Everyday life, Family, Kate, Luke


***Update*** Kate has been peeing and pooping on the potty since I posted this!!!!!!! You all are prayer warriors!!!!!!!  If you haven’t read this entry yet, this will make no sense, and this is probably an uncomfortable moment for you…yikes πŸ™‚ I am SO excited that several of you will be coming to the women’s conference in Lexington…anyone wanna do the speaking for me?
Love to you all, and thank you for all the amazing homeschooling suggestions…I have started a notebook with all of your nifty ideas. I am hoping to have another update on Bible study soon…we’re getting closer!!!!!!!!! I can’t wait!!!

Hi all!

Sorry I haven’t posted in a bit..we were out of town visiting family in Georgia. We had such a great week watching the girls playing with their cousins.  It was great to just all be together and stay up late playing dominoes after the girls had fallen asleep to Miley Cyrus’ 3-D concert.  We are truly blessed to have the kind of family that really loves to be together…
Yesterday, we went swimming with Pete and Brandi and their three precious boys (Jett, Gage, and Brewer).  You may remember that Pete is the Pastor of Crosspoint church, who did the awesome video about Audrey.  We had so much fun watching Jett patiently allowing Kate to follow him all around the pool, floaties working overtime, and then pounce on him as soon as he got still.  I heard Ellie say to the other boys, “I think my sister is going to marry your brother.”  She isn’t subtle, but she is certainly determined.  I can’t wait to see what God does with her as she grows up.  I think she is going to be a warrior for the Lord.  On our way to meet them, she decided to test-drive the word “crap” from the backseat of the car.  I whipped around and asked her what she had said and she was kind enough to repeat it.  I looked at her and she realized that must be a no-no word.  She looked at the floor of the car and then at me.
“We don’t say crap, do we, mommy?”
“No, Kate, we don’t say that word.” She considers this for a moment, and then says,
“What about ‘Oh my crap.’  Do we say that?”  Seriously, where does she come up with this stuff?
“No, Kate, we don’t say that either.”
“How ’bout ‘What the crap.’ Is that okay?” In my mind I was thinking Yes, in certain situations, like when you can’t find the match for that stinkin’ kids shoe you JUST bought…

“No, honey, nothing with that word. Let’s think of another word to say.”
“We don’t say ‘hell’ either, right momma?” Now that’s tricky.  
“Well, we say it when we are really talking about hell.  That is a real place, and that is what we call it, but we don’t just say the word. Only when we are talking about the real hell.”
“So I can say ‘Oh my hell?'”
This continues through many shades of crap and hell, and by the end of it all, I am convicted because I think crap (while not a glorifying word) is sometimes the only one that sums it up. It’s kind of rebellious while not completely offensive.  However, it’s not one I want to hear my two year old repeating on the way to a pool date with our friend the Pastor.
A few years ago, I was putting Abby and Ellie to bed and we were doing our night-time routine. I like to ask them to think of one thing they are grateful for, one thing they want to pray for, and one thing they would like to apologize to God about.  Abby decides to go first, and starts by saying that she is grateful for colored chalk and bubbles.  Then, she says that she wants to pray for our neighbor, who wants to have another baby.  She pauses.
“Abby, is there anything you want to say ‘I’m sorry’ to God about?”
“Yeah. About me hitting Ellie today.”
“Okay, well then go ahead, because when you are done you will feel so much better.  You will have a clean slate! Isn’t that great?” She nods, closes her eyes, and puts her little palms together reflectively.
“Jesus, I am so sorry that I hit Ellie today, because that was wrong.”  My sweet Abby, humbling herself before the Lord…what a beautiful moment….
I see one of her eyes open into a little sliver.   She is looking at Ellie with a smirky little expression. This is about to go downhill.
“But, Jesus, you know I hit her because she took my dolly, and I really hope she will say I’m sorry about that and that you will forgive her for what she has did.” She closes her eye again and a little smile creeps across her face…mission accomplished. Apology, complete with justification and blame.  What a pleasing aroma to the Lord….
After stifling a snort-giggle, I made her do it over again, while explaining that when we come before the Lord, we must do it in humility, not righteousness. We need to seek Him, and not ourselves.  I always think of this story when I am praying for something and my own agenda sneaks in.  The past few weeks have had a lot of those moments.
We have these seasons in our lives where we take inventory and start to decide what needs to change, what needs to be worked on, and what we need to do to be a better steward of the gifts that we have been given.  I am right in the middle of my “inventory,” and it feels like I am starting to make some progress. I told Todd on the way to Georgia that I felt like God was preparing me for some kind of ministry, and I’m not all that sure how I feel about it.  Some parts of it I am comfortable with (I love writing, and I love Bible study.  I love being with people and living life together. I love Jesus, and the idea of being a part of anything that brings people to Him) and others I am not (public speaking, being in the spotlight, being open enough to draw criticism for my faith and my decisions).  I’m just so darned thin-skinned, and so worried about letting people down all the time.  God kindly told me to get over myself and be obedient.
So, after much prayer and trepidation, I have accepted my first speaking engagement (it’s in Lexington, KY on October 3rd in association with Southland Christian Church).  Please pray for me. I am a bundle of nerves, and have actually tried to back out a few times, but the Lord keeps telling me it is the right choice. Todd and the girls will be coming with me (that is part of the “deal” I made with God about these types of things…my family is my primary ministry, and I am not willing to be away from them), so that makes me feel a little better.  I have been crying a lot, but wanting so badly to be in God’s will. If you live in Lexington and you decide to come, just know that there is a good possibility you will see the keynote speaker throw up, so bring your camera phones. There is also a good chance you will discover that I am actually quite ordinary, and not nearly as exciting as you might have hoped:)
A few other prayer requests while I’m at it…
~I have started homeschooling Abby and Ellie.  I am really, really enjoying it.  It started out as something I wanted to do so that we could travel with Todd, but it has evolved into a sweet time with my girls. I am having a little trouble figuring out how to entertain Kate while I am teaching, and welcome any thoughts or suggestions about that (and homeschooling in general).
~I am so excited about “Stepping Up,” and am still in the process of working out the details. We may have found a church to host it!!!!!  I will keep you posted:)  I smile every time I think about meeting some of you face to face and digging deeper into the Word with you.  It is going to be a great time of fellowship, and from what I have heard, Beth knocks it out of the park again with this study.  It is seven weeks long, and has a pretty fair amount of homework.  I am also trying to figure out creative ways to make it feel interactive for those of you who do not live in Nashville.  I am going to start another blog for the study, and I am thinking about ideas for it.  There are many of you who are much smarter than me about this stuff, so feel free to email me if you have suggestions.
~I am potty-training Kate, and it isn’t going all that hot.  You know her well enough by now for me to spare you the gory details (Okay, just one.  She climbed up on our kitchen counter and pooped on it.) Let’s just say it is a battle of the wills, and I am losing.
This post is all over the place, isn’t it?  Oh well, that’s life I guess:)  If you have written me and haven’t gotten a response, please forgive me.  I have really had to limit the amount of time I spend in my email because I have started the school year with my kids.  I do hope you will continue to write, and know that it is a privilege I do not take lightly to be included as someone who can pray for you.  I do read your words, and I do pray.  It has been an incredible blessing to me to hear your hearts…thank you so, so much.
p.s. I wanted to let you know that Greg and Nicol have started a blog in honor of Luke.  If you want to, please stop by and feel free to reach out to support them. The address is: thelukesponbergfoundation.blogspot.com.
p.p.s.  I am in contact with a sweet woman who is expecting her fourth child. She is in the hospital, and is faced with a very difficult prognosis, although her beautiful faith is unwavering. Her blog is www.mycharmingkids.net. Please pray for her and her baby, Stellan.
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  • Reply Setala Family August 2, 2008 at 5:39 pm

    Oh my, I had to laugh at your story of how potty training Kate is going. I can see my almost 2 year old girl doing the exact same thing (hence one of the reasons she is still in diapers!) Thanks for sharing your life with us.

  • Reply Amber August 2, 2008 at 5:43 pm

    On the speaking…you will be great…people just want you to be real, you have no problem with that! I home school as well and have 3 two year olds to entertain…so I’ll be watching for “ideas” from your readers! Good luck in all of your endeavors, kuddos for listening….and acting on what God is asking you to do.

  • Reply MckMama August 2, 2008 at 5:44 pm

    Amazing how God knits together His people, isn’t it? So wonderful to have “met” you!

    Thank you so much for passing along our babe Stellan’s need for prayer on your blog.

    God is good, all the time.

    Oh, and I am listening to Selah’s music in my hospital room as I type this! Just a fun fact:)

  • Reply Mocha with Linda August 2, 2008 at 5:47 pm

    So glad to hear about Greg & Nicol's blog. I visited, left a comment, and subscribed!

    You will do great as a speaker! Wish I could hear you.

    Love the stories about the crap conversation and the potty training! Never a dull moment!!

  • Reply Caroline August 2, 2008 at 5:47 pm

    Just wanted to say that I faithfully read your blog, but don’t comment much at all. You have been an encouragement to me in how you live your life before the Lord. Thank you for being an example to Him. Remember that you serve Him, not others (I’m preaching to the choir here). If he has called you to speak, then he will equip you to do so. Remember, its not your ability he’s looking for, but your availability. Blessings on Oct. 3rd (which happens to also be my redhead’s 2nd birthday)!

  • Reply Netty August 2, 2008 at 5:52 pm

    Lexington where? I live in Louisville, KY and was hoping it was Lexington, KY but I am sure since you are from TN, it is in TN. God will bless you for your obedience. You are a strong woman! Keep up the good work. I have a soon to be 2 yr old and am introducing the potty to her. I would love to hear more about Kate’s potty experiences and books or videos you may use. Have a great day.

  • Reply Anne Elizabeth August 2, 2008 at 5:56 pm

    I love hearing the cute stories about your girls! I had a really REALLY REALLY hard time potty training my daughter, so I feel your pain. I wish I had some words of wisdom, but I don’t. My daughter is very strong willed and potty training a strong willed child is very difficult.

  • Reply Katy August 2, 2008 at 5:56 pm

    OK, I have so many things I need to say about this post! First of all, your “crap” story cracked me up… Last week I had a terrible incident where my cat ran under my car while I was backing out of the driveway. (He is OK and healing nicely, BTW.) I knew exactly what had happened as soon as I felt the bump, and I heard a word come out of my mouth that I have not said in years. Immediately, my three-year-old repeated it, after which my one-year-old (who only has about 10 words in his repertoire) felt the need to chime in with it too! So have no fear–crap is not the worst thing they could repeat. πŸ™‚

    Also, I LOVE the prayer ideas for your girls. I pray every night with my kids before bed, but I struggle to find ways to make it meaningful for them. Thank you for that idea.

    On a more serious note, your talk of being pulled toward a new ministry echoes so much of how I have felt for the past year or more. And now God has started opening the doors for me and showing me what He has been preparing for me to do. It is so exciting! And seeing that makes me excited for you, too–I’ll be praying for you.

    And… good luck with the potty training… that’s the first pooping on the counter story I’ve ever heard…!

    Thank you for your continuing ministries, here and everywhere that God leads. You are in my prayers.

  • Reply a August 2, 2008 at 5:58 pm

    Angie-you will be great. I know that so many people will be touched by you and your story. Sending hugs and prayers from Wisconsin!

  • Reply Eve August 2, 2008 at 5:59 pm

    When I am nervous about something big I have to do, I write down my “mission statement” of what I need to keep focused on. This really helps me to stay on track and stay true to my cause.

    I hope this helps a little and I know you will be great.

    Your blog has been a true inspiration to me in more ways than you will ever know. Thank you!

  • Reply Stacy August 2, 2008 at 6:00 pm

    Kate is absolutely perfect (which I am sure you already know Ang)! I LOVE you store about her. I am certain watching her live life as fully as she does keeps God totally entertained! πŸ™‚
    I am so thrilled you accepted the speaking engagement! Too bad that Alaska is so far from Lexington. I am sure you will not only be amazing but the throwing up would be some kind of comedic bonus. J/K

  • Reply Jennifer P. August 2, 2008 at 6:03 pm

    Remember that you encourage others just by following the Lord and still seeking to serve Him, though your heart is still broken. We all can relate a bit to your grief through our own sorrows, and your honesty and struggles make God more real because you are living in His strength. If you can do it, we can do it. And vice versa.

    I am thrilled to hear that you are speaking. You have a way of sharing yourself that lets us clearly see the Lord in your life. I want that relationship I see you have with Him. I have been through the struggles (my husband died 2 years ago at 36), but I get stuck so often in discouragement.

    I will be praying for you and your sucessful speaking engagement. You can do it. :o)

    Jennifer Perkins

  • Reply Tippa Glover August 2, 2008 at 6:04 pm

    Good luck in Lexington!!!! How exciting, your first speaking engagement! I know you are nervous, but something tells me you will be fabulous!!!!!

    October 3rd is when I come home….so I hope after you leave Lexington, you will head to Memphis!??

  • Reply Vicky August 2, 2008 at 6:08 pm

    I did the “Stepping Up” study in January. I LOVED IT! God taught me so much through that study. I’m so excited for you!

    Homeschooling with a toddler… I’m not sure how old Kate is. Perhaps get her some “school” work too. They make workbooks for all ages. Also, something I’ve read on a few blogs: have special toys, activities, books, etc that are ONLY for school time. Also, include her in some of the simpler lessons.

    If you come to WA to speak, I’ll definitely show up!

  • Reply Amanda August 2, 2008 at 6:10 pm

    I have missed your posts!!! We will be starting the potty training very soon on our son – our first go round at this and it should prove to be intersting I am sure.
    Good luck in KY – by chance will you be in SC for the Selah concert on Aug 17th? I will and would love to meet you!!
    That is so wonderful of you to pass along prayer requests for MckMama – she and Stellan have touched me so much.

    Amanda in SC

  • Reply lisawitt August 2, 2008 at 6:13 pm

    Angie, I love reading your blog. My son is only 6 months old but I enjoy reading your experiences as a mom and how to share your faith with your children. I also have a friend who lost a child way too young (5 months) and I learn about ways to be a good friend to her as she grieves. Thank you for sharing your life with us! You will do great at the speaking engagement too..you have a heart for the Lord and it comes out through your writing so I know it will through your speaking to! πŸ™‚

  • Reply Kendra Lee August 2, 2008 at 6:13 pm

    Guilty of saying, “crap”… but never have said, “Oh my hell!” Love kids! Love them! Love the confession tinted with BUT… I have heard those same kind of confessions from my little ones.

    Blessings with your speaking engagement, probably the 1st of many.

    Blessings as you homeschool. There is nothing like it. Hard at times, but the blessings far outweigh the struggles.

  • Reply Sara August 2, 2008 at 6:29 pm

    Fun post, Angie… I like that you’re all over the place, because that’s how my brain works so I followed you well! πŸ™‚

    First, I have to tell you “Oh my hell…” is my most frequent inappropriate statement. I’m glad I’ve never met Kate or I certainly could have been blamed for teaching it to her…

    About the public speaking and ministry… if you have a minute go to my blog and read my post from yesterday because it fits. When you’re scared, doubtful or worried, repeat to yourself “I have everything I need.” Because God gives us what we need when we need it. Not before, not after, but when you need it. That belief gets me through every day. (That’s the short version for you!)

    Maybe we could hook you up to Skype and let you practice over the computer with us… you’d have lots of people listening without the instant pressure of seeing us all at once πŸ™‚ What you’re doing is important, and just know there are lots of us rooting you on.

    Blessings on your day, stranger-friend…


  • Reply Valerie August 2, 2008 at 6:53 pm

    Ah, you have one of *those* preschoolers πŸ™‚ I have one, too, and I have finally won the potty-training battle, but only after she decided it was important!

    I started including my youngest in our homeschooling day last year when she was 3 (my other was a 2nd grader). We did Bible together and it was amazing how L memorized those really long passages like her sister! I had A Beka and Kumon books, plus a Big Preschool Workbook, most of which I picked up at Target or Borders. I would teach one kid and let the other do their worksheets, then swap. L kept asking for more and more work, but I generally made her leave after an hour or so and go play in her room. L learned a ton to the point where I’m not sure what to do with her this year as she’s ready for Kindergarten, but not old enough. My older girl had the motivation that little sister was working, too, and I loved that it gave L something to do besides getting in trouble.

    Congrats on the speaking thing and try not to worry as God is faithful in this as in all things. Even potty-training and homeschool.

  • Reply Melissa August 2, 2008 at 6:55 pm

    All I can say is LUCKY LEXINGTON! The Lord has a funny sense of humor.. you may learn as much as the people that go to hear you speak. Keep listening! :o)

    I love your blog.. thank you for sharing!

