In Between

We had an awesome time on our cruise, despite the fact that I did not get to meet Kirk Cameron. The weather was unbelievable, and it was definitely one of those, “Umm, really? This is work?” kind of weeks, where we were just so grateful to all be together and enjoying the sunshine.

I did have a little breakdown on the first night because I realized that the last cruise we were on was almost exactly three years ago (same month) when I was pregnant with Audrey. We had her diagnosis and were trying to enjoy it but were so distracted and devastated by reality. There had been a point on that cruise where I was going to grab something to eat and I slipped on something slick and wiped out, landing (almost) full force on my tummy while I jerked my knees out just in time to catch me. The worst part was that everybody just stared at me and nobody helped me up. When I finally did get up I was bawling crying and ran to find Todd and all of our friends and I was bruised up for days. I hadn’t really even remembered it until I walked through a similar area on this boat and all of a sudden I felt sick to my stomach. It’s amazing how the mind works, and I have so many of those stored places in my mind that I don’t access until I’m in the moment and it just falls right on me. That seems to be the hardest part of the grief journey right now-just the unexpected times when something occurs to you or a memory comes back and you just weren’t mentally prepared to cope.

This was totally going to be a happy post! Sorry about that :) But it is, unfortunately, reality…

Overall the trip was really fun. I was going to post some pictures but who are we kidding? Not my strong suit…so, if you’re curious and want to see some great photos, click HERE to go to Kelsey’s facebook album and see how everyone looks so grown up!!! Seriously, Charlotte even has little chic-let teeth :) She has finally decided she would like to begin sitting up and making motions in the direction of crawling. I’m telling you, this kid is one in a million. So laid back and easy-going and her smile is absolutely infectious. I am so madly in love I cannot even tell you…

In other news, I spoke at my first official Women of Faith event a few weeks ago (not an arena event, but the one where all the group leaders meet up…about 2500 women) and despite the fact that I was honest-to-goodness terrified out of my mind, I got through it. The women were so incredibly gracious, and even though I feel like I did kind of a choppy and unpolished job, I’m letting myself relax a little because I don’t think I will ever be super put-together on the platform and I’m trying to embrace that :) At least people feel like they can relate to me, right?? Anyway, it was great to be with the WOF team and to really see their vision for the events. I love, love, love what they do and I can tell you from behind the scenes, these are INCREDIBLE women who I really look up to and enjoy being with. I was expecting to love it, but it’s so much more than I had anticipated.

If you are going to be at one of the events that I’m speaking at, I would love to know! It may not be possible but I keep thinking it would be so cool to have a little breakfast or something where we could all meet and share coffee…feel free to shoot me an email and I will start putting together a little list just in case :) It would be so neat to put flesh on you all instead of just reading your words :)

And, because I genuinely think of this as a safe place where I can come and share my heart, I want to ask for your prayer. Those of you who have read this from the beginning know that all of this other stuff was never on the agenda for my life :) I sincerely feel that my choices are in line with God’s will for my life, and I have gotten much better at saying no when I need to, BUT…

It’s a lot! And as much as I love WOF and all the opportunities the Lord has given through Audrey, I remain a wife and mom first and foremost. I am going to be really transparent in the hopes that I won’t receive judgment for saying this, because in all honesty, I think more people need to share this kind of stuff. I have NOT done a perfect job of keeping my priorities in check. I struggle with being a people-pleaser and there have been times when I have let this affect my decisions, and in that, I have failed to put my husband and children first. That does not mean I don’t think I should be speaking or writing or any of that, but rather that I am trying to be a good steward of my highest calling above all else.

I guess as I started writing this I thought about the fact that sometimes we don’t want to admit we haven’t done a great job, or that we need help (for example, Kelsey comes twice a week for several hours to help around the house and let me go write when I need to. She can pinch hit with teaching, laundry, or whatever is pressing, and I am so grateful to have her help! I don’t do it alone!!!), but I think I would be doing you a disservice if I painted the picture that everything was simple and easy and I never felt like I had screwed up. Because I have, and I will continue to, but I am trusting that the Lord knows my heart and my deepest intentions, and that He will guide me as I go.

To that end, I am asking the Sundays to pray for me in this season. Please pray specifically that I will know what God’s will is for me, and that I will not overstep His grid for my life. Please pray for my marriage, my kids, and my own heart as I discern the ins and outs of my ministry. I know I don’t have to share any of this, and I’m not trying to justify myself or my decisions. Quite frankly, I feel that I need and desire the accountability and support of many of you who have walked with me. At the risk of it sounding like I haven’t figured it all out, let me say it this way.

I haven’t figured it all out.

:)

One of the ways the Lord has spoken to me is that if there is ever something I am invited to speak at, I am going to plan to bring one of my kids with me. I have talked to the girls about this being a “special date” with mommy, and Todd and I are saving miles to make it feasible. Right this second in my life I feel like God has said there are pretty serious boundaries as far as what makes sense for my family (as far as the amount of time I’m gone, which is pretty much never more than one night unless I have the fam with me). In fact, tomorrow night will be the first night I have ever slept in a hotel room by myself…:)

I did ask Ellie to come with me but she said she was really wanting to play with her cousins instead and could she possibly go next time instead? Sweet girl. Don’t tell her but I’m kind of sad about it.

Anyway, this is jumbled and ugly but I’m praying that the Lord will speak through it anyway, and that you will know how humbled (genuinely, profoundly humbled) I am to be able to share my story, but also that I want to do it in the way that honors God the most. That means I get smaller, not bigger. That means my marriage and family life thrive. That means I keep my focus where it needs to be and not where it doesn’t. It means I confess to you that I don’t always get it right, and ask that you join me in praying as I go.

I hope some of this makes sense, and if it doesn’t, just click on the link and look at all the cute pictures.

But don’t expect to see Kirk.

:)

All my love and gratitude,
Ang


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  • http://twitter.com/jordyliz Jordy

    I am a people pleaser, too, and I have the hardest time saying no for fear I’ll hurt someone’s feelings. Because I don’t say no, I get drained and my time with my husband gets drained. For us people pleasers it’s very bold of us when we do say no, so I’m proud that you’re learning how to do that. Sometimes we just need to take care of us and ours before we set out to conquer the rest of the world.

  • http://bethanylbishop.blogspot.com Bethany

    I will be praying. I don’t comment often, but I read every. single. post. Sometimes more than once, if that’s not creepy to say. :) I think your ministry and your humility are an amazing example of the scriptural city on a hill. I am so grateful for your words, your honesty and the boundaries you keep to honor your family. I so wish you were going to be near. I’d come have coffee. :)

  • http://pulse.yahoo.com/_WFDMY5L7FZP5HEVCRQLHPQP4PQ Laurie

    Great post Angie! We are looking forward to seeing you this weekend! Praying for you!

