Advent

My favorite season.
Just spending time anticipating the celebration of our sweet Savior.  I can honestly say I am more in love with Him now than I have ever been.  I have been praying about what I am about to write because I don’t want it to feel like a big deal to you all, or something that you need to worry about.  I promise you don’t :) And you know I would tell you…I never seem to be at a loss for words, hmm?
I am going to take a little bloggy break for a bit…I will pop back in with quick thoughts here and there, maybe some great book recommendations or even what I call the Q.O.T.D. (Quote of the day).  Which, incidentally, occurred today at Target when Kate informed a complete stranger at the dollar spot that she was excited to grow up so she could “go to Bible Study and wear a brawl (bra).” Awesome.  Ready for check-out now, thanks for playing.
I feel like I need to be in a season where I am preparing my heart for the season, spending time drinking hot chocolate and praying over my babies, and I think I need to take the pressure off of myself to share deeply here (let me clarify that I am the one who places this pressure on myself!!!).  It is just such a season of joy and sorrow this year, and so intermingled that I believe it best to let my words be few with the world and many with the Lord.  You understand, I know. Because you are the Sundays, and you never fail to encourage me. Thank you for your support and love.
Along with that, I have 2 prayer requests.  The first is that I have begun to write the book of Audrey’s story, and am in the process of getting a proposal ready for my agent to send to several publishers.  It is an odd thing to mix something so personal with something kind of “business-like,” but I have felt such a great peace in the way the Lord is directing my steps.
With that said, I know that you have come to love my Audrey as well, so you will understand what I am about to say (as tears literally drop into the nooks and crannies of my keyboard).
Will you pray that I would bring great honor to the Lord Jesus Christ through her, and that I will honor who she was to us? I just so desperately want to do it well, and my insecurities have a way of making me feel inadequate.
I want you all to be involved in this process, and I will keep you posted as I know more, because I feel that I have had the great honor of your presence and insight for many months. I do not take for granted what you have allowed me to share with you, and the way you have supported me when I felt I could not do it alone. 
My second prayer request is that in January, Todd and I have been invited to come to Colorado to speak at Focus on the Family in honor of their “sanctity of life” week.  I am humbled beyond belief, but also intimidated and feel like it is so far from my comfort zone.  And also, there will be airplanes involved. ‘Nuff said there. 
Will you pray with me Sundays? I may be the one penning it, speaking it, experiencing it etc., but you are my loyal, faithful supporters, who have walked alongside me with dedication I can scarcely articulate, and I treasure you dearly.  
In the very first post I ever wrote on this blog, I said how grateful I was to those who were reading (initially the blog was intended to be for friends and family who lived out of town!) because they were a part of her story.
And here you are.
Part of a story that only the Lord Himself could orchestrate.
I praise You for your provision, Jesus, and for the peace that belies our circumstances…
As a sidebar, thank you so much for you prayers about Cider Carols. Honestly, it was a COMPLETE blast and I never even got nervous because it was just so fun I couldn’t be troubled with letting myself worry. And the Xanax didn’t hurt either, truth be told…:) We raised a ton of money and sang some great music by candlelight. It was amazing…
Also, I was asked to speak to a group of High School girls, and it fell on the Friday morning after CC.  I was really looking forward to it because I love this age group.  Honest to goodness, I adored every minute of it.  The teachers even let the girls skip their next classes so we could keep talking!!! These girls are ON FIRE for the Lord (in case you’re local, it was Christ Presbyterian Academy, where, coincidentally, the author of one of my favorite parenting books is on staff.) I loved every single minute of being there, and now I feel really torn, because I want my girls to go to school there, but I also LOVE homeschooling. And then there’s the whole tuition thing  (and remember I have multiples!!!), but I am praying about the will of God.  If it is what He wants for us, He will provide.  But all I can say is that when I left that school, a deep, unexpected, glorious peace filled my spirit and I felt such great joy at the possibility of the being a part of such a Christ-centered school.  Actually, could you pray about wisdom for that decision too?
I better wrap it up. I’m approaching rambling at warp speed.
All this to say…I’m off to spend some time in the land of simplicity this advent, but I will be back soon.  In the meantime, forward me your prayer requests, keep up with me on twitter, and above all, know that you are loved by the Most High.
Yes.  That much.
Angie

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  • queenoftheclick

    You just published this minutes ago and the Lord woke me to read it (I like to think of it that way anyway).

    Just know that the Lord chose you to be Audrey’s Mom and now to share her story. I will continue to pray for you as you embark upon your journey.

    Send us a pic once awhile! Ya know a pic is a thousand words.

  • Rami*Reconciled

    Awhhh Angie! I’m sure you will tell her story so beautifully and will share the Saviors love in the same manner.

    As always, I’m praying for you and yours!

  • Vonda

    As a mother of three seven years and younger who is trying to get “in tune” with the Christmas season, I completely understand. Please take all the time you need. You know we will be here when you check in from time to time.

    And, the Lord has started a good work in you and will be faithful to complete it. You can do the book. We believe in you. More importantly, He believes in you.

  • Jenny

    I pray for a wonderful Holiday season for you and your family. As I’ve followed your story from almost the beginning(of the blog)I am excited to see the places you are going. I know that the book you write will indeed be wonderful and bring great honour to our Lord Jesus.
    Many blessings and holiday love,
    Merry Christmas!!
    :)

  • Elizabeth

    Thank you, again and again, for all that you share. Your words, your family’s story, and your heart. I learn so much from you every time I read, and I thank the Lord for that opportunity.

    Enjoy this wonderful season! And good luck on the book. I will pray for God to speak through you in amazing ways.

  • gitz

    Hi, my sweet friend.

    Good for you. For loving your family, your God, your callings and us… and for listening closely enough to know what you need to focus on and when you need to focus on it. I’m so excited for you that Audrey’s story and legacy gets to spread so far beyond the “Sundays,” and pray it continues to be a good and healing experience for you.

    You have so many good things coming up and I’ll pray for you as always! Thought of you often Saturday night and am hoping your vigil was everything you all needed it to be for Luke and Audrey.

    And, on a less serious note, like Kate I couldn’t wait to grow up and wear a bra… it was just disappointing that I grew up and never really needed one…

    :)

  • Lynn

    About the whole flying thing…you’ve just got to picture angels holding the plane up for the whole trip. And know that if for some reason the Lord should allow something to happen, you’d be with Him so it’s a win/win situation.
    Know that I’m always here praying!
    Psalms 34:15, 17 The eyes of the LORD are upon the righteous, and his ears are open unto their cry. The righteous cry, and the LORD heareth, and delivereth them out of all their troubles.
    Prayer Bears

  • Julie

    You will definitely be in my prayers. What a wonderful way to honor Audrey. You are such a wonderful writer. Your book will be amazing.

    Thanks for sharing your story with us. Happy Holidays!

  • Tara Marie

    For some reason (Okay being God), I felt this week that I knew you would be taking a little break from blogging.

    And maybe God is telling me, as well, to stop clinging to my computer and to actually spend more time with Him. I read more blogs than I should. I should be praying and seeking. Less blogging.

    Anyways, God bless you. Your blog as been a huge encouragement for me as a young college woman. You are such a great role model! Your daughters are so blessed to have such a wonderful, Godly mother.

    Your devoted Sunday,

    Tara

  • Jeankfl

    Angie, never fear, your Sundays are here!! I feel such wonder that I am part of such a wonderful group of women and prayer warriors. They are all awesome, as you and your family are.. We’ll pray for you as you go, and wait patiently (or not :) LOL You are blessed and loved..
    I mostly just lurk, but sometimes just have to “unmask”!!
    hugs,
    Jean

  • Michelle

    Wishing you peace this advent season as you spend more time being intimate with our Lord and your family. I know that this will not be easy for you, but know that we are praying for you (and also Greg and Nicole) and I know that you know that God loves you and wants you all to press into Him, especially at this time.

    Your book will be a blessing to so many people. You wonder how you will write it — you could probably just print off your blog and publish that! I know this site has touched me (and others) so many times.

    Enjoy your time with your family and the Lord.

  • Jamie @ Purposeful Pursuit

    I’ll pray for sure!

  • Pretty Hills

    Thank you for your encouraging words sent from above.. It is so amazing to me how you so fervently allow God to speak every word through you.
    I have been following you blog for quite some time now, and every time you post a new blog, it touches me in ways I never knew possible. God, has opened my eyes to many things, and helped me see my sinful ways. I appreciate the time and knowledge you have so delicately laid out for each of us. You are a true blessing to God, and I pray tou many more to come!

    God bless.. Jennifer

  • Tif

    I pray that you have a wonderful season praising Him with your family.
    I’ve followed your blog for a long time and have hoped your would publish your story. You have spoken to so many through your blog and I’m certain your book would reach many more.
    I’ve been meaning to ask about Todd’s new cd with the amazing song that was written from Audrey…when will it be released?
    I’ll miss your post…and keep you in my prayers daily.
    God Bless,

    Tiffany

  • amanda june

    I just love you.

  • Rachel E.

    Hope you have a wonderful blogging break. I am praying for you, Angie. I would be so grateful if you could pray for my family in the next couple of weeks. My grandfather passed away this past Monday after a long illness and we are having his funeral services weekend after next. It is different when you lose an elderly loved one, especially when we had six months to get used to the fact that he was going downhill, but it is a difficult time nonetheless. Thank you so much, and I look forward to reading (and praying over!) your new prayer requests.

  • Jen

    So many exciting things are on the horizon for you Angie! I’m so excited for all the ministries He is giving you! We’ll be praying!

  • THAT GIRL

    I’ll be praying.
    I love advent. In my Bible study just last week, I was reminded that we DO Christmas traditions (Christmas tree, decorate, sing, bake, etc) to honor Jesus… not to make ourselves feel good, or to be “in the Christmas spirit.” To feel those things is just an added bonus, but we DO them to glorify our saviour’s birth… we DO them FOR HIM… a reminder that we should be doing all things in honor of, and to glorify HIM.

    You enjoy that hot chocolate, stick a candy cane in it, and drink up the days with your family… enjoy celebrating HIM…

  • BaronessBlack

    What a lovely post!
    Three things: Firstly, re. the home schooling thing. Some families I know have found that it is completely right for some of their children, and conventional schooling is right for others. You are obviously in tune with your children so I’m sure you’ll pick up on what would be right for each of them.
    Secondly, there have been a few families this year who I know who have lost babies soon before, during, or soon after birth. Your story has been hugely helpful to me in trying to help and pray for them. So I would like you to know how helpful your words have been around the world!
    Thirdly, in the Russian Orthodox tradition we fast for advent. And I completely understand your need for some quiet time over this very hectic holiday season! Wishing you Blessings for your blog-fast and a contemplative advent!

