Laundry

OK, so let’s kick it off with some winners!!!!!

Mandy M, you have won yourself a copy of Beth Moore’s “So Long Insecurity!!!” I have your email so I’m going to send it there as well in case you don’t see it. Just reply and let me know where I can send it!

As far as Sarah Mae’s book, the winner is Michelle! (6/6/11 at 3:34 P.M) I have your email too and will connect you with Sarah Mae to claim your prize.

And now to some thoughts that regard both insecurity and, well, housekeeping.

***

I’m sitting here enjoying the sound of the dryer tossing laundry around (Todd does most of the laundry. Seriously.), and thinking about how I’m staying home today to get some work done while he goes to volunteer at Crosspoint’s version of VBS. He was adorable when he got home the other day and was like, “It was so fun I decided to stay instead of just dropping them off! And look! I got a t-shirt!” Precious. What a man he is!!!

There are so many days that I find myself biting his head off for not remembering where his cell phone is or forgetting me telling him something, and I just hate that I do that. And I do it a lot.

Without going into much detail, the past few days have been pretty challenging. I was honored to be a part of a very difficult deposition for a friend of mine on Wednesday, and because of the nature of the case I can’t say much more than that it brought back memories of Audrey and it’s going to be a long, hard road for her. I’m so glad I could be there, but it made both of us face the reality that no matter what happens, it won’t change the fact that we don’t have our children with us. This world cannot make up for that loss.

I feel like satan has opened every single major wound of my life in the last few days, through bizarre circumstances that are too “coincidental” to be anything less than an attack. Instead of identifying it for what it is, I have made excuses and tried to just press on, but the truth is that there is a different sense of warfare around me. I believe that when we as believers lift up our brothers and sisters, we change things. Please, Sundays, pray for me and any others that are dealing with something similar.

All we have to do is turn on the news and see that life is changing and the enemy is ever-present. Instead of filing through life without identifying what is happening, let’s make a commitment to asking the Lord to bless others (and ourselves) with the peace that only He can give.

I was praying here in my little blue chair before I started writing and I was noticing how quiet it was. I would have been tempted to say there was nothing moving, nothing happening, just me alone in the house. Me, sad and frustrated with nobody to talk to.

And then that silly dryer caught my attention and I realized it had been there all the while. I had tuned it out.

Constant.

Moving.

Tumbling life to turn it out, fresh and beautiful.

If you are reading these words, know that I am praying for you as I type. That even in the moment where it feels like you have been left in silence, you will close your eyes, steady yourself, and remember that He is in this place. There is a rhythm to it-this life He has blessed you with. It feels up, down, all around and half-soaked, but He isn’t going to leave you where you are.

I’m pretty sure He threw that one annoying sneaker in just so I would concentrate a little more on what was drying :)

So, in a roundabout, not-so-pretty, I wrote this post in 15 minutes based on what the Lord was teaching me kind of way, I hope you still yourself enough to pay attention to what He is doing today.

Todd-thank you, love of my life…for starting the laundry that always reminds me exactly Who is at work in me.

If you all want to join in on a great conversation about putting on the attributes of Christ, join us over at Bloom (in)courage…you have plenty of time to catch up and some of the emails we have gotten about Kelly Minter’s book have reminded us why we ever dreamed up this book club in the first place…what a blessing to be in a community of believers.

How can we pray for you today? What’s bouncing around in your dryer?

With love,

Ang

 


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  • Grady O’Neil

    I am a 22-year-old young woman going through a lot of serious and important life changes at the moment.  I’m a bit shy about discussing things in public (online or otherwise) but if you could pray for me as I go through these transitions, it would be a real blessing to me.

    I said a prayer of “Thank you” to God for you writing this post.  It came (as these things often do) exactly when I needed it.

    • http://www.audreycaroline.blogspot.com angelac519

      praying for you right now…

  • Kr

    Kids sick –1 yr old and three year old. I’m sick and husband weary. Realized I wasn’t asking God’s help because relatively speaking we are ok—we aren’t suffering cholera in Haiti. That thought process just minimizes God and keeps me lonely in the trial. Seeking God for balance of day and letting His BIGness cover it all–Haiti included.

  • http://kennedytapestry.blogspot.com auctioneerist

    Thank you for the perfect words today Angie. … Please pray for our dear friend Wendy whose courageous husband Emmett lost his fight with cancer and went to be with Jesus early this morning.  She and her little boy Quinn, along with all of his family and friends, miss him so much right now.  http://teamemmett.com/uncategorized/broken/ He brought glory to God every day of his life and we praise Jesus for the legacy he leaves with us all.