  • Becca

    You have prayed for me and my sweet Hannah, more than once. Please know that I will be praying for you and all that has been laid on your heart! You have been such a word giver to me throughout my greif process and I thank you more than you know…I did get to tell Todd to say thank you after one of his concerts, but I would love to meet you personally! Maybe one day…until then my prayers are with and for you:)

  • Sharon O

    I can’t imagine slipping and falling like that. HOW terrifying.
    When our son was under a month old we were walking out of our driveway and somehow my feet got all mixed together and I literally ROLLED down the driveway with my arms holding my little bundle of boy. I cried as I got up and unwrapped his little body from the blankets that held him and I saw he was peacefully asleep. God and His Angels protected us both. It was very scary.
    wow. the things us mom’s have to deal with at times are amazing.

  • Annagvisser

    I love your authenticity and honesty. I will be praying that God gives you clear direction and you’ll be able to please Him and only Him :)

    Oh and the link to the Facebook pictures doesn’t work… I think she has it set to private or something?

  • Lily

    I remember what Isobel Kuhn said about public speaking (I think it’s in “In the Arena.” I love that book!). I have adopted it. My goal in speaking is to point people to Jesus Christ and I pray that what I say really touches them and even changes their life, but not that they would remember “When Lily spoke it was amazing” but rather “I don’t remember who said this, but it was amazing.” God gets all the credit, since he deserves it all anyway.
    Praying for you! It’s a hard balance, and I don’t actually know anyone who’s got it right.

  • Sallie

    I was on the cruise. I didn’t get to meet Kirk either, but I did sit front row & center the morning that he did the devotion! I took pictures. I’m sure he wished I would stop… (email me and I’ll hook you up with my facebook page. haha)

    I barely contained the (recurring) urge to just bust up in the middle of your sweet family and say “I KNOW you!” Since hubby had already had a brush with ship security over some bottled water we tried to smuggle onboard (who knew that was a major offense!?), I figured I should not draw any more attention to myself.

    It was a blessing to share time with your family even though you didn’t know you were sharing time with me. :)

    I’m praying for you.
    Sincerely, Sunday Sallie

  • rjb

    I so had a “failure as a mommy” night last night – thanks for the encouragement!

  • Hladd

    Oh how I completely understand, relate and respect your thoughts and feelings. I think this is the struggle of most moms. Finding balance. Will pray for you!

  • Carissalayla

    praying for you now Angie and also breathing a sigh of relief that you don’ thave it all togehter as I don’t either!

    I often feel like I have to be both parents to my kids as my husband is not a Christian and suffers from some serious depression and anger issues, but through the grace of God we make it through, day by day.

  • Michelle

    I love your honesty. I love your heart for the Lord, your husband and your family. I absorb every post you write although I rarely comment. I so wish the tour included Texas this year – I would be there for donuts and coffee! ;) I will sincerely be praying for you! So glad you shared your heart and your requests with us. What an honor!

  • Trudi

    I was at the WOF Group Leaders conference – saw you walking in – well, first I saw Todd and I did say hi as I passed him, but I restrained myself and just kept going into dinner…and nearly squealed to the others “I just saw Todd and Angie coming in!” Okay, I don’t want to burst your bubble, but they don’t listen to the same radio station…and they all looked at me blankly and said “Who?” So I had to phone a friend back home in NY to squeal with, lol. Seriously, Angie, we loved you! We’re all normal people who’d be terrified to be pulled up onto that stage, too! I loved your comments about walking around – they do have it down to a science, don’t they…of course, they are used to a center stage and having to face each side in rotation. I can imagine you and Lisa will do a LOT of laughing as you practice! I wish you were coming to NY but I totally understand that your girls need you a lot more than we do…and that is the right thing to keep in mind. There will always be gifted speakers but your girls only have one Mom. BTW, loved the concert with Selah too…what fun! Who will ever forget “I’m crushing on Luci”?! It was a wonderful conference – maybe more fun that the regular conference, but don’t tell anyone, lol!

  • http://www.thejoyinthemiddle.blogspot.com stephaniejoy

    i do love how honest and open you are with us… you truly are transparent and i can see God is using you in amazing ways. and i know that He can use all of us in amazing ways. all we have to do is let go and jump right in! thanks for sharing with us. you know i’ll be praying for you!
    also… i’ve been looking for your email b/c i’m planning on coming to WOF in october in minneapolis. can’t wait to see you speak there! i would love to hook up for some kind of breakie or what have you. i’m not from the area, actually driving down 8 hours from canada, but if i can make it work, i’d love to be there with my BFF too. just let me know how i can get a hold of you. :) thanks!

    and c’mon!?!?! no pics of kirky?! what a shame! ha! just pull up an old BOP magazine shot. i bet he looks exactly the same. both him and kandace (oooh… DJ tanner!) do those people even age? ha ha!

  • http://theroadhomewv.blogspot.com/ Rebecca @ The Road Home

    I will be praying for you Angie. I haven’t followed your story from the start, as in ‘in real time’, but when I started reading blogs, yours was the first one I spent almost an entire night ‘catching up’ with. Your transparency and genuine heart are such a blessing to the world.

  • Mary Snyder

    Love you heart! I was on the cruise and saw you multiple times, but I didn’t want to intrude. (I work with Premier Christian Cruises) I did see the girls w/ Todd — they were dancing in the atrium and I gave them some big, gaudy rings. Precious girls.
    Keep looking to Him girl! He has all this figured out for you.

  • Scott

    My Prayers go out to you get your priorities in order. The great think is that you don’t have to please people, just GOD! And he knows your heart to serve.

    I’m sorry you didn’t get to meet Kirk Cameron he is such a great and amazing man. I am pretty sure he is the celebrity that wrote to EMHE about my family. I think you and Selah should be apart of our show if we get picked. We hope that it falls in line with his schedule too! Maybe you all could meet in Indiana.

  • http://www.candacemercyisnew.blogspot.com Candace

    You know, as I read your post I was totally agreeing with all you were saying. It is a LOT! And I don’t even write books or speak to groups. :) HA! I struggle with balanace a LOT, discerning what God is leading me to do and not do…I am drawn to missions and the homeless/needy in our area. It’s a constant struggle – as a wife, mom, homeschooler – to be home and content in that, learning to say no and YES when God wants me to. I will pray for you! Please pray for us too!!

  • Kl_elliott

    Angie,

    We ALL go through spells where our time doesn’t match our hearts as far as our priorities. I’m not trying to tell you it’s okay or make excuses, I just want you to realize that us moms that aren’t writing and speaking fall into the same traps, only it looks different. I spend too much time “checking my e-mail,” then we rush through Language Arts. I’m in one of those spells right now, so you’ve helped me to kick myself in gear. I can’t imagine how scary it would be to put yourself out there like that, but know it helps us, too!