    Hugs From Colorado

  • Reply Jan August 2, 2008 at 7:06 pm

    Hey Angie, I’m glad to read that you all had a great time in GA and that the girls are keeping you busy (and in such a funny, funny way). That’s hilarious that Kate pooped on the counter, but I can imagine a bit frustrating in the moment! I always love reading your blog postings, so keep the great things coming:)

    I must ask that you keep me and my precious Adyson Rae in your prayers this week. I’m due tomorrow, and am just getting a bit anxious about the whole labor and delivery process. Thanks in advance!!

  • Reply Amy August 2, 2008 at 7:12 pm

    God bless your sweet family. I find your blogs so refreshing. I’m on the same boat with as far as homeschooling and trying to entertain an energetic 2 yr old. My son is also potty training! Who’s training who,
    I’m not sure.
    I wish I could met you face to face. My heart goes out to you, as I have felt similar pain. Don’t worry about the speaking. God will speak through you, as you have already allowed Him too.

  • Reply queenoftheclick August 2, 2008 at 7:18 pm

    Angie, I’m certain that you are going to be amazing at The Southland Christian Church. How do I know? Because I am sure you will speak from the heart and share Our Lord with everyone there. In the evening after you speech, you will realize this is your calling.

  • Reply JennyM August 2, 2008 at 7:22 pm

    I found your blog a while ago and it has blessed me again and again. My husband and I are in the process of adopting 2 little girls from Russia and have run into roadblock after roadblock. I have asked God “Why?” so many times, I’m sure He expects to hear it weekly now. :0)

    I am so sorry about your precious Audrey but I know that God is blessing and creating something beautiful out of your pain. You have a gift of speaking through your blog to others so I know that speaking in “real life” will be no different. If I were closer to Lexington, I would come and hear you. Please let me know when you might be doing something in Tennessee (we live in Jackson) and I would love to come.

    May God continue to bless you and comfort you as you continue to miss your Audrey. Continue to be open to His leading and you will bless so many people.

    web.mac.com/jmartin7100 (my blog)

  • Reply Kelly August 2, 2008 at 7:26 pm

    WHY IS KY so far away???? I wish I could be there more than anything. You will do wonderful. You are beautiful and Jesus just flows through you. You just have to be willing.
    I don’t have any advice on homeschooling or potty training (yet) ha!

  • Reply LittleMomma August 2, 2008 at 7:27 pm

    I have two books to recommend for teaching the girls but also to include Kate. “Mommy, Teach Me!” and “Mommy, Teach Me to Read!” both by Barbara Curtis. This woman has 12 children and teahces them all. I hope this helps you. Also, know I’m still praying and looking forwad to the bible study!

  • Reply queenoftheclick August 2, 2008 at 7:31 pm

    Oh and to keep Kate busy while the girls are doing their homeschooling – how about you make her a packet of papers too – colors, mixing colors.



    Maybe Kate can help with some of the science activities such as collecting sea shells, leaves, pouring water, etc. Maybe Kate can participate in some of the physical education activities – dancing, jumping, walking on a line, etc.

    I don’t know how you feel about television, but maybe you can let Kate watch a video and create her a special tent to stay under while she watches it (just drape and tie a sheet to chairs).

    Giving Kate an activity box may keep her busy as well. So if you take a shoebox and put inside it 10 objects – a cotton ball, a rock, a small teddy bear, a can of tuna fish, a sock, etc. Then ask Kate to make a pile with all of the soft items OR a pile with all of the hard items. You can use the activity box to put items and ask her to take out all of the red, blue, yellow, etc. It’s a good sorting activity.

  • Reply Sara August 2, 2008 at 7:43 pm

    Okay, now I am so excited! I live an hour from Lexington, so I am going to try to come hear you speak. I am truly excited! And you will be fantastic. Just speak how you write – straight from your heart.
    Good luck with the potty training. No words of advice on the home schooling, but I am sure you will do a great job. Good luck!

  • Reply Laura August 2, 2008 at 7:45 pm

    Beautiful post…it had me laughing! I have a head-strong two year old as well, and I am DREADING potty training. Keep sharing any tips you have, I’ll need ’em! I’d love to be a part of a long distance study, if that becomes available. I’m so excited for your ministry, Angie!

  • Reply Linda August 2, 2008 at 7:45 pm

    It is exciting to hear what the Lord is doing in your life Angie. I totally understand about the “thin-skinned” thing. That is me – so much a people pleaser too (me). I try over and over again to get over it. The Lord and I are working on that one.
    Remembering all of your requests in prayer.

  • Reply Kristy Tootle August 2, 2008 at 7:51 pm

    okay weird….three of the things in your post ARE ACTUALLY things that I have been praying about this week….

    1. Miley Cyrus and my almost 8 yr old….your blog does not sway me either way on the subject, but I walk away feeling “normal”…I love that! I put too much pressure on myself to follow other moms leads and well…I am tired of it:)

    2. the word crap in our home…(i am guity of saying it and have felt much conviction abot it…)this came up in our home THIS WEEK!

    3. I have I guess what is “social anxiety” I have not ever been diagnosed BUT I have done enough research on it to conclude that is what I **think** I have…it has sometimes crippled me to the point of not being able to pursue my goals and passions…I don’t take meds which to each his own is my feeling on that subject, but I would love to be able to get over it…I am good at a lot of things, but worry too much what people think and I am a bad people pleaser!

    And okay now that you are a homeschool mom, I am drawn to your blog even more…

    Why I just shared all this is beyond me BUT thanks for always taking off your mask, being you, and letting us see the normal side of things, not tne sugar coated version so many of us portray!

    sorry for the grammer! I am breastfeeding and typing on my laptop w/ one hand!

  • Reply Carrie August 2, 2008 at 7:53 pm

    Angie –
    My niece did the same thing, only RIGHT NEXT to the potty chair. Like saying she will do it, but on her terms. She and Kate would be quite a force together. But, it really comes down to the battle of wills. Good luck.

  • Reply Karen and Shane August 2, 2008 at 7:57 pm

    I am continually amazed at how God speaks through you to me.

    God has seriously had me do some major inventory lately.

    I have felt Him calling me into ministry. I have absolutely no idea what this will look like and I too am completely terrified of everything you mentioned.

    I began potty training my 2 year old a month ago…she won the battle of the wills…maybe another month (or year!)

    I am seriously considering homeschooling my children but don’t know how people do it when they have kids who aren’t in school yet.

    And for your previous post…I was a professional photographer until I had my 2 kids…now Im just a mom who thinks in ‘blinks’ and has 50 thousand photos of her kids.

    Wish I could come hear you speak…He already has started your ministry…at least to one Mom in Texas.

  • Reply Kirsten August 2, 2008 at 8:03 pm


    Your blog is such a blessing! I love that you share your life with us in such a raw and honest way. God is using you in a such a pure and beautiful way. I’m so grateful that He brought you into our life. He has used you and your blog more times than I can count to touch my heart. Thank you!

    I will be praying for you and your speaking engagement. And that you will come to CA to speak – I would love to give you a big hug and look into your face. Some day…

    Have a blessed weekend!

    Love and Hugs,

  • Reply Stephanie August 2, 2008 at 8:05 pm

    I so wish I could be there to hear you speak…..you will do wonderful!! Your words are more powerful than you could ever imagine.

    Also, I think I’m going to start a bed time ritual, like you have, with my daughter….she is still young (15 months) but it’s never too early to start something like that.

    No advice here for potty training or home schooling….but I’m sure you’ll get great ideas from others.

    Still praying for you daily…

  • Reply queenoftheclick August 2, 2008 at 8:06 pm

    Oh one more idea to keep Kate busy…. While you are working with the girls, you may find that one of them needs your help. So if you are helping Abby with something, maybe Ellie could be Kate’s teacher. She could play a simple game with Kate. Dora’s ABC game is for 36 months to 6 years old. So while Ellie reinforces the ABCs, maybe she can assist you in teaching them to Kate with a memory game like this:


  • Reply wife, mother, and jesus lover August 2, 2008 at 8:14 pm

    I just finished the Beth Moore simulcast this morning. In short, it was amazing – exactly what i needed. God knew that of course.
    She was talking about how sick she gets right before she goes out on stage. Then she read Phil 2:17 "But even if I am being poured out like a drink offering on the sacrifice and service coming from your faith, I am glad and rejoice with all of you." (Bible notes) When you're totally committed to serving Christ, sacrificing to build the faith of others brings a joyous reward. So Beth said if that is her sacrifice so that others may meet & know Christ, then she will do it. I hope that brings you a little peace before you throw up! πŸ™‚

    She also used that Bible reference when talking about the things God is allowing us to go through are not always about us. When she shares her difficult past and women line up to talk to her & pray with her after a speaking event, sometimes one will ask how God could let those horrible things happen to her. She points at the line of women waiting & says it is for them. So that they may see God's love & how He can redeem a life.

    I write that with the highest effort of discerning my crazy & crowded notes after hearing Beth speak – hope it made sense.

    Angie – thank you for your honesty in every post. I am blessed by each one.

  • Reply The Wilkinson's August 2, 2008 at 8:21 pm

    Angie, I stumbled upon your blog in March and have been reading ever since. This summer has been a season of loss for my family and, although we did not lose children, your blog has been a source of comfort and encouragement to me during this time. I had to comment b/c I live in Lexington, KY and Lord willing – I will be there to support you on Oct. 3rd. I hope we can meet face to face, but if not, please know I will be praying for you (as I have been since that night in March). Thank you for letting God use you to minister to so many, you are truely a blessing in my life. Lindsey

  • Reply Carolyn August 2, 2008 at 8:33 pm

    As a woman in ministry (that used to sing before 5000 without worry and couldn’t put 2 words together in front of more than 2 people without feeling like fainting), I can tell you that God is sufficient! You won’t really understand this until you speak. Even then, the question, “God, are you sure you REALLY meant me?”, comes occasionally ever after. You will relate wonderfully to the people you speak to because God has ordained it–to His glory, Priase the Lord!

    PS-It’s at times like this that I question living in Wyoming; there aren’t enough people in the entire STATE to draw speakers or singers here! (I guess I’ll just have to find the money to meet you elsewhere!) πŸ˜‰

  • Reply brandiandboys August 2, 2008 at 8:37 pm

    meant to ask you and todd at the pool yesterday how you felt about arranged marriages.

    pete and i are totally open to a set up between your girls and our boys! πŸ™‚

  • Reply Elizabeth August 2, 2008 at 8:59 pm

    My mom has been a homeschool supervisor for several years – my greatest wish in life would be to talk her into homeschooling the kids I don’t have yet. If you really would like to talk to someone about ideas, resources, etc, I can put you in touch. I’m pretty sure you two would love each other.

    I’m doing a little inventory of my own – it’s hard to let go, isn’t it? Thanks again for being one of God’s voices in my life.


    p.s. I posted a comment on Greg’s blog to let them know we are praying – thanks for the link.

  • Reply KYMomma August 2, 2008 at 9:13 pm

    I am so excited that you will be coming to KY. YOu are a powerful speaker and will touch many with your faith and words.

    Potty training is the pits on moms . . . . period!! My advice is to stay consistent.

    I’m also excited that you’ll be doing an interactive bible study. I would love to come to Nashville since I’m only about 2 hours away but the interactive one would be a great way for all of us to get involved.

    Have a blessed weekend!!

  • Reply Joy August 2, 2008 at 9:16 pm

    I am thin-skinned too!!! I love being “behind the scenes” but I get ill thinking of being out front. And yet once I’ve spoken or taught something, I feel a great sense of accomplishment at the end.

    I’m going to start homeschooling as well! My oldest is 3.

    As for potty training, just be consistent and persistent! “Potty Training in a Day” is a great book, I’ve heard.

  • Reply Beverly August 2, 2008 at 9:35 pm

    Angie – We began homeschooling when our youngest was potty training. It was hard to accomplish much at one time because it seemed that I was always up and running to the bathroom, to either put him on the potty, or take him off, or wipe a hiney… lol. One of the beauties of homeschooling is that you CAN do that. I love how flexible our lives are, and that if someone needs help in the bathroom, we can pause and take care of it – then pick up where we left off. And I think that your girls are young enough that they are not into a lot of the “hard core” learning yet, so it’s okay to keep it relaxed!

    Some helpful advice that I found when we began our homeschool adventure was that when it comes to younger children – sometimes THEY are the lesson. Your girls will get to see a lot of things in action – such as patience, kindness, love – just to name a few. And really, a lot of what homeschooling is all about it learning to get along with those around you. My daughter has earned the nickname “Supernanny” at our house, because she loves to help out with her little brother. It’s a beautiful thing!

    Come check out my homeschool blog sometime.. maybe there would be something there that would help in some way. It’s Home For Heaven’s Sake.



  • Reply Amy August 2, 2008 at 9:46 pm

    I forgot to mention, one of my favorite books is, The Toddler Busy Book. Barnes and Noble has it on their website. It may help keep your Kate busy during school. I plan on using it for my Daniel. πŸ™‚

  • Reply Hilary August 2, 2008 at 9:50 pm

    I have followed along with your blog since before Audrey was born. I have been touched by you, I have prayed for you and I check in often to see how things are going for you.
    I just want to say thank you so much for putting a link to my sister’s blog (I am MCK mama’s sister.) I am truly touched how this “blogworld” has united in prayer for people who need it. My sister and my unborn nephew definitely need it now and I am so grateful to you for praying for her and passing along her story.
    Thanks for sharing YOUR story and faith with us. May God continue to bless you and use your and Audrey’s story to bring others to Christ.
    You are in my prayers.

  • Reply Julie August 2, 2008 at 9:53 pm

    OK! You have been missed! Thank you for the update! A few things…

    I homeschool our almost 5 year old. I am new at it. I am using Sunlight for literature, Horizons for math and Veritas for Phonics. Our 3 year old Charlotte plays with counting bears, draws, snacks, whatever, at the table while we are working. Or a Leapfrog video. The baby is napping usually. Which leads me to my next point. DO not try to recreate “school.” You will fail! Your daughters will despise it! DO it naturally, as you have time, have Daddy read to them, my husband is a pediatric anesthesiologist so he does science too. But in general, no stress and start slow. I started too fast which made me SO anxious in my chest and she was trying to buck the system.

    Potty training… I had the same problem. I got a jar (small) and we put a jelly bean in every time she went on the potty. She could eat one and put the other in the jar (delay gratification too!) At the end she had a cookie party (1 friend + siblings, box mix, can frosting, EASY). It worked for me, incentive helped her be responsible for it.

    Hope you don’t mind the suggestions… and yes the computer EATS away your time for sure. But just know I love what you write and it really ministers to my heart.

    In Him,

  • Reply Nicole August 2, 2008 at 9:54 pm

    THANK YOU for the story of Kate poo’ing on your counter! I am going through the potty training ordeal with my almost 3 year old daughter. Everyone told me that ‘girls are easier’ but, I almost wish I was back to potty training my son!
    As for entertaining Kate while you homeschool… I make a photo copy of whatever I’m working on with my son (my daughter is almost 3, my son is 4), and I let her sit there and color on the paper. She thinks she’s learning too… and maybe she is!? You can find preschool workbooks that she might be interested in. Don’t stress about what she’s ‘learning’ or ‘not learning’, as long as she’s having fun! Good luck!

  • Reply StacieLeigh August 2, 2008 at 10:08 pm

    Been reading for a couple months, but just now posting.

    I am off on the adventure of homeschooling a 5 year old with a 3 and almost 2 year old underfoot.

    The best advice I can give (which of course was given to me by someone much wiser) is to try not to just “busy” a little one so I can do “important” things with the older one(s).

    “Playtime is learning time.” said my friend. I was encouraged to find some educational type toys that were age appropriate and to store them away in a bin for “school time” only, so that when the big kid got to do school, so did the little one.

    It has helped my littler guy look forward to his “school” time instead of dreading mommy being busy and hushing him.

    I’ll say a prayer for your potty training efforts. (I like to call it the bane of motherhood… potty training, not praying, that is ;))

    Thanks for taking the time to uplift and encourage all of us, even in your own time of need.


  • Reply Cristi August 2, 2008 at 10:15 pm

    I know this is crazy to post here and now, but I was just scrolling down this page on your blog and watched that video again of Kate chatting on and on, while the twins wait patiently. The expressions on their faces is priceless. That is too funny, and if there were awards for You tube videos that would definitely get a nomination! πŸ™‚

  • Reply dlyn August 2, 2008 at 10:15 pm

    Our daughter and her two kids spent 3 months with us recently while her husband worked up in their new location while they looked for a house. Potty training was in the pretty distant past for us, and I have to say we did not miss it one bit. The little refresher on all the fun really convinced us! I will add your speaking engagement to my prayers for your family – praying it is a sweet thing for you.

  • Reply Joy August 2, 2008 at 10:16 pm

    I am reminded of the words of Jen Hatmaker in her book A Modern Girls’ Guide to Bible Study. She writes of her first opportunities to speak in churches and says that when she told her mother about how nervous she was, her mother said, “What an opportunity, Jen! God has chosen you to deliver His Word! Honey, listen to me. You remember that every time you are blessed with the chance to speak in front of a large crowd, you have the privelege and the opportunity…to buy new clothes. Good ones. And new shoes.”