    • http://www.audreycaroline.blogspot.com angelac519

      oh my goodness. so terribly, terribly sad. praying right now…

  • http://itwasbroughtonbylove.blogspot.com Southern Gal

    Funny, but my dryer is running while I read this.  I wrote a post earlier and saved it to drafts – too scared to actually post it.   Much tumbling around in my mind and heart today.  I can’t put my finger on exactly what it is, but am listening for direction.  Thank you for this, Angie.

  • Anonymous

    I am there.  God led my hubby to apply for Med School this year, for us to ‘downsize’ the investment in our cars (sell ours for older, cheaper models and stash the cash left over), and put our house up for sale.  We were excited to see what God was doing.  Excited to get out of our house debt and see what God would do with the money we were gathering from selling so much stuff.  Excited about pursuing a field where we could have such a ministry and such opportunity to live a life centered on missions and giving.  And then God closed the door on med school and our house is just sitting on the market.  We are left confused.  We have peace that it was Him that asked us to pursue those things, and now we both know that He is still asking us to walk forward in faith, but we no longer feel like we know which direction we are headed.  Everything is up in the air: our house, hubby’s job, further school, more kids (adoption?), missions, even little details like homeschool curriculum for next year.  It is very exciting to be in a place where you know God can really work, but it is so challenging to be where everything is so clearly out of our control and we can’t see what God is doing.  We are praying that He guide our steps.  We don’t care where He takes us, we just want to be in His will.  Not saying it wouldn’t be nice if He would let us in on the plans ahead of time though. :o )  God clearly just likes to surprise us.  He’s fun that way.

    • http://www.audreycaroline.blogspot.com angelac519

      praying now…

  • Whufnagle

    Angie, I just have to tell you  – you are my Beth Moore! If it were geographically possible, I would “stalk” you – in a Christ-like way of course – just as you speak of “stalking” Beth Moore.  I thank God on a regular basis for blessing you with your gift of being able to express what you do, the way you do. And now, I thank you for allowing God to use you and your life the way you have. You bless me each and every time I read your words.
    Wanda

    • http://www.audreycaroline.blogspot.com angelac519

      wow…just thank you :) and feel free to come stalk me anytime…you don’t sound like a serial killer at all!!! :)

  • http://hillmantrio.blogspot.com Karlynkay

    Angie thank you so much for your honesty. 

    I’m sure with all you’ve been through with Audrey you’ve heard it ALL from:  it’s God’s Will, he’s strengthening you, etc. etc.  and all of that may be true but what I believe to be most true is that when you grow closer and closer to God Satan attacks.  I’m sorry you’re feeling hurt and being reminded of past pains but I pray you can feel peace because you are striving to be closer to God.  The beauty of it is you sit in peace while the turmoil is all around and others look at your responses and say…”why is she not falling apart”…your answer I’m sure is “Christ is the glue” :)

    Blessings Blessing Blessings to you and your family today!

    And we are LOVING the book club!  I’m in a small group of gals that are reading together and we have been so touched already!  Y’all need to just hop on down to Arkansas and hang out with us:)

    • http://www.audreycaroline.blogspot.com angelac519

      thank you so much for these sweet words :) i think i need some more glue today…:)
      angie

  • http://3dlessons4life.wordpress.com/ Lyli

    Our washer broke this week, and then my husband’s computer went postal.  Seriously, I can relate to your post on so many levels — sometimes, life just hits you right in the gut.  So thankful that our Father is bigger than the pile of laundry we have to sift through.  Praying for you!!!

  • Tobhischild

    Dear Angie,
       You and everyone who commented here lifted me up once again..thank you.  Girl, you are such a blessing and encouragement.
      Hugs..

  • Mrssid

    Words fail to express how well this speaks to what I have been experiencing in my corner of the world this week, so I will simply say thank you, Angie Smith, for being such a willing vessel. Thank you for being open, honest, and vulnerable. Your faithfulness to Jesus is changing lives all around the world. May you experience His richest blessings today and always!