    • Kl_elliott

      Uh, I don’t think “us moms” was grammatically correct. I used it in the same sentence I said I teach my children Language Arts. Shameful!

  • Nicole

    I just wanted to tell you that I recently finished your book and passed it on to my mom and then my grandmother was intrigued and she read it. We all found it to be beautifully written and with such candor. I wish I lived closer to Arkansas because it would be such a treat to hear you speak. Good Luck and you will be in my thoughts and prayers!!

  • http://www.facebook.com/people/Stephanie-Aldridge-Luttrell/1189485383 Stephanie Aldridge Luttrell

    Angie, I live in Northwest Arkansas, but am unable to come see you this Saturday because I have a funeral to attend. I am so disappointed. You may feel like you fail at times, but if you knew half of my short-comings and screw ups you would feel much better and would treat yourself to some really good chocolate. Just know that you have touched my life.

  • Anne Smith

    Angie, thank you for being so honest! I felt like I could have written this post myself! (Well, the priorities and jugging part, not the cruise and speaking and Kirk Cameron part. You get the idea.) A big group of mom friends and I are planning to be at WOF in Atlanta because of you! We would LOVE to meet you and cannot wait to hear you in person – unpolished, relatable and all. :) Praying for you and your family in this season and always! Will email you to hopefully get on a list and share a plate full of delicious Southern carbs with you. :)

  • Rita

    Would love to see new pictures of your children; however, I am not on facebook.

    I love your blog and read it often. Really inspirational.

  • Karen Deborah

    Angie this ministered to me more than I can express. My life is a shadow of what it once was. Just today I was thinking about writing what I am going through even if no one reads it. Maybe if I spill it on my blog I won’t feel so hopeless. I have been a Christian for many years but the trial I am in is rocking my world. I never thought that I could experience such a cataclysmic trial of faith. I don’t even have the words. I appreciate your taking the risk. I know how you feel about being judged. If I share how I really feel I am judged very harshly by other “Christians.” We can sure be among a bunch of white washed tombs.

  • http://ohpicklesmommy.blogspot.com caroline

    I get to see you on two days and I am so excited! Praying for you. You are a great mom, wife and most importantly you are dedicated follower of Christ.

  • Anonymous

    Oh Angie, I think you spoke right to my heart. So many times I feel bogged down by all the things I want to do, but I realize they are not all opportunities that God has set out for me. Sometimes, I just need to say no. I also realize that I probably wouldn’t have seen it this way if I hadn’t lost Harrison, his life constantly teaches me about the power the Lord has. Thanks Angie for the post, now if you would only change your WOF line-up to include Omaha!

  • Ann Marie

    Hugs for being real…not having it all figured out…and allowing God to guide you. :) Hoping to see you in Milwaukee in fall.

  • Kelly

    Ok, I haven’t even read the whole post yet, but I jumped RIGHT DOWN TO COMMENTS to tell you that I am coming to Atlanta in August to see you at W.O.F!!!! I am so excited I cannot tell you. My very near and dear friend that I’ve never met lives in Atlanta (an hour outside of) and I get to meet her AND see you!! In fact, I searched to see what cities you were speaking in and when I saw Atlanta I sent Heather and email and told her I was coming!! :) We are both really excited. After all, I have to meet the woman who I share such an adoration of Little House with! hee hee I would dearly love to meet up with you for coffee or something, OH. My. WORD. that would be the end-all, be all! Seriously. You can email me if there’s any chance we could meet for real (if I don’t pass out…lol). cmcjmommy4@hotmail.com

    Love, Kelly

  • Amanda

    Angie,

    I am at a very similar place as I step back and take a look at my priorities. My husband is in full-time ministry, and with that come a lot of expectations of me and schedule craziness for our family. On top of that, I have recently been appointed Director of Women’s Ministries at our church. I am really struggling with my roles in ministry, because all I really want to do is be a wife and mom. But that doesn’t seem to be “enough” for everyone else. I am such a people-pleaser and I am really having a hard time trying to figure out what God wants me to do versus what people want me to do. Thank you for your honesty and for sharing your heart!

    I will be praying for you!

    Amanda

  • http://therodriguez4.blogspot.com Nicole

    I will be praying you thru this season. You are such an ispiration and I was hoping to meet you at WOF in Shreveport, LA, but it’s been canceled :( WHAH!!!! I was so bummed when I found out. Then Kelly posted that you are speaking at her church on Saturday and I thought – Oh, I can make the 7.5 hour drive from Texas to be there! But then I remembered that I have a husband and 3 kids…hmmmm… I hope and pray another opportunity arrises for me to hear you speak and possibly meet you. My friends might say I’m a bit of a stalker… :) It’s comforting to know that someone else speaks my words thru the loss of a baby. You speak them to the core. One more thing, can you please pray for this sweet couple who had to bury their 4 month old daughter, Maddie, yesterday? Here is their blog: http://kandjstaats.blogspot.com Their daughter was healthy and perfect, but stopped breathing while at her babysitter’s house last Thursday. They are in horrible pain and need prayers to lift them up.

  • http://www.itsgrace.com Erin @ It’s Grace

    I’ll definitely be there if you make it to Spokane. I’m trying to make it to the .mom event this fall -it sounds like a great conference with a panel of amazing speakers. I’m really excited to hear you speak again and Vicki Courtney, too.

    Your transparency here is so refreshing. I’m in a similar boat (not with speaking and travel) with balancing everything. It’s hard, but thank goodness we have the Holy Spirit and plenty of caffeine to get us through each day. You’ve got way more on your plate than I do..I have 2 kids and they are at school all day. I have about 30 hours to myself during the week and recently managed to forget to wash my son’s underwear and sent him to school in Cars swimming trunks under his jeans. So, just wanted to say we all have our moments :)

    Love your ministry and all that you’re doing..

    Erin @ It’s Grace

  • Nicklisa28

    Wish I could hug you…I’m not sure if I think you need it or if I just need it after reading this. Balance…it’s a tough gig. Praying for you. And, might I ask, WHAT is wrong with Kirk Cameron for not meeting you? Boy is kicking himself today, I’m sure.

  • Stephanie

    Angie, I am a missionary wife with five young kids (ages 10 and under) and more than once I’ve found myself thinking, “I wish I was ‘just’ a mom …” because so often I feel guilty about the whole priority struggle. On the one hand I truly believe my husband and kids are my first priority but on the other, people are financially and prayerfully supporting us to do the work here and I feel the burden to do my part. So, you are not alone! God bless you as you seek His wisdom for your own family. Thank you for sharing so transparently.