    HA!! So, you go girl!! Share the Word of God that He imparts to you….and buy that new outfit!!

  • Reply ~Alicia~ August 2, 2008 at 10:47 pm

    Yay for the interactive blog! That’s so great that you feel compelled to include us Angie!

    Your comment about being thin-skinned, and so worried about letting people down all the time really resonated with me, as I struggle with the same problem ALL THE TIME! I had to laugh when you wrote “God kindly told me to get over myself and be obedient”. Haha that is so true! I think we all need to be told to get over ourselves every once and a while! But know that I and I’m sure many other of your faithful blog women here will be praying for you as you embark on this mission.

    Love, Alicia

  • Reply Felton/Casey August 2, 2008 at 11:01 pm

    Well congrats on your brand new adventure in home schooling. I began my adventure last fall with my 2 girls who are 15 months apart in age after I realized that public school wasn’t working for us. I also have a young child who just turned 4, and I enrolled him in a private christian preschool 2 days a week and that helped balance things a lot. But I have found that including him in any lesson that I can helps too. Also, my girls were in gymnastics for P.E. and so I went ahead and signed him up and it really made him feel so big. And, during the girls’ piano lessons, I spend some alone time with my son and that helps too.

  • Reply KimMc August 2, 2008 at 11:19 pm

    I had to laugh out loud at your “crap story” I loved it! And I love when I check in and see that you have written. You are amazing and I am glad that you are being obedient to God’s calling on your life… I think that you will be a wonderful servant in the ministry…and I hope that I get lucky enough to hear you one day! Thanks for sharing your life with us! P.S. I have already visited Greg and Nichol’s blog, I am glad to be able to check in on them as well!

  • Reply weavermom August 2, 2008 at 11:19 pm

    My kids are 3 yrs apart, so I was doing K with a 2yr old bouncing around. πŸ™‚ Here are a couple of sites I would recommend:

    This whole site is worth looking through. She is more structured than I think you are, but you can still take what you think will work for you.

    I got the first one of these books, and will be trying out the activity bags with my now 4 yr old this year. These were recommended to me by a mom with 8 kids who has used them with success. I have high hopes that he will like these:

    I know your speaking engagement will be fantastic. If nothing else, just read what you write – you write so beautifully.

  • Reply DameyDonelle August 2, 2008 at 11:23 pm

    Good luck with the homeschooling!! You and your girls will definitely be in my prayers. I still have 3 weeks before my classes start back and I am dreading it!

    You will be in my prayers while in the potty training days as well. I remember helping my mom with the kids she kept daily. It is such a struggle, but will definitely pay off in the end. Not that I need to remind you, you have already done it with the twins!!


  • Reply Tales From the Eurovan August 2, 2008 at 11:37 pm

    We have had so many of those talks about words, what we say, how we say it, etc. It is convicting for me. We’ve also had the same scenario at night praying when someone lets a toot and it all goes downhill. Sometimes it’s just nice to know I’m not alone in that! I will pray for you and your speaking engagement for a peace about what to say and for the ability to say it. Take care, Julie

  • Reply rusty'swife August 3, 2008 at 12:08 am


    God is so good!! Here in West Texas, we will be starting the Steppig Up Bible Study about the same time as you. I am so looking forward to studying with you.

    My word use to be spit…I had a very very potty mouth until about 2 years ago. I used spit in place of a lot of others, until I heard it coming out of my 5 year old grandson’s mouth..broke me fast…speaking of which he is available, if you are considering arranged marriage…any of the three you have, or future would be fine, if God graces you with a boy I also have a couple of girls.

    I will mark my calendar and be praying for your first in person speaking ministry. God will give you everything you need to do this.

    In Him,

  • Reply Meet the DuRoss's: August 3, 2008 at 12:16 am

    I must say, I was so excited to see a new blog ~ I literally check it everyday to see if you have updated (a little "stalker-ish!!!). I feel so blest to be able to read over your words and I know I am not, but it feels like we're family. I read them and am guaranteed to shed a few or more tears. But, I know that God uses all these things to place His focus on Him.

    I asked my current Beth Moore bible study group to lift you up in prayer and Greg & Nicole as well. I live in Ohio, so I would be thrilled if we found a way to do the Beth Moore study online!!! Please keep us posted.

    I am excited to see that the Lord is leading you into sharing your life thru speaking ~ I think He often takes us to places we don't feel comfortable, so that we remember it is not of ourselves (we must empty out so that He can fill us up). You go girly!! My only thought is ~ are you sure He is isn't leading you into a "parenting" book as well??? Seriously these stories (i.e. Kate pooping on the counter) are just to precious! I was inspired by your bed-time routine w/ the girls. I have done devotions & prayers, but never thought to ask Selah (my 3 1/2 year old) about something she would like to tell God she is sorry for.

    Thanks for sharing ~ I was also wondering how you were feeling off of the anxiety medicine???

    In His Love,

    Hope (Chagrin Falls, OH)

  • Reply lissilulu August 3, 2008 at 12:23 am

    Hi Angie,
    I love how you are being obedient to the Lord in the speaking engagement. I feel the Lord has some sort of pubic speaking to women at some time in my future and just keep reminding myself that I will be ready when He says it is time. That gives me great reassurance; so I guess if He called you then you are ready. :o)

    I am a single homeschool mom to five children and am graduating my first child this next year.
    I have two basic ideas for you.

    *organize your schooling into 30 minute increments–maybe even 20 minutes; have one specific time slot for each child for like reading time that is one on one and while that specific child is with you then the other plays with Kate.

    *have fun totes of toys or activities that Kate can only play with at school time.

    Your friend,

  • Reply created2teach August 3, 2008 at 12:30 am

    I don’t generally use the word crap either, but when I read of poop on the counter, I could not help but go there. lol. I think it is really neat to see what God is using in your healing. It looks like moving outside your comfort zone is one of those things. He will carry you when you need it.

  • Reply Christine August 3, 2008 at 12:31 am

    On homeschooling:

    Don’t work at keeping one occupied while you’re trying to “teach” the other. Instead, work really hard at making the learning process a very natural occurrence that involves everyone. They won’t just learn more, but they’ll remember more. It shouldn’t look like school. It should look like life.

    On potty training:

    Don’t push it – at all. Better to have them lead the way – it will end up being easy-peasy.

    Who the hell (or crap?) am I:

    I’m a pastor’s wife. I’m starting my fifth year of homeschooling. I have been a foster mom to kids ages 4 and under. I’m also a mom to five (this year that means grades 6, 5, 4, 3 and Kindergarten!). They all eventually learned to go in the potty (and most of the time they still do! ha!).

  • Reply Kori August 3, 2008 at 12:40 am

    The potty training tidbit of info is hilarious. When Jacob was being potty trained he pooped on my Dad’s back porch while we were having a cookout with friends and family. Humiliated? oh yes.

    I will be praying for you and as far as the speaking engagement… just give it to God he’ll take you through it. Before you know it, it’ll be over and all is well. Much love and blessings to you and yours.

  • Reply jenn August 3, 2008 at 1:20 am

    ‘Stepping Up’ is WONDERFUL! I’m working through it with a couple of my friends. I’m sure you will enjoy the study. πŸ™‚

  • Reply Bethany August 3, 2008 at 1:26 am

    Oh wow! Southland is my HOME church!! I so wish I could be there to see you πŸ™ I live in Michigan now. Who knows? Maybe I could wing it….
    Either way, God will take care of you. He will speak through you. It’s hard to know that at this point, but somehow, if I trust Him, he works through me and I seem to have very little control (that’s a good thing!)
    Your Sis,
    Bethany in Michigan

  • Reply Lainey-Paney August 3, 2008 at 1:32 am

    Oh, the prayer story made me giggle. So sweet & so cute!

  • Reply xbabygirlmc4x August 3, 2008 at 1:43 am

    Angie, I’ve been a reader of your blog since April. I usually do not comment, but I thought I should today. Your blog has inspired me to be a more religious person and to get in touch with our Lord. I’ve never been a religious person, but I do pray from time to time. I feel much better about a lot of things now that I reach out to Him and pray more often. So, I thank you for being an inspiration to me.

    Good luck with the potty training!

  • Reply David and Lori Plus 8 August 3, 2008 at 1:49 am

    Once again, treasured the time reading your blog…was praying for you as a few days had passed and we had not heard from you. You have a way of writing that gets right to the heart, and I’m sure your speaking will affect those listening in ways that you can’t imagine. God is so ever present in your life and we are all so grateful that you share your story with us. Isn’t that what it is all about? Sharing life with others and glorifying Him. I can’t wait for the info to come out regarding the bible study (I tell others I can’t commit to anything this fall until I hear dates and times from you!) I’m in clarksville, and will drive however far to grow closer to God with you. Thanking you for sharing your story with all of us.

  • Reply Jamie August 3, 2008 at 1:51 am

    Great post!! You are so real and that is evident. You don’t mind sharing whatever comes to mind!! I am a homeschooling mom too and it is the best life you could ask for!! I wish every family could experience the richness that comes from learning together at home!! Your speaking engagement is going to be awesome!! I know you will share what the Lord lays on your heart!! Take care!

  • Reply the*4*of*us August 3, 2008 at 1:55 am

    Girl, if you speak anything like you write–you’ll be fantastic! I love reading your blog and it’s always so inspiring for me!
    I was cracking up at the backseat story! Too funny!
    Homeschooling–I had a box of fun little things to pull out only during school time with my son, and these were things to keep my daughter entertained. Oh, and I gave her some kidney beans (dry) with 2 bowls and measuring cups. She loved to transfer them from bowl to bowl! Just don’t do this if she’ll eat them!

  • Reply vaneblu August 3, 2008 at 2:12 am

    I got a good laugh out of todays post… Oh My Crap *LOL*
    Thanks for posting Nicol and Greg’s Blog (I cried so hard reading their post)
    I will pray for baby Stellan!

  • Reply Amy August 3, 2008 at 2:16 am

    Hooray for the speaking and the homeschooling! You’ve had many fantastic suggestions so far, no need to add anything. I did utilize naptimes for my more concentrated lessons. If you’re feeling desperate, I did write a how-to on beginning homeschooling on my blog. Go to http://www.earnestparenting.com and type homeschool into the search box.

    As for potty training, have you ever looked into the Love and Logic books? Kate sounds like a young lady who may very well benefit greatly from the approach! I strongly recommend it.

  • Reply Kate August 3, 2008 at 2:18 am

    What a perfectly normal, down to earth, just another (sometimes long…but always worth a little chuckle) day in the trenches of motherdom. Your little girl with the colorful vocabulary sounds like the light of you life! IN my house the phrase “What the…?” had to go on the naughty list as it just sounds so FRESH coming out of the mouth of my innocent 3 year old. We also went circles trying to explain why it wasn’t a nice thing to say….and then had a good laugh later (when Lia was sleeping) about how crazy these kind of conversations can become. Luckily we were not planning to have dinner with a pastor that evening! πŸ™‚

    I will be praying for you as you prepare for your first speaking engagement…I am sure you will touch the lives of many. You have touched mine.

    Thank you for your honesty. Thank you for your humble heart. Thank you for sharing your journey.

    With gratitude,


  • Reply Julie August 3, 2008 at 2:21 am

    OK- this post has been contagious.

    I tell my 5 yo an hour ago to please pick up her markers and put them away. What does she say? “I don’t need this crap.” I say excuse me, what did you just say? We don’t use that word in this house do we Mom. Can you think of another word? She says then I don’t need this stuff Mom.”


    To boot- 1 minute ago she says ” Mom I hate it when people use the word fart. We don’t say that in our house do we?”

    I say “no- we don’t use that word. And we don’t use the word hate either.”

    “But Mommy, the Grinch uses it. He says I hate Christmas trees.”

    And so on and so forth the conversation goes. But you know, b/c of this post I was ready and for some odd reason almost anticipating this?? Oddly enough??

    Hope ya’ll had a good laugh : ) Not that it’s funny at all : )


  • Reply jamie in rose cottage August 3, 2008 at 2:34 am

    That confession/prayer story about your sweet girls cracked me up. (but is a great analogy of what we grown-ups do, too!)
    And welcome to the homeschool club! I’m a homeschool mom, too, and it is SUCH a blessing. I’ve got a ton of homeschool-related stuff on my blog, and although I’m sure not a pro, I’m always happy to try to answer any questions! πŸ™‚

  • Reply jill August 3, 2008 at 2:36 am

    Yay for your first year of homeschooling! I am a homeschool graduate(yes I did it through all 12 years) and am getting ready for my second year of college. It is so worth it…you won’t regret it. It is the BEST thing my mom has ever done for me. As for including Kate, I suggest setting “Field Trip” days and she can join the twins. When we were younger, my mom did this with us every Friday and we loved it!! Also I’m sure there are homeschooling groups there; they are a blessing to be a part of. I enjoy your blog…I just don’t always post. Take care, Angie. You’ll do great speaking. Remember your words are the Lord’s.

  • Reply noahandlylasmommi August 3, 2008 at 2:43 am

    I always jump for joy when I see that you have posted a new blog. I so enjoy reading everything you have to talk about. I will be praying that your speaking goes well which I know it will πŸ˜‰ Looking forward to the progress with the bible study blog as well. What a blessing that I have come across you and your family from all the way across the country.

  • Reply Caleb's Family August 3, 2008 at 2:48 am

    Thank you for bringing a smile to my day!That Kate is something else! I trust things will go well in Lexington. God has already blessed you you with the words to speak.

  • Reply Michelle August 3, 2008 at 2:52 am

    I believe God has great things planned for you. Lexington is just the beginning. I know you will do a fabulous job!! He has blessed you with a special gift.

  • Reply Jesslyn42 August 3, 2008 at 2:56 am


    You have brought such laughter, once again! I love your honesty. It makes me feel even closer to you each time you write. Thank you for your wonderful, joyous, and truthful words. You are just a blessing.
    I will be praying for you, as always, but even more so that your speaking engagement will glorify God in every way and that you will be as calm as possible. I know you’ll do amazing, though ~ I have NO doubt about that. If I could be there with you, I’d be there in a heartbeat. Know that you will be in my heart, just as you are each and every day! I truly love you as a very special and dear friend and Sister in Christ. Thank you for your unfailing love and commitment to each one of us.

    Love you tons and sending lots of hugs your way and to your family!

    Love always,
    Jess πŸ™‚

  • Reply Candi August 3, 2008 at 2:57 am

    Angie, you’re such an ispiration to me and I was thrilled to read that you’re coming to Lexington! Do you know what time you’ll be speaking so I can mark that date on my calendar? πŸ™‚

  • Reply bbharg August 3, 2008 at 2:59 am

    To say that I have goose bumps all over as I read that you accept is an understatement. We knew you would come around, and were just waiting on God to knock you in the forehead. We can’t wait to see you again. PRAISE THE LORD!!!!

  • Reply cass August 3, 2008 at 3:15 am

    Nothing like a poop story to bring moms together…my daughter tried to pee outside (and standing up)like her 2 big brothers do. Of course it was while I was trying to have a garage sale…..and she chose the FRONT yard rather than the back yard!!! Oh what a mess that was…and the things she says (blurts out of her tiny yet LOUD mouth) in public restroom stalls……

    Teaching makes you a better speaker whether you realize it or not. It really sounds like two of your current jobs will go hand in hand. I have taught a variety of ages from toddler to teens and had no idea what it has done for my public speaking…I used to be nervous when speaking to “grown ups” but several freinds at church really complimented me the last time I spoke in front of our church (they said I was very easy to listen to, clear, and calm?!?) I guess it felt so much like being in front of a classroom it didn’t bother me so much anymore. I think the practice you get by homeschooling your girls will help ease the presentation anxiety.

    I have to admit, I envy (just a little!)the fact that you can hear God so clearly sometimes. That is one of my biggest struggles—distinguishing what is HIS will and not mine. Thanks for encouraging us as we read what you have to share.

  • Reply hkudla August 3, 2008 at 3:26 am

    I just wanted to say, that if you are doing the Stepping up study, and set up a seperate blog for it, maybe pop over to the LPM blog, where beth has been hosting a study for the summer. She puts up a video every other Tuesday as a greeting (you wouldn’t have to do that, and it’s every other week casue she didn’t want to overload us for the summer) but then she comes up with some key discussion questions for us. If we are running solo, we check in an answer the questions ourselves, if we are in a small group doing it, then we discuss, and someone comes back in and leaves comments for the whole group on how the meeting went, key points that were discussed, anything that anyone wanted to have shared, etc.
    Her posts for the studies are labeled “Summer Siesta Bible Study” i think. It has been huge for me to know that I am in a community of believers from all over the country, doing the same study. Though I wasn’t able to get a group together to do it with me for the summer, it would be a really neat way of doing a study this year, and maybe involving one or two of my friends that can meet on a flexible schedule and then check in with your site once a week or whatever.
    Just my thoughts from the one Beth hosted this summer. It has been really fun.

