October 15

As many of you know, tomorrow (October 15th)  is the National Day of Remembrance for pregnancy and infant loss.  This includes all babies who have died because of miscarriage, stillbirth, SIDS, or any other infant death.
I am blessed to have this blog, to have many people who pray for me and for my family.  I am honored every day at the way complete strangers have made a difference in the way I am processing the loss of my daughter.  I don’t take it for granted.  Not for one moment. Thank you.
In the process, I have met many, many women who have lost their sons and daughters, and I have been praying about ways to make this blog about them as well as Audrey.  Last week, the Lord spoke to me, and I was inspired to do this…
If you have lost a baby (and yes, I consider a miscarriage in ANY week to be the loss of a life) to infant death or miscarriage, I want the honor of praying for you.  But I want others to be able to pray for you as well, the way they have for me.  So, if you are one of those women, will you please leave a comment on this post and tell us your name, the nature of your loss (date, what happened etc), and the child/children’s names so that we can pray for you.

You may post as “anonymous” for this post (I have altered settings to allow this), and you are welcome to leave as much info as you feel comfortable.  If you don’t want to share private information, you are welcome to just say, “I lost a baby” and we will pray for you.  
If you are a reader of this blog, and you want to be one of the “prayer warriors,” please scroll through the comments and be on your knees for all of the families who have lost their little ones.
Here is a quote I found the other day….I hope it speaks to you the way it has me.
Jacob, where do you find the strength to carry on in life?”
“Life is often heavy only because we attempt to carry it,” said Jacob. “But I do find a strength in the ashes.”
“In the ashes?” asked Mr. Gold.
“Yes,” said Jacob, with a confirmation that seemed to have traveled a great distance.
“You see, Mr. Gold, each of us is alone.  Each of us is in the great darkness of our ignorance.  And, each of us is on a journey.
“In the process of our journey, we must bend to build a fire for light, and warmth, and food.
“But when our fingers tear at the ground, hoping to find the coals of another’s fire, what we often find is the ashes.
“And, in those ashes, which will not give us light or warmth, there may be sadness, but there is also testimony.
“Because these ashes tell is that somebody else has been in the night, somebody else has bent to build a fire, and somebody else has carried on.
And that can be enough, sometimes.”
~Noah benShea
I will start.
My name is Angie Smith.  I lost my first child to miscarriage in January of 2002.  I lost my daughter Audrey Caroline shortly after birth on April 7th, 2008 due to conditions that made her incompatible with life….
…and provide for those who grieve in Zion-
to bestow on them a crown of beauty
   instead of ashes,
the oil of gladness
   instead of mourning,
and a garment of praise
   instead of a spirit of despair…
Isaiah 61:2-3
Blessings to you, my sisters in sorrow.
Angie

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  • Anonymous

    I lost my first child to miscarriage in June 2006.

  • Anonymous

    My name is Mandi. I lost our 1st child in 2004. We have a wonderful son by the blessing of adoption born in 2006. We lost our 3rd child (2nd biological) in 2008. Both of our losses were in early miscarriage, but still very painful.

  • Mrs. Wilson

    Angie, thank you SO much for sharing your story. You truly are a light in the darkness.

  • Anonymous

    I hope this is appropriate. 18 years ago when I was 14, I became pregnant and my parents forced me to have an abortion. I have never forgiven myself or them and have never forgotten the child I never got to keep.

  • Keri

    I lost my first child to miscarriage in 1992. I had 2 healthy children and then I lost another child to miscarriage in July 1998. I had a healthy daughter and then lost another child to miscarriage in December 2000. We adopted a wonderful daughter from China in December 2004.

  • rthling

    My name is Diane, and we miscarried our third child in 2000. Every year we hang an ornament on our Christmas tree in honor of the child we never knew. And the necklace I wear with my children’s birthstones has an angel pendant with the stone of the month he was due.

  • Jen

    I have been reading your blog for a while now. Your story has truly touched me, and I love the way you write with such strength.
    This is my first post. On August 8,2008 I got a positive pregnancy test after 14 months of trying. On August 18, my husband who was only 31 years old died of a massive heart attack. Three days after his funeral I found out the baby was smaller and my Dr. pushed me back one week. One week later I had another ultrasound I was supposed to be 8 weeks and was measuring just 6 weeks. Three weeks later I had to have a D&C because I wasn't miscarrying on my own. It has now been 8 weeks and 1 day since losing my husband and 3 weeks tomorrow since losing our baby.

  • Anonymous

    Dear Angie,

    This is me, coming out of Lurking.

    My mother lost my baby sister Lisa to sids on father’s day in 1979. I was only two years old. And though it has been almost 30 years since her death I know, from watching my own baby sister grow up and turn 18 this coming april, that that is hardly any time at all.

    Please remember Lisa. I do believe she has been watching over us all as there have been too many instances where I feel she has touched our lives still.

    And then you should know that your blog has helped me so amazingly much with my own personal loss of the man I love with my entire heart and soul. He is still on this earth and now with someone else, and your writings of trust and acceptance move me to tears and calm me down when I need them most. I work gaveyards and you have so often moved me to peace.

    I am reading still.
    -Me.

  • Sweet Baby Whispers

    My name is Nikki. I lost my first child to miscarriage in June 2007.

    My daughter, Alyssa Wood was born on Feb.22 of this year at 22 weeks. She was with us just a few short hours but her presence is felt with me everyday.

    I cry as I post this, thinking of you Angie and all the other mommy’s seperated from their babies…

  • Julie

    My name is Julie and I lost a baby in June of 1999. I was thirteen weeks pregnant with our second child. We have never named the baby that we lost, but I think about them all the time. I went on to have a beautiful daughter in April 00. It took me many years to process the loss we had in 99.

  • vintagesquirrel

    Thank you for doing this, Angie. I lost a pregnancy at 12 weeks, and although I went on to have other children, I still grieve for that baby.

  • Ethan and Emily

    My name is melinda and i lost my first son september 17th, 2003 he was stillborn. I have sense had 2 beautiful children a son and a daughter. But his loss has forever changed my heart.

  • Anonymous

    We lost 4 children to miscarriage. All at different stages of pregnancy. The last on October 12,1990. Yes, 18 years ago. Sometimes I still grieve the loss deeply-at the sight of another baby or a memory of that day. God showed up in amazing ways during those years. I learned and grew in my relationship with Him-in ways I would not have otherwise. Because of the road I have walked I can feel and pray for you and your family in a unique way. Thank you for taking the time to pray for others who are now-or have in the past walked thru the valley of loss.
    A reader in NY

  • Ruth

    I did not lose a baby, but my best friend Dena lost her baby boy, Oliver Jacob due to his cord getting twisted on July 11, 2008. Prayers for her would be so appreciated.

  • Anonymous

    Hi. I lost two children to miscarriage in 2004. One in June and one in September. Thank you to everyone out there who is praying for all of our losses.

  • Cathi

    Hi, my name is Cathi. We lost twins in Jan. 1996 to an early miscarriage. It still hurts some days, but with God’s comfort we get through them. I will be praying for all who have lost children. What a day it will be when we see them all again!

  • Mallory Jones

    My name is Mallory Jones, Angie, and I have been reading your blog faithfully since I heard about it on a page for Steven Curtis Chapman’s family on Facebook. I emailed you once, telling you the story of losing my father, and I felt relief afterwards. I can’t tell you how following your story has opened my heart to the light of Christ in a way I’ve never known before. The fact that you are so willing to process your emotions out in the open so that you may help others is an almost incomprehensible gift. I have prayed for you almost every night, and even at 16, I feel just that much closer to understanding a pareent’s loss, and can only pray that I will never have to go through what you have. Thank you doesn’t quite fit how much admiration and appreciation I have for the gift you have given all of your blog readers, but it’s all I can come up with at the moment, so THANK YOU, Angie. I will continue to pray for you and for all the other mothers who know your pain.

    Mallory Jones
    eastern NC

  • Anna

    My name is Anna Pastusek. We lost our first daughter, Hope Elizabeth, when she was stillborn on March 26, 2008. Hope had Trisomy 18, a condition that is incompatible with life. We are so blessed to have had the time with her that we did.

  • Cindy in GA

    Hi Angie,

    I’ve been reading your blog since early this year and have been very blessed to be able to read your thoughts here. I lost two babies to miscarriage, one at just 5 1/2 weeks in 2002 and the other just this spring at 11 1/2 weeks. I do not know who they were, which feels odd but O.K. at the same time. I still love them and long to know them in heaven someday. This post brought tears to my eyes; thank you so much for praying. My prayers are still with you as you move through this life w/out your precious Audrey.

  • Anonymous

    My husband and I lost our first child to miscarriage in February of 2007. I was 10 weeks along. We were blessed with our son in November 2007. I believe that the reason I lost the first child is because it was not Jackson and God wanted us to have Jackson. However, my heart still aches at times when I think about our loss. May God bless each of you who have suffered such a tragic loss.

  • Anonymous

    My name is Susan and we lost our baby in August 2001 at 17 weeks. As a result of the miscarriage, I hemmoraged badly and almost died. The doctors were forced to perform a hysterectomy to save my life. We never found out if it was a boy or girl, but in my heart I know it was a girl and that someday I will be reunited with her in heaven. We have been blessed with two beautiful children through adoption. Thank you for doing this.

  • Kate :-)

    My name is Kate, and I lost my first child to miscarriage on February 27, 1998 at 11 weeks.

  • Hope Wilson

    I lost my first child to miscarriage in February 2003…"And we rejoice in the hope of the glory of God. Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perserverance; perserverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us." My parents suffered with infertility & were unable to biologically have children & adopted me & my brother & this is the verse that they named me from. Hopefully others will find comfort/peace in this verse as my mom & I have…

  • Anonymous

    I have lost four tiny babies to miscarriages. I look forward to the day when I will finally see them face to face.

  • Devin

    My name is Devin and I lost a child in 1995. The baby was a twin and God allowed me to carry the other twin full term. She is now a vibrant, healthy 13 year old and second of my six children.

    Thank you for providing a forum for us to remember our babies. God bless.

  • Dani

    My name is Dani. We lost our son, Walker August 2, 2006 he was 17 weeks old. They tell us it was SIDS, but we feel is was related to vaccines. We have struggled with infertility since and had a chemical pregnancy after IVF August 2008. God Bless all of us who have lost our precious babies.

  • Jennifer

    Hi Angie. My name is Jennifer Doyle and I lost my baby boy (Ethan) at 20 weeks gestation. I went in for my 5 month checkup and there was no heartbeat. I was totally unaware that there were any problems. I have a little boy turning 5 in two weeks and a little girl who is 2 years old. My 5 year old often asks about Ethan and can’t wait to get to Heaven to play with him! :-)

  • Christine

    We lost our first sweet one to miscarriage in January of 1997. Our angel was just about six weeks along in the pregnancy. We had just seen a very strong, very determined heartbeat just five days before.

  • Sharon Perry

    We lost our first child, Blessed Perry in April of this year. God Bless you all during this time of sadness. I pray for healing of our hearts b/c we will never forget the loss of all our blessed children.
    sharon

  • LorelaiCC aka C.C. Almon

    My name is C.C. My husband Russ & I have lost 3 children to miscarriage. Our children who are no longer with us but that we still love so much are: Jordan Taylor (due on earth May 11, 1999, born into heaven September 1/2, 1998), Micah Jayden (due on earth September 20, 2001, born into heaven late January, 2001), and Noah Avrey (due on earth September 1, 2004, born into heaven late January, 2004).

  • Linda

    My name is Linda and I lost my first child to miscarriage in March of 2000. It was early on, I’d just had my official test and miscarried a few hours later. It was discovered after I became pregnant with my daughter a few months later, that I had thyroid disease which likely contributed to my miscarriage. I just think that God needed my baby more.

  • Wifeof1Momof4

    THANK YOU ANGIE!!!

    My name is Jai and my daughter Denham Christina was born and died on July 2, 2003. (5 1/2 months pregnant)

    Her heartbeat was clear and concise, but it was too much for her to go through the birth canal. She had some sort of infection that doctors say she would not have survived even if I had made it to my ninth month.

    She was beautiful, we have pictures and we were able to tell that her nose was just like my mom’s.

    Thank you for your prayers!

  • Anonymous

    My name is Rachel. I have a beautiful daughter who is one year old. About 4 weeks ago I found out I was pregnant. My husband and I were so excited! Then, on October 1st, I had a miscarriage. This has been the most profoundly sad time in my life. People have said, “Oh you are young, there will be others,” but they don’t understand that it still hurts. Even though this baby was only 6-7 weeks along, it is still a painful loss.

    Angie, I have prayed for you many times, and I will pray that God brings comfort to all of the precious mothers who have lost little ones and are hurting. It’s good to know that we are not alone.

  • Rooney’s Little Musings

    My name is Rhonda. I lost our first baby in August 2007 to miscarriage at 8 weeks.

    I lost our second baby, a son, Henry Ian on May 5th, 2008. He was 30 weeks, and I was told there was a cord accident. No other explanation.

    I am now 16 weeks pregnant with our third baby. It is so hard to have peace during what should be such an exciting time.

    While I wouldn’t wish this on anyone, it is so comforting to know that I am not alone.

  • The Fabulous Ms. Beth

    My name is Beth Smith. I lost our first child Charlie on December 4th 2006 due to a heart defect. He was born November 30th 2006 and lived 81 hours. Since his birth, I’ve had 2 miscarriages. I am currently pregnant with our rainbow baby due in March.

  • Anonymous

    My name is Kendra and I lost my first pregnancy to miscarriage May 6th of this year at just over 7 weeks. We were, actually still are, devestated by losing what we had dreamed of. Though pregnant for just a short time, I was already head over heels in love. We continue through this journey of infertility and right now only get through it by God Himself taking my feet and moving them forward one at a time. Your brave blogging adventure and your honest vulnerable sharing have blessed me over and over. Please continue to allow God to use you.

  • El

    My name is Ellyn. I lost my second son and third child, Eli, shortly before his birth on March 28th, 2007. He was completely healthy. We will never know exactly what happened…our best guess is that his cord was compressed at some point after my water broke. He would be 18 months old today.

  • Anonymous

    A friend of ours lost a full term healthy baby in the 38th week of pregnancy (after years and years of trying to get pregnant). No reason why has been given. It just happened. Please pray for her and her husband.

  • Melanie

    Our daughter, Ruby Anne, was born still on September 6, 2006. As sad as it is to write that, it is somehow a comfort to have a reason to write her name. Thank you for the opportunity to remember how much life, including her life, means. Praying for you and all of these others, as well.

  • Anonymous

    My name is Heather. I lost my second child at about five weeks (Oct. 2006) and my third child at 9 weeks and six days (Feb.2007). I have two sets of ultrasound pictures of the last baby and it just upsets me to think what could have been. We would have named her Alana.

  • Jaime

    My name is Jaime. We lost our first baby–a daughter at 19 weeks due to a lack of amniotic fluid. Her story is here.
    http://morethanihopedfor.blogspot.com/2008/08/faith.html

  • Monkey’s Mommy

    My name is Shannon and I lost my first child to miscarriage at 6 weeks in May 2003.

  • Jocelyn

    My name is Jocelyn.

    I lost my second child to miscarriage in March 2008 after in-vitro fertilization.

    Thank you Angie.

  • Merin

    I lost my first child to miscarriage in January 2005. The child’s name is Hope Graves.

  • Anonymous

    I also – 20 years ago became pregnant and my parents also forced me to have an abortion. I never forget about that first child of mine what he or she would be like today. I have two living and one in heaven – I will never forget that.
    I hope this was ok to post.

  • Bird’s Words

    My name is Holly Prosser. We lost 4 babies to miscarriage between August of 1999 and April of 2001.
    Our son (12) is a living miracle, the only child that was able to live in my womb. Over 5 years ago, I felt certain that I heard God promise me another child. Now, I am in awe as I watch Him work through the miracle of adoption. We hope to bring home our little girl from Ethiopia by spring.

  • partyoffivetn

    Hi Angie, My name is Donna, and I got to meet you in Lexington at the Brave Women Retreat.
    I lost my fourth baby to miscarriage this past February th. We did not know the sex of the baby, but named him Gabriel. I am blessed with three other children, who every night say “thank you God, for baby Gabriel up in heaven.”
    Thank you for your blog, as it is also helping me to heal…

  • Anonymous

    I lost our 5th child to miscarriage in January 2007. I lost the baby before I had a chance to tell anyone (except my husband) that I was pregnant, so I haven’t shared it with many people. Thank you for the opportunity. I think about the baby often, but God has given me incredible peace in His sovereignty.

    L.

  • Anonymous

    my best friend lost twins in the fall of 2003…

  • Amanda

    After trying to concieve on and off of medicine for over a year, I lost my first child on August 29, 2005…the day Katrina hit…In March of 2006 we adopted a beautiful biracial boy from Arkansas and in January of 2008 I gave birth to two beatiful baby boys.

  • buhtafly

    Thank you for doing this..

    My name is Bree, and in May 2002, our identical twin girls were born at 25 weeks. Our sweet Ashlyn Grace passed away 20 hrs later due to complications of prematurity. Its hard to imagine its been almost 6.5 years, when it still feels like only yesterday. Our third pregnancy we lost another little one due to being ectopic at 7 weeks. A loss of a child, is so painful, and never forgotten.
    I will be praying for all who have experienced the loss of a baby :(

  • Anonymous

    Hi Angie,

    I’ve been reading your blog for awhile, but haven’t commented yet. Your words have really spoken to me, and I know that you are filled with the grace of the Holy Spirit. Thank you for your ministry.

    I haven’t lost a child, but please pray for these three women in my life who have:

    Jan, who miscarried a baby girl, Julia, in the 1980s.

    Margaret, my mother, who miscarried a baby (my younger brother or sister) in 1998.

    Dorothy, my grandmother, miscarried twins in 1949.

    Love to you and your wonderful family

  • Cara

    My name is Cara. We lost Emma Grace in September of 2000. She was stillborn at 40 weeks.

    She is well loved and celebrated.

  • Tracy

    I lost our baby January 10, 2004 and then just recently September 7, 2008. I do have 3 beautiful children 8, 6, & 2. I'm count it a blessing to have them but I still mourn the loss of my angels in Heaven.

  • Anonymous

    My name is Jennie. My son, Nathan, our third child, died last December. He was born without kidneys, but was born alive and lived 2 blessed hours surrounded by all the love his daddy and I could give him. He is buried with his uncle, my brother, who died 2 years ago.

    God bless you Angie.

  • painting me happy

    hi angie,

    we lost our 2nd baby due to an ectopic pregnancy in january 2006.
    i know our angel is waiting for us in heaven…
    may God wrap His arms around all the mommies who are waiting to see their babies again…
    thank you again for sharing your story and for being such a sweet soul.

    meredith

  • Elaine

    Hi Angie,

    I have been reading and praying for quite sometime now. You are such a wonderful example of a strong, faithful, God Loving Women.

    We lost our first baby to miscarriage, at thirteen weeks, in 2002. Our second baby came three weeks early in January of 2005, just two days before my Dad died. I went into labor at six months with our third, dialated to four and amazingly held on to him, and he was born healthy at 37 weeks.

    I will be on my knees praying for all the women in this post, and for those that can not bring themselves to post about it.

  • thetalbotts

    My name is Shelley, and I lost 3rd child, a daughter, Elliana Mae, to Trisomy 13. She was born on 8/1/08 and went to be with Jesus on 8/28/08. I am so blessed to have had 27 days with my precious girl.

  • Linda

    In March of 1980 we lost our 1st son – Michael when he was born at 7 1/2 months gestation. One of his lung lobes grew but did not mature – like a tumor and caused his remaining “normal” lung to not have the room to grow. He died in surgery . . .

    I have wept and prayed for you Angie as I read your blog. I also look forward to being reunited in Heaven with my precious son.

  • Lena

    My name is Lena- I have had 3 miscarriages. first one was at 10 weeks, second one at 5 weeks and the third one at 8 weeks. I didn’t name them but I love as much as my own children.

  • Katy

    My name is Katy. I lost our first child to miscarriage in November of 2007. I thought I was 12 weeks along but when I had my 12 week appointment the sonogram showed I had lost the baby around 7 1/2 weeks. My friends told me about your blog this summer and I have been reading and keeping up with your family since that time. I can’t explain to you how much reading your blog has meant to me…through the laughter and the tears it has been wonderful. I know that God will bless us with a sweet baby one day. I have faith! Thank you for all you do.

  • Devon Rene

    Blake Lucas
    ~ March 5 to March 8, 2008 ~

    and his identical twin brother,

    Ethan Derek
    ~ March 5 to March 7, 2008

    Born at 23 weeks…17 weeks too soon.

  • Anonymous

    Wow. Thank you for reminding me that I am not alone on this journey. I lost my first baby in January 2006 because it was an ectopic pregnancy. I lost my second baby at 12 and a half weeks on May 3, 2008. I thought I had healed, but the grief is overwhelming me as I approach my due date, November 14. I am learning that healing is a process and am can’t wait to meet my Hope Elizabeth in Heaven someday.

  • The Duráns

    My name is Kristina and my husband andI have lost three babies in miscarriage.
    The first on May 25th, 2007.
    The second on September 17th, 2007.
    The third on February 8th, 2008.
    We are thankful that God saw fit to bless us with those pregnancies even though He also saw fit to take those babies home to be with Him before we could hold them and meet them. We trust they are rejoicing in heaven now with their Heavenly Father.

  • Tami

    My name is Tami and I have lost three children.

    Konner Thomas was born in 1993 and he died due to premature labor complications.

    Kyle Joshua was born in 1994 and he also died due to premature labor complications.

    I had a miscarriage after their births and I’m blessed by the fact that I am now a mom to three beautiful boys here on earth. Their ages are 11, 9 and 7.

    I will be checking this post again tomorrow and joining all of my sisters who have also lost their children.They are sweet angels in heaven.

  • Heather

    My name is Heather. While I have not lost a child, my mother has. Justin Mark was born and he died on July 19, 1984. My mom had an amniotic embolism (sp?) and we almost lost her, too. This was the day before my 6th birthday and I am now 30. I still think of it often, so I am sure my parents do, as well. Please keep them in your prayers.

  • Leanne

    Okay, I think I’ll briefly come out of blog-retirement to leave a comment.

    Our 6th child, Janie Rose, died in my womb at 6 and a half months. She was born 4 days later, still.

    In July 2007, our 8th baby flew to Jesus due to miscarriage.

    On Valentine’s Day 2008, our 9th baby went to be with Jesus too, due to another miscarriage that almost took my life on my bathroom floor.

    I wanted those babies dearly and badly.

    It still hurts.

    I love your blog and I would love to meet you some day.

    To all the ladies who will be commenting about their losses, I’ve been there too, and I’ve left my ashes so you can know that someone has shared the darkness with you.

    You are NOT alone.

    Thanks, Angie, for allowing God to shape you through your losses.

    Love
    Leanne in Longview

  • Anonymous

    Angie- My request is for a couple in our small group. They just lost their baby girl. She was stillborn and I don’t know all of the details but I do know that mommy was in her ninth month and preparing for upcoming birth of her daughter.

  • Heather

    Hi- My name is Heather… I lost two babies last year. One right after the other. # 4 and #5 in our family. Both too early to know the sex. I lost one baby in June and another in late August.

    I have 4 kids… 3 boys and one girl- our baby girl was given to us right after the loss of the two sweet ones.

    Praying for all of you… and wishing that we weren’t connected in this way…..

  • Carrie

    My first child was born 3/162001 after being born fourteen weeks early. We lived in a very rural area CO. Kailie is buried in a praivate cemetery at the base of the Sangre De Cristo mtns. I had a placenta abruption and almost bled to death before getting to the hospital. They couldn’t get a line started on Kailie either and we were told she wouldn’t make the flight to Denver. We chose to let her return to heaven based o nteh info we were told at the time. Not a day goes by that I don’t wonder about our decision. We were told that she had a clotting disorder and would continue having blood clots until they reached her brain and caused a stroke–which would kill her. We moved four months after her death to be closer to family. We found out afterward taht she didn’have a blood disorder but I had a srep infection that I passed to her. I miss being able to visit her grave, but know she isn’t there, but rejoicing with Jesus. Her death have scarred me and changed who I am. it has devasted me in many ways but it has also made me stronger. er death has allowed me to connect with people in ways that are truly a gift. The pain of her death will never go away,but some days it is easier to deal with. I have been blessed with two more children who are constantly reminded that they have a special sister watching over them.

  • Robin

    I lost my first pregnancy very early on. We were on our way to Oregon for a vacation. I spent the entire 9 hour drive in agony. At one point we stopped for lunch at Arby’s and I huddled in a booth bent over in tremendous pain.
    I made my way to the restroom, I must have looked pretty bad because a lady that was also having lunch there, came in to check on me. We ended up having a wonderful and relaxing vacation, but I will always remember our child that was lost.
    We have gone on to have 3 successful pregnancies, resulting in 3 beautiful daughter’s.
    We are also in the process of adoption for a fourth child.

  • Anonymous

    My name is Jo. I lost my daughter Isabel Mae on Jan 31, 2008. She died during labor. The cord was tightly wrapped twice around her neck. I delivered her on Feb 1st.
    Thank you for opening this blog to all of us who have lost a child.

  • Monica @ Writer Chic

    My name is Monica. I miscarried our first baby in February 2007.

  • Mark & Abbie's Blog (mostly Abbie's)

    I lost my second child to a miscarriage October 2003.

    Thank you for praying for us and those who have lost.

  • Mark & Abbie's Blog (mostly Abbie's)

    I lost my second child to a miscarriage October 2003.

    Thank you for praying for us and those who have lost.

  • Anonymous

    Angie – Thank you for doing this..I’ve been following your blog and i’m so very sorry for your loss..

    My name is Nicole..We lost our Isabella on June 20th 2008 – I was 21w2d and her heart stopped. I was induced and gave birth to our sleeping angel! We were able to hold her and tell how much we love her..

    I’m now 11 weeks pregnant with our second child and I ask that you please pray we have a healthy full term baby!!

    Thank you,
    Nicole

  • Sara

    I lost my second child on December 24, 2006, at 10 weeks. We named the baby Christian. I have two other children, Audrey Caroline who’s 3, and Oliver Andrew, born on Christmas Eve, 2007.

  • stacey

    My name is Stacey and I lost my first child due to miscarriage in 1991, I lost my fourth child due to miscarriage at 12 weeks in 2001, and I lost my fifth child a beautiful baby boy named Jackson when he was 3mo. and 3 wks due to a condition call Ohtahara Syndrome. He went to his heavenly home on Dec. 6, 2006.

  • Becca

    I lost a baby very early in pregnancy in 2005. It was our first pregnancy and I am so blessed to have two beautiful young daughters that have worn me ragged tonight.

    When I think about those moments of deep despair, it brings tears to my eye.

    Thank you

  • Anonymous

    My name is Linda Richards. I lost my son, Declan Alexander, on May 23, 2008. He was born 14 weeks early but was growing and thriving in the NICU. At 9 weeks old he passed away from necrotizing enterocolitis (NEC).

    http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/miraclebaby3
    http://www.itsnomonkeybusiness.com

    Linda
    BellaVista, AR

  • Kim

    I had two miscarriages, one at 6 weeks in Dec 2006 and one at 7 1/2 weeks in April 2007. The next month I got pregnant with our first viable pregnancy and have a beautiful daughter, born Jan 2008. Thanks for the prayers and your heart for others! Kim

  • Carolyn

    We lost our third child, a boy, Reliance Micah, to in-utero cord strangulation (this would have been an adoption) in September 1995and our fourth child to miscarriage on November 1, 1997. We’ve never been able to have another child.

  • Anonymouse

    This is amazing. I’m so encouraged by you, your family and your life.

    I lost my first child to miscarriage in February 2007, my second in June 2007 and my third in February 2008.

    I’m now praying for my sweet daughter who is due 11/21 and for her sweet birth mom.

  • Mary

    My name is Mary, and I lost my first child to miscarriage in January of 2002 and my fourth child to miscarriage on November 18th, 2007. Angie, thank you for the wonderful light for Christ that you are. God bless.

  • Anonymous

    We lost our first child in a miscarriage in November of 2005. I was only 6 1/2 weeks along and hadn’t even gone to the dr. yet, but it was and is still hard. We now have a beautiful 2 year old daughter.

  • Diane

    Thank you for offering up this window to speak, (well type) read and pray. I am in tears as I read all the posts.

    I had my first miscarriage in January of 1996. Although I was only 8 weeks, the heartache was almost unbearable. In January 1999 – again more heartache. I found out in January of 2004 I was finally pregnant again, and because of the good Lord above and a wonderful doctor, I carried this baby and delivered her (by emergency c-section) on September 11, 2004. She is truly the blessing we have waited on forever. Our lives are full with her, but the other two are always in my heart. Thanks Angie. :-)

  • Erin

    I lost my second child, Griffin, at 20 weeks. He was very healthy but I had a chronic bleeding placenta previa. I spent 5 days in the hospital, prepared for a blood transfusion in case of a full bleed out. God worked major miracles in my body so that I could deliver Griffin without intervention. Unfortunately, my amniotic sac ruptured and neither Griffin nor I could survive the pregnancy. At 20 weeks, he looked just like my 5 year old son, Jackson. I was going through a divorce at the time and prayed daily that God would provide a peaceful environment for Griffin to be born into. It doesn’t get any better than Heaven.

  • Lisa-Cinti,Ohio

    Angie,
    Thank you for you wonderful words and allowing all of us women to post on your site. Thank your for praying for us as we pray for you.

    My name is Lisa, I lost my first pregnancy Dec 9, 1996. I was 12 weeks pregnant but apparently had only progressed to 8 weeks after seeing my babies heartbeat on 2 different ultrasounds prior to my loss. I was single, had broken up with my boyfriend because he was stalking his ex-girlfriend. I really believe it was stress induced, this miscarriage. I do believe that God brings good out of the bad, but it has taken me 12 years to accept that about this pregnancy loss. There are years that I do not think about this loss, the pain of it, not until I realize that for some reason I am in a funk and notice on the calendar its the anniversary of the miscarriage that required a D&C. I soon (4months later) left my hometown in Ohio and took a job in Hawaii away from everythign and everyone I knew, that was a wonderful place to come to some sort of terms with this loss. I wont lie, I was mad at God, I blamed God for many many years. It has really just been the past few years that I "forgave" God, but its been this past year that I have truly come to "know" God on a personal level due to other problems in my life and I realize how much I missed having a personal relationship with Him!

    Thank you Angie, I will pray for you and all these other women also.
    Lisa

  • Anonymous

    Angie,

    Thanks for this message. I have not lost a child of my own, but my twin sister lived only a few hours when born at 6 1/2 months in 1970.
    I am praying…. especially for these mom’s who have suffered a loss this year….the babies names are Avery Rose, Aiden, Oliver, Ian and Katlynn.

    Praying for peace,
    Soni

  • jkhenson

    We had two healthy daughters, first. Then, with no cause, lost our third baby at 15 weeks of pregnancy (10/2001), and we call him/her Sam when we pray, as that works for boy or girl. Then we lost our baby girl Sara 9/2002 after 6 weeks of pregnancy. We got to hold her, and she was perfect…ten fingers, ten toes, ears like Daddy.. Both babies are still missed by their parents and older sisters.
    Thank you for the prayers, they head your way often, as well.

  • sawicky99

    My name is Lynette and I lost my fourth baby at 6 weeks on February 27, 2008, and I lost my fifth baby at 16 weeks on August 21, 2008.

    Praying for all of you.

  • Anonymous

    We lost our 3rd precious baby on April 2, 2006. I was 10 weeks along when I had an ultrasound saying my baby had died 3 week prior. Then about 10 days had passed and then I miscarried the baby. We have a Willow Tree Figurine that is an angel holding a child. This is to help us remember and honor our little one that is now with Jesus. I didn’t know tomorrow was specially marked for this so thank you for letting us know about it!!!

  • Blake & Danielle

    We lost our first daughter, Finley Grace, on April 4th, 2007 when I was 20 weeks and 5 days pregnant.

    We lost our second daughter, Caroline Grace, on February 28th, 2008 when I was 24 weeks and 2 days pregnant.

    I am now at 24 weeks 6 days with their brother and am praying for a miracle…

  • Blake & Danielle

    We lost our first daughter, Finley Grace, on April 4th, 2007 when I was 20 weeks and 5 days pregnant.

    We lost our second daughter, Caroline Grace, on February 28th, 2008 when I was 24 weeks and 2 days pregnant.

    I am now at 24 weeks 6 days with their brother and am praying for a miracle…

  • Bri

    Hi. I lost our first baby June 9, 2008. I was 11 weeks along, it’s been hard. But praise God for the women that have come along and prayed for me along the way to healing. Thanks for your open heart, and godly spirit. You have been more help than you’ll ever know. God Bless You and all these beautiful women.

  • stacey

    My name is Stacey and I lost my first child in 1991 to miscarriage. After having two healthy children I lost my fourth child in miscarriage at 12 weeks in 2001. On Dec. 6, 2006 I lost my precious baby boy Jackson to Ohtahara Syndrome. He was 3mo. and 3wks.

  • Noordam’s Blog

    My name is Stacey Noordam.
    I lost a child to miscarraige in 2000.
    I lost another child to miscarriage in 2004 at 6 weeks.
    I lost another child to miscarriage in early 2005 at 14 weeks.
    I lost another child to miscarriage in late 2005 at 12 weeks.

  • Anonymous

    My name is Megan. We had Ethan in 1998. We lost our second child in 1999, our third child in 2001, our fourth child in 2003. We had Elijah in 2004. We had Josiah in 2006. We lost our seventh child in late 2006. We had our daughter Charity in 2007. Every child is a blessing no matter how long I had them. Some people think keeping them alive in memory is “not letting go” or “hanging on to the past”. I say it is remembering how much we loved them no matter how small, how early or if they were even born at all. Prayers and blessings to every woman who has loved her babies.

  • Anonymous

    My name is Jennifer and we lost our second baby on November 13, 2000 at 7 1/2 weeks. The due date would have been July 7, 2001 and we found out we were expecting our third baby on July 5th. It was only through strength from our Lord that we were able to get through that time. God has blessed us with 2 daughters and one baby that I long to see one day.

    I will remember all of these ladies and their families in prayer tomorrow.

  • Melissa

    Angie,

    My Mom carried six babies to full term and all of them died. The one who lived the longest lived for 2 hours. My sister and I are both adopted. I cannot begin tell you how God worked in all of this for our family. My Mom and Dad are in heaven now with all of their children and I know I will have the honor to meet all of them someday.

    Blessings,
    Melissa

  • The Hill Family

    I lost my first pregnancy due to the condition known as blighted ovum. I know God works in mysterious ways because my second baby was conceived only 2 months after my losing the first. I cannot imagine life without my Jon Walker who would not be here without God’s plan. We also had a little girl, Kennedy last year who completes us to no end. Angie, you have given me such strength and such inspiration as a mother and a person. Thank you for being the role model you are.

  • Anonymous

    my name is sarah. i lost my second child this past weekend. i have a very young daughter, but just suffered a miscarriage days ago. i am still bleeding, and i will especially remember this oct 15.

    i am praying for all the families hurting from the loss of precious babies.

  • Sarah

    My name is Sarah. I lost my 2nd child to an early miscarriage in October 2003. I had been trying for 8 months to get pregnant and was absolutely crushed by the loss. I still tear up when I talk about it. I never got to know if my baby was a boy or a girl. That is one of the hardest parts. Never knowing if I have a son or daughter with God. Never getting to see that little face. It is an empty part of me that can never be satisfied until I go to be with God and get to meet my child.

    I will also admit that shortly after the birth of our last baby, my husband had a vasectomy and I have never regretted anything more. It is literally a day to day battle with the sadness I carry around. I desperately want another baby but can have no more. As the time passes, this feeling of loss only seems to get stronger. I know that if God means us to have another, one way or another it will happen. Sadly my husband does not want more children and so I have to carry this alone. I guess in a way I feel like I am grieving for the children I will never have.

  • Ronette

    Angie,

    I’ve been reading your blog (and love it) but have never commented.

    My name is Ronette and we lost our third child to a congenital heart defect six weeks after she was born.

    The 29th of this month will be the 4th anniversary of her homegoing.

    (Here is a post on my blog written on her birthday a couple of weeks ago: http://livelaughlearn-ronette.blogspot.com/2008/09/i-still-believe.html)

    Her name was Katherine Makenna and she was beautiful. We miss her every single day. My 12 year old daughter has a particularly difficult time with the loss of her sister. She was 8 when Katherine joined the Father in heaven.

    Although I long for my daughter, I am so thankful for the lessons the Lord has taught me over the past four years. He has conformed so much further into His image through our experience.

    Praying for all of you who have lost an infant.

    In His Love,
    Ronette

  • Pam

    My name is Pam. I lost our fourth, fifth, seventh, ninth and tenth (twins) and 11th children to miscarriage. I am so very thankful for the 5 living children we have, but my heart still aches for the ones we lost before we knew them. Who would they have been? How would they have changed and blessed our family? Losing a child is so very painful. My heart grieves with all those here who have walked or are walking through this valley.
    Thank you, Angie.

  • His Mom

    I lost my son, Curtis, at 40 weeks to a cord accident on 5.31.2006

    We lost our next to miscarriage in January of 2007.

  • Jennifer

    I lost my first baby to miscarriage in December 2004. The loss was incredibly painful and I found myself falling into a deep depression. Thank God I came out of it, and today I have a wonderful 2 1\2 year old son. After the loss, I prayed that the Lord would reveal the sex of the baby to me in a dream…and 3 months later, the Lord blessed me with a dream that clearly showed me a baby boy. I believe with all my heart God answered my prayer. So in my heart, I have a son in Heaven and a son by my side.

  • The Scott Household

    My name is Amanda. We lost our first child at around 9 weeks, although not discovered until 13 weeks – we lost that baby in June 2006 with a horrific experience of a D&C. We lost our second baby in January of 2007 at around 5 weeks in an equally horrific experience of a natural miscarriage.

    We are currently 8 weeks 5 days pregnant with our third child – an ultrasound and a heartbeat of 171 was comfort to us last week.

  • MapleCottage

    My name is Sheri Maple. Our 9th blessing Caden Josiah was born still at 16 weeks on February 11, 2007 just 5 days after finding out he had passed away sometime earlier. We were blessed with knowing he was a boy and being able to spend time looking at his beautiful form. My prayer is for all mothers to be able to grieve each blessing and for them to never be “just” a miscarriage.. Thank you so much, Angie!

    Psalm 139:14
    I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well.

  • Anonymous

    I would like to post for a woman I met today that lost her daughter during her birth. Her baby girl’s name was Ellie.

  • Keefer Family

    Our second child was lost at 9w5d on December 19th, 2007. I feel it was a girl. I will never forget that day, as I’m sure most don’t. Many blessings to everybody here who has posted and the many more that have not.

  • Candace Jean July 16

    I have not lost a child, but these comments absolutely make my heart ache for all of you who have. Please know I will pray for each and every one of you. I hope you all find comfort in the many prayers that are said as you are embraced in God’s loving arms.

  • P.

    We lost our little boy to miscarriage at 17 wks. We were never able to have another. It’s been a while now and it gets better over time, but seeing little babies brings the pain right back again. It is so hard to come to terms with a future without children and grandchildren. Praying for all the little angels and those left behind.

  • leaderboys

    11 years ago, I lost our first child due to miscarriage, 2 days before my birthday. I felt the loss deeply even though I was “only” 8 weeks along. I have always thought the baby would be a boy. I have since had 3 boys, that I pray I can raise to be strong Christian men.

    Thank you for the opportunity to proclaim this child’s life.

  • Brandi and Jeremy…

    My name is Brandi. We lost our third baby at 9 1/2 weeks to miscarriage on June 20th, 2008. We found out we are pregnant again, and just at 9 1/2 weeks again. So far, so good. Yet, I still mourn the loss of our last baby, and pray for the health of this new little one.
    My heart goes out to all those families who have experienced such loss.

  • Shannon

    My name is Shannon. My husband Greg and I lost our little girl, Olivia Faith, to anencephaly on September 6, 2007. She was born at 36 weeks and lived 1 hour and 20 minutes. She was our third child. I am 13 weeks pregnant with our fourth.

  • beyond this moment

    My name is Bethany. My son Joshua was stillborn in Jan. ’99 at 28 weeks. His twin survived and spent 10 weeks in NICU. I was not allowed to see or hold Joshua and it was many years before I felt free to mourn him – the grief still feels fresh.

  • Kristin

    We lost our first baby due to miscarriage in October 2005, and our second due to miscarriage in November 2006. God is so faithful and blessed us with a beautiful baby girl in December 2007.

  • Erica

    I lost my third child at 15 weeks…a little boy. What a blow! It was a darkness I could hardly have imagined. I gave birth to our 4th (3rd living) 2 days prior to the anniversary of learning of his big brother’s death.

    For those ladies unsure of whether it’s ok to post about their forced abortions…oh, sweet ones, my heart aches for you so deeply. Of course it is ok and completely appropriate. You loss is equally as profound, perhaps even more so. May God heal your wounded mothers’ hearts.

  • Rachel

    I lost my first child to miscarriage in April 1999. I lost my fourth child to miscarriage in July 2004.

    I praise God for His mercy in bringing me through it and His grace to allow me to mother my four other children.

  • Anonymous

    I lost my second child to a miscarriage in July 2008. I had to have an emergency appendectomy at eight weeks. My baby made it through the surgery, but one week after the surgery, I had a miscarriage.

    Angie – thank you for taking the time to share your faith and love for God with us all. You are a great inspiration.

  • katiecottle

    My precious husband and I lost our 2nd baby due to a first trimester miscarriage. The Lord has tourned our mourning into dancing and we look forward to having a house full of babies – in His perfect timing.

  • courtney

    On Oct 17th 2006 we lost a baby at apr 9wks.

    Thank you for making this baby real for a day, for making it okay to be sad even with the blessing of our children. We have an older son and twin boys that were born in September of last year.

    To all the other ladies, know that I am praying through the tears that are falling right now.

    Thank you Angie!

  • Laura

    My name is Laura. We lost our first child by ectopic pregnancy in June 2004.

  • Anonymous

    We lost our 1st child due to miscarriage. I found out at about 7 weeks along but it had died at 6 weeks. Of all days, I really felt that I wasn't pregnant on Mother's Day of this year! Thanks for your care, love & support. This blog is a true God-send.

  • Laura

    I lost my first child to miscarriage in September 2003. I was 9 weeks pregnant. I believe that the child was a boy, and we named him Andrew. Thank you to all who are praying with me and remembering our children.

  • Kathy

    My name is Kathy- I misscarried my first in October of 1998 and my tenth in November of 2004. My husband and I have not had any actual baby make it to FULL term. Every pregnancy was lost between 8 weeks and 18 weeks. The Lord has used these misscarriages as an instrument various woman that have lost a dear little one. My husband and I celebrate every Mother’s Day and Father’s Day by remembering the ones that are with my Heavenly Father! We have come to the realization that God has other plans for us and remind ourselves to be thankful for HIS will in our lives- (even though sometimes it sure is hard– especially when someone has a baby and they take that blessing for granted)
    Thank you Angie for this inspiring blog (which I read every time you post) It has given me many tears and much laughter!

    Kathy

  • Rachael

    We were in a car accident. I was fine, but my baby within was not. :( She would have been two this past September.

  • Kim

    Hi Angie,

    I have been so blessed by your blog and the story of your incredible little girl! My husband and I lost our first ten babies to miscarriages (two sets of twins), then we adopted a beautiful little boy, then we lost our 12th baby to miscarriage, then we adopted our precious little girl.

    It was hard, it was confusing, and it was devasting. God was there through it all, and He is good all the time.

    I know some people don’t believe me when I say this, but I wouldn’t change a thing!

  • Drama Queens

    Hi. I too have never posted. But, I can see we are all bound together by loss. I lost my 3rd baby to miscarriage at 10 weeks 4 days in Oct 2006. I am so blessed to have a 7 year old, 3 year old, and 6 month old and will be remembering all of you in my prayers. May we all have peaceful dreams of our sweet ones we wish to see.

  • Daddy’s Dream ~Mommy’s Miracle

    My name is Destiny, and we lost our first born son, Braxton Lee, at birth due to medical negligence. Please visit my blog and click on june’s entries to read Braxton’s story. Thanks for your prayers.

  • Jennifer

    My name is Jennifer and I lost our first child to a miscarriage on April 19, 2000. I was 10 weeks and do not know if it was a boy or girl, but think about the baby a lot. Many people told me that it wasn’t really a baby because it was so early, but it was to me. Thanks for your prayers!

  • Anonymous

    I lost 2 babies to miscarriage…both early on(before 8 weeks) both were devastating. I went on to have a happy, healthy little boy in July 2007 & now I know how tuly blessed I am. Praying for everyone out there who has lost a child.

  • Amy

    My name is Amy. I have lost 4 children due to miscarriage at various stages of pregnancy:

    Hope – 10/5/04
    Junior – 1/31/06
    Baby – 1/27/08
    May – 6/13/08

    I pray God will answer my prayers for a healthy child someday. I talk to my babies all the time and miss them desperately. While death is never easy, the loss of a child is so different. We have no memories. We just have hopes, dreams, questions…

    Your blog gives me comfort and strength, Angie. Thank you for that.

    I am praying for all of us who have experienced this heartbreak.

  • Shannon

    My name is Shannon. I have lost 3 babies due to miscarriage this year alone. One at 11 weeks in February 2008, one at 4.5 weeks in May 2008 and one just last week, October 2008 at 6.5 weeks. We have one healthy, beautiful boy who will be 4 next week, and while feeling so incredibly blessed to have him, we long for the babies we’ve lost and still pray for the one we might have.

  • Mari-Beth

    Angie, you are an inspiration and have helped me through the loss of our 2nd son. October 15, 2007 we lost our baby boy, Joaquin. I was blessed to carry him for 32 weeks. Early on in the pregnancy, he was diagnosed with Trisomy 18, and his sweet little heart was missing a chamber. We were told he was “incompatible with life.” I’ll never forget those words and how they turned our world upside down. He was silently born a year ago tomorrow, it doesn’t seem like it has been a year. We miss him so much and think of him everyday. My family will definitely need prayers tomorrow. Thank you for doing this for all the families out there who still miss their babies.
    The Drechen Family

  • Suzann @ Lavender and Roses

    My name is Suzann and I lost one child (my third pregnancy) in April 1995 during my 20th week. I do not know if it was a boy or a girl, but I have never stopped thinking about him or her. I now have 3 children here with me on earth. My prayers go out to everyone who has experienced such loss. Thank you Angie for blessing all of us with your kind heart.

  • Anonymous

    My mother lost two daughters, stillborn. My sister lost her first daughter in 2000. She contracted e coli just after birth and died a few days later.

  • Anonymous

    My name is Rachel and I had an early miscarriage in November of 2007. I felt in my heart she was a little girl and I named her Lucy. Thank you for the prayers. We’re expecting again but some days are just so hard still…

  • Stephanie

    We lost our 3rd child due to a miscarriage on Dec. 15, 2007. Not sure why it did not work out for us this time but I am sure that God does know. He is in control. He is perfect and has His perfect plan. I even felt this in the midst of it all last December. Of all days, my husband had his Holiday Ball that night for work. I mustered the strength to go not wanting to disappoint – he would have been fine if we had not gone though. I was NOT feeling like Cinderella though…..more like one of her ugly, bloated stepsisters. It’s hard to forget that day for obvious reasons but I also have a photo to remind me of it everyday sitting on our entryway table, taken at the ball. Looking back, I’m glad I did though. I was with the man I love and who loves me. I also have that picture to remind me daily of God’s love and grace. A God who can and will carry you through your pain. A God who always finds that way to show Himself in our daily walk. He showed Himself to me that night after the ball when I was struggling with the “whys”. During the year, I had been working on reading the Bible in a year. I was a little behind with the house hunting and move. That was so in His plan or else I would not have been reading the scripture I had that night. I almost didn’t read my Bible that night – giving the old excuse “I’m too tired” “I’ll catch up tomorrow.” I fought that urge and read anyway. Here’s part of what I read: “I lift up my eyes to the hills— where does my help come from? My help comes from the LORD, the Maker of heaven and earth. Psalm 121: 1-2. I was reminded of my favorite Casting Crowns song, “Praise You in This Storm,” I broke down and cried just saying “thank you, thank you, thank you Lord.” WOW! What a God – who else can do that? Oops! Sorry Angie – this is so long…got carried away! Thank you for ministering on you blog the way you do.

  • Katie

    i lost our first baby boy Brenham Jay at 22 weeks gestation to a placental abrution on Feb 29, 2008. we miss him everyday, i live 10 minutes from where you last had the concert and totally would have been there if i wasnt away getting a kidney transplant, so i have a good excuse but still bummed i missed it. my sister took some pics for me tho! thanks for your prayers

  • kwgarner2003

    I lost my first child, Troy Kevin, on July 5th, 1996. I was 22 weeks and he was stillborn. It was a devastating loss, but I know that all things work together for good to those who know God. I have a healthy, happy son who was born June 27th, 1997. If I had not lost Troy, I would not have Adam. God is forever faithful.

  • CJ

    My name is Christa and I lost my second child by miscarriage on my third wedding anniversary March 22, 2000. We conceived after a year of unexplained secondary infertility with the use of fertility treatments.

    It was a very hard loss to come to terms with.

    I still to this day think about the little one that we will finally be able to meet when we walk through the pearly gates.

    God went on to bless us with two more children through birth and just this last June we brought our beautiful daughter home from South Korea. She is an amazing blessing. God is sooooo good.

  • April

    I lost a child to miscarriage in September of 2008 at just 6 weeks pregnant. Even though it was early on, it is still a baby in my heart and I mourn for the baby that was supposed to be here next May.

  • Kirsten Phillips

    I lost both of my pregnancies thus far. The first in November of 2007, the second in March of 2008. Thank you for your prayers and for providing me with the opportunity to pray for others.

  • Keri

    My name is Keri Melban and I lost my first child to miscarriage October 18th, 2001.

  • Anonymous

    I lost my first child to miscarriage three days ago. I was 7 weeks pregnant. Thanks for sharing your story and for your prayers.

  • Matt and Carla Morgan

    I’m Carla. We lost our first 6 children to miscarriages that occurred between Feb 2006 – Apr 2008.

    Our 7th child is Nicholas, who joined our family from Russia in June of 2008!

    I will be praying for each of you amazing women tomorrow.

    cm

  • Anonymous

    Hi Angie, My name is Magan Davis. My husband and I had our son October 16,2004. In June 2006 we lost our 1st baby to miscarriage and then our 2nd the following year. On May 19,2008 our baby girl was born stillborn due to getting a virel infection which caused her to go into heart failure. Her name is Riann Michelle.

  • Kenzie

    Angie-

    Thank you so much for honoring all of these precious babies… each and every one.

    We lost our son Maddox Donald on January 23rd of this year, almost immediately after birth, due to Trisomy 18.

    Praying for all the precious families who have also walked this difficult road of losing a child/children.

    Blessings,
    Kenzie

  • Mrs. Nichole Jordan

    Ache, tears are pouring down….

    10 weeks ago I lost my first dear baby. It tore me to pieces, I didn’t ever think for a second I would be one of those women who I ached for when the news of losing a child came to me. I was instantly in the bond of women who ache for that little one they never held or saw.

    Every month comes along and I still ache for a little one to carry but the Lord hasnt blessed us yet. And as women after women I am close to come and tell me their exciting news of their own pregancy it makes my heart twinge. I am happy for them but I ache for my own child. Someday I know I will hold a sweet child of mine in my arms. Untill then I know I will someday meet my first child in heaven.

  • saraH

    Thank you Angie.
    My husband and I lost our first child to miscarriage at 7 1/2 weeks in September 2005.

  • Lianna Knight

    This is so so powerful! I have not lost a child…but praying one day to have one of my own.

    I send many prayers up for all the women and families that have lost a precious child.

    Blessings!

  • The Long Family

    My name is Shay. We lost our first baby at 6 weeks on April 5, 2007, the day before my first OB appt. Christy Nockels’ song “Glory Baby” gave me much comfort through that season. My prayers are with everyone who has lost a precious life.

  • Stephanie

    My name is Stephanie, I lost my third beautiful daughter Maya Elizabeth Nunez on March 2 2008. She was born still at 33 weeks. Our family has been so broken after lossing one of our precious girls, and Maya will forever be part of us all. God bless all the families who have had to go through lossing a child.