  • Anna G

    Praying praying praying.
    (Speaking at FOTF, writing a book, I know it´s nerve wracking, but also SO exciting to see what God is doing!)

    Please don´t ever feel the need to always share deeply here…although I love your thoughts.

    I’m praying your time spent with our Savior this Advent will be extra special and filled with peace.
    Angie, you place God above everything else in your life, including your blog, and that’s how it should be.
    So, wise decision. :-)

  • Matt and Amy Snow

    I will definately be praying that as you walk this new journey (writing, speaking, flying, etc) that you continue to cling to His hand for comfort. True faith opens the floodgate for the Lord to be glorified.

    You are so wise to take the time to spend time with Him this advent. Thank you for your example and leadership!

  • Rachelle

    Will be praying….

  • Christy

    Thank you for the example and encouragement you are setting by taking some time away during this season.

    I will be praying for you about what God has in store for you. It all sounds very exciting. They are all opportunities for Him to display His power.

    I know that I can say for all of us “bloggers” out here, we have to come to love you and your family from when you first began sharing your story and Audrey’s story with us. It has been our privilege to pray for you, cry with you, and laugh with you.

    Thank you for allowing us to be part of your journey.

  • Jessica Turner

    love you

  • Shannon Jacobyansky

    Angie, I’m so gald to hear you are putting your words to a book! There are so many who can grow and learn from you sweet little Audrey! I will be praying for you during this time that God would provide you the words to express your joys and sorrows. I pray the words you pen would lead others to know the greatest love this world could offer…Jesus Christ! May the Lord guard your heart and shelter it under His wings of love for your tears fall into the cupped hands of Jesus where they dry and turn to joy!

  • Amy

    Angie,

    We are far apart, but your story has helped in my healing. I will continue to pray for your requests…Blessings to you and your family!

  • Naomi

    Happy Season Angie,

    I respect your decision so much. Sometimes the emails that flood my inbox, just from keeping up with comments on one of your posts can almost be overwhelming and they aren’t even directed at me. You are prioritizing well, to put blogging on the back burner. Of course we will miss you, but being Angie…wife and mother is the best use of your time for now!

    I have been very curious about something that happened a while back. Did you ever post what Todd’s question at the presidential debate would have been? I never saw it. If he okays it, could you please let us know?

    I’m sure it would have been something like “Have you guys ever read my wife’s blog? It’s on fire!”

    Wishing you peace and joy!

  • Southern Gal

    It’s a wonderful time to take a break, reflect, look forward, and just love the Lord. I’m glad you’re resting in Him. Can’t wait for the book and will be praying about that whole process.

    We’re focusing on Advent more this year than we ever have. Nice and slow before Christmas. It’s wonderful. I love this time of year!

    Praying for you.
    Renee

  • petrii

    Angie,
    I don’t comment here much, but I just wanted to tell you that I am so moved by your story and your blog. The story of Audrey’s life is so beautifully illustrated through your love for our Savior Jesus Christ, where your sweet Audrey is today. How awesome that you have been given the opportunity to write about this, you will rock dear sista’ oh yes you will rock!!

    Have a Blessed and Wonderful CHRISTmas and I look forward to reading more after the holidays.

    Love and Blessings to you,
    Dawn

  • ~Alicia~

    I will miss you while you’re gone, but I understand! :)

    I’m glad you’re sticking with twitter, otherwise I would go into Angie-and-the-Smith-family-withdrawal! Reading your blog has become part of my routine; part of my life. I talk about you to my friends- and they now know who you are, I don’t have to introduce you as “you know how I read the blog of that woman who lives in Nashville and is the wife of that guy from Selah?”!!!

    I will definitely pray for you, for everything you have coming up and for all the decisions you have weighing on your heart. Thank you for pouring your heart out on here, you have inspired me more than you know! This sounds like goodbye… but I’m sure you’ll be back when you’re ready!

    Lots of love from Australia xxx

  • Kelly

    I will miss you!
    But I’ll be praying for you and I can’t wait to read your book – I know it will be beyond amazing!
    I’m so excited about all the opportunities God keeps putting in your lap to share! SO AMAZING!

  • Lisa D :)

    Enjoy the season Angie, and we’ll all be right here when you get back. I will keep you and your family in my prayers, especially as you’re embarking on writing Audrey’s story. I am without a doubt that God will give you the words that give Him the glory. I’ll also be praying regarding the speaking engagement in January, and in your having to fly there. I am terrified of public speaking, so I can relate. I also don’t care too much for flying but find that if I touch the outside of the plane while getting on, and saying these simple words “Bless this plane and all who enter it, Lord” that I feel calmer (and of course praying nearly nonstop the entire flight!) I love the visual of what another comment above says, to picture the plane being held up by angels. What a wonderful vision!
    May God bless you Angie (and your whole family) this Christmas season, and may you feel The Peace of God that transcends ALL understanding.

  • Mary

    What a gift your book will be to those who have never heard about Audrey and the lives that she has changed…and to those of us who have followed the path that God has and is leading you through. We will pray. I will focus much prayer on the plane ride ahead. Fellow fearful flier here :)

  • erikmelissa

    Angie, I will be praying for you. I will be praying for your book and all the details that go along with writing and publishing a book. I pray that it will not be stressful for you, just let God workout all the details.

    Focus on the Family, what an honor and how exciting! I pray that your feelings of intimidation disappear. Don’t think about the process, think about how you will be sharing your precious story, you are a work of God! Keep us posted on that event!

    Oh schooling…what a decision…a decision that shapes our children’s future. As a teacher, I believe you need to follow your gut and do what you feel is right for your family. You may want to homeschool for a while and later send your girls to this great school? He will provide if that is where they are intended to go. The time you spend teaching your girls is so wonderful. Enjoy it and don’t worry about this decision, just pray and let God work it out!

    Have a blessed Advent season and rejoice in the celebration of our dear sweet Jesus’ birth! I will be celebating with my dear family, focusing on the same wonderous love. Merry Christmas! Love, Melissa

  • jenny

    I have been reading your blog for quite some time now and have thought of commenting many times, but often think “oh, she has already received 200+ comments, I feel silly leaving another for her to read.” But, that is a silly reason not to post a comment, so I am finally making myself known. :)

    Your blog has been such an encouragement to my heart. Several of the girls in my women’s bible study read it too and we often chat about things you write about. God has written a beautiful, yet not without pain, story in your family and He has already used it to bring Himself glory. May He continue to do so in the book you are working on. Our first child (she is almost 7 now) was born at 27 weeks. She weighed 1.5 lbs and we had a long road with her, but she is doing amazingly well. We have two other boys, one almost 5 and one 2 (our 2year old adopted from Guatemala) and through many of the challenges we have faced with our kids (developmentally etc.) I have been strengthened by
    Proverbs 19:21, “Many are the plans in a man’s heart, but it is the Lord’s purpose that prevails.”
    Have a blessed advent season!!!

    Abundant Peace,
    Jenny C.
    Calcrew.wordpress.com
    (Oh, and CPA school seems amazing…we live in OH and have heard awesome things abut that school, makes me want to move to Nashville. We were also down there recently for a speech appt. at Vanderbilt Univ. with our son and I thought, I wish I knew Angie personally and I would call her up :) )

  • Ang

    From one Angie to another…I will be praying for you! I love your blog and enjoy with joy and sadness as you make your journey thru this life.

  • Jess :)

    Oh, my dearest Ang! I will miss reading your blog sooooo much, but completely and whole-heartedly understand. :)

    You have just become such an enormous part of my life that I think about and PRAY for you and your family more than you could ever know!

    The Story of Audrey will be amazing…not only will you let your light (and her’s) shine, but your love and passion for our Lord and Savior will be so evident that nothing more will need to be said. What a blessing you have been given! I will anxiously await for news on the book and trust me (and ALL of your other Sundays) I/we will be the FIRST people to purchase one, two, or millions of copies for us to have and to share with others!!

    My prayers for you, Todd, Abby, Ellie, Kate and baby Audrey will continue without fail. You are in my heart today, tomorrow, and ALWAYS!!

    I love you so much and I know that God has miraculous things planned for you and your family! :)

    Sending lots of LOVE and HUGS,
    Jess :)

  • ERIN lee

    hi there my name is erin. i read your blog often but i don’t usually leave a comment. i know you have probably heard this from many of your readers but you blog has done ALOT for me. it actually changed many things for me. i would love to share them with you if you want to hear about them. but just know that God uses you everytime you post.

  • Wendi @ Every Day Miracles

    Angie,
    Enjoy this season with your family SO much. I am very excited about the book. It will be used by God in amazing ways.

    I am praying for you and I am so thankful for yoU!

    ~Wendi

  • Amy

    Angie – It seems so awkward to say “I’ll miss you” to someone I don’t even know… but that is what you do for us Sundays – you make us feel loved and included and in some way – needed. Thank you for loving us. You inspire me to love better. I pray that you have a peaceful time of rest over these next few weeks. I know that the holidays can be extremely hard for those that are missing the ones the ones that they love, and I will be praying that the Lord is near to your heart this Christmas season. Thank you for sharing your life! – Amy

  • Amy Beth @ Ministry So Fabulous!

    You will be missed while you’re on your break.

    And, you will tell her story beautifully. No doubt at all.

  • My Boys

    I have been reading your blog and praying for your family for some time now but I have never commented. I just want you to know that I will be praying for you as you work on the book. I believe that God is going to use this book in a MIGHTY way for HIS GLORY. I am reading a book right now that was written by a precious godly woman in my town who lost her 18 year old daughter to sarcoma 2 years ago. Her story and the obvious hand of God on her family’s lives has been such an encouragement to me. I believe with all of my heart that your story will do the same for many people. Just as her’s is, yours is such a bittersweet story. The pain of losing a child is unimagineable but the grace and provision of God through such a time is AWESOME. His faithfulness is beyond anything we can imagine and I know that He will guide you in this journey. My prayers are with you Dear Sister.

  • Amber

    I will be praying for you during this wonderful season. I cannot wait to read Audrey’s book. I am positive that you will bring honor to our Lord and to precious Audrey life.

  • Laura B.

    Have a wonderful Christmas with your family! I will be praying for you!

  • Amanda and Kyle

    You are in my thoughts and prayers. On a side note, you daughter is not the only one who can’t wait to wear a brawl. My girls have been asking me since about age 2 when they will get breasts. I just though mine were the only ones obsessed about it. Have a wonderful Christmas.