  • Anne Marie

    I haven’t commented in awhile, but I read your blog (and follow you on twitter)-so now you are thinking *stalker* :) -and I just love your honesty in the post. As a working mom (K teacher) of two girls…striking a balance is so hard for me. Sometimes I feel like I have more time and patience for the 20 children in my classroom than my own children. Felt very convicted about that around Christmas and have made a conscious effort to change it for my girls. Thank you for words and you definitely have my prayers. I am so excited about seeing you at WOF in ATL in AUG. :)

    Totally changing gears, I met Kirk Cameron 7.5 years ago when I was about 4 months preggo with my first daughter at a prayer breakfast in our town. I was terrified to meet him since he was my first love. :) My friend and I were last in line and he was so nice, asked her a few questions, then he turned to me, and the first words out of my mouth were “I’m pregnant!” He was pretty much speechless. Soooo, needless to say, no one has let me live that one down yet. ha!

  • Tiabennett70

    I will be at the Ohio event in April. I would love to see you!

  • Liz

    “the hardest part of the grief journey right now-just the unexpected times when something occurs to you or a memory comes back and you just weren’t mentally prepared to cope.” Thank you for giving me words.

    I don’t feel like I could call myself a “Sundays” because well I’m not one of your original readers…but I love posts like this because I am on bended knee pleading for myself but for someone else. This is a great privilege for me. Thank you for keeping it real. Grateful, Liz

  • Connie L Amato-Mahle

    Sweetest Angie,

    Wow! I love this post, dear girl! What you believe was jumbled and ugly in this post spoke millions to me. This is what I admire most about you!

    We all share these same struggles of trying to manage and maintain these myriads of (insert personal overachieving goals here) – and also worry about pleasing others in the meantime. It’s exhausting and infeasible to please everyone. I’m guilty in that department!

    Thank you for your brutal honesty. I believe that admitting our shortcomings is designed to humble us. And it takes even greater faith, trust and courage to be able to do so w/so many people. Thank you so much for that because you do it so gracefully!

    You have a charming, worldly and sweet soul! : ) You speak on our behalf – those of us who fail to speak the necessary words that voice the hurt we’ve experienced.

    My prayers are w/you, dear friend, as you tread these challenging waters! Godspeed!!

    In love and friendship,
    Connie Amato-Mahle
    Clarion, PA

  • Lizreeves2

    Beautiful girl, I’ve never had blinders on & thought you were ‘perfect’, but have always felt like you were REAL. And being transparent is something I am super extremely passionate about. In the Church, we have to be who we are if we are to ever draw other people to Jesus. It’s when we try to put up walls & be something we’re not that people get turned off. (In fact, I blogged about that very thing last year….check it out: http://liz-ourblessedfamily.blogspot.com/2010/02/walls.html) Anyway, please don’t feel like you have to fill some sort of mold for us Sundays. Just be YOU. And follow His leading on how you prioritize. We’ll be here when you post and in between posts, we’re praying for you!

  • jenny

    Dear Angie,

    Thank you for being honest in your grieving process. I was a bit saddened that even after three years you have little episodes/triggers that make you feel so overcome with grief. But I know this is all part of grieving and mourning. I am now at 3 1/2 months from when I lost my precious little boy and just realizing the long road ahead of me.

  • Sheila

    I love that you’re so real and authentic, that you write about your successes but also about the things that don’t go so well. God is using you through this blog, there are many things that you have written that I still think about. Several times I have gone back to read about your broken pitcher, and I even bought a white pitcher (but haven’t broken it yet). It’s in my living room and when I look at it, I think of you and your story. Thank you for sharing with us!

  • Sallie

    Did you make the session that Shaunti Feldhahn did? It sounds like all of us need to go read her new book!

  • http://lidandthekids.blogspot.com Lydia

    I just have to say that I have been reading your blog since your pregnancy with Audrey and I love how real and authentic you are. I will be praying for you during this season.
    My mom and sisters are going to a women’s retreat in Ohio where you are speaking and I am so very sad that I won’t get to come with them and meet you. Can we move Texas closer to Ohio please? I lent my mom your book via the Nook so she could be up-to-date on your story and she’s very excited about hearing you speak, as are my sisters. I know it will be a great weekend!

  • Cfsnuggs

    hello angie! I am currently doing the Contagious Joy study by Women of Faith…i really like the outline of the studies…I wish you were coming closer to the birmingham, al area…maybe i can come to atlanta! i can relate to your cruise moment…i lost my audrey at 27 weeks…my husband and i went on a cruise about 3months after…i was not able to really enjoy myself on the cruise..and i’m sure that is how i will feel if i ever go on one again…i feel that what i have been through has really given me the compassion to help others who are experiencing grief…i am actually going to meet someone for the first time this weekend who recently lost a baby…thanks for sharing your true feelings…i know it can be very hard to vulnerable

  • Kaitlynldrew

    Hi Sweet Angie! Will definitely be praying for you, your family and your marriage. A while back I had commented and asked you if you knew of any good marriage devotionals… well I’m happy to say that my husband and I found one! It’s “Night Light” by Dr. James Dobson and his wife. (http://www.amazon.com/Night-Light-Devotional-James-Dobson/dp/1414320604/ref=sr_1_6?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1298602423&sr=1-6) . We love this because it’s about a five minute commitment every night but is so meaningful and sweet, a perfect way to end a long stressful day.

    I think my best friend and I will try to come to the WOF Conference in Connecticut in October(?)… would love to meet you.

    Thanks for being honest with us “Sunday’s”! We’re here for you!

    Love in the Lord,
    Kaite

  • http://twitter.com/InspiredRD Alysa Bajenaru, RD

    Thank you as always for sharing your heart. I will be praying for you as I strive to maintain the right priorities in my life too.

  • Allie

    I absolutely LOVE your honesty and transparency. Thank you for sharing your needs as well as your successes…and know that you are being prayed for, sister!

  • http://rcspcss8.blogspot.com Reese

    Angie, for what it’s worth, I am sorry nobody helped you up when you fell [on the first cruise.]

    I will continue praying for you, and your’s. As I get older, I am realizing there is a fine line to EVERYTHING and life is all about balancing that line. So? I pray balance, for you.

    xo

  • Flamingo Mama

    you are waaayy to hard on yourself girl. i heard you speak at relevant and you were awesome! i still remember some of the truths you spoke and have shared them with others. i don’t remember if i claimed it to be my own wisdom or not…lol

    i can’t imagine how hard the discernment must be sometimes. i love your honesty with that.

    you have encouraged me tonight through your transparency. i don’t juggle anything well and i don’t speak, write, travel or homeschool. speaking of which, i would love to hear more about your journey with that. i have 4 kids and we are thinking of starting to HS our oldest next year. we are thinkiing Classical Conversations.