    As far as potty training… it took my son until he was almost 4 to decide to do #2 on the potty… let me tell you how much I hate cleaning out underwear?!?! My daughter is now not quite 2 1/2, she is showing interest in being on the potty. most times she knows when it is coming, and tells me… after the fact… unless she is in the tub, or already being changed, then she will say “poopies” and i rush her to the toilet, with success. But it absolutely has to be her idea. If I ask and she doesn’t want to, there is no forcing her. I learned that with my son. Nothing worked for him until he made up his mind… he liked standing too much, and playing outside that summer he was 3, to take the time to come inside and sit down… i still catch him outside in our BACKYARD “watering a tree” bare butt and all… sigh… πŸ™‚
    God bless,
    Heather in WI

  • Reply Liz August 3, 2008 at 3:44 am

    Angie, I love you.

    I don't even know you, but I love you.

    I read your blog & I can see reflections of myself & my life. We don't have identical life stories, but so much of what comes through on your blog sounds like you just might be my twin sister. Maybe not physically ('cuz girl, you've got me beat in the beauty department anyday!) but most definately in every other way!!!

    I read this post & laughed while I was reading about Kate's crap/hell thing and about Ellie's prayer. My husband heard me chuckling & asked me to read it to him as well. He cracked up and said "she's good". (which is his manly way of saying he enjoyed your writing style–after all, you do have to translate man-speak sometimes, right?)

    Anyway, I just wanted to tell you how much I continue to enjoy your words. Encouragement, depth, joy & laughter intermingled with sorrow & honest pain. I have long been an "advocate" for transparency within the church. We can't minister to others if they don't know our "story". And girl, I've read your story…and you're ministering to me every time I read it! THANK YOU for sharing your soul & your kids & your life with all of us readers. You are awesome, girl!

    And just for the record, if I lived anywhere around where you'll be speaking, I would SO be there! You rock!

  • Reply Susan August 3, 2008 at 3:52 am

    I had a tough time potty training my daughter…she was 3! She would go pee pee on the potty, but if she had to go poop, she would come to me and ask for a pullup, hide, put it on and when she was done, she would come back to me and ask me to change her and then she would put her panties back on! I was so frustrated by this because it was so obvious that she had complete control of her bodily functions…I didn’t know what to do, so I took her to her pediatrician who told me to “Leave her alone!” Using or not using the toilet is the last bit of control a child has left and when Alex was ready to give up that control..or what she perceived as control…she would do it. He told me that the more I pushed her to use the toilet, the more she would push back and do things “her way”….So I left her alone. 2 months later while sitting at the dinner table she announced, “I have to go poo poo and I’m going on the potty.”….She got up, went on the potty and that was the end of the whole potty training thing. I guess her dr was right. She wanted to remain in control of this situation….the one thing mommy and daddy can’t really make them do. Once she made up her mind and decided to do it, she did.

    What a relief!

    Good luck…your Kate is a smart one!!


  • Reply missy August 3, 2008 at 4:03 am

    Hi Angie,

    I was told about your blog by a friend after I lost my dad two months ago. I have really been struggling as it was so unexpected and he was so young (61).

    I am sorry about your precious Audrey, but am thrilled for our God to have new special angels to watch over us.

    I live in Hendersonville and if there is any space in the Beth Moore study, I would love to be included.

    I know my God is with me always, but I have to say I have felt further from him lately and that scares me SO much.

    You are an incredible lady with an amazing faith that is contagious.

    Bless you!!!

  • Reply another day in paradise August 3, 2008 at 4:04 am

    Since there is a recurring Mom vs. Kate theme here – homeschool: just go ahead and start her at her level. Include her, give her stuff to do. Don’t try to entertain or distract her,go ahead and teach her. Homeschool can at its best creates life long learners, who don’t wait for school to start and stop. Re the Potty – if you make ‘elimination’ a battle, the child will always win. ALWAYS. You can do a lot, but you cannot make them eat, sleep, or go to the bathroom on your schedule. She has two older sisters and a mother. When she is ready, she’ll do it. Give yourself and her a break. She won’t go to college in diapers. She’s figured out how to push the ‘bad words’ button – don’t put another one out there for her. I have 4, all are potty trained, none are sucking their thumbs, all have mastered profanity. All in time, all in time.

  • Reply KK August 3, 2008 at 4:06 am

    Oh, your precious little ones, love hearing about them! I will be praying for you tomorrow as you travel and speak. I’m confident you’ll know the right words to say and I look forward to hearing about your 1st speaking engagement. I also look forward to hearing more about the possibility for those of us who do not live in your area, to possibly be able to share in the Bible Study. Thanks also for sharing Baby Luke’s blog, and I continue to pray for all of their precious family. I will also be praying for your friend, while she is hospitalized, in hopes her sweet little one will be healed, as only He can do. Always know you are in my daily thoughts and prayers, as well as your precious family. With His Everlasting Love,
    Psalm 46:10

  • Reply Way More Homemade August 3, 2008 at 4:10 am

    I wanted to pass this along to you.


    They had 33 minutes with their son.

  • Reply Bevy August 3, 2008 at 4:20 am

    How about in the prayer with Abby & Ellie – that Abby would forgive Ellie for TAKING her dolly. So that she would believe that she needs that so she doesn't hold bitterness to her sister?
    How do you remember stuff so long ago that your kids did or said – man – I still can't remember something my son said when he was about 13 mons – I still wonder what it was – it was HILARIOUS and had something to do with toothpaste! Dang!
    My daughter at the age of about 18 mos said a couple cuss words that I was famous for – in the same intonation that I use … I was in the front seat TRYING to not laugh … God bless you!

  • Reply These Three Kings August 3, 2008 at 4:24 am

    Hi Angie!
    Just wanted you to know I am praying for your family! I pray as well that the LORD would continue to give you the future grace to endure all that happens tomorrow and in the future.. I am sure of it..because HE promises it to us πŸ™‚
    May you continue to grow in the peace that surpasses all understanding

  • Reply thejoyfulchaos August 3, 2008 at 5:00 am


    Kinda random. Sorry. I’m new here. My friend’s been reading you for awhile and she sent me here because, well, I’ve been homeschooling for 2 years now. And I write for a great site, that I don’t know if you’re familiar with – Heart of the Matter – http://www.heartofthematteronline.com, which is a free online all things homeschool magazine/blog. If there’s anything I can encourage you with, please feel free to email or comment at either site. We’re great at homeschoolin’ encouragement!!

  • Reply Keri August 3, 2008 at 5:34 am

    Ok, a couple of things…..
    1. I am THRILLED that you accepted a speaking engagement! I’ll consider the Texas invite as a seed planted! God has been speaking so clearly through you and He will not leave your side when you are on that platform speaking. I wish I could be there!’

    2. Also thrilled that maybe I can join in with your Beth Moore bible study. Her study in Houston this fall is for women 25 years old and younger….which I most certainly am not, even though I like to pretend I am!

    Please pass on to your readers that our “Gift with Contribution” this month at LPM is a Bible study workbook of your choice. I believe there is a minimum contribution of $10, but I may be wrong about that. It’s a great way for women to support Beth’s ministry and be blessed with a workbook for whatever study they may be doing this fall.

    Keep us posted on a possible virtual joining of the Bible study!

    I will keep your prayer requests close at hand and appreciate your effort at going to battle through prayer in honor of so many women out there!

  • Reply bethany August 3, 2008 at 5:35 am

    Hi Angie,
    I love to read your posts so don’t worry about them being “all over the place”. We are women and if were not all over the place we just wouldn’t be ourselves, right!
    As for homeschooling….I am a teacher for young children with autism and one of the things that we do a lot of (that would be good for Kate) is shoebox tasks. One of your other posting ladies made a reference to a shoebox activity so I wanted to give you a website with lots of ideas related to shoebox tasks. They are pretty easy to assemble, store, and fun for the little ones!
    It is http://www.shoeboxtasks.com
    Hope this is helpful!
    Oh, by the way, you are going to be great with your speaking engagement! Just saw Beth Moore this weekend for her LPL Simulcast and the wonder woman said that she gets so nervous before her speaking events that she is physically ill before most of them. Rest assured sweet one, if Beth gets sick and still is used greatly of the Lord so will you!!!!

  • Reply Keri August 3, 2008 at 5:42 am

    Oh yes….forgot one thing.

    My 9 year old, just this week, tried out the word “crap”. It ended up being more of a conviction because I know he has heard me say it. It just doesn’t sound as bad in my head or coming out of my mouth as it does leaving those sweet 9 year old lips. Although, it’s better than last summer when he tried out “What the hell?” in the car with me, my other son, and an entire family we were visiting at the time.

    They all looked at me and I honestly didn’t know what to say. We were all shocked and I didn’t know whether to laugh, scold him, start defending our home values, or what!! Needless to say, he and I had some sweet one on one time that night having a talk about our speech honoring God.

    Oh the joys of parenting!

  • Reply Tonya Roberts August 3, 2008 at 6:19 am

    Angie, when I homeschooled our boys, and our little Clara was only just two, Clara had her own little child sized table (a target special) at the back of the room and there were special toys that were only available to her during our “working times”. She had some blocks and some Lincoln Logs…some special crayons and some counting teddy bears. They were put away at all other times. But when I got ready for my boys, I got ready for her and after our family reading and bible timw, when we moved on to things that required my full attention, like math lessons, etc…Clara knew that was her time for the special toys. Could be blocks, or special magnets, or special crayons or stickers or even playdoh if you are in the kitchen on the tile! At other times there were videos….but at 2 their attention spans are on the short side! Good luck with all of that!

  • Reply Skerry August 3, 2008 at 6:45 am

    I just spent the past 2 yrs homeschooling my now 15yr old son, he is a dancer and we homeschooled for various reasons. This year he will be starting 10th grade at a Performing Arts High School, he is sooo excited. I am thrilled for him but selfishly sad for me, I have had the most amazing time with him these past 2 yrs. How many Mom’s get to hang with their teen son everyday? We used Abeka and it worked for us. Enjoy the special learning time you have with your children, I promise you will learn more than you teach. Good luck with your speaking engagement and thank you for your wonderful words, they always touch my heart. I continue to keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.

  • Reply Kathy August 3, 2008 at 7:05 am

    My Dear Angie,
    I just wanted to tell you that I have been reading your posts for quite some time and I pray for you and for your sister-in-law and brother-in-law. I am grandmother to two precious baby girls, 4 years and 12 months. I understand your pain. I lost numerous pregnancy’s, though earlier on, when I was a young woman and my husband and I were trying to have a family. God eventually blessed us with a miracle birth child and an adopted child (which is not different in any way other than the method of delivery!). Our daughter also lost one sweet baby between her two girls. It has been many years now since the losses my husband and I went through, but in and instant I can go back to those moments of suffering. With God’s great gift of healing I have learned over these years to think about those precious lost babies that I so longed for with great anticipation and even joy. What are they like? Will they be waiting for me to hold them for the first time as I enter God’s presence?

    I was at my daughter’s side as her own sweet child, my second grandchild, left us. Believe me as I tell you that I understand your suffering, I also understand something you can’t yet. But you will learn it through time and faith. God will heal you. I promise you that you will eventually learn to think about your sweet girl with more joy than pain. There is no power on earth, no words, no actions that can match the power of God’s Grace.

    Angie, your blog surely is reaching out to many women who need encouragement and faith in Christ. At risk of writing a book here, I would like to tell you a little bit about a remarkable young couple who are standing on faith in spite of the agony of their own loss. My precious little niece and her husband, a young minister in Alabama, have recently entered the family of those who know the most terrible pain, the loss of a child. They are blessed to have a little girl, just turning two. They were thrilled to discover that they were expecting another little girl in June. The 20week ultrasound revealed a terrible cardiac defect. Literally, the left side of Avery’s heart was not there. Avery Layne. “Confirmation”. Avery’s parents chose to believe that their precious little girl was confirmation of their Father’s Grace. Their faith never waivered. A treatment plan was organized by teams at two hospitals. Avery held her own throughout the otherwise uncomplicated pregnancy. The plan was to do a series of surgeries beginning sometime in the first week of life, attempting to build a new heart. If all else failed, a transplant. Our sweet girl delivered her Avery full term by
    C section on June 16. It was not possible to wait for surgery. Little Avery weakened rapidly and needed immediate surgery in an attempt to save her. For some reason unknown to us, but known in detail by God, sweet little Avery Layne did not live. Within the first few hours of life on earth, she rested in the arms of Jesus. I don’t need to tell you the agony her parents suffered with the terrible news and as they held their girl just one time. Since the day their world changed, this precious, faithful couple, kids themselves really, has tried in every way possible to rest on their faith. Their suffering is unimaginable, their tears countless. You understand. My heart is broken for these kids who will never be the same, their innocence gone with the simple words that their baby was gone.

    I would so appreciate it if you would pray for these young parents. Their names are Cassie and Trace, their two year old is Taylor. Their faith is strong, but I am sure you understand well how easily this kind of loss changes everything. Their loss is still very new to them and they have much to learn and cope with in the future.

    I believe joy will find my niece and her husband and that it will find you and your husband again because God is able and because you are all choosing to fight against the weariness of pain. As Believers of the one true God we know assuredly that prayer is the answer to our private and joint healing. As I am commited to pray for Cassie and Trace, I also pray for you and Luke’s parents as you all heal in God’s own perfect time.

    Praying that you will be find great comfort in God’s loving arms of compassion and grace.

  • Reply Sadie Terrell Smith August 3, 2008 at 7:25 am

    You’ve given me and my whole family (who i just read this post to out loud) quite a laugh. Well, really, your children have ;). Your requests are with me, so please know that one more person has you covered. Your humility is an inspiration. It is a quality I know God will use for far greater a purpose than we can imagine come October. Your ordinariness is far more encouraging than it is a letdown, at least from where I’m sitting. Thank you for your faithfulness to God and to the continuation of your daughter’s legacy. Sweet Peace be with you and your family tonight.

  • Reply Theresa August 3, 2008 at 11:35 am

    How wonderful that you posted this about ‘crap’….my husband and I were having a conversation yesterday about that word and if the children can use it or not. It seems to be a big issue around here.

  • Reply Marcia August 3, 2008 at 11:54 am

    Hi Angie

    I’m so excited about your speaking engagement and I KNOW you’ll do great. You are so good at being open and real and that’s really all people want. I also speak professionally (but on subjects like time management and organising) and I get the best feedback when people relate to ME πŸ™‚

    I’m going to send this post to my husband – he is sure to enjoy the giggles I had.

    Have a wonderful Sunday!

    With love from South Africa

  • Reply Southern Gal August 3, 2008 at 12:22 pm

    You will do a wonderful job with your speaking engagement. I’m absolutely sure of it!

    Homeschooling! Yay! What an adventure! I homeschooled my oldest all the way through. My second is spending his senior year at the local public school (Honors Physics is not something I’m experienced in) and I’ll be homeschooling our sweet baby who will be in first grade this year.

    My first two are 2 1/2 years apart so I know the dilemma about entertaining and teaching. Keep a box of special toys that you trade out often for Kate to play with only during schooling. Make it something she can play with herself and that interests her. You can also reward her for playing quietly for the week. Earn stickers, etc, for a chart so she can get something for her hard work. Also include her in your schooling at those times when you’re reading aloud, doing handwriting (fun drawing), adding cookies for math. I think making them feel a part of the process really helps them to understand there are times when they can’t participate…that’s when the special toy box comes in.

    Hope that helped some!

    So glad you made it to mycharmingkids site. Saw your comment and squealed!

  • Reply Traci Best August 3, 2008 at 1:01 pm

    I am SO excited you are home schooling!!! Our family just started out on this adventure in June. So far we are having a blast…I truly love it too. I have several favorite websites. I started out with a set path and then I have wandered all over creation finding all kinds of new things this month. Worksheet Works is AWESOME! It is a worksheet generator, and I priceless resource for me!


    I love Simply Charlotte Mason because they have an on-line organizer that will not only help you search for resources and take you directly to Amazon to purchase them but it also has an a feature where you assign the work and check off when it is completed and the organizer keeps track of everything! You can print reports and everything!


    Love, love, LOVE The Old Schoolhouse magazine! You can subscribe on-line and download your copy to keep forever!


    Now, the notebooking resources are awesome. I am SO excited about this one…but my kids are a bit older (I think) my twins are in 2nd grade and HJ is in 1st. But notebooking is IT as far as I’m concerned! We are starting this week a two week study of the Olympics and so we are going to be Notebooking that as a ‘unit study’.



    I hope you enjoy the journey as much as we have so far! As far as Kate goes… That is SO hard. If it were me I would have daily assignments for her too just as if she were in school. Color pages, activity pages, Lego time,.. Maybe she could start working on making an ABC book. There are tons of preschool homeschool stuff out there too.