  • Aly J

    WOW Angie! I tell ya, the past two weeks have been awful for me. I have prayed and prayed about it, tried so hard to be positive but I have felt so alone. My husband and I want so desperately to sell our home but as everyone knows the housing market STINKS, especially in our area. We found out we owe more on our house than what it is worth which means we’ll never be able to sell. It has had the both of us in such a funk (for lack of a better word). I know satan is causing these feelings but I also know this is reality, this really is the mess we are in. The problem is, I want something done about it NOW yet I know God is in control and it is left in his hands, his timing. I just want to scream though because I still feel hopeless. This house has control over me. I can’t break free from it.
    I will most certainly lift you in my prayers and I would greatly appreciate you lifting me up in yours as well.

  • SearcherGirl

    Oh. My. Word. Girl. Sometimes you just take my breath away…

  • whoivealwaysbeen

    My wounds are open too. I know the enemy is after me. It would be so much easier to give in – at least I would know what to expect. I don’t really feel alone, but that doesn’t keep me from feeling afraid. My precious Mother was always my reminder to hold on to Him – she was right there in our house. Since she passed in March, I’ve been stumbling around trying for find other reminders and the courage to hold on. I realize that in my grief I must look like easy prey to the enemy, but I don’t want to give him the satisfaction. I’m sorry, Angie, that he is opening your wounds. I am glad, though,  that we both have the Gentle Comforter. I will pray for a hedge around you.

  • sara

    My wounds are not open – they are raw.  I can FULLY understand how you’re feeling with memories of Audrey being brought back, and the reality that we don’t have our children with us.  February 2010 we lost our little girl - she was stillborn at 39 weeks due to Triploidy.  Two weeks ago (yesterday) we lost a little boy at 16 weeks…there was a knot in the cord.  Grief upon Grief.   Sometimes I really wonder when enough is enough…my plate is full Lord…I can’t take anymore.   I fully agree with your response to someone below…I NEED more “glue”. 

    • Kim

      My heart hurts for you, Sara. Praying!

    • http://www.audreycaroline.blogspot.com angelac519

      im so, so sorry sara. im praying for you and asking the Lord to bring you peace that defies what you are going through…thank you so much for sharing…

    • Robin

      I was washing up the supper dishes tonight and praying that God would comfort and pour out His grace in your life Sara!

    • Tobhischild

      Sara, I am so very sorry.  Praying for you and your family..

    • Christine

      I wish you could meet my friend Sara.  She gave birth to a baby girl in December 2010 at 38 weeks(stillborn) no warning.  4 to 5 weeks later, after going to the ER with pains in her abdomen, she was diagnosed with stage 4 colon cancer on her 33rd birthday.  Her story is one of raw pain and faith.  Her caringbridge site is http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/sarawalker .  I will pray for you tonight.  My heart feels heavy for you even though I don’t know you.

    • christine

      This was a verse in my Jesus Calling book for today and I thought of you and wanted to share.  If you don’t have this book, I highly recommend getting it.  It has been so healing for me and has helped me to really seek Jesus throughout the day.
      Psalm 130A song for pilgrims ascending to Jerusalem.       1 From the depths of despair, O Lord,
            I call for your help.
          2 Hear my cry, O Lord.
            Pay attention to my prayer.    3 Lord, if you kept a record of our sins,
            who, O Lord, could ever survive?
          4 But you offer forgiveness,
            that we might learn to fear you.    5 I am counting on the Lord;
            yes, I am counting on him.
            I have put my hope in his word.
          6 I long for the Lord
            more than sentries long for the dawn,
            yes, more than sentries long for the dawn.    7 O Israel, hope in the Lord;      for with the Lord there is unfailing love.      His redemption overflows.    8 He himself will redeem Israel      from every kind of sin.

  • http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=1064291667 Dara Hope Gates

    God is so GOOD!  His provision has been awesome lately.  It makes me ashamed to admit I was SO. WORRIED!  Please pray for continued peace, provision and direction.

  • Celine

    Thank you once again Angie for writing just what I needed to read today. I eagerly anticipate receiving the e-mail of your posted content and it’s the first e-mail I scan for in my inbox. I will be praying for you.

  • Jean M

    Your post is just what I needed to read today.  Thank you!  I am searching for a new job after 23+ years at the same company (one I started during college days).  I know God has a good plan and has just the right place.  Please pray that I find a place where I can make a great contribution, and also keep my family in balance (a priority to me!)…..Thanks!!