  • Monica @ Writer Chic

    Angie, we’re smack-dab in the middle of a move to Nashville, and one of my prayers is that I get to meet you someday soon. You inspire me to be better — wife, mom, Christ-follower. I’ll be praying for you in this new season. Blessings, Monica

  • Momma Mango

    Angie,
    You will be in my prayers throughout this season. I admire you for putting God and your family above all. I am so thankful for you and Audrey… her story has continually pulled me closer to the Lord once again.
    Have a blessed Christmas and know that you and your precious family are so loved and prayed for by many!
    ~Susan

  • Liz Blalock

    Angie, I want to tell you how much your blog has meant to me. Your writings have inspired me. I will miss your sweet stories of the our Lord’s love. You have inspired me!

    http://lizblalock.blogspot.com/

  • Vicky

    I will continue my prayers for you and your sweet family. Please know we will be here when you are ready to come back, but you take all the time you need. I am beyond excited to someday be reading your words on a printed page that I hold in my hands!

    Blessings!

  • Kristy

    Enjoy Him this season. Enjoy your family and friends. Your Sundays will be here when you come back. Thank you for opening yourself and your family to us. You are beyond inspiration. You have been used by Him to bring glory to His name. What a gift.

  • Mary

    We will all be praying for you during this advent season. Know that as you are starting the book, that the Lord is guiding your hand. Just look at how much you have touched the world through just your blog. I can’t wait to hear more about the book and will be first in line to get it when it comes out. I just hope that it’s on my off day. :) I don’t comment much, but I read your blog all of the time and am truly inspired and amazed at how you can touch the lives of so many people.

  • The Vang Family

    I will be praying for you Angie! I love this season as well! :) God bless you!

  • Poppa and Bella

    You don’t know me, but I found your blog through another blog (can’t remember which one now, it’s been a while back). I just wanted you to know that I enjoy reading your blog and have even passed it along to my oldest daughter Connie, who just had our first granddaughter, Emily Rhyse. Connie lost her first baby in October, 2001 and a week or so later, my mother passed away. We weren’t even sure that Connie would be able to get pregnant again, but God saw fit to bless us with this precious little one, who was due December 3, but arrived October 28. Thank you for being a woman of God, and following his direction, and for being an inspiration to those who don’t even know you.

  • Poppa and Bella

    MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

  • Wanda

    Angie….
    I love your posts. I read them all. I am so excited for you on the book offer/search. Good for you!
    I am even more excited about the FOTF interview! WOW! That is a dream come true! Do not be afraid…..you can do it!

    Glad to see you on a sweet road of healing. Your posts are touching so many lives. God bless you.

  • Rissa

    Will be praying for you.. Praying or blessings.. direction & guidence. May God's Spirit lead you as you go forth in this incredible journey..

    Looking forward to the details of your book!! I'll for sure be buying it!!

  • AuntCindy

    Just know that I am blessed to be one of your Sundays!! You bring peace to my heart. Thank you! I know God will continue to use you in big ways… Enjoy your “down” time…

  • Angie

    We will miss you so but will be praying for you. Have a wonderful Christmas.
    Ang

  • Green Acres

    Praying for you! Have a blessed Advent preparation and Christmas. I have no doubt that Audrey’s story will be told in an inspring beautiful way. Praying for you and your family!

  • sheila

    When you give yourself as freely and honestly as you do, I so understand needing to pull back a little to just enjoy. God gives us those moments too. I just marvel in your obedience. Take care, be well, and enjoy the birth of our Savior. I’ll continue to pray for you each step of your journey. In God’s Love, sheila

  • Cindi

    Thank you Angie! I hope you have a wonderful Christmas and I will be praying for you and all your endeavors. God Bless You sweetie!

  • Jaime

    Oh Angie, I will miss you, but God bless you for listening to Him, and obeying Him. You will never know, on this side of Heaven how much your words have meant to me and how they have helped me to deal with my own loss. I am so glad you are my sister in Christ and look forward to meeting you, if not here on earth–in Heaven. I’ll continue praying for you and your family. May you have a blessed advent season!

  • Regan

    Enjoy a break Angie, you deserve it…we’ll be here when you come back! Oh and I just thought you might want to know that I saw your bundle of sticks at Target yesterday! Someone had bought them and was carrying them out of the store so I couldn’t see the price. :-)

  • Tami

    Angie,

    I usually pop in something really short and sweet every now and then, but this morning, after reading this post… I am compelled to share more of my heart. I COMPLETELY understand your need for a break here on blogger. I have admired you for months now… sharing your heart day after day in such a raw way. It has helped so many people ACROSS THE WORLD! I have been another one of “those Sundays” who have referred my friends to your blog after they experienced loss (it happened again just this past Friday). However, it is completely normal AND necessary for you to take this time to yourself now. Process your thoughts… share them with your family, and most importantly, with Jesus. Years ago when I lost my two precious boys, I talked about them with whoever would listen without walking away. That was part of my healing process. It was almost like a band-aid though. The true healing took place when I started to talk to God privately. I had a prayer journal that I wrote in pretty much everyday. God blessed me during those months of prayer and healing. I now love to talk about the transformation that tok place in me BECAUSE of the lives of my two boys in heaven! :0)

    I will be praying for you, Angie. You are an amazing woman with a beautiful gift of writing. This book that you are working on will be a tool for many. A tool that will show people who Jesus is and what He is capable of. A tool that will help in the healing of many lives.

    Blessings to you and your family during this very important season. ~

    Love,

    Tami

  • Brittanie

    I remember that first Christmas without Cora. There was so much pain and hurt, I had to try to be joyful and that felt so unfair. I’m glad you are taking steps to bring joy into your life during a time when it’s so easy to see the person your family is without this year.

    Starting this year I’m going to write Cora a letter on Christmas Eve. It will be between her and me, for nobody else to read. It’s going to go into the stocking I just made her.

    Anyway, my prayers for you as you get ready to tell Audrey’s story. Just write from the heart, and the Lord will do the rest. (hugs)

  • Shelley

    Have a Merry Christmas. I’ll be thinking of you and praying for you!

  • Misty Rice-Baniewicz

    Insecurities? No way! You already have told her story and continue to tell her story so beautiful by your blog, all you have to do is take each post and put it in a book…..

    Keep you in my prayers, enjoy this time with family and Savior.

    God Bless

  • Erin K.

    You know, if you were 100% confident in your ability to write the book, God may not have chosen you to do it… He has a funny way of asking us to do stuff that is completely overwhelming, which allows him to show up big. I will be praying for you!

  • KBInsogna

    What a blessing you are to all of us Sundays~ thank you for the reminder to simplify this Season. What honor the Lord receives from your life! Merry Christmas!

  • Jenna

    You will be greatly missed while you are gone, but I will definitely be praying!

    I was re-reading through some of your older entries yesterday and thought to myself that I hoped one day you would write a book! I know it will be beyond amazing and will allow that sweet Audrey-girl touch even more lives than she already has. I can’t wait to read it!

    It is an honor to pray for you and your sweet family! With love, Jenna

  • Shelly

    Angie,

    You have already brought such great honor to the Lord through your blog. I’m sure that He will send you the right editor to tidy up anything necessary. You have the emotion, the faith, the words from your soul, your heart that have already brought us to you and to HIM. Audrey’s brief life has touched many hundreds of people.

    Take a rest. Renew during this Advent season. We’ll pray you through it.

  • Rachel @ Unexpected Blessings

    Enjoy this season to love, cry, and remember. We will miss you and you will be in my prayers this CHRISTmas Season.

  • RondaRed

    Angie
    I stumbled upon your blog last friday and I have spent every spare moment since reading every word. I have not lost a child but I have lost someone I loved very much to death in July 2007. Even though it has been 16 months I am still deeply grieving. Your words and the spirit in which you approached your healing has done a lot more than anything else has to date to turn me towards recovery. I have loved God all of my life but when your eyes are so filled with tears sometimes its hard to keep them focused on Jesus. Thank you so much for your words which I have been so able to relate to and I look forward to a journey to healings. May God Bless You and your family.

  • Carol and Dan

    Bansih your insecurities about writing! Be in peace, the words will flow. There are many out there who will need to read those words. And you know they are not your own.
    Have a wonderful, relaxing, purposeful Christmas!………c.

  • Sarah

    Oh Angie, you HAVE ALREADY glorified God and shown the great love you have for and how important Audrey is. You will have no trouble with your book. I just know :)

    I completely understand where you are coming from in needing a time of quiet. I am going through a marriage ending problem with my husband and I know people want me to talk to them but honestly, I don’t know what to say. Working through this is a day by day internal process. I cannot tell you for sure how I am because it can change from moment to moment. This time has been spent in prayer and quietly waiting for God to direct me where to go and what to do. I can honestly say that it is a wonderful place to be with the Lord. I feel so close to him in this time of quiet sharing.

    Oh how I wish we lived closer to each other. You are a treasure and I would love to know you in person.

    Congrats on the speaking engagement at Focus on the Family. I LOVE James Dobson. I know you will do great. I cannot give you any encouragement on the flying part because I too have a phobia of airplanes but suggest that you read The Fearless Fliers Handbook. It REALLY helped me. It gave in detail all of the training senarios pilots have to do in simulators and if they fail, they are not allowed to fly for so many days *30 or more I believe* and must pass the simulator training before they can go back to work. These simulations go way beyond real world instances. They have to land the plane on one engine in hurricane winds with no visibility type senarios. Another thing that comforted me was that if all 4 engines on a 747 fail the plane can still coast for over 100 miles and be able to land safely. Anyways, there is a LOT of good stuff in the book so please check it out.

  • Kayla Grace

    Giving you encouragement this advent season! Good luck with it all. Praying for you and your family :)

  • Talysa

    I have not been where you are but have wrestled with the same self doubt when it comes to His calling on my life. When the Lord called me to actually LEAD worship, my immediate response was, “Are you kidding me Lord? I do not even play an instrument and I am no Darlene Zschech you know!” and I kid you not, I felt Him say in my spirit…”You aren’t gonna do this…I am…and you just get to come along!” Wow, it makes me tear up even now. He truly isn’t looking for someone to fit “the part” he is looking for a willing and faithful HEART. And you are that Heart Angie…you be brave and strong and make Audrey’s voice as loud as cannons in the night! My prayers will be with you….

    And as far as the “break” thing….you have somewhat inspired me to do so as well…”Happy Waiting for His Arrival!”

    One more thing…I too homeschool my three and am sometimes torn (wrestled) with what to do in the future…I want so desperately to make the right choices for them based on His purposes for their future and it is just so hard to be sure…I will pray alongside you…maybe you could lift me up as well? :-)

  • joymweaver

    I will be praying for you and will definitely buy the book when it comes out. Have a great Christmas season.