    Why am I telling you this? Oh yea…because I don’t balance anything well.

    will pray for you tonight.

  • http://gitzengirl.blogspot.com gitzengirl

    i think the simple fact that you are looking, questioning and taking stock in your priorities means that you’re on the right track, friend. i am so happy for you that you get to tell your story and say Audrey’s name to so many people that will help carry her in the world with you. I’m absolutely praying for you and will continue. [and am hoping Charlotte continues keep her laid back self to balance out Miss Sarah Kate for you] :)

  • Lisa

    You have my prayers, always! Am SO excited to report I will be going to see you in Des Moines Iowa in May!!

  • Carmen

    Your honesty and transparency are such a gift, Angie! Keeping you and your family in my prayers. Trying to maintain a balance in life is not easy, and we only ever get close by His grace. Love and hugs :)

  • http://julesmpg.blogspot.com Julesmpg

    There’s those six degrees of separation again. I can never get away from it. That story about nobody helping you up really hurts, I cannot imagine the feeling that was, no wonder you felt sick. I am always praying for you.

  • http://sufficientgrace-kelly.blogspot.com Kelly_SufficientGrace

    Angie…as I was reading your words, and reading your heart…which is what I always feel like I’m doing when I read your blog, there is so much I want to say to offer encouragement and love. But, it has been a difficult day, and I’m feeling a little poured out.

    Just want you to know…I understand that sick feeling in your stomach…the grief moments that wash over you out of no where and bring you to your knees. I understand. And, I understand God calling you to the places you never thought you would be…places you didn’t ask for. I know that He will equip you. You will never step on to that stage alone. The places I have stepped are not so big, for sure…but He meets me there each time He asks me to step up. I am often spiritually attacked and battered as I take the step, but everytime, He is faithful to meet me there…to speak His words through me. I am imperfect…and priorities are my own personal nemesis…mainly because I fail so often in that area. But, He is always faithful to meet me there. His grace is sufficient. His mercy, new every morning.

    I am so looking forward to meeting you in Columbus at Women of Faith, as are the ladies attending with the Sufficient Grace group. We will be glad to meet you in whatever way works…and would be over the moon if it could work to share breakfast or something. Whatever you are able to do. Just let me know what works.

    In the mean time, know that as I lay awake with a heavy heart, praying during the “night watches”, I am praying for you, dear friend. And, we will keep lifting you in prayer. He will meet you there. He will. He has already gone before you.

  • http://holycamp09.wordpress.com/ Deborah Boutwell

    This Sunday is praying for you. I could relate to so many things that you mentioned. I’ve been honored to speak at a few events and it always scared me to death. But the most honored and scary one was last month, when I spoke at my mother’s funeral. If you go to my website, there is a link to Scribd where I have the notes from what I said….and it lines up with where you are. I spoke about how my mother lived such a godly life and it was because of her priorities. She always put God first and His will for her life…even over husband and family. I’m on that journey of grief now and living in the house of mourning. You continue to inspire me.

  • http://www.seeasliceofourlife.blogspot.com andrea

    Praying for you Angie. Praying that you would continue to hear God’s whispers clearest of all and that you would confidently walk in His ways. A Scripture the Lord has brought to me as I struggle to battle forces which pull me the priorities He has ordained for me is this: “Teach us to number our days aright that we may gain a heart of wisdom.” Psalm 90:12 I’ll pray it for you too. :)

  • http://www.myangelwithgod.blogspot.com/ Ourangelabove

    I admire your honest SO much…I struggled with pulling away from my family after my daughter died, and have now learned that we ARE A TEAM. I now want to share my story and allow God to use what I have been through, but ONLY if it glorifys him and my family stays number one. I think this is the desire of so many women and yet we all feel as though we fall short. I will pray for you and Gods will in your life as I know you pray for all the women who read your story. THank you for what you are allowing God to do!

  • Runningtogether4

    Thank you for your honesty. It’s so hard to balance mom, wife, homeschooling, house, ministry etc. And it is so refreshing to hear someone putting their husband and family first. As much as we love you and all you do, what makes you so inspirational is your commitment to God and to them!

  • Anonymous

    This is what I love about you! Your honesty! And also, your obedience to God to remind other women that we are not alone, that we can’t do it all. Thanks for sharing! PS I was so glad to meet you at All Access-your family is adorable, and your girls are a hoot! Even though we won’t get to see or hear you in Dallas this year, I am hoping that our paths cross again soon! And yes, I am praying for you :)

  • Jessica S.

    You’re always in my prayers Angie! What an example you are to me!
    Can’t wait to see you and hear your story live this weekend! =)

  • Carolyn

    Thank you for your honesty, Angie! It is truly refreshing. Praying for you!

  • http://www.mvbhchronicles.blogspot.com/ Val

    you are so sweet. love you girl.

  • Kidneymomma

    You are so sweet! I know I have never met you in person to say but I love reading about your families adventures and your writing. I pray God will show you some balance in your life and give you direction. You will know just what to do!

  • Becki R.

    Girlfriend, I was not going to attend WOF this year (In Des Moines, Iowa btw) until I saw the schedule and realized YOU were going to be here. That weekend (May 13-15) is my oldest’s high school graduation weekend. It’s a huge time for me in my life…..letting go of my arrows go and seeing my quiver be one less full, but I WANT TO SEE YOU SPEAK!!! You have such an amazing way with words and a heart of pure gold. What a treat to hear your words on what promises to be a very happy (and sad!) weekend for me! If you pull together anything for a get together in Des Moines, COUNT ME IN. Just please don’t plan it for Sunday between noon and 4 p.m. Her graduation ceremony is the only thing that will keep me from hearing you speak and meeting you! Hee hee. :0)

    PRAYING FOR GOD’S WISDOM AND PEACE IN YOUR LIFE. Putting your heart out here in this post just speaks volumes of what God is doing in and around your life. One foot in front of the other…..HE is with you. HUGS from Des Moines, Iowa!!!