  • Juliebellig

    Angie, thank you for this post. I wanted to share how Gods been working in my life this week. I committed myself to be seeking the Lord every single morning (yes 7 days a week) at 5:30 am. I am now waking up with a skip in my step anxious to meet Him. He has been faithful. The first day He removed the SHAME Ive been slugging around on my back of my poor decisions before making Him my Lord and Savior. (using Ephesians 2:1-3). The second day He addressed using my words to build up my husband instead of criticizing (Ephesians 4:29) and to explain why we don’t allow potty talk to our kids :-) anyway the list goes on. I’ve been waiting on the Lord to find me, comfort me. Yet now He is waiting for me yearning to change my life. I am eternally grateful!!!! So I pray for you today Angie that you will continue to seek Him and He will hold you tenderly in His arms. You are loved!!!!!!

    Julie :)

  • JenAjd

    PRAYER REQUEST..please!  A bit over a week ago I had developed some pretty significan lower back pain and ended up having emergancy surgery.  I’m in the recovery process now but covet prayer for the surgeon to release me (this should happen in another week) to return to my “normal” activities along with being able to travel.  We had had plans to travel to our home-state at the end of the month and there are several (what we view) as important family events there that could be cancelled but we don’t really want to do that if we don’t have to.
    Thank you so much!!!

  • Laura

    Thank you for this, Angie!  I emailed you a few weeks back telling you
    about my daughter.  She was born when I was 23 weeks pregnant and lived
    for 6 hours (April 7th…) – since then I have started at the beginning
    of your blog (I jumped around with it a few weeks before my daughter was
    born as I read Audrey’s story), and I am learning so much from you and
    it’s been amazing to have this to read as I’m struggling with my loss.  I
    would be doing ok for about a week and then the next week I’d just hit
    this wall and every day would be so painful again, like I was right back
    in the week that this all happened – I’d go to your blog and look in
    the May/June month of 2008 to see how you were dealing with it and if
    you’d have the same struggles…if it would ever feel better.  Anyway,
    this blog has been amazing if not for just having someone else to relate
    to but for strengthening my faith as well.  I wanted to comment on one
    of your recent posts about the criticism you received for your $12.99
    post, but I never sat down to do it – I just have to say that I LOVE
    those posts!  I know it’s hard receiving the criticism…as someone who
    is greatly involved in the blogging/facebook world, I’ve had some hard
    moments myself where someone takes something I said the wrong way, and
    it just KILLS.  I go into this phase for a couple hours where I consider
    everything from crying in my bed all day to deleting all my internet
    accounts, etc.  And I have probably 1/1000th of the viewers you do!  But
    I just want you to know, that those are the posts that I personally
    love on your blog.  The real, day-to-day things where God teaches you an
    amazing lesson that challenges us.  It cracked me up, and I am so
    grateful for your sense of humor in your writing (which I must say
    reminds me much of my own ;) ), and for taking the time to share these
    “real” posts with us – those are the ones I crave!

    So THIS post in particular has been another one that really hits home as
    I realize life will never be the same again – years will go by, and
    I’ll still miss my daughter and I’ll still cry for her.  But God is
    always there and we can always find comfort in His loving and open arms.

    Totally random, but if you (or anyone else reading) have never heard the
    song “You Wouldn’t Cry for Me Today” by Mandisa – check it out! 
    Actually, my suggestion would be to search for it on youtube and watch
    the video of it (the one with the most views which would be the first one that will come up), as that will give you such powerful images
    to watch through the song.  My friend shared this with me the other day
    and it’s amazing…You might already know about it but if there are
    others reading this that haven’t heard of it, hopefully they will find
    hope from it as well!

    Laura

    • Laura

      Oh and I also will share the blog I opened for my daughter (I have another one I keep for family/friends but that one isn’t public)

      http://www.laylafaith.com

  • Stephanie Blanchard1

    We are in the final days of our homestudy to adopt again!  Baby will be our #5 (our 2nd adoption) and we are desperately paperchasing a sweetie in the US with special needs.  Adoption always brings out spiritual warfare…  God sets the lonely into families and I know satan especially doesn’t want these children set in Christian families. 

  • Hannah

    This has been a year of letting go of things and focusing on God for my husband and myself.  We have dealt with a large pay cut, the birth of our precious daughter, the turmoil of the REALLY terrible two’s with our son, and the realization that the majority, if not all, of our friends have moved on without us.  We are relatively new to our church, and my husband has become very involved in the music program, which is great.  However, I have not yet connected with many people, and we have not found our “group” in this rather large church.  We are both very quiet people and socializing doesn’t come very naturally to us.  I am really struggling with loneliness right now and would just like to have a real friend to talk to sometimes.  