    *HUGS* πŸ™‚


  • Reply Capturing Today August 3, 2008 at 1:12 pm

    I’m praying for you as you are going through your homeschool adventure with your girls. I have 3 little girls ages 9, 6 and almost 3 and we have always homeschooled. It is such a blessing!

    For my 3 year old, we use preschool activity bags that I put together for her to help her “do school” when her sisters are working. You can see how easy they are to put together at this link on my blog: Preschool Activity Bags

    These have been a really useful tool for us with a busy 3 year old during school time!

  • Reply Eric and Emily August 3, 2008 at 1:44 pm

    I had such a great laugh, thank you! I would be so excited to be a part of the bible study online. I will be praying for you (I always am).

  • Reply Ashley August 3, 2008 at 2:00 pm

    From the stories you've shared, little Kate sounds so much like my daughter Caroline who is about to turn three. She does things her way, in her time, and she has a big heart. We even had a similar experience to the one you posted about with you and Kate going to Audrey's grave a few weeks back right round the same time at our son Joshua's grave. She is a gift
    Obviously you've been down the potty-training road before – HELLO, with twins!! But, just as an encouragement, I tried for months and months to get Caroline to use the potty and finally about two months ago, she was ready and in about two days she had it down pat, no accidents since then! I pray that God will give you plenty of stories to laugh at and plenty of patience in the meantime though, I know it can be trying!
    Grace & peace,

  • Reply Rachel August 3, 2008 at 5:11 pm

    Good luck with the home schooling, and don’t let anyone bring you down about it! I was homeschooled all the way up until 9th grade, and I am all the better for it (and very social). Not everyone can do it, but if you are so blessed that way, your girls will truly benefit from it!

  • Reply pam August 3, 2008 at 5:45 pm

    Hi Angie,
    You don’t know me but I found your blog through a friend, I can’t for the life of me remember which one, but what a blessing it was. I have gone back and read ever entry from the beginning as it was like a book I could not put down. To hear of such faith and devotion to God was refreshing and appreciated.
    I have a blog as well, although not nearly as popular as yours. I was recently nominated by another blogging friend who asked me to nominate seven other bloggers for the award. Even though I do not know you personally I wanted to nominate you because I want others to read your daily message and be encouraged by your faith. Please do not feel obligated to nominate others as I know your life is hectic with three little ones. I just wanted you to know you are an inspiration to so many and I really wanted to share your story. God bless,Pam

  • Reply Nancy August 3, 2008 at 5:52 pm

    I am praying for you.

    Do you try to include Kate as you are teaching? I try to include all the kids at their own levels in the activities. It seems to work well.

  • Reply Tammy August 3, 2008 at 6:17 pm

    oh I had to laugh about Kate…I can remember my twin boys going through some of these same things. I will be praying about your speaking. You can do it. God will give you the courage and you will shine. I am getting ready to head back to the classroom and love that my kids and I see each other all the time and we go home at the same time. I wish I lived near you to do the bible study. But NEbraska is pretty far…but I will pray for all of you. As always your words inspire my heart.

  • Reply Brysmommy, Kenswifey August 3, 2008 at 6:45 pm

    I have laughed outloud several times in this blog..you usually make me heartbroken and thankful..today..you have yet hit another emotion..totally feel you on the potty training..love that your children are like mine..so real..so childlike..I think you will be a fantastic speaker..wish you will come to Alabama..I will be first in the ticket line..what about coming to our church..Hillcrest Baptist in Enterprise..pray about it! πŸ™‚

  • Reply Tasha August 3, 2008 at 7:30 pm

    Oh my word!I have cried so many times while reading your blog and today was no exception.Except this time it was because I was laughing so hard about Kate.I love that girl!

  • Reply allie bari August 3, 2008 at 7:53 pm

    Hey! Angie,
    i live in g-town and i acutally go to SCC. jon weece is the pastor. we go on saturday nights. so are you going to be there on the weekend services or for one of the womens meetings? i can not believe that you are going to be at my church. i have followed your story from the start and another relative told me about your story that is when i had my second little girl on march 4th of this yea. after reading your story i would hold my little girl so much closer and pray for you and cry at nights when i would get up to feed or rock my baby and think of what you must have been going through. God is truely using you and little Audrey to reach others. can wait to see you.

  • Reply Leah August 3, 2008 at 10:00 pm

    I am and will continue to pray for you and your speaking engagements. I pray a peace over you as you speak. God is birthing something in you for you to share with so many others, and I know (from experience) He’ll give you the ability to do what He’s called you to do (which I’m sure you already know). Like so many have already said, you are so real….and that is what people want and admire. Someone once told me to just speak as if I’m speaking to all my friends. I was still nervous, but once I got up there, it got easier πŸ™‚

  • Reply The Oakes August 3, 2008 at 10:20 pm

    I attended Southland in my college years and beyond. They are going to love you and you will love them! Jon is an awesome speaker. He spoke once on Joy and told the difficult story of his daughter Ava’s birth. I know you would love the sermon, it still speaks to me years after I first heard it. Oh, how I wish I still lived in Lex. and we could meet. I’m emailing friends to go see you!

  • Reply kendra August 3, 2008 at 10:29 pm

    Will be praying for you here in Portland Oregon!! Praying for the potty training, praying for the homeschooling, praying for your new ministry, praying for peace in your heart…May God bless you for your desire to obey Him.
    Also praying for your friend and baby Stellan.
    Love and blessings,
    kendra hoffman

  • Reply Courtney and Brad August 3, 2008 at 10:43 pm

    hi angie..you don’t know me…but i stumbled onto your blog from friends of friends…i was drawn to the name of your blog because my first daughter’s name was Audrey…at 27 wks she went to be the Lord on Dec 18 07…my husband and i are expecting our second in Jan…i have enjoyed reading your words…you have a beautiful family…best wishes!

  • Reply Aimee August 3, 2008 at 10:56 pm

    I have been reading your blog since about May. I have really enjoyed seeing what goes on and how your faith in God has been stretched through different situations. You are such a strong person. I wish you luck in your first speaking engagement. I am also excited to hear you are home schooling your children. I just finished my first year with my daughter who is going into fourth grade. It is challenging at times but to me it is worth it. This coming school year I will be teaching both of my girls, kindergarten and fourth. This will be a challenge at first but hopefully I will glide right into it as time go on. There are so many resource out there for home school. If you haven’t already found a co-op or something like it you should. Our church has one. It is not big, about 10 moms and around 15-20 kids K-5th. We also do preschool. It is just nice to get out once a week and talk to other moms who are doing what you are doing. Our co-op brings faith, encouragement and laughter! Take care!!

  • Reply Amy's Angels August 3, 2008 at 11:23 pm

    Oh how I wish that I still lived in KY!

    Good luck…you’ll do great! : )

  • Reply Steph August 3, 2008 at 11:35 pm

    You will do great with the ministry!! I want to join in on the study!:)

    As for homeschooling, we got some things from http://www.mfwbooks.com/ to keep Gabe occupied while Im teaching Liv. Take ONE day at a time and buy this book called “Help for the Harried Homeschooler” that you MUST read. It’s helped me a ton!

  • Reply Marla Taviano August 3, 2008 at 11:43 pm

    I always love your posts, but this one resonated with me in about 40 different ways.

    My 6-year-old (then 4) once yelled, “That’s a bunch of stinkin’ crap!” I about fell over. “Crap” is my one word that I let myself say when I’m really ticked. Still working on that…

    And I’m also potty-training daughter #3 at the moment. Ugh. You’d think it’d be a breeze after doing it twice already. I pretty much gave up before we started.

    I’ll be praying for you about the speaking stuff. I feel you. I wanted to sit at home and write books and just pray people read them. My first book went out of print after a year, because I was afraid to open my mouth about it. I’ve learned my lesson, started trusting God, and I’m loving speaking (and taking my family with me!). I do it a couple times a month, and God has grown me so much through it!

    I just finished Stepping Up Thursday and went to Louisville to see Beth (my first time) Friday. That study is PHENOMENAL!

    I’d love to send you my books if you’d like.


    I think you’re fabulous.

  • Reply Jenny August 4, 2008 at 12:38 am


    When I need to feel God, I read your blog. You are an inspiration to me and I really think that if I lived next door to you, we would be best friends. Thanks for sharing your life and your thoughts… you are a beautiful and strong woman! Keep feeling the sunshine on your face. Your girls are blessed to have you as their Mommy!

  • Reply Laura August 4, 2008 at 1:29 am

    Angie – thank you so much for reminding me how important nightly prayer time is! Most nights, I am SO exhausted that just getting Alise’s prayers said seems to be enough. As usual, you put your own Godly twist on it and “step it up”. Thanks for encouraging me to keep at! Thanks for sharing your life with us! I’m praying for you!

  • Reply Cammie August 4, 2008 at 1:29 am

    I think Kate nd I would be great friends!

    I went to a small Baptist college in Texas and we had to have a word to say and for some reason, crap was ok…not sure why??

    Thanks for sharing your thoughts with us!

  • Reply Molly August 4, 2008 at 1:44 am

    We are about to start attempting to potty traing our almost 2 year old (I’ve never done this!), and I was wondering if you had suggestions. Or books? I need something! I figured since this is your 3rd time, maybe you could share a title or tips?? πŸ™‚ Nothing lengthy, I know you said your school year just started!! Also, any discipline books for chilren that you would recommend?

  • Reply Molly August 4, 2008 at 1:49 am

    Nevermind about the discipline books! I just remembered your post of suggested books and looked there. But if you do have potty training advice, I welcome it!

  • Reply Jungheims August 4, 2008 at 2:01 am

    As far as entertainment ideas during homeschool (and I’m no expert), maybe try having a few boxes of “school toys” you can stow away. Get them out during school and this is the only time Kate is allowed to play with these special treasures. Just a thought others I know have used.

  • Reply jules August 4, 2008 at 2:17 am

    Good for you for home schooling your children! Public schools will try to un-do everything you are teaching your daughters.

  • Reply Tara August 4, 2008 at 2:35 am

    I am beyond excited to hear that you are homeschooling the girls!
    Try http://www.thebusybeebag.com
    You can find age appropriate activities/crafts that kate could keep busy with at the table while the girls are doing school. Each kit contains everything for the activity or craft, and these products are great! Kate would think that she is playing, but she would be learning to stay focused, work on motor skills, self-esteem, hand-eye coordination, and sensory precipitation. I love these products because everything that Kate would need is right in the bag. This leaves out the guess work for you, and also makes it that much more convenient. The website actually suggests using these bags for younger children while older children are doing school. Just a suggestion, hope this helps!

  • Reply Holly August 4, 2008 at 2:51 am

    I loved your story about praying with the girls!! I love hearing about Kate, her spirit reminds me so much of my Sophia.. awesome kids!! Your prayers are on my list.. thank you for sharing!! Have a great week!

  • Reply chalice August 4, 2008 at 2:52 am

    Angie, i dont know if you’ve heard the cd “come weary saints’ by sovereign grace ministries. it is a beautiful beautiful album that i truly believe you would love. track 12 always reminds me of sweet audrey. i wish so badly i had your mailing address to send you this cd but since i could’nt attain it i would highly recomend it! if you would allow me to mail you this precious gift of God’s comfort through the truth of His word in song please e-mail me your address, chalicehoward@yahoo.com.
    i am praying that this does’nt sound to creepy and debated on how to phrase this to avoid that but i’m afraid no matter which way i put it its always a bit awkard and alarming when some one you dont know asks for your address over the internet! i do apologize! your continually in my prayers:) humbly,chalice h

  • Reply Shell August 4, 2008 at 3:14 am

    I know your looking for advise on homeschooling withthe girl. Check out http://www.diaperswappers.com Theyhave several different forum and even one on homeschooling, you can buy books and chat with other moms and dads withs kids the same age. I hope to see you there.
    Always in my prayers.
    Love in Christ
    Rachelle Wooley

  • Reply Missy August 4, 2008 at 4:15 am

    O.K. I’ve been a lurker for a few months now. I love your blog. It is so inspirational. If you get a minute check out my blog Day 52. You’ll love the story of the song The B-I-B-L-E! You’ll crack up!! missysproject365.blogspot.com

  • Reply LaVon Baker August 4, 2008 at 4:18 am

    News flash!! You, dear Angie, already have a ministry… God’s just increasing your “territory” and it’s so exciting. Sooo much going on in your life.
    This is off the subject of your last post, but I have a web page that I feel would be a blessing and encouragement to Todd. The author is a man/dad/husband who is going through the fire a the present time. I’ve only met Brent once, but his wife and I were in the same Sunday School class for about three years and I was there when she adopted Abby. Please pass this on to Todd. http://www.seriousfaith.com/dvo/devotion.asp?teachingnumber=614
    Also, all prayers would be greatly appreciated for this beautiful, blended family.

  • Reply Brittany August 4, 2008 at 6:18 am

    I have been following your blog for quite sometime now. Read it from “cover” to “cover” in one sitting on the first visit a couple of months ago. You have pulled on my heartstrings and made me laugh till I have cried. You are an incredible woman of the Lord and an inspiration in all areas of life.

    I am so super duper excited about seeing you come to Southland Christian. I live in Chattanooga, TN with my family but my sister lives in Lexington and attends Southland. You can count me in. I can’t wait to hear you in person.

    Stepping Up is an awesome study. All Beth Moore’s studies are great, but this one has a little less homework which will be nice since you have so much going on with home schooling and such.

    Kate’s present on the countertop was one of those laugh until you cry moments I was saying you provoked. H-I-L-A-R-I-O-U-S. I would love to meet that little chick-a-roo. Her wit and humor is unsurpassable.

    P.S. My husband and I watched the movie 21 and the entire time I was thinking Angie looks just like Kate Bosworth. Complete compliment. You both are gorgeous.

    much love-


    Done. πŸ™‚

  • Reply RSR2003 August 4, 2008 at 7:19 am

    Angie, you are a breath of fresh air for my heart. Thank you for allowing the Lord to use you on this blog!!!!


  • Reply BrineS August 4, 2008 at 9:45 am

    I enjoy reading your blog. I’ve bookmarked you in my favorites. I am writing to invite you to join in the fun at the blog my sister-in-law and I keep…The Chocolistas.

    We, The Chocolistas, are holding a Name That Chocolate Dessert Contest…August 4 – 16….with prizes! We’d love for you to participate.

    Come and join the fun!


  • Reply Pam August 4, 2008 at 11:44 am

    Oh Angie, every post you make either leaves me laughing or crying. Thank you so much for being REAL! I always refer to you as ‘my friend Angie’–my husband thinks I’m crazy sometimes but you know this morning as I was reading all these wonderful comments, I was thinking that this is what the Kingdom of God is all about–fellow believers sharing our struggles, laughs, and concerns with one another. I think that God has used your situation with Audrey Caroline to further His Kingdom –He has truly brought ‘beauty from ashes’ in this situation. I can not imagine going through what you have gone through, sister; but I am so proud of you and I know that our Father is proud of you.
    I have tickets to the August 17 Selah concert in Simpsonville, SC–I hope that you and the girls get to come also. I know it will be an amazing night of worship!

  • Reply Erin August 4, 2008 at 12:27 pm

    Oh my goodness, your conversation with Kate had me in stitches last night! I even read it out loud to my husband, and the two of us just laughed hysterically!! We really needed that. Thank you for the gift of laughter. We are in the beginning stages of adopting an infant, and we look forward to the many unexpected things our children will say through the years. I only pray we will handle them as well as you have. πŸ™‚

    Erin in VA

  • Reply Ruth August 4, 2008 at 12:34 pm

    It is the first time I have left a comment but have been following your blog for a while now. You are an inspiration and I was telling my husband about you and your gift of ministering and thought to myself….I wish I could hear her speak somewhere. God answered …I live 1.5 hrs from Lexington …we are from Corbin. Anyway if you could provide more info about where u will be speaking…I will be there.I even marked my calendar…So you can’t back out now….you have a great gift and even through troubled times…you shine to share God’s word and inspire people (or at least me) to become a better person (I have a long way to go) I went to a Beth Moore simulcast this weekend and she was talking about a 100-fold harvest and starting with the seed in good earth. I see you as that seed in good earth and all of your readers (u have a lot) are your harvest that are inspired by you to grow in the Lord. I think thats pretty amazing. Thanks for sharing your experiences!!!

  • Reply Jessica Browning August 4, 2008 at 12:36 pm

    I have been reading your blog for some time now, and it sounds crazy but I feel like I know you! Although I have never posted a comment before I KNEW I just had to after reading your post above. I have been telling my friends and husband about your story and your amazing heart for a few months now and am SO excited that you’ll be coming to Lexington in a couple of months to speak. I live in Lexington and actually belong to Southland Christian Church. It is truly the most amazing church I have ever attended and I know that you will love it here. There’s no need to be nervous- there will be SO MANY of us surrounding you in prayer! I can’t wait for October! πŸ™‚

  • Reply Donna-Jean August 4, 2008 at 1:09 pm

    As always, your writing and your heart lifted me.