  • Kim

    Will be praying for you in this season! We do not want the enemy (you know who) spreading you too thin so you are feeling ineffective and worse making you ineffective for the kingdom. Don’t worry, you got us Sundays praying! Your heart and priorities sound right on. Keep up with the hunt of 1000 things. I sure have learned it gives me time and joy! All is grace! (thanks for doing this life changing book!!). I’ll let you know if this Vermonter can make the Hartford WOF!!! : )

  • http://www.watchmefuze.blogspot.com/ Sonya Schroeder

    Angie I would be glad to pray for you and your family. Its a honor that you have asked us to join you in this journey! I am also blessed that you shared with us that you struggle with messing up. I do believe we all do that, it means we are growing with God because we can see when we have too much going on that takes us away from our most highest calling, being a wife/ mom! The Lord will guide you and keep you on track to glorify Him. You are amazing and have so much to share with us all. I live in NC and Atlanta is only 6 hours away, I am gonna start praying now about this event. Meeting you would be a true blessing! Hugs to you girl!! xoxo Sonya

  • Amy Starnes

    Angie – I will definitely be praying for you through this season of your life….as a wife, mother, teacher, friend, speaker, author, and MUCH more! God has been and will continue to use you mightily for to further His Kingdom! PRAISE GOD!
    I will be at the Columbus WOF and I want you to know that I will be fervently praying for you as you are up there speaking. I am SOOOO looking forward to seeing you and hearing your heart for each woman there. I am bringing two of my girlfriends and we picked Columbus because it was closest to us and YOU were going to be there :) We will still be traveling 6 hours to get there :) We are so excited. I will keep you in my prayers as we get closer to the end of April event and you will be covered in prayer in Columbus! Blessings!
    -Amy Starnes

  • Celeste

    Oh sweet sister you have it so right! Your heart is open to serve HIM, you desire to keep your marriage and your beautiful family first. With an open and honest heart to share the fears disappear, and the prayers flow over you. The body of Christ gets to love on you and pray Gods best for you.
    May He blanket you physically with His Presence in a very tangible way today.

  • Sheilarather

    Angie let me first say that I LOVE your blog. I have been reading it since the begining and can`t even tell you what it has brough tme through and done for me. Thank you so much for letting God work through you in this way! Ok, I can TOTALLY relate to the time and kid thing. It is so hard to figure out what you know God wants you to be doing as a ministry and not taking that to the extreme (way beyong what God had in mind) and the time spent with your children. I started nursing school in January. IT takes a ton of time. Thru so many different things I know that nursig is right where God wants me to be but my children are my most important ministry. It is so hard to balance that though. thank you so much for your transparency! It is always nice to know that we are not alone in this:)

  • Katie

    Thankful for your honesty and willingness to be vulnerable.
    Praying your hotel room will be so filled with our Father’s presence that you can feel Him.
    May this be a weekend where your alone time fills your heart and refreshes you.
    K. T.

  • D_s_clark

    My daughter and two of our friends are driving form Sherman, Tx to hear you speak tomorrow. We are staying at the Doubletree Hilton so if you get too lonely by yourself, you can join us!!! Look forward to meeting you andhaving God bless us through you.
    Debra

  • Heidi

    I am driving from Oklahoma to come see you in Arkansas. I am so excited!!!!

  • http://www.facebook.com/people/Elaine-R-Pool/502395385 Elaine R. Pool

    Ummmmm, I’m confused here, Angie. You’ve (rightly) put God & your family first & you’re worried that we’ll JUDGE you? Sweet child of God, you’re doing it right – go forth and speak your truth!
    And I just learned by reading your comments that you won’t be coming to Shreveport, LA – my hometown. Sad day! I was SO ready to be your BFF!

  • Charity

    Will definitely be praying for you and your family and I know the Lord will see and understand the desires of your heart and will lead you! God Bless!

  • Akelly3

    AHhh I’m soo excited you will be coming to Rochester, NY!! Hope I get to meet you in person since your honest, always encouraging posts makes you feel like a friend :)

  • Mary

    Angie first let me tell you are sooooo amazing , your words are always so encouraging I love read blogs and sometimes I feel bad with myself because their life are so perfect , then I realize they omit the important stuff and that is so wrong.Youre always been and amazing godly woman truth example of what life should be lived. Keep the good work and God bless you always.

  • Linda

    Honoring the commitment you’ve made Angie and appreciating your sweet spirit. I will be praying for you – for wisdom, discernment and for peace in this wonderful journey the Father is taking you on.

  • http://www.momofeleven.blogspot.com MomofEleven

    Angie,
    It was so fun to finally meet you in person. . I was touched so much by listening to the group sing and you were the icing on the cake. Well, really seeing little Charlotte was. I remember praying for you those 3 years ago. . wow has it been that long? We loved the cruise too. . I hope to one day post my pictures too, heh, not my strong suit either. Oh well. I hope to check in more often and WILL be at the WOF in Atlanta in August.

  • Kelli

    Angie
    thank you for posting this! I needed it! As a Mom of 2 little girls, I can tell you I feel pulled CONSTANTLY. Am I doing what God wants me to do with my girls? Am I teaching them what they need through our homeschool journey? Am I fostering my relationship with my husband. I appreciate you sharing with us just how NORMAL you are. I need to realize that you do not run around in a prefectly clean, organized, & Decorated house , Homeschooling 4 girls, and having plenty of time for wriitng, cleaning, laundry, & Todd. THANK YOU!

    Kelli
    Franklinton, LA

  • praying sistah

    What a wonderful, transparent prayer request … I hear your heart.

  • Amy Parks

    Angie, you are an amazing woman. I LOVE your willingness to be transparent. It helps me realize that other christian women also struggle. I don’t usually comment on your posts but I do read every single one of them and they minister to me in ways you would never imagine. Sometimes I feel a little bit like a “stalker”. Oh, I will be at the Columbus Ohio WOF conference and would love to meet with you and the other readers for coffee or something. Add me to the “list”. Praying for you and your family.

  • Kelly

    Please know you are in my prayers….thank you for serving Him.

  • Mike

    Angie,

    My wife is an active follower of your blog, and from time to time will read me a paragraph here and a snippet there. This morning I thought would be the same and that she would read me something that would put a quick smile on my face or prompt me to say a quick prayer before heading to bed having just come home from working all night. Today was different. Today she read about your cruise, speaking for WOF, and…about NOT meeting Kirk Cameron. I started a ministry called Feed Your Faith in Knoxville, TN about 4 years ago to bring Christian events to our town. Now, 4 years later, I am beginning our third year of bringing FYF’s Love Worth Fighting For marriage event featuring KIRK CAMERON to cities all over the country. We are changing thousands of marriages for the glory of Jesus while donating the proceeds to charity. http://Www.feedyourfaith.org. I would love to invite you to be our guest at one of the LWFF events, and maybe we can get you that picture of Kirk! ;-)

    Would love to hear back from you.

    For the Kingdom

    Mike Williams
    Feed Your Faith
    Mike@feedyourfaith.org

  • http://www.mommieswithhope.com Teske

    This spoke straight to my heart in more ways than I can recount…this month is the year anniversary of our “news” of our daughter’s diagnosis. Chloe was born and died in May, 2006. I too am balancing family and ministry, having just received a contract to write a book for women who’ve experienced loss! God is so good. Still, my family needs me. I will be at Women of Faith in Des Moines – I will email you, as you suggested. I actually have at least 15 women who are coming as a part of a ministry I do…Mommies with Hope. I know one of our “mommies” has already emailed you, but I will too! :) Bless you, Angie. Thanks for your transparency…I will certainly lift you up to our Savior!