  • Amanda:

    Enjoy each minute of this season – we are so blessed to be able to celebrate it. Wishing you a beautiful holiday season – and I look forward to your little “pop-ins” :)

  • Kingdom Mama

    Will be praying! And I would really love to go to Focus to hear you (and hug you if that’s not too scary!). Is it going to be open to the public?

  • farmerliz

    Good luck with your work, Angie, and enjoy the season with your girls. I’ll look forward to your return to the blog after Christmas.

    God Bless you and your family.

  • Danielle Holsapple

    Angie, I am going to miss your posts so very much. I look forward to reading them EACH day. They help me get through my days because I know someone else understands my pain, sorry and joy. But I completely understand your need to focus on HIM during the holiday. I so respect your decision.
    And I wish you the very best with Audrey’s book. I will be the first in line to purchase it when it gets to that point!
    And I will also pray for your meeting with Focus on the Family. What an honor for you – you are both so deserving!
    Please come back and post when you can!
    Many blessings to you and yours….
    Danielle

  • The Porter Family

    Oh, we will miss your posts dearly, but who can argue with why you are doing it! i hope that the Lord blesses this time for you, and that you get to experience all that he has to offer you during this season of your life! We will be praying for you FOR SURE. Merry Christmas!!!

  • Jennifer

    enjoy this Christmas season with your family and know that i will be praying for you. you have touched so many lives by sharing your story and i know this book will reach many more. i pray that God will keep His hand upon during this season in your life.

  • Katie

    Angie,
    I have been so encouraged by your writing. Keep us updated on your trip to Colorado at Focus! I would love to hear you speak!
    Enjoy your bloggy break..
    Merry Christmas

  • Allie in AZ

    Oh Angie,

    Take all the time you need. This is such a magical season, we all need to step back and to remember the glorious baby that changed everything for all of us.

    I cannot wait for the book. I also cannot wait until the song that Todd sang at Audrey’s funeral is recorded/released. That song speaks to me so deeply even though I’ve not lost a child, it impacts me every time I hear it.

    We’ll miss you, but I’m finding that following you on Twitter is super fun too! :)

    God bless you all. We’ll see you after the holidays.

    Allie in AZ

  • Kristina

    I will keep you in my prayers this season and for all the opportunities you have coming up to share Audrey’s story. I have to say that I am VERY excited to hear that you are going to be on Focus on the Family…I’ll be looking forward to hearing you and Todd! The Lord will give you the right words to say.

  • Erin

    I will miss your words this holiday season, but understand your desire to be with your family and in prayer with our Lord. I wanted to tell you that although I don’t personally know you, sometime I just look at Audrey’s picture and think what a beautiful girl she is. I say is, because she is beautiful in Heaven with our Lord and Savior. So beautiful that it saddens me she is not with you this very moment. Please don’t forget that people won’t forget your precious Audrey. Looking forward to reading your words soon and can’t wait for the book! Merry Christmas!

  • Erin

    By the way, I hope you tape your Focus on the Family speech, would love to see it!

  • Steph

    When I read this about you asking us to pray for you to honor Audrey in your book writing, I thought, oh my gosh, how can she do anything BUT honor Audrey? You live your life in a way that honors Audrey.

    I completely agree with queenofthclick saying:
    “Just know that the Lord chose you to be Audrey’s Mom and now to share her story.” I believe that to be so true. So much good has come of Audrey’s presence on this earth.

    And about the school and the feeling you got leaving there. That is exactly how the Lord speaks to me. You were invited there to speak and maybe otherwise wouldn’t have considered the possibility. It certainly seems like a big sign. If this school doesn’t work out, He has at least opened you to the possibility of sending the girls to that type of school. I’m sure there are more like it that are doing God’s work, too.

  • AmandaHoyt

    Angie,
    I will be praying for you and your family this Christmas season.
    Hugs,
    Amanda

  • Penny

    Blessings to you and your family Angie. I am always in awe of your inspiring and comedic style. I normally end up laughing with tears running down my face for the impact your words have. I have been praying for your families and the service at the graves you held. I hope that all have left with a sense of peace.

    I am so happy that you are going to be able to further honor Audrey with a book to be a salve for so many lives. My life is truely a closer walk because of the words you write in honor of your sweet baby girl.

    I am still praying for your life and a miracle baby. As for your homeschooling … enjoy them at home while it works! You always have an option in your pocket when you feel it doesn’t. If God closes the positives of homeschool then you have an option….

    Enjoy your kids and the advent season!

  • Taylor

    I know your heart is heavy with writing Audrey’s story, but I know you are such an inspiration to so many women/mothers out there and I know when it comes out I will definitely buy it! I have been reading your blog since the spring, and check it daily. You are an inspiration to all, and I thank you for that!

    Good luck with your endeavors this holiday season and enjoy the wonderful time with your family and Savior!!

  • Amy Genn

    You are such a gifted writer! I think God chose the perfect person to reach a large audience, because through your humor, your transperancy, and your love, you will tell the story in a way that will bless every reader!
    God bless you. Enjoy your break!
    Amy B. – Selah, WA.
    (Mom to a severely disabled child, I know heartbreak on a daily basis….and it keeps me ever closer to Jesus!)

  • Becky

    You gotta love kids like Kate! My eldest DD was like that. Quirky. Ornery. Strong willed. That strong willed little girl grew into a ‘strong convicted’ teen and young adult. I so enjoy reading what is new in your life. Be assured of my prayers.

  • Carrie

    Angie,

    I love reading your words…because I am constantly reminded that in the midst of our pain, our trials, our unanswered questions, our God is still sovereign. I am so excited to see how He will continue to be glorified through you! Thank you for allowing me to journey along with you. Love & prayers…

  • Mom 2 My Bees

    Thanks Angie for your inspiration. Can’t wait to read her story, as it reminds me of mine with my son Bret. Keep up the good work and take a break every now and then. :)

  • Organized Chaos

    What a great opportunity with Focus. I just wanted to encourage you to not be intimidated…I used to work there and was overwhelmed and intimidated initially but then I realized they are just a neat group of people that are all sinners but saved and have a heart for ministry. You’ll do great!

  • Scott

    The Asbell’s consider it a joy and pleasure to daily lift you all up in prayer. We continue to pray for you life, family, work and future!

    God bless and have a very Merry Christmas!!!

  • Julie

    Oh Angie, I hear you loud and clear.

    For the same reason I have closed my Facebook for this season. I am redirecting my efforts on those near to me, my family and sweet babes.

    May the Lord bless you in this Advent season (and we KNOW He will). I am looking forward to hearing your testimony in Audrey’s book. Your voice will be heard and it will surely glorify God. He knew ALL of this before you even thunk it up!

    You GO GIRL!

    Much Love,
    Julie

  • DianneM

    Angie
    It was great to meet you Saturday at the candlelighting at Harpeth Hills. I love that God knew way before we were even born that our sweet children’s earthly bodies would lay side by side on that beautiful hill. I love that my son and I had spoke of Audrey before and prayed for her family without ever know you and I also love that those were also the first words out of your mouth to me. You asked me what had changed and my husband and I agree that since Samuel’s death we cling less tightly to the things of this world, and that included our children. It was great to meet you!

  • Libby

    I think that sharing your Audrey’s story through a book is an amazing gift that you could give to others who might experience your things similiar to what you went through. I think that you are doing a great thing! I’m sure it will be amazing!

  • by Flick

    you are loved beyond measure!

  • Amanda

    I will miss you! I know that the book will be wonderful and will be full of exactly what God wants you to say.

    Just remember, you *PROMISED* you would be back soon! :)

  • the five o’clock news

    Thank you for sharing your life so openly with us. You are encouraging and inspiring. I pray that your season of Advent will be blessed with the joy His presence. I’ll look forward to your blogs when you return!

    -Dot

  • Carly Winborne

    What a gracious and glorious spirit you have! I’m honored to read your posts and look forward to the next, with geniune caring and understanding of “where you are”. I can’t imagine what you’re grappling with this holiday season, but you’re in my prayers. Enjoy your girls and you’ll be honoring Audrey beautifully.

  • taralous

    Blessings to you and your sweet family. You are a wonderful and amazing mother and I know God is so very pleased with you, His child…

  • Jennifer

    Praying for you and yours and hoping you enjoy this blessed time! Until next time…

  • Kari Lynn

    You are lovely. I have no doubt that you will tell Audrey’s story exactly as He meant for you to. I can’t wait to read it. Enjoy your down time. We understand!

  • homemakerchronicles

    I just read your blog for the first time this weekend and I was so taken with the story that I can’t quit reading and thinking about you guys. Then, this morning as I was praying, I just felt God speaking peacefully to me that you would not be writing as much in the months to come…which saddened me.
    I also wondered this morning if you would ever write a book about your experiences. My mom is always telling me I should- with 5 kids there are lots of great stories.
    You and your family are a great inspiration and it’s a privilege to get to share in it!

  • Dani

    I am praying for you Ang! I feel as if you are my sister. Well you are my sister..we may not have the same blood flowing through our veins but we have One Person who shed the same blood for the both of us…that makes it even better. :) Anywaz…I know that you will share Audrey Caroline’s story so amazingly well. I can’t wait to see where the Lord takes you on this journey. He will be with you every step of the way. I will be buying that book and giving a copy to everyone I know. :)

    About the school….that has got to be a tough decision. I went to a Christian school where my mom was the secretary and then eventually homeschooled us. BUt she was never away from us. Oh how I wish I could have been at that meeting with you and the rest of the girls. I would love to sit and talk with you and get your advice on different decisions I need to make. One day…I know I will. :) Newaz…I will be praying for wisdom in that area. God will lead you where he sees best..I know you know that though. Newaz…This comment is about as long as your whole post! lol

    Lots of Love and Prayers!!
    ~Dani

  • Tay’s Mom

    Although I will miss your posts greatly, I think that you are so right in taking a break to be “in the season.” I totally understand. And I look forward to your “return”. Also, I will be praying for your writing, your January trip and you school decision. Absolutely.

    If you don’t mind, please pray for me. I hate asking for people to pray for me because I know that there are so many less fortunate people that need prayers more than I. But, being a Sunday, I know you know my feelings better than many. Since we lost our son at 20 weeks in February and have not been able to conceive since, I have been on the most intense and volatile emotional rollercoaster. I want to get pregnant again SO badly and it’s not happening. I feel like it will help me to heal emotionally…and I NEED to heal. Anyway, I’m currently at a very low point and am praying so hard to be able to let go completely, to give it all to Him. But I have a problem with patience and with control, which is making it hard. Long long long story short, please pray that I have the strength to pass this desire over to Him. To trust and rest in knowing that He knows what is best for me. UGH. How does one do that?! It’s so easy to say. But, to really DO it is a whole different story. Please pray that He reveal His plan and His presence to me. THANK YOU, Angie!