    • Melissa

      Hannah,
      I will pray for you, we are in a similar situation with a hard last year/year and a half.  We are searching for a new church home (for me my first church home).  I am not very social and totally understand your last sentence.

  • Brandi

    this past week, my hubby and i started the processing of adopting.  i have never been so anxious, excited, nervous or wanted to throw up in all my life.  i keep thinking we are at the begining of this journey, what state am i am going to be in when it time for the homestudy or when we are approved or when we are matched.  i do know that all i have ever wanted in to be a mommy and i know i will be one someday. i’m trying to have faith, but right now i am scared!  prayers please!
     

  • Champaign

    A decision to move to a new city to be around family is bouncing around and making me crazy-all the “what ifs”, why now, why not now, why at all, is it best for kids, how do we know it’s what God has planned?   I don’t believe it is of the Lord to be consumed by the tumbling and to feel such unrest with it all.  But, how do we decide?  Lord, let me be still and listen..how do we HEAR Him though?  It seems I can’t at all in this decision, or maybe it’s the 4 kids running around ;)   Thanks, Angie…this blog has led me to seek Him. Though there is always more work to be done!

    • danielle

      I could have written this exact post…you’re not alone!

    • Melissa

      I wonder the same exact thing, how do I hear him? 

  • Sharon

    Angie I so needed to hear those words tonight. That when I feel like all is silent in my world, that the Lord is not there, with me…He IS. I don’t feel that a lot right now as I struggle and go through many dark and hard days. Thank you for reminding me of that. I needed to hear it and you are such  blessing to me.

    In His Love, Sharon :)

  • NA

    Angie- I’ve followed your blog almost since it started. So often I feel inferior (that  insecurity) when I hear about all that you do and are involved in. Even, dare I say it, jealous! You seem like super woman on paper :) However, it is posts like these that keep me coming back. I follow all the Smith family blogs…. love them all! I was so honored when your mom-in-law made me friends on FB.  I would like to be invited to the next Smith family gathering , please! :)

    For the dear women who posted about adoption…. it will happen! I’ve worked in adoption for seven years and consistently see God at work in every family’s journey.

    Prayers needed for guidance and provision in a sudden job change for me. Prayers that I would surrender the desires of my heart….Where are the hot, godly men hiding?? Unceasing prayers for a family situation that has ripped our hearts out… causing us to question God on every level and leaving us with no words ….just groans.

    Going to read the post again right now and cover you in prayer.

  • Handsfull

    I’m praying for you from the other side of the world, so if you’re feeling like you need more glue at night-time, I’ll be doing a bit of prayer-cover then!  Love your heart, Angie.

  • Tistikins

    16 months of being unemployed…single mom…my precious baby girl (who is 6 so not much of a “baby” anymore) is with her Daddy for the week and I’m missing her.

    The fight that I fight? That I’m not GOOD ENOUGH for a job. That people don’t want me. That I’m not smart enough, tenacious enough…worth it.How can you pray for me tonight? I would appreciate prayers for a job. Something where I can use my God given talents to help. A job that will make me realize that I *am* worth it.

  • Sarayager

    That post was for me. Thank you for sharing!

  • Scott

    Thank you for that!  Much needed during this non-ending valley.

  • http://rebuildingabrokenheart.blogspot.com/ Nika M.

    It feels like my dryer has been overloaded and caught itself on fire….

  • Pipsersmom

    I am due in 5 weeks with a VERY long-awaited baby. We have also been given the opportunity to most likely adopt our 5 month old foster child. We want to make the right decisions! Prayer that God would guide our steps! It’s so true…make a plan, and God laughs! ;)

    • Karrie

      My first thought was, “What fun!” We have twins and also girls who were born 15 months apart. I realize neither is exactly your situation, but I believe the following applies. A man told me, “Imagine someone loving your child more than you love them. That’s what it will be like with those two.” I am praying for you right now that you will make the right decision, and have peace about it. Enjoy the ride!

  • Kellyk1991

    Beautiful!!!!
    I can totally relate.

  • Rubberbacon

    Well I have a lump in my right breast that’s getting taken out in 2 weeks.  I keep telling myself it’s not a big deal, just a minor procedure but having to schedule my entire life around it is making me a little crazy.  I could use some peace!  I love the dryer illustration, thank so much for sharing Angie!!