  • Heather Porter

    Really enjoyed hearing you speak in Bentonville this morning! Thank you for sharing such an amazing testimony!

  • Kristen

    I just discovered your blog and I love it. You are so inspiring! I love how God leads your life. I got the Stylish Blogger Award on my blog (I’m new to all this) and I passed it onto you. Thank you so much for sharing your story.
    Kristen

  • Anonymous

    I LOVE YOU and will be PRAYING for you, friend!!!! :) I am honored to be able to do that for you. I know you do the same and it’s such a BLESSING to have you in my life!!

    Can’t wait to see you … even though it’s not until October…I’m still totally counting down the days!!! :) :) :)

    XOXO

  • Anonymous

    Another angel joined Audrey in Heaven.

    A woman named Kellie follows your blog. I am guessing you don’t know her story. On Feb. 17th she was teaching kindergarten when she got the worst call of her life. Her 4 month old baby died in the care of the babysitter. Kellie is a wonderful woman who needs our help! If you could see her blog and feel inspired, it would be amazing if you could do a post about the auction they are doing on this coming Monday, the 28th. They are trying to raise enough money to (in the future) have another child and be able to stay at home with them full-time. Kellie and James didn’t deserve what happened to them. Could you please help out a wonderful family in need by posting the link to the auction on your site? Thank you.

    http://kandjstaats.blogspot.com/

    The auction site:
    http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=44960&id=186874161353204

  • Kara Starr

    thanks for sharing angie…and it all made sense :) i’ll be praying for you.
    -kara

  • Beth

    just wanted to let you know the link to her facebook to see the pictures doesn’t work. she has the album set to “friends only” so it’s private…only those that are friends with her can view the pictures.

  • Lindseybarkel

    I’m a Sunday and I’ll pray for balance in your life!! I, too, am having a VERY busy season in my life where I struggle to keep the husband and children first… and God above them. It can be so hard. So while I”m praying for myself to prioritize according to God’s will, I will also pray for you and your (AMAZING) ministry! Thanks for hanging in there even when it’s tough. I pray that GOd continues to do awesome things through your life and that you’ll also enjoy your family along the way :) (And that you’ll complete your 2nd book soon because I can’t wait to read it!)

  • Amy

    Dear Angie,

    I’ve been reading your blog for years and I rarely comment. But I want to give you some encouragement today. First, I want to say that I know Jesus is so proud of you and your love for Him. You are an awesome woman of God. Second, I want to pass a long some words of wisdom that a mentor (who has since passed away) said to me many years ago. When my children were small, I was a member of a very large church and involved in a great deal of ministry work. I was overwhelmed by all the responsibilities on my plate. And I was in the same place you are at now, feeling like I was making some mistakes. I will never forget what she said to me. She told me to remember that the most important ministry I will ever have will be the ministry in my home to my children and husband. The moment she said those words, something lifted off of me. I had been a major people-pleasing person for all of my adult life up until that point. Within days, I resigned from some of my work at church. Now, my oldest is 21 years old and I have a teenager at home. Because of the words of my mentor, I was able to find balance in all of the work outside of my home. I am so grateful for that. Angie, don’t be hard on yourself. You are a wonderful mother and wife. I know Jesus will guide you and bring the perfect balance to your life. Thank you for sharing your heart so openly. I look forward to hearing more beautiful stories from you!

    A Sister in Christ,
    Amy

  • http://morningstarr.typepad.com/ Dina

    I LOVE your transparency. The internet can be a bit of a Christian social club where it looks as though the most talented or spiritual women are elevated into ministry. And yet, I am left wondering if ministry takes the precedent over family and maybe if some of us haven’t turned a higher ministry into something of an idol. Thank you so much for allowing us to hear the questions of your heart and for the privilege of standing in prayer with you.

  • Amy N.

    This is the last request I ever thought I would be making, and the last I ever want to make, but could you all please add sweet Maddie James to your prayer list? She and her family are in the midst of a horrific journey. http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/madeleinejames. http://www.maddiejamesfoundation.org.

  • bri

    Praying for you Angie. You are so sweet, transparent, and gifted. Being who you are, and sharing that with us, is such an inspiration and joy. Really enjoying the Bloom book club videos too! love and prayers.

  • MelissaG

    I am actually not familiar with WOF but I see you will be in Milwaukee WI (just a very short drive from my house) and if you do end up planning something I would love to meet up. I am going to look into what WOF is all about.

  • Kristinstegent

    Thanks for sharing all your thoughts! :)

    I think it is so good that you want to put your family first, and are taking one of the girls with you when you speak. My heart is never to put ministry before my husband and kids as well. I agree that it’s hard, and I fail at times, but I do pray that God will give me much grace and strength in this area. I pray He does for you as well! :)

    Would love to hear you at a WOF conference. Are there really none in TX this year? :)

  • Shayne

    Angie,

    I’m requesting prayer for a precious woman of God who just lost her child. They laid precious Branson to rest yesterday…there were many issues in the womb and she was delivered at 37 weeks. I don’t know all the details. The woman’s name is Johnna and she started a blog about her journey at http://www.johnnajobullard.blogspot.com

    Thanks for your prayers.
    Shayne

  • http://www.vibrant-designs.net Julie

    Funny how things work ;) but this past Sunday (er, yesterday) my husband taught a Sunday School lesson on how to know God’s Will in your life. Were you and I best friends, and having coffee at River Road…well, I would have hot chocolate….you can have whatever you want…I would tell you to do what is best for your family hands down. It’s nothing new to tell you that God established marriage and the family first. I started a very small sewing business recently and it takes a lot of my time up!! Our goal is that I won’t have to work outside the home. It’s difficult trying to balance my kids, my home, and a small business. So, I’ll end with sayin that I’ll be praying for both of us…to know when to back off and to know when to press forward!! I enjoy your blog…thanks for taking the time to write it!

    Julie
    http://www.vibrant-desings.net

  • Manujadon

    I’m new on this blog. I appreciate hard work. Bottom line is “Epic”.

  • Montu

    If you have time so please visit my blog.
    http://halffry.blogspot.com

  • Phoebe

    Me and my friends, Michele and Heidi, will be at the WOF Conference in Atlanta! Would love to meet you. As a mom who had a miscarriage last year and my friend Heidi who lost her baby 4 days before her scheduled induction just last month, we have your book, it’s highlighted, and it’s recommended. Have been looking forward to this conference for a long time!

