Chasing God

I’ve been staring at a blinking cursor for a good long while now and I think the best thing to do is just start.

The thing is, I’ve been dreading this post for about a year and a half.

Don’t get worried-it’s nothing terrible or shocking-just your run-of-the-mill panic.

It’s always this way when I have to make a big announcement and I feel like lots of eyes turn my way, but this one is different. Every book I’ve written has been borne of struggle and crafted from the deepest part of me, but again, this one is just different.

Because it was, without question, the hardest work I’ve ever done. And I hope, the best. I don’t necessarily mean that the writing is perfect (it’s not) or that you’ve never read anything like it before (you likely have), but I will say that from the very beginning of the process I knew that God was working.

I labored with the Lord through some of the darkest hours of my faith, and I learned how to face questions I have long held silent in public for fear of being misunderstood.

I wrote through hot tears and fresh revelation, anxiously turning in a manuscript that nobody had even read portions of yet. It felt risky and vulnerable, and in a way, sad.

It was sacred to me, and I knew every twist in the road He had walked with me while I wrote. I remember the moment it began to stir in me, months before a word was written.

I sat in front of a computer with an assignment and the Lord told me I was in no position to complete it.

He was right.

And one day, out of pure desperation, I basically told Him I had no idea how to be a follower of Christ. I realized how much of my walk was focused on looking like other Christians instead of Christ.

 What is this supposed to look like? Am I doing it wrong?

And He brought me words that would spill into more words, and eventually, He brought me peace I hadn’t understood before writing. No matter how much I try, I can never convey the impact of one phrase that haunted me from the beginning- a phrase that shaped the book that healed me.

Stop chasing Me.

And I was-I can see that now. Chasing when I should have been following, always feeling like He was out of reach and up ahead somewhere. I was as honest as I could be about my struggles with faith, and I opened a door I wanted to slam shut because the bigger part of me just wanted to know I wasn’t alone in my experience.

My kind, supportive publishing company has always believed in me as a writer and has been more generous than I can say in every way throughout the years. And one afternoon, over chips and salsa, my editor got to surprise me with news that they had decided to make it a hardback book-my first.

 

 

I cried because they got the message of the book, and that they thought other people might get it as well.

My prayer (my solemn, heartfelt, voice-quivering prayer) is that it will speak life into you as well.

There will be more talk about it in the coming months (It releases on January 1), but B&H has agreed to do something pretty remarkable over the next 2 weeks, and that’s why I’m putting this note up today. I hope you’ll take advantage of it!!!

If you pre-order “Chasing God” in that time period, you will receive a free (physical, not digital!) copy of either “I Will Carry You” or “What Women Fear.” You just choose which one you want and it will be shipped to you directly in time for you to give away as a Christmas gift or whatever you’d like :)

Seriously. No catch.

Click HERE to fill out your info once you’ve preordered. And, if you’re having any trouble with that form, you can email your receipt and info to chasinggodbook@gmail.com and we’ll take care of the rest. :)  

Thank you for allowing me the privilege of this space to share my heart-and know that not a second of it is taken for granted. It’s been quite a journey this past year or so, and what has sustained me is the thought that it might be a beacon for y’all.

I pray it is:)

 

 

 

 

 


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  • ParchmentMommy

    What a blessing you are!

  • Andrea Worley

    So exciting! Congrats, can’t wait to read it.

  • Renda

    Thank you Angie !

  • Whitney C

    Is it possible to add a link to where we can pre-order it? Chasing God sounds amazing.

    • Amanda

      I agree! I’m trying to figure out HOW and WHERE to pre-order….

      • Jana

        Amanda and Whitney C – hi! I’m with Angie’s publisher – you can pre-order from any online retailer. Then once you’ve pre-ordered, come back to http://chasinggodgiveaway.com to enter your information and upload your receipt.

  • Katy

    Love you! Thank you! Just preordered on Thursday. :)

  • becca

    I pre ordered…I’m so excited to get my hands on the book!!! I filled out the free copy link and hit submit, then nothing happened. Should I get a confirmation screen or something?

    • Jennifer

      Hello! I’m with Angie’s publisher- if you will email your receipt and book choice to chasinggodbook@gmail.com we will double check to make sure you receive it. Thank you so very much!