  • Elaine Pool

    Satan knows all of our individual buttons, and just when/where to push them!  For us, it’s always been finances.  Today, at about 2:30, I opened a letter from my job’s payroll dept. telling me I was being garnished for 2/3 of my paycheck.  As it turns out, the IRS had gotten paid in full 6 weeks ago, but my office was just getting around to filing the paperwork.  The blessing in this?  The IRS office didn’t close until 4:30, which gave us time to get the release paper from them, AND get them to fax it to payroll.  It’s no coincidence that this happened this late on a Friday afternoon.  I thank God for His watching over us!

  • Elaine Pool

    Satan knows all of our individual buttons, and just when/where to push them!  For us, it’s always been finances.  Today, at about 2:30, I opened a letter from my job’s payroll dept. telling me I was being garnished for 2/3 of my paycheck.  As it turns out, the IRS had gotten paid in full 6 weeks ago, but my office was just getting around to filing the paperwork.  The blessing in this?  The IRS office didn’t close until 4:30, which gave us time to get the release paper from them, AND get them to fax it to payroll.  It’s no coincidence that this happened this late on a Friday afternoon.  I thank God for His watching over us!

  • Lynn Worley

    Saying extra prayers for you right now! I’ve learned that grief is such a roller coaster ride, but in a different way life is, too.
    Lamentations 3:22-26: It is of the LORD’S mercies that we are not consumed, because his compassions fail not. They are new every morning: great is thy faithfulness. The LORD is my portion, saith my soul; therefore will I hope in him.
    The LORD is good unto them that wait for him, to the soul that seeketh him. It is good that a man should both hope and quietly wait for the salvation of the LORD.
    Prayer Bears
    My email address

  • http://chrystal-lewis.blogspot.com Chrystal@Chrystal’s Corner

    This is just what I needed to read today. Thank you. I really do love the dryer analogy. I literally was that woman sitting their sad and frustrated with nobody to talk to just last night…but I DID have someone to talk to. How easy it is to forget that our Heavenly Father is right there waiting to scoop us up, brush us off, or walk beside us when the road gets rough.

  • http://chrystal-lewis.blogspot.com Chrystal@Chrystal’s Corner

    This is just what I needed to read today. Thank you. I really do love the dryer analogy. I literally was that woman sitting their sad and frustrated with nobody to talk to just last night…but I DID have someone to talk to. How easy it is to forget that our Heavenly Father is right there waiting to scoop us up, brush us off, or walk beside us when the road gets rough.

  • jordon_04

    My husband is deployed, and I woke up not happy about it this morning. So, I sat on the couch all day. Thank you for reminding me that I need to turn the TV off, and talk to Him.

    I saw you at WOF in Des Moines, and since then I’ve read all your blog posts here (I still need to catch up on (in)courage). I have been so very blessed by them!

  • Unterbrink1999

    I’m praying for you Angie. I needed to read this today. When y Mom passed away from breast cancer a few years ago I was introduced to severe anxiety. I never feared anything in my life and all of a sudden everything was there in my face and the fear made me feel like I couldn’t breathe. I avoided pills or anything else and every morning I woke up and thanked God for his healing. Over and over I quoted, “For God has not given me a spirit of fear but of power and love and of a sound mind. ” I slowly became at peace with my mind. 3 weeks ago it came back full force. I have been praying and praying. I know that God has something amazing planned for me. I just need to be patient through this trial. Satan does not have a hold on me and I need prayer to feel peace in my spirit once again. Please pray that this passes as quickly as it came on and I can enjoy a beautiful summer with my 3 kiddos! Thank you for this writing. I needed it!

  • linda

    Thank you for opening your heart & allowing Him to use you to bless others. Because you do. I need these words so much this morning. It has been a stressful, drama filled weekend for me. (Not my drama – but the kind where people seek you out & try to bring you into theirs because they are miserable and want you to be too. sigh) All of this as I move my oldest (20)  into her first apartment & send my youngest (17) on a mission trip to San Antonio & try not to think about the fact that I will be moving him to college in 2 months. I love the noise & chaos my children have brought to my life and am dreading being left in silence.  I know that He has a plan for these coming days of my life & I am trying to be open to where He is leading me – but the mommy in me is wishing for more time.  Praying for and with you during these days of spiritual warfare.