  • Diane

    Selfishly, I want you to share your thoughts and feelings through this Advent season with us because I SO LOVE your blog!

    However, I am excited to see what God might do in your life. I pray that you have the Merriest of all Merry Christmases this year and that God blesses you and your family GREATLY!

  • Dallas and Amylee

    Always praying for you!
    Thank you for your strength Angie.

  • The Burkett Family

    Praying, praying . . . And trusting that He will guide you to ‘do it well’. Merry Christmas. “Sunday” Amanda

  • Jennifer

    I’m sure you will just add to your Sundays with your new book. I will definitely look for it! Thank you so much for sharing your story with us. You have no idea what you did for me after the loss of my 19 week baby (in utero). I will continue to keep you and yours in my prayers. Please pray for me this Wed (12/10) as I have my 16 week ultrasound. Things seem to be going well so far, but I’m still nervous.

    Much love to you and yours during this CHRISTmas season!

    Jen P

  • The Campbell Family

    How sorry I am to hear you are taking a break as I so enjoy reading every one of your entries and feel like I gain something every time. You will never know how much reading your blog has blessed me and the relationship that I have with my children. It’s funny to think that I think so highly of someone I have never met – and probably never will. Please know that I pray for you and your family daily. I pray that you will have a blessed holiday season and that you enjoy your ‘break’. And that it is a prosperous one. Thanks for being you, Angie! Merry Christmas.

  • Julie

    Know you are not alone, you are prayed for and cared about by so many. Take all the time you need…we will all be here for you. You are such a gift to so many, but your family is where you need to spend your time. Take the time you need, be present with yourself, Todd, your girls, sweet Audrey, the Lord…it’s where you need to be.

    And know that you WILL, as you already have, share Audrey’s story in the exact right way. She has touched so many and will continue to do so through you, her wonderful, wonderful mother.

    Prayers, hugs and peaceful holiday wishes to you, Angie!

  • Diana

    You will be missed. I read this blog almost like a devotional.
    It set my spirit in the right path every time.
    Enjoy your blog-cation..

  • Heather

    I will sorely miss you, Angie, but I completely understand. I have two small kids of my own and, to be totally honest, I have always wondered how you have managed to do all that you do AND blog, too! I wouldn’t be able to do it, and now you need a break. I’m glad you’re taking it. Nothing comes before God and family… even blogging! I’ll be here when you decided to pop back in and out!

  • Ashley Beth

    I will be praying for Christ to be glorifed in your telling of Audrey’s story, which I’m sure you will do so completely and so very well. No one could tell it better than you, with the grace of God upon you.

    I’d love to know when and where you will be speaking in Colorado because that’s where I’m from and I’d climb mountains to be there to hear you speak and to support you! Maybe it would help a little to know you had a Sunday in the audience! ;)

    Enjoy this blessed season with your precious family!

  • Julie

    Wow, I was just thinking of your visit to CPA a few minutes ago and I felt the holy spirit nudge me to pray about your girls going there.

    God has been glorified through this blog and I know the good( even though it feels so bad) work he has begun he will carry on to the day of completion. Galatians 6:9

    I could say so much more, as my heart overflows. I pray the holy spirit will intercede for me.

    Your central CA Sunday,
    Julie

  • Stephanie

    Angie, you’ve told precious Audrey’s story in so many ways already. And sometimes you’ve used written words. :) Amazing how God started you on your rough draft months ago..right here!
    Enjoy your time preparing for the season. May we all learn from that.

  • Mar

    Angie –

    I will pray for you in this season … my Dad passed away last December, and I find myself needing “many words with the Lord and few with the world” as you so beautifully put it. There is a time to be Mary, sitting at His feet without any guilt whatsoever. I will pray for your writing, and I pray it will be just as real as when you blogged it … in fact, that would be a very good book indeed …

    Love in Christ –

  • Megan

    Angie,
    Thank you for humbly sharing with us your prayer requests, your struggles, Christ’s victories in your life. As you spend this Christmas season rejoicing in Him who saves us, I will be praying.

  • Jamie

    Beautiful post as always, Angie. While I will miss your sweet words and hysterical daughters, I am happy to pray for you and help you relax. This really is such a special time. God bless you and yours.

  • DMR

    Angie,

    This was absolutely beautiful. I think I will join you in this season of Advent. You are in my prayers, as always.

    Dani

  • The Carter Family

    You are an amazing christian woman. I get so excited when I see that you have blogged! I do however respect your decision to take a blog break. I pray that the book deal works out and you are able to accomplish His will through your adventure. I still find myself going back and rereading Audrey’s story over and over again. Your words ALWAYS speak personally to me.

    Thank you for being an inspiration to me!

    Your family is always in my prayers.

    Mandy

  • Karen and Shane

    I’ll be praying for you this Christmas. I know the holidays can be a joy and yet a deep sadness as we miss those that are not around.

    Can’t wait for the book to come out too! And I’ll be listening for yall on Focus on the Family!

    Blessings on your family!

  • Kassandra

    Hello Angie. My name is Kassandra and I live in Fairbanks, AK. I have been following your story for a few months now, but just never commented, because there were always so many. :o )

    I have to tell you, I was absolutely thrilled when I found your blog, because I have been listening to Selah for years, and adore their music.

    My heart broke along with yours as you poured everything out. I read yur story all the way from the beginning in about 3 days. I would just read for hours on end.

    Your sweet Audrey has touched so many people’s lives, it’s uncomprehendable. What great things the Lord does with our trials!

    Thank-you for sharing your story. I love when you include funny things about your other three girls. I am so endeared to their little personalities.

    Anyways, this comment is just all over the place, so I’ll go now. I just wanted to let you know that you’re in my thoughts, on my heart, and in my prayers.

  • McChatterbox

    I am a late reader of your blog but I love the testimony and the way that God shines through you. I believe the Lord allowed you to go through this, with your sweet baby girl Audrey, to lead many souls to Him. On this Earth I doubt you will ever know the impact that your testimony has made. I will pray that your book, like your blog, is a tremendous blessing to all who read it. Many times as I read your words touch my heart. Enjoy this beautiful season with your family and know that whenever you are ready to share, we are here to receive but take the time you need for you and yours. God bless you always.

  • Bella

    Take all the time you need. We will be here, praying and uplifting you until you return.

    Angie, you have already done great honor to God and to Audrey. He knew exactly what He was doing when He chose you for her mommy. You honor her life with your life and works. The book is just one of those. I KNOW it will be Christ led, because YOU are Christ led.

    I also want to say that everytime I see a post about your girls, or see a picture on twitter like the ones from their birthday, I feel led to be a better mother. I also get to experience, just a tiny bit, of what a childhood without brokeness can be. Thank you for that, Angie.

    As always, I am praying,
    Bella

  • Jennifer

    Merry Happy Advent! Soak in this blessed time with your family and enjoy the break from the computer. I am learning this very advent that the best gift I can give my little boys (1 and 2 yrs old) is the gift of my undivided attention…
    I’ll be praying for your writing endeavors for Audrey’s book.

  • Ashley

    I’m sure this has been said here in the comments multiple times – I haven’t read through them – but let me assure you that you have never failed to give God glory through the telling of Audrey’s story. You honor her and Him each time you write her name or make a reference to your sweet daughter. Don’t let any insecurities or thoughts tell you otherwise.
    You have told her story beautifully here and I know you will do the same in your book honoring her life and His Love.

    In Him,

    Ashley

  • aronhead

    Advent’s your favorite season? Man, it’s my least favorite. Not because of the liturgy during this portion of the church year. In fact, I love it. And the Festival of Nine Lessons and Carols? It doesn’t get better than that! No, the reason why it’s my least favorite season is that at no other time during the church year do I find the culture working so strongly against me. It’s a struggle to be quietly penitential when media is blasting me with Christmas music 24/7 since before Thanksgiving.

    We talk all about Advent on this week’s Mark Andrew PopeCast (http://markandrewpope.com/podcast.htm).

  • aronhead

    Advent’s your favorite season? Man, it’s my least favorite. Not because of the liturgy during this portion of the church year. In fact, I love it. And the Festival of Nine Lessons and Carols? It doesn’t get better than that! No, the reason why it’s my least favorite season is that at no other time during the church year do I find the culture working so strongly against me. It’s a struggle to be quietly penitential when media is blasting me with Christmas music 24/7 since before Thanksgiving.

    We talk all about Advent on this week’s Mark Andrew PopeCast (http://markandrewpope.com/podcast.htm).

  • christi28

    you have such a gift of words and i know the Lord will direct each and everyone of them. He know your heart so He will let those special, perfect words tell audreys story perfectly!

    thank you for sharing her with us. i will be praying from the heart to His ears for you and your family through the absence of your words and i can’t wait to hear them again!

    blessings and love ~

  • Keri

    I will miss you, but completely get that you need time.

    We are also in the midst of a big decision of whether to send our kids to a Christian school or not…….I understand how big that decision is for you!

    Audrey’s story will be beautiful because you are the ONLY one that can write it. And you’ve been practicing on us for awhile!!

    Have a wonderful Christmas!

  • Jenni

    So funny! I remember the first time I asked for a “brawl” it was on my Christmas list! I spelled it the EXACT same way! Too cute!
    May God Bless you this Season!

  • Jen

    Love you, Angie-est of Angies. Enjoy our yuletide.

    And remember, no one apart from Jesus could write Audrey’s story as perfect as you could. Just love her on paper, dearest mother, and it will be all it possibly could.

    *smile* and also remember this… you don’t have a month of Sundays praying for you… you have enough Sundays to last a few years at least!

  • Kel

    I’ve followed your blog for quite some time, but rarely comment. This post just spoke to me, though. Thanks for reminding us of what this season is truly about! I could use some time to really focus on it, too.

    As far as your book goes, I’m sure it will say just what God leads you to say. You have a way with words, as I’m sure everyone who reads your blog would agree. Your writing is genuine and thought-provoking. Can’t wait to hear about the book!

  • melissac

    I will miss your incredible thoughts but respect your need to be with the Lord!! I will be praying for you and your family as well as the other requests!! You are truly a Woman of God!! Blessings and Hugs!!

  • Liz

    Angie:
    God bless you dear woman! Of course, take all the time you need, we will definitely miss you but so want you to take care of yourself.
    And the book? It’s already written. You’re just doing the footwork!
    Sending you Christmas love,
    Liz

  • The McCarls

    Angie,

    I don’t think I’ve ever written anything on your blog. I found it several months ago through another blog that I read. Your’s is now one of my favorites that I read all the time. I’ll miss you over your break but it is definitly important to be with the girls and your family through this time of year. I will be praying for you. Keep your light shining – you have been such an inspiration for me!