    And oh, how I wish I could be in Kentucky for that ‘speaking gig.’ God will use you, and the words will flow.

    I meant for that to be all I’d write, but then I saw your homeschool comment. I’m not a crusader for the cause πŸ™‚ but I do hope to encourage in that area at times. I’ve homeschooled since 1990 (yes, I realize how old that makes me sound) – our oldest is now married πŸ™‚ It’s a hard journey, but I wouldn’t trade it.

    I’m blessed to be on the advisory of AmblesideOnline – which is simply an arrangement of free material (including guidelines for art, music, poetry, and nature study) for all the school years. Maybe something there can be useful for you.

    It’s [URL]http://www.amblesideonline.org[URL/]

    Thanks for writing this, and enjoy the potty training πŸ˜‰

    PS I loved the ‘crap’ story. (My kids took advantage of my perhaps foolish rule that you weren’t in trouble for saying a bad word if you were just asking me about it. Took me awhile to learn how dumb that was. Then there was the time our oldest came and told me with sadness that her best little friend across the street uses the ‘s’ word in her house…”You know, Mommy – the ‘sh’ word.” I tried to cover my surprise that she even knew what it was and launched into a whole ‘well, some people just don’t realize some words aren’t right, that doesn’t please the Lord, we don’t use that word even if others do, blah, blah, Mommy-talk blah”…then she sighs a little girl sigh and says, “I know. It’s bad that they say…” (and here she whispers) “shut up.”

    Whew. πŸ™‚

  • Reply proudmommy4 August 4, 2008 at 1:53 pm

    i totally love your blog. and your strong willed little girl. i potty trained our three year old a few weeks ago. i waited longer then most i am sure, but then it only truly took a long hard week and by week two she was almost 100 percent trained…week three perfected. so anyway i have a strong willed little girl too, she sat on the toilet the one morning for two hours because she didn’t ‘want to go’ so she sat because she ‘needed’ to go. keep on keeping on, it’s a battle but in the end the victory is so sweet. i don’t know any homeschool stuff quite yet, but am excited to hear about your adventures in homeschooling,as i plan to start homeschooling our girlies too. amelya will be 3 and a half in september and i’m going to start a small pre-k type lesson with her. so stay encouraged because homeschooling is a calling and i know from others i’ve seen graduate homeschoolers, such a blessing. stay strong. amanda

  • Reply tabbykat August 4, 2008 at 2:43 pm

    Oh wow! I’m so excited to hear you’ll be in Lexington! I live just 20 minutes away, so I am so planning on coming. You’ll do an awesome job and you’ll have totally have people praying for you. Man, I can’t wait!

  • Reply thebenshow August 4, 2008 at 2:52 pm

    We are the lucky parents of a four year-old son adopted from Vietnam last year. Ben cannot speak b/c of a birth defect, but he is the happiest little guy and is really thriving with sign language. He can sign Jesus and Jesus Loves Me and we read to him from his children’s Bible. We started praying with him at night after books. Mind you, he can’t speak, but the other night, my husband almost forgot to say the prayer, and Ben grabbed his hands and pressed them together and bowed his head. He reminded us not to forget the prayer. SO precious. You’ll do GREAT with your speaking engagement!

  • Reply alexandra August 4, 2008 at 3:05 pm

    Thank you for sharing yourself and your family with us, Angie. I have been reading your blog for a while know, but this is the first time I have commented. Your post today really hit home with me, about being thin-skinned and timid about putting yourself out there, even when God is compelling you. I feel the same way!I love hearing the stories about your beautiful girls, so keep them coming!

  • Reply eshipley August 4, 2008 at 3:28 pm

    Hi Angie,
    I wanted you to know that I recently found your blog through other blogs πŸ™‚ I took a Friday afternoon and read through Audrey’s story. It was such a sweet reminder to me of the Lords goodness and faithfulness. Thank you for being vulnerable and posting about it. I thought it might be encouraging to you to know people are still reading and remembering in August. I also just read your post about “blink” and am going to start a “blink” journal filled with the Lords goodness of each day. I have told many people about your story and it has encouraged a ton of people.

  • Reply CIRCLE OF LIFE August 4, 2008 at 4:20 pm

    Hi i have been reading your blog and had to laugh at the last post , I as well have a 2 year old and the darnest things pop out of there mouth , and we say wear do they get this from… I am so proud of all the big steps you are taking and , once you are speaking just look at the material and look forward and reasd as if you were bloging , it will be scary at first but i know tou will be great I ONLY WISH YOU WERE ABLE TO COME TO SOUTH FLA SO I CAN BE THERE IN TEH FRONT ROW.I WILL PRAY FOR YOU DAILY AND I SEND MY LOVE FROM MY FAMILY TO YOURS…. TAKE CARE AND GOD BLESS .PEACE MICHELL

  • Reply Marva August 4, 2008 at 5:18 pm

    I’m originally from Kentucky, my home county being right next to Fayette County, where Lexington is located. I really wish I were going to be home to hear you speak, but alas, we’re moving in less than two weeks (overseas with the military).

    I’m excited to share the news of your speaking engagement with family and friends who live in the area, and will encourage them to be there. I know it’s going to be a blessing, for you and for those who will be listening. Please keep us posted on how it goes!

  • Reply My Beautiful Mess! August 4, 2008 at 5:45 pm

    You have made me laugh out loud! The potty training incident is just so priceless! As far as the speaking engagement – you will bring them to their knees. You have an amazing gift – share it with the world πŸ™‚

  • Reply Rog & Aimee August 4, 2008 at 5:57 pm

    So glad you were able to contact Mckmama! Figured you would be a blessing to her as you have been to so many others!

  • Reply Rog & Aimee August 4, 2008 at 5:57 pm

    So glad you were able to contact Mckmama! Figured you would be a blessing to her as you have been to so many others!

  • Reply Rog & Aimee August 4, 2008 at 5:57 pm

    So glad you were able to contact Mckmama! Figured you would be a blessing to her as you have been to so many others!

  • Reply Rog & Aimee August 4, 2008 at 5:57 pm

    So glad you were able to contact Mckmama! Figured you would be a blessing to her as you have been to so many others!

  • Reply Rog & Aimee August 4, 2008 at 5:57 pm

    So glad you were able to contact Mckmama! Figured you would be a blessing to her as you have been to so many others!

  • Reply Rog & Aimee August 4, 2008 at 5:57 pm

    So glad you were able to contact Mckmama! Figured you would be a blessing to her as you have been to so many others!

  • Reply Rog & Aimee August 4, 2008 at 5:57 pm

    So glad you were able to contact Mckmama! Figured you would be a blessing to her as you have been to so many others!

  • Reply Rog & Aimee August 4, 2008 at 5:57 pm

    So glad you were able to contact Mckmama! Figured you would be a blessing to her as you have been to so many others!

  • Reply Rog & Aimee August 4, 2008 at 5:57 pm

    So glad you were able to contact Mckmama! Figured you would be a blessing to her as you have been to so many others!

  • Reply kel August 4, 2008 at 6:10 pm

    ANGIE! I never thought I would comment on here. I love reading your blog and seeing how God speaks to you. He is soooo amazing. You will do a great job at your speaking engagement. Just remember EVERYONE gets a twinge of anxiety no matter how often they speak publicly.

    Potty training is the real reason I am commenting…you know it doesn’t happen in YOUR time! It will happen in HER time. My daughter turned 3 in May and three weeks later decided she was ready to go on the potty. If you can stand to, give up. πŸ™‚

  • Reply Prairie Chick August 4, 2008 at 6:17 pm

    Hello Angie. I just recently found your blog through my google reader “suggestions” of blogs that match my interests, and oh boy, did Google hit the nail on the head there. I’ve exoerienced the loss of babes gone home to the Father, the joy of babes here in my arms, the blessings of homeschooling, the funny fiasco’s of raising these little jiggers to follow and honor Him. Just wanted to send you a cyber wave and tell you I’m reading and being blessed by you.

  • Reply kv August 4, 2008 at 6:28 pm

    Congratulations on your first speaking assignment. I know you are nervous, but you have no idea how much you touch the lives of people who hear your story. You are very much an encourager. I lived in London Kentucky for awhile, and attended Southland Christian Church although it was about an hour away. It is a very inspirational place, and I think you will be blessed and will bless others. I’ll be praying for you!

  • Reply Christina August 4, 2008 at 6:54 pm

    My oldest urinated on my car tire in front of our 90 year old neighbor. He also had an incident of “poop art” on my sliding door. I thought he was fun to potty train. Kate seems to top that.

  • Reply amynelsonmom August 4, 2008 at 7:06 pm

    Thank you for your encouraging words. My sister came across your blog and shared it with me. I have been checking it daily and reading your words. I am blessed by your life and experiences. You are an amazing woman and an inspiration to us all. I love how true you are to yourself and how open you are with those of us who choose to follow your story. I have three little boys and am constantly reminding myself through your story, how blessed I am. I want you to know that I think God has called you to do great things. Speaking will be such a breeze for you! You write beautifully and God will give you the words. We live in Kansas and you have touched us. Imagine what you can do for a room full of people…AMAZING. People need the Lord Angie and you are their window to him. They can see him through you and that is a true blessing. I am lifting you up in prayer daily…all of you, and I will continue to pray for Greg and Nicol’s healing hearts. I wanted to share another blog with you in hopes that you will have time to check it out. http://www.kyriefoundation.org. Amazing site…I have shared your blog with Kyrie’s parents and hopefully she is looking through your “window”. You are amazing…

    In HIS love,

  • Reply Stephanie Click August 4, 2008 at 7:23 pm

    I have a little girl (age 3) that reminds me so much of the conversation you had with Kate! Thanks for sharing your life with faithful readers!

  • Reply Nichele Lynn August 4, 2008 at 7:25 pm

    You bless me. Post after post, something always speaks right to me. Thank you!

  • Reply Jill August 4, 2008 at 7:27 pm


    Your beauty is in your humility! You have built such a huge ministry here Angie. God is going to just take you to new heights with Him leading the way. Get those boots on for some serious walking!

    I love the stories you share about your girls. I love the idea of opening a new blog for those of us who don’t live near you and wish to join in. I love that you are always so thoughtful and generous.

    I am touched by the community built here and how all of us have ocme together as one in Christ to support each other as well. Tears fill my eyes as I type this – because this is what God desires – us all be ONE in HIM!

    Thank you to every commenter who shared how to potty train and homeschool ideas. You have all blessed me – as a Mom of 7 children (5 adopted all in the last two years). I’m about to potty train my first son and it is so different than with my daughters.

    Thank you Angie from the bottom of my heart. I continue to bring you before our Father and trust in His plans for your family. I love how He uses the weak and builds them strong in Him! Oh how I love that you are willing to be so obedient even when it doesn’t feel good or go along with what you had in mind.

    I too wish I could just have a moment to sit quietly with you on the porch, watching Him paint the sky for us – no words needing but rejoicing in His perfect love for us – as our children all 10 of them were off giggling around us. Some might even be curled up in our laps enjoying God’s wonders too.

    Love and blessings dear one!

  • Reply Tanya August 4, 2008 at 7:52 pm

    You are wonderful Angie. Thank you again for your words that bring us all closer to His feet.
    I am so glad you have accepted the speaking engagement. I know Audrey is going to be so proud of her Momma on that stage!
    And please keep posting about homeschooling. I have been feeling lots of tugging on these heartstrings to give it a try, but have been letting so many fears get in the way.
    Bless you,

  • Reply Kiki@Seagulls in the Parking Lot August 4, 2008 at 8:36 pm

    I was laughing out loud at Abby’s prayer, so sweet and so funny. And such a great idea to ask our kids one thing they are grateful for, one thing they want to pray for and one thing to say I’m sorry about. I think we will be putting that into practice!

    And Kate, well isn’t she hilarious? I don’t know how you have these conversations without laughing!

  • Reply Sara August 4, 2008 at 9:48 pm

    This is totally off-topic, but I think you need a button, like the “Praying for Baby Stellan” button, so all of your readers can link to your blog. I’m sort of OK with Paint Shop Pro, but not great. Maybe a more talented reader can volunteer to make you a button?

  • Reply movingthroughlife August 4, 2008 at 10:15 pm

    Tell Kate way to go Sister for all of us. Emma says she is proud of her….
    Crap vs. no Crap….tough one. Might have to get back to you on that…
    I personally have to go with crap…but I am 39 and have earned the right to do so…not sure what line I fall on in regards to the age at which it is earned.

  • Reply Sweet Baby Whispers August 4, 2008 at 10:35 pm

    I read your blog frequently, and actually it has inspired me to blog more after I lost my daughter Alyssa at 22 weeks. I know she and Audrey are together playing…they even have the same first 2 initals lol AC…

    I have also been inspired to find God more and pray He leads me in the right direction now that I am pregnant again.

    Does anyone know of an online bible study or place I can learn more?

  • Reply Addison's Mommy August 4, 2008 at 11:25 pm

    I am in Rome, GA, so I couldn’t attend the Bible study…BUT I would be very interested on your online thing you were talking about.

  • Reply The Claycomb Family August 4, 2008 at 11:46 pm

    Hi Angie!

    I had e-mailed you a few weeks ago about our dear friends who lost their precious little girl, Reece. I had told you about a fundraiser they were holding for her in Fort Wayne, IN on September 13th at the YMCA.

    Since then, we have relocated back to Indiana…and I am having trouble getting our new e-mail hooked up.

    I wanted to let you know that if Selah would be able to perform at this benefit…they would pay for food, lodging, and transportation.

    If you could post a comment on our blogsite…at your earliest convenience to let me know if this is a possibility…I would really appreciate it!!

    Thanks so much, Angie!!

    In His Grip,

    Jodi Claycomb


  • Reply The Claycomb Family August 4, 2008 at 11:48 pm

    Sorry, Angie…

    The blogsite address is


  • Reply Sara August 5, 2008 at 12:45 am

    WAY TO GO KATE!!!!

    Tell her how proud we all are of her … hopefully you all are now less afraid of eating food off the kitchen counters. πŸ™‚

    blessings on your day…


  • Reply Brysmommy, Kenswifey August 5, 2008 at 1:45 am

    Hey..don’t know if you like cucumbers or not, but I just read in a magazine that if you are giving a talk or nervous about something..snack on a cucumber an hour beforehand and it will help soothe your nerves..They are rich in Vitamin C which helps block the stress hormone cortisol, keeping anxiety levels low…so thought I would share! You’ll be just fine!

  • Reply Darlee August 5, 2008 at 3:18 am

    Your daughters are hilarious! YOU are hilarious (and a very gifted writer, my friend).


  • Reply Lauren August 5, 2008 at 3:21 am

    I have been reading your blog for several months now and never posted. I just wanted to take this opportunity to say you truly inspire me everyday! I also want you to know that through your lovely daughter and your words you are moving ever so lovingly to the Lord! Thank you for having the strength and the courage to share your life with us!

  • Reply Jennifer August 5, 2008 at 3:43 am

    Hey Angie…do you have to make reservations at the church in Lexington on Oct 3? Is it part of a conference or just you? πŸ™‚ I am also interested in the bible study that you are putting together. Please keep me in mind and I will keep reading to find out the details.

  • Reply Tiffany & Jeff August 5, 2008 at 4:09 am

    I just wanted to say Hello!
    I have been a lurker, since about April. πŸ™‚ You have really been an an inspiration to my faith, and made it stronger. Thank you!! I cant wait to see what you with Bible study.
    I had to laugh when I read the “crap” story, just today my 2 your old son was playing with words.


  • Reply Tiffany & Jeff August 5, 2008 at 4:09 am

    I just wanted to say Hello!
    I have been a lurker, since about April. πŸ™‚ You have really been an an inspiration to my faith, and made it stronger. Thank you!! I cant wait to see what you with Bible study.
    I had to laugh when I read the “crap” story, just today my 2 your old son was playing with words.


  • Reply Tiffany & Jeff August 5, 2008 at 4:09 am

    I just wanted to say Hello!
    I have been a lurker, since about April. πŸ™‚ You have really been an an inspiration to my faith, and made it stronger. Thank you!! I cant wait to see what you with Bible study.
    I had to laugh when I read the “crap” story, just today my 2 your old son was playing with words.


  • Reply Tiffany & Jeff August 5, 2008 at 4:09 am

    I just wanted to say Hello!
    I have been a lurker, since about April. πŸ™‚ You have really been an an inspiration to my faith, and made it stronger. Thank you!! I cant wait to see what you with Bible study.
    I had to laugh when I read the “crap” story, just today my 2 your old son was playing with words.


  • Reply Tiffany & Jeff August 5, 2008 at 4:09 am

    I just wanted to say Hello!
    I have been a lurker, since about April. πŸ™‚ You have really been an an inspiration to my faith, and made it stronger. Thank you!! I cant wait to see what you with Bible study.
    I had to laugh when I read the “crap” story, just today my 2 your old son was playing with words.