  • Mara

    Didn’t get any sort of confirmation of submission. Got a screen that said “duplicate key” or something liek that! What can I do to ensure I get my free copy?

    • Inshockmom

      I also got this error! Any help???

      • Jennifer

        Hello! I’m with Angie’s publisher- if you will email your receipt and book choice to chasinggodbook@gmail.com we will double check to make sure you receive it. Thank you so much!

  • Mavis

    Just ordered it…..love you and how you write….you are a blessing………..

  • Bethany

    Can’t wait to read it since it sounds like it might just be what this doubting soul needs to hear from another searcher. I just pre-ordered and attempted the giveaway site, but when I submit it (after attaching my receipt and all), the next screen says “Duplicate entry ’0′ for key ‘PRIMARY’” Anyone else seeing that too? Thus, I’m not sure whether I’ve been successful in entering the giveaway. :)

    • becca

      That’s the same comment I received too! :(

      • Bethany

        Ahh, well, at least it’s not just me! :)

    • becca

      That’s the same reply I received. :(

    • Roxanne

      I got the same response!

      • Jennifer

        Hello! I’m with Angie’s publisher- if you will email your receipt and book choice to chasinggodbook@gmail.com we will double check to make sure you receive it. Thank you!!!!

    • krisispringer

      FROM FACEBOOK:
      Angie Smith If you have any problems submitting the form (there seems to be a glitch for some of you), just email your info to chasinggodbook@gmail.com and it will be entered!!!!

      • Bethany

        Thanks so much for sharing this!! Apparently it hasn’t showed up on my newsfeed yet. :)

  • Barb Moyer

    I also got a screen with the duplicate entry 0 for key PRIMARY. What should we do???

    • krisispringer

      On Angie’s Facebook post:

      Angie Smith If you have any problems submitting the form (there seems to be a glitch for some of you), just email your info to chasinggodbook@gmail.com and it will be entered!!!!

  • Rachelle H

    so crazy. Just 8 minutes ago I was looking up your books at Barnes and Noble, because I am making a Christmas list and saw this was a new one and thought “I hadn’t heard about this one. . .” then I go take care of my toddler who has gotten up, come back to check in on your blog, and there it is ;) can’t wait to read His revelation in your life.

    • Rachelle H

      same message as above “Duplicate entry ’0′ for key ‘PRIMARY’
      just saw Facebook message below. . .

      • Jennifer

        Hello! I’m with Angie’s publisher- if you will email your receipt and book choice to chasinggodbook@gmail.com we will double check to make sure you receive it. Thank you!!!

  • krisispringer

    Angie Cakes, it doesn’t look like my order for the BONUS BOOK went through. When I clicked SUBMIT, I got the error that Duplicate entry ’0′ for key ‘PRIMARY’

    Super excited about this!! Thank you for the bonus book. I love sharing your work, especially when I don’t have to loan mine out! ;)

    God bless you!!

    • Jennifer

      Hello! I’m with Angie’s publisher. We’re so sorry for the trouble! If you will email your receipt, book you prefer, and address to chasinggodbook@gmail.com we will take care of it!!!!

  • Melissa Fisher

    I preordered and submitted for the giveaway and received the same “error” message. We had to enter our email address, so perhaps a confirmation will be emailed? Not sure, but sounds like I’m not the only one. Excited for this book!

    • Jennifer

      Hello! I’m with Angie’s publisher- if you will email your receipt and book choice to chasinggodbook@gmail.com we will double check to make sure you receive it. Thank you!

  • Jenny Pick

    Will we receive email confirmation that the request for the free book went through? I couldn’t upload the receipt via my desktop, but then from my iPhone it said duplicate entry? Not sure how to tell if it submitted correctly

    • Jennifer

      Hello! I’m with Angie’s publisher- if you will email your receipt and book choice to chasinggodbook@gmail.com we will double check to make sure you receive it. Thank you!

  • http://3dlessons4life.wordpress.com/ Lyli Dunbar

    Yeah! Can’t wait to read it. :)

  • Heather Ledeboer

    Love it! I am so proud of the work God is continuing to do in your life Angie. Thank you for being open to being used!

  • http://hikingtowardhome.com/ Sharon@HikingTowardHome

    Looking forward to reading it!

  • http://www.ournestingplace.com/ Miranda

    I am so excited to read your new book! I really loved this post :) You are such a blessing to so many!