  • ET @ Titus2:3-5

    My name is Tyler. I lost a baby by miscarriage at 8 weeks along (first pregnancy) in September of 1996. I lost another baby (third pregnancy) due to ectopic (tubal) pregnancy in September of 1999.

  • gbmom2407

    I lost our second child to miscarriage 10/2001 and our sixth child to miscarriage 7/2008. The first mc at 9 weeks and the second at 6 weeks. We have been blessed with four healthy children so far and two being held tight in Jesus’ arms. Praying for all of you. Thank you for praying for me.

  • Anonymous

    I have been watching your blog for quite a while. Meanwhile our children prayed us into a pregnancy and I delivered the baby at home last week. 12 weeks. So overwhelmed.

  • Anonymous

    My name is Lindsay and I lost my first babies (identical twins)at 9 weeks in May of 2008. It was an extremely difficult loss after 2 1/2 years of trying to conceive. I am now praying for our next miracle baby. Your site has been an incredible source of strength for me. Thank you. I am praying for you and your family

  • Jill G.

    My name is Jill. I lost my third child to miscarriage in June 2008.

  • Life in Oh-me-ha

    My name is Christy and we lost our second child to a miscarriage in March of 2004.

  • Amanda-The Family News!

    Just being a mommy this touches my heart deeply. My prayers go out to each and every person leaving a post…whether you have lost a child or not…whether you write it down or not. My prayers are for you all. I have linked the October 15th site on my blog …it will be up tomorrow, also asking everyone to remember all of the special babies and families that have lost them.
    Amanda in SC

  • Vicki

    My name is Vicki. I lost our first child to miscarriage at 10 weeks. The baby had stopped growing at 8 weeks. April 8,2003. Even though I have 2 healthy beautiful children now. I will always remember my first baby. I am the mother to 3 children.

  • Heather

    Angie~
    You are such a dear, dear woman!! I have never lost a child, but 2 of my SILs have.
    My nephew, Cody Dale, was stillborn around 35 weeks. My SIL had complications(came close to dying) and the Dr did an amnio, he punctured the cord. My nephew died that night. The Dr never admitted his fault, and my SIL can never have another child.
    My other SIL lost her 1st to miscarriage in her first trimester.
    Thanks for all that you do.
    May God’s peace comfort you and all who’ve endured such a great loss.
    Heather
    PS And to those who were forced to have abortions, yes, it’s appropriate and yes, you have every reason to grieve and be comforted!!

  • Smoochiefrog

    My name is Tina and we lost a baby in the 7th week of pregnancy in June of 2003. I know in my heart of hearts the baby was a girl.

    Thank you Angie. May God continue to shine His light through you.

  • Kelly

    I lost my second child to a miscarriage April 15, 2008. I was about 12 weeks along, but the baby was only 5 1/2. Two weeks later we moved to a different state. I am now 16 weeks along with a healthy child and the mother of a two year old.

  • georgia tarheel

    I lost my first child to miscarriage in August 2001.

    I want the women here to know that my heart breaks with the pain that I have read. I will be praying for you all…anonymous or named.

  • Canadian

    I lost my 2nd child to miscarriage at 8 weeks, while my 9 month old daughter lay on a hospital bed in the ER hooked up to an IV for 8 long hours.
    I had only found out the week before that I was pregnant and only because my husband said “hey, shouldn’t you have had your period already?”. WE definately weren’t trying for this baby, but were excited.
    For 7 months I told everyone I was fine and shrugged it off as nothing. It took me 7 months to come to actually realize that I wasn’t fine with it and I eventually had to come to terms with it.
    Now I am trying to share my feelings and experience with as many women as I can who are going through similar experiences.

  • Trinity

    My name is Trinity and my Mother lost a baby, Joyce Yvonne, who was born still when I was three years old. I named my second daughter Brinley Yvonne in her memory. In March 2008 we lost our sweet Brinley to a tragic accident. We are certain that she doesn’t miss us for a second but can’t wait for us to join her in heaven!
    http://www.journeyofgriefandhealing.blogspot.com

  • Laura

    My name is Laura. We lost our first child to miscarriage at 11 weeks in 2000. After a year of trying, we found out we were pregnant the day we flew to Turkey, where my husband had lived for 5 years while in the Air Force, so we gave our child the Turkish name “Gul” which means “Rose”. She was our perfect little rose that never got to fully bloom. They believed my miscarriage was due to a large fibroid tumor, so while grieving the loss of my child, I had difficult decisions to make. I decided to have surgery which entailed being put into chemical menopause for a couple months prior to surgery in an attempt to shrink the tumor. The surgery was successful and worth it, even though it meant having to always have c-sections. God has richly blessed me with the two most precious boys in the world. Ian will be 7 next week; his name means “God is gracious”. Isaac–definitely our dose of “laughter”, just turned 5 1/2. Miscarriage can be such a painful loss and is often not spoken about much. Thanks for giving all of us the opportunity to share about our precious babies, unknown to the world at large but so loved by a mother’s heart from the first moment that second line appears.

  • Rachel

    My name is Rachel Landman.
    We found out at 21 weeks that our daughter had died. Her name is Selah. May 2008.

  • Stephanie

    My name is Stephanie, and I had to give my son Levi back to the Lord on April 25th, 2008 due to Trisomy 13. We were able to spend about 4 1/2 hours with him before he left for Heaven. I would give anything just to go back for one minute and hold him in my arms. My heart is still so broken, and I miss him more and more every day. Thank you in advance for your prayers.

  • Anonymous

    I, too, had an abortion that I regret and am still begging God’s forgiveness for 13 years later. After getting married, I miscarried our first child together early on in the pregnancy. I can’t say I was surprised given my earlier decision. I mourn those two babies still and pray that I may somehow atone for my sins.

  • makemineaquad

    Hi Angie,

    I lost a baby at 8 weeks on my birthday in 2000. We have 4 healthy children now, and for that, we are blessed.

    I’d also like to add a prayer request for my sister-in-law who lost her fourth child at 20 weeks in 2004.

    Thank you. My prayers will be for all the women and families that have been touched by all the posts here, including those forced to abort their baby by their parents and/or spouses/boyfriends.

    Peace to you Angie.

  • Violet

    My name is Violet.

    My Mom lost 2 children very early, at 6 weeks and 8 weeks. She then lost my baby brother at 16 weeks due to a twisted chord. His name is David Warren Jr.

    My Friend R. lost two baby girls in 05/06, Olivia and Annabelle due to fibroids that crowded the baby and cause miscarriages. She was told getting pregnant again could cause her to lose that babies life as well as her own.

  • Lisa

    My name is Lisa. I recently lost 2 babies to miscarriage. One on Aug 25, 2008 and one on October 8, 2008.

  • jcdisciple

    I had no idea that this was tomorrow. Thanks for sharing. I am completely healed, but I still can’t wait to meet my little one. I posted my story this past mothers day. You can read it here if you so desire. (http://onesacrifice.blogspot.com/2008/05/mothers-day-hearts-ache-hearts-desire.html)

    God bless you all and I will remember and pray for each of you tomorrow.

  • Denise

    My name is Denise and I lost my first three children early on in my pregnancies, and then my fourth daughter, Shandra Anne was stillborn, five weeks after my due date.

    I waited for fifteen years for another child, and God has since blessed us with four children through adoption.

    I’ve experienced so much healing (even after all these years!) by reading this blog. Thank you for that precious gift!

    Thank you for praying and for the opportunity to pray for others tomorrow.

  • Anonymous

    My husband and I have lost 3 babies to miscarriage in the last year… Baby Alex at 9 weeks in Aug. 2007, Baby Hope at 7 weeks in Dec. 2007, and Baby Grace at 12 weeks in Aug. 2008. I just found out last week that I am pregnant again and could use all the prayers I can get. Angie, i have been reading your blog for months now and it is such a blessing to me. Thank you so much for sharing your story!

  • Gayla

    Angie, thanks for the opportunity to honor our precious children. I lost my second child to miscarriage in June, 1998. I still mourn that loss. Reading the posts is sad, yet through the tears, there is a rainbow of a smile as I think of all these beautiful little souls in heaven with our Saviour. What a joy the streets of heaven must be. Thank you for the prayers.

  • The Wray Family

    My name is Jessica. First off I want to say thank you for your sharing your life with all of us online. You have been such a blessing and great source of laughter which is much needed these days.

    I lost our first child in July 2004. I had two beautiful boys after that. I then lost my 4th child in March 2008 and our 5th this past September. Tomorrow night I will light 3 candles in rememberence of my three angels that wait for me in heaven.

  • Amanda

    My name is Amanda, and we lost our 3rd son on March 18, 2005 at 16 weeks, 2 days gestation. I had gone in for my 5 month check-up, and his heart was no longer beating. After 20 hours of labor, Hunter was born, weighing a mere 3 ozs, and was 6 inches long.

    I pray for all the women who will post here over the next few days, and for the women who will not want to share their story and relive the pain, or for all mothers who have had to say goodbye to their children far too soon.

    A visiting evangelical pastor to our church to us a few weeks ago that of all the ages groups that will be in heaven, babies will be the largest group–a thought that never was more clear until after my son’s passing.

    It has been my honor to read your story and your walk with God over the past 8 months. May God bless you and Todd and your entire family, and may He continue to be glorified in Audrey’s homegoing.

    Jeremiah 1:5

  • Keith and Kathryn

    Angie, thank you for recognizing what the world does not — that the baby I never held in my arms was my child and is worth remembering.

    After years of waiting, the Lord opened my womb and blessed us with our first child in the Fall of 2003. By Christmas, she was gone (I don’t know for sure that she was a girl, but that was my intuition.) Every December 21, I remember the last day I held her in my womb. Every July 19, I celebrate her due date. She would have been 4 this year.

    Over the years, I have found comfort in praying Psalm 139 and listening to the song “Glory Baby.” I find comfort in knowing that Heaven is the only home my sweet baby girl will ever know and that Jesus will hold her close until I get to hold her for the first time.

  • Anonymous

    My name is Susan. I am the mother of four lovely daughters. Barbara 14, Joyce12, Elizabeth 8, and Sarah 4. And I have one baby in heaven with JESUS. That I lost on Dec. 6 2002. It is still very hard on me to think about the baby I lost. I just want to hold her. But i will just have to wait until I am in heaven with her for that to happen. THANK YOU ANGIE for all that you are doing for all of us who have lost a child. it is the hardest thing that has happened to me. And thankyou for your prayers.

  • beth

    My name is Beth. We have lost 3 children through miscarriage. Their heavenly birthdays are 1/16/04, 9/38/04 and 7/12/07. It still pains me to know that we were not able to name them or know them. But I do know that someday I will meet them and instantly know that they are mine… My Hope is built on nothing less than Jesus’ blood and righteousness.

  • Anonymous

    I lost my child by miscarriage in 1995. God blessed me with 4 other children. Thank you for doing this.

  • Angelina

    My good friend just refered me to your site. Thank you so much for helping us remember our children that we’ve lost. We lost our son, Roman, 12/13/06 at 13 weeks in utero. He was to be our 6th child, after we had adopted 4 girls and successfully birthed a boy via IVF. Finally, we thought we were to be blessed with a surprise child. The disappointment is still there. We have tried since then for another child. But it has yet to happen. I cannot wait to get to heaven to see that boy! We will continue missing him though while we are on this earth. Thank you so much, again, for letting us share our stories. Thanks to my friend for leading me here.

  • Hillary

    My name is Hillary. I have lost 2 pregnancies to miscarriage, one in 5/98 and one in 6/02. I also lost my 14 month old daughter, Natalie, to a drowning accident on October 30, 2007.

  • Danielle

    We lost our 2nd child in January of 2005 at 12 weeks. I had our third child on May 9, 2006. I will be lifting up all these women in prayer. May God Bless you all.

  • mandy_moo

    My name is Mandy.

    I lost my first child to miscarriage in October of ’06. It was a missed miscarriage, so the fetus stopped growing around 8 weeks but I had no idea until 14 weeks.

    I am now almost 12 weeks pregnant for the second time… and my doctor thinks my fetus looks 4 weeks behind (though she had a very inaccurate machine) so I could use extra prayers for my little one I have right now.

    Thank you, prayer warriors!!!

  • danakay1

    We were pregnant with twins in 2002. After seeing both hearts beating, we felt so blessed after 4 years of fertility struggles to get pregnant!
    However, at week 12, we lost one of the twins. We would have called her Maddie. Her twin, Mason is alive and well and we are loving being his parents! We pray for all those who have lost children of any age. May the Lord bless us all!

  • Our Little Family

    I have 5 Angels in Heaven due to miscarriage. I think of them everyday.

    Angie ~ Thank you for doing this.

  • Anonymous

    Hi my name is Kristi. We lost our first child in an early miscarriage in October of 2004. We were pregnant with twins in January of 2005 and God decided that Beau Timothy was too perfect for this earth and took him home at 27 weeks of pregnancy, leaving his sister Belle Katharyn to bless us here on earth…she was expected to special and special she is…the pediatician considers her the most exceptional child she has ever seen. God is good, as she is a beautiful, healthy, and thriving 3 year old now that learned about her brother on her third birthday. She tells people now “My baby brother is in heaven because Jesus wanted him more”. What a blessed reminder of why my precious Beau is no longer in my arms…Jesus wanted him more.

  • kim

    My name is Kim and I am the mother to 4 precious children. Ella is our first born, and she is almost 6 years old. Our second born, Carter passed away 3 hours after birth due to severely underdeveloped lungs and a variety of other symptoms on September 18, 2005(we had no indication he would be sick until he was born). Ty is our third child and is two years old. We had the privledge of adopting him and have an amazing open relationship with his birthmom! Our fourth child, Lucy, died on May 9, 2008. It is suspected that she also had the same disorder as her big brother (which still remains undiagnosed).

    I have been a lurker since May when I “heard” about you and sweet Caroline while I was still in the hospital after Lucy’s death. Your words have truly been a gift to my grieving heart, and I am thankful.

  • Shelli

    Hi to all of the grieving families. My name is Shelli and I have lost 3 babies to miscarriage, 1989, 1990 and 1991. I had a successful pregnancy in 1995 and have a wonderful son, Tyler. After Tyler was 2 we started trying and had to take fertility treatments, I became pregnant in Aug of 1998, but it was an ectopic pregnancy. Finally in August of 2000, I became pregnant with the help of fertility treatments with my precious daughter Madison. I still have grief and anxiety over the 4 deaths.

  • CDJ

    I have been scrolling and praying and praising and weeping.

    My name is Cari. Philip and I lost our third baby in 2000. I had known I was pregnant for several weeks, and we were preparing to “let the cat out of the bag” at Thanksgiving dinner. Our toddler was cocked and ready to say, “I’m thankful God put another baby in Momma’s tummy.” The day of the festivities I began to spot, so nothing was said at dinner. After weeks of tests and sonograms, I miscarried the weekend before Christmas, and had to have a DNC. The Lord has given us three healthy girls since then. (And I would receive another, if He offered :)

    Angie, thank you for offering this place where LIFE and the sanctity thereof is being actively and passionately redeemed. To God – the Creator and Redeemer – be the Glory!

  • Michelle

    Angie, I want to thank you for sharing your story. Your blog lifts me up and brings a smile to my face. Your family is always in my prayers.

    My name is Michelle and I lost our first child by miscarriage on Feb 16th 2002. On July 5, 2002 we lost our 2nd by miscarriage.

    On July 10th 2006 our wonderful son was born. His mom placed him for adoption and he’s been forever in our home since.

    God is great.

    Michelle

  • Katie

    My name is Katie. I lost a child to miscarriage at 9 weeks in February 2003. I lost another child to miscarriage at 6 weeks shortly after that in June 2003. I have since been blessed with 3 healthy babies (4 children total). Thanks for your prayers.

  • kim

    OOPS!!! Since I have been stalking your blog for 5 months you would think that I would write your daughter’s name correctly…sigh. I meant to say sweet Audrey Caroline of course!

  • Keri

    Ladies,
    Please don’t worry about if it is appropriate to post about your grief over an abortion forced or not. We want to pray for you in your loss.

  • Anonymous

    Your blog is a beautiful blessing to so many….you have shown how loss can be beautiful and this difficult road blessed. May God continue to bless your beautiful family.

    My name is Kaycie…
    Baby A – Reagan Dawn Burge – Born at 29w2d – Passed away due to complications of a severe anomaly, Cloaca.

    Her surviving sister, Addison, the light of our world, is a thriving 14.5 month old who is taught everyday about who her sister was and what she did.

    You can visit our blog/website..
    http://www.theburgefamily.org

  • twondra

    Thanks for doing this Angie. My name is Tammy. I had an early miscarriage back in May 2007. Since then, we have been trying to get pregnant with no success and are currently undergoing IVF. Our baby would’ve been 10 months old this month. There isn’t a day I don’t think about our “jellybean” as we nicknamed our baby.

  • Anonymous

    Hi Angie, I read your blog regularly and am blessed by it. I don’t know how you have the time/energy to read all these comments, but assuming you do, here’s my story:

    I lost baby#1 at 10 weeks due to miscarriage. I then delivered twin boys, Jack and Owen, stillborn secondary to Twin to Twin Transfusion Syndrome (TTTS) at 30 weeks in Feb ’06. It’s been 2.5 years but I continue to think of them daily.

    I have since had a healthy, beautiful girl (who sounds like your Kate), Reagan, and am 11 weeks pregnant with another. God has blessed our family tremendously despite the loss. He is faithful.

    Thank your for your words and your sense of humor and for not being too sappy. You are a gifted writer and I’ve been meaning to email you for months now.

    –Susan S.

  • Definition of Me

    “He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.”
    Revelation 21:4

    I thought this verse was appropriate. Know that I am praying.

    I am a first-time-poster. I have followed your blog for a while, and just recently created one of my own. You are such an inspiration and a great role model. I admire your strength and wisdom, and hope to become a woman as courageous as you one day.

    Thank you for sharing your words with me. ~Lindsay

  • Kristy

    My name is Kristy. I lost our 1st child to miscarriage in August of 2006. Even as I type this, I cry, missing our little girl, Abigail Katherine. I am now the proud mommy of Samuel David, born September 20, 2007 and of another daughter (yet unnamed) waiting for us in China.

  • Kristen

    I lost a baby April 4, 2008, I was about 8 weeks along, we had just gome thru an awful, stressful time in the church that my husband was pastoring, and due to that stress we lost the baby. We had been trying for a girl, we have been blessed with 3 boys.
    You and your blog have been such an amazing encouragment to me, I look forward to each post. I thank God for you and your ministry daily!

  • Kahla

    My name is Kahla. After our first IVF I miscarried a twin in 2004. Our remaining twin was a miracle and is now a very happy/healthy 3 1/2 year old little boy. After IVF #4 I miscarried twins at 6w6d on August 14th of this year. We are completely devastated. My mother lost my twin sister to SIDS in 1976 and still grieves every day. I’m afraid I’ll never recover.

  • A Look Into Our Lives

    My name is Hilary, and I lost my second child to miscarriage in October 2006.

  • nmwally

    My husband and I have a 1 year old son, and we lost our 2nd child when I was 5 weeks pregnant this past July. Even though it was an early loss, the pain was so deep. We are now expecting our next child this coming April, and I am so nervous that something will go wrong. I would so appreciate prayer for a healthy pregnancy and baby! Thank you!

  • sheridan

    My daughter was 8 months old when I discovered I was pregnant again. A few short weeks later, my little one was born to Heaven. I always believed she was a girl and named her Chloe. After trying again for a few years, I learned I was pregnant the same day I learned that this precious babe was no longer alive. Once again, I was not certian of gender but God laid the name Rebekah on my heart. So, sweet Chloe and Rebekah, I miss you.

    Thank you Angie for allowing us to share our grief with you and for allowing us to share your grief too.

    Joy shared is joy multiplied.
    Grief shared is grief divided.

    julie

  • Teresa

    I have lost two babies to miscarriage. The first in June of 2000 at 10 weeks. The second after four years of infertility, at 12 weeks. I have since had two beautiful, healthy babies, one in 2006 one in 2008. Praise God! Thank you Angie for thinking of those who pray with you and grieve with you over our angel babies in heaven. May God bless you

  • Michelle

    My name is Michelle – we lost our first child in January 2002 to a miscarriage. We lost our second child in September 2002 to a miscarriage. Children four and five to a miscarriage in October 2007.

    with all these losses God has blessed us with two beautiful children but I will never forget our angels in heaven.

    God Bless ~~

  • Anonymous

    My name is Kristina. We lost a baby in Nov. 2007 to miscarriage at 8 weeks. Then in May 2008, we lost our baby girl, Faith, at 17 weeks due to a blood clotting disorder that was later diagnosed. We are very fortunate to have a healthy and wonderful 2 1/2 year old son.
    Thanks for all that you do Angie!

  • Amber

    I lost my first child in May of 2002 when I was 17 weeks pregnant due to hydranencephaly, cystic hygroma, absense of kidneys, and many other abnormalities. It was the most painful, agonizing experience of my life. My second pregnancy ended at an early 5 weeks, but painful as well, because it came from many months of trying to conceive. Thankfully, the Lord blessed my husband and I with two beautiful girls since this time. My prayers are with all of you who have experienced such loss, and to you Angie who have been so instrumental in helping us heal! Your stories inspire me! They are very familiar. You are helping so many people! When you are faced with such tragedy it is so hard to know how good can come, but aren’t we so blessed to have a God who keeps His promises to us. I’ve seen so many things that I call “good” that have come from my own losses. My prayers are with you all, Love Amber

  • Anonymous

    My name is Stephanie. I miscarried in 2001 and most recently in 2007. We struggle with infertility. We are blessed with two earthly children.

  • Kira

    Praying… Just praying.

  • Wendy

    My best friend, Vicki lost her sweet baby girl Jennifer Lynn to SIDS on October 27, 1992. Jennifer was only 4 weeks old. Thank you so much for keeping Vicki in your prayers.

    ~Wendy

  • Beka

    Slipping by to say thank you, Angie, for this… this blog, this opportunity to share, the prayers you so generously offer for so many who are aching. I have prayed for you, too– followed your journey, ached with you.

    My husband and I have lost all three of our precious little ones to miscarriage: a little girl in January 2006, a little boy in August 2007, and another little boy just a couple of months ago, in August 2008.

    It hurts… I never knew my heart could ache this badly. But I also never knew the extent of His loving comfort until He brought us into this dark valley.

    May the Lord continue to comfort and strengthen us all, and most importantly, help us not to squander our suffering, but to use it for His glory.

    –Mark and Rebekah W.

  • Nise’

    Remembering You
    We thought of you today,
    But that is nothing new
    We thought of you yesterday
    And will tomorrow, too
    We think of you in silence
    And make no outward show
    For what it meant to lose you
    Only those who love you know
    Remembering you is easy
    We do it everyday
    It’s the heartache of losing you
    That will never go away.
    ~author unknown

    Our son, Corey Adam, was a full term stillbirth (anencephaly) on June 25, 1986.

    Praying for everyone who has been touched by the loss of their child.

  • Rebecca

    On Behalf of my friend Erin…
    …I lost my daughter a week shy of her 3 birthday due to a possible birth defect in 2007. I lost my son at 28 weeks due to complications 7 months later.

  • Anonymous

    My name is Kate. I lost my 3rd child to miscarriage in April of 2002. We then were blessed with a baby girl in April 2003. After the miscarriage we burried the placenta and planted a butterfly bush over it. Everytime I see the bush I am reminded of the baby I will meet one day in Heaven.

  • Trennia

    Hi my name is Trennia I miscarried twins in July of 2001 I was a little over 3 months.Although I didn’t know the sex od either of them we named them Hunter and Heather.We recently lost of little girl Emily Grace Hedges May 3, 2008She was not compatible with life.I was able to carry her for 35 weeks and 5 days she was with us for 17 minutes after birth. She was born early due to me bleeding. After Emily went to heaven I still was bleeding I ended up with a hysterectomy.You can read our story if you would like to I’d be honored. The blog is called: Still serving Him through the storm.JESUS is good in the good times and JESUS is good in the bad times.Thank you Angie for allowing everyone including me to be honored on your site and prayed for by these wonderful prayer warriors thank you.LORD bless. In CHRIST JESUS, Trennia

  • auntmommie

    Thank you so much, Angie, for sharing Audrey's story and giving voice to ours.
    I lost my first child to early miscarriage in 1980.

    I was later classified a "spontaneous aborter", and have no idea how many babies I have lost, not even knowing I was pregnant. We are CONVINCED that our 27-year-old son is a miracle. Thank you, Lord.

    I lost a baby mid-pregnancy on my birthday, September 21, 1992. After the doctor determined that my baby was dead, he sent me home in preparation for a d&c the next morning. I went into labor at home, lost a lot of blood, unthinkable things followed for the rest of the night.

    Jesus doeth all things well.
    Sandi, San Antonio

  • The Collins

    Angie,
    God bless you for allowing this venue for us to journey together. I lost my first baby not knowing yet that I was even pregnant in 2003. We have a girl born in 2005. We lost our third at 9 weeks in May of 2006. And we now have a son who was born in May of 2007.

    I am so blessed by my two are healthy and with me here, and often think how life could be with four precious babies.

  • Becca

    My name is Becca. Our first daughter, Hannah, was stillborn at 38.5 weeks due to a know in her cord. We are blessed to have two more daughters, Madalyn and Amelia and we are expecting again in May. God is GOOD and has shown Himself to us many times throughout all of these times!

  • Heather

    My name is Heather and I lost our first child in August 2005 at 12 weeks. I now have a beautiful 1.5 year old daughter. I will always miss the child I never got to know and hold.

    Angie, thank you for providing this opportunity to remember those children we grieve for and for allowing all of us who are wounded and hurting to see that there are others out there who understand our pain and who are praying.

  • Anonymous

    My name is Debbie. I lost my first child when I was ten weeks pregnant in March of 1998. Even though we didn’t know the sex we felt that it was a girl and we remember her as Hailey Nicole. We were devestated but a year later to the day that I lost our first child I became pregnant with our second child and after a very hard pregnancy full of complications I gave birth to our daughter, Susan Diane, on November 19, 1998. In 2001 we were blessed with a son, Brennan Wayne, born on May 12 which is the day after my own birthday. He was five weeks early so he spent a little over two weeks in the NICU but today he is a happy, healthy seven yr. old boy.

  • Jeff and Julia

    I lost our second baby on December 10th, 2007. I was 14 weeks and was induced into labor and delivered at 11:47 pm. I was able to hold and look at our precious baby. I’m now pregnant with our third child who is also due around December 10th.

  • Michelle

    Hi, my name is Michelle and I lost my 2nd child at 11 weeks on July 7th 2008. We don’t know why but we know she/he is in the hands of God right now. It is still so very hard to think about it especially since the my due date would of been right around the corner.

  • gracie :)

    There is a quote on the movie Shadowlands that says, “We read to know we are not alone.” That is what this blog has become to me and obviously to so very many hurting mommies. Thank you for your heart for all of us in the midst of your own grief and pain.

    We lost our first child in April 2000. I miscarried at 6 or 7 weeks and we named the baby Belita which means “Little Beautiful One.”

    We lost our little Katie Esperanza in December 2000 when I went into preterm labor at 23 weeks. She did not survive the birth. Her name means, “Pure Hope.”

    Our third baby was miscarried at 11weeks in December 2003, and we named the baby Confianza, which is Spanish for “Trust.”

    We were blessed with the arrival of our precious son, Andrew David, in January 2005. He was born healthy at 29 weeks and was expected to go home, but due to major complications, he passed away at 9 weeks old.

    Since then, we have become foster parents to two precious boys and are in the process of adopting a little girl with special needs from Guatemala.

    What I love about our God is that when we surrender our pain to Him, He buys back what the Enemy could use for evil and turns it into good. We may not see all of that redemption in this life, but we have HOPE that the glory to come will far surpass the excruciating pain of the now.

  • Krystal

    We lost our first baby to miscarriage at 10 weeks in July 2002. I named him/her “Kory”.

    God gave a “yes” answer to our prayers and sent us a precious daughter by adoption in July 2003. God again gave a “yes” answer to our prayers and sent us a precious homegrown son in April 2005.

    We have been blessed, and God has been faithful through it all.

  • Bevin

    My name is Bevin and I lost my second child to miscarriage in June 2007 at 6 weeks :( I am now pregnant and due May 10,2009 (Mother’s Day) and I like to look at this pregnancy as a Mother’s Day gift from the Lord :)
    I’ll be praying for everyone tomorrow!

  • Claire

    I post this for one of my best friends…she lost her first baby to miscarriage in December 2007 at 12 weeks, the second to miscarriage at 6 weeks in March 2008. She is now 22 weeks pregnant with baby 3!!! Praise God. Pray for her healing and trust in God…she’s still a bit nervous about this baby boy!

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  • The Butcher Family

    My beautiful baby girl, Annabelle Lynn, became an angel at one day shy of 2 months old on March 27, 2008. She thrived on this earth with only half a heart for 8 weeks and 3 days (plus the miraculous 39 weeks that I carried her).

    One day soon, we will see her again and her big brother can kiss her for all eternity!

    http://www.babygirlbutcher.blogspot.com

  • Kate

    Angie, Thank you so much for your blog and the way you inspire so many of us. We lost our first child to miscarriage in April 2008. I found your blog only days after this loss and can not tell you how much it helped me to overcome the pain. You are helping me to become a better Christian woman through seeing your faith. Thanks for letting us all know we are not alone out there!

  • Timeless and Treasured, Photography by Heather

    We lost our first baby in June of 1994, then our third baby in March of 1998. We are blessed to have three wonderful daughters now. Praying for all the mothers who have babies in heaven.

  • Anonymous

    My name is Beth. I lost my first child to miscarriage in Oct 2003. I gave birth to my second child in Aug 2004. I lost my third child in April 27 2007. I gave birth to my fourth child Jan 2008. I praise the Lord for the “healthy” girl and boy I have today. I am so heartbroken for those who lost their precous children. I know that I did not truly know heartbreak like this before my loss. My second miscarriage was the hardest. After trying for 9 months to get pregnant, I began spotting the day before my 29th birthday. Exactly 8 days later I miscarried. That was really a hard night. (It was also the 17th anniversary of salvation day) The literal physical and emotional pain of losing a child is horrible. I thought of those who chose to abort their babies and dispose of them versus my non-choice of having to dispose of mine. A couple of days later, my husband came to me and said “I am the reason we lost our baby.” I was in shock, wondering what he meant? He began to tell me that he had prayed, as he had done with my other pregancies, that God would take this child before it was born into this wicked world if the child was going to not choose to be a Christian and not follow it’s parents and Christ. Oh how this brought such happiness and comfort to my soul. The Lord hears and answers. I am very blessed to have such a God fearing husband. This is what I found comfort in following the days of my miscarrage. My miscarried baby’s due date was 12-18-07. I gave birth to a healthy 9lb 3oz “baby” boy 01-30-08. Our Lord is still on the throne!

  • Cassandra

    My name is Cassandra & I lost our 2nd baby at 6 wks. I have a 5 yr old boy & a 2 yr old boy, but I still think of our 2nd & what could have been. It was so early on that we never told anyone. Thank you for letting me share!

  • Susan

    We were blessed with a son in 2001.
    After trying for almost 3 years for another baby, we became pregnant again in February 2007. Shortly thereafter, I miscarried. Having struggled to finally get pregnant again, this was very hard to understand. However, our struggles were in Gods hands and he again blessed us with a beautiful daughter in April of this year.
    I would also add to our prayers all those who long to be mothers or to be the mother of an infant again. Infertility, even after a healthy birth of a baby, in a way is a “loss”.
    I think of the baby I lost, and I wonder what it will be like to someday be with him or her. Thank you for reminding me not to forget about my baby, even as I realize how blessed I am today.

    Praying for others who have been there….

  • Rachel

    I’ve never had a child; my husband and I have struggled with infertility for a year and a half now.

    I grieve each of your losses and pray that you’ll find comfort in God’s plan.

    I beg your prayers to help me cope with my own empty arms, as well.

  • mommy of girls

    After dealing with infertility for two years and going through the “process” of trying to conceive with the help of modern medicine, I got pregnant and gave birth to a sweet baby girl in June 2003. We were blessed with our 2nd pregnancy in 2005, but we lost that baby only 8 weeks after conception. Since then we have been blessed with another girlie to love in September 2006. I sometimes wonder about my sweet baby…if “it” was a boy or a girl. I adore my two precious gifts, but I long for the day when I meet my other sweet miracle in heaven. Thanks for your blog. I am a faithful reader, though I don’t comment.

  • Suzanne Ness

    Hi. My name is Suzanne. I lost my first two children – beautiful twin daughters – Ansley Marie and Bailey May – to an early birth. At 21 weeks they were born looking much like their Daddy. October 21st, 1994. You never lose that pit in your stomach where the grief resides. With prayer and grace, God just takes a portion of the pain away.

  • Melissa

    i lost two children to miscarriage. one in january of 2002 and another in january of 2003. looking forward to meeting them on the other side of eternity. . .

  • a cowgirl at heart

    My name is Charla Jenkins. We lost our first child in March 2007 due to early miscarriage and have been trying again ever since to get pregnant. We have grieved, especially me, and are still grieving. There are some weeks when I don’t go one day without thinking of that sweet baby with Jesus and thriving on the hope and promise I will see him or her someday. We were 9 weeks along. We are now on the road of infertility treatments. Thank you for doing this, Angie.

  • Anonymous

    My dear friend KB and her husband lost their precious baby a year ago this week. She was 18 weeks along and delivered him stillborn. They are now pregnant again with a baby girl due in Feb. There have been some complications so far, but she seems to be doing ok now. Please pray for them as they continue to grieve and also for the precious miracle baby girl.

  • Hope

    I’ve been reading your blog for a long time. I believe this is the first time I’ve commented you. You are amazingly sweet and I know all our babies are in Heaven playing together. My name is Hope. I’ve had 2 miscarriages and one stillbirth.

  • Melissa

    3 miscarriages all around 8 weeks.

    Twin Boys born at 24 weeks.

    Declan Matthew January 27 -28, 2008
    and
    Lucas Benjamin January 27-29, 2008

    They have left their footprints upon our hearts and souls.

  • Anonymous

    My name is Beth. I lost my first child to miscarriage in Oct 2003. I gave birth to my second child in Aug 2004. I lost my third child in April 27 2007. I gave birth to my fourth child Jan 2008. I praise the Lord for the “healthy” girl and boy I have today. I am so heartbroken for those who lost their precous children. I know that I did not truly know heartbreak like this before my loss. My second miscarriage was the hardest. After trying for 9 months to get pregnant, I began spotting the day before my 29th birthday. Exactly 8 days later I miscarried. That was really a hard night. (It was also the 17th anniversary of salvation day) The literal physical and emotional pain of losing a child is horrible. I thought of those who chose to abort their babies and dispose of them versus my non-choice of having to dispose of mine. A couple of days later, my husband came to me and said “I am the reason we lost our baby.” I was in shock, wondering what he meant? He began to tell me that he had prayed, as he had done with my other pregancies, that God would take this child before it was born into this wicked world if the child was going to not choose to be a Christian and not follow it’s parents and Christ. Oh how this brought such happiness and comfort to my soul. The Lord hears and answers. I am very blessed to have such a God fearing husband. This is what I found comfort in following the days of my miscarrage. My miscarried baby’s due date was 12-18-07. I gave birth to a healthy 9lb 3oz “baby” boy 01-30-08. Our Lord is still on the throne!

  • elizabethnabavi

    I have lost two children. The first at 24 weeks and the second at 10 weeks. I am blessed to have also given birth to 4 health boys Alex, Nick, Nathan, and Brian.

  • Tiger & Kar

    Angie, thank you for recognizing the importance of October 15. I have done something similar on my blog & actually thought about sending you a message over the weekend about this & asking if I could use Audrey in a small presentation I am doing…BUT…I chickened out. Silly, I know. And I apologize.

    In 1997 my husband and I were told we would never have biological children. In 2001 I was surprised to find out I was, indeed, 12 weeks pregnant. My excitement was short lived because I learned within 48 hrs that it was an eptopic pregnancy. We had named this child Little One, or LO.

    In 2006 I became pregnant again, and we named our baby Matthew. Unfortunately, Matthew was also an eptopic pregnancy but I carried him longer and knew him better than I did LO.

    October 10th I wrote a letter to Matthew to celebrate what should have been his 2nd birthday, and I posted that letter to my blog. If you or any of your readers would like to read that letter, please feel free to visit this link:

    http://tiger-kar.blogspot.com/2008/10/footprints-and-special-invitation.html.

    In October 2007, my husband & I decided to pursue adoption. We traveled to Moscow in March 08 and met our son, Ilya, for the first time on my birthday. Ilya officially became our son May 15, and came home May 31, 08.

    We are blessed beyond anything we could have ever imagined. I miss our Matthew every day and thank God for bringing Ilya home!

    I've followed your blog for awhile and have found so much encouragement. THANK YOU for inspiring so many of us!

    God Bless,
    Karyn in VA

  • Tiger & Kar

    Angie, thank you for recognizing the importance of October 15. I have done something similar on my blog & actually thought about sending you a message over the weekend about this & asking if I could use Audrey in a small presentation I am doing…BUT…I chickened out. Silly, I know. And I apologize.

    In 1997 my husband and I were told we would never have biological children. In 2001 I was surprised to find out I was, indeed, 12 weeks pregnant. My excitement was short lived because I learned within 48 hrs that it was an eptopic pregnancy. We had named this child Little One, or LO.

    In 2006 I became pregnant again, and we named our baby Matthew. Unfortunately, Matthew was also an eptopic pregnancy but I carried him longer and knew him better than I did LO.

    October 10th I wrote a letter to Matthew to celebrate what should have been his 2nd birthday, and I posted that letter to my blog. If you or any of your readers would like to read that letter, please feel free to visit this link:

    http://tiger-kar.blogspot.com/2008/10/footprints-and-special-invitation.html.

    In October 2007, my husband & I decided to pursue adoption. We traveled to Moscow in March 08 and met our son, Ilya, for the first time on my birthday. Ilya officially became our son May 15, and came home May 31, 08.

    We are blessed beyond anything we could have ever imagined. I miss our Matthew every day and thank God for bringing Ilya home!

    I've followed your blog for awhile and have found so much encouragement. THANK YOU for inspiring so many of us!

    God Bless,
    Karyn in VA

  • Anonymous

    My name is Lisa. I have 4 year old twins, and I lost my third child, Brady Edward, in October 2007 to miscarriage at 12 weeks. I am currently 27 weeks pregnant. Thank you, Angie, for doing this.

  • Michelene Kesner

    Hi, my name is Michelene and I want you to know what an inspiration you have been. I feel like I ride the roller coaster of grief with you each time you speak of your loss. I lost my daughter, Montana, at 36 weeks on July 3, 2000 due to a placenta abruption. God has blessed with me with 2 beuatuiful children and I am reminded, God is good…all the time!!

  • Stacy

    i’ve been reading ur blog since april……thank u for sharing..i can’t tell u how many times i’ve gone to bed in tears….thank u for letting us in ur life……may the Lord bless u and ur ministry…..

    We lost our first baby in may 2002 due to a heart malformation…..we had found out we were preg on easter sunday…….
    a few days before easter sunday the very next year we welcomed our first of three children we have here with us now……God is so faithful…….i will never forget the joy i felt knowing i was preg with that very first baby…..i was 12weeks…..we didn’t ask, but believed him to be a boy…and picked out the name noah………o how i long for the day………………

  • Anonymous

    My name is Stephanie. I have one child, I have lost 4 babies to miscariage. I have had 2 failed ivf miscarriages. My God has spoke to me through each of these losses. My trust in him has grown and despite loss HE has made me whole and HE has GREAT plans for our future. My prayer is for anyone who is hurting as I have, to reach out to Jesus. He is there, He is so close, His breath is right next to them… He will carry them through it…

  • McDermott Fam

    Thank you so much for your blog Angie! My name is Havilah and I lost our second child in July 2008. We have a 2 1/2 year old son that I am very grateful for.

  • Kim Bennett

    My name is Kimberly Bennett, I have been following your blog since you were pregnant for beautiful Aubrey. You are a blessing in my life and I want you to know that I have been praying for you and your family. I began reading your blog went i went to a Selah concert and Todd was talking about your blog. It is so beautiful and inspiring.

    My sister in law, Krista Beck just lost her second baby at 11 weeks in a miscarriage. It happened one week ago today. She went to have an ultrasound and found out the baby did not have a heart beat. She had to take some medicine to pass the baby at home and it took four days. She really needs prayer. Thank you so much. I will continue to pray for you and your family. God Bless. If You need any more info I can be contacted at bennettkids77@yahoo.com

  • Mrs. Mother

    My name is Tamara, and I’m from Tennessee, too. I lost my second daughter, Jenna Grace, to Trisomy 18 at 22 weeks gestation in August of this year. She will always be in my heart.

  • Anonymous

    My name is Lena. I have two amazing boys, ages 2 and 4. I lost two babies to early miscarriage in 2005. Six months ago today, on April 14, 2008, my fifth baby, Henry Michael, died of a placental abruption. Thank you for your blog, Angie. You have really ministered to me during this difficult year.

  • Jo

    Angie, thank you for your blog. I truly feel that it is the next stepping stone in my journey.

    At age 18 I was told I wouldn’t be able to have children. My husband and I discussed this before marriage and agreed we would adopt.

    On April 27, 1999 we found out we were pregnant. On Dec 20, 1999 our beautiful son was born. He is now 8 years old.

    On April 29, 2005, after several years of trying again, we found out that we were pregnant again! We were thrilled…and taken aback at the coincidence in date! Later that afternoon we found out that the pregnancy was ectopic, and by that night our daughter was taken from us. I was 12 weeks along.

    I find peace in the fact that during surgery my father (who had died 2 months prior) came and took the baby from me. At the time, we didn’t know if it was a boy or a girl.

    My husband was VERY upset that we didn’t know the sex of the baby. A few weeks later, I had a dream that DH’s grandma came to me (she had passed when our son was only 3 weeks old) and she said, “Oh, Jo, Lilly is such a DELIGHTFUL child.”

    So then I knew… we have a daughter. Her name is Lilly. I am sure she is having a wonderful time in Heaven with all the other angel babies.

    I recently read in a book about a woman who lost a child and she said that after thinking about it, she realized that she felt special because God had chosen HER daughter to be one of His angels. I thought that was a great way to put it.

    Thank you for this opportunity to share Lilly’s story.

  • malleri

    hello angie! thank you for this, i read your blog every day. i miscarried my first child at six weeks, Riley. we had already made so many plans, the name, the room, we chose not to find out the sex. only to find 3 weeks later at a nine week appointment that i had miscarried. it was devistating, we were so excited. here i am at 10 weeks and 4 days with healthy twins, we are so excited about it, but we never forget Riley.

  • Raechel

    My name is Raechel Myers.

    I lost my first child to miscarriage in October 2005.

    I lost my third child to miscarriage in July 2007.

    I lost my fourth child, Evie Grace, to stillbirth at 32 weeks on April 9th, 2008 due to trisomy 9.

    I lost my fifth child this month, October 2008 to miscarriage.

    Thanks be to God for these precious lives.

    And, praise his name, our second child – Oliver – will turn two years old tomorrow. On the day that we remember our losses, we are also celebrating God’s grace in the life of our son.

    Love you, Angie. And I am blessed by the work the Lord is doing in you and have been privileged to walk along side you in the loss of our daughters.

  • Amber

    My name is Amber. I have one healthy son born in 2007. I lost my second child at 5 weeks on June 8, 2008. God provided me with a sense of peace that I could never put into words. Although I miss our baby so very much, I so thankful for all that God has given to me. We have since been blessed with another baby, due April 17, 2009.
    Thank you Angie for caring so much about others. You are a truly a blessing to me and many others. I look foward to praying for the women on this post.

  • Anonymous

    I lost our second child on April 15, 1992, at around 9 weeks. On October 25, 1992, during the altar service at our Sunday night church service, our Pastor prayed with us, and felt impressed to tell us that the Lord would give us the desires of our heart. Our pastor didn’t know that we were yearning for a second child – specifically a girl. Our son had just turned 7 years old the day before this service. On Christmas Day (isn’t God’s timing awesome!), I had a positive pregnancy test. On September 1, 1993, we had a healthy, gorgeous baby girl. She’s sitting at the kitchen counter right now working on a biology project with her Dad. :D
    Just one more time in our lives that God has been faithful….

  • Emma Days

    My name is Erica and I have a 2 1/2year old daughter named Emma. I have lost two babies, one on February 29th (at 4 weeks) and the second on July 3rd (at 10 weeks) of this year. We are concluding some testing with a reproductive endocrinologist at the end of this month to see if we can find out what is going wrong. But I do know that God has a plan for us.

  • Anonymous

    My name is Kim and I am the proud mom of Aidan, 20 months. I had two losses prior to Aidan and now since his birth. Thank you for the thoughts and prayers.

  • camhud

    Hi Angie.. I was in Zeeland on Sunday at the concert for the Congo, I was completely moved (by everything), I had hoped to say "Hi" to you but my 5 and 2 year old, were to say the least "a bit of a handful"… but my daughter (she is 5)said to me as we were driving out of the parking lot, "mom, that guy with no hair had an amazing voice, I loved him"… now I must say, no one in our family is musical, so I was thrilled she could recognize an amazing voice! :) It was a proud moment… also I just wanted to say I lost my first child in July 2002, after years of trying to get p.g. and this pregnancy was a result of our 3rd attempt with our infertility specialist (the first few trys had me "strung out" on clomid, crying on our closet floor for 8 hours over a new car, sounds ridiculous now, but it didn't then, so when we were finally pregnant we were THRILLED, we had a early US to confirm the pregnancy and it looked great, but at 12 weeks, I started spotting and we had lost the baby, come to find out we had lost the baby between 6 and 8 weeks but had no idea, so I required a D&C and I thought I would never have a child, but my God is amazing and my daughter was born 11 months from the exact date of my D&C… and a few years later, SURPRISE I was wondering why I couldn't lose weight, well I was 12 weeks pregnant with my son and I was THRILLED, (but I did keep saying "how did this happen, I didn't "do" anything to get pregnant… and people would look at me like duh!)… I am so happy to say I am the mom of three and look forward to the day I get to met that precious soul! Thanks for being such an inspiration.

  • Anonymous

    My name is Jennifer and I lost our 2nd child to a miscarriage in Feb. 2003. At the time, I had a 1 1/2 year old, who is now 7 and we also have a 4 year old. That loss was the most tragic thing that has happened to me!

  • Beth

    My name is Beth. I lost my second daughter to a late miscarriage at 17 weeks on March 23, 2008. We named her Lena Emilie.

  • Jill @ Live Laugh Blog

    My name is Jill. We lost our first child to a missed miscarriage at 14 weeks. September 26, 2004.
    We now have two daughters, Adeline and Audrey, 3 and 1 years of age.

  • Angie

    Angie,

    My name is Angie and I have been just a lurker on your blog for months and have spent many hours crying and laughing! I decided that I would comment today and thank you for the opportunity to pray for others in this group in which I also find myself. I had my first son in 1996, two miscarriages in 1998, and my second son in 1999. Even though I have two healthy sons now, those miscarriages were and still are very hard. We are now in the process of adopting our daughter from China.
    Please know that I will be lifting you and these other Mommies up to our Father tomorrow. Thank you for bringing us all together for this purpose.

    I will lift up my eyes to the hills, where does my help come from? My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth. Psalm 121:1-2

  • AmandaHoyt

    Angie,
    I’m a long time reader of your blog but have never posted a comment or emailed you before (although I’ve wanted to many times before). I want to thank you for your testimony, sharing your life with us and for honoring all of our babies here. Your blog really touches my heart and has taught me a lot about how to walk more with Him each day – through life’s storms. We lost our second child, Noah Joel (which means rest; peace and The Lord is God), on March 26, 2008, due to a missed miscarriage at 9.5 weeks. The death of my son has broken my heart. We tried for 13 months for this precious baby and he didn’t make it. I wanted my beautiful 4 year old, Caitlin Love, to be a big sister here on earth. I know that Noah is our Angel in Heaven, safe in His arms, but I still miss him so much. Please pray for me as I near my “due date” on October 24, 2008. Thank you. You are in my prayers daily as you continue running The Race after the loss of your sweet ones.
    Hugs,
    Amanda

    Hugs and prayers to all the mommies out there who’ve lost their babies.

  • brandiandboys

    hey angie,

    we lost our second baby to miscarriage at 11 weeks. i was blessed with two healthy boys after that loss, but think of that baby often.

    thanks for asking me to remember again!

  • Davis Family Blog

    My name is Linda, my son Ethan was born still at 22 weeks in 2006. He was perfect in every way! He’s given our family great joy! He’s taught my 9 yr old that death is not scary, that there is a PLACE where WE ARE ALL CALLED TO BE! He’s bonded my husband and I in marriage in ways we could have never figured out on our own. We will always grieve the loss of our son but we will always CELEBRATE is LIFE too!

  • Cheryl

    My name is Cheryl. I lost my first baby to miscarriage at about 15 weeks, May 9, 1992. I then had a healthy baby boy the following year. I lost my second baby, also at about 15 weeks, September 8, 1993. A healthy baby girl completed our family in January 1995.

    I’m thankful for the great kids I have and am also thankful that I’ll get to meet my other two children in Heaven. They have been gone for a long time, but I’ll never forget them.

    Thanks for your great site, Angie.

  • Angela

    I lost my second child Joel David on September 6th, 2008. He had Trisomy 13 and went into heart failure at 32 weeks and passed away in the womb. I will be praying for y’all. We were pressured at 20 weeks to have an abortion and I am forever grateful that we did not and the 32 weeks we did get to spend with him.

  • sumi

    Dear Angie, and all the other mommies out there…

    My heart breaks as I read all your posts. I am praying for you all.

    My grief is different, yet the same – I got to meet and love on my little Jenna for 3 years before she went to be with Jesus.

    HUGS to you all…

    May I add my sister to the list? Her baby boy was still born at 5 months 15 years ago. If I knew what I know now, I would have encouraged her to talk more, to name her baby, to bury him. I know it was an extremely hard time for her, made worse by the fact that I was pregnant at the same time.

  • Susie

    My name is Susie. I lose my second child, a son named Joshua Matthew, to a neural tube defect that caused a portion of his brain to grow into a sack at the back of his head. He was born 7 January 2008, lived 67 days, and passed away 15 March 2008.

  • Anonymous

    My name is Kelly. I lost my first child this past July at 10 weeks pregnant. I miss my little one so much! So thankful for the love of Jesus that carries me through!

    I also will never forget the precious little one who introduced me to Jesus 14 years ago … her mommy & daddy lost her just a few days before her birth.

  • Katie

    Angie, this is beautiful. It brought tears to my eyes.
    I lost my first baby in November 2007 because of an ectopic pregnancy. My heart tells me she was a girl and we named her Faith.

  • poehl family

    i lost our first child to miscarriage in august 2006. God graciously gave us twins 10 months later. thank you for helping us to remember & pray for those who have suffered loss.

  • Anonymous

    Angie,
    I thought you and your blog friends would like to know about the National Memorial for the Unborn in Chattanooga, TN. There is a wall memorial for those people who would like to memorialize their children, grandchildren, siblings lost to abortion. Outside the memorial in the garden is a Pool of Tears for those who have lost a child to miscarriage, SIDS, or stillborn. You can purchase a paver with your childs name on it to remember and memorialize that child. Of course, you can do the same thing at your own home by planting a tree, lighting a candle, or create your own way of remembering. I have found this to be helpful for my child I have in heaven because of an abortion…his name is David Kenneth.
    Love you and what you do!

  • Groff Family

    My name is Julie Groff. I lost my first baby at 8 weeks pregnant on May 24, 2004. I lost my second one at 10 weeks pregnant in August 2004. I lost my third baby at 6 weeks pregnant on August 9, 2005. I delivered a beautiful boy in January ’07. I lost baby number 5 at 10 weeks pregnant on February 9, 2008. I am currently 21 weeks pregnant with a little girl.

    Also please pray for Ani Karg. She delivered twins two weeks ago and one was stillborn. The other has not been out of the NICU and she hasn’t even been able to hold them. I think she could use your strength too. She has a carepage at: http://www.carepages.com/carepages/KargFamilyUpdates.