  • Reply Tiffany & Jeff August 5, 2008 at 4:09 am

    I just wanted to say Hello!
    I have been a lurker, since about April. πŸ™‚ You have really been an an inspiration to my faith, and made it stronger. Thank you!! I cant wait to see what you with Bible study.
    I had to laugh when I read the “crap” story, just today my 2 your old son was playing with words.


  • Reply Tiffany & Jeff August 5, 2008 at 4:09 am

    I just wanted to say Hello!
    I have been a lurker, since about April. πŸ™‚ You have really been an an inspiration to my faith, and made it stronger. Thank you!! I cant wait to see what you with Bible study.
    I had to laugh when I read the “crap” story, just today my 2 your old son was playing with words.


  • Reply Tiffany & Jeff August 5, 2008 at 4:09 am

    I just wanted to say Hello!
    I have been a lurker, since about April. πŸ™‚ You have really been an an inspiration to my faith, and made it stronger. Thank you!! I cant wait to see what you with Bible study.
    I had to laugh when I read the “crap” story, just today my 2 your old son was playing with words.


  • Reply Tiffany & Jeff August 5, 2008 at 4:09 am

    I just wanted to say Hello!
    I have been a lurker, since about April. πŸ™‚ You have really been an an inspiration to my faith, and made it stronger. Thank you!! I cant wait to see what you with Bible study.
    I had to laugh when I read the “crap” story, just today my 2 your old son was playing with words.


  • Reply Lauren August 5, 2008 at 4:11 am

    I am one of your many faithful blog readers and as I was reading it reminded me of when I used to act for our church plays. I was only 10 or 12 at the time and had the lead in a wonderful play about a little girl leading a forgien girl to Christ. Anyways, I was a nervous wreck before going on stage. I had done this a million times but each time I would get so nervous I thought for sure I would either throw up, pass out or both. One of my mentors leaned over to me and asked me if I knew what the bible said in 2nd Timothy 1:7. I had no idea. She continued to quote it for me(For God has not given us the Spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.)and the peace of God transcended over me and from that day on anytime I get nervous I quote that verse and God carries me through. Just thought I would share. You are such an inspiration. Me and my sister always talk about how we wish we were best friends with you : ) you are always in my prayers

    -lauren from texas

  • Reply big hair betty August 5, 2008 at 5:07 am

    I stumbled across your blog on the mom4life blog and have appreciated your story about your daughter Audrey. I’m glad that the Lord has been so amazing to you and your family, he really is so good, especially when it hurts. I just wanted to suggest a website that I LOVE:

    This mom homeschools her children and has MANY ideas/suggestions for keeping the preschoolers (and younger) busy/involved! She also has many practical and helpful and encouraging tips for all walks of life! Thanks for sharing your story!

  • Reply Lees August 5, 2008 at 5:15 am

    If you speak anywhere remotely like you write on this blog – you will TOTALLY connect with people all across the board! You have such a way of inspiring and making me laugh all at the same time. It makes me feel like the normal “pee my pants” moments I have in the day are more normal than they feel!

  • Reply The Kirkpatrick Family August 5, 2008 at 5:52 am

    I thought of you tonight…..I lead a woman’s ministry at a church in Chandler Arizona called “eXpresso” and met a gal tonight who is speaking at our next eXpresso on “Envy”. She too lost her baby boy hours after he was born………..

    Tonight’s eXpresso was on Challenge, I wanted to share the opening I wrote . I asked the gals to please close their eyes and read them this journey of a woman running a marathon………

    Hope this is an encouragement to you sweet girl…………..

    I bend over to tie my grey running shoe and pause to reflect on all the training I have done for this day. I stand up tall and stretch over to my toes and reach up to the sun shining it’s warmth on my face. In these next few moments my heart begins to race as my thoughts fast forwards to the journey that lies before me.
    Today I am free, just God, just me and all the beauty that he created that surrounds me.
    As I stretch and bend and pull my arms and legs in all different directions, my muscles slowly relax, a warm honey sensation creeps through my limbs out unto my toes and through my finger tips.
    This is the moment I have dreamnt about, the moment I have trained for, the moment I have longed for.
    My toe touches a yellow line and my ears wait for the starting sound. A bird is sings in the tree and a plane soars over my shoulder.
    A loud gun shot sends my feet in motion and my body follows in a all to familiar transition.
    People line the streets before me and flags wave in the air. What seems so long a distance is quickly behind me in thin air.
    I hear the soft beat of my shoes hitting the ground and my heart syncs with this sound. A soft voice whispers in my ear β€œFind your rhythym sweet child for the race is long, I am with you today, tomorrow and always.”
    My breath feels like it is falling out of my mouth and I am chasing it gasping, it is as though I have forgotten how to breath. A soft voice whispers in my ear β€œFind your rhythym sweet child for the race is long, I am with you today, tomorrow and always.”
    Stranger’s wave flags and banners and scream as I run past and I stumble from the blessed distraction and A soft voice whispers in my ear β€œFind your rhythym sweet child for the race is long, I am with you today, tomorrow and always.”
    My head is up, my mind is now focused and to my surprise I am half way to the finish line. Hands raise up to cheer me on and as I look to see a familiar face my sweat descends down in small streams down my forehead into my eyes, as I wipe them clear of the burning sensation, I squint only to find a strangers hand extended out cheering me on.
    The sun is fully over the top of me and I feel it kissing the back of my neck. A small breeze is swiftly brushing my cheek as if to say β€œFind your rhythym sweet child for the race is long, I am with you today, tomorrow and always.”
    There it is! I can see it up ahead the silver flashing from the finish line. Oh Dear God help my legs to not give out, I am so tired, My muscles ache and my knees feel like they are going to buckle…………………..β€œFind your rhythym sweet child for the race is long, I am with you today, tomorrow and always.”
    With all that I have I push on, I look up and see a familiar face, their eyes, their smiles, their look of β€œYOU CAN DO IT” and I leap in what feels slow motion over the finish line. When my legs stop physically running, my body has the sensation they are still moving and a quiver runs through my tired body.
    As my entire frame starts to fall forward a hand catches me right before I hit the ground and embraces my body, my tired accomplished soul.
    Who is the runner you ask?
    I am your mother, your sister, your best friend, your grandmother, your niece, your co-worker, I am you…………………….

    2nd Timothy 4:7

    Are you facing challenges in your life currently whether they may be big or small?
    Are you struggling at home? Are you out of work? Are you struggling with contentment, Do you have a relationships you wish could be different? Do boundaries overwhelm you? Or is it sometimes what seems the simplist of challenges……… to put you feet on the floor when you get out of bed in the morning?
    Tonight we are going to dig into the β€œChallenges” in this race we call β€œlife” and share you are not alone in this journey.
    Are you choosing to sprint out your challenges and try it all on your own, without God apart of the race?
    Are you running a marathon and allowing and asking daily for God to give you strength to endure all of life’s challenges, big or small.
    The difference you ask? When you give your challenges to God and release them, it is only then when you truly experience every aspect of your challenge and the little things in life such as the feeling of the sun on your face, the sound of your foot strike, the breeze through your hair that you are able to share your challenges with those around you and radiate Grace from all that you endure and then you find true rhythym.

  • Reply vaneblu August 5, 2008 at 5:58 am

    I need some prayes badly, and I figure since so many people come here with a lot of faith I should post this here…
    Please pray for my best friend (Fonsy) and my Godson to be (Gabriel Gerardo) she is 32 weeks pregnant and has gestational diabetes, preeclampsia and oligohydramnios and she is having her c-section tomorrow.
    Please Pray for a healthy baby (we now it will be premature, no complications and a full recovery!
    We need your prayers.

  • Reply nadiajones August 5, 2008 at 6:41 am

    Hi Angie, I started reading your blog a while back through another blog, and I see you have a prayer button for my good friend Jennifer, aka MckMama! We grew up together, in church and in school, and I thought back to your story when I learned of Stellan. You have a lot in common, I’m glad you found each other! I think about you and your family often, and reading your blog always brings me to tears. THANK YOU for praying for my friend and baby Stellan!
    *Nadia J., from Seattle*

  • Reply nadiajones August 5, 2008 at 6:43 am

    Hi Angie…I started reading your blog through another blog I read, and I saw you have a prayer button for my good friend Jennifer, aka MckMama! We grew up together, in church and school together. When I was reading about Stellan’s story I thought back to your blog and how you have a lot in common. I am glad you found each other! I think about you and your family often, and THANK YOU for praying for my dear friend!
    *Nadia J., from Seattle*

  • Reply JoAnn August 5, 2008 at 12:16 pm

    Hi Angie!! I have been reading your blog for quite some time and I truly admire you!! I live in Kentucky and would love to come and hear you speak!! If you get a moment, could you please email me the specifs, location, time, etc?? I do not want to miss it!!

  • Reply Paula Hamernick August 5, 2008 at 2:06 pm

    Wow Angie you opened the homeshooling advice can of worms!! You go girl! But since you did. . .I love curriculum and have been homeschooling for 11 years. (I’m Shawn’s friend with the 7 kids) Anyway, the best thing about it is that you really KNOW your kids. YOu get to spend so much quality time with them learning together. My favorite times are when we have memorized passages of scripture and they all beat me. Also when we all snuggle one the couch and read stories of all kinds. I am partial to historical fiction and Missionary stories, hence I love Shawns new book especially since I know the characters!!

    I feel like even though it is a HUGE investment on the mom’s part I can say that now that my older kids are in High school I am reaping the rewards. I still LOVE MY KIDS!! I mean like passionately and proudly. They aren’t socially weird either. . .we live on the southside of Chicago so they are very urban/black which weirdly enough is the in/hip thing even in the burbs.

    Anyway, specific curriculums I could recommend for your age group are Konos, Heart of Dakota, or Sonlight.

    Konos has all the ideas you wished you had thought of. It makes spending time learning with your kids an absolute blast. Its all character based, like if you are studying attentiveness you learn about the ear, the eye, etc with cool ideas like challenge your kids to only whisper all day to see if you are all paying attention to each other and you. I think Shawn might still have my copy.

    Heart Of Dakota is my new personal top pick for new homeschoolers and those who don’t want to figure it all out as you go. It is comprehensive and totally scripted and uses all the best curriculum options and is perfect for the early grades.

    Sonlight is awesome if you love to sit and read with your kids and to give them a broad worldview. ie. you don’t just go over Am. hist year after year. Great view of what God is doing all over the world.
    This may be a great option given the Smith family heritage.

    Anyway, there is my two bits. or three. . . πŸ™‚

    We have homeschooled, public schooled and christian schooled and I think there are advantages to each one. We have always looked at our situation and where each kid is at any given point in time and made an individual decision for each kid.
    Leave your options open and trust God to work in their hearts.

    My 16 year old has just finished his 2nd year in an inner city all minority high school and loved it until he got some standardized test scores back and they were alot lower than when he had been at home. SO he has made the decision to come home to finish his required credits and prep for the ACT test in April with the goal of spending his senior year overseas serving somewhere. Anyway, that is the other beauty of homeschooling, Think outside the box. Oh, and he will get a Spanish 3 credit by volunteering at a Hispanic ministry here in chicago this year where he will have to speak in Spanish. He will master it better there than in the classroom!!

    Thanks for opening the box. .

    Paula Hamernick

  • Reply Emily August 5, 2008 at 5:03 pm

    I would love to come hear you speak. Would you post the details on your blog? Where, time, ect? Good luck in homeschooling! My cousin homeschools her children and she absolutely loves it! And…so glad to see Kate is using the potty now πŸ™‚ I’m sure you are too!

  • Reply Libby August 5, 2008 at 5:24 pm

    I just want to thank you for being so open and sharing your story. I have a 2 year old who has picked up “Darn it” although not horrible, I just don’t like the way it sounds from a 2 year old. She’s strong willed (as am I) and we’re trying to help her not say it – I think she does just to get a rise out of us. (it works)

  • Reply Spivey Family August 5, 2008 at 6:41 pm

    Wow, I can’t believe you are coming to Lexington, KY. I live near Lexington. I look forward to attending the conference. You will do an awesome job!

  • Reply Erica August 5, 2008 at 6:49 pm

    I absolutely delight in reading each and every word of your blog. I don’t think I have ever left a comment before, but I prayed right along with you ever moment you were in the hospital delivering Audrey, and I have continued to pray for you and your family ever since. I just laugh at how hilarious your real life stories are, because I can SO relate! I have 2 very busy girls that I adore. I am also planning to homeschool and I loved that you wrote that the time you spend with them is sweet. I look forward to adding that to my list of roles in this home. I can also relate to trying to get out of something you know the Lord is wanting you to do. I have found over and over again that when I step out in faith, He steps in and the results are beautiful. You will do great!Thank you for being so real…Erica

  • Reply take me away August 5, 2008 at 7:04 pm

    Congratulations, Kate!

    I live very close to Lexington when I am not at school, but unfortunately I am at school now. I will be praying for you as the date gets closer… I wish I could be there!

  • Reply statmom August 5, 2008 at 7:24 pm

    I recently started reading your blog after a friend told me about it. You are such an inspiration to us all.

    Is there any chance you could video your speech and post it on your blog? That way we could all see it from afar! Best wishes!

  • Reply Tiffani August 5, 2008 at 8:00 pm

    Hi Angie,
    I have enjoyed reading your story and I am still lifting up your sweet family and all of your new endeavors (homeschooling and speaking) I wanted to let you know I’ve been homeschooling 4 years and I LOVE it…I’ve had a little one for all four of those years, you’ve gotten some great suggestions on here but I thought I’d let you know about a new blog called The Homeschool Classroom (www.thehomeschoolclassroom.com) which I think is going to be a great resource for us homeschooling Moms. I’ll be posting there soon about homeschooling preschoolers…it is truly a calling to do this rewarding and difficult task with our children…but I believe it is worth it!!


  • Reply Meagan White August 5, 2008 at 8:30 pm

    My husband and I are friends with the Kolkhorsts, parents of Baby Coy. I found your blog through theirs. I read your entire story from start to finish, and I am inspired by your faith and strength. You mentioned being somewhat of a new Christian, and once wishing that you had known God all of your life the way you know him now.

    I was raised from a tiny baby in the church, but my faith, at 23 years old, is nowhere near yours. As I read about your conversations with God and learned about your complete trust in Him to put it all in His hands, I was humbled. I think I sometimes take my faith and my relationship with God for granted. You have taught me to pray more dilligently, and to actually listen…to trust Him in all things, no matter what. You have inspired me to reconnect with Him, and I thank you for that.

    I know that months have passed since that day, but I know you must still be hurting. I am not a mother myself yet, but my husband and I are about to start trying to conceive. I can only imagine what you’ve been through. I will keep you in my daily prayers and thoughts.


  • Reply David and Lori Plus 8 August 5, 2008 at 8:53 pm

    good to read your update….checking daily for the latest on the bible study – when, where…but I do know WHY!!! Can’t wait. – Lori in Clarksville

  • Reply Becky August 5, 2008 at 9:57 pm

    Angie, hello! Like so many others who have posted recently, I have been to your blog many, many times, but haven’t posted before. Thank you for the many ways that you are blessing others, I’m so grateful that God has called you to be doing just what you’re doing—being you, open, honest, funny, and bringing other people closer to God. You are amazing!

    I homeschooled my older 2 children (now going into 5th and 3rd grades) for 3 years, and then was struggling mightily with my eldest, so my husband and I decided to send them to a Christian elementary school for the last 2 years. I told them at the end of each year we would pray to see where God wanted them to be next year, and at the end of this school year, they asked me, “Mom, what did God tell you for next year?” πŸ™‚ I honestly didn’t know, and although it’s been on my mind over the summer (we’ve been very busy moving), it hasn’t been at the forefront of my mind. Reading your last post, though, is making me think again, and realizing that I just need to reach out to the Lord for guidance on where they should be this year (and quickly, I’ve only got about a month left to figure it out!)

    Anyway, wonderful other ideas about homeschooling on here already, I just wanted to add a couple resources to those already mentioned. If you don’t already get the Rainbow Resources catalog, I would HIGHLY recommend it! http://www.rainbowresource.com/index.php It’s awesome, as large as an urban phone book, and each product has been reviewed extensively. I sometimes just sit and read it and make a wish list! It’s also a family business, a large Christian homeschooling family runs it (not that I don’t like Amazon, but I like supporting a family business!)

    One last book that we loved when we homeschooled was called “My ABC Bible verses” by Susan Hunt. Each letter of the alphabet has a corresponding Bible verse, along with a story to help teach the verse. When my oldest 2 were 5 and 7, they memorized the verses (each did every other one) for our homeschool program that year. I was amazed at their ability to memorize (better than mine, I think!) My youngest is now 4, and I think we’ll be getting the book out again.