    And the God of all grace, who called you to His eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will Himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast.

  • Lynn Worley

    Lifting up prayers!
    Isaiah 26:3-4 Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on thee: because he trusteth in thee. Trust ye in the LORD for ever: for in the LORD JEHOVAH is everlasting strength.
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  • Anonymous

    Well I’m a little late on posting a prayer, but I hope this still goes through. I’m now a little over 2 months out from my husband confessing to a 5 month affair with our bestfriends (our bestfriends are our parents age) daughter. I have been extremely consumed with anger and depression, to the point of thoughts of suicide flashing in my mind at times. We just buried our youngest son 3 and 1/2 years ago when he was stillborn at 33 and 1/2 wks. Tragedies have hit hard and heavy these past few years and my shoulders feel like they are breaking (or should I say felt). I’ve been so blessed to have been absolutely covered in prayers, love, encouragement, and support by our church family thru all these trials. God has been revealing alot to me about Him and His promises, and alot about myself these past weeks. I chose to fight for my marriage, a marriage that God created. This has been beyond difficult as satan knows exactly what thoughts and images to throw at me to keep me rattled, depressed, and unable to move. Not anymore. I’ve prayed for God to release me from the chains of unforgiveness and the grip of fear. Please pray for us as this is a daily battle and a daily choice to keep trusting my Father to do His job (and not me try to do it for Him). My daily prayer (from a Beth Moore program I watched)…”Yet she did not waver through unbelief regarding the promise of God, but was strengthened in her faith, and gave glory to God. Being fully persuaded that God had the power to do what He had promised.” Romans 4:20,21

    Stephanie Boutwell

    • http://myangelwithgod.blogspot.com/ Amy von Oven

      I just wanted to say that I admire your strength and faith that it appears you so deeply have. Praying for God to guide you and always be by your side… Amy

  • Aprilcstarkey

    dearest angie, sister in Christ. I just finished your book. After just buring our precious baby girl Annabelle last week, it was much needed…so much of what you wrote and felt is what I am going through and so i thank you for letting God use you to write that book. love, april

  • http://myangelwithgod.blogspot.com/ Amy von Oven

    Praying for you and this time. I love how God can use something like laundry to pull us back into HIM…He is always there even through the silence!

  • http://holycamp09.wordpress.com/ Deborah Boutwell

    Your words always seem to touch right where I am at.  I haven’t bookmarked your new web address (until today) so I haven’t been getting the feed sent to my google reader…maybe God didn’t want me to get it because He knew I needed to read this today.  (My husband also does the laundry, don’t you love them for that!).  Your post reminded me of a post I wrote recently about being alone and then letting Heb. 13:5 really sink into my marrow.  I’ve been in that lonely place and I needed to be reminded that I was never truly alone.  Thank you for sharing your 15 minutes with us.

    http://holycamp09.wordpress.com/2011/05/26/the-unseen-hand-of-god/

  • Jes Womack

    Angie,
    It’s so strange. You have been on my mind so much these past few days, and I kept thinking I was crazy.I’ve been listening to the Selah hymns CD, and you and Nichol have both just been on my heart SO much!I confess, I don’t really read your blog much anymore. I got a smart phone, gave up blogging, and now rarely read anyone else’s.But tonight, as I sat here at my desktop, I felt a tugging…a pressing from the Holy Spirit to read your blog.I’m so glad I did! Now I know that those prayers for both of you, those movings from the Lord upon my heart, have been a real leading from Him.I will pray more, and now I’m thankful to know how to pray specifically.Please tell Todd and Nichol (am I spelling that right?) that their music fills my heart to overflowing! I love to listen to it as I’m getting ready for leading Bible study, and as I prepare my heart before church.For me, I’d cherish prayers for a big decision that my husband and I just made…one that was tough, and left us emotionally drained.Also for the many women who are studying Esther with me through a Precept class…please pray that they won’t be discouraged or let the enemy’s lies convince them that they’re stupid. We’re all seeing so much in this study that we didn’t even know was in the Bible, and the evil one is using that to beat these ladies up. Please pray that they’ll press on and keep going deeper.Much love to you,Jesica in Chattanooga

  • Lynn Worley

    Lifting up prayers to the Only One who can answer!
    Psalms 4:7-8  Thou hast put gladness in my heart, more than in the time that their corn and their wine increased. I will both lay me down in peace, and sleep: for thou, LORD, only makest me dwell in safety.
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