    Thank you for your strength and spirit, and I’m sorry for your loss.

  • team hill

    My name is Jessi,
    I lost my baby to miscarriage on May 10 2007 at 10 weeks. It was very hard for us,but we had been blessed with a wonderful son (Grayson) 6yrs old. Everyday I thank the Lord for blessing me with Grayson and the wonderful life he has given me. Thank you Angie for sharing with us and letting me heal through you.

  • Our Family of Four

    WOW there are sooo many. I shouldn’t be surprised and yet…

    I lost my first in Nov. 2002, second May 2003, third (ectopic) Nov. 2005, fourth April 2006, fifth August 2007, sixth Sept 2007. But it’s not all gloom and doom. I did have a healthy child in Aug 2004 and adopted the most beautiful baby in May 2005. I prayer for all of you in the midst of loss and also that you are as lucky as I am to have 2 beautiful and perfect children.

  • Megan

    My name is Megan and we lost our first baby due to it being a tubal pregnancy in April of 2007. It still hurts, but thankfully we did have a little girl in March of this year which has helped ease the pain a bit. We still miss our little one dearly though.

  • Carissalayla

    I lost a baby to miscarriage at 8 weeks, the most devestating pain I have ever felt. I named the baby Rowen. I am so very thankful for my daughter Carter and son Theo, thank you Lord!

  • Anonymous

    We lost a child to miscarriage at 8 weeks. The baby was due to be born last Sunday. Although the miscarriage happened early in the pregnancy, it was very hard, and still is some days. Thank you for your prayers. Angie

  • clkight

    my name is carrie and my husband and i lost our first child in june of 1997 to a miscarriage at 7 weeks and recently lost our 3rd child in august to a tubal pregnancy very early in the pregnancy(we didn’t even know we were pregnant). thank god for our miracle, chrislenn leigh who is now 5 1/2 years old, and for any more the lord is planning to send our way, hopefully very soon ;)

  • Jenn

    Angie, thank you for your blog. It has been an inspiration to me as well as to many of my friends.

    I lost our first child on March 5, 2007 at 9 weeks. Exactly one year later on March 5, 2008 I gave birth to our beautiful daughter Julianne. We are even more grateful to God for the blessing of our daughter after experiencing our first loss. I pray for your continued healing as well as so many others that I have read about through your blog.

  • Ellen

    My niece, Amanda, had two confirmed miscarriages and an unconfirmed one within the past five years. She has had one successful pregnancy that resulted in a healthy baby boy! And we praise the Lord for him. But, I know her heart still aches for the lost babies, so I’d like to add her here.

  • Anonymous

    I lost a baby at 8 weeks, I was in college, & probably not ready to be a mommy anyways…still too young , but still hurts.

  • Prachar family

    My name is Travis (yes, I am a mom named Travis). Thank you for this forum. It seems there are very few women who would not have something to post here and my heart breaks for each of the stories posted here. Your words give weight to these lives who were lost, too short, grieved over and bittersweet.
    I had my first miscarriage after 2 healthy boys in 2000, then a third healthy boy in 2001. I only wanted 3 children, so in my mind, we were done. God (and my husband)changed my heart and I ended up suffering a 2nd miscarriage at nearly 12 weeks (devastating, had to have a D & C), then got pregnant right away after the prescribed 3 month wait and had another miscarriage at 8 weeks. Devastating. Again. God, what are you doing? I can't do this again! But He is faithful and I ended up with a perfect, beautiful daughter in 2004. He has created beauty out of my ashes and also given me a ministry to other women with miscarriages. I could never understand the depth of their pain and loss had I not walked through that valley. I thank God for teaching me that He is enough through those storms. HE IS ENOUGH!

  • McKenzi and Hyrum

    This much needed prayer is not for me. This prayer is for my dearest friend Cassandra.

    She lost her first baby towards the end of her pregnancy a few years ago. By the grace of God she finds herself pregnant again… and terrified.

    My prayers for her are not loud enough. God bless you and God bless Cass.

  • Mandy & Jeremy Hall

    My name is Mandy Hall. We lost our first son, Connor James Hall, on 3/28/08 to Vasa Previa. We lost our second to a miscarriage on 9/13/08…Praying to become pregnant again very soon.

  • Mandy & Jeremy Hall

    My name is Mandy Hall. We lost our first son, Connor James Hall, on 3/28/08 to Vasa Previa. We lost our second to a miscarriage on 9/13/08…Praying to become pregnant again very soon.

  • Anonymous

    I lost my second child through miscarriage in April 2005. God has blessed me with 2 beautiful little boys since then, in addition to their big brother.

  • Jenn

    My name is Jenn. I lost our first child to miscarriage November 14, 2005. We named her Hope. Since then, God has blessed us with 2 healthy beautiful children. Grace is almost 2, and Sam is 2 months. God is faithful. He gave us Hope.

  • nicole in texas

    My name is Nicole. I lost my first child to miscarriage in May 2007. I lost my second child to miscarriage in August 2008. We are trying again and hope that the third time will be a charm when we do get pregnant again. Your blog is inspiring to me and to thousands of others. I didn’t realize what tomorrow was. I am praying for you and all others.

  • Anonymous

    Please pray for the mothers of
    Benjamin Scott – Feb 24, 2004 (anencephaly)
    Emma – Oct 12, 2005
    2 yet unnamed babies (Feb/May 2008)

  • Patrice

    We lost our first baby in June of 1991 due to an etopic pregancy. Still very hard to deal with it, so I try not to think of it often, I just try hard to shut it out.

    We are blessed with three wonderful boys, but still have raw emotions, always hard when reading of others that have lost their children. I think the hardest thing about it, was I had to give the baby up for my health due to our baby growing in my tube, but still have a hard time with it all knowing I went into surgery with a growing healthy baby inside of me and coming out empty. Tough still to this day, I still blame myself.

    Angie, you and your blog are a blessing to many…keep up the hard work!

  • stephanie garcia

    My name is Stephanie. I learned I was pregnant for the first time in nine years of marriage in July 2006, but lost our baby “Eden” to an early miscarriage just one week later (at approximately 5-6 weeks along.)

    Yet we have been blessed beyond measure through God’s gift of adoption, and for that I am deeply grateful.

  • Anonymous

    I lost my second child to a miscarriage last month. Sending along prayers to everyone else that lost their child…

  • Anonymous

    My name is Shirl. I am the mother of four children. The first child we lost to an early miscarriage. Our second child, a daughter arrived safely in 1992 and is a vibrant teen. Our third child, Stephen, was stillborn in 1994. We did get to briefly hold our son, but we do look forward to holding both our babies in heaven one day. Our fourth child, another daughter has blessed our hearts immensely. We lift up every heart that is aching from the loss of a child. God bless us each and every one in the name of Jesus Christ we pray.

  • Gillie

    My name is Gillie.

    I lost my second child to miscarriage June 2005.

    I lost my third child to miscarriage March 2008.

    I will pray for all as well.
    Gillie
    http://mymonthlyheartbreak.blogspot.com/

  • luvnmykiddos

    Angie,
    I have been a faithful follower of your site for a few months now (I read your whole blog one afternoon :) I have so enjoyed reading your blog, and it has helped me during this time in my life. Thank you for letting us into your life. I too am part of this “club”. I lost our 2nd and
    3rd babies to 1st trimester miscarriages. Thank you for opening up your site to let us remember our little ones that are no longer with us. Also, if there are any prayer warriors out there who have an extra spot on their prayer list we have a precious baby girl that would love some prayers. Our last daughter was born on Valentine’s Day this year with a severe heart defect (HLHS). She has underwent 2 open heart surgeries and her condition is not curable. We would covet your prayers for our daughter! Thank you!

  • Stacy

    "And God will wipe away every tear from their eyes, there shall be no more death, nor sorrow, nor crying. There shall be no more pain, for the former things have passed away." Revelation 21:4

    My name is Stacy. In Dec. 2002, our 4th son, Joshua Isaac Davis, went home to be with Jesus. He was born on August 14, 2002 with Trisomy 18. He was a special gift by God and God was gracious and gave us 119 beautiful days with our son before we had to give him back to Jesus. Despite his short life here on earth, I praise God for using Joshua to transform me and through his life, share God's love and salvation with so many people.

    I look forward to the day I will be reunited with my son in Heaven and to the day when there will be no more pain, no more death, no more sorrow.

    After Joshua died, I had to give another child back to God at 6 weeks, when I miscarried. My doctors don't know if I had another miscarriage following that and then two months later had to have a D&E.

    We were blessed with two more children: Jedidiah in 2004 and Faith in 2006 (our only girl after 5 boys!) We have 3 older boys, as well.

    Nothing is impossible with God! 6 c-sections, 7 children, our son who doctors told us "was incompatible with life" lived for 119 days….

    Angie…Isaiah 61:3 is such a favorite of mine…Praising Him alone for turning my ashes into His beauty and my mourning in joy. His love never fails.

    Thank you for sharing the love of Jesus Christ with all of us…for sharing your ashes, your mourning, your heaviness….you are a tree of righteousness through Him and He is being glorified in and through you. Many blessings my dear sister in Christ.

    Tears came to my eyes as I read through each comment and felt the pain of each mommy who has walked the road of such deep loss, grieving the death of their babies. "…our labor is not in vain in the Lord!" 1 Corinthians 15:58

    In Him alone-Stacy

  • Misty

    I lost my second child, Emma Hope, 17 wks 6 days into my pregnancy due to Turner’s Syndrome combined fetal hydrops.

    My husband I were blessed with a healthy baby girl 4 months ago.

    Prayers to you all.

  • Anonymous

    Angie, thank you for being sensitive to the Lord’s nudge and offering this forum. I have read every single post and am praying for each woman, family and child represented. Praying that God will wrap each of you in His loving arms. And my heart aches for each of you. And I feel I am to say…I AM SO SORRY to each of you.

  • -stephanie-

    1st child – miscarriage at 6 weeks-
    June 2000

    2nd child – miscarriage at 17.5
    weeks, a boy –
    February 2001

    3rd child – miscarriage at 7 weeks-
    June 2001

    Possible 4th child, Dr. said not pregnant, my test said pregnant. We’ll see what heaven says, if I am greeted by 4 instead of 3.

    thank you all for the prayers, I will be praying for all of you too.

  • Anonymous

    I lost my second baby to miscarriage on April 4th, 1997.

    Waco, Tx

  • Huddle Girls

    Angie, thank you for using your blog to bring attention to such an important day. My name is Amanda, my son Gavin was born April 7th, the same day as Audrey, and passed away May 3, 2008. We were blessed to have 26 days with him. The best guess of many doctors is that he suffered some type of cord accident in utero. My heart aches for him every moment, for all that he is missing with us and all that we are missing with him. He is so very loved by his mommy, daddy, and 2 big brothers.

    Blessings,
    Amanda

  • Anonymous

    My name is Erin. Our 4th child, Quinn, was lost in late pregnancy due to trisomy 18. Our 6th baby was lost to a miscarriage in week 9 of pregnancy.

  • Anonymous

    My sister Rachel lost 7 babies due to miscarriages. She has 2 beautiful girls Rose and Pearl. We will pray for her. She is such a strong women in Christ and a great mommy. Love ya Rachel!!

  • Leigh

    My name is Leigh, I lost my first child to miscarriage, Sept 16, 2001. My daughter Emily was born still December 18th, 2007 at 36 wks, 5 days. No reason was ever determined. http://www.virtualmemorials.com/main.php?action=view&mem_id=11625&page_no=1
    I lost another child to miscarriage on Sept 26th, 2008.
    I have 2 healthy boys ages 8 and 6.

  • Alicia

    I had a miscarriage on September 23, 2004. I was 9 weeks pregnant. When the bleeding started and I went to the doctor, I was informed that the egg hadn’t developed. Although there wasn’t a baby there, I felt such overwhelming sadness. I grieved for weeks. We had been trying for 5 years to have a baby. Then in February of 2005, we tried again, and I got pregnant on the first try, but waited till the third of March before I tested. We waited until I’d passed the first trimester before sharing the news. Our beautiful baby boy was born in October 2005, and will turn 3 next Tuesday. In July of 2007, our family was completed by the birth of his beautiful baby sister. I truly believe the miscarriage was God preparing me for the two babies we would bring home.

    Thank you Angie, for doing this for any mother who has lost a baby.

  • Sara

    My name is Sara. I miscarried my second child at 11 weeks gestation in december of 2006. My third child, a son named Elliot, was born on April 28th of this year and died one hour after he was born due to birth defects that would not allow him to survive.

    Lord, heal all of our hearts, give us your peace that passes all understanding as we remember our precious babies today..

  • Anonymous

    I lost my second child in 2000 due to miscarriage at 8 weeks. I lost my third child in 2001 with an ectopic pregnancy. I am so blessed to have two healthy girls and I am currently praying for my fifth baby due in April.
    Mary

  • Anonymous

    My name is Rhonda. I have 3 children here with me on Earth and one with the Lord in Heaven. I lost my son, Nathan, at 24 weeks in February 1989. I am thankful doctors can now test for Group B strep, which is what contributed to my early delivery with Nathan. It is hard to believe he would be 20 yrs old next year. Time does heal but I’ll never forget. Each year at Christmas we hang a special ornament at the top of the tree for Nathan.

  • Beth

    she would be 24 years old now.

  • Anonymous

    I lost four children to miscarriages and one to a tubal pregnancy before, during, and after having three healthy, beautiful girls, one of which has recently blessed me with my first grandchild,a son, who was born in April.

  • Melissa

    My name is Melissa and I have lost 3 babies, all to miscarriage. The first was in June 2005 and the other 2 were twins in February 2008. I lost the twins about 2 weeks apart. I think of them often, and all the other women who have lost babies. I think that October 15th is so important — these babies were fearfully and wonderfully made. God had plans for them that we are not meant to know here on earth. I believe with all my heart that they are in heaven waiting for us. I also believe that God will bless my husband and me with children in his timing and in his providence.
    To those who have miscarried, had a still birth, or lost a child at any time you are in my prayers. Remember that not even a sparrow falls to the ground without God knowing -how much more so does he care for us? Cling to Him.

    Angie -thank you for this blog. Your blog helped me through my own grief and depression. I pray for you and your family often, and am so encouraged by your blog.

  • Hollie

    Hi Angie,
    I’m writing on behalf of my sister who lost her son, Joseph Lee, at 21 weeks. Her water broke at 19 weeks and she stayed in the hospital on complete bed rest for two weeks. Little Joey put up a good fight for those two weeks but was born into the arms of Jesus on September 22, 2006. He was 27 cm long and weighed 13.5 oz.
    A year later she was able to get pregnant again but she lost that baby at about 10 weeks. She has a little boy, Robbie, who is 3 but she longs to be able to have another baby. I know that God’s timing is not always our own but my prayer request for her is that she would be able to have another baby soon.

    For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.

    My frame was not hidden from you
    when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, your eyes saw my unformed body.

    All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.
    ~Psalm 139:13-16~

  • Grin and Barrett

    My name is Jennifer, and my husband and I lost our first child to a miscarriage in 1988.

    My thoughts and prayers are with all of you.

  • Amy

    I lost my fourth baby to miscarriage in July of 2005.

  • Angela

    I lost my second child to miscarriage at 8 wks in October of 2006. It was so early in the pregnancy that we had only shared it with family. We are blessed with a precious 3 year old daugter and a 10 month old son.

  • Anonymous

    y face is salty with tears for all the stories here. Even in the midst of crying tears of pain, I am also crying tears of joy knowing all those babies are WHOLE in the arms of Jesus!
    I lost a baby to molar pregnancy 2 years ago. Some say “it” was never a baby…to me “it” was. I also have several friends and family who have lost babies either through miscarriage or shortly after the babies were born. Several very recently. Please remember Kelly (miscarriage), Leanne (miscarriage), Cindy (Trisomy 13), Amy (miscarriage), Kim (accident).
    Peace be with all of you. Amen.

  • daniella summers

    My name is Daniella. I lost my first baby when I was 6 weeks pregnant, one day before Valentine’s Day 2006.

    I’m now blessed with a precious 14 month old baby girl.

    Thank You Jesus – Your mercies renew every morning.

  • Finding Normal

    My name is Debbie, and I lost my first child at 8 weeks on November 1, 2003. I pray for peace for all of us.

  • Deanna

    My name is Deanna. We lost our first child to miscarriage in December of 2001. We lost our third child to miscarriage in July of 2004. We lost our fourth child to miscarriage in March of 2005. Praise God that we had a healthy baby boy on OCTOBER 15, 2002…. tomorrow will be a day of rejoicing and sadness. My heart breaks for every person who has posted a comment…. yet thankful that our loving God will redeem our sorrow.

  • Laurie and company

    I lost my 5th baby in March of 2006 in my 10th week. It gave me a whole new perspective on grief, loss, others who have gone through this. One of the more painful things my husband and I have endured in our marriage. We praise the Lord for each of our six children.
    Angie, you are such a blessing to me!

  • Graves

    Hi I’m Mary. I lost my daughter Hayden at 21 weeks due to Trisomy 18. She to was also diagnose not compatable with life.

    I will be thinking of everybody tomorrow.

  • Anonymous

    Hi Angie,
    My husband and I lost our 2nd baby after 9 years of wanting another baby to miscarriage in Nov 2005. We went in for an ultrasound at 10 weeks and the heartbeat had stopped. We were devestated. I had a D&C a few days later and then God blessed us again when we found out we were pregnant again in March 06. We went on to have a healthy baby girl in November 2006, she was born a year to the day after the D&C of her sister or brother who is now with the Lord.
    God is good!!!
    I am praying for you and all the other mothers who have lost a little one.
    Love and prayers,
    sandy in Va

  • Joy

    My name is Joy. I lost my first and only child to miscarriage at 12 weeks gestation in March of 2006 to trisomy 22, a chromosomal abnormality. Her name is Gabriel. God is gracious and this year for Christmas, we are adopting a newborn son.

  • threekidchaos

    My name is Kristen. I miscarried my first baby in March 1999 at 10 weeks. Devastating is the only way to describe that time. Since then we have had 2 biological boys & adopted our daughter.

  • The Branson Family

    I lost our third child to miscarriage at 6 weeks in Feb of 2007, and our fourth child, Isaiah at 20 weeks on July 9th, 2008. Your blog has helped me through the dark days and nights following the loss of Isaiah – you have been a blessing, thank you for sharing.

  • brenna

    I have not lost a child but this is for my good friend Melanie. Sweet little Landon was born January 23, 2006 and died May 22, 2006 to SIDS. I still have moments of tears when thinking about him. She does not know God and I know she struggles often with this loss thinking she will never heal.

  • The Kahler Family

    My name is Angie. We wanted a second child and started trying when our daughter, Emily, was 2. I miscarried at 12 weeks on Emily’s 3rd birthday, March 2. 2004. I miscarried at 6 weeks in early August 2004, then late October, 2004. We were blessed with a healthy son on October 19, 2005!
    Angie, thank you.

  • Erin

    Thank you for this post. I lost one baby in 2003. I then had a healthy baby girl in 2005. In the past 6 months, I have lost two more. We just want to give our little girl a sibling, but if worse comes to worse, we are content with our small family. If it doesn’t happen in the next year or so, it’ll be just us three.

  • kbjernigan

    My name is Kelli. I lost my first baby on February 6, 2002. I’ll never forget.

  • Anonymous

    I lost my first child to miscarriage in 2002. I was not following the Lord at the time and planned on aborting it. I was full of grief and knew that abortion was horrible. I miscarried three days after I went to an abortion clinic for a pre-exam.

  • Megan

    My name is Megan, and my son Macsen Danforth was stillborn on Dec. 15th, 2007 due to a true knot in the imbilical cord. It is the ripples from this heartache that are ultimately behind the deception satan has over my husband in thinking divorce is our only hope.Satan is the author of death, and he will use it however he sees fit to. I miss my little man so very much, but I am choosing to praise our King inspite of my broken heart. My hope is in Heaven, our future Home. I pray it is for all of you too, my dear sisters. Until we meet those sweet faces again….
    http://www.greatestblessing.blogspot.com

  • daniellep

    I lost my first child to miscarriage on March 7, 2004. On January 19, 2005 we had the most perfect baby girl who has turned into the most beautiful three year old.

  • Jill

    My name is Jill.. We lost our third child June 2005. We have since been blessed with 2 more wonderful arrows!

    A WONDERFUL book for those grieving or going through any hard trial…

    ‘Now I lay my Issac Down’
    by Carol Kent

  • proud parents

    My name is Kimberly and we lost a child to miscarriage today. We have one beautiful little girl, but I am definitely grieving the loss of our little baby! Thank you for your post. This couldn’t have come at a better time.

  • Anonymous

    I lost my second child to miscarriage in June 2008.

  • Avery Tales

    My name is Lurenda. We lost our first child, Olivia, due to preterm delivery at 23 weeks. She was born May 29, 2006 and went from our arms to Jesus’ arms on June 5, 2006. The journey has been one of sorrow, laughter, tears and joy. We are blessed to have known Olivia for seven days as I know that there are many families who don’t have this opportunity. She made me a better Christian, wife and mother.

    On November 3, 2007 we welcomed our first son, a healthy and happy baby Jeffrey into the world. Life with Jeffrey is amazing, but I miss my daughter every second of every day.

    Thank you Angie for praying for all of these other women and myself. Thank you for giving me the opportunity to pray for them as well. I may follow your lead and make a similar post on my blog. I feel this can be very healing.

  • FaceforGrace

    We have lost 4 babies due to miscarriage- 1st in July of 2002; 2nd in August of 2005; 3rd in December of 2006; 4th just a few months ago in July of 2008 (on the exact date of our 1st…but 6 years later). I am currently almost 7 months pregnant. I go for my first ultrasound Thursday. Please pray for the life growing inside of me that it continues to thrive and grow! I have not posted any information about this on my blog yet…just not ready yet.

    God Bless you and your family! Your blog is such an inspiration!

  • Dana-from chaos to Grace

    We lost our first child to miscarriage in the 14th week. We believe in our hearts he was a boy and named him after my dear husband.

  • Pam

    My heart is hurting so deeply for all the women who have posted here, yet I know the Lord has linked us all together for a purpose greater than ourselves.

    I lost our first baby in August 1994 to miscarriage. Thirteen years later and three biological children later, I still look at my table and see an empty chair, waiting to be filled. My heart aches for a child I never knew.

    I feel privileged to pray along with y’all for this group of sorrowing sisters.

  • SarahMerritt

    My name is Sarah we lost our first baby in May of 2006 and our second at nearly 15 weeks in July of 2007 and we are now 28 weeks with our little gift Adlie.

  • Ali

    I lost my second baby to a 1st trimester miscarriage (7 weeks) in July of 2005.

    I then lost my fourth baby in a 1st trimester miscarriage (9 weeks) in July of 2008.

    Both of the babies we lost to miscarriages were deeply loved and wanted by both my husband and I. Both of the losses were very painful but, God was close to us in our sadness.

    ~ Ali

  • Kelly

    My name is Kelly. I am a mommy to 3 beautiful girls..two are with us and one is in Heaven. Liberty Lee was born with a very rare genetic disorder (the first reported case in the world) that kept her from being able to tolerate any kind of feeding. She was with us for 5 months and 3 days before the good Lord welcomed her home. She passed away on October 27, 2007 – the day before my 25th birthday. We miss her and love her dearly, and though I don’t need a specific day to remember my daughter it is nice that the rest of the world will remember her as well! :) Liberty has an older sister named Aspen who is 3 years old. She told us last week that she wants to give her heart to Jesus so that one day she can be with Liberty in Heaven..this proves to me that ALL of God’s works are good just like it says in Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Almost 9 months to the day that Liberty passed away we welcomed our 3rd daughter into the world..Cheyenne Hope. She certainly gives us hope to move forward and bring glory to God’s name!

    I wanted to extend this offer of prayers and remembrance at my blog! Please feel free to come and share your story again so that others might be touched by your courage, compassion and most importantly to remember the wee ones we miss so much! My blog is
    http://www.libertylee.blogspot.com

    In Gods’ grace,
    Kelly…Libby’s mommy forever and ever

  • FaceforGrace

    sorry…meant to say 7 weeks-not months! :)

  • Amy

    Angie, your blog is a blessing. And this idea for all of us to share our pain is a blessing too. After having a completely healthy daughter, I lost our second child, a son, to miscarriage 6 years ago. I still think of him every day. The sharpness of that pain has lessened over the years, but I carry his memory and that sadness with me every single day. I have had 2 more healthy children, but my little boy in heaven, Eli Alexander, is always in my heart.

  • Taylor

    My name is Taylor Stapleton, and I lost my first son, Nathan Taylor Stapleton, on June 24, 2008 to Full Trisomy 13… an extra 13th chromosome in every cell in his precious little body. To read more about our story, visit my blog or his memory page on the Living with Trisomy 13 website. He has forever changed me.

    http://www.livingwithtrisomy13.org/MemoriesofNathanS.htm

  • Scott and Sharon Ankerich

    My name is Sharon and I gave my baby girl Sarah Lenox to Jesus on April 1, 2007 @ 11 weeks and my son Parker William on March 13, 2003 @ 21 weeks. I went through the delivery with Parker and he died during the delivery. I miss them both desperately but know they are in the sweet hands of my precious Savior who loves them way more than I do. I give Him the glory for their life and the experience of being their mom for such a short time. I look forward to the day when I see and hold them once again. Thank you Jesus!!!
    Blessings,
    Sharon

  • Anonymous

    I lost my daughter Hope 10 years ago. Sometimes it seems just like yesterday that I saw her. Thank you for your interest and offer to pray for all our loss. You are a blessing.

    Jenn Smith

  • lilmoxey

    We lost our first child in March of 2008 13 weeks into my pregnancy. I had no signs or symptoms that anything was wrong, the heartbeat was just not there. It has been the most difficult thing I have ever had to endure. Your blog has a source of comfort through the healing process. I’m happy to say that I’m now 8 weeks into my second pregnancy and so far everything is going well.

  • Dixie

    I miscarried in May of 2004 at 6.5 weeks. It was my second child, after having a daughter in 2002. Since then I have had two more beautiful children.

    I have written the story of that miscarriage here: http://dixiejayne.com/?p=192

    Thank you for what you’re doing in this space, Angie — being real and allowing people to be real, a place where we can share and grow from our deepest pain. God continue to bless and comfort you.

  • zanesmommy

    My name is Christine. I lost my second son Micah Allen on Jan 12, 2008. We do not know the cause, Fri. he had a heart beat, Sat. he did not.

  • c o’neill

    I was born an identical twin. My sister passed on Christmas Day 1976. I think of her often and look forward to seeing her in heaven one day and so does my mom.

  • Kim

    Angie, thank you. There are really no other words.

    Our story is here, for those of you who would like to read it.

    At almost 24 weeks pregnant, my labor could no longer be stopped and our triplets, Elizabeth Anne, Nathanial James, and Zachary David were born before their lungs could sustain their little lives. One by one, they died in our arms and our lives were changed forever.

    This was on September 29th, 1998. So hard to believe it’s been 10 years. And although the pain isn’t as sharp as the years pass, there will always be a hollow place here on earth, where they should have been. But God is good and merciful and above all, we have Hope.

  • Anya

    My name is Anya. Thank you for your prayers. I lost my second child in June 2004 due to miscarriage. I was around 6 or 8 wks. pregnant. I thank God for my child that I will one day get to meet in paradise!

  • Elizabeth

    I lost my second child to miscarriage on November 27th, 2005.

  • Anonymous

    My name is Darcy. After three healthy pregnancies and three beautiful children being born, I lost my fourth child in February of 2007. It was an ovarian ectopic pregnacy that ruptured. I lost my fifth child in September of 2007 to a miscarriage. I was 14 weeks pregnant. Six weeks ago I was blessed to give birth to our sixth child.

  • Rhoda Wickey

    Angie,
    Thank you for sharing your wonderful story of Audrey Caroline. I have been reading your blog for a little while but have never posted.
    I lost my second baby at 5 weeks on August 25, 2008. We named our baby Ashor because we believe he/she is “happy and blessed” to be in the presence of God.

  • Anonymous

    My name is Stacie. I lost my first child in November 2002 at 11 weeks.
    I have since had 2 beautiful, healthy children, but I still often think about the first one and what would have been.

    If there can be anything at all positive about losing a child, it is the fact that I cherish my children, and all children, more than I would had I not gone though this experience. Having a full term, healthy baby is truly a miracle.

  • Anonymous

    I lost a child to miscarriage at 10weeks. I am blessed with a 5 year old and 2 year old.

  • Daniel, Anna, Emma, Kylie, Duncan, and Kellan

    Hey :) my name is Anna and November 2002 was the month that we found out we were expecting our first baby. I was so excited and all ready wondered who this little one would be :) A few days before my Husband’s birthday in December I miscarried. It was a really difficult time for us but what was so amazing to me was the fact that I wasn’t upset with God. I kept singing “Blessed Be the Name” by Matt Redman and I knew that no matter what He was still worthy and I would trust in Him. It’s a long story that I posted about here http://rsymphony.blogspot.com/2007/11/remembering.html last year on our blog.
    The Lord called her Sarah and we named her Grace. I have a Christmas ornament that was given to us with the name Sarah Grace and the date on it and every year that I put it on the tree I’m reminded of our first baby girl. It might seem silly but after we have a new baby I always ask God to tell Sarah that she’s a new big sister :)
    God used this time in our lives to completely change us. The day after we found out about our loss my husband came to me and said, “I’ve never wanted kids before and now it’s all I want.”
    We’ve been blessed with three children since and our fourth is due in less than two weeks! I had been afraid that I would have a hard time conceiving and two of our four have been a complete surprise :) Our Heavenly Father is always good and we can always trust His heart.

  • Anonymous

    My name is Christen. I lost my first child to miscarriage on April 5, 2007. I began spotting on April 3, but since I had a scheduled appointment on April 5 they said to wait until then unless it became really bad. At my appointment they did an ultrasound (which I am glad about, because that gave me pictures to hold onto) and found a heartbeat. That afternoon I ended up in the ER and lost my baby. They did another ultrasound-and looking at that screen, seeing how different it looked from just hours before-I knew before they had to tell me. It has been a very painful grieving process. But it does get easier in time-even though I didn’t believe that at first. Thank you Angie for sharing your story with all of us. It has absolutely blessed me in ways I cannot describe.

  • mitchells2000

    My name is Heather Mitchell. My husband and I have dealt with infertility for over 5 years now. Almost exactly a year ago, we started our in vitro fertilization process. We had 9 eggs fertilized, which, we believe are 9 babies that are now in Heaven with Jesus. I actually got pregnant in the second cycle, and miscarried within 8 days at 6 weeks. Because we did IVF, I do have pictures of 5 of our babies (as a bunch of cells). I am thankful for God’s grace. We are now just waiting to see how God leads in our family building from here. I am still claiming the promise found in Psalm 113:9. Here are a couple of links to our story, if you are interested.

    http://mitchells2000.blogspot.com/2007/12/grieving.html

    http://mitchells2000.blogspot.com/2007/12/few-memories.html

    http://mitchells2000.blogspot.com/2008/03/results-of-pregnancy-test.html

    http://mitchells2000.blogspot.com/2008/03/our-babies-names.html

    http://mitchells2000.blogspot.com/2008/03/thankful-things.html

    All of you who have lost babies are on my heart and mind, as well as in my prayers!

  • Kara

    A week before my college graduation, my husband and I lost our little one at 7 weeks in May, 2007.

    My heart has never been so heavy and sad at the same time. I have a very strong feeling it was a girl and I think of her weekly, if not daily.

    We became foster parents May, 2008 and they were reunited with thier birthparents in July, 2008.

    All my girls will live in my heart forever. We are taking a break as I complete Graduate school.

    Reading what others have posted has been so comforting.

    Thank-you!

  • Amanda

    Angie — thank you for sharing your sweet Audrey with us, and thank you for your most precious prayers.

    We lost our first baby at 6 weeks in December 2005. Probable progesterone issue.

    We lost our second baby at 9 weeks in October 2006. Probable progesterone issue.

    Because my cervix failed, I gave birth to our son Zachary on April 25, 2007 at 22 weeks. He died one hour and 47 minutes later.

    We lost our fourth baby at 8 weeks in August 2007. Probable progesterone issue.

    Thank you for allowing me to share them here. Thanks for being willing to remember my lost little ones along with me.

  • Laura

    I have been reading your blog for some time but have never commented. Your blog has been a blessing to me!
    I have two babies in heaven: the first was lost in July 2004 at 5 weeks and the second in January 2006 at almost 13 weeks.
    My husband and I have an almost 6 year old daughter, 20 month old twins that we adopted as newborns, and a little boy about to turn one (a surprise gift we discovered was on the way the same week we adopted the twins!)

  • Stacy Brown

    My name is Stacy. My husband and I lost our first child on Halloween two years ago. I named the baby Maegan.

    In a twist that I know was God, we brought our son Shepherd home from the hospital a year to the day later. As Halloween approaches, I am apprehensive of the emotions it may bring and I am fearful because my husband very much wants to begin trying for another child.

    Thank you, Angie, for this post. I had not realized how infrequently I thank God for blessing us with Shepherd. Thank you also for bringing God such glory even through your pain.

    I grieve with those of you who have left comments. I have experienced only a sliver of what many of you have been through. May you feel God’s love and take peace.

    John 16:20
    Truly, truly, I say to you, that you will weep and lament, but the world will rejoice; you will grieve, but your grief will be turned into joy.

    And 16:22
    Therefore you too have grief now; but I will see you again, and your heart will rejoice, and no one will take your joy away from you.

  • The Langfords

    I lost our fist child to miscarriage in May of 2006. Even though I have been blessed with a beautiful baby boy who will be turning one next month, the pain of the loss is still as fresh on my heart as the day I found out the pregnancy was not going to last.
    Thank you for your prayers and I want you to know that I too am praying. The pain and emptiness of loosing a child has bonded us women together in a way that others might not understand.

  • Ruthie

    My name is Ruthie. We have a beautiful daughter, Sophia, born November 2004. October 2005, one week after my Grandmother died, we miscarried our child at around 5/6 weeks. April of 2006, on my husband’s birthday, we miscarried again – again at 6 weeks. April of 2007, again on my husband’s birthday, we miscarried yet again, around 6 weeks. We lost our fourth baby to miscarriage in January of this year, around 7/8 weeks. After getting some blood work and finding out my hormones were still really high, they did an ultrasound and found a healthy baby still inside me! Riley James was born, healthy and strong, August 28, 2008. His twin, Jeremiah, and my other three, yet unnamed children, are so deeply missed and cherished. They are in the arms of Jesus, but it took me a long time to accept that that was a good thing. I wanted them in my arms. The Lord Jesus has used these losses to bring me to my knees and to bring me closer to Him. I am forever grateful for his redeeming work and for my six children. Blessings and prayers to all who “get it.” The loss of a child is like no other…

  • jenn

    We knew my third pregnancy was not going well on Sept. 14, 2007. On September 20,2007, at 11 weeks, there was no heartbeat.
    On September 16, 2008, at 37 weeks pregnant, I gave birth to my son, Harrison, who was born into the arms of Jesus.

  • Jen

    My name is Jen. My husband and I have lost our first, second and third babies to miscarriage: December 2003, September 2005 and May 2007.

    Through the years I have “Judged God Faithful” just as Sarah was remembered for in Hebrews. My heart sings for joy as God has answered our prayers for a child. We adopted a beautiful baby boy we named Maximus this year. Max was born April 30, 2008.

  • Debbie

    Angie,
    Thanks for the example through these hard times. I lost my first 2 to miscarriages. Then had 3 healthy children. In March 2007, while expecting 4th “healthy” child our world was changed. Walker was born with Trisomy 18 and brought our family closer to God for 14 days. Thanks for touching our lives and prayers continue to uplift us all.

  • Tracy

    My name is Tracy. I lost my 1st baby due to an ectopic pregnancy in July 2002. I didn’t even know that I was pregnant (had a “cycle” the mth before) until I was doubled over in pain. Eventually I started hemmoranging and I had emergency surgery to remove the left tube where my baby was.

    10mths to the day, I was blessed to have a beautiful daughter (conceived the 1st try with one tube!). She now has a baby sister who is 2.

    My heart still breaks for my first child and I look forward to the day when we are all reunited with our babies.

    Thank you for bring such awareness and love to your readers.

  • The Flick Family

    I lost a child last January. I was 15 weeks along in the pregnancy. I discovered Angie’s blog while looking for stories from other women who were going through similar things. Losing this child was the hardest thing I had gone through. Just this past Friday morning I stood by my mom’s bedside with my dad as her 10 year battle with Alzheimer’s ended and she took her last breath. It has been a very difficult time again but I have a great sense of peace knowing that my mom is in Heaven holding her grandchild, the child I never got to hold in my arms. And by the way, we are expecting again on April 10, 2009! God is good!

  • Anonymous

    I have lost 5 babies in the last 2 years. I had my happy, healthy normal, “blessing from God” son in 2004 without any complications, 2.5 years later when we started trying again I was devastated to find out that we lost our 2nd child. I should have been 8 weeks pregnant but was measuring 6 according to the ultrasound. We were told to try again as we would more than likely be successful. 3 months later I found out my pregnancy test was “weakly” positive. Two days later I started bleeding and lost our third child. At that same time the reports came back on our first loss showing that the baby had a chromosomal defect that could have been passed on by myself or my husband. We then went for additional blood tests to find out. Surprisingly, 1 month later I was pregnant again. Scared out of my mind and waiting for the test results to tell me if I was a carrier for some genetic malfunction I carried this baby for 10 weeks–losing baby number three (our fourth child). It was at that time that I found out that I was indeed the carrier of a genetic problem and had a 50 percent chance of having a “normal” child…but my chances are probably much less than that…perhaps closer to 25 percent. Several months later I suspected I was pregnant but was too scared to test. After being 3 weeks late I started bleeding/ hemorraging. I truly believe that this was my 4th loss (5th child). This past September I suffered my 5th loss at 12 weeks. I have yet to fully process my situation or what it means for our future. I do know that it has been God that has carried me through this long, dark valley. I pray every day that I will be able to fully accept God’s will for my life and I can only continue to pray that we will be blessed in His time.

  • Ladybug

    My name is Ruth. I lost my second baby, Elijah Thomas, at 20 weeks into my pregnancy in October of 2002. I lost my third baby at just 5 weeks into my pregnancy in February of 2003. I lost my fourth baby at 6 weeks into my pregnancy in August of 2006.
    God blessed me with 3 healthy, amazing children as well.. Isaiah(9 1/2 years old), Gideon(4 3/4 years old) & our sweet little Elsie Rose(17 months old).
    Thank you, Angie, for your amazing courage & faith.. thank you for sharing your story, Audrey's precious story. You have blessed me beyond words. :)

  • Nancy

    Angie, thank you for letting all of us share. We lost our first child in February 2001 at 9 weeks. Our next pregnancy was fraternal twins, one of which we lost at 6 weeks; the other is our firstborn. We also lost our fifth pregnancy to miscarriage (7 weeks). We have 4 healthy boys now, and my husband likes to say that we have 3 girls in heaven.

    Praying for all of you sweet moms that have walked through this valley.

    Blessings,
    Nancy

  • Theresa

    I have lost 3 children to miscarriage … one at 8 weeks in 1983, one at 14 weeks in 1990 – a little boy we were able to hold in the palm of our hand and stand amazed at his incredibly tiny yet fully-formed body — named Benjamin Ellis, and one at 9 weeks in 1993.

  • Teaching Diligently

    Angie, I have followed your blog pretty much from the beginning & I'm so impressed with the strength you have found from within yourself to praise our Lord even during the storms. Your light is certainly shinning for your little girl. May God bless you.

    My name is Tiffany. I lost my second son, Talon Blake, at 20 weeks. At 18 weeks I began bleeding & contracting continuously. I had a cerclage put in my cervix at 19 weeks after discovering I had an incompetent cervix. My water broke on 9-11-03 & I delievered my son who was much too little for this world.

    5 years later . . . I still think of him every day, I still feel the deep whole inside myself from his loss, and he is still a part of our family. We visit his grave frequently & I wear a heart charm on my necklace with tiny little footprints around it. Since Talon's death I have delivered 2 healthy baby boys & am expected to have another baby in May (hoping for a girl this time).

    I have learned so much from loosing my son – about myself, appreciating everything, stength, & most of all the faithfulness of God.

  • glw0605

    I lost my first baby to ectopic pregnancy in June 1999. I lost my second child to miscarriage in March 2003. The Lord has since blessed me with two miracles…beautiful girls (one is 2 years and the other is 4 months). The doctors told me that I would never have children, but God showed Himself mighty and healed my body. I thank God everyday for my girls! I haven’t forgotten my two babies that are in heaven with the Lord, but the Lord has healed the hurt. I can’t wait to meet them!

  • zanesmommy

    I would also like to add my bbf Gina. She lost her first son David on Oct 25, 2007 due to Potter’s Syndrom. Then on June 18, 2008 she lost her second son Ethan because of hydrops. Oct 11 would have been her due date.

  • Heidi

    First of all I have been reading your post for sometime now and you are an amazing woman! You have really been an inspiration to me.
    My name is Heidi Nelson. 17 months ago my husband and I were blessed with a beautiful daughter (Ella). May 2008 we lost our second child by miscarriage. I went in for my 11 week appointment and they told me the baby did not have a heart beat. By the size of the baby, they said it went to be with my Lord at 8 weeks. I was in shock, I had no signs at all.
    This was very devastating, but with prayer and time I have healed some. But still have hard times.
    We are hoping to be pregnant soon.
    May God bless each of you!!!
    Heidi

  • Anonymous

    My name is Debra, I lost my second child a son, Logan to SIDS on June 5, 2008. Tomorrow, October 16th would have been his 1st birthday.
    Please pray for me and my family for comfort and love. Thank you.

  • Jenn @ Casa de Castro

    Angie,

    Thank you for this special forum for "sisters in sorrow." How poignant that name is.

    My nephew was lost to SIDS in 1984. He was almost six months old. We still miss him terribly these many years later.

    I have four babies in heaven. The hardest of these losses was the first, a pregnancy following a rape in my teens that I wrongfully chose to abort, a decision I've regretted for almost 20 years but for which I am forgiven. The other three are more recent (2004, 2005 & 2006) and are the much-wanted and much-loved babies God blessed my husband and me with, only our blessings won't be fully known until we meet them face to face in Heaven.

    Thank you for allowing us to come together in this way to support and encourage and pray for each other. Blessings to you, Todd and your precious family.

  • Amanda

    Angie,

    I’ve been reading your blog for several months now. Thank you for being so open and honest about the road you’re traveling.

    My name is Amanda, and my first child, Abigail, lived for only 2 hours before going home to the Lord on 10/29/95. Her 13th birthday is in 2 weeks.

    God has blessed us with 3 more beautiful children. He is so good, but I can remember so well how hard that first year was.

    You can read Abby’s story on my blog at http://www.homeschoolblogger.com/Amanda625/218462/ .

    God bless you,
    Amanda

  • Marlita

    My name is Marlita Camacho, and we lost our son Paul Samuel at 15 weeks due to gastroschisis. He was # 3, and we are very blessed, but also feel someone is missing from our life. I will be praying for other families who have experienced a loss. Thanks Angie for your encouragement.

  • Jenn

    My name is Jenn. My husband and I suffer with unexplained infertility. It took us 20 months to conceive Eleora and she was born into heaven 12/10/06. We conceived again quickly after her death, but Gabe too, went home at 11 weeks on 4/13/07.

    We miss them very much and it breaks my heart to hear of other women who have struggled and had losses that they longed for just as much as we did. I am tearing up as I write this. I am praying for you Angie and all the other families seperated from their children.

  • kate

    To the dear women who have suffered loss; I pray that God will grant you peace as you live through the heartache of losing a child. I count it a blessing to have read each of your stories and hope that you will know that each has touched my heart. May God continue to use each of you to further his message of hope and peace.

  • PW and Mom of 3

    My name is Michelle. I had always wanted to have 2 children…preferably a boy first and then a girl (not picky; am I?) because I was the oldest with 2 younger brothers and always wanted an older brother.
    I miscarried (i HATE that doctors call them “spontaneous abortions”…but…anway…)in April 1994.
    We were then blessed with a daughter in August 1995. We named her Melanie after the daughter my parents lost in May 1970 just hours after her birth.
    I truly believe in my heart that the one we lost was a boy…but at 6-8 weeks of course we don’t KNOW that.
    We were then blessed with a boy in May 1998.
    We were perfectly (humanly) happy with the 2 children God had blessed us with.
    THEN…in February 2004, we discovered God had other plans in the form of another pregnancy.
    Unfortunately He also had plans that He needed that baby back…so I miscarried at 6-8 weeks. I was devastated.
    Well…to shorten my story…God BLESSED us with L in November 2005. He was born on my oldest brother’s birthday…the same brother who was tragically killed in the I-4 wreck in central FL on Jan 9 of this year.
    i KNOW that God has GREAT plans for all of my beautiful children and I thank Him for (all 5 of) them!!
    Angie…thank YOU for what you mean to those of us who read your blog!! Thank you for serving the Lord in such a tremendous way!
    GOD BLESS YOU and all those who have lost children in their lives!

  • Angela

    Angie,
    Thank you for remembering all of us who have shared your grief in some way, and more importantly, for sharing our LORD and SAVIOR with so many. You are a blessing!

    I have had 2 miscarriages, the first was a “blighted ovum” where there was a pregnancy, but no baby. But the reality if that baby was very real to me (dec 2007). The 2nd was Feb 2008, I was 8 weeks pregnant and at our first u/s, we knew the baby was not healthy. I think she was a girl and I can’t wait to see her some day in Heaven.

    Also, if we could pray for the Richards family. Stephanie and Matt lost triplets about 2 months ago. She delivered them at 22 weeks (I think). This was her first pregnancy.

  • Anonymous

    My name is Vanessa and I lost my first child because of a miscarriage and it was March of 2005.

  • Gordon Family

    I lost my first one in a miscarriage at 16 weeks in 2006
    Had a 2 year son at the time.
    Got pregnant about 6 months later with my 2nd son who just turned 1.
    Had another miscarriage this past August at 9 weeks. Husband and I praying about having another baby or adopting.

  • weavermom

    Oh my goodness. I feel like I am typing on holy ground. 428 comments, mostly of those who have lost at least one child. I wish we could all physically be a in room together, remember our children, and worship the Lord together.

    I lost my 2nd child at 12 weeks on April 5 ,2003. If interested, I wrote a post about here: http://weavermomof2.blogspot.com/
    2008/05/remembering.html

  • The Purnell Family

    My name is Ashley. My husband and I lost our first baby to miscarriage in 2002. We went on to have a beautiful baby girl. We lost our third child to miscarriage in 2004. We went on to have another daughter in 2005. We just recently lost our son due to an umbilical cord accident February 25, 2008. We then got up enough courage to want to have anotehr baby and miscarried with twins 6 weeks ago. Such an emotional rollercoaster. God has been my strength. Without Him, I would have lost my mind by now. I continue to remember Isaiah 40: 28-31.

  • Tina:0)

    I have not lost a child, but have come close to loosing my youngest twice due to complications from a congenital heart defect. Going through this journey in the CHD world, we make many friends through our experiences. Just recently there has been an increase in these little blessings earning their wings, so I ask that you remember so many families. I will be keeping everyone who has ever lost a child in my prayers.

    Thank you, Angie, for sharing this journey with us. You are such an inspiration to many!

  • Anonymous

    My name is Christie. I have 3 children here on Earth with me. I have lost 3 babies due to miscarriages. The first one started as a twin pregnancy and one of the babies just disappeared a few weeks into the pregnancy. I felt this baby was a boy and named him Christian. Praise God, the other baby is a healthy 4 year old boy! Then, I lost a baby at 6 weeks into the pregnancy and named her Rosemary. A few months later I lost another baby at 12 weeks into the pregnancy and named her Elizabeth. God just put in my heart if these babies were boys or girls. Thank you so much for the opportunity to pray for others who have experienced this loss and the opportunity to give these babies a life. By the way, I love your blog!

  • Missy

    I was thinking about my baby even before I read this tonight.

    We lost our first child to miscarriage in March 2004. She (we don’t know the sex, but I always think of that baby as “she”) would have been four yesterday.

    We have since been blessed with a little boy, 2 1/2, and a baby girl, four months. But I still wonder about and miss the baby I haven’t met yet.

  • Melanie

    My name is Melanie. I lost my fifth child, Andrew, on August 5th of this year. He was stillborn. We are still reeling from this loss and would appreciate your prayers.

  • hughesfam

    My name is Stacy. I have three beautiful children ages 10, 8 and 4. My husband and I decided we were "done". Last year I felt a strong prompting from the Lord that we were to have another one. We got pregnant everything was going well until I went in for my 16 week check on Jan 18, 2008 and no heartbeat was found. I had a D&C. We got pregnant right away and miscarried again at 5.5 weeks on April 27, 2008. This has by far been the hardest year of my life. We've been trying to conceive again with no luck and the monthly roller coaster is almost unbearable. Thanks for doing this… it hurts my heart to see so many others with broken hearts and empty arms. In some ways, it makes me feel better that I am not alone, but I wish none of us had to carry this pain.

  • Jennifer Wiser

    My name is Jennifer Wiser, and I lost my first baby to miscarriage at 8 weeks in July of 1998. Our second baby, a girl, Claire Marie, was born prematurely and stillborn on March 31, of 1999. God blessed us with a healthy daughter in May of 2001. Then we lost another baby to miscarriage at 10 weeks in October 2002. Finally, our precious baby girl, Allison Grace, was born prematurely at 25 weeks on November 24, 2004, she lived for a blessed 8 hours before going home to the arms of Jesus. Our lives have been forever changed and saddened by the loss of these babies, but we have found great joy and peace that comes from our Heavenly Father.

  • Anonymous

    My name is Karen On May 20, 1996 my sweet baby Lauren Marie was born silently into heaven at 41 weeks due to an undetected hemangioma in her pancreas. Three months later I had an early miscarriage. I have not been able to concieve again, and at 43,it breaks my heart, but I have given up the idea of having a child of my own. God bless you, Angie, for praying for us as we pray along with you. You are a blessing to MY life.

  • Leanne Helums

    Thank you for this. I have had three miscarriages. I was blessed with a beautiful baby girl in August 2007.

  • Jen

    We lost our first baby, Bailey Cox Hauser, in December of 1998. Our second baby, Taylor Menke Hauser, went to be with Jesus in July of 1999. Our third child, Sydney Nelson Hauser, joined Bailey and Taylor in heaven in February of 2000.

    Randy Alcorn’s book, Heaven, has helped me more specifically visualize how we will live out our missed opportunities with our babies in heaven someday. I am so thankful for the six children I have. Three are residents of heaven and three live here on earth with us.

  • Polka Dot

    We lost our one and only child, a daughter, 2 days after hearing her beautiful heartbeat.

  • Edens Family

    We lost our second child to miscarriage last Aug. of 2007. God blessed us with a precious little girl over 5 years ago, but the loss of the second still hurts at times.
    God is good ALL the time!
    -Tara

  • Baby steps to where we want to be

    Thank you Angie for encouraging us to do this… its liberating! The power of prayer is the glue that holds me together!

    My name is Keely
    I lost my first child to a miscarriage in Dec 2006, my second child just turned 1 on Oct 11th, I lost my third child in Feb 2008, I lost my fourth child May 2008, and I am currently 7 weeks pregnant… I am on progesterone to medically try to keep this baby and on my face everyday praying for this pregnancy! I covet your prayers as my heart still hurts from my three little blessings.

  • The Arnold Family

    I lost my third child to a miscarriage on Valentine’s Day 2006. And I am pleased to announce I am newly pregnant with my 6th pregnancy (this will be my 5th child).

  • mbl

    My name is Marla. Halley was born on January 29, 2004 and died of an undiagnosed disease on March 21, 2004. Our son Porter was born on April 4, 2005 and died of the same disease on June 4, 2005. We adopted Shepherd at birth on February 26, 2006 and gave birth to Owen on July 27, 2007. “The Lord gives and takes away, Blessed be His name.”

  • Mom2KCK

    My name is Ashley and we lost our first son from a cord accident at 34 weeks gestation. He died on April 10th and was silently born April 14, 2004.

  • Amber, that’s me!