    One other thought that I had in terms of entertaining Kate is that to give her some “Kate time” when you’re done with your older 2. I know it was easy for me to just try to get things “done” with the older 2 and distract the little one, then be like “whew” once we finished for the day. But, if Kate knows that when you are finished with Ellie and Abby, she will get some one on one time with Mama (maybe while the other 2 have a quiet reading time?), she might be able to hold out for a bit in terms of attention span. Just a thought!

    Good luck on your speaking engagement! I remember a couple years ago I was asked to give the children’s message at church on Sunday, and I was a wreck for the week before (public speaking—not my thing!) I kept wondering how to reach out to the kids, the rest of the congregation…would they get anything out of my message. Finally, it was like I heard God telling me, “You’re serving me by speaking, the rest will take care of itself!” Somehow, that just lifted a huge burden off me, I could talk to God. You’ll be talking to God, and he will be speaking through you!

    This is longer than I had intended it to be—sorry! Thank you for being the blessing that you are! πŸ™‚


  • Reply Stacy F. from Arkansas August 5, 2008 at 11:17 pm

    You are cracking me up with the Beth Moore stuff….because all my friends here in Searcy, Arkansas call me the “BETH MOORE STALKER” ..they even will accuse me of having my hair cut like her..they are just crazy. Anyway, I sent her an email once (years ago) to tell her how much my daughter, who has cerebral palsy, loves to lay and watch her videos and thinks she is terrific..well, Beth sent me an email back kind of scolding me for putting her up on a pedestal..my friends were cracking up at that..they said, we told you that you were obsessed. Kidding aside, she is a fantastic teacher and the Lord really does use her to do great things. I have LOVED your blog and your writtings..you have forever changed my life.
    In Christ,

  • Reply Munchkins and Music August 6, 2008 at 4:44 am

    I just wanted to say how touched I was by reading your Audrey’s story. She is a beautiful baby!

  • Reply queenoftheclick August 6, 2008 at 4:44 am

    I saw this blog and thought it might come in handy for you and the girls since it has a lot of nice art projects that they all could do.


  • Reply Anothermadhousewife August 6, 2008 at 5:48 am

    OK, first I have to tell you that I laughed out loud about Kate pooping in the sink. That is truly hilarious.

    Second, I’m so excited that you’re homeschooling. I’m on year 7 this year, though last year I took a break and put my two oldest in the elementary school up the street for the year.

    Third, I want to come to your bible study (and the conference for that matter), but I live in GA. . and have five kids and all that. Keep us posted as to how you feel God leading with the speaking engagements. Maybe you could speak at our women’s retreat one day. Erika πŸ™‚
    P.S. It’s always in February. πŸ˜‰

  • Reply Anothermadhousewife August 6, 2008 at 5:53 am

    Wait, sorry I mean on the kitchen counter, not sink. πŸ˜‰ E

  • Reply katie August 6, 2008 at 7:11 am

    i dont really have anything earthshattering to say. i just feel like i should say something to you considering i spent the past 3 hours reading your blog and weeping and praying and feeling something i havent felt in a long time.

    i was looking at a friend’s sister’s blog whose baby boy is sick with cancer and for some reason after i clicked around a little and jesus took me to your page. i started from the beginning and from the moment i started reading, i just couldnt stop. i couldnt stop. the things you were writing, the things you were saying in your blogs, they just spoke to me. they made my heart want to laugh and scream and sing and weep. my heart hasnt seen, what i saw in your stories, in a while. i feel like i just stood right beside you through this whole thing. the first time i read ever was tonight. but i feel as if i just took this whole long journey with you from the beginning. and in a way i guess god let me travel with you a little ways. i laughed out loud with you and weeped with you and prayed for you. i dont know what to tell you except that reading these things you write, they help me see things about jesus that i havent seen in a long time, or maybe that i havent wanted to see in a long time. jesus has been my best friend for a while now, but sometimes you have those highs and sometimes you have those valleys where your heart likes to stand really far away from god. and im in one of those valleys, but reading your blog, your story, it woke me up. and made me realize that sometimes staying up too late when you have alot of packing to do and a long trip out of town in the morning, god works in those moments too. because youve helped me see god tonight. and see what it looks like to really and truly hold onto god through the hard stuff. if you wrote this blog and i was the only person who ever read it, you should know that not one word wouldve gone to waste. (clearly thats not the case with 500 and 700 comments)…but thats how much this meant to me, how much this moved me. and to say it “changed my life” sounds a little dramatic, but i guess in a small sense it did. it really did. it looks like god is letting you be a part of alot of lives through this blog. because people who are 25 and 45 and 65 are reading and being moved. and even people like me, who are 15 years old and in that stage of life where everything feels scary and crazy and wonderful all at the same time, well just know youre speaking to me too. anyways, i feel like i said all the things i didnt mean to say, and didnt say one thing i meant to say, so youll have to bear with me. but just wanted to say what seems like quite a humble, incompetent…”thanks” for holding onto god through all of this and letting me read along. you are so beautiful and i will defiantly be following your journey from now on. you helped me see the beauty and strength and promise of god, through your words and ill leave it at that…katie

  • Reply Faith Hope Love Mama August 6, 2008 at 1:35 pm

    I’ve commented a few times but have not for a little while. Although I do check your site often and am often moved to tears by the honesty of your posts and faith displayed despite the hurt you have. I’ve not lost a baby in the same way that you have but lost my second pregnancy early on in miscarriage and still have moments of grief from that. God blessed me with three babies that reside in my house at this very moment. OK they are not so much babies anymore as they are 9, 6, and 4 but they will forever be my babies. I’m also so very touched that you have included MCK Mama’s link on your site as she is a friend of my sister’s. I’ve met her once and have been a blogging friend for a little while before this difficult time in her life. I pray for her often as I remember praying often for you as you went through your pregnancy with your sweet Audrey. Thank you for sharing your heart with us mothers. Even if we have not been through the same things we still have a mom’s heart that hurts with others and it’s been a priviledge to pray for you and her. Blessings.

  • Reply Gandee family August 6, 2008 at 2:42 pm

    Praying for you as you have made the decision to allow God to use you in ministry in whatever way He deems appropriate. What a huge step! I am so bummed for me, but excited for those in Lexington as I was just in Lexington visiting my brother-in-law and family last weekend. Ironically, they attended Southland Christian Church (and now attend a “branch” of it, I think). I’m definitely going to share with my friends and family there about your speaking engagement. If you share your heart in your speaking engagements as you do in your writing the blog, I know those who year you will be truly blessed! You have an amazing story of faith and hope that so many, even those who are believers, need to hear!

  • Reply Sara August 6, 2008 at 3:16 pm

    I’m TOTALLY FREAKING OUT. You are coming to LExington Kentucky. Like MY Lexington Kentucky?? SERIOUSLY How can I come? I attend NorthEast Christian Chruch but have been to Southland. Do I need to purchase a ticket? Our churches usually take care of each other so is this something my church might inform me of in the coming weeks or what. I want to go see you, tell me how!

  • Reply Sarah August 6, 2008 at 3:39 pm

    Angie, this post made me laugh so hard at the potty training story! I have no children so I haven’t experienced any of that yet.
    And I was homeschooled my whole 12 years of school. I actually liked it alot! I was done before my friends got out of their school and I wasn’t “sheltered” by not having prep rallys or proms since I went with my best friend to all of hers and then my husbands jr and sr proms with him. πŸ™‚ I pray that God blesses you though through it all because watching my mom do it with 5, I know it needs alot of patience. πŸ™‚
    And if you think about it, could you pray for my husband. He is applying for a job that we both really want him to have. It pays very well and I will be able to stay home and not have to work.
    Thank you!

  • Reply Quinn August 6, 2008 at 5:15 pm

    I know you’re going to be great at that conference. I’m rooting for you! And congrats on Kate’s inmproved pooping technique!

  • Reply Beth August 6, 2008 at 6:02 pm

    I have a funny 6 degrees of seperation story for you!!

    I don’t want to name names on the big open web…can I email you instead?

    You will be amazed at how small our world seems when God intervenes!

  • Reply Kristina August 6, 2008 at 7:44 pm

    I love the potty training story! When I was potty training my oldest son, I was carrying in groceries and he was running around in the yard. We were living in a townhouse and shared a porch with our neighbors. The guy that lived there came running out screaming at me. My son had dropped his pants and was calmly peeing on their side of the porch.

    I homeschooled my 2 oldest boys for preschool. They were 4 and 3, and I also had a 1 year old and a newborn. We usually did school while the babies were sleeping so it wasn’t a huge thing, but the things I did for preschool you could maybe do with Kate and the older girls could do it too.
    I bought flash cards with letters and pictures to help them learn their letters and sounds, and handwriting paper to practice our letters of the day. We worked a lot on writing their names, and we made placemats or posters with pictures of things that started with the letter of the day.
    I had some Mother Goose coloring books and we learned the old nursery rhymes.
    We had a reading tree on the wall. I cut a big tree trunk out of a paper grocery bag, and we cut leaf shapes out of green construction paper. Every time we read a book we wrote the name of the book on a leaf and taped it on the tree. They loved watching the tree grow leaves.
    We also played a lot of Candyland. That helps with numbers and colors. And we had nature hikes, where I made a list of things to look for outside, and then we made collages of the things we found.
    We lived then in Columbus, OH, and they had one day that was free to get into the zoo if you rode the bus, so every week we went to the zoo and learned about the animals.
    We had a lot of fun. Since I had to go back to work, I’ve really missed having that quality time with the kids. Now we try to plan a family day every week where we play games and do crafts together.

  • Reply Kristina August 6, 2008 at 7:53 pm

    I forgot to share my swearing story. Crap is an okay word at our house, only because it’s better than the alternative. It doesn’t sound so nice coming out of a little one’s mouth, though. The other one that doesn’t sound nice is Freakin’. My 5 year old yelled from her room a couple weeks ago, “I can’t find my freakin’ baby!” But some words are definitely not okay, especially, Oh my God. A neighbor kid was over at our house playing and said it, and I heard my son, who was 7 then, say, “Trevor, if you’re going to say the name of God inSANE, go outside! We don’t say the name of God insane in this house!”

  • Reply LC August 6, 2008 at 9:16 pm

    I was just emailed your blog today by a fellow staff member. We go to Calvary Jupiter in Jupiter, Florida. I thought it was so cool because I am from Lexington, KY and went to Southland for years and years. My parents still go there and I wanted to let them know when you’ll be speaking there. Do you have any details you could give me? Your blog is so touching. Before you had even said you feel like God is calling you into ministry, I was thinking. “This blog is such a ministry. I bet God is preparing her for something big.” Thank you so much for sharing your life.

  • Reply Courtney August 6, 2008 at 10:21 pm

    I feel like I have grown with you since I started reading your blog not long after “the beginning”. It’s amazing to see the ride that God has taken you on. For you to go through something terrible, but to see it add to your character, touch so many through your blog and now you stand on the brink of a new ministry through speaking and leading women in study. I think you have just begin to touch lives my dear and I am so excited for you. I can’t wait to see where God takes you!

  • Reply Amy August 6, 2008 at 10:54 pm

    This might seem like a silly question, but what Bible study are you referring to in your blog? Beth Moore? I’m sure you mentioned it in one of your other blogs, but I’m still trying to back read some of them. Are you planning on ‘leading’ one? I completely understand if you can’t reply to this…my blog http://alhuffmaster.blogspot.com/

  • Reply Lilipie's Mommy August 7, 2008 at 12:02 am

    Thanks for sharing your encouraging news on potty training. My daughter is two years old and we are also dealing with this sometimes insurmountable task. This is actually my very first post here and it’s because I wanted to “come out” and tell you how wonderfully inspiring I find your blog. I love how Jesus is reflected in every one of your posts. Thanks for sharing your heart, your faith, and your courage with the rest of us. BTW, I hope this is okay…I’d like to present you with the Blogging Brilliant Award. You can then award it do seven more brilliant bloggers such as yourself! Please visit my blog for more details.



  • Reply Naomi August 7, 2008 at 2:13 am

    We can never ‘poo-poo’ the progress of toilet training! Great job Kate!

  • Reply Jesus Cares for Us August 7, 2008 at 4:12 am

    Please pray for Maria. Her baby girl died today and she was only 8 weeks old. She buries her this Saturday. I am going to refer her to your blogspot in hopes that it may help her through a time more difficult than I can imagine. I can’t wait until Jesus comes back and puts a stop to the sorrow we have to experience here on Earth. I am so sorry about your beautiful Audrey, but thank you for having the courage to share how God has gotten you through one day at a time.

  • Reply Kristi August 7, 2008 at 4:26 am

    I am a college friend of dear Mck Mama’s and came across your blog from there tonight.

    I have spent the last 30 minutes or so engrossed in your journey. You are amazing! I too love the Mercy Me song, “Bring the Rain.” How powerful it is that the Lord uses the “rain” in our lives to bring Him glory. And, that is just what you are doing as you share your life with SOOOOOO many people.

    I have been encouraged by your honesty, inspired by your dedication and love for our Lord, and moved to tears (not just in my eyes, but big ones rolling down my face uncontrollably – I too cry easily and at kids’ movies) as I read the sweet words from your fingertips.

    How precious ALL four of your girls are. May God bless you and continue to uphold you, comfort you, and be your strength.

    Thanks for sharing!

  • Reply Truly Blessed August 7, 2008 at 11:12 am

    Hi Angie!
    Hilarious post. Life is so….full at times. πŸ™‚ My girls had fun playing with “it” in their room when we were going through the potty training stage. UGH! So, maybe the counter isn’t as bad as you think.
    I’m homeschooling my 5 girls, ages ranging from 13 to triplet 8 year olds. When the trips were little I had plastic shoe boxes filled with different things that we would swap out from time to time. Anything from those cardboard sewing cards to matchbox cars to legos to stickers/paper to building blocks, you get the idea. Each day she could use a different box so it doesn’t get old so quick. There are tons of printable coloring book pages on line that you can print out for her. Having a little time at the table with the big girls will make her feel big too. Maybe make her a little pencil case with a few of her own supplies in it. You could do Bible study in the morning with all of them so she will feel included and then she could go to her special spot and the big girls can go to theirs. You’ll be amazed at how quickly she picks up things from her sisters… as they learn so will she. I’d also have some dvd’s to pop in when she’s had enough “school time”.
    Just a few ideas that I thought may help out.
    Blessings to you!

  • Reply Mary August 8, 2008 at 1:25 am

    I’m not sure if you’ll see this comment. I think it’s #220. I just wanted to tell you how moved I am by your blog. My best friend emailed me today with the link to it and told me she had been reading it and crying her eyes out. I asked her why I would want to read something so sad and she said I had to read it because it is written by such a Godly woman. She knew it would be a blessing to me, and she was right. I pray that if I ever find myself in the same situation that I will glorify my God and find strength as you have. May God pour His blessings out upon you and your family. May many people be brought to the saving knowledge of Jesus Christ through your writing (and your speaking). You can do it, because God will be standing there with his arm around you. Thank you for your inspiraton. I’ve linked your blog to one of mine so I can check back in regularly.

    Mary Rogers

    P.S. I just love Selah and oddly enough (or perhaps not so oddly) I was listening to them this morning before my best friend ANGIE called to tell me about your blog.

  • Reply Beth August 11, 2008 at 11:05 pm

    This is such a great post! I laughed and laughed over your daughter and her experimentation with those words. Classic. And, by the way, God is going to fall on your sweet candid self in Lexington and use you so powerfully. If it makes you feel any better, this speaker always feels like she’s going to throw up, too. Never have gotten over it. Only God can do it and bring a dang thing from it.

    You’re darling.


  • Reply Jenn in GA August 12, 2008 at 2:37 am

    i was sitting in my car after church 2 sundays ago when you and your family walked by…it took me too long to realize that it was you, and i didn’t want to run after you and stop you while you were enjoying your anonymity at browns bridge to tell you that i was deeply touched by your story about audrey caroline, and i believe the way you and your husband faced and continue to walk the road God has you on regarding her brief life is so beautiful. so i’m telling you now. i’m glad you had a good visit in GA; come back again. we promise to let you be regular folks!

  • Reply dr. Bray August 16, 2008 at 3:37 am

    Hi Angie,
    I drop by from time to time and say prayers for your family. You have such a strong faith and I wish that maybe you can spread some of it my way. My water broke at 23 weeks while I was tring to board a plane from Fl to go home to MI. I am now miles away from my family as we wait to see if we will be welcoming our baby boy into the family. I lost a boy at 18 weeks last summer and I have commented a couple times on your blog. Just wondering if you have any extra prayers out there for my baby & I. I have many for you & your family. I wish you all well.

  • Reply Rebecca October 1, 2008 at 7:46 pm

    When standing on the holy ground in the presence of the Lord, Moses begged for the Lord to use someone else. He studdered and believed that others were better equipped to lead the people out of Egypt. The Lord chose him. Not only did he choose Moses, but he equipped him. I’ll be praying for you on Friday! I know that the Lord is going to do BIG things in KY!

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