • Jamie

    Angie,
    Your family is in my prayers. Thank you so much for sharing your story through this blog. It has blessed me very much. I just spent the last hour reading and crying through it as I think of the pain. Praise the Lord he is with your family and that Audrey, Luke, and Elliot can be with him.

  • Anonymous

    Hi Angie,
    I just watched all the videos on YouTube about Audrey. To say they are a blessing would not do them justice. You mentioned not wanting Audrey or her life to be forgotten. That is not going to happen. Her life has spoken in such volumes of God’s light that nothing, not one signle thing, person or evil power can shut out her light in this world! The word of Audrey Caroline is going to continue to spead! Many people have already been touched just on my end by Audrey. My husband and I sit down every night to read your blog. I am even thinking about using those videos to some kind of bible study/gathering. There are countless people who could benefit from hearing your story. I’m praying God will lead me in the way He would have this go.. I just feel that I can’t keep this to myself. I want to gather women together to view these videos so that if they need that encouragement now or later, they will rememebr Audrey. She is wonderful, she is precious.. she will never be forgotten. Much love to you.
    Rachel Marquez
    our blog is marquezfamilia.blogspot.com

  • Christina

    My heart aches for you tonight.

    I stumbled upon your blog from a friends link and have spent the last two hours reading your story and your family’s story. I am a mother of three boys Levi, Titus, and Seth ages 4,2, and 8 weeks. My baby boy Seth was born on April
    7th the same day as your sweet Audrey- and what is more he has a full head of red hair! But I weep for you tonight because of this date we have in common…how can our experiences be so extreme, so unfair, it makes me angry for you. I feel guilty having my baby at my bedside when you can not. I just want you to know that I am crying with you tonight.
    But I also want you to know that I am a christian. I have grown up in the church my whole life, and with my husband being a youth minister- church and church activities contiue to be our life. But I want you to know that you have convicted me. You are a phenomenal writer and reading your words…I just, I have never loved Jesus like that. I am jealous of the faith it takes for the first words out of a mother’s mouth to be “Jesus is the same” as she sits on that examinig table- the sonagram forecasting all of the hurdles Audrey would face.
    You are an inspiration to me. I selfishly pray that I can have your faith without walking through the fires. You have inspired me to love my Savior and my children wider, higher, and deeper in ways that surpass knowledge. I am forever grateful. Thank you for sharing your story.
    Your sister in Christ-
    Christina Jones

  • Lisa

    I listened to Beth Moore on Living Proof today and thought of you. If you get time, it might be an encouragement to you as well. (The June 2, 2008 lesson, Who Shall Separate Us?)

    Praying everyday, sometimes every hour.

    Love in Christ, Lisa

  • votemom

    praying for all of you…

    keep listening to the Voice of TRUTH.

  • Celie

    Hi Angie, Your family has been so heavy on my heart. I hope ya’ll are doing as well as can be expected. God has the last two night had me in intence prayer in the night hours. I pray that ya’ll are getting rest but also continue to rest in your strongtower. He alone can be the comfort in this season. Allow not satin to steal ya’lls joy in this night season of hurt. Call and seek remember he delights in each of you. Be still in your souls, listen wanting to hear those secret thing he gives.Isa 45:3 And I will give thee the treasures of darkness, and hidden riches of secret places, that thou mayest know that I, the LORD, which call thee by thy name, am the God of Israel. Heb 5:8 Though he were a Son, yet learned he obedience by the things which he suffered; Loving,praying praising Celie

  • Anonymous

    I am sitting at my desk at work right now praying to God that you, your sister in-law and your whole family can still feel your blog families prayers. For some reason, not known by me, you are very heavy on my heart today. I can’t stop thinking and praying for you. I hope you can feel that.

    Robin (MN)

  • brownblog

    I just found your blog. Words cannot express what my heart feels for you and your sweet family. I am so thankful to see God’s work in your lives and as a Christian sister please know that you and your sister-in-law are being held up in prayer. Sharing your story will help so many, including yourself. Thank you, for sharing, thank you for praising and thank you for giving us all hope! You are loved.
    Blessings
    Sarah Brown

  • Christine

    I read your blog and although I know God is in control and He is our ultimate strength, I can’t help but be mad, mad, mad at Him right now. It’s just not fair and I know that is not showing my spiritual maturity, but it is just where I am at right now. My heart aches for Audrey and Luke to be with their mommies more than anything. I will continue to pray and I know God will sustain you all through this difficult time. Your faith is amazing and so inspiring and I thank you for sharing it. I am sure so many hearts and souls have been changed for the better because of it.
    God Bless,
    Christine