  • Guest

    Oh, I am so excited to read this book! I can so relate with the “chasing” not “following” example! Looking forward to reading it! Blessings to you!

  • Lisa LaMachia Roeseler

    I am so happy and excited about this book!! I pre-ordered it right away!! Can’t wait to read it!! Thank you, Angie, for being such an inspiration!

  • Amy Faine

    I pre-ordered the book & attached my receipt to receive What Women Fear.
    I received the error “Duplicate entry ’0′ for key ‘PRIMARY’
    Could someone please contact me to help resolve? Thank you!!!
    amyfaine@gmail.com

    • Jana

      Amy, hi, I’m with Angie’s publisher. If you will send an email to chasinggodbook@gmail.com with your information, we will make sure you are taken care of!

  • Jeri-Marie DeWitt

    The form is not working for me.?

    • Jennifer

      Hello! I’m with Angie’s publisher. We’re so sorry for the trouble! If you will email your receipt, book you prefer, and address to chasinggodbook@gmail.com we will take care of it!

  • Amanda

    Hi all! I pre-ordered my book from amazon.com, for like $13. I exported my receipt to a pdf file, and then emailed: chasinggodbook@gmail.com and attached a copy of the receipt with my home address and the book I selected. Hope that helps! :)

    • amanda

      I already received a reply from my email – within minutes, so they’re obviously on top of it!

  • rebeccajo

    CANT WAIT!!! I love all your works… from books, to blogs to speaking… you are being used for HIS glory :)

  • Mally

    I just received this book free at the Lifeway WomensForum in Nashville! I am only on chapter 4 and it is like she is writing about my very life. She was right Angie…”you my dear were born to be a writer”.

  • Elizabeth Adam

    I’m in on the pre-order! Since I saw you & gave you the hug @ WOF in Hartford, I’ve thought of you often. I want to know you more. I’m so touched by what you wrote above. Really looking forward to the book. I administrate a large women’s ministry & when we offered What Women Fear, I had no idea of the woman behind the book. Thank you for sharing & love to you from your petite sister in Christ in Sandy Hook, CT ; ).

  • Victoria

    Done, done, and done. I am so excited to read this book! I often find myself in the position of chasing God instead of just stopping to realize he’s been with me the whole time. Thank you, Angie, for being so transparent in your journey and willing to share for a greater purpose. God bless you. <3

  • Claudia Dalton

    I am super excited about this!!

    Thank You!! Thank You!! Thank You!!

    I’ve pre-order and chose my freebie … This is awesome.

    Thanks for following God’s lead and writing these amazing books

  • Coby

    I can’t wait to read it! Based on what you wrote above, I have a feeling that it will be one of those books where I say, “She’s reading my mail!” :-)

    Love in Christ!

  • Lisa Fischer

    Ummm… yes, please. ;) Thank you!!! Keep calm and write on!

  • Shelma

    How do I preorder this book??

  • Krista

    Pre-order from where? Can you pre-order in ebook.format or just a hard copy?

    • Jennifer

      Hello, I’m with Angie’s publisher. You can preorder from Barnes and Noble, for instance, and it needs to be the print version. Thank you!

  • http://beandkeepbeing.blogspot.com/ Jenny Barker

    “Stop chasing me”… Wow. I love that. Yes, how easy it is to chase God instead of just following him or even just walking beside him. Congratulations on another book and a hardcover at that! (smile) I look forward to hearing your heart on its pages. Blessings…

  • Ashley Fields

    I wish I could pre-order it but right now, finances are tight. :( Thank you, Angie, for your beautiful, heartfelt writing! Your book “Mended” is what inspired me to think that I really can be a writer myself!

  • Christy Brizendine

    I just pre-ordered the book but when I tried to enter the giveaway it wouldn’t work. The picture of the receipt wouldn’t attatch. What do I do? How can I enter?

    • Jana

      Christy, hi, I’m with Angie’s publisher. If you email a copy of your receipt to chasinggodbook@gmail.com and let us know your information and which free book you would like, we’ll get you taken care of. Thanks!

  • DARA GATES

    I wish this would be though Amazon Kindle, too. My eyesight will not allow me to read books.

  • Amanda

    Just pre-ordered on amazon! And emailed the receipt but haven’t heard anything…

  • malformica

    Is this giveaway still going on? I just saw this post today and wanted to get in on it if at all possible. Thanks!