    -Jessica

  • Bethany

    I will be praying that God gives you peace in this difficult holiday season. It is so hard for families or anyone for that matter who have recently or even not so recently gone through a loss. Keep pressing on!
    Bethany

  • Alyssa K. Krebs

    I keep passing you at church but I’m afraid to walk up to you. I’m only 15. And I think your girls are adorable! Eventually I’ll muster up the courage to say ‘hi’. And the worst part is that we’ve already been introduced. It was a while ago though. Like four months. My mom wanted to talk to you about Homeschooling. Anyway I think you’ll tell Audrey’s story beautifully!

  • Sun

    Absolutely praying! Sunshine

  • Cristi

    Angie you will be missed. But when you get to the point of feeling like you must come up with something right to say, its time for a change of some kind. I believe God will give you things, thoughts, and from time to time you will be able to share those as he leads. Thank you for sharing with us so far. Be encouraged in the Lord, he is there right by your side, leading and guiding! God Bless

  • Kendra

    Angie, you will write beautifully. If this blog is ANY indication to your ability to tell of sweet Audrey’s story while honoring both The Lord and her legacy…it will be an AMAZING book. I can’t wait to read it, and buy it for everyone I know.

    And I promise to fulfill my Sunday duties and pray for your requests. Like I said before, it’s an honor to be a Sunday, and I take it seriously!!!!!

    Be blessed during your blog fast.
    kendra

  • Mel

    I will miss your amazing blogs, but I do understand and will be praying!!!

  • Fran

    Hi Angie….
    I just want to say that you are setting the tone for me and i’m such a follower and far from a leader that I want to join you as we all prepare our hearts for the birth of Christ. Thank you. :)

    What a blessing you are. I’m praying for you always. I pray peace, joy, and complete love over your entire family.

    Big hugs,
    Fran

  • Kristine

    Hi Angie – I’ve followed your blog for most of this year. It is beautifully written and I pray for your family often.

    We have not been through the trials and heart ache that you and your family have endured, but we did go through a very traumatic event with our daughter this year. She was diagnosed with Bacterial Meningitis and we came very close to losing her a number of times and she may have some life long challenges to endure.

    It was a HUGE wake up call for us and has forever changed our lives.

    You have inspired me to start a blog and begin writing Katie’s story down. It’s very painful, but also healing. I have linked to your blog on mine. I hope this is okay with you. Please feel free to do the same.

    http://leeleenews.blogspot.com/

    Kristine

    PS – Bad timing now that you’re taking a “blog break”, but thought I’d send it over anyhow.

  • amy

    I know you get so many comments,but I just have to tell you how amazing I think you are. Being a part of your story has radically changed me. I have NO DOUBT that as you tell Audrey’s story, you will continue to bring honor and glory to the Lord in every word on every page. I wish I could meet you in person and just tell you how precious you are and how your faith has challenged and strengthened me, helped me overcome fears, and helped me to know that NO MATTER WHAT, HE IS FAITHFUL. He really has carried you and you have shown us all that. Despite your sorrow, you have loved Him. Despite your lack of understanding, you have chosen to trust Him. Despite your fears, you have stepped out in faith to let Him use you and speak through you. It is a priviedge to be one of your “Sundays.” :) You’re one of me heros, Angie. THANKYOU!

    Merry Christmas to all of you. I pray that His sweet peace would just be ALL around you as you focus on His birth. EMMANUEL…HE is with us!

    Love to you!!!
    Amy B

    p.s. Is there a way to send your family a Christmas card??? I know that you will probably get hundreds, but I would LOVE to send you one so you could see a pic of a “Sunday” and her family. :)

  • Bri

    As you take a break, our prayers will not, and we thank you for your never ending faith and amazing spirit. You inspire me nearly every dang post. Thanks for your open heart. I’m sure God will do amazing things through your book, don’t worry, you are a gifted writer and serve the best story teller of all so I’m sure it will be PERFECT. God Bless you and your wonderful family Angie. Thanks Again. We appreciate you and hope that none of the pressure you feel comes from your readers, we just love you. See you someday.

  • Linda

    I haven’t commented in a long time Angie – just quietly reading.
    I will pray for you as you take this time to draw close to Him and begin telling Audrey’s story.
    Your writing blesses me so much. I know the Lord has wonderful plans for your book.
    Have a peace-filled, joyous Christmas.

  • Mae

    A book! Oh what a book it will be!! I can’t wait to read it and i already know so much of it!!

    But as much as you move me now, I’m sure the book will move many as well.
    As will you and Todd at Focus on the Family.

    And how excited I am to say that I will be seeing Selah on Friday at The Cove. What a way to ring in my Christmas. I a excited to hear them but also to feel some connection to you through your hubby’s voice! Yay!!!

  • georgia tarheel

    I shall miss you sweet Angie! I will be praying for you continuously as you celebrate our sweet Savior’s birth, prepare for an awesome opportunity to share about the sanctity of life and as you write Audrey’s story down for the whole world to read. Spend time wrapped up in Him and those words were flow smoothly (whether written or spoken).

    You are precious to Jesus and He will take care of your every need (whether it is flying, or writing or simply trusting Him). Know you are covered in prayers by all of your Sundays!

  • Angie

    Thank you so much for all that you have taught me and my family. I think you are an amazing person and I pray that you and your family have a very Merry Christmas and enjoy this wonderful time of year. I will pray for your book and that the Lord helps you in this journey. May God Bless you!
    Angie
    Adrian MN

  • Colleen Pate

    You are such an amazing Mother and Wife. You truly walk with our Savior. I admire your strength and courage to write a the book of Audrey’s story. What an amazing gift to our Lord and to your daughters and family. You are a special person. Thank you for sharing your story with us and for praying with us. I will be sad while you are on your break, but you deserve it!! I will continue to pray for you over this special season. Enjoy the season of the birth of our savior and your much needed break.

  • Twy

    A,
    I am weeping at this blog. I guess mainly because I feel so so blessed to hear you speak as though you know me, know what I feel for you and what I feel for the Lord. I feel like we are close friends, and when you ask me for something or need something, I am more than willing to give it. As with our Lord, as well.
    You are the only one who can tell it as it needs to be told. You are the one he will send that story through.
    Wishing you blessings this holiday season, and many moments of pure gratitude for his greatness.
    Big hugs, Love twyla

  • Pat Perry

    Angie,

    Bless you for taking time to be our Lord Jesus Christ through this wonderful season.

    I met you on Friday while you were at CPA in the admissions office. I am going to pray specifically about your children coming to CPA. That if it is God’s will, it will happen. Your right, he will provide. CPA is such a wonderful place to work and I have a son who will graduate this year. I know that being at CPA has changed his life, and will everyone who walks through those doors.

    I would love to keep in touch with you; if you want to contact me I have a blog at http://www.perrywatsonjourney.blogspot.com please leave me a comment when you feel like it.

    God Bless you!!

    Pat

  • Krista

    That is one book that I will buy instead of using the library! You said to send prayer requests, so here goes. My daughter, Scarlet Grace (9 months,and my 3rd child) suffers from Reactive Airway Disease (RAD). She is struggling so, so much, and I don’t know what else to do to help her. We have tried all kinds of medicines, preventative measures, prayer, and while I know I can’t see and know everything, I feel so helpless, and I am at the end of my rope. Please keep her in your prayers for complete and total healing.

  • amy

    Angie,
    I completely understand your need to “lay low” for a while, but I will really miss you! I am constantly praying for you and your sweet, amazing family. You are such a gift to me. “I thank my God upon every remembrance of you.”
    Hugs,
    Amy

  • Kandy

    You have such a beautiful way with words and God has used you to speak to me in many ways these past few months. Thank you for listening to the Lord and sharing pieces of your life with complete strangers. I don’t think you’ll ever know how far reaching your effort has been. Perhaps you will though, on that day when we all meet each other.
    I’m praying for you and your family. I hope the Christmas season brings you much joy.
    Good luck on the book (I know you’ll do great).

  • Rosie

    I am asking for prayer for my daughter Michelle she went for a sonogram Friday and found out that her baby was only developed at 9weeks and she was supposed to be 13weeks also there was no heartbeat. So, tommorow her husband and I will be going with her to the doctor where they will do a D & C they were waiting to see if she would miscarry on her own, but GOD did not want that apparently And we have learned HE knows best. So, I am just asking that you pray for GODS love and mercy to be on my daughter and her husband, and that HE will hold her as she goes through this.And Angie you have been an amazing picture of showing trust and faith and I am very thankful for you sharing your life with us.

  • The Scheuffele Family

    I don’t normally leave comments on your blog, but I just had to today. I happened to be at Borders yesterday, browsing the “religion” section (really, it’s pretty much only a shelf in a VERY large store…so they probably don’t even consider it a section) for Christmas gifts. Anyway, as I scanned the books, I thought of you and how much I wished I could be purchasing your story for my family and friends this Christmas. Imagine my surprise when I read your blog today…I’ll hope for next Christmas (no pressure, really)! :)

    As I am preparing to welcome my first little one into this world, I find myself so grateful for your words, and your willingness to share your story. Our children are not our own. And as hard as that is…there is a peace. Thank you for helping us understand that He carries us through it all.

    You are an inspiration and a blessing. Merry Christmas to you and your sweet family.

  • Hope Wilson

    You could not have said it better…"let my words be few with the world & many with the Lord." WOW…that really struck a cord with me-thanks!

    I will be praying for continued guidance with Audrey's book – it will be beautiful!

  • danakay1

    Angie,

    May the Lord our God continue to bless you in all that do and may you continue to bring glory and honor to His precious name! We will all be here when you need us and know that we are praying for you and supporting you from all over the world. Enjoy this time with your family, close friends and most of all your Savior. Thanks for always remembering us and blessing us with your thoughts and the lives of you and your family members. God is so awesome to allow such a family of believers to join together in prayer using the internet of all things! :)
    Dana

  • Jenn

    I will most surely pray that you will continue to honor Jesus through Audrey. I say continue because you have been. You show what Audrey means to you and your family. You most certainly have touched people and brought honor to Him. You are such an inspiration to me. Thank you for lifting me up when, at times, I didn’t feel like it was possible. You always remind me of the hope we have in Him. I think of our babies and I’m in awe at how beautiful Christmas will be for them in heaven this year. God Bless you and your family. I pray that you will have a Christmas full of peace and love.