  • hughesfam

    Angie- I have been thinking so much about you and your family this week. I know what it feels like to have loss on the heels of loss- I miscarried my fourth child at 16 weeks in January and then miscarried again just three short months later in April. The second loss, although not as far along in the pregnancy rocked me to my core. I just thought “God, how could you do this to me again?? I’ve already paid my penance- go try somebody else for awhile- LEAVE ME ALONE!!!” I am about a month out now and the anger has made a hole in my heart that I am now ready to let the Lord fill. I know He is good and he has held me up during the past few months when I just wanted out of this broken life. I know you probably know this better than I, but God loves us. Your blog has been such a strength to me this last month and I thank you for lifting me up…I am praying for you and I hope you feel lifted today.

  • lori

    You are very sweet to keep the updates coming. I am praying for all your hearts.

  • LJ

    To all you who are continuing to find great comfort in this blog..I was able to attend the Sponberg funeral Monday…my wife and I are friends of Greg and Nicol. It was a very difficult day as you could imagine. I have felt a very heavy weight…but I have asked for it…that God would displace some of their suffering on all of us. Let me just say this…it was so real and honest. It is time for us as Christians to drop the pie in the sky health and wealth garbage and open up our hearts and lives like the Smiths and Sponbergs have done. These families are incredible…not because they are super human or super spiritual…no because they are real. These folks have given and given and given their whole lives…from their ministry in Africa to night after night watching Selah truly give their lives to people in ministry. Their music has gotten so many of us through difficult times. Now we have to be their music and help carry the weight along with our Lord. Please God bless the Smiths and Sponbergs and give us their pain.

  • Anonymous

    I want to express my sincere and loving thoughts to you, Angie & Todd and to Nicol & Greg. Little Audrey and Luke are together but the ache and longing to hold your little one is so real and also the pain is at times unbearable. I have appreciated your complete and honest feelings in your writings, Angie. Having lost my 15 year old son, who never knew a sick day until the day God took him Home when he was out jogging, I know the “ups & downs” even in a Christian’s life. My prayers are with you ALL!

  • Anonymous

    God Bless you and your entire family during this painful time and may He surround you all with a peace that surpasses all understanding.
    In 2007 my niece was stillborn at 36 weeks and the pain is still fresh, but I know and I BELIEVE that God in His infinite wisdom has a plan that is greater than anything we could ever imagine and I hold on to the promise of meeting little Hannah Grace in Heaven one day!
    Blessings and prayers go out to you!
    Love, Rebecca (Shiloh, NJ)

  • Brysmommy, Kenswifey

    I just found out about your blog..and started reading it..and couldn’t stop!!!! I am amazed at the strength and grace you have been given! I admire you and the faith you have in Our Lord Jesus Christ! He is an awesome God and I can just feel his presence in your words. I am praying for your sister in law as well. I can’t imagine going through what you all have been through, but am truly touched at your love!

  • Stephanie Hanes

    Angie,

    I sat in front of my computer sobbing yesterday as I read through your blog. I don’t even know you, but I wish I could give you a huge hug right now. Know that you have a sister in Christ from Wisconsin praying for you and your family. As much pain as I can imagine you are in, I love seeing how God is bringing you through each step of this grief and has proved over and over again to be faithful. Keep standing strong on the only solid rock there is…somehow, He has a plan for you and your family. Remember, too, that He knows the pain, because He felt it all as He hung on the cross. I can’t imagine your pain, but I know He does. God bless you, sister!

    In Christ,
    Stephanie in Fond du Lac, WI

  • Alexanders

    You should read conorbootheandgirls.blogspot.com Her daughter died of trisomy-18 at birth. Her words are reall and comforting. I believe most of the story is in 2007 posts

  • Mommy

    Angie- know that we are thinking of you and praying for you and your family , i cant imagine what all you guys are going thru. May God give u all peace and keep you safe.
    Love and Prayers
    Tiffany, nashville

  • Robyn

    I am so sorry. My thoughts and prayers are with all of you!!

    Robyn

  • Maryellen

    I found your website through evajanette’s. I love your music and your posts show so much faith. Since I have been following Eva Janette’s story, I have seen SO MANY people of great faith who have suffered such loss. And now, little Luke and his family. Please know that you all are in my prayers. I have been so inspired and uplifted by your writings and your quotes. Please stay strong.