  • Alyssa

    I hope this is still going on! I pre-ordered and can’t wait to get it & the free book! I’ve already read What Women Fear and I loved it so much I gave it to my aunt. I’ve been wanting my own copy again so this is perfect! You are such a wonderful writer and I love every book of yours! Happy holidays to you & your family!

  • Marianne

    I preordered in November submitted the form and sent a copy to Chasing God email , I haven’t heard anything since. Will you be notifying people when then free book will be shipped and how can I confirm that you received it?

    • Samantha

      I was wondering the same thing. Haven’t heard anything nor have I received it. I too sent an email to the Chasing God email (only got an auto response) and just sent one today to Angie’s email above. Marianne, have you gotten any type of response or received your book?

      • http://www.ournestingplace.com/ Miranda

        I received the Chasing God book, but not the 2nd book – I just saw this thread – I wanted to see how you received yours :) I was so excited to receive both!

    • Samantha

      Hey Marianne! Just heard back from both Angie and her editor, Jennifer. The books were sent out this past Monday so each person should get them any day if they haven’t yet. Just wanted to pass that along to you :)

  • Kathy Draper Thompson

    I am reading “What Women Fear”.So many of the topics apply to me. I became a Christian May 8th,1983. I am not going to pretend that I have always stayed close to God. For a while he was on the “back burner” of my life. I am a all term people pleasure, usually trying to impress others and hopefully their friendship. Eventually I began to spend money like crazy…Not only to impress others. but to purchase items that I didn’t need. Example….I wanted to cook like those on Food Network so I went out and bought everything that a perfect kitchen. I wanted to make cards, so I bought everything I needed to make beautiful cards…You get the idea…things get worse.. When my husband found out that I was writing bad checks (he tried to get our lawnmower out of the shop and they wouldn’t take the check he called me…I had been “found out”. That was the straw that broke my back. I went home, and overdosed on my sleeping meds, and washed it down with a half bottle of wine. It was not planned, I just did it. I came so very close to dying…My husband was told to get my living will. My brain went without oxygen that they said that if I woke up I would be a vegetable,or remain in a coma. After 42 hours I woke up and wrote on a wipe off board that I was thirsty. I was on a ventilator so that wasn’t going to happen. I was in ICU 3 days, and 5days in a private room under constant watch. I then came down with Phneumonia. After about 5days a very nice polices officer put me in his car and transported me to a psychiatric facility. So many things happened that was only a God Thing..My story has a lot more that I have not written because of the space. The story isn’t over.It’s been 5 years since that dark time in my life. Every August 17 my husband go out to eat to celebrate God’s grace, mercy,and love. He is working through my life to share my life then and now. I speak to women’s groups to help them to understand depression and that it is an illness and can be controlled with the help of medication, support groups ,friends, and counselors. But most importantly, let God take control…My mess became my message and allows me to share my experience and in some small way, and maybe just maybe, I will touch someone. Let them know that they are not alone in this journey…

  • Kathy Draper Thompson

    My diagnosis was “By- Polar, Clinical Depressed,OCD,and ADD.I have been on medication 5 yrs. and will be the rest of my life. I do want to express the importance of taking the medication daily. Many stop because they feel better and don’t need it anymore. NO NO NO…If medication is stopped, the symptoms will return. For myself I will never stop taking it,because I never want to go through that again. The very thought scares me to death. Oh, when I share my testimony I do spend time on the past because that is the very reason I share,but,and most importantly, I speak about my future. If I help one person then this journey that I am on will be worth it.
    God was in control, He is in control, and he will be in control…and aren’t you glad…

  • Casey Springer

    This book has been on my Amazon preorder for a long time! I’ve looked forward to this one from your earliest discussions about it. I can’t imagine writing your heart and displaying for all the world to see. I’m sure that is difficult–BUT GOD. When God carried the message how can it be wrong. I’m blessed by your ministry and excited for what this new HARDBACK book will teach me. I see the pitcher I shattered and reglued every time I do laundry from Mended and it is a constant reminder of so many things.
    signed,
    Not a stalker! Just a fellow sister in Christ!
    XOXO
    Casey