  • VanDuren

    I would love for you to come to Colorado. Please post when and where you will be, as I would like to come and meet you. You have blessed me with your gift of words.
    I think you might be the NEXT BETH MOORE! (whom I dearly love)! Thank You for sharing your life with me!

  • mom24boys

    Oh Angie! Every time I read one of your posts, I just want to hug you! You are amazing. No one could have loved Audrey better, and it takes such a special servant’s heart to turn all of your pain into something so much bigger. Something that has the power to glorify and bring more people to Him–our Father, who knows you so well that he knew what a vessel for His love you would be. I pray that you feel peace and confidence as you write, knowing that the Holy Spirit will not let you do anything but justice for Audrey’s memory. And that the gift of your words allows Audrey to continue her work of bringing more people to Christ. Such monumental work she is doing… I truly believe that is why she had to go home. This world could not offer her a place to do all she wanted as soon as she arrived. What a big heart she has! (I wonder where she got THAT??)

  • mom2marbles

    Angie,
    I hope you enjoy this wonderful time of year with your family. May God bless and comfort you as you share this special time.
    I look forward to reading your book and know God will use you just as he has in this blog.
    Merry Christmas!

  • Liz

    Angie,
    Are you on Facebook? If so, send me a friend request please. (Liz Reeves) I’d love to keep up with ya on there.

  • DeeDee

    I sit here and think that my comment today is #174….in all the Sundays before me..so how awesome is it to receive the blessings of 174+ (I am sure there will be more) encouragers.

    I also am about to take a break from blogging so how cool it is to break away and refresh ourselves w/the friendship of God Himself.

    I will be praying for the right publisher to take on your book. That they will totally understand the need that is out there for a real life situtation such as yours. Although I know you would rather have your sweet daughter than a book deal…the book WILL bring about praise the The Lord and will help jumpstart healing in so many parents hearts. I wish I had a book to go to 31 yrs ago when we lost out 1st daughter. Noone understood or if they did, they never talked about it. All I heard in 1977 was,
    “You can have another child.” Well, I didn’t want another child I wanted her!!!! I had told you that our daughters death brought my husband to the throne of Grace and into ministry full time, so while you are talking to God, think about this ministry God is placing before you. Think about Stephen Curtis Chapman and how he is able to minister better b/c of his sorrow. Then take the book-world by storm, listen to God’s plan and act upon it all.

    When God is in the middle of our lives, there is nothing else to see but the glory of His face!!!

    We love your family and continue to pray over you all…including Nicole and family.

    Joy for your tomorrows! Debi from Columbus Ohio

  • DeeDee

    I forgot one thing…

    Merry Christmas!

    Joy, Debi in Ohio

  • Heather

    Hi there Angie, I read your blog almost everytime that I am on the internet, but never comment, probably because I don’t know you and would feel totally silly doing it. ah, but here I am commenting. I am from Nashville and just recently moved to Texas and started reading there. I will be praying for you about speaking for Focus on the Family, that God would move through you and use you beyond your wildest imaginations. I am amazed by your speaking abilities, how great you are with your words and the way you share your heart. I also have a fear of flying and will most definetly be praying for you about that as well. Blessings to you and your family this Christmas season, may the love of our Savior continue to shine through you.

  • noahandlylasmommi

    I am praying for you Ang!

  • geisme

    Angie, several things. Yes, you will be missed, but will also be prayed for. About writing Audrey's story- if the Lord is leading you to do this, in your inadequacy, remember His grace is sufficient.
    As far as the homeschooling thing vs the Christian school, who says you have to stop homeschooling to be involved in the school. I know our Lord will give you wisdom on what you are suppose to do in that situation though.
    Am curious where in Cincy you are from & what h.s. you went to. I love Cincy & lived there for a few years.
    May the Lord richly bless your advent season.
    -Gail

  • Tina:0)

    I can't wait to read the book! I'm sure it will be as inspired as your posts on her are & a wonderful inspiration to anyone who opens the cover!

    Will keep checking in for the random thoughts, & know that I'll be praying (thanks for your prayers for me & my upcoming surgery!)

    Enjoy your 'break' & especially enjoy the season!

  • Grateful for Grace

    Praying for all of it.

    And, BTW, I’ve been to some pretty amazing young women’s groups of all homeschooled girls. Amazing. So, just trust Him and follow Him. He’ll bring the benefits of that obedience.

  • Kristin

    Praying over all these things…and especially that our sweet Lord blesses you in abundance just as you have blessed each of us!

  • Jenny

    I love your blog. I don’t think I have ever commented, not sure though! I have a silly question that I am sure you have probably mentioned before. What is the name of the song that plays on your blog? I am brought to tears every time I hear it. If anyone will be so kind as to let me know – I would greatly appreciate it! You can e-mail it to me: jennypadgett@yahoo.com

  • Susan

    Focus on the Family! One of my all time favs! What a perfect match. May God give you clear and unmistakable direction during your upcoming endeavors.

  • Miller Family

    I look forward to reading your book! Prayers for you and your sweet family this Christmas. Congrats on the invite to “Focus on the Family”. How awesome is that? I thank you once again for your blog. I always look forward to reading it.

  • jendalyn

    Please be sure to share details of when you’ll be here in Colorado. I would love to come listen to you speak!

  • Courtney

    Love ya Ang. I’ll miss your words this month but I totally understand wanting to simplify.

    I am completely confident that you will do Audrey’s story well. You are her mother. Who could ever tell it better?

    Praying for you.

  • Annalien

    I want to wish you and your family an amazing blessed Christmas. (I am going on leave shortly and will not be near the internet.) Thank you for being a blessing to all of us during this year, despite the tradegies that have struck you family. Your faith is truly an inspiration.

    Just tell Audrey’s story the way you did on this blog and it will be a tribute to your King and to her. Your sincerity and beautiful personality always shines through in your writing. Just remain true to yourself and it will be an amazing book, I am sure. God bless!

  • tn-girl-n-ms

    I tend to freak out while flying, too, (the flight attendents have been known to laugh at me!) so I totally understand! I would love to lift your needs to the Lord in prayer. I consider it an honor.

    Enjoy this Blessed Season!
    Merry Christmas!
    Jennifer

  • Rosie

    I am asknig for prayer for my daughter Michelle. She and husband went for an ultrasound Friday and supposing to be 13 weeks they found that the baby only developed at 9weeks and there was no heartbeat. So today we are going to go to the Dr. where they will do a D & C please pray for GOD'S peace to be on them as they go through this and for mom(me) to be strong. WE know that baby is in the hands of GOD but we are still sad as you know very well. Thank you so much for yor blog it has been a blessing to my soul.

  • Kristin

    Angie,
    Although I will miss your insight and wisdom, I completely respect your need to quiet your heart before the Lord and celebrate the true meaning of this season.
    I will pray for you as you work on your book and look forward to the day when it is available for us all to share in! I am sure it will be a masterpiece of His good work in your life. He will bless this for you!
    You are an amazing woman, one that so many of us admire – please remember that when doubt creeps in. Trust in the One who calms all fears!
    Hugs from a South Dakota Sundays
    Kristin
    http://www.dominicandkristin.blogspot.com

  • Crystal

    Angie, I’m praying for you but I know there is no need. You will do wonderful with all of the things that are coming your way. Instead I will pray for God to give you the wisdom to know that also.

    Sending lots of love to you. I hope you, Todd, and the girls have a wonderful Christmas.

  • Truly Blessed

    Angie, You have a true gift of writing. Your ability to express yourself so that others feel like they are there with you is amazing. Look at what God has done so far in your journey. He will see you through this beautiful tribute to Audrey. It will touch so very many hearts and glorify Him. May His peace surround you, fill you and overflow from you to those around you. We will all wait to hear how things are going and remain confident that you will do well.
    Merry Christmas to you and yours.
    ~Mary

  • MomE

    What a great opportunity! This Sunday has already brought you before the throne this rainy Tuesday! Much love!!

  • Debbie

    I just recently found your blog and have grown to love it very quickly. As disappointed as I will be I am amazed with your dedication to God. I will be praying for you and your family during this glorious holiday season of our Savior.

  • Mary

    Angie – I live in Colorado, and would love to help you with any travel plans or babysitting you might need – I am praying for you -
    A Colorado Sunday – mary vigil

  • walkingbyfaith

    I am praying fervently that the Lord will not only comfort you during this time, but also write this book through you.

    I’ll be “following” you and praying daily. Hugs dear friend!

  • TNKerry

    you are simply an amazing person. enjoy your family during this wonderful season.

  • Bonnie

    Chapters in well written books often leave a reader wondering what happens next, begging the author to come back and explain more. That is what this pause will be for many of us who read you regularly. As you start another chapter and follow God’s leading in His authorship of your life’s story, I know what He’ll have you share will be beautiful and glorifying to Him. He has gifted you amazingly with the pen and with your heart for Him, He will be glorified more than any of us can begin to imagine now. You are permanently in my prayers and I look forward to catching up with you when you do “pop in.” Blessings!

  • Amy Call

    Angie,

    You will be missed by many, but also prayed for by many. You have already done such a beautiful job of telling her story. You have brought followers to Christ already, myself included, through Audrey Caroline’s story. Remember the email I sent you? You are an inspiration for all of us…

    I know what you mean about wanting to really “be in” the season of Advent. I feel like I cannot get enough of being in my church.

    Do what you need to do…we will be there as well as Him…

    Many, many blessings to you,

  • Beverly

    My G calls bras overalls!

  • Becky

    I’ll be praying for you and your family, Angie! Thank you for all you give to others, and I hope you are richly blessed this advent season.

  • Tamara

    I will miss reading your blog, but understand your need for a break.
    Always praying for you!

  • carlee Brian

    Angie,
    I have been following your blog for about 3 months now. All started when my pastor Pete Wilson interviewed you and your husband. I teach at CPA and was thrilled that you were coming to share with our girls. It is such an amazing testimony for these girls to hear and I was blessed beyond words as you spoke. You were so honest and vulnerable, and I know that these girls were thankful for that. You spoke into the lives of many of the girls here at CPA who were so encouraged when you left. Thanks for sharing your story. We will also be praying that the Lord’s will be done in regards to the book, your work with Focus on the Family and the school decision. We would love to have you all here at CPA. Praying for you!

  • Chris

    You are an awesome writer. I happened to stumble on your blog and I am so happy to be sharing your obstacles with you. You’re story of Audrey is so touching. I was balling while I was reading it. I can’t wait to continue to hear your stories.