  • Momma Mango

    Praying for you and your family, Angie. None of us have it all figured out, so true… I love your heart for God & for people, but you’re absolutely right to remember / strive to put your family before other ministries. (That said, I must admit I am really looking forward to your next book. I’m positive it will be well worth the wait!)
    Thanks for being you! :)

    Susan

  • Latisha VanderZon

    The more that I read your blog, the more that I know we are “kindred spirits” (from Anne of Green Gables – another red-head!) I often wish that I had known about your blog from the beginning, but I was a couple of years ahead of you right at that time, and was expecting my “Charlotte” after losing a baby. (My Olivia was born 5 days before Audrey.) I already had enough fear during that pregnancy that I probably could not have handled reading your story at that time.

    The other day my husband told me that if things don’t change in our finacial situation soon, we will have to make a major move – somewhere that he will be compensated more appropriately for his job (it is a local thing – cost of living here excedes compensation). Tennesee was one of the places he mentioned and, while I am not keen on moving away from here (who wants to leave a BEACH in the middle of the country?) the first thing I thought was that I would get to meet YOU!
    Like you, I am a red-head who loves music and writing. Inspired by you, I just started a blog called Confessions of a Martha. Although I am not in the middle of that difficult place in my life (it has been about five years now ) I may write about it sometime. I just enjoy writing about how God shows up in everyday life in a family with a lot of children. I hope that I can be a little bit of an encouragement to people just as you always are to me.
    I hope that someday I will get to meet you. Just from reading what you have writen over the past few years, I feel like I have always known you.
    I am delighted to see what God is doing in your life and how He is using your life for His glory. I have no doubt that he will guide your steps and help you to make the right choices regarding your time.

  • Whitney Goulding

    Angie, I’m only 25 years old, not a mom yet, and I’ve never lost a child, but I really do feel a connection to you. I, too, am a people pleaser and a perfectionist and I just choke up when I have to speak in church! I love the Lord and I love you because you do too. AND some girlfriends and I are planning to attend the WOF conference in Atlanta in August. We live in NC but we are going to the Atlanta one because YOU will be there! We are so looking forward to hearing you speak and I would love the chance to meet you! I’d love to be on that list of friends for coffee and would love a chance just to hug your neck and pray together for a minute. Praying for you and your family! Much love in Christ, Whitney

  • Kim

    Angie
    I would love to meet you when you come to CT. Your words have been salve for my broken heart on many occasions. I don’t usually comment because I am always too emotional after reading, but if I can compose myself long enough, I don’t always go to WOF because of finances and time, but I told my husband the day I read you were joining them that I was going this year!!
    God speaks through you in ways you cannot imagine. Thank you.

  • http://bilslandfamily.blogspot.com/ Lily B.

    I had to admit the same thing to myself last year when I was trying to be a full-time mom, wife, student, and business-owner. I was being neglectful and God really worked on my heart about it… I stopped school for awhile, and have never been happier… I am still busy, but at least I am balancing things in a healthier way. :)

    I am going to try to get tickets for the WOF event in Atlanta for me and my sis-n-law, I would love to hear you speak… even if you aren’t “perfectly polished” ;)

    Praying for you, Angie!

  • Michelle

    Angie-
    I am new to your blog and i too love your transparency. Too many people try to act as though they have it all together and it is so refreshing to read your words and know that i am not the only mom out there who doesn’t have it all together, and thank God for that!

    I was one of the 2200 Women at the All Access event that you spoke at in Nashville and i will be bringing ladies to Tampa’s Imagine conference in October and i am so looking forward to hearing you speak again. You did a great job and i applaud your transparency in sharing your amazing story. My friend lost one of her twins in May.. he was stillborn and the other carried 3 weeks after, and i was with her throughout a lot of it and even now she is still dealing with some major heartache. I bought your book and when the time is right i will give it to her so that she can find peace in your story. Thank you Angie for sharing something so personal and for helping so many others who are dealing with situations like these. I will keep you and your family in my prayers, and i look forward to hearing you speak again.
    Michelle

  • Danielle H

    Angie, I adore your blog but rarely comment. So I suppose I am a lurker! My son would be turning 3 tomorrow. Soon after we lost him I started a grief group in my home and have such an amazing support system. Well, one of those friends and I will be going to WOF in Des Moines. And I can honestly day that YOU are the reason. You have been such an inspiration for us both – well for our entire group really! We would be so thrilled to meet you!!! And we would love to have you sign our copies of your book! So if there is any way that we can meet you, however briefly, we would feel so blessed!!

  • http://www.rustyandericka.com Ericka Jackson

    Thanks for sharing all this – jumbled or not! Just two nights ago my mentor told me, “The power of God rests on vulnerability”. I think that is SO true!!! And yet I often find myself struggling whenever I have to write a “vulnerable” post. The funny thing is, the more I DON’T want to post something (or think it’s too vulnerable) the more God uses it in other’s lives (and sometimes to bring encouragement, breakthrough, etc in my own!)

  • Kimmie

    I’ll be at WOF in Columbus 4-29 and 4-30. Its so exciting to go to an event like this, but hard at the same time. Hard to be away from my family for two nights. Hard to do something for myself. Its just hard to juggle and feel like you’re always putting them first. Sometimes you have to put yourself first to be the best Mommy you can be FOR them. But its still hard :)

  • Andrea

    Angie,
    It was so good to meet you on the cruise (Daniel’s mom) and to hear Selah sing…I can honestly say it was one of the main reasons we went…and to be pro-active for our marriage. I understand how hard it is to find that balance & I thank you for being willing to share your struggles and your victories with us. I’m updating my “Songs of Hope” CD to include: I Will Carry You, Unredeemed, and Broken Road (and I’m trying to find Cry Out to Jesus by Third Day, b/c that song can speak to so many). I’m missing my boy and understand that even though God blesses us with our other children and with new life (the one growing inside of me right now), there is a loss there that can only be filled with the love of Jesus, but sadly (esp at 3 in the morning), sometimes that doesn’t always help the pain…it’s just something we have to go through…no quick fix…we just endure…
    I will be praying for your upcoming speaking engagements, those with Women of Faith and those that God is going to bless you with in the future…and everyone who will be blessed by hearing your story. God will give you the words…he has many works that he has already prepared in advance for you to do (Eph 2:10)… you just have to be the willing vessel…to be poured out and used by our Creator.
    Keep pressing on…
    Blessings,
    Andrea
    oodrea1221@hotmail

  • Suzi Bullock

    Hey Angie,
    I was at the All Access event in Nashville and just posted pics on my blog. There are a couple cute pics of you and your girls if you wanna go peek! :)
    http://www.edgeoftheplanetadventures.blogspot.com
    Suzi