  • Susan

    I’m reading this right now, and I keep finding sentences that just smack me in the face. My favorite message (and if I take nothing else from the book, I’ll be changed forever anyway) “I was able to accept my behavior defending it with what I thought of myself. More than that, I sought to maintain this image I had by wallowing in the ugliness instead of asking the Lord to help make Godly choices.”
    This hit me so hard. It spoke right to the heart of my depression. I’ve fought and fought, taken pills, researched methods to fight it, cut myself, and so many other things that I won’t talk about. But each time I go through a wave of depression, I think “this is silly, I need to just stop thinking about this and think about good stuff.” But it’s so easy to dwell on the ugly and wallow in it – each lie feeding the next and the next and the next. Before I know it, I’m at the bottom of the well and content to stay there for awhile. I don’t know why it’s so hard to cry out for God when I feel that way, I think that even when I cry out, I don’t want Him to help me. I want to feel ugly and fat and unloved and I want to deny the love that surrounds me.
    I read that Friday and by Sunday I was back into the dark. There is no reason for the thoughts in my head and even though I want them to go away, I also cling to them.
    I attended the first church service I have been to in months (I go to church every week, but seldom get the chance to actually sit in a service) I was so depressed and trying to hide it – I was also trying to hold on to it – I didn’t want anyone to know and I wanted everyone to leave me alone. God had other plans, I ran into a friend that asked me to sit with her family, I saw another friend that I hadn’t seen in a while and was invited to sit with her family, then my nephew saw me and came to sit with me, and then, yet another friend caught my attention. Even after all of that – all of those obvious signs that I am loved and wanted and needed – I wanted my darkness. Then I heard it – God’s whisper. I love you. That was it. No warnings or questions or condemnation for my being so ugly in the midst of his children. simply I love you. And let me tell you – I clung to that like my life depended on it!

  • Susan

    I’m reading this right now, and I keep finding sentences that just smack me in the face. My favorite message (and if I take nothing else from the book, I’ll be changed forever anyway) “I was able to accept my behavior defending it with what I thought of myself. More than that, I sought to maintain this image I had by wallowing in the ugliness instead of asking the Lord to help make Godly choices.”
    This hit me so hard. It spoke right to the heart of my depression. I’ve fought and fought, taken pills, researched methods to fight it, cut myself, and so many other things that I won’t talk about. But each time I go through a wave of depression, I think “this is silly, I need to just stop thinking about this and think about good stuff.” But it’s so easy to dwell on the ugly and wallow in it – each lie feeding the next and the next and the next. Before I know it, I’m at the bottom of the well and content to stay there for awhile. I don’t know why it’s so hard to cry out for God when I feel that way, I think that even when I cry out, I don’t want Him to help me. I want to feel ugly and fat and unloved and I want to deny the love that surrounds me.
    I read that Friday and by Sunday I was back into the dark. There is no reason for the thoughts in my head and even though I want them to go away, I also cling to them.
    I attended the first church service I have been to in months (I go to church every week, but seldom get the chance to actually sit in a service) I was so depressed and trying to hide it – I was also trying to hold on to it – I didn’t want anyone to know and I wanted everyone to leave me alone. God had other plans, I ran into a friend that asked me to sit with her family, I saw another friend that I hadn’t seen in a while and was invited to sit with her family, then my nephew saw me and came to sit with me, and then, yet another friend caught my attention. Even after all of that – all of those obvious signs that I am loved and wanted and needed – I wanted my darkness. Then I heard it – God’s whisper. I love you. That was it. No warnings or questions or condemnation for my being so ugly in the midst of his children. simply I love you. And let me tell you – I clung to that like my life depended on it!

  • http://wearegospelgirls.com/ Kim Fernando

    I’m not able to read often, but I just stopped by and read about this book. Wow. You are speaking to my heart and to what God is speaking to me. Thank you for being brave enough to write it.

  • melissa3peas

    Hi there! I was just curious to know if the free book comes later? I sent in my confirmation and everything. I haven’t wanted to complain about it…I would be fine purchasing it as well but I thought I would double check before I did that. Happy New Year :)

    • Kristy

      I was wondering that too, preordered last month, received the new book from Amazon today – but not sure how or when I will get the free book. I can’t wait to dive in to “Chasing God”!

  • 4lifeandfreedom

    Most of us have been “Chasing God” instead of letting Him be known to us. “Be still and know that I am God.”