  • Andy and Cari

    so I got to meet your husband this past Sunday night. He was singing at a church on the north side of Indy. I went up tp talk to him afterwards. I shared with him that my husband and I lost a baby girl this year,and how encouraging your words have been to me. I went on and on like a blabbering idiot. I left and relized I didn’t even tell him how much I love his music and am slightly obssesed with Selah. Please pass these thoughts along to him seeing as I was way too out of it to say them!

  • Darlene

    I will be praying. He will do it for you, sweet friend!

  • Lianna Knight

    First, I believe you have ALREADY brought great honor to the Lord Jesus Christ through Audrey and through your story. You are such a gift to every single one of us.

    Praying that this season is a blessing for you and your family…you have been SUCH a blessing to me.

  • Chelsea Pang

    You are wise to know when to say when for a particular calling or season. Thank you for your blessing in words, I will take this opportunity to read postings of yours from the past that I have not yet read!

    I also want to get the word out bout the 12th annual Worldwide Candle Lighting event. Compassionate Friends offers the opportunity for grieving families to come together on one day to celebrate the life, love and light of those children gone much too soon. It is believed to be the largest mass candle lighting in the world. Last year tens of thousands of candles were lighted in memory of children around the globe in small gatherings and in the privacy of homes.

    This year the candle lighting will be held on Sunday December 14th for one hour at 7 pm local time around the world, creating a virtual wave of light. It symbolizes that the light of these precious children will forever he held within the hearts of many.

    If you want to post a message about your own loss you can see my blog at http://graceolaobrienpang.blogspot.com OR post on Compassionate Friends website on December 14th, their web site, http://www.compassionatefriends.org.

    Chelsea Pang
    Mother of Grace Ola, born still September 17th.

  • Mandye

    Praying for you, Angie! You can do anything through Christ who gives YOU strength! Can’t wait to hear about your Focus on the Family FUN! :)

  • Kim

    An honor to pray for you! May God continue to bless you more than you can imagine.

  • Meredith

    Oh Angie, I’m gonna miss you! I feel like we’re friends that have just never met…and I feel connected to you through your blog. I love the way the Lord speaks to me through you. It’s pretty neat!

    With that being said, I am proud of you for listening to Him and taking a much needed break to reflect on Him this season. I, as well as all the Sundays, will be here when you come back!

    As for flying, you can overcome! I have had an extreme fear of flying my whole life and have just overcome it this past weekend. My daughter was asked to be a flower girl in a friend’s wedding in the Bahamas, and I couldn’t deny her, due to my fears. So, I took a Xanax, boarded the plane with my husband and 2 kids (1 is 3 and 1 is 1) and had an AMAZING flight! Crazy, I know, but really. I prayed for deliverence from my fears and He delivered! I was actually excited to fly home!?!?! I know, it’s crazy sounding, but true. I have faith in you and in our Father that He can deliver you too!

    And for the book…girl, go get em!!! I am so happy for you and the opportunity you’ve been given. Know that this is a way God will bless millions more through your words. AWESOME!!! It will definitely be on my purchase list for all the moms I know!

    Still praying,
    Meredith

  • Julie

    Yes and yes to those prayer requests. We will welcome you here in Colorado with open arms! Please take whatever time you need – the first Christmas after a loss such as yours is definitely not easy. Thanks for being an inspiration!

  • velma96

    Angie,
    Know that your thought-filled and thought-provoking posts will be missed this advent season…but also that we all love and respect you for choosing to take a blogging-break!! You are in our prayers as you work through telling Audrey’s story in book-form. I know that the Lord will bless your vulnerability and will use your family’s story to touch the lives of many…as He has already done through this blog!! Thank you so much for sharing your amazing story, your journey with our God, and your life with us!
    ~Kristal

  • Michelle

    I’m reading your blog for the first time and wanted to tell you that you have a beautiful heart and are a true daughter of God. My eyes have teared several times for you and your family. I know that God will wrap is ever loving arms around you and help you write a book that will honor him!

  • Ileana

    I’ll continue to pray!

    Oh, and I just wanted to let you know about this amazing site. The challenge is to INSPIRE THE WORLD IN 25 DAYS through random acts of kindness.

    http://www.thegiftrevolution.com

    Thanks, and God Bless!!

    Sinner Saved by Grace,
    Ileana

  • Robin in New Jersey

    What a wonderful opportunity to be asked to go and be interviewed by Focus. I’m sure the Lord will give you and your husband the words to speak and that you will be a blessing to many.

  • Jeanine

    Just wanted to encourage you…my kids go to a private christian school here in the ‘boro that is very similar in philosophy to the one you visited in Nashville and we LOVE it! I am one who also struggles with wanting to homeschool at times, but for my children it would be a difficult transition because they love their school so much. They back us up in every way as parents…biblically, emotionally, and in loving discipline. It makes our jobs so much easier when they hear the same things come out of their teachers mouths as what comes out of ours! I know the Lord will lead you…and isn’t that the greatest thing?
    And I pray the Holy Spirit will write Audrey’s story through you…and that every word will point straight to Jesus. Judging by what you write here, that will not be a hard task for God to accomplish! He has truly given you a gift and I love that you are willing to use it.

  • Brandy

    Angie, I have no doubt that you will bring even more honor to Audrey’s memory and to the Lord. I don’t think you could do anything but. I have faith in you. :) Enjoy the season!

  • CC

    Thank you again for your beautiful words. I just posted about Advent and Rethinking Christmas here in case you have a chance to read it (I know you are too busy, but I had to try!).

  • TRS

    If you need a friend in Colorado – I’ll come greet you at the airport.

    Let me know!

    Tammy

  • Mary Helen

    Enjoy your break, Angie. We will be praying for you. I hope you and your family have a very Merry Christmas!!!

  • Joanna

    Dear Angie, I have never commented before, but I have been reading your blog since before Audrey was born. I am moved to write today because I am so glad that you have the opportunity to write Audrey’s story, and I can think of no-one better to tell the world what it was like in my heart and my world when my first-born, Benjamin, (oh how I love to use that name – it’s so rare now, 10 years after the event) was diagnosed with a serious heart defect in utero and died at 8 weeks old. I find it really hard to convey to people the joy and beauty of that time, as the Lord blessed us, as well as the agony and pain. Thank you for sharing the gift He has given you of blending the agony and the joy together. I will miss you as you spend more quiet time at home in this Advent season, but think you are very wise to do so.

  • Cupcake

    My prayers are with you and your family, Angie.

  • Sgt and Mrs Hub

    My mom and dad put me and my two brothers through private school – actually I was the only one that attended from preschool to twelfth grade. It was a true sacrifice for them – as in, they would skip lunch so that us kids could eat. Things eventually got easier but their conviction about the schooling never changed. They knew that God would lift them up and carry them through the years where there was little.

    Their example was encouraging to me, as my husband and I now face having a large tuition payment every month for our oldest daughter, Eve. We prayed and prayed over where and how to school her. The Christian school she is attending is right where God wanted her to be. Eve is growing in the Lord in ways I cry about. It’s amazing. I always thought I would homeschool my children, but God made it clear to me that I was not to take that route.

    My mom eventually homeschooled my brothers for a few years but they both ended up graduating from the Christian school.

    God will lead you… Just know, from a girl who went all the way through a Christian school experience, I am so very thankful my parents sacrificed so I could be blessed in that way. It was a true gift.

    -Andrea

  • Jami

    I appreciate your openness and honesty of putting up boundaries to keep this holy time of year more significant for you. I think we all can use more practice of saying no to things and yes to Him.

    This is my first time writing, but I also want to say thanks for your wisdom and comfort with your words. You are gifted to teach others the uniqueness of each of our life story and the importance of what we have. I have found comfort as I read your words with my own two losses of early pregnancies and yet can cherish God’s timing and now understand His provision for my circumstances.

    If you could let me know when and where you will be speaking with FOF, I would love to make the drive to hear you in January (if it is open to the public).
    Many Blessing to you!

  • karen44

    You wrote “my insecurities have a way of making me feel inadequate…..

    … I don’t know if you’ll ever read this comment (it’s four days after you posted), but I’ve come to realize that it’s only through our insecurities that we lean on God. When I’m feeling secure I don’t need God! I can handle it! It’s only when I’m insecure that I truly lean on Him.

    So relish your insecurities, girl, knowing that You’re giving Him your little-girl heart and He’s giving you His Abba-Daddy support in return.
    Many blessings,
    -karen

  • Jaime

    I read your blog all the time and it has brought me to tears more than once. But tonight, as I clicked on the title of the book you randomly shared in your paragraph about high school girls, I knew again that the Lord is using your blog to touch many hearts and incline them towards Him … including mine (AGAIN!).

    I don’t even have to read the reviews on this book or look at any pages, to know that it was written for me. Just me. The title alone speaks a million stories of the struggle my Jesus and I have been working out these last few months. He isn’t letting me off easy this time. It is a heavy-duty refining fire. As an added measure of grace, I threw this book in my shopping cart to be delivered in time for Christmas – where it will find its way to my stocking, if not a little worn from its’ use in the meantime.

    Love you. Love your writing. Your book will be fabulous and a fragrant offering to our Lord.

  • perilloparodies

    My “just remember” thought is… Our Lord is the Same Yesterday Today And Forever. Just as he directed Moses, He will direct you. He will continue to give you words. God has already been practicing you, using you, stretching you, growing you. “No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind can conceive the things God has planned for those who love Him…” As you are open to the Lord and His will for you, As you allow yourself to be vulnerable, you will see tremendous fruit grow beautifully in the ashes of hurt, pain, sin in your own lives and in the lives of so many others. Trust in, cling to, rely on, and believe in the Lord, for that is what it means to have faith in Him. I know I do not personally know you, but… I am so proud of you. You are allowing yourself to be available. That means so much. If Focus On The Family has asked you to come and speak… That door is not opened to everyone. and it is an honor. Not only that, though, you will be speaking on behalf of all those little ones who have not had a chance to share their voice with the world, including your little Audrey… God’s strength, hope, peace, and faith be with you… and… I BELIEVE…:-)

  • Gretchen

    Oh, I’d LOVE to meet you when you do come to Focus! Would you be speaking at chapel or on the show? It’d be so great to just grab a cup of coffee, or just to say hello!

  • Stacie

    Angie,

    I was fortunate enough to see Selah perform in Denton, Texas last night. What a blessing it was. I love their music, but it was even more heart warming to hear it in person.

    So many of the songs truly ministered to my heart. You see, my 4-year old son has brain and spine cancer and the doctors feel that my almost 2-year old may have some sort of muscular disease. It’s a difficult season for us, but Selah made it a bit easier for a night.

    Please tell your husband THANK YOU for me. God bless your family during what I know is a difficult season for you as well.

    Much love,
    Stacie Smith
    http://smithscooptexas.blogspot.com