I’ve been staring at a blinking cursor for a good long while now and I think the best thing to do is just start.
The thing is, I’ve been dreading this post for about a year and a half.
Don’t get worried-it’s nothing terrible or shocking-just your run-of-the-mill panic.
It’s always this way when I have to make a big announcement and I feel like lots of eyes turn my way, but this one is different. Every book I’ve written has been borne of struggle and crafted from the deepest part of me, but again, this one is just different.
Because it was, without question, the hardest work I’ve ever done. And I hope, the best. I don’t necessarily mean that the writing is perfect (it’s not) or that you’ve never read anything like it before (you likely have), but I will say that from the very beginning of the process I knew that God was working.
I labored with the Lord through some of the darkest hours of my faith, and I learned how to face questions I have long held silent in public for fear of being misunderstood.
I wrote through hot tears and fresh revelation, anxiously turning in a manuscript that nobody had even read portions of yet. It felt risky and vulnerable, and in a way, sad.
It was sacred to me, and I knew every twist in the road He had walked with me while I wrote. I remember the moment it began to stir in me, months before a word was written.
I sat in front of a computer with an assignment and the Lord told me I was in no position to complete it.
He was right.
And one day, out of pure desperation, I basically told Him I had no idea how to be a follower of Christ. I realized how much of my walk was focused on looking like other Christians instead of Christ.
What is this supposed to look like? Am I doing it wrong?
And He brought me words that would spill into more words, and eventually, He brought me peace I hadn’t understood before writing. No matter how much I try, I can never convey the impact of one phrase that haunted me from the beginning- a phrase that shaped the book that healed me.
Stop chasing Me.
And I was-I can see that now. Chasing when I should have been following, always feeling like He was out of reach and up ahead somewhere. I was as honest as I could be about my struggles with faith, and I opened a door I wanted to slam shut because the bigger part of me just wanted to know I wasn’t alone in my experience.
My kind, supportive publishing company has always believed in me as a writer and has been more generous than I can say in every way throughout the years. And one afternoon, over chips and salsa, my editor got to surprise me with news that they had decided to make it a hardback book-my first.
I cried because they got the message of the book, and that they thought other people might get it as well.
My prayer (my solemn, heartfelt, voice-quivering prayer) is that it will speak life into you as well.
There will be more talk about it in the coming months (It releases on January 1), but B&H has agreed to do something pretty remarkable over the next 2 weeks, and that’s why I’m putting this note up today. I hope you’ll take advantage of it!!!
If you pre-order “Chasing God” in that time period, you will receive a free (physical, not digital!) copy of either “I Will Carry You” or “What Women Fear.” You just choose which one you want and it will be shipped to you directly in time for you to give away as a Christmas gift or whatever you’d like 🙂
Seriously. No catch.
Click HERE to fill out your info once you’ve preordered. And, if you’re having any trouble with that form, you can email your receipt and info to firstname.lastname@example.org
Thank you for allowing me the privilege of this space to share my heart-and know that not a second of it is taken for granted. It’s been quite a journey this past year or so, and what has sustained me is the thought that it might be a beacon for y’all.
I pray it is:)