    Angie, I will be praying for you and the other families who have lost their little ones. I had a miscarriage in Feb. of 2004. We also had 2 attempts at IVF with two embryos each that were unsuccessful. I pray and cry about those “babies” who never got the chance to develop like I had hoped they would. Tomorrow evening, our MOPS group is holding a candle lighting ceremony and I would be honored to light a candle for your family. Thank you, amberloo22@aol.com

  • Anonymous

    I lost my precious Grandson Samuel Cruz this past month on Sept.1,08 to Trisomy 18. We were blessed to have him in our arms for 11 hrs. He was then delivered into the arms of Jesus!

    Also, 3 weeks later, a dear friend of our’s delivered their little girl, Isabella to the Lord from Trisomy 18. We were honored to be there for her arrival. She lived 2 days.

    These children have touched our live’s and hearts forever. Through all the pain and loss there has come a joy! Samuel’s 9 yr. old brother excepted Jesus as his Savior the day following his death!! Praise the Lord!

    The day of his funeral, another miracle happened. A lady was there who was pro-choice, and after a letter my son had written for his son describing WHY they chose to celebrate this childs life, no matter how short, and a song he wrote and recorded to play at the funeral….her views, and opinion’s were forever changed to pro-life!

    For these decisions, we first say, “Thank you Jesus” for letting this not be in vain, and secondly, “Thank you Samuel” for being used to change people’s lives!

  • Jen Vandertulip

    Thank you so much for this blog. Your faith and trust in our Lord has inspired me beyond words. I lost a child to miscarriage this past July. God has blessed me with one son (2 years old) and I continue to pray that he will bless us with another child in His time.

  • Mommytotwo

    My name is Molly. I lost a baby to miscarriage in April 2007. I was 11+ weeks along.We did not know the babies sex but God gave me the name “Owen Samuel” in a dream, so I believe it was a son.

    It happened about a month after I brought home my daughter(adoptive) with down syndrome from vietnam. I hadn’t even found out that I was pregnant until a week before I lost the baby.I had blamed the morning sickness on the being so overwhelmed with the travel and the change in bringing my adoptive daughter home. Even only knowing that I was pregnant for about a week I still think about my son almost everyday.

    Praying for all others.

  • Anonymous

    After having 2 children, I lost my 3rd to miscarriage at around 8 weeks in 2007. He/she would have been born within a month of my nephew’s birth. (That was a difficult time for me – seeing my nephew for the first time knowing it should be me, too.) I have since had a baby – got pregnant the month before my “lost” baby’s due date – and remind myself of this (something a dear friend shared)… That pregnancy would not have given me the baby I now have and adore…I’ll never know or hold the baby I lost, but the little baby boy I now have just melts my heart. I still long for the child I lost, but I can’t imagine my life without my littlest blessing.

  • Anna

    My name is Anna-
    We lost our first child around 8 weeks to miscarraige in Nov 04, Lost our 2nd child in April 05 at 21 weeks due to trisomy 18. We now have 2 healthy children…praise GOD!!

  • Brittany

    I have been reading your blog for months now….and I want to thank you, Angie, for you words and your witness. You are inspiring in so many ways. Thank you for reminding all of us that we are not alone in the journey to motherhood.

    I lost my first baby in July 2006 at 12 weeks. Now we are so very BLESSED to have a beautiful baby boy who is 14 months old.

    I know that God has a plan and I am always confident that His plan is perfect, even if it is not how we might have pictured it.

    Love and prayers to all…..

  • The O’Brien Family

    We lost our first baby at 7 weeks along on April 15, 2006. We were blessed with a beautiful baby girl in July 2007…she is the light of our lives.

    Thank you, Angie.

    Blessings,

  • mhutsell

    We lost our third baby at 6 weeks and our 7th baby at 10 weeks. Thanks for remembering…Melissa.

  • secondofwett

    My name is Marie. Our daughter Leah Catherine died at 18 weeks gestation in January, 1979. It never leaves you, you never forget. My grandson Hayden Jack dies at 18 weeks gestation in November, 2006. They are playing together with Jesus.

  • Kristin (kekis)

    Hi Angie, I am Kristin. While I have an October 15th post on my blog, it didn’t have near the power and pull on my heart as yours. Thank you for such a wonderful call to prayer for every one of us.

    My husband and I lost three babies in our first year of marriage – April 2007, August 2007, and March 2008. We are still praying for the blessing of a child of our own.

    As I light our candles tomorrow night, I will continue in prayer – as I do every day – for all of us out there. Blessings to everyone who has (and may still be) digging through the ashes.

  • Griese Family

    My name is Jessica and after a year and half of trying to conceive I lost my first child by miscarriage in January 2004 – I was 12 weeks along. The grief and loss was deep. I’m grateful for God’s healing and grace.
    January 2005 my daughter was born.
    January 2007 my son was born.

  • Jill

    My name is Jill and I gave birth to triplet boys in Sept. 2006. (2 identical and 1 fraternal) One of my identical boys was only with us for 8 short days before he earned his angel wings. We just celebrated the boy’s 2nd birthday and not a day goes by that I don’t think about our sweet Colin William.

    Thank you for honoring all of our beautiful angels!

  • Faith Hope Love Mama

    Hello, my name is Amy. We lost our
    2nd baby to miscarriage at 6 weeks into pregnancy in March 2001. It was a very painful loss. I don’t know if our baby was a boy or a girl. I just refer to them as our angel baby. We were blessed with two daughters and a son. Thank you to everyone who has shared. I will be praying for others in this painful time.

  • Pam

    Hi, Angie. My name is Pam and I want to Thank You again for serving the Lord and all of us in such a loving way. My 2nd pregnancy ended almost exactly 6 years ago at 12 weeks when there was no heartbeat at my ultrasound. My husband and I were stunned and heartbroken. After agonizing for the next 2 days I had a D&C and tried to put it out of my mind. That was not to be the case. Everywhere I turned I seemed to be beaten down with thoughts of my unborn baby and my life without them. All I ever wanted to be was a mother but I was failing at that. Devastation was all-consuming for 4 months until finally seeking help from my doctor after I kept thinking that it would be so easy to just drive my car off the side of the road and maybe the pain would end. Fortunately I got help, had another beautiful daughter who'll soon be 5 and I've found your blog. It's only now that I realize that the one person I should have truly and honestly called out to is the one that I didn't. Oh, I prayed. But what I prayed for was not in His plan and I didn't want to hear that.
    Audrey was so blessed to have you as her Mommy. You're doing such a fabulous job honoring her memory! Thank You!

  • Anonymous

    My name is Shene’. I lost my first child to miscarriage in October 2004 at 10 weeks. I lost my second child to miscarriage in November 2005 at 8 weeks. I now have a beautiful daughter, born September 2006. I still remember all of my sweet babies daily.

  • Anonymous

    we lost our 3rd child to miscarriage in february 2008.

  • Amanda

    I don’t even know what to say. These stories are truly powerful. Like a stop in your tracks, tell yourself to breathe, curl up and cry type of thing. And after that, it makes me want to just sit and have hot chocolate with each person just to get to know more of them. Thank you to everyone who is sharing.

  • Anonymous

    For my friend Kathryn, whom has lost five babies in a row to miscarriage.

  • Anonymous

    I lost my first baby to miscarriage at 9 weeks in Sept. 2002. I went on to have a healthy son in Oct. 2003. Then I had another miscarriage in June 2007. It hurt just as much the second time.

  • Ms. Jenny B Pants

    We lost our first baby, Gabriel Selah, on August 6, 2007, and our second Ruby Noelle on October 11, 2007. They were both miscarriages, and God walked me through one of the most spiritually trying times while this happened. Thank you for your blog, and your heart. You’re such a blessing to our community.

  • amanda

    I lost my fourth baby at 6 weeks of pregnancy in August of 2005. Although we didn’t know the gender for sure, we felt it was a boy, and named him Noah James. God has since added two more blessings to our family, and we can’t wait to meet this little one in Heaven one day.

  • MAI Babies!

    Hi Angie, thank you so much for doing this and Thank you for your post… they give me both comfort and they make me laugh a lot too.
    My name is Marianne and I lost my twins Angelo and Angel on July 12th 2007. They were conjoined and when I saw them they were holding their hands and they formed a heart. Their Dad reminded me thats how he sees him and I when he would hold me while we talk. I know they are in great hands and like Audrey, they are healed. I miss them, to this day and I long to see their beautiful faces. I know they had my eyes… I saw it. I had another baby since the twins, and the beauty of it now, (since you said Oct. 15 is the National Day of Remembrance for pregnancy and infant loss), it is my third baby’s birthday. She will be one today!
    I will pray for all mommies who lost their angels as well. Thank you!

  • Amanda

    I found your site through kellyskorner and I’ve been lurking here for awhile. I just wanted to say that you are amazing! My name is Amanda and I had a miscarriage in July 2008. We are praying for a healthy baby in the near future!

  • Jennifer

    My name is Jennifer, and I’ve lost two babies. The first in November of 2004, I was 9 weeks. I was on vacation and had just visited the Grand Canyon. I struggled with guilt (for walking so much) for some time.
    The second I lost in April 2005. I miscarried about 8 hours after I discovered I was pregnant.
    My heart aches with all the other mommies. I’ll pray for all of you!

  • PORTER FAMILY

    my name is darcy and our third daughter, maely rlene, was stillborn feb 7, 2008.

  • Andrea

    I lost my first baby to miscarriage in September 2004.

  • Anonymous

    To this day my grandmother talks about the five children she lost and how she looks forward to seeing them in Heaven someday. Three were miscarriages and two were still born. She did have five beautiful children. I can only imagine the pain and loss of losing a baby. I am praying for the mothers who have lost their babies.

  • Anonymous

    I am Pam, and I lost my first child at 6 weeks (miscarried) in July 1984.

    On August 15, 1985 I lost my second sweet baby, Justin, at 35 weeks in stillbirth.

  • Lindsey

    My name is Lindsey. I lost our first child to a natural miscarriage, days after seeing a heartbeat, at 8 weeks 4 days in May 2008. I am now pregnant again and am praying that the Lord allows me to keep this baby.

  • ncmama

    My name is Kim and I lost my third child to miscarriage in September 2007. I love my two boys dearly, but look forward to the day when I can meet their sibling in heaven.

    Thanks for this opportunity Angie.

  • Katie

    I am currently 28 weeks pregnant with our 2nd son, Eli, who was diagnosed with Trisomy 13 at 23 weeks. He is expected to be stillborn or pass away shortly after birth.

  • Anonymous

    I lost my baby in October of 2006. I was only 7 weeks along, but it is still so sad.

  • Anonymous

    I lost a child to early miscarriage a number of years ago; the surgery which followed left me unable to have any more children. Since I did have other biological children, it was easy for other sto dismiss this loss and somehow less profound, sadly. I grieved this for such a very long time, and still long to see that sweet baby one day in heaven. My heart aches with all of you, and my tears mingle with yours at your losses. One day we will be reunited with those children! To God be the glory!

  • Michelle

    I lost my first child to miscarriage in July of 1995. My second child was stillborn at 23 weeks in May 2005 – her name was Audrey Carolyn. I now have a beautiful 3 year old that God has blessed us with through adoption.

  • bcyouloveit

    My name is Catie and my husband is Ben. We learned our first baby had died on 9.22.08 due to a chromosomal abnormality. I had a D&C on 9.25.08.

    I love reading your blog and you are such and inspiration to me and my husband. God lead me to your blog months and months ago and I never knew how much it would impact my life. You are an amazing woman and have taught me so much.

  • Anonymous

    I lost my first child on September 27, 1995. My heart still grieves for her.

  • Andrea

    I lost my son Nathaniel John this past July of 2008. He had a rare form of skeletal dysplasia and only lived 20 short minutes.
    I found your blog last May just weeks after we learned that our son would not survive after birth.

  • Christine

    Wow. I had no idea about this day. My name is Christine Engman. I lost my first child to an ectopic pregnancy in April 1987. I then lost another baby in the first trimester of pregnancy in 1997. I lost a third baby at week 13 in the pregancy in August 1999. Thankfully, I have 4 beautiful children. I can’t wait to meet my other 3 when I get to heaven.

    It’s ironic that you say no matter what week you were in that it was a life. I guess I just don’t hear very many people talk about it that way when it’s not a full term pregnancy. And it’s very sad. My friend just lost a baby in her first trimester and she was telling me the crazy things people have been saying to her. And I remember those days. Sometimes people are so insensitive. Bless you for doing this. You are amazing, Angie.

  • Amy

    My name is Amy and I had an early miscarriage of our first child in April 2007. Thank you so much for your blog! It touches my heart every time I read it, and I continually pray for you and your family.

  • Allie

    I was at the end of my 36th week of pregnancy when our third child, Ethan, was born still. He was beautiful and we miss him every day.

  • Traci

    My name is Traci and I have a beautiful two year old son, Michael. My husband and I lost our second son, Caden Roy, on March 29, 2008. He was born ten weeks early and contracted the virus CMV in utero. He lived 8 days and then passed away from a secondary infection. Thank you, Angie, for being a source of strength and inspiration for me during this time of loss.

  • Anonymous

    I lost my baby at 11 weeks pregnancy in May 2005, it was a unplanned but loved baby, I still cry every time I think about it… I still dont have babies because after the loss we decided to wait; we got married in 2006 and are planning to start trying in 2009, everytime I think about it my heart is filled with love and exciment and at the same time fear…
    Please pray for us!

  • bahava

    My mom had a miscarriage before she had me. Thank you so much for the prayers and for everyone who has shared their stories so far–I’m praying for you all.

  • Michelle

    I lost a baby sister when I was 3 years old, and she was 8 days old, then as a mother, I had two miscarriages, one that required surgery.

  • Lindsay

    My name is Lindsay. My husband and I gave birth to our son, Andrew Lindsay, on August 8, 2007. He lived for 45 minutes. He did not develop kidneys, which is medically termed as bilateral renal agenesis.

    Thank you for your blog Angie. God ministers to me through your courage, faith and trust in Him.

    http://www.mommieswithhope.com

  • Marti

    Angie you have made some tough times in my life more bearable with your sweet spirit. My 5th pregnancy I lost one of my twins at 13 weeks. God blessed our family with 2 more precious gifts giving us 7 children so far. It seems that people do not understand the heartache I feel for this little one I must wait to meet until heaven because I have so many others. My pain is real and my loss still hurt. Thank you for praying. I still pray for God’s healing to continue for your hurt as well. Marti

  • Anonymous

    My name is Angela. I lost my 4th baby to miscarriage in June of 2008 at 10 weeks. I will always think about that little soul and look forward to meeting him/her in heaven one day.

    Thank you for this Angie, it means a lot and I’ll be praying for everyone too!

  • Anonymous

    We lost our first child less than 3 months ago. We were 9 1/2 weeks along. We had seen the heartbeat just one week prior. I think about that angel baby each and every day. And the hardest part is wondering if I’ll ever be called mom. I have hope and continue to pray! What a wonderful blog entry. K

  • Way More Homemade

    Thank you. I think it’s clear that we all want our babies to be remembered.

    My first miscarriage was my 2nd child and it was 7 years ago today, October 14th, 2001. My first, my daughter, was 7 months old.

    My second miscarriage was my 3rd child, December 4th, 2001… yes, just 2 short months later.

    I recently came upon a situation where I told my, now 7 year old, daughter about them.

    Many blessings to you and your family Angie.

    ~Donna

  • Camelia Grace

    We lost Lily Grace in 1992, and after years of infertility treatment and surgeries, have since been blessed with biological children.

    I celebrate the opportunity to give voice to Lily’s short life. I rejoice in the acknowledgement that her life mattered and had purpose, no matter how short.

    I join with all of you in celebrating this astounding God-Given gift of womanhood and grieve with you in your sorrows of lost or unknown children.

    I grieve with those of you who will never know your biological children, and rejoice with those of you who have chosen adoption.

    I extend my arms of grace and forgiveness for those who have aborted their children, no matter the circumstance…choice or coercion. There is healing in the ever-present and forgiving arms of your Father… and in women who are right here on earth loving you despite your abortion(s). Hear us- we love you and do not condemn you, sweet sisters. There is healing.

    Through my work as a psychologist, I have been involved in ministering to women wounded by reproductive experiences for nearly 15 years. Any others who would like to become involved in this life-changing ministry are welcome to contact me to collaborate. So many wounded women… so many women to show the grace and mercy of our Jesus.

    Camie

  • Dona

    My name is Dona. My husband and I lost our first 2 babies to miscarriage. Subsequently we had two beautiful daughters. We all talk about the lost family members and look forward to meeting them in heaven. As painful as it was, these losses have allowed me to minister to others in a very special way and I praise God for his faithfulness in trials and pain…truly we have seen beauty for ashes.

  • Jennifer

    I had a miscarriage Dec. 2002. Four years later we were blessed with our beautiful daughter. The Lord is good and his love endures forever. Praying for each one of you!

  • Amanda

    A beautiful post…thank you for doing this, and thank you for your prayers.

    We lost our first child to miscarriage around 9/10 weeks in Dec. of 2006. Through prayer, we named him Aloysius John, or Alex for short.
    There isn’t a day that goes by that we don’t remember him or look at our sweet girl who will be one next year and realize we never would have had her if we hadn’t lost him. We miss him.

    Blessings on you and your family.

  • Laurel

    Thanks for doing this, Angie. I lost my sweet baby girl, Erin Elizabeth on Jan. 21, 1999. She was only 2 days old and died of complications due to having polycystic kidneys.

  • mmot988

    My name is Becky, and in January 1982 we lost a baby when I was six months pregnant. No reason, just went to the dr. for a regular OB appointment and they could not find a heartbeat. The hard part was not knowing what it was, to make a long story short, the baby had died earlier and was already deteriorating, so the dr. was unable to tell. God was so good to me during that time. He blessed us with two more babies after that (four total) and now I have been even more richly blessed with two precious granddaughters. Thank you for your love, prayers, and your transparent heart in your blog!! Consider yourself hugged by me and MANY many more.

  • KELLY

    We lost our first child to miscarriage in May of 2003. We have since been blessed with two beautiful, healthy children here on Earth and a third on the way. God is great!

  • Anonymous

    My name is Autumn. I lost our 3rd child and 1st son, AJ, April 14 to Trisomy 18.

  • Nichelle

    Angie and family, thank you so much for sharing your story with us. I read it often and gain strength more and more everyday.
    We found out our son died a week before his due date at a routine ultrasound. He was delivered on December 29, 2004. We later suffered a miscarriage on July 25, 2005. Both losses filled us with so much pain and so many questions. But, God has given us much comfort. I pray that everyone that is on this blog because of a loss will feel God’s love and grace.
    Psalm 121 Romans 5
    Nichelle
    http://bringittohim.blogspot.com

  • Anonymous

    I’ve lost eight babies to miscarriage, but through each loss, I have become closer to the Lord. Prayers are with all of you who have suffered loss, and thank you Angie for sharing a bit of you, with all of us.

  • Carolyn

    My name is Carolyn. My husband and I have three little boys – Reece (5), Chase (3) and Pierce (1). They are the joy of our lives!!! 2008 has been a difficult year as we have suffered the loss of two babies to miscarriage. Both late in the first trimester of pregnancy. Although we did not find out if our first loss was a boy or a girl (February, 08), we do know that our second loss (July, 08) was a little girl. We have confidence that we will know more about these little ones when we meet them in heaven.

    Thank you for honoring the lives of all of these precious babies – however short their lives were, the number of posts already placed on this blog are a testimony to the impact they have made on all of our families. I know our 2 unborn children have changed us!

    Our prayers are with all of you – thank you for yours. I am amazed to see the endurance of so many who continue on after numerous losses to miscarriage. We are still unsure if we are going to try for another child, but I thank you for your example and your faith.

  • Mochamama

    My name is Mimi. I lost my second child while in my ninth week of pregnancy in 2005. Losing my baby changed me but God has held my hand through it all.

  • Jenny

    My husband & I lost our 2nd baby {one I believe to have been another boy} on January 21, 2006.

    We lost our 4th baby {one i believe to be a girl} on June 30, 2008.

    I was only 6 weeks along with both.

    I look forward to the day that I will be able to hold this beautiful babies in my arms. My heart breaks when I think of them, but they make Heaven that much sweeter.

    ~ Jenny

  • lots_of_love_four_kids

    Hi,
    My name is Jenni. We lost our 4th baby at 9 weeks, Janurary 21, 2007.
    Thank you for honoring our babies.
    God Bless You, and all of the families that have suffered the loss of a child.

  • Miller Family

    I lost my second child to a miscarriage in 2002, but have been so blessed with two wonderful sons. My sister had three miscarriages within two years, but is now blessed with a beautiful 17 mos old daughter.

    My heart goes out to all those that will leave a comment and I will pray for them. God is so Good and will get us through anything as long as we lean on him and ask for His strength. Thank you for your amazing blog and having us come together in a forum like this. God Bless you and your family!!

  • Kendra

    My name is Kendra Hoffman. On November 13th, 2006 my husband and I went in for a regular prenatal visit (I was 13 weeks along, this was our third doctors visit) only to find out our baby never had a heartbeat. Our baby had stopped growing at 8 weeks, but my body had kept progressing as if everything were fine.
    It was my first and only pregnancy so far…waiting on the Lord to bless us again.
    Thank you Angie, from the bottom of my heart, for praying for me and allowing me to pray for all of these amazing women.
    May our Lord bless you all…

  • Anonymous

    I had a beautiful (surprise) son in 2004. I miscarried at Christmas 2006. And now we are having difficulty getting pregnant. To all the mom’s out there who have experienced loss, I am praying.

    Angie, you have ministered to my heart in more ways than you will ever know.

  • Tina Vega

    My name is Tina. I lost my third child at 14 weeks in February 2004. There were several complications which unfortunately led to two more losses – one at 6 weeks in April 2005 and another at 9 weeks in September 2005.

    My heart breaks at the stories of loss; know that I’m praying for all of you as well.

  • Name: Not yet known

    My name is Amanda and I lost our first child to miscarriage in January 2007 and our 2nd child to miscarriage in March 2008. The 2nd one we did find out was a little girl, but the dr’s can’t tell us what happened with either one. All I know is God must have decided that they were too perfect for earth. I am happy to say I am carrying baby number 3 and am 15 weeks and praying God allows me to meet this baby.

    ~Amanda

  • Ruby

    I’ve lost…

  • Anonymous

    My name is Joan Crowder.
    I have had miscarriages. One in 1992, 1997.
    In 1994 my son, Mason Penn Crowder was born and lived for 2 weeks then died from complications from pre mature birth.
    In 1998, on Dec. 8, Preston Rhodes Crowder was born. He was healthy and will be 10 this year. Thank you lord for my sweet boy!!!

  • Sarah

    I lost a child due to miscarriage on New Years day in 2005.
    I think of our baby everyday, and wonder what life would be like if he/she were with us today. How I would have loved my children to meet their brother or sister.

    Angie, you continue to inspire me. You and your family continue to be in my prayers.

  • The Rice’s

    My name is Jennifer and I lost our second child:a son. His name was Gabe and I lost him last week on 10/6/08 at 18 weeks. We are blessed to have a 2 1/2 year old daughter named Paige. This has been a very difficult time but we have been trying to put all of faith in the Lord. We hope he will bless us with another child in the future.

  • Mama Lily

    My name is Karen. We lost our first child to miscarriage in 1987, our second in 1988. After having three healthy children, we lost another baby in 1994. Two babies later, we lost our fourth baby in 1999. These children have never been forgotten and always in my heart.

    Just last month our 18 year old, first born son died in a tragic accident while at college. Though grieving his life, I’m so thankful to have had the 18 years with him. I know he’s caring for his siblings that went before him.

    Thank you, Angie–what a blessing you are

  • Lezlie

    Joshua Michael was born on March 18,2003 and went home on March 20. His twin Jonah David was born March 19 and went to join his brother in Heaven on April 18, 2003. We are thankful for even the little while that we had with our precious sons…

    Thanks, Angie
    Lezlie

  • Anonymous

    Hi Angie, My name is Jennifer and I lost 7 babies to miscarriage. three before my daughter Emma (who will be 14 in just a couple of weeks and 4 in between her and my youngest daughter who just turned 9 in August.

    I am also the Auntie of a SIDs baby. Cody Dylan Kyle was born 12/18/99 and went to live with Jesus on February 24, 2000. He lives in our hearts forever.

  • AOGF

    Our sweet Grace is in Heaven. We grieve with hope, knowing we will be together running on streets of gold together.
    You can read our story here:
    http://www.actsofgracefoundation.com

    Marlena Diedrich

  • Marcie

    I lost my first child, Samuel James, at 20 weeks (at birth via c-section) due to a blood clotting disorder on Oct. 14, 2006. I made a movie this year of all the memories we have as a tribute to his short life.

  • dr. Bray

    My name is Kellie Bray. I lost a child from a miscarriage at 7 weeks. I lost another child last year at 18 weeks when my water broke. I just had a child tonight after my water broke at 23 weeks and managed 10 weeks in 2 hospitals in 2 diferent states.

  • Wendy

    My name is Wendy. After a perfectly normal pregnancy and a beautiful daughter, Hannah,(who is now almost 17 years old) we lost a baby to miscarriage at 13 weeks. We named that baby Alex. I later had a beautiful Baby boy almost one year to the day. We named him Noah. (he’s now 13). One year later the Lord blessed us with another beautiful baby boy, Jacob who is now 12. My heart has healed over these years and I am so thankful to God for entrusting me (and my husband) with these teenagers (and preteen!). Alex is now joined in Heaven by his/her Grandpa and I’m sure he’s told Alex all about the kind of parents he has and his crazy sister and brothers! Alex (along with Buppa) is in the presence of Jesus!

  • Mochamama

    My name is Mimi. I lost our second child nine weeks into my pregnancy. It was a moment that changed my life. Until that momemtn I have never grieved they way I grieved the loss of my precious baby. God has been faithful though and has carried me through the pain. Thank you Angie for sharing your story! I have been reading your blog for the past couple of months and look forward to checking in and see how a fellow sister in Christ is doing. God Bless!

  • Anonymous

    My name is Jessica. I lost our first baby six years ago today–October 14, 2002. Since then, the Lord has blessed us with three very healthy girls: Evalin Grace in September 2003, Eloise Elizabeth in November 2005, and Audrey Hope in August 2008. We have given each of our daughters a “life verse,” and the following is our verse for the baby we lost:

    Psalm 30:5 “Weeping may last for the night, but a shout of joy comes in the morning.”

    I pray that He brings each of these women through to His joy in the morning!

  • Julie

    My name is Julie. I lost my first baby, Grace, to a miscarriage in July of 2003. I lost my second baby, Jacob, to a miscarriage in March of 2004. I have now been blessed with a son and a daughter( almost 3 and almost 1).

  • Emily

    My name is Emily. We lost our first daughter Sarah Elizabeth when she was 36 hours old to hypoplastic left heart syndrome (diagnosed at birth). WE REMEMBER…April 30, 2001 – May 1, 2001

  • IShallBelieve81

    My name is Tiffany, and I have been reading this blog for a few months now. I have thought many times of posting a comment, but have yet to do so. I felt moved to do so now, because, I like all of you, have lost a baby. I learned a couple of weeks ago that October was pregnancy and infant loss awareness month, which was ironic for me, because we lost our second son in the month of October. It was three years ago on October 10th. I was 8 1/2 months pregnant, and woke up that morning to realize he had stopped moving. When we got to the hospital, the nurses could not find his heartbeat. We were devastated. While it has been the most painful experience my husband and I have had, I am so thankful for Lincoln, and this journey the last three years. God has been with us every step of the way, and I am so very thankful for that. I believe that God brings people into our lives for a reason and at the exact moment we need them. And while I may never meet any of you in person, your stories have now touched my life, and I am a better person for it. Thank you Angie for the courage to share the story of your daughter, as well as your relationship with God. Your blog is an inspiration everyday. God blessed us with a third son just a little less than a year after we lost Lincoln. Austin is now two, and it has been such a joy watching him and our oldest son Mason, who is 6, grow together. Each of you ladies are a hero to me, and I will be praying for you all.

  • Kayla

    I have not lost a child, but my brother and sister-in-law lost their precious daughter, Olivia, on November 29, 2007.

  • Anonymous

    I lost our first two babies 6 weeks of pregnancy in 1999 and 2000. We were blessed to have a healthy, beautiful baby girl on September 15th, 2001. I lost my son, Brendan on May 12th 2004.He was born at 15 weeks.so tiny and perfect, came out kicking.We were blessed with another daughter on May 8th, 2005.I lost our 4th child on October 14th, 2005. That baby was ectopic.I have learned something different through each of my losses. Thank You Angie for letting us share our stories and grief.

  • Anonymous

    I lost my baby just this summer. I was only 10 weeks post partum from a healthy delivery when I found out I was pregnant, and 2 weeks later my body just let the baby go…

    I don’t know if I’ll ever forgive myself for feeling relieved.

    Fly sweet angel baby..

  • SonReignsRanch

    I have lost 4 children to miscarriage, but only one recently (Sept 2008) and this one affected me differently- not because God was any different, but this time I knew Him and felt the loss of a baby…. a life.

    I praise God that I was led to this site – not only has reading through Audrey Caroline’s journey blessed me but it prepared me in a way that maybe nothing else could have.

    Thank you Angie for sharing your story with all us so transparently and authentically. Your faith has encouraged many, myself being one of them.

    God Bless you.
    Jennifer

  • Kristi

    Hi Angie, my name is Kristi. We lost our first child to miscarriage at 10 weeks in April 2004. Then we were blessed with our son in August 2005. He is my miracle, and a healthy, vibrant 3 yr old!
    I miscarried our 3rd baby at 5 weeks last year, October 2007.
    Thank you for the prayers, and I will be praying for the losses as well. Your blog always inspires me. thank you….

  • Sallie

    Our son, Trenton, passed away on March 18, 1995 – 36 hours after he was born due to prematurity.
    My husband and I were 19 years old.

  • marie

    I lost my first child, Ronnie, to SIDS in 1975. He was born on Mother’s Day and passed away four months and five days later. His death began the journey that ultimately led to me trusting in Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior.
    Beauty for ashes indeed…..

  • Heather

    My name is Heather. We lost our 1st child to miscarriage in November 2000, and we lost our son, Owen Matthew, at birth on May 30, 2008 to a condition which made him incompatible with life. There is no foot too small that it cannot leave an imprint on this world.

  • Anonymous

    I have lost 9 pregnancies (10 babies though as 1 of my pregnancies was a set of twins). The first in April 2000, the most recent in October 2007. I have been incredibly blessed though with 4 amazing children who I know are true miracles. I had our first Joey in June 1999, and went on to miscarry 5 pregnancies over the next 3 years before welcoming our miracle daughter Hope in July 2002. After struggling to concieve again after Hope we were blessed with our second set of twins (the first set was miscarriage #3) Thomas and Gabrielle, who are now 4yrs old. Over the past two years I have sufferend 4 more losses, the most recent being October of last year, exactly two months before my husband’s diagnosis of prostate cancer. At the time of my losses I struggled with my faith and had so many questions. Now looking at my four precious miracles I realize had I not suffered the losses I did I would not have the four miracles I have now. To all the women who have suffered a loss I offer my prayers and the comfort in knowing you are not alone in your mourning.

  • Tami

    My name is Tami.
    My first pregnancy was with twins and I lost one of them at 10 weeks gestation and the other is now a healthy 2 1/2 year old boy.

    My 2nd pregnancy was with twins as well. I lost one of them at 9 1/2 weeks gestation. The other one was born alive at 29 weeks gestation with severe heart defects and Trisomy 13, a chromosomal defect. She lived for 32 amazing minutes in our arms before she passed on into the arms of Jesus.

    Since then we had a healthy baby girl who is now 3 months old.

    Thank you Angie for remembering all of us moms and our babies. I will be praying for you and your family tomorrow and thinking about your sweet little Audrey.

  • jennylovesjohn

    I’m Jenny. We lost our first baby, due to a miscarriage, in December of 2002. God has since blessed us with 3 little boys. Our third, Elijah, was actually a twin, but we lost that little baby. The first time we saw him on the ultrasound, he was already gone, it was way early. I am so thankful for my 3 little men with me, though- Caleb, Luke, and Elijah! Thanks for the sweet post and for your prayers, Angie!! I’m praying for you, too!!

  • jyjiggy4jc

    Hi Angie, My name is Jennifer and I lost 7 preganacies in various stages. Three babies in heaven before my oldest DD was born almost 14 years ago and four before my youngest was born, she just turned 9.

    I am also the auntie of a SIDs baby…Cody Dylan Kyle was born 12/12/99 and went to live with Jesus on 2/24/2000. He lives on in our hearts forever, but I know that my babies and Cody are playing in Heaven waiting to be reunited with their mommies.

  • Kathleen

    My name is Kathleen. My first child, Audrey Ruth, was born into Heaven on April 19, 2008 at 34 weeks gestation due to an infection. She was born into my arms on April 21, 2008 at 4:09pm, weighing 4lbs, 3oz and measuring 17 inches. She was such a beautiful baby, and I am so proud to be her mother. Please pray for my second blessing, due May 1, 2009. Grace and peace to all.

  • Megan @ Hold it Up to the Light

    We lost our second baby on Easter Sunday 2003. It was an early miscarriage, but it didn’t matter. I was devastated. It changed my heart forever, and as the memories come flooding back, tears are streaming down my face.

    I can’t wait to meet my baby in heaven one day. I know I will.

  • Sheilah

    My name is Sheilah. After giving birth to 2 beautiful daughters, we miscarried our 3rd baby August, 2006. I was 10 weeks when we found out I had a “missed miscarriage”. Since then, God has blessed us with a wonderful son. We know our baby is in heaven and we will see and hold him/her one day. We serve such a faithful and loving God who holds us and cries with us when we hurt. Thank you for sharing you story and faith.

  • Carly

    My name is Carly Riddle. My husband and I lost our precious son, David, shortly after his birth on March 31, 2003. He was born at 32 weeks gestation. The exact cause of his death was never exactly determined but our doctors felt he contracted a congenital virus, perhaps fifth’s disease. Even right up to David’s birth the doctors felt he would be alright and they never imagined the outcome.

  • Becky

    My name is Becky and I have lost two babies to miscarriage. The first was in January 2004, two days before my son’s 2nd birthday. I miscarried again 10 days ago, just 3 weeks after finding out I was pregnant. I have two precious little boys (ages 6 and 19 months) that are my life and they keep me going. Only God knows why things like this happen, but I look forward to meeting my two little angels in Heaven someday.

  • Anonymous

    Thank you for doing this, as I don’t think I can post my whole story on my own blog.

    I lost my first dear baby in November 1989 due to miscarriage. I was not married to the father, and I regret the entire relationship. I spent two months working up the courage to tell my parents, and the day that I was going to tell them, my baby went to Jesus.

    My husband and I lost our first baby to early miscarriage.

    We then lost another child after our first child was born, while we were carrying the child who is our second.

    All these years later, I miss those children, and mourn them on the days I lost them.

  • Anonymous

    My name is Rae. I lost my first and only child to miscarriage on February 1, 2006, at 9 weeks pregnant. Since then we have been trying to get pregnant, and have not been successful.

  • Staci

    Thank you, Angie. Prayers from you and others who care in blogland mean alot to me right now. My name is Staci. I lost my 3rd child on Oct. 20, 2005 in my 2nd trimester. His name was William Taylor. We thought that since we had made it into the 2nd trimester, we were all clear. We were mistaken. Please pray especially for my 6 year old daughter, Mikea (mi-KAY-uh). We have always been open with her about William being in heaven, but she seems to be especially sensitive about him lately. We are coming up on the 3rd anniversary of his delivery, and it’s hard. Harder this year than last for some reason. When I think about having another baby, I think about how easy life is now that mine are 6 and 4, and I wonder if I really want “go there” again. And then I just feel so sad, because I’m supposed to have 2 year old too. Life isn’t supposed to be this easy yet.

  • Lyndsay

    My name is Lyndsay and after 6 years of infertility, 4 rounds of IUI and 2 rounds of IVF, I finally got pregnant, but lost my baby 6 weeks into the pregnancy in March 2006 and ended up having to have a D&C after losing 43% of my blood.

    God is so good though…3 months after my miscarriage I conceived naturally and my son Owen will be 21 months old tomorrow. I also just recently gave birth to my second son Jack just over 4 months ago.

    I truly believe that the baby I lost was a boy so we named him Brayden Anthony. I can't wait to meet him one day!

  • Jaci

    I will be praying for your family as well as mine and others.

    I tried to get pregnant with my 3rd for 9 months after doing so, I was so excited, but I had a miscarriage at 10 weeks on October 31, 2006. On Halloween. I still had to be strong for my other 2 kids and it was very hard. I have never been more depressed in my life. I always wondered was it a boy or a girl? Did I do something wrong? 2 months later I found out I was pregnant again I was so scared and nervous. My baby, Beau, just turned 1 last month. Thank you for letting me share my story with you.

  • Anonymous

    After having 3 healthy beautiful children 1 boy, 2 girls, I prayed that God would give me another son. He impressed upon my heart that I would have a son and we should name him Samuel as Hannah had after praying for a male child. God also impressed upon me that our son would have a great influence for His Kingdom. Our son, Samuel Thomas, did just that even though he never lived a second outside the womb. He was born around 20 weeks of pregnancy on Oct 31, 2006. The next March during what would have been the week Samuel should have been born, his little brother, Isaiah Ray, joined him in heaven born at around 15 weeks of pregnancy. God has since blessed us with a 4th child on earth, a sweet little girl. I got this from a poem written by a father who lost his son…my son was not strong by any measure of man, but his song I will sing whenever I can, so ask of my boy consider it no bother, when I tell of my son, I tell of my Father. This best describes how I feel regarding our losses. I miss them dearly and my heart hurts, but I know God has been and will continue to be glorified through their short lives.

  • Kari

    Angie, Thank you so much for sharing and praying for us all.

    I lost my 1st pregnancy to miscarriage at 11 weeks…May of
    ’99

    I lost my 2nd pregnancy at 8 weeks (it was a tubal pregnancy) in Sept.’99

    I lost my 3rd pregnancy at 9 weeks with an emergency surgery (another tubal)…March ’00 the last one was the hardest..just because I went into surgery pregnant and fine and came out not pregnant..hard to explain! it was just so hard and I wanted to be a mother so bad!

    I am now the mother of a son (who was born one year later to the day of my first due date..God is good!) and daughter (ages 7 and 5) but not a day goes by that I do not think of the 3 babies I have waiting for me in heaven! I look forward to meeting them one day! Thank you for thinking of us tomorrow and know that I am on my knees for all of us that have lost!

    Love your blog and feel like I know you!! I live in Columbia, Tn so we are neighbors!!

  • shyanne butler

    My Name is Shyanne Butler I has a son Kolby Wayne Eaby March 13 1997 He passed away during labor or shortly after I still have a lot of un answered questions. I had fallen at work and landed on my back I new something was wrong shortly after but wasn’t sure so I waited about 3 days later I woke up in a puddles of blood. We went to the doctor and had an ultra sound they could not find anything that would be causing the bleed they just sent me home and warned me I may miss carry And they put me on bed rest. About 3 weeks later I went into Labor the were able to stop the labor but had only given me the option of delivery the baby I was 23 weeks they said if I could make it another 2 weeks his chances would be better I had such faith so I would not just give up like that so they gave me a blood tranfusion due to all the blood loss. I was there in the hospital for a week the bleeding had slowed so they sent me home on bed rest I thought I would make it only a week to go the day they sent me home I went to Labor again it all happened so fast I was in Labor for about 7 hours the doctor never made it the RN ended up delivering my son. I was so upset 1 week is all I could think about I had only 1 week I did not make it. After the delivery I found out that my uterus has seperated so instead of the baby being born than the placenta I delivered Kolby in the placenta I never new if he got to take one breath. It happen so fast he was delivered naturally and even though it was so painful I would not change that part. I admit I was not ready to have a child I was only 18 and I know things happen for a reason and I am a better person for the expirience though I wish the out come would have been different And I would have him today. I have been blessed a few years ago I was told I would not beable to concieve without help and I was put on birth control to help regulate me. I was married to my wonderful husband Nov 6 2004 3 months later after missing just one pill I was pregnant with a little boy and now we are in the process of adoopting a little girl who is 7 so even though that exprience was devastating I feel very blessed. Thanks for reading my story and sorry it was so long.

  • michelle

    My name is Michelle. I lost a baby in February of 2007. I was 13 weeks. My husband, 15 mo old daughter and myself went for a “routine” ultrasound to confirm my due-date and did not see a “flashing light” (heartbeat). I had no warning signs that anything was wrong but felt so guilty because at first, I didn’t want another child yet. I was so absorbed in my amazing daughter. I had to wait 2 agonizing weeks before I actually miscarried. In the middle of the process I sobbed “I’m sorry! I changed my mind! Please stay with me!” I will get to meet that child someday in heaven.
    I now have a 7 mo old son (and daughter is now 3 yrs) so getting pregnant again so soon helped somewhat…pregnant for the “anniversaries” of the miscarriage, due date etc… but I still think of my precious baby daily.

  • Naomi Wright

    Angie,

    Thank you so much for doing this.

    We lost our twin daughters, Macy and Emma, at about 26 weeks gestation in April of 2001. They were monoamniotic and their cords became tangled in the womb. It was our first pregnancy after years of infertility. Thankfully we already had our first son through adoption – he was a year and a half old at the time. He was a great comfort to me. We were blessed a year later with a baby girl, and three years later with another son. God has drawn us closer through it all and I consider every moment a blessing. Thank you for your blog and for sharing both your grief and your faith.

  • Lindsay

    Wow – this is amazing – 555 comments as I’m writing this.

    I lost my 1st baby in October of ’06, it was my third pregnancy after having 2 completely healthy boys. I lost my 2nd a short 5 months later in March of 07. I lost them both 10 weeks into my pregnancy.

    In January, we were blessed with our 5th baby, and 3rd little boy here with us on earth. The Lord healed him from a very serious heart deffect in utero and he is truly a little miracle in our lives.

  • ScrappyB

    Thursday, April 14, 2005 is a day that will be with me forever. I was 36 weeks pregnant with Levi. I had a regular doctor’s appt. scheduled at 2:15. In the examing room Dr. Dimmette could not detect a heartbeat. She said that it could be because he was breach. I had to wait about 15 minutes for the ultrasound room to open, so I called Gary to tell him what was happening. When we hung up Gary immediately put me on the prayer chain at church. As soon as Dr. Dimmette put the ultrasound camera on my belly I knew that my baby was gone. I saw the flat line at the bottom of the screen. Dr. Dimmette waited some time before telling me what I already suspected. I started to cry and so did she. She sent me to the hospital to confirm what we both already knew. I told her that I just wanted to go that I did not want to wait until Gary got there. I walked across the parking lot and entered the maternity ward of the hospital. The nurses met me and took me to a room where another ultrasound was performed. The results were the same. I did not have the heart to tell Gary on the phone when he called. I waited until he got there. He wouldn’t believe it. He began to pray over my belly for about 10 minutes. He then asked them to perform another ultrasound, unfortunately it was with the same results. Gary became so angry. The first person he thought to call was Pastor Ken. He spoke with Pastor Ken and shared his frustrations that he was feeling. Pastor Ken encouraged him by listening to him and giving him scripture verses. I believe that I went into a state of shock. I didn’t lose it and become an emotional wreck. By this time people from church were coming to give support. I asked Dr. Dimmette if I could go home and have the C-section the next day. I had to get my baby’s things, a camera, and give time for my sister-n-law to come from Orange County to get an imprint of Levi’s hand. Dr. Dimmette said okay, the C-section was scheduled for the next day at 4:00 p.m. On the way home from the hospital I called my buddy from work, Dawn Smith, to tell her what happened and to let Rob and the others know. I called Olivia to set up babysitting for Hannah while I was going to be in the hospital. I had to be at the hospital the next day at 2:30 to be ready for surgery by 4:30. We were in the middle of moving, so my mother-n-law and I packed up some of the house. I called people to let them know what had happened. Things really did not hit me until I was getting prepped for the C-section. All the emotions hit me like a ton of bricks and I began to cry. Once I was in the operating room I calmed down. That was until I received my spinal. No one warned me that it would numb me to make me feel like I could not breathe. I screamed loud that I was going to die and I couldn’t breathe. The anesthesiologist gave me an amnesia drug called vercede to make me forget what was happening to me. Once I calmed down Gary was allowed in the room. Up until this point we did not know why Levi died. But we soon learned when Dr. Dimmette said, “A true knot”. Levi had the umbilical cord in a “true knot” and wrapped twice around his neck. When I was done and in the recovery room I was allowed to hold Baby Levi. The family came in to see me and him. My sister-n-law Heather took Levi’s hand print out of this molding clay. Since we knew why Levi died we decided not to have an autopsy performed. We immediately had to start planning our son’s funeral. The hospital gave us a list of funeral homes and told us to be careful because there were some who took advantage of the grief people were feeling. We called our church to find out who they recommended; they said “Miller Jones”. Two minutes later our Aunt Bonnie called with the same recommendation. Gary and I got to spend several hours holding our baby. I took a little nap with him lying in my arms. Around 10:30 that night a young girl from the funeral home came to pick up our Baby Levi. That was the last time we saw him. We look forward to the day when we will see him in heaven.

    18 months after the death of Levi I gave birth to a healthy baby girl.. Hattie Rose. I still feel a hole in my heart and would love to become pregnant with a baby boy. I pray the Lord will bless me with the desire of my heart.
    Thanks for reading my story.

  • Dave and Elaine

    My mother had my brother and me and then suffered 5 miscarriages. I am now struggling to even concieve. It has been 14 long months since we started trying and even though I’ve never lost a baby to miscarriage, every month that goes by without a positive pregnancy test feels like a death.

    I’m going through my fourth infertility treatment now (IUI) and will find out on October 22 if God has created life in me.

    This cycle, I am praying, believing that God has chosen to open my womb.

  • Tracy Carson

    My name is Tracy Carson. I lost our first pregnancy to miscarriage in August 2007 during the 9th week of pregnancy. God has since blessed us with a son but the loss of that baby will be forever felt.

  • Lynne

    Hello Angie. My name is Lynne. I have been reading your blog for a few months but this is my first post. I had a missed miscarriage in May. The weekend of Mother’s Day. I was supposed to be 11 weeks pregnant and when we had a scheduled U/S we found that the little one had passed. They told us she/he had died around 9 weeks. It was quite a shock as I had not experienced any outward signs of miscarriage. I am however blessed to have two healthy daughters. Lindsey is almost 4 and Natalie will be 2 in December. Thank you so much for what you do. You too are a blessing from God for so many people, including myself.

  • Anonymous

    My brother and sister in law have lost 2 babies to miscarriage this summer. The first was at the end of June. My sister in law experienced cramping and bleeding and had an ultrasound and discovered that the baby had passed at 5 1/2 weeks. They named the baby Kalinn.
    Just 2 1/2 weeks ago, they went in for their regular 12 week check up to find out that there was no heartbeat. She had a D&C that same day, but now they have discovered that there is still pregnancy tissue remaining and they are giving her another week to pass it, if not, she will have to undergo a repeat D&C. Due to genetic testing, they found out the baby was a boy… they named him Preston.
    This summer has been really devastating for our entire family. Even though we never met them, we all loved those babies so much and look forward to the day when we will get to meet them in heaven.

  • Anonymous

    Dear Angie,
    Thank you for who you are, and all you do for the rest of us.
    My husband and I lost our second baby at 12 weeks the day before Thanksgiving 1977. We had our sweet Mandi the next October, but our hearts are still heavy to this day for that little one we never held, who has no grave for us to visit.
    As my MIL was in/out of a coma before her death in 1997 she said she was going to hold Ken’s (my husband’s name) little boy.
    We look forward to holding him one day too.
    I will be praying for all of you sweet mothers.
    Liz

  • Amy

    Hi, Angie! Thank you for putting yourself out there and letting God work through you to help so many. My Husband and I lost our second child to miscarriage at 13 weeks(February 2008). We had conceived and delivered a healthy, vibrant son in July 2005. No one knew we were pregnant with a 2nd child and instead of being able to deliver the good news following our 13 week appointment, we got to deliver the unthinkable news. We continue to trust and have faith and though we are not having any luck conceiving again, we know that God’s will is being played out. Thank you for ministering to me and so many others. God bless you.

  • Shannon

    Let me start from the begining. I had my first child in October of 2000. A beautiful, healthy baby girl. My husband I, decided to try for a second in Sept 2002 and quickly became pregnant only to miscarry at 6 weeks. We decided to try again and quickly became pregnant in Feb 2003. Devistatingly days before my husband left for Iraq I miscarried again. I felt like my whole world was crumbling down around me. My husband was leaving for war and I was mourning the loss of yet another baby this time by myself. He came home in late May 2003 and I found myself scared and pregnant in October 2003. My pregancy had some scares but overall was a good pregancy. I delivered daughter #2 in June 2004. Time passed and we decided to add to our family so I found myself pregnant for the 5th time in July 2005. The pregancy was going great. Too Good Too Be True… We went in for my 20 week ultrasound with big sisters in tow thinking everything was grand. We quickly realized something was very wrong. It was written all over the Tech’s face. After waiting what seemed like hours. The doctor ( a friend of my husbands ) came into the room with a grim look and my words to him were ” what is wrong with my baby? ” He looked at me as he put the wand on my belly and showed us that there was no heartbeat. Our happiness quickly turned to painand sorrow in a matter of seconds. At the time all I could think about was delivering my baby. I did not want them to destroy her. After 14 hours of the hardest labor in my life. In December 2005, I delivered Francis Ann, she was perfect. My husband and I held her and said our hello’s and goodbye’s. It was the hardest thing I have ever had to do in my life. My husband and I were numb. We didn’t want to feel anything and we were very angry with GOD. Here we were a week before Christmas having a funeral for our baby daughter. Autopsy showed she was normal and healthy with the exception of clotting in her cord. ( I had fallen the week before on the ice carring my 1 year old. I went to the doctor but everthing was fine, they think she died because of the fall.. ) After many tests I was cleared as healthy and able to try again. We found out on Easter 2006 I was expecting again. Only to have our hopes shattered weeks later when I miscarried again. My husband was very angry with GOD and turned away from our Catholic faith for a few months. With lots of prayer from friends and family we both slowly came back to GOD and church and put everything into his hands. Surprise… July 2006 we are pregnant again. We prayed a lot and told very few people of the pregnancy. In March 2007 we welcomed a healthy baby girl. It was very bitter sweet. Pregancy #7 was the best with no complications. God is good.. I think of our little Francis everyday and wonder what she would have been like? what she would have looked like? Then I look at my youngest daughter and realize that she would not be here if Francis was. It dosen’t make me miss Francis any less. Our plan is not always what GOD has planned for us. My faith is stronger than ever and so is my husbands.. I miss all my babies that aren’t here with me and there isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t think of them.

  • Deena -

    My name is Deena. I lost my 3rd child to miscarriage on a sad January evening. Psalm 30:5 sustained me…”For his anger endureth but a moment; in his favor is life; weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning.”

  • Whitney and Dustin

    My name is Whitney. I have lost 3 babies to miscarriage. My first was July 2007, second November 2007 & the third in March 2008. This has been the hardest & most difficult time I have ever been thru. Fortunatly, we are expecting again now with a healthy 10w6d old fetus & praying for a blessed outcome.

  • Heidi

    After two years on infertility, I had two miscarriages about 6 months apart. They were very early, but on top of the infertility I felt crushed. It has been a year since the second one, and we haven’t gotten pregnant again.

  • Robin

    there is no greater loss in this life than to loose a child. I misscarried on December 22, 2006. It was the hardest trial I’ve ever endured, but God is triumphant and HE does prevail. I have 3 healthy boys, 4, 2 1/2 and 4 months, God is good.

  • Astrid

    My name is Astrid. I lost my daughter Sophia Grace at 18 weeks on April 26, 2008 due to Turners syndrome. This was our miracle baby that everyone and their mom had prayed for. I have struggled with infertility and felt convicted to let go during doing Beth Moore’s breaking free bible study. I later shared my testimony at church about that experience of surrender and truly experiencing Gods peace regardless of my circumstances. I conceived that very day and felt so certain that this baby was going to make it. People were just ecstatic for us and i really felt that God wanted to me to continue to share this story and i did. it was such a happy time for us….until we found out that there was no heartbeat and spiritually it felt like a punch in the face. God has been faithful and given me tons of love and support. he has gently taught me that this baby was a different kind of gift- the gift of the broken heart. and there has been a lot of healing after the breaking. and God has made some amazingly beautiful things from these ashes. but i still wish every day that things could have turned out differently. i work right across from labor and delivery with view of the room that i was in from my desk. and sometimes it takes everything i have to restrain from running over there and somehow recover this baby. i do have a beautiful 3 year old son. i would appreciate your prayers for my courage and faith on this painful journey. God is close to the broken hearted.
    thanks Astrid
    ameltonpt@aol.com

  • rebecca

    My mother lost quintuplets before I was born. She was about five months along and there was never any explanation.
    My sister-in-law and brother-in-law lost their third child, little Hannah Grace during the eighth month also with no explanation. Hannah would have been two this past August.
    Angie, thank you so much for doing this. My prayers and thoughts are with all of these precious women tonight.
    Also, to the sweet souls who have lost babies through abortion, you are forgiven and have also experienced a great loss. My prayers are with you all that the Lord soothes the ache in your hearts.

  • Whitney and Dustin

    I have lost 3 babies in the past year. My first was in July 2007 at 10w2d, second in November 2007 10 weeks, the third in March 2008 at 6weeks. This has been the hardest year of my life. We are fortunate to now be expecting again. We are currently almost 11 weeks, which is the farthest we have gotten with a living baby. We are praying that this will be our miracle. I feel for anyone who has lost a child.

  • Whitney and Dustin

    My name is Whitney. I have lost 3 babies to miscarriage. My first was July 2007, second November 2007 & the third in March 2008. This has been the hardest & most difficult time I have ever been thru. Fortunatly, we are expecting again now with a healthy 10w6d old fetus & praying for a blessed outcome.

  • ashli kay wolf

    oh my goodness ladies..you have lifted me up so much..your stories of loss and strength help so much…it is comforting to know that i am surrounded by amazing women who have suffered much like myself…may God bless you all!

    My name is Ashli and I lost our precious angel at 8 weeks and 5 days..i went for our sonogram, and there was no heartbeat. My husband and I alongside our Doctor and Nurse stood there silently looking at the screen..it was heartwrenching to not see that fluttering that i had heard so much about. The tears burned my cheek as they rolled down my face…why did this happen to me? Afterwards, I was sent back out in the waiting room to schedule my procedure….I tried to be strong, but couldn’t be. It was a terrible loss for us and we had trouble afterwards with our new marriage and conceiving…we now have two beautiful children that i thank God for everyday…but I will never ever forget our little angel in Heaven who I will someday meet! Our little angel was already named..either way it was Cooper..we loved that name! May God bless you all and continue to strengthen you on this day of rememberance of our angels.

    For I know the plans i have for you, Jeremiah 29:11

  • heartchild

    My first daughter was born on Oct 6, 1999 at 25 weeks for no apparant reason and went to be with Jesus on Oct 15, 1999( I had no idea that it was a day marked to remember).

    I miscarried a baby at 8 weeks on September 14, 2003.

    I have 5 children on earth through birth and adoption. The Lord is good.

  • noahandlylasmommi

    My name is Zsera. I lost my 3rd baby in June 2008 at 11 weeks. I am praying for all of you who have posted here.

  • jsuggs

    My name is Janica. We have two wonderful boy blessings from God. We lost our third child to miscarriage in January 2008.

  • Anonymous

    I lost our second child on Oct. 31, 2000 and our fifth child on August 30, 2007.

  • Emily S.

    Thank you for this site, and for honoring our children. My name is Emily Sibley. My husband and I lost identical twins due to late miscarriage in 6/11/02. Our third daughter, Hazel Anne Noelle, was stillborn and entered into the arms of Jesus on 8/16/06. And we lost another baby due to late miscarriage 2/26/08. We have 3 living children on earth. Thank you for honoring us as parents, our babies siblings, and our babies. Our God is a God of hope, and I know one day we will see our babies again!

  • boltefamily

    My name is Kristy. We have a five year old son Luke, our second son Isaac died in July 2005 due to what we were told was an infection contracted in the womb. We were assured that it would not be a recurring problem. We then had our third son Benjamin in July of 2006. Then on February 22, 2008 our fourth son, Asher was born with a condition similar to Isaacs, he lived for 35 AMAZING minutes. They were created so specifically there is not even a name for what might be happening in our family. Thank you for your prayers as we contemplate where to go from here.

  • Anonymous

    A week ago today, I lost my baby at 9 weeks. Am still recovering from the d&c.

    My mother also lost a baby – at 20 weeks after complications from amnio.

    My aunt had a full-term stillborn daughter, lost due to infection

    Thank you for this.

  • Anonymous

    We lost our first son in February 2006. He was 4 1/2 months old and passed away during his nap. We don’t know why. We are thankful that he is with Jesus but we miss him every day.

  • Jaysi

    Angie,

    I have never lost a baby, but I can’t tell you how deeply your blog has impressed upon me. I read faithfully.

    This summer I had a friend go into labor at 22 weeks. Her sweet baby girl came into this world and only lived about an hour. Your blog encouraged me to reach out to her in a way that I would have never known without you.

    Thank you for all that you say and do for all these women and their angels. I will be praying for all of them.

    Blessings,
    Jaysi

  • T and T Livesay

    My name is Tara L.

    I lost a son to miscarriage in 1999

    lost another baby (prior to knowing the sex) in 2001.

    I still wonder about them.

  • Mark and Niki

    My name is Niki, I have 4 in heaven.

  • dreamingBIGdreams

    I lost two children to miscarriage.
    First: May 1998
    Second: November 1999

    I now have four children. One by birth. One by domestic adoption. Two in Haiti waiting to come home.

  • Deedra

    I lost my first two babies to miscarriage. The first in March 2003 at 8 weeks. The second on April 11, 2004 in the 4th month. The second baby was due on my birthday, October 9. I was so devastated by these losses. We had done fertility drugs with both. Finally after giving up on the drugs, I became pregnant with my little boy and gave birth on June 1, 2006 to my Carter. Our baby girl, Lilah, was born on April 2, 2008.

    I also have a neighbor who experienced a devastating loss in 2003. Her baby boy, 2 months, was taken by SIDS. I was at home when the call for help went out and heard it on my husbands fire radio. I performed CPR on that precious baby boy until the ambulance came. I can still hear the screams in the background as I prayed and did my best to revive that baby boy. They have since had 2 other children, but I know they still miss that sweet baby dearly. Please also remember them.

    I didn’t know there was such a time of remembrance, at least officially. Thank you for bringing this to our attention.

  • Barry, Megan, Jonathan, Joshua & Zachary Welch

    Angie, Thank you for sharing your story with us.

    We lost our second child to miscarriage at 12 weeks on 12/25/03. Not a day goes by that I don’t think about that baby. We do have 3 healthy little boys 6(born 10 weeks early), 2 1/2 and 10months.

    May God Continue to Bless you and all the ladies here who have also lost a baby.

    Megan

  • Anonymous

    My name is Jennifer, currently residing in Japan with the military. My third child was lost at 7wks on aug 24 2005. Days before Hurricane Katrina hit our area in Biloxi, MS. Lost my niece, Kelley Elizabeth, at 19.5 wks on March 27, 2008. Pray for her mother who is not saved.

  • Anonymous

    Thanks so much for praying! God has been so faithful to work in my heart- removing pain and shock and loss that should have devastated me… and yet I just feel held.

    In the past two years I’ve lost three babies to miscarriage. After our first son was born with little complications we naturally assumed that the second time around would be easy, but it hasn’t been.

    And yet, I can honestly say that I wouldn’t change a thing- HIS faithfulness absolutely amazes and blesses me more than the hurt. The hurt is still there, but I got to know MY Jesus better in the middle of it.

    I’ll be praying too!

  • Anonymous

    I want to send a message out for my friend who lost a daughter to sids in 2002. I think about her often and pray for her and her family.

  • adafloyd

    My name is Ada and I lost my twin boys due to complications of prematurity — Keeton Mason at 27 days of life (July 2005), and Kaden James at 21 months (March 2007). They showed me the light of Jesus in their short lives and have changed me forever for the better. I am dedicating my life to helping others deal with their losses and with prematurity… and I promise, it may take me some time to get through this HUGE list of people, but I will pray for each and every one of you. God has laid it on my heart that THIS is how I am going to learn to pray.

    Peace of the Lord with each and every one of you – And Angie, thank you for being so generous in your grief… your sharing your pain has touched – and healed – so many.

    –Ada

  • bri

    Hello Angie, I will post this here also because I feel it the Lord’s calling for me to do so.

    I lost our first daughter Olivia Grace at 23 weeks on July 9 2005. She was perfect in every way. She lived for 30 minutes while fighting for life. I just went into labor too early after my water broke prematurely.

    Our son, Samuel David was born at 17 weeks on Feb 11 2006. Same problem. Premature rupture of the membranes (PROM).

    Our second daughter, Ymali “Emma” Jane was born at 21 weeks on Dec 5 2006. Again PROM was to be blamed. She also fought for life for about 30 precious minutes. Kicking and squirming we got to snuggle with her little self and be with her in the final moments.

    I will always carry the weight of my sweet children as well as my three sweet babies that were lost to abortions when I was young and before I knew Christ (I did not grow up in a Christian home to say the least). I have been through counseling and have put a name to each unborn child from my terrible past. Sara, Isaiah, Michael. I have seen them face to face in an image that God allowed me to be able to put them to rest as well. I love you all my sweet babies and one day will be blessed beyond measure to see you all again!!!

    Thank you to all of you who find me worthy of your time and prayers. I appreciate each and everyone of you and could not have done any of this journey alone. I love the power of prayer!

  • trina

    Thank you so much for sharing your heart with us. As I read through some of the posts, so many are hurting. I will pray.
    We lost our first baby due to a miscarriage. We attempted to adopt domestically and lost three babies. Two mothers(not good living conditions) kept their babies and one decided to abort. Praise God for healing and that our van is full. We are very blessed.

  • lovelaughlove

    My fiance and I lost our baby due to miscarriage at 3 months in June of 2006.

    Angie, thank you so much for sharing your life with us! You are such an inspiration to me!

  • Anonymous

    We miscarried our first baby very early in the first trimester. I will probably always remember his due date. Almost one year to the day of the miscarriage we gave birth to a precious, healthy baby boy. God is good!
    -M

  • Anonymous

    I lost my first child to miscarriage in December 1981. My precious baby boy was born in a bed pan. This was a painful memory of him for a long time, but God has healed me.

    There is not a year that goes by that I don’t think of him and picture how mature and handsome he would be now. He has two brothers (one by adoption) and a sister.

    I do have the peace of knowing that I will see him again in heaven.

  • Lindsay

    I never thought this was a group I would be joining. I had two healthy pregnancies resulting in two beautiful girls. Then I had a miscarriage with my third in August 2008. This list is amazing. So many babies. I actually have a visual of Jesus sitting on a throne in Heaven surrounded by all of these babies. It’s a comforting thought.

  • BRiehl

    I lost two babies to miscarriage. The first I was in a relationship that I wasn’t supposed to be in and I had been praying through the pregnancy that God would protect that sweet baby from my mistake and from his/her father. I miscarried in my 12th week and my first thought was, “Thank you, Father, for listening and answering prayer. Now please hold me…” I named that baby Sam.
    My second miscarriage was two years ago this November. I am married to a wonderful man and we found out we were pregnant on our third month wedding anniversary and we were thrilled. We had quite a few ultrasounds over the next month because that little angel’s heart wasn’t very strong. That darling finally went to be with God when I was 8 weeks pregnant. You were right to think in your midst of pain that God was no different than He was before you went into that room. God is good all the time. We named that baby Meg. God surprised (and greatly tested) us with our daughter Raegan who was born December 27, 2007 (eleven years to the day after my grandma died). I think of my babies often and don’t take one minute with Raegan for granted. I hurt, but I trusted God and He alone has made me whole through His amazing grace. Thank you for sharing your story. It is encouraging to know that other women are hurting, and still able to go on and praise the Lord in every storm. My name is Bethany and my blog is http://www.riehllives.blogspot.com. thank you for your encouragment, comic relief and inspiring stories. I appreciate you and hope to meet you someday.

  • Marci @Finding Joy in the Journey

    Angie,

    First, I cried when I came to this post and saw there are already over 500 comments. Thank you for showing us how not alone we really are and by validating and honoring all of these beautiful little lives.

    My name is Marci I have three incredibly beautiful children here sleeping in my home and four resting in heaven. Even though I don’t know for sure if the little ones lost were boys or girls, at least in my own heart I named each of them. That is something I rarely share, but feel somehow here I want to acknowledge them each by name. To recognize, to validate them.

    Liam due 6/96 miscarried 10/95

    Lily born alive and beautiful 4/98

    Noah due 11/3/00 ectopic pregnancy heartbreakingly ended by laporotomy on my 26th birthday 3/00

    Hope due 10/01 miscarried 2/01

    Bender due 3/04 miscarried 8/03

    Dax born doing jumping jacks 5/05

    Finn born smiling 4/07

    Again, thank you and God bless you and your family and all those women who have shared their sadness and joys here.

  • Anonymous

    My name is Amy. I have lost two children to miscarriages. The first was lost at 8 weeks on September 5th, 2006. I had a healthy baby boy named Robby on August 19th, 2007. I lost my last baby at 11 weeks on September 10th, 2008. I knew the first pregnancy was problematic from very early on due to ultrasounds, but this last pregnancy had been very healthy according to the tests and ultrasounds. We had seen a strong heartbeat only days before the bleeding started. I have never felt such emptiness and loss before. I literally feel like there is a piece of me that has been taken away, and there is not a day that passes that I am not begging God to refill it. My husband and I will start trying again this month, and I pray for the strength to survive this process again.

    I have been blessed by this community of women who know what it is to lose a child and know what it means to be a mother without a baby.

  • Janet

    Through God’s goodness on
    August 18, 2008…he allowed us to see a glimpse of His grace and mercy personified as we gazed upon our daughter, and named her Mercy…she is missed, mourned, and a source of hope that fills many empty crevices of my heart…

    We sang the words of the hymn below at her memorail….they have become a constant reminder of the goodness of my God. My prayer is that these words do the same for you…

    Thy mercy my God is the theme of my song,
    The joy of my heart, and the boast of my tongue.
    Thy free grace alone, from the first to the last,
    Hath won my affection and bound my soul fast.

    Without Thy sweet mercy, I could not live here.
    Sin would reduce me to utter despair,
    But through Thy free goodness, my spirit’s revived
    And He that first made me still keeps me alive.

    Thy mercy is more than a match for my heart,
    Which wonders to feel its own hardness depart.
    Dissolved by Thy goodness, I fall to the ground
    And weep for the praise of the mercy I’ve found.

    Janet Newman
    Atlanta, Georgia

  • b.ellen

    Sister in Christ, May each child He called home be a testament for others to Him. Praying our actions and words glorify him.

    my name is Barbara and God called our first child home when I was 16 weeks pregnant in July, 2005. The night before a routine check up. I had a feeling that something was wrong. A peace came over me. Giving all credit to God, I believe He was preparing me for the next day as I listened to the Doppler with only my heartbeat thudding away. The nurse looking away from my eyes took me over to get an ultrasound with my doctor. God gave me the strength to comfort my doctor and friend who was crying as she was looking and listening for that beat. I somehow told her that it was going to be okay, and that God gives and God takes away. Blessed be the name of the Lord! Only He knows the answer WHY! He carried us through the pain. We waited 3 weeks to have it naturally but ended up having a d&c.

    We wouldn't have our second blessing on August 11.06 of our sweet baby girl. We now have a third blessing, a boy on Nov.11.07.

    Praying for all the hurting hearts. May we only turn to Christ and grow closer to him Love you sisters B

  • Jennifer

    My name is Jennifer. After 13 months of trying to get pregnant my husband and I lost our first child to a miscarriage in Novemeber 2007.

    Praying for all the mothers who have experienced this pain and heartache.

  • amy

    Angie,
    You are a light set on a hill.

    Thank you for creating this amazing blog in honor of your sweet Audrey. You have ministered to so many of us and I hardly go a day without reading your blog, anticipating your next post.

    We lost our 2nd baby to miscarriage at 13 weeks in 2004. The baby had triploidy (a genetic disorder). Since then the Lord has blessed us with 2 more beautiful children. I am so thankful for my 3 amazing children and look forward to meeting my angel baby one day.

    In Him, Amy

  • Candi

    In June 2000, my beautiful daughter was born 7 weeks prematurely. I praise God for her health and well-being every day. She is the joy of our lives. Her 5 siblings all went to heaven before we could meet them. In the last three years, I’ve lost my uterus and ovaries to surgeries, so I won’t get to use the other baby names I picked out. I know that when I get to Heaven, my five children will be there with Jesus waiting to meet me, and I’ll find out what Jesus named them.

  • Joy

    My name is Joy and I lost my first child to miscarriage in September 2006 at 5 wks. I have PCOS and my husband and I have been trying to conceive for many years. This was our first and only pregnancy.

  • Anonymous

    In memory of Titus Jude. I can’t turn to god because I’m too mad. It’s a lonely place to be.

  • da momma

    I had an abortion when I was 16 in 1992& a miscarriage in 2006. Thank you for your words..they are so uplifting and encouraging. Love to your family & the list goes on!

  • Liz Sarno

    I am praying for all of you. Each story is beautiful and each one who told it is precious. Your strength, courage and faith in the midst of unimaginable circumstances is inspiring.
    May the peace of God, that passes all understanding be with each of you not just tomorrow, but in the months and years to come.

  • Claire

    Wow – there are so many comments…

    How very sad.

    I have not lost a baby but my mother did – my older brother David. He was stillborn at around 5 months of pregnancy (???).

    He would have been two years older than me and I always wonder what it would have been like to have an older brother (I am the ‘oldest’ now).

    For those of you who have experienced a loss, go to

    http://namesinthesand.blogspot.com

    Carly and her family do a wonderful sunset/sunrise beach picture for lost children.

    Love,
    Claire

  • Mandy /Mommy Cracked

    We lost our first child to miscarriage very early in the pregnancy. It was a crushing blow since it took two years and an IUI to achieve that pregnancy. Another two years went by and we were blessed with our son who is now three. I have never grieved for anything like I did for that child and will always wonder what might have been.

  • Hillary

    My name is Hillary and I miscarried in July 2006, we thought we were 13 weeks but the drs said our baby had passed at 9 weeks. Praise be to God, I was blessed with a healthy daughter born in August of 2007. I still think of my son or daughter in heaven everyday and am so grateful for the blessing the Lord has given me with my daughter here on Earth and I know one day I will see my other child in Heaven.
    Thank you so much for opening up your blog to other mother’s who have suffered such a loss.

  • Tutu

    My name is Susan. I have had two miscarriages. The first was Mothers’ Day weekend 2001 at 7 weeks. I hadn’t even been to the doctor yet, but had a positve home test. The second was the day after Thanksgiving 2006 at 9 weeks. We had already seen the baby’s heart beat, and the loss was very difficult for me to deal with. I have three happy, healthy children, including a 7 month old son. I will always feel the loss of the two I don’t have.

  • Anonymous

    i’m posting for my sister-in-law; after years of trying, she conceived and then lost the baby in spring 2007. they have been unable to conceive again. i know she feels so hopeless. most of the time i have no idea how to reach out to her, but we all care about her so much and hate it that she is hurting.

    angie, you have brought God so much glory through your own tragedy. thank you for being here.

  • Kether

    I’ve had four pregnancies and only one birth. My first loss was in January of 2004, followed by two miscarriages last year, one very early in the pregnancy in March and one at the beginning of the second trimester in December. We are still praying for another healthy baby.

    Angie, you are a WONDERFUL person and have touched So many lives.

  • Mrs. D

    My name is Michele and I had my second daughter on May 30th,2007. She was born at 35 weeks and due to complications with my uterus ( I had a septate uterus which I have since had surgery for to correct) her placenta tore away and she went to be with Jesus on the way to the hospital. We didn’t know that she was already gone until they got me hooked up to the ultrasound machine since they were only picking up my heartbeat. We saw that she had passed and I gave birth to her a few hours later. We were able to spend the next hours with her until it was time to give her to the nurse and leave. How we ever walked out of the hospital I’ll never know. I do know that God WAS holding us up with every step. We buried her a week later and have had a radical awakening to Jesus and His love and plan to work all together for good… Romans 8 :28. I also want to site another verse God gave me.. which is Hebrews 11 :35 and that says that Women received their dead raised to life again. I’m clinging to that promise until the day that I get to see my baby Hazel Hope Dow again. Thank you for this post and I will remember all these babies tomorrow.

  • Anonymous

    Hi Angie,
    Thank you for letting us know about the special day tomorrow. We have lost three babies in miscarriage the past three years: 7 weeks-Noble; 18 weeks–Bryson; and 12 weeks–Noelle. Thank you for your prayers. I will pray for those who have also suffered losses. This is a grief that is like no other. God bless you all.

  • The Edney’s

    My name is Anitra. We lost our second child, our second boy, Noah, on December 17th, 2002. He was stillborn. He had hydrops and cystic hygroma. I also had a miscarriage in September 2003. We have four other living children that bless us everyday…and almost everyday I anticipate the time when I can hold the others in eternity.

  • newnormal

    Hi, I’m Amy.

    Our firstborn daughter, Lucy Marie, was a full-term stillbirth on August 9th, 2006.

  • Heather

    My name is Heather, I have 2 angels in heaven. My first loss was due to an ectopic pregnancy on August 30, 2004. I lost my second baby just 5 weeks ago. I had an incomplete miscarriage followed by a D & C on September
    8, 2008. I still feel so numb & my heart aches…

  • Heidi

    My name is Heidi. Our third red-haired son, Hans Calvin, was stillborn at 36 weeks, September 1, 2007, due to the cord being wrapped around his chest and neck. If you would like read our story you can visit http://www.hanscalvin.blogspot.com

    Tomorrow evening I will be a part of a candlelight program in Portland, Oregon honoring families that have lost babies. I covet your prayers that God will give me the strength to get through the poem I am to read.

    I have been visiting your site ever since Audrey Caroline was born, but have never left a comment. You have been so open and honest and I just want to thank you from the bottom of my heart. To know that there are other grieving mommies out there trusting God, questioning God, and still loving God is a great encouragement to me. Thank you, thank you.

  • Amy

    I am overwhelmed at the number of people that have already left comments. When I lost my baby to miscarriage Christmas 2003, I felt so alone. The next June I lost another baby at home. Alone in my bathroom. I have been forever changed since those moments, and because of the “new normal” that I find myself in, I often still feel alone. Just seeing the hundreds of women that have also shared this pain of loss and grief is an amazingly, healing moment for me. Thank you Angie. You have shared God’s love in ways that I have never seen before… in real, true, genuine ways. Thank you!

  • Kelli

    Wow, the sheer number of people who have lost a baby is astounding. My name is Kelli and I delivered our son stillborn on July 23, 2008 at 31 weeks. We lost Erickson due to placental abruption/preeclampsia.

  • Sugar Mommy

    My name is Kimberly. We lost our first baby in January 2003 to miscarriage. We welcome our 2nd baby Chloe in February 2004. We lost our 3rd baby in July 2003 to miscarriage. We lost our 4th and 5th babies in July 2006 to miscarriage, and welcomed triplets girls in March 2007.
    My heart and prayers to all who have lost a precious angel. I am in tears and still do not fully understand why this happens. We are not alone,yet sometimes feel so very alone. I take comfort in knowing they are resting in the hands of the Lord.

  • kaleeshajo

    I am humbled and in complete awe of the stories I have read. My heart and my prayers go out to so many hurting and healing at this time.

    It has been six and a half years since I lost our baby (who I call Timothy) through miscarriage. It was my third pregnancy and it completely devastated me. I began bleeding at about 11 weeks and was put on bedrest. I truly believed God was going to heal the situation and that I would carry my precious baby to term without incident. I remember thinking that my faith had to be bigger than a mustard seed and I honestly didn’t doubt that God was going to do a miracle. I went in for several ultrasounds and when the doctors saw a strong beating heart, they assured me it was a good sign. It almost seemed an afterthougt that my baby’s size was smaller than normal. When I lost the baby several days later, my heart hardened and I questioned why God would have allowed something like this to happen to me. I became an angry, bitter person and God had to do a real work in my heart to cut through all the ugliness that I allowed to build. Thankfully, He is faithful to continue working to complete the work He starts in us if we allow Him. I remember doing the Bible Study, BELIEVING GOD by Beth Moore about two years after my loss. It was so healing to realize that sometimes when God doesn’t answer our prayers the way we think He is going to, He is actually prioritizing a work inside of us that will bring us closer to Him. That resonated with me and looking back now, I believe that is what He did.

  • julie

    My name is Julie. I have a beautiful, healthy 4 year old girl, who I am so thankful for. I had a miscarriage last Tuesday with our second child. Every day just seems so hard to function.

  • Anonymous

    My sister has lost 3 babies in the past year and a half: one in May 2007, one in August 2007, and the last in March 2008. It has been very difficult on her, and she is very discouraged. It’s hard to understand why people who would make incredible parents cannot get pregnant. But God has a plan, and He is in control. Thank you, Angie, for your inspirational blog. It is refreshing!

  • Gina

    Thank you so much for this post. We lost a baby in Aug at 13 weeks–our first miscarriage. I’ve been really struggling with this. I just got my pitcher–I intend to smash it soon. I’ll let you know how it goes. ;-) I’m praying it will help my healing process. Thanks again for your blog and your candor.

  • Melissa

    I’m Melissa…I’m the mommy to a baby in heaven — lost at around 6 weeks (July 9, 2008). Never confirmed by my doctors (my appointment was for 2 weeks later), I’ve never doubted in my heart that the pregnancy was real. At the time, we had only been married 2 months, and it was devestating to us. The source of anger and resentment towards God at different points, my faith is still strong. I can be angry and resentful, but my faith is still very much alive and is strong. We are now in the throws of the waiting game again. We may be expecting again, but are unsure at this point. Please pray for us, that if we are pregnant, that God is glorified in whatever way it turns out. God is perfect, and all things will work out in His timing alone. We so badly want a baby, but know that God’s perfect timing will make our first surviving child all the more special.

    Angie — you are an inspiration. I’ve had my moments of wanting to break down and lose it, but then I realize that I’m not alone. Thank you for sharing your journey with the world, no matter how difficult.

    Also, please please pray for my cousin, Rosalie — she and her husband, Mark, have suffered 11 miscarriages in total. They have since been blessed with 3 children they have adopted, but I know they are still hurting from all of the lost babies. I know I am, and that’s just after 1.

    To the rest of you — I share your pain, and I pray for you, that you can find God’s perfect plan for your life. God Bless you all.

  • Conny

    Thank you, all, for confirming that my on-going, come-and-go grief is normal – and for the reminder that GOD weeps with us & longs to comfort us. I've read your comments & gleaned so much – I loved the comment about the lesson of the broken heart…

    Our 3rd baby slipped into heaven 6 years ago on October 17 at 8 weeks gestation.
    THough I know no baby can "replace" that baby, I do long for another child….we've tried off & on for all these years. It has made the 2 children we have (10 year old boy & almost-8 year old girl) that much more precious to us!

  • Anonymous

    My sister Shari lost a baby boy when she was 5 months pregnant, in July, 1993. Jeremy didn’t have a chance to meet the family who loved him so much, and misses him everyday. My sister still grieves this loss, and any prayers offered up on her behalf would be appreciated.

  • Amy

    My name is Amy. Our first child, Natalie Sapphira, was diagnosed with acrania, lack of a skull, at her 18 week ultrasound. There was nothing to protect her brain or make it form properly. The doctors told us that, if she made it to full term, we might have 20 minutes with her. We prayed so hard for a miracle, but if that wasn’t part of the Lord’s plan for her life, we asked for some extra time with her and some hair (this was important to us since because of her disablity, the doctor didn’t know if she would even have any portion of her scalp, let alone any hair). At 35 weeks, I developed preeclampsia and had to be induced. Natalie was born on March 14, 2006 and stayed with us for 38 hours and 58 minutes before meeting Jesus. The nape of her neck was covered with thick, curly black hair. Even though the Lord didn’t provide the miracle we thought was appropriate, he still was faithful in answering our other prayers. I will never forget the way she smelled, the way she felt in my arms, the way she turned her head to find her Daddy after hearing his voice, or the way she looked into my eyes and I could tell she knew that I was her mommy and that I loved her. I have since had a son, Malachi, and am due again in April, but nothing will fill the void in my heart since she left. I am thankful that Jesus is snuggling her and singing her lullabyes until my husband and I can again.

  • Anonymous

    We lost our third child to a miscarriage in October, 2006. I think of our little angel a lot. I know God had other plans and wanted this baby before we ever got a chance to meet him/her. We are SO blessed to have 3 sons here with us today, and we treasure them! Thank you God!

    Thank you, Angie, for everything that you do – and for everything that you are. This is a wonderful way for so many families to honor their children!

    -Kristi in IA

  • Stacia

    I lost my first pregnancy at 8 weeks in September 2005, twins, we would have named them Drew and Olivia. My second pregnancy was lost at 9 weeks, a daughter we named Neve. On Mother’s Day 2006 I lost my third pregnancy, only at 5 weeks. We have been trying for over 6 years and are still praying for a miracle.

    Angie, thank you for your testimony of Christ.

  • dawn

    My name is Dawn. In September 1999 we lost our 2nd baby. Aidan David was born with multiple birth defects. He lived 4 months and 6 days before he went home to Jesus due to complications from open heart surgery. My heart has healed, thanks to God’s amazing power to give beauty for ashes…

    Let me encourage all of you precious sisters who have lost children that God can make something beautiful out of your pain…cooperate with Him. It’s OK to not know how that can happen…but hang in there. God is amazing.

    I still miss Aidan very much, he was an amazing fighter with a sweet smile. I am so thankful we had four months with him.

  • Alycia

    My name is Alycia and I lost our third child in miscarriage in January of 2005 and our fourth child to miscarriage in June of 2005. It was extremely difficult ot go through those losses, but God was faithful in turning my mourning into dancing. We will never ever forget our sweet babies who await us in Heaven. The grief was so deep for my sweet babies and I still think of them often. God eventually blessed us with our fifth child, Hannah Grace, in July of 2005. Her name means, “Blessed by God’s Grace.”

  • Anonymous

    I love God’s timing in this post. Thank you Angie.

    Twelve years ago today, Oct 14th we lost our 2nd child to miscarriage. I was 14 weeks pregnant.

    To leave some ashes for those who need it..
    today October 14th twelve years later we sat in a courtroom as a jury returned the verdict that the 22 month old beautiful baby girl whom we have fostered for 19 months should not be returned to her birth family. When the adoption is final we will change her name to Canaan… the promise…

    God knew the very day we mourned… and has been faithful… all of this time… can He be anything other than that?
    Blessings to all the mama’s with empty arms and broken hearts.

  • Anonymous

    After a lot of trying and heartache, my husband and I found out we were expecting on 9/11/01. What a day to try to process the good and the bad all at once.

    About a month later a routine ultrasound showed that my baby had died. I was approximately 11 weeks along and baby was measuring 7.

    I went on to have four healthy, wonderful girls. I’ve been very blessed, and yet I still have twinges that can only be described as my spirit missing that first baby I didn’t get to know.

    Angie, thank you so much for sharing your story, and for being so open and inspiring. You have increased my faith.

  • Alycia

    Sorry ~ my correction to the above post…the year was 2004 when my miscarriages occured.

    Praying for all these women who have written here today.

  • Aloha

    I had my first daughter in 1995, i then lost two babies in 1996, and then added a boy in 1997, girl 1999, boy 2001. Thanks Angie for your open heart. I love you sister in Christ. God speaks good through you. I pray that you will continue to let him use you. Many blessings.

  • Sam and Lacey

    My name is Lacey, I just celebrated what would have been my twins 1st birthday 3 days ago. I had them at 29 weeks. Ella we lost in the womb. Ava made it to earth but returned to heaven 39 days later to be with her twin sister.

  • Anonymous

    We lost our second baby due to miscarriage just after the end of my first trimester. In addition to our first child, we have been blessed with two more beautiful children since the loss of our dear Kyran. We are praying for all the others who have felt our pain.

  • Hope

    I’m Hope and I’ve lost more sweet babies than I know–I deliberately quit keeping track after I hit 10 or so miscarriages. I didn’t want to know anymore how many . . .

    During some of these years, we managed to have two living babies (one that the OB said would never end in a live pregnancy)–both pregnancies with months of bedrest and bleeding.

    The worst was a baby lost at around 9 weeks (discovered at 12 weeks) that I ended up having to have an emergency D and C for in April of 2003. We were able to get permission to bury our sweet-hearts little body . . . We named the baby Jessie Jo. In May of 2005 God finally blessed us with a live baby, and 3 months later we completed our adoption of our Russian princess who was 5. So I am thankful and blessed to have 4 children. I don’t take any of them for granted. I hope to someday have one more child but due to some damage to my uterus, it’s not advised for me to ever get pregnant again. I’m content to let God add to our family through adoption though should He deem that wise for us. Our 4 living children are 15, 12, 8 and 3.

    God bless you, Angie–you are such a sweet example of God’s grace.
    Hugs!

  • Tara Renae

    I miscarried when I was 12 due to incest. I still think of him almost everyday and through healing prayer God told me that He named him Jacob. I have spent my whole teenage and young adult life trying to protect and cherish babies and children and hope one day to have a baby of my own… the right way.
    Thank you for your blog. It is another step in my healing process. May all those women and families who have lost a beloved be blessed in knowing that God now holds them in the palm of His hand and sings them sweet lullabys.

  • Misty Rice-Baniewicz

    Full Story: Come Check out my Blog!!!

    I too miscarried before I had Morgan. I planned that pregnancy too. We tried, I got pregnant, we prayed and we were thankful. I still have that positive test.

    The morning of my doctors appointment I started to bleed heavily as well. I also saw shedding of clots that had fallen out of me. I even remember starring down into the toilet and I KNEW it was my baby sitting there. I wanted to reach down and grab it, but didn’t.

    I stayed strong. I was disappointed and also tried to not show real emotion about it. However as time went on…I started to feel more and more sad about it. I bled so much for over 2 months. I had to go in every 2 days for blood work until my numbers went down to zero. My body for many weeks after kept telling me I was pregnant. Which then I was told that my body wasn’t getting rid of the full remains and so I needed assistance.

    They gave me two shots of this stuff, I forget the name in which is really ‘used’ to abort pregnancy. How awful that made me feel knowing what was being put in my body. I then cried that day while at lunch with Mark. I felt I had really truly lost something. And I did!!! No matter how big or small…my baby was a live and living for those 6 to 7 weeks inside me.

    It was even harder to keep seeing a positive pregnancy test for weeks afterwards. I was really struggling with that because we wanted a baby and each time I saw that “positive” stick…. I would know that it was still from my baby that didn’t make it. So although I lost my baby at 6 to 7 weeks gestation, my body stayed with it for a total of about 4 months when you add the 2 months after the miscarriage that I continued to bleed and remain positive on the pregnancy test.

    It was an emotional time and I am thankful for the support I had around me when I went through it. Don’t let anyone tell you that “it isn’t a big deal” when you miscarry, no matter how far along you were. Don’t let doctors ramble off with percentages of this happening or even blowing it off as just a “etopic pregnancy”. Just research how many living and breathing babies are walking around today that was from an “etopic pregnancy”. It was ALIVE enough for you to have a positive pregnancy reading, then it was ALIVE period and that means it was a LIFE that didn’t make it.

    I want to take this opportunity to think about the parents who have lost children, and remember those babies that are no longer with their families and say a prayer for each hurting heart out there today and tonight.

    I will NOT post for the the entire day (Oct. 15h)…. I give this silence to those precious little tiny hearts that lost their beats, and prayer to those hearts that will forever and always be part broken.

    God Bless you my child. Im sorry I didn’t get to meet you, but you are not forgotten.

  • Tammi

    I lost “little one” in February 2004, and “sweet pea” in August 2004. I, along with my husband and children long for the day to hold them in our arms.

    At the time I was a missionary living in a culture where abortion is completely accepted and encouraged, and life before birth holds no value. Through showing my grief, and sharing how God was healing my pain, God opened the door of healing for several women who had aborted or miscarried their babies. They were able to start their healing process as the deep grief from a mother’s heart was validated. Deep inside, they knew that they had lost something precious, regardless of what their culture communicated.

    Please pray for the many women around the world whose pain of losing a child is silenced because it is not deemed worthy.

    Thank you for doing this, Angie.

  • Anonymous

    I lost our second baby Feb. 3, 2005 at 18 weeks. I found out last Wed. that the baby I am carrying does not have a heartbeat anymore. I am 13 weeks pregnant. I have been waiting this last week, hoping to miscarry on my own rather than have another D&C. I have been torn between the reality of what I saw on the ultrasound and the hope of a miracle while I still have this baby in my womb.

  • Choofy Mama

    My name is JEN, and our 2nd daughter Catriana was stillborn full-term @ 41w in January 2007. She was 12lbs, 8oz and I birthed her vaginally.

    We are expecting again in February, and I would appreciate thoughts/prayers for God to allow us to bring this one home.

    JEN

  • Rebecca

    My name is Rebecca. I lost my 2nd child to miscarriage around 6 weeks in October 2004.

  • Georgia’s blog

    Thank you Angie for this…
    I lost a baby in 1986 and another in 1987 (both to abortion). I was blessed with a Godly man, we have been married 20 years and have two beautiful children Andrew 19 and our precious 15yo daughter passed away in April in 2008. The pain is still so deep…

  • Melody

    My name is Melody. I have two beautiful children. My son Ronan is 6 & my daughter Tommie is 4. In October 2005 I very unexpectedly found out I was pregnant, but lost my baby the following month (11/22/05), at 10 weeks. I then lost another baby March 10 of this year, and my 3rd on August 4th. I have since decided that I can't go through that again, and we will not be trying to get pregnant again. Instead, we pray another little one will find it's way to our family via adoption.

  • Richardzmom

    I have three “angel babies” – one I lost at 11 weeks in 1997, one at 8 1/2 weeks five years ago, and one at 6 1/2 weeks New Year’s Eve four years ago. I also have a 31 month old that reminds me of Gods’ sweet mercies and blessings…I look forward to the day that I “meet” my other children. I had a “common” bacteria called ureaplasma that interfered with the rate at which the nutrients passed from me to my babies and in turn they died…at the time that I was diagnosed it was “not very known about” and we had gone through thousands of dollars of all kinds of other testing and this was found with a fifty dollar culture test – I highly recommend that women that have had miscarriage in their first trimester ask for this very simple test – it is easily treated with a round of antibiotics by both partners – we did – we now have our little boy. Our specialist said that it was just a “bad” bacteria of the many bacterias that commonly live within us and that about a third of the female population has it and doesn’t even know it…it can also cause what seems to be “infertility” because the environment is “hostile”

  • AllyZabba

    I lost my 3rd child to miscarriage May 14, 2008. I have two wonderful, beautiful children ages 5 and 2, yet I feel that someone is missing. Thank you for your prayers.

  • Robin

    The quote has me in tears forgive me….

    My name is Robin Dayneko

    I had my first miscarriage on November 14th 2007. I was 10 weeks along, but our baby passed away at 7 weeks.

    I went in on 09/15/08 to see my precious baby’s heartbeat at 6 weeks. We learned we miscarried on 09/22/08. I have really been struggling to find God’s hand in this. I struggle with the why, it is not fair, etc. I am still in this darkness. Last week, the doctor told me I have a 60% chance of carrying a child to full term (because of 2 miscarriages in a year), and I need to wait 8-10 months to try again. I think the 2nd part hit me harder than the first. I waited that long between the 1st and 2nd miscarriages, and what did it do for me??? I am having tests done and should know the results in a few weeks. I pray that God would give the doctor’s the wisdom to know what is wrong (if anything), and I pray that there would be a solution. I am blessed to have one healthy child. She will be 3 years old next month, and is such a joy in my life. I am helping out a friend who is on bed rest at 29 weeks….we have a baby carseat in the car incase I need to pick up her son from daycare…..My precious Abby asks daily if we can pick up a baby, and then this morning, “Mama, pick up baby Jesus please” It hurts my heart so badly and would love for my daughter to be a big sister. She is having a hard time understanding where the baby in mommy’s tummy went. She has stopped asking to check on the baby, but still brings it up quite a bit. Please pray for understanding for her.

    Angie, thank you for opening this up……just writing this has helped me recognize how much pain I am in. I think because it is so fresh that I truly have not been working through the grief. God Bless You Angie!!!!!!!!!!

  • Anonymous

    Amazing how a plus sign on one little plastic pregnancy test can change how you see the world forever. We called her/him “Poppy” because at one point I had read that it was only the size of a poppy seed. I miscarried in April 2008 at almost 10 weeks pregnant. It was my first and only pregnancy. I never even got to see a beating heart and yet I have never known love so pure. You would have been due this month, Poppy, We will never forget you

  • Anonymous

    My dear friend lost her twin baby girls one week ago exactly at 22 weeks. One baby had an infection and both babies hearts stopped. Please pray for her she is in need of prayer for strength and hope.

    Also, my sweet sister, who was in the midst of a drug addiction which she has since recovered from, had an abortion 5 years ago this month and I pray for what would have been my first niece or nephew… precious baby.

    THANK YOU!!!!!

  • karina

    My name is Karina. In our quest to have a fourth child, we lost 3 babies. Trista went to heaven on August 28, 2003 at 6 weeks gestation. Twins, Sam and David went to heaven on March 30, 2004 at 7 weeks gestation. We have been blessed with 2 other healthy boys since then. So, I have 3 with Jesus, 5 with me and all in God’s hands.

    I would also covet your prayers right now for my niece, Amber. She is 28 weeks pregnant with Mason, who is a Trisomy 18 baby, his condition is not compatible with life. This incredible young woman has made the decision to carry Mason full term and allow him to live every moment that God has given him.

  • Mayhem And Miracles

    I never knew there was a day set aside to remember child loss. I lost our second child to premature spontaneous delivery (miscarriage of our developed child) in late 1998, four days before my husband’s 31st birthday and three days before our state would legally issue a death certificate and recognize our child as an official human. He was due on Mother’s Day. I am writing to say that I will pray with you for these families. It was through this loss and the subsequent miracle of our daughter – who was pronounced dead in utero but went on to be born full term and in perfect health – that I had my first true experience with the “peace that passes all understanding.” I literally can not describe it. So while I know the deep pain and tremendous longing that still exists for our baby, I have also experienced first hand the hope that only those of us who have endured such a deep loss also have such a TREMENDOUS blessing awaiting us in Heaven – to meet our children again or for the very first time! Talk about treasures in Heaven! And they will be spared all of life’s pain in the very bosom of Jesus while they await our arrivals. Wow! Thank you for your honest site and your ministry. You are a beautiful blessing.

  • Anonymous

    My name is Joanna Borrego.
    I lost my 1st child to a miscarriage at 9 weeks.
    I lost my 2nd child Baby Faith at 34 weeks. Faith was stillborn due to a genetic disorder.

    God Bless you all
    I am praying

  • Stretch Mark Mama

    Well, goodness sakes, almost 700 postings, and I was tearing up by about # 6. I miscarried my second pregnancy around 10 weeks. It was devastating on me both emotionally and physically. I will never forget those long, dark nights where I shook my finger at the stars.

    But all that pain prompted us to move a different direction (eventually)…onto adoption. A blessed path and some beautiful surprises.

  • ski

    I gave birth to my sweet little boy Jordan on October 23 1998, not long before I turned 18. After being in the NICU for 4 months battling countless infections, I chose to take him off life support and let him rest with God. Sometimes I wonder if it was the right choice. My husband and I lost our 3rd pregnancy the day i turned 25 (12/7/05). I was only 8 wks along, but we named her Aubry Kallan. Jordan would be 10 this year and Aubry going on 3, I think of them often. We have two living children, Morgan and Will. They will be 7 and 1 next weekend.

  • Mike and Gail

    We were 19 weeks preggo… We went to the Dr.’s to find out what God had blessed us with. We got the sad news that there was no heart beat. It has been 15 years. I still think of that little one.

    Your blog is a blessing. You have such strength.
    Thank you for your prayers.

  • Lorraine

    I lost my first and only pregnancy about 11 years ago at 7 weeks along. We have since adopted 3 beautiful children. Just this last July we lost a little girl through a birth mother changing her mind. Come to find out, the birth mother was an emotional scammer and has never been pregnant. She has been doing this to hopeful adoptive parents for several years now. Even though the baby we lost wasn’t even real, she was SO real to me, my husband and our children. We are still mourning the loss of her, or at least the thought of her.

  • aunt ash

    Precious niece,
    Emily Elizabeth
    born still Feb. 22, 2008
    39 weeks. Your prayers are coveted, thanks.

  • Annalien

    My name is Annalien Nell. I live in South Africa. I lost my second baby to a miscarriage at 9 weeks in January 2006. I have since had a boy who is turing 2 in 2 weeks time.

    May I also ask for prayers for my friend, Esda. She and her husband had huge marital problems. One morning after a fight, he shot both their little girls and himself. Today would have been the oldest girl’s sixth birthday.

    My heart goes out to all of you who had lost a precious little one. I am praying that God’s light may shine on each of us.

  • Al’s Girl

    I just wanted to comment and say that I prayed for all the “commenters” on here – and to express from my deepest heart of hearts how very sorry I am for ALL of your losses.

    I also felt impressed to reach out to those of you who lost your child by abortion. Your loss is just as valid as anybody else’s – and I am so thankful that you are allowing the Lord to help you heal from that. I was a single mom who made the very difficult decision to go through with my pregnancy – but I have been in your shoes and I have felt your shame – I have worn that scarlet letter and although the Lord has completely healed me from that sin, I still have great empathy for women who have chosen abortion.

    Finally, I want to say to all the women here that I read a wonderful quote once when I was helping an aquaintance go through a miscarriage – and it may have been quoted in these 600+ comments already – but, “NOTHING LOVED IS EVER LOST” – these children are just as real as your love and your memories – and all of us know how very real they are to God –

    Blessings and peace to all. I pray that the Lord will bring healing to each and every one of you in His time – and that all of us could be used as His divine light in the world – just as Angie has been used in ours.

  • Mainly a midwife

    After six years of infertility we were blessed to be pregnant with twins in 2001 (my IVF was on 9-11). At the 20 week ultrasound we found out that Twin A (Owen) had anencephaly (incompatible with life). Due to complications from that we delivered early. They were born at 33 weeks. When Owen was born, he blinked his eye once, and I held him as his heartbeat faded away(about an hour after birth). We are blessed to have his brother Riley, a healthy 6.5 yr old and we blessed again with Katie Rose, who is 4.5 yrs old.

  • Anonymous

    I wanted to share this powerful message from the radio show “This I Believe.” It is the belief statement of a man who lost a preemie daughter and it’s really personal and fantastic: http://www.npr.org/templates/story/story.php?storyId=95536681

  • Anonymous

    My name is Shellie. I lost my first child (a son) at 14 weeks, six years ago right about now. I literally delivered him in the backseat of the car as we drove to the ER. It was a bit dramatic, but at least I got to see him and hold him, which many women who miscarry do not.

    I lost my daughter, Rebecca, in January of 2004. She was still born at 26 weeks, when I also delivered her twin sister, who is now almost five years old.

    Every night when we say our prayers together, we pray for all the babies in heaven, all the babies in the hospital, and all the babies in their mommies’ tummies, and we have done so since before she even understood what the words meant.

    God bless you, Angie. You make me laugh or cry on such a regular basis.
    Shellie

  • Anonymous

    I lost one my quadruplets at about 13 weeks. I have 3 survivors…all boys who are now 7 years old. Thank you so much…for allowing me to release my tears and for allowing me to remember…when no one else does.

  • nowamomoffour

    I feel really bad posting here and I hope that noone feels hurt by my doing so. I gave up my baby as a freshman in high school, walking down a journey that God did not intend for me to. I am now a women and a mother of four beautiful children and I love the Lord with all my heart. I want to honor and remember the baby that I chose not to have. I am a believer in Jesus and I know that I am forgiven, but when i read the postings here from all these women, my heart is TRULY BROKEN and devastated for the women here that didn’t choose this tragedy for their families and for their babies. I am on my knees tonight praying for you and your families and for the pain that you feel. Lord, please wipe the tears from the faces of these women and give them a peace that only comes from You.

  • Anonymous

    My name is Jennifer. We lost our first child at 8 weeks in July this year. Thank you for praying.

  • Matt and Stacey

    My name is Stacey. Matt and I lost 3 children to miscarriage..Jan, 1995, Mar, 1995, and Jan 2000. They were each very difficult to go through but God used those experiences for me to be able to minister to other moms. He has blessed us with 3 amazing children that keep us in stitches every day! I am now so thankful for the “laughing times” that he has given me!

  • Anonymous

    My name is Katie.
    We lost our first child at 12 weeks in August of 2000. We went on to have 4 beautiful children without ever really discussing the pain that losing our first child caused both of us. Only recently have we openly talked and cried about it, and your blog (as well as others) have shown me the path to my, and our healing. Thank you.

  • Tammy

    Angie, thank you for doing this, and for your prayers. I’ve been reading your blog since March and have found much strength in your story. My name is Tammy, and our first baby, Grace Elizabeth, died at 18 wks and was born still a little over a week later. Turner Syndrome was suspected but never confirmed. I’m now anxiously awaiting our second baby, 17 wks into the pregnancy.

  • Rhonda

    My name is Rhonda. I lost my first child in August of 1999. The second 2 years later. Both miscarriages. I don’t have any children other than the ones that went to heaven way too early. And please include my sister-in-law in your prayers. She lost her son at 7 months. He’s name was Jayden. We never named our children since we were only about 6 to 8 weeks.

  • Jodi

    On June 4, 2008, we lost our baby boy, Cory, due to a miscarriage. I was 16 weeks along and he was due in late November of this year. I pray for everyone who has lost a child. Thank you Angie for bringing us all together! :)

  • lynette

    I have lost five babies to miscarriage,

    “sometimes miracles arrive
    so tiny that we cannot feel
    the weight of them
    and yet we are still changed,
    and we are blessed none the less…”

    Kimberly du Montbrun

  • Julie

    I had a tubal pregnancy on February 1, 2007 at 5 weeks and a second tubal pregnancy on February 25, 2008 at 5 1/2 weeks. I lost my both tubes as a result of my pregnancies. I have had a more difficult time recovering emotionally and mentaly from the last one because it seemed so final. However God has shown us through our journey a direction to adopt. I am grateful for God’s sustaining word. It brings comfort in so many difficult situations. I am reading in a Bible study to look through trials and circumstances with grateful eye. After reading some of these comments, I am grateful to God I have only had 2 losses and not 3 or 4. He has spared me hurt. Thank you Father!

  • Anonymous

    Hello,
    I am not quite sure that this may be the time or place, or that you would even want the word abortion mentioned here. But I would like to stand beside any of the others here who have lost their babies to abortion. I myself at 16 years of age, was literally driven to a clinic and told this is what was going to happen by my x boyfriend/X husband …yes, I eventually gained a little wisdom and left.
    I believe life begins at conception, and am pro-life today….sadly a day too late for my baby, whom I wanted so badly and still yearn for to this day.
    I feel I have had a second chance as becoming a mother… today after struggling to get pg and remarried, I have 2 children.
    May I offer many prayers and a book titled Surrendering The Secret. You may pick it up at a Lifeway bookstore.
    Praying for every one here.
    The statistics are there are 40% of women of child bearing age today that have had an abortion.
    God Bless the Hope Clinic and for education for this young generation coming up today.
    PRAYING!!!

  • Julee

    Dear Angie, thank you for all you are doing for grieving mommys everywhere. I lost my 6 mos old daughter Gayge to SIDS many years ago. Oh the wonderful things the Lord has taught me through that dark valley. Since then I had been belssed with many children through adoption. In the past few years I had lost two babies in early pregnancy (I am 49 yrs old) and hardest of all was our precious 2 yr olds death April 3rd this past spring. Jonathan died after a long illness and one month after bone marrow transplant for aplastic anemia. He was such an incredible gift from God to us. He was a surprise domestic newborn adoption (Down Syndrome). God is always good.
    Julee
    mommy to many
    waiting for Heaven to meet Jesus face to face and be reunited with the babies I miss here

  • Pete, Alison and Charlie

    I miscarried my first baby at 12 weeks. My second child, Will, was diagnosed at 12 weeks gestation with Meckel-Gruber syndrome, a genetic condition which rendered him ‘incompatible with life’. I carried him to term and we had fifteen precious minutes with him before he went to Heaven. My third child, Charlie, escaped the condition Will had, but was born with an incurable congenital heart condition called Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome. He will be five next month and is truly the light of our life. However his future is very uncertain – the oldest child with his condition in the UK is only 17. We have been praying for you and your family for such a long time now. Thank you for praying for all of us other mums out here who have lost their precious little ones. With love X
    PS Both of our boys have blogs – feel free to check them out if you’d like to!

  • Gina

    My name is Gina. I lost my third child to miscarriage in August 2001. I found out I was pregnant with our forth child on this third babys due-date. If the third baby had lived I would not have had Gareth. I still cry over the baby we never knew but I know my life is better for our lovely boy who will be 6 next month. I pray and feel for the hundreds of women who are also leaving their coments remembering their babies on this Blog. Thank you Angie. xoxo

  • Amy Waldron

    I lost our second child to miscarriage at 12 weeks in May of 2002, but my Lord has blessed us with three beautiful boys and we hope to adopt two little girls in the near future!

  • Melisa

    In memory of Allison Makenna Bell, Sept. 1, 1999 – Sept. 1,1999 and
    Michael Andrew Bell, Aug. 5, 2000-Sept. 15, 2000. These were two incredible children who changed our lives forever! This day, we remember and are grateful!

  • midlife mommy

    I had a miscarriage in May 2001 and in March 2003. Hugs and prayers to everyone.

  • okp

    I just prayed.

  • The Werdebaugh Family

    I lost my first child due to medically-induced abortion, as my health was incompatible at the time to carry a child. It scarred me so badly, that when I became pregnant with my second child (my miracle . . .was told couldn’t have more children – long story) I fought through the pregnancy to carry him to term despite my circumstances, and flat-lined on delivery but am happy to say we are both here today. Praise God for the miracles that help me get through the losses.
    Praying for you and all sisters in Christ who visit this page.

  • Anonymous

    My name is Julie. We lost our third child when I miscarried at 16weeks. The baby was due on December 24, 1996. Every year we have put a special ornament on our tree to remember. Praying over all of you here.

  • Michelle

    My name is Michelle…..I am blessed with four beautiful children here on Earth, and I have a band of 5 angels watching over our family…3 grew wings this past year alone. We all know that we fall in love as soon as we see that second line on the test….
    I see all of our angels playing together in the Perfect Paradise, watching over their families….smiling, giggling and surrounded by Our Father’s Glory. Prayers being lifted up in all of our names today….and always.

  • Anonymous

    My name is Sarah and I have had 2 miscarriages. The first in December 2007 and the second in June 2008. Thank you for doing this.

  • Sara

    My name is Sara I write from Italy. I lost my sweeth Giorgia in February 2002. She was 48 days old, she had a surgery for a problem with her little heart. Love you Angie. Sara.

  • Kelly Ellison

    In 1994 at a routine doctor’s appointment to hear our babies hearbeat, we found out our baby had died. I was around 15 weeks along.
    My husband had been out of the church for years. He had gone through a “wild” stage in his teens and early 20s and was not comfortable being in church. We live in a small town and he felt like everyone in church knew his past. He had just started coming back to church but was VERY uncomforable. When we found out about the baby dieing, our church was such an example of being Jesus’ hands and feet. The way they loved us, prayed for us and comforted us was such an example of His love. It profoundly changed my husband. He saw that they did not care about his past but they just wanted to love us. He has been active in our church since that point.

  • Anonymous

    My name is Sara I write from Italy. I lost my sweeth Giorgia in February 2002. She was 48 days old, she had a surgery for a problem with her little heart. Love you Angie. Sara.

  • Kelly

    My husband and I gave our first child up for adoption when we were 17. I am still fortunate to see her once a year. We were married at 20 then I miscarried a 10 weeks and had the D&C 9 years ago today. I had no idea that this day was a rememberance day. It is weird to me that the day I lost my baby is a rememberance day. Thank you for your beautiful blog and all the great things you do on here!
    Kelly

  • Sara

    My name is Sara I write from Italy. I lost my sweeth Giorgia in February 2002. She was 48 days old, she had a surgery for a problem with her little heart. Love you Angie. Sara.

  • Bri

    Thank you, Angie.

    My husband and I lost a daughter to miscarriage after trying to conceive for 5 years. It was devastating. We too hang an ornament on the tree for her. We named her Kary after our moms – Karen and Mary.

    We are now the proud parents of Gabe who came into our family via adoption. I do wish I could hold them both and that they could know eachother.

  • The Ellis Family

    I lost my first child to miscarriage in February 2003.

    Kelly Ellis

  • AveryGraceRay

    My name is Beth and we lost our second baby to miscarriage at 7 weeks in Feb 2007 and then our third to miscarriage at 12 weeks in Oct 2007. I am currently pregnant with a baby girl due Dec 18th. Prayers for all that have lost children.

  • Anonymous

    I lost twins my first pregnancy in 1985; I lost another child to miscarriage in 1992. My 4 year old son lost his battle with cancer in 1995. God has blessed me with 6 living children but it never completely takes away the ache for those already in His presence.

  • Kristin

    Angie
    My name is Kristin Smith. We lost a baby to miscarriage early in pregnancy this past February 19th. I was able to work through that loss because of your blog. We are now pregnant again with another baby and a little over 9 weeks along. Please pray for the safety and health of this new little one as I am still at times filled with fear that we could lose this one also. Thank you for your prayers and I am honored to pray for the hundreds of others on these pages.
    Kristin
    http://www.dominicandkristin.blogspot.com

  • The Hulocks

    My name is Danielle. We lost our first child, Micah, to miscarriage in December 2006.

    Angie, I have been following your blog for the past few months. Thank you for your openess in sharing your feelings and your life. You have been such an encouragement to me in so many ways. God bless you and your family!!

  • carriex3

    My name is Carrie, I have 3 blessings through adoption, and have had a lot of pain and loss with pregnancy.
    Baby 1 miscarriage 1996
    Baby 2 Gabriel stillbirth August 14 2002
    Baby 3 miscarriage December 2003

  • Anonymous

    I haven’t lost a baby to miscarriage but I have a few friends who have

    L-two miscarriages, one still born at 38 weeks.

    J-miscarriage at 7 weeks

    L-miscarriage at 7/8 weeks, twins.

    I know they will appreciate everyone’s prays.

  • Rachel

    My name is Rachel. I lost my second child 14 hours after birth due to conditions incompatible with life. I lost my 4th child due to early miscarriage and my 5th child due to 20 week fetal demise. I have two living children and desperately want another one. It makes me so sad to see this many comments on your page of women who have gone through this! What a good idea.

  • carrie

    My name is Carrie. I lost two children to miscarriage. One at 7 weeks (2004), the other at 12 weeks (2005). I have struggled for the last three years with the loss and often felt that my loss wasn’t recognized becuase they were early term miscarriages. My (former) doctor even told me that this was common and she wouldn’t even considered testing until a third miscarriage and to just keep getting pregnant. It has been heartbreaking. I am regular reader here and want to thank you for opening yourself up, as you will probably never know the peace and comfort you have brought to me and so many others.

  • Anonymous

    I lost a child due to Miscarriage in 1993. We lost a child to miscarriage in 1996 and in 2006. I miscarried at 11 weeks, 8 weeks and 6 weeks..in between 1996 and 2006 we were blessed to have 3 beautiful, healthy boys in 1998, 1999 and 2005. Also, my best friend of 20 years is currently pregnant with her first child – she spotted/bled for over two weeks and was told by her midwife that she was surely miscarrying and she just needed to accept it and move forward. It is now 3 weeks later and she is STILL pregnant with strong heart tones…Please pray for her that the spotting was only due to her RH issue (she’s neg.) and her precious first born will arrive healthy. Thank you for this opportunity to share and grieve and remember.

  • Holly

    My name is Holly. I lost my second child to miscarriage at 13 weeks last month. Praying for all of you and your losses.

  • Billie

    I have lost 4 babies to early miscarriage, but God blessed me with 2 wonderful and healthy living children. my crown in heaven is full…

  • Ashlee Tomes

    My name is Ashlee, and I lost my first and only little girl, London Cloe, to HLHS on Sept. 13, 2007. She was 2 days old and did not survive her first open-heart surgery, the Norwood procedure. I am so blessed to have a healthy 3-year old little boy, Jagger, and God has granted my husband and I another sweet boy, Jack, due in March. We have found out that Jack’s heart is healthy, but we still have the 20-week ultrasound next week. I find myself being very insecure at times about this pregnancy because I, too, was informed of London’s life-threatening condition at my 20-week ultrasound. Life changed forever at that point. It has been 13 months since God called London home, but the loss is still so great. I so appreciate the prayers and the support from other mothers and families who know my pain. God bless all of you. And to you, Angie, I just found your blog today through Rebecca Butcher, and I am in awe of your faith and your testimony during this time. Audrey was beautiful, and I know that she, just like my London, is perfect and whole right now. God bless you.

    Ashlee Tomes
    Sonora, KY
    Ashlee.Tomes@Hardin.kyschools.us

  • Bobbie

    My name is Bobbie and I lost my 5th child to miscarriage at 15 weeks on Sept. 9, 2003.

    Then on Aug. 29, 2006, My precious Jt was born 15 weeks early. He lived 8 1/2 incredible months. Went through so many surgeries and procedures with a smile on his face and left us May 17, 2007. He never came home to our home. He was in the NICU his entire 8 1/2 months but, he did go home. To his heavenly home.

    He wasn’t supposed to live 24 hours but, God had other plans for him. JT and the baby boy I lost in 2003 are always on my heart. There isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t think of them and know that I will be reunited with them. They were a blessing in my life, and have taught me so much.

  • Anonymous

    I lost my 1st baby to a miscarriage at only 6 weeks. I lost my 2nd baby when he was 8 days old. He developed an infection and his little body couldn’t fight it. I was blessed with our twins through the miracle of adoption and then my beautiful baby girl a year later!God is good.

  • Tami S

    What wonderful testimonies of faith for so many women who have posted here. They are in my prayers today! After reading these stories of strength and loss, I have a prayer request of my own. I’m from South Dakota, and in a few short weeks, our state will vote to ban abortion, except in cases of rape and incest. I know one of the difficult issues that has come up is babies that have circumstances that are incompatible with life. Some people feel that mothers should have the right to abort these babies! I would just ask you to pray for the voters of our state to vote with their hearts and to think of these precious babies who should not be taken from their mothers’ wombs. Thank you so much, Angie for your wonderful words and examples of faith. You, and Audrey Caroline, have made me stronger in my own faith!

  • Anonymous

    Three babies lost to miscarriage.

    First, July 1996, 8 weeks.

    Second, June 1995, 16 weeks.

    Third, January 1996, 10 weeks.

    As long ago as they were, the pain still exists.

  • Anonymous

    Angie–

    Once again you are amazing,

    I have had 3 m/c’s and one ectopic. Also my 13 month old daughter passed away from a heart defect caused my her chromosome abnormality.

    I do have a 12 yr old son (biological) and a daughter adopted at birth who is now 3.

    I alwasy tell everyone I will be busy eternity with all the babies I didn’t get to know and my baby girl that I very much knew

    Tina

  • Anonymous

    My name is Amber. I lost our 1st baby in July of 2007 at 10 weeks. I have a beautiful baby boy born in June of 2008. I still miss my first baby but I know I will see him again.

  • The Maturin 5

    My name is Stacey and during my 2nd pregnancy which was a twin pregnancy I lost one of my babies during the 13th week, July 2005. I then continue to carry my little angel, Mary Claire, full term and she was completely healthy. I am so glad that I stumbled across your blog and will be praying for all the babies in heaven today that are playing with Jesus.
    I have 3 childre, Alex 10, Mary Claire 2, Russell Henry 5 months.
    Thank you and I appreciate you sharing your life and family.

  • Kari

    My name is Kar, my daughter Laci was born in 1987 with hydrocephalus and she lived 5 2/3 months. I knew at 5 months what was wrong but chose not to abort her. I now volunteer at a Pregnancy Care Center..she was such a miracle…

  • Alison

    My name is Alison and we lost our second child to a missed miscarriage at 10 weeks in February 2008. We named our angel Alaina and have little remembrances around our house to help us hold her dear even though she is not physically present.

  • Jen

    I had a m/c July 3, 2006 at 11 weeks gestation and, like many others , nothing had developed past 8 weeks and I was unaware that my body had betrayed me like that.

    I am blessed in that I now have an AMAZING 14 month bundle of energy named Jackson Glen that keeps my on my toes every day.

    I still think of the baby that I lost and what might have been but would not trade that for anything since I know that God made Jackson just for me!

    I also want to remember my aunt who delivered a still born little boy 28 years ago and also my BFF who had a m/c last year.

    Thank you Angie! You are an inspiration. Your strength and belief in God has given me a new out look on my faith.

    ♥ – Jenifer (Akron, OH)

  • Missy

    angie, i am posting on behalf of a dear friend. she lost her first angel in november 2006. as you know, much pain and many questions followed her and her husband. when the day came of her anticipated due date, life was slowly getting “back to normal” (that was april 2007). in june she discovered she was 1 month pregnant. february 28, 2008 she gave birth to a very very bouncing baby boy. tonight we’re going to have girls night. i never knew of this day, and do not know if she knows of its honor, but this 15th of October will have an extra special meaning… not just a night spent w/ best friends and elton john, but a night of rememberance of the journey of motherhood, womenhood, and sisterhood. god bless you angie.

  • Jennifer

    My name is Jennifer, and we lost our first baby to miscarriage last year in August 2007. We lost our 2nd baby to an ectopic pregnancy December 11th, 2007. Almost a year later, we’re still trying for another baby.

  • Kristi

    I lost my third child to miscarriage in 2005. I have three beautiful girls, but often still long for the other.

  • Mom of three and two angels

    My name is Marsha Hasty. I lost a child, Jordan last August due to miscarriage. May 16th I gave birth to my little angel, Mia Hope Hasty. I was 20 weeks pregnant and we do not know why her heart stopped. Thankfully, I have three very healthy children, but my heart aches for the two that I have lost. Please pray for us, as we pray for all of you!

    Thank you Angie. You are amazing!

  • Anonymous

    My name is Jessica. We lost our second daughter, Reagan Julia, in April of this year to anencephaly.

  • Teesa and Bill

    Father God, as I read the comments on this blog, I have to acknowledge that You are in control of all of these women’s lives. Please comfort them today as they remember their lost children, whom You have called home. There are so many of them, but You can touch each one’s heart and already have. You are the Comforter in these situations – please bless them today.

    In Jesus’ name I pray.

  • Stephanie

    Angie, Please use your influence to speak out to the fact that Obama is PRO-CHOICE and many, many more unborn babies will die if he is elected.
    This is so urgent and people will listen to you!!!
    Your sister in Christ-
    Stephanie

  • Stacy D

    My name is Stacy. I lost my first child to a miscarriage due to triploidy at 13 weeks on November 2, 2007.

    I lost my second child, Isaac Timothy, due to complications (an omphalocele, severe kyphoscoliosis, and hypoplastic lungs) on October 7, 2008. He was born alive, and lived for the sweetest 16 minutes of my life before going to be with Jesus.

    Thank you so much for praying, particularly in the rawness of the grief my husband and I are currently experiencing.

  • hhenkind

    My name is Hilary. My first baby, Ryan, was born still at 26 weeks on April 3, 2002. I also miscarried a little girl at 10 weeks gestation on October 15, 2004.

    I am so sorry for the loss of your beautiful daughter.

  • Jill

    My Sister, Heather, lost her daughter, Addilynn Rose to SIDS on April 25th, 2008. She was 3 months old.

    I will pray for all of you courageous souls.

    Jill

  • Ashley

    Thank you so much for honoring all of these precious babies.

    We lost our third daughter, Faith Ann on May 22, 2008, she passed away after spending five precious hours with us. She had Trisomy 18.

    I will be praying for all the precious families who have also walked this difficult road.

    Ashley
    http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/faithwebb

  • Anonymous

    My name is Jeannine Ursillo. I lost my first child to miscarriage in June of 2002. I lost my son Justin John on 1/10/08 he was one day shy of 5 months old. He had a rare auto immune disease called HLH. We also hade a nother miscarriage at 16 week in May of 08 We are cautiously expecting agiain please pray God brings this one to full term and make him or her HEALTHY

  • moxiegirl4ever

    Dear “anonymous who lost her baby at 14″ or anyone who has aborted, for that matter,
    Jesus has already paid the debt in full for your abortion over 2,000 years ago. He loved you knowing what you would do…at 14, you were indeed forced. Even if you had been fully aware at 30, Jesus paid your debt -for sins on purpose or unknowingly…and loves you and has totally forgiven you and your parents. You just have to receive His forgiveness. Honey, this is your sin- not receiving payment for a debt you can never pay. Unforgiveness eats at us like a cancer. Dear One, receive all Jesus has for you. The Father loves you so much. He sent His Son to die for you and everyone else, knowing full well everything you and I would do. You cannot make up for it. That is adding to the cross. Stop trying to beat yourself up enough to pay. Accept His perfect love for you. He sings over you with songs of deliverance. In Christ, Lianna

  • aLise

    My name is Alise. I have beautiful twins that are my miracles as well. They are six. I lost my first baby at 11 weeks in October 2007 and my second baby in July 2008. I cling to the hope that I will once again give birth to a health child, or two!

  • Gwendolyn

    I lost a much-prayed-for baby after six years of secondary infertility in July of 1998. I was only nine weeks pregnant, but had seen the heartbeat twice. Then in August of 2003 we lost a little boy, Elijah, 17 weeks into my pregnancy due to a blood clot. We were able to hold him and name him, and we have pictures. I tell myself often that my babies are in Heaven playing together waiting for the rest of us. :o )

  • Anonymous

    My name is Debbi. I lost my first baby due to miscarriage in November 2002. I then lost my second baby due to miscarriage in May 2003.

  • Erica and Colin

    Hi Angie,

    My name is Erica. This is my first comment but I have been following your blog for some time now. The Lord has used your words, your experience to minister to me and encourage me greatly in the last few months.

    My husband and I have undergone three in vitro cycles in the last year. We lost nearly a dozen embryo babies through these treatments. The last cycle resulted in a pregnancy (triplets!) but we learned in June of this year that I had a miscarriage and lost all three babies. It has been incredibly difficult, especially since we are at the age where a lot of our friends are pregnant and/or have young children.

    We are currently going through the process to adopt a child(ren) out of the foster care system and are excited (and a little anxious!) to meet the child(ren) that God has hand-picked for our family!

    Thank you for your prayers! And thank you for recognizing and honoring all of our babies today. They are forever in our hearts and forever a part of our families, and it’s nice to see that others are remembering with us… :)

  • Tracy

    My name is Tracy. We lost our third child (we have almost 3 yr old twins) to miscarriage in August of 2008.

    Praying for all of you as well…

  • Anonymous

    I lost my baby in March of this year at 10 weeks. I did not get to see it on ultrasound or anything.

  • laura g

    I lost my 3rd son on October 21,2004 at 17 weeks gestation due to a birth defect. Next Tuesday, it will have been 4 years since my beloved son went to heaven and I thankyou for praying for each of us as this is a very difficult time.

  • nellieboo

    My name is Danelle and I miscarried my first baby at 10 wks in March ’08. It has been the hardest thing I’ve gone through (and I’ve already lost both my parents). I am currently 9 wks pregnant and am hoping this little one sticks. Thank you for sharing your story, you have an amazing faith.

  • Heidi

    My name is Heidi. My sister Amy lost her baby girl Savannah Aug 12, 2003 to SIDS. We were blessed to have her in our lives for just 7 weeks, but are thankful for that.

  • Anonymous

    i found out that i lost my first child to miscarriage on july 15, 2008. he/she would have been around 11 weeks.

    thank you for sharing your heart through this blog, angie.

  • alihutch

    Hi Angie,
    I had a miscarriage around Labor Day 2007 at 10 weeks and then another early miscarriage in February 2008. In three weeks I will deliver our second child, but I will never forget the two that we lost.
    God bless us all!
    Alison

  • Cindy Tucker

    My name is Cindy and I lost my second child in the middle of my pregnancy to a rare infection of the pregnancy. It has been many, many years since that time and I have been blessed with two sons to go along with the daughter I already had. NOW, I have a wonderful granddaughter and a grandson on the way.

    I will never forget Stephen (name I had already chosen for him), but I feel I can honor him best by living the best life I can in memory of him, knowing that he is in the hands of the one that made us all.

  • moxiegirl4ever

    To the Momma of Titus Jude,

    Please do not be mad at God, run to Him. He did not take your baby. The enemy of your soul killed your baby. Titus Jude is with God now but God did not kill him. The thief (Satan)only comes to steal, kill and destroy. Jesus came that we might have life and have it abundantly.
    Satan is the god of this world and God had wonderful plans for Titus Jude. He had plans and an expected end for your baby.Premature death is not expected. Satan is the one to be mad at. Run to God, even if you aren’t sorry yet (like the prodigal son)…The Father is waiting for you to run in His arms and waiting to comfort you. I’m not telling you not to be angry, I’m asking you to direct it at the right being. I pray for your precious heart, in Jesus’ name.

  • Anonymous

    My name is Angela. I lost my 3rd baby, Levi Anthony, on July 18th, 2008 due to Trisomy 13.

  • ashleigh

    Lost twin boys march ’08 at 24 weeks.

  • Anonymous

    My name is Heather, and we lost our second baby, Eden, on Thanksgiving Day, 2005, at 14 weeks of pregnancy. God has been so faithful, and He taught us so much. Blessed be His name!

  • THAT GIRL

    I lost my first baby due to early miscarriage in 05.

    I lost another baby, due to a blood clot in her umbilical cord a year ago in December.

    I have three beautiful children on earth with me.

    My heart is still sad, and loves my babies lost…

    takingheart.blogspot.com

  • Anonymous

    Hey Angie,
    My name is Kelly and I have been following your blog since last Spring. I was directed to it one day when I was on Selah's website. Your words captivated me and your life story captured my heart.
    My husband and I found out in late March 2008, that we were expecting our first child together. We were surprised at first, but quickly fell in love with our baby that God gave us. I began having complications mid-April and found out on April 22, that we had lost our baby at 7 weeks. We were devestated. When my doctor released me, we began trying again immediately. In June we found out we were pregnant again. We were excited, but I just didn't feel the joy I had before. I think in my heart I knew something was wrong. We found out in July it was a complete molar pregnancy so we had to go through another D&C.
    Your words have helped me in so many ways. I check your blog regularly for words of encouragement. Thank you, Angie, for sharing your and Audrey Caroline's story.

  • Krista

    I actually have been doing this on my blog this month in rememberance of Pregnancy loss awareness month. I would love to have someone pray for me as well. My name is Krista. After dealing with infertility and a couple of miscarriages, we found out we were expecting twin girls this November. We were so excited. I had the perfect pregnancy. At 23 weeks, my water broke and 3 days later I delivered Brooke Janae and Alexcyn Grace. Brooke was only with us for a few moments. We spent 3 days with Alexcyn in the NICU unit before we decided she was too small for this earth and we had to let her go. It has been t3 months now and I can’t stop thinking about them. I miss them so much. I would welcome prayers of peace for my mind and heart. Thank you so much!

  • lindabelle

    My daughter lost her second child to miscarriage on April 18, 2008. She was 11 weeks. As painful as it was to see her go through this it reminds us that we have even more to go to Heaven for. We know we will get to meet our little Angel one day.

  • Jill

    I lost my first child Bailey Maddison on May 9th 2007. My husband and I had been prayerfully trying to get pregnant for nearly a year. In many ways our loss broke me, but with God’s love built our marriage up. Over the next year we tried to get pregnant each month with great disappointment. One year and three days after our loss, May 12th 2008 I discovered (beyond belief) that I was pregnant again. We are due in January.
    I often have to give my worries and concerns Jesus to carry for this child. But I am comforted that she has a big sister in heaven that is watching over us. I take much solice in the fact that when I go to be with the Lord he will welcome me into heaven and give me my sweet Baby Bailey and with love all around will say, “We’ve been waiting.”

  • Miranda

    My name is Miranda. I lost my first child to miscarriage in January 2007. My heart told me it was a boy. I can’t wait for the day that I will get to meet him.

  • Anonymous

    We lost our only biological child in a miscarriage in the summer of 1993. We have since lost 2 children to pre-adoption disruption and our oldest adopted daughter has not been safe enough to live with our family for 5 years. Please pray for those children that have been “lost” because of infantile abuse and neglect also.

  • One funny gal

    As I sit here and read your post tears are streaming down my face. I too am an honorary member of this tragic club. After trying to conceive for what seems like forever I became pregnant. My husband and I were really happy, well our dreams were shattered a few weeks later when I had a miscarriage. I am truly sorry for every person who has been affected by the loss of a baby. My thoughts and prayers are with all of you (us). I will light my candle tonite at 7pm in honor of October 15th, won’t you join me?

  • Stephanie Jennings

    My name is Stephanie. I lost our second child in September of 2005. I was nine weeks pregnant. My first child was born four days before his father’s birthday, and this child was to be due four days before my birthday, which was very special to me. Because it was so early in the pregnancy we don’t know the gender of the baby, but I like to think it was the only girl I carried. So we named this baby Hope, which was the name we held for a girl. Thank you for your prayers, and please know that we’ll be praying for all of you.

  • Baroni Family

    I lost my second child to miscarriage early in my pregnancy, but the day was bittersweet b/c on the day I lost my 2nd child, we were celebrating my first child’s 2nd birthday (10/23/05). Funny how things happen that way….

  • Michelle

    My name is Michelle. After 11 years of marriage, I became pregnant with our first child. I had a miscarriage at 14 1/2 weeks because the umbilical cord wasn’t made correctly. I believe he would have been a boy and his name was Zach. thank you for the blog and the prayers.

  • Jennifer, Eric and Isaiah Heuer

    My name is Jennifer. I lost my first baby to miscarriage in August 2006.

  • Courtney

    My husband and I lost our first daughter, Taylor Grace, at 23 weeks of pregnancy. She became tangled in her cord and after 36 hours of labor, I had to have a C-section on December 7, 2004 to go home empty handed right before Christmas. We also found she had some other conditions, as did I. Throughout all of it, we never turned our backs on God….it only drew us closer to Him.

    http://thelawrencefamily04.blogspot.com

  • Anonymous

    I am asking for prayers for my sister, Melanie, who lost her infant son on June 13 of this year. She does not read this blog to my knowledge but I know the power of prayer that has emerged from Angie’s words and story.

  • Baby Barry’s Mommy

    On July 1, 2008 we found out that our first baby no longer had a heartbeat. I was 9 weeks pregnant. Thanks to a gracious and merciful God, I found out today… of all days… on this very special day of remembrance, that we are expecting our second miracle from Heaven.

  • Tricia Moran

    I haven’t lost a baby, but have a close friend P, who has lost a little girl Lucy at about 30 weeks of pregnancy and another little angel, Poppy, who was born with pulmonary disorder. She survived a lung transplant at 8 months old and then died of an infection about two weeks later. I know their pain is immense still and I hope you can hold her and her husband in your prayers.
    Thank you Angie for your inspiration.

  • Anonymous

    Angie,

    Your story has touched me and I thank you for sharing. I was blessed with a son in January 2005 – the best thing ever. We were so excited to have another baby, but I lost my second baby to a partial molar pregnancy in November 2006, I was 12 weeks along. I was blessed again with a daughter in January 2008. I still think of that baby and I miss him/her deeply. I thank God everyday for the 2 wonderful children here on earth with me and the 1 that is in heaven waiting for me.

  • florence

    My name is Florence Berti. We tried for four long years to conceive. God graciously blessed us with our son, Jacob,in 1997. He is about to turn 11. I miscarried our second child in the fall of 2000. This pregnancy was about 6 weeks of conflicting reports from my doctor. “You have a blighted ovum, and there is nothing there” to “Your counts are 10x higher than what they should be and we see a heartbeat”.I found out I was going to lose the baby on Jacob’s birthday(Nov.16) and chose to carry it until I miscarried naturally. We had previously agreed to watch someone else’s baby while they went on vacation for Thanksgiving and I thought that there would be no way I could have a baby in my house while I was waiting to miscarry my own. The Lord proved Himself strong and He withheld the miscarriage until the night that the baby left our house. He showed me during this miscarriage that He is powerful. He can create something (a beating heart) out of nothing (a blighted ovum that is empty).

    I also miscarried our third child during the summer of 2005. We decided to adopt from Russia at this time and now have our wonderful daughter, Anna, who is 5.

    Thank you Angie, for allowing us the opportunity to share one another’s burdens in this manner. You are a blessing to so many!

    Hope to see you Sunday,
    Florence

  • Heather

    Hi. You are in my prayers also.

    My first pregnancy – fraternal twins. One didn’t make it – 2006.

    Second pregnancy – ended in miscarrage Jan 2008 – 6 weeks

    Third pregnancy – ended in miscarrage August 28, 2008 – 12 1/2 weeks – a little boy.

  • Stacy

    My name is Stacy and I lost my second child to miscarriage in June 2006…We were going to name her Lillian Grace.

  • Erika

    Angie, you are amazing. =)

    I lost a baby to miscarriage a month ago – September 12, 2008 – at 5 weeks 1 day. It was early and for that I am thankful, but I will never forget our little angel. We miss him/her very much and are looking forward to the day when we can meet him/her in heaven with our Lord.

  • Sarah

    Angie, thank you for doing this and for inviting us to share in it.

    My name is Sarah. I lost my my twin daughters, Allison and Emily at 21 weeks in September 2007 due to an infection.

    I lost my second baby due to an early miscarriage in April 2008

    I lost my third baby due to another miscarriage at 7 weeks in May 2008.

  • friendlyfaces

    This week, my baby boy would have been 31 years old! He was our first child, and while reading these comments, I can feel the pain of you young moms. He lived 2 short days, weighing 9 lbs and 22 inches long. He was overdue and had a bowel movement inside me which he aspirated into his lungs. Every year my heart feels a loss, and yet great joy at how God has given me blessings over these years. We then had 3 beautiful daughters and a surprise… a son who is now 22 years old. I cherish each of my children and now my 3 and soon to be 4 grandchildren. I would love to say the pain goes away, and yes, it heals over, but it is never forgotten. God bless all you woman who are hurting today, please know this grandma is praying for you! We didn’t have computers back then…. ha ha
    God can heal your broken hearts one day at a time!
    Blessings!
    Jody

  • cheeseheadlaake

    My heart goes out to all of you moms (and dads) that have lost your children. While I am fortunate enough to have two healthy children, I never take for granted the gift of life. Today, this day, is about all of you parents that have lost your children. I will spend however long I need to tonight reading through all the comments and praying for each of you.

    Faithfully,
    Adam

    P.S. Angie, I hope this isn’t inappropriate, but yesterday I had a fresh reminder of how fragile life is. I don’t have an outlet to get as many people praying at once as yours, Angie, so I’m going to piggyback. I trust you would want nothing more than to have as many people praying as possible and I trust the Lord agrees. While all of us pray for each other today, please say a quick prayer for the McGrail family, whose house exploded (yes, literally) due to a faulty propane tank yesterday. The son sits next to me at work. Everyone (thanks only to our miraculous Lord) is okay (somehow?), but they have lost everything.

    Please say a prayer for the McGrail family as well today.

    http://capitalnews9.com/content/top_stories/125988/investigation-continues-into-house-explosion/Default.aspx

  • Robin

    Angie, I praise God because of you, for how He uses each of us and our pain to reach out to others. I praise Him for the beauty He brings out of brokenness, the good He brings out of horrible circumstances, and the healing He brings out of pain. I will be praying for each of these women who have shared this loss.

    My second baby, “Max” (it’s tradition in our family to give male pre-birth names and avoid calling the baby “it”) was due on my birthday in 2000. In November of 1999, at my appointment at 11 weeks, we could not find a heartbeat. An ultrasound confirmed that my uterus was shrinking and the baby was gone.

    I had 3 more beautiful babies and am pregnant now for the sixth time. In a week, I have my first ultrasound and after “Max” I am always especially eager to hear that first heartbeat!

    Robin

  • jennifer

    My name is Jennifer. I have three sweet little babies in the Father’s arms. Our first was born into Heaven on December 26, 1996, at six weeks. Our second was born into Heaven on June 13, 1997. Our third, Sarah Faith, was diagnosed with Trisomy 8, a condition that is incompatible with life, and passed on to the Father on June 13, 2005.

    I know my post is buried among many others. I hope you know how many prayers I have said in your name and how you have touched my life.

  • Rheta Wise

    My name is Rheta, I lost my first child in 2000 but the Lord allowed me to carry her twin sister to term. In 2003, I had a 2nd miscarriage and lost baby #4.

  • Julie

    My name is Julie and I lost 3 babies (at 9 weeks in Feb 2003, at 14 weeks in July 2003, and at 8 weeks in Dec 2003). We had a healthy girl before them and have had 2 healthy children after them. As hard as it was to lose thodr babies, the Lord was so good through it all. Thank you, Angie, for your blog.

  • Regan

    My name is Regan Peters. I miscarried my first baby on August 29, 2006 and my second baby on May 19, 2007. A year ago today I found out I was pregnant again. God blessed us with a son, Aric Levi, born on June 11, 2008. I still think about my other two babies all of the time. I think it’s harder now that I know what I’m missing out on.

    Thank you for your ministry, Angie. You are truly an inspiration to so many people.

  • Anonymous

    I had a miscarriage at nine weeks…well, i guess then….the baby didn’t have a heartbeat at my first sonogram. I’ve dealt with it by telling myself at least I didn’t have to feel the baby move inside me or see the baby face to face such as yourself. Bless your heart, you are such a strong woman and mother. But I think of that baby all the time.

  • Dawn

    I lost my first baby at what should have been almost 9 weeks. Instead the baby measured 6 weeks 4 days. We found out on April 17, 2008 during a regularly scheduled ultrasound.

  • Anonymous

    I lost a baby to an early miscarraige in November of 1985. Although many years have passed, there are still moments when my adult married children all gather for special occasions that I can’t help but think of the child that we lost. Would he be tall like my son? Or, would she have beautiful blue eyes like both my daughters? Praise the Lord though that we have the assurance that we will one day see him/her in our eternal home- heaven.

  • Kelley

    I made the horrible decision to abort a baby 5 years ago, in June of 2003. I have never forgotten the enormity of my mistake and will never forget this baby, who I always referred to in my prayers and thoughts as “Gracie.”
    But God is a forgiving and gracious God – this story has an amazing ending. My step-mother gave birth to a little girl 2 1/2 years ago and named her Gracie – without me EVER telling her the name of the baby I gave up. My sister, Gracie, has blessed my life so completely and has given me hope that one day I will be able to be a mother again. She is a constant reminder of God’s continued grace, despite our mistakes. My prayers are with all of you today.

  • Mandy

    I have been blessed to have three healthy and happy daughters. However, just this past Monday a coworker of mine lost their newborn daughter to a neurological brainbleed. She had a totally normal and healthy pregnancy, natural, beautiful birth, and then hours later the baby just simply passed away. Her name was Elise for those that would like to pray by name. I simply cannot imagine the pain of losing a child – at any stage.

    Sorry to admit but I always turn the music off when I come to your page because I always have my CD player going. Just as I started to type this comment “You Raise Me Up” by Selah came on and right now I can hear your husband’s most beautiful voice filling the air around me. I have goosebumps. Our God is an Awesome God.

    Be blessed,
    Mandy

  • Anonymous

    Thank you for knowing that a child loss at any week is still a loss. I don’t know what week I was, but I had a positive test (and lots of blood) and the doctor had a negative. I was so naive. Nobody in my life acted like it was that big of a deal. But I mourned very hard. I still don’t think my husband believes I was pregnant. For that reason, I very rarely think of my first precious baby. Thank you for reminding me that I have another baby waiting for me in heaven. Isn’t that sad that I need a reminder? God is so good too, because this would have been the month my baby would have been born.

  • Anonymous

    I have never lost a child, but I support each and every one of you that have. Praying for you all.

    Laura W. (Rocky Face, GA)

  • Anonymous

    My name is Angie. My husband and I lost our first child, Caroline Grace, two months ago today. Her sitution was very similar to Audrey’s. Our Caroline lived 2 love-filled days. We miss her tremendously, but God has given us strength and blessings.

  • postmac

    My name is Becky, we lost our first child to a miscarriage on March 1st 1998, at 8 weeks. God has since blessed us with Joshua, Emily and Trenton. Thank you Angie for letting me remember. Our little one would have been 10 years old this month. Praying for all the other moms out there!

  • Anonymous

    I lost my first child to miscarriage in July 1995. I lost my second child to miscarriage in August 1996. They were both early in pregnancy (6-8 weeks), but I named them anyway. Their names were Grace Hannah and Samuel Isaiah.

  • Shona

    My name is Shona, and the Lord has given me the honor and privilege of raising three sons.

    Our only daughter, Julia, was stillborn on June 25, 2003. We were one week past our due date, when she became tangled up in her cord and went to be with Jesus.

  • Anonymous

    My name is Jessica, in October 2006 my water broke at only five months pregnant. Haley Elizabeth was delivered without much warning, and her twin Jacob Nathaniel had to be delivered the next day because of infection in my body from the amniotic fluid fluid. My heart was broken that I lost our first Children. God has taught us many things since and also gave us new life. We still praise Him

  • Nicole

    Angie,
    I have been lurking here for sometime. Your strength is so inspiring for many. It is so awesome to see how God is using you and your family to minister to others through the death of Audrey. My husband and I have 3 baby boys in heaven. We miscarried a set of boy twins in 2000 and another boy in 2002. God has since blessed with a little girl that is 4 and a baby girl that is 11 weeks. I have PCOS and a host of other problems that make it impossible to carry to term. We thought that we would never have children, but we believe in our God that is faithful and knows our heart. My husband and I are involved in the SHARE program here at our local hospital, so this day is very special and dear to our hearts. Thank you for reminding and honoring these special children for me and so many others.

  • Liz and Will Timmerman

    My beautiful son Luke Thomas was born still on February 19, 2008 at 35weeks and 2 days due to a cord accident. I miss him everyday. We are now 12 weeks pregnant with a little brother or sister for Luke. Please keep us in your prayers as we balance our grief for our son, and the joy and hope we have for our new little one.

    Thank you for this blog Angie.

  • Anonymous

    Hi,

    I lost our baby due to miscarriage at 9 weeks in July. It still hurts even though I try to pretend I moved on. Thank you for doing this and giving women like me an outlet for out grief and acknowledgement for our lost.

  • Anonymous

    I miscarried in September 1986, again in April 1987, and again in December 1987. The last was at 24 weeks gestation. While I never knew for certain, I always believed the baby was a girl. We named her Melinda Shane.

    In 2001, we welcomed our surprise blessing. She is now a healthy 7 year old.

    Thank you for this opportunity to share and remember.

  • April

    My name is April Lieder. Our son, Evan Andrew, was born still into the arms of Jesus on July 29, 2008. I was 36 weeks pregnant. I have found much comfort in reading about your journey. My prayers are with all the families who miss their babies.

  • kj

    My name is Kristin. We lost our second child to miscarriage at only 9 weeks (in 2004), but it hurts just the same.

    I’m praying for all of you who have commented.

    Thank you Angie.

  • Elizabeth

    My name is Elizabeth, and I have followed your blog on and off again throughout the months…

    I have lost a total of 4 little ones to be with God in Heaven… Three miscarriages (one early term, two towards the end of the first trimester) and my daughter Grace was born at 20 weeks gestation and lived for 1 1/2 hrs with no life support (she was born after a tumultous pregnancy at a rest stop)

    Thank you for this post and allowing me to take part in it! I will be using this day to tell a brief story of my own as well…

  • Anonymous

    My name is Rosemary and I have lost 3 babies due to early miscarriage. They all happened last year.

  • Cherrie

    My name is Cherrie. I was 40 weeks when my daughter, Anneka Marie, was stillborn, 9 years ago. She died from a kink in her umbilical cord. We spent 10 hours with her before we released her completely to God.
    6 months later I found I was pregnant again and lost my unborn child to miscarriage at 14 weeks.
    Thank you for giving us a place to remember our children in Heaven.

  • Leah Gale

    My name is Leah and I lost my first child to miscarriage in February, 2004 when I was 18. My doctor told me it was probably due to genetic defects.

    Thank you, Angie, for praying for all of us. I will continue to pray for you and your family for God’s strength and peace to continue to bless you all.

  • Laurie

    Every life is a gift from God and begins at conception. Every loss is a heartbreak that remains a lifetime. I ask the Lord to touch each and every commenter here and let them know that they are loved and their losses will always be remembered in His heart. Each and every life represented here holds great value and love. God bless you all today and always.

    Love, Laurie in Ca.

  • Amy (MyColonyNJ)

    I am sorry that anyone has to go through this.

    My name is Amy. We lost our 2nd child due to m/c (trisomy 22) in March 2008. We lost our 3rd child due to m/c in July 2008. We lost our 4th child due to m/c in Sept 2008.

    3 m/c in 6 months. Please pray for us.

  • they call me the boss

    I lost my second child to miscarriage April 7, 1996. Thank you for sharing your story Angie.

  • Kara Smith

    I lost my first child in April of 2008. I am now pregnant again and it makes me so thankful for our sweet blessing. I know our first is waiting on me in Heaven.

  • Matt and Becca

    I lost my first child to miscarriage in January 2004 after TTC for 2 yrs. I have since named him Elijah.

  • Karen

    Oh my 820 comments?? Amazing!

    I have lost 2 to miscarriage, the first baby and the 3rd. We tried for a month (1994)and lost one, years later we tried for a year and lost that baby(1999). We had our last baby after 3 years of trying and praying:)

  • Anonymous

    My name is Glenda. I lost a child to miscarriage at 13 weeks.

  • The Rhoderick Family

    My name is Kari Rhoderick and I have lost 8 babies to early miscarriage ranging from 1999-2004. I lost my precious daughter Jillian who was stillborn because of blood clots in my placenta on January 7th, 2005. Thank you so much for your prayers.

  • Anonymous

    My name is Terri and I miscarried our child in April 1986. I still think about him often, but not with pain anymore. He is one more reason to look forward to Heaven; the place where I will finally meet and hold my precious baby.

  • ~S

    My name is Shaina, and my husband and I lost our daughter, Grace, on June 23, 2007. She was born too early, at 24 weeks, and we were blessed to have had 8 beautiful days with her. After trying to get pregnant for 8 months, we had a miscarriage on July 5, 2008.

    Thank you for doing this, and for your wonderful writing. I hope to meet you in Michigan, if I’m not too shy to introduce myself.

  • Karen

    I guess I should add that my three blessings have been the best thing in our lives! My babies were lost at 9 or 10 weeks and at 6 or 7, I don’t really know. I always think though, that I wouldn’t have the kids I do if those pregnancies had continued.

  • Anonymous

    Thank you for the opportunity to share our love and our losses here together. It is so heartwarming to know we are not alone.

    I had a healthy son and daughter, with no complications, then lost my 3rd child to miscarriage at 12 weeks in March 2001 and my 4th child to miscarriage at 7 weeks in July 2001. Thankfully, God blessed us with a healthy daughter, Chloe shortly after and we knew our family was complete.

    While I would never wish the pain of a loss on anyone nor would I want to experience it again, I am thankful for the lessons I learned through the loss of those precious babies. I now know that, when things are at their darkest and you just want to rail at God and turn away in anger, it is then that love and praise is a choice. It is through my choice to turn to God during those times that I was able to receive His grace and peace and for that I am grateful.

  • Amber

    Hi Angie,

    I love reading your blog, and your love for people. You have a beautiful heart, and a beautiful family.

    I have not lost a child, but my best friend, Kara’s first baby was born and died on February 10,2003 from anencephaly. She carried her to full term; sweet Sydney lived for one precious hour. Every now and then Kara shares with me her moments of grief and feels that everyone else has moved on and nobody talks about Sydney. I know that it must harder for the parents, and possibly the mother since she carries the child in her womb. Kara has been blessed with two beautiful boys since then, however her heart still longs for her daughter.

    Also my babysitter, Heather, lost her fourth baby, Christian, at four months gestation last year due to a complication with the umbilical cord. She then became pregnant with twins, and recently lost on of them. She is due in Frebruary and I am praying for a healthy remaining pregnancy.

    Also, I recently found out that I am pregnant with my second child and I am praying for a healthy pregnancy. I am currently six weeks pregnant.

  • We Happy 3

    My Husband and I have been married for 12 years next month. We lost 9 babies (7wks-15wks)between 1997-2003. We were blessed with OUR MIRACLE in 2006. She is the most amazing blessing in the world. We then lost our last little one #10 in Feb.2008.

    Thank you for your words, your wisdom, your heart. You are a true gift to all of us.

  • Rosie Vaughn

    I lost my first child in September of 1981…the pain is still as fresh today as 27 years ago, but God blessed me with three more wonderful children (ages: 23, 22, and 19) to help me keep my first child’s memory alive. Thank you for your words of inspiration and hope and for helping me to cope with years of searching for that never ending quetion “WHY”. You are an amazing person and I could never thank you enough for all the help and guidance you have provided me. So glad God helped me find you on this vast web!!!! Blessings to your wonderful family!

  • Rachel

    I have lost 4 children due to miscarriage:
    10/03
    4/04
    2/08
    3/08

  • Katie

    My name is Katie. On February 15, 2005 I lost my second child to a late term miscarriage at 18 weeks of pregnancy. We later found out that the baby I was carrying was a boy and we named him Cameron Scott.

  • Kristin

    My name is Kristin. I lost my first child to miscarriage in the fall of 1999.

    My mother lost her first child due to stillbirth at 7 months in 1974. Her doctor would not induce her and she was made to carry that child until she was over 40 weeks pregnant.

    Kristin

  • Anonymous

    I lost my second child to miscarriage at 6 weeks in August 2008.

  • Anonymous

    My name is Christy, I had a miscarriage in March of 2003 at 10 weeks. It was after a long seperation between my husband and I and we felt this was God had intended for us to be together and have this 3rd child that we hadn’t planned on. We felt as if he were giving us his blessing. We were devasted that much more when I miscarried this child. It still hurts to this day even though we have since had another child in February of 2005. It is especially hard on me as I feel I am the only one that ever remembers the child that we lost. This post has touched me deeply as so many of your others have. Thank you!

  • LauraB

    This is not for me but for a dear friend and her son and his girlfriend.

    Shaun and Melissa have lost two children in the last year. A son to mid-term miscarriage and a daughter in the last week to early delivery, Jennifer was only 20 weeks and weighed only 7 ounces.

    I can not imagine losing a child, much less two in less than a year.

    I am praying for them as well as all the parents of children whom have been called back to our Lord.

  • Anonymous

    I have suffered three loses
    Jordan- 10-2-98
    JorjiAnne-4-27-06 19 wks gestation
    Lukah-7-3-07 13 wks gestation

    We pray that with our miracels both in heaven and here on earth with us that will be able to add one last child to our family. Time, Patience and Healing is a priority over our life….
    We also have our 14 year old that has been diagnosised with a rare form of Lymphoma that we are trying to understand while the rest of the testing gets completed…We to shall pray with those of you that have loss special angels in your life…
    all of our love
    ~HUGS~
    the Harris’

  • stacee

    We lost our first baby, Grayson Robert, at 32 weeks on August 7, 2007. I went for a routine check up and we couldn’t find a heart beat. I later found out I had a blood clot in my umbilical cord. My life has been forever changed. Grayson taught me how to hope, love with every ounce of my being, and trust more deeply in the lord’s plan for us!
    For I know the plans I have for you declared the Lord. Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, to give you a hope and a future. Jer 29:11
    We were blessed August 1, 2008 with another beautiful boy… my heart always remembers.

  • Sue

    Angie
    I read your blog last night and I knew if I read the comments that I would not be able to sleep. This morning when I ventured to the comments, it reminded me of the time that I thought that I had lost my third child due to some very heavy bleeding and the devastation that I felt.

    I can not begin to understand your grief or the grief of the others who have left comments. BUT PLEASE KNOW THAT I PRAY FOR YOU AND I WILL PRAY FOR THE OTHERS IN THIS COMMENT SECTION DAILY.

  • Melissa

    My name is Melissa. My husband and I were blessed with a beautiful daughter after 1 1/2 years of trying to get pregnant. Since her birth in 2004, I have lost 3 babies – Feb 2006, Apr 2008, and Aug 2008. I have a genetic disorder that puts me at a high risk for miscarriage. I think of my babies every day still, but am truly grateful for the healthy daughter that we have.

  • Anonymous

    I miscarried my second child.

  • Anonymous

    I lost my 2nd child 3 weeks ago. I was 13 weeks along at the time. God has been so good to us. I realize just what a blessing my first son is, I alreay knew that but now see it in an entirely new way. God has allowed us to have him and be his earthly parents. I will always love my second baby and I still hurt that I will never hold him/her. But God is good, all the time.

    Jer. 29:11 – “For I know the plans that I have for you,’ declares the LORD, ‘plans for welfare and not for calamity to give you a future and a hope.”

  • Tonya

    My heart is just breaking for all the women who have suffered such a devastating and personal loss. I will be lifting everyone in prayer also.

    I lost my first son, Christian, 15yrs ago. He was stillborn at 20 weeks due to placental abruption.

    God has blessed my life with 2 healthy treasures since then.

    Angie, your story is such an encouragement to me and my friends who follow you. God bless you sweet girl!

  • Kim

    My name is Kim.
    I had two babies whose hearts stopped beating for no apparent reason around 4 months into my pregnancies – one in 1992 and one in 1993. I chose not to know if they were boys or girls.
    These angels are talked about and thought about in our home frequently!
    I will certainly be praying for all of you!

  • Anonymous

    I lost my first three babies to miscarriage. I lost my fifth baby when my water broke at 15 weeks. I have been blessed with one baby to hold here on earth daily.

  • T & C

    My first child, Cara Grace, was stillborn March 18, 2008 due to complications of undiagnosed Factor V Leiden. I had a miscarriage September 11, 2008. We are grieving and yet hopeful for the family we still long to have.

    http://criesforthesilent.blogspot.com

  • Anonymous

    My name is Julie and I lost my first daughter to trisomy 18 when she was 9 months old.

  • Kidrepair

    Hi my name is Crystal, I read your blog every chance I get, you are an inspiration to me. We had two beautiful daughters, one in 1999 and one in 2003, I got pregnant in the fall of 2004, everything was going well, we went in at 18 weeks to find out the sex at our first ultrasound, bringing our two girls with us expecting this to be an exciting day, only to find that there was no heartbeat, no reason why, I had been earlier in the week and everything was great. We delivered our son the next day, April 8,2005. We named him Joshua Steven. Our girls talk about their baby brother all the time and ask how old he would be now, and if were here we would need another chair, etc. We did go on to deliver a healthy baby girl, September 18,2006, but we will never forget our little Joshua.

  • Anonymous

    Your story is so beautiful and touching…. I truly admire you and your family.

    My name is Lauren and we lost our first child at 6 weeks due to an ectopic pregnancy. We are still trying for another little miracle.

  • Heidi

    My name is Heidi. I lost my first child to miscarriage at 11 weeks gestation on January 11, 2005. Miscarriage is devastating. Since then, God has blessed us with a healthy daughter and a healthy son and we are so grateful. I have several friends who have lost children, as well. Praying for all who share here and the countless others who experience such loss and thank you, Angie for providing this opportunity to see that we are not alone in our loss and grief.

  • Crystal

    I am not a mother nor have I lost a child. Just want to pray for all of you women who have as I have been praying for Angie. God bless you all.

  • Anonymous

    I have lost a son and daughter to miscarriage. In 2003 and 2004. Soloman and Makiah .

    Cassandra Minton

  • Amie

    Thank you so much for your blog & your prayers.
    I lost my second child to miscarriage October 10, 2007. We just recently passed the 1 year anniversary. We named our angel Sam & not a day goes by that I don't think of him or what 'might have been'.
    I am thankful for what you are doing & this opportunity to also lift other families up in prayer during this time.

  • Beth

    My name is Beth and I have lost four babies. I had a miscarriage in April of 1988; a tubal pregnancy in July of 1988; a miscarriage in March of 1989; and another tubal pregnancy in July of 1989. Even though none of them were born, I did name them all. There names are Adam, Allison, Cory, and Damon. All of this left me unable to have children. All I ever wanted to be was a mom. I struggled for years and then this past year I was blessed to be able to adopt a baby boy from Guatemala and he is my sunshine! I still think about my four babies every single day and grieve for them, but what gets me through (besides my little guy) is knowing that one day I will be with them.

    Angie, thank you so much for sharing your story with us. I have been through so many difficult things in my life, but loosing my children I think is by far the worse. You have taught me so much on your blog. There was a period of time that I wouldn’t even speak to God because I was so angry. I now know that wasn’t right. You have helped me so much!

  • erin

    My name is Erin, and I lost my first baby at 5 weeks the day before Easter, 2008.

    My husband and I will also be praying.

    Blessings,
    Erin

  • Anonymous

    Angie,
    My husband and I lost our fist child by miscarriage at 8.5 weeks along on March 29, 2008. That was the hardest thing I ever had to go through. I am now almost 20 weeks pregnant with our daughter and praying that she will be born healthy. However never forgetting my first child. This rememberance day is hitting me very hard as my due date for my angel is in 2.5 weeks. Than you for sharing your story with us. God Bless

  • krista

    Sweet sister Angie, I’m going to stop lurking now, thank you for your strength and light.

    My name is Krista. I lost our first child in Aug 97, our second in June 98, our 3rd in Aug of 98, our 4th in Oct of 98 and our 5th in 2002. We also have been blessed with 5 amazing children that I’m fortunate to homeschool. I look forward to the day that I’ll be able to hold each of my children, until then Jesus will hold them for me.

  • Carrie

    I have lost 2 children and now have been blessed with three healthy children. I long for the day to hold my babies in heaven. God is taking care of them and I couldn’t have anything better!

  • Anne

    After surviving ovarian cancer, my children are all miracles…proof of a mighty God! I miscarried baby Hope (baby #2) in November of 2004, and delivered my stillborn son Carson (baby #3) in May of 2005. I have also been blessed with a daughter (5yo) and a son (2 yo).

    Thank you for praying and for remembering. A mother’s dream is that her child not be forgotten.

  • Kari

    My name is Kari and I lost our little girl, Rayin, in 2000. We still don’t know what happened, but i had 7 weeks left in my pregnancy when she died. We delivered on Father’s Day of 2000. She would have been 8 this past June.

  • Laura

    Thanks for doing this. We lost our first baby to miscarriage on September 15, 2008 at 9 weeks. I am overwhelmed by the sheer volume of others who have also been through this. It is very encouraging to me to know that I am not alone.

  • Leslie

    My name is Leslie. I have a 5 yr old, and a another baby on the way, due March 14. In April of this year, I lost a baby at 9 weeks, due to an ectopic pregnancy. Although I still think about the baby we lost, I am thankful that God has allowed me another chance to bring another baby into this world. My heart goes out to all the mothers who have had to deal with a loss. I think it’s great that there is a day where we can all come together and share/pray. Thanks for using your blog to make this possible.

  • Anonymous

    I lost my first child to miscarriage on November 5, 2005. And though we had a healthy baby girl on November 22, 2006, I now find myself 9 weeks pregnant and fighting fear of losing this baby (due May 19).

  • Alyson

    My name is Alyson. I lost my first child to a miscarriage in October 2001. I am currently 8 weeks pregnant with my second child.

  • Tara

    Thank you all for the prayers & for the opportunity to share my heavenly children.

    I lost my 1st child at 10wks gestation in 1999.

    I lost my second at 6wks in 2001.

    I lost my 3rd at 9wks, missing twin. I carried his/her sister full-term. Hannah is six (born Dec. 2001).

    I lost my 5th child at 6wks in 2004.

    Dec 2004. I was told I was losing my 6th child at 12wks, but after many many weeks of bedrest Josie was born healthy at 39wks. She is 3yrs old (July05).

    Alivia is 17mths (May07) I can't wait to hold all my little babies in heaven, but for now I cherish the ones God has given me. God is good!

    Thank you Angie!!!

  • Tracy

    I am Tracy. I have been blessed to be pregnant 7 times and have 3 beautiful boys (ok, now they are young men: 16, 13, & 10). I lost my first pregnancy to miscarriage at 6 weeks after going through infertility treatments 3 years. I then rejoiced in the birth of my first son (2nd pregnancy). I lost my third baby to fetal demise at 16weeks. Then God blessed me with my second son (4th pregnancy). Then I was blessed yet again with my 3rd son (5th pregnancy). I lost my 4th son in my 19th week of pregnancy (6th time) and then I lost my 7th baby to fetal demise in the 15th week. I truly long to try again, but my age (43) and my husbands fear for my health are making me realize that God really blessed me with the three beautiful boys I have here and I know that one day I will see the rest of my sweet babies. Angie, thank you, thank you, thank you!!!

  • Eriksgirl

    Thank you for the prayers.

    I lost my second child to Ectopic pregnancy in 2003. I lost my precious baby girl Katarina Gabrielle Smith on May 12th. She was stillborn due to prolapse cord.

  • Anonymous

    I lost my second child to miscarriage July 2008… and have been blessed by my Savior to trust Him fully.

  • Julie

    Hi Angie,
    We have emailed before, during this painful journey. As I was in the hospital for 8 weeks, carrying a baby they told me wouldn’t live because my water had broken at 18 weeks, reading and checking your blog gave me the dose of hope I needed each day…and so I started my own. What a huge blessing writing has been.
    Our beautiful Will was born on July 17, 2008. We were blessed with him for 52 hours before God called him home on July 19. He went to join the first baby we lost in Sept. 2007 at 10 weeks.
    We thank God every day for his short life and the impact it has had on so many people. So today, as we do every day…we remember.

  • Jodi

    Angie,

    thank you so much for your blog, you have no idea how much of a blessing you have been to me.

    I lost my second child, due to miscarriage in June 2006.

    My mother lost a son, born stillborn at 20 weeks in January 1978 his name, Jacob Lee.

    My best friend lost a baby, due to miscarriage in May 2004.

    I will be lighting candles tonight also.

  • JRJ

    My first pregnancy ended in miscarriage in February 2008. At 10 weeks, we were told our child had passed at 6 weeks. With humble hearts, we felt strongly about naming our child so his memory would never be forgotten… Ethan Caleb now rejoices in Heaven.

    What a blessing you are, Angie. You are a great gift at this point in my life.

  • Kelly

    Hi, I’m Kelly and our second child, Kylie, was born still on Oct 3, 2007. She was 22w 3d and had been diagnosed with severe cases of cystic hygromas and fetal hydrops at 19 weeks. Thank you so much for your inspiring words and wonderful stories about your beautiful family!

  • Janet

    I lost my third baby to miscarriage on Sept. 20, 2006. It was my birthday. I was pregnant again within a month and have a beautiful little girl, but still often think about that little baby.

  • kristy

    I lost my third child to miscarriage at 10 weeks in December 2007, after 18 months of trying to conceive. Although it was early in the pregnancy, it was still very painful and is still painful as we are still TTC.

    I am very grateful for the two children that God has blessed me with here on earth.

  • Tracey

    I lost my first child to miscarriage in December of 1999, and subsequently lost a few more between 2000-2002. No matter how early in pregnancy you are, each one hurts, and is never forgotten.

    We are now blessed with a six year old daughter, and after another bout with infertility, a 1 year old son. We are so grateful for them, and we recognize the gift that they are.

  • Sarah

    My name is Sarah. Our son Dylan was stillborn in Nov 2004. We still miss him everyday! We have two other kids and we try very hard to keep his memory alive.
    Thanks for all that you share Angie. You are truly inspiring!

  • HappilyEverAfter

    My name is Haley. My husband Jason and I lost our second baby to miscarriage at 6 weeks on August 9th 2007. No name… we just have always called it our sunflower becauase at 6 weeks the baby is the size of a sunflower seed. A sunflower planted itself from bird seed in my in-laws back yard this summer and it bloomed the week before the year mark from my miscarriage. Every time we see sunflowers we our reminded of our baby and know the God is good!

  • Kelly

    My name is Kelly. I have never lost a child. I pray for all of you, your strength is overwhelming.

  • Sara

    My name is Sara. We lost our first son to Trisomy 18 on January 2nd, 2007.

  • Bttrfly1976

    My name is Stephanie and I have two sweet angels in Heaven. October 4, 1996 and March 18, 2000.

    As of today I am 32 and have no living children but I try to not lose hope. I have been incredibly blessed to have twelve nieces and nephews (# 13 is due in January) who light the darkness that tries to envelop me.

    I am amazed by the number of comments posted already. It is sad just how ‘not alone’ we are in this pain. Strange that it still seems to be such a private pain, perhaps this will help us open up and reach out knowing that so many others share in our grief.

  • Kathy

    I read your blog and love it! I have never posted but felt I needed to today. I lost my first son, Carter, to preterm labor at 20weeks and lost my third baby to an early miscarriage. God has blessed our family with two healthy children and I am now pregnant with twins. I am on bedrest and have complications surrounding this pregnancy but I know that these babies are in palm of God’s hand and it is going to be okay. Thank you for your blog. It is a blessing.

  • Kristy

    We lost our second child July 4th weekend 2003 to miscarriage in my 7th week of pregnancy. The Lord blessed us with our third child in July of 2004 (one year and two weeks exactly from our miscarriage).

  • Joy

    We lost our second baby when I was 8 and 1/2 weeks pregnant. The following month the Lord blessed us with another baby – she just turned one and she is a joy! We also have a 3 year old son – a fantastic big brother.
    I am now 6 weeks pregnant with baby number 4 – we can’t wait to meet him/her!

    Angie – thank you for your prayers! You are an amazing woman. May God continue to bless your sweet family.

  • Anonymous

    My name is Rebekah. I lost my first child due to miscarriage in January 2004. I had my beautiful daughter in January 2005. This past August 10, my second daughter, Reagan, was born premature at 20 weeks and passed away one hour after birth.
    My prayers are with all who have lost a child.

  • Memphislis

    I lost a nephew when my sister had an abortion in 2005. I tried everything to persuade her to carry that precious life to term, but she would not be swayed. Please pray that the peace of God can take this burden of grief from me and allow me to move on.

  • Tay’s Mom

    My name is Hilary. We had a beautiful, healthy girl in 2006. The troubles began when trying to provide her with a little sibling. We lost Poppy at 20 weeks in February 2008 due to Trisomy 13. We lost another in July 2008 at just 5 weeks. After testing, we’ve been told that I have a Robersonian Translocation, which makes it very difficult to conceive a healthy baby. We learned that our daughter was a miracle and that we would be very lucky if we were to carry another to full term. Needless to say, the last six months have been life changing. I began my walk with God right before all of this happened (thanks to His great “timing”), my viewpoint on life has changed completely, I recognize my daughter as a true miracle, and I have learned so much about who I am and who I want to be. Thanks to you, Angie, and the many other Moms out there that have written about their journeys, I am a stronger person. I am so grateful for your honesty, humor and faith. And for this. Thank you for doing this. I am praying for each and every one of you. I am confident that our little ones are all so proud of their Mommies for the people that we’ve become.

  • Anonymous

    My name is Denise and I miscarried our first pregnancy at 12 weeks last December. Just typing this brings me to tears, as I still have not come to terms with that loss.

  • Annie

    My Name is Annie. My husband and I have had 11 miscarriages. Our first loss was in October of 2002. Our last baby was born at 12 weeks on December 3rd of 2007. I am a woman with her quiver full—in Heaven.

  • Anonymous

    I have a baby girl, Kelly Sue, who went to be with Jesus when I was 26 weeks into my pregnancy on September 18, 1997. She is our baby angel girl. She will always be in our hearts! Now my mom is holding her in Heaven for us. The Lord blessed us with a healthy daughter almost exactly 1 year later~Natalie Sue is now 10! We are also blessed to have a 13 year old daughter, Emily and a 7 year old son, Ryan. God has shown Himself faithful in some very painful times.

  • Ashley

    My name is Ashley and my husband and I lost our second child, a son we named Joshua, when he was stillborn on December 6, 2007.
    He is missed every day.

  • The Maulsbys

    My name is Sarah. My husband and I lost our twin boys Landon Ross and Cade Franklin June 16, 2007 at 24 weeks after an emergency csection due to premature labor from a problem called twin to twin transfusion. I’ll never forget holding those tiny ones and I miss them every day but find joy in the thought of them with our heavenly father.

  • Kelli Hokamp

    I lost my first child in the first trimester. It was March of 2006. My husband left for Iraq 2 weeks later. I think I am just now starting to really process this loss. I think that reading your blog has allowed me to open that wound back up and really start to work through it. Thank you so much for sharing your story with all of us. We now have a happy, healthy 11 1/2 month old boy, but everyday I am reminded of what “should have been.” The pain never goes away, and somedays are worse than others. But, from your blog I have had a huge door open for me…it never dawned on me…I’ll see my sweet Angel Baby again one day. I don’t know why that has never dawned on me before, but it hasn’t. It was a very dark time in my life, but somehow, 2 1/2 years later, God made his light apparent to me. So, Angie, thank you for being a vessel.

  • Anonymous

    I lost our child in January 2007 due to a miscarriage. We are expecting a child in June of 2009.

  • Jenn Stacey

    Hello. My name is Jenn Stacey. I am 31. My husband and I lost our first child, Lily, earlier this year. I lost her (in-utero) at almost 17 weeks, due to Turner’s Syndrome. I found out she had passed, the day I buried my grandmother. I do find comfort that they are together in heaven, and if I was going to lose her, I would have wanted her to go with my grandma. Angie, I have read your post from almost the beginning. I have never posted, but do find comfort in your unrelentless faith and your journey. I am sure you know, I deal with the sadness of my daughter’s death daily. I appreciate that you welcome all losses…b/c sometimes people think one shouldn’t be so sad if you never got to know them. That couldn’t be more untrue. She is our daughter! She just happens to be in Heaven. Her tombstone reads..”Heaven is the only place she will ever know” … It has been weighing on me lately that we all have these different “crosses” to bear. Those gathered here share a similiar cross. But, as Jesus carried his cross, we too must carry ours. You have helped me carry that load (even though we have never spoken) and God sure does use you. You are a blessing. I always pray for you and the others gathered here! Thanks for bringing everyone together in such a glorious way to honor our babies!

  • Lisa

    In August of 2007, my husband and I found out we were expecting our first child. A week after Thanksgiving we went for our 20 week ultrasound to find out the sex of the baby. At that time, we were told that our baby girl, who we named Victoria Michelle, would not live. She was stillborn at 26 weeks on January 10, 2008.

  • aimee

    After 4 years of trying to conceive, I lost my daughter through micarriage. On Feb. 14th 2001. Her name was Journey Grace, and she is the only baby I have carried in my body. But my Lord has redeemed my pain, and blessed us with two beautiful daughters through adoption, and one more on the way. Thank you for acknowledging my loss, and my grief. God Bless You and Keep You I will be praying for all of you.

  • Amy

    I lost my daughter’s twin brother or sister in April 1997…I grieve this more for her than for myself. She so badly wants a sister. And I lost a baby to an ectopic rupture in June 2003 that was devastating. I almost died and was completely crushed by the loss of this baby. I have healed tremendously, and had another child in Oct 2004, but still wonder about that baby sometimes. Looking forward to holding these little ones in heaven!

  • perilloparodies

    My name is Celita, and we lost our fourth child in a miscarriage… I miss her even though I knew nothing of the pregnancy until she was expelled from my body, and I held her little form in my hand. I was around 3 1/2- 4 months pregnant with her. I did not know for sure what her gender, but I felt that she might have been a girl. I named her Bethany Hope (AKA Baby Hope). My other children know about her, and that is one way I can make heaven real to them, by saying that she is in heaven with Jesus, and we must live for Jesus here on Earth so we can someday see her again in heaven. I had NO idea what day today is… Thank you for sharing, and for letting me know… My Baby Hope’s “birth”day is March 5th. She was expelled on my Grandmother’s birthday, and she would be 4 in 2009… sigh…and tear drop… Blessings to you…

  • Beckycain6

    My name is Becky. I lost my baby in June of 2002. My heart has never stopped feeling utterly broken. My life changed that day and will never be the same.

    God rebuilds what is broken, yes………it is what lies written on the plaque that will never change.

    I wish I had my baby. I wish, I wish, I wish.

  • Anonymous

    I lost my daughter’s twin at 9 weeks.

  • rusty’swife

    Ladies,

    I am so humbled by you all. You are so precious in our Savior’s sight. I am probably around comment number 893 or so. I have printed out each of your comments, and am committed to praying over each of you for the next 365 days. Our daughter Magan, lost their second child to a miscarriage in 2006, she is now pregnant with their fourth.
    Again, I am humbled to be standing in the presence of such Women of God, and being allowed the privilege to pray over each of you.

    In Him,
    Sallye

  • Kelly

    Angie,

    I don’t wish to write about it…I just want to thank you.

  • Anonymous

    My name is Susan. My husband and I lost our first baby to a missed miscarriage at 10 weeks. Our baby was measuring at 6 weeks with no heartbeat.

  • Pearls and Grace

    Sweet Jesus. Let your healing oil fall like rain upon each and every womb written about here. Let your peace fill every broken place inside each of these women. I am overwhelmed by the amount of women who have suffered, who are hurting and who are waiting on You Lord. Heal, seal, deliver and restore your precious women in the name of Jesus.

    Thank you Beautiful Angie. Your ministry has started…..may the One who created you and Who has called you bless you more than there is room enough to receive.

    I became pregnant at the tender age of 18. My Mother told me to have an abortion or I would not be allowed to live in her house any more. I chose to have my baby girl and then proceeded to raise her by myself for the next ten years through extreme hardship and the target of many hurtful and horrible comments, gossip, criticism and judgement. Usually from "good church ladies".
    Much to their dismay….
    10 years later I met the man of my dreams -married and expected fully to have a big, beautiful family. We lost our first baby at two months along
    due to an ectopic pregnancy- Oct. 2000. It took well over a year to become pregnant again – only to lose it to miscarriage in Feb. 2002. Then by His infinite goodness we were blessed with two children. Bella Grace- Dec. 2002 and Bennett April 2005. I then became pregnant again only to miscarry at almost 4 months and had to have a D & C-April 2006. We were devasted. But He who
    loves us so much and who is the RESTORER gave us double for our trouble with the birth of our precious Emma Pearl- June 2007 and our newest family member baby Ashton – August 2008.

    I am the Mother of 8. Five angels here on earth and three sweet angels in Heaven.

    Joel 2:25

    Love and Light,

    Sebi

  • Vivian

    Angie
    First I wante to thank you for doing this, you are an amzingly strong woman, and you bring me so much hope when it feels it has been lost.
    My name is vivian, I have a beautiful 7 y/o who is the light in my life, I married my wonderful husband 3 years ago this nov 5th, we started TTC since Jan of 2007 and got our first BFP on dec 28th 2007, With much regret and sorrow we lost our angel on feb 14th 2008, April 2008 we had another misscarriage; ectopic at 4wks that burst my tube and required emergency surgery, in aug of 2008 we were blessed a third time only to loose that again on sept 29th, It has been a long and very painful road for us and there are still days i cry for all my angels and what could have been. I plan on placing 3 angel ornaments on out tree this year, also plan to get myself a bracelet or necklace with the birthstone for each of my babies as a way to keep them close to me everyday. As for today at 7pm i will light 3 candles in honor of our angels and 1 more for all those other ones of women that have touched my life and helped me get by throught these trying times.
    Again thank you for doing such a wonderful thing!

  • The Braddocks

    Angie, thank you for your inspiring and encouraging post. I have laughed and cried with you for many many months. We have lost two babies to miscarriage this year and I’m now almost 5 weeks pregnant. I covet your prayers as I now seek to claim victory over anxiety and fear. I’m so tremendously grateful…

    Katie

  • jamie in rose cottage

    I am praying for you and all the others who have lost a child.

    Tomorrow the most recent Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep baby we photographed (on Oct 11th) will have her memorial service. Her twin survived and is still in NICU, so please pray for that family, too.

  • The BierNUTS

    I lost my second child to miscarriage in December 2006 at 11 weeks. I never understood the pain of a miscarriage until I had one.

  • Brittanie

    My name is Brittanie. I lost my first child, stillborn May 2, 2006, to a cord accident.

    I belong to an online pregnancy loss support forum, and I made a video memorializing our angels on this day.

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9sXe6fqImCY

  • Emily Ryan

    Thanks Angie. Your blog and your wisdom are such a blessing! I lost a baby in Sept. 07 at around 9 weeks. I dreaded the upcoming due date (May 7,07) because it was also the date that would have been my real mother’s 60th birthday (she died when I was ten). When the week came, however, I had a surprising peace. I was mourning four generations of women – my grandmother died that week; my late mother’s birthday; my unborn sister, who my mom was carrying when she died; and my daughter (don’t know for sure it was a girl, just a feeling) who should have been born then. But God took complete control of my emotions and the week was so filled with God’s peace. I found out a few days later I was finally expecting again, and I am now 26 weeks pregnant with our second son, Canaan. Through it all, though, I have been given the gift of empathy for all of those fellow mothers who have lost children. My heart aches for them; but my heart also knows God’s peace and comfort are sweeter than any loss we experience. Blessings.

  • Lindsey Poulos

    My name is Lindsey. My sister, Riki, lost her baby at her 11th week of pregnancy. She has two other beautiful children. She found out she was pregnant with her daughter around the time she would have delivered the baby that she lost. We felt like it was God’s way of acknowledging her loss and blessing her with a new life in honor of it. Little Greer will turn 1 year old this week.

  • the LaGore family

    Hi. My name is Carrie and we lost our first child in April 2004. I am convinced it was a son and we named him Adam. We were blessed with a healthy daughter in 2006, but the loss is still painful even now.

  • lisasmith

    My name is Lisa Smith. I lost my first child to a miscarriage on November 18, 1998, my birthday. I just found out I was pregnant two days before and the sadness was overwhelming. We lost another baby to miscarriage in 2005 at 12 weeks. I have never been so sad. I honestly couldn’t have gone on without the Lord’s help.
    We have four healthy children who can’t wait to meet their siblings in heaven.
    I am praying for the many other women who have experienced the heartache and emptiness that come with losing a child.
    Thank you, Angie.

  • Joy G

    My name is Joy Goheen. We lost our precious Amelia on September 24, 2008. It is 3 weeks today that I delivered her beautiful shell. There was nothing wrong with her. She was 28 weeks and perfectly healthy, as was her home inside of me. Only in heaven will we find out what happened. Can’t tell you how much we miss her but she’s given us a glimpse of heaven we never would have otherwise. I will be praying for everyone today as well.

  • Kayla

    My name is Kayla. I lost our first child due to miscarriage in late of
    ’03. We have gone on to have 2 healthy and happy children so far and one on the way. I will still however always miss that child.

  • jrlittle88

    My name is Renae and our son Luke was stillborn at the 29th week. This was at the end of February 2005. 3 1/2 years later I find myself picking up the pieces and moving on with my life but it has taken me this long to find a new normal in my life. I still have hard days when i just miss him so much. I have a 10 year old daughter and a little girl who is 2 1/2 now.

  • Shannon

    I lost my daughter Hayden Grace to a terminal heart condition when she was 15 months old on Dec 15, 2006. She is my angel. I also had a miscarriage on May 30, 2008 (my 30th birthday).

  • adrien farish

    Hi Angie,
    My name is Adrien. I lost my first child to a eptopic pregnancy in May of 1999. Then God blessed me with a little girl (7) and then a little boy (5). I had another miscarriage in March of 2006. Then God blessed me with another little little boy (1). And yes, I have my hands full but I would not have it any other way.

    P.S. I love reading your blog. I want to let you know about a little girl named Emma that is very dear to me and my famlies hearts. She is suffering with Batten’s Disease. She has a new blog http://emmadunnam.blogspot.com/
    Please visit her blog and pray for this sweet family.

  • Anonymous

    Hello, I lost my first born almost 6 months ago. He was stillborn.

    <3

  • Anonymous

    I have never lost any babies as my husband and I are unable to conceive. After four years of heartache due to the desire to experience a pregnancy, we have been blessed (just this summer)with two precious children through adoption. I love them and know that we wouldn’t have them with us if we were able to get pregnant. Praise the Lord…He truly does answer our prayers…just not in the way we expect at times! I’ll be praying for all of you who have lost babies.

  • Sonia

    I don’t know if my comment is appropriate, as my pain probably pales in comparison to others. I never was able to get pregnant, and after several unsuccessful adoptions, God blessed us with our precious daughter from China. I thank God that I was introduced to your blog by a friend. I have cried, laughed and rejoiced in your posts. You are a wonderful inspiration, Angie. God Bless you and your family and all the families that have lost your precious children.

  • Anonymous

    My name is Emily Sibley. My husband and I lost our identical twins on June 11, 2002. Our third daughter, HazelAnne Noelle, was stillborn on August 16th, 2006. And we lost our last baby to a late miscarriage February 26th, 2008. God has blessed our lives we three healthy children here on earth,too. It has been a difficult journey, but I have clung to the book of Job in the Bible. An old hymn, read aloud at my daughter’s funeral, has also meant alot to me. It is called NEAR TO THE HEART OF GOD. I will try to post the words at another time. I believe my children are in the arms of Jesus, and one day I will meet them again. Thank you for giving us this site, for honoring our babies, us as parents, and the siblings our babies have left behind.

  • Jen

    I lost my first to miscarriage in May 2006.

    I lost my second to miscarriage in Sept 2006.

    I have now been blessed with Triplets that will be year Nov 1. I like to think they were meant to come as a set, as Triplets and were waiting for each other so they could come to me together.

  • Mare

    My name is Mare. I lost my third child at 14 weeks to miscarriage in January 1992. I apologize if this is not appropriate, 30 years ago when I was 18 I became pregnant with my first child. Out of fear of disappointing my parents I had an abortion. I have never been able to forgive myself, this forever tears at my heart. I am haunted daily by the decision I made, I’m so sorry. I am so grateful God is forgiving, for he has blessed me with 5 living, beautiful children.

    I will pray for all.

  • tabitha

    I lost my baby on Sept 5th at 7 1/2 weeks just recently to miscarriage

  • Anonymous

    I lost my second child at 10weeks, and I lost my third child at 24 weeks due to complications that made her incompatiable with life.

  • MMM

    We lost my cousin Tiffany when she was 8 weeks old. Her twin sister is my Godchild and is now 10 years old. I’m 23 weeks pregnant with my first child and the pain I feel for these other women touches home very deeply. Thank you for this opportunity to bring all of these babies into prayer!

  • Anonymous

    I was young… and everyday I ask for God’s forgiveness! I had an abortion in 1993. For the last 15 years my thoughts are still there… frozen in that moment. I feel loss… great loss!
    I have fully given my life to Christ and pray that God uses me as now He sees fit.
    Please forgive me if I have offended anyone. If I could undo my past… I would.

  • Anonymous

    my sister lost a child two days after his birth on June 23, 2006. he and his twin brother were born at 29 weeks gestation. a grade 4 brain bleed claimed his life unexpectedly.

  • Lori

    My name is Lori and I lost two babies to miscarriage. One in 2000 and another in 2002. Even though we have three beautiful healthy children, I grieve the loss of knowing those two babies. I rejoice in knowing that God holds them in His loving hands and I will meet them one day.

  • lillian08

    My husband and I could not conceive by natural means and we now have a beautiful daughter by adoption.
    I know loss, as I went through fertility treatments, but never conceived.
    I want all of you to know that I am praying for each of you!!! I would never, never want to carry your pain.

  • Anonymous

    My name is Jeannine. I lost my second child, Hope, to miscarriage on November 17, 2003 at a little over 8 weeks. I remember her and all of the lost little ones today. Thank you for providing a space for us and God bless you.

  • Anonymous

    My name is Lisa. I’ve lost 4 babies through miscarriage in my first trimesters (Nov. 2005, April 2006, Aug. 2006, Dec. 2006). My sister recommended for me to check out your site, and it has been so encouraging to me. I am currently in my 5th pregnancy, and I will be 16 weeks on Friday. Praise the Lord! All things are possible through Him! (Mark 10:27) Thanks to all of you who are praying!

  • Stephanie

    A silent lurker for many months, my name is Stephanie Ideker. I lost my first child to miscarriage in July of 1999. I was in a different state of life then and was not even aware I was pregnant until I miscarried. I gave birth to a healthy son in Feb 2002, and to a second son in Jan 2004. My second son died Nov 1, 2007 from health complications of a chronic terminal disease. I gave birth to a healthy daughter 20 hours after my son had died. Please pray for us as we are coming upon our first anniversary of his death. Our hearts are forever broken.

    Stephanie Ideker

  • Jen

    I was going to try to read all of these posts, but I’m going to need way more time to get through them! I have one healthy son who will be 2 in a few weeks, and am 8 weeks pregnant with our second. I have never experienced the loss of a child, but there has been great anxiety for my during both of my pregnancies. I ask that you would pray for peace to fill me, and for my child to be healthy.

  • Anonymous

    After years of trying to conceive, I lost my first child to miscarriage in 1997. I now have two beautiful babies and I thank God for them daily.

    May God bless you, Angie and the example of faith you provide.

  • Faith

    My name is Faith. We lost our first child to miscarriage in July 2000. We lost our second child to miscarriage in March 2001. The Lord blessed us with twins in April 2002. Can’t wait to see my first two in heaven someday!

  • Yvette

    My name is Yvette. My second child, Addison Kate was born still on December 31, 2006.

  • Emily

    My third baby girl, Miller Grace, lived an incredible 5 days, 8 hours, and 48 minutes until an extremely rare brain condition allowed her to go home to Heaven. She lives from June 23 to June 28, 2007 and changed us forever. Psalm 139:13-16

  • familyoftwo98

    Our Isaac should be turning 11 in May. I had been married 3 months and was pregnant! It was a surprise but a very much wanted one. We lost “him” at 10 weeks.

    Aaron should have been born on December 15th of this year. We lost him at 7 1/2 weeks. We do not know if I will be able to become pregnant again as I have PCOS and can’t do PCOS, but our babies will forever be missed.

  • Brittany

    Hi my name is Brittany,
    I will give you some background about my story. I got pregnant with my first child 6 months after my husband and I got married…totally unexpected. But we were so excited…he was born Sept. 2006. Then in June 2007 I found out I was pregnant again…a little nervous about how I was going to be able to handle both babies, but I too was very excited. As I am sure you know, you begin to plan their lives, how you will adjust, what they will look like…etc. I went to the ob for my first appt. and that's when I found out that things might not be as they seemed. To make a long story short, I went back once a week for a month…to be told that my baby had died. July 12th I had a d&c…I was crushed! But God is faithful, and 3 months later I got pregnant again…though I was very scared, I had to rely on God…funny thing is, my due date with this baby was July 12th…I knew God was going to take care of me, and I delivered a healthy baby boy July 6, 2008! SO please pray for me, as I will be praying for you!

  • Kammi

    If you made it this far–wow–what dedication!

    I am Kammi. We lost our baby boy "Buster" in June of 1998 at 17 weeks gestation. Our next baby boy "Michael" died in July of 1999 at about 13 weeks gestation. Baby Boy "Christopher" died in February of 2000 at around 12 weeks gestation. Baby Boy "Christian" died on October 31, 2001 at 10 weeks gestation. And Baby Boy "Albert" died on April 13, 2006 at 13 weeks gestation. (Yes, that is five–all boys!)

    We would love your prayers and your empathy but not your sorrow. We are blessed with a wonderful son born to us in April 1997 (now 11). And a lovely daughter born to her Ukrainian Mama in May 2002 and adopted into our family on September 10, 2003 (now 6).

    I miss those five baby boys who died unborn every day. Every Day.

    But instead of dwelling in what could've been I like to live in the house of what can be. Just because God told us no five times doesn't mean there will never be a yes–but it might be a different sort of yes than our original plans. And it might be even better.

    We are taking another leap of faith and a second mortgage to pursue another international adoption.

    Psalm 113:9

    PS>Our son named all of the babies–not us!

  • laurayfrazier

    My name is Laura Frazier. Our first baby was lost by miscarriage at 6 weeks in August, 1987. We lost our second baby February 18, 1988, at 16 1/2 weeks, due to a miscarriage caused by placental abruption. His name is Jonathan Randall. We have since been blessed by a daughter, Christy, born small but healthy 3 weeks early on January 27, 1989; and a son, born at 28 weeks on March 27, 1992. Placental abruption caused his early arrival. As a result of many prayers being answered, Adam came home small, but perfectly healthy 65 days later. I praise the Lord for allowing me to be a mother. I think of my babies in Heaven and know that I will see them one day.Until then, I think of them every day and thank God for the two He has allowed me to care for here on Earth.

  • Misty

    My first child (baby boy) was stillborn at 31 weeks in May 1999 due to Trisomy 18.

    Praying for anyone that experiences such loss.

  • Anonymous

    I had a miscarriage at 8 weeks a month ago today…but we are trusting and believing God for many children. He is in control.

    Nadia

  • madelyn’smommy

    My name is Christy Simpson. I lost twin babies to miscarriage in May of 2005. I had my surgery Friday before Mother’s Day. I was 14 weeks and was absolutely devastated. It seemed like babies were everywhere. It was the most painful thing I had ever experienced. During my second pregnancy, I started bleeding and was afraid I had lost that baby too, but God provided a miracle for us in July 2007 with a sweet baby girl.

  • Kari

    I have had one healthy baby in September of 2005. So far, 2008 brought 3 miscarriages all within 7 months. I had a D&C yesterday and at this point, waiting on any results I can get. But God is faithful, we will not give us more that we can bear.

  • Anonymous

    I lost two precious babies due to miscarriage, 5 months apart, 9 years ago(seems like yesterday). But as a result of those losses, I now know with total and complete conviction that they are with Jesus, as we all will be in time. The Lord does give signs when we are in the depths of tragedy, and I am blessed to have experienced those signs. And I don’t want to overlook the joy in my two healthy girls, 7 and 11.

  • miklh

    Hi. My name is Michelle, and my husband and I lost our 1st child to miscarriage in Dec. 2000. There isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t think about my sweet Benjamin Isaac. It is so difficult to heal when the world tries to convince you it is no big deal. Thank you all for acknowledging life at EVERY stage. I find comfort in you all. 2 years after I lost my sweet Benjamin we were blessed with a precious baby girl, who is so full of life I can hardly keep up with her at times. The Lord is good, so good. Thank you, Angie, for bringing us together. I thank God for you. Blessings and prayers to all of you.

  • Heidi

    My name is Heidi. I lost my first baby in May of 2006. We named this baby Glory baby. Our second child died in May 2008. Both of our babies died in their first trimester of pregnancy. We have reason to celebrate today as we praise God for the 1st birthday of our second son as well as 12 weeks of a healthy pregnancy!

  • Tracy

    I lost my first child to miscarriage at 9 weeks in 1998. Our second at 13 weeks in 1999. Our third at 29 weeks in 1999. I had a beautiful daughter in Oct. 2000 and the Lord blessed us with a wonderful son in September 2001.

  • lilgirlsummers

    My name is Colleen Summers and I lost my first child on June 18, 2008 at 5w1d due to miscarriage.

    We are blessed with our second pregnancy right now, and I only hope that God decides to let us keep this one.

  • MT

    Angie,
    I lost my first baby to m/c in
    12/07 at 5 weeks and my second to m/c in 6/08. It has been so hard but, I know they are our Angels in Heaven. We are trying again, not such and easy time but, I will not give up and know God is with me.

    I send prayer of peace to all who lost a baby. God be with you.

  • Anonymous

    I lost my first child at 10 wks in May of this year and am blessed to be almost 15 wks pregnant with our second. Please pray specifically that I will stop fearing doctor’s appointments! And stop worrying about every little thing! And that we’ll get to hold this precious baby in April. Thanks:)
    Lauren

  • ~Kate

    My name is Katy, and I lost my second child to miscarriage in Nov of 2000. We’ve since been blessed with two wonderful boys that compliment their sister perfectly. God is amazing and is so blessed to have a home filled with all our babies! What better place than in their Heavenly Father’s hands!

  • Linnea

    My sister Ellen, whom I don’t think reads this blog, lost Abigail Faith about one year ago, Oct 2007, to triple X. They had been trying for over 2 years to get pregnant, and are now in the process of adoption.

  • Lisa

    We have lost two daughters, Rachel and Amryn, to a genetic disease called Mitochondrial DNA depletion syndrome. Rachel was 10 weeks old when she died on Dec. 1, 2003 and Amryn died at 8 weeks old on January 4 of this year. We also have 2 healthy daughters, but I think of what we are missing every day.

  • Anonymous

    I lost my first child at 10 weeks in June 2007. Being pregnant for that time was the best time of my life depsite not feeling great. I miss that child deeply and am still waiting for God to give me a child on earth, either biologically or through adoption. I don’t talk about it with many people and I thank you for the opportunity to share it here. I think of my child all the time. I pray for you, your family, and all those who have suffered losses.
    lamentations 3:17-26

  • Irene

    My children’s names are Jesse, Emmanuel, Aaren, Jo, Rowan, Ssanyu, and Elsa. They were all lost between 8 weeks and 37 weeks of life. Today, I remember these sweet ones and all other infants lost during pregnancy or at birth.

  • Neilson Family

    My name is Sara. I am currently Pregnant with my 5th child. I have had 3 miscarriages and I am Lucky enough to have a wonderful 2 year old little boy. He is our miracle. I am hoping to be able to make him a brother. I know he will be the BEST brother he can be. I am only 9 weeks along. My miscarriages always happened by week 10. I am sad to say, that if this one doesn’t work out, I don’t think I can go through the loss again. We will not be trying to get pregnant a 6th time. But, so far so good. Thank you for this opportunity and you should know how much you have changed my life. I love you Angie.

    Sara Neilson
    St. George, UT

  • Melody

    I lost my first child to miscarriage at 13 weeks due to a partial molar pregnancy in March of 2005.

    I know this sounds kinda nutty, but I prayed that God would tell me if it was a boy or a girl. I needed to know. I needed that closure. On evening, in the middle of the night, I woke up with a start and the name “Andrew” echoing in my head. That was not a name I had ever considered. I look the definition of the name up and there was my answere …”A strong man.”

    I have since gone on to have 2 beautiful healthy children. I still think of Andrew every day. God is so faithful!

  • The Spears

    My name is Jenna. My husband and I lost our first child on August 9th, 2008. Christopher Carter Spears was born at 22 1/2 weeks. He was 1 lb 2 oz. He lived for 1 hour and 21 minutes long before entering into the presence of Jesus. I had an infection which is what caused me to go into premature labor. This has been the hardest 2 months of our lives. My husband and I tried to have a baby for 16 months before getting pregnant with Carter. I will be 35 years old next month and have empty arms and a heart full of love for a baby I can’t hold any longer. God has loved on us and continues to provide. His grace is truly sufficent day by day. We continue to praise Him no matter what!! We would love the prayers. jennaspears@earthlink.net

  • Janelle

    I’ve lost two children to miscarriage, both at 10 weeks in my pregnancy. My first was in Sept 2003. We then went on to have two beautiful girls now 3.5 and 2 years old. My second miscarriage was just 2 weeks ago, Oct 2008, again at 10 weeks. Both have been very difficult to work through. Extremely painful yet I am hopeful. Psalm 126:5, “Those who sew in tears will reap with shouts of joy.” I believe in that promise from our Heavenly Father. May it encourage you as well. Love you Ang!

  • Lori Heinrich

    Thank you, Angie, for allowing us to share our grief together and to publicly remember our children on this special day.

    My name is Lori. I have lost two children to miscarriage due to antiphospholipid syndrome. The first loss was on July 22, 2006, early in the 2nd trimester. The second loss was on November 26, 2006, only 6 days after I learned of the pregnancy.

    I am blessed to have two miracle boys who were born prior to the miscarriages, and we are now choosing to expand our family by adopting an older sibling group.

    Life is good, and God is good, but the pain of loss never goes away.
    My prayers are with all of you who share this pain.

  • Michelle M.

    My prayers are with you today. I lost my first child to miscarriage March 2008. Thanks for your uplifting posts.

  • Katie

    My name is Katie. I lost my first child at 8 weeks due to a miscarriage in July 2002. I have since given birth to two beautiful and healthy babies. Elise Irene in March 2006 and Patrick John in June 2008.

    Thank you so much Angie. You are such a beautiful, strong, Godly woman and a personal inspiration to me!

    God Bless you and yours and thank you so much for sharing your story.

    Katie Miller
    North Carolina
    catherinemiller23@yahoo.com

  • Anonymous

    I wish your blog was what it once was……

  • Anonymous

    I have 3 beautiful children, but miscarried between our 2nd and 3rd in December of 2004. It was a time of private sadness for me. I never knew it would be so hard. All the plans and dreams for our precious July baby were gone. So difficult.

  • angela

    My name is Angela and my husband and I lost our first child to miscarriage in 2003. We now have a wonderful, beautiful daughter named Isabel and she will be 1 next month. The loss was a great tragedy for our family but we have since seen how God has used our loss for much gain for Him. We are truly blessed and we thank you for your open heart.

  • Cheryl

    I had a miscarraige in Oct. of
    2007.
    I am right now, 13 weeks pregnant. It’s strange but I don’t have any fears or concerns about losing this child.
    I also have an 11, 8 and 2 year old.
    GOD IS GOOD!
    Praying for you today!

  • Laura

    I lost my child due to a miscarriage in 2005. I now have two beautiful angels here with me, and one beautiful angel up above watching over us.

  • Amy

    My name is Amy. I lost my first child to miscarriage at 6 weeks in March 2008. I will be praying for you Angie and all who have lost a child. Thank you Angie for this!

  • katherine

    My name is Katherine, I lost Abigail Faith at 12 weeks on June 25, 2008. Abby would have been my third child. Please pray for my two teenage boys who don’t understand why God took her away instead of being with us! I miss her.

  • Ruth

    My name is Ruth. We miscarried a baby Feb.24th, 2008. We named the baby (sex unknown) Zazi We, which means 'Hope'. My husband and I have been trying for 7 years. This was our only pregnancy. We cling to hope that God is not finished with us yet & will provide in His time.
    Praying for you too!

  • Anonymous

    I lost Sarah Benett in 1995. I know she is in the hands of her Lord.

  • Courtney

    My name is Courtney. My husband and I have two precious angels in Heaven waiting for us. Our first daughter, Hallie, was diagnosed as potentially having Trisomy 18 on October 26th, 2007. We went through the next 3 months having our hearts ripped out at every appointment, and every ultrasound. It was sometimes so hard to smile as we watched her kick, roll, and punch at the ultrasound wands at all of our appointments, but wow she is still such a blessing. I went into early labor one day before the exact three month point of when the bad news started. I delivered my sweet sleeping angel at 1:47AM on January 26th 2008.

    We were very shocked to find out we were pregnant again on May 22nd, as we really hadn’t even tried…Sadly we lost this baby as well, at 10 weeks, on July 10th.

    I want to say thanks in advance for those of you who will pray for us today, or ever, and I hope God blesses each of you!

  • Anonymous

    I have never been able to have children, and feel a great loss from that. I have never known the “loss” you all feel, but feel my own grief nevertheless. Thank you for sharing your story with the world. You strengthen others and make their burdens light. God Bless!

  • angela

    My name is Angela and my husband and I lost our first child to miscarriage in 2003. The loss was a huge tragedy for our family but we have seen how God has used our loss for His gain. We now have a beautiful, amazing little girl named Isabel and she will be 1 next month. We are truly blessed and we thank you for your open heart.

  • Greg Coates

    My wife and I lost twins in August 2006. My wife’s water broke far too early, and she ended up with an infection that nearly took her life. My wife recovered, but the babies did not survive.

  • Anonymous

    I lost my first child to miscarriage this past summer at 9 weeks. We are trying again this month. Please keep us in your prayers. I saw you and your family this past weekend in Zeeland. You all touched my heart!

  • Jennifer

    So many losses, so much heartache. If you read all of these (983 so far) I hope you don’t get depressed. Because it is so saddening. And I’ve just read 5. I offer up prayers to all those who have lost a baby, no matter what age, no matter how long ago.

    I lost my 1st baby in September 2003 at 6 weeks. I was blessed with a daughter the next year. And what a blessing she is!! I lost my 3rd baby in May 2008, Mother’s Day weekend, due to Turner’s Syndrome causing cystic hygroma and hydrops. I was 19 weeks pregnant. Her due date was 10/3. But I have another blessing growing now! I am now 8 weeks, 5 days along and due 5/22 – near my angel baby’s anniversary. I am nervous with this pregnancy and pray multiple times a day that this baby will be healthy.

    Much love to you and yours Angie!

    Jen P

  • Sarah Weber

    I’ve had 4 miscarriages in the last 2 years. The most recent occurred only a few weeks ago. As a follower of Christ I truly struggle with continuing to trust God with my desire to be a mom. It’s an everyday battle to remember that He who created me also lovingly created my children and that they were not forgotten at their deaths. So I continue to daily stand that while I am waiting for Him to show me the Way that I will boldy and confidently trust Him. It’s not easy.

    Reading the comments has reminded me that I am not alone in this. Thanks to all of you for your honesty in this struggle. You are all in my prayers. May the Lord give you the desires of your heart.

  • Baby John’s Mom

    I’m Deb. We found out our first baby was no longer living at 11 weeks. We found out our second baby was having problems and wouldn’t survive(low heartbeat) at 6 weeks, but that little heart of hers didn’t stop beating for another two more weeks. I was happy to be able to get a few ultrasound pictures of our little baby girl, and I cherish them to this day. We found out later, after testing, that she was a girl. I found out I have a blood clotting issue and during my last pregnancy I was treated for it. Now we have a beautiful 10 month old baby boy named John. God is good.

  • Jenny

    I had a miscarriage at 7 weeks in September 2005. We now have a 13 month old daughter that God has blessed us with.

  • Anonymous

    I had a miscarriage this June at around 8 weeks. I was so sad and disappointed since becoming pregnant was something I never thought could happen for me. I never doubted the Lord’s plan for me and my husband and I know that all things work together for good for those who love Him and are called according to His purpose. I have a very strong faith and a wonderful support system in my family and church family. I had moments of great sadness and a longing for something I never really got to know. I explain it as “missing someone I’ve never even met.” I prayed about this and trusted God to come through for me someway, somehow in His special way.
    I’m now happy to say that I am currently 7 weeks pregnant today and on Monday we were able to see a strong beating heart inside of me. I have been able to share my story of loss and God’s faithfulness through it all with perfect strangers. I pray the Lord continue to bring health to my little growing baby and I can’t wait for the joyful reunion one day in Heaven when all of us will reunite with our little ones that have gone on to Heaven waiting for us. May the Lord comfort all those who hurt and who have experienced the loss we have. Remember that the Lord is faithful to complete the work He begins and His ways are so very different than our human ways. If we cast our cares upon Him, His Word promises he will will sustain us and will never let the righteous fall. My heart is with all who hurt today and I will spend today remembering and seeking God’s face for understanding and comfort for those with still unanswered questions and fresh wounds.
    ~In Christ’s Love, Debbie Ernandez

  • Anonymous

    My first miscarriage was in 1999. The baby passed at 7 weeks but we didn’t find out until almost 10 weeks. My second miscarriage was twins in June 2008. It was our last round of infertility treatments. We were prayerfully at peace with stopping treatments and then found out I was pg. We thought it was a blessing from God that we were pg after prayerfully deciding it was time to stop trying. I’m confused, angry, and hurting but I know God’s timing is perfect.

  • Tessa

    i will be one to light a candle tonight at 7pm in rememberance of your baby girl.

  • Anonymous

    My name is Angie Blankenship and I gave birth to our first child Jack at 25 weeks gestation on April 5, 2005 and he lived about 36 hours until he passed away. Losing Jack is the hardest thing I have ever had to face. I miss him everyday and think about him all the time. I know God had bigger plans for Jack and used him to touch so many people.

    I now have two beautiful little girls: Emma-Claire 2 years old born at 36 weeks, and Kaylin 6 months old born at 34 weeks.

    Thank you for sharing your story and all the inspiration I get from reading your posts.

    Thank you!!

  • Anonymous

    My sister lost 2 pregnancies at about 6 and 9 weeks. One was a set of twins. She later had 1 daughter. My aunt lost a baby girl to sids, I have her middle name. Praying for all who have lost babies.

  • Tiffany

    My name is Tiffany. I lost our first child in March of 2005 11 weeks in utero. Thanks Angie for posting this!

  • Anonymous

    The Lord has given us healthy twin girls and 2 days ago we lost a child to miscarriage. The first time, that I know of. We have been trying for 3 years.

    My heart goes out to all these women! May the Lord be our comfort, our strong tower in whom we find refuge and strength.

  • riddlefamily

    Thank you so much for this post…I had no idea there was a Nat’l Day of Remembrance, but I think it’s so wonderful!!! I lost my first child to miscarriage at 12 weeks November 1, 2005 and I do still mourn over that child. Fortunately, I have had a daughter since then and I’m delivering our second daughter in just over a week. The person who I want lifted up in prayer though is a friend of mine who just suffered her second ectopic pregnancy in 4 months. Please pray for answers for herself and husband as to why her pregnancies are failing, and for peace. Thank you so much for all you do!

  • val

    I lost my 2nd daughter Caitlin Rose @ 22 5/7 wks on 3/2/05. She was born still after her heart stopped beating. She had been diagnosed with Down Syndrome & a VSD(heart defect).

    I miss her terribly

    Thank you for the prayers

  • Anonymous

    My name is Heather. I lost our first child February 2005. We went through the process of IVF 3wks ago, I had 2 transferred embryo's and neither took. It has been very hard for both my husband and I. Our greatest desire is to have a family. Please continue to pray for us that we would have a baby soon, through whatever avenue God chooses! Praying for you today & always.

  • Anonymous

    I've miscarried twice, both times around 8-9 weeks. The babies just never started forming correctly, which made the miscarriges somewhat easier to endure. However they were still emotionally painful. But God is gracious in that He allowed my husband & I to have a beautiful baby girl on March 18th this year.

    Many prayers for those that have experienced a loss–may He comfort you & give you peace!

    Leigh Anne

  • Anonymous

    My name is Kristen. Part of this may not fall entirely into the same camp of loss as you have intended, but it’s been a loss that had a deep sea of grief attached to it. I place my first born child for adoption in Feb 1998. While it was a pure act of free will aligned with what I felt was God’s will for her and me, it still caused what felt like insurmountable grief for me at times. But God carried me through the fire of depression and kept restoring peace in my heart. I still pray that I will get to meet her one day.

    My second child was lost to miscarriage just a year later in March 1999. I still feel I got pregnant in part because I was trying to replace the daughter I placed for adoption.

    The Lord has blessed me indeed though with three more healthy, amazing, beautiful children, including a daughter for keeps. I pray for peace for all of them as they slowly learn and understand about their older sister.

    Your words have often ministered to me…echoing and reminding me of all the Lord has taught me through my own trials and depression. He still carries me through the hard times and shows me that that which is done for His glory is never in vain.

    Blessings to you…

  • E

    My name is Erin. Our first child Avery Morgan was born June 24, 2002, she returned to God’s arms July 19th, 2002. She had Trisomy 18. We miss her everyday.

  • Mommynurse

    My name is Kristy. After struggling with infertiliy, in December of 2005, we lost our first child at 6 weeks gestation, I named him Samuel. We then lost our second child in May 2006 at 9 weeks gestation. I named her Sarah. We then lost 3 embryos during an IVF cycle. Because I believe that life begins at conception, I consider each of those embryos as a child, and therefore a loss. We then were blessed with a baby girl. After she was born, we were surprised to conceive on our own. However, we lost that child in March of this year. Now we are expecting a baby boy in January.

    Reading all of the comments makes me realize just how the loss of a child affects so many women. It all too often goes undiscussed or unnoticed. Thank you for honoring the loss and the grief that we have all experienced.

  • Amy

    Thank you for thinking of us all.

    My name is Amy. I lost our first child to a miscarriage in April 2007. Our second, William Henry was stillborn at 25 weeks and 1 day on December 13, 2007.

    I thank you all for sharing your stories and my thoughts and prayers are with each and every one of you. Today and every day.

  • Elizabeth Brodie

    We lost our first child in June of 2006 at about 6 weeks. The doctor cancelled my first D&C 30 minutes after it was suppose to start because my hormone levels were rising (it took him 3 days to see my levels). But in the end we had to do a D&C because I wasn't miscarrying. For the next year I struggled with our loss. In June of 2007 I heard a sermon where the pastor encouraged us to use our past pain to help others going through the same thing. In that moment I clearly felt God calling me to write a study on women in the Bible who had struggled with infertility. For the next year I worked on the study and God taught me so much through it about these great women of faith. In Feb. 2008 my dad told me he felt I hadn't surrendered my pain and that I was looking for healing from doctors instead of God. That night I went into the bathroom and wept, I knew he was right. During that time I saw myself kneeling on the floor and I saw God's hand stretched over me in healing. I didn't know if he was going to heal my body or my emotions. From that point on God's contentment filled me, I still struggled at times but I felt a peace again. In a way I just gave it up to God to either bless us with children or to use us in another way. I didn't know how he was going to do it. In May of this year God blessed us with a positive pregnancy test. Our little boy is due in January. This pregnancy has been filled with prayers as I've struggled with fear. The struggle is not over, but God has been gracious and patient with me through my struggles and weakness.

  • Steph

    I’ve never posted before, but always love reading your thoughts!

    My name is Stephanie, and I lost my second child to miscarriage in February 2007. I was about 8 weeks along, and I think about that child all the time.

    I was blessed to conceive another child just 6 short weeks later. It has truly made me appreciate the small things and the blessings that I have with my two children on earth.

    Thank you for putting your heart out there for everyone to learn and share in!

  • Jocelyn

    I found your Blog several weeks ago and have visited it many time and added to to my favorites, because I find your strength and faith so moving. I have a wonderful daughter who is 27 and she has given me two wonderful grandsons. I have not had a loss like your, but my dear mother lost triplets in 1957! I had three sisters whom I will never know. I am an only child and still wonder what it would have been like to have them in my life. My dearest friend just lost her first grandson several months ago. He was stillborn at birth and we still cry together. Please pray for my sister, Candy Lee, Jamie Lee, Cindy Lee and Ryan Michael! Thank for sharing with us and making my faith even stronger! God Bless you and your family. I will pray for all of you who have made comments today. Pleas stop by and see me!

  • Lucila

    My name is Lucila. I lost all of our 4 babies to miscarriages. The first one on December 2006, the second on August 2007, the third on March 2008 and the fourth just last week, October 2008. I think of each of my babies constantly and wonder what they would look like and what their personality would be like. I can’t wait to meet them in Heaven. Thank you for doing this. Thanks to anyone that is praying.

  • brownblog

    My name is Sarah, I miscarried on March 11th 2008. Now I am pregnant again and due in February. The sting is still there and so is the fear, but I am holding onto Christ for hope and His strength! My heart goes out to all of you other Mommies, it’s hard, but we’re not alone!!

  • hillfamilyms

    The day Audrey was born, my husband and I received the news that our son Aaron, just 7 weeks old, had suffered a massive hypoxic brain injury and would not live. We were devastated and still miss him daily. I am thankful for each day I had him on this earth.

    Faith Hill
    Madison, MS

  • Anonymous

    I would like to ask you to pray for my good friend Jackie. She gave birth to her baby at 25 weeks and it did not survive.
    I would also like to take a moment to thank you Angie for your blog. It is a beautiful testimony to your faith and what a wonderful daughter you are to our Father. May peace and grace abound for you and your family.

  • Maggie the Librarian

    My name is Maggie. I lost our first child, a daughter named Beatrix Clementine, on February 7, 2008 to lethal birth defects. I was 36 weeks pregnant. We miss her terribly and hope and pray the Lord blesses us with another child soon.
    maggie baxter at gmail dot com

  • Ambulance Mommy

    Please remember Amanda Grace, Zachary Cohen, and Madison Grace.

    They were not my children, but the children of friends, and they have made an impact on me.

  • Janell Fredericks

    Angie-

    I have not lost but, I suffered an empty womb w/ an aching heart for 5 whole years before the Lord FLOODED our home w/ BLESSINGS… during that time I joined a support group called RESOLVE and was BLESSED w/ SUPPORT…and have been able to pay that support back by Volunteering…TODAY I am holding up those that I LOVE that have LOST my cousin Laura, My sister JILL, My friend bethany, and my friend Melissa…

  • Anonymous

    Ethan Thomas, died at 2 months of age from Spinal Muscular Atrophy

    Ellianna Jean, died at 8 months of age from Spinal Muscular Atrophy

    dearly missed by mommy, daddy, brother Kaleb and sister Hope.

  • Katie

    My name is Katie. I lost my first child 1 year ago, November 2007 – to early miscarriage. The loss was so painful, but I am now 24 weeks pregnant with our second child (samuel)! Please pray for his continued growth and development! thank you!

  • Hope

    My name is Hope. My firstborn daughter was born and lived for two hours on March 28, 2002 after a full-term pregnancy with diagnosis of bilateral renal agenesis (no development of kidneys). I have a blog to help others dealing with loss also. healinghope.blogspot.com

  • Anonymous

    It’s so hard for me to get pregnant and I finally did (Praise God!) and had twins and they are healthy, perfect little miracles. Then the shock of my lifetime came and I actually conceived without medical help only to lose my baby on Mother’s Day 2008. So.Very.Heartbreaking.

  • One Blessed Mama

    Hello Angie,

    My name is Djuna and I lost my 3rd child in January of 1998 to a miscarriage.

    I have to admit that I did not place myself in this category until I read your post that miscarriage is the loss of child no matter what stage in the pregnancy. Thank you for helping me remember my little one of whom I did not know their gender or name. My husband seems to think that they may have been a little boy.

    Every August 22nd, I do remember that to be their due date and I think of them. Thanks for helping me remember that I have not 5 but 6 children. Three by birth, one due to miscarriage and two through adoption to China.

    So thank you God for my 6 beautiful children of whom you have blessed me with.

    Thanks Angie for all you are doing and God bless you and your family. Although I have not met you I feel a special bond through following your blog.

    May God bless you beyond everything that you could ever imagine.

    Because of Him, Djuna in MD
    One blessed mama of 6

  • Anonymous

    I lost my first and second babies to miscarriage in 2005 after 2 years of infertility. After 2 more years of infertily I got pregnant and gave birth to a precious baby boy who is now 9 months old. God is good through everything! Of course that’s easy for me to say after the birth of a healthy baby, but I can honestly say and my friends would tell you that I tried my best to maintain that through the waiting……
    The waiting is the hardest! I’m parying for all 1024 of you that have posted before me!

  • Anonymous

    My name is Cheryl Odom. My son Jeremiah Cash was stillborn @ 33 weeks 2/23/08…cause unknown.

  • Sarah Mae

    My name is Sarah Mae. I know you didn’t mention this, but I think we shouldn’t exclude women, like me, who have lost a baby to abortion. I was 16 and had so much pressure on me that I finally gave in at three months along and did what everyone wanted and had the abortion. I have since gone through a healing program, and then went on to help other women dealing with abortion. Please know it is also a devastating loss, even though we “chose” it.

  • Jill W

    I had a miscarriage at 8 weeks in October of 1993. Since then the Lord has blessed us beyond measure. We have 2 handsome biological boys and 2 beautiful adopted daughters. Our second daughter still waits for us in China. I pray for all mothers who have lost children, especially those that gave birth to them and loved them enough to give them up. Thank you for giving us the opportunity to pray together.

  • Anonymous

    I lost my first child to a miscarriage in October 2003. I was early in my pregnancy, but my heart and soul felt no less pain. We have since been blessed with two absolutely wonderful girls (Trinity~4 years, and Lillian~11 months).

  • hopefullytrying

    Our 2nd baby–Amanda Joy was stillborn March 2, 2000 at 31 weeks gestation. cord accident.
    Her memorial website is here:
    http://www.geocities.com/amandajoymarottek

    Our 3rd baby–Baby Bean ws miscarried 12.21.03 at 7 weeks gestation. His memorial webpages:
    http://www.geocities.com/babybean1203

    thank you.

  • Christy from Florida

    Lost my triplet daughters – Emily, Erika and Eleni in 1997 at 22 weeks. Miscarriage #1 & #2 in 1998. Gave up on having a child and God blessed me with my out of the blue miracle in 2001 – my son Colton. Thanks for inspiring so many people by your story.

  • Jenny

    My name is Jenny……we lost our second son Matthew to stillbirth, 22 years ago. It was 3 weeks before my due date and he stopped moving. His death was due to the cord being around his neck.

    I will light my candle tonight at 7pm and remember all of the babies who have gone before us.

  • Jenn O

    My name is Jennifer. I have a 2 1/2 year old son, and we lost our second child to miscarriage in March 2007 at 6 weeks. 1 year later we found out we were having twins, and now they are healthy 6 month old baby girls! What a blessing! God is so good and to Him be the glory.

  • Karen

    2-15-08 miscarriage at 8 weeks
    7-20-08 miscarriage at 9 weeks

  • My Three Sons

    first of all wanted to share that I lost my second pregnancy in Novemeber 1997, I was approx 9 weeks.
    and secondly I would personally like to lift up the anonymous poster who lost a pregancy due to pressure to chose an abortion. this is how my 1st pregnancy ended. i was 16 and was forced into the decision as well. i have found forgiveness for this and I pray you will be able to as well. but forgiveness doesn’t mean forgetting. while it was never confirmed I believe I lost a baby girl in 1993 because I hadn’t yet found the strength to stand up for what I knew was wrong.

  • April

    My name is April. I am over whelmed by all of the stories here. What a wonderful way for all of us who have had a loss like this to be able to share our hearts together on this special day. I lost three babies to miscarriage. God has blessed me with my miracle baby, Justin, born March 31, 2006. I am glad I have hope to meet my other three children someday, and it brings me comfort to know that they are safe in God’s arms now. Thank you for sharing your story with us. Blessings.

  • Stephanie

    We lost our third baby to miscarriage, in February 2007. We still talk about that baby with our other kids. It’s good for me to be able to share it with them, and helps me to remember. We praise God that He promises to work all things together for good to those who love Him and are called according to His purpose!

  • Lewis Family

    You may not even get to this one, but I thought of you when I thought of the title of this talk, “Lift Where You Stand”. You are doing just that. This talk is referenced to the Priesthood, but is equally applicable to women also. Let’s see if I can post the web address. http://www.lds.org/conference/talk/display/0,5232,23-1-947-18,00.html
    btw, I have 5 beautiful, healthy children, and one who was adopted into a lovely family when I was 17.

  • Sitesx6

    I’m Kelly and lost a triplet in Oct. 1997. We had twins in July 1998.

  • Ann

    My name is Ann. We lost our 2nd child to miscarriage in January 2000. We are blessed to have 3 healthy children, but have never forgotten the one we lost.

  • Sirena

    I lost our fourth baby at six week in may of 2007. In Febuary of 2008 I gave birth to Joseph and am now five months pregnant with our next blessing! I feel very blessed and fortunate to have suffered so little. I know there are many who have only known life and never held a little life in their hands that has come from them.

  • Brody*sMommy

    My name is Jill a very dear friend of mine lost her beautiful baby girl at 41 weeks gestation. She looked just like her daddy! Sofia is missed in every breath they take. I continue to pray for them as I will for each and everyone of you brave ladies. God Bless!

  • Anonymous

    I lost my first child to miscarriage in July of 2001

    I had my son in May of 2002

    I lost my 3rd child to miscarriage in January of 2003

    I lost my 4th child to miscarriage in July of 2004

    I lost my 5th child to miscarriage in December of 2004

    I had my 2nd live son in September of 2005

    I had my daughter in August of 2007

    My doctors finally realized that I had a non-funcationing thyroid…with some meds I was able to conceive my last two miracles and actually birth them. I remember today for my 5 lost as well as celebrate my 3 wonderful children. My best friend also lost her daughter last year, after 29 days to T-18. Our daughters were born only 6 weeks apart, mine first, then hers. So, I am also remembering her today, and am asking for prayers for their family and her mom as well.

  • KK

    Praying for each family who has loved and lost. May all continue looking to HIM for comfort, as only HE can give.
    Psalm 46:10

  • Anonymous

    annie and andy hart
    Sophie Susannah born still on my birthday 8/31/07
    Little Bit Hart, molar pregnancy, 9/08.
    Blessed with the adoption of Amelia Georgia Blue, 9/08

    please also pray for our dear friends children
    christine and watson
    p-nut kawecki early miscarriage
    Olive Lucy – born still 8/27/07
    and their new blessing Owen Samuel Danger 9/08 healthy and gorgeous!

    thanks

  • Richard and Becky

    My name is Becky and my husband and I miscarried our third child November 2007 at 14 weeks. God used the experience to bring me even closer to Him. We have two beautiful boys (3 and 2) who are the light of my life. The Lord led me to your blog Angie last April when I was extremely depressed and used sweet Audrey’s story to help pull me from the darkness. Thank you for sharing your heart and soul and I will join in praying for all these sweet babies who are missed!

  • Anonymous

    My husband and I have lost 3 children to miscarriage. We have two daughters and are expecting another child any day, but until I hold the new little blessing in my arms I still feel like it could slip away from us. By faith in God I know our little ones are in heaven. Thank you Angie for sharing your story with all of us. What a blessing you are to those around you and what a display of strength God uses through you.

  • Brandi and Ray

    Hello,
    My name is Brandi Lambert and I lost my first child at 4-1/2 months. Samantha “Jade” was born July 18, 2003 at 25 weeks. She weighed 1lb 3oz and was 12.25 inches. I had to went to the doctor 2 weeks before and my fluid was low so they asked me to come back in 2 weeks to check it again. When I went back on July 16th my fluid was lower and my blood pressure was 170/98. I was then sent to Vanderbilt where my blood pressure stayed elevated and on Thursday night my kidneys started to shut down. I had her Friday morning by classical section at 11:40am. She stayed at Vanderbilt Children’s Hospital in the NICU for 4 months 8 days. She came home November 26, 2003, the day before Thanksgiving that year. She had many struggles in the hospital, the most being her lungs. She came home with oxygen and an apnea monitor, as well as a G-tube in her stomach for feedings. We had her home a week and at 5:00am Dec. 3rd her heart stopped. My husband called the ambulance while I did CPR. They told us on the way to the hospital she tried to breath on her own, but her heart would not restart. She died that morning and we had her service Dec 5th. I was very fortunate to make wonderful friends with our nurses and NPs and several came to the funeral. She was a wonderful blessing and I pass the cemetery where her body rests twice everyday. I love telling people about her and showing her picture. It is still really hard after 5 years because I have a niece that was born Jan 8th 2004 and I see things that Jade would be doing right now.
    I lost my second child November 15, 2006 by miscarriage at 8 weeks.
    I delivered my third child November 14, 2007 at 37 weeks – Ryan William. He weighed 7lb 1oz and is very healthy. It is amazing how different pregnancies can be. I was watched very closely with my last pregnancy, having an ultrasound at almost every visit and having visits every 2 weeks for most of the term also.
    My husband already had three boys with his first wife, 22,17,15.
    I just started reading your blog and I have cried and cried. You can write beautifully. It is like reading a book and I can’t quit. In some of the beginning you explain your feelings and It sounds just like me all over again. I have had the same thoughts and reactions that you have had and it is comforting. Thank you so much for sharing Audrey Caroline with us. Please remember my Jade. I know her and Audrey are together.

  • Candie

    Hi Angie, my name is Candie and I lost my first child to miscarriage at 11 weeks on Oct. 12, 2004. It was a very tramatic event for me and I still cry over the loss. I wrote about it on my blog if you would like to read it. It’s under the title “When The Tears Fall” at http://www.candielynn.blogspot.com. Thank you for letting us share our losses with you.

  • Anonymous

    hi,
    my name is catherine, my mom lost her baby on may 15th 2008, she’s still devastated about it, he was stillborn…actually we are both devastated about it,and your site has helped me so much, thank you i’ll be praying for all the other moms that lost their babies, they are all in heaven now.

  • Stephanie

    Hello, my name is Stephanie Boutwell. I have 5 beautiful children, 3 which are still here with me, and 2 which beat me to heaven. My husband and I lost our first pregnancy in Oct. 2002 due to a miscarriage at 8 wks. And 11 months ago on Nov.13th, 2007 we lost our twin son, Case Grant. After a completely perfect twin pregnancy, he was unexpectedly stillborn at 8 & 1/2 months gestation, his sister Claire survived and was perfectly healthy. Prayer works people and God is the only thing that can truly hold you through these things!
    Blessings to all and prayers to all those who have also had to let go to soon.
    Stephanie Boutwell, Brookston, TX

  • Vicki

    Wow – look at all of these posts. It’s up to 1051. Breaks my heart that all of these women have suffered such heartache.
    I ask for prayers for 3 beautiful women:
    My sister – she miscarried at about 10 weeks. She was devastated but now she is 37 weeks pregnant and I PRAY that she will experience a beautiful birth and a healthy baby! Her name is Shannon.
    My friend – she delivered her son stillborn in the last weeks of her pregnancy after an u/s showed his heart was no longer beating. It broke my heart. It was her first child and I just couldn’t believe it. I pray the Lord will heal her broken heart and bless her with a healthy child in His time. Her name is Mary.
    A woman I met online – her daughter was born still – a very similar situation as Mary’s. She is now 37 weeks pregnant with another girl and due within days of my sister. I pray that she experiences a beautiful living birth this time and that her daughter is perfect. She is an amazing woman, truly committed to her faith – which is what has gotten her through. Her name is Kendall.
    I have been truly blessed with 2 healthy children – but my heart has broken for all 3 of these women and for all of you that have suffered such a devastating loss. I pray God will fill you with a peace that heals your heart. God bless each of you! With loving thoughts and prayers…

  • Anonymous

    My name is Cathy and I lost my third child to miscarriage in 2003. That child would have been celebrating his or her fifth birthday this week. So much time has passed, and God blessed me with another child but I never forget the baby that grew inside me and that someday I will meet in heaven.

  • Jessica

    My name is Jessica. I lost my 2nd baby to miscarriage at 11 weeks in July 08. It’s feels like just yesterday, and yet the time that has past by has not made it any easier! I have 1 incredible little girl who is my sunshine EVERYDAY!

  • Casey Chappell

    What a “hall of faith” we have here. I lost Asher Daniel Chappell at 1 minute old. Come quickly Lord Jesus come!

  • The Burkett Family

    My name is Amanda Burkett. I lost my first to miscarriage in May 2006. Blessed to be prayed for, blessed to be praying.

  • Anonymous

    My name is Janet. I lost our first child in 1989, second child in 1995and third child named Rosebud in 2002. We have been blessed with three living and healthy children in 1998, 1999, and 2005. Bless you all for your prayers!

  • Robin

    I lost my first baby at 8 weeks in July 2007.

    I lost my second baby at 5 weeks in February 2008.

    There is not a second/minute/hour/day that goes by when I don't think of my babies & wonder what they would be like today. Would they have my eyes or their daddy's mouth? The pain NEVER goes away…you just learn to live with it.

    I'm praying for all the other mom's & dad's out there who've also loved & lost.

  • Anonymous

    I have lost 4 babies to miscarriage. They were early losses but so painful. I have difficulty talking about it to most people.
    Thank you for the much needed prayers.
    I look so foward to the day I hold my babies in my arms.
    God Bless you,
    Jill

  • Alyssa

    my name is alyssa. our daughter sydney grace was stillborn nov 30th, 2007 and thus began the painful journey that has kept me on my face in brokenness, on my knees in prayer and at the foot of the cross thankful for His mercy and grace every minute he keeps me going and walking forward. my prayers of God’s blessing of hope in our storms are with you and your family and all those who are touched by such loss.

  • Diana

    I was one of the ones that simply was told you will never be pregnant. My heart aches at these stories of bravery and courage.
    Tears flow for each of you who are waiting to meet your babes one glorious day.

    imthankfullyhis

  • Anonymous

    I lost my first son at 33 1/2 weeks in 2006, due to a concealed placental abruption (so they think). We are now expecting our second son November 25th! Jeremiah 29:11

  • joymweaver

    We lost our second child, Samuel, to miscarriage at 16 weeks on August 5, 2008.
    Stefan, Joy, and Jordan (almost 6)Weaver

  • Anonymous

    I lost my first baby to miscarriage in 2005 after years of infertility. I was blessed with a beautiful son in 2006. I am starting fertility treatments again this month.

  • Jenny

    My name is Jenny and I just recentley had my 8th miscarriage. People ask me everyday how do you go on. I have faith in the Big Guy I say. I pray that someday we will be blessed with a little one. We want children so badly. A very dear friend of mine sent me this website and I sat at my desk and cryed. This website is a blessing from above Angie.I need to know that I’m not the only one. I feel for all of you and you will all be in my prayers forever

  • Jen

    I lost my 3rd child at 4.5 weeks gestation in April 2006. We named him/her Taylor since it could have been either a boy or girl. 1 month later we found out we were pregnant again! God’s blessed us with 2 boys (Eric and Alec) and then 2 girls (Annika and Rebekka). I’m praying for all the moms who are mourning losses today! HUGS from a fellow traveler. =)

  • Anonymous

    I lost my first child to miscarriage in February 2008, when I was about 6 weeks pregnant. About a month ago my sister-in-law lost her first child in her 17th week. It’s been a rough year for our family!

  • asplashofsunshine

    I have been sitting reading every one of the 1069 comments thus far. Each one has made my heart a tad bigger. As I sat here reading them, my son has been racing his cars around me, and tripping on his airplanes, all while wearing his big sisters princess tiara. I am blessed to have two children, and I want to thank everyone who opened up a bit of their lives to us through your comments. Thank you to all mommies for making me a better mommy!

  • Anonymous

    My name is Courtney. We lost our second child to miscarriage in march of 2005. We lost our 4th child to an ectopic pregnancy in August of 2007. It's hard to explain the hurt, the emptiness. I am so grateful to be the mommy of two beautiful, healthy children, Ali (4) & Dylan(2).

    I am also posting for a very dear friend Amanda. She lost her third child at 18 weeks to 'late miscarriage' in June of 2008. Brayden Wayne Johnson had conditions that made him 'incompatible with life'.

  • becky

    I just lost my first baby this past week…miscarried at 7 weeks, after trying for 2 years. It has been difficult. Thank you for doing this Angie. It has brought me some comfort during this heart breaking and difficult time.

  • Bonky’s Mom

    I’m Bonky’s Mama and I lost our second baby to miscarriage 5 weeks ago.

    We’ve also had a failed adoption. It failed after we had custody.

  • Amy

    I lost my first child in January of 2008 at 11 weeks after hearing the heartbeat 2 weeks earlier. We were told that we were in the clear since the heartbeat was strong. I am now 28 weeks and can’t wait to meet this one. Thanks you for sharing your story.

  • Jennie

    My name is Jennie. We lost our 1st child at 9 weeks in January 2007. We lost our Samantha Michelle at 19 weeks on April 11, 2008, due mainly to placental abruption and other complications. We are now (unexpectedly!) 8 weeks pregnant with our 3rd baby. Not being anxious is a daily struggle, but we are thrilled and hopeful in God’s plan for our family.

    Thank you, Angie, for sharing your story, for allowing us to share ours, and for praying for us and we pray for you.

  • Kyle

    I just wanted to let you know that your family is in my prayers.

  • screamofcontinuousness

    My name is Deirdre
    I lost 5 children during IVF very early on (to early to even have names yet) before God blessed us with our gorgeous adopted daughter Virginia born Aug 29, 2008

  • Elizabeth

    Thank you so much for sharing your story and allowing us to include our babies. We lost one of our identical twin boys, Evan Braxton, June 19, 2007 at 33 weeks to TTTS.

  • Anonymous

    I admire the strength of all the ladies that have posted who have lost babies … and Angie, I’m drawn to your blog for reasons I cannot explain.

    I have 2 beautiful boys but have not experienced a personal loss. But my mom and SIL have lost babies.

    My brother died Easter weekend 1980. He was 3 months and 10 days old. SIDS. Although I was only 7 at the time and really unable to grasp the full scope of the loss, now that I am a mother, I get it. My mom still struggles with this loss.

    My SIL lost 2 babies in the early stages of pregnancies. The reasons are unknown but she has since been blessed with 2 beautiful boys.

  • The Moser Fam…

    I lost two babies to miscarriage following the birth of my son… one at 11 weeks in October of 2006 and one at 8 weeks in August of 2007. I am currently 25 weeks pregnant with my second child! God is good! Thank you for your blog and for your willingness to pray for all women who have gone through something like this. You will be in my prayers, as well!

  • Valerie

    Dearest Angie,
    My name is Valerie and I lost my first child in September 2003. We had just found out that I was pregnant on Labor Day and about 10 days later I lost the baby. I really struggled with the loss and still think of that baby often. He or she would have been born in May 2004. I became pregnant again in Nov. 2003 with my daughter Lauren and now have a 19 month old little girl named Claire. We have truly been blessed. I will pray for all of the mommies who’s little angels are with the Lord.

    Please be in prayer for my cousin who lost two babies to early miscarriage and another friend who lost a baby in early miscarriage.

    You are a true blessing. May God continue to use you as a beacon of light to others.

  • Tracey

    I lost a baby to miscarriage this past May.

    Thank you for praying for me and I will pray for you and all others who have experienced this horrible loss.

  • Anonymous

    I was elated when I became pregnant just shy of my first anniversary with my husband. We surprised my parents at Christmas with the news but then I miscarried at 11 weeks two days after we celebrated our anniversary. Im glad you said that losing a baby at any week is important. I was devastated but felt God’s peace through me that night. We had thought of the name Evan for a boy. Even though we dont know what the sex was, I always think of my little angel in heaven. I found out I was pregnant again on my due date of our first child. We’ve been blessed with a little boy, Nathan born March 15, 2006. His name means gift.

  • Joyful Mom

    Angie,

    Bless you for offering a place for those of us to share our grief. I’m praying for you and Nicole today.

    My name is Karla and my dh and I lost our first baby in March 1991. We also lost two babies during the summer of 2004 and another baby after Thanksgiving that same year. We are the joyful parents of four precious babies that are here with us, too.

    After 7 years of infertility I’m blessed to say that God healed me in a big way. Even though 4 babies are with Him, he still allowed me to conceive 8 times! Praise Him!

    I’m also praying for all of the other moms on this list who are aching today.

  • Anonymous

    My name is Tracie, I lost my baby to a miscarriage on February 19, 2008. I was 12 weeks along in pregancy. Thank you for all the prayers.

  • Sunnie75

    After completing my bachelor degree in Aug 2001, we began to start a family six years into our marriage. We became pregnant and lost that child in January 2002 at 7 weeks. We tried for another long year to get pregnant without success until March 2003. We again lost that baby in April at 7 weeks. We went to Cancun that May to get away from Mother’s Day. The day we return, my dad passed away. We were in a singing ministry and I had asked for prayer during my 2nd pregnancy. We had to return there that June. All I could do stand on the stage and give my testimony of the events that had taken place and say how thankful I am that God does not allow us to see what is ahead, because I would not have thought that I could go through this amount of loss.
    After another grueling year of infertility treatments, I finally stopped all interventions after being told “we don’t know why you have ever been pregnant and you should consider invitro.” And all in God’s perfect timing I again became pregnant in Sept 2004. We had a great pregnancy and Hannah Brielle was born in June 2005.
    After Hannah’s first birthday, you can imagine our surprise when we found out we were expecting again.
    This pregnancy was great and Grayson Nathaniel was born in April 2007.
    I have learned so much about God’s sovereignty and His grace. He is using me and my story to help others. I have a friend named Holly who lost her baby girl “Faith” at 19 weeks. She also needs prayers.
    Angie, I love to laugh and cry with you through your blog. Keep sharing!!
    Love in Christ,
    Heather

  • Erin

    My name is Erin and I lost my first child at 8 weeks in November 2007. I am now 23 weeks pregnant with a boy and seeking God for the peace that surpasses all understanding.

  • Anonymous

    we lost our first child due to an early miscarriage in april of 2006. we lost our third after a missed miscarriage in december of 2008. i’m currently pregnant for the 4th time and complications have come up. please pray for the health of my unborn daughter.

  • wildeagle

    Hi, my name is Cody. I lost my first child to a miscarriage at 13 weeks in July of 2004, my second child to a miscarriage in December 2005, my third child to a miscarriage in April 2006, and my fifth child to a miscarriage in August 2008. I still grieve every day, and am so thankful for sights like these that help me remember God’s love.

  • julie

    My name is Julie. I lost my first child, Samuel at birth on Jan. 31, 2006. Samuel died do to a condition called Multi-cysitc dysplastic kidneys. He lived a short 3 minutes and the first face he ever saw was our Lords. He is loved and missed in our family everyday! We long to see him in heaven! In the year following Samuel’s birth I had two very early miscarriages. God has now given us a beautiful and healthy daughter. Thank you LOrd!

  • Anonymous

    I lost my son to a sever heart defect and several genetic disorders 14 days after he was born.
    My brother and sister in-law lost a baby to miscarriage at about 8 weeks.

  • Owain’s mommy

    Hi my name is Amber and I lost my first child to a miscarriage in February 2000 and this past January my son Owain was born with a life threatening birth defect called Congital Diaphragmatic hernia. None of the Doctor thought he would survive.I am happy to say that today our son is a happy healthy eight month old. He is our little miracle!

    Amber

  • Anonymous

    I lost our first baby on Mothers Day, 1995, after trying for three years to get pregnant. I was 8 weeks along. I lost our second baby in November 1995. I’m sure the first was a girl, whom I’ve named Bronwyn. The second was a son, Rhys. They each have a special angel ornament on our Christmas tree. We have since been blessed with four beautiful children. They are too young to understand why I cry every year when I hang those two angel ornaments.
    Thank you for doing this.

  • Jessica

    My name is Jessica Carlin. I lost my third child, Treyson Kemp Carlin to complications due to bilateral renal agenenesis.
    He was born June 6, 2008 and lived for one beautiful hour.

    Angie, you and Todd are in my prayers today.

  • Organized Chaos

    Oh, Angie, what a ministry this site has become for so many women and their families. Thank you for that. Thank you for sharing your pain and your grief, and allowing so many to see what God can do with it when you give it all to Him.

    My name is Gina, and I lost my second and third babies to miscarriage in 2002. The first required a D&C on the labor and delivery floor at the hospital where I delivered my first born with no problems. The second happened two days before my birthday at home. Both situations seemed so cruel to me, an insult to injury. Though I never walked away from God, I was definitely angry with Him for longer than I'd like to admit.

    Six years later, I have two more children and a faith that God has grown through these circumstances. Life is precious.

  • Jill

    I lost my first child in a missed miscarriage in February 2007. We went in for the doctor’s appointment at 12 weeks excited to see our baby in the ultrasound, and felt like the ground dropped out from under us when they told us there was no heartbeat… our baby Gabe.

    Now we are blessed with our 9-month old Emma. Joy comes in the morning…

  • algonquinteacher

    I’m Ann. I lost my twin daughter at 22 weeks. I still get sad when I see twins even though I feel blessed to have had my other twin, a son survive. Sometimes I feel guilty about that…

  • Anonymous

    My mother miscarried her forth child, my little brother, Phillip John, around 20 weeks in 1987. She found out at her ultrasound and told me that she just stared at those little feet that would never run or wear shoes. Our family knows we have an angel watching over us. A friend just miscarried at 10 weeks. My cousin’s child, Hope, was born at 25 weeks and lived for 1 day. My grandmother had multiple miscarriages. God bless all you women and your families who have been so touched by these little souls, no matter how short or long they were here on earth. We will rejoice one day with them when we are reunited in heaven!

  • Tiffany

    My name is Tiffany. I lost my first child (at 11 weeks) to miscarriage in June 2000. I had two healthy sons in 2003 & 2005. They are wonderful and light up my life. My youngest son unexpectedly passed away from a rare bleeding disorder February 27th of this year. He was one week old.

    Angie, I will pray for you, Audrey, and all of our lost babies.

    Thank you so much for your blog.

  • Anonymous

    Angie,

    Thank you so much for praying. I am an avid reader of your blog who has never experienced the pain of infertility or pregnancy/children lost. I know of a few who have that covet yours and others prayers who may not read this blog …

    My sister-in-law, who lost a child in 2005, and has become very bitter over it, even though she is due with a child in December. She also seems to be in a dry spell in her walk with the Lord.

    An acquaintance I began to know through my employment named Deanna. She is crushed over the loss of her third child, Eliana and does not seem to have a relationship with our Lord(www.missingeliana.wordpress.com).

    A good friend of mine named Roxanne, who several years ago, lost her 16 month old daughter Ashley due to an accidental drowning in the bathtub.

    My prayers and thoughts are with all of you who have lost a child or who have children who are afflicted with disease and/or cancer. I can’t imagine going through life like that. Thank you again for this blog, which gives people like me insight as to what you are going through and gives me a chance to pray more specifically.

  • Kristin Ross

    Thank you, Angie.

    My husband I lost our child at 8 weeks (the baby had stopped developing at 6w 3d) in May 2008 due to Trisomy 16. We miss our angel every day and continue to pray to God that He will allow us to have more children.

  • Anonymous

    I miscarried in April 2005 and again in January 2006 both in the first trimester.

  • Real-life Family

    My name is Melonie. My husband, Adam, and I lost our first child, Sam, to a miscarriage at 5 weeks in August 2000. Our second child, a son named Clayton Wyatt, was stillborn in 2001 at 21 weeks. We have since had two living sons, Drake Adam (2002) and Levi Hunter (2007). God is good, and we are now at a point where we can praise Him for the good He has brought out of our trials!

  • Amy

    I am so touched by the way you have shared your heartache and in turn comforted others. God bless you. In 2000, October 10 we lost our firstborn son. I carried him full-term never expecting anything to go wrong. I went into labor and had a placenta abruption. It all happened so fast. My son was born, still-born, his name is Todd Austin. II Corinthians 1 talks about how God comforts us during our times of trouble so we can comfort others, you are such a beautiful example of this, thank you. Seven years later God has blessed us with three more boys!

  • Bentley Family

    My name is Tricia. We lost our
    3rd child in 2006 due to miscarriage. We named her Lily Ruth.

  • Chandra

    My name is Chandra. In December of 2006 we found out our baby didn’t have a heartbeat. I miscarried January 12, 2007. Abijah Saul was our third child. Thank you for your prayers and know that I pray for all of you almost every single day.

  • Anonymous

    I lost my first baby to miscarriage in June of 2004. We tried for 6 months, including fertility treatments, and got pregnant without treatment that month. I only knew for two days but it was very hard. I often wonder what my baby would be like now. I am very blessed to have two healthy children now, a boy and a girl. My children were born in 2005 and 2007. I am praying for everyone.

  • Kieliszeks

    My name is Deanna and I had a miscarriage on July 26, 2006 on my birthday. My heart goes out to all of those who have lost a child. But let it be known God works in mysterious ways and the next year I delivered twins at 26weeks that are now home and healty. God Bless

  • Anna

    amazing that there are so many. we lost our first child at 6 weeks in April of 2007. We now have a beautiful baby girl who will turn 7 months next week. i love reading your blog. thank you for encouraging us by sharing your heart.

  • Christy Sanford

    we lost our 3rd child due to complications in pregnacy at 15 weeks.. baby caroline.. in April 2001…

  • Anonymous

    My name is Shawna and I lost twins to miscarriage in 2005 and then had a healthy boy in 2006 and then a miscarriage in 2007 and one in 2008 and now I am pregnant with a healthy baby at 17 weeks. Good is Good. Praying for all u moms.

  • cindi

    My name is Cindi.
    I lost my first child, Micah, due to miscarriage in 1997. I lost our 2nd child, Eron, due to miscarriage in 1998. I lost our 4th child, Christian due to miscarriage in 2000.

    Please pray also, if not more, for my dear friend who lost her 16 yo son last month due to suicide.

    thank you so so much.

  • Christine Bolton

    My name is Christine. My husband and I had quintuplets in November 2005. We lost 2 of the boys. Matthew died a few hours after he was born and Isaac died 3 days later from complications of prematurity.

  • Lesa B

    My name is Lesa and I lost my first two children to miscarriage. On June 2008 I was blessed with my son, Avery Michael who spend 1 amazing hour with us before going home with our Heavenly Father.

  • Leah

    My name is Leah. I lost lost a baby at around 9 weeks due to an ectopic pregnancy. We waited 5 months, then got pregnant again. At around 7 weeks I miscarried. Then miscarried again at around 7 weeks two months later. We seem to get pregnant easy, but for some reason I can’t seem to keep these babies. It’s been pretty hard lately. I have an amazing daughter, Faith who’s 20 months and is the joy of our lives. But I’m not sure I can keep going through this. I’m dealing with feelings of guilt (if Faith is an only child), and guilt that I don’t have the energy or emotional strength to get pregnant again. I could really use prayer. Thank you.

  • Anonymous

    My name is Chrissy and I lost my second child to a miscarriage in my 11th week of pregnancy. It was October 2002.

  • Tabatha

    My name is Tabatha and I lost my son Cohen due to no kidney function just over 5 months in to my pregnancy. He was born 2 years ago on Oct 04. He is always on my mind and forever in my heart! Thanks you for praying for me and others! http://www.minishfamily.blogspot.com

  • Chelsea Pang

    God is powerful isn’t He? To bring all of us mothers together to remember and celebrate life. Our first child, Grace Ola O’Brien Pang, is in heaven with her Lord. We learned very early on that she had Trisomy 18. She stopped kicking this past September 12 at 37 weeks gestation…she started to leave us on the day we did our pregnancy pictures. We induced her and she was stillborn on Wednesday, September 17th. It was a very easy labor, she needed only 4 pushes. All of our family and friends were there. We know God’s plan was bigger and richer than ours but that doesn’t mean we like it all the time:). Ola means life in Hawaiian. Our friend gave us a pendant with Ola on one side and Life on the other to honor our choice to give her life. She has affected so many people, that is her purpose. We need prayer for hope in trying for more children. I am praying for all of us, especially those with hysteretomies.

  • Anonymous

    My name is Jenny and I lost my first baby to miscarriage on March 14, 2006 at 5 weeks. We were blessed with a precious boy on February 6, 2007.

  • akma

    We lost our third child to miscarriage in August of 1998. We already had two daughters and went on to have two more. In my heart I know the child we lost was a boy.

  • Shawna

    My name is Shawna and in 2005 I lost twins to miscarriage, then in 2006 had a healthy baby boy and had a miscarriage in 2007 and another miscarriage in 2008 and now am pregnant at 17 weeks with a healthy baby. God is good. I am praying for all u moms.

  • chloe463@yahoo.com

    I don’t know if I really fit in these comments or not but my grief is unbelievable. I lost my first baby girl two weeks ago. Four weeks ago today I had an amnio and we were given the initial diagnosis of Trisomy 18 with many malformations and defects that left her ‘incompatible with life’. We began praying that if Raelyn Elise was not going to be allowed to live at birth, that God would take her before the final results from the amnio came back. My husband and I knew we would not be emotionally able to carry out the pregnancy knowing the end result. We do not doubt that God can do miracles (we are pastors) but we felt in our hearts that there was not going to be a miraculous healing. The people at chruch cannot understand our decision and I sincerely pray that I do not offend anyone here on this beautiful site, but I need to let my story out.
    We induced labor on 9/28 and my Raelyn was born into Heaven at 23wks on 9/29. She had not moved for two weeks so I believe that God answered our prayers. We are praying for emotional healing and for healthy children in the future. Thank you all for your prayers.

  • Staci

    I have lost 3. The first (that I believe was a boy) on Father’s Day, 1999. The next one was in Feb 2003 at approximately 9 weeks after seeing a healthy heartbeat. And yet another early loss in August 2003.

    I will never forget.

  • Anonymous

    I have lost 4 babies in my time as a mother…but I also have 4 precious children on this earth that the Lord has blessed me with as well. Sometimes when I encounter people who have experienced loss and we start to talk, it’s hard for me to believe that my 4 children are only half of the ones God allowed me to conceive. And though my miscarriages were the hardest things I have every experienced, I am so thankful that I had to deal with them…they have given me a perspective that not everyone has, and also the opportunity to minister to other women who need help and understanding. I praise the Lord for giving me 4 precious, healthy children, and for giving my 4 lost babies a purpose: because of them, I can give a special love to women who are going through or have gone through loss in the past. All of us who have dealt with this kind of pain have that to give! Praise be to the Lord.

  • traceylynndel

    I have lost a total of four children. two were in the early stages of pregnancy, Jessie and Aerin. We didn’t know their gender. the other two were little boys lost at 20 and 21 weeks, Sam and Jonas. Thank you for undertaking this project. I was amazed at the number of comments. It is comforting to know someone cares about our babies.

  • Wendy

    I found your blog shortly after I lost my daughter on May 5, 2008. She was stillborn due to anencephaly. Not a day goes by that I do not think about her. I appreciate your blog and reading your stories. Thanks for caring and for sharing. If you get a chance, you can read my blog about my daughter at http://www.tressajane.blogspot.com.

  • Anonymous

    My friend lost her second child 3 weeks ago to a miscarriage. She never wants to speak of it again–and as her friend I hurt for her. I hope that you can pray for her and her family to find strength to move forward. I want her to know it’s OK to greive but I worry she’ll keep it too bottled up putting on a brave face.

  • e&e

    I hope someone is still reading after all these…

    We are missing three little babes who are safely in the arms of Jesus:
    August 31, 2004
    February 15, 2005
    October 25, 2007

    God has allowed us two other children on earth, with another expected Jan 2009. I will never take the blessing of a healthy, full-term baby for granted.
    elisa

  • Becca

    My name is Becca. I lost my first child to miscarriage at 14 weeks in February, 2005. I lost my second child to miscarriage at 9 weeks in February, 2006. I lost my third child at 7 weeks in July, 2006.
    I miss my children.

  • Anonymous

    I lost my twins in June of 2002. I lost triplets in Sept of 2002. I lost the remaining seven embryos in Decemeber of 2002.

    I am the only one who remembers. I am the only one who gave them a name. I am the only one who grieves in June and Sept and Dec. I wonder if anyone looks at my son(the one embryo that did survive) and thinks about his siblings. My heart aches…

  • Kelly

    I lost our third baby to a miscarriage in November of 2007. I was only 6 weeks into the pregnancy but completely devastated by such an unexpected loss. We have two healthy boys (4 and 2) and I never imagined I could/would have a miscarriage. Even though I am 29 weeks into my fourth pregnancy, I still find that I have a hole in my heart for the little person I never got to feel or hold. Thank you for giving us all a place to remember!

  • The Morris Family

    Such a sadness that there has to be so many of these sort of comments, yet they are safely in His arms. Remembering our 4 miscarriages 93′, 97′, 2007 and 2008 and forever remembering out 3yr. Joel 1/23/07

  • Samantha

    Our first son was stillborn at 36 weeks on Feb. 12th, 1997. God gave us a beautiful daughter one year later. We sufferred a miscarriage in the fall of 1999 and He granted us a son in late 2000. Praise be to El Roi, the God who hears me. He bound up my broken heart and restored our joy. With God nothing is impossible!

  • The Morris Family

    Such a sadness that there has to be so many of these sort of comments, yet they are safely in His arms. Remembering our 4 miscarriages 93′, 97′, 2007 and 2008 and forever remembering out 3yr. Joel 1/23/07

  • tab

    My name is Tasha and I lost a baby at 14 weeks in November of 2006. I think of my unborn baby often. I know that this baby is now dancing in heaven with three of her cousins, and in the arms of our most wonderful God. This post has made me enlarge my mental image to include a much larger circle of beautiful babies. I can almost here the laughter and feel the warmth of their smiles as they live out their days in perfect peace.

  • R. Sutphin

    My name is Regina. Today is the 5th (10/15)anniversary of the death of our first child, Lucas. He was born at 24 weeks and lived his entire life (7 months to the day) in the NICU. He died on the day he was to be released to come home.

    In October 2005, we miscarried our twin daughters Haley and Emily at about 8 weeks due to Trisomy 18.

    We now have two beautiful sons who God sent to us through adoption.

    I thank you for posting this for those who have lost. I have always found your blog to be uplifting and I really need that today.

  • Anonymous

    DEAR ANGIE
    WE ARE THINKING AND PRAYING FOR YOU THIS DAY PLEASE KNOW THAT AUDRY CAROLINE HAD AN INFLUENCE ON OUR LIFE AS WELL AS YOUR WHOLE FAMILY AND EVERYONE WHO READS YOUR BLOG I HAVE NEVER LOST A CHILD BUT WEPT AS I READ THE COMMENTS. TO ANONYMOUS WHO HAD AN ABORTION WHEN SHE WAS 14 AND NEVER FORGAVE HERSELF OR HER PARENTS PLEASE GO TO A CRISES PRGNANCY CENTER FOR POST ABORTION COUNSELING THE PEOPLE THERE WILL TELL YOU THAT JESUS LOVES AND WILL FORGIVE YOU AND HELP YOU TO FORGIVE YOUR SELF AND YOUR PARENTS OUR JESUS CAN DO THAT HE IS AWSOME. PRAYING FOR FAMILIES THAT HAVE LOST A CHILD IN LOVE AND MUCH PRAYERS FOR YOU LOVE JANET AND JOLEA♥

  • Jennifer Loppnow

    My name is Jenny and I lost a son in September 2001, a set of twins a boy and a girl July 2000 and August 2000. For all the others that have lost I am praying for you.

  • Tara Goldstone

    My name is Tara and I had my first miscarriage in November of 2006, I had my first child May 6, 2008, died only moments later, she too was unfit for life on this earth. In July 2008 I had my second miscarriage.

  • Anonymous

    My name is Fern. After many months of fertility treatments, I lost my first baby to miscarriage in June of 1988. I went on to have two healthy children, but I still grieve for the first. One life does not replace another.

    To all parents who still miss and mourn their children, like I do–may you be comforted among all the mourners of Zion.

  • L & P Aston

    I lost my first child at 12 weeks. The small child stopped growing after 8 and we had to terminate the pregnancy (October 2007).

    My prayers go out to all of you who have lost. It was/is one of the most challenging times in my life.

  • Gas Family

    My name is Paige, and I lost our second child to miscarriage on June 20th, 2008. I was having a hard time understanding the why? Until one day I was reading your blog, and a peace like I have never felt before came over me. I began to stop questioning God, and REALLY trust Him. More than I have ever before.

    Thank you for helping me remember that He is in control.

  • Deena

    Hi Angie,
    I found out a year ago today that my baby’s heart was no longer beating inside of me. I was 10 weeks along.
    I pray for you everyday.

  • Erin

    My sister lost her first child to a miscarriage in November of 2000. She went on to have a beautiful baby boy in June of 2002.

    On August 28, 2004, at 41 wks gestation, she lost her baby girl…she was born sleeping. It was one of the most memorable and sad days of my life. I will never ever forget how beautiful my niece was, or what she looked like. Her name was Audia (my sister’s name is Audra, like your best friend). My sister gave birth in June 2006 to a healthy baby girl whom we all adore. Audia will forever be in my heart though.

    Thank you for sharing your story and allowing us to share ours. I’m so sorry for your losses.

  • Staci

    I have lost four children to miscarriage. Two prior to my first sons birth and two prior to my second sons birth. I look forward to having a large family in heaven. Thank you for doing this. What a blessing it is.

  • Anonymous

    I am blown away by the amount of loss recorded through these comments – it’s overwhelming.

    We lost our second baby at 8 weeks in November 2008. My heart has never been so broken.

    I prayed if it was within the Lord’s will could I at least know the gender and the baby’s name – I felt like I needed that. The Lord graciously allowed me knowledge of both: a girl, Lillian Joy . . .which means “My God is a vow of Joy” and I have clung to that promise ever since.

    We are expecting #3 – also a girl – due in January. Please continue to pray . . .thank you for this Angie.

  • Beth Rose

    My husband David and I lost five babies to unexplained miscarriages between January 2004 and January 2008. In the middle of it all, three years ago we had a little miracle we named Hannah Grace. Both names mean grace, because she is a double portion of God’s grace. We’re expecting another miracle baby, Christopher Nathaniel (bearer of Christ, gift of God), in about six weeks.

  • Anonymous

    Thank you, from the bottom of my heart! Your blog has touched me in ways that words cannot describe. I pray the Lord will bless you abundantly for all you do in your ministry.
    I have 4 babies in Heaven.
    Baby #1 – November 4, 1999
    Baby #2 – October 2000
    Baby #3 – January 4, 2002
    Baby #4 – March 2, 2008
    I've had the heart of a mother with no baby to hold or child to care for, for 9 years. My heart aches that my babies are not here with me, however, I rest in the fact that they are with thier Heavenly Father.
    I pray that someday I can be a woman who displays "strength & courage" the way you do. You are a living testimony of God's strength being made perfect in us.
    God Bless you,
    Staci

  • tish

    My first baby is in Heaven after I miscarried November 2004. I am so blessed with two girls here with me, but know that I am truly a mom to 3 wonderful babies.

  • Tamara

    My name is Tamara and I lost our precious 2nd baby in April of 2005. I was 10 weeks pregnant.

    Thank you for your blog, Angie–it is blessing so many people and your words are such a testimony to the unfailing love and grace of our Savior, Jesus!!

  • Anonymous

    I lost my second child to miscarriage in December 2000. I lost my third child to miscarraige in October 2001 and my fourth to miscarriage in February 2005. People around me never knew what to say and I many times felt like I was expected to get over it and move on (“Because after all, you can always try again”). Unfortunately many people don’t know that you need to grieve even though you didn’t have a child in body that you lost. Thank you so much for your blog and for the comfort and encouragement it has given me. You were used to lift my spirits and for that I am grateful. You are in my prayers as you grieve too.

  • Anonymous

    I’m Jenn. I have a beautiful 3 year old daughter. In April 2008 we lost a son at 16 weeks. Then, just October 6, we lost another son at 14 weeks. Nicholas and Mason, Mommy and Daddy love and miss you both so much.

  • "Chone"

    My name is Chona. We lost our 1st baby February 2000. He/She was 13 weeks when the Lord allowed him/her to be with Him in Heaven. 2 months later I became pregnant with, my now, 7 year old son. But when he was 7 months old I became pregnant again but lost that baby at 6 weeks. He/She is now in Heaven waiting for us. Since then we’ve had 2 beautiful daughters. So in total, we have 3 here with us to nurture and pray for and 2 in Heaven.

    Thank you, Angie for this reminder. It brings me to tears remembering our babies but I know that the Lord has plans for us and for them. I just hope and pray that our lives will give Him glory and praise.

  • The Dickson Family

    To all the moms who have lost their children: My heart aches for you and I am praying for you today. May God be your strength and hope.

  • Robyn

    I found your blog through a friend and I have to say it has been a blessing. My husband and I just lost our first baby to miscarriage 3 weeks ago…today. I wasn’t aware of any day of remembrance since everyone keeps telling me to forget about it…life goes on, but it’s not that easy.
    Thank you for this today, and I’ll be praying for you and your family today as well.

  • Anonymous

    I lost a baby to a miscarriage in Jan 2006. I never grieved about it until my last child was born. I felt it was my fault because I really didn’t think I wanted another child-I was mad-mad that i got pregnant. I know it sounds awful, but then I realized that baby would have been 2 this year-would it have been a girl or a boy. I was only 3 months along, but it is now painful to look back. Maybe I could’ve done something different-said something different. Thank you for praying for us. I love your blog-it’s refreshing.

  • Anonymous

    Thank you for caring.

    I lost Baby Rose at 10 weeks two years ago. My sister miscarried about 10 weeks almost 10 years ago and my sister-in-law lost two babies to EP. One of which almost took her life.

  • Sarah

    I lost my first child to early miscarriage in 2002.

    My prayers for each and every one of you!

  • Anonymous

    I would like to post for my mother. She lost my brother Christoper to SIDS when he was four months old. Over 35 years later I can still see the pain in her eyes when we talk about him.
    I can’t wait to meet him someday!

  • davidcatherinewilson

    My name is Catherine. I lost a baby boy named Anker on May 8,2008 when I was 20 weeks pregnant. We got pregnant in August 08, a week later my appendix ruptured and I ended up losing the baby. Thanks for bringing attention to this day. It is a comfort to see all the women here today.

  • The Dortenzos

    My name is Katy, we lost our first child, Cicely on March 13, 2003 shortly after birth due to hydrops! Her little life affects me each and every day and how we now parent are two beautiful children that came following our loss!!!! God bless each woman posting on this day!!!!!

  • Anonymous

    My name is Hailey Ramsey and I lost a baby to miscarriage in April of 2007.

  • Danna Roark

    Angie, You have been an inspiration to me. Your